 which
"I AM"  flashing  These  Words  to this Good  Brother,  which
he repeats  to you.  You  have  become  a Part  of That  Self—
Myself!  Do you  think  you  would  ever  get away  from  Me?
Think  of it! You  cannot  escape  now!  Some  who  think  they
might,  will  find  that  is a mistake.
So Dear  Ones,  in the Glory  of your  privilege,  go forth
in the Full  Power  of Joy  and  the Consciousness  of your
Ability;  to call forth  from  your  Presence  This  Mighty  Free-
dom  and  Limitless  Activity  of Itself.  Ask  It, to silence  your
human  forever;  to hold  it bound  and  in obedience  to the
Great  Law  of Life!  Let  the Power  of your  Presence  flood
your  world  to alone  act in your  world,  keeping  it Free
from  human  qualification  of any  kind.  If you  will  do that,
Precious  Ones,  in so short  a time,  you  will  begin  to feel
This  Power  releasing  from  the Light  within  you;  which
will positively  give  you  all the Courage,  Confidence  and
Freedom  in Its Perfection  which  every  Heart  in the World
craves.
So, tonight,  in My  Closing  Words,  I call  your  "Beloved
Mighty  I Am  Presence"  to take  command  of each  mind
and body;  silence  your  human  qualities;  and  cause  them  to
remain  silent  and  obedient  to the Great  Light  within  your
Heart!  I call  That  Light  to take  Its Command;  to hold  Its 52 THE  "I AM"  DISCOURSES
Dominion  and  to produce  Its Perfection  in you  and  your
world!  Then,  you  become  a Pillar  of Light,  thru  which  the
Power  of the "I AM  Presence"  pours  forth  Its Radiance,
into your  environment  everywhere.
The Glory  of Our  Light  will  cause  people  to come  to
you and  inquire  of the Glory,  of the Peace  and  the Love
which  radiates  from  you!  Then,  will  be your  opportunity
to explain  to them  the Knowledge  of the Presence  and  the
Chart;  which  gives  them  an Eye-picture  and  is a Powerful
Means  of their  quickly  entering  into  the Full  Conscious-
ness of their  Presence;  and  the  Perfection  which  It will
bring  forth  thru  them.  It is not a matter  of can It, or will  It
do so; but It does  do so! The  Light  of your  Being,  the Light
of the "Mighty  I AM  Presence,"  compels  It to go forth;  as
you understand  and  harmonize  your  feeling  enough;  and
stop the qualification  of that  mighty  Pure  Perfect  Energy
which  stands  ever  ready  and  waiting,  to flood  you and  your
world  with  Its Glory  and  Freedom  from  all limitations!
Then  you  arise  into  your  Ascension! DISCOURSE  VI
May  4,1937
NEW  YORK  CITY,  N. Y.
Beloved  Children  of Earth,  your  Pilgrimage  is fast draw-
ing to a close;  and  out of That  Light  from  which  you  came,
is flowing  forth  your  Victory.  Can  you  with  Me compre-
hend  for a few moments,  the Light  from  which  you  came ?
The Light  which  is every  moment  beating  your  Heart;
Out of That  Great  Fire-Breath  of God,  came  your  Individ-
ualization.  The  "Mighty  I AM  Presence"  projected  your
Higher  Mental  Body,  then  the Ray  by which  your  human
form  came  into  being!  Contemplate  with  Me This  Mighty
Reality  and  no longer  feel  yourselves  separate  from  that
Great  Light  which  gives  you  Life!  That  is your  Life!  That
is your  Intelligence  and  Power!
We, who  know  so well  the Great  Freedom,  which  comes
alone  from  the Light;  We  who  have  It, because  We have
It, We know  you can too!  Will  you  not enter  into  Our  Open
Door,  thru  which  Beloved  Saint  Germain  has invited  you  to
come;  and  no longer  dwell  upon  the fragments  of human
creations ? Can  you  bear  it Oh,  Beloved  Children,  to face
the Truth:  and  know  the fragments  of Life  which  you  are
ordinarily  using,  are but the farthest  outer  covering  of the
Light;  which  is your  Perfection,  into  which  you  may  enter,
if you  will,  in the  Acknowledgment  of your  Presence,
53 54 THE  "I AM"  DISCOURSES
which  is All-Wise,  All-Powerful,  and  Whose  Light  fills  the
Earth?
Do not  let your  attention  go astray  longer,  for in your
attention  to the  Presence,  comes  your  Eternal  Release.
There  is naught  else  to set you  Free!  Once  you  can  hold
yourself  firm  to your  Presence,  acknowledging  It, calling  It
into action,  then  quickly  comes  your  Release  and  Freedom!
We, who  have  attained  the Victory,  know  all your  Re-
quirements,  perhaps  far better  than  you  could  even  imag-
ine. When  We  say to you,  We know  your  Victory  is CER-
TAIN,  can you  not accept  It and  let the Quality  which  We
are knowing  for you,  enter  in and  perform  Its Perfect  Serv-
ice for you ? It seems  to Me It is quite  practical,  quite  logical.
