 n g  C E O
M edical Manager Corporation was born out of a
successful IPO  on February 2, 1997. Out here in the
woods o f Alachua, not only di d I maintain my position as
president of our large R&D facility, but I also became
CEO an d chairman of the bo ard of directors of the new
company. I was completely naive as to how much work I
would b e taking on as CEO. I quickly realized that it was
going to require all the one-pointed focus I had
developed thr ough my years of meditation. I had
surrendered, a nd this was t he task life had given me.
That made it part of my spiritual journey, and I was fully
prepared to devote myself to it to the absolute best of my
ability.
The first thing I did was tak e the steps necessary to
assure that I would know what was going on in the
company. I was in Alachua, a nd a group of independent-
minded execu tives accustom ed to running their own
businesses were scattered around the country. If I was
going to take responsibility for the company, a thorough
flow of inform ation needed to pass across my desk. This
was going to require regular group conference calls and
an enor mous amount of reporting to keep up with what
everyone was doing. When I announced that each
executive had to turn in a weekly report on the major
activities under their domain, there was definitely some
grumbling. But together we had an enormous amount of
experience, and I wanted the group-mind making
decisions, not any one person’s mind.It wasn’t long, however, before I realized that I
couldn’t possibly keep up with all the weekly status
reports plus be properly prepared for the executive
conference call s. I needed some serious help, and as you
may have guessed by now, that is exactly what I got.
We won ’t call it a miracle, but this time life’s magic
showed up in the form of a young lady named Sabrina.
Paul Dobbins had met her years earlier at one of our
national dealer seminars, and apparently, it was love at
first sig ht. Not too long after  that, Paul informed us that
Sabrina was moving here, and they were getting married.
I didn’t know Sabrina, and I was concerned that Paul
expected her to move int o a yoga-based spiritual
community when she wasn’t even into yoga or
meditation. He  assured me that she would fit in just fine,
and he also inf ormed me that I would be very pleased to
have he r work at the company. Surrender, surrender,
surrender—like I had a choice.
As it turns out, Sabrina’s family business was a small
Medical Manager dealership in California. She had been
selling, installing, and suppo rting practice management
software since she was thirteen years old. Though she
was only twenty-two when she began working at
Personalized P rogramming, and had never even been to
college, I soon found out that senior-level business
analysis was completely natural to her. Despite the fact
that she had no prior experience at this level, Sabrina
was the  person I turned to for executive help when I
became CEO.
With Sabrina at my side, one of my main
responsibilities as CEO beca me growing the company.
Fortunately, this was no ordinary company; the
prospects for growth in th e newly created Medical
Manager Corp oration were phenomenal. To start with,
our growth would come naturally as we acquired our
dealers. We had close to two  hundred dealers, many of
which would be very good ac quisitions for us. As long aswe had  a steady stream of new dealers merging into the
company, we had a natural source of growth.
Much more interesting to me, however, was the
tremendous growth that could come from our ability to
electronically c onnect our enormous number of doctors
to the rest of the health -care industry, including
insurance companies, laboratories, and pharmacies.
Once we rolled support of our practices under one roof,
we could provide a level of automation for the health-
care sys tem that would not o nly cut costs but also result
in improved efficiency and patient care.
I sa t down wit h Sabrina and told her that getting our
hundred-thousand-plus doctors fully up on electronic
claims and other health-care  transactions was going to
be our first new corporate business initiative. I then
informed her that she was going to be in charge. This was
the birth of what we called Medical Manager Network
Services. The success of this venture at so many levels
was practically incomprehensible. It started out as an
inspired vision and grew into a $100-million-a-year line
of busin ess. In a very short period of time, we led the
industry in electronic transactions.
Over the next two years, the  company grew by leaps
and bounds. We kept acquiring more and more of our
dealers, and our nationwide  presence meant we could
provide our services to larger and larger clients.
Meanwhile, I never worked so hard in my life. But it
didn’t burn me out. In fact, it had the opposite effect. The
more I let go of “Mickey” and just committed myself to
the task life ha d given me, the more the spiritual energy
flow increased within me. It was as though by aligning
myself w ith life ’s outer flow, t he beautiful, inward flow of
energy was naturally stren gthened. By now, I had
become thorou ghly convince d that the constant act of
letting go of o ne’s self-centered thoughts and emotions
was all that was needed for profound personal,
professional, and spiritual growth.4 6.
T h e  I n t e r n e t  a n d  H e a l t h  C a r e
A fter almost thirty years, I’d seen enough perfection
unfold around me that nothing in me wanted to interfere
with the flow ever again. I had seen time and again how
what at  first appeared to be a  problem turned out to be a
guiding force of change leading us forward. That was
certainly the case toward the end of 1998 as our
executive strategy calls began to focus on how the
Internet was going to affect our business. It concerned us
that our competitors would so on have inexpensive access
to all physicians nationwide without the need to build
out a dealer ne twork. John Kang and I were well aware
that two  health -care Internet  companies, Healtheon and
WebMD, were already soliciting our doctors on an ever-
increasing basis. We knew we had to do something if we
wanted to be able to compete successfully in the
upcoming world of Internet connectivity.
Around this time, John Kang had been introduced to a
company calle d Synetic, in New Jersey, that was in the
process of building a very advanced health-care Internet
portal. Synetic had one of the finest management teams
in the industry, and it appeared that none of the other
start-up companies stood a chance against it.
Synetic executives were very interested in a possible
merger with Medical Manager Corporation. Their dream
was to handle all the industr y’s health-care transactions
through their Internet portal. When they looked at us,
they sa w more than one hundred thousand physicians
already connected electronically for a broad range of
services. If they handled the transactions for all ourphysicians, everyone in the industry would want to do
business with them. Synetic w as in a position to leverage
the asset we had built to an entirely new level.
In May of 1999, John Kang set up a meeting for me to
meet Synetic’s  chairman, Marty Wygod. Marty and I
lived on opposite sides of th e country, so he suggested
that we  meet at an aptly named private airport in
Midway, Texas. Midway wa s, in fact, almost exactly
halfway between California and Florida. I chartered a
private jet and flew in by myself.
Sitting alone in a six-seater jet at forty thousand feet is
a v ery peaceful  place. I fell into meditation and my mind
became very still. When I opened my eyes, I absorbed the
tremendous difference in my  environment from when I
had firs t decid ed to let go and see where life would take
me. I still live d in the same woods and kept my same
practices morn ing and evening, but somehow the rest
had changed rather dramatically. I reflected back at how
many times life had presented me with changes I was
uncomfortable with. In the  beginning, it had been
difficult to ignore the resistant mind. Over time, as I saw
what ha d transpired by taking the risk of letting go of
me, the  process had become much more natural. I was
surrounded by the results of letting go. There was
nothing in my life I could point to that hadn’t come from
surrendering to life’s flow. I was so humbled by the
process that nothing in me w anted to resist ever again. I
was deeply in love with the excitement and wonder of
experiencing what would unfold next. It was in this
frame of mind that I was off to Texas to meet Synetic’s
chairman.
To me,


