 it, there  is nothing  but
destructive  qualities,  generated  and  brought  forth  by man-
kind  thruout  the countless  centuries;  ever  since  mankind
turned  away  from  the  Acknowledgment  of each  one's
"Mighty  I AM  Presence";  and  that  is many,  many  centuries
ago!
(On December  2, 1939,  the Ascended  Masters  finished  consuming  the astral
or psychic  plane  over  the United  States  of America;  and  they  removed  all
the discarnates  over  America  at the same  time.)
I would  not  care  to even  draw  your  attention  to the
length  of time;  but  today,  for the first  time  in the history
of the Earth,  there  has  been  released  This  Knowledge  of
the Ascended  Masters  in Its minutest  detail;  so mankind,
if the people  will  take  advantage  of this,  thru  their  calls  to
the Presence,  can  free  themselves  wholly  and  completely!
By the Use  of the  Violet  Consuming  Flame,  they  can
release  themselves  from  every  discordant  thing,  which  they
have  ever  drawn  about  them.  The  Individual,  who  is foolish
enough  not  to wish  to use the Violet  Consuming  Flame,
will remain  in his chains  and  limitations.  Without  the Use DISCOURSE  III  33
of It, you cannot  free  yourself  from  your  own  creations;  and
so far as It being  harmful  is concerned,  that  is positively
foolish;  for the reason  the human  cannot  produce  the Violet
Consuming  Flame!  Your  Presence,  Who  is All Perfection,
is the Only  One,  aside  from  the Ascended  Masters,  who  can
produce  that  Violet  Consuming  Flame.  At your  call,  the
Presence  rushes  It thru  your  body  and  thru  your  world  of
activity  and  creations;  dissolving  all discordant  creations
from  you  and  your  world.  That  is the way,  It sets  you  Free
and is the Means  by which  you  can,  thru  the Assistance  of
your  Presence  and  the Call  to the Ascended  Masters,  so pu-
rify your  body,  the Presence  can  enable  you  to make  the
Ascension.
The use  of the Tube  of Light  about  you  is IMPERA-
TIVE  today!  If you  wish  to move  in your  world,  untouched
by the discordant  human  creation  about  you,  It is the only
way you can do it.
While  the Messengers  are here  with  you,  We  shall  en-
deavor  to make  this  so absolutely  clear  in every  detail;  all
those  who  want  to, may  have  the Clearness,  the  Under-
standing  and  the Power  released  within  them,  of the Appli-
cation  which  will  set them  Free  during  this  class.
We have  no desire  to intrude  anything  upon  any  one;
but Precious  Ones,  there  must  be Tremendous  Power  in
This  Light  being  released  thru  these  Blessed  Messengers,
when  there  is such  furious  opposition  to them  as there  is
today!  Never  has  such  vicious  violent  opposition  touched
anything,  which  has  ever  come  forth  in America,  as these 34 THE  "7 AM"  DISCOURSES
two Precious  Ones  have  had  to face,  in the carrying  forth  of
This  Light!  They  have  never  asked  anything  of any  one,
except  to love  his or her  own  "Mighty  I AM  Presence"
and harmonize  himself  or herself!  They  have  never  given
forth  anything  but  Love,  Kindness  and  Harmony!  Yet
this viciousness  persists;  and  even  the concentration  of it
going  on all over  the United  States;  by individuals  trying
to interfere  with  the Spreading  of This  Light.
In Los  Angeles,  in the Pan  Pacific  Class,  Beloved  Ones,
everything  was  attempted  the human  could  think  of, to try
and prevent  that  class.  Well,  it was  more  wonderful  than
ever!  Much  of the same  thing  is being  done  in New  York,
to try to prevent  the class  here;  but the class  will  go on un-
touched!"  (And  it did!)
These  unfortunate  individuals,  who  think  they  are op-
posing  the Ballards  and  accusing  them  of all kinds  of things
—every  word  of which  is falsehood,  do they  think  for one
moment,  they  are opposing  the Ballards ? The  Ballards  have
not a thing  to do with  it, except  to carry  This  Light;  and
they  have  had  the Courage  to face  the "lions  on the path
and make  them  Airedales,"  as Mrs.  Shinn  says.  Dear  Hearts,
it is the Great  Cosmic  Light  which  these  unfortunate  indi-
viduals  are facing,  not the Ballards!  If Mr.  and  Mrs.  Ballard
should  suddenly  ASCEND,  do you  think  This  Work
would  stop ? As your  phrase  is used—"Not  on your  Life."
You see We very  often  use your  own  expression,  because
it goes  home  clearly  ofttimes.  I tell you,  Dear  Ones,  those
unfortunate  beings  will  meet  their  own  destruction—every DISCOURSE  III  35
one of them—who  opposes  This  Light  and  these  Blessed
Ones.  They  give  forth  nothing  in this  world  but Love  and
kindness!  They  do give  forth  the Truth  which  will  liberate
and free  every  one  of mankind;  if each  one  will  apply  It
with  earnestness  and  determination.  It will  not apply  Itself!
After  the Messengers  returned  from  Honolulu  last  sum-
mer,  Their  Work  so far as their  Requirements  in This  Ac-
tivity  were  concerned,  was  finished.  Saint  Germain  came
to them  in His  Tangible  Body  and  said:  "Now  you  are
Free"!  If you  wish  to do so, you  do not  have  to go on
and battle  farther  in this,"  and  they  said:  "Our  joy is to
serve.  If we can be of further  Service,  then  we are ready  to
continue  on;  until  enough  of mankind  understand  their
own  "Mighty  I AM  Presence,"  to hold  the Balance  for man-
kind  and  set the rest of them  Free."
Do you  wonder,  Beloved  Ones  of New  York,  why  the
Messengers  have  been  so unyielding  and  firm;  in demand-
ing and  holding  every  one  firm  and  close  to the Books
which  Beloved  Saint  Germain  brought  forth ? Because  the
Truth  is there  Unadulterated—the  Ascended  Masters'
Words  and  Understanding—in  which  there  is no human
concept!  Because  Their  Words  are Power  and  are Cups  of
the Qualities  which  They  carry!  This  Understanding  will
set mankind  Free,  as nothing  else  will  do!
It is not,  that  there  are not many  wonderful  things  in the
world;  but  We  know  This  Knowledge  is Unadulterated
and COMPLETE  as given!  It is that  which  We  used!  All
of the Ascended  Masters  have  used  identically  the Same 36 THE  "7 AM"  DISCOURSES
Application,  even  the  Same  Wording  and  Expression,
which  is given  to you  by Saint  Germain!  All of this


/Kswasheep in mind that men and women
have the same hormones.
The prednisone Rhonda had been prescribed for her
asthma was hurting her more than it was helping her.Prednisone has a lot of side effects. It can cause osteoporosis,cataracts, stomach ulcers, and weight gain.
LOW THYROID
Doctors had prescribed Synthroid for Rhonda’s low metabo-
lism, but it actually had little effect. This is something we sawwith Brenda J., too: she was taking Synthroid but it wasn’thelping her thyroid problem. 41 HORMONAL F ATIGUE AND RHONDA Y.   42
Rhonda’s under-active thyroid condition was missed due
to several factors. Rhonda had a condition called secondaryhypothyroidism, which is caused by an insufficient amount ofTSH being put out by the pituitary. Her free T3 level wasbelow normal. Her pituitary should have been pouring outTSH to elevate this level, but it wasn’t. A doctor looking onlyat Rhonda’s TSH levels would fail to diagnose her condition.Correct thyroid testing would have easily picked this up. Herelevated cholesterol also pointed to a low thyroid.
OTHER BENEFITS OF PROGESTERONE
Rhonda had high blood pressure. About 50 percent of the
people with high blood pressure have it because they over-produce insulin. As I’ve mentioned before, hyperinsulinemia(too much insulin in the bloodstream) is associated with lowprogesterone levels. Sometimes just reducing patients’ insulinlevels with progesterone relieves their high blood pressure.
The depression Rhonda experienced was at least partly due
to low progesterone. Progesterone is a natural anti-depressant,so women with low progesterone are commonly depressed.
Rhonda was a wonderful candidate for progesterone. It
had multiple benefits for her. Just by putting her on proges-terone I was able to lower her insulin levels, eliminate her high-blood pressure, help her to begin losing weight, help relieve herdepression, and get rid of the asthma.
It’s possible that the progesterone helped with her acid
reflux problem, too. Rhonda was on a drug called Prevacid,which reduces acid secretion. By lowering insulin levels andreducing certain carbohydrates, you can relieve acid reflux.THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  SUMMING UP
Getting Rhonda’s life turned around was a simple matter of
adding several hormones and eliminating the medications shewas taking, which removed their concomitant side effects.
In her initial interview, Rhonda indicated she was on a
number of medications including thyroid, an antihistamine,an anti-depressant, prednisone, and a medication to preventacid reflux. Although she was taking thyroid medication, likemany people, she was unable to convert the thyroid she wasgiven into the active form, so she remained hypothyroid inspite of being treated. This, of course, contributed to herfeeling tired all the time.
Rhonda was estrogen dominant and low in progesterone.
This was the cause of her miscarriages, difficulty with concep-tion, morning sickness, fibroid tumors, and endometriosis.Another symptom of low progesterone levels is high insulinlevels. Insulin controls blood sugar: when insulin goes up,blood sugar goes down. When the brain doesn’t get enoughblood sugar, it falls asleep. This, too, contributed to heroverall sense of fatigue.
Yet another factor contributing to her fatigue was depres-
sion. Some of Rhonda’s depression was related to suppressedanger, which manifested as fibromyalgia, a condition in whichthe body contracts its muscles even during sleep. Patients withthis condition wake up stiff in the morning, often in pain, andfeeling as though they haven’t had enough rest. Prolongedmuscle tensing uses up energy, causing daytime fatigue.
Estrogen dominance and low progesterone levels also
contributed to Rhonda’s developing allergies and asthma. Shewas placed on antihistamines, which unfortunately com-pounded her fatigue. The prednisone she was taking forasthma elevates sugar levels. The high blood sugar led to more43 HORMONAL F ATIGUE AND RHONDA Y.   insulin production, which added to Rhonda’s hypoglycemia, a
condition that results in feelings of fatigue.
The anti-depressant Paxil has its own list of multiple side
effects, including weight gain, loss of libido and—you guessedit—fatigue. When you add up all of the fatigue-inducingchemicals she was both ingesting and producing within herown body, it’s a wonder Rhonda was able to accomplishanything at all.
Again, my approach to this patient was simply to deal with
the underlying causes rather than the symptoms of her fatigue.Adding progesterone balanced her estrogen dominance andrestored her insulin level to normal. This in turn eliminatedher asthma, part of her depression, her hypoglycemia, and herallergies, which allowed me to wean her off the fatigue-induc-ing medications prednisone and Paxil.
At this point we were halfway home. The patient had more
control over her life, she was feeling better, and as a result, shewas not feeling so angry. Then her fibromyalgia, with all theassociated muscle tensing and fatigue, went away. Adding T3,the thyroid hormone her body was craving, gave her even morefeelings of well-being, allowing her to lose weight and moveeven further away from depression.
THE FUEL TO KEEP FAMILIES RUNNING
Rhonda continues to do well with her weight and, more impor-
tantly, with her energy and ability to function in her family. Ihave had other patients who weren’t so lucky. I have seenmarriages flounder on the issue of fatigue. Without a highenergy level it’s almost impossible to be effective as a homemakerand mother. 44 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  When I read the statistics about the vast number of
American women taking anti-depressants, I wonder how manyof them would be better served having their metabolismsenergized through the use of natural hormones. I would like tosee more doctors understand the role hormones play increating and sustaining a normal zest for life—something thatis everyone’s birthright.45 HORMONAL F ATIGUE AND RHONDA Y.   MIGRAINE HEADACHES
AND KAREN H.
chapter FIVE
Karen is a fashionable woman in her 50s who came to me to solve
a post-menopausal weight problem. Her medical history indicatedthat she’d suffered from migraine headaches all her life. She wasamazed when I told her that the migraines were curable. She’dtried to get help with them, spending a considerable amount ofmoney, but to no avail. Readers who have been toleratingmigraines should learn from her example: it’s never too late todefeat an old enemy like migraines, although the earlier youaddress this problem the better. I’ll let Karen tell you her story:
I’ve gotten migraine headaches about three or four times a month
for my entire life. There would be this intense throbbing behind myright eyeball, in my temples, a neck ache, and nausea. Doctors didn’tdiagnose these headaches as migraines because I didn’t see “auras”—the white light migraine sufferers typically see. I also was not sensitiveto light and I did not need to go into a dark room. Only when I wasin my 50s, was I told they were migraines.
So when I was young I just called them “my headaches” and took
codeine to lessen the pain. When I was 29 years old, I had one so badthat it sent me to the emergency room at the local hospital. I wasvomiting, the pain was excruciating, and I thought, “Nobody has
47headaches like this. ” I asked my friend to drive me to the emergency
room. They treated me with a muscle relaxant and Valium. The nextday I just soldiered on and went to work.
The second time I went to the emergency room with a migraine,
one of the doctors said it was a severe sinus headache, and he recom-mended nose surgery. I did have nose surgery and it didn’t do a thing.
The third time a migraine sent me to the hospital, the doctors
wouldn’t let me leave without doing a spinal tap on me. My symp-toms were nearly identical to what you see in people who are aboutto have a stroke, an aneurysm, or who have spinal meningitis. Thatgives you an idea of how severe the migraines were.
I was told the headaches might go away after menopause, but
they didn’t. When menopause failed to give me relief, I finally wentto see a neurosurgeon. My headaches were diagnosed as migrainesand I was given two medications that finally helped. He gave meInderal and Imitrex. The Inderal reduced the frequency of theheadaches to once every six weeks or so, which was a blessing.Whenever I did feel a headache coming on, I would self-injectthe Imitrex, which would stop the progression and leave mewithout pain.
Naturally, I was grateful for this relief after all those years of
suffering. But I would later find out that Inderal and Imitrex werejust masking the pain, not getting to the cause of it.
Meanwhile, I stopped smoking. The combination of stopping
smoking and going through menopause


