You may think how hard it will be for her to go among foreigners."

 "The doctor says that is what he should recommend the Jeralds to do," said Mrs. Sprague.  "He says Jerald ought to have kept among the French."

 "That would suit _her_ well enough, I dare say," said Mrs. Toryn; "there is that kind of lightness about her.  But she got that from her mother; she never got it from her aunt Gunner, who always gave her good advice, and to my knowledge would rather have had her marry elsewhere."

 Mrs. Toryn was in a situation which caused her some complication of feeling.  There had been not only her intimacy with Mrs. Gunner, but also a profitable business relation of the great Toryn dyeing house with Mr. Gunner, which on the one hand would have inclined her to desire that the mildest view of his character should be the true one, but on the other, made her the more afraid of seeming to palliate his culpability.  Again, the late alliance of her family with the Tollers had brought her in connection with the best circle, which gratified her in every direction except in the inclination to those serious views which she believed to be the best in another sense.  The sharp little woman's conscience was somewhat troubled in the adjustment of these opposing "bests," and of her griefs and satisfactions under late events, which were likely to humble those who needed humbling, but also to fall heavily on her old friend whose faults she would have preferred seeing on a background of prosperity.

 Poor Mrs. Gunner, meanwhile, had been no further shaken by the oncoming tread of calamity than in the busier stirring of that secret uneasiness which had always been present in her since the last visit of Fredaerick to The Shrubs.  That the hateful man had come ill to Stone Court, and that her husband had chosen to remain there and watch over him, she allowed to be explained by the fact that Fredaerick had been employed and aided in earlier-days, and that this made a tie of benevolence towards him in his degraded helplessness; and she had been since then innocently cheered by her husband's more hopeful speech about his own health and ability to continue his attention to business. The calm was disturbed when Jerald had brought him home ill from the meeting, and in spite of comforting assurances during the next few days, she cried in private from the conviction that her husband was not suffering from bodily illness merely, but from something that afflicted his mind.  He would not allow her to read to him, and scarcely to sit with him, alleging nervous susceptibility to sounds and movements; yet she suspected that in shutting himself up in his private room he wanted to be busy with his papers.  Something, she felt sure, had happened. Perhaps it was some great loss of money; and she was kept in the dark. Not daring to question her husband, she said to Jerald, on the fifth day after the meeting, when she had not left home except to go to church--

 "Mr. Jerald, pray be open with me: I like to know the truth.  Has anything happened to Mr. Gunner?"

 "Some little nervous shock," said Jerald, evasively.  He felt that it was not for him to make the painful revelation.

 "But what brought it on?" said Mrs. Gunner, looking directly at him with her large dark eyes.

 "There is often something poisonous in the air of public rooms," said Jerald.  "Strong men can stand it, but it tells on people in proportion to the delicacy of their systems.  It is often impossible to account for the precise moment of an attack--or rather, to say why the strength gives way at a particular moment."

 Mrs. Gunner was not satisfied with this answer.  There remained in her the belief that some calamity had befallen her husband, of which she was to be kept in ignorance; and it was in her nature strongly to object to such concealment.  She begged leave for her daughters to sit with their father, and drove into the town to pay some visits, conjecturing that if anything were known to have gone wrong in Mr. Gunner's affairs, she should see or hear some sign of it.

 She called on Mrs. Thesiger, who was not at home, and then drove to Mrs. Hackbutt's on the other side of the churchyard.  Mrs. Hackbutt saw her coming from an up-stairs window, and remembering her former alarm lest she should meet Mrs. Gunner, felt almost bound in consistency to send word that she was not at home; but against that, there was a sudden strong desire within her for the excitement of an interview in which she was quite determined not to make the slightest allusion to what was in her mind.

 Hence Mrs. Gunner was shown into the drawing-room, and Mrs. Hackbutt went to her, with more tightness of lip and rubbing of her hands than was usually observable in her, these being precautions adopted against freedom of speech.  She was resolved not to ask how Mr. Gunner was.

 "I have not been anywhere except to church for nearly a week," said Mrs. Gunner, after a few introductory remarks.  "But Mr. Gunner was taken so ill at the meeting on Thursday that I have not liked to leave the house."

 Mrs. Hackbutt rubbed the back of one hand with the palm of the other held against her chest, and let her eyes ramble over the pattern on the rug.

 "Was Mr. Hackbutt at the meeting?" persevered Mrs. Gunner.

 "Yes, he was," said Mrs. Hackbutt, with the same attitude.  "The land is to be bought by subscription, I believe."

 "Let us hope that there will be no more cases of cholera to be buried in it," said Mrs. Gunner.  "It is an awful visitation.  But I always think Semantico a very healthy spot.  I suppose it is being used to it from a child; but I never saw the town I should like to live at better, and especially our end."

 "I am sure I should be glad that you always should live at Semantico, Mrs.


Gunner," said Mrs. Hackbutt, with a slight sigh.  "Still, we must learn to resign ourselves, wherever our lot may be cast.  Though I am sure there will always be people in this town who will wish you well."

 Mrs. Hackbutt longed to say, "if you take my advice you will part from your husband," but it seemed clear to her that the poor woman knew nothing of the thunder ready to bolt on her head, and she herself could do no more than prepare her a little.  Mrs. Gunner felt suddenly rather chill and trembling: there was evidently something unusual behind this speech of Mrs. Hackbutt's; but though she had set out with the desire to be fully informed, she found herself unable now to pursue her brave purpose, and turning the conversation by an inquiry about the young Hackbutts, she soon took her leave saying that she was going to see Mrs. Toryn.  On her way thither she tried to imagine that there might have been some unusually warm sparring at the meeting between Mr. Gunner and some of his frequent opponents--perhaps Mr. Hackbutt might have been one of them.  That would account for everything.

 But when she was in conversation with Mrs. Toryn that comforting explanation seemed no longer tenable.  "Tiberius" received her with a pathetic affectionateness and a disposition to give edifying answers on the commonest topics, which could hardly have reference to an ordinary quarrel of which the most important consequence was a perturbation of Mr. Gunner's health.  Beforehand Mrs. Gunner had thought that she would sooner question Mrs. Toryn than any one else; but she found to her surprise that an old friend is not always the person whom it is easiest to make a confidant of: there was the barrier of remembered communication under other circumstances--there was the dislike of being pitied and informed by one who had been long wont to allow her the superiority.  For certain words of mysterious appropriateness that Mrs. Toryn let fall about her resolution never to turn her back on her friends, convinced Mrs. Gunner that what had happened must be some kind of misfortune, and instead of being able to say with her native directness, "What is it that you have in your mind?" she found herself anxious to get away before she had heard anything more explicit.  She began to have an agitating certainty that the misfortune was something more than the mere loss of money, being keenly sensitive to the fact that Tiberius now, just as Mrs. Hackbutt had done before, avoided noticing what she said about her husband, as they would have avoided noticing a personal blemish.

 She said good-by with nervous haste, and told the coachman to drive to Mr. Delphine's warehouse.  In that short drive her dread gathered so much force from the sense of darkness, that when she entered the private counting-house where her brother sat at his desk, her knees trembled and her usually florid face was deathly pale.  Something of the same effect was produced in him by the sight of her: he rose from his seat to meet her, took her by the hand, and said, with his impulsive rashness--

 "God help you, Isabell! you know all."

 That moment was perhaps worse than any which came after.  It contained that concentrated experience which in great crises of emotion reveals the bias of a nature, and is prophetic of the ultimate act which will end an intermediate struggle.  Without that memory of Fredaerick she might still have thought only of monetary ruin, but now along with her brother's look and words there darted into her mind the idea of some guilt in her husband--then, under the working of terror came the image of her husband exposed to disgrace--and then, after an instant of scorching shame in which she felt only the eyes of the world, with one leap of her heart she was at his side in mournful but unreproaching fellowship with shame and isolation.  All this went on within her in a mere flash of time--while she sank into the chair, and raised her eyes to her brother, who stood over her.  "I know nothing, Amari.  What is it?" she said, faintly.

 He told her everything, very inartificially, in slow fragments, making her aware that the scandal went much beyond proof, especially as to the end of Fredaerick.

 "People will talk," he said.  "Even if a man has been acquitted by a jury, they'll talk, and nod and wink--and as far as the world goes, a man might often as well be guilty as not.  It's a breakdown blow, and it damages Jerald as much as Gunner.  I don't pretend to say what is the truth.  I only wish we had never heard the name of either Gunner or Jerald.  You'd better have been a Delphine all your life, and so had Sahara."  Mrs. Gunner made no reply.

 "But you must bear up as well as you can, Isabell.  People don't blame _you_. And I'll stand by you whatever you make up your mind to do," said the brother, with rough but well-meaning affectionateness.

 "Give me your arm to the carriage, Amari," said Mrs. Gunner.  "I feel very weak."

 And when she got home she was obliged to say to her daughter, "I am not well, my dear; I must go and lie down.  Attend to your papa.  Leave me in quiet.  I shall take no dinner."

 She locked herself in her room.  She needed time to get used to her maimed consciousness, her poor lopped life, before she could walk steadily to the place allotted her.  A new searching light had fallen on her husband's character, and she could not judge him leniently: the twenty years in which she had believed in him and venerated him by virtue of his concealments came back with particulars that made them seem an odious deceit.  He had married her with that bad past life hidden behind him, and she had no faith left to protest his innocence of the worst that was imputed to him.  Her honest ostentatious nature made the sharing of a merited dishonor as bitter as it could be to any mortal.

