Worseonwakinginthemorning.
Fever
SymptomsHeat:alternatingwithchills;dry;one-
sided.Withbackache;extremechilliness;shiver-
ing;sweating(seeGeneralSymptoms).
Worseforfreshair;fordraughts;formovement;for
beinguncovered;fortheslightestmovementofthe
bedclothes.
Thepatientwantstobecompletelycoveredwith
warmbedding;hewillbecomechilledifheturnsover
inbedorputsahandoutofbed.Thefevermaybeon
onesideofthebodyonlyandthepatientwillfeeldry
heatexternally,andchillyinternally.Limbsfeelheavy
andtired.Isusuallythirstv.
bloated;intolerantofFlatulence
SymptomsBellystomach:
tightclothing;rumbling.
Betterforpassingwind.
Worseforeating.
Flu
SymptomsPainsinbones;injoints;sore,bruised.
Withsymptomsofcommoncold(seeabove);
chilliness;fever(seeabove).
Betterforwarmcompresses;forwarmthofbed.
Worseinbed;forcold;duringthemorning.
NBSEEALSOPAGES203-26FORGENERALADVICE,DOSANDDON'TS.
126•Opium(Op.) INTERNALMATERIAMEDICA
TheNuxvomicafluissimilartothecommoncold.The
personwillbeextremelychillyandunabletoget
warm.ThetypicalNuxvomicageneralsymptoms
shouldbepresent.
Gastricflu
Symptomsofflu(seeabove).
Hayfever
SymptomsWithcommoncoldsymptoms(see
above).
Nuxvomicatypessufferingfromhayfeverwithcom-
moncoldsymptomswillbenefitfromthisremedy.
Thishayfevermaylasttheentireyear,withnoreliefin
winter.
Headache
SymptomsHeadfeelsheavy;pains:inbackofhead;
inforehead;pressing;sore,bruised;stupefying;tear-
ing.Withbiliousness;dizziness.
Bettertorexcitement;ongettingupinthemorning;for
pressure;forwrappinguphead;duringtheeveningin
bed.
Worseaftereating;forcold;formovingeyes;for
shakinghead.
Causesalcohol;coldwind;commoncold;damp
weather;lossofsleep;mentalstrain;over-eating.
Thisisthetypical'hangover'headachethat.cofneson
themorningafteranightofexcessiveeatingand
drinking.Theeyesoftenfeelsore.
Indigestion
SymptomsBelches:bitter;sour.Belly/stomach:
bloated;empty.Pains:instomach;cramping;
pressing;sore,bruised.Withheartburn.
Betterforhotdrinks;forwarmthofbed.
Worseaftereating;forwearingtightclothing.
Causesalcohol;coffee;mentalstrain;over-eating;rich
food.
Foodlieslikeaknotinthestomachfor1-2hoursafter
eating,andthestomachfeelsfull,heavyandtender.
SeealsoColic.
Insomnia
SymptomsWaking:early;late;around3a.m.
Causesalcohol;excitement;mentalstrain;overwork;
over-activemind.
Thepersonissleepyongoingtobedbutcannotsleep,
orgetstosleepbutwakesintheearlyhoursofthe
morning,whenanxiousthoughtspreventherfrom
gettingbacktosleep.Mayfallintoadeepsleepjust
beforethealarmgoesoff,andsowaketiredandworn
out.Nausea
SymptomsNauseaconstant.
Worseaftereating;morninginbed;forsweating;for
tobacco.
Causespregnancy;travelling.
Thenauseamaymakethepersonfeelfaint.Itmay
occurwithapainfulperiod.
Periodproblems
SymptomsPeriods:heavy;painful.Pains:aching;
cramping;inlowerback.
Betterfordoublingup.
Worseduringtheperiod.
Piles
Causespregnancy.
Sorethroat
SymptomsPains:spreadinguptoears,raw;stitching.
Withlumpsensationinthroat.
Worseforcoldair;forswallowing;foruncovering
throat.
Swallowing isdifficult;thethroatfeelsroughandthe
painsradiatetotheearsonswallowing.Therawness
mayhavebeencausedbycoughingandtheair
passagesmayfeelirritated.
Toothache
Betterforexternalwarmth;forwrappinguphead;for
heat;winter.
Causesafterafilling/extraction.
Thetoothacheisbetterforlyingonahotwaterbottle
wrappedinatowel.
Travelsickness
SymptomsWithfaint-likefeeling;nausea.
Betterforlyingdown.
Worsefortobacco.
Vomiting
SymptomsVomit:bile;mucus;bitter;sour;smelly.
Worseforexpectorating(hawkingupmucus).
Causesalcohol;anger;pregnancy.
Thisbiliousness(withorwithoutvomiting)occurs
afterover-eatingorindulginginrichorunusualfoods.
Itcanfeellikefoodpoisoningandiscommonwhen
travelling.
OPIUM(Op.)
Familyname:Papaveraceae
Othernames:whitepoppy;Papaversomniferum;maw-
seed
INTERNALMATERIAMEDICA Opium(Op.)•127
Theopiumpoppyisaherbaceousannualnativeto
AsiaMinor.Itsdelicateflowersvaryincolourfrom
whitetoreddishpurple,andinthewildtheyarepale
lilac.Theyareeasilybentandbrokenbywindand
rain,andquicktodroptheirpetals.
TheplantisextensivelycultivatedintheEast-in
Turkey,IranandIndia-foritsnarcoticproperties(the
redpoppymorefamiliarintheWestdoesnotpossess
theseproperties).Opiumisinfactthedriedjuice
extractedfromthegreenunripeseedcapsules,hence
theword'opium'whichderivesfromtheGreekoposor
'juice'.Thejuicecontainstwoacidsandtwenty-one
differentalkaloids,ofwhichmorphine,opium's'ac-
tiveingredient', isthemostimportant.Morphine is
namedafterMorpheus,thegodofsleep,whoissaid
tohavediscoveredthesleep-bringingandpain-
reducingpowerofthepoppy.
ThepoppywassacredtoCeres,thegoddessof
harvestandfertility,becauseoftheabundanceof
seedscontainedinthecapsules.Theseedscontainno
morphia,onlypaleyellowoilwhichartistsuseasa
dryingoil.Theyarealsousedinthekitcheninpastry
andbreadmaking.
Theplantandpreparationsfromitwereemployed
inmedicineasearlyasthedaysofHippocrates,
thoughitwasrecognisedaspoisonousandgreatcare
wastakeninitsadministration. Itwasusedasa
sedativeandapainreliever,externallyforgoutand
earacheandheadaches,internallyfordysenteryand
certaintypesofcough.Insmalldosesopiumactsasastimulant;ideasflow,exhilaration isexperienced,as
wellasacapabilityofgreaterexertionandagreat
abilitytoendure,butthisisfollowedbyalossof
mentalandphysicalpower,anirresistibledesireto
sleep,anddependency.
Thehomeopathicpreparation ismadebydissolving
opiuminalcoholandsuccussing.
GENERALSYMPTOMS
Eyesglassy.Facedarkredorblue.Faintness:after
excitement;afterfright.Painsabsent.Pupils
contracted.Shockfrominjury.Sweat:profuse;hot;
onsinglepartofthebody;fromfright.
Worseforalcohol;duringsleep;ongettingup;for
warmthofbed.
Opiumischaracterisedbyanabnormallackofpain,as
ifthesenseshavebeenblunted.Afterashock,people
needingOpiumappearglassyeyedandstupefied,and
sufferfromgreatinertia.Theyfeelfaint,numband/
ortrembly.Theirfacesgoredandbecomedrawn,
sunkenandoldlooking,possiblywithabluishtinge.
Childrenwhohavejustexperiencedafrightorshock
willbeunabletourinate.
Generally,thereisprofusesweatingwithscanty
urinationandinafeverOpiumtypeswillbecome
heatedinbedandfeelworsefortheheatandthe
sweatingandwillkickoffthecovers.
Theshockthatfollowsalcoholpoisoningwiththese
symptomsmaywellcallforOpium-thisisonlyuseful
inanunusual,mistakenaccidentandnotforhabitual
drinkers.
EMOTIONAL/MENTALSYMPTOMS
Apatheticduringfever.Complaintsfrom:anger;
reprimands;shock.Confused.Dreamy.Drowsy.
Exhilar


 cells from highly oxidative free radicals. Free
radicals are highly reactive and destructive compounds, which are by-
products of metabolism, radiation therapy, tissue infractions, chemicals and
foreign protein ingestion. Oxidative free radicals can damage cell membrane
walls, cellular mitochondria and cellular proteins. This affects energy
transport and the DNA itself, leading to cellular mutations. Free radicals also
destroy enzymes, the key to all chemistry changes. Many vitamins act ascoenzymes and antioxidants, attaching themselves
to, or absorbing, free
radicals. Proanthocyanidins are a popular form of antioxidant. They are
found in fruits, especially grapes and grape seeds. These antioxidants are now
sold in stores worldwide under the name of pycnogenol. Other antioxidants
are also available in supplemental form from health food stores. These
include vitamin A, vitamin E, CoQ10 and beta-carotene.
After thirty years of clinical observation, it is my opinion that obtaining
your antioxidants from your raw, unprocessed foods is far superior to buying
extracted, nonsynergistic types. This is because antioxidants work with
astringent and other biochemical properties in a synergistic manner, which
increases their effectiveness. One needs many antioxidants to achieve vitality,
and each one plays a major role in the process.
PHYTOCHEMICAL ASTRINGENTS