Your  teacher  who  taught  you  mathematics,  who  taught
you English,  had  attained  such  knowledge  up to that  point,
wherein  he or she was  your  teacher.  Today,  We who  have
attained  Freedom  offer  Our  Services  to you;  because  We
have  attained!  Then  you  should  be as open  to This  Help  a
far more  Transcendent  Privilege,  than  you  were  to your
teacher  in the schools  of the physical  world.
It is all quite  as practical;  still  It is Transcendent,  It is
Unusual!  Try  to feel This,  Beloved  Ones,  and  no longer  let
human  concepts  cause  you  to doubt  again  and  fear.  If
someone  came  to you  and  said,  there  was  something  won-
derful,  marvelous,  over  here  in one  of your  magnificent
buildings—would  you  hesitate  to go and  see for yourself,
what  it was  and  that  it was  there ? Would  you  disbelieve
someone  and  think  that  Chicago  was  not in existence;  be-DISCOURSE  VIII  55
cause  you  had  not been  there,  or in Los  Angeles ? Do you
not see how  inconsistent  the human  intellect  is? It joyously,
willingly  accepts  some  things  and  rebels  tremendously  at
others;  most  of the time  at the things  which  would  give  it
the Greatest  Freedom.
Beloved  Saint  Germain  has  brought  to you  This  Tran-
scendent  Knowledge  of the "I AM"—every  Word  of which
is True,  Vital,  Living,  Powerful!  It is your  Freedom!  The
Messengers  have  pled  with  you,  offering  so kindly  every
angle  of Explanation;  which  will  enable  you  to compre-
hend  and  understand,  that  It is your  Application  in your
attention  to the "Mighty  I AM  Presence


, actually has more dire consequences inmen. A fractured hip in a male, most commonly related toosteoporosis, is associated with a 25 percent mortality rate inthe first year of occurrence. T estosterone prevents and reversesosteoporosis.
An extremely common consequence of low testosterone
levels in men is the onset of depression. They lose their interestin life, and their energy levels go down. Replacement of testos-terone brings back energy, restores lost strength and interest inlife, and leads to the buildup of muscle.
Very often the libido returns too. I’ve seen male patients in
their 70s who hadn’t had sex in 25 years who, with testosteronereplacement, began having sex on a daily basis. Of course, theirpartners’ hormones had to be dealt with as well.104 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  THE CORRECT USE OF TESTOSTERONE
As with any other hormone, testosterone must be used correctly,
especially since testosterone can convert into other hormonesthat may cause other problems.
It is often beneficial to determine the blood levels of
testosterone. The test for free testosterone level is the mostimportant test in this regard, not the more frequently usedtest for total testosterone level. The free testosterone levelindicates the amount of biologically active testosterone thatis available. However, levels of testosterone go up and downduring the day.
The highest levels occur early in the morning, before
testing is usually done. I have found that most men after theage of 50 have a level either below the normal range or else inthe lower range of normal. Yet many of these men still getmorning erections (an excellent indication of adequatetestosterone levels) and have no problems with performanceor libido.
No matter how low the level, if a man has no sexual
problems I do not replace testosterone. Normal levels of freetestosterone range from 50 to 210. Normal levels of totaltestosterone range from 250 to 1,000. I find that checkinglevels of testosterone is more useful in determining correctreplacement dosages—too much or too little.
When replacing testosterone, one should be aware that this
hormone can be converted into other hormones that may haveunpleasant consequences. One is the form of estrogen knownas estradiol, which can cause prostate cancer and possiblycolon cancer. The other is dihydrotestosterone (DHT), whichmay cause prostate enlargement and male pattern hair loss.
Because of these possibilities, the levels of these two
hormones should be monitored. High levels of DHT can often105 ANDR OPAUSE—THE MALE MENOPAUSE  be avoided by correct placement of testosterone cream or gel
on the skin. It is always best to apply testosterone to areas ofthe body devoid of hair. Certain enzymes found around hairfollicles can convert testosterone into DHT (in other words,applying the cream to a shaved area will not help). Acceptableareas may include the upper and inner arms, shoulders, backof the knees, and around the ankles. Certain supplements canalso help in this regard, among them saw palmetto, beta-sitosterol, and pygeum.
There are ways to keep estradiol levels lower.  Discuss with
the compounding pharmacist or your medical doctor theaddition of 10 percent chrysin to the testosterone cream.Chrysin is an aromatase inhibitor. Aromatase is necessary toconvert testosterone into estradiol, so anything that lowers thisenzyme is beneficial. Arimidex can be used to lower estradiol.The recommended dose for men is 50 mcg per day, availablefrom a compounding pharmacy.
Zinc is another important supplement to use while on
testosterone. The prostate gland absorbs more zinc than anyother area of the body. Zinc also acts as an aromatase inhibitor,thereby keeping estrogen levels low. As a side note: the eyes aresecond in the absorption of zinc, which helps prevent maculardegeneration, the most common cause of adult blindness.