might be good to have some time apart. I don’t know—things happened.”
Her voice drifted off; she looked  exhausted. I hardly recognized the woman
who had placed such high hopes on her marriage.
Nina later confided that although Gregory wasn’ t dominant or demanding
like her first husband, she found herself getting angry at him and distrusting
his motives in marrying her; they were both spiritual, but the soul love she
had expected wasn’ t there. One thing Nina said was extremely telling: “Do
you want to know something? Every morning when I wake up, I repeat the
same question to myself: ‘Who will rescue me?’”
“Who do you think will?” I asked.
She shrugged. “Maybe nobody, I don’ t know.”
I knew Nina well enough to be sure that she doesn’ t see herself as merely
a victim or a damsel in distress. There was a deeper reason why this
question was coming up. Nina was expressing the fundamental, haunting
fear of aloneness. “Who will rescue me?” means, “Am I going to survive on
my own?” This fear bespeaks our tremendous need for security, a need so
dominant that it often blocks the insight, courage, and freedom we really
need but don’ t know how to find.
When we had time alone I laid this out for Nina, telling her that I thought
the speed of her courtship and subsequent decision to marry Gregory said a
lot about her insecurity after her divorce.
“When we set out on a spiritual path, we set out on a solitary journey, yet
pulling against this is all the old conditioning that tells us, particularly
women, that it isn’t safe to go it alone, that we can’t make it without outsidesupport. In other words, commitment to yourself collides with your belief in
commitment to a mate. Society  is changing, and independence for both
sexes is more accepted than before, yet that doesn’ t change the feeling of
aloneness that hits you when you break away from old conventions, old
models, old social standards.”
“Then I have to choose either marriage or being by myself?” Nina asked.
“No,” I answere d, “that’ s just fear talking. Your love for Grego ry can be
the starting point for finding yourself; the two aren’ t incompatible.”
Spirituality begins with a vision, but reality doesn’ t fit that vision. The
path is what brings them toget her. Most people who want to experience
inner growth begin, as Nina did, by reading in the vast inspirational
literature. They become discont ented with the distance between their own
lives and the enlightened existen ce they discover in their readin g; they start
to make  a break. Inevitably there turn out to be people—like Nina’ s first
husband or parents or old friends—who don’t fit the spiritual  vision. Yet
after the break nothing seems to really change. The haunting insecurity and
loneliness, the sense of confusion and conflict, are still there.
But instead of feeling let down by this “failure,” you need to realize that
all spirit ual work is done by yourself, with yourself, and for yourself. No
one “out there” can take responsibility. It is all right to be aware of a
distance between vision and reality, because that is what it feels like to be
on the path. If you had no gaps to close, you wouldn’ t need a path.
We all step onto the path to love out of need, but at a certain point need
can be destruct ive, because it is born of lack and fear. Need must be
balanced with two other ingredients—willingness to be transformed and
support in that transformation.
It isn’t easy to have all these requirements met, and it’s nearly impossible
if you don’t know of their exist ence. A highly motivated woman like Nina
would find it particularly difficult to expose her vulnerability, to express
need directly. Her willingness to change seemed genuine, since that was the
motivation behind her divorce,  but was this willingness really deep? In
choosing Gregor y, who had much experience of spiritual matters, she found
the opposite of her first husband, but perhaps Gregory saw too clearly into
her insecurities. Finally, support  depends upon being able to receive it when
it is offered, and it wasn’ t clear that Nina was entirely open to sharingherself with a man whom she had known for only a few months before they
began to live together.
Need, willingness, and support. All of these are necessary if one is to step
onto the path to love. They serve as signals to spirit that you are ready to
depart from traditional ways of living, for the old modes can’t be converted
to new ones.
I told Nina that there was a deeper meaning to her question “Who will
rescue me?” She was expressi ng an intuition that she was going to be
rescued. But not by a man—it was her own spirit that was summoning her
onto the path.
I asked Nina to practice meditat ing on her heart, and this is what she said
she felt: gasps and moments of ragged breathing, occasional sobs followed
by deep, relaxe d sighs, twinges of chest pain, tightness in her neck and
abdomen, restless urges to stop meditating and jump out of her chair. When
asked what was happening mentally, she reported flashes of old memories,
bursts of sadness, fantasies, obsessive repetition of daily worries, and some
fleeting moments of silence.
This is very typical of a perso n newly opening up to spirit— a lot of
purification was going on as the mind body system began to release its old
energies. Nina’ s transformation, like everything placed in the hands of
spirit, promised to be tremendously beautiful. For the time being, however,
she was too caught up in her confusions to see this.
At one point in our conversation, Nina was startled by a comment I
made. “If you don’ t mind me saying so, I like you this way,” I said.
“What? In a mess?” she rejoined.
“First of all, I don’t think you’re in a mess. You’re in ferment, and there’ s
a big dif ference. Y our confusion has made you open.”
“You mean it’ s turned my life upside down,” she corrected.
“And what’ s wrong with that? We can all be wounded, every one of us.
The people who try to deny this have to live inside a shell of denial. That’ s
not what you want.”
She suddenly looked tired. “I just want to be happy.”
“That’ s what everyone wants, but you’re aiming much higher,” I said.
“You want to be real. And you’re willing to face what it takes to get there.
That’ s how your spirit is expressing itself right now.”Her mood broke, and she gave me a wan smile. “Having a warm body
next to me would help.”
There’ s nothing  obviously “spiritual” about Nina’ s situation, but in fact
the path to love beckons most strongly when old behaviors, beliefs, and
approaches no longer work. Ferment, restlessness, and discontent always
mark the beginning of the path.
Before we parted Nina and I embraced. “You don’t feel loved right now,”
I said, “and you doubt whether you are lovable. You feel instead that you
have failed or been let down. Allow these feelings to be what they are;
don’t try to run away from them. But know that the real issue lies
somewhere else—you are trapped in a definition of love that is far too
limited. Expand your definitio n, allow your conception of love to go
beyond your emotional needs, and your whole perspective will change. You
won’ t see failure and defeat. Far from it—you’ll see perfection. At every
moment, from the second you were conceived in the womb, your life has
been about love. Your existence is an expression of love, the only real
expression it can have. Everything else is an illusion.”
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THE SPIRIT OF ROMANCE
IN OUR CUL TURE  we are not taught to see falling in love as a spiritual event,
yet for centurie s that was the accepted interpretation. When the question
“Where does love come from?”  was asked, the universal answer was God.
According to the New T estament,
He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.
The lives of saints of every religion have demonstrated love in its spiritual
dimension; at the same time the humblest person who fell in love also
realized he was treading on sacred ground. Over the centuries, particularly
in the West, the divine connection was lost, however, and romantic love
became a more earthly matter, more centered in the entrancing charms of
another individual (“How do I love thee, let me count the ways”).
In spiritual terms falling in love is an opening, an opportunity to step into
the timeless and stay there, to learn the ways of spirit and bring them down
to earth. All openings are temp orary—this is not a limitation specific to
falling in love. The real question is, What should we do with the opening?
The highest spiritual qualities— those of truth, faith, trust, and compassion
—grow from the tiniest seeds of daily experience. Their first sproutings are
exceedingly vulnerable, and there is no guarantee they will not with