Astringents pull and constrict tissue, pulling toxicity and congestion (mucus)
out. At the same time these foods stimulate the lymphatic and blood flow
within the body, allowing the body to get rid of these toxins and mucus.
Some astringents can release trapped, foreign proteins, bind them together
and then carry them away to be eliminated. The lemon is one of the best
examples of a highly astringent food. You can feel the membranes in your
mouth pucker or constrict when you eat them. This astringent action takes
place throughout the body. Grapes have a similar action. Both are excellent
tumor busters. In other words, foods high in astringents (namely fruits) begin
detoxification—the process of internal cleansing of the body.
Tannic acid and various mineral salts, including zinc oxide, are the most
common astringent elements in foods. Eat your foods ripe, fresh and raw,
and you will not need to worry about their chemistry, only their power to
clean and heal.
Eating foods that are biologically suited for our species keeps us clean
and healthy inside. Only then can we become vital and dynamic. Never
underestimate the power of fruits to clean and sustain you. (Remember, it all
started with the apple.) Food has always been one of the main focuses for
humans, as it is for all animals. I quote an old naturopath, Hippocrates, “Let
your food be your medicine and your medicine be your food.”OTHER PHYTOCHEMICAL COM-POUNDS IN PLANTS

Acids
Acids are compounds that are low in pH, and corrosive and inflammatory to
your body. However, they serve a vital purpose in oxidation and ionization
of other nutrients and minerals within the body. They have a stimulating
effect upon cells and tissues. There are hundreds of acids. Many play a role in
protein, carbohydrate and fat synthesis. Acids react with metals to form salts,
which help to maintain body homeostasis. Acids liberate hydrogen ions
causing metabolic changes and utilization issues, much the same way that
ascorbic acid affects calcium and its utilization. Acids come in the form of
basic elements like nitrogen, phosphorus and sulfur. When the root of a plant
takes in these basic elements, the plant transmutes these basic elements into
salts which then can be accepted by the human intestinal tract. Other plant
acids are found as alkaloids, ascorbic acid, and many other compounds.
Some hormones, steroids and digestive enzymes act as acids in your body.
Estrogen is an “acid-type” of a steroid, which dilates the capillaries and
creates bleeding in the uterus. As you can see, acids initiate change and
activity. They are also the byproducts of digestion and metabolism. An acid
we’re all familiar with is phosphoric acid, which is what makes soda pop
burn your mouth when you drink it.
Alcohols (see Essential Oils)
Alkaloids
Alkaloids are alkaline substances that react with acids to form salts. Some
alkaloids include morphine and nicotine. However, there are many others,
each with a vital role within the physiological and metabolic functions of the
body. Some alkaloids suppress tissue functions while others stimulate it.
Bitter Principles
These are compounds that are bitter to the taste. They are stimulating to
hepatic (liver), intestinal, as well as pancreatic tissue. They aid the secretion of
digestive enzymes as well as bile and bicarbonate for alkalization. They
include the terpenes, cotters and iridoids. Recent research has discovered that
many bitter principles have antibiotic, antifungal and anti-tumor activities.Gentian Root, Valerian Root and Golden Seal Root are examples of herbs
with high amounts of bitter principles.
Coumarins
These constituents tend to fall under the aromatic category. They have anti-
clotting effects in low dosages and are used as a poison in high dosages.
Coumarin glycosides are very fragrant and have shown to have antifungal,
anti-microbial, anti-tumor and hemorrhagic effects.
Essential Oils
All foods and plant life have their essential oils, also called volatile oils or
essences. These are concentrated compounds comprised of organic
substances including alcohols, ketones, phenols, acids, ethers, esters,
aldehydes and oxides. Essential oils give the aroma to a plant, flower or food.
They play a vital role in the health of your nervous system. Essential oil
therapy offers the individual tremendous power when used properly. There
are essential oils for just about everything, including lymph movement,
sweating, proliferaters (healers) and diuretics. Some essential oils include,
Rosewood, Lavender, Eucalyptus, Lemon, Rose, and Clary Sage.
Flavones
Also known as flavonoids, flavonals, flavonones, isoflavones and xanthones.
Many flavones such as flavonoid glycosides are vital to calcium and vitamin
C utilization. Bioflavonoids are co-factors in strengthening tissue, especially
cardio- and vascular tissue. They include rutin, hesperidin and vitamin P.
Fruits and vegetables have abundant flavones. Many antioxidants such as
anthocyanidins and anthocyanins are related to flavonoids. These factors in
foods strengthen the heart, brain, vascular walls and promote immune
response. Also see: Phenols. Fruits and especially berries (Hawthorn, Saw
Palmetto, blueberry, and others) are high in flavones.
Glycosides
Glycosides are bonded sugars, which can be broken down into one or more
sugars (glycones). Even though glycosides are not considered a major
classification of phytochemicals— as are alkaloids, phenols, terpenoids,
carbohydrates, lipids, etc.—they bind with these major groups to formtherapeutic actions. Some are anti-spasmodic, others act as diuretics, and still
others affect circulation and heart action (cardiac glycosides).
Phenols
Phenols are also known as polyphenols, phenolic compounds and acids.
They have an aromatic ring and have one or more hydroxyl groups. There
are over eight thousand recognized phenols. They are generally broken down
into flavonoids, phenylpropanoids, anthones, stilbenoids and quinones. Their
actions within plants and human tissues vary greatly. They serve as:
antioxidants, anti-viral compounds, anti-inflammatory compounds, anti-
carcinogens, anti-spasmodics and diuretics, and have anti-microbial and tonic
qualities.
Salts
Salts are the inorganic compounds of your body. They play a vital role in the
function of cells and are vital for life to exist. The primary salts include
chlorides, carbonates, bicarbonates, phosphates and sulfates. Plants are full of
various mineral salts such as calcium phosphate, sodium chloride, and others.
Their roles in the human body include:
maintenance of proper water levels
maintenance of osmotic pressure conditions for proper osmosis
regulation of blood volume
keeping the acid/alkaline (base) balanced
the bases for essential components or constituents of various tissues, like
bones and teeth
proper coagulation of blood
essential to the performance of nerve and muscle tissue
acting as co-enzyme factors and activators
effecting cellular transport and cell wall permeability
essential to certain hormone functions
Saponins
These compounds have several actions in your body. They are considered
anti-inflammatory and have expectorant actions. They are also part of the
synthesis of adrenal gland steroids. Licorice Root and Devils Claw are herbs
that have high amounts of saponins.Tannins (Tannic acid)
Tannins are generally protective substances found in the outer and sometimes
inner parts of a plant, tree, flower or fruit. Especially found in the leaves,
bark, seeds and flowers.
Tannins act as astringents, having cleaning, shrinking and drawing
effects upon tissue. They are considered a protective device for a plant against
herbivores. Tann


  of Life—the  Law  of Life,
which  stands  always  ready  to give  you  your  Freedom ? It is
easy and  sure—easy  of Achievement  with  the  Great  As-
sistance  which  is being  given.
How  little  you  know,  how  many  times  in twenty-four
hours,  you,  who  have  been  drawn  under  This  Mighty
Radiation  of Saint  Germain,  are given  Protection  and  As-
sistance.  He watches  from  the Great  Octave  of Light  and
when  He is busy  in other  fields  of Activity,  He always  has
those  who  stand  on guard  to take  His place,  and  watch  over
His Children—the  Students  of the Light!  Whenever  it is
necessary,  They  are  pouring  forth  Their  Enfolding  Ra-
diance  and  Strength  to encourage,  to bless,  to heal,  to pros-
per all; and  most  of the students  have  no idea  that  it is being
done.  Won't  you  accept  this  and  feel  Their  Courage  and
Strength,  to give  you  Help  and  always  know  you  are en-
folded  and  guarded;  so you  are never  really  alone? 28 THE  "7 AM"  DISCOURSES
Beloved  Ones,  I enfold  you  in My  Mantle  of Love!  I
charge  your  feeling  world  with  Peace,  with  Self-control,
with  Mastery.  Will  you  accept  It, with  the same  Love  with
which  I give  It forth  to you ? If you  will,  then  you  are Free
from  tonight!
I convey  the  Love  of Beloved  Nada,  of our  Beloved
Brother  Jesus,  of the Great  Host  of Ascended  Masters  and
the Cosmic  Beings,  Who  are ministering  to mankind.  The
Beloved  Lanto  at the Retreat  of the Royal  Teton  and  Those
in the Retreat  in Arabia,  send  Their  Love  to the students
of America.  Already  in India,  the Masters,  not yet ascended,
are receiving  and  acknowledging  the  Beauty  of This
Knowledge  of the "Mighty  I AM  Presence,"  which  Saint
Germain  has brought  forth.  More  and  more,  you  will  find
them  giving  expression  to It.
I ask you,  Precious  Children  of the Light,  to stand  guard
over  your  world;  and  if anything  or any  person  attempts
to belittle  Saint  Germain's  Activity,  take  you  cue  at once
and be absent!  I give  you  This  as a standard,  to watch  and
protect  yourselves  from  unfortunate  suggestions!  If you
care to do This,  then  the Pathway  is open!  The  doorways
of doubt  and  fear  are nailed  back  for you!  Will  you  not
feel that;  and  go forth  thru  those  doors,  into  the Eternal
Freedom  of your  "I AM  Presence"?  The  Privilege  is yours!
The Power  is yours!  The  Authority  is yours!  I invite  you  to
step thru!
In the Eternal  Love  of your  "Mighty  I AM  Presence"  and
My Mantle  of Love,  We enfold  you  unto  your  Freedom  and DISCOURSE  III 29
Asccnsion!  May  It be quickly!  In the Fulness  of your  Mas-
tery and  Self-control,  may  It be achieved  quickly.  I thank
you. DISCOURSE  III 53
April  2i, 7937
NEW  YORK  CITY
Children  of the  Light,  of the  One  Great  Father,  the
"Mighty  I AM  Presence"!  How  fortunate  you  are after
long,  long  centuries  of your  pilgrimage  upon  Earth,  in
various  embodiments  similar  to this;  always  reaching  out
thru  the Heart.  Yet the intellect  has been  constantly  refus-
ing the Feeling,  the Action  of the Heart;  having  forgotten
completely  that  the Heart  was  the Place  of Divine  Action.
It is True  today,  as it was  in the Beginning;  because  your
"Mighty  I AM  Presence"  is anchored  in your  Heart.  It
makes  your  Physical  Heart,  the Heart  of your  "Mighty  I
AM Presence"—in  action.  As you  come  to know,  that  your
Presence  is above  you,  then  giving  It your  attention,  it
brings  into  your  outer  world  of activity,  the Power  of your
Presence—whose  Anchorage  in the octave  of the human
Life,  is in your  Physical  Heart.
Will  you  be kind  enough,  Precious  Ones,  to hold  that
thought  tonight—while  I am dictating  to you;  and  feel  It
earnestly,  because  it is My Desire  to do a Definite  Work,
while  These  Words  are being  voiced  to you.
As you  know,  beginning  in San  Francisco,  I came  at
Beloved  Saint  Germain's  Request,  to assist  the People  of
Earth.  I came  forth  from  My Home  in the Light,  after  hav-
30 DISCOURSE  III  31
ing rendered  the  Service  in India,  as described  in the
"Magic  Presence."
Saint  Germain,  after  working  for so many  centuries  for
mankind,  determined  to try to awaken  people  again.  Every
time  He would  raise  them  to a certain  point,  rebellion  in
the human  feeling  at the discipline  required—for  the Re-
lease  of the Mighty  Energy  from  their  own  God  Presence,
would  swing  them  aside.
In Our  Discussions,  We had  to decide  what  was  the most
Powerful  means,  by which  This  Assistance  could  be given
mankind.  I said  to Him:  "I am willing  to try with  You  and
make  a Final  Effort,  to release  the Light  within  enough  of
mankind,  so the people  may  have  the Blessings,  which  It
holds  for them"!
The Light  in your  body  comes  from  your  "Beloved
Mighty  I AM  Presence"  and  nowhere  else!  The  persons
who  do not believe  the "I AM  Presence"  is there,  as de-
scribed  in This  Chart,  will  remain  in their  chains.  No one
may  say they  shall  not do so, if they  wish.  That  is within  the
choice  of the Individual;  but I tell you,  never  in the history
of the Earth,  has there  been  such  Tremendous  Release  of
Light  and  Energy  to bless  mankind,  as is coming  forth  at
this time.
We are not compelling  humanity  to accept  and  use This;
but We can and  do give  It forth  with  Greater  and  Greater
Release  of Power  and  Energy;  as the students'  attention  to
their  "Mighty  I AM  Presence"  prepares  them  for It. If they
will FEEL  the Directions  given,  there  is not a thing  in the 32 THE  "7 AM"  DISCOURSES
world  which  can prevent  their  Freedom,  Success  and  their
Ascension.
I want  you  to realize  tonight,  if you  will,  Precious  Ones,
there  is no time  in human  Life  and  experience,  when  man-
kind  has not been  guarded  by Those  Great  Ascended  Be-
ings and  the  Great  Cosmic  Beings!  Otherwise  mankind
would  not exist  today;  because  of the accumulation  of the
discordant  creations,  which  the people  have  drawn  into  the
atmosphere  of Earth.  Their  accumulated  discord  is the so-
called  astral  or psychic  world!  In


