 was estrogen dominant, which ledto her hysterectomy and brought on a surgically inducedmenopause. At that point, Brenda became a victim of thePremarin trend, also known as estrogen replacement therapy(ERT), which began in earnest in the 1970s. Before the1970s, there was nothing in the gynecological canon thatdictated giving women estrogen at menopause. I discuss thestory of Premarin and ERT in chapter 10, the chapter onmenopause and perimenopause.
FIBROMYALGIA
The pain that Brenda began to experience in her 30s was due
to fibromyalgia. In my practice I come across many patients inwhom physical pain—arthritis, fibromyalgia, and so forth—isintermixed with symptoms of hormone imbalance. Just gettingtheir hormones in balance often leads to relief. Thosehormones most often involved include progesterone, insulin,adrenaline, cortisol, and thyroid.
For the most part, these people are angry. Their hormone
imbalances are allowed to go on year after year. They take partin expensive, time-consuming efforts to treat their symptoms,and the symptoms stubbornly persist. It’s understandable thatthey’d develop anger about their lot in life. I’ve found23 ESTR OGEN DOMINANCE AND BRENDA J. fibromyalgia to be present in many of the people who seek out
my services, and, as with Brenda, it usually has not beenproperly diagnosed.
Anger can cause muscles to tense. When you tense a
muscle, it produces lactic acid which causes pain, and thepersistent tensing of the muscles utilizes a lot of energy, whichcauses fatigue.
Although Brenda doesn’t mention it in her story, she told
me during her intake interview that she was also operated onfor TMJ, or pain in the temporomandibular joint. TMJ iscaused by tensing of the jaw muscles, which occurs usually atnight and is always associated with anger. Brenda had a lot ofgood reasons to be angry. She was being misled by the medicalcommunity, and she had—let’s face it—a hard life raising herchildren on her own. I find her situation almost tragic. She wascrying out for help, exhibiting classic symptoms that shouldhave been impossible to miss, yet no one would listen to her.
In chapter 7 I discuss the way I treat patients with
fibromyalgia, which is to deal with the underlying cause oftheir anger and to get their hormones back in balance.
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If you can balance a patient’s hormones,
you can often treat their problems at the source
without resorting to surgery and drugs.
I cannot emphasize enough the importance of utilizing
hormones correctly. Some women are more sensitive to foreignsubstances than others. Brenda was a woman who sensedsomething wrong the moment Premarin was introduced intoher system. She communicated this to her doctor, but herefused to give credence to her intuition. Ironically, when shetried to wean herself off Premarin, she suffered hot flashes andheadaches. This is because foreign substances, once they are24 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  established on the cellular level, are difficult to flush out. For
many women, coming off Premarin is like coming off heroin.A woman may go through severe withdrawal headaches,nausea, hot flashes, night sweats, and so on in the process.
The hot flashes and night sweats may be caused by
luteinizing hormone (LH), a hormone secreted by thepituitary gland. The pituitary sends this hormone to stimulatethe ovaries to produce more estrogen, progesterone, or otherhormones. Anything that elevates luteinizing hormone—alack of estrogen, progesterone, and perhaps even testos-terone—will produce the vasomotor effects that women get,that is, hot flashes and night sweats. Thus taking someone offestrogen can precipitate hot flashes. Or sometimes thepituitary is reacting to the fact that progesterone is low. So justgiving progesterone can take away hot flashes.
In another chapter I address how to wean someone off of
Premarin. As you can see, balancing a person’s hormones is adelicate juggling act.
WHY DUKE UNIVERSITY MEDICAL
CENTER FAILED BRENDA J.
The medical center at Duke University is one of the most
respected in the world. Brenda went there and told them she justdidn’t feel good, so they put her through $20,000 worth oftesting and at the end of six weeks said, basically, “There’snothing wrong with you. You have to speak to a psychiatrist.”
How could this happen? How could a major medical
research center fail to diagnose someone properly after$20,000 worth of tests?
One of the reasons is something I witness over and over
again among conventional doctors: they don’t treat patients,they treat lab tests. Few doctors sit down and talk to patients25 ESTR OGEN DOMINANCE AND BRENDA J. any more. If the doctors at Duke had taken the time with
Brenda, it would have been hard for them to miss the constel-lation of symptoms she was exhibiting.
Moreover, when most doctors do blood tests, they don’t
always test for hormones. If they do, they don’t always test forthe correct hormones. I have worked with enough cases ofhormone imbalance that even before seeing the results ofBrenda’s blood tests, I knew that she was suffering from estrogendominance and hypothyroidism, her symptoms were so classic.
It’s not surprising to me that a medical center like Duke
could miss Brenda’s symptomatology. The doctors at DukeUniversity are no doubt good doctors. However, most of themare academically inclined and simply won’t consider non-tradi-tional approaches that have not been verified by double-blindstudies. Universities, and the hospitals and clinics associatedwith them, tend toward medical conservatism. They’re alsoheavily influenced by pharmaceutical companies, which fundall the big medical research studies, creating an aura oflegitimacy around their products. In these settings, doctors’view of the wellness movement and natural products is skewed.They tend to dismiss both.
AN UNDER-ACTIVE THYROID
Excess estrogen and low progesterone weren’t Brenda’s only
hormone problems. She also had an under-active thyroid.Once her body received the correct type and dose of thyroidsupplement, her metabolism increased and she was able toburn fat. She had more energy. As her fat reserves shrank, shefelt lighter and more optimistic.
The doctors at Duke University diagnosed Brenda as
having an under-active thyroid, but they used an inappropriate26 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  thyroid approach. Doctors, for the most part, fail to realize
there are two different thyroid hormones and both have to beassessed. In spite of $20,000 worth of testing, the physicians atDuke did not see that Brenda was not making enoughtriiodothyronine (T3)—the thyroid hormone responsible for90 percent of the thyroid’s activity. They gave her Synthroid,which is thyroxine (T4), basically a storage hormone. T4 mustbe converted to T3 to be effective, but Brenda’s body wasunable to convert T4 into T3, so Synthroid did not help her. Idiscuss thyroid function and treatment in more detail inchapter 3.
The influence of the pharmaceutical companies is also a
factor to some extent here. Synthroid is so well-publicized thatit’s all that most doctors know when it comes to supplement-ing the thyroid gland.
Six weeks after her first visit to my office, Brenda came in and
we sat down and talked. “Doc,” she said, “I’ve never felt better inmy entire life.” That shows you the power of hormones.
AN OUNCE OF PREVENTION
T o my mind, Brenda’s life and her battle with estrogen teach
one very important lesson: it’s easier to prevent disease than itis to cure it. That’s why it’s essential that doctors educatethemselves about hormones. They’re foundational. If you canbalance a patient’s hormones, you can often treat theirproblems at the source without resorting to surgery and drugs.Brenda is a perfect example of the miraculous power ofbio-identical hormone therapy.ESTROGEN DOMINANCE AND BRENDA J. 27 THYROID HORMONES —
TWO TYPES
chapter THREE
The thyroid gland controls metabolism in every cell of the
body. A thyroid deficiency can cause a multitude of symptoms,the classic ones being weight gain, dry skin, poor nails, lowbody temperature, sluggishness, and memory problems. Inwomen, other common symptoms are blood clots during theirperiods and hair loss. Thyroid hormone controls the rate atwhich calories are burned to produce energy. Dr. Atkins,originator of the Atkins Diet, has stated that the number onereason for “metabolic resistance”—the term he uses to describethe inability to burn fat—is a thyroid deficiency.
THE WRONG THYROID HORMONE
Although most people don’t realize it, there are actually two
thyroid hormones, triiodothyronine (T3) and thyroxine (T4).The thyroid gland produces and releases T4, which goes to theliver, where it is converted into T3. T4 does not perform mostof the tasks of the thyroid hormone—it is essentially a storagehormone. T3, the active form of thyroid, is responsible for
29most, but not all, of its functions. Obviously, any problem
resulting in a


 we all grow up coming to this
conclusion—deprive us of our money, our jobs, our relationships, and our
quotient of happiness drops dramatically. Likewise we don’t like to have
our stimulus be out of control. Babies have been sat in front of screens that
flash pretty pictures, which they can make come and go by pulling a string.
Having this kind of control is very pleasing. But if the pictures come and go
at random, the same happiness doesn’ t result. Worse still, if the baby pulls
the string and nothing happens  on the screen, he will be very unhappy.
Again, this is a lesson we all learn—random events in our lives, or people
who do not prove predictable, undermine our sense of control, leading to
unhappiness.What all this amounts to is that the word happiness  too often means
“pleasure response.” All response depends upon stimulus, just as sexual
pleasure depend s upon being aroused and stimulated. This undeniable fact
leads countless people to panic when their source of pleasure vanishes.
Those of us who bounce from one failed marriage to another exhibit in full-
blown form this craving for stimulus. But any desire to keep things smooth,
predictable, and comforting has the same shadow hanging over it. There can
be no sense of security in your existence when it depends upon outside
factors, for the unpredictable changes of reality can never be controlled.
The solution is to find a source of happiness beyond pleasu re, since
pleasure seeking  can never be made independent of outside stimulus. As
long as love is pleasure, its end—a sad tapering off into indifference and
inertia—is predictable. Recently this argument has gained supp ort from an
unexpected quarter. Biochemi cal research has isolated certain brain
chemicals associated with pleasure, particularly the neurotransmitter
serotonin. A high level of serotonin is typical of someone who feels a sense
of well-being; insuf ficient levels of serotonin have long been correlated
with depression. Related studies have isolated the left frontal lobes of the
cortex as a site of increased activity whenever someone feels happy.