:Bry.,Kalis.,Sul.
tocold:Rhus-t.,Sil.
todamp:Dulc,Rhus-t.
todry(especiallydrycold):Caust.
tostormy:Rhod.
Coffee:Chain.
Coldwind:Aco.,Bell.,Heps.,Nux-v.,Spo.
Disappointed love:Ign.,Nat-in.,Pho-ac,Stop.
Excitement: Coff.,Gels.,Pho-ac.,Puis.,Stap.
Fear:Aco.
Fright:Ign.,Pho-ac,Puis.
Grief:Caust.,Cocc,Ign.,Lach.,Nat-tn.,Pho-ac,
Puis.,Stap.
Humiliation(woundedpride):Coloc,Ign.,Lye,
Nat-m.,Pho-ac,Stap.
Indignation:Colch.,Coloc,Stap.
Injuriestonerves/coccyx:Hyp.
Joy:Coff.
Lossofbodyfluids:Calc-p.,Carb-v.,Chin.,
Pho-ac.
Measles:Carb-v.,Puis.
Mentalstrain:Arg-n.,Kali-p.,Lach.,Lye,Nat-c,
Sil.,Stap.
Over-eating:Ant-c
Overwork:Kali-p.
Reprimands: Ign.,Op.,Stap.
Shock:Aco.,Am.,Ign.,Op.,Pho-ac,Puis.,Sil.
Sprains:Calc-c
Sunstroke:Glon.,Nat-c.
Suppressionofemotions:Ign.,Nat-m.,Stap.
Surgery:Am.,Bell-p.,Hyp.,Stap.
Teething:Cham.
Vexation:Ip.
Gettingwet:Calc-c,Caust.,Puis.,Rhus-t.,Sep.
Gettingfeetwet:Puis.,Sil.
Gettingheadwet:Bell.
Concentration
Poor:Bar-c,Caust.,Lye,Nux-v.,Sil.ConfidenceseeSelf-confidence,Lackof
Confused(seealsoAbsent-minded; Forgetful)
Arg-n.,Bell.,Calc-c,Carb-v.,Cocc,Glon.,
Lach.,Mercs.,Nat-c,Nat-m.,Op.,Petr.,
Rhus-t.,Sep.,Sil.,Sul.
Inthefreshair:Petr.
Conjunctivitis seeEyeinflammation
Conscientious Ign.,Sil.
Constipation Calc-c,Caust.,Heps.,Lye,Mag-m.,
Nat-mitNux-v.,Op.,Sep.,Sil.
Alternateswithdiarrhoea:Nux-v.
Belly/stomach feelsfull:Sep.
Desiretopassstool:
absent:Op.
constant:Nux-v.
ineffectual:Caust.,Lye,Mag-m.,Nat-m.,
Nux-v.,Sep.,Sil.
Pains:
burningafterstool:Sil.
stitching:Caust.
Stools:
blackballs:Op.
crumbling:Mag-m.,Nat-m.
hard:Lye,Mag-m.,Nux-v.,Op.,Sep.,Sil.
hardatfirst:Calc-c.
knotty:Lye,Mag-m.,Sil.
large:Calc-c,Mag-m.,Nux-v.,Sep.,Sil.
pale:Calc-c.
passedwithdifficulty:Mag-m.
rabbits'/sheep'sdroppings:Mag-m.,Nat-m.,
Op.
'shy'(theyrecede):Op.,Sil.
smallballs:Mag-m.,Nat-m.,Op.
soft:Heps.
soursmelling:Calc-c.
With:
ineffectualstraining:Mag-m.,Nat-m.,Sep.,
Sil.
unfinishedfeeling:Nat-m.,Nux-v.,Op.
Better:
beingconstipated: Calc-c.
passingastoolwhenstanding:Caust.
Worse:
beforeamenstrualperiod:Sil.
duringamenstrualperiod:Nat-m.,Sep.,
Sil.
Causes:
alcohol:Nux-v.
drinkingmilk:Mag-m.
over-eating:Nux-v.
pregnancy:Nux-v.,Sep.
sedentaryhabits:Nux-v.
Convulsions Bell.,Cina,Cupr.
With:
bluelips:Cupr.
coldnessofhandsandfeet:Cupr.
INTERNALREPERTORY Cough•171
Causes:
worms:Cina
teethingchildren:Bell.,Cina,Cupr.
vexation:Cupr.
CornsAnt-c,Lye,Sil.
Onsolesoffeet:Ant-c.
Undernails:Ant-c.
Horny:Ant-c.
Inflamed:Ant-c,Lye,Sil.
Soft:Sil.
Pains:
pressing:Ant-c,Lye.
sore:Lye,Sil.
tearing:Lye,Sil.
CoughAco.,All-c,Ant-t.,Am.,Ars.,Bar-c,Bell.,
Bry.,Calc-c,Calc-p.,Calc-s.,Carb-v.,Caust.,
Cham.,Cina,Cocc-c,Con.,Cupr.,Dros.,
Dulc,Euphr.,Ferr-m.,Heps.,Ign.,lp.,
Kali-b.,Kali-c,Kali-m.,Kalis.,Lach.,Lye,
Mercs.,Nat-m.,Nats.,Nux-v.,Op.,Pho-ac
Phos.,Puis.,Rhus-t.,Rumex.,Sep.,
Sil.,Spo.,Stap.,Sui,Ver-a.
Inelderlypeople:Bar-c.
Breathing:
asthmatic:Ant-t.
abdominal/difficult: Ant-t.
difficult:Ant-t.,Ars.,Cupr.,Dros.,lp.,Lye,
Nux-v.,Op.,Phos.,Spo.
fast:Aco.,Ant-t.,Ars.,Bell.,Bry.,Carb-v.,
Cupr.,Dros.,lp.,Lye,Phos.,Sep.,Sul.
rattling:Ant-t.,Dulc.
rough:Spo.
slow:Bell.,Op.
snoring:Op.
wheezing:Ars.,Carb-v.,lp.,Kali-c.
Cough:
barking:Aco.,Bell.,Dros.,Heps.,Kali-m.,
Spo.
choking:Cocc-c.,lp.
assoonasfallsintoadeepsleep:Lach.
constant:Caust.,Lye,Rumex.,Spo.
whenlyingdownatnight:Sep.
intheevening:Puis.
croupyseeCroup
deep:Dros.,Ver-a.
disturbssleep:Bry.,Lye,Puis.,Sep.,Sul.
distressing:Caust.,Nux-v.
dry:Aco.,Ars.,Bell.,Bry.,Calc-c.,Calc-s.,
Con.,Dros.,Heps.,Ign.,Ip.,Kali-c.,Lach.
Lye,Nat-m.,Nux-v.,Pho-ac.,Phos.,
Rumex.,Sep.,Spo.,Sul.
dryintheevening,looseinthemorning:
Calc-c.,Heps.,Sul.
dryatnight:Ars.,Calc-c.,Cham.,Dros.,
Heps.,Phos.,Puis.,Sul.
loosebyday:Sul.looseinthemorning:Puis.
dryduringfever:Aco.,Phos.,Puis.
exhausting:Ars.,Bell.,Caust.,Sep.
night:Puis.
hacking:All-c.,Ars.,Dros.,Lach.,Nat-m.,
Phos.,Sep.
eveninginbedafterlyingdown:Ign.,Sep.
worsecoldair:All-c.
worseafterdinner:Heps.
fromticklinginthelarynx:All-c.,Ars.,
Dros.,Lach.,Nat-m.,Phos.
hard:Bell.,Kali-e,Kali-m.
hollow:Bell.,Caust.,Spo.,Ver-a.
infits:Bell.,Bry.,Carb-v.,Cina,Coce,
Cocc-c.,Ferr-m.,lp.,Puis.,Rumex.,Spo.
inlongfitsatirregularintervals:Cupr.
irritating:Aco.,All-c.,Bell.,Bry.,Cham.,
Cocc-c.,Con.,Dros.,Heps.,Ign.,Ip.,
Kali-e,Lach.,Lye,Nat-m.,Nux-v.,Pho-ac,
Phos.,Puis.,Rhus-t.,Rumex.,Sep.,Sil.,
Spo.,Stap.,Sul.
loud:Ant-t.
loose:Ars.,Kali-c,Sep.
painful:All-c,Bry.,Lye,Sul.
racking:Bell.,Bry.,Carb-v.,Caust.,Cocc-c,
Ign.,Kali-c,Mercs.,Nux-v.,Phos.,Puis.,
Sul.
rattling:Ant-t.,Caust.,Dulc,Ip.,Kalis.,Sep.
short:Aco.,Ign.,Kali-m.,Rhus-t.,Sep.
suffocative:Carb-v.,Cina,Cupr.,Dros.,
Heps.,Lach.,Nux-v.,Sul.
ticklingseeirritating
tight:Phos.
tormenting:Ars.,Bell.,Caust.,Dros.,lp.
uninterrupted: Cupr.
violent:Bell.,Carb-v.,Caust.,Cocc-c.,Con.,
Cupr.,Heps.,Ign.,Kali-c,Lach.,Pho-ac,
Phos.,Puis.,Sep.
violentfits:Dros.,Nux-v.
voicehoarse:Aco.,All-c,Bell.,Carb-v.,
Caust.,Dros.,Heps.,Kali-b.
vomitingwithoraftercough:Ant-t.,Bry.,
Dros


protein) causing an immune response against itself for elimination.
The weak are always consumed in this world. This is just the order of things
so that life will continue to perpetuate itself. The strong always survive, one
way or another, and this is true cellularly as well. It is vital that the body
eliminates its weaknesses to increase its strength.
Many types of viruses, including the herpes virus (which appears to be a
proteus-type), are “protein splitters.” They appear in overacid conditions,
especially when high protein is consumed. In cases of herpes simplex or
genital herpes, the elimination of protein in the diet will make these viruses
inactive or dormant.
Science has been so ignorant of the true role of parasites that it has
created the devastating concept of vaccinations, introducing deadly and
DNA-altering viruses, in the name of immunity. Because most viruses are
cultivated in animal tissue and blood, contamination of these cultures is
common, and has created such monsters as the Sim-40 virus, which has been
implicated in causing many cancers. The HIV and E-boli viruses are other
examples of man-made viruses which were knowingly released into
unsuspecting human guinea pigs, creating a horrible nightmare of pain and
suffering, which has included the deaths of thousands of people.
The U.S. Government has inoculated thousands of military personnel in
the name of “immunity.” The Gulf War Syndrome is just one devastating
example of the horrible side effects of this ignorant type of thinking. The
people who initiated these programs should be held accountable for more
suffering and death than even Hitler perpetrated. Hundreds, if not thousands
of people, have contracted polio from the polio vaccine itself. Thousands ofothers have developed cancer and other disease conditions because of the
introduction of live bacteria and viruses into already toxic human beings.
Such devastation created within the human organism will take us many
generations to overcome … if we wake up fairly soon.
a spiritual perspective
We do not need to live in fear of nature’s laws and the creatures that uphold
them. We must simply learn how nature works. Parasites do not create or
cause disease, they are only feeders. We often forget who created everything,
and that this Creator knew just what to do and how to make things work. A
look into the wonders of the physical body should make a believer out of
anyone.
Just stop a minute and consider: “What gives you your awareness?” Not the
thought processes of learning, comparing or deciding, but the awareness
behind the thought—the
you
 that is
you
 whether you’re in your car, at the
beach, or at home; the you that you can’t escape from no matter where you
go.
You are always present, for time is nothing more than a succession of Nows.
You, as awareness, always live in the present moment. The mind, however,
lives in time—past and future.
Take time to observe yourself. Learn to relax. Control your thinking
processes. Stop desiring so much, and learn to live each moment fully. Enjoy
and experience each moment for what that moment brings; then enjoy the
next moment for what that moment brings. Living in the past or future is
living a “dead” life. Life truly exists only in the eternal now.

BACTERIA

We are all familiar with the word “bacteria” meaning those single-celled
organisms without a true nucleus. There are several different types of
bacteria. First, the rounded or spherical-type, which occur as single cell units
called
micrococci,
 or as pairs called
diplococci.
 In this category we have the
cluster-type called
staphylococci,
 which is well known, as is the chain-type
called
streptococci.
 Cubical groupings of this chain-type are called
sarcinae.
The second type of bacteria is the rod-shaped or
bacilli.
 If they are oval-shaped they are called
coccobacilli.
 Those forming chains are called
streptobacilli.
Third, we have the spiral-type, of which the rigid ones are called
spirilla.
The more flexible spirals are the well-known
spirochetes.
 The curved spirals
are called
vibrios.
Bacteria are microscopic, and they live and thrive in lymph congestion.
Lymph tissue, remember, is your septic system, which moves cellular wastes
and by-products of metabolism out of the body. These wastes and by-
products can appear as mucus on the skin, in the gastrointestinal tract and
throughout the body where toxins are present. Bacteria love complex sugars,
milk and starch by-products. This is why, when you “catch” a cold, the body
starts purging the lymphatic system, causing a discharge of this mucus and
the parasites feeding within it. One notices this purging especially from the
sinuses, lungs, kidneys and bowels. However, the body also starts purging
itself throughout the entire system, causing that “achy-all-over” feeling.
There are bacteria (also called flora) all along the GI tract helping the
body to break down foods. Many vitamins are created by the actions of
bacteria. A good example of this would be the various bacteria that live in
your GI tract that create B-vitamins from the breakdown of the foods you eat.
PROTEUS

Another type of parasite is the proteus or proteolytic type, which are the
protein-splitters. Like the herpes virus, this parasite attaches to or enters
weakened cells. These are acid type parasites, which thrive in the body when
it becomes overly acidic. Their job is to decompose proteins or weakened
cells. When a healthy cell is living in an alkaline environment, you will never
see this type of parasite. However, a diet high in protein is a calling card to
the most destructive parasites. High protein diets over-acidify the body
causing damage to the liver, pancreas, and especially the kidneys. This also
creates body odor because of the excess of undigested proteins that are stored
interstitially in tissues.
WORMS
 We have been discussing the microorganisms. Now let’s look at the larger
“boys”—worms of all types, as well as flukes—which can become a major
problem within us. There are many types of worms: pin, hook, round, spiral
types, and many different varieties of tapeworms. They can grow and travel
throughout the body, but especially love the liver, heart and GI tract,
including the stomach. I have seen worms even in the lungs. Tapeworms, of
course, can get very large and long. I have personally seen them twenty-six
feet long.
In one case, a middle-aged female had her gallbladder removed when she
was in her early twenties. At the time she had a lot of pain both in the
gallbladder area and in her back. But when the removed gallbladder was
examined there was nothing wrong with it. Over the next twenty years the
pain grew intensely. She could not eat excessive fats or dairy products or she
would vomit. Her stomach area became extremely sensitive to touch. She also
began eating her meats very rare, almost raw. When I started her on my detox
program she found three large tape worms in her stools. Now the pain and
sensitivity in her abdomen are completely gone.
Another case that I worked with was a young butcher from Portugal. He
had severe neurological weakness, very similar to multiple sclerosis. Based
on his rate of nerve decline he was given two months to live. As soon as he
started the detox program he started vomiting
handfuls of worms. Within
three months of detoxifying he was driving around Lisbon again.
Years ago, adults use to “de-worm”—that is, remove the parasites from
their children every spring. Day-to-day activities and the ingestion of foods
bring many parasites into the body. These parasites then become feeders on
our own toxins and weak cells. Many times worms grow in the intestinal
tract. After several years, they then become the problem causing a multitude
of symptoms. We have forgotten some of the basic facts of life, especially
when it comes to parasites and their role in nature.
Many people have flukes (which look like little jellyfish) and mainly
grow and accumulate in the liver and pancreas. When they grow in the
pancreas this can cause digestive problems and diabetes.
Summary

Keep the body pure and clear of mucus and impurities, and strengthen yourcells. Remember that parasites are secondary to the cause. They only thrive in
a base of toxicity and mucus, as this is their food source. Healthy cells are not
food for parasites. Only the strong survive in this world. Become healthy and
vital and your life will change in every way imaginable.
Watch your stools as you clean and detoxify yourself. Some of the larger
parasites you may actually be able to see in your stools during your
detoxification program. For those who are curious, a textbook on
parasitology will give you the pictures or illustrations you need. Smaller
parasites can only be detected via a stool sample done by your healthcare
practitioner or through a laboratory.