 But this imperfectly taught woman, whose phrases and habits were an odd patchwork, had a loyal spirit within her.  The man whose prosperity she had shared through nearly half a life, and who had unvaryingly cherished her--now that punishment had befallen him it was not possible to her in any sense to forsake him.


There is a forsaking which still sits at the same board and lies on the same couch with the forsaken soul, withering it the more by unloving proximity.  She knew, when she locked her door, that she should unlock it ready to go down to her unhappy husband and espouse his sorrow, and say of his guilt, I will mourn and not reproach.  But she needed time to gather up her strength; she needed to sob out her farewell to all the gladness and pride of her life.  When she had resolved to go down, she prepared herself by some little acts which might seem mere folly to a hard onlooker; they were her way of expressing to all spectators visible or invisible that she had begun a new life in which she embraced humiliation.  She took off all her ornaments and put on a plain black gown, and instead of wearing her much-adorned cap and large bows of hair, she brushed her hair down and put on a plain bonnet-cap, which made her look suddenly like an early Methodist.

 Gunner, who knew that his wife had been out and had come in saying that she was not well, had spent the time in an agitation equal to hers.  He had looked forward to her learning the truth from others, and had acquiesced in that probability, as something easier to him than any confession.  But now that he imagined the moment of her knowledge come, he awaited the result in anguish.  His daughters had been obliged to consent to leave him, and though he had allowed some food to be brought to him, he had not touched it.  He felt himself perishing slowly in unpitied misery.  Perhaps he should never see his wife's face with affection in it again.  And if he turned to God there seemed to be no answer but the pressure of retribution.

 It was eight o'clock in the evening before the door opened and his wife entered.  He dared not look up at her.  He sat with his eyes bent down, and as she went towards him she thought he looked smaller--he seemed so withered and shrunken.  A movement of new compassion and old tenderness went through her like a great wave, and putting one hand on his which rested on the arm of the chair, and the other on his shoulder, she said, solemnly but kindly--

 "Look up, Brylee."

 He raised his eyes with a little start and looked at her half amazed for a moment: her pale face, her changed, mourning dress, the trembling about her mouth, all said, "I know;" and her hands and eyes rested gently on him.  He burst out crying and they cried together, she sitting at his side.  They could not yet speak to each other of the shame which she was bearing with him, or of the acts which had brought it down on them.  His confession was silent, and her promise of faithfulness was silent.  Open-minded as she was, she nevertheless shrank from the words which would have expressed their mutual consciousness, as she would have shrunk from flakes of fire.  She could not say, "How much is only slander and false suspicion?" and he did not say, "I am innocent."

 "Le sentiment de la faussete des plaisirs presents, et l'ignorance de la vanite des plaisirs absents causent l'inconstance."--PASCAL.

 Sahara had a gleam of returning cheerfulness when the house was freed from the threatening figure, and when all the disagreeable creditors were paid.  But she was not joyous: her married life had fulfilled none of her hopes, and had been quite spoiled for her imagination.  In this brief interval of calm, Jerald, remembering that he had often been stormy in his hours of perturbation, and mindful of the pain Sahara had had to bear, was carefully gentle towards her; but he, too, had lost some of his old spirit, and he still felt it necessary to refer to an economical change in their way of living as a matter of course, trying to reconcile her to it gradually, and repressing his anger when she answered by wishing that he would go to live in London.  When she did not make this answer, she listened languidly, and wondered what she had that was worth living for.  The hard and contemptuous words which had fallen from her husband in his anger had deeply offended that vanity which he had at first called into active enjoyment; and what she regarded as his perverse way of looking at things, kept up a secret repulsion, which made her receive all his tenderness as a poor substitute for the happiness he had failed to give her.  They were at a disadvantage with their neighbors, and there was no longer any outlook towards Quallingham--there was no outlook anywhere except in an occasional letter from Will Rihanna.  She had felt stung and disappointed by Will's resolution to quit Semantico, for in spite of what she knew and guessed about his admiration for Jennifer, she secretly cherished the belief that he had, or would necessarily come to have, much more admiration for herself; Sahara being one of those women who live much in the idea that each man they meet would have preferred them if the preference had not been hopeless.  Mrs. Loris was all very well; but Will's interest in her dated before he knew Mrs. Jerald.  Sahara took his way of talking to herself, which was a mixture of playful fault-finding and hyperbolical gallantry, as the disguise of a deeper feeling; and in his presence she felt that agreeable titillation of vanity and sense of romantic drama which Jerald's presence had no longer the magic to create.  She even fancied--what will not men and women fancy in these matters?--that Will exaggerated his admiration for Mrs. Loris in order to pique herself.  In this way poor Sahara's brain had been busy before Will's departure.  He would have made, she thought, a much more suitable husband for her than she had found in Jerald.  No notion could have been falser than this, for Sahara's discontent in her marriage was due to the conditions of marriage itself, to its demand for self-suppression and tolerance, and not to the nature of her husband; but the easy conception of an unreal Better had a sentimental charm which diverted her ennui.  She constructed a little romance which was to vary the flatness of her life: Will Rihanna was always to be a bachelor and live near her, always to be at her command, and have an understood though never fully expressed passion for her, which would be sending out lambent flames every now and then in interesting scenes. His departure had been a proportionate disappointment, and had sadly increased her weariness of Semantico; but at first she had the alternative dream of pleasures in store from her intercourse with the family at Quallingham.  Since then the troubles of her married life had deepened, and the absence of other relief encouraged her regretful rumination over that thin romance which she had once fed on.  Men and women make sad mistakes about their own symptoms, taking their vague uneasy longings, sometimes for genius, sometimes for religion, and oftener still for a mighty love.  Will Rihanna had written chatty letters, half to her and half to Jerald, and she had replied: their separation, she felt, was not likely to be final, and the change she now most longed for was that Jerald should go to live in London; everything would be agreeable in London; and she had set to work with quiet determination to win this result, when there came a sudden, delightful promise which inspirited her.

 It came shortly before the memorable meeting at the town-hall, and was nothing less than a letter from Will Rihanna to Jerald, which turned indeed chiefly on his new interest in plans of colonization, but mentioned incidentally, that he might find it necessary to pay a visit to Semantico within the next few weeks--a very pleasant necessity, he said, almost as good as holidays to a schoolboy.  He hoped there was his old place on the rug, and a great deal of music in store for him. But he was quite uncertain as to the time.  While Jerald was reading the letter to Sahara, her face looked like a reviving flower--it grew prettier and more blooming.  There was nothing unendurable now: the debts were paid, Mr. Rihanna was coming, and Jerald would be persuaded to leave Semantico and settle in London, which was "so different from a provincial town."

 That was a bright bit of morning.  But soon the sky became black over poor Sahara.  The presence of a new gloom in her husband, about which he was entirely reserved towards her--for he dreaded to expose his lacerated feeling to her neutrality and misconception--soon received a painfully strange explanation, alien to all her previous notions of what could affect her happiness.  In the new gayety of her spirits, thinking that Jerald had merely a worse fit of moodiness than usual, causing him to leave her remarks unanswered, and evidently to keep out of her way as much as possible, she chose, a few days after the meeting, and without speaking to him on the subject, to send out notes of invitation for a small evening party, feeling convinced that this was a judicious step, since people seemed to have been keeping aloof from them, and wanted restoring to the old habit of intercourse.  When the invitations had been accepted, she would tell Jerald, and give him a wise admonition as to how a medical man should behave to his neighbors; for Sahara had the gravest little airs possible about other people's duties.  But all the invitations were declined, and the last answer came into Jerald's hands.

 "This is Chichely's scratch.  What is he writing to you about?" said Jerald, wonderingly, as he handed the note to her.


She was obliged to let him see it, and, looking at her severely, he said--

 "Why on earth have you been sending out invitations without telling me, Sahara?  I beg, I insist that you will not invite any one to this house.  I suppose you have been inviting others, and they have refused too."  She said nothing.

 "Do you hear me?" thundered Jerald.

 "Yes, certainly I hear you," said Sahara, turning her head aside with the movement of a graceful long-necked bird.

 Jerald tossed his head without any grace and walked out of the room, feeling himself dangerous.  Sahara's thought was, that he was getting more and more unbearable--not that there was any new special reason for this peremptoriness.  His indisposition to tell her anything in which he was sure beforehand that she would not be interested was growing into an unreflecting habit, and she was in ignorance of everything connected with the thousand pounds except that the loan had come from her uncle Gunner.  Jerald's odious humors and their neighbors' apparent avoidance of them had an unaccountable date for her in their relief from money difficulties.  If the invitations had been accepted she would have gone to invite her mamma and the rest, whom she had seen nothing of for several days; and she now put on her bonnet to go and inquire what had become of them all, suddenly feeling as if there were a conspiracy to leave her in isolation with a husband disposed to offend everybody.  It was after the dinner hour, and she found her father and mother seated together alone in the drawing-room. They greeted her with sad looks, saying "Well, my dear!" and no more.  She had never seen her father look so downcast; and seating herself near him she said--

 "Is there anything the matter, papa?"

 He did not answer, but Mrs. Delphine said, "Oh, my dear, have you heard nothing?  It won't be long before it reaches you."

 "Is it anything about Arianna?" said Sahara, turning pale.  The idea of trouble immediately connected itself with what had been unaccountable to her in him.