The obvious conclusion is that stimulus to the brain is the same as
happiness. Unfortunately, this is not accurate, because stimulus wears out.
Over time our responses weaken if the same stimulus keeps getting
repeated. The taste that was once so sweet grows stale and cloyi ng; the face
that once enchanted becomes ordinary; the most exciting vision becomes
just part of the scenery.
It is all-important to found our happiness upon a basis that doesn’ t
change. Compared with pleasure, love is abstract. If you took away the
pleasant feelings  associated with it, most people would be hard-pressed to
define the experience of love. But love has a power to heal, to reveal divine
essence, to restore faith in one’s own Being, to bring harmony to all levels
of existence—an d all these effects lie far beyond feelings. They are tangible
results based on spirit.
In our society the more tangible something is, the more likely we are to
have faith in it. Fortunately, for all that love is abstract, scienti fic research
confirms that it is as dramatic  and potent as medicine, both when it is
present and when it is withdrawn.Love aids recovery. Studies conducted in hospital cardiac units have
demonstrated that male patients who respond positively to the question “Do
you feel loved?” are more likely to recover than those who do not, and the
correlation between recovery and this response is higher than that for any
other category, including previous physical status. In other words, an
unloved man in good physical condition afflicted with a mild heart attack
may recover more poorly than another man with a severe heart  attack who
feels loved. For residents of retirement homes, having a pet to love (or even
a plant to tend to every day) reduces disease and depression. Old people
perceive having an object of love as restoring their purpose in life.
Love promotes growth. Very young children from abusive homes may
exhibit a condition of retarde d or severely stunted growth known as
psychosocial dwarfism. Besides being small and underweight for their age,
such children frequently manifest underdeveloped emotions and learning
skills. Rapid reversal of this condition can often occur, however, as soon as
a loving environment is provided.
Love provides homeostatic balance. No one has definitively proven that
feeling loved lowers blood pressure or prevents cancer and heart disease,
although it is well documented that negative conditions associate d with lack
of love, such as chronic anger or depression, put people at much  higher risk
for all types of disease.
One indication of love’ s ability to bring the body into balance was
provided by a study in which subjects were asked to watch a film about
Mother Teresa as she went about her work in India. In the film she
embraces children in terribly wasted conditions, usually children afflicted
with leprosy. Just the sight of this loving act raised certain chemical
indicators of enhanced immune responses. This dramatic effect occurred
even if the viewer did not agree with Mother Teresa’ s vocation—it was not,
in other words, a matter of subjectively feeling good. According to folk
wisdom, falling in love is the best way not to catch colds in the winter,
indicating that the immune benefits of love were recognized long before
medical research came along to validate them.
Finally, a breakthrough study from Stanford on recovery from breast
cancer indicated that women who were in advanced stages of the disease
lived longer if they participated  in group therapy sessions once  a week, as
compared with those who received only normal courses of chemical andsurgical treatme nt. There were no intensive psychological techniques
applied here—the group shared their feelings and supported one another in
their struggle against cancer. These simple acts of love were provably
effective, yet the study undersco res how meager one hour of therapy a week
really is. Could love on a more intensive scale provide even more healing?
The answer to this question does not await more medical study; it can be
verified by each of us in our own lives. Healing  is a broad term; being
connected to both whole  and holy, it can be define d spiritually as a return to
the state of unity. Love is not separate from anything in life; it is not divided
into mom ents of love or levels of love or amounts or absence of love. These
are our relative terms, our mere glimpses of a force that remain s intact and
whole. On the spiritual path, or sadhana, the experience of love brings
healing that is not directed to one disease or another but to the state of the
whole person; therefore each of us will experience its ef fects dif ferently.
Because sadhana can sound very lofty and abstract, it’s easier for science
to look at people who are lonely, depressed, and sick than to investigate
subtler working s of the self. But if we look at the following features of
people who can live a love story, we see how far they have evolved beyond
the norm.
They have learned to separate their actions fr om their belief that they ar e lovable.
Since we all started out as child ren who were weaker and less powerful
than adults, it was only natural for us to try to act in such a way that we
wouldn’ t be hurt. Being hurt is usually a matter of power. The powerless are
in no position to offend or antagonize the powerful. This reality was
brought home to us on the playground a long time ago, and its holdover
habit is trying to be nice. Being nice, we expect niceness in return. By
placating someo ne who threatens us, we hope to ward off aggre ssion. In the
name of not being hurt we stay in a defensive posture.
People who base their lives upon  love, though, have taught themselves to
separate this whole pattern of behavior from love. Love doesn’ t come from
placating potential threats. Bein g nice all the time won’ t cause others to
love you; when they are stated  in black and white this way, most of us
would agree with these assertions. Yet the imprint of the past is deep, andunconsciously we still act like powerless children. Learning to grow out of
this pattern is a common trait of people who live their own love stories.
They can give on all levels.
It has become a truism that to receive love we must give love. This
reciprocal action keeps the flow of love alive. Without it love would
stagnate. Learni ng to give runs contrary to some very deep conditioning
that we all carry around inside, however. We have all learned to hold on to a
good thing. Letting go of anything precious is hard. Loving people have
taught themselv es that holding on is possessiveness. Anyone who has ever
been trapped in a possessive relationship knows its smotherin g effect. It
isn’t love when another person cannot give you the space to live your own
life.
Giving space isn’t simple. You must be willing to allow another person
their whole being. You must give permission for someone else’s ideas,
feelings, reactio ns, and will to be expressed freely. People who have taught
themselves to give on all levels have discovered a critical ingredient of
living their love stories.
They don’ t expect anything in r eturn for being good.
We all make a connection between love and goodness. Attraction is based
on the assumpti on that another person has something good to bring into
your


 accomplishment of your de sire.
The sound basis for the art and science of true prayer is your
knowledge and complete confidence that the movement of your
conscious mind will gain a definite response from your subconsciou s
mind, which is one with boundless wis-dom and infinite power. By
following this procedure, your pray-ers will be answered.
• The visualization technique
The easiest and most obvious way to formulate an idea is to
visualize it, to see it in your mind’s eye as vividly as if  it were alive.
You can see with the naked eye only what already exists in the
external world; in a similar way, that which you can visualize in your
mind’s eye already exists in the invisible realms of your mi nd. Any
picture, which you have in your mind, is the substance of things hoped
for and the evidence of things not seen. What you form in your
imagination is as real as any part of your body. The idea and the
thought are real and will one day appear in your objective world if you
are faithful to your mental image.
This process of thinking forms impressions in your mind; these
impressions in turn become manifested as facts and ex-peri ences in
your life.
The builder visualizes the type of build-ing he wants; he s ees it as
he desires it to be completed. His imagery and thought-process es
become a plastic mold from which the building will emerge—a
beautiful or an ugly one, a skyscraper or a very low one. His ment al
imagery is projected as it is drawn on paper. Eventually, the contractor
and his  work-ers gather the essential materials, and the b uilding
progresses until it stands finished, conforming perfectly to the mental
pat-terns of the architect.
 75  I use the visualization technique prior to speaking from the
platform. I quiet the wheels of my mind in order that I may pres ent to
the subconscious mind my images of thought. Then, I picture the
entire auditorium and the seats filled with men and women, and each
one of them illumined and inspired by the in-finite healing presence
within each one. I see them as radiant, happy, and free.
Having first built up the idea in my imagination, I quietly sustain it
there as a mental picture while I imagine I hear men and wome n
saying, “I am healed,” “I feel wonderful,” “I’ve had an instanta neous
healing,” “I’m transformed.” I keep this up for about ten minute s or
more, knowing and feeling that each per-son’s mind and body are
saturated with love, wholeness, beauty, and perfection. My aw areness
grows to the point where in my mind I can actually hear the voic es of
the multitude proclaim-ing their health and happiness; then I rele ase
the whole picture and go onto the platform. Almost every Sunday
some people stop and say that their prayers were answered.
• Mental movie method
The Chinese say, “A picture is worth a thousand words.” Willia m
James, the father of American psychology, stressed the fact th at the
subconscious mind will bring to pass any pic-ture held in the mind and
backed by faith. Act as though I am, and I will be.
A number of years ago I was in the Middle West lecturing in se veral
states, and I desired to have a permanent location in the general  area
from which I could serve those who desired help. I traveled far, but
the desire did not leave my mind. One evening, while in a hotel i n
Spokane, Washington, I relaxed completely on a couch, immobilized
my attention, and in a quiet, passive manner imagined that I w as
talking to a large audience, saying in effect, “I am glad t o be here; I
have prayed for the ideal opportunity.” I saw in my mind’s ey e the
imaginary audience, and I felt the reality of it all. I playe d the role of
the actor, dramatized this mental movie, and felt satisfied that this
picture was being conveyed to my subconscious mind, which would
bring it to pass in its own way. The next morning, on awakening, I  felt
 76  a great sense of peace and satisfaction, and in a few days ’ time I
received a telegram asking me to take over an organization in the
Midwest, which I did, and I enjoyed it immensely for several years.
The method outlined here appeals to many who have de-scribed it as
“the mental movie method.” I have received nu-merous letters f rom
people who listen to my radio talks and weekly public lectu res, telling
me of the wonderful results they get using this technique in  the sale of
their property. I suggest to those who have homes or property fo r sale
that they satisfy themselves in their own mind that their pr ice is right.