MODULE 5.3
Why Do We “Plaque” Cholesterol and Other Lipids?
 Your liver produces an abundant amount of cholesterol, which is an
important lipid used by the body for many reasons. By definition, a lipid is
any one of a group of fats or fat-like substances characterized by their
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It, until  Its Arrival  in the Physical  Form  is yours ?
Beloved  Ones,  the  Experiences  recorded  of This  Good
Messenger,  are only  the beginning  of what  you  may  all ex-
perience;  once  all disturbance  is removed  from  your  feeling
world!  It is not difficult!  Will  you  give  Me your  Assistance
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which  you  desire  most  quickly  made  manifest  in your  ex-
perience ? Then  send  that  desire  to your  Presence  to have
it established,  sustained  and  ail-powerfully  active  hence-
forth  in your  feeling  world  for constant  use,  forever  sus-
tained ? (silence)  I rejoice  with  you,  each  one.
I think  you  do not quite  realize,  whenever  your  attention
comes  back  to this  evening,  instantly  you  set into  action
These  Qualities  established  within  your  feeling  world.  I
don't  mean,  you  should  continually  allow  your  mind  to
dwell  upon  this  evening;  but  as you  naturally  do return  in io4 THE  "1 AM"  DISCOURSES
attention  to this  evening,  it will  instantly  set into  action
These  Qualities,  which  I have  established  in you tonight.  It
is a very  tremendous  thing,  if you once  really  realize  it. It is
quite  the same,  only  It is a more  Powerful  Activity  for you,
when  you give  your  attention  to the "I AM  Presence''—the
Law of Its Being,  is It must  act for you.
When  you  give  your  attention  to Beloved  Saint  Germain,
Nada,  Myself  or the Beloved  Jesus,  that  instant,  Our  Qual-
ities are acting  in your  leeling  world.  If mankind  really  un-
derstood  this,  how  quickly-enormous,  tremendous  things
could  he accomplished;  but because  of the pull  of the at-
tention  upon  the outer  world,  it is constantly  shifting,  you
see. Therefore,  in the realization  that  your  Presence  is your
Stabilizing  Power,  it holds  you firm  upon  a given  objective,
upon  a given  call,  then  you see there  is not a thing  you can-
not do. Not  a thing  you  cannot  do or accomplish;  but be
sure your  motives  are Right.
I clothe  you each  one,  Oh Precious  Children  of the Light,
in My Mantle  of Light  and  Love!  In It arc These  Qualities
which  you  need  for use.  Just  wear  That  Mantle  always  lor
Me, and  let It do Its Perfect  Work  for you!  Why  do you
suppose  Saint  Germain  was  known  in Europe  as the "Man
with the Indigo  Cape" ? Do you know  that  color  is the exact
color  of the Cosmic  Screen  in the Royal  Teton,  and It was
used for a certain  purpose?
I say to you  Beloved  Students,  do you  realize  what  a
very great  champion  you  have  in Our  Beloved  Lotus?  I am
sure most  of you  realize  the hours,  and  hours,  and  hours, DISCOURSE  VIII  105
while  most  of humanity  are sleeping,  she is working,  work-
ing, and  working,  for the  Freedom  and  Victory  of the
Students—  a most  wonderful  thing.
Please  do not wonder  why  We have  had  such  an Intimate
Conversation;  but because  of the Work  to be done  for you,
just feel  It, forever  active  within  you  and  your  world;
knowing  definitely,  no longer  can a single  human  quality
interfere  with  the  steady  forward  progress  to your  Free-
dom,  in every  manner.
I think,  Dear  Ones,  I should  say a word  or two  of our
Beloved  Nada.  Really  little  has  been  said  recently,  but  if
you knew  the Tremendous  Work,  She  is doing  constantly
among  the Students,  your  Hearts  would  leap  for Joy.  Her
Tireless  Efforts  for each  one!
It is so wonderful  to come  to a point  of Understanding
where  praise  or blame  are alike  of no effect!  Where  it is
a Joyous  Service  in knowing  every  single  effort  is a Steady
Winning  of your  Eternal  Victory!  It is so wonderful  to have
come  to a point  of Understanding,  where  you  know  the
word  "failure"  is entirely  out  of your  vocabulary!  It does
not exist,  not for an instant  in the world  of any  one  of you
under  This  Radiation!  It has gone  out of your  world  com-
pletely!
Regarding  your  financial  supply,  just  feel  your  Presence
°pen  the Door  of Its Treasure-house  and  release  into  your
use everything  which  is required.  If channels  be used,  then
let the Wisdom  of the  Presence  select  those  channels,  so
there  could  not  be a single  discordant  experience!  There 106 THE  "I AM99  DISCOURSES
could  not be a single  mistake;  there  could  not be a single
failure  to have  that  which  you  require  for use.
It is so Definite!  It is so Powerful!  Please  feel  It! Rest  in
It and  know—the  Dynamic  Action  of the Presence  is pro-
ducing  those  results!  Why  do I say "Dynamic  Action  of the
Presence" ? Because  you  must  feel  that  under  certain  con-
ditions.  Until  you  have  a Greater  Sense  of Freedom,  you
must  feel  it DYNAMICALLY  ACTIVE!  Then  at each
Call,  will  come  the Result.
Beloved  Saint  Germain,  Beloved  Nada,  Beloved  Master
Jesus,  Beloved  Chananda,  Cha  Ara,  David  Lloyd,  Rex,
Bob,  Nada  and  Pearl;  Mrs.  and  Mr.  Rayborn,  all wish  Me
to convey  Their  Love  and  Blessings  to you.  The  Beloved
Leto  wants  you  to know,  there  no longer  exists  any  un-
certainty  in you  or your  world.  The  Victory  stands  there
ACTIVE  within  each  one  of you—in  your  feeling  world.
May  it have  Its Full  Dominion  now  and  forever  sustained!
I thank  you. DISCOURSE  IX  hi
July  II, 1937
Los  ANGELES,  CALIFORNIA.
Children  of the Light!  From  far away  India,  I draw  the
Mighty  Currents,  tonight,  for your  Blessing.  You  have  just
heard  read  to you,  the Experiences  in the  Cave  of Light,
near  Chananda's  Home  in India.  Tonight,  while  It is not
visible  to you,  a less  powerful  Service  is being  rendered.
Instead  of the  Light  as It is there,  I am  using  the  Self-
Luminous  Intelligent  Substance—which  in Co-operation
with  the Great  Light  drawn,  is Active  within  the room  for
every  one!  Mankind  has  travelled  over  the Earth  in search
of what  you  are receiving  tonight;  and  even  to those  who
might  be here  for the first  time,  I say:  "Things  do not just
happen!  All is under  a Great  Divine  Law."
Once  the  people  understand  It and  realize,  thru  the
Power


