 of love.”
This is the change that must happen. Right now, everything we
know about ourselves as individuals has been built up over time;
therefore time is also our psychological enemy, reinforcing the
boundaries that keep love out. One must go beyond time to
experience the real value of oneself, which is what a breakthrough
accomplishes.
It is not a bad sign when a breakthrough makes one feel
vulnerable and undefended, as Liam so acutely felt. These are
actually desirable emotions, because they announce the possibility
of a new life. They are not safe emotions, however. To be new is to
feel terribly exposed, like a fragile hatchling. A spiritual teacher was
once giving a talk on going beyond the connement of time, seeking
the timeless in every moment, when a member of the audience
anxiously interrupted, “But if I go beyond time, won’t I miss my
morning train? ” One’s rst reaction to the unknown is often like
that: a worried anticipation that the familiar world, with its trains
that run on time, will be pulled out from under.
However, the poet Alfred Lord Tennyson armed that for him the
feeling of being totally free of boundaries was “not a confused state
but the cleares t of the clear,  the surest of the sure, utterly beyond
words—where death was an almost laughable impossib ility.” This
certainty was a tribute to the clarity of his experiences. In keeping
with many others who have transcended the waking state, Tennyson
concluded that those rare instances when individuality “seemed todissolve and melt away into boundless being” had shown him “the
only true self.”
If Tennyson was right, then each of us is living outside his true
self. We are not clear and sure; we are trapped in time and the pain
it bring s; we are mortally afraid of death. One might surmise that
the intensity of “the only true self” must be reserved for saints and
poets. But ordinary experien ce, the kind all of us have, is much
more profound than we give it credit for.
To begin with, we spend a large part of every day in the
supremely creative act of constructing our self. If this self has aws,
it is not because we are incom petent builders; rather, the problem is
that our past mistakes have turned into us. Since adulthood, the
process of making a self has been left in our own hands, but its roots
go back to earliest childhood, when we had no choice but to imbibe
our parent’s version of selfho od. Without knowing it, we started to
be shaped.
In an ideal childhood, we would have been nurtured, in Alice
Miller’s words, “by the presence of a person who was completely
aware of us, who took us seriously, who admired and followed us.”
Awareness is the prime prere quisite here; it is much more  important
than the words and actions  in themselves that a parent directs
toward a child. The words “Mommy loves you” or “You’re a good
boy” mean very little outside the look and tone of voice that
accompany them. A loving gaze turns the words into nourishment; a
troubled, hesitant, or angry gaze can turn the same words to poison.
Life has proceeded, of course, on a less than ideal basis for
generation after generation. Alice Miller describes a Greek man, a
restaurant owner in his thirties, who told her very proudly one day
that he never drank alcohol and had his father to thank for it. When
he was fteen and came home one night extremely drunk, his father
beat him so severely that he could not move for a week. From that
time on he could not stand to taste so much as a drop of liquor. This
man was on the verge of getting married when Miller talked to him,
and she asked if he intended to beat his own children. “Of course,”
he replied, “beatings are necessary in bringing up a child properly:
they are the best way to make him respect you. I would neversmoke in my father’s presenc e, for example—and that is the sign of
my respect for him.”
This man was oblivious to what he was actually proposing, that it
is good to break a child’s spirit. Without a qualm, he felt it
necessary for a child to live in fear of severe punishment. After all,
for him the word “respect” basically meant “terror.” This sort of
untruth gets passed on because one generation fails to solve the
problem of the false self and then has no choice but to pass the
problem on. Broken spirits do not see anything wrong in breaking
the spirits of their children.
The ideal parent would serve as a sensitive extension of the child’s
psyche. As father and mother mirrored the child’s feelings, he would
see the reection coming back to him, and conforming to it, he
would be shaped by both his own psyche and theirs. A cry of rage
would meet, for example, with an understanding look that said, “I
know why you are angry,” and in that unspoken compassion, anger
would run its course and dissolve. It is our checked feelings, the
ones that our parents labeled “bad” in their eyes, that cause so much
hidden conict later. Without this sensitive, loving interaction,
which must begin from birth, we walk through the rest of our lives
wounded, unable to accept ourselves but never fully knowing why.
Having missed  the ideal upbringing, one can still repair the lack
of a totally aware parent by becoming totally aware oneself. The
ancient Indian texts often compare Yoga to becoming your own
parent. The image of “dying  to your father and mother, ” which is
frequently found in the Upanishads, does not mean running away or
turning your back on them. Rather, it means taking on their role
yourself, developing inside your own heart the give-and-take of
awareness that fashions a complete person out of the raw material
of existence.
The Art of Not Doing
The morning sun sends bright shafts of light onto the Oriental
carpet in my bedroom, but I do not see them. I am sitting in an
armchair, my eyes closed, meditating. Thoughts run through myhead; I hear the sparrows squabbling outside my window and the
clicking digital  clock in the room; I scratch my ear or shue in my
seat as the spirit moves me. The picture of meditation that many
Westerners have in their mind’s eye is not this. It is of an austere,
disciplined setting, with saron-robed monks sitting row upon row
at sti attention. The room is dark, silent, and unbearably  cold. The
watchful eye of an old abbot is xed on the novice monks; he is
ready to strike them with a bamboo stick if they nod their heads or
slump their shoulders.
This aura of renunciation tends to overawe most people. As much
as they might respect the inner fortitude being displayed,
Westerners are very reluctant to endure the same rigors themselves.
Yet the outer picture is deceiving; the inner experience of
meditation can be had without any kind of forced discipline. The
outer trappings—how one sits, breathes, dresses, and so forth—are
really irrelevant.
When I sit down to meditat e, my inner experience can best be
described by what I am not doing: I am not focusing my mind or
contemplating any idea. I am not in a spiritual or introspective
mood. I do not count, time, or control my breaths. No eort is being
made to cause certain thoughts to come or go. There is no particular
feeling I try to either induce or avoid. I do not pay atten tion to my
body in a special way or attempt to relax any part of it. If I start to
fall asleep, I do not resist the impulse.
What am I doing, then? The best answer is that I am just not
doing; I am engaged in getting the normal activity of the mind to
turn into silence, but without coercing it to do so. I am getting past
the inner noise of thoughts and feelings in order to reveal what the
silent witness inside me is really like. This is how the mind naturally
opens to itself and heals.
“Not doing” sounds like doing nothing at all, but there is a subtle
dierence. The thinking, feeling mind is in constant motio n. If it has
the thought “Slow down, be silent,” that is a movement, too, and
will not make the mind stop. No thought can make it stop. One
might try just sitting, waiting  for the mind to stop of its own accord.
There are meditations of this sort in the vast tradition of Indian andZen practice, but most novices who try this method nd it extremely
exhausting and unproductive. A mind left to its own devices tends to
run here and there like a drunken monkey, as the Indian  scriptures
say. To watch one’s mind reel around for an hour can be intensely
disturbing. Moreover, there is no reason why the mind should reach
silence during the vigil.
One can try gathering the mind to a point, which is called
concentration. This form of discipline is often compared to trying to
make


, on the spiritual plane
every relationship is an assignment. We’re brought toget her by an
intentional universe for one reason only: the enlightenm ent of all
concerned. Whether our conne ction is through work or family, a casual
encounter or a lifelong involvement, the purpose of every relatio nship is the
healing of the world.
The ego would separate our thoughts of work from our thoughts of the
sacred, positing that work is material and God is spiritual, and therefore the
twain do not meet. Since the world itself is merely a projec tion of our
thoughts, howev er, there is no ultimate separation between our spirit,  i.e.,
loving thought, and anything that we do. Separating our thoughts of work
from our thoughts of spiritual devotion is thus personally disempowering,
because it throws us out of the spirit mind and into fear. In fear, we forget
who we really are. Forgetting who we are, we forget Who lives within us.
And in forgettin g Who lives within us, we lose conscious conne ction to our
power. Through remembering Who lives within us, and dedicating
ourselves to His purposes, we achieve miraculous results.Think of your work life, therefore, not as separate  from your spiritual life
but as central  to your spiritual life. Whatever your business, it is your
ministry. Every relationship, every activity, every circumstance is part of
your ministry, to the extent that you think of it that way. Such devotion
uplifts the vibration of your thinking, thus improving the experience that
others have of you and that you have of them.
Through our physical eyes, a group of people working together are seen as
discrete and separate entities, related only through the sheer coincidence
that they happen to all be working at the same place at the same time.
Indeed, if this were a random universe, then that would be so.
But it is not a random universe, and everyo ne is wherever he or she is
through divine assignment. That assignment does not necessarily mean that
the situa tion should remain as it is: sometimes love’ s lesson is learning to
say no. But one way or another, there is meaning to everything that occurs.
Lessons come in many different  forms, and for everyone in a situation, the
lesson is different. For one person, the lesson might be to contribute more.
For another, the lesson might be to be kinder. For one, it might be to listen
more. For another, it might be to speak up more. For another, it may even
be to leave. No matter what the circumstance, however, working  together is
an oppo rtunity for growth for everyone involved. And all growth is a
conduit of miracles.
I once attended a business meet ing with a group of people trying to get a
new project off the ground. The conversation centered on money: Where
were they going to get money? How would they raise money to fund the
project? How could they get people to invest?
Sitting with the group, I kept thinking how much hidden gold was right
there at the conference table. The gold was simply not mined—in fact, no
one seemed to realize it was even there. Every person at the table carried
within them priceless treasures in the form of ideas and creativity. How do I
know this? Because as children of God, we all do.
Modern civiliza tion hasn’ t scratched the surface of truly liberating our
human potential, because an overly secular worldview doesn’ t recognize  the
deepest human potential. As a consequence, we continue to project onto
external sources —money and what it can buy—the idolatrous notion that
we need those sources in order to create success. In fact, it’s the other way
around. It’s when we open the doors to true success—sharing our passionand ideas in service to a higher good, each person invited to express his or
her unique contribution to the whole—that any material means necessary to
support the work will be miraculously brought forward by a self-or ganizing
universe. Once the energy is potent enough, the business deal will arrive by
itself.
Energy can create wealth, but wealth of itself cannot create energy. No
amount of money, technology, or strategy can equal the value of passionate
people brainstorming new possibilities. Material wealth emer ges from the
nonmaterial source of human imagination and passion—passion for an idea,
a purpose, a possibility of something as yet unseen. Such passion cannot be
bought, but only inspired. A salary alone does not generate human
enthusiasm, at least not for long. Human enthusiasm isn’t created  by money
so much as it creates  money.
Yet there was no container at that conference table into which people
could pour their hearts, much less their ideas. No one was asking them
about themselve s, or their deeper creative visions. What was missing,
ironically, was something that costs no money at all: the consciousness of
genuine concern. That concern is the essence of true leaders hip. A real
leader is not the top dog who merely shouts down orders. A leader is one
who holds the space for the brilliance of others.
Many years ago, a young man who worked for me spoke about his job this
way: “We’re over there across the street, making the audiotapes, and no one
ever comes over to ask us how we are or even notice that we exist.” I was
stunned. An elephant had been sitting next to me that I hadn’ t even realized
was in the room.
What had I been thinking, exactly? If someone on my team could be that
unhappy, that untended to, how could I think that this enterprise was really
going to produce  in the world? In the words of Mahatma Gandhi, “the end
is inhere nt in the means.” No company or organization filled with unhappy
people will ultimately rise to its highest potential.
We’re all selective with our application of spiritual principles until we’re
not, and for years I failed to see the ministry aspect of the workp lace itself. I
had a profound concern for my audience and their needs, yet a twisted view
of what I owed or didn’ t owe to people who were there to help me serve
them.Our workplace can be the ego’s lair, or the spirit’ s sanctuary. It can be an
easy home for attitudes of disrespect, entitlement, arrogance, laziness,
exploitation, disloyalty, and greed. But the workplace can also be a
beautiful home for the most positive energies, should we proactively choose
to expre ss them.  Our egos are more vigilant in monitoring the sins of others
than in identifyi ng our own; we’re quick to point out where we think others
are making mistakes and someti mes slow to look at our own. The employer
finds it easier to blame the employee; the employee finds it easier to blame
the employer. The seeker, on the other hand, seeks no blame at all, but
simply understanding and transformation.
As for the young man who told me I didn’ t seem to care whether or not he
existed, his comment opened up a floodgate of realization on my part. I had
failed him as an employer, and I knew it. It took me years to understand that
every workplace should be a positivity team.  Every employee has a right to
feel appreciated for his or her gifts, and every employer has a right to
expect the highest standards of excellence.
How might the leader of the business meeting mentioned above have
mined the gold of his employees? Before he went into the meeting, he
might have said a prayer for everyone who was going to be at the meeting,
or salute d them  internally in whatever way was true for him. During the
meeting, he could have looked at everyone in turn, thinking, “The love in
me salut es the love in you.” (Obviously, it wouldn’ t have been appropriate
to say such a thing aloud!) No one would have known, on a conscious level,
that anything at all had occurred. But on an invisible, miraculous level,
everyone at the table would have been lifted into a higher psychological and
emotional alignment. Having been inwardly saluted, the group members
would have felt invited to share their gifts.
If you’re interested in building a positivity team, let’ s start now:
Write down on a piece of paper every person with whom you’ve worked
in your past—em ployees, employers, coworkers, customers, agents, clients,
and so forth. Closing your eyes, allow them to appear in your imagination
like a queue of people waiting in line at a movie. For that’s exactly what
they were, except that they weren’ t lining up to see a movi e; they were
lining up to be in  a movie: the movie of your life!
As you think of those individu als from your past, remember that every
relationship is an assignment, in which people are drawn together becausethey represent a maximal and mutual opportunity for soul growth. Whether
you liked particular individuals or not is irrelevant; whether they liked you
or not is irrelevant. What is relevant is that you see now whatever lesson
you might have failed to learn before, so that you will have no need to
repeat it.
Within the inner  space of your mind, bow before every person standing in
the line. Within your heart, bless, apologize, and forgive wherever
necessary. And complete forgiveness is necessary, if we’re to attract and
produce miracle s. Thank each person for