Then, I claim that the Infinite Intelligence is attracting to them the
buyer who really wants to have the property and who will love i t and
prosper in it. After having done this I suggest that they quiet t heir
mind, relax, let go, and get into a drowsy, sleepy state, which reduce s
all mental effort to a minimum. Then, they are to picture t he check in
their hands, rejoice in the check, give thanks for the check, and g o off
to sleep feeling the naturalness of the whole mental movie c reated in
their own mind. They must act as though it were an objective rea lity,
and the subconscious mind will take it as an impression, and thro ugh
the deeper currents of the mind the buyer and the seller are brought
together. A mental picture held in the mind, backed by faith, wi ll
come to pass.
• The Baudoin technique
Charles Baudoin was a professor at the Rousseau Institute in France.
He was a brilliant psychotherapist and a research direct or of the New
Nancy School of Healing, who in 1910 taught that the best way to
impress the subconscious mind was to enter into a drowsy, sle epy
state, or a state akin to sleep in which all effort was r educed to a
minimum. Then in a quiet, passive, receptive way, by reflec tion, he
would convey the idea to the subconscious.
The following is his formula: “A very sim-ple way of securi ng this
(impregnation of the subconscious mind) is to condense the idea
which is to be the object of sug-gestion, to sum it up in a b rief phrase
 77  which can be readily graven on the memory, and to repeat it over  and
over again as a lullaby.”
Some years ago, a young lady in Los Angeles was engaged in a
prolonged bitter family lawsuit over a will. Her husband had
bequeathed his entire estate to her, and his sons and daugh-ters  by a
previous marriage were bitterly fighting to break the wil l. The
Baudoin technique was outlined to her, and this is what she did: She
relaxed her body in an armchair, entered into the sleepy stat e and, as
suggested, condensed the idea of her need into a phrase consist ing of
six words easily graven on the memory. “It is finished in Divi ne
Order.” The significance to her of these words meant that Inf inite
Intelligence operating through the laws of her subconscious mind
would bring about a harmonious adjustment through the principle o f
harmony. She continued this procedure every night for about ten
nights. After she got into a sleepy state, she would affirm s lowly,
quietly, and feelingly the statement: “It is finished in Divine  Order,”
over and over again, feeling a sense of inner peace and an al l-per-
vading tranquility; then she went off into her deep, normal sleep.
On the morning of the eleventh day, following the use of the above
technique, she awakened with a sense of well-being, a conviction that
it was finished. Her attorney called her the same day, saying that the
opposing attorney and his clients were willing to settle. A har monious
agreement was reached, and litigation was discontinued.
• The sleeping technique
By entering into a sleepy, drowsy state, effort is reduced to a
minimum. The conscious mind is submerged to a great extent w hen in
a sleepy state.
The reason for this is that the highest degree of outcropping  of the
subconscious occurs prior to sleep and just after we awaken. I n this
state the negative thoughts, which tend to neutralize your desire and so
prevent acceptance by your subconscious mind, are no longer present.
Suppose you want to get rid of a destructive habit. Assume a
comfortable posture, relax your body, and be still. Get into a sleepy
 78  state, and in that sleepy state, say quietly, over and over ag ain as a
lullaby, “I am completely free from this habit; harmony and pe ace of
mind reign supreme.” Repeat the above slowly, quietly, and lovingl y
for five or ten minute’s night and morning. Each time you repeat t he
words the emotional value becomes greater. When the urge comes t o
repeat the negative habit, repeat the above formula out loud by
yourself. By


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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!109the last few days, I had been thinking of doing a coffee enema, and ﬁnally today the timing felt right to do it.  First, I did an enema with warm plain bottled water just to rinse out the colon.  Then, I prepared the coffee using 100% organic ground coffee beans.  I diluted the coffee with some water and inserted about 1 liter of coffee into the colon.  I held the liquid for 12 minutes to allow the full transfer of coffee into the liver via the portal vein.  After 12 minutes, I released the ﬂuid.  And the result: I felt fantastic.  I plan to do another coffee enema in 2 days, and perhaps again 2 days after that.In terms of weight loss from this fast, I think I lost somewhere in the range of 15 kg, or 33 pounds.  Honestly, at the end of the fast, I was really too thin as I am quite tall at 5’8” or 173 cm.  My face was gaunt and my legs were starting to look like sticks.  I am much happier to gain 5 kg back which is very normal to do after a water fast.  From there, we will see what happens, but I have a distinct feeling that it will be much easier for me to keep weight off now that I do not have almost 22 feet of ascaris round worms to feed every day too!  I still cannot fathom how so many were living inside of me!!  The grand total is at 21.66 feet or 6.60 meters of worms.  Goodbye!!So, that is where this stories ends, for now.  Like everything in life, there is really no beginning or end - we are all here simply to evolve and grow, continuing to learn along the way.Thank you for being part of my journey and allowing me to share this very personal experience with you.  I wish you all the best in your own Eating!
!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!110journey!  I send you my genuine and sincere love and blessings for a healthy, natural, whole and pure you!Eating!
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!112EpilogueWhen all the dark clouds roll awayAnd the sun begins to shineI see my freedom from across the wayAnd it comes right in on timeWell it shines so bright and it gives so much lightAnd it comes from the sky aboveMakes me feel so free makes me feel like meAnd lights my life with loveChorus:And it seems like and it feels likeAnd it seems like yes it feels likeA brand new day, yeah...A brand new day oh...I was lost and double crossedWith my hands behind my backI was longtime hurt and thrown in the dirtShoved out on the railroad trackI've been used, abused and so confusedAnd I had nowhere to runBut I stood and lookedAnd my eyes got hookedOn that beautiful morning sunChorus:And the sun shines down all on the groundYeah and the grass is oh so greenAnd my heart is still and I've got the willAnd I don't really feel so meanHere it comes, here it comes0h here it comes right nowAnd it comes right in on timeWell it eases me and it pleases meAnd it satisﬁes my mindLyrics from the song ‘Brand New Day’ by Van MorrisonPersonal Story - 40-Day Fast
!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!114About the AuthorJennifer Thompson was educated in Environmental Systems Engineering at the University of Pennsylvania, Philadelphia PA, USA and worked in the public and private sector as an Engineer for several years before eventually making a lifestyle change to a more spiritual, healthy and balanced life.All of her knowledge was put to the test when she went through her own battle with illness. For 2.5 years, Jennifer had a horrible full-body itchy rash that doctors were not able to diagnose. She eventually managed to heal herself through detox and change of diet. If you ever want to compliment Jennifer on her now radiant and glowing skin, it’s a compliment that she is very proud to accept! Jennifer is a fully trained and qualiﬁed IIPA Certiﬁed Comprehensive Iridologist (CCI).  She provides Iridology Readings & Raw Food Coaching to clients, teaches Raw Food and Healthy Living courses, offers detox, fasting and cleansing support and continues to educate, motivate and inspire others on their journey of healing. Jennifer works as a Certiﬁed Iridology Practitioner, Raw Food Educator and also a Detox/Fasting, Vegan/Live Foods, Green Smoothie and Healthy Habits Coach. She offers lectures, workshops, training and one-on-one consultations at health and detox spas around the world. She has worked with clients and presented workshops in Australia, USA, China, Korea, Malaysia, Hong Kong, Japan, Dubai, Israel, Jordan, Indonesia and Thailand.Photos of Parasites/WormsWarning:  If you have an aversion to seeing intestinal roundworms, you may want to skip this section.  Every worm was photographed and measured for purposes of documenting the experience and sharing this information with as many people as possible.Day 8The first worm...let the exodus begin!!
Day 9Yes, these are inches. 17 inches = 43 cm!!
Day 10Female Ascaris can be 2 feet in length or more
Day 11Ascaris can lay up to 200,000 eggs per day!!
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!117Day 12Ascaris can leave the colon & move to other areas
Day 13A s c a r i s  i s  t h e  m o s t  c o m m o n  w o r m found in humans16
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!11816 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ascaris_lumbricoidesDay 14A t  l e a s t  4  m i l l i o n  A m e r i c a n s  h a v e Ascaris worms17
Day 16Roughly 1.5 billion people worldwide are infected
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!11917 http://www.medical-explorer.com/parasites.php?024Day 18Ascaris worms can perforate the bowel18
Day 23Ascaris feeds on partially digested food
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!12018 http://home.austarnet.com.au/~wormman/WLNEMA.HTMDay 2498% of people infected have abdominal pain19
Day 28A s c a r i s  i n  t h e  m o s t  c o m m o n  w o r m  i n f e c t i o n in the world20
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!12119 http://emedicine.medscape.com/article/212510-overview#a019920 http://globalnetwork.org/about-ntds/factsheets/ascariasisDay 34Severe cases can cause intestinal blockage21
Day 35Fresh Ginger is known to kill roundworms22
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!12221 http://globalnetwork.org/about-ntds/factsheets/ascariasis22 http://www.digitalnaturopath.com/cond/C171273.htmlDay 36Thyme is known to kill roundworms23
Day 37Follow-Up Parasite Cleansing is Important
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!12323 http://www.digitalnaturopath.com/cond/C171273.htmlDay 38Fresh Garlic helps to kill adult worms24
Day 39Water Fasting Starves the Ascaris Worms
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!12424 http://www.emedicinal.com/diseases/worms.phpDay 43Raw garlic, ginger & onions are known to help remove worms
Day 44Humaworm seems to be working!