intimations, urges, and ideas, and it is always telling you to ris e,
transcend, grow, advance, adventure, and move forward to greater
heights. The urge to love, to save the lives of others comes from the
depths of your subconscious. For example, during the great San
Francisco earthquake and fire of April 18, 1906, invalids and cripples
who had been confined to bed for long periods of time, rose up and
performed some of the most amazing feats of bravery and enduranc e.
The intense desire welled up within them to save others at all  costs,
and their subconscious responded accordingly.
Great artists, musicians, poets, speakers, and writers tune in with
their subconscious powers and become animated and inspired. For
example, Robert Louis Stevenson, before he went to sleep, us ed to
charge his subconscious with the task of evolv-ing stories for  him
while he slept. He was accustomed to ask his subconscious to g ive
 88  him a good, marketable thriller when his bank account was low.
Stevenson said the intelligence of his deeper mind gave him the  story
piece by piece, like a serial. This shows how your subconsci ous will
speak lofty and wise sayings through you, which your conscious mind
knows nothing about.
Mark Twain confided to the world on many occasions that he never
worked in his life. All his humor and all his great writ-ings were due
to the fact that he tapped the inexhaustible reser-voir of h is
subconscious mind.
• How the body portrays the workings of the mind
The interaction of your conscious and subconscious mind requires a
similar interaction between the corresponding system of nerve s. The
cerebrospinal system is the organ of the conscious mind, and th e
sympathetic systemis the organ of the subcon-scious mind. The
cerebrospinal system is the channel through which you receive
conscious perception by means of your five physical senses and
exercise control over the movement of your body. This system ha s its
nerves in the brain, and it is the chan-nel of your volitional and
conscious mental action.
The sympathetic system, sometimes referred to as the in-v oluntary
nervous system, has its center in a ganglionic mass at the ba ck of the
stomach known as the solar plexus, and is some-times spoken of as
the abdominal brain. It is the channel of that mental action whic h
unconsciously supports the vital func-tions of the body.
The two systems may work separately or synchronously. Judge
Thomas Troward says, “The vaguest nerve passes out of the cere bral
region as a portion of the voluntary system, and through it we c ontrol
the vocal organs; then it passes onward to the thorax sending out
branches to the heart and lungs; finally, passing through the
diaphragm, it loses the outer coating which distinguishes the ner ves of
the voluntary system and becomes identified with those of the
sympathetic system, so forming a connecting link between the two
and making the man physically a single entity.
 89  “Similarly different areas of the brain indicate their con-nection
with the objective and subjective activities of the mind respectively,
and speaking in a general way we may assign the frontal portion of the
brain to the former and the posterior portion to the latter, wh ile the
intermediate portion partakes of the character of both.”
A rather simple way of looking at the mental and physical
interaction is to realize that your conscious mind grasps an idea, which
induces a corresponding vibration in your voluntary sys-tem of nerves.
This in turn causes a similar current to be gen-erated i n your
involuntary system of nerves, thus handling the idea over to your
subconscious mind, which is the creative me-dium. This is how your
thoughts become things.
Every thought entertained by your conscious mind and ac-cepted as
true is sent by your brain to your solar plexus, the brain of your
subconscious mind, to be made into your flesh, and to be brought forth
into your world as a reality.
• There is an intelligence which takes care of the body
When you study the cellular system and the structure of the organs,
such as eyes, ears, heart, liver, bladder, etc., you learn they c onsist of
groups of cells which form a group intelligence whereby they  function
together and are able to take orders and carry them out in deduct ive
function at the suggestion of the master mind (conscious mind).
A careful study of the single-celled organism shows you what goes
on in your complex body. Though the mono-cellular organism has no
organs, it still gives evidence of mind action and reaction per forming
the basic functions of movement, ali-mentation, assimilation, and
elimination.
Many say there is an intelligence, which will take care of your body
if you let it alone. That is true, but the difficulty is that the conscious
mind always interferes with its five-sense evi-dence based on outer
appearances, leading to the sway of false beliefs, fears, and mere
opinion. When fear, false beliefs, and negative patterns ar e made to
register in your subconscious mind through psychological, emotional
 90  conditioning, there is no other course open to the subconscious mind
except to act on the blue-print specifications offered it.
• The subconscious mind works continually for the common good
The subjective self within you works continuously for the genera l
good, reflecting an innate principle of harmony behind all things.
Your subconscious mind has its own will, and it is a very real
something in itself.
It acts night and day whether you act upon it or not. It is the b uilder
of your body, but you cannot see, hear, or feel it building, as all this is
a silent process. Your subconscious has a life of its own whic h is
always moving toward harmony, health, and peace. This is the divin e
norm within it seeking expression through you at all times.
• How man interferes with the innate principle of harmony
To think correctly, scientifically, we must know the “Truth. ” To
know the truth is to be in harmony with the infinite intelli-ge nce and
power  of your subconscious mind, which is always moving lifeward.
Every thought or action, which is not harmonious, whether through
ignorance or design, will result in discord and limitation of all kinds.
Scientists inform us that you build a new body every eleven m onths;
so you are really only eleven months old from a physical standpoint. If
you build defects back into your body by thoughts of fear, anger,
jealousy, and ill will, you have no one to blame but yourself.
You are the sum total of your own thoughts. You can keep from
entertaining negative thought and imagery. The way to get rid o f
darkness is with light; the way to overcome cold is with heat ; the way
to overcome the negative thought is to substitute the good thought.
Affirm the good, and the bad will vanish.
• Why it ’s normal to be healthy, vital, and strong it ’s abnormal to
be sick
The average child born into the world is perfectly healthy with all
its organs functioning perfectly. This is the normal state, and w e
 91  should remain healthy, vital, and strong. The instinct of self-
preservation is the strongest instinct of your nature, and it constitutes a
most potent, ever-present, and constantly opera-tive truth, inhe rent in
your nature. It is, therefore, obvious that all your thoughts, i deas, and
beliefs must operate with greater potentiality when they  are in
harmony with the innate life-principle in you, which is forever seeking
to preserve and protect you along all lines. It follows from thi s that
normal conditions can be restored with greater ease and certai nty than
abnormal conditions can be induced.
It is abnormal to be sick; it simply means you are going a gainst the
stream of life and thinking negatively. The law of life is the  law of
growth; all nature testifies to the operation of this law  by silently,
constantly expressing itself in the law of growth. Where there  is
growth and expression, there must be life; where there is l ife there
must be harmony, and where there is harmony, there is perfect health.
If your thought is in harmony with the creative principle of y our
subconscious mind, you are in tune with the innate prin-ciple of
harmony. If you entertain thoughts which are not in accordance with
the principle of harmony, these thoughts cling to you, harass you,
worry you, and finally bring about disease, and if persisted in,
possibly death.
In the healing of disease, you must increase the inflow and
distribution of the vital forces of your subconscious mind throug hout
your system. This can be done by eliminating thoughts of fear, worry,
anxiety, jealousy, hatred, and every other destructive thought w hich
tends to tear down and destroy your nerves and glands—body tissue
which controls the elimina-tion of all waste material.
• Pott’s disease cured
In the Nautilus magazine of March, 1917, there appears an article
about


 body tissues in which toxins have settled. When anyone has reached the degenerative disease stage, it is a
sign that toxic settlements have taken the body over. This is the time when we have to consider detoxification - the cleansing of
body tissues. O ur bodies can be overwhelmed by toxic accumulations as a consequence of fatigue, poor circulation and improper
diet. When we detoxify the body, we must also take care of those things so we aren’t simply spinning our wheels. I want to
emphasize that an unde ractive body burdened with toxic wastes does not have the capability of Growing off those toxins. As a
body becomes increasingly toxic, proper oxidation cannot take place in the tissues. Without oxygenation, we lack energy and a
tired body continues the do wnward spiral. It can’t throw off toxins. Sick people are always tired people.

WORKING TOWARD A HEALTHY BOWEL
Perhaps because of the bowel’s central position of importance among the eliminative organs, some health professionals of the past
became “bowel m inded.” We have discovered that it is much better to be “whole body” minded and to start out with a complete
tissue detoxification. A healthy bowel requires sufficient water, good nerve tone, good muscle tone, adequate circulation and  the
right biochemical  nutrients in the right amounts. These, however, are not sufficient to bring health to a dirty, toxic -laden bowel.
Cleansing must come first, then tissue rebuilding can take place. This is not an easy task and I don’t believe anyone can do a good
job in le ss than a year’s time. This estimate is based on the time it has taken to see healing lines coming into dark, chronic bowel
areas of the irides after a patient has gone through a cleansing and rejuvenation program. Our bodies expel a certain amount of
toxic materials every day. Medical lab tests have been developed to check whether toxin levels in the blood, urine, feces or mucu s
are normal. Furthermore, there are tests for the skin, hair and saliva to tell what toxins are being eliminated. By means of these
tests, chemical imbalance may be recognized.

THE IMPORTANCE OF PROPER ELIMINATION
Of all the processes essential to good health, we find that proper elimination is certainly one of the most important, and wh en we
consider systems of the body, it is appa rent that good bowel management is necessary. I must admit that I did not realize the
importance of good bowel care until years of experience in the science of iridology proved to me, beyond the shadow of a doub t,
that the condition of the bowel tissue is often the key to the state of health or disease of the individual. I am convinced and truly
believe that our problems begin more in the bowel than any other part of the body. The body depends on a clean bowel. The
cleanliness of any tissue, i.e., kidney, s tomach, brain, depends upon what is found in the bowel.