 medium yellow squash, washed and
grated
 2½ tbsp sour cream ½ tsp fresh ground black pepper
1. Melt the Olivio or butter in a saucepan.
Add the garlic, onion and leeks and
sauté over a low heat for 5 minutes.
2. Mix in the thyme, courgettes and
squash. Cook, stirring frequently for 5–
7 minutes or until the courgettes and
squash are tender.
3. Place on a plate, top with sour cream
and sprinkle with ground black pepper.
Bok Choy Slaw
A versatile side dish that goes well with
lamb or chicken. Crunchy and absolutely
delicious.Serves 4
 4 tbsp rice wine vinegar
 1 tbsp sesame oil
 2 tsp honey
 2 tsp Dijon mustard
 ¼ tsp salt
 600 g bok choy, washed and thinly
sliced
 2 carrots, peeled and shredded
 2 spring onions, chopped thinly
1. In a medium bowl, whisk the vinegar,
oil, honey, mustard and salt until
smooth.
2. Add the bok choy, carrots and spring
onions.
3. Toss to coat thoroughly with thedressing.
Vegetable Stir Fry
An easy way of introducing vegetables as
a side dish to your menu. You can make
this dish sweet, spicy or have it as it is.
Chicken or shrimps can be added to
make it a meal on its own.
Serves 4
 1 tbsp grapeseed oil
 2 red onions, sliced
 150 g mushrooms, sliced
 2 courgettes, chopped
 1 head white cabbage or Chinesecabbage, shredded
 2 tbsp Szechuan stir-fry sauce
 1 tsp sesame oil
 1 tsp agave nectar or honey (optional)
 Salt and pepper to taste
1. Heat the grapeseed oil in a wok or
saucepan. Sauté the onions for 2
minutes. Add the mushrooms and
courgettes and cook for 3 minutes.
2. Mix in the cabbage. Drizzle the
stir-fry
sauce over the vegetables and sauté
until the cabbage is just wilted.
3. Drizzle with sesame oil and agave or
honey (if you are using it for a sweet
twist). Add salt and pepper to taste.
Mix thoroughly.Spicy Vegetables
Serve this dish on its own or with
wholemeal pitta bread.
Serves 2–4
 2 tbsp olive oil
 2 tsp black mustard seeds
 2 onions, finely chopped
 2 garlic cloves, chopped
 1 cm ginger, chopped
 ½ tsp turmeric
 ½ tsp coriander
 1 tsp ground cumin
 ¼ tsp chilli powder
 2 carrots, peeled and chopped 2 sweet potatoes, peeled and chopped
 2 tomatoes, chopped
 250 g green beans, trimmed and cut
into small pieces
 Salt and pepper to taste
 ½ tsp garam masala
1. Heat the oil in a heavy saucepan and fry
the mustard seeds until they pop.
2. Add the onions, garlic and ginger.
Sauté, stirring continuously for 5
minutes or until the onions are golden.
3. Add the turmeric, coriander, cumin and
chilli powder, and sauté for about 30
seconds. Then toss in the vegetables.
Mix until they are thoroughly coated
with the spices.
4. Add salt, pepper and 3 tablespoons ofwater. Cover and cook for 15 minutes
or until the vegetables are tender.
5. Stir gently every 5 minutes and add a
little more water if necessary. Sprinkle
with garam masala and stir.
Stewed Greens
This recipe is packed full of nutrients,
vitamins, fibre, folic acid – you can’t go
wrong with it.
Serves 4–6
 600 g collard greens, washed and
chopped
 200 g spinach, washed
 200 g kale 4 tbsp olive oil
 1 onion, chopped
 4 tomatoes, chopped
 1 green chilli pepper, deseeded and
finely chopped
 Juice of ½ lemon
 1 tbsp plain unbleached flour
 225 ml water
 ½ tsp salt and black pepper
1. Steam the greens in a steamer for about
6 minutes. If you don’t have a steamer,
pour water into a saucepan and bring to
the boil. Place the greens in a colander
and insert into the saucepan. Cover and
steam for about 6 minutes.
2. Heat 2 tbsp of oil in a frying pan over amedium heat. Add the onion, tomatoes
and pepper. Mix well and cook for
about 5 minutes. Reduce the heat to
low and add the remaining oil.
3. Whisk the lemon juice, flour and half
the water until smooth and
well-
blended
. Pour into the onion mixture
and mix well.
4. Add the remaining water, cooked
greens, salt and pepper to taste and mix
well. Increase the heat to medium,
cover and cook for 3 minutes to heat
through. Serve with a main dish such as
fish or chicken.
Asparagus and Sun-dried
TomatoesThe combination of the sun-dried
tomatoes and healthy sauce gives a
wonderfully sweet and savoury taste.
Serve this on its own as a starter or side
dish with chicken or fish – absolutely
delicious!
Serves 2
 1 tbsp olive oil
 1 tsp flaxseed oil
 1 tsp balsamic vinegar
 ½ tsp cayenne pepper
 2 tbsp sun-dried tomatoes, chopped
 15 g parsley, chopped
 225 g asparagus
 10 g fresh basil, chopped1. In a small bowl, mix the oils, vinegar,
cayenne, tomatoes and half of the
parsley together. Leave to marinade for
2 hours.
2. Steam the asparagus for about 6 minutes
or until just tender.
3. Place the asparagus on a plate. Pour the
sauce over, and sprinkle with the
remaining parsley and basil.
Baked Tomatoes
A classic Mediterranean dish, which is
often served as part of a number of
platters making up a main meal.
Serves 2–4 2 tbsp olive oil
 4 large tomatoes, cored and each cut
into 3 thick slices
 200 g breadcrumbs
 20 g fresh basil, chopped
 1 tsp fresh thyme, chopped
 1 tsp fresh oregano, chopped
 1 garlic clove, chopped
 Extra olive oil to drizzle
1. Preheat the oven to 180°C or Gas Mark
4.
2. Lightly brush half the olive oil on a
baking tray. Arrange the tomato slices,
cut side up, in a single layer.
3. Mix the breadcrumbs, remaining oil,
half the herbs and garlic. Sprinkle overthe tomatoes. Bake for about 5–7
minutes or until the breadcrumbs are
lightly browned.
4. Place the tomatoes on a serving platter,
sprinkle with remaining herbs and
drizzle with olive oil.
Sautéed Bok Choy (Asian)
Bok choy isn’t just for salads or Asian
dishes. It is also a perfect vegetable for a
quick, healthy side dish. Sautéing
concentrates both the flavour and
nutrition of the vegetable.
Serves 2–4
 1 onion, chopped 2½ cm ginger, grated
 1 tbsp olive oil
 ½ tsp sesame oil
 500 g bok choy, both white and green
parts sliced
 1 tbsp rice wine vinegar
 1 tsp fish sauce
 ½ tsp red pepper, crushed
 Salt to taste
 100 ml chicken stock
 1 tbsp sesame seeds
1. In a medium-sized saucepan, sauté the
onion and ginger in the oils for 5
minutes.
2. Add the bok choy, vinegar, fish sauce,
pepper, salt and stock. Mix and sautéfor about 8 minutes.
3. Place on a plate and sprinkle with
sesame seeds.
Balsamic Mushrooms
These mushrooms can be served hot or
cold, so you can prepare them a day
before or right before you serve your
main meal. They take 10 minutes to
prepare.
Serves 2
 ½ tsp sesame oil
 1 onion, chopped
 350 g shiitake mushrooms 2 tbsp sundried tomatoes (optional)
 2 tbsp balsamic vinegar
 1 tbsp red wine
 20 g parsley, chopped
1. Sauté the onion in sesame oil in a wok
or saucepan for 5 minutes.
2. Add the mushrooms, sundried tomatoes,
vinegar, red wine and half the parsley.
Mix together thoroughly for 5 minutes,
stirring continuously.
3. Place on a serving platter and sprinkle
with the remaining parsley.Chapter 11
Mains
There are many types of foods
and recipes around the world.
It’s a lot of fun discovering and
trying them out. Hope you enjoy
these!Couscous with Dates, Raisins
and Almonds (Middle
Eastern)
This recipe is fruity and nutty – a perfect
combination of flavours. It takes about
10 minutes to prepare.
Serves 4
 450 ml water
 1 tbsp Olivio (or unsalted butter)
 Grated peel and juice of 1 orange
 1 tbsp honey or agave nectar