The dosage of testosterone should usually be about
¼tsp
of a 10 percent transdermal cream twice a day. The prescrip-tion should read: “T estosterone 10%. Apply
¼tsp BID [twice
a day] to hairless area” (upper or inner arms, shoulders, back ofknees, or ankles). When the libido returns, one dose a day maybe adequate.
Blood tests that should be monitored include:
• T otal testosterone
• Free testosterone106 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  • Estradiol
• DHT• PSA (prostate specific antigen) with free PSA
The benefits of testosterone far outweigh any potential
downside. But it should be used safely with attention toprostate health. In addition, too much testosterone can raisecholesterol levels, cause male pattern baldness, raise levels ofred blood cells, and possibly cause aggressive behavior.
WHY PROGESTERONE
Many people, even some physicians, do not consider proges-
terone to be a male hormone (it is), and some are not awarethat men produce estrogen (they do). Once again, men andwomen produce exactly the same hormones, but in differentamounts. I prescribe progesterone for most of my malepatients over 50 for a number of reasons. As men get older,their levels of progesterone decrease, becoming almost non-existent around the age of 50. This is about the same age whenmen start putting on their “middle-aged paunch.” Could therebe a connection?
The answer is a most definite yes. And the reason?
Progesterone is the number one hormone for lowering insulinlevels, the hormone that creates fat right around the middle.This is also the time of life when men may experience fatiguebetween 3 and 4 in the afternoon or getting sleepy whiledriving or after eating—the classic times for tiredness relatedto over-production of insulin. When insulin levels go up,blood sugar goes down.
A brain deprived of sugar gets sleepy. The number one
cause of people falling asleep while driving is hypoglycemia.The number one cause of hypoglycemia is too much insulin.107 ANDR OPAUSE—THE MALE MENOPAUSE  The number one cause of too much insulin is low proges-
terone. One of the first benefits people experience afterstarting progesterone is that they no longer get sleepy in theafternoon, after eating, or while driving.
Another reason I believe men over 50 should take proges-
terone is that I suspect that it prevents prostate cancer. Icannot point to studies that show this, but it is logical. As menapproach andropause, their progesterone levels drop and theirestrogen levels start rising. This is also about the time thatprostate cancer becomes a risk. If estrogen causes six differentcancers in women, why wouldn’t it be up to no good in menas well? Not only cancer of the prostate but also cancer of thecolon could be caused by excess estrogen in men’s bodies.
Other benefits from progesterone in men are as follows:
prevention of Alzheimer’s disease, prevention of osteoporosis,prevention of coronary artery spasm, reversal of depression,and elimination of asthma.
JIM B. ’S STORY
The dramatic effects of progesterone in men are perhaps best
illustrated by the story of one of my patients, Jim B. When Ifirst met Jim, he was 54 years old. He came into my office, satdown, and with no other preamble stated, “Doc, if you don’thelp me, I’m going to commit suicide.” He added that I was hislast resort.
He had four major complaints: 1) he was (obviously)
depressed, 2) he was severely hypoglycemic, 3) he had asthma,and 4) he had osteoporosis.
I told him right off that his problems were easily resolved
and that he had a deficiency of progesterone. He looked at mequizzically and said that over the previous several years hehad been back and forth across the country, spent tens of108 THE MIRACLE OF BIO-IDENTICAL HORMONES  thousands of dollars, consulted with the best doctors in the
finest clinics and institutions, had hundreds of blood tests andprocedures done, and no one had ever mentioned the word“progesterone,” much less tested for it. And here, in the spaceof several minutes, I identified this as his problem.
Although he strongly suspected I was a “quack,” he agreed
to a trial of progesterone. In only three days he was saying, “Inmy entire life I have never felt so good.”
This response was exactly the response I had expected.
Progesterone affects every neurotransmitter in the brain andcan readily eliminate depression. It prevents the over-produc-tion of insulin and helps hypoglycemia. It is wonderful foreliminating asthma. This may possibly be related to its anti-estrogen effect. Estrogen is a common cause of asthma, andmen often have high levels of estrogen. Progesterone is alsobeneficial for preventing and treating osteoporosis.
During their training, doctors receive an extremely limited
amount of information about hormones. Thus it is notsurprising that every medical specialist Jim had spoken to wasunable to diagnose his problem.
I consider progesterone the second most important
hormone for replacement in men. There are actually no down-sides to using this hormone. It must be obtained from acompounding pharmacy. The cream is used in lieu of an oralform in order to bypass the liver. The prescription I usuallyrecommend is: progesterone 100 mg/
¼tsp twice a day for two
weeks


?” the implication is that an outside judgment must enter into
the issue.Values are personal; each situation that has sexual energy in it involves
the whole human being. If you understand where you are in a sexual
situation—meaning that your emotions and values are in your awareness
with clarity—the sexual drive doesn’ t stand apart like a raging intruder. It is
part of you; it is acceptable and loved.