ORGANIC VERSUS FUNCTIONAL
There are two conditions in people that I always take care of right away. It is difficult to separate these conditions and ye t they
represent two ways of treatment. People a re dealing with both physical and mental imbalances and I get to the root of their
problem by finding out what they believe in, what is at the bottom of their troubles.
If you believe a lie, then you live a lie. If you believe in happiness, desire happines s and know how to go about attaining
happiness, then chances are you are happy. However, the person who holds a vision of himself as diseased, distressed, blue,
trapped or unable to get well, has to be re -educated. They have created their own world and tra pped themselves in it. Many are
victims of percentage diagnoses - ”Your chances of getting well are only 30%,” and we have to erase this from their mind. We
have an organic condition and a functional condition. When we deal with an organic condition we hav e to change the tissue, we
have to change damaged cell structure, create a new chemical balance, promote better circulation; we have to remove obstructi ons,
pressure and other gravitational effects. These things are strictly physical and we find that the m ind alone cannot overcome them
very well. I believe that the mind has a tremendous effect on the physical body but that we must feed each aspect its own kin d of
food. In the organic or physical aspect, we use diet, corrective exercise and tissue cleansing.  We feed the mind or functional aspect
of our being with education; teaching people to grow out of their problems, to change their attitude and consciousness. They must
learn to walk the higher path in thoughts, words and deeds. I have changed people’s cel l structure many times, actually showing
them the results with blood tests, but they still hang onto their old attitudes. They want to get well but don’t believe they  can. This
confused state is transferred to every cell in the body. This is why I question  people about their mental attitude; we have to see
where we are before we know where to go.

CHAPTER 2
A BRIEF DISCUSSION OF THE ANATOMY AND PHYSIOLOGY OF THE BOWEL
In order to better familiarize the reader with the scope of this book, the following discu ssion is provided. Proper bowel
management does not require one to be a bowel expert. It is helpful, however, to understand the basics of bowel anatomy and
physiology in order to more fully comprehend the message I have to share with you concerning good bo wel management.
The bowel responds ideally to the laws of right living as outlined in this book. One must be aware of these laws and persever e to
follow them. The rewards in health and freedom from disease are more than worth the effort.

THE SMALL INTESTI NE
When food has passed through the stomach by way of the mouth and esophagus, it enters the long, coiled tube called the small
intestine. Here is where about 90% of the absorption into the bloodstream of all food constituents takes place. By the time i t
reaches the small intestine, food from the mouth has been reduced by the action of chewing and digestive juices into a liquid
known as “chyme.” Digestion of carbohydrates starts in the mouth with saliva. Further digestion takes place in the stomach.
Protein s are broken down into short chains of amino acids (the essential ingredients of protein formation) in the stomach, while
further reduction takes place in the small intestine until the molecules can be properly absorbed. When chyme has been thorou ghly
mixe d and broken down by the stomach, the pyloric sphincter muscle valve opens and allows the food to enter into the uppermost
portion of the small intestine or duodenum. Here in the duodenum, the first of three portions of the small intestine, the chy me is
again thoroughly mixed by the contraction of the muscular walls. The longitudinal and circular muscles of the intestinal walls are
capable of performing three different types of movements, each serving a different purpose. The tube of the small intestine i s
divided by the circular muscles. These contract, segmenting the food as it passes. Further contraction of the muscles between  these
segments occurs, making smaller segments, then the first set of muscles relax. This action results in a sloshing motion call ed
rhythmic segmentation and takes place 12 to 16 times a minute. As a result of these movements, the chyme is thoroughly mixed
with digestive juices. A wave of contraction known as peristalsis flows from the duodenum through the jejunum, or middle port ion
of the small intestine, all the way to and through the ileum, third and final portion. Peristalsis is the motion caused by th e rhythmic
co-ordination of the muscles and propels the chyme through the small intestine. Normal muscular activity of the intesti ne is not
usually felt, although toxin -producing bacteria may cause violent and painful spasms to be felt. Diarrhea and vomiting are both
reactions to irritations of the stomach and bowel.

THE DIGESTIVE JUICES
Chyme entering into the duodenum from the stomach is highly acidic. It contains a concentration of hydrochloric acid and
enzymes which are required to break down the larger molecules so that absorption becomes more prolific. The small intestine
secretions contain bicarbonate, an alkaline substance  which causes a neutralization of the stomach acid. Special cells in the
intestinal wall secrete these substances and are combined with juices flowing from the gall bladder (bile) and pancreatic jui ces
which flow by way of the pancreatic duct into the duod enum. Bile salts, produced in the liver and stored in the gall bladder, once
in the intestine act like a detergent to emulsify the fatty acids and glycerides, making very small particles to be absorbed into the
walls of the intestine. By way of hormonal se cretions, the small intestine is able to control the digestive processes.

HOW ABSORPTION PROGRESSES
The small intestine is so constructed that nutrient absorption is most efficient. A large inner surface area is provided by t he
accordion -like folds of the  intestinal wall. Lining the wall are finger -like structures called villi. They project into the interior of the
tube from all directions. The average adult has a small intestinal area of approximately 200 sq. ft. The small molecular part icles
of the broke n down food are able to pass into the cells lining the villi and


., lecturer at Polytechnic School, Bulsar, and residing at Dhimar Housing Society at Bilmora, had pioderma for the last eight years. He used to have boils all over his body and they were sometimes full of pus. He was not cured by doctors or even hospitals. He started Urine Therapy in August 1967, and continued it for two months. He used to drink two ounces of urine twice a day. He massaged his whole body for half an hour, twice a day for two months. He used to put urine-soaked pads on the boils. He had fasted for eight days in the beginning. He was completely cured.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John O'Quinn  BOIL  “A resident of Sabarmati had a fourteen year old son, named Bharat. Some hard boils appeared on both sides of his throat, causing risk of his life. “On the first day, Bharat very reluctantly took some of his own urine in a single draught, but vomited at once, from nausea, and some urine expelled. However, he felt less pain on that day. The next day, he took urine in great quantity. There was no vomiting and he had more relief. Consequently, he became hopeful of a cure. On the third day, he took six to ten ounces of urine without any hesitation. Within three days of 24 Urine Treatment, he was completely relieved of pain. However, he continued the treatment for four to six days more and on the sixth day, the hard boils on both sides of his throat had disappeared. This successful end made both the father and son confirmed believers of Urine Therapy.”  from Urine Therapy, by Dr. John F. O'Quinn  BONE FRACTURE  “Despite foreboding on October 19, 1974 he travelled on a motorcycle with his friend and at 8 P.M. met with an accident as they were knocked down by a car that followed. The bones two inches above the ankle were fractured and his right elbow also got injured. He was at once removed to Chandigarh hospital. He right leg was placed in plaster after operation. For ten days he was in the hospital. In the same place two elbows injury was healed with application of auto-urine within one week.  When after 98 days the plaster was removed there were sores on the leg and it was swollen and immobile. At the suggestion of his guru Shri Jagdish Mishra he started massaging the leg with three-month-old urine for twenty minutes daily. Within six weeks he had 75 % recovery - wounds were healed subsided, leg became flexible and within further two weeks the leg was freely movable. It was further cleaned and on guru's advice he began drinking urine from February 1975. This gave his body activeness and his movement speed. He can move about the house with crutches.  He writes in his letter of 17-6-1975. ‘I have now stopped going in a rickshaw to my Bank. I take a city bus to work and on return I walk home. My movements also are faster now and the swelling too has considerably reduced.’  from Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  BONE FRACTURE  “On January 26, 1956 in a car accident both my leg-bones were fractured. There was a compound fracture about an inch below the right knee. The left also had similar but simple one. Both the legs from thighs to soles were in plaster.  After five weeks, plaster was removed, both the legs were found to be utterly, immobile. They could not be folded even at a slight angle. The knees pained with the slightest attempt at movement. Doctors opined that the fractures being at the knees it was 25 difficult to get the legs moving. Left leg could as best move a little beyond 90°, and the right could be even less mobile.  Several visitors would come to inquire after my health and would suggest remedies. Many were adopted; two of which were prominent. First, to give steambath to both the legs in the morning and in the evening. The other, suggested by a well-wishing high official, was to have auto-urine treatment. He assured with emphasis that with urine massage both of my legs would be fully mobile.  I, therefore, started massaging with urine (kept overnight) for fifteen minutes daily in the morning; and after about is minutes I would bathe. As I was frightened with doctor's opinion I followed the treatment with firm faith. Had any defect remained in the legs. I would have been invalid to do my daily chores. But I am pleased to report that after 21 days of urine massage the legs could move freely. I can sit with folded legs and my heel can touch my thighs. Even doctors were much surprised to are my recovery. I wish others also are benefited with my experience."  from Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  BONE FRACTURE  “Pinky of 19 years, stays in Jammu. Her bones were so weak even in childhood that she would collapse on walking even a short distance. Bones of her arms, hips and legs had been fractured. She could with only on all fours. Her body had become very heavy. All current remedies proved useless.  The local urine therapist Shrimati Kala Jain put her on a nine-day urine fast. For two-three weeks Shrimati Jain herself gave. her daily urine massage for an hour and a half. She took urine five of six times daily. She eschewed whatever was shunned by urine therapy. Mostly she took vegetables and fruits. She was cured beyond expectations within three months. Her heaviness was reduced. Her fingers could move freely in and out. Now she can walk about without any support. She can even work with her hands, She has continued her practice of the invaluable remedy shivambu, i.e auto-urine therapy.”  from Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  BRAIN SWELLING  "In the case of a woman who developed severe swelling or edema of the brain after the surgical removal of a small brain tumor: 26 'On the fourth postoperative day, she developed signs of increased intracranial pressure. In the course of a few hours, she became progressively lethargic and then suddenly she became unresponsive...Her pupils became dilated and fixed, her systolic blood pressure rose...Preparations were underway to take her to the operating room for the removal of a bone flap. “‘Urea was administered intravenously as an emergency measure. Within 20 minutes from the start of injection her blood pressure had returned to normal and her pupils began to react...to light. From this time on, her recovery was uneventful… “‘In this case, urea was definitely life-saving, because prior to its administration the patient was in critical condition and her survival until surgical decompression could be done was unlikely… “‘In many similar instances urea was found to be life-saving.' "  Urea—New Use of an Old Agent, 1957. Report #18 Symposium on Surgery of the Head and Neck.  <<<NOTE>>> who is the author^^^?   BRAIN TUMOR  "The researchers commented on the urea treatment of another patient who had a brain tumor surgically removed but developed another massive brain tumor three months later:  '...the patient received 256 ml. of 30 per cent urea. The bulging mass...had completely disappeared by the end of two hours.' "  Urea—New Use of an Old Agent, 1957. Report #18 Symposium on Surgery of the Head and Neck.  BRONCHIAL ASTHMA  “A case of bronchial asthma improved in a four days' fast on urine, when a three weeks' fast at a well-known Nature Care Home had utterly failed. After every drink of urine a wad of mucus was discharged. The last day of the fast produced such a clot of mucus that the patient went out and tested  his breathing by walking up a hill. Experiencing no difficulty, he immediately returned to work.”  BRONCHIAL ASTHMA  “Mr.  E.E. age 37. Discharged for the Navy for bronchial asthma, from which he had suffered since the age of 14.  The sea life seemed to make the trouble worse. He was 27 disturbed each night at least four times in order to use a medical spray and dared not go to the movies without it for preventing loud coughing.  Within three months, during which he drank urme up to three or four pints a day, and two short fasts of 36 to 40 hours each on urine alone he became so much relieved that he never thinks of taking his spray to the movies, nor does he wake up at night to use it. All fear of his trouble has left him, and his general health is vastly Improved.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  BRONCHIAL ASTHMA  Octavio Moses F. Nuñez: "I'm 16 years old. I've been sick with bronchial asthma for 12 years. I went to many doctors, including in the town of Aguas Calientes. Whenever I went out without a coat or sweater, I came back sick. I could not go anywhere, and in each time it happened, I would be sick in the hospital for 1 to 2 weeks. One day, they brought me a naturopath. Were it not for my urine I would be in the hospital right now, because it's spring and the pollen of flowers affects me. I give thanks to God for Urotherapy."  Testimonials of Patients Cured by Urine Therapy