 fit. But every doctor I tried to get help from told methat although I probably didn’t think I was a huge eater, inreality I was. They made me feel like a liar. Some of them gaveme amphetamines.
At age 23 I started getting leg pains, and then later on I
developed full body cramps. I was cramping all the time, havingnight sweats and weird vision problems. None of the doctors Iwent to had any solutions for me. These problems were variouslymisdiagnosed as gout, pseudo-gout, tendonitis, and a bunch ofother things.
My life was miserable. I’d do my work, come home, drink a
six-pack of beer and a half bottle of T equila every night, and go tosleep and get up and do the whole thing over again. One night afriend infuriated me on the phone by telling me I was like somelittle old lady with her two dogs and no life. It sent me off the scale.I yelled at her. But I thought about it all night, and the next day154 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  I realized that she had only described me as I really was.
I had heard Dr. Platt talking about weight loss on the radio.
The day after the fight with my friend I went to see him. He satme down and talked to me for over an hour. He wanted to knoweverything about my family history and my life. After my initialvisit he put me on progesterone and DHEA and started me on thediet. Right away I started losing weight.
About three months into the program I had a real bad
flare-up in my knee, hip and in between; it felt like having hotsteel shoved up your leg. I tried a chiropractor and then a sportsmedicine specialist, but they didn’t help. Finally I thought, “Whatthe heck; I’ll ask Dr. Platt about it.”
I was totally shocked by his reaction. “Look, I’m your physi-
cian and I’m treating you,” he said. “I want to know everythingthat’s happening to you.” I found that such a strange attitude fora doctor.
He added testosterone and thyroid to my medications, and
changed the type of DHEA I was taking. That same day hediagnosed my fibromyalgia, which is the pain in my leg that hadbeen misdiagnosed by so many doctors. About three days later I feltas though I’d come out of a fog. It’s hard to describe. I had beenthere so long I didn’t know I was there. I had an amazing change,a new clarity of thought. It was startling.
And I was pain-free for the first time in 24 years. Strange
things started happening to me physically at this point. All my lifeI’ve been kind of a big, white farm-boy-looking guy without anymuscle definition at all. Now I’ve developed all this muscledefinition. I’m much stronger. I used to sleep eight or ten hours anight and then sit all day without wanting to do anything. NowI sleep about four hours a night and I’m never tired. Life is good.
I weigh 195 pounds. It’s the first time I’ve been less than 200
pounds since I was 12 years old. My brain hasn’t kept up with my155 MORBID OBESIT Y AND ROGER P.  body and my biggest challenges now are social and psychological.
I’d say socially I’m probably at a junior high school grade levelbecause I’ve never participated in society outside of work.
People sometimes ask me if I’m bitter about all the years when
I was looking for help and doors were being shut in my face. ButI’m not. They were blessings and gifts even though they werepainful. I’m pretty happy with who I am now.
THE PAIN OF MORBID OBESITY
T o me, Roger’s case highlights the pivotal problem with the way
medicine is practiced today.
As I’ve said before, too many doctors don’t have the time it
takes to listen to their patients any more. For years Roger wentfrom doctor to doctor about his weight problem, telling themthat he didn’t over-eat and asking for help. But they didn’tlisten to him. They dismissed him.
And they didn’t observe him. They didn’t look at him. It
was so obvious from the distribution of his fat that there wassomething more than an eating problem going on. He had tohave a hormone problem—it was unmistakable. It’s amazingto me that so many doctors were blind to it.
When I went through medical school, we had a course
called “Physical Diagnosis,” and it was fascinating. We learnedabout an array of outward physical signs, many of them verysubtle, that you could observe in a patient to pick up informa-tion about what might be going on inside their bodies. It wasa kind of visual detective work. It kept you attuned to whatyou were really seeing when you looked at your patient.
I wonder if they even teach this course any more. The
medical profession has become so fixated on technology thatsimple first-person observation seems to have lost its value.156 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK
This may sound strange, but I often feel that the development
of blood tests has been a major setback in medicine. In the olddays—going back 100 or 200 years—the only thing doctors hadto rely on was talking to their patients and observing them. (Inthe really early days they didn’t even have stethoscopes. They’droll up a piece of paper and listen to people’s hearts throughthat.) T oday doctors have blood tests to fall back on, and theyseem to find the statistical “hard facts” of blood tests reassuring.It seems that they would rather treat the blood test than look atthe patient and find out what’s actually going on. With everytechnological advance it seems as though doctors recede furtherand further from direct contact with their patients.
Roger was obviously crying out for help, and nobody
would give it to him. He was just about suicidal when he cameto me. Looking at him, at the way he stored fat in theabdomen and buttocks, it was obvious to me that his bodyproduced too much insulin and estrogen. So I put him onprogesterone right away. He went on the diet, and I eventuallyadded other hormones to help him with his metabolism andmuscle mass.
THE ROAD HOME
As he lost weight, Roger’s anger melted away too, and that
helped to mitigate his fibromyalgia. This man had been furi-ous for practically all of his 47 years. He’d been a fat child, andwe all know how cruel children are to the fat kids at school. Asan adult he carried this humiliation with him, becoming arecluse and living a life of quiet desperation. The suppressedanger he felt must have been crushing.157 MORBID OBESIT Y AND ROGER P.  Once he finally got help at our office, once he talked to a
doctor who confirmed that he was not over-eating and he wasnot the cause of his own disfigurement, his gratitude knew nobounds. T oday Roger will tell anyone who will listen that he’dwalk through fire for me or anyone in my office.
If you saw Roger now, you would never know this man had
once been morbidly obese. He looks like a normal person, andhis entire life has been transformed. And it was so simple. It wasjust a matter of getting his hormones in balance and getting himto eat in a way that would force his body to burn fat.
THE INFORMATION IS A VAILABLE
The sad thing is that what I’m doing for people like Roger is
based on information that’s available to any doctor who wantsto avail himself or herself of it.
The other day I saw an ad in the newspaper with the head-
line “An Amazing Weight Loss Discovery.” The ad was for apill that “causes the body to get rid of fat in three differentways.” You wouldn’t have to change anything in your lifestyle;you could still eat everything, you wouldn’t have to exercise,and the fat would just come right off.
I’m sure you’ve seen such ads and scoffed at their disingen-
uousness. They all have little disclaimers way down at thebottom of the page, usually next to the before-and-afterphotos that are captioned “Results not typical.” Well, if thesearen’t the typical results, then why buy the pills? Theytypically don’t work! It says so right there in the ad!
I’m being a bit facetious here, but it’s for a good reason. I’m
trying to drive home the point that as a society we tolerate allkinds of ridiculous misinformation about weight loss, while realinformation that could actually help people goes unheeded.158 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  It’s my hope that people suffering from morbid obesity will
take this book into their doctors’ offices and demand the sim-ple, inexpensive solutions to their plight that they deserve.
A HAPPY ENDING
At the time Roger, at age 47, first walked into my office, he told
me he had never had a date in his life. He started on theprogram, lost weight, got down to a size 32 waist, eliminatedhis fibromyalgia, started dating, got engaged … and is nowhappily married.
It is truly miraculous what a little natural hormone balanc-
ing can accomplish.159 MORBID OBESIT Y AND ROGER P.  WEIGHT LOSS—
HOW MEDICATIONS
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4. I’m pr etty insistent on getting sex when I want it.
Hidden anger or sadism, self-absorption, competitiveness
5. The mor e orgasms, the better.
Performance fixation, wandering attention (counting instead of being
present), comparison with social norms, emotional immaturity6. The best sex I ever had wasn’ t with my pr esent partner.
Disappointment, anger toward partner, discouragement, inability to be
present
7. Impotence lets my partner down.
or
Not having an or gasm lets my partner down.
Performance anxiety, low self-worth, inhibited physical release, hidden
anger
8. My partner isn’ t as open about new positions and techniques as I am.
Lack of communication, fixation on fantasy or sensations, judgment
against partner
9. I’ve gone along with sexual experiments I didn’ t feel comfortable with
just because my partner asked me to.
Overdependence, low self-worth, lack of communication
10. I aim to please. I rar ely let my partner down.
Performance anxiety hidden by performance success, self-abso rption,
competitiveness
11. My partner disappoints me a lot mor e often than he (or she) knows.
Overdependence, low self-worth, abuse background, detachment from
sexual drive
12. I wouldn’ t like anyone to think I get too carried away over sex.
Valuing of social norms over personal satisfaction, detachment from
sexual desire, low self-worth
13. I’m too embarrassed to discuss some of the things I’d like to do in bed.
Fixation on fantasy, distrust of partner, negative judgments against sex
from parents
14. We have sex mor e (or less) often than I’d like.
Overdependence, low self-worth, lack of communication
15. I miss the way our sex used to be.Lack of communication, outside distractions, estrangement from
partner
16. I really don’ t think about sex that often.
Disappointment or anger toward partner, low self-image, judgment
against sexual drive
17. Our sex isn’ t so gr eat, but the r est of our marriage makes up for that.
Inertia, lack of attention to sex, distractions from intimacy
18. I have fantasies I don’ t shar e with my partner.
Lack of communication, fear of sexual drive, abuse background,
distrust
19. My mind wanders during sex.
Inhibition, disappointment or anger toward partner, distraction from
sexual drive, high stress
20. I’m not such a gr eat lover.
Overdependence, wounded self-image, sexual trauma in the past,
judgment against sex
These are very general interp retations in what is a wide spectrum of
possibilities. To feel that you aren’ t a great lover, for example, can be a sign
of something mild, such as sexual inexperience, or something severe, such
as clinical depression. Rather than reading any of these characterizations as
a diagnosis or judgment, see if they show the way to hidden issues you may
not be facing. The point is not to make you feel that there is something
wrong with you, only to stir ener gies that need to move.
PART TWO
In our culture “good sex” is usually defined in terms of technique and
performance. We overlook that sex is a creative act, which doesn’t need to
be critiqued or evaluated. Biologically, human sexuality is essential to the
process that creates babies, but the same energy contributes to many things
at levels of life that are not literally biological. Sex is creativit y itself, andwe have the capacity to create on every plane of existence, from the
biological to the spiritual.
Sex is creative when it produces a new feeling, insight, or expe rience. In
this exercise some of these possibilities are explored.
Look at the following list of experiences. Put a check by any you have
had at least once during sex. These are suggestive phrases, to be interpreted
as you wish—your own perception of bliss, carefreeness, playfulness, and
so on is all you need to go by.
Delighted laughter
Sense of timelessness
Ecstasy
Warm flow in the heart
Merging with partner
Floating sensation, as if the body disappears
Warmth or visible light flowing up the spine
Loss of ego
Carefreeness
Playfulness
Nonattachment to your performance
Complete letting go
Expansion
Sense of wholeness, safety, belonging
Blessing
Bliss
Acute awareness of self or surroundings
Unbounded love
Contentment, peace in the center of your heart
Now look back over your answ ers; the experiences you have checked
indicate your spiritual horizon.  That is, you have learned to use sexual
energy to create  these experiences. If you have some only once, these are
the envelope of your inner growth. The experiences you have had more than
once, especially  if recently, indicate the growth you have alread y integrated
into your loving personality.
Go back  over the list and mark  experiences you haven’ t had but think
could happen next. These are your spiritual goals. Your desire for them is
enough to bring them about; on your inner landscape you are already
working toward them.
Now go through the list a third time and mark the experie nces you
believe are out of reach or impossible for you. These could be interpreted as
blocks to spirit. Since nothing is truly out of reach in the creative use ofsexuality, naming what you see as “impossible” experiences holds up a
mirror to your current belief in the limits of love.
On the path to love impossibilities are resolved by turning non-love into
love. With spiritual growth comes new creative potential—whi ch can take
the form  of sexual expression— leading to the realization that you are pure
potential, able to fulfill any creative impulse.
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The W orn-out Lover
FOR A LONG  time, ever since his early teens, Guy had been a lover, and a
very active one. The singles bar scene had been his second home for a
decade, and he considered hims elf a born appreciator of women, unable to
comprehend why other men seemed to resent or ignore them. To Guy
women were intoxicating creatures, and giving them pleasure was
something he felt proud of. He never called himself a woman’ s boyfriend;
he was always her lover. He took the sexual revolution for grant ed—he was
open to almost any sexual experiment proposed by the women he dated, and
he could quickly take his partner to a place where she wasn’ t embarrassed
to express her fantasies.
When asked how he felt about his many conquests, Guy said, “I loved
every one of them. Nothing makes me happier than a grateful woman.” He
was sincere when he claimed that none of his former flames resented him in
any way, despite the fact that his liaisons with them lasted only a few nights
or a few months—six at most.
Caroline was the first woman Guy had ever met whom he did not want to
take to bed immediately, despit e the fact that he was strongly attracted to
her. She was in her early twenti es—Guy was about to turn thirty—but she
radiated the demure, innocent quality of a much younger girl. Enchanted,
Guy thought of Caroline as a fawn, with her large, trusting eyes and slight
air of aloofness.
For her part, Caroline seemed to adore Guy; he was only her third serious
boyfriend (she definitely preferred this term over lover ). Shaki ng off his
reluctance, Guy soon entered an intimate relationship with Caroline. All
went smoothly until one night when he found himself, quite unexpectedly,
waking up in tears at two in the morning. An uncontrollable emotion—wasit grief?  remorse?—swept over him. Mystified and shaken, Guy went back
to sleep.
The next time he took Caroline to bed, however, Guy found  himself
performing far below his usual high standards. His mind wandered, and for
the first time he felt that he might not be able to reach orgasm. This
impossibility wasn’t allowed to happen, but afterward he felt fatigued and
joyless. Caroline made no comment; she held Guy for a long time before he
fell asleep.
Their relationship deepened. In many ways Guy felt that he was going
through the happiest time of his life. Caroline’ s light heart and innocent
manner came as a revelation to him; he sometimes felt by comparison that
he had been working very hard at life. This was undoubtedly true in his
career—Guy worked long hours creating databases for a prestigious
commercial realtor. His goal was to be a millionaire in five years. Caroline
was the first woman who had ever distracted him from this ambition.
When Guy decided to propose  to her, his ears burned in disbelief as
Caroline asked for a little more time. Disbelief turned to shock when she
hesitantly said that she wanted  their relationship not to be intimate for a
while. Pressed for reasons, Caroline hesitated even more, but finally she
half-whispered, “I don’t think you really like it. You just don’t want to let
me down.”
It was the most troubling and yet the most honest thing a woman had
ever said to Guy. That night he stormed out in hurt pride, but he knew in his
heart that he felt worn out. Certain things about sex had never occurred to
him. For instance, he had never thought that more isn’t necessarily