If you can walk through life without resistance, you will discover that life
in itself is chaste. It has a purity that includes both love and sex—there is no
division between them except in society’ s misguided conditioning.
This argument has a very deep spiritual basis. Most of the time our
worries over sex involve thinkin g and talking about it, yet sex isn’t a word
or a thought. It isn’ t divided in any way from the flow of life; its ur ge arises,
asks for fulfillment, and disappears without leaving traces of guilt and
shame unless we add those trace s by our beliefs. If sex gets tied down to the
mere pursuit of pleasure, it will result in pain, for pleasure cannot be kept
up forever; it will lead only to meaningless repetition and frustration, to a
compulsive craving for sensations that can only dwindle in satisfaction.
As Krishnamurti says, the mere pursuit of pleasure throws life out the
window. By “life” he means the sacred Being at the heart of existence, the
mystery that can be known only by not resisting, by being natural. The
difference between sex, love, and chastity doesn’ t exist; they are one.
In a world where  imitating other people’ s ideas and values is forced on us
in thousands of ways, sex is left as a means of escaping ourselves. It is a
form of self-for getfulness that is many people’ s only real form of
meditation. Such is the promise of intimacy that it can deliver us into a
place where experience of the spirit is genuine and undeniable.
OceanofPDF.comLOVING  PRACTICE
Freeing Sexual Blocks
IF YOU WANT to improve your sexual experiences, the last place to start with
is pract ice in the bedroom. Sex is naturally spontaneous; it is both
expression and release, excitement and relaxation. The best sex is the most
open and unplan ned; therefore planning for the unplanned is more or less a
self-contradiction. There is no way to practice being spontaneous.
To impr ove your sexual experience, first get rid of your expectations.
Sexual energy is neutral; you can associate it with anything, positive or
negative, in your life. Whatever you expect sex to be, it will tend to
become. So-called sexual problems are actually ingrained behaviors that
block the free flow of sexual energy. In both men and women the
physiology of sex is very delicate and easily influenced by the mind. It is
your mind that judges “good” and “bad” sex; it is your mind that intervenes
to prevent orgasm or potency (leaving aside disease conditions that impose
physical limitations).
The dilemma is that coming to bed without expectations seems to be
impossible, given how the mind works. When sexual experience was new, it
contained a quality of surprise and innocence. Even if we cannot remember
our first orgasm, most of us can remember how different orgasm was from
other pleasurabl e sensations. Its newness and intensity caused  us to want
more, but as you repeat any sensation, it becomes familiar, and familiarity
leads to dullness. For many people sex becomes associated with
performance. The question “How well am I doing?” hovers over the
bedroom. For other people sex is associated with sensation. The question
“How am I feeling?” is uppermost in their minds. And for still others,
security is dominant; the quest ion “Do you really love me?”  is in their
minds while making love.As soon  as sex becomes bound  up in these secondary associations and
needs, it is no longer free. There is nothing bad about pursuin g unrelated
needs in sex. Orgasm is a psychological package, not a physical reflex. But
no matte r how well you perform  or how terrific you feel, laying orgasm into
a certain groove separates it from any spiritual significance.
Sex is mechanical when it is without spiritual meaning.
For many reason s, it is difficult  to align our sexual and spiritual natures.
The following exercise is aimed not at making sex more spiritual but at
removing the obstacles that prevent spirit from entering into it.
PART ONE
Look at the following list of statements and write “Agree” or “Disagree”
beside each. Be honest and keep in mind that having expectations isn’t
something to feel bad about—this is an exercise in self-knowledge.
1. Sex is better if it lasts a long time.
2. Orgasm should be intense.
3. It’s not sex without or gasm.
4. I’m pretty insistent on getting sex when I want it.
5. The more or gasms, the better.
6. The best sex I ever had wasn’ t with my present partner.
7. Impotence lets my partner down.
or
Not having an or gasm lets my partner down.
8. My partner isn’ t as open about new positions and techniques as I am.
9. I’ve gone along with sexual experiments I didn’ t feel comfortable with
just because my partner asked me to.
10. I aim to please. I rarely let my partner down.
11. My partner disappoints me a lot more often than he (or she) knows.
12. I wouldn’ t like anyone to think I get too carried away over sex.
13. I’m too embarrassed to discuss some of the things I’d like to do in bed.
14. We have sex more (or less) often than I’d like.
15. I miss the way our sex used to be.
16. I really don’ t think about sex that often.17. Our sex isn’ t so great, but the rest of our marriage makes up for that.
18. I have fantasies I don’ t share with my partner.
19. My mind wanders during sex.
20. I’m not such a great lover.
These very common statements indicate that everyone has less than healthy
sexual expectations at least some of the time.
If you agr eed with five statements or fewer, you are likely to be very
present with your sexuality and appreciative of sex as it is happening.