 home until 8 or 9 o’clock atnight.) I was craving caffeine and sugar to give myself a lift, andI could get those at a fast food place. I felt guilty about not givingmy kids whole foods, but by the time evening came around I oftenfelt too tired to care. Luckily, I’m blessed with wonderful kidswho were aware of my problem and learned how to take careof themselves.
I was just getting by as a mother, doing the bare minimum.
The area where there was the most fallout was recreation andsocial activities. Once I’d taken care of the necessities, I just didn’thave the energy for anything more. My husband would take thekids places on Sundays, but I never went with them; I was sorelieved just to be able to rest and not have anyone asking me foranything. The kids got used to playing with their dad and notexpecting mom to be there.36 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  As far as socializing with other families went, I didn’t have
what it took to prepare meals and entertain. We were isolated. Myhusband compensated by socializing with his family, who live closeby. I enjoy my husband’s family but I rarely went with him andthe kids. I just wanted to rest.
I went to a lot of doctors about the fatigue. They all said there
was nothing they could do about it. Most of them were conde-scending and treated me like a child or some kind of mental case.
My husband was constantly concerned about my health and
what was going on with me. Our sex life had come to a standstill.I had no sex drive. It could have been because of the 20 milligramsof Paxil that I was taking for my depression. Or it might havebeen the blood pressure medication, which I took in high doses. Orit could have been plain old fatigue. You don’t feel much likehaving sex when all you want to do is lie down and rest.
What with all of my ailments and the depression and the
fatigue, I started to think my life was coming to an end. Familylife had become nothing but domestic tasks, and it seemed asthough every week my body was failing in another way. I was onmedication for depression but it didn’t help because I had this senseof impending doom. I wondered what would happen next thatwould cause me to be put on even more medication. I was unsureand frightened.
One day I was talking with the therapist I saw for my depres-
sion, and she mentioned that she had some other clients who’dbenefited from going to the compounding pharmacy in PalmDesert and getting natural hormone therapy. I went there, andthey recommended I see Dr. Platt. Since I had consulted with atleast 25 or 30 doctors, I was a little skeptical about seeing Dr.Platt. But I was desperate.
Soon after I went in for my intake interview, I started the
meal plan and I got off caffeine and sugar. A week later I startedtaking DHEA, progesterone, testosterone, and a T3 thyroid37 HORMONAL F ATIGUE AND RHONDA Y.   preparation. Dr. Platt told me about the Synthroid I’d been
taking for years, which previous doctors had prescribed for my lowthyroid. He explained to me that my body was unable to convertSynthroid’s T4 into T3, which is the actual thyroid hormone thatdoes all the metabolic work of the thyroid gland. Apparently I’dbeen taking Synthroid all those years, and it hadn’t been doinganything for me.
My energy level increased drastically. Between the hormones,
the increase in protein, the diet in general, and the removal ofmedications that had been throwing my body off balance, I founda big difference in my ability to function.
Once I had more energy, I wasn’t as grouchy or impatient as I
used to be. I was able to deal with things better both emotionallyand physically. The best part has been my ability to participatewith my family more. Whereas I used to let my husband take thechildren out while I stayed home and rested, now I can participatein family outings. Our church has volleyball twice a month, andnow I enjoy playing that with my family. We go walking andsightseeing. My children are so happy that mom can go places withthem now; I think they feel comfortable that mommy will be therewith them.
Also, before, we had no social life as a family. Now we try to
have guests visit the house twice a month to eat with us. Myhusband and I go out with other couples more often. I also see hisfamily more, which I enjoy.
Being able to socialize again, especially with my family, has
been so wonderful. For something so simple, it’s astonishing.
THE ROOTS OF FATIGUE
Let’s talk about fatigue. It came very close to ruining Rhonda’s
home life. She went to doctor after doctor, and no one could38 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  help her. Does that sound familiar? If it does, you’re not alone.
In my practice I meet many women who go to bed exhaustedand wake up tired. They’ve lost their zest for life, and they feelinadequate to the demands of a normal life.
Rhonda’s fatigue was caused by multiple factors, all of
them influenced by an imbalance of hormones. The mainsource of her fatigue was fibromyalgia—again, a very commoncondition and mostly ignored by the medical community. Animportant hormone associated with this condition is thyroid.Just getting the thyroid into balance often leads to a reductionin symptoms.
Another cause of her fatigue was recurrent hypoglycemia,
which is a low blood sugar or a rapid drop in blood sugar, acondition caused by the over-production of insulin, often dueto a lack of progesterone. Any time insulin levels go up, bloodsugar goes down. When you take sugar from the brain, thebrain gets severely fatigued (many readers will note this happen-ing between 3 and 4 in the afternoon). Progesterone helps tostabilize blood sugar and often eliminates afternoon fatigue.
Another cause of Rhonda’s fatigue was depression. This too
was caused by a low progesterone level, as well as the internal-ization of anger. She also had asthma, which can lower oxygenlevels in the body, contributing to fatigue.
A low thyroid level by itself can cause fatigue. Furthermore,
Rhonda was on Claritin for allergies and Paxil for depres-sion—and the side effects of both drugs include weaknessand fatigue.
Why couldn’t her doctors help her? As I’ve said before,
doctors are for the most part unaware of the pivotal role ofhormones in sustaining health. They simply don’t know howeasy it is to help people like Rhonda. For me, turning Rhonda’shealth around was simple: we adjusted a couple of little thingshere and there. It’s not hard to take care of patients. You just39 HORMONAL F ATIGUE AND RHONDA Y.   have to listen to them and be aware of how hormones affect
the body.
Rhonda’s brand of fatigue was something I would never
have confused with chronic fatigue syndrome, which is adisease associated with fevers and swollen lymph glands. But Ithink many doctors misdiagnose people like Rhonda, treatingthem for chronic fatigue syndrome when what they actuallyhave is a simple case of unbalanced hormones. You can see howpeople like Rhonda could be labeled as having chronic fatiguesyndrome. The signs and symptoms are there, but theunderlying causes are different.
DRUGS AND MORE DRUGS
This brings up another point I will make again and again in
this book: many members of the medical community tend toover-prescribe drugs as a consequence of misdiagnosing simplehormone imbalances. Besides the anti-depressant Paxil,Rhonda was also taking Claritin, prednisone, Prevacid, andSynthroid. Each drug was causing one or more side effects, andRhonda’s body was spiraling out of control under the influenceof all of these chemicals.
My first step with patients like Rhonda is to get them off
of as many medications as possible while giving them proges-terone to start the healing process. However, with some drugs,such as Paxil, usage should be gradually tapered off, notsimply stopped “cold turkey.”
Progesterone helps take away asthma, so they can soon
start weaning themselves off any asthma medications theymight be taking, too. In fact, progesterone has a significantlypositive influence on asthma in both men and women. I40 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  suspect it is estrogen that creates asthma in many people. Keep
in mind that men and women have the same hormones.
A male patient, 57 years old, who came to see me because
of weight concerns, was on four medications for asthma.When I told him that in three weeks he would be off all of hisasthma medications, he responded, “Doc, I’ve had asthma for35 years, and the Mayo Clinic prescribes my medications.” Isaid, “Watch.” Three weeks later he came into my office, satdown, and said, “Doc, you won’t believe this … I’m off all ofmy medications for asthma!”
Progesterone treats asthma for two reasons—it blocks
estrogen, a very common cause of asthma, and it breaks downinto cortisone, which relieves asthma. Also, people who are lowin progesterone very commonly have hay fever. Very often,within two weeks of starting progesterone all their hay feverand allergies are gone.