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to him in some way, at some time. His subconscious records his
mental act and reacts according to the mental intention or motivation.
Your subconscious mind is impersonal and unchanging, neither
considering persons nor respecting religious affiliations or in stitutions
of any kind. It is neither compassionate nor vin-dictive. The wa y you
think, feel, and act toward others returns at last upon yourself.
• The daily headlines made him sick
Begin now to observe yourself. Observe your reactions to peo ple,
conditions, and circumstances. How do you respond to the events and
news of the day? It makes no difference if all the other p eople were
wrong and you alone were right. If the news disturbs you, it is your
evil because your negative emotions robbed you of peace and
harmony.
 167  A woman wrote me about her husband, saying that he goes into a
rage when he reads what certain newspaper column-ists write i n the
newspaper.
She added that this constant reaction of anger and suppressed rage
on his part brought on bleeding ulcers, and his physician
recommended an emotional recon-ditioning.
I invited this man to see me and I explained to him the way his mind
functions indicating how emotionally immature it was to get angr y
when others write articles with which he disapproves or disagrees.
He began to realize that he should give the newspaperman fre edom
to express himself even though the latter disagreed with him
politically, religiously, or in any other way. In the same manner, the
newspaperman would give him freedom to write a letter to the
newspaper disagreeing with his published statements. He l earned that
he could disagree without being disagreeable. He awakened to th e
simple truth that it is never what a person says or does  that affects
him, it is his reaction to what is said or done that matters.
This explanation was the cure for this man, and he real-ized tha t
with a little practice he could master his morning tan-trum s. His wife
told me, subsequently, that he laughed at himself and also at w hat the
columnists say.
They no longer have power to disturb, annoy, and irritate him. His
ulcers have disappeared due to his emotional poise and serenity.
• I hate women, but I like men
A private secretary was very bitter toward some of the g irls in her
office because they were gossiping about her, and as she sa id,
spreading vicious lies about her. She admitted that she did not  like
women. She said, “I hate women, but I like men.” I discovered also
that she spoke to the girls who were under her in the offi ce in a very
haughty, imperious, and irritable tone of voice. She pointed out that
they took a delight in making things difficult for her. There was  a
 168  certain pomposity in her way of speaking, and I could see where  her
tone of voice would affect some people unpleasantly.
If all the people in the office or factory annoy you, isn’t it  a
possibility that the vibration, annoyance, and turmoil may be due  to
some subconscious pattern or mental projection from you? We k now
that a dog will react ferociously if you hate or fear dogs. Anim als pick
up your subconscious vibrations and react accordingly. Many
undisciplined human beings are just as sensitive as dogs, cats, a nd
other animals.
I suggested a process of prayer to this private secretary who hated
women, explaining to her that when she began to identify herself with
spiritual values and commenced to affirm the truths of life, h er voice,
mannerisms, and hatred of women would com-pletely disappear. She
was surprised to know that the emotion of hatred shows up in a
person’s speech, actions, in his writings, and in all phases of  his life.
She ceased reacting in the typical, resentful, and angry way. She
established a pattern of prayer, which she practiced reg ularly,
systematically, and conscien-tiously in the office.
The prayer was as follows: “I think, speak, and act lov-ingl y,
quietly, and peacefully. I now radiate love, peace, toler-ance, and
kindliness to all the girls who criticized me and gos-siped ab out me. I
anchor my thoughts on peace, harmony, and good will to all.
Whenever I am about to react negatively, I say firmly to my self, ‘I am
going to think, speak, and act from the standpoint of the principl e of
harmony, health, and peace within myself.’
Creative intelligence leads, rules, and guides me in all my ways.”
The practice of this prayer transformed her life, and she found that
all criticism and annoyance ceased. The girls became co-worke rs and
friends along life’s journey. She discovered that there is no one to
change but myself.

 169  • His inner speech held back his promotion
One day a salesman came to see me and described his diffi-culties in
working with the sales manager of his organization. He had been with
the company ten years and had received no promotion or recognition
of any kind. He showed me his sales figures, which were greater
proportionately than the other men in the territory. He said that the
sales manager did not like him, that he was unjustly treated, an d that
at conferences the man-ager was rude to him, and at times r idiculed
his suggestions.
I explained that undoubtedly the cause was to a great de-gree within
himself, and that his concept and belief about his superior b ore
witness to the reaction of this man. The measure we mete, shall be
measured to us again. His mental measure or concept of the sales
manager was that he was mean and can-tankerous. He was filled with
bitterness and hostility toward the executive. On his way to wor k he
conducted a vigorous con-versation with himself filled with crit icism,
mental arguments, recriminations, and denunciations of his sales
manager.
What he gave out mentally, he was inevitably bound to get back.
This salesman realized that his inner speech was highly des tructive
because the intensity and force of his silent thoughts and emot ions,
and personally conducted mental condemnation and vilification of the
sales manager entered into his own sub-conscious mind. This broug ht
about the negative response from his boss as well as creati ng many
other personal, physical, and emotional disorders.
He began to pray frequently as follows: “I am the only thinker in my
universe. I am responsible for what I think about my boss. My sa les
manager is not responsible for the way I think about him. I ref use to
give power to any person, place, or thing to annoy me or disturb m e. I
wish health, success, peace of mind, and happiness for my boss. I
sincerely wish him well, and I know he is divinely guided in al l his
ways.”
 170  He repeated this prayer out loud slowly, quietly, and feel-ingly,
knowing that his mind is like a garden, and that whatever he plants  in
the garden will come forth like seeds after their kind.
I also taught him to practice mental imagery prior to sle ep in this
way: He imagined that his sales manager was congratulat-ing  him on
his fine work, on his zeal and enthusiasm, and on his wonderful
response from customers. He felt the reality of all this, felt his
handshake, heard the tone of his voice, and saw him smile. He made a
real mental movie, dramatizing it to the best of his ability.
Night after night he conducted this mental movie, knowing that hi s
subconscious mind was the receptive plate on which his consci ous
imagery would be impressed.
Gradually by a process of what may be termed mental and spir itual
osmosis, the impression was made on his subconscious mind, and the
expression automatically came forth. The sales manager sub sequently
called him up to San Francisco, con-gratulated him, and gave him  a
new assignment as Division Sales Manager over one hundred men
with a big increase in salary. He changed his concept and est imate of
his boss, and the latter re-sponded accordingly.
• Becoming emotionally mature
What the other person says or does cannot really annoy or irritat e
you except you permit him to disturb you. The only way he can a nnoy
you is through your own thought. For example, if you get angry, you
have to go through four stages in your mind: You begin to think ab out
what he said.
You decide to get angry and generate an emotion of rage. Then, you
decide to act. Per-haps, you talk back and react in kind. You s ee that
the thought, emotion, reaction, and action all take place in your mind.
When you become emotionally mature, you do not respond
negatively to the criticism and resentment of others. To do so would
mean that you had descended to that state of low mental vibrati on and
become one with the negative atmosphere of the other. Identify
 171 yourself with your aim in life, and do not


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6. Lift legs to vertical position, rotate outward in circles 8 or 10times. Increase to 25 times after a week or two of exerci sing.
7. Bring legs straight up to a vertical position and lower them to the board slowly. Repeat 3 or 4 times.
8. Bicycle  legs in air 15to 25 times. Relax and rest, letting the blood circulate in the head for 10 minutes.

ELEVEN -DAY ELIMINATION REGIME
There are many eliminative regimes, and they all accomplish about the same results, through the fact that the body is g iven less
food, simpler foods and simpler combinations, more watery foods - so a greater transition can take place in the cells of the body.
This Eleven -Day Elimination Regime can be used by most persons in health, and for those who want to overcome the av erage
physical disorder. Those who are weak or feeble, however, should not follow the plan the full eleven days without supervision.
Those with tuberculosis should have both supervision and assistance.

Variation, as to the length of time and the manner in  which the foods are to be taken, may be adjusted to suit the history of the
patient. Examples: fruits, vegetables and broths can be taken for 1 day; or 1 day of just fruit; or 1, 2 or 3 days of vegetab les only.
Vegetables, taken in the form of broths, gen tly steamed vegetables and salads are a safer routine for the average beg inner than
citrus fruits. A hot bath should be taken every night during this diet regime. Enemas may be used the first four or five days, then
discontinued for natural movements. Not hing but water and fruit juices, preferably grapefruit, should be taken into the body for the
first three days. Drink one glass of juice every four hours of the day. The next two days fruit only - such as grapes, melons,
tomatoes, pears, peaches, plums; dr ied fruit such as prunes, figs, peaches, soaked overnight or baked apple.

In the six following days, breakfast should consist of citrus fruits. Between breakfast and lunch, any other kind of fruit. F or lunch,
have a salad of three to six vegetables and tw o cups of vital broth. When hungry between meals, fruit or fruit juices may be taken.
Dinner should consist of two or three steamed vegetables and two cups of vital broth. Fruit juices can be taken before retiri ng, if
wanted. Rigid adherence to the diet is  an absolute necessity for anyone attempting to regain good health. Eat plenty, but not to
satiety.

VITAL BROTH RECIPE:
2 C. carrot tops; 1 clove garlic; 2 C. potato peelings (1/2" thick); 2 C. beet tops; 2 C. celery tops; 3 C. celery stalk; 2 q t distille d
water; 1/2 tsp Savita or Vegex. Add a carrot and onion to flavor, if desired (grate or chop).
Ingredients should be finely chopped. Bring to a boil, slowly: simmer approximately 20 minutes.
Use only the broth after straining.
When finished with the above  regime return to Dr. Jensen’s Daily Food Regime.
The above elimination regime should be followed whenever a person changes from the old ways of living and begins to live righ t.
As a rule, it is wise to follow the elimination regime in any and all of the f ollowing cases: as a general cleanser two or three times a
year; at the time of crisis; when reduction of weight is desired; when hips get too large; when joints get stiff; when the sk in breaks
out; when constipation is present.

THE MASTER CHLOROPHYLL ELI MINATION DIET
This is a diet of just plain water, preferably using distil led water, and using one teaspoon of a liquid chlorophyll to one glass of
water every three hours. You can also use vegetable juice, but this is a diet where we are adding iron, gath ering all the oxygen we
can while we are breathing, and burning up the toxic waste by using the iron as found in liquid chlorophyll. Liquid chlorophy ll is
usually made as an extract from alfalfa leaves, which is one of the highest things we have in potassi um iron, which will attract the
oxygen to the body. Doing this for three or four days is a wonderful pre -elimination diet to fasting or to any other type of dieting. I
consider this to be the master -cleansing diet for all catarrhal conditions. In the prese nce of greens, we find that catarrh is
eliminated best from the body.