 —although we have created the illusion that
there is. We’ve cr eated this illusion for a reason.
The mind has broken down EverMoment into bits of information about life, called data.
It has categorized these data (because that is its job). Your mind takes in data from what it
experiences as something it calls “now” an d stores it in memory according to certain
criteria. This is pretty effective and pretty efficient —except for one thing. Your mind has a
very narrow view of “now.” Its perspective is extraordinarily limited. This is by design. If
your mind took in all the data about everything all at once, and tried to process  it all at once,
you would be able to make little sense out of it. That is because too much data is almost
worse than no data at all. (Anyone who has gone into a restaurant to find a menu with 101
item s knows this experience exactly.)
In order to consider the data of EverMoment and make it useful (given what it is that
you are here to do, which we are coming to), that data must be considered one piece at a
time.
Now this can be done rapidly —indeed, very  rapidly —but it still must be done
sequentially. That is, one item at a time. And even in this, all items may not be considered,
but some must be separated out, so that each item may be considered in and of itself. It is
for this reason that the mind volun tarily assumes a limited perspective.
You do this in your own life. If a time comes when you feel you are “on overwhelm,” you
may well say in aggravation to those around you, “Wait a minute, wait a minute! One thing
at a time!”  Your mind does this automati cally. Thus, its perspective is not one in which The Whole of things may be considered, but only a portion of The Whole. Again, this is quite by
design.
Your mind is a marvelous mechanism, as I have explained, AND... it is important that
you understand exactly how it works, so that it may work for you and not against  you.
Now... the fact that your mind holds a limited perspective does not mean that you do.
This would only be true if you were only your mind. But you are more than that. And this is
the crux of the whole point that I have come into your life right now to make.
You are more  than your mind. You are also a soul. Indeed, this is the biggest part of you. I
don’t want you to think that I am accusing you now of being small -minded (heh -heh), but,
in fact, your mind is the smallest aspect of your individuated Self. Its perspective (one more
time, for emphasis...) is very, very limited. The impact of this limitation is going to be
made clear to you very, very shortly.
The soul, on the other hand, is not limited in its perception. It knows everything, sees
everything, understands everything, and has everything that the living entity you are could
possible wish to have. It has these things because it is these things. It h as love because it is
love. It has peace because it is peace. It has harmony because it is harmony. It has synergy
because it is synergy. It has glorious expression because it is glorious expression. It has all
these things and more. There is only one thin g it does not have. It does not have the
experience  of them.
That is where the rest of you comes in.
Now we are getting down to the nub of it. Now we are getting down to the System of the
Soul, and how it works.
The soul operates on a system of Synergistic  Energy eXchange —or what we have
abbreviated as S.E.X. All of life operates on such a system and is created by it. When energy
is transferred, it is transformed. It then becomes energy in formation. This energy
information is broken down by the mind, as I have already described, into bits of data.
Now, in this conversation I have created the term EverMoment because I needed a word
that is larger than Now. EverMoment contains more than what the mind  refers to as Now.
EverMoment contains what the soul  calls N ow—which in mind -terms includes “yesterday,”
“today,” and “tomorrow.”
Now, the mind can gather all of the data that is presenting itself to us “today.” And it can
recall in an instant all of the data is has stored about “yesterday.” But the one thing the
mind cannot do is gather data about what it calls “tomorrow.” If it did, it would see that
yesterday, today, and tomorrow are really Always. The mind’s inability to see the “future”
as part of “now” is why we say it has a very limited perspective.
The Syste m of the Soul is a system by which the individuated aspect of Divinity known
as You can step back from what is Apparently True (based on the limited perspective of the
mind) to see what is Actually True (based on the limitless viewpoint of the soul) for a
period brief enough to not “unravel” the mind, but just long enough to open the mind to a
larger perspective.
We have all had such “flashes” of insight, such fleeting moments of total awareness, such
glimpses of The All. During such moments a veil is lifte d and we move quite easily from
Apparent Truth to Actual Truth. The purpose of such instaparency is to allow the mind to know that there is more data  out there than it may be aware of; unknown and
unexperienced information regarding life.
In truth, it is n ot really unknown and unexperienced, it is merely forgotten. The function
of the soul is to help you remember all that you already know —but not too much, too fast,
or it will “blow your mind.” That would do no good at all, because you need both your mind
and your soul to move through life in a way that satisfies your reason for coming here.
By allowing your mind to remember bits of Actual Truth that you have not experienced
in this lifetime (and therefore do not have in your memory), the soul assists you wh en you
are having any here -and-now experience that you are not understanding and enjoying. It
gives you the ability to elevate your experience from Distorted Reality to Observed
Reality —and then upward still, to Ultimate Reality.
You should know that even Observed Reality is a very wonderful place to be. Most
humans do not get there very often, and fewer manage to remain there very long. Living in
the Observed Reality is, it turns out, a high state of being. In this state, we distort nothing,
but see e verything for exactly what it is in human terms. This can remove us, a great deal of
the time, from fear.
The movement from Imagined Reality to Observed Reality is a big one. The shift from
Observed Reality to Ultimate Reality is usually a much shorter ste p. When your
consciousness resides in Ultimate Reality, the limited perspective of your mind expands
beyond belief.
I mean that literally. It expands beyond what you now believe, to a place where belief is
no longer necessary, having been replaced by absol ute knowing. How long you can hold on
to this perspective and still operate in your day -to-day life in the way that you must if you
are to meet your life’s objective is the question. Those who do are “in this world, but not of
it.” We see them as masters. We acknowledge them as avatars. We seek to follow their
example. Yet until now we have not even known what they were doing, much less how they
were doing it. That’s what this conversation is all about.
Things will be different now, you know.
Not the snows,  blanketing mountains in June.
Not, “The frost came early” or “stayed late.”
The kind of different
that stains the soul.
That leaves an Innocent dusted
with
every new color of God.
_______
Once you have seen deeply
and been deeply seen
you know that
nothin g has ever, ever been as it seemed.
That Your own reflection is
every Christ, every Goddess, every Buddha, and Brahmin —
put simply: the Everyone’s Heart.
—‘Things Will Be Different Now’  © 2008 Em Claire  19.
THE ETERNAL JOURNEY OF THE SOUL
IN ORDER FOR YOU  to change your idea about why change occurs you will have to change
your idea about who you are, where you are, why you are where you are, and what you are
trying to do here.
These are the ideas we have been circling around in this conversation for a whil e now.
They are what I have called Life’s Four Fundamental Questions. Most people have never
asked themselves these questions, much less answered them. I believe it is vitally
important that you do so if you want to live a happy, fulfilling life, because t he answer to
these questions could dramatically alter your perspective.
It is also important to note that there are no single answers to these questions that are
“right.” That is, however anyone answers these questions, their responses are “right.” In a
world where