 heard, tasted, or smelled. This may seem like a
baffling way to define somethin g, but imagine that you had never seen the
color white, that the whole world consisted of red, green, blue, and all the
other hues. Then one day a master came to you with a black shirt and said,
“If you wash this enough times, you will see that it is white.” If you ask to
see white before you wash the shirt, what you ask is impossible. Black is
the sum of all colors, and only if you wash them all away will white appear.
In the same way your present life is one of sensations, not just colors but
all the stimulus  that comes through the senses. Some of these sensations
may be very pleasurable, but none of them is adequate to tell you what
spirit is. Spirit lies beneath the layers of sensations. To experience it you
must go to the heart and medi tate upon it until everything that obscures
spirit is cleansed.
The purpose of the following exercise is to give you the experience of
making your heart pure enough to witness spirit. Pure here doesn’ t mean
good and virtuous; it means free from impurity, with no value judgmentintended. In the words of William Blake, we are cleansing the doors of
perception.
MEDIT ATING ON THE  HEART
Sit comfortably in a quiet room by yourself, choosing a time when you feel
settled and unhu rried. Early morning is best, since your mind will be alert
and fresh; try to avoid late evening, when your awareness is preparing for
sleep. Close your eyes and focus your attention on the middle of your chest,
where your heart is. (The fact that the physical heart is off to the left is
irrelevant here—the spiritual heart center lies directly behind your
breastbone.)
Be awar e of your heart as a space. Don’ t try to hear your heartbeat or any
other sound you think a heart makes as it pumps blood. The heart center
you want to find is a point of awareness where feelings enter. In its pure
form it is empty, pervaded by weightlessness, absence of care, peace, and a
subtle light. This light may appear as white, gold, pale pink, or blue. But
again, don’t strain to find a light of any kind. You are not trying to sense the
purity of the heart center right now; all you need to feel is whatever is there.
Letting your attention rest easily there, breathe gently and sense your
breath going into your heart center. Here you may want to visualize a soft
pastel light, or a coolness pervading the chest. Let the breath go in and out,
and as it does, ask your heart to speak to you. Don’ t phrase this as an order;
just have the faint intention that you want your heart to express itself.
For the next five or ten minutes, sit and listen. Your heart will begin to
release emotions, memories, wishes, fears, and dreams long stored there,
and as it does, you will find yourself paying attention.
You may almost immediately get a flash of strong emotion, positive or
negative, or a forgotten memory. Your breathing might change. You might
gasp or sigh. Let the experience be what it will be. If you daydream or drift
off into sleep, don’t worry. Just bring your attention back to your heart
center. Whether it speaks to you in sadness or fear, delight or pleasure, its
message is equally beneficial.
Paying attention to your heart is the object of this meditation.You will notice as you contin ue this exercise that three things are
naturally coming together: meditation, purification, and attention. You are
learning to be with your heart in order to heed its spiritual meaning—this is
meditation. You are letting repressed material come up to be released—this
is purif ication. You are listening to your heart without judgment or
manipulation—this is attention.
Because this process is like washing a shirt to reveal its whiten ess, don’t
be disturbed if strong negative emotions or even physical discomfort starts
to appear. Tell yourself that these sensations are leaving; just bid them to go
easily and comfortably. If voice s of fear, anger, or doubt start to speak, bid
them to leave as easily as they want to. (In the case of persisten t chest pain,
particularly if heart disease is present in your family, you should naturally
consult your physician.)
ADVANCED  MEDIT ATION
After some days or weeks of practicing this meditation, you will know
whether you want to make it a permanent part of your daily routine. I
believe that putting attention on the heart is valuable as an addition to any
spiritual program; to live from the center of spirit is a consta nt goal for
anyone on the path.
As you progress in the practice, you will begin to notice that sensations,
thoughts, memories, daydreams, and random physical manifes tations start
to decre ase. The heart center will slowly reveal itself as it really is: silence,
peace, a warm glow, or subtle light. Even if these glimpses are only
fleeting, you will find that things are starting to change for you outside
meditation. You will start to walk with a more buoyant step. At unexpected
moments you will feel a swellin g sensation in your chest; you may want to
take deep, satisfying breaths. Flashes of elation and well-being may sweep
over you at odd times.
All these are signs that the contraction most people hold around their
heart center is releasing its grip. The heart center is meant to feel open and
relaxed. Before you can receive any profound spiritual insights, this
openness must exist. Contract ion, fear, tightness all keep spirit from
entering you. In truth, spirit doesn’ t enter, since it is always there. Butmaking contact with it is like being penetrated with light and insight; this is
what we call the flow of love.
Love and spirit are forming a connection every time you meditate on the
heart, starting with the first time. Advanced meditation deepens this
experience and makes it more conscious. As you continue this practice, you
will find it easier and easier to go to your heart for counsel and wisdom, or
simply to feel that you are loved. You do not have to speak to your heart in
words; your heart doesn’ t have to speak to you in words. The language of
spirit comes to us as silent assurance, self-acceptance, patience, an
appreciation of simply being. As these qualities develop you are maturing
in your experience of the heart center.
OceanofPDF.comIN OUR LIVES
“Who W ill Rescue Me?”
HER NAME WAS Nina. On the surface she presented herself as someone in
supreme control  of her life. She was an intelligent, gifted woman who had
independent financial means and used them in a socially conscious way.
Privately she was intensely spiritual. I would regularly get late-night calls
when Nina could n’t wait to talk about some new discovery that had excited
her in her voraci ous reading of scriptures, masters, and “messag es” of every
sort. I knew Nina from earlier days in Boston when she sat on our hospital
board, and I had attended her latest wedding early this year.
It took place on a mountainside in Oregon facing a spectacular Pacific
sunset. The vows exchanged between the bride and groom were
unconventional; in addition to elements drawn from the familiar Christian
service, the vows contained a Buddhist prayer and New Age verses about
soul mates finding each other across the universe. The joy in the air could
be felt like a warm, nourishing rain from the twilit skies.
For Nina  this ceremony marked a huge personal milestone. “I’m going to
do it right this time,” she had declared. At forty-five Nina had already been
married and raised two grown children. Her divorce had been the result of
outgrowing her old self-image,  which was much more conventional than
spiritual. “I lived the way my mother taught me—don’ t think about
yourself, make your husband and children happy. If your love is selfless
enough, things will take care of themselves,” she said.
But after ninete en years Nina didn’ t feel taken care of. Her love had
supported other people but not herself. She decided to find self-
improvement on her own. Therapy, meditation retreats, and women’ s
groups quickly followed. When  her husband resisted these changes, Nina
felt fearful but determined. The door to self-exploration was open, and shewanted her relationships to mirror the new person she was trying to
become.
She explained, “If my first husba nd insisted on keeping me in a box that I
didn’ t want to be in, then he wasn’ t the person who loved me the most. It
had taken me a long time, but that was what I wanted out of marriage, to be
with a person who could accept me and allow me to grow. That’ s my idea
of someone who loves me the most.” Nina felt she had found such a mate in
Gregory; after a whirlwind romance that began through having the same
therapist in Los Angeles, Nina rushed into marriage a few months after her
divorce.
Ten months later I saw her at a reception and asked, “How’ s Gregory?”
Nina’ s eyes grew vague. “Oh, we’re having problems. We both thought it