WATERMELON FLUSH
There are times during the watermelon season that we can use watermelon as a good elimination diet. Going on watermelon for
three, four or five days is a wonderful kidn ey eliminant, a diuretic. We find that it helps to take out a lot of the debris in the colon
and the extra water picks up toxic materials and carries them off.

ONE DAY A WEEK FAST
On a one day a week fast regime you can be on a juice diet or a fruit on th e one day – and rest. Many people like to go on a fast
one day a week. This is perfectly all right if you will rest that day - but you MUST rest! You cannot expect to get the good yielded
by a rest without food by using all of your energy and leaving yours elf depleted by working on a day that you do not eat.

FASTING
Fasting is the quickest way of bringing about elimination in the body and the fastest way of getting toxic materials out of t he body.
This is done through complete rest - physical, psychologica l and psychic. As we let the body rest, it develops tone and vitality,
more than is possible by any other procedure. I believe rest is a cure because it gives us the vitality we need to throw off toxic
material and to eliminate the debris that has been acc umulated over a period of years. We can literally withdraw toxic
accumulations through a fast. We find that there are many ways to fast. I think the better way is to take a half glass of wat er every
hour and a half throughout the day. If it is a hot day, y ou may need more water and it is all right since you perspire more. Be sure
not to take big gulps of water at one time. The water should be cool but not ice cold. Take daily enemas the first few days, then
reduce this to every other day or every third or f ourth day, depending upon the length of time you fast. While you are fasting you
should rest as much as possible. If you hike or walk, do it on level ground. Do nothing to the point of tiring. This is impor tant in
fasting.

JUICE FASTING
I don’t think it’s  any particular juice that will cure anything - but I believe the rest you give your body allows it the opportunity to
reverse the disease and recover your health. It’s the rest from food and the simple diet that does the trick. The lack of too  many
food m ixtures and less demand made on our digestive and eliminative systems help us to overcome disease. The carrot juice diet
involves taking one glass of carrot juice every three hours or more if you like. You can do this for ten days, twenty days or  even
longer. I had one man on carrot juice for a whole year. That is a long time! This particular man lived in Monrovia and had an
extreme condition of the bowel but through the carrot juice diet, he got rid of it. Dr. Kirschner, who wrote the book on juic e
therapy, came here to talk over this man’s case because he found out how I had kept him on juices for so long a time. The man
passed off mucus and catarrh continually from that bowel. It was almost unbelievable what was eliminated - being even black at
times. This was simply accumulated toxic material that was necessary for him to get rid of.

BREAKING A FAST
In breaking a fast, if you go five, six or seven days on water, then go one or two days on juices, either vegetable or fruit.  Take one
8-oz glass ever y three hours. You have eliminated the enemas one or two days I beforehand and you are starting in to work for
good bowel movements now. I After the two days of juices, start the first thing in the morning on the third day with sliced o r
peeled oranges. Th e bulk of an orange is probably one of the finest things for the bowel. If you do not want to use oranges, you can
use a finely shredded carrot that has been steamed or wilted for one minute. This acts to help clean out the toxic materials.  You can
do this  for breakfast and lunch. Then for the evening meal, you can start out with a small salad.
Have a glass of juice at 10:00 am and again at 3:00 pm.
The next day you can have fresh fruit for breakfast along with juice.
Have juice at 10:00 am.
For lunch, you can have a small salad and juice.
Have another glass of juice


after a month, the pain reoccurred and he had to take recourse to a European Specialist. From cardiograms, it was found out that he was really suffering from heart disease. He was advised to take a month's rest. He started applying Urine Therapy by drinking and rubbing urine. He took only boiled food without condiments and fruits and milk at night. He used to take sunbathes after rubbing urine. After one month, he got relief from pain. Even for six months he had continued drinking urine and stopped its rubbing. He could take normal food. His digestion had much improved. The members of his family also began to use urine. His baby of 3 years of age fell down and became unconscious. By using urine, she was brought to consciousness and in five minutes began to play. His friends could get rid of high blood pressure by urine treatment.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John F. O'Quinn 110  HEARTBEAT IRREGULARITY  “Dr. Salaria operated a woman of 45 for appendicitis in May 1958. An hour before the operation, she was given her own urine to drink instead of usual injections for controlling heart-beats and then the operation was performed. Her heart-beats were maintained during operation. Dr. Salaria was encouraged with the success of the experiments and decided to try it on other patients also. He did accordingly in nearly 15 cases of operation of tonsil, lipoma (a case in which there was tumour weighing 2 lb. on the shoulder), cancer on the right side of the chest and dropsy. In one of the cases, the patient suffered from a big boil on the region between the right thigh ·and abdomen where the rotten skin had to be excised through surgery and a new piece of skin was grafted. In all these cases, the patients were given their urine to drink before operation which maintained the regularity of their heart-beats. This account clearly proves that the use of urine maintains the heart-beats of the patient and his blood-pressure also remains normal. I’m certain that drinking and rubbing of urine together regulate and normalize the high or low blood pressure as the case may be.”  Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE  “Shri Manila! V. Desai lives at Navsari. He suffered from diabetes and high blood-pressure. He took doctors treatment without any benefit. He entered Prachin Mutra Chikitsa Kendra at Ahmedabad for treatment on 20-4-65 and started urine treatment. Thereby he was completely cured. On examination of his urine, there was no sugar. His blood-pressure became normal and swelling on the legs disappeared.”  Manav Mootra by R.M. Patel  HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE  “Shrimati Saralaben R. Desai, (Vadifalis, Store Sheri, Surat) aged thirty years, had high blood-pressure during pregnancy. Blood-pressure during pregnancy is certainly a serious symptom. Doctors could not bring it down. She began to take auto-urine in 4 oz. dose. She could not fast nor did she rub urine. Even then blood-pressure became normal and delivery was quite easy. She recommended all pregnant women to take auto-urine to keep free from big or small ailments during pregnancy.”  Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel 111  HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE  “Shri Ratilal Mody (7, Triveni Plot No. 62, Sion, Bombay) had tried this therapy in full faith. He was suffering from blood-pressure for the last 30 years and had diabetes and eczema too! He could bring under control blood-pressure and diabetes and could cure eczema. This is a case of three-in-one-cure treatment. It IS no wonder urine therapy is really an all-in-one-cure treatment.”  Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  HIV/AIDS  Mr. A., Georgia "I am a PWA (Person With AIDS) and have been doing Urine Therapy for two-and-one-half months. My Lymphadenopathy was gone within 48 hours after starting the urine. I had a severe acne problem on my back. After five weeks the skin is clear. My energy levels increased enormously within a few days of drinking my urine."  Personal Pharmacy, by Gary Ward  HIV/AIDS  “Several years ago, Mas Caicedo was in Puerto Rico visiting his family for what he believed was the last time because doctors had given him a month or two to live. Mr. Caicedo was dying from opportunistic infections caused by AIDS. He had been taking medication for several years and was close to death. he was very weak and needed a wheelchair. A loving niece in New York had faith that he would recover, somehow. She recorded a lecture I gave on radio in New York and rushed the tape to her uncle. There was no time to lose; Mr. Caicedo had lost faith and had already paid for funeral services and a cemetery plot. Mr. Caicedo listened to the tape and decided to try it since he had nothing to lose. He threw away all medications and started to drink his urine as suggested. This is a decision that he will never regret because it saved his life. Within three days, he had eliminated more excrement than in the previous six months. All his aches and pains were gone by the first week and his appetite and desire to live were back 100 percent. Within 10 days he had no need for the wheelchair and was gaining weight. Six weeks after the radio interview, he attended one of my monthly lectures to describe his positive experience with uropathy. Caicedo was a new man who had gained 30 pounds. six months later, he had visited Mexico, Miami and was on his way to Spain. he visited his doctors occasionally to make sure everything was okay and to see the baffled looks on their faces when they saw how healthy he was.” 112  Uropathy, by Martin J. Lara  HIV/AIDS  "I laughed when I first heard about this therapy (urine) and didn't take it seriously. My main concern at the time was about my full-blown case of AIDS that had just been diagnosed and the Kaposi's sarcoma lesión (cancer) in my mouth that was supposed to spread throughout my body. But I decided to try the therapy (urine) topically on my vicious case of ringworm and not only did the ringworm condition totally disappear after a few weeks, but the dry, cracked and painful skin all around my toes and foot had totally changed. New skin had grown in and was as soft as a baby's. It had a beautiful new color and just did not appear to be my own skin!  “I then tried the therapy internally each day and over the next 7 months the Kaposi's lesions became increasingly smaller until they disappeared totally! The mouth ulcers and genital herpes that used to plague me have not returned even once. I have NEVER felt better in my life."  — Mr. Q., New York, Your Own Perfect Medicine <<<NOTE>>>  ((((Is this ^^^ the book by Martha Christie?))))  HIV/AIDS  “That most devastating disease AIDS, can be cured by the patient’s own urine’. Very recently we have received a letter from Victoria Seme of Tanzania where she writes that she tried UT on 10 AIDS patients as per the directions given in the book written by Dr. Thakkar and amazingly, all were equally benefited with the remission of several AIDS symptoms. The same opinion is expressed by Lynn Stabenrauch of USA in her letter dated 13/4/94.  So far around 100 patients have consulted us for using UT, and almost all of them are progressing well with it.”  From Urinews (Volume 1, 1995) <<<NOTE>>> What’s the title of the article?  Who wrote it?  HIV/AIDS   Mr. E.J.P., The Netherlands "I think we can also expect a lot from this method in the fight against AIDS. I have seen AIDS patients start urine therapy in spite of such trying circumstances, and these 113 experiences are certainly encouraging. Two years ago, a friend of mine was examined for a stomach ulcer and was diagnosed as having 'full blown' AIDS (she had a T4 of 80; according to her doctors, she had three to six months to live). She reacted badly to AZT and could not tolerate other medication. Two to four months after starting urine therapy, the spots on her skin disappeared, including the candida fungus which had turned her throat entirely white. Her energy returned, probably due to urine therapy combined with a healthy combination of plant-based remedies which strengthened her resistance. Now, more than two years later, she is entirely capable of maintaining her household and caring for her child. These last two years have certainly not been easy, partly due to the fact that the doctors did not cooperate. They kept warning her that without AZT, and considering her general condition, she would not live longer than six months."   from The Golden Fountain, by Coen van der Kroon  HIV/AIDS  Sonia Rodriguez Testimonial  “As a result of a supernatural fact in the year of 1994 I found that when ingesting my own urine, we can have an amazing and incredible treatment of our diseases.  I am cured of cysts in the breast, problems of the right mitral valve of the heart and pain in my shoulder. I also had an accident of being infected with a needle from a patient with AIDS.   I began to take my own urine and fasted for four days and after the third fast of four days, the cysts of the bust disappeared. The problems of the heart faded with no future pain. I have never had problems with the infected needle accident of the H.I.V