attention during our busy daily routines. It is common practice to stuf f food
into our  mouths unconsciously,  not even really tasting anything after the
first bite. The next time you e at, observe how many times y ou actually
noticed the texture, taste, and sm ell of your food. Did you eat m ost of your
meal wi th your attention elsewhere? Or did you experience the sensory
wonders of your food, bite by bite?
Forty-one-year -old T essy considers herself a born worrier. As the eldest
child, she often felt an overwh elming sense of responsibility toward her
family and younger siblings; throughout childhood, her parents constantly
reinforced the notion that T essy’ s primary role was to show a go od example
to her younger brother and sister. At school she excelled at both  sports and
academic work and became focused on achieving top marks—anything
other than an A grade was unacceptable. The few times she re ceived a C
grade, sh e and her parents woul d get very upset. On one such o ccasion her
father w ent to the extent of taping her report card to the refriger ator door to
remind everyone in the house that marks like this were not to be tolerated.
It so metimes seemed to T essy that her parents were trying to realize
their ow n ambitions through her, but that it was impossible for them to be
fulfilled. Her brother and sister  had far less pressure put upon them, were
required to do l ess homework and fewer household chores, and enjoyed
much more freedom. These ineq ualities became even more apparent duringtheir tee nage ye ars when the yo unger ones were allowed to wa tch hours of
television and go to parties while T essy was expected to concentrate on her
studies.
T essy gr ew rese ntful of her par ents. She hated the fact that there was
one set of rules for her and another for her siblings. Through the molding by
her parents, T essy felt that she  always had to be a people pl easer and a
perfectionist, and if she failed to reach her high expectations, she would feel
very low and critical of herself.
Things came to a head a year ago when T essy’ s mother came  to visit
and stayed for a whole month.  It was then that T essy realized just how
much her mother ’ s high-strung personality made T essy feel stressed.
Although she had long been an adult, T essy had never escaped the
attentions of her overbearing mother, who advised her, smothered her, and
always said she knew what wa s best for her. As her mother had grown
older, T e ssy chose to keep the peace and continued to bottle up her feelings
rather than confronting her.
Unsurprisingly, T essy’ s mother ’ s visit was very stressful. In a bid to
distract herself from the stress, T essy found herself eating more and more.
Whenever she felt that things w ere getting to be too much, she would cook
a meal or head to the local diner to dissipate her feelings. She enjoyed the
pleasure of cooking, tasting, an d eating, and now the food was serving an
additional purpose by helping her to cope.
Six wee ks ago, I received a cal l from T essy complaining that she was
feeling increasin gly short of breath. Feelings of dizziness while driving had
made he r feel very anxious ab out her health, suspecting that something
more s erious was going on, and she had begun to suf fer from
breathlessness, u nable to take a satisfying breath. Recognizing the angst in
T essy’ s voice, I asked her to come in to see me the following day. She
explained the situation that led to the changes in her breathing and the use
of food as a crutch. She was co nscious about having a “spare tire” around
her wais t, which  wasn’ t helping with her self-esteem, and she was anxious
about her breathing issues—the time had come to make a change.
W e started by measuring T essy’ s BOL T score and found it to be 10
seconds. Although she was predominantly a nasal breather, she used her
upper ch est to breathe and sighed regularly. I explained to her that optimal
breathing should be dif ficult to see and not heard, with gentle movementsfrom below the diaphragm. During stressed-out breathing, however, the
opposite takes place, leading to an unnecessarily lar ge breathing volume
and all its assoc iated problems. T essy needed to learn how to use slow and
gentle breathing to bring her body into relaxation.
First, I asked her to place one ha nd on her chest and one hand above her
navel and to bec ome aware of h er breathing, to feel the air as it entered and
left her body. W hen she was c onscious of her breathing, I a sked her to
breathe light and gently soften her breathing in order to create a tolerable
need for air for  a couple of minutes. T essy felt uncomfortab le with the
feeling of air hu nger, so I asked her to reduce the time spent on the exercise
in order to gently condition her body to acclimatize to the sensation. She
repeated 3 sets of 1.5 minutes each, with a small rest of 1 m inute or so
between them, and soon became accustomed to practicing the exercise.
T o help quicken her progress, I decided to teach her a walking exercise
with bre ath hold s. This involved walking with her mouth closed  for about 1
minute o r so, followed by gently exhaling through her nose and pinching it
with her fingers to hold her breath for 10 paces. Following each breath hold,
T essy continued  to walk whil e breathing through her nose for 1 or 2
minutes, followed by exhaling through her nose and holding her breath.
T essy found this exercise much more comfortable and proceeded to increase
the lengths of h er breath holds to 15 and then 20 paces. Each time she
advanced, I checked to ensure T essy’ s breathing remained un der control,
and soo n she was able to ho ld her breath for 30 paces, even feeling
comfortable with the feeling of air shortage. T essy explained tha t she found
it easier to practice reduced breathing while walking than sitting still, as she
knew that the air hunger was only temporary.
T essy made such good prog ress that we decided to mo ve onto
abdominal breathing to change her breathing pattern from the up per chest to
the diaphragm and address her  chronic overbreathing. For this exercise I
asked he r to stand up, as an up right position provides an ideal posture for
abdominal breathing, and gave her the following simple instructions:
•  Breathe in—gently allow your abdomen to move outward.
•  Breathe out—gently allow your abdomen to move inward.By f ocusing her attention on her chest and abdomen, T essy was able to
switch f rom upp er -chest to abdominal breathing ef fortlessly. Th e next step
was to gently soften and slow do wn her breathing to produce a comfortable
hunger for air. T essy practiced lightening her breathing for 3  mi nutes be fore
taking a break for 1 minute or so. After 3 sets of this exercise and a short
rest, I measured T essy’ s BOL T score again to find it had increased to 23
seconds. This drastic change to her BOL T score took place in a  single one-
and-a-half-hour session, and T e ssy felt calmer, more alert, and in much
greater control of her breathing. BOL T scores do not usually increase so
quickly, but from time to time it is possible! However, as I e xplained to
T essy, h er sudden high BOL T score would reduce again over the following
few hou rs, but could be regained through the practice of the exe rcises she’d
learned.
A few weeks after we met, T essy reported that she had felt extremely
thirsty o n one of the days, almo st as if her body was desperate to rehydrate
itself with plain water after months of relying on fizzy drinks. Exhilarated
by h er p rogress, T essy felt calmer, more ener getic, and no longer turned to
food for comfort, losing ten pounds simply through the practi ce of quiet,
gentle, reduced breathing.
By prac ticing O xygen Advantage exercises and making impro vements
to your breathing pattern, you will achieve a higher BOL T score and
experience a reduction of your appetite. Listen to your body and observe
what it is telling  you. Get used to responding only to the feeling  of genuine
hunger r ather tha n eating for bor edom or in response to stress or depression.
The next time you feel the ur ge to go to the refrigerator or eat a snack, ask
yourself, “Do I really feel hungry?” By eating only when your body
actually requires  food, you will make the most of your natural suppression
of appetite and f ind losing weight and maintaining a healthy diet achievable
and sim ple. A detailed program  for helping to achieve weight loss