 absolute method is like modern sound wave therapy
Many people throughout the world practice this form of prayer
treatment with wonderful results. The person using the absolute
method mentions the name of the patient, such as John Jones, then
quietly and silently thinks of God and His qualities and attrib utes,
such as, God is all bliss, boundless love, infinite intelligence, all-
powerful, boundless wisdom, absolute harmony, indescribable beauty,
and perfection. As he quietly thinks along these lines he is li fted up in
consciousness into a new spiritual wave length, at which times he
feels the infinite ocean of God’s love is now dissolving ever ything
unlike itself in the mind and body of John Jones for whom he is
praying. He feels all the power and love of God are now focused o n
John Jones, and whatever is bothering or vexing him is now
completely neutralized in the presence of the infinite ocean of life and
love.
The absolute method of prayer might be likened to the sound wave
or sonic therapy recently shown me by a distin-guished physic ian in
Los Angeles. He has an ultra sound wave machine, which oscillate s at
a tremendous speed and sends sound waves to any area of the body to
which it is directed. These sound waves can be controlled, and he  told
me of achieving re-markable results in dissolving arthr itic calcareous
deposits, as well as the healing and removal of other disturbing
conditions.
To the degree that we rise in consciousness by contemplat-ing
qualities and attributes of God, do we generate spiritual electronic
 83  waves of harmony, health, and peace. Many remark-able healings
follow this technique of prayer.
•A cripple walks
Dr. Phineas Parkhurst Quimby, of whom we spoke previ-ously in
this
chapter, used the absolute method in the latter years of his h ealing
career. He was really the father of psychosomatic medici ne and the
first psychoanalyst. He had the capacity to diagnose clairv oyantly the
cause of the patient’s trouble, pains, and aches.
The following is a condensed account of the healing of a cripple as
recorded in Quimby’s Manuscripts:
Quimby was called on to visit a woman who was lame, aged, and
bedridden. He states that her ailment was due to the fact tha t she was
imprisoned by a creed so small and contracted that she could not stand
upright and move about. She was living in the tomb of fear and
ignorance; furthermore, she was taking the Bible literally, and it
frightened her. “In this tomb,” Quimby said, “was the presence and
power of God trying to burst the bands, break through the bonds, a nd
rise from the dead.” When she would ask others for an explanation o f
some passage of the Bible, the answer would be a stone; then she
would hunger for the bread of life. Dr. Quimby diagnosed her case as
a mind cloudy and stagnated, due to excitation and fear, caused by the
inability to see clearly the meaning of the passage of t he Bible, which
she had been reading. This showed itself in the body by her hea vy and
sluggish feeling, which would terminate as paralysis.
At this point Quimby asked her what was meant in the Bibl e verses:
Yet a little while am I with you, and then I go unto Him that sent  me.
Ye shall seek me, and shall not find me: and where I am, thither y e
cannot come.
JOHN 7:33-34. She replied that it meant Jesus went to heaven.
Quimby explained what it really meant by telling her that being with
her a little while meant his explanation of her symptoms, feelings, and
 84  their causes; i.e., he had compassion and sympathy for her
momentarily, but he could not remain in that mental state. The  next
step was to go to Him that sent us, which, as Quimby pointed out, was
the creative power of God in all of us.
Quimby immediately traveled in his mind and contem-plated the
divine ideal; i.e., the vitality, intelligence, harmony, and power of God
functioning in the sick person. This is why he said to the woman,
“Therefore, where I go you cannot come, for you are in your na rrow,
restricted belief, and I am in health.” This prayer and explana tion
produced an instantaneous sensa-tion, and a change came over her
mind. She walked without her crutches! Quimby said it was one of the
most singular of all his healings. She was, as it were, dead to error,
and to bring her to life or truth was to raise her from the dead. Quimby
quoted the resurrection of Christ and applied it to her own Christ  or
health; this produced a powerful effect on her. He also ex-p lained to
her that the truth, which she accepted, was the angel or idea, which
rolled away the stone of fear, ignorance, and superstition, thereb y,
releasing the healing power of God, which made her whole.
• The decree method
Power goes into our word according to the feeling and faith beh ind
it. When we realize the power that moves the world is mov ing on our
behalf and is backing up our word, our confidence and assurance
grow. You do not try and add power to power; therefore, there must
be no mental striving, coercion, force, or mental wrestling.
A young girl used the decree method on a young man who was
constantly phoning her, pressing her for dates, and meeting her at he r
place of business; she found it very difficult to get rid o f him. She
decreed as follows: “I release………unto God. He is in his true pla ce
at all times. I am free, and he is free. I now decree that my words go
forth into infinite mind and it brings it to pass. It is so.” She said he
vanished and she has never seen him since, adding, “It was as tho ugh
the ground swallowed him up.”
 85  Thou shalt decree a thing, and it shall be established unto thee: and
the light shall shine upon thy ways. JOB 22:28.
• Serve yourself with scientific truth
1. Be a mental engineer and use tried and proven techniques in
building a grander and greater life.
2. Your desire is your prayer. Picture the fulfillment of your des ire
now and feel its reality, and you will experience the joy of the
answered prayer.
3. Desire to accomplish things the easy way—with the sure aid of
mental science.
4. You can build radiant health, success, and happiness by the
thoughts you think in the hidden studio of your mind.
5. Experiment scientifically until you personally prove that there is
always a direct response from the infinite intelli-gence of your
subconscious mind to your conscious think-ing.
6. Feel the joy and restfulness in foreseeing the certain
accomplishment of your desire. Any mental picture, which you have
in your mind, is the substance of things hoped for and the evidenc e of
things not seen.
7. A mental picture is worth a thousand words. Your subcon-scious
will bring to pass any picture held in the mind backed by faith.
8. Avoid all effort or mental coercion in prayer. Get into a sle epy,
drowsy state and lull yourself to sleep feeling and knowing that y our
prayer is answered.
9. Remember that the thankful heart is always close to the ri ches of
the universe.
10. To affirm is to state that it is so, and as you maintain this attitude
of mind as true, regardless of all evidence to the contrary, y ou will
receive an answer to your prayer.
 86  11. Generate electronic waves of harmony, health, and peace by
thinking of the love and the glory of God.
12. What you decree and feel as true will come to pass. Dec ree
harmony, health, peace, and abundance.

 87  7
The Tendency of the Subconscious Is
Lifeward
Over 90 percent of your mental life is subconscious, so men a nd
women who fail to make use of this marvelous power live withi n very
narrow limits.
Your subconscious processes are always lifeward and con-st ructive.
Your subconscious is the builder of your body and maintains all its
vital functions. It is on the job 24 hours a day and never sleeps. It is
always trying to help and preserve you from harm.
Your subconscious mind is in touch with infinite life and boundless
wisdom, and its impulses and ideas are always life-ward. The gr eat
aspirations, inspirations, and visions for a grander and nobler life,
spring from the subconscious. Your profoundest convictions are those
you cannot argue about rationally because they do not come from your
conscious mind; they come from your subconscious mind. Your
subconscious speaks to you in intuitions, impulses, hunches,


 them at their own level of understanding. Some people will pay anything to get well after they are sick. We find as far as  health
is conc erned, you can’t pay for it —you earn it. You work for it. So often the average treatments we have today leave the patient
void of knowledge, with no change of consciousness. Unless you elevate your mental attitude, your consciousness, you’re not
taking a b etter health path. Too many people with coffee -and-donut lifestyles go see the doctor, get a treatment, then go right back
out to that caffeine and sugar habit again. They will be back, you can bet on it! No one in a hospital should ever be allowed  to
leave until they are given a full day of instruction on how to manage their kitchens at home, how to feed their families and how to
prevent recurrence of the trouble that brought them there. Otherwise, they will soon be back in the hospital. You may think I ’m a
little harsh in this, but every doctor says that one operation leads to another. Do you know why? Because nothing was done to  deal
with the original cause which led to the first operation.

LET’S OPERATE ON THE PROBLEM INSTEAD OF THE BODY
I ask my patien ts what operations they’ve had and almost invariably with everyone, the first is a tonsillectomy. The doctor
removes a lymph gland organ and this is one of the organs that eliminates catarrh, phlegm and mucus acids. It is the only par t of
the lymphatic sys tem that functions to externally throw off what your body can’t use. The next operation is the appendix; this is
also lymphoid tissue. What’s going on here? We don’t keep our bodies clean; we don’t know how to keep them clean. Cleanliness
can begin in many  ways but we can’t put new wine in old bottles. We can’t put clean food into a dirty body and expect good
results. We’re only going to get partial, perhaps even negligible results. We have to do better than that. We have been train ed to
believe that if the  bowel isn’t functioning correctly we can turn to laxatives. I believe there are more laxatives sold in this country
than any other drug with perhaps the exception of aspirin. Cold remedies are very heavy sellers, as are tranquilizers; but yo u will
find la xatives in almost every home. Somebody in each family always seems to be constipated; somebody in the family has bowel
trouble. When the children used to get sick, what did grandmother suggest? An enema of course. Grandma and grandpa used
sulphur and molas ses, and they had many other ways to take care of the bowel. But we find that laxatives are not the solution
to bowel problems. We have to go deeper. We must realize that the bowel has the poorest nerve structure of any organ in the b ody.
Having the poores t nerve structure, the bowel can’t signal its problems. If you get a little pinprick on the finger you immediately
pull away from the pain that causes the distress. But there are no painful distress signals in the bowel because it has such poor
nerve react ions and nerve sup -plies. Where there is a problem in the bowel, and you feel it, you are really in trouble. You must
recognize that the average person doesn’t take care of the bowel until the very last thing. This was brought home to me espec ially
with th e death of the popular movie actor, John Wayne. We find that he first had an operation on the lung. Three months later, he
had an operation on the stomach. Another three months and he had an operation on the bowel. We tend to leave the bowel until
last.

BACKGROUND EXPERIENCES
Often, parents neglect to teach their children about bowel movements and regularity. I grew up just like Topsy. If I was busy
playing, I let the bowel movement go; if it didn’t happen today, I’d wait until tomorrow. I had a patient fr om Brazil who was
having a bowel movement every 18 days, and her previous doctor told her that was normal. She experienced menstrual disorders
and constant headaches for years and she also had aching shoulders. I knew I didn’t have to do anything about the se symptoms.
Instead, I took care of her bowel. You know, when she started having one bowel movement a day for a month’s time, her shoulde r
pains disappeared and her headaches were gone. After three month’s time, she no longer had her old menstrual problem s.

I once studied diet and wholistic healing methods with Dr. Glenn J. Sipes in a San Francisco college. One time he received a phone
call asking him to see someone in Walnut Creek, California, which is just the other side of Oakland. Because it was an e mergency,
he agreed to go and asked me to go with him. On arriving, we found a young man about 26 years of age, red as a beet and oozin g
liquid from his skin. He had extreme pain throughout his entire body and a very high fever. Dr. Sipes tapped the man’s bowel with
his fingers and asked when he’d had his last bowel movement. The young man said he couldn’t remember. Dr. Sipes turned to the
mother and asked her to prepare an enema, as the young man needed one right away. She asked what an enema was. Now, her e
was a mother who didn’t even know about enemas! There wasn’t a thing in that house to give an enema with, but Dr. Sipes was a
man who could always find his way out. He went outside, down to the creek and cut a piece of reed about 2 -1/2 feet long. He had
the mother fill up a kettle with warm water. He cleaned the pith out of the reed with baling wire, took some of the warm wate r and
blew it into the rectum, causing the man to eliminate. This procedure was repeated for over an hour. In an hour and a half, t he
man’s fever had completely dropped to normal. There was no more redness of the skin and no more pain in his body. The effects
of that enema made a powerful impression on me. This is just one experience I’ve had and I could tell about hundreds more.
Grandmother used enemas to take care of the bowel for the same reason that people in early cultures used herbs. They didn’t have
any scientific reason for using herbs, but experience showed they worked. They used herb tea for the kidneys because it worke d. In
Mexico, they use Manzanita tea; in the Causasus, they use Camomile tea. Over the years, the specific uses of herbs have becom e
more or less catalogued so we know what effects they have upon specific organs in the body. Enemas also work. However, I don’ t
think our work in this area is complete.