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!www.healthybliss.net!!!!!!!!!125ResourcesA Cure for All Diseases, Dr. Hulda ClarkCleanse and Purify Thyself Book One & Two, Dr. Richard AndersonEvery Body has Parasites, Valerie SaxionFasting Can Save Your Life, Herbert Shelton & Ronald CridlandProgram for Dynamic Health, T. C. FryRational Fasting, Arnold EhretThe Essene Gospel of the Peace, translated by E Bordeaux SzekelyThe Live Food Factor, Susan SchenckThe Master Cleanse, Stanley BoroughsThe Miracle of Fasting, Paul C. Bragg & Patricia BraggThe Tao of Detox, Daniel ReidWater Can Undermine or Save Your Health, Norman WalkerWhat’s Eating You? People and Parasites, Eugene Kaplan80-10-10


, he had difficult problem of chronic angina.  8 “The information of Urine-therapy came and immediately he began the therapy. Thanks to God, the boy no longer needs the operation."  from Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  ANIMAL DIABETES    “Shri S. N. Shipra is a resident of Madanpura area in Bombay. His grey-coloured racing mare (horse) used to be indisposed. Soon after the purchase she was emaciated and had considerably weakened by the time she arrived at Bombay. Her poor state of health was supposed to be due to underfeeding during the course of train journey. “A week after her arrival at her master's house, an examination of her stools was made. After some treatment, it became apparent that she urinated profusely and at short intervals. After a few days blood appeared in her urine. To check its flow with urine she was made to drink a mixture of Hexamine, Soda Sulphate and a  <<<NOTE>>> what is this word? >Map-sulfthrough a pipe. The bleeding ceased after a couple of days but the quantity of urine could not be checked. An examination of her urine revealed 20% sugar content. I decided to make her drink her own urine through a pipe; She passed nearly 4 lb. of urine every day. The entire urine was collected and was given on the next day. She was given to drink seven pipes full of urine in this way. “Some change was noticed in her condition after drinking four tubes full of urine and she started grazing normally after taking urine for the seventh time. The frequency of urination and the quantity decreased. Sugar content in her urine now was only 0.3/4%. In the meantime some one came to bargain for her. The owner got a good price for the mare and she left Bombay with her new owner hale and hearty."  Manav Mootra by R.M. Patel  ANXIETY  Adriana H. Sanchez {Mexico} "I am very nervous and also suffer from painful cramps. Started to drink the urine in November of '95 and thank God and chemistry, I have not suffered from cramps and I feel more confident about what I do and overall very calm."  Testimonials of Patients Cured by Urine Therapy http://paraisodelasalud.org/testimonios.htm  APOPLEXY <<<NOTE>>> give a short definition of apoplexy?   9 “S. Ashaben (Red Cross, Shandigahi) has a son who suffered from apoplexy. He could not be cured. Once the disease became very grave, Ashaban began to give him Urine Therapy. In a few days the boy began to recover, as he passed out all toxins by way of loose motions, and along with it there was a very big worm, 7 inches long. The boy recovered fully, and the doctors marveled at the speedy and complete recovery of the boy.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  APOPLEXY  “Vinood K. Motiwala of Bombay, age 26, was suffering from apoplexy for the last 12 years. He tried various methods, but to no avail. At last, he started Urine Therapy and cured this old and dangerous disease. He still continues the urine treatment to protect himself from its sudden attack.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  APPENDICITIS  “Ramamlal Trivedi is a young man of thirty. For the past years he has been suffering from constipation and other ailments. On the right portion of his stomach, acute pain developed, and there was an attack of fever also. A doctor diagnosed it as a case of appendicitis, and he was advised an operation. Dr. Salaria, being a surgeon, was consulted. The patient was admitted in his hospital on October 5th, 1958. Dr. Salaria did not operate on him but insisted that he adopt Urine Therapy. He was made to take his urine three times daily. An  enema douche with two pints of urine was also given as a result of which much of the excreta passed out. This treatment was repeated on the second and third day, and all the hard and undigested matter, stuck to the intestines passed out. Normal health was restored.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  APPENDICITIS  “A man, age 45, tells his story: For the last four years I was suffering from appendicitis. I was operated on in the famous Duffrin Hospital of Vadodara. Even after the operation there was no relief. Then I was examined by a number of doctors. All these doctors advised a second operation as the only remedy. Dr. N. N. examined the report carefully and declared that there was nothing wrong with the intestines or with the earlier operation. So he discharged me from his ward. 10 “Finally, when I was fed up with the malady and its allopathic treatment, I read about Urine Therapy. I started taking my own urine three times daily without fast. Within two days I felt some relief. But on the third night there was severe pain. Using common sense, I rubbed urine on the aching spot, and within ten minutes I fell asleep. Next day, I took urine the whole day and had a urine massage at night. Repetition of this treatment for six days completely relieved me of the pain which did not recur up til now. The experiment was continued for the past five weeks. There is no pain at all, and I feel fine. Diet, which I mostly had given up, has been resumed in full. A number of patients in Debhoi have taken this treatment and they report relief from their ailments."  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  APPENDICITIS  “The patient had constipation and dysentery for a long time. Later he developed appendicitis and was advised to get operated. He contacted Dr. Salaria who asked him to get admitted in his hospital. Dr. Salaria did no operation but persuaded the patient to go under urine therapy. he was made to drink his own urine three times a day and given urine enema. This cleared his intestines. The process was continued for three days. Even old and dried up stool came out and patient became healthy without operation.”  from Miracles of Urine Therapy, by Morarji Desai  ARTERIOSCLEROSIS  “Andre K. suffered for years with arteriosclerosis. The circulation problems in his arms caused both numbness and pain. A few weeks after he started the recommended oral urine therapy in conjunction with massages, the pain ceased.”  from Drink Your Own Water, by Tony Scazzero  ARTHRITIS    "I was diagnosed as having rheumatoid arthritis at the age of twenty-eight. The pain and swelling in the joints of my hands was unbelievable. I also suffered from migraine headaches since I was eight years old and it was very common for me to take a bottle of Excedrin with me everywhere I went. I never left my house without that bottle. I had also developed a severe weight problem over the years and had gotten up to almost 200 pounds.  11 “Finally, I met someone who told me about this natural miracle therapy, but the best miracle of all is me. I started taking [this fluid] and four and a half months later I weighed 130 pounds. I lost 68 pounds! My arthritis is gone, my headaches are gone and I feel like I'm 20 years old.”  — Mrs B., Florida,  from Your Own Perfect Medicine, by Martha Christy  ARTHRITIS  Jose Guadalupe S. Gonzalez {Mexico} "A year ago for three months, I started with the method of Urine-therapy because I [had] a case of disease. I had pains in the joints, rheumatoid arthritis, dental decays. “Today I can say to them that I am cured completely of the diseases. I also must mention in addition I now have black hair. My age is 70 years old and since I take Urine I feel like 50 years old. I thank God and Chemistry by the knowledge of this method."  from Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  ASTHMA  “I happened to meet Shri Chhaganbhai Solanki at Gramodyog Mandir, Pendak, Rajko on 17-2-1977. He works in the leather workshop, there for the last several years. He is 60. He incidentally disclosed to me that he had been suffering from hereditary asthma from his boyhood. During winter his complaint would take severe turn. He was a chain-smoker and even ate tobacco.  Some ten years ago at my instance he gave up tobacco and started taking his urine daily twice or thrice. Within six or seven months his asthma took his leave.”  from Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  ASTHMA  “Dr. Natvarlal B. Shah, M.B.B.S., of Thasara, Kaira District, had been suffering from asthma for the last 15 years. He tried urine treatment and was cured.”  from Manav Mootra, by R. M. Patel  ASTHMA  12 “Shri Chaturbhai, an inhabitant of Mogari, Dist. Kaira, has deep faith in urine therapy. By this natural and simple treatment, he successfully cured four members of his family. This success story of urine treatment spread in Anand and adjoining villages. Dr. Prabhudas Patel of Karamsad is my relative. He told me that under his guidance an old man of sixty was relieved of asthma of


 that sponsored those thoughts. Finish the
following sentence...
My truth about this situation is that... ... now complete the sentence. You might write, My truth about this situation is that... it
is hurtful...  or... it is dangerous...  or... it cannot be  solved...  or... it....
Now, look at the Judged Past Data from which this truth emerges. See now if you can
look past that Judged Past Data for just a moment, to the Factual Past Data. What is factual,
without making a judgment one way or the othe r, about situations such as the present
situation? What has your past told you, factually, about these situations?
Pretend that you are Mr. Spock on the starship Enterprise. Look at it logically. Looking at
Past Data logically, and utterly without judgment, what do you see is true about the last two
or three times this sort of thing has happened to you? Has it inflicted any kind of life -
damaging injury, from which you have not been able to recover? Have you, in fact,
recovered from a lot worse than this? Ha ve, in some instances, things even turned out for
the better when all was said and done? What is the Factual  Past Data about all of this?
Now look to see... does this impact your truth about the Present Moment experience in
any way? Can you cause it  to impact your truth in any way? If you could, how would you
cause it to affect your truth? Could you go so far as to create a brand new truth about what
just happened?
Can you see yourself elevating from the Imagined Truth to the Apparent Truth?
This stuff w orks, my wonderful friend. This stuff works. But right now, listen to what
your mind is telling you. Is it saying, “Yeah, yeah, for you it works. But for me, life is a
constant struggle” —? Is that what your mind is saying right now? If not, great. But if i t is,
then start where Mary O’Malley, in her deep wisdom, would advise: curiosity and
compassion. Just allow yourself to be curious about what your mind is saying, and have
compassion for what you learn. Mary softly suggests asking these questions of yours elf:
What is the way through this? What am I really? What is asking to be seen? What do I need
to say, do, or be that is for the highest good? What is needing my loving attention? What is
the next step in my life?
“Bear witness.” Watch gently where your mi nd is going, what your mind is doing. Do not
make yourself “wrong” for it. Do not scold yourself or berate yourself, and above all, do not
abandon yourself. Just be with yourself and be curious about yourself and ask yourself
questions about yourself. And most of all, love yourself through all of it.