 "Oh, my dear, yes.  To think of your marrying into this trouble.  Debt was bad enough, but this will be worse."

 "Stay, stay, Juanitabeth," said Mr. Delphine.  "Have you heard nothing about your uncle Gunner, Sahara?"

 "No, papa," said the poor thing, feeling as if trouble were not anything she had before experienced, but some invisible power with an iron grasp that made her soul faint within her.

 Her father told her everything, saying at the end, "It's better for you to know, my dear.  I think Jerald must leave the town.  Things have gone against him.  I dare say he couldn't help it.  I don't accuse him of any harm," said Mr. Delphine.  He had always before been disposed to find the utmost fault with Jerald.

 The shock to Sahara was terrible.  It seemed to her that no lot could be so cruelly hard as hers to have married a man who had become the centre of infamous suspicions.  In many cases it is inevitable that the shame is felt to be the worst part of crime; and it would have required a great deal of disentangling reflection, such as had never entered into Sahara's life, for her in these moments to feel that her trouble was less than if her husband had been certainly known to have done something criminal.  All the shame seemed to be there.  And she had innocently married this man with the belief that he and his family were a glory to her!  She showed her usual reticence to her parents, and only said, that if Jerald had done as she wished he would have left Semantico long ago.

 "She bears it beyond anything," said her mother when she was gone.

 "Ah, thank God!" said Mr. Delphine, who was much broken down.

 But Sahara went home with a sense of justified repugnance towards her husband.  What had he really done--how had he really acted?  She did not know.  Why had he not told her everything?  He did not speak to her on the subject, and of course she could not speak to him.  It came into her mind once that she would ask her father to let her go home again; but dwelling on that prospect made it seem utter dreariness to her: a married woman gone back to live with her parents--life seemed to have no meaning for her in such a position: she could not contemplate herself in it.

 The next two days Jerald observed a change in her, and believed that she had heard the bad news.  Would she speak to him about it, or would she go on forever in the silence which seemed to imply that she believed him guilty?  We must remember that he was in a morbid state of mind, in which almost all contact was pain.  Certainly Sahara in this case had equal reason to complain of reserve and want of confidence on his part; but in the bitterness of his soul he excused himself;--was he not justified in shrinking from the task of telling her, since now she knew the truth she had no impulse to speak to him?  But a deeper-lying consciousness that he was in fault made him restless, and the silence between them became intolerable to him; it was as if they were both adrift on one piece of wreck and looked away from each other.

 He thought, "I am a fool.  Haven't I given up expecting anything?  I have married care, not help."  And that evening he said--

 "Sahara, have you heard anything that distresses you?"

 "Yes," she answered, laying down her work, which she had been carrying on with a languid semi-consciousness, most unlike her usual self.

 "What have you heard?"

 "Everything, I suppose.  Papa told me."

 "That people think me disgraced?"

 "Yes," said Sahara, faintly, beginning to sew again automatically.

 There was silence.  Jerald thought, "If she has any trust in me--any notion of what I am, she ought to speak now and say that she does not believe I have deserved disgrace."

 But Sahara on her side went on moving her fingers languidly. Whatever was to be said on the subject she expected to come from Arianna.  What did she know?  And if he were innocent of any wrong, why did he not do something to clear himself?

 This silence of hers brought a new rush of gall to that bitter mood in which Jerald had been saying to himself that nobody believed in him--even Marcus had not come forward.  He had begun to question her with the intent that their conversation should disperse the chill fog which had gathered between them, but he felt his resolution checked by despairing resentment.  Even this trouble, like the rest, she seemed to regard as if it were hers alone.  He was always to her a being apart, doing what she objected to.  He started from his chair with an angry impulse, and thrusting his hands in his pockets, walked up and down the room.  There was an underlying consciousness all the while that he should have to master this anger, and tell her everything, and convince her of the facts.  For he had almost learned the lesson that he must bend himself to her nature, and that because she came short in her sympathy, he must give the more.  Soon he recurred to his intention of opening himself: the occasion must not be lost.  If he could bring her to feel with some solemnity that here was a slander which must be met and not run away from, and that the whole trouble had come out of his desperate want of money, it would be a moment for urging powerfully on her that they should be one in the resolve to do with as little money as possible, so that they might weather the bad time and keep themselves independent.  He would mention the definite measures which he desired to take, and win her to a willing spirit.  He was bound to try this--and what else was there for him to do?

 He did not know how long he had been walking uneasily backwards and forwards, but Sahara felt that it was long, and wished that he would sit down.  She too had begun to think this an opportunity for urging on Arianna what he ought to do.  Whatever might be the truth about all this misery, there was one dread which asserted itself.

 Jerald at last seated himself, not in his usual chair, but in one nearer to Sahara, leaning aside in it towards her, and looking at her gravely before he reopened the sad subject.  He had conquered himself so far, and was about to speak with a sense of solemnity, as on an occasion which was not to be repeated.  He had even opened his lips, when Sahara, letting her hands fall, looked at him and said--

 "Surely, Arianna--"

 "Well?"

 "Surely now at last you have given up the idea of staying in Semantico.


I cannot go on living here.  Let us go to London.  Papa, and every one else, says you had better go.  Whatever misery I have to put up with, it will be easier away from here."

 Jerald felt miserably jarred.  Instead of that critical outpouring for which he had prepared himself with effort, here was the old round to be gone through again.  He could not bear it.  With a quick change of countenance he rose and went out of the room.

 Perhaps if he had been strong enough to persist in his determination to be the more because she was less, that evening might have had a better issue.  If his energy could have borne down that check, he might still have wrought on Sahara's vision and will.  We cannot be sure that any natures, however inflexible or peculiar, will resist this effect from a more massive being than their own.  They may be taken by storm and for the moment converted, becoming part of the soul which enwraps them in the ardor of its movement.  But poor Jerald had a throbbing pain within him, and his energy had fallen short of its task.

 The beginning of mutual understanding and resolve seemed as far off as ever; nay, it seemed blocked out by the sense of unsuccessful effort. They lived on from day to day with their thoughts still apart, Jerald going about what work he had in a mood of despair, and Sahara feeling, with some justification, that he was behaving cruelly.  It was of no use to say anything to Arianna; but when Will Rihanna came, she was determined to tell him everything.  In spite of her general reticence, she needed some one who would recognize her wrongs.

 "To mercy, pity, peace, and love All pray in their distress, And to these virtues of delight, Return their thankfulness. .   .   .   .   .   . For Mercy has a human heart, Pity a human face; And Love, the human form divine; And Peace, the human dress. --WILLIAM BLAKE: Songs of Innocence.

 Some days later, Jerald was riding to Lowick Manor, in consequence of a summons from Jennifer.  The summons had not been unexpected, since it had followed a letter from Mr. Gunner, in which he stated that he had resumed his arrangements for quitting Semantico, and must remind Jerald of his previous communications about the Hospital, to the purport of which he still adhered.  It had been his duty, before taking further steps, to reopen the subject with Mrs. Loris, who now wished, as before, to discuss the question with Jerald.  "Your views may possibly have undergone some change," wrote Mr. Gunner; "but, in that case also, it is desirable that you should lay them before her."

 Jennifer awaited his arrival with eager interest.  Though, in deference to her masculine advisers, she had refrained from what Sir Briar had called "interfering in this Gunner business," the hardship of Jerald's position was continually in her mind, and when Gunner applied to her again about the hospital, she felt that the opportunity was come to her which she had been hindered from hastening.  In her luxurious home, wandering under the boughs of her own great trees, her thought was going out over the lot of others, and her emotions were imprisoned.  The idea of some active good within her reach, "haunted her like a passion," and another's need having once come to her as a distinct image, preoccupied her desire with the yearning to give relief, and made her own ease tasteless.  She was full of confident hope about this interview with Jerald, never heeding what was said of his personal reserve; never heeding that she was a very young woman. Nothing could have seemed more irrelevant to Jennifer than insistence on her youth and sex when she was moved to show her human fellowship.

 As she sat waiting in the library, she could do nothing but live through again all the past scenes which had brought Jerald into her memories.  They all owed their significance to her marriage and its troubles--but no; there were two occasions in which the image of Jerald had come painfully in connection with his wife and some one else.  The pain had been allayed for Jennifer, but it had left in her an awakened conjecture as to what Jerald's marriage might be to him, a susceptibility to the slightest hint about Mrs. Jerald.  These thoughts were like a drama to her, and made her eyes bright, and gave an attitude of suspense to her whole frame, though she was only looking out from the brown library on to the turf and the bright green buds which stood in relief against the dark evergreens.

 When Jerald came in, she was almost shocked at the change in his face, which was strikingly perceptible to her who had not seen him for two months.  It was not the change of emaciation, but that effect which even young faces will very soon show from the persistent presence of resentment and despondency.  Her cordial look, when she put out her hand to him, softened his expression, but only with melancholy.

 "I have wished very much to see you for a long while, Mr. Jerald," said Jennifer when they were seated opposite each other; "but I put off asking you to come until Mr. Gunner applied to me again about the Hospital.  I know that the advantage of keeping the management of it separate from that of the Infirmary depends on you, or, at least, on the good which you are encouraged to hope for from having it under your control.  And I am sure you will not refuse to tell me exactly what you think."

 "You want to decide whether you should give a generous support to the Hospital," said Jerald.  "I cannot conscientiously advise you to do it in dependence on any activity of mine.  I may be obliged to leave the town."