One of the first things doctors often say is that you can’t reabsorb toxic material from the bowel; and I once believed that too. I
graduated from college with those ideas, but I found in practice that when we take care of the bowel condition from an enema
standpoint, there is a certain amount of water retained in the bowel and immediately after, there is an excess amount of wate r going
through the kidneys. The person urinates a good deal. I began to wonder, was it p ossible that the water went through the bowel to
the kidneys without taking some of the waste material along with it? Years ago, we used to take urinalyses of people, and ind ican
was one of the things we always tested for. Indican revealed the toxic materi al absorbed from some parts of the body, usually from
the bowel, and eliminated through the kidneys. Today, indican is not checked in urinalysis. In fact, the bowel isn’t consider ed
important enough to take care of. I have seen books in our universities th at claim one bowel movement every five days may be
considered normal. However, normal in today’s world does not necessarily mean healthy.

DETOXIFICATION: THE PATH TO IMPROVED HEALTH
Detoxification is often neglected, overlooked or underestimated in the healing arts, despite the fact that all health profess ionals
realize that a sick body is a toxic body. Toxic acids are normal products of cell catabolism, and we also assimilate varying  amounts
of toxic material from the air we breathe, the food we eat and other environmental sources. When these can be eliminated from  the
body, there is no problem. But when toxins are being assimilated or created in the body faster than they can be gotte n rid of, or
when one or more of the eliminative systems are underactive, trouble lies ahead. I am convinced that toxic accumulations in t he
body create the necessary preconditions for disease to develop.

DEVELOPING A TOXIC COLON
I believe that when the bowel is underactive, toxic wastes are more likely to be absorbed through the bowel wall and into the
bloodstream from which they become deposited in the tissues. If any eliminative system is underactive, more wastes are retain ed
in the body. As toxins acc umulate in the tissues, increasing degrees of cell destruction take place. The digestion becomes poor and
partially digested material adds to the problem because the body cannot make good tissue out of half -digested nutrients. Proper
function is slowed in all


BALDNESS  Maria Teresa And Santibanez {Mexico} "For 2 months I have been drinking Urine without fasting. Two years ago I began with baldness and also had syndrome of arms and neck for 2 to 3 years to date. Also some other problems and cough because of smoking. Thank God that I encountered the book of Urine-therapy."  from Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  BLACKWATER FEVER  “An Army man (Major) found by natives in the backwoods, was in a state of delirium due to blackwater fever. They cured him by fasting him for 10 days, by the applying of packs and by inducing him to take his own urine, and plain water.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  BLADDER INFECTION  “4-month-old Antibiotic-Resistant Cystitis Gone in a Few Hours “This particular lady had antibiotic related cystitis for 4 months (bladder infection that causes intense burning when urinating). She was really desperate because none of the antibiotics she took relieved the burning sensation. She even tried alternative 20 remedies to no avail. A mutual friend told her to call me because she did not feel confident to explain the procedure or to answer all her questions.  “After talking to her for 45 minutes, answering all her questions and assuring her that I was not trying to sell her anything, she agreed to prepare and use the universal remedy the next time she went to the bathroom. I know some of you will have a hard time accepting what I am about to tell you, but it is true and you can try it. She started applying the diluted urine drops under the tongue every half hour and the next time she had to urinate, a couple of hours later, the burning sensation was gone.”  from Uropathy, by Martin J. Lara  BLADDER INFLAMMATION    "Patient, male, age 50 years, applied for treatment suffering with inflammation of the bladder and prostate...Upon rising from a sitting posture it was necessary to void urine within a minute. He had to get up at night five and six times. The usual remedies for such conditions gave little or no relief. It was then decided to treat him autotherapeutically. He was instructed to take a drachm of early morning urine a half hour before each meal. “Within twenty-four hours his improved condition was so marked that be became alarmed thinking his recovery was too quick. [He stopped the therapy] and the pain and tenesmus (spasms) returned; he continued the treatment and improved greatly. He gradually  improved and he is [now] apparently in good health."  from Autotherapy, by Dr. Charles Duncan  BLADDER STONES <<<NOTE>>> retitle & put with Kidney Stones category?  Soila De Venegas {Mexico} "On the 10th of May, 1996 became ill of the stones in my vesicle and I went into the hospital, but they did not alleviate the pain. Thanks to God with my urine I alleviated myself. With the Urine I brought out the stones. Of course I also avoided the operation. For that reason I am here with you and my parents."  from Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  BLEEDING TO DEATH  Mr. Tomas S. Antimo {Mexico} "My work is very heavy. I was driving and had a very hard automobile accident. I had a front collision. I was bleeding and did not know what to do. I had metal sticking in 21 all of my body. I was cut very much and the blood left my body with incredible force. I needed wisdom to do something immediately. I was about to die by bleeding to death. I implored God with desperation of my life. “I then remembered that Dr. of Chemistry Sonia in a conference said that Urine is good for everything. I said in the name of God, help me and I started to put my Urine in all the wounds. When I applied it coagulated immediately. Soon the ambulance arrived about 15 minutes later and they transported me to the hospital.  “For one and one half months I remained in the hospital. While in the hospital I always took my Urine and only I did the treatments when they did not see, and my wounds closed without becoming infected. I thank God who saved my life by me applying my Urine. Now each day I continue taking it daily and I also have my hair on my head starting to grow again."  from Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  BLINDNESS  FAMILY GARCiA GOMEZ { Mexico } "We are happy for knowing of this new alternative. My wife my Mother and my 12 Brothers and thirteen Grandsons [all] took the Urine. We are very healthy thanks to God. “My brothers of 22 years say that they saw this therapy in the book, The Water of the Life and that is why they have followed the method. All people took Urine within their mother and this is something very sacred that comes from God and because of this, why would you not drink it. “I began to drink it daily and in three days I can't remember when I slept so well. We have a sister who is Missionary in Colombia and she knows an ill person with Diabetes and problems of blindness that thanks to God already he recovered his vision. We are a family who we know many testimonies and we thank God for this knowledge."  from Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  BLISTERS    “A man from India had heat eruptions on his body. He decided to try auto-urine therapy without going to a doctor, and he began massaging his entire body with urine and drinking it once or twice a day. Yellow blisters appeared on his whole body. There was not even an inch of skin without pea-sized blisters. There was much pain in his hands and feet. He fasted with urine, and on the 6th day it got much worse. The urine seemed to have no effect on reducing the blisters. His friend helped with the massaging and the ripe blisters burst open, oozing white pus. He took a bath and cleaned his body. This relieved him a good deal.  22 “Within five or six days, pus was eliminated from all the blisters. His new skin appeared bright. His body became perfectly well and after a couple of days he returned to his usual work.”  from Manav Mootra, by R.M. Patel  BLISTERS  “In 1948 a man reported a severe case of blisters which appeared on his whole body. There was acute pain and sitting or sleeping was rendered difficult. He began applying urine compresses over his entire body every day. This experiment was carried on for twenty days, and perfect health was the result.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  BLOOD CLOT  “Mery Garcia, 55, was without apparent health problems. She began to drink urine out of curiosity, and after two weeks she had labor pains. She discharged an ugly-looking, egg-sized blood clot. She was not aware of any previous problem before the discharge. A week later she had a healing crisis in the form of a strong cold that lasted about three weeks. During this time she was discharging phlegm and mucus through the mouth and nose. I recommended that she eat raw garlic to accelerate the cleansing process. She wondered where all the phlegm was coming from, to which I replied that since she had been using antibiotics for more than 10 years, that phlegm had accumulated in her body. It took four weeks to cleanse her body.”  from Uropathy, by Martin J. Lara  BLOOD CLOT  “In the last five years, I have gone through three serious operations. I had many difficult illnesses including arthritis, rheumatism, glaucoma, high blood pressure, a blood clot that caused my leg to turn black from the knee down due to no blood circulation, pancreatic problems that caused a swollen tongue and an inability to take food properly. After drinking my own water for seven months, all the toxins in my body disappeared. I visited the doctor for a check-up afterward. He was shocked and surprised saying I was completely normal. It is a wonderful medicine. Once you know this information, you won’t need any pills, vitamins, or hormone shots. It is a gift from God.”  from Drink Your Own Water, by Tony Scazzero 23  BLOTCHY SKIN  “I have known about urine therapy for many years. My sister-in-law told me that as a teenager she had quite a blotchy skin on her face. As one of a large family she worked occasionally for neighbours, and one of these had a new baby, and Ivy helped the mother for a few weeks. The mother commented on her blotchy skin and asked had she ever tried wiping her face with a wet nappy of a newborn infant. The lady told her to try that, which she did. By the time Ivy returned home some weeks later there was a very noticeable improvement in her facial skin. When I first met Ivy, her own children were small, and she had really clear skin. When my own babies were born she suggested I do the same, though I hadn’t had very much trouble with my skin. I occasionally did the same and it does work. “I am sure there are many ways urine has been found to be useful. It’s been used (diluted of course) for hundreds of years as a fertiliser (sweet peas love it). My great grandparents came from Europe, and it is said they never wasted a drop!”  from Urine: The Holy Water, by Harald W. Tietze  BOIL  “Bhagavanda N. Dhimar, D.M.E