Stay with yourself, bring yourself to the present moment, maybe by just listening to your
breath, maybe by looking at something in the room. Then quietly, softly, give yourself
permission to make a new choice i f you wish. Embrace a new truth.
We will conclude part 1  of this extraordinary exploration of how you can change
everything... with a final insight about the Mechanics of the Mind:
TRUTH IS CREATED, IT IS NOT DISCOVERED.
God  says, “Lay the Hammer down.”
Which is really my own voice, make no mistake.
And it is your own voice, too.
So “Lay the Hammer down”
and bring your hand to your lips,  or lay it against your heart, whispering
“Sweet forgiveness,”
though there is nothing to forgive.
All we do is try to Love.
It appears as everything: anger, fear, and hurt of every kind.
But all we do is try to Love.
There is nothing to forgive
save, lifting the Hammer again...
—‘Lay the Hammer Down’  © 2007 Em Claire  PART TWO
The  System of the Soul
And how knowing about that can help you create the changes in your life, rather than endure
them  16.
THE ANSWER TO EVERYTHING
NOW WE LAUNCH INTO  what I consider to be the most exciting portion of this or any other
book.
Did I just say, “Or any other book?” Yes, I did. Because I don’t think there’s any book ever
written  that contains information more vital, more crucial, more critical, more important,
more empowering, and more directly connected to your ability to experience life as you
have always wished and hoped and aspired to experience it, than the information you are
going to be given right now.
I hope you will make notes in the margins everywhere. I hope that the pages become
ragged and dog -eared and thin from wear. If you’re readin g this electronically, I hope you
will highlight every line and paragraph that shouts to you in your soul’s own voice: This is
what you came here to hear.
I want to tell you now about the System of the Soul.
The Mechanics of the Mind were just that: the me chanics, the interlocking, interacting
devices in what I like to call “the engine of your experience.” What we’ll be examining now
is the fuel. This is where the engine gets its power. And when we finish with the
explorations in the second part of this boo k, you’ll have everything you need to change
everything when everything changes.
In a world that is constantly changing and a personal life that seems buffeted by major
changes every time you turn around, it is important to understand how and why you
exper ience change the way that you do, so that you can change  your experience of change if
you wish.
It is not easy to observe collapse, calamity, and catastrophe and remain at peace. Yet it
can be done —and here, you and I are going to look at how.
We’ll begin our exploration of the System of the Soul by announcing that you have  a soul.
This is not a “given” for all people. There are those who believe that humans are simply
particular forms of life, that there is no “spirit” that lives inside of them. The discus sion that
follows presumes that the previous statement is mistaken. It further presumes the
existence of what we might call an Oversoul —or what some people refer to as God.
These presumptions are based on more than blind faith. They are based on observation,
logic, and the extrapolation of both.
We know from just a casual look at the Universe that energy exists. This energy appears
to be at the core of every living thing —and, indeed, of everything, whether we normally
refer to it as “living” or no t.
For instance, to use our previous example, a rock.
A rock appears to be inert, and would not normally be categorized as a living organism
in the usual use of those words. Yet if you define that which lives as that which moves
according to an impeccable and precise design (which seems to suggest some level of intelligence  at its core) that is clearly part of a larger and elegant system, then rocks are
very much alive —for a close examination of rocks under a powerful magnifier will reveal a
microcosm that is a virtual duplicate of the macrocosm.
It has not been lost on scientists and it should not be lost on you that telescopes and
microscopes see the same thing: a system  of particles or “balls” of energy, whirling at
terrific speed around a core, or nucleu s, the whole configuration of which is held together
by some invisible yet obviously present and pervasive force.
Put another way, peer deeply into the sub -molecular structure of a rock (or anything )
and you will see a small “universe.” You will also see t hat something is driving that universe.
This “something” cannot be seen. Its effects  can be seen, but the energy itself that creates
those effects is not visible to the naked eye.
Does this mean that energy does not exist? It does not.
All that can be seen  is not all that is.
Now I come to tell you that what we have decided to call “the soul” is part of that which
cannot be seen: an energy system that makes all things move and animates life. So, too, is
what we have decided to call “God.” In fact, God is the system itself.
God Is the Largest Manifestation of a System That Replicates Itself in Smaller and Smaller
Versions through a Process That Empowers the System Itself to Exist and to Expand.
This is the System of the Soul, and it is impeccable. Its functio ning is perfect. Its design is
elegant. Its purpose is clear. Its power is immutable.
It can be no other way or the System itself would dis -integrate. That is, it would stop
integrating itself, and thus, cease to be.
This would mean that God is in everythi ng; that life is in everything. And this is true. And
at a soul level, we know this. That is why we personify inanimate objects. We give our boats
names and we fall in love with


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must carry with it a warning to all, that it is not intended to be a cure, but rather a
program to be used in conjunction with the guidance of your own physician for the
resolution of degenerative disease. As the writer of this preface, I  can say that the
truth of Dr. Kelley's paradigm is both preventive and healing. I  wish you God's speed
and hope that the truth w ill set you free.
Greg Stirling,
Vancouver, British Columbia
March 1997
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Foreword
Health is a wonderful possession. It does not last forever, although most of
us assume it will. It is not until we lose our health that we seek diligently to
regain it. Often it is too late, and always too expensive.
It is the purpose of Dr. Kelley is to help those who desire and are willing to work
for their better health. It is ever the objective of Dr. Kelley to point out the metabolic
deficiencies in the metabolism of each person who has the malfunction, not to treat
the disease that has the person.
It is our desire to advise, teach, and counsel a person in such a way that he and
he alone is responsible for his or her health. A doctor cannot "cure" you of anything.
If you have a broken arm, the physician may set it — but only you — your own body
— may "cure" or heal the break. Of course, during your lifetime you w ill need the
help of many in the healing professions: The dentist, the osteopath, the chiropractor,
the naturopath, the biochemist, the nutritionist, and last but not least, the spiritual
counselor. Although these experts may give you aid, you must assume the
responsibility of accepting and following their advice.
In researching some of the more complex disease processes, it became more and
more evident to us that cancer is a simple deficiency condition. We have proven this
to our own satisfaction, and to the satisfaction of many counselees.
This publication is a simplified, condensed, practical application of our
investigations and findings. We present these findings because there have been so
many prayers unto God for a solution to this simple problem.
To successfully resolve cancer, however simple, is a tedious and lengthy
metabolic process. It is not expensive as compared to the "accepted" surgical,
radiological, or chemotherapy methods, and has proven very effective.
It is our desire that this booklet be a helpful aid to many who are themselves or
have lost loved ones afflicted with malignancy.
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In tro d u c tio n
A comprehensive defense program must recognize the existence of more than one
potential enemy. Metabolic Medicine can handle other enemies besides cancer. It is,
in fact, a lifestyle for peace or war — one that can keep you in an ideal state of
readiness.
Over the last 42 years or so, the medical profession and the medical community
have progressed to unprecedented heights and achievements in areas of
reconstruction and surgical procedure. They have worked hard and deserve every bit
of the respect and honor they receive. They have done remarkably well in applying
technological advances to their profession.
The medical community has centered its energies and advancement on the
infectious and traumatic cases. It has all but conquered infections of all types.
Surgical procedures and treatment of traumatic ills have advanced equally with
control of the infectious diseases. In short, what the medical community does, it does
well, unsurpassed in the history of mankind.
But the problems for which the medical community is so well trained and
equipped to handle account for only a percentage of the illnesses in our society. In
the balance of the cases involving degeneration or metabolic conditions, little hope is
received.
Down through the years, cancer patients have had such excellent results with
Metabolic Medicine that they have brought other family members and friends for
nutritional counseling. The range of diseases for which Dr. Kelley has planned
nutritional programs covers the complete gamut of degenerative and metabolic ills,
even some infectious diseases and structural conditions.
Dr. Kelley distinguishes between degenerative disease and metabolic disease in
this example: Adult-onset diabetes is degenerative; childhood-onset diabetes is
metabolic. Metabolic diseases can result from improper nutrition to the fetus due to
the faulty diet of the mother during pregnancy. (It is widely recognized among
medical authorities that birth defects have risen dramatically in recent years.)
Metabolic disease can result from injury or other trauma. Metabolic diseases are
those, which do not result from long-term physical degeneration.
Dr. Kelley's experience with over 33,000 benefactors led or leads him to believe
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Winning The Cancer War
that balancing body chemistry through nutrition is a realistic approach, which should
be investigated on a larger scale. How long this w ill take, or whether it will be done
at all, is a matter of speculation. Many readers, or their friends, are desperately
seeking help for conditions that could be alleviated through nutritional balancing of
body chemistry. Cancer is just one of these conditions. A large part of Dr. Kelley's
Nutritional Counseling is devoted to planning nutritional programs for people who do
not have cancer. Whatever the specific metabolic-degenerative condition may be,
hope and encouragement is justified by the many favorable reports from those who
have already benefited from Metabolic Medicine.
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Warnin g  &  Disclaim e r
The publisher and the distributors, Dr. Kelley Metabolic Nutrition, Inc., College of
Metabolic Medicine® www.DrWDKelley.com, www.AscitiesHelp.com.
www.drkelley.com.  Dr. Kelley International INC. do not endorse any of the views,
procedures or recommendations of Metabolic Support presented by Dr. Kelley. The
entire contents of this publication and the listed web sites, are based upon the
opinions of Dr. Kelley's 40 years experience. They are not intended to replace a one-
on-one relationship with a qualified health care professional or intended as medical
advice.