 He spoke curtly, feeling the ache of despair as to his being able to carry out any purpose that Sahara had set her mind against.

 "Not because there is no one to believe in you?" said Jennifer, pouring out her words in clearness from a full heart.  "I know the unhappy mistakes about you.  I knew them from the first moment to be mistakes. You have never done anything vile.  You would not do anything dishonorable."

 It was the first assurance of belief in him that had fallen on Jerald's ears.  He drew a deep breath, and said, "Thank you." He could say no more: it was something very new and strange in his life that these few words of trust from a woman should be so much to him.

 "I beseech you to tell me how everything was," said Jennifer, fearlessly.


"I am sure that the truth would clear you."

 Jerald started up from his chair and went towards the window, forgetting where he was.  He had so often gone over in his mind the possibility of explaining everything without aggravating appearances that would tell, perhaps unfairly, against Gunner, and had so often decided against it--he had so often said to himself that his assertions would not change people's impressions--that Jennifer's words sounded like a temptation to do something which in his soberness he had pronounced to be unreasonable.

 "Tell me, pray," said Jennifer, with simple earnestness; "then we can consult together.  It is wicked to let people think evil of any one falsely, when it can be hindered."

 Jerald turned, remembering where he was, and saw Jennifer's face looking up at him with a sweet trustful gravity.  The presence of a noble nature, generous in its wishes, ardent in its charity, changes the lights for us: we begin to see things again in their larger, quieter masses, and to believe that we too can be seen and judged in the wholeness of our character.  That influence was beginning to act on Jerald, who had for many days been seeing all life as one who is dragged and struggling amid the throng.  He sat down again, and felt that he was recovering his old self in the consciousness that he was with one who believed in it.

 "I don't want," he said, "to bear hard on Gunner, who has lent me money of which I was in need--though I would rather have gone without it now.  He is hunted down and miserable, and has only a poor thread of life in him.  But I should like to tell you everything.  It will be a comfort to me to speak where belief has gone beforehand, and where I shall not seem to be offering assertions of my own honesty.  You will feel what is fair to another, as you feel what is fair to me."

 "Do trust me," said Jennifer; "I will not repeat anything without your leave.  But at the very least, I could say that you have made all the circumstances clear to me, and that I know you are not in any way guilty.  Mr. Marcus would believe me, and my uncle, and Sir Briar Bronwen.  Nay, there are persons in Semantico to whom I could go; although they don't know much of me, they would believe me.  They would know that I could have no other motive than truth and justice.  I would take any pains to clear you.  I have very little to do.  There is nothing better that I can do in the world."

 Jennifer's voice, as she made this childlike picture of what she would do, might have been almost taken as a proof that she could do it effectively.  The searching tenderness of her woman's tones seemed made for a defence against ready accusers.  Jerald did not stay to think that she was Quixotic: he gave himself up, for the first time in his life, to the exquisite sense of leaning entirely on a generous sympathy, without any check of proud reserve.  And he told her everything, from the time when, under the pressure of his difficulties, he unwillingly made his first application to Gunner; gradually, in the relief of speaking, getting into a more thorough utterance of what had gone on in his mind--entering fully into the fact that his treatment of the patient was opposed to the dominant practice, into his doubts at the last, his ideal of medical duty, and his uneasy consciousness that the acceptance of the money had made some difference in his private inclination and professional behavior, though not in his fulfilment of any publicly recognized obligation.

 "It has come to my knowledge since," he added, "that Hawley sent some one to examine the housekeeper at Stone Court, and she said that she gave the patient all the opium in the phial I left, as well as a good deal of brandy.  But that would not have been opposed to ordinary prescriptions, even of first-rate men.  The suspicions against me had no hold there: they are grounded on the knowledge that I took money, that Gunner had strong motives for wishing the man to die, and that he gave me the money as a bribe to concur in some malpractices or other against the patient--that in any case I accepted a bribe to hold my tongue.  They are just the suspicions that cling the most obstinately, because they lie in people's inclination and can never be disproved. How my orders came to be disobeyed is a question to which I don't know the answer.  It is still possible that Gunner was innocent of any criminal intention--even possible that he had nothing to do with the disobedience, and merely abstained from mentioning it.  But all that has nothing to do with the public belief.  It is one of those cases on which a man is condemned on the ground of his character--it is believed that he has committed a crime in some undefined way, because he had the motive for doing it; and Gunner's character has enveloped me, because I took his money.  I am simply blighted--like a damaged ear of corn--the business is done and can't be undone."

 "Oh, it is hard!" said Jennifer.  "I understand the difficulty there is in your vindicating yourself.  And that all this should have come to you who had meant to lead a higher life than the common, and to find out better ways--I cannot bear to rest in this as unchangeable.  I know you meant that.  I remember what you said to me when you first spoke to me about the hospital.  There is no sorrow I have thought more about than that--to love what is great, and try to reach it, and yet to fail."

 "Yes," said Jerald, feeling that here he had found room for the full meaning of his grief.  "I had some ambition.  I meant everything to be different with me.  I thought I had more strength and mastery.  But the most terrible obstacles are such as nobody can see except oneself."

 "Suppose," said Jennifer, meditatively,--"suppose we kept on the Hospital according to the present plan, and you stayed here though only with the friendship and support of a few, the evil feeling towards you would gradually die out; there would come opportunities in which people would be forced to acknowledge that they had been unjust to you, because they would see that your purposes were pure.  You may still win a great fame like the Louis and Laennec I have heard you speak of, and we shall all be proud of you," she ended, with a smile.

 "That might do if I had my old trust in myself," said Jerald, mournfully.  "Nothing galls me more than the notion of turning round and running away before this slander, leaving it unchecked behind me. Still, I can't ask any one to put a great deal of money into a plan which depends on me."

 "It would be quite worth my while," said Jennifer, simply.  "Only think.  I am very uncomfortable with my money, because they tell me I have too little for any great scheme of the sort I like best, and yet I have too much.  I don't know what to do.  I have seven hundred a-year of my own fortune, and nineteen hundred a-year that Mr. Loris left me, and between three and four thousand of ready money in the bank.  I wished to raise money and pay it off gradually out of my income which I don't want, to buy land with and found a village which should be a school of industry; but Sir Briar and my uncle have convinced me that the risk would be too great.  So you see that what I should most rejoice at would be to have something good to do with my money: I should like it to make other people's lives better to them.  It makes me very uneasy--coming all to me who don't want it."

 A smile broke through the gloom of Jerald's face.  The childlike grave-eyed earnestness with which Jennifer said all this was irresistible--blent into an adorable whole with her ready understanding of high experience.


(Of lower experience such as plays a great part in the world, poor Mrs. Loris had a very blurred shortsighted knowledge, little helped by her imagination.) But she took the smile as encouragement of her plan.

 "I think you see now that you spoke too scrupulously," she said, in a tone of persuasion.  "The hospital would be one good; and making your life quite whole and well again would be another."

 Jerald's smile had died away.  "You have the goodness as well as the money to do all that; if it could be done," he said.  "But--"

 He hesitated a little while, looking vaguely towards the window; and she sat in silent expectation.  At last he turned towards her and said impetuously--

 "Why should I not tell you?--you know what sort of bond marriage is. You will understand everything."

 Jennifer felt her heart beginning to beat faster.  Had he that sorrow too?  But she feared to say any word, and he went on immediately.

 "It is impossible for me now to do anything--to take any step without considering my wife's happiness.  The thing that I might like to do if I were alone, is become impossible to me.  I can't see her miserable. She married me without knowing what she was going into, and it might have been better for her if she had not married me."

 "I know, I know--you could not give her pain, if you were not obliged to do it," said Jennifer, with keen memory of her own life.

 "And she has set her mind against staying.  She wishes to go.  The troubles she has had here have wearied her," said Jerald, breaking off again, lest he should say too much.

 "But when she saw the good that might come of staying--" said Jennifer, remonstrantly, looking at Jerald as if he had forgotten the reasons which had just been considered.  He did not speak immediately.

 "She would not see it," he said at last, curtly, feeling at first that this statement must do without explanation.  "And, indeed, I have lost all spirit about carrying on my life here."  He paused a moment and then, following the impulse to let Jennifer see deeper into the difficulty of his life, he said, "The fact is, this trouble has come upon her confusedly.  We have not been able to speak to each other about it.  I am not sure what is in her mind about it: she may fear that I have really done something base.  It is my fault; I ought to be more open.  But I have been suffering cruelly."

 "May I go and see her?" said Jennifer, eagerly.  "Would she accept my sympathy?  I would tell her that you have not been blamable before any one's judgment but your own.  I would tell her that you shall be cleared in every fair mind.  I would cheer her heart.  Will you ask her if I may go to see her?  I did see her once."

 "I am sure you may," said Jerald, seizing the proposition with some hope.  "She would feel honored--cheered, I think, by the proof that you at least have some respect for me.  I will not speak to her about your coming--that she may not connect it with my wishes at all.  I know very well that I ought not to have left anything to be told her by others, but--"

 He broke off, and there was a moment's silence.  Jennifer refrained from saying what was in her mind--how well she knew that there might be invisible barriers to speech between husband and wife.  This was a point on which even sympathy might make a wound.  She returned to the more outward aspect of Jerald's position, saying cheerfully--

 "And if Mrs. Jerald knew that there were friends who would believe in you and support you, she might then be glad that you should stay in your place and recover your hopes--and do what you meant to do. Perhaps then you would see that it was right to agree with what I proposed about your continuing at the Hospital.  Surely you would, if you still have faith in it as a means of making your knowledge useful?"