 it  looks nothing at all  like my past?
In order to consider this carefully, you should be aware that change does not occur in a
vacuum. Change does not take place in the universe for no reason. Change is not a random
act. Change is an announcement that someth ing is not working.
The change that has occurred in your life has happened because disharmony was
present. When disharmony is present, life becomes dysfunctional —and that condition
violates the first of the Basic Principles of Life (Life Is Functional, Ada ptable, and
Sustainable) and invokes the second.
Okay... now you might say, “If all things happen for the better... I mean, if that is really
true ... then someone needs to tell me what in blazes God has in mind, because things sure
don’t look any better to me!”
I know that I’ll be hearing that a lot during the Changing Everything Workshop that
we’re presenting in satellite TV “web casts” around the world, and in our twice -annual live,
in-person retreats. And this leads us to...
CHANGE #6:
Change  your idea about why Change occurs  Even if you accept that all change happens for the better, you do not know why this new
circumstance, situation, or condition is better. You don’t understand the nature of the
improvement. That’s because the improvement m ay not have to do with exterior
conditions, but with interior conditions. What you are not seeing is why  change occurs —
and who is causing it. When you see this and embrace it as your living truth, once again
everything in your day -to-day experience will... well... change.
So here comes another Actual Truth. Get ready.
Are you ready?
This is a tough one, so take a breath. Okay, here it comes...
Change occurs because you want it to occur.
Everything that changes changes at your direction.
Whoa, that  sure doesn’t seem true! Why in the world would you want  to have happen
what has just happened? No one in their right mind would choose that!
Are you saying this (or screaming it) inside your head right now?
Well, if you are you would be right. No one in th eir right mind would  choose something
like this. The mind does not make these choices. The soul does.
All of which gets us to the agenda  of the soul. First we established that you have  a soul,
yes? Now we need to look at why. Why do you have a soul? What’s  its purpose? What’s its
function? When you understand this (or freshly remember it), it will be very clear to you
why you would choose the change you have chosen just now.
Your soul’s agenda flows serenely with the larger energy of life itself. Life’s ene rgy
always moves toward synergy, harmony, glorious expression, and expansion. It seeks an
experience of itself, in fullness.
When I add my own human language to this understanding I find myself saying that life’s
energy always moves in the direction of wha t I call “love.” Love of self, love of others, and
love of life.
Your own individual energy moves in the same direction. Your soul and the “soul of the
universe” desire, seek, and produce at all times the same thing. It is when your mind  gets in
the way th at it seems as though it is not producing this, that something terrible has
happened, and that you’re going in the wrong direction.
I’m going to use an example now from Christian doctrine to illustrate what I am saying
here. The New Testament tells us that  Jesus went with his disciples to a garden in a place
called Gethsemane. There, he asked his followers to sit and wait for him and to pray. He,
too, he said, was going to go off to pray, but by himself.
And then, being alone, he felt a great heaviness come upon him, almost to the point
where he could die. And he knew what lay ahead. And he called out to God, “Father! You
can do anything! If there is any way that this can happen, remove this cup from my lips.... ”
Here Jesus’ mind had gotten  involved, and he wanted a change of direction in the way
things were going. But immediately his vibration was raised, through the sheer power of his will. “Yet not my will, but thine,” he said. And with those words his soul returned to
alignment with the soul of the universe —or, if you please, with God.
There is but One Soul, yet there are many expressions. These individuated aspects of the
One Soul seek synergy, harmony, glorious expression, and expansion. This is another way
of saying that life in all it s forms seeks the very same thing that Life itself seeks. How could
it be any other way?
Yet the soul and the mind are two different things. The “life form” that you have taken
has both a soul and a mind (as well as a body), and it is in this triune totali ty that it fully
equips itself to do what you came here —to physical life —to do.
The job of the mind is to make sure that the body —your physical instrument, or tool —is
kept safe, so that you may use it to do what you came here to do. The job of the soul is to
make sure that the mind always knows what you came here to do, and does not get caught
up in its own make -believe world.
It is like getting caught up in a virtual reality on the Internet. I’m sure you must know
that there are now entire “worlds” on the Internet into which you may enter, claim an
identity, and live an entire “life” —growing up, finding love, creating a career, buying a
home, having a family, experiencing success and becoming rich (or not)... you can actually
produce an entire experience  of life in these virtual realities, interacting with others,
entering into legal agreements —it’s all really quite detailed, sophisticated, and complex.
And none of it is real. Obviously, not a single bit of it is really happening to You. It is only
happen ing to the “you” that You created in that make -believe world.
To your soul, physical life on the earth is very much the same thing. The trick is not to
get “lost” in the make -believe world of your mind, but to use your body and your mind to do
what your so ul came here to do.
We are all doing that right now, but some people are doing it consciously and some are
doing it unconsciously. That is, without knowing what they are doing.
Now I know that some of this may be starting to sound a little bit far out, so maybe it
would be a good time to just take a little rest here and just kind of “be with” all that’s been
said. Try not to judge it or evaluate it. Just rest with it and let it be just what it is: merely an
idea, one person’s concept; something for you t o consider. Okay? So, for now, would you
like to
Take a break?
And when you’re ready, pick up the chapter at...
A QUESTION OF BALANCE
What happened to Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane is what happens to all of us. I love
the fact that this story is in the Bible for that very reason. It gives us all hope if we know
that even Jesus was having to deal with the balancing of his mind and his soul as part of the
process by which he had the fullest experience of himself.  That’s what we’re talking about here in  this conversation. I’m wanting to assist you in
seeing that life is not exactly what you may think it is, and that there is a reason  that things
are happening the way they are happening, and that you are not a victim  to this reason, but,
rather, that you are at cause in the matter.
This idea would be difficult for you to embrace unless you had a clear understanding of
your true identity; of who you really are and why you are here on the earth in physical form
and what life is really and truly all about.
Absent such an understanding, none of life will make much sense. With  such an
understanding, all of it  makes sense. And when it makes sense to you, you no longer have to
suffer the pain and the frustration that you have known in your life so far. Changes can
come along right and left (and they will), and they will not discombobulate you, or draw
you into anger and sadness. You will have changed the way Change itself is experienced —
because you will have understood everything there is to understand about  Change,
including that...
All change is change for the better.
Change occurs because you want it to occur.
The mind rejects such notions, but the soul shouts them to high heaven. This is because
the soul knows what the mind cannot comprehend. And this is beca use the mind comes
from Past Data, while the soul comes from EverMoment.
EverMoment  is my name for the moment of now. It is the only moment that ever is.
There is no moment other than EverMoment


 food
supply. Therefore, to keep the blood protein at a minimal level to sustain life, the
body very gradually saps or destroys the muscles of the body.
Third Law
Damaged tissue and female hormones at the site of a latent, misplaced
Ectopic germ cell set the scene for cancer
At this point the conditions are ripe for the symptom cancer to develop. All that is
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needed is something to stimulate the female sex hormone formation at the site of a
misplaced Ectopic germ cell. This is most often done by scar formation caused by a
blow, a bruise, a drop of tar in the lung, a sun burn, an overdose of X-ray, or anything
else that can cause a normal scar formation procedure to take place in the body — at
the site of a latent Ectopic germ cell. This is normal wear and tear of the body, which
happens to each of us every day; it is only when our protein metabolism is deficient
that the symptom cancer develops.
Now the Ectopic germ cell mistakenly thinks it is time to have a baby and starts
growing a placenta (cancer) in preparation for a baby that never develops. The only
trouble is, without proper amounts of pancreatic enzymes circulating in our
bloodstream to dissolve this abnormal placenta; it keeps growing and does not stop.
When the patient finally consults the physician the condition of cancer is announced
and surgery, radiation and chemotherapy are recommended.
Fourth Law
For cancer to be cured there must be a positive change in the physiology
of the patient
If nothing changes in the physiology of the patient, the cancer grows until it
destroys the body. If something positive changes in the physiology of the patient one
of two things can happen:
1. One person with cancer lasts a long time while another person with the same
type of cancer goes rapidly — and, before now, no one knew why.
2. The right combination of circumstances occurs, and the cancer is dissolved or
"cured."
This book answers the question: " What is the right combination of
circumstances?"
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D o I Have Cancer?
If  our nation can put a man on the moon
and place a satellite in orbit for the banks and stock markets
to transfer money and assets out of the country, tax free...
Why hasn't the cure for cancer been found?
It has!
Have you ever asked yourself...
If our nation can put a man on the moon and place a satellite in orbit for the
banks and stock markets to transfer money and assets out of the country — tax free —
why hasn't the cure for cancer been found? It has!
Biopsy
The only accepted legal medical diagnosis of cancer is by biopsy. This is not
100% accurate, for there are false positives as well as false negative biopsies. We,
that is you and I, are not permitted to make a diagnosis of cancer. Nor are we
permitted by law to use any system of diagnosis except biopsy for cancer diagnosis.
The Medical Establishment tightly controls the diagnosis of cancer.
Everybody Has Cancer
Each day each one of us has a "Cancer" start and develop in our body. This is a
normal ongoing process each one of us experiences. Usually, our normal metabolic
defense system takes care of these wayward cancer cells and we go about our daily
lives unaware that any of this is taking place. It is when our normal metabolic
defense system or clean-up crew cannot handle this normal body process that we
begin to develop a tumor or mass which can eventually be found by ourselves or our
physician. Before this happens, you can easily determine the failure of your defense
system and the beginning of "Cancer" — Malignant Tumor Masses — by using the
following simple Pancreas Self-Examination.
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Dr. Kelley's Self-Examination Procedure
There are only three who care about you: God, yourself and sometimes
your mother.
The Establishment has finally come to strongly encourage all of us to practice
self-examination for Cancer. Women are told to examine their breasts once a month.
All of us are told to carefully examine for lumps and bumps and skin changes. This
helps us become aware of our body and seek medical care early if needed. We have
had, from the first publication of this book in 1967, the self-examination for the
earliest possible development of pancreatic malfunction. When this occurs, within 2
to 4 years one always develops a Malignant Tumor Mass, which the Medical
Community, in error, labels Cancer.
You give yourself control with Dr. Kelley's Self-Examination Procedure of one's
pancreas. If one finds one's pancreatic malfunction in time to properly treat it, one
will have to do it for one's self. Dr. Kelley's Self-Examination of one's pancreas finds
pancreas malfunction long before Malignant Tumor Masses form. You have the
greatest to gain by self-examination. God gives one the intelligence and self w ill to do
this if one's mother (family or friends) does not interfere.
The Self-Examination Procedure below should be the most important part of your
health program. This procedure only indicates the activity of one's pancreas — it is
not a diagnostic test. It only alerts one very early to the possible formation of
Malignant Tumor Masses due to pancreatic malfunction. Thus, you can run to your
physician for proper and legal diagnosis and treatment if needed. This procedure is
the most sensitive and early awareness system known to date.
Dr. Kelley's Self-Examination Procedure is nothing more than early self-detection
and/or an early warning of the decrease of pancreatic production of adequate
pancreatic enzymes.
When the pancreas is not working properly and fails to produce adequate
amounts of enzymes the following occurs:
1. The first indication of pancreatic failure is indigestion with belching and
passing of excessive gas (flatulence).
2. The second indication over an extended time is the dental condition called
pyorrhea.
3. The third indication is focusing problems of the eyes. This occurs because the
muscles of the eyes are so tiny it doesn't take much protein loss to interfere
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with their function; a tiny little bit of eye muscle makes a big difference. (Dr.
Kelley is still able to read without glasses at the age of 80 — and he uses the
same pair of glasses to drive as he used in 1963.
4. As stated elsewhere in this book, the disease commonly referred to as
"Cancer" by the Medical Community is nothing more than the failure of one's
pancreas to produce adequate enzymes to properly digest one's food intake
and clean-up the defective, worn-out and dead cells throughout one's body.
Do-It-Yourself Pancreas Self-Examination
It is our belief that each one of us has the right to build and maintain a healthy
body, mind and spirit by properly addressing pancreas failure by taking adequate,
effective pancreatic enzyme supplements by mouth as outlined in Chapter IV
The Pancreas Self-Examination below should be the most important part of your
cancer prevention regime. This Pancreas Self-Examination only indicates the function
or "failure-to-function-properly" of one's pancreas. This procedure is the most
sensitive evaluation and early awareness system known to date. It determines the
status, condition and activity of one's pancreatic enzyme production. Dr. Kelley's
Pancreas Self-Examination Procedure should be done every 12 to 18 months.
Dr. Kelley's Pancreas Self-Examination Procedure
Take 6 Formula PAL (Dr. Kelley's pancreatic enzyme) capsules with each meal and at
bedtime
Impression of Effects
A If within eight weeks on the Pancreas Self-Examination one becomes toxic, ill,
crabby, sick, nauseated, vomits, or develops an elevation of temperature or violent
headache, a Malignant Tumor Mass or placenta cells could possibly be present of a
size that should be detectable by one's physician. Consult your physician for further
laboratory evaluation. Dr. Kelley also recommends as a second opinion the use of the
NAVARRO BETA-HCG URINE CANCER TEST (info at the end of this chapter)
B  If within eight weeks while on the Pancreas Self-Examination, one feels better,
has better digestion, and displays more energy and stamina, one is usually pre
cancerous. That is, one's pancreas is not quite able to meet the demands of digestion
and the normal clean-up activity needs of one's body. In this case, it is highly likely
one w ill develop a Malignant Placenta Tumor Mass within two to four years.
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Metabolic Classification of Cancer
Dr. Kelley has classified Malignant Conditions according to the physiology and
metabolism of the tissue in which the trapped primary germ cells develop their
Trophoblast cells and begin their aggressive development to form a false placenta. In
addressing individuals with more than one malignant class, one should support Class
I  malignancies first before going addressing Class II and class III. Most Oncologists
treat the most aggressive Class first, which often resolves the other Classes also.
Classification of Malignant Tumors
1. Class I  Malignancies — AIDS
2. Class II Malignancies — Soft Tumors, such as Hodgkin's, Leukemia, L