They are intended to share knowledge and information from the research and
experiences of Dr. Kelley and his community. Dr. Kelley encourages you to make
your own health care decisions based upon your research and in partnership with a
qualified health care professional. Publication and distribution are made solely to
inform readers who have a specific interest in alternative information for cancer and
health care. Readers are cautioned against following any procedure for any serious
disease without medical consultation. The views expressed herein are those of Dr.
Kelley solely. The Internet providers, publishers and distributors disclaim any
association with the author's views and comments.
Warning of Fraud
From Park Avenue in New York City to the motel clinics and marble palaces of
Northern Mexico, deception, misrepresentation, and out-right fraud are inflicted
upon a multitude of desperate cancer victims in unprecedented heights never before
known to mankind.
They are committed daily by fly-by-night promoters, the international multi-level
conglomerate giants, doctors who claim to be medical school graduates, and
"practitioners" who have bought mail-order doctorate diplomas. Orthodox physicians
as well as alternative and complementary health care doctors commit deception and
plunder in order to line their greedy pockets, a practice that might be considered
murder.
Many of these unscrupulous individuals claim they are using Dr. Kelley's program
or supplements formulated by Dr. Kelley. Many have the nerve to say that their
formula is an improvement over Dr. Kelley's concepts. These wicked, lawless
creatures make false claims that they are using Dr. Kelley's methods and/or have
studied with Dr. Kelley. Nothing could be further from the truth!
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Winning The Cancer War
These dishonest individuals want you to think that their programs are as good as, or
better, than Dr. Kelley's Original Metabolic Medicine's Cancer Cure Program®. They
also try to deceive you by using Dr. Kelley as an authority figure when they do not
even comprehend his concepts. Most importantly, not one of them can approach Dr.
Kelley's cancer cure success rate. Unless Dr. Kelley endorses their programs or
supplements, the fact is that they are only guessing at what they are doing. Do not be
misled by these fakirs!
"Cancer" is Impossible to "Cure"
A. M alignant  Tumors  w ill develop which the medical communities, both
orthodox and alternative, in total error call cancer. Proper treatment of these
malignant tumors include:
1. Reduce the intake of heavy meat proteins like pork, beef, fish, and foul for
at least six months
2. Use and take pure pancreatic enzymes with their activators.
3. Add to the diet as much raw, organic fruits and vegetables and/or their
juice as possible.
4. Properly detoxify the body and increase blood circulation.
5. Remove as much of the enzyme inhibitors and blockers as possible and
preaxial.
6. Maintain a positive spiritual and mental attitude.
Note: When one has delayed in starting our natural metabolic program until
you have exhausted other forms of therapy or your tumor mass has gown
exceedingly large before diagnosis or has invaded the bone or you have
enzyme inhibitors preventing enzyme activity, you must address these
conditions in addition to following our program very carefully and completely.
When the normal cancer recovery metabolic pathway is blocked or inhibited from
resolving malignant tumors you must seek other more painful, drastic, devastating,
damaging and temporary methods of addressing these malignant tumors. These
methods are only temporary and the tumors always return, usually more vicious than
before unless you also use Dr.Kelley


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guish between a flower that is alive and one that is dead? The one
that is growing is alive. The only evidence of life is growth! This is
also true in the psychological world. If you are growing, you are
alive. If you are not growing then you might as well be dead.
You can be motivated out of a desire to grow rather than a need
to repair your deficiencies. If you recognize that you can always
grow, improve, become more and greater, that is enough. When you
decide to be immobilized or to experience hurtful emotions, you’ve
made a nongrowth decision. Growth motivation means using your
life energy for greater happiness, rather than having to improve
yourself because you’ve sinned or because you are in some way in-
complete.
A corollary of choosing growth as motivation is personal mastery
in every present moment of your life. Mastery means you are the
decider of your fate; you are not a coper, or a striver, or someone
who adjusts to the world. Rather you choose what your world will
be for you. George Bernard Shaw expressed it in Mrs. Warren’s Pro-
fession,
People are always blaming their circumstances for what they
are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on in
this world are the people who get up and look for the circum-
stances they want, and if they can’t find them, make them.
But remember what was said at the beginning of this chapter.
Changing the way you think, or feel, or live is possible but never
easy. Let’s be hypothetical for a moment. If you were26 / Your Erroneous Zonestold, at point of gun, that within one year you would have to com-
plete a difficult task, such as running a mile in four minutes and
thirty seconds, or performing a perfect jackknife dive from the high
board, and failure to do so would result in your execution, you
would set out on a regimented schedule in which you would practice
each and every day until your time came to deliver. You would be
training your mind  as well as your body because your mind tells
your body what to do. You would practice, practice, practice, never
yielding to the temptation to quit or slack off. And you would deliv-
er, and consequently save your life.
This little fairy story is, of course, intended to make a point. No
one expects to train his body overnight and yet too many of us expect
our minds to respond with just such alacrity. When we are trying
to learn new mental behavior we expect to try it once, and have it
become a part of us instantaneously.
If you really want to be neurosis-free, self-fulfilled and in control
of your own choices, if you really want to achieve present-moment
happiness, you will need to apply the same kind of rigid application
to the task of unlearning the self-defeating thinking you have learned
up until now that you would give to the learning of any difficult
enterprise.
In order to master this kind of fulfillment, you’ll need to repeat
endlessly that your mind really is your own and that you are capable
of controlling your own feelings. The remainder of this book will be
an effort to help you in your personal goals by having you begin
precisely that repetition of such themes: you can choose, and your
present moments are yours for the enjoying—if you decide to be in
charge of you.TAKING CHARGE OF YOURSELF  / 27II
FIRST LOVE
Self-worth cannot be verified by others. You are
worthy because you say it is so. If you depend on
others for your value it is other-worth.
You may have a social disease, one that will not go away with a
simple injection. You are quite possibly infected with the sepsis of
low-esteem, and the only known cure is a massive dose of self-love.
But perhaps, like many in our society, you’ve grown up with the
idea that loving yourself is wrong. Think of others, society tells us.
Love thy neighbor, the church admonishes. What nobody seems to
remember is love thyself, and yet that is precisely what you’re going
to have to learn to do if you are to achieve present-moment happi-
ness.
You learned as a child that loving yourself, which was a natural
thing for you then, was akin to being selfish or conceited. You learned
to put others ahead of you, to think of others first because that
showed you were a “good” person. You learned self-effacement and
were nurtured on instructions like “share your things with your
cousins.” It didn’t matter that they were
28your treasures, your prized possessions, or that mommy or daddy
might not be sharing their big-people toys with others. You may
even have been told that you were to “be seen and not heard” and
that “you ought to know your place.”
Children just naturally think of themselves as beautiful and terribly
important, but by adolescence society’s messages have taken root.
Self-doubt is in full bloom. And the reinforcements continue as the
years pass. After all, you’re not supposed to go around loving
yourself. What will others think of you!
The hints are subtle and not malicious in intent, but they do keep
the individual in line. From parents and immediate family members
to schools, churches and friends, the child learns all those fine social
amenities that are the hallmarks of the adult world. Kids never acted
that way with each other, except to please older folks. Always say
please and thank you, curtsy, stand up when an adult enters, ask
permission to leave the table, tolerate the endless cheek pinching
and head patting. The message was clear: adults are important; kids
don’t count. Others are significant; you are insignificant. Don’t trust
your own judgment was corollary number one, and there was a full
cargo of reinforcers that came under the subheading of “politeness.”
These rules, disguised under the word manners,  helped you to intern-
alize the judgments of others at the expense of your own values. It’s
not surprising that those same question marks and self-denying
definitions persist into adulthood. And how do these self-doubts
get in the way? In the important area of loving others you may be
having a difficult time. Giving love to others is directly related to
how much love you have for yourself.
Love: A Suggested Definition
Love is a word that has as many definitions as there are people
to define it. Try this one on for size. The ability and willingness to allow
those that you care for to be what they chooseFIRST LOVE  / 29for themselves, without any insistence that they satisfy you.  This may be
a workable definition, but the fact remains that so few are able to
adopt it for themselves. How can you reach the point of being able
to let others be what they choose without insisting they meet your
expectations? Very simple. By loving yourself. By feeling that you
are important, worthy and beautiful. Once you recognize just how
good you are, you won’t have to have others reinforce your value
or values by making their behavior conform to your dictates. If
you’re secure in yourself, you neither want nor need others to be
like you. For one thing, you’re unique. For another, that would rob
them of their own uniqueness, and what you love in them are just
those traits that make them special and separate. It begins to fit. You
get good at loving yourself, and suddenly you’re able to love others,
to give to others, and do for others by giving and doing for yourself
first. Then there are no gimmicks to your giving. You’re not doing
it for the thanks or the payoffs but because of the genuine pleasure
you get from being a helper or a lover.
If the you is someone unworthy, or unloved by you, then giving
becomes impossible. How can you give love if you’re worthless?
What would your love be worth? And if you can’t give love, neither
can you receive it. After all what can the love be worth if it’s be-
stowed on a worthless person. The entire business of being in love,
giving and receiving, starts with a self that is totally loved.
Take Noah, a middle-aged man who claimed to love his wife and
children dearly. To show his affections he bought them expensive
gifts, took them on luxurious holidays, and was always careful when
away on business trips to sign his letters “love.” Yet Noah could
never bring himself to tell his wife or children that he loved them.
He had the same problem with his parents of whom he was tremend-
ously fond. Noah wanted to say the words; they ran through his
head repeatedly, yet every time he tried to say “I love you,” he got
all choked up.