; it‘s real medicine.
 Carolina Stamu, M.D.
A man who is years ahead of his time — laying the foundation for twenty -first century medicine.
Barry Sears, Ph.D. Author of The Zone  and Mastering The Zon e Pioneer in
developing drug delivery sytems for cancer and heart patients.
 11
 DISCLAIMER AND IMPORTANT NOTE TO THE READER
The material in this book is for informational purposes only. The book is not
intended to diagnose or treat medical or physical problems and the author
and publisher are not engaged in rendering medical services or advice. Seek
medical attention whenever needed.
Please be advised that members of the medical profession, including your
doctor, won‘t have any working knowledge about the work of Dr. Revici,
except for the misinformation published by the American Cancer Society and
the like. This situation makes in nearly impossible for your doctor to provide
you with a reliable assessment of the value of the Revici Method. I wrote this
book to correct the horribly inaccurate record that physicians rely on.
In the United States, you have certain rights. If you ar e an adult, your health
choices are yours to make. This includes who you decide to see for your
health care, including cancer care. No treatment will work 100% of the time …
especially the treatments approved by the FDA.
The book is sold without warran ties of any kind, expressed or implied, and
the publisher and author disclaim any liability, loss or damage caused by the
contents of this book. The book is based on information from sources
believed to be reliable, and every effort has been made to mak e the book as
accurate as possible.
It is ultimately you, the reader, who must take full responsibility for your well
being and how you use this book. Please do not substitute my opinion for
your own. Yours is valuable, and your health care decisions a re your call to
make. Sorry, but I cannot answer any questions about anyone’s health
or about the application of the Revici Method.
The author wishes you the very best of health.   12
.
 13
 Acknowledgments
This book would not have been possible were it no t for the help of a great many people who
opened their homes, their hearts and their files to me.
To Vernon Morin  and his wife, Judy, it was your story that led me on this odyssey. Your
willingness to spend so much time with me is gratefully remembered.
To Marcus Cohen, you were the first person I spoke to at Dr. Revici‘s office, and a great help during
the tough early going.
To Alice Ladas, thank you for sharing the many recordings you and your late husband, Professor
Harold Ladas, made and the letter s each of you wrote during Dr. Revici‘s difficult times. Your generous
contribution of time and so much more to Dr. Revici provided a valuable link in this epic saga.
Thank -you also for generously providing me with a copy of your manuscript, Veni, Vidi, Re vici.
To Dr. Dwight McKee  for kindly answering my questions, and for speaking out on Revici‘s behalf
when it was so dangerous professionally to do so.
To Carolyn Gitman, the 90th birthday bash thrower par excellence, thank you for going through
your sto rage material and sending me the variety of material that you did, especially the
meticulously -typed transcripts of radio broadcasts you had recorded.
To Sam Abady, that rare lawyer whose personal kindness exceeds even his prodigious court room
skills, th ank you for making a space for me at your office where I could work for weeks on end. The
after-midnight rides in the executive cars also made getting up the next morning that much easier.
To Richard Jaffe, another great lawyer, who was kind enough to ta ke my calls in the midst of
defending another cancer hero, Stanislaw Burzynski, M.D., thanks for answering my questions and
filling me in on some great details.
To Mircea Panaitescu, a man whose heart fills whatever room he enters, a devoted family man, a nd
the man who makes the medicines, you have the most important job in the world. I‘m sure your
devotion makes the medicines that much better.
To Ruth Spector, a courageous woman who adds life and laughter wherever she goes, your
courageous spirit is a jo y to be around.
To Alex Beau, who rented me a room for three months that turned into a year -and-a-half. Without your
patience, support, and understanding, this book  14
 would not have seen the light of day until the next century at the earliest. You made the 18 months
easy.
To Gary Null, thank you for permitting your staff to go through your old archives and providing me
with a video tape of Dr. Revici when he was a young man of 88.
To Robert Houston, for generously sharing some of the most impressive information in this whole
story.
To Ethel Pratt, the woman who over the years has done more than anyone to save Dr. Revici from
financial ruin, thank you for all the papers you provided m e and for your generosity.
To Dr. Joe Saunders, for spending hours addressing envelopes so that I might be able to get in touch
with some of Revici‘s Washington -area patients.
To Dick Adams, for kindly digging out and handing me about two feet of files.
To Dr. Seymour Brenner  and his wife Phyllis, for graciously opening your home to me and taking
all my calls.
To Dr. A. R. Salman, for your warmth and your time, and for answering my dumbest questions.
To Professor Gerhard Schrauzer, for letting your  love for Dr. Revici and his work overcome your
reluctance to speak on his behalf.
To Dr. Carolina Stamu, the only physician who has ever offered to fix me a cup of coffee during office
hours, thank you for acting as my go -between with Dr. Revici when I was unable to make it to New
York.
To Shirley Cahayom, the sweetest receptionist a doctor could have, thank you for lunch, for the
subway token, and for all your help.
To Gilbert Saltman, for generously sharing your knowledge and insightful ideas.
To Rodika Mihaescu, for all the photocopying etc., etc.
To Emil Hara, for helping Dr. Revici in so many ways that might not be recognized.
To Dr. Emanuel Revici, for opening your office, your home, your non -patient files and your sofa bed.
You might not ha ve invented kindness, but you have probably improved upon it.
To Karen Schechter  of Creedmoor State Hospital, thank you for finding the LaBurt and Revici study
on schizophrenia from 1949 and mailing me a copy.
To all the patients  who took my calls and a nswered my questions, even  15
 though I was a stranger to you, thank you. Although there were far too many stories to
include all of them, it is because of you and future patients like you that this story is
being written.
To the person who asked to remain anonymous, but who helped me with a
lovely grace and elegance, a special thanks to you.  16
 Foreword
Dr. Emanuel Revici treats cancer in a manner unlike any other doctor in the
United States — and probably in the world. He uses his own medicines. Over
the years he has developed over 100 different medications in his own
laboratory. I don‘t know how they work, but I have seen their results.
I am a retired board -certified radiation oncologist.  My practice specialized in
the treatment of cancer with radiation. I have fought at the front lines in the
war against cancer all of my professional life. During my long tenure of
battling cancer for my patients, I gradually became rather frustrated and
unhappy with the little progress that has been made in the treatment of this
disease.
After more than forty years of seeing almost no breakthroughs on the medical
front, it becam e painful seeing my patients every day, knowing that most of
them had very little chance for a cure. On numerous occasions I saw patients
in tears. Just as often I saw wives crying for their husbands, husbands crying
for their wives, and parents crying for their sick children.
My combined Brooklyn and Queens offices handled several hundred
appointments a week during the last ten years of my practice, making it the
largest radiation oncology center in the nation. Highly regarded physicians
whose offi ces were in the shadows of Sloan -Kettering, Columbia University
College of Physicians and Surgeons, and NYU Medical Center sent their
patients to our offices. I was a member of the Cancer and Acute Leukemia
Group ―B‖, which is the largest nationally fun ded cancer research group in the
United States. Our office provided this organization with statistical data
regarding our patients.
My practice produced a personal income for me well into the seven figure
range annually. For four decades our offices w ere technologically state -of
the-art. We repeatedly spent millions of dollars in order to procure the latest
and best radiation and diagnostic equipment available. Despite that outward
success, I am still saddened from having watched so many people of a ll ages
die.
Even with the best possible equipment and a staff


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SECTION IV - USE IN BURNS
 The most common nickname attributed to Aloe Vera is "the burn plant". Again, here we find some good
research but very few modern clinical studies, despite the fact that Aloe Vera is used quite widely in the USA and even in the UK for general burns and post radiotherapy. Of the current workers, Professor J P
Heggars, who is the Head of Research at the Plastic Surgery Department at the University of Galveston,
Texas, is perhaps the most celebrated. His work has never been funded by the Aloe industry, unlike
several other workers, so is truly independent

Ashley, F.L.; O'Laughlin, B.J.; Peterson, R.; Fernandia, L.; Stein, H.; Schwastz, A.N. The use of Aloe
Vera in the treatment of thermal and irradiation burns in laboratory animals and humans. Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery. 1957. 20. 383-396.

Cera, L.M.; Heggers, J.P; Robson, M.C.; Hagsbrern, W.J. The therapeutic efficacy of Aloe Vera
cream dermaide Aloe in thermal injuries 2 cases. J. Am. Anim. Hosp. Assoc. 1980. 16(5). 768-772.

Cera, L.M.; Heggers, J.R; Hagstrom, W.J.; Robson, M.C. Therapeutic protocol for chemically
injured animals and its successful use in an extensively burned rhesus monkey. Journal of the
American Animal Hospital Association. 1982. 18. 633-638.

Collins, C.E., M.D. Aloe Vera as a Therapeutic Agent In the treatment of roentgen and radium burns. The Radiological Review and Chicago Medical Recorder. 1935 June. 5(6).

Collins, C.E.; Collins, C. Roentgen dermatitis treated with fresh whole leaf of Aloe Vera. American
Journal of Reoentgenology. 1935. 33. 396-397.

Crewe, J.E. Aloes in the treatment of burns and scalds. Minnesota Medicine. 1939. 22. 538-539.

Cutak, L. Aloe Vera as a Remedy for Burns. Missouri Botanical Garden Bulletin. 1937. 25. 169-174.

Loveman, A.B. Leaf of Aloe Vera in Treatment of Roentgen Ray Ulcers. Archives of Dermatology and
Syphilology 1937. 36. 838-843.
 Lowenthal, L.J.A. Species of Aloe (Other than Aloe Vera) in the Treatment of Roentgen Dermatitis. The
Journal of Investigative Dermatology 1949. 12. 295-298.

Lushbaugh, C.C.; Hale, D.B. Experimental acute radiodermatitis following beta radiation. V.
histopthological study of the mode of action of therapy with Aloe Vera. Cancer 1953. 6. 690-698.
Mandeville, F.B. Aloe Vera in the treatment of radiation ulcers of mucous membranes. Radiology 1939.
32. 598-599.

Obata, M.; Ibo, S.; Beppu, H.; Fujita, K.; Nagatou, T Mechanism of anti-inflammatory and
antithermal
burn action of CPase from Aloe arborescens Miller var natalensis Berger in rats and mice.
Phytother. Res. 1993. 7. Special issue. 530-533.

Roberts, D.B.; Travis, E.L. Acemannan containing wound dressing gel reduces radiation-induced skin reactions in C3H mice. Int. J. Radiation Oncol. Biol. Phys. 1995. 32(4) 1047-1052.

Rodriguez-Bigas, M.; Cruz, N.I.; Suarez, A. Comparative evaluation of Aloe Vera in the
management of burn wounds in guinea pigs. Plast. Reconstr, Surg. (U.S.) 1988. 81(3). 386-389.
 Rowe, TD. Effect of Fresh Aloe Vera Jelly in the Treatment of ThirdDegree Roentgen Reactions on
White Rats. Journal of the American Pharmaceutical Association. 1940. 29. 348-350.

Rowe, TD.; Lovell, B.K.; Parks, L.M. Further observations on the use of Aloe Vera leaf in the treatment
of third-degree X-ray reactions. J. of the American Pharmaceutical Assoc. 1991. 30. 266-269.

Ship, A.G. Is topical Aloe Vera plant mucus helpful in burn treatment? J. of the American Medical Assoc. 1977. 238. 1770.

Visuthikasol, V.; Chowchwen, N.; Sukwassarab, Y. Effect of Aloe Vera gel to healing of burn wound - a
clinical and histologic study. J. Med. Assoc. Thai. 1993 Aug. 78(8). 703-709.

 Visuthikosol, V.; Sukwanarat, Y.; Chowchuen, B.; Sriurairatana, S.; Boonpucknavig, V. Effect of Aloe
Vera Gel to healing of burn wound a clinical and histologic study. J. Med. Assoc,. Thai. 1995. 78(8).
403409. A21

Williams, M.S.; Bink, M.; Loprimzi, C.L.; et. al. Phase III double-blind evaluation of the Aloe Vera
gel as a prophylactic agent for radiation induced skin toxicity. Int. J. Radiat. Oncol-Biol-Phys. 1996 Sept. 36(2). 345-349.

Wright, C.S. Aloe Vera in the Treatment of Roentgen Ulcers and Telangiectasis. Journal of the American
Medical Association. 1936. 106. 1363-1364.

SECTION V - ANTIDIABETIC EFFECT
 Here we have both animal and human studies, the latter only carried out last year in 1996. These two
trials in 1996 were placebo controlled and showed that the average (mean) blood glucose level of the
patients in the Aloe juice group was significantly reduced from the second week of the study and
continued to fall throughout the treatment period. Whereas, there were no changes reported in the placebo
group.
Some studies on mice have shown that Aloe causes a rapid decrease in blood sugar as does insulin, but,
that the blood glucose level recovers when its administration is discontinued. Beppu et al have
demonstrated that there is a glycoprotein in Aloe with a molecular weight of about 50,000 that is a
component with a quick hypoglycaemic action, but there are thought to be at least two antidiabetic agents because of differing effects seen when using whole leaf as opposed to gel or pulp. The precise nature of
the antidiabetic effect remains unknown. Two animal studies using mice (J.S. Messa 1985) and on rabbits
(Roman Ramos 1991) showed little hypoglycaemic activity.

Ajabmoor, M.A. Effects of Aloes on blood glucose levels in normal and alloxan diabetic mice. J.
Ethnopharmacology. 1990 Feb. 28(2). 215220.

Beppu, H.; Nagamura, Y,; Fujita, K. Hypoglycaemic and anti-diabetic effects of Aloe arborescens Miller
var. natalensis Berger. International Congress of Phytotherapy. 1991 Oct. Seoul, Korea. 44.

Beppu, H.; Nagamura, Y; Fujita, K. Hypoglycaemic and anti-diabetic effects in mice of Aloe
arborescens Miller var. natalensis Berger. Phytotherapy Research 1993. 7. No special issue. 837-
842.

Davis, R.H.; Leitner, M.G.; Russo, J.M. Aloe Vera (A barbadensis). A natural approach for treating wounds, edema, and pain in diabetes. J. Am. Podiatric Med. Assoc. 1988. 78(2). 60-68.

Davis, R.H.; Marc, N.P Aloe Vera and gibberellin. Anti-inflammatory activity in diabetes. J. Am.
Podiatric Med. Assoc. 1989 Jan. 79 (1). 2426.