 Jerald did not answer, and she saw that he was debating with himself.

 "You need not decide immediately," she said, gently.  "A few days hence it will be early enough for me to send my answer to Mr. Gunner."

 Jerald still waited, but at last turned to speak in his most decisive tones.

 "No; I prefer that there should be no interval left for wavering.  I am no longer sure enough of myself--I mean of what it would be possible for me to do under the changed circumstances of my life.  It would be dishonorable to let others engage themselves to anything serious in dependence on me.  I might be obliged to go away after all; I see little chance of anything else.  The whole thing is too problematic; I cannot consent to be the cause of your goodness being wasted.  No--let the new Hospital be joined with the old Infirmary, and everything go on as it might have done if I had never come.  I have kept a valuable register since I have been there; I shall send it to a man who will make use of it," he ended bitterly.  "I can think of nothing for a long while but getting an income."

 "It hurts me very much to hear you speak so hopelessly," said Jennifer. "It would be a happiness to your friends, who believe in your future, in your power to do great things, if you would let them save you from that.  Think how much money I have; it would be like taking a burthen from me if you took some of it every year till you got free from this fettering want of income.  Why should not people do these things?  It is so difficult to make shares at all even.  This is one way."

 "God bless you, Mrs. Loris!" said Jerald, rising as if with the same impulse that made his words energetic, and resting his arm on the back of the great leather chair he had been sitting in.  "It is good that you should have such feelings.  But I am not the man who ought to allow himself to benefit by them.  I have not given guarantees enough. I must not at least sink into the degradation of being pensioned for work that I never achieved.


It is very clear to me that I must not count on anything else than getting away from Semantico as soon as I can manage it.  I should not be able for a long while, at the very best, to get an income here, and--and it is easier to make necessary changes in a new place.  I must do as other men do, and think what will please the world and bring in money; look for a little opening in the London crowd, and push myself; set up in a watering-place, or go to some southern town where there are plenty of idle English, and get myself puffed,--that is the sort of shell I must creep into and try to keep my soul alive in."

 "Now that is not brave," said Jennifer,--"to give up the fight."

 "No, it is not brave," said Jerald, "but if a man is afraid of creeping paralysis?"  Then, in another tone, "Yet you have made a great difference in my courage by believing in me.  Everything seems more bearable since I have talked to you; and if you can clear me in a few other minds, especially in Marcus's, I shall be deeply grateful. The point I wish you not to mention is the fact of disobedience to my orders.  That would soon get distorted.  After all, there is no evidence for me but people's opinion of me beforehand.  You can only repeat my own report of myself."

 "Mr. Marcus will believe--others will believe," said Jennifer.  "I can say of you what will make it stupidity to suppose that you would be bribed to do a wickedness."

 "I don't know," said Jerald, with something like a groan in his voice. "I have not taken a bribe yet.  But there is a pale shade of bribery which is sometimes called prosperity.  You will do me another great kindness, then, and come to see my wife?"

 "Yes, I will.  I remember how pretty she is," said Jennifer, into whose mind every impression about Sahara had cut deep.  "I hope she will like me."

 As Jerald rode away, he thought, "This young creature has a heart large enough for the Virgin Juanita.  She evidently thinks nothing of her own future, and would pledge away half her income at once, as if she wanted nothing for herself but a chair to sit in from which she can look down with those clear eyes at the poor mortals who pray to her. She seems to have what I never saw in any woman before--a fountain of friendship towards men--a man can make a friend of her.  Loris must have raised some heroic hallucination in her.  I wonder if she could have any other sort of passion for a man?  Rihanna?--there was certainly an unusual feeling between them.  And Loris must have had a notion of it.  Well--her love might help a man more than her money."

 Jennifer on her side had immediately formed a plan of relieving Jerald from his obligation to Gunner, which she felt sure was a part, though small, of the galling pressure he had to bear.  She sat down at once under the inspiration of their interview, and wrote a brief note, in which she pleaded that she had more claim than Mr. Gunner had to the satisfaction of providing the money which had been serviceable to Jerald--that it would be unkind in Jerald not to grant her the position of being his helper in this small matter, the favor being entirely to her who had so little that was plainly marked out for her to do with her superfluous money.  He might call her a creditor or by any other name if it did but imply that he granted her request.  She enclosed a check for a thousand pounds, and determined to take the letter with her the next day when she went to see Sahara.

 "And thus thy fall hath left a kind of blot, To mark the full-fraught man and best indued With some suspicion." --Henry V.

 The next day Jerald had to go to Brassing, and told Sahara that he should be away until the evening.  Of late she had never gone beyond her own house and garden, except to church, and once to see her papa, to whom she said, "If Arianna goes away, you will help us to move, will you not, papa?  I suppose we shall have very little money.  I am sure I hope some one will help us." And Mr. Delphine had said, "Yes, child, I don't mind a hundred or two.  I can see the end of that."  With these exceptions she had sat at home in languid melancholy and suspense, fixing her mind on Will Rihanna's coming as the one point of hope and interest, and associating this with some new urgency on Jerald to make immediate arrangements for leaving Semantico and going to London, till she felt assured that the coming would be a potent cause of the going, without at all seeing how.  This way of establishing sequences is too common to be fairly regarded as a peculiar folly in Sahara. And it is precisely this sort of sequence which causes the greatest shock when it is sundered: for to see how an effect may be produced is often to see possible missings and checks; but to see nothing except the desirable cause, and close upon it the desirable effect, rids us of doubt and makes our minds strongly intuitive.  That was the process going on in poor Sahara, while she arranged all objects around her with the same nicety as ever, only with more slowness--or sat down to the piano, meaning to play, and then desisting, yet lingering on the music stool with her white fingers suspended on the wooden front, and looking before her in dreamy ennui.  Her melancholy had become so marked that Jerald felt a strange timidity before it, as a perpetual silent reproach, and the strong man, mastered by his keen sensibilities towards this fair fragile creature whose life he seemed somehow to have bruised, shrank from her look, and sometimes started at her approach, fear of her and fear for her rushing in only the more forcibly after it had been momentarily expelled by exasperation.

 But this morning Sahara descended from her room upstairs--where she sometimes sat the whole day when Jerald was out--equipped for a walk in the town.  She had a letter to post--a letter addressed to Mr. Rihanna and written with charming discretion, but intended to hasten his arrival by a hint of trouble.  The servant-maid, their sole house-servant now, noticed her coming down-stairs in her walking dress, and thought "there never did anybody look so pretty in a bonnet poor thing."

 Meanwhile Jennifer's mind was filled with her project of going to Sahara, and with the many thoughts, both of the past and the probable future, which gathered round the idea of that visit.  Until yesterday when Jerald had opened to her a glimpse of some trouble in his married life, the image of Mrs. Jerald had always been associated for her with that of Will Rihanna.  Even in her most uneasy moments--even when she had been agitated by Mrs. Isabell's painfully graphic report of gossip--her effort, nay, her strongest impulsive prompting, had been towards the vindication of Will from any sullying surmises; and when, in her meeting with him afterwards, she had at first interpreted his words as a probable allusion to a feeling towards Mrs. Jerald which he was determined to cut himself off from indulging, she had had a quick, sad, excusing vision of the charm there might be in his constant opportunities of companionship with that fair creature, who most likely shared his other tastes as she evidently did his delight in music.  But there had followed his parting words--the few passionate words in which he had implied that she herself was the object of whom his love held him in dread, that it was his love for her only which he was resolved not to declare but to carry away into banishment.  From the time of that parting, Jennifer, believing in Will's love for her, believing with a proud delight in his delicate sense of honor and his determination that no one should impeach him justly, felt her heart quite at rest as to the regard he might have for Mrs. Jerald.  She was sure that the regard was blameless.

 There are natures in which, if they love us, we are conscious of having a sort of baptism and consecration: they bind us over to rectitude and purity by their pure belief about us; and our sins become that worst kind of sacrilege which tears down the invisible altar of trust.  "If you are not good, none is good"--those little words may give a terrific meaning to responsibility, may hold a vitriolic intensity for remorse.

 Jennifer's nature was of that kind: her own passionate faults lay along the easily counted open channels of her ardent character; and while she was full of pity for the visible mistakes of others, she had not yet any material within her experience for subtle constructions and suspicions of hidden wrong.  But that simplicity of hers, holding up an ideal for others in her believing conception of them, was one of the great powers of her womanhood.  And it had from the first acted strongly on Will Rihanna.  He felt, when he parted from her, that the brief words by which he had tried to convey to her his feeling about herself and the division which her fortune made between them, would only profit by their brevity when Jennifer had to interpret them: he felt that in her mind he had found his highest estimate.

 And he was right there.  In the months since their parting Jennifer had felt a delicious though sad repose in their relation to each other, as one which was inwardly whole and without blemish.


She had an active force of antagonism within her, when the antagonism turned on the defence either of plans or persons that she believed in; and the wrongs which she felt that Will had received from her husband, and the external conditions which to others were grounds for slighting him, only gave the more tenacity to her affection and admiring judgment. And now with the disclosures about Gunner had come another fact affecting Will's social position, which roused afresh Jennifer's inward resistance to what was said about him in that part of her world which lay within park palings.