 behavior. And each time you engage in any kind
of a self-put-down, you reinforce that old bugaboo that others have
laid on you and reduce your own opportunities for any kind of love
in your life, be it self or other-directed love. Surely you are too
worthy to go around putting yourself down.
Accepting Yourself Without Complaint
Self-love means accepting yourself as a worthy person because
you choose to do so. Acceptance also means an absence of complaint.
Fully functioning people never complain, and particularly they don’t
complain about the rocks being rough, or the sky being cloudy or
the ice being too cold. Acceptance means no complaining, and hap-
piness means no complaining about the things over which you can
do nothing. Complaining is the refuge of those who have no self-
reliance. Telling others about the things you dislike in yourself helps
you to continue the dissatisfaction since they are almost always
powerless to do anything about it except deny it and then you don’t
believe them. Just as complaining to others accomplishes nothing,
so permitting others to abuse you with their own tote bags full of
self-pity and misery helps no one. A simple question to ask will
generally end this useless and unpleasant behavior. “Why are40 / Your Erroneous Zonesyou telling me this?” or “Is there anything I can do to help you with
this?” By asking yourself the same questions, you will begin to re-
cognize your complaining behavior as ultimate folly. It is time spent
in a wasteful manner, time which might be put to better use in
practicing self-loving kinds of activities, such as silent self-praise,
or helping someone else to achieve fulfillment.
There are two occasions when complaining is least appreciated
in the world: (1) Whenever you tell someone else that you are tired.
(2) Whenever you tell someone else that you don’t feel well. If you
are tired, you can exercise several options, but complaining to even
one poor soul, let alone a loved one, is abusing that person. And it
won’t make you less tired. The same kind of logic applies to your
“not feeling well.”
Nothing is being said here about informing others of how you
feel when they can help you in any small way. What is being chal-
lenged is complaining to others who can do nothing but endure the
grumbling. Additionally, if you are truly working on self-love, and
you are experiencing any pain or discomfort, you will want to work
on this yourself, rather than choosing someone to lean on and have
them share your burden.
Complaining about yourself is a useless activity, and one which
keeps you from effectively living your life. It encourages self-pity
and immobilizes you in your efforts at giving and receiving love.
Moreover it reduces your opportunities for improved love relation-
ships and increased social intercourse. While it may get you attention,
the noticing will be done in a light that will clearly cast shadows on
your own happiness.
Being able to accept yourself without complaint involves an un-
derstanding of both self-love and the complaining process, which
are mutually exclusive terms. If you genuinely love you, then com-
plaining to others who can do nothing for you becomes absurdly
impossible to defend. And if you notice things in yourself (and oth-
ers) that you dislike, rather than complaining you can actively set
about taking the necessary corrective steps.
The next time you are at a social gathering of four or moreFIRST LOVE  / 41couples, you can try this little exercise. Chronicle how much conver-
sation is actually spent in complaining. From self to others, to events,
prices, the weather, and on and on. Now, when the party is over
and everyone has gone their separate ways, ask yourself, “How
much of the complaining that went on tonight accomplished any-
thing?” “Who really cares about all of the things that we bemoaned
tonight?” Then, the next time you are about to complain keep the
uselessness of that night in mind.
Self-Love vs. Conceit
You may be thinking that all of this talk about self-love involves
a form of obnoxious behavior akin to egomania. Nothing could be
further from the truth. Self-love has nothing to do with the sort of
behavior characterized by telling everyone how wonderful you are.
That’s not self-love, but rather an attempt to win the attention and
approval of others by chest-thumping behavior. It is just as neurotic
as the behavior of the individual who is overloaded with self-con-
tempt. Boastful behavior is motivated by others, by an attempt to
gain their favor. It means the individual is evaluating himself on the
basis of how others see him. If he were not, he would not feel the
need to convince them. Self-love means you love yourself; it doesn’t
demand the love of others. There is no need to convince others. An
internal acceptance is sufficient. It has nothing to do with the view-
points of others.
The Rewards for Not Loving Yourself
Why would anyone choose not to love himself? Where is the ad-
vantage? The dividends, while they may be unhealthy, are neverthe-
less there for you to examine. And this is the core of42 / Your Erroneous Zoneslearning to be an effective person—understanding why you behave
in self-defeating ways. All behavior is caused, and the road to elim-
inating any self-destructive behavior is strewn with the potholes of
misunderstanding your own motives. Once you comprehend the
why of your self-malice and the maintenance system for retaining
it, you can begin to attack the behaviors. Without the understanding
of self, the old actions will continue to recur.
Why have you chosen to engage in self-denouncing ways, however
slight they may seem to you? It may be that it is just plain easier to
buy the stuff that others tell you than to think for yourself. But there
are other dividends as well. If you choose to not love yourself and
treat yourself as unimportant by placing other heads higher than
your own, you will…
• Have a built-in excuse for why you can’t get any love in your
life, that is, you simply are not worth being loved back. The excuse
is the neurotic payoff.
• Be able to avoid any and all risks that go with establishing love
relationships with others, and thereby eliminate any possibility of
ever being rejected or disapproved.
• Find that it is easier to stay the way you are. As long as you’re
not worthy there is just no point in trying to grow or to be better
and happier, and your payoff is remaining the same.
• Gain a lot of pity, attention and even approval from others,
which substitutes nicely for the risky business of getting involved
in a love relationship. Thus the pity and attention are your self-de-
feating rewards.
• Have many convenient scapegoats to blame for your own misery.
You can complain and thus you won’t have to do anything about it
yourself.
• Be able to use up your present moments with mini-depressions,
and avoid behavior that would help you to be different. Your self-
pity will serve as your escape route.
• Regress to being a good little boy or girl, calling upon theFIRST LOVE  / 43leftover responses of a child and therefore pleasing those “big-
people” that you learned to regard as superior to you. Your regres-
sion is safer than risk.
• Be able to reinforce your leaning-on-others behavior by making
them more significant than you make yourself. A leaning post is a
dividend even though you’re hurt by it.
• Be unable to take charge of your own life and live it the way
you choose, simply because you won’t feel that you are worth the
happiness you covet.
These are the components of your self-scorn maintenance system.
They are the reasons you choose to hang on to the old thinking and
behavior. It is just plain easier, that is, less risky, to put yourself
down than to try to get up. But remember, the only evidence for life
is growth, and so to refuse to grow into a self-loving person is a
deathlike choice. Armed with these insights into your own behavior,
you can begin to practice some mental and physical exercises to en-
courage the growth of your own self-love.
Some Easy-to-Master Self-Love Exercises
The practice of self-love begins with your mind. You must learn
to control your thinking. This requires a lot of present-moment
awareness at the times when you are behaving in self-condemnatory
kinds of ways. If you can catch yourself as you are doing it, you can
then begin to challenge the thought in back of your behavior.
You find that you have just said something like, “I’m really not
that smart, I guess I was just lucky to get an A on that paper.” The
bell should go off in your head. “I just did it. I behaved in a self-
loathing way. But I’m aware of it now, and the next time I’ll stop
myself from saying those things I’ve been saying all of my life.”
Your strategy is to correct yourself out44 / Your Erroneous Zonesloud with a statement such as, “I just said I was lucky, but luck really
had nothing to do with it. I got the grade because I deserved it.” One
small step toward self-love, the step being a recognition of your
present-moment put-down and a decision to act differently.