Koo, MWL Aloe Vera: anti-ulcer and anti-diabetic effects. Phytother Res. 1994. 8(8). 461-464.

Messa, J.S. A study of the crude antidiabetic drugs used in Arabian folk medicine. International Journal of
Crude Drug Research. 1985. 23(3). 137-145.

 Messa, J.S. A study on the crude antidiabetic drugs used in Arabian folk medicine. Int. J. Crude Drug
Res. 1985. 23(3). 137-145. A24

Roman Ramos, R.; Flores Saenz, J.L.; Partida Hermandez, G.; Larca Lemus, A.; Alarcom Aguilar, F.
Experimental study of the hypog


 that it isn’ t working. There is really only one
sure way to make your relationships work, and that is to recognize each
other ’s right to be separate, unique human beings without any ‘ownership’
expectations from each other. I have observed that the relationships in
which this simple principle was respected by both people flourished. In
relationships that ignored it, I noted constant haranguing, endless dull
conversations, and ultimately a breakup. Relationships do not require work,
they cry for and demand nothing more than mutual respect.
“This is my way: What is your way? The way doesn’ t exist.  Another of
your famous philosophers gave you this secret, which is almost universally
ignored. V irtually everyone in a position of authority for gets this simple
little secret. If you would stop trying to impose your way on others, and
begin listening to what they might of fer as alternatives, you could eliminate
all your battles, from family fights to world wars. More listening and less
demanding would eliminate the need to be right. Y our separate beliefs that
there is only one right way  is, of course, an error, since there is no ‘right’
way. Once you stop trying to prove that you’re right, you will eliminate the
reactions that your wrong thinking engenders. A corollary of this secret is
that nobody likes being told what to do.  When you tell a child, a co-worker,
a spouse, or a stranger what to do, that other person will almost always
rebel and do something to the contrary. You all see this, yet you still
continue telling,  even though it rarely works. Being told what to do violates
one’s free will. It is an insult to the free thinking that is such a vital part of
your reality. Stop trying to show people the right way, and begin asking
about their way. You might just learn something, and you’ll be helping to
eliminate the hostility that always accompanies being told what to do.
“You get tr eated in life the way you teach people to tr eat you.  You have
no reason to blame anyone for how you are treated, and yet most of you
think that the problems you face and the treatment you receive is the result
of other people’ s lack of consideration. Y ou have the inherent power to
teach anyone how you want to be treated. When you simply sit back and
accept being abused, you are responsible for permitting that abuse to be
heaped on you. This is one of the ‘secrets’ because most of you seem to feel
that other people cause your problems, hurt your feelings. I’ve noted that
those people who refuse to be abused, insist on respectful treatment, andreact swiftly and firmly when they are mistreated receive the respect that so
many ‘blamers’ never see in their lives. Again, self-responsibility for all of
your life experiences, rather than blame, is the key to a full, happy life.
Teach those around you through behavior, not empty ar guments, that you
will tolerate nothing less than respect. This is never dif ficult for those who
have self-respect, since a person with high self-esteem expects the same
kind of treatment from others that they expect of themselves. Respect
yourself, and you’ll receive respect. If you receive disrespect, look to
yourself and ask that most important question, ‘Why have I allowed myself
to be treated this way?’ instead of, ‘Why are they doing this to me again?’
“Wher ever I go, ther e I am!  You cannot escape yourself. On Earth you
cannot run away to a distant place and solve your problems. The cause of
your dif ficulties is within yourself. You must get you  straightened out first,
then it won’ t matter where you are. I’ve seen people take refuge in liquor
but they still have to face themselves. I’ve seen people try to escape
problems in exotic vacation lands, and still the problems persist. Y ou can
change marriage partners and repeat the same patterns of ownership and
mutual disrespect. Y ou Earthlings fail to see your problems as internal.
Thus you make every attempt to run away from them. But it never works.
Thus I include this in the itemization of ‘secrets.’ Y ou just don’ t seem to be
aware of your inability to run away from dif ficulties and problems.
Anything that bothers you is a problem only within. Y our world doesn’ t
care about it, nor do the people in it. Only you experience it and only you
can correct it. Running away only provides you with a new setting to
experience the same old inner churning. On Earth, ‘Wherever I go, there I
am’ is indeed worth remembering.
“Keep it simple.  You want to make life complicated. Y ou endorse big
fancy words that no one understands over simple language and call it
intelligence. Y ou use mumbo-jumbo in your legal systems, your contracts,
insurance policies, tax laws, mortgages, and on and on. Then you hire
‘experts’ to wade through the mazes you’ve created. In religion, philosophy,
psychology, medicine, law, education, economics, and almost every form of
human enterprise, you attempt to keep things complicated and somehow
maintain that simplicity means simple-minded. Y et your best writers,
composers, artists, and educators are those who use clear, precise language
and style to convey their meaning.“None of you wants anything you touch to be fuzzy and complicated, yet
all of you seem to strive for more befuddlement as a way of showing that
you have arrived at a higher plateau than your neighbors. Y ou give status to
those whom you can’ t understand, believing them to be more intelligent
because they are more confusing. Keep it simple! This simple advice will
help you to enjoy your lives. Y ou humans are not really that complex, and
enjoying life is quite a simple matter, if you eliminate the confusion and just
do it. The more obtuse you make your language, the more confusing you
make your policies, the more you lose sight of the simple beauty of being
alive. If you want to accomplish anything on Earth, the best advice is to do
it, as opposed to making it a hugely dif ficult mental process.
“These ar e the good old days. So many of you are tied up in the senseless
frenzy of pursuing the future and reliving the past. Y our thinking becomes
so clouded that it erodes the present moment, which is all you have on
Earth. Now seems to be scorned in favor of planning. Y ou reward
‘futurizing’—planning ahead, saving for your old age, and postponement of
gratification—while punishing those who live fully with such labels as
irresponsible and hedonistic. Y ou are constantly in the unreal position of
never living fully today. I say unreal because it is impossible for you here to
live in any moment other than this one, yet you elect to expend your present
moments futurizing and reliving, while deluding yourselves into thinking
this is really happening. Now is it!  You have no rewind and no fast-forward
on Earth. When you begin to use up your present moments living them,
instead of reliving or planning for a future moment in which you can relive
them, you will have a hold on living in the only possibility that your reality
allows, NOW.
“You ar e perfect.  For some reason you’ve chosen to believe that
perfection is anathema in people, and consequently you are doomed to a
lifetime of striving for something you can never attain. Y ou’ve confused
being perfect with being flawless, and cannot see the perfection of
yourselves as constantly changing beings. Y ou feel that it is somehow
imperfect to be perfect. Most of you know that all of nature is perfect. Y our
roses and sunsets are perfect. Y ou allow for your pets, trees, and mountain
ranges to be perfect, and yet when it comes to your most magnificent
creations—your people—your assignment for them is to be perpetually
striving, but never arriving. Y ou’re perfect! Of course you are ever
changing. Certainly you can grow and evolve. But you are still perfectcreations who can be fulfilled only when you stop seeing yourselves as
always having to deny your full perfection. Y our lives are never finished
and completed the way you think they ought to be. When you die, you all
have half-empty bottles of shampoo, and some canned food left in the
cupboard. Y ou are given a limited amount of time to live, and while you are
doing it, you might like to know that everything on your planet that is
natural is also perfect. Y our life is here for a while. It constantly changes
shape, form, and even substance, and all of it is perfect even if you decide
to call it by another name, such as imperfect.
“There is no way to happiness: happiness is the way!  This is the message
of all my gifts. If you haven’ t figured out this secret, happiness will always
elude you.
“These are my so-called secrets,” Eykis said. “Use them as you see fit.
They are based on firsthand observations by an outsider—a unique outsider,
in that I must operate from a ‘what-is’ reality. You all have such an
advantage here on Earth: Y our reality permits you to live in total harmony
with your world. Y et up to now you’ve chosen