You don’ t have many fixed expectations or adherence to values outside
yourself.
If you agr eed with six or mor e statements, you are bringing issues to
bed that are interfering with the free flow of sexual ener gy—your sex
is beset by ego concerns and expectations.
If you agr eed with none of the statements, either you are a highly
evolved lover or you haven’ t answered as honestly as you could.
Now let’s discuss how you felt while reading these statements. Some are
much more likely to trigger emotional charges than others. Reread the list
and check your emotional reactions. Do you feel very uncomfortable
reading certain sentences? Do you feel nothing? To be at either extreme
implies that sexual energy is being held inside—any repressed feeling keeps
sexual energy from flowing. Among the most powerful sexual blocks are
shame, guilt, doubt, discouragement, and embarrassment.
If you feel stron g emotion over “I’m not such a great lover,” for example,
it’s not difficult  to see that lack of self-worth is an issue. Someone who
strongly agrees with “I aim to please. I rarely let my partner down” is
equally prey to self-doubt, only less consciously. If you probe your feelings
of discomfort and release them,  you will do more for your sex life than if
you focus on the mechanics of sex.
You can release your sexual blocks in the following way:
1. Pick a statement that you feel strongly about, either positively or
negatively.
2. Lie down, take a deep breath, and let yourself feel what is going on
when you think about the statement.3. Ask to be guided to the meaning of the statement. If nothing comes to
mind, ask for blocks to be removed. A helpful technique here is to pant
in quick, shallow breaths—this distracts the mind from holding on to
its blocks.
4. When you have some kind of answer—an image, an insight, a strong
wave of feeling—ask for release. T ake a deep breath and let go of
whatever wants to come out: a sob, a scream, physical movement, a
deep sigh, or simply a wave of fatigue.
5. Relive any memories that want to surface.
6. When you feel that you are fully in touch with the emotional char ge
behind the statement, ask for a clearing of the char ge. Breathe evenly
until you relax and any tension associated with the statement has been
released.
When blocks ar e removed, sexual ener gy has no choice but to flow.
Each statement in the questionnaire has a wide range of possible
meanings that may or may not apply to you, but here are the types of blocks
generally indicated:
1. Sex is better if it lasts a long time.
Fixed expectations from sex, comparison with others, social norms
more important than personal experience
2. Orgasm should be intense.
Comparison with the past, valuing of physical sensation over
emotions, self-absorption, addictive personality traits
3. It’s not sex without or gasm.
Performance anxiety, compari son with past, valuing of physical
sensation over emotions


 cannot annoy you or irritate you except you
permit him. Your thought is creative; you can bless him. If some one
calls you a skunk, you have the freedom to say to the other, “God’s
peace fills your soul.”
14. Love is the answer to getting along with others. Love is
understanding, good will, and respecting the divinity of the other.
15. You would not hate a hunchback or cripple. You would have
compassion. Have compassion and understanding for mental
hunchbacks who have been conditioned negatively. To understand all
is to forgive all.
16. Rejoice in the success, promotion, and good fortune of the other.
In doing so, you attract good fortune to yourself.
17. Never yield to emotional scenes and tantrums of others.
Appeasement never wins. Do not be a doormat. Adhere to that which
is right. Stick to your ideal, knowing that the mental outlook, whic h
 176  gives you peace, happiness, and joy, is right, good, and true. What
blesses you, blesses all.
18. All you owe any person in the world is love, and love is wishing
for everyone what you wish for yourself—health, happiness, and all
the blessings of life.

 177  17
How to Use Your Subconscious Mind
for Forgiveness
Life plays no favorites. God is Life, and this Life-Principle  is
flowing through you this moment. God loves to express Him-self as
harmony,  peace, beauty, joy, and abundance through you. This is
called the will of God or the tendency of Life.
If you set up resistance in your mind to the flow of Life thr ough
you, this emotional congestion will get snarled up in your
subconscious mind and cause all kinds of negative conditions. God
has nothing to do with unhappy or chaotic conditions in the world.
Man’s negative and destructive thinking brings about all these
conditions. Therefore, it is silly to blame God for your trouble or
sickness.
Many persons habitually set up mental resistance to the f low of Life
by accusing and reproaching God for the sin, sick-ness, and suffer ing
of mankind. Others cast the blame on God for their pains, aches,  and
loss of loved ones, personal tragedies, and accidents. They are a ngry
at God, and they believe He is responsible for their misery.
As long as people entertain such negative concepts about God, t hey
will experience the automatic negative reactions from the ir
subconscious minds.
Actually, such people do not know that they are punishing
themselves. They must see the truth, find release, and give up all
condemnation, resentment, and anger against anyone or any power
outside themselves. Otherwise, they cannot go forward into a hea lthy,
happy, or creative activity. The minute these people entertain a God of
love in their minds and hearts, and when they believe that God is their
Loving Father who watches over them, cares for them, guides them,
sustains and strengthens them, this concept and belief about G od or
 178  the Life-Principle will be accepted by their sub-conscious mind, and
they will find themselves blessed in count-less ways.