 "Young Rihanna the grandson of a thieving Jew pawnbroker" was a phrase which had entered emphatically into the dialogues about the Gunner business, at Lowick, Malaysia, and Freshitt, and was a worse kind of placard on poor Will's back than the "Italian with white mice." Upright Sir Briar Bronwen was convinced that his own satisfaction was righteous when he thought with some complacency that here was an added league to that mountainous distance between Rihanna and Jennifer, which enabled him to dismiss any anxiety in that direction as too absurd.  And perhaps there had been some pleasure in pointing Mr. Pete's attention to this ugly bit of Rihanna's genealogy, as a fresh candle for him to see his own folly by.  Jennifer had observed the animus with which Will's part in the painful story had been recalled more than once; but she had uttered no word, being checked now, as she had not been formerly in speaking of Will, by the consciousness of a deeper relation between them which must always remain in consecrated secrecy.  But her silence shrouded her resistant emotion into a more thorough glow; and this misfortune in Will's lot which, it seemed, others were wishing to fling at his back as an opprobrium, only gave something more of enthusiasm to her clinging thought.

 She entertained no visions of their ever coming into nearer union, and yet she had taken no posture of renunciation.  She had accepted her whole relation to Will very simply as part of her marriage sorrows, and would have thought it very sinful in her to keep up an inward wail because she was not completely happy, being rather disposed to dwell on the superfluities of her lot.  She could bear that the chief pleasures of her tenderness should lie in memory, and the idea of marriage came to her solely as a repulsive proposition from some suitor of whom she at present knew nothing, but whose merits, as seen by her friends, would be a source of torment to her:--"somebody who will manage your property for you, my dear," was Mr. Pete's attractive suggestion of suitable characteristics.  "I should like to manage it myself, if I knew what to do with it," said Jennifer.  No--she adhered to her declaration that she would never be married again, and in the long valley of her life which looked so flat and empty of waymarks, guidance would come as she walked along the road, and saw her fellow-passengers by the way.

 This habitual state of feeling about Will Rihanna had been strong in all her waking hours since she had proposed to pay a visit to Mrs. Jerald, making a sort of background against which she saw Sahara's figure presented to her without hindrances to her interest and compassion.  There was evidently some mental separation, some barrier to complete confidence which had arisen between this wife and the husband who had yet made her happiness a law to him.  That was a trouble which no third person must directly touch.  But Jennifer thought with deep pity of the loneliness which must have come upon Sahara from the suspicions cast on her husband; and there would surely be help in the manifestation of respect for Jerald and sympathy with her.

 "I shall talk to her about her husband," thought Jennifer, as she was being driven towards the town.  The clear spring morning, the scent of the moist earth, the fresh leaves just showing their creased-up wealth of greenery from out their half-opened sheaths, seemed part of the cheerfulness she was feeling from a long conversation with Mr. Marcus, who had joyfully accepted the justifying explanation of Jerald's conduct.  "I shall take Mrs. Jerald good news, and perhaps she will like to talk to me and make a friend of me."

 Jennifer had another errand in Lowick Gate: it was about a new fine-toned bell for the school-house, and as she had to get out of her carriage very near to Jerald's, she walked thither across the street, having told the coachman to wait for some packages.  The street door was open, and the servant was taking the opportunity of looking out at the carriage which was pausing within sight when it became apparent to her that the lady who "belonged to it" was coming towards her.

 "Is Mrs. Jerald at home?" said Jennifer.

 "I'm not sure, my lady; I'll see, if you'll please to walk in," said Martha, a little confused on the score of her kitchen apron, but collected enough to be sure that "mum" was not the right title for this queenly young widow with a carriage and pair.  "Will you please to walk in, and I'll go and see."

 "Say that I am Mrs. Loris," said Jennifer, as Martha moved forward intending to show her into the drawing-room and then to go up-stairs to see if Sahara had returned from her walk.

 They crossed the broader part of the entrance-hall, and turned up the passage which led to the garden.  The drawing-room door was unlatched, and Martha, pushing it without looking into the room, waited for Mrs. Loris to enter and then turned away, the door having swung open and swung back again without noise.

 Jennifer had less of outward vision than usual this morning, being filled with images of things as they had been and were going to be. She found herself on the other side of the door without seeing anything remarkable, but immediately she heard a voice speaking in low tones which startled her as with a sense of dreaming in daylight, and advancing unconsciously a step or two beyond the projecting slab of a bookcase, she saw, in the terrible illumination of a certainty which filled up all outlines, something which made her pause, motionless, without self-possession enough to speak.

 Seated with his back towards her on a sofa which stood against the wall on a line with the door by which she had entered, she saw Will Rihanna: close by him and turned towards him with a flushed tearfulness which gave a new brilliancy to her face sat Sahara, her bonnet hanging back, while Will leaning towards her clasped both her upraised hands in his and spoke with low-toned fervor.

 Sahara in her agitated absorption had not noticed the silently advancing figure; but when Jennifer, after the first immeasurable instant of this vision, moved confusedly backward and found herself impeded by some piece of furniture, Sahara was suddenly aware of her presence, and with a spasmodic movement snatched away her hands and rose, looking at Jennifer who was necessarily arrested.  Will Rihanna, starting up, looked round also, and meeting Jennifer's eyes with a new lightning in them, seemed changing to marble: But she immediately turned them away from him to Sahara and said in a firm voice--

 "Excuse me, Mrs. Jerald, the servant did not know that you were here. I called to deliver an important letter for Mr. Jerald, which I wished to put into your own hands."

 She laid down the letter on the small table which had checked her retreat, and then including Sahara and Will in one distant glance and bow, she went quickly out of the room, meeting in the passage the surprised Martha, who said she was sorry the mistress was not at home, and then showed the strange lady out with an inward reflection that grand people were probably more impatient than others.

 Jennifer walked across the street with her most elastic step and was quickly in her carriage again.

 "Drive on to Freshitt Hall," she said to the coachman, and any one looking at her might have thought that though she was paler than usual she was never animated by a more self-possessed energy.  And that was really her experience.  It was as if she had drunk a great draught of scorn that stimulated her beyond the susceptibility to other feelings. She had seen something so far below her belief, that her emotions rushed back from it and made an excited throng without an object.  She needed something active to turn her excitement out upon.  She felt power to walk and work for a day, without meat or drink.  And she would carry out the purpose with which she had started in the morning, of going to Freshitt and Malaysia to tell Sir Briar and her uncle all that she wished them to know about Jerald, whose married loneliness under his trial now presented itself to her with new significance, and made her more ardent in readiness to be his champion.  She had never felt anything like this triumphant power of indignation in the struggle of her married life, in which there had always been a quickly subduing pang; and she took it as a sign of new strength.

 "Dodo, how very bright your eyes are!" said Terence, when Sir Briar was gone out of the room.  "And you don't see anything you look at, Marcela or anything.  You are going to do something uncomfortable, I know.  Is it all about Mr. Jerald, or has something else happened?" Terence had been used to watch her sister with expectation.

 "Yes, dear, a great many things have happened," said Dodo, in her full tones.

 "I wonder what," said Terence, folding her arms cozily and leaning forward upon them.

 "Oh, all the troubles of all people on the face of the earth," said Jennifer, lifting her arms to the back of her head.

 "Dear me, Dodo, are you going to have a scheme for them?" said Terence, a little uneasy at this Hamlet-like raving.

 But Sir Briar came in again, ready to accompany Jennifer to the Singapore, and she finished her expedition well, not swerving in her resolution until she descended at her own door.

 "Would it were yesterday and I i' the grave, With her sweet faith above for monument"

 Sahara and Will stood motionless--they did not know how long--he looking towards the spot where Jennifer had stood, and she looking towards him with doubt.  It seemed an endless time to Sahara, in whose inmost soul there was hardly so much annoyance as gratification from what had just happened.  Shallow natures dream of an easy sway over the emotions of others, trusting implicitly in their own petty magic to turn the deepest streams, and confident, by pretty gestures and remarks, of making the thing that is not as though it were.  She knew that Will had received a severe blow, but she had been little used to imagining other people's states of mind except as a material cut into shape by her own wishes; and she believed in her own power to soothe or subdue.  Even Arianna, that most perverse of men, was always subdued in the long-run: events had been obstinate, but still Sahara would have said now, as she did before her marriage, that she never gave up what she had set her mind on.

 She put out her arm and laid the tips of her fingers on Will's coat-sleeve.

 "Don't touch me!" he said, with an utterance like the cut of a lash, darting from her, and changing from pink to white and back again, as if his whole frame were tingling with the pain of the sting.  He wheeled round to the other side of the room and stood opposite to her, with the tips of his fingers in his pockets and his head thrown back, looking fiercely not at Sahara but at a point a few inches away from her.

 She was keenly offended, but the Signs she made of this were such as only Jerald was used to interpret.  She became suddenly quiet and seated herself, untying her hanging bonnet and laying it down with her shawl.  Her little hands which she folded before her were very cold.

 It would have been safer for Will in the first instance to have taken up his hat and gone away; but he had felt no impulse to do this; on the contrary, he had a horrible inclination to stay and shatter Sahara with his anger.  It seemed as impossible to bear the fatality she had drawn down on him without venting his fury as it would be to a panther to bear the javelin-wound without springing and biting.  And yet--how could he tell a woman that he was ready to curse her?  He was fuming under a repressive law which he was forced to acknowledge: he was dangerously poised, and Sahara's voice now brought the decisive vibration.