 introduction, the structure of such a
circuit will next be described.
l. Structure of the vascular-interstitial
closed circuit (VICC)
The principle of electric communicat ions over bron
chial arteries and interstitial fluid between a necrotiz
ing lung tumour and adjacent lung is surveyed in Fig.
XII: 9. It is understood that similar circuits also exist
over bronchial veins, pulmonary arteries and veins and
lymphatic vessels. The anticipated regions for ionic
diffusion and redox transfer of electric charges are not
indicated.
The bronchial arteries are of particular interest in right bronchial artery. Radiographic contrast fills numerous
pathological vessels in the tumour as well as vessels supply
ing blood ro tissues surrounding the tumour.
the lung because they are nutritional vessels in bron·
chogenic carcinomas.
The distribution of the bronchial arteries can be
studied by techniques developed by the author for
infusing the bronchial arteries in dogs (42, 43) and
man (44). Fig. XII: 10 iUustrates a right bronchial
arteriogram in a patient with a poorly differentiated
squamous cell carcinoma of the right upper lobe. The
right bronchial artery supplies numerous pathological
vessels to the tumour. As the cancer grows, it may
erode· or thrombose the bronchial arterial branches
which supply it, thereby causing local haemorrhage or
necl'O$iS. Usually the centre of a tumour is most sub·
jeer to such dystrophic changes.
Thoe living cells at the periphery of a tumour act as a
"semipermr.able" sieve or barrier between the sur
roundings and central necrosis in the mmour. This
properry may at first inspection not be quite obvious.
A prerequisite for continued life of any normal or
path<>logical tissue is a functioning intercellular system
of communicating channels for water, electrolytes, nu-
Biologically closed electric circuits 123 trients and wastes. The actual distance between cell
surfaces in normal tissue bas been estimated between
10 to 20 A (3) or 100 to 200 A, according to evidence
from electron micrographs (15). The tissue matrix can
therefore be considered as a kind of sieve.
Many neoplasms make a tissue firmer and denser
than surrounding normal tissue. The sieve function of
the individual interstitial channels of such tumours
will therefore be increased compared to the channels in
the surrounding normal tissue. Hence, the network of
interstitial channels in a tumour potentially constitutes
a relative barrier to interstitial flow, i.e., a "tumour
barrier".
On both sides of a tumour barrier nonpermeab le
bodies may be found, i.e., macromolecules, cellular
debris and fragments, and whole cells such as individ·
ual erythrocytes, leukocytes, thrombocytes, macro·
phages and tumour cells. Such units usually carry net
electric charges. Consequently they will be transported
electrophoretically in a closed circuit. Many such bio·
logical units may then be too large to pass through the
intercellular spaces of an organized tissue. In this sense
the intercellu lar sieve of a tumour acts as a barrier
where material can be adsorbed or trapped by cJjffu·
sion and closed electric transports.
2. Resistivity of tissue and body fluids
The conductances of different tissues have been deter·
mined by a number of investigators (19-21, 32, 55, 62,
63). It has long been known that living cells become
polarized by electric fields, as is the case with dielec·
tric materials. This property gives cells low resistance
for high frequency currents and increasing ly high re·
sistance as frequency decreases. It also means in gener·
al that cells possess high resistance for DC currents.
The impedances of organ tissues have been deter·
mined in vivo by Schwan and Kay (64) to be too small
to influence significantly common ecg tracings. In
studies of impedance of various human tissue exposed
to low frequency alternating currents (Table XII: 3),
they found the following values for specific resistance
(=resistivity) in situ:
Table XII: 3. Resistivity of cissues, according w Schwan and
Kay
Resistivity
Qm IOcps IOOcps I 000 cps 10 000 Cp$
Lung tl.20 10.90 10.40 9.So
Muscle 9.6S 8.80 8.30 7.60
Liver 8.40 8.00 7.6S 6.8S
Heart muscle 9.6S 9.2S 8.4S
Fatty tissue IS.OO-SO.OO
124 Biologically closed electric circuits Table XII: 4. Rerisriviry of rissue and body fluids, actO!'ding ro
Kaufman and Jolmrron (Qm)
Resistivity Resistivity
pre-bioi. post-bioi.
Specimen caJjbr. caJjbr.
Lung. inspir;ujon 7.66 7.44
Lung, supcrinflation 13.67
Lung, deOation 4.01
Muscle 7.11 S.7S
Liver 6.72 S.06
Hcan 2.24 2.07
Pericardium 4.34 4.0S
Foot 2l.OS 18.08
Serum 1.78 0.98
Blood 2.30 I. 7S
The average resistivity of these tissues, about 10
obm-m, may be compared with the resistivity of blood
of only about one ohm-m, according to Schwan and
Kay (64).
Measurements of tissue resistivity have often yield·
ed widely ranging results, which Kaufman and John·
ston have ascribed to great technical difficulties en·
countered in attempting to obtain such measuremen ts
in living tissues (32). They obtained the following
average values for resistivity of human tissues (Table
XII: 4), using pulses of 500 to 10 000 Hz. Note that the
values of resistivity decreased ("post-bioi. calibr. ") at
the end of the experiments.
Most determinations of resistivity in tissues have
been made in vitro, a few in vivo. Galeotti noted
difference s before and after death (21) and Crile, eta!.,
found that the resistivity of all measured tissues de
creased with time after removal from the body (14).
Resistivity of walls of blood vessel, in the experi·
mcnts shortly to be described (see Section 3, page
125), was shown to require in vivo conditions as well
as great care to avoid damage to the vessel walls and to
the vasa vasorum (otherwise, wall resistance rapidly
decreased ). Geddes and Baker have reviewed the elec
tric properties of tissues (22). From this report, certain
figures of tissue resistivity will be cited.
The resistivity of dog cardiac muscle has been found
to differ by a ratio of 2.2 to I when measured parallel
and transverse to the direction of the fibres (58). At
average body temperature, low frequency resistivity
for random orientation in canine cardiac muscle was
estimated to be 7.5 obm-m. In studies of sk$letal mus·
cles, the resistivities along and across the fibres also
showed large differences.
In the lung, determinations of resistivity have been
made in vivo by many authors (14, 21, 32, 34, 58).
During maximum inspiration and expiration, the re·
sistivity of lung tissue in the dog varied between 21.70
and 4.01 ohm-m (average mean, 12.75). The resistivity of human kidney is about I ohm·m
and for other mammals about 3.7 ohm-m (21, 28, 34,
45).
The liver shows at "low frequencies" and at body
temperature a variable range of resistivity (5.9-1 1.0
ohm·m), average 8.2 ohm·m (28, 45, 58, 62).
Nerve rissue fibres show notable differences between
transverse and longitudinal resistivities in cow, pig and
rabbit brain (51).
Human adipcse cissue shows resistivity values of 27.3
ohm-m at 200-900 MHz, and values of 28.80 ohm-m
at low frequencies in canine fat (28, 58, 62).
Bone shows high resistivity. Hemingway and
McLendon found a resistivity of 18.0 ohm·m in hu·
man bone (28) and Osswald average values between
37.0 and 62.0 ohm·m in cow and pig (45).
Differenc body fluids such as cerebrosp inal fluid, bile,
amniotic fluid and urine all contain electrolytes and
have therefore considerab


bulk ener@:)' lll
field ll8
healing reactions ill
ionizing effects ill
types of cancers ill
Biops-y cannulas 20.5.
Biplane Ouoroscop ic unit 13. 274
Biplane televised nuoroscopy 22.1
Bipolar electrodes in the brain Zn!
Rirefrine.-nt
fibres ill
files ll8
material 181.259
membrane ~
Bleaching
by chlorine gas ill
oflitmus U8
Bleedings or infection 198, 228
Blocking of arterial branches l.2.l
Blood
degradarion of Zll
diffusion potential in autolysis Zl.
spontaneous changes of pH 1J.
Blood cells 1M
Blood circulation 282 Blood plasma WI
"Blood vessels", produced Z26
Bohr effect Jj{>
Bolt:cmann factor I.QQ.
Bonds of connective tissue 212
Bone formation 259.270
Bone healing as a reaction lOa new injury
2Zl1
"Bone rtSOrption., lll
Border effect 1.6
Boundary phenomena zru.
Boundary potentials 122
BradyiUnin 1.20
Brain, '"A'' zone ill
Brc:ast carcinoma ~ 211
metastatic to lung n,,u
Bronchia l arteriogram W
Brownian movements of water molecules
BZ.ill
Buffering
by fluids ill
of the tissue fluids ill
Buffering capacity ~ 294.1ZQ
of tissue fluids!.1L.ill
Bulk change of free energy ~
"Bushes'" of birefringent material 266.
Bush·Likc structures ilt,lli
"B"zone l0.~.25,~~ 9~J0l. ~
UQ. t 42'!i!.!12.. ~ lli., ~ ill.
214,125.227.229
c
Calcifications in son tissues 260.
c.lcino,i• reparativa l§2. ill
Cak.iolytic phase U1
after bone injury W
Calcium in injured tissue 321
Callus, formed du11ing an acid in.iury phase
ill
Cancer cells, surphts offlXed charges 2.&2
Cancer developing progressive injuries
lli
Cancer feet ill
Cancer o( the breast 2m.
Cancers occasionally heal spon1aneously
272.lli
Cancers, suitable fo0r DC treaunem ill
Capillarity 164. 321
Capil lary~
basement me,mbranes as product of
redox reactions 141. 322
flow lli
force in lymph spaces 26.
membranes!.1,L ill
of rat cardiac muscle 1.!2
permeability ~ ~ ~ 2Q!J
thromboses 215. 21J
CarOOn panjcles CO\'ered with dextran 28.
Carboxyl groups 26!t
Carcinogenesis M2: l21
Carcinogcnetic factor ~ ~ lll
Carcino1na
l•rgccell 1.2
oat <ell 2.J
of b...,.S< 16. 2(16, 277
squamous cell 2.1
Cardiac arrhythmias ZM
Cardiac pacemaker ~!.ZL llL ill
Cardiac standstill!.QL.lli
Cardiorespiratory function tests ill
Cascade reactions ill
in injury 286
Catabolic acidity 7~73. l!2., ill
Cat.abolic energy in local injury ~ ZQ:1l..
115-119, 31S-323 Catabolic process o( injury I.2&::Z2l
Catalytic systems 1.60.
Catalyzing action of material 1~
Cathaemoglobin ll!ll
Cathode for DC treatme-nt 282:2..21
Cathodic
fat "cells" ~
fibrosis ill
fibrous strand 2!8
fibrous tissue ~ 2.1&
type of fibrotic tissue ill
Cathodic abdom.i.nal fat 2li
Cathodic alkalin.ity 16l-172,!lZ.. Z.W
Cathodic and anodic membranes lli
Cathodic core &....lli
Cathodic core• and anodic rod• ;tll
Cationic
accumula tion U
electroosmos is 81
haemin in acid solution l&a
Cavitation Z2Z
Cavities containing gas 2.29.
Cell walls with r:adiating structures 1!1
Cells
of epitheliaJ type ill
of variable a hili lies to survive l21
sensith•e to heat ill
Cellular d<Jith ill
Cellular debris ZQQ
Cellular surfa<."t" charges ~ 26j
Cerebrospinal flOiid 149, 319
Change
of biologic environment lO.Z
qf jqn_i~ Wffi99$ition lQ2
of polarity ill
Channelizing media 11iO
Channels
ductal 8
in ti.ssue ill
of reaction 1.j,8
primitive type of 8
\rascular 8
Characteristics of tissue matrix lll
Charge
separation 200.
transfer by enzyme molecules ill
transport in corrosion W
Charged compounds, electrophoretic accu-
mul:ujon of ill
Charged cytostatic compound 3.15
Charged groups on celJs ~ 26!1
Charging of tissue ~ ~ 2.8..1.:.ll6.
Chemical activity l.S6
Chemical analyses of fat and water
2l!:2ll
Chemical con<:eatration fofC'CS 75-77.
9l-i04, tOS-111. 1.22
Chemicalsignals 1.20.
Chemotactic accumulation
leukocytes ~187-191.~~~
271,294, 3ll.12l
movemen t 2ll.l
properties ill
Chemotaxis, see chemotactic accumula tion
Chlorine a1 the anode ill
Chromosomal ruptures 2.8.1
Chronic dfects of direct current 1.25
Chronic inflamma tion ill
Chronic mastiti5 2ll
Cicatricial changes ill
Cineradjograph)'!l8
Circuits other than VICC 3.19.
Circular disp la~ment of stru-ccurts 6, 25,
ll. 21.!12,!lZ.. ~Q!U!l.L ~U.li.
224, 225, 266. 325 Circular structures, see circular displace
ment o( structures
Circ:ulation of blood and lymph Ill
Circulatory disturbances by thrombos is
2£l
"Citrus frujt" 22.6.
C1osed circuit release of elecrric energy
ill
Closure of endothelial pores ill
Cloudy swelling 2&3
Clusters
bmlting of 1!2
of molecules lil
of water mo.lecules &1
Coagulation necrosis!..lQ....lli
Coagulation of blood ill
Coincidence of necroiis and malignancy
lli
Coinciding ini ury reactions ill
Collagen 201,212
Collections of.ions opera ling BCEC ill
"Collision diame1e-r" Zb12.
"Complicated corrosion" Ll6
Complications 2&0
Components of circulatory S)'Stem of
BCEC Ul
Compositi on, stainless stet-1 ll.J
O,mpress.ion
in mammograph)' of the breast ~ill
of vessels 22:!
Compute,rized tomography ~ 291. 222.
differences o( attenuation ill
of radiolucent zone l5
Concentration. forces Z2::IZ.. 21. I zo, W
influence of W
production <J{ radiating structures UU
Concept of ergon 112.
Conclusions about treatments ill
Conductances l6.J
of different tissues l.lj
Conducting fluids ill
Conducting imerstitia J flujd ill
Conducting iMravascu lar plasma U2
Conduction of elec'(fons in enzyme parti·
des ill
Conductivity ill
change of in "A.. zone M
in fat-water mixture 2..1.6.
of supporting electrolytes 152.
of tissue 22!
Conductor of electrons ill
C...onseque nces of BCEC systems ll2
Contact adsorptjon lill.
Contaminatioa from C01 ~
Conte-nt of free energy 156-172 323
Contraction
by c.oncentntion for~s l.!l9.
of arterial capillaries 294. 322
of fibrous tCssue 22&:2.12
Contrast enhancement