• Life always forgives you
Life forgives you when you cut your finger. The subcon-scious
intelligence within you sets about immediately to repair it. New cells
build bridges over the cut. Should you take some tainted food by error,
Life forgives you and causes you to regurgitate it in order t o preserve
you. If you burn your hand, the Life-Principle reduces the edema and
congestion, and gives you new skin, tissue, and cells. Life holds no
grudges against you, and it is always forgiving you. Life bring s you
back to health, vitality, harmony, and peace, if you co-operate  by
think-ing in harmony with nature. Negative, hurtful memories, bitt er-
ness, and ill will clutter up and impede the free flow of th e Life-
Principle in you.
• How he banished that feeling of guilt
I knew a man who worked every night until about one o’clock in the
morning. He paid no attention to his two boys or his wife. He was
always too busy working hard. He thought people should pat him on
the back because he was working so arduously and persistently past
midnight every night. He had a blood pressure of over two hundred
and was full of guilt.
Un-consciously, he proceeded to punish himself by hard work and
he completely ignored his children. A normal man does not do that.
He is interested in his boys and in their development. He does not shut
his wife out of his world.
I explained to him why he was working so arduously, “There is
something eating you inside, otherwise, you would not act this way.
You are punishing yourself, and you have to learn to forgive
yourself.” He did have a deep sense of guilt. It was toward a brother.
I explained to him that God was not punishing him, but that he was
punishing himself. For example, if you misuse the laws of life, you
will suffer accordingly. If you put your hand on a naked charged wi re,
 179  you will get burned. The forces of nature are not evil; it is your use of
them that determines whether they have a good or evil effect.
Electricity is not evil; it depends on how you use it, whether to b urn
down a structure or light up a home. The only sin is ignorance of the
law, and the only pun-ishment is the automatic reaction of man’ s
misuse of the law.
If you misuse the principle of chemistry, you may blow up the
office or the factory. If you strike your hand on a board, you may
cause your hand to bleed. The board is not for that purpose. Its
purpose may be to lean upon or to support your feet.
This man realized that God does not condemn or punish anyone,
and that all his suffering was due to the reaction of his s ubconscious
mind to his own negative and destructive think-ing. He had cheated
his brother at one time, and the brother had now passed on. Still, he
was full of remorse and guilt.
I asked him, “Would you cheat your brother now?”
He said, “No.”
“Did you feel you were justified at the time?”
His reply was, “Yes.”
“But, you would not do it now?”
He added, “No, I am helping others to know how to live.”
I added the following comment, “You have a greater reason and
understanding now. Forgiveness is to forgive your-self. Forgiveness i s
getting your thoughts in line with the divine law of harmony.
Selfcondemnation is called hell (bondage and restriction); forgi veness
is called heaven (harmony and peace).”
The burden of guilt and self-condemnation was lifted from his mind,
and he had a complete healing. The doctor tested his blood pressur e,
and it had become normal. The explanation was the cure.

 180  • A murderer learned to forgive himself
A man who murdered his brother in Europe visited me many yea rs
ago. He was suffering from great mental anguish and torture believing
that God must punish him. He explained that his brother had been
having an affair with his wife, and that he had shot him on the spur of
the moment. This had hap-pened about fifteen years previous t o his
interview with me. In the meantime, this man had married an
American girl and had been blessed with three lovely children. He was
in a posi-tion where he helped many people, and he was a transf ormed
man.
My explanation to him was that physically and psycho-log ically he
was not the same man who shot his brother, since scientists i nform us
that every cell of our bodies changes every eleven months. Moreov er,
mentally and spiritually he was a new man. He was now full o f love
and good will for humanity. The “old” man who committed the crime
fifteen years before was mentally and spiritually dead. Ac tually, he
was condemning an innocent man!
This explanation had a profound effect upon him, and he said it was
as if a great weight had been lifted from his mind. He reali zed the
significance of the following truth in the Bible: Come now, let us
reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they
shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, the y shall
be as wool. ISAIAH 1:18.
• Criticism cannot hurt you without your consent
A schoolteacher told me that one of her associates criticize d a
speech she had given, saying to her that she spoke too fast, she
swallowed some of her words, she couldn’t be heard, her diction was
poor, and her speech ineffective. This teacher was furious an d full of
resentment toward her critic.
She admitted to me that the criticisms were just. Her firs t reaction
was really childish, and she agreed that the letter was reall y a blessing
and a marvelous


. Nothing was found wrong except kidney stones, for which patient came in. Patient stat ed
he had always had circulation problems.
IRIDOLOGY ANALYSIS. Black in intestinal area indicated underactive bowel with heavy toxic settlement there. Inherent
weakness in kidney areas of irides. Adrenal glands underactive, showing that kidneys and adrenals were overworked due to toxi c
condition of blood from underactive bowel. Leg areas  underactive. Poor circulation and enervation, together with underactivity
in legs, indicated toxic settlements in leg tissues.