 detoxing to remove this debris from your body.
Many cancer victims have only a small malignant tumor mass and experience only
mild discomfort. Others have very large malignant tumor masses like Steve
McQueen's. If your physician can surgically de-bulk or remove most of these masses,
you often do not become toxic, and your recovery time speeds up.
D O  N O T  THINK YOU ARE CANCER FREE!
Reactions while on the Kelley Program
On occasion, we have found that an area of a malignant tumor mass becomes
tender and swells. This could be a very good sign. As one's body cleans up the
various debris and digested cells it is like hitting your finger with a hammer and
tenderness, pain and swelling occur. It can be very frightening to those who
experience a tingling or "electrical shock" sensation. This is usually caused by
pressure on nerves from malignant tumor growth. But often, it also occurs when the
swelling from clean-up is taking place within the body. Therefore, it could be a good
or bad sign, but one should consider the good possibility of clean-up activity.
Once or twice after some months on our Metabolic Program, a family member has
called me and said "your program didn't work" Bob/Mary died. When questioned,
the individual had not been on the program for the last four to six months. Another
time a call came in saying the individual had died, only to find out she was killed
instantly in a head-on auto accident. Others have died from gunshot wounds while
dear hunting, others from heart attacks. Of course this is not a "Metabolic failure."
Ascites, Cachexia, Fluid Cysts and Diarrhea
Ascites is a collection of fluid in the abdomen, chest, or legs. If the patient with
Ascites has been diagnosed with cancer, the physician calls hospice and writes
multiple refill prescriptions of strong narcotics.
Cachexia in cancer usually implies terminal illness where the body cannibalizes
itself. The liver converts the body protein tissues into glucose which metabolically
supports the cancer (placenta) until death occurs.
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Winning The Cancer War
Fluid Cysts is a fluid collection in epithelia sacks containing proteins, electrolytes,
minerals, etc.
Diarrhea - in cancer. When standard treatment fails I  have found that the patient's
body uses diarrhea to remove years of toxic substances so that repair and rebuilding
can take place.
Ascites Update
I  would like to bring to your attention some terminal conditions. Cindy is a cute
little ol' heifer from Florida and a flight attendant with a major airline. Unfortunately,
flying on an airplane on a regular basis has its hazards and she was exposed to all
sorts of toxins and germs, which fill the body to the brim with stressful toxins.
Cindy's big problem was playing with two boys; her fiancee Ken, and St. Peter.
When she was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer in April 2001, she immediately
incorporated my program into her life, bypassing "traditional" methods of cancer
therapy such as chemotherapy and invasive surgery.
About a year into my program, Cindy's doctor told her she had "Ascites"; a
cancerous fluid that floats freely in the body, or, forms into encapsulated cysts. She
and Ken looked-up Ascites on the Internet and were horrified to find that there was
almost nothing on the subject. They then designed a website about Ascites and their
experiences, www.asciteshelp.com. It is one of the most outstanding sites on the net
and Cindy and Ken's trials and tribulations give hope to thousands.
Although it is against the law for me to disagree with her doctor, I  do not think
Cindy had Ascites. As the medical community has been beguiled, this is the way I  see
this potentially terminal condition: It has been my experience (as in Cindy's case) that
these multiple fluid cysts are a result of taking my enzymes, and that the body's self
defense forms pockets of very toxic metabolic wastes. If these toxic wastes were not
captured in cysts they are usually fatal.
This was also the case with Dr. Pamela and the after effects of Chelation Therapy
that removed toxic metals from her body. In Dr. Pamela's case, a fluid cyst twice the
size of the kidney was formed to hold these toxic substances until they could be
safely removed from the body. Of course, the ignorant physician wanted to remove
the kidney. These fluid cysts are life saving back-up systems Yahweh, God Almighty,
has built into this most perfect instrument of all creation.
Cindy is a "Gate Rattler".  Even when she was in extensive pain, her desire was to
live and not rattle the front gates of heaven. Whenever she was pushed to her limit,
she would have visions of St. Peter, looking in his book telling her that she had not
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Winning The Cancer War
been invited to visit heaven so soon.
In fall of 2003, about every ten days to two weeks while experiencing extensive
pain from Ascites fluid buildup, Cindy had many opportunities to rattle St. Peter's
pearly gates. He would go to the throne room and say to Yahweh, God Almighty,
"This cute little ol' Florida heifer might be coming to visit us!" God would say, "Send
her back - she has much more work to do."
This affair with St. Peter went back and forth over 40 times whenever Cindy had fluid
buildup. St. Peter was tired of hiking to the throne room so he would shout over to
God. "God, that cute little ol' heifer from Florida might try to visit us again." God
would shout back, "Tell her, not yet, go home and get to work!"
Cindy would have made it inside the pearly gates if it had not been for her
radiologist and doctor. Every time she would come in to see them when these fluid
cysts filled up, the radiologist would get out his big long needle and drain another
cyst. This procedure is called Paracentesis.
On September 1, 2003, the Oncologist report stated that the tests performed on the
Ascites fluid showed that the cancer cells were well differentiated, a very positive sign
considering cancer cells are very aggressive, and are typically fragmented and poorly
differentiated. Cindy was getting better!
Although in my opinion, Cindy did not have Ascites, it is no wonder the medical
profession called these fluid cysts Ascites. They filled-up to the point of causing near
death, then she would rattle Peter's pearly gates and have her little affair with him.
What I  am trying to say is, Yahweh, God Almighty, has a lot of back-up systems built
into his created masterpiece.
World War III
We have been plunged into World War III by our Common Enemy. The major
dilemma we are encountering is that you and I, do not recognize that we are in the
middle of World War III, let alone who is our enemy. No metabolic program will
keep you well and healthy when you are subject to being attack by biological warfare
agents via Chem-trails, vaccinations, drugs, contaminated food and "treated" water.
53
The Panc reatic  Study
The Medical Establishment has for many years
endeavored to discredit Dr. Kelley's most successful
Cancer Paradigm developed in 1963.
A Review of Dr. Kelley's
Pancreatic Cancer Patients
The Medical Establishment has for many years endeavored to discredit Dr. Kelley's
most successful Cancer Paradigm developed in 1963.
A medical journalist obtained authorization under the guidance and direction of
Dr. Robert A Good, Ph.D., M.D. president of Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer
Center in New York City to review Dr. Kelley's records. The objective of the Medical
Establishment was to prove beyond a shadow of doubt, that Dr. Kelley was an
unorthodox quack. Dr. Kelley's objective was to prove beyond a shadow of doubt
that the Kelley Paradigm is the only scientific basis for the Cure of Cancer. Dr. Kelley
had some 33,000 well-documented medical records of his Cancer Patients. The
documentation was so overwhelming this Study continued for over 5 years.
Legally the definition for a Cancer Cure is, a patient must be free of Cancer five
years after initial diagnosis. The study was approached from two general parameters.
First parameter was for all types of Cancer. The results indicated a 93% Cure Rate,
after their physicians dismissed the patients, stating no further orthodox medical
therapy could be helpful for them. In other words, their disease processes had
exceeded the therapeutic limits of Orthodox Medicine and they could no longer be
helped. Thus the standard Orthodox Death Sentence - go home and die!
Dr. Kelley often states, "it is possible to Cure only 97% of Cancer Patients as in 3%
of those diagnosed with cancer, the Patient has a death wish, or more frequently the
next of kin (wife, husband, parents, children) have a Death Wish for the Cancer
Patient." The conditions for success of the 97% of those Cancer Patients are two in
nature. One, the patient must have at least 6 months of time to get well into the
Kelley Program and two, one must follow the protocol exactly and faithfully. After
the first six months, there is an excellent prognosis for recovery. The Cancer patient's
road to success is difficult and usually takes an additional 18 months of


 Before
you had a habit; now you have an awareness of wanting to be differ-
ent, and you have made a choice to make it happen. It’s just like
learning to drive a stick shift. Eventually you’ll have a new habit
which will not require constant awareness. You’ll soon be behaving
in all kinds of self-adoring ways naturally.
With your mind now working for, rather than against you, exciting
self-love activities are on the horizon. Here is a brief list of such be-
haviors to which you can add as you achieve a sense of self-esteem
based upon your own worth.
• Select new responses to others’ attempts to reach you with love
or acceptance. Rather than instantly being skeptical of a loving ges-
ture, accept them with a “thank-you” or “I’m happy that you feel
that way.”
• If there is someone that you feel genuine love toward, say it
right out front “I love you” and while you check out the reactions
you receive in return, pat yourself on the back for taking the risk.
• In a restaurant, order something you really enjoy no matter what
it costs. Give yourself a treat because you are worth it. Begin to select
items that you would prefer in all situations, including the grocery
store. Indulge yourself with a favorite product because you are worth
it. Outlaw self-denial unless it is absolutely necessary—and it rarely
is.
• After a tiring day and a large meal take a brief nap or a jog in
the park even if you have too many things to do. It will help you to
feel one hundred percent better.
• Join an organization, or sign up for an activity that you will en-
joy. Perhaps you’ve been putting this off because you have so many
responsibilities that you just don’t have the time. ByFIRST LOVE  / 45choosing to love yourself, and partaking of the slices of life that you
want, those others that you serve will begin to learn some self-reli-
ance of their own. And you will find yourself with an absence of
resentment toward them. You will be serving them out of choice,
rather than obligation.
• Eliminate jealousy by recognizing it is a put-down of yourself.
By comparing yourself to some other person and imagining you are
loved less, you make others more important than you. You are
measuring your own merit in comparison to another. Remind
yourself that (1) Someone can always choose another without having
it be a reflection on you, and (2) whether or not you are chosen by
any significant other is not the way you validate your own self-worth.
If you make it that way, you are doomed to eternal self-doubt, be-
cause of the uncertainty of how a particular someone out there is
going to feel at any precise moment of any given day. Should he/she
choose another, that choice reflects only the other, not you. With
practice at self-love, any circumstances in which you’ve previously
found yourself to be jealous will be reversed. You’ll believe so much
in you that you won’t need the love or approval of others to give
you value.
• Your self-love activity might also include new ways of treating
your body, such as selecting good nutritional foods, eliminating
excess weight (which can be a health risk as well as an indication of
self-rejection), taking regular walks or bicycle rides, choosing plenty
of healthy exercise, getting outdoors to enjoy fresh air because it
feels good, and in general keeping your body healthy and attractive.
Provided you want to be healthy. Why? Because you are important
and are going to treat yourself that way. Any total day spent cooped
up or inactive in boring routine activities is a vote for self-enmity.
Unless you actually prefer being cooped-up, in which case you make
that choice.
• Sexually, you can practice greater self-love. You can stand naked
in front of a mirror and tell yourself how attractive you46 / Your Erroneous Zonesare. You can get in touch with your body. Explore yourself sensually,
give yourself goosebumbs of shivery pleasure. With others, you can
also choose sexual fulfillment for you, rather than making your
partner’s pleasure more important than your own. Only by choosing
gratification for yourself can you give pleasure. If you aren’t happy,
generally your partner is disappointed. Moreover, when you choose
yourself, others are more able to choose happiness for themselves.
You can slow down the whole process of sex, teaching your lover
what you like with words and actions. You can choose orgasm for
yourself. You can make yourself achieve the ultimate physical exper-
ience by believing that you are worth it, and then getting lost in the
excitement of verifying it for you. Why? Because you are worth it!
• You can stop equating your performance in anything with your
own self-worth. You may lose your job, or fail a given project. You
may not like the way you performed this or that task. But that doesn’t
mean that you are without worth. You must know for yourself, that
you are worth something regardless of your achievements. Without
this knowledge, you will be persistently confusing yourself with
your external activities. It is just as absurd to make your self-value
depend upon some outside accomplishment as it is to tie it in with
some external person’s opinion of you. Once you eliminate this
confusion, you will be able to set about all kinds of undertakings,
and your final score—while it may be interesting to you—will in no
way determine how valuable you are as a person.
These, and many like them, are the actions of those who love
themselves. They may often challenge the lessons that you’ve learned
as you’ve grown-down. At one time, you were the epitome of self-
love. As a child, you knew instinctively that you were worthy.
Now look back at the questions in the introduction to this book.FIRST LOVE  / 47•Can you accept yourself without complaint?
•Can you love yourself at all times?
•Can you give and receive love?
These are the issues that you can work on. Setting personal goals
to be in love with the most beautiful, exciting, worthy person
ever—you48 / Your Erroneous ZonesIII
YOU DON’T NEED THEIR
APPROVAL
Needing approval is tantamount to saying, “Your view of me is more
important than my own opinion of myself.”
You may be spending far too many of your present moments in
efforts to win the approval of others, or in being concerned with
some disapproval that you have encountered. If approval has become
a need in your life, then you have some work to do. You can begin
by understanding that approval-seeking is a desire rather than a
necessity. We all enjoy applause, compliments and praise. It feels
good when we are mentally stroked. Who would want to give this
up? Well, there’s no need to. Approval in itself is not unhealthy; in
fact, adulation is deliciously pleasurable. Approval-seeking is an
erroneous zone only when it becomes a need rather than a want.
If you want the approval, you are simply happy to have the en-
dorsement of other people. But, if you need it, you are going to col-
lapse if you don’t get it. That’s when the self-destructive forces move
in. Similarly, when approval-seeking becomes a
49need, you give up a chunk of yourself to the “outside person” whose
advocacy you must have. If they disapprove, then you are immobil-
ized (even in a small way). In such a case, you have chosen to wear
your self-worth on your sleeve for someone to rub or not rub as they
see fit. You feel good inside only if they decide to administer some
praise to you.
The need for approval of another person is bad enough, but the
real trouble comes with the need for the approval of everyone for
every act. If you carry around such a need, then you are bound for
a great deal of misery and frustration in your life. Moreover, you
will be incorporating a wishy-washy non-person self-image that will
result in the kind of self-rejection that was discussed in the previous
chapter.
The need for approval must go! No question marks here. It must
be eradicated from your life if you are to gain personal fulfillment.
Such need is a psychological dead end, with absolutely no benefits
accruing to you.
It is impossible to go through life without incurring a great deal
of disapproval. It is the way of humanity, the dues you pay for your
“aliveness,” something that simply cannot be avoided. I once worked
with a middle-aged man who fit into the classic approval-needing
mentality. Ozzie had a set of beliefs on all controversial subjects,
including abortion, birth control, war in the Middle East, Watergate,
politics and everything else. Whenever he encountered scorn he
came unglued. He spent a great deal of his energy in getting every-
one to sanction him for everything that he said and did. He related
an incident with his father-in-law, in which he stated that he firmly
believed in mercy killing, and he noticed his father-in-law wrinkling
his brow in censure. Instantly, almost reflexively, Ozzie modified
his position…. “What I meant was, if someone is conscious and ac-
tually asks to be killed, then mercy killing is O.K.” He noticed his