up  of Light,"  the Heart  Focus  for the
Earth;  you  who  are ready  to give  attention  and  obedience
to Life,  must  be those  thru  whom  This  Light  first  expands!
Its Radiance  pouring  forth  in your  Calls,  touches  the feel-
ing world  and  activity  of others  of mankind.
It would  be almost  incredible,  if I were  to state  to you
mathematically,  the Power  with  which  This  "I AM"  In-
struction  does  reach  mankind.  I mean  by that,  the power
of the  momentum  which  you  have  gained  within  This
Class,  especially.  When  you  set ponderous  machinery  into
action—for  instance,  in your  electric  plants  for generat-
ing the power,  for heating,  lighting  and  all electrical  ac-
tivity,  you  must  have  things  in order.  If something  is out
of order,  then  the entire  activity  is held  in abeyance;  until
it is put  into  order,  so the whole  may  go forth  in BAL-
ANCED  ACTIVITY.
While  you  are in somewhat  of a similar  position,  Life
will not  permit  you,  who  are ready  to give  obedience,  to
longer  be held  back  by others  who  might  not give  the obedi-
ence.  Therefore,  I am more  than  delighted  today,  to call
your  attention  to these  facts;  because  in the mass  raising
activity,  it would  largely  depend  on the  combined  Har-DISCOURSE  XXIII  389
mony  and  Obcdience.  Since  Life  has  made  this  slight
change,  I am grateful  those  who  can,  may  go forward  now,
and the others  follow  later,  if necessary.
Today,  in accepting  the Vast  Power  and  Freedom,  thru
the Dispensation  for your  Ascension,  I ask  you,  Beloved
Ones;  please  do not look  upon  this  idly.  Do not think  it is
just someone's  imagination.  It is a Reality,  and  remember,
those  who  accept  Our  Assistance  and  do enter  into  the
Ascension,  will  never  in eternity  return  to this dense  sphere
of Earth!  They  will  function  forever  in their  Purified,  Per-
fected  Bodies,  as We are doing  today!
Think  of it! This  is not said  to make  you  feel bad;  but to
make  you  feel charged,  with  the Current  of Energy  which
is contained  in My  Words!  Some  of you  were  with  Me at
the time  so long  ago,  when  I went  forward  and  you  chose  to
give your  attention  to the things  of the world.  Now,  once
again,  We  meet  to go forward  together!
The Greatest,  Mightiest  of all the Power  of Understand-
ing, is this  one  point!  Think,  thru  so many  hundreds  of
centuries,  you  have  played  with  the  things  of the  outer
world!  In My choice  to go forward,  in the Perfection  which
was Ours  then,  I have  gone  on into  This  Great  Glorious
Dominion  and  Authority  over  Life!  It makes  it possible  for
Me to now  give  you  Our  Assistance  today.  Please  see what
Almighty  Progress  has  been  made,  since  those  Children
came  to Chananda's  Home  in India  with  your  Messenger.
Think  of it!
There  were  a few who  received  That  Great  Blessing.  To-390 THE  "I AM99  DISCOURSES
day, thousands  and  thousands  within  your  America,  are
being  prepared  for a similar  thing.  Do you  not see what
your  Calls  and  what  Saint  Germain  has meant  to the world,
in bringing  forth  This  Understanding  of Life,  which  has
made  all of this  possible?  Do you  think  for one  minute,
if you  had not made  the earnest  sincere  Call  to the Presence
df Life,  your  "Mighty  I AM  Presence"  and  to Us,  these
Things  could  have  been  done ? It would  have  been  impos-
sible,  because  you  would  not  have  made  the  necessary
preparation!  While  you  do not know  all you  are doing  in
the outer  activity  of your  Life,  I say the preparation  is there!
Otherwise,  I would  not be here  today,  giving  you  This  Op-
portunity  and  rendering  This  Service,  which  you  could
scarcely  estimate!  The  fact  is, it is being  done,  which  shows
you have  given  the obedience  and  made  preparation  for It!
In your  Full  Acceptance  and  in not allowing  your  mind
or feeling  to waver,  by the suggestions  of someone's  un-
belief;  you  will  hold  steady  in Our  Mighty  Blessing  and
Service  which  is offered  you;  to go forward  continuously  in
Its Mighty  Expansion.
THOUSANDS  AMONG  THE  STUDENTS,  WHO
WOULD  OTHERWISE  PASS  THRU  THE  CHANGE
CALLED  DEATH  WITHIN  FIVE  YEARS,  WILL
ASCEND  INTO  THEIR  ETERNAL  FREEDOM.  I
SAY  TO  ALL  OF  YOU  WHO  COME  TO  THE
POINT  WHERE  YOU  WOULD  PASS  THRU  THE
CHANGE;  SAY  TO YOUR  PEOPLE  AND  GIVE  THE
FIRM  COMMAND:  "THAT  YOUR  BODIES  OR  THE DISCOURSE  XXIII  391
SHELL  WHICH  REMAINS  VISIBLE  OF  YOUR
BODY,  REMAIN  ON  ICE  FOR  THREE  DAYS,  THEN
BE CREMATED;  AND  THAT  NO  ONE  TOUCH
THOSE  BODIES  FOR  EMBALMING."
Already  in three  different  instances,  those,  who  have
made  the change  which  others  not understanding  thought
was so-called  death,  have  made  the Ascension.  In each  in-
stance,  there  has  not been  one  particle  of Life  remaining
in the cells  or structure  of the flesh  that  remained  behind;
which  is physical  evidence  of the Truth,  they  have  made
the Ascension.
There  are quite  a number  who  will  make  that  change
within  a few  months;  but  if you  will  follow  This  Instruc-
tion,  you  will  enable  the Full  Complete  Activity  to take
place  which  is required.  Since  today,  your  progress  has pre-
pared  you  very  efficiently  for this,  it can easily  and  readily
be done.
Could  you  see the Forces  and  Power  which  are  being
drawn  from  what  you  term  Nature,  from  within  the chem-
ical elements  and  within  the  surface  of the  Earth;  you
would  see one  of the Greatest  Spectacles  ever  witnessed  on
This  Earth.  There  may  be places  in the  United  States
where  It will  become  visible  to the physical  sight,  although
I cannot  definitely  assure  you  of that  at the moment!
You,  perhaps,  have  not thought  of it so very  seriously,  but
when  the God  of Nature  and  the God  of Gold,  were  called
forth  to render  Their  Service  to the Earth  and  to mankind,
you have  no idea  how  It has released  the Intelligence,  the 392 THE  "I AM99  DISCOURSES
Power  and  the  Forces  of the  Four  Elements—earth,  air,
fire and  water!  You  former  occult  students  may  know
something  about  that,  not so very  much;  but however  there
is an Almighty  Truth  in


ensuing seizure, but neither of them knew if this was actually helpful. After
a grand mal seizure, she would sleep for two days, and during the following
weeks, she would have hundred s of very intense partial compl ex seizures,
like aftershocks with diminishing frequency. Her concentration and memory
were badly af fected. She could get lost driving around her own small town.
A brain scan found no physical cause for Nicky’ s seizures. She felt like
a zombi e due to the side effects of her medication, and she was told that she
was at risk of going into “status.” This is where seizure after seizure occurs
until the heart fails. Her neurologist said that her seizures had to be fully
controlled, and she was prescribed Lamotrigine. On it, she had no more
seizures, but she still had regular episodes of nighttime hyperventilation.
Then in 2016, Nicky took part in a breathing course. She had decided to
attend the instructor training, alongside the group course, to try to fix her
husband’ s chron ic snoring. At the start of the course, her BOL T score was
just 8 seconds, and she breathed at 20 breaths per minute during rest. Her
breathing was irregular, audible, and 50% through the mouth. Her blood
CO2 levels were between 26 mmHg and 32 mmHg, while a reading of
between 35 mmHg and 40 mmHg is considered normal.
As the week of training progressed, she experienced a high level of
stress. She was frustrated that none of her healthcare providers had
identified the link between her breathing dysfunction and many of her
health problems. She had, for example, suffered severe postnata l depression
with both of her children, after births that were out of control and full of
fear and pain. The course also triggered an incredibly strong cleansing
reaction and a mounting concern over her seizure threshold.
The breathing course had opened Nicky’ s eyes to the fact that her
breathing was incredibly unhea lthy. But it also became appar ent that she
should have learned much more slowly how to breathe functionally. She
should not have been in a group course at all, given the extent of her
hyperventilation and epilepsy, combined with her perfectionist tendencies.
Instead, her training should have begun with awareness, then suppressingsighs, then full time nasal breathing, and moved slowly on to posture and
diaphragm breathing. Only once her BOL T score was about 20 seconds
should she have begun practicing with air hunger.
After the course, it took Nicky two distressing weeks to be able to
breathe without trying to control every breath. She had resolved to stop
breathing in the old way immediately but couldn’ t work out how to breathe
functionally. She tried to implem ent everything she had learned at once. As
a result, she found herself on the edge of a panic attack most of the time.
She experienced the following problems:
• She started using her diaphragm properly and it ached constantly, making it
impossible to switch her focus away from her breathing.
• She changed her posture overnight and again experienced pain. Sitting was
uncomfortable, and she preferred to stand.
• She stopped sighing and tried to breathe through her nose at all times. She tried to
retrain her breathing while speaking and began to lose weight because she didn’t
like the ef fect eating had on her breathing.
• She tried to do the breathing exercises as taught but the reduced breathing
destabilized her respiration.
• She experimented with her breathing, counted her breaths, and tried all sorts of
things to no avail. By lying down and reducing her breathing she could get her
breathing rate down to four or five breaths per minute, which felt good. When she
stopped the practice, her breathing became rapid again. She wondered whether
going from one state to the other was dangerous.
By now, she had become very concerned about her seizure threshold.
Her husband had to go away for a night, and she was terrified to go to sleep
without him there to wake her if her breathing changed. During the day, she
was so focused trying to work out how to breathe that she could barely do
anything else.
Her breathing instructor advised her to ease up, stop taking her pulse,
stop practicing breath holds and counting her breaths, and just breathe
softly and gently through the nose, one step at a time. She finally had a
breakthrough when, one morning, in desperation and with a panic attack
imminent, she began to read the chapter Nine Healthy Breathing Habits in
Five Days, from Tess Graham’ s book Relief from Snoring and Sleep
Apnea.100 The instruction s in the book enabled Nicky to finally let go of
control and start to breathe easily again.Four months later, the improvements in Nicky’ s health were
extraordinary. She lost six kilos as her metabolism stabilized, and she didn’ t
need to drink so much water. The hyperexcitability and asynchronous firing
of brain neurons that, at times, caused her to be overreactive, emotional,
fragile, hostile, irrational, anxious, and fast, which she thought were part of
her personality, vanished. Raising her CO2 levels led to a much calmer
outlook. Her memory and cognitive function improved. She taped her
mouth every night, and her sleep quality became so good that she needed
less sleep, no longer needing  to go to the toilet during the night or
experiencing nightmares. Exerc ise no longer left her feeling exhausted or
achy, and her capacity for exercise increased.
However, her BOL T score was still only 16 seconds, and her lack of
progress was frustrating. She wanted to achieve the level of super health
that she knew was available with a BOL T score over 40. To teach, she also
needed to improve her BOL T score. She had the time, energy, motivation,
and commitment to do the work, but her breathing instructor ’s advice was
just to relax and not focus on her BOL T score.
At this point, her breathwork consisted of daily yoga or a walk, during
which she reduced her breathing, and one or two meditation sessions where
she lay on her back and practiced reduced breathing. She was still unable to
do the reduced breathing exercis e as it was taught to her. Two or three times
a week, she had bad breathing days when her head and sinuses would feel
constricted, and she would be less able to focus.
She developed tension in her neck and shoulders. Her instructor
suggested that she try the Himalayan rock salt drink (a quarter teaspoon of
rock salt in warm  water three times a day) and see what happened. This had
been suggested in the course, but she had overlooked it. She took the drink
twice that day and has been taking it ever since. The tensi on problem
resolved immediately, and it has not returned.
In September 2016, without consulting her doctor or specialist, Nicky
started to come off Lamotrigine  at a rate of 25 mg every few weeks. This
process took five months. She felt safe reducing the dose as she considered
the recurrence of some complex  partial seizures to be a warning system that
would let her know the epilepsy was still there. She also felt that as long asher mouth was taped at night, she wasn’ t likely to hyperventilate enough to
bring on a grand mal seizure.
From her research, she unders tood that her BOL T score should be
around 35 befor e epilepsy would be controlled, but she decided to go ahead
and reduce the drug anyway. Everything was fine until she got down to 25
mg per day (down from six pills per day to one), and then her nervous
system reacted. Her nervous excitation and feelings of irritability returned,
and she struggled to get any work done. Her capacity for exercise reduced
again. She lost confidence in the future and in her breathing practice, and
she was nervous  about having come off her medication with a BOL T score
of only 16.
Nicky realized that with such a low BOL T score, her breathing was still
too unstable for her epilepsy to be under good control. She need ed to make
some progress, and it seemed that by practicing strong breath holds she
might achieve this, but her breathing coach had told her not to practice
breath holds at all. She had also been warned that the intense detoxification
caused by strong breath holds could induce exacerbations of disease, which
in her case meant grand mal seizures.
She was confused and frustrated. However, she persisted in seeking help
and working to understand her breathing. She also consulted physical
therapists and began to release long-standing physical tensions and
imbalances.
Fast-forward to 2019, and Nick y noticed that, despite all the changes
she had made, speaking still left her feeling exhausted. She experienced
tension in her abdomen when she spoke for long periods, and she found
herself cancelling social engage ments due to a sense that she didn’ t have
enough breath to go out and talk for the evening. She also had a phobia of
public speaking.
Nicky’ s ambition was still to become a breathing educator, but she
wasn’ t sure how this would work. She consulted speech therapist Hadas
Golan, who identified the problem: Nicky was speaking for too long
without taking a breath, exhaling  too much