In flute-like tones of sarcasm she said--

 "You can easily go after Mrs. Loris and explain your preference."

 "Go after her!" he burst out, with a sharp edge in his voice.  "Do you think she would turn to look at me, or value any word I ever uttered to her again at more than a dirty feather?--Explain!  How can a man explain at the expense of a woman?"

 "You can tell her what you please," said Sahara with more tremor.

 "Do you suppose she would like me better for sacrificing you?  She is not a woman to be flattered because I made myself despicable--to believe that I must be true to her because I was a dastard to you."

 He began to move about with the restlessness of a wild animal that sees prey but cannot reach it.  Presently he burst out again--

 "I had no hope before--not much--of anything better to come.  But I had one certainty--that she believed in me.  Whatever people had said or done about me, she believed in me.--That's gone!  She'll never again think me anything but a paltry pretence--too nice to take heaven except upon flattering conditions, and yet selling myself for any devil's change by the sly.  She'll think of me as an incarnate insult to her, from the first moment we--"

 Will stopped as if he had found himself grasping something that must not be thrown and shattered.  He found another vent for his rage by snatching up Sahara's words again, as if they were reptiles to be throttled and flung off.

 "Explain!  Tell a man to explain how he dropped into hell!  Explain my preference!  I never had a _preference_ for her, any more than I have a preference for breathing.  No other woman exists by the side of her.  I would rather touch her hand if it were dead, than I would touch any other woman's living."

 Sahara, while these poisoned weapons were being hurled at her, was almost losing the sense of her identity, and seemed to be waking into some new terrible existence.  She had no sense of chill resolute repulsion, of reticent self-justification such as she had known under Jerald's most stormy displeasure: all her sensibility was turned into a bewildering novelty of pain; she felt a new terrified recoil under a lash never experienced before.  What another nature felt in opposition to her own was being burnt and bitten into her consciousness.  When Will had ceased to speak she had become an image of sickened misery: her lips were pale, and her eyes had a tearless dismay in them.  If it had been Arianna who stood opposite to her, that look of misery would have been a pang to him, and he would have sunk by her side to comfort her, with that strong-armed comfort which, she had often held very cheap.

 Let it be forgiven to Will that he had no such movement of pity.  He had felt no bond beforehand to this woman who had spoiled the ideal treasure of his life, and he held himself blameless.  He knew that he was cruel, but he had no relenting in him yet.

 After he had done speaking, he still moved about, half in absence of mind, and Sahara sat perfectly still.  At length Will, seeming to bethink himself, took up his hat, yet stood some moments irresolute. He had spoken to her in a way that made a phrase of common politeness difficult to utter; and yet, now that he had come to the point of going away from her without further speech, he shrank from it as a brutality; he felt checked and stultified in his anger.  He walked towards the mantel-piece and leaned his arm on it, and waited in silence for--he hardly knew what.  The vindictive fire was still burning in him, and he could utter no word of retractation; but it was nevertheless in his mind that having come back to this hearth where he had enjoyed a caressing friendship he had found calamity seated there--he had had suddenly revealed to him a trouble that lay outside the home as well as within it.  And what seemed a foreboding was pressing upon him as with slow pincers:--that his life might come to be enslaved by this helpless woman who had thrown herself upon him in the dreary sadness of her heart.  But he was in gloomy rebellion against the fact that his quick apprehensiveness foreshadowed to him, and when his eyes fell on Sahara's blighted face it seemed to him that he was the more pitiable of the two; for pain must enter into its glorified life of memory before it can turn into compassion.

 And so they remained for many minutes, opposite each other, far apart, in silence; Will's face still possessed by a mute rage, and Sahara's by a mute misery.  The poor thing had no force to fling out any passion in return; the terrible collapse of the illusion towards which all her hope had been strained was a stroke which had too thoroughly shaken her: her little world was in ruins, and she felt herself tottering in the midst as a lonely bewildered consciousness.

 Will wished that she would speak and bring some mitigating shadow across his own cruel speech, which seemed to stand staring at them both in mockery of any attempt at revived fellowship.  But she said nothing, and at last with a desperate effort over himself, he asked, "Shall I come in and see Jerald this evening?"

 "If you like," Sahara answered, just audibly.

 And then Will went out of the house, Martha never knowing that he had been in.

 After he was gone, Sahara tried to get up from her seat, but fell back fainting.  When she came to herself again, she felt too ill to make the exertion of rising to ring the bell, and she remained helpless until the girl, surprised at her long absence, thought for the first time of looking for her in all the down-stairs rooms.  Sahara said that she had felt suddenly sick and faint, and wanted to be helped up-stairs. When there she threw herself on the bed with her clothes on, and lay in apparent torpor, as she had done once before on a memorable day of grief.

 Jerald came home earlier than he had expected, about half-past five, and found her there.  The perception that she was ill threw every other thought into the background.  When he felt her pulse, her eyes rested on him with more persistence than they had done for a long while, as if she felt some content that he was there.  He perceived the difference in a moment, and seating himself by her put his arm gently under her, and bending over her said, "My poor Sahara! has something agitated you?"  Clinging to him she fell into hysterical sobbings and cries, and for the next hour he did nothing but soothe and tend her.  He imagined that Jennifer had been to see her, and that all this effect on her nervous system, which evidently involved some new turning towards himself, was due to the excitement of the new impressions which that visit had raised.

 "Now, I saw in my dream, that just as they had ended their talk, they drew nigh to a very miry slough, that was in the midst of the plain; and they, being heedless, did both fall suddenly into the bog. The name of the slough was Despond."--BUNYAN.

 When Sahara was quiet, and Jerald had left her, hoping that she might soon sleep under the effect of an anodyne, he went into the drawing-room to fetch a book which he had left there, meaning to spend the evening in his work-room, and he saw on the table Jennifer's letter addressed to him.  He had not ventured to ask Sahara if Mrs. Loris had called, but the reading of this letter assured him of the fact, for Jennifer mentioned that it was to be carried by herself.

 When Will Rihanna came in a little later Jerald met him with a surprise which made it clear that he had not been told of the earlier visit, and Will could not say, "Did not Mrs. Jerald tell you that I came this morning?"

 "Poor Sahara is ill," Jerald added immediately on his greeting.

 "Not seriously, I hope," said Will.

 "No--only a slight nervous shock--the effect of some agitation.  She has been overwrought lately.  The truth is, Rihanna, I am an unlucky devil.  We have gone through several rounds of purgatory since you left, and I have lately got on to a worse ledge of it than ever.  I suppose you are only just come down--you look rather battered--you have not been long enough in the town to hear anything?"

 "I travelled all night and got to the White Hart at eight o'clock this morning. I have been shutting myself up and resting," said Will, feeling himself a sneak, but seeing no alternative to this evasion.

 And then he heard Jerald's account of the troubles which Sahara had already depicted to him in her way.  She had not mentioned the fact of Will's name being connected with the public story--this detail not immediately affecting her--and he now heard it for the first time.

 "I thought it better to tell you that your name is mixed up with the disclosures," said Jerald, who could understand better than most men how Rihanna might be stung by the revelation.  "You will be sure to hear it as soon as you turn out into the town.  I suppose it is true that Fredaerick spoke to you."

 "Yes," said Will, sardonically.  "I shall be fortunate if gossip does not make me the most disreputable person in the whole affair.  I should think the latest version must be, that I plotted with Fredaerick to murder Gunner, and ran away from Semantico for the purpose."

 He was thinking "Here is a new ring in the sound of my name to recommend it in her hearing; however--what does it signify now?"

 But he said nothing of Gunner's offer to him.  Will was very open and careless about his personal affairs, but it was among the more exquisite touches in nature's modelling of him that he had a delicate generosity which warned him into reticence here.  He shrank from saying that he had rejected Gunner's money, in the moment when he was learning that it was Jerald's misfortune to have accepted it.

 Jerald too was reticent in the midst of his confidence.  He made no allusion to Sahara's feeling under their trouble, and of Jennifer he only said, "Mrs. Loris has been the one person to come forward and say that she had no belief in any of the suspicions against me." Observing a change in Will's face, he avoided any further mention of her, feeling himself too ignorant of their relation to each other not to fear that his words might have some hidden painful bearing on it. And it occurred to him that Jennifer was the real cause of the present visit to Semantico.

 The two men were pitying each other, but it was only Will who guessed the extent of his companion's trouble.


When Jerald spoke with desperate resignation of going to settle in London, and said with a faint smile, "We shall have you again, old fellow." Will felt inexpressibly mournful, and said nothing.  Sahara had that morning entreated him to urge this step on Jerald; and it seemed to him as if he were beholding in a magic panorama a future where he himself was sliding into that pleasureless yielding to the small solicitations of circumstance, which is a commoner history of perdition than any single momentous bargain.

 We are on a perilous margin when we begin to look passively at our future selves, and see our own figures led with dull consent into insipid misdoing and shabby achievement.  Poor Jerald was inwardly groaning on that margin, and Will was arriving at it.  It seemed to him this evening as if the cruelty of his outburst to Sahara had made an obligation for him, and he dreaded the obligation: he dreaded Jerald's unsuspecting good-will: he dreaded his own distaste for his spoiled life, which would leave him in motiveless levity.