PROGRAM. Initially, Patient eliminated fried foods from his diet, reduced meat intake, increased raw salads and added several
nutritional supplements. He reported, “The bowel has improved considerably...with bowel movements reduced from seven or eight
per day down to twice a day. The feet, unfortunately, got worse.” Patient was then placed on a seven -day tissue cleansing program
which included two colemas per day, morning and night. (Colemas are not as strenuous as colonies but are more effective than
enemas.) Fasting diet included broth, herb teas, vitamins, nutritional supplements and juice mixed with bulk and clay water. Clay
packs and aloe vera were applied externally to the legs. On the fourth day, Patient reported, “The swelling in my right ankle is
gone. It is now normal. The sealing or encrustations on my feet, ankles, insteps and heels, began to fall away. I would say t here is a
60-70 percent improvement. I am elated over the results.” Examination at this time showed strong improvement of ulcerated areas
around feet. Patient is usinq skin brushing and cold water packs on body. Goal was to increase circulation and life force. Dulse was
used to quicken the thryoid, and Dren -C was used to improve circulation. Pancreas substance was taken to dissolve the heavy
mucus lining in the bowel. The elimination of mucus from the bowel was an important step toward improved assimilation of
nutrients from food after end of tissue cleansing program.

When the seven -day program had ended, Patient’s feet had cleared up almost entirely. Ulcers no longer draining. Skin healing,
becoming clear. Patient had worked very hard, co -operating with the pr ogram entirely. When asked for his response to the results
of the seven -day tissue -cleansing program, Patient reported, “It is almost miraculous! My wife and family are going to find it
difficult to believe what they see when they arrive.” Patient was advi sed concerning the necessity of changing former food and
other life habits to an improved nutritional and exercise regimen, to bring about general upgrading of health and to avoid
recurrence of ulcerated leg problem. He was told that he had a year’s work a head of him. Although the ankles were now normal at
the beginning of each day, swelling continued to occur around 11 a.m. or noon, particularly in the right foot. On the day pat ient
returned home, he was able to wear shoes comfortably for the first time in  over a year!
PATIENT 2
Patient’s complaints were psoriasis, diabetes and arthritis.
HISTORY. Patient developed psoriasis 7 years ago. First symptoms were scaling of scalp and of facial skin under beard.
Condition became progressively worse until 3 years a go, when fingernails began showing pits and creases. A year later, Patient
developed diabetes and began taking insulin. Six months after the appearance of the diabetes, arthritis set in. First symptom s
were fluid in the knee and inflammation of the elbow, A physician diagnosed the condition as psoriatric arthritis. Patient found that
Western medicine could do nothing for his condition. He was taking 20 aspirin per day for relief from arthritic pain, insulin  shots
for the diabetes and the psoriasis was growi ng worse. He began to experience depression and hopelessness.
IRIS ANALYSIS. Inherent weaknesses in bowel and bronchials. Catarrhal congestion in lungs. Lymphatic rosary. Kidney
weakness. Nerve rings. Pancreas weakness. Toxic thyroid. Scurf rim. Drug depos its - iron, sulfur and iodine.
PROGRAM. Patient was placed on a seven -day tissue -cleansing program. From monitoring blood sugar level, Patient found it
necessary to reduce insulin requirement gradually from 18 units down to nothing by the fifth day when blood sugar level remained
within normal limits (70 -110) without insulin.
RESULTS. Arthritis improved dramatically. Patient had difficulty putting on socks before but can now do that without problems.
Walking was painful and is now normal. The severity of the diabetes is reduced. Psoriasis has improved but will take time to get
skin back to normal. Skin is moister than before. Psoriasis peels in larger areas; peelings come off easier and there is litt le
bleeding. Patient is in excellent spirits, looking for ward to bicycling when he returns home.
PATIENT 3
Subject has had cancer for the last eight years. This is a cancer of the breast. Surgery removed a lump and it was found to b e very
malignant. Mastectomy was advised. Patient refused any further surgery and  searched for alternative treatments and cures. She
first went to laetrile therapy. Soon afterwards was under the care of a natural hygienist for 5 years. She followed a very st rict
program during this time. Breast became harder and harder. At one point a lump appeared near the surface and ruptured leaving an
open, bleeding unhealing sore. Patient had taken Dr. Jensen’s lectures and courses in the past and at these times was advised  to
control a calcium deficiency and metabolic imbalance. Her doctor back ho me consistently refused the calcium control stating that
it would be fatal for her to do so. She was afraid to not follow his advice and did not adjust the calcium as recommended. Pa tient
has had over 300 colonic treatments during this time. She was advise d by Broda Barnes to stabilize her thyroid activity as he felt it
was out of balance. This could cause a calcium upset. At one point, X -rays were taken of the back, revealing it to be like that of an
18 year old.
Patient’s health deteriorated rapidly.