 knee-joints. Even after his
return from there, he continued drinking urine twice a day with
very good results. Now he is quite comfortable and happy.
AFTERMATH OF CASES
1. Shrimati Kalavati belongs to Punjab. She is a religious-minded
lady. She suffered from pain in her shoulders and there was stiffness
for three years. Doctors could not cure her but urine treatment with
regular drinking and massage cured her completely. Moreover she
got rid of her spectacles by applying urine drops in her eyes and by
washing them by urine. She has cured wounds and other ailments
by use o.f urine. She did all this at Shri Hans's suggestions.
2. Sflrimati X lives at Firozepur (Punjab) and is aged fourty-four.
She is somewhat fatty. Seven years before she had pain in her
knees, shoutders and other joints and slowly the pain covered the
wha}e body. There was swelling on alomst all joints. There was
diffculty in walking too. She started urine treatment on 12-5-66 at
Shri Hans's instance. She felt relief only in four or five days. Then
she fasred on urine for five days. There was an all-round reltfe to
her body. Her weight was reduced by about 12 lb.; constrpatk:m
disappeared; cold was no more; and now feels herself quite mormal.
3. Shrimati Y resides at Jadialaguru (Punjab). She is forty-five. Her
forehand used to become numb at night; such was her condition for
the last 12 years. Slowly numbness increased and there was a
sensation of heat too. On pressing the hand there was pain also.
She could not get any benefit by doctors' treatment. So she started
urine treatment in· 1965. She fasted on urine for five days and
massaged her hands with urine. She felt complete relief, cured SKIN DISEA5ES : 143
numbness of her hand and is quite normal now.
4 p· ·a N Bulsara (Bombay) wrote a letter to the edi~or,
Kais~r-e~~~nd a~d it is published in the 9th July issu~ of the da~y.
When she was fifty she accidE>ntally had some hard Impact on er
right knee and so the cartilages there were injure~.. She could ;:at
walk properly and afterwards she developed arthntls. It wa~ t en
d ct for a few mmutes. very difficult for her even to stan ere B
Bone-specialist gave a verdict that it was a very hard ~e.. y
chance she came to know about urine therapy and start unne
reatment She fasted on urine only for two days and massag~d her
tk cor.about two months and is quite all right now. If there IS any
nees,,. she can now
pain, she applies urine therapy an~ c~res It at. once. de t in urine
climb 300 steps in a very high bUilding. She IS an a p ~...
d ng woman of her tumour -uy treatment and she has cure a you
auto-urine!
CHA-PTER XIV
SKIN DISEASES ·
- 1 Bl'st...., due to Heat : Shri Juthabhai A. Shah, on Saba~ati
• 1 e.... h" body. in 1958~ He dectded Haritan Ashram, had heat erupttans o~ IS •... •. doctor
to make an experiment with auto-unne Without g<>l~g t~ a
nd an rubbing it on the whole body and drin1<1n~ It once or
a ic ~da During this period, yellow blistQrs of the Size of a.pea
tw e d y. h. hole body They were so close that even an 1nch appeare on IS w · · · h d
of skin was not free from their effect. There was much pam m an s
and feet. He fasted with urine for thre~ days and felt ~o ~::ena~~
The blisters· rendered massage impossible so h~ mere ~I became
his bod with urine. On the sixth day t e trou e.
er!ted and his feet were swollen. H~ noticed that sheer
exagg. h d ffect on the blisters So he requested b ·ng with unne a no e ·.
a e~~::r;riend to do the rubbing for him. The fri:nd did accordmgly
and the ripe blisters burst. The skin appeared.~htteh~s th~ f~~:z~~
out. It was as if his body was besmeared Wit w lte om. 144 : AUTO-URINE THERAPY
took a bath with warm water and cleaned his body. This relieved
him a good deal.
Within five or six days, pus was eliminated from all the blisters.
His new skin appeared bright. His body became perefectly well and
after a couple of days he started his usual work.
2. Blisters : An account of Shri Keshavalal Makanlal (Weaving
Master) who got rid of his chronic constipation with urine treatment
and had cured his skin disease also:
"In 1948, blisters appeared on my whole body. There was acute
pain and sitting or sleeping was rendered difficult. 1 started
?esm~aring my.whole body every day with six ounces ·of clay soakd
m unne. I earned on this experiment for twenty days and 1 was
restored to perfect health."
If stung by poisonous fly, mosquito or other harmful insect one
should ~nstantly.rub urine on it to_ get rea~~ relief. Even the pois~n of
a scorp1on subs1des by the rubbmg of unne and placing bandages
soaked in urine on the skin.
3. Ringworm and Nettle-rash : Shri Shamalbhai is the organizer
of th~ Gram-Rakshak Dal of Kaira district. He had an alergy.
lmput1ty of blood resulted in ringworm on his body and its worst
a~act "":as on his nose. He also suffered from diabetes. He began
With unne treatment on his own in a faulty way. Without full
conside:ati~n of his bodily condition, he did not abstain from taking
sacchanne m tea even during the course of treatment. Within a
coupl~ of days, nettle-rash appeared on his entire body along with a
few p1mples. I suggested to him to stop saccharine and do the
rubbi.ng of uri~e with slight pressur so that the pimples may burst.
He d1d accordmgly and all his troubles disappeared within a couple
of days..
. Urine is chemical but is a natural one. Saccharine is on the other
ha:nd artificially synthesized chemical. Such a foreign stuff cannot be
expected to be absorbed within the system, at least at the time of
treatment. SKIN DISEASES : 145
4. Eczema : Shri Rasiklalbhai of Patan, is an agent for some tea
company in Bombay. His wife suffered from eczema on the fingers
of her hands. She was treated for a number of months by doctors but
there was no cure. She started urine treatment. Within afortnight the
fingers were cleaned up and not a trace of the disease was left.
5. White Leporsy : Shri Ranjitbhai Baladeobhai Parikh i~ nea~ly
32. About 15 years ago he suffered from white leprosy on h1•s ent1re
body. There were several patches of leprosy, big and. sma~l on the
head, face, chest, abdomen, hands and feet. Even. ~1s ha1r tu~ned
white. He happended to read Hatha Yoga Prad1p~ca. Therem ~
mention has been made of Shivambu-Kalpa. He obtamed ~ Sansknt
text of Shivambu-Kalpa. It has described a number of expenments o.n
urine. Ranjitbhai himself performed sam~ of them. He cured h1s
eye-trouble by drinking urine through h1s nose. He also treated
himself with urine to get rid of white leprosy.
By systematic taking and rubbing of urine, his white lepr~sy was
gradually reduced. Some patches of leprosy however pe~s1s~ed on
his forearms and feet. But those patches do not trouble h1m m any
way. There is no burning sensation even in summer.
Thereafter he started the use of urine in his family. Gradually th~
neighbours were also benefited by this handly treatment for the1r
minor ailments. Ranjitbhai had also undertaken the treatment of
serious ailments with success. ·
6. Degenerative Leprosy : Late Mr. Arrpstrong was an ex~ert in
urine treatment, but he did not have a chance to treat any pat1ent?


a man of forty,  lives on a well‐
balanced diet, drinks  his own " water of life, " and enjoys perfect health.
I may  mention that the late Dr. Rabagliati  was so impressed  with this
case  that he wrote  a detailed  account  of it which  was sent to four
medical journals in England and U.S.A. Not one of thera would publish it.
Allusions to cures effected by laymen are not welcomed  by medical
journals. Medical publications  have policies  just like daily papers The
fact that a thing may  be true or useful to the helping of their fellows
seem to play a secondary  part with editors of medical papers of the
orthodox variety. This is unfortunate,  as it is of course obstructive  to
progress and medical enlightenment,  a matter which  was recognised  by
the Health Practitioners'  Association.  Indeed,  in the  Health
Practitioners'  Journal, we find articles by homoeopaths,  naturopaths,
herbalists,  osteopaths,  yoga practitioners,  biologists,  biochemists,  etc.,
etc. ‐the laudable belief being that there are many roads  to health and
many means of treating disease.