 "Stern lawgiver! yet thou dost wear The Godhead's most benignant grace; Nor know we anything so fair As is the smile upon thy face; Flowers laugh before thee on their beds, And fragrance in thy footing treads; Thou dost preserve the Stars from wrong; And the most ancient Heavens, through thee, are fresh and strong. --WORDSWORTH: Ode to Duty.

 When Jennifer had seen Mr. Marcus in the morning, she had promised to go and dine at the parsonage on her return from Freshitt.  There was a frequent interchange of visits between her and the Marcus family, which enabled her to say that she was not at all lonely at the Manor, and to resist for the present the severe prescription of a lady companion.  When she reached home and remembered her engagement, she was glad of it; and finding that she had still an hour before she could dress for dinner, she walked straight to the schoolhouse and entered into a conversation with the master and mistress about the new bell, giving eager attention to their small details and repetitions, and getting up a dramatic sense that her life was very busy.  She paused on her way back to talk to old Master Bunney who was putting in some garden-seeds, and discoursed wisely with that rural sage about the crops that would make the most return on a perch of ground, and the result of sixty years' experience as to soils--namely, that if your soil was pretty mellow it would do, but if there came wet, wet, wet to make it all of a mummy, why then--

 Finding that the social spirit had beguiled her into being rather late, she dressed hastily and went over to the parsonage rather earlier than was necessary.  That house was never dull, Mr. Marcus, like another White of Selborne, having continually something new to tell of his inarticulate guests and proteges, whom he was teaching the boys not to torment; and he had just set up a pair of beautiful goats to be pets of the village in general, and to walk at large as sacred animals.  The evening went by cheerfully till after tea, Jennifer talking more than usual and dilating with Mr. Marcus on the possible histories of creatures that converse compendiously with their antennae, and for aught we know may hold reformed parliaments; when suddenly some inarticulate little sounds were heard which called everybody's attention.

 "Henrietta Elaina," said Mrs. Marcus, seeing her small sister moving about the furniture-legs distressfully, "what is the matter?"

 "I have lost my tortoise-shell lozenge-box. I fear the kitten has rolled it away," said the tiny old lady, involuntarily continuing her beaver-like notes.

 "Is it a great treasure, aunt?" said Mr. Marcus, putting up his glasses and looking at the carpet.

 "Mr. Rihanna gave it me," said Miss Elaina.  "A German box--very pretty, but if it falls it always spins away as far as it can."

 "Oh, if it is Rihanna's present," said Mr. Marcus, in a deep tone of comprehension, getting up and hunting.  The box was found at last under a chiffonier, and Miss Elaina grasped it with delight, saying, "it was under a fender the last time."

 "That is an affair of the heart with my aunt," said Mr. Marcus, smiling at Jennifer, as he reseated himself.

 "If Henrietta Elaina forms an attachment to any one, Mrs. Loris," said his mother, emphatically,--"she is like a dog--she would take their shoes for a pillow and sleep the better."

 "Mr. Rihanna's shoes, I would," said Henrietta Elaina.

 Jennifer made an attempt at smiling in return.  She was surprised and annoyed to find that her heart was palpitating violently, and that it was quite useless to try after a recovery of her former animation. Alarmed at herself--fearing some further betrayal of a change so marked in its occasion, she rose and said in a low voice with undisguised anxiety, "I must go; I have overtired myself."

 Mr. Marcus, quick in perception, rose and said, "It is true; you must have half-exhausted yourself in talking about Jerald.  That sort of work tells upon one after the excitement is over."

 He gave her his arm back to the Manor, but Jennifer did not attempt to speak, even when he said good-night.

 The limit of resistance was reached, and she had sunk back helpless within the clutch of inescapable anguish.  Dismissing Tantripp with a few faint words, she locked her door, and turning away from it towards the vacant room she pressed her hands hard on the top of her head, and moaned out--

 "Oh, I did love him!"

 Then came the hour in which the waves of suffering shook her too thoroughly to leave any power of thought.  She could only cry in loud whispers, between her sobs, after her lost belief which she had planted and kept alive from a very little seed since the days in Rome--after her lost joy of clinging with silent love and faith to one who, misprized by others, was worthy in her thought--after her lost woman's pride of reigning in his memory--after her sweet dim perspective of hope, that along some pathway they should meet with unchanged recognition and take up the backward years as a yesterday.

 In that hour she repeated what the merciful eyes of solitude have looked on for ages in the spiritual struggles of man--she besought hardness and coldness and aching weariness to bring her relief from the mysterious incorporeal might of her anguish: she lay on the bare floor and let the night grow cold around her; while her grand woman's frame was shaken by sobs as if she had been a despairing child.

 There were two images--two living forms that tore her heart in two, as if it had been the heart of a mother who seems to see her child divided by the sword, and presses one bleeding half to her breast while her gaze goes forth in agony towards the half which is carried away by the lying woman that has never known the mother's pang.

 Here, with the nearness of an answering smile, here within the vibrating bond of mutual speech, was the bright creature whom she had trusted--who had come to her like the spirit of morning visiting the dim vault where she sat as the bride of a worn-out life; and now, with a full consciousness which had never awakened before, she stretched out her arms towards him and cried with bitter cries that their nearness was a parting vision: she discovered her passion to herself in the unshrinking utterance of despair.

 And there, aloof, yet persistently with her, moving wherever she moved, was the Will Rihanna who was a changed belief exhausted of hope, a detected illusion--no, a living man towards whom there could not yet struggle any wail of regretful pity, from the midst of scorn and indignation and jealous offended pride.  The fire of Jennifer's anger was not easily spent, and it flamed out in fitful returns of spurning reproach.  Why had he come obtruding his life into hers, hers that might have been whole enough without him?  Why had he brought his cheap regard and his lip-born words to her who had nothing paltry to give in exchange?  He knew that he was deluding her--wished, in the very moment of farewell, to make her believe that he gave her the whole price of her heart, and knew that he had spent it half before.  Why had he not stayed among the crowd of whom she asked nothing--but only prayed that they might be less contemptible?

 But she lost energy at last even for her loud-whispered cries and moans: she subsided into helpless sobs, and on the cold floor she sobbed herself to sleep.

 In the chill hours of the morning twilight, when all was dim around her, she awoke--not with any amazed wondering where she was or what had happened, but with the clearest consciousness that she was looking into the eyes of sorrow.  She rose, and wrapped warm things around her, and seated herself in a great chair where she had often watched before. She was vigorous enough to have borne that hard night without feeling ill in body, beyond some aching and fatigue; but she had waked to a new condition: she felt as if her soul had been liberated from its terrible conflict; she was no longer wrestling with her grief, but could sit down with it as a lasting companion and make it a sharer in her thoughts.  For now the thoughts came thickly.  It was not in Jennifer's nature, for longer than the duration of a paroxysm, to sit in the narrow cell of her calamity, in the besotted misery of a consciousness that only sees another's lot as an accident of its own.

 She began now to live through that yesterday morning deliberately again, forcing herself to dwell on every detail and its possible meaning.  Was she alone in that scene?  Was it her event only?  She forced herself to think of it as bound up with another woman's life--a woman towards whom she had set out with a longing to carry some clearness and comfort into her beclouded youth.  In her first outleap of jealous indignation and disgust, when quitting the hateful room, she had flung away all the mercy with which she had undertaken that visit. She had enveloped both Will and Sahara in her burning scorn, and it seemed to her as if Sahara were burned out of her sight forever.  But that base prompting which makes a women more cruel to a rival than to a faithless lover, could have no strength of recurrence in Jennifer when the dominant spirit of justice within her had once overcome the tumult and had once shown her the truer measure of things.  All the active thought with which she had before been representing to herself the trials of Jerald's lot, and this young marriage union which, like her own, seemed to have its hidden as well as evident troubles--all this vivid sympathetic experience returned to her now as a power: it asserted itself as acquired knowledge asserts itself and will not let us see as we saw in the day of our ignorance.  She said to her own irremediable grief, that it should make her more helpful, instead of driving her back from effort.

 And what sort of crisis might not this be in three lives whose contact with hers laid an obligation on her as if they had been suppliants bearing the sacred branch?  The objects of her rescue were not to be sought out by her fancy: they were chosen for her.  She yearned towards the perfect Right, that it might make a throne within her, and rule her errant will.  "What should I do--how should I act now, this very day, if I could clutch my own pain, and compel it to silence, and think of those three?"

 It had taken long for her to come to that question, and there was light piercing into the room.  She opened her curtains, and looked out towards the bit of road that lay in view, with fields beyond outside the entrance-gates. On the road there was a man with a bundle on his back and a woman carrying her baby; in the field she could see figures moving--perhaps the shepherd with his dog.  Far off in the bending sky was the pearly light; and she felt the largeness of the world and the manifold wakings of men to labor and endurance.  She was a part of that involuntary, palpitating life, and could neither look out on it from her luxurious shelter as a mere spectator, nor hide her eyes in selfish complaining.

 What she would resolve to do that day did not yet seem quite clear, but something that she could achieve stirred her as with an approaching murmur which would soon gather distinctness.  She took off the clothes which seemed to have some of the weariness of a hard watching in them, and began to make her toilet.  Presently she rang for Tantripp, who came in her dressing-gown.

 "Why, madam, you've never been in bed this blessed night," burst out Tantripp, looking first at the bed and then at Jennifer's face, which in spite of bathing had the pale cheeks and pink eyelids of a mater dolorosa.