 the only use I'd had for doctors was to fix a few
traumatic injuries. The only preventative health care I concerned myself with was to take a multivitamin pill during those rare
spells when I felt a bit run -down and to eat lots of vegetables. So I'd not learned much about alternative health care.
    Naturally, my first stop wa s a local general practitioner/MD. He gave me his usual half -hour get -acquainted checkout and
opined that there almost certainly was nothing wrong with me. I suspect I had the good fortune to encounter an honest doctor,
because he also said if it were my w ish he could send me around for numerous tests but most likely these would not reveal
anything either. More than likely, all that was wrong was that I was approaching 40; with the onset of middle age I would nat urally
have more aches and pains. ‘Take some aspirin and get used to it,' was his advice. 'It'll only get worse.'
    Not satisfied with his dismal prognosis I asked an energetic old guy I knew named Paul, an ‘80 -something homesteader who
was renowned for his organic garden and his good health. Paul  referred me to his doctor, Isabelle Moser, who at that time was
running the Great Oaks School of Health, a residential and out -patient spa nearby at Creswell, Oregon.
    Dr. Moser had very different methods of analysis than the medicos, was warmly perso nal and seemed very safe to talk to. She
looked me over, did some strange magical thing she called muscle testing and concluded that I still had a very strong constit ution.
If I would eliminate certain "bad" foods from my diet, eliminate some generally hea lthful foods that, unfortunately, I was allergic
to, if I would reduce my alcohol intake greatly and take some food supplements, then gradually my symptoms would abate. With
the persistent application of a little self -discipline over several months, maybe six months, I could feel really well again almost all
the time and would probably continue that way for many years to come. This was good news, though the need to apply personal
responsibility toward the solution of my problem seemed a little sobering.
    But I could also see that Dr. Moser was obviously not telling me something. So I gently pressed her for the rest. A little sh yly,
reluctantly, as though she were used to being rebuffed for making such suggestions, Isabelle asked me if I had ever heard of
fasting? 'Yes,' I said. "I had. Once when I was about twenty and staying at a farm in Missouri, during a bad flu I actually d id fast,
mainly because I was too sick to take anything but water for nearly one week.'
    "Why do you ask?" I demanded.
    "If you would fast, you will start feeling really good as soon as the fast is over." she said.
    "Fast? How long?"
    "Some have fasted for a month or even longer," she said. Then she observed my crestfallen expression and added, "Even a
couple of weeks  would make an enormous difference."
    It just so happened that I was in between set -up stages for a new mail -order business I was starting and right then I did have a
couple of weeks when I was virtually free of responsibility. I could also face the id ea of not eating for a couple of weeks. "Okay!" I
said somewhat impulsively. "I could fast for two weeks. If I start right now maybe even three weeks, depending on how my
schedule works out."
    So in short order I was given several small books about fas ting to read at home and was mentally preparing myself for several
weeks of severe privation, my only sustenance to be water and herb tea without sweetener. And then came the clinker.
    "Have you ever heard of colonics?" she asked sweetly.
    "Yes. Weird practice, akin to anal sex or something?"
    "Not at all," she responded. "Colonics are essential during fasting or you will have spells when you'll feel terrible. Only c olonics
make water fasting comfortable and safe."
    Then followed  some explanation about bowel cleansing (and another little book to take home) and soon I was agreeing to get
my body over to her place for a colonic every two or three days during the fasting period, the first colonic scheduled for th e next
afternoon. I'l l spare you a detailed description of my first fast with colonics; you'll read about others shortly. In the end I withstood
the boredom of water fasting for 17 days. During the fast I had about 7 colonics. I ended up feeling great, much trimmer, wit h an
enormous rebirth of energy. And when I resumed eating it turned out to be slightly easier to control my dietary habits and
appetites.
    Thus began my practice of an annual health -building water fast. Once a year, at whatever season it seemed propitious, I 'd set
aside a couple of weeks to heal my body. While fasting I'd slowly drive myself over to Great Oaks School for colonics every o ther
day. By the end of my third annual fast in 1981, Isabelle and I had become great friends. About this same time Isabelle's
relationship with her first husband, Douglas Moser, had disintegrated. Some months later, Isabelle and I became partners. And
then we married.
    My regular fasts continued through 1984, by which time I had recovered my fundamental organic vigor and ha d retrained my
dietary habits. About 1983 Isabelle and I also began using Life Extension megavitamins as a therapy against the aging process.
Feeling so much better I began to find the incredibly boring weeks of prophylactic fasting too difficult to motiva te myself to do,
and I stopped. Since that time I fast only when acutely ill. Generally less than one week on water handles any non -optimum health
condition I've had since ‘84. I am only 54 years old as I write these words, so I hope it will be many, many years before I find
myself in the position where I have to fast for an extended period to deal with a serious or life -threatening condition.
    I am a kind of person the Spanish call autodidactico, meaning that I prefer to teach myself. I had already lea rned the fine art of
self-employment and general small -business practice that way, as well as radio and electronic theory, typography and graphic
design, the garden seed business, horticulture, and agronomy. When Isabelle moved in with me she also brought most of Great
Oak's extensive library, including very hard to obtain copies of the works of the early hygienic doctors. Naturally I studied  her
books intensely.
    Isabelle also brought her medical practice into our house. At first it was only a few loya l local clients who continued to consult
with her on an out -patient basis, but after a few years, the demands for residential care from people who were seriously and
sometimes life -threateningly sick grew irresistibly, and I found myself sharing our family  house with a parade of really sick
people. True, I was not their doctor, but because her residential clients became temporary parts of our family, I helped supp ort and
encourage our residents through their fasting process. I'm a natural teacher (and how -to-do-it writer), so I found myself explaining
many aspects of hygienic medicine to Isabelle's clients, while having a first -hand opportunity to observe for myself the healing
process at work. Thus it was that I became the doctor's assistant and came to pra ctice second -hand hygienic medicine.
    In 1994, when Isabelle had reached the age of 54, she began to think about passing on her life's accumulation of healing wisd om
by writing a book. She had no experience at writing for the popular market, her only m ajor writing being a Ph.D. dissertation. I on
the other hand had published seven books about vegetable gardening. And I grasped the essentials of her wisdom as well as any
non-practitioner could. So we took a summer off and rented a house in rural Costa Ri ca, where I helped Isabelle put down her
thoughts on a cheap word -processing typewriter. When we returned to the States, I fired -up my "big -mac" and composed this
manuscript into a rough book format that was given to some of her clients to get what is tren dily called these days, "feedback."
    But before we could completely finish her book, Isabelle became dangerously ill and after a long, painful struggle with
abdominal cancer, she died. After I resurfaced from the worst of my grief and loss, I decided t o finish her book. Fortunately, the
manuscript needed little more than polishing. I am telling the reader these things because many ghost -written books end up having
little direct connection with the originator of the thoughts. Not so in this case. And unl ike many ghost writers, I had a long and
loving apprenticeship with the author. At every step of our colaboration on this book I have made every effort to communicate
Isabelle's viewpoints in the way she would speak, not my own. Dr. Isabelle Moser was for many years my dearest friend. I have
worked on this book to help her


2003 one more drain took place.
The last Oncologist report stated that the tests performed on the Ascites fluid showed
that the cancer cells were well differentiated, a very positive sign considering terminal
cancer cells are very aggressive, and are typically fragmented and poorly
differentiated.
Since that drain in June, 2003, Cindy has minor symptoms relating to Ascites buildup.
Typically, 2 - 4 cysts (small bubbles of Ascites fluid) build in the abdomen and
stomach areas over a period of 90+ days and Cindy requires minimal parenthesis
procedures. This is a far cry from the original Ascites drains of one - three liters each.
These cysts are not painful but do cause minor discomfort as they expand and press
on vital organs. For instance, she may have to go to the bathroom frequently because
a bubble might be pressing on her bladder, or, she can't east a lot at one time
because a bubble is pressing on her stomach. These are sign that she needs a drain.
There are a few other bubbles inside her pelvic area, but they don't seem to be
causing her any problems. The hope is that Dr. Kelley's enzymes w ill slowly dissipate
these cysts.
The following is a letter from Cindy's primary physician. It is addressed to Southwest
airlines, giving them an update on her health status. It is Cindy's hope to go back to
work as a flight attendant in April, 2005. And let me tell you, I  believe it's going to
happen! Ken
Hodgkin's Disease Testimonials
Hodgkin's disease is a moderately rare cancer of the lymphocyte system and
associated organs that claimed 1,500 lives in 1987.
Physicians have classified (in the claimed 1,500) this malignancy system of four
"stages" (I-IV). Stage I  represents early, localized disease; stage IV defines advanced,
widely disseminated cancer involving many organs of the body. Stages II and III
include more intermediate forms. Physicians further categorize Hodgkin's disease by
the letters "A" and "B." The designation "A" refers to patients without symptoms. The
letter "B" identifies patients with symptoms such as fevers, chills, night sweats, and
fatigue. Hodgkin's, if untreated, is often rapidly fatal. "A single series of untreated
patients reported by Croft in 1941," writes Devita, head of the National Cancer
Institute, "leads us to believe that the course of patients with Hodgkin's disease, if left
untreated, regardless of the stage, is brief, measured in 1  to 2 years. In that series, the
median survival was less than 1  year and most patients were dead by year 2, with
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fewer than 5% alive after 5 years."
At present, the "MOPP" chemotherapy regimen is the most widely recommended
treatment for Hodgkin's. This protocol employs four drugs — nitrogen mustard,
Oncovin (vincristine), procarbazine and prednisone — given once every twenty-eight
days for at least six months. As Devita explains, "Unless chemotherapy is
contraindicated for medical reasons, all patients treated with MOPP and other
combinations should be given a minimum of six cycles (a dose) or as many cycles as
needed to achieve a complete remission, plus additional cycles to consolidate the
remission."(1) With protocols such as this, at least 50% of all patients w ill survive five
years.
Michael Moreland
Mr. Michael Moreland is a 37-year old man from Washington State alive nine years
since diagnosed with Hodgkin's disease. In late 1977, Mr. Moreland developed mild
fatigue and a tender swelling in his neck that rapidly increased in size. In January of
1978 he consulted his family physician, who suspected a low-grade infection and
prescribed a course of Penicillin therapy. With treatment, the swelling did decrease
slightly over a period of a week, but then worsened. In addition, Mr. Moreland began
experiencing drenching night sweats as well as sharp pain in the upper part of his
chest.
Several weeks later, Mr. Moreland returned to his physician. A chest X-ray revealed
a large upper mediastinal mass, and laboratory studies were significant for an
elevated white blood count of 21,000 (upper limit of normal 10,000). Because of
these findings, on February 6, 1978 Mr. Moreland entered Vancouver Memorial
Hospital in Vancouver, Washington. On admission, Mr. Moreland was noted to have
extensive lymphadenopathy in the cervical area, described in the records as: "A very
large mass present in the left side of the neck with some surrounding smaller masses
also present.
There are some more discrete masses on the right side as well, measuring up to 3 to
4 centimeters in diameter. There is a bilateral auxiliary adenopathy present." The
following day, Mr. Moreland went to surgery. Subsequent evaluation of the tissue
specimen confirmed an aggressive form of Hodgkin's disease, well-described in the
official pathology report: "There is no question that nodules are being formed in this
lymph node but in many areas the picture is more than a mixed cellularity type and
there are remarkably large collections composed mainly of malignant
reticulohitiocytic cells with lymphocyte depletion." With a diagnosis of Hodgkin's
confirmed Mr. Moreland was readmitted to Vancouver Memorial on February 13 for
additional tests. A chest X-ray showed: "Mediastinal adenopathy which is a little
more pronounced on the right. There is evidence of bilateral cervical nodes." A
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lymphangiogram, a dye study of the abdominal lymph node system, demonstrated
extensive disease, as summarized in the records: "Abnormal lymphangiogram due to
enlarged nodes caused by Hodgkin's disease at L2, L3 and probably along the right
iliac chain."
On February 13, Mr. Moreland underwent a staging laparotomy — exploratory
abdominal surgery — and removal of his spleen, a procedure often performed in
patients with Hodgkin's. Although the spleen was free of disease, a periaortic lymph
node was positive for cancer. At the same time, a bone marrow biopsy was
attempted, but the specimen could not be conclusively analyzed. Mr. Moreland was
told he suffered advanced Hodgkin's disease, officially recorded as: "Hodgkin's
disease, nodular sclerosed type, stage IIIB." His doctors advised that aggressive multi
agent chemotherapy was the only hope for prolonged survival, and proposed their
standard six-month, six-cycle course of MOPP. Mr. Moreland agreed to the treatment,
which he began in late February as an outpatient at the Vancouver Clinic.
After the first round of drugs, Mr. Moreland became extremely weak, fatigued, and
anorexic. His symptoms did improve over a two-week period, but while undergoing
the second cycle, Mr. Moreland became severely ill. He did struggle through a third
course, but felt so debilitated he decided to discontinue chemotherapy. The attending
physician warned Mr. Moreland that without appropriate treatment, he would quickly
die, and suggested a six-month course of radiation as an alternative. Mr. Moreland
accepted the plan and in late May received his first dose of cobalt to the chest.
Once again Mr. Moreland became ill, and in mid-July, after receiving a total of
4060 rads to the chest and upper abdomen, Mr. Moreland refused further treatment.
At the same time, he was not believed to be cancer-free. According to Mr. Moreland,
his doctors warned that he would die within a year, unless he agreed to additional
therapy.
Mr. Moreland did not change his mind. Instead, after investigating alternative
approaches to cancer, he met with Dr. Kelley in late July and shortly thereafter began
the Kelley program. Within a month, he noticed improved energy and well being,
and within a year, he says he felt better than he had for a decade.
Mr. Moreland followed the full regimen for three years, and today, nine years since
his diagnosis, he remains in excellent health. He also has two healthy children,
currently, aged four and six; this is unusual, since MOPP chemotherapy causes
sterility in a majority of male patients. Despite his abbreviated courses of both
chemotherapy and radiation, I  believe Mr. Moreland is a relatively simple case to
evaluate.
Although there are, in the medical literature, several documented instances of
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patients with advanced Hodgkin's enjoying prolonged survival after incomplete
treatment with MOPP, such cases are extremely rare. While he did undergo
radiotherapy, all of it was directed to his chest and upper abdomen. His extensive
lower abdominal and pelvic tumors were never irradiated.
In summary, Mr. Moreland suffered Stage IIIB Hodgkin's disease, treated with
partial courses of chemotherapy and radiation. When first seen by Dr. Kelley, he was
clinically debilitated and not, according to his doctors, in remission; it seems
reasonable to attribute this patient's prolonged survival and current good health to his
nutritional protocol.
Scott Stirling
Mr. Stirling is a 53-year-old