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 CHAPTER  XII.
VENEREAL  DISEASES

Drs.  Bosanquet  and  Eyre  in their book entitled Serums, Vaccines and
Toxins were constrained  to admit: "It cannot be denied  that in a certain
number  of instances  the injection  of diphtherial  anti‐toxin  has been
followed by death  directly attributable  to the action  of the serum."  One
of these tragedies,  the earliest  and  perhaps the saddest befell  Dr.
Langenhans  of Berlin  Because one of his servants developed  diphtheria,
as a precautionary  measure,  he inoculated  his perfectly  healthy child of
one year nine months  old. In a few moments  the unfortunate  child was
dead.  The irony of it is that there was not the slightest evidence  to
prove  that the child would ever have contracted  the disease, seeing
that diphtheria  germs may  be found in a number  of quite healthy
throats, and  in such an environment  are as harmless  as are many
another  supposed ‐to‐be deadly germs.  But, alas it is not merely
injections  for diphtheria  that have proved fatal, for hundreds  of deaths,
many of them instantaneous,  resulted from  the use of salvarsan,
otherwise  called  "606"  in the treatment  of syphilis. Nevertheless,  just
as immunisation  against diphtheria  is boosted, salvarsan  was boosted
as the cure  par excellence  for venereal disease.
Of syphilis  we read: "Whether  he has been treated or not, the patient is
always liable to develop nerve symptoms.  These  are the most serious of
all the complications  of syphilis and  the  commonest  are general
paralysis  and  locomotor  ataxia. They  usually show  themselves  about
ten years after infection.  In general paralysis  there is progressive  73
 dementia,  usually with some form of exaltation.  The speech is
hesitating,  slurred  and  tremulous.  The face  muscles and  tongue show
paresis with tremor… Later  the muscular powers become gradually
weakened  until there is more  or, less general paralysis”  (Dr.EH Ruddock,
M.D.) This is a most  unpleasant  and  saddening  picture.  Yet I suggest
that the horrible after‐effects of venereal disease are the result of
suppressive  treatment.  What after all is syphilis? It is simply the result
of a poison which is absorbed  into the body, and  hence the rational
treatment  is to get that poison  out of the body.
As the Medical Profession  reserves the right to treat venereal diseases,
and  has its clinics for that purpose, I as a layman, or a naturopath  as I
am sometimes  called, am prohibited  from treating it. All the same there
are men, who having heard  of urine‐therapy  through  the late Mr.
Baxter's pamphlets  (mentioned  in Chapter 11) and  through  other
channels,  have set about treating themselves.
I will here  give the case  of a man  who contracted  venereal disease in
France  during the last war (1918).  He had, by the way,  suffered  for
some time from psoriasis,  which  he had  suppressed  with herbal
ointments.  This man, then still young,  knew something  about Nature‐
cure  methods  and  had  endeavoured  to treat his venereal disease by
subsirtting  for a time entirely on cold water in the hope of "starving it
out." At the end of an 11 days'  fast, however,  his symptoms,  far from
being better, were decidedly  worse. It was then that he came  across
one of the Baxter booklets. The upshot was that he decided to continue
the fast, but be it noted, with the addition of the internal and  external
use of his own urine. The results were gratifying  in the extreme; at the
end of ten days every sign of the venereal disease had  vanished,  and 74
 the psoriasis  had  greatly improved.  Nevertheless,  he decided to
continue the urine‐fast  until all traces of the skin  complaint  had
disappeared.  This eventuated  in one more  week, and he found himself
free of all his troubles. And not only that, but he also found that his
sight, hearing, senses of taste and  smell  had  become more  acute than
they


 that the ego made, including the body. This is not
something that you can try to skip over; there is going to be a lot of guilt
that will come up as you relate in this world. Along the spiritual journey,
the ego defense mechanisms attempt to minimize fear and guilt without
actually letting them go. Instead, the ego minimizes the fear and guilt to
the point of being tolerable—so that you will keep them! The ego-
thought system does not want to get rid of them, so it acts ingeniously:
minimize the intensity to keep you trapped. It is as if you were forced to
agree to drink a cup of lethal poison but were granted one wish of
deciding how you would drink it. Your wish was to mix the poison with
the ocean first, let it blend in, and then you fill your cup. That is what the
ego is doing; it lets you dilute the poison before you drink it. It dilutes
the guilt so it gets unrecognizable and acceptable to the sleeping mind. But diluted poison is still poison, although it’ s harder to recognize. The Origin of GuiltGuilt is the feeling that something has gone wrong. The mind gets
fixated on it, gripping something that is not loving, but how do you
become aware of and release this feeling of wrongness? Guilt is also associated with linear time. Projection and guilt are the
“making” of time, for without those, there is only timeless eternity,
where all is one. Because the ego invented linear time, it tells you that
you were guilty in the past, that there has been much wrongdoing in the
past, and that the present moment is nothing or insignificant. It rolls over
or skips  the present moment where the answer of peace is and moves
into the future, making us believe that the future will be the same as the
past. This guilt comes from way down inside. It originates in believing
that we are separate from God. The ego-thought system uses linear time
to keep the mind trapped in guilt, and then it maintains the guilt by the
repetition of this same mistake of separation, over and over again. But it
is all a big trick to keep you feeling you have done something wrong. In this way, guilt has nothing to do with behaviors. Guilt gets
generated from the core split in the mind (see the levels of mind
discussion in chapter 2), not from things in the world, although it is
immediately projected out as the world of form. This means that the
experience of guilt is solely a result of the purpose the ego gives to
things. Most people are not consciously aware of this, so no matter how
much we try to change behavior, guilt is still there. The belief in hell, the
devil, or some dark force separates the mind from the experience of
being one with God. Metaphysi cally, it is our own guilt that projects the
whole idea of an external dark force or hell. Since the ego believes in
opposites and is scared of God and love, it makes up ideas such as hell,
the devil, and sin. It is as if the ego is using what should be the most
sacred to scare the mind with opposite ideas. For example, Christianity
in its core is pure. It is supposed to lead people into God. Jesus’ s pure
teachings—present in mystical Christianity, Gnosticism, and The
Urantia Book IV—are all about that. And the ego seems to take what is
the purest and make it dark to scare people. This separation guilt is all
unconscious. Most people don’t come home from an emotionally bad
day and tell their partner, “Dammit, it’s that belief I’ve separa ted from
God; I’ve been acting it out all day.” We don’t get into traffic and say:
“That guy tried to cut me off! Ah…separation from God again!” Andthen we don’t eat lunch and say, “Oh, I overate; I feel bloated…ahhh…
separation from God.” This separation from God arises, and we feel so
guilty. But we don’t go throug h the day consciously thinking that we
have separated from God. We are not aware that this separation is our
only problem, nor are we askin g ourselves why we keep playing this
game. We are not aware that it’s ontological guilt that’s causing all the
specific problems. In attem pting to fix our life or to heal, we mistakenly focus very
strongly on specifics. The mind gets tangled and complicated; that’s why
we can work with a psychotherapist for years and make very little
headway—because we focus on the wrong thing. It is like rearranging
the deck chairs on the Titanic  while the ship is going down. As long as
we have guilt coming up, there  is a deep fear of love way down in the
mind. Whether we’re aware of it or not, there is a tremendous terror of
love. Of course, it’s the ego’s terror, and as long as we’re identified with
the ego, we’ll feel its emotions. W e’ll feel the ego’ s guilt. How Ego Wields Guilt to Keep Us Trapped
We need to disidentify from the ego, to expose it, and show its
nothingness. Once we are disidentified from the ego, we are free of guilt
forever. So how is the ego maintaining guilt? What are its tricks at the
bottom of the mind where the guilt actually occurs? There is a lot of guilt in the mind. The ego has it wired that way for
a reason: to keep us trapped in a small self-concept that is very limited
and experientially very far from our true Self. The way it does this is
through memories, conditioning, and anticipation. We just keep having
certain memories and experiencing events that reinforce the guilt over
and over again. This is because guilt is wired to behaviors. But no matter
how much we try to behave and be a good little boy or girl and no matter
how old we get, because of the guilt, we still seem to mess up. And we
still seem to have behaviors that we associate with guilt. It seems like we
are caught with our leg in a trap, and we can’t get out of it because the
guilt just recirculates and recycles through the memories and theconditioning. And our anticipation that this is just the way it is keeps
projecting the guilt out onto the future, and so we keep experiencing it. There is a line in A Cours e in Miracles  that says, “For you must
learn that guilt is always totall y insane, and has no reason.” That is a
pretty clear teaching from Jesus: there is no reason for guilt. Another line
says, “All anger  is nothing more than an attempt to make someone feel
guilty.” I call this the unholy trinity: guilt, fear, and anger. They are
coming from the ego belief system in an attempt to project. It’s a
dynamic where, if you get angry enough, somebody is supposed  to admit
guilt or feel bad. It’s all an egoic attempt to not look at our own guilt,
which actually only maintains our guilt and anger. My great suggestion
is that when you have those emotions arising, do not buy in to ego
justifications or rationalizations for them or look for causes in the world
to blame. You can never fully know the bigger picture of mind while the
ego is believed to be real. We can only feel angry, guilty, or afraid while we still have  the
belief of separation active in our mind. All guilt arises from the attempt
to think apart from how God thinks. God is love and the illusion of guilt
can only come from having thoughts that aren’ t of God. They must be
ego thoughts because that’s the belief in separation from God. A Course
in Miracles states that guilt feelings are just a sign that we don’t know
that God Himse lf orders our thoughts and that we believe we can think
apart from Him. How does this relate to all the problems we see in the world? To
believe you can think apart from God is “the authority problem.” It’s
believing you can author yourself. So, the authority problem is a
question of authorship: Am I the author of me, or is God the author of
me? Am I as God created me, as Spirit, or can I make myself something
other than Spirit : flesh, separate, tiny, and little? It happens in the mind,
but it gets projected to form. It plays out when children have problems
with parents. Think about two-year -old children and the first “No!”
coming toward Mom or Dad. You know how it goes when the teen years
come, parents get authoritative:  “You are drinking; we’re going to give
you a curfew; we’re taking away your driving privileges.” The war may
start against parents and transfer to classmates and teachers, and then, as
the young adult grows up, there are authority issues with police officers,politicians, lawyers, and bosses. It goes on and on. It’s all a projection of
the initial authority issue, of thinking we are the author of our self. Guilt and judgment always go together. We judge because we feel
guilty. But where does the guilt come from? Where does that deep
ontological feeling of wrongness, of separation, come from? Not the
personal guilt of I, personally, am unworthy or I’m not good