 by the allopathic physicians in the medical corps. Histories of hundreds of
cases were "written up" by physicians who followed up the results of immunization in
the service. It showed plainly that the inoculations and  vaccinations were responsible for
the tremendous number of men and women who, soon after being inoculated, had to be
discharged as psycho-neurotics. Thousands of these are now filling the mental
institutions and few of them will ever again be restored to normal.
"One of the effects of the  poisons injected  into the blood to "prevent" (?) disease is that
it weakens the nervous system  and gradually breaks down the nerve centers in the
brain. The end result of this is insanity...
"Within a day or so after being admitted to the mental institution, the patient is taken to
the room set aside for the purpose and given three or more "shots." It matters not
whether they have been recently vaccinated or not, they are again given a smallpox
vaccination, then whatever serums they happen to have on hand. Thereafter, each week
the patients are lined up and given more shots. What for? Who knows? Even those who
give them do not apparently know. In one mental institution I know of, every Thursday
is called "needle day" because on that day all patients are given at least three injections.
They all get the same dose whether they want it or not. The result is, they lose weight
and become sick. Their mental condition becomes worse with each inoculation and soon
they are beyond help. Mild cases become violent and then the attendants maltreat them.
"After seeing the medical practitioners at work it makes one wonder whether it is the
patient or the doctor who is insane.CHAPTER 8: DEATHS FROM V ACCINATION
"Knowledge is the antidote of fear,
Knowledge, Use and Reason, with its aids."
                                                                    —Emerson
Ignorance spiked with greed has put a death machine (vaccination) into the hands of
doctors, and ignorance and fear have driven people into its lethal power. Emerson was
right when he said that the right use of reason and knowledge could free mankind from
fear. It is certainly true that a little knowledge applied in the right places would wake
people out of their hypnotic stupor of believing that the popularized poison
could unpoison them and make them well again.
It is the purpose of this chapter, in particular, as well as the entire book, to present the
actual photographs and case histories of victims of vaccination, along with enough
authoritative data to give some concrete reasons for abolishing vaccination. Its deadly
effects have been proved and its uselessness has been admitted by the most experienced
authorities in the field.
According to the figures of the Office of Vital Statistics at Washington, D. C., there were
"33 deaths from vaccination  in the three years, 1949, 1950, 1951…..
Post-Vaccinal Encephalitis 22; Generalized Vaccinia, 2; other complications, 9." During
this same 3-year period there were only 4 deaths from smallpox. If vaccination kills
people at the rate of 33 to every 4 protected (?) the risk is greater than any possible
advantage. (It was not stated how many of the  smallpox cases had been vaccinated also.)
In the years 1941 to 1948 there were (In U.S.) 107 deaths from "sequaelae of preventive
immunization, inoculation or vaccination". During this time there were only 78 deaths
from smallpox.
In the American Journal of Diseases of Children, Dr. Greenberg discussed the results of
the 1947 smallpox scare in New York. Under the heading of Complications of
Vaccination" he admitted that 45 cases of post vaccinal encephalitis (inflammation of the
brain and spinal cord) had been observed and that 4 deaths had occurred up to that time.
Two of the patients who survived death developed hemiparesis and one had optic
neuritis. Forty-two other patients had generalized vaccinia of which two died and
another died of ulceration of the vaccination.
So, seven died of this vaccination epidemic while only one died of smallpox and that
case was proved, later, not to be smallpox at all. It was just a case of poison ivy used to
stage a multi-million dollar vaccination drive.
In England the Ministry of Health’s report on The State of the Public Health During Six
Years of War," under the heading "Post-Vaccinal Encephalitis" stated:"In the six years 60 cases of this complication of vaccinia have been recorded by the
Ministry. There were 31 deaths; a figure of 50 percent, may be taken as the fatality rate
of this grave complication."
During this same period of six years there were only 13 deaths from smallpox in all of
England and Wales. The report did not state how many of these cases of smallpox were
induced by vaccination.
Neville Chamberlain M.D. was forced to admit, in the House of Commons, that in the
short period of one month (June 1 to June 30) 11 death certificates had been given in
which the words "vaccination" or "vaccinia" appeared as the cause of death, and that on
six of these certificates some form of nervous disease was entered... He also admitted
that there were 10 other cases in which death followed closely after vaccination.
An editorial in JOHN BULL (London) continues this discussion as follows:
"Almost the next day he (Chamberlain) had to admit that one child in Norfolk died of
post-vaccinal-encephalitis (sleeping sickness) after vaccination and that three other
similar cases in the same district were suffering from the same disease following
vaccination.
"We do not have to be medical experts to appreciate the gravity of this startling report,
which for once in a lifetime has completely broken through the conspiracy of silence
with which medical men usually surround their operations.
"This is not particularly a question of medicine. It is a question of national health-
SURVIV AL. It is not sanity to continue to inject poison and disease into healthy
children, and we have no hesitation whatever in asserting that the whole
business of vaccination should be suspended forthwith.
"Our opinion is that it would be both cheaper and more affective to remove vaccination
than to waste time and money in experiments toward removal of the dread consequences
of vaccination."
ENCYCLOPEDIA REPORTS DISEASES CAUSED BY V ACCINATION
The Encyclopedia Britannica (9th edition) records results of a canvass of cities after a
general vaccination order for school children. It was found that nearly all the cases
of scarlet fever, measles and diphtheria  had been recently vaccinated. Two vaccinated
boys developed black diphtheria  and died. What is true of this survey is true of other
cities where vaccination is stressed.
WHAT V ACCINATION DOES
A recognized authority summed up this subject by saying:
"Vaccination induces an acute and specific disease (resembling smallpox) and also
aggravates existent latent diseases. The absorption of the vaccine virus into the
circulation excites the virus already in the system, and nature rebels, as it were, and makes an effort to throw the poison out of the body. When there is sufficient vitality, it
will be successful. But when there is a lack of vitality, or a low state of health, there is
little or no external manifestation in the shape of blisters, pustules, or eruptions. In this
case, the poison sinks in, or is absorbed, and remains in the body, and later develops into
some organic disease, generally of the  respiratory organs.
"Nearly all of those on whom Jenner performed his earlier experiments, including his
own son, died of consumption (a disease of the respiratory organs).
"There are possibly millions, both children and adults, who are compelled to endure a
living death from the effects of vaccination, in the form of syphilis, scrofula, cancer,
tumors, skin diseases, etc."
I personally have seen a number of people lingering on for years in a state of living
death as a result of vaccination.
FIVE HUNDRED KILLED BY V ACCINATION IN FIVE MONTHS IN U. S.
In his "Vaccination Delusions", Thomas Morgan reports:
"During the past five months, we have collected from the newspapers over five hundred
authenticated cases of injury and death from vaccination. We present a few cases to
show how vaccination  protects (?) for it is evident that when vaccination kills the
patient, he is forever immune to smallpox, protected by the immunizing potency of
death. These have died from blood-poisoning, erysipelas, lockjaw, convulsions, etc.,
after vaccination." (The names, ages, dates, and locality (town) are given on page 35 of
"Medical Delusions.")
THE NEW YORK SUN, March 20, 1895 stated:
"John Morrissey, 1979 Third Ave., New York, lost his two children; both died from
convulsions induced by vaccination. Dr. Sharp, who attended them, thinks that
vaccination may have been the cause of the children’s death.
HERALD, Northampton, Mass., May 25, 1895:
"Webster N. Kinney, 8 year old son of Charles Kinney, of Westfield, was vaccinated and
died from the direct effect