In Hawaii,  James
Michener describes the New Englanders who arrived in the tropical
climate of Hawaii, and when October arrived, even though it was
still eighty-five degrees, they habitually trotted out their winter
clothes and dressed uncomfortably for six months…Why? Because
they were supposed to.) Being a slave to the dictates of fashion critics,
and wearing only “What’s in” because, after all, you have to  fit in.
• Assuming that certain drinks must go with certain food. White
wine must accompany fish and fowl. Red wine goes only with beef.
Being locked into somebody’s rules on what to eat with what.
• Shifting blame for your actions to others. “It’s really her fault,
she made us late.” “Don’t blame me, he’s the one who did it.”
• You must go to a wedding or send a gift, even if you don’t like
them. You just don’t ignore invitations even when you want154 / Your Erroneous Zonesto. You may feel resentful about buying the gift, but go through the
motions anyhow because that’s the way things are supposed to be
done. Conversely, attending funerals that you’d rather not go to,
but do because you’re supposed to. You must attend such formal
functions to show that you grieve or respect or have the appropriate
emotions.
• Attending religious services which you dislike and don’t believe
in because it is expected of you and you want to do the right thing.
• Giving titles to those who serve you, which elevates them by
implication to a position higher than you. What do you call your
dentist? If it’s doctor, is it really just a vocational title? Do you say
Carpenter Jones, or Plumber Smith? If it is out of respect for his po-
sition, what makes you think his position is loftier than yours? If he
is paid to serve you, why is it that he gets a title and you get called
by your name?
• Going to bed when it gets to be bedtime, rather than when you’re
tired.
• Having sex only one or two ways because those are the only
acceptable ways, or only participating in sexual activities when all
conditions are met, such as, the kids are asleep, you are not tired,
it’s dark in the room, you’re in your own bed, and on and on.
• Selecting roles in daily living because the culture demands it.
Women do the dishes, men take out the garbage. Housework is for
the wife, outdoor work is for the husband. Boys do this, girls do
that.
• Obedience to silly household rules and traditions that don’t
work for your family, such as asking permission to leave the table,
everyone eating at the same time when it is more inconvenient to
do it that way or bedtimes that are without rationale.
• Following the dictates of all signs whether they make sense or
not. No Talking! No Entry! No anything! Never challenging a sign,
or even assuming that it doesn’t belong there in the first place. People
make signs and people also make mistakes.BREAKING THE BARRIER OF CONVENTION  / 155• Keeping mattress tags on for years because they say do not re-
move under penalty of law.
• Always having Sunday dinner at Mamma’s, although you’d
rather not. After all, it is a tradition, and even if everyone doesn’t
like it, including Mamma, you must preserve tradition.
• When reading a book, always starting at page one and reading
every word to the end, even if half of it doesn’t apply. Finishing a
book you don’t like because you’re halfway through it, and, if you’ve
read half, you must read it all.
• Women never asking men for dates. After all, that’s the male’s
role. Or never initiating a telephone call, or opening the door for a
man, or paying the bill, or countless other absurd traditions that
serve no real purpose.
• Sending out holiday greeting cards and resenting them. Doing
so because you’ve always done it, and it is expected of you.
• Striving for grades in school or forcing your children to do so.
Learning not for your own satisfaction but for the symbols that will
eventually appear on the transcript.
• Always asking: “Is he/she right for me?” and being regularly
perplexed in search of the right person.
• Going everywhere with your partner because it is expected,
even though you both would prefer to be in different places at that
particular time.
• Consulting a “how-to” book for everything, because every job
must be done a certain way. Not being able to differentiate between
manuals that impart useful information and those that merely tell
you how things ought to be.
• Is this the right dress, hat, automobile, furniture, salad dressing,
appetizer, book, college, job, etc. Being anxious over the search for
the right item and as a result being in that indecision and doubt bag.
• Making rewards, plaques, titles, honors and all merit badges
more important than your own evaluation of your achievements.156 / Your Erroneous Zones• Saying, “I could never be as great as———
• Applauding in an audience when you didn’t like the perform-
ance.
• Tipping for poor service.
• Sports-fan behavior in which you go crazy over a home team
victory or loss, and live vicariously through the accomplishments
or lack of accomplishments of athletes.
A Look at the Common Payoffs of Musterbation
Some of the reasons you have for hanging onto your shoulds are
detailed below. These payoffs, like those in all erroneous zones, are
mostly self-destructive but nevertheless constitute a certain support
system of their own.
• You can take solace in being a “good boy” or a “good girl” by
following all of your shoulds. You can pat yourself on the back for
being obedient. This dividend is a regressive one in which you go
back to an earlier developmental period when you were rewarded
with approval whenever you behaved, which meant relying on
someone else to establish your rules of conduct.
• Your obedience to the external should allows you to assign the
responsibility for your standing still to the should rather than to
yourself. As long as the should is the rationale for what you are (or
aren’t), you can avoid the risks involved in trusting yourself to
change. Thus your shoulds keep you from growing. For example,
Marjorie has a should in her head that all premarital sex is a taboo.
She is thirty-four years old, and to date she has never had a sexual
experience because of this learned should. But Marjorie has no inner
peace. She would like to have a sexual relationship, and she is very
much dissatisfied with herself in this area. Moreover, it is possible
that Marjorie will never get married, and her should (in this case
should-not) would thenBREAKING THE BARRIER OF CONVENTION  / 157keep her from participating in sex for an entire lifetime. When she
is confronted with this possibility she shudders at the thought, and
yet her should-not is still there. Marjorie has spillover effects from
her should. She can’t even stay overnight in the same house with
her boyfriend out of fear of being judged by others. Thus she is
constantly being inconvenienced because of her shoulds by having
to come home to Mamma at night. Hanging onto them keeps her
from the risky business of testing herself out in the scary act of
sexual involvement. But her response is always, “I shouldn’t do it.”
Plainly, her shoulds work against her own happiness.
• Your musts make it possible for you to maneuver others. By
telling someone this is the way it should be done, you can make him
do it the way you want it to be done.
• It is easier to haul out a should when you lack confidence in
yourself. As your self-image wanes, the should becomes your bul-
wark.
• You can remain self-righteous about your behavior and retain
your hostility when others don’t fit into the shoulds that you have
for yourself and the rest of the world. Hence, you build yourself up
in your mind at the expense of others who don’t obey the rule-pat-
terns.
• You can win approval by conforming. You feel good by fitting-
in, which is what you were told all along that you should  be doing.
That old approval-seeking need creeps in here as well.
• As long as you focus on others, and live through their successes
and failures, you don’t have to work on yourself. Having heroes can
reinforce your own low opinion of yourself and allow you to escape
from having to work on yourself. As long as the heroes can be the
cause of your good feelings, or responsible for your bad feelings,
there is no reason for you to take on that responsibility. Your self-
worth in this case is really other-worth and thus fleeting and trans-
itory. It depends upon all of those great people, and how they come
through for you.158 / Your Erroneous ZonesSome Strategies for Removing Some of Your Shoulds
Basically your chore in scrubbing up this zone involves risk-taking.
Doing! Resolving to be different than the way you’ve been taught
is proper when that way doesn’t work for you. Here are some tactics
that will be helpful in getting out of your musterbatory habits.
• Begin with insight into your