In Noah’s head the words “I love you” meant he was putting
himself on the line. If he said “I love you,” someone must an-30 / Your Erroneous Zonesswer “I love you, too, Noah.” His statement of love must be met
with an affirmation of his own self-worth. Saying those words was
taking too much of a chance for Noah, for they might not be
answered and then his entire value would be in question. If, on the
other hand, Noah could start with the premise that he was lovable,
he would experience no difficulty in the


. Mutra. I went through it carefully
and began the treatment from 1-5-60. For one month I did the
rubbing and also kept two days• fast on urine only. The result was
the most satisfactory. Ten months have passed since then. My STOMACH DISEASES : 123
weight has increased to 170 lb. No medicine was taken thereafter.
Now I take 40 ounces of urine every day in three doses and feel
quite fit. If there is any trouble, it is instantaneously controlled with
a day•s fast on urine.
"It has resulted in financial savings also. I was in the habit of
smoking and chewing betels which I heve given up. It has saved me
nearly Rs. 250/-a year. In addition, Rs. 400/-were also saved which
were otherwise spent on medicine. The time spent on doctor•s visits
has also been saved.
"My wife· got 12 tumours on her neck. The doctor gave
prescription of medicines worth Rs. 100/-I began giving her urine
treatment and only in four days she was normal.
"Recently a gentleman was attacked by leprosy. He started this
experiment and the pain was checked. Besides that other troubles of
the body, i.e. cold, constipation, indigestion, etc. have also been
totally removed.
12. Dropsy : Shri lshwarlal N. Desai of Bilimora has
experimented with urine therapy on his 2 112 years old son. The
report of its good result is as follows:
"My son satish aged 2 112 years suffered from recurrence sickenss
since birth. Dysentery, vomiting and fever were the usual symptoms.
He got fever on 28-6-60 which generally went up to 105° and did
not subside at once. After that, on 15-11-60, he got inflammation on
the whole body which continued for six days. Only then the doctor
could diagnose that it was dropsy. At last medicines were stopped
but a new trouble arose. The child got blood and pus in urine along
with dysentery.
"The urine treatment was then started from 5-12-60. The boy
was given to dirink fresh urine. Besides that it was rubbed on his
whole body. In diet he was given rice and lentil soup. Thus fever
which could not be controlled for 4 112 months, was checked
within 6 days of this treament. Next week, he began to move about
on his knees. In the third week he stood up and began to totter. 124 : AUTO-URINE THERAPY
The treatment was continued up to 3-2-61. Even after that drinking
of urine was continued twice or thrice a day. Thus the child.got a
new life and health with this treatment, atatime when the days of
his life were numbered."
AFTERMATH OF CASES
1. Shri Pravinchandra Chunilal, aged thirty-six, is a businessman
of Bombay (11 0/111, Swadeshi Market, Bombay-2). He had
constant Constipation for years together and weighed only 90 lb.
He was not able to jnsure himself only because of his underweight.
He undertook urine treatment methodically and not only could cure
his old constipation but could increase his weight up to 125 lb.
2. Shri Amrital Trivedi (C/o Kapurchand Private Ltd., A.T.Road,
Gauhati, Assam) writest that his friend Shri Hanumanbhai could
reduce his fat and got rid a tumour by urine treatment and another
friend got rid of his pain on the elbow which was fractured before.
3. Shri Ratibhai M. Desai (Malad, Bombay) could cure his 3 years
old dysentery by this treatment.
4. Shri Chandulal H. Shah got rid of his years old gas-trouble by
urine therapy. ·
5. Shri Bhavasukhlal B. Mehta (Village Saras, Taluka Olpad, Dist.
Surat) could cure his own hyperacidity, piles and other ailments at a
time by auto-urine.
6. 5hri V. S. Nimbarkar (The janata Cloth Market, Tulsi Pipe
Road, Dadar, Bombay) could free himself ar:td his friends from
diseases l.i.ke loss of hunger, pain in the st.QmacA, and other ailrn~nts
by vrine therapy. ·
'i. Hemraj Manaji.Chavada (Raipur, M.P.) could get ri.d of his
gas-tr'()uble by auto-urine by following the treatment m.ethodically.
8. Shri L. N. Tandel (Colombo, Ceylon) could not only cure pain
.in the stomach hut ~lso a few turnot~rs on his penis by urine
tre.atment.
9..Shri Triloknathsinh from Bombay writes that he got rid of his
stomch:trouble, old cough & cold by regular treatment of urine
therapy.
Shri Kantilal S. Shah cured his old gas-trouble by auto-urine.
,.,,''l<•• CHAPTER XI
DISORDERS OF THE INTESTINES
1. Appendicitis : 1. Appendicitis is a common trouble these days.
The small intestine has a ::..~.dll appendix. The excretary refuse
sometimes accumulates there. As the days pass, the excreta ferments
and it dries and polutes the entire intestine. Finally as it generally
happens a doctor is consulted for diagnosis and treatment. The latter
readily advises the excision of the loose appendix as the only Vjay
out of the grievous pain and consequent danger which may prove
fatal.
It hardly seems possible that the appendix has no purpose to
serve. Anatomists assign to it the place of an air-valve in an engine.
The patient of appendicitis is therefore strongly advised to. observe
fast for four or five days. If urine is taken during the fast, it being an
anti-septic, removes inflammation, loosens the coats of excreta and
brings about relief from excessive pain. Thus urine-dringking and
douche with urine are of an invaluable help during fast. This simple
treatment for four-five days will relieve the patient of his trouble.
Following is an account of a patient from Dabhoi (Vadodara)
declared to be suffering from appendicitis by doctors. The patient
Shri Kaiidas Shankarbhai writes :
"I am 45 years old. For the last four years I was suffering from
appendicitis. I got myself operated in the famous Duffrin Hospital of
Vadodara. Even after the operation there was no relief. Then I was
examined by a mumber of doctros. All these doctors advised a
second operation as the only remedy. Dr. D. N. examined the report
carefully and declared that there was nothing wrong with intestines
or the earlier operation. So he discharged me from his ward.,.
"Finally, when I was fed up with the malady and its allopathic
treatment, I read your Manav Mutra by chance. I started taking
auto-urine thrice a day without fast. Within two days I felt some
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relief. But on the third night there was severe pain. Using common
sense, I rubbed urine on the aching spot and within ten minutes I
fell asleep. Next day I took urine the whole day and had a urine
massage at night. Repetition of this treatment for six days completely
relieved me of the pain which did not recur uptill now. The
experiment was continued for the past five weeks. There is no pain
at all and I feel fine. Diet which I mostly had given up has been
resumed in full. A number of patients in Dabhoi have taken this
treatment and they report relieffrom their ailments.11
2. Dr. Maganlal Salaria is a qualifed doctor as well as a Vaidya of
Ahmedabad. He operates according to Ayurvedic system of surgery.
His dispensary is located on the crossing of Saraspur and it has an
accommodation for out-door patients. He has deep faith in urine
therapy. Now he is 65. He is health and thinks auto-urine to be a
harmless drink for one1s health. To prove the fact that urine is a
perfect safeguard against disease-pervaded atmosphere, he took
auto-urine for four months and during the interval he took digestible
light diet once a day only. Within three months, he gatherd great
strenght and vigour in his body and his skin became lustrous due
to increased blood circulation. Wrinkles due to old age also
disappeared and there was an increase of 14 lb. in his weight. He
has no trouble whatsoever and works hard for 12 to 15 hours a day
and does not feel tired. ·
Dr. Salaria has treated with success a patient


body with urine, and then
rubbed  him for about two hours with my own. En passant, I may
remark that the most  important  parts of the body to rub are the face,
neck and  feet. After the rubbing, Mr. P. was washed down with  plain,
warm tapwater.  The following  day the treatment  was continued  for
some hours. Subsequently  Mr. P. came to my house every morning to
be rubbed  in the same manner. He did not enter the Nursing Home for
observation  or the exploratory  operation.  With regard to food, he was
allowed  to eat once a day,  but only such foods  as I advocated.  After one
month of treatment,  he was so far i mproved that he was able to return
to business. In twelve weeks he registered  complete  health, and no sign
either of the valvular  disease of the heart or the suspicious  l ump in the
solar plexus  remained;  a fact which  his doctor cheerfully  and
ungrudgingly  admitted.  Not once  since the day Mr. P. began the
treatment  did he have a heart attack,  and  so little did he fear a
recurrence  that he consigned  his drug tablets  to the flames!
Should it be supposed  that I am the only one who practises urine‐
therapy  with success, the following  casehistory  will serve to contravene
the assumption.
Mr. R. Heart disease with dropsy. Feet,  legs and  abdomen  greatly
swollen. Heart much dilated. Doctor took a very serious view of the
case,  and gave the patient only a month  to live. He was then induced to
try treatment  in a well‐ known  Naturopathic  Establishment.  The
treatment,  however,  proved so unsuccessful  and the patient was in
such a critical condition  that he was requested  to leave; seeing that he
was expected to die within a fortnight.  Mr. R. then heard of the
courageous  Naturopath,  Mr. Oliver Warnock‐Fielden, of Harrow who 63
 eventually  cured him with urine‐therapy  in six weeks. During the fast
his weight was reduced from about 12 to 7 stone 11½  lbs. Mr. R. had
been a very excessive  smoker,  and contrary to instructions,  smoked to a
certain extent during the fast ‐ a matter which  somewhat  delayed
progress.  Needless to say,  his doctor was very surprised  at his cure; the
more  so as Mr. R. had  thought it s ise not to divulge the modus
operandi.  As things stand at present, many people who do something
so unconventional  as to drink  their own urine are afraid to be
ostracised  by Their fears are quite understandable,  but  society.
obstructive  to the spread of urine‐therapy as a means of helping
suffering humanity.
I may  here  add  a word to this chapter  relative to what has been
pronounced  to be one of the causes of heart disease it modern times,
viz., serums and  vaccines.  According  to Dr. Benchetrit  these measures
"are  principally  responsible  for the increase of these two really
dangerous  diseases, cancer and  heart disease." The doctor adds: "I
have been for a long time a serologist  and I know  what I am talking
about." Dr. Benchetrit  is by no means the only doctor to criticise the
practice of employing  harmful preventatives  (or  alleged  to be
preventatives)  against  acute infectious  disease. Dr. S. S. Goldwater,
New  York Commissioner  of Hospitals,  pointed  out in The Modern
Hospital  Magazine  that measures  used to check contagious  diseases
may  permit of longer  (?) life but not of stronger life. "Chronic diseases,
" he adds, "are  growing at such a rate that America  may  become a
nation  of invalids. More  than half  the hospitalbeds  in the United States
to‐day are occupied by sufferers from chronic mental and physical
diseases. Middle‐aged and elderly persons are not the only sufferers;  64
 many children are victims. " (See  Health Practitioners  Journal, June,
1944.)
One may ask, if sera  and  vaccines are liable eventually  to produce
heart‐disease and  other  chronic serious ailments, why then are they
boosted by the B.M.A.? For, first  of all, as Dr. Alfred Pulford, M.D., has
tersely  remarked:  " Any one who can prevent an occurrence  positively
that he does not know  is bound to occur is indeed a seventh day
wonder  "; and  secondly certain renowned  bigwigs in the Medical
Profession  have demonstrated  that the most  " deadly " germs are
harmless  in a healthy body.  We read that " Prof. Metchnikoff  said he
found the bacilli of Asiatic cholera in the waters of many to alities, but
no epidemic or plague or disease was ever known  to be at any of these
places before or after his findings…  Prof. Tentenkoffer  swallowed
several million germs of the deadly (?) Asiatic cholera… Nothing
happened.  To verify the test, Prof. Emmrich  made a culture from the
intestines  of newly  dead victims of the disease, and  swallowed  millions
of germs, with no noticeable  results! To test even more thoroughly,  and
in far more  frightful conditions,  Dr. Thomas Powell  allowed the germs
of seven deadly (?) diseases to be shot i nto his blood‐ stream‐and


 Watching movies is
an enjoyable way to wake up and heal, compared to being in a difficult
family situation or in a confrontational relationship. W atching movies forhealing can help you get clear in those difficult situations faster. Being
aware of your state of mind, thoughts, and reactions while watching
movies accelera tes healing. It can be intense at first when you start to get
in touch  with emotions and belie fs, but it gives way to joy, and you open
up more to lasting peace, happiness, and contentment. Ultimately,
movies can help guide you to enlightenment. The Spirit showed me techniques for watching movies in a new
way—not as entertainment or escapism, but as a way to allow intense
emotions to arise for healing. Movies can trigger memories that have
been repressed and denied. When these intense emotions come up for
you, pause the film so you can be present with whatever is arising for
healing in the moment. Welcome  the feelings so they can be released and
open up to a new perspective.Exercise: Enjoy the Show! Watch the Disney movie, The Kid. Even if you’ve seen this movie
before, it is guaranteed that with this new purpose, you will have a
deeply meaningful and healing experience. Remember that the
purpose of watching the movie is for healing the mind by releasing
unconscious beliefs. Hold this intention of using it for healing
clearly in your mind before you start the movie. A simple  prayer
can be helpful:  “Holy Spirit, I invite a new and healing experience,
watching this movie with You.” During the movie, watch your
emotions and anything that the scenarios or characters bring up
for you. Even if you experience discomfort, try not to distract away
from it. More than anything, be willing to stop the movie and feel
and observe your emotions  during intense scenes, attractive
scenarios, or moments when  you want to know or think you know
what will happen next. Give yourself permission to stop
investigating and just be with what is arising in awareness. Following your viewing of the movie, answer these questions
in your journal (you may use some of these questions for any
movie that you watch going forward):
1. Do you see how observing your different perceptions allows
you to identify certain emotions and maybe even beliefs? Write down the emotions and beliefs you identify. 2. Did you experience any triggers or upsets from seeing any
particular scenes or conversations in the movie? What were
they? 3. What were your general feelings and associations about
Russ as a character in the beginning of the movie? 4. Russ seems to have a lot of stress over keeping his self-
image. How might this relate to you? Do you attempt to
keep a good self-image in dif ferent situations?5. How did you feel when little Rusty confronted him about the
way his life ended up as a forty-year-old—that he had no
dog or girlfriend and that he does not fly planes? 6. Does this movie remind you of anything about your past
that you try to hide or might still be upset about? Write
down anything that feels unresolved. 7. There is a funny scene when Russ makes an attempt to
find safety in a sandwich. Are there situations when you feel
that your self-image begins to fail? What are the forms of
“safety” that you try to use to cover insecurities? 8. How does Russ’ s attachmen t to his false identity block him
from true love and happiness? 9. What enables Russ to let go of his false identity and step
into an experience of love? Release and Rest:  Take some quiet time to detach and let
emotions and ideas from the processing of the movie drop away. Open your mind to the Holy Spirit to wash away any remaining
feelings and relax into peace. Take your time; there is never any
rush. Peace in Spiritual Perception
The power of desire is the determ iner of your state of mind. You are now
in the early stage of changing your perception, which really means
changing your life toward the real experience of peace. Small steps can
lead to some big shifts in your awareness. It’s important to be vigilant
with your perception and the tendency to perceive upsetting things as
real problems. This is a process  of looking honestly at your mind while
allowing your heart’ s desire to be purified. The spiritual journey will culminate when you open up to spiritual
vision, the vision of Christ, which takes you beyond the body entirely,
back into an awakened state. Spiritual vision is a vast experie nce. The
observer and the observed are one through healed, peaceful perception.When you perce ive the entire cosmos as unified and as neutral, you have
reached true perception. It’s like a happy movie that includes everything
and everyone. That’ s how you return to your Christ awaren ess. You
return first to this full and complete awareness that everything  is really
one, everything is the same, there are no differences. The purpose is to
see everything through the Holy Spirit’ s peaceful perspective or
interpretation. Therefore, “it is from your peace of mind that a peaceful
perception of the world arises.” In this perception, nothing is a struggle! “The miracle is a lesson in total perception.”Chapter 3
Fear
What if we knew that all the things that we do—all the plans, all the
busyness, as well as drama, bewilderment, despair, and conflict—are
chosen by a mind that is afraid of being present? This fear of being
present is disguised as many other fears. It can be fear of being alone,
fear of losing someone, fear of what other people think, fear of accidents
and catastrophes, or fear of threats, violence, and abuse, to mention a
few. Fear serves one egoic purpose: to keep us from feeling the
wonderment, the beauty, and the eternal calmness of the present
moment. The separate mind is untrained and unwilling to keep attentive
to the present since it is afraid of it. It is afraid of the Holy Spirit. The
reason for this may not be apparent. It believes the ego, and thus
separation from God, is real. It is attached to a tiny, imposter concept of
self that is not true or real. We have all felt fear; it is a universal
experience. It is an experience that exists in our minds but nevertheless,
because of projection, it always  seems to have external causes  and also
solutions, yet those solutions are never permanent. Fear locks us down. It
closes us up and isolates us from the world. Until questioned, it binds us
in a small and separate existenc e. Fear stems from a belief in a world of
duality. Once fear is questioned, it will no longer rule our minds, as my
friend Jenny learned through her experiences. Jenny’ s Example
I was br ought up in a family that went to an ecumenical chur ch. There was a deep belief in sin and guilt. For me, what sin was
always seemed strange, vague, and unclear. The teaching was
that we ar e all sinners. As a r esult, I had to r eally face the fear of
going to hell. One day, I sat on a stool in my r oom feelingbewilder ed, scar ed, and extr emely determined all at the same
time. The feeling was, “I have to follow my heart, and I have to
leave my chur ch.” And the belief in hell, which to that day had
been in the back of my mind, surfaced. The fear that I could
possibly go to hell was in the for efront. But I r esponded with,
“Okay, if I go to hell, I will still do this; I still want to follow my
heart. I have to.” And looking back at it now, I know that the fear
itself is what hell is. Facing this fear shook me to the cor e, and I could only sit
through it, allowing the fear to move thr ough. Y es, potentially I
would actually go to hell by this move, and if so, it would be
worth it; it would be my choice. I faced the deepest depr ession of
my life. I was in a dark tunnel, and one day I was at the end of it,
facing the back with no exit. Ther e was nothing else rising in fr ont
of me; it was like being stuck in the darkest part of a deep cave. A
friend, whom I trusted, called me that day. She asked if I wanted
to shar e how I was doing. I spoke about the darkness, and after
the call, I r ealized I had turned ar ound and was facing the way
out of the tunnel. Fr om then on, I could feel the possibility of light
and healing and I began to take steps towar d the light. Stepping out of Normal
On the spiritual journey, you will probably find that you will feel called
to make some changes in your life, like Jenny did. But becaus e of fear,
you may find many reasons not to make a move or even take a step. Even if you have some hesitatio n at first, when you feel ready, you will
find that it’s worth it to feel uncomfortable, to let go of your routines in
order to find all the joy of God’ s love that’s available. It can feel like a
solo journey at times because you have to go within to find the answers. At other times