She was advised at this point of advanced bone cancer. Her pelvic bone looked like Swiss cheese. She was told that she had 2
weeks to live and to go to Hawaii for her last days. Patient immediately started calcium treatments and looking after her cal cium
needs. By now the tumor had broken through causing unbearable pain. She was taken to a hospital and given morphine. Her
condition warranted being put on a terminal list during this visit. She left the hospital and went to New Mexico and underwen t heat
treatment s. During her visit there she broke her leg. By now the cancer was a large, oozing, bloody, open sore and was beyond a
surgical remedy. During this period she gave her life over to the Lord and experienced a major turning point. She advises tha t
holding an y negative thought patterns or resentments is absolutely lethal to well -being. These things will cause death to approach
and cannot be indulged in if recovery or healing is to take place.
She started to take Dr. Jensen’s advice wholeheartedly at this time.  Combined with new attitude and nutritional improvement, the
tide was turned and the tumor started to recede and heal. She has since taken the 3 -day cleansing treatment. The tumor is gone and
all signs of the cancer are gone also. Laboratory tests are nega tive. This woman is a very good patient in that she did not give up
and was willing to work hard and change her attitudes about life.
PATIENT 4
Phone call came today from a colema patient telling me that approximately the first part of November 1980, she s tarted wheezing
and coughing; also experienced aching all over the body. These were some of the past problems coming back. In August 1979, sh e
had a bad cold with wheezing. October of the same year, had to go into hospital in New York with a chest cold; ag ain in
November, had to be hospitalized for the same trouble; got to the point she could not take care of child. She came here in Fe bruary
1980 for a cleansing treatment, has had second treatment and has followed the maintenance program. When the past prob lem
recurred, she stopped her solid foods and used only potato peeling broth and soup; during this time, she took two colemas a d ay.
Within two days, she was feeling much better and is doing fine now. “Tell the Doctor thank God for the Colema!”
PATIENT 5
The following is a letter received from patient B.F., who received colema treatment in April 1980. Here is her report: “I am
dropping this note to let you know that the Tissue Cleansing Regimen which I took the first week in April cleared up the cyst s in
the breast which had troubled me. I hope to see Dr. Jensen at the Nutrition Workshop that he is going to teach in New Lebanon,
New York this summer from July 21 -28. I plan to drive over for the day and, if possible, have Dr. Jensen examine me. He had
wanted to do so and he will be able to see the changes in me since I have been following the colema regimen.
PATIENT 6
I had a call the other day from a man - a personal friend of mine who has been


completely get rid of his glasses and could cure pain in the chest by Urine Therapy.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  VISION  “Kalyanji Lakhani has described the various benefits he received from Urine Therapy: (1)  He had been a slave to glasses for the last 45 years. With the putting of drops of urine, 4 days old, in the eyes, he is now able to do without glasses for a number of hours with no inconvenience at all. (2) There was tremor in his hands. With Urine Therapy, he was able to hold a cup or dish steadily. (3) Before treatment, he was compelled to urinate every 10  to 15  minutes. Now it is so only after 2 or 2 1/2  hours. (4) His constant uneasiness of body had gone, and instead he feels vigor.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  VISION  “S. Dsbhai, in a letter of July 21st, 1960,  writes that at the ripe age of seventy three he got rid of his glasses completely by washing his eyes daily with fresh urine.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  VISION 206  “ R.B. Parikh was getting dim vision, and he was compelled to use strong glasses. He began drinking urine for a period of five months. As a result the defect of refraction in his eyes were removed, and they appeared very bright. There were certain reactions as well during the treatment. For a couple of days, there was heaviness in his head and pricking sensation in his throat. But gradually all the complaints ceased. There was much elimination of phlegm through the nose. But ultimately health was restored, and the experiment proved successful.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  VISION  “Bhikhaji Kalaji, age 41, is a resident of Ahmedabad. He suffered from throbbing  pain in the temples along with headaches. His vision was also dim, and he was unable to see anything in the late evening or at night. His eyes constantly remained red and watery. Through poor, he had already spent a lot of money on treatment. An eye-specialist of Ahmedabad examined his eyes and said that they could be cured  only when the excess poisonous fluid behind the pupils is removed by an operation. Bhikhaji was shocked. He feared that an operation could result in blindness which might leave his family in a helpless situation.  So he began to wash his eyes twice or three times daily with urine. In  addition, he drank three ounces of it once or twice a day. Within a week he had some relief in his eyes, and so he continued the treatment with faith. Within the month of treatment, his headache, throbbing pain in the temples  and pain in the eyes disappeared totally. Natural whiteness returned to his eyes, and watering ceased. Not only his vision became clear, but night-blindness also was removed.”  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  VISION  Teresa Miramontes Fui { Mexico } I went to a chemistry conference and on the following day, began with my fasting for three days, taking my urine as she had indicated to me. I also applied it in my eyes directly every night and morning. In 15 days, I felt that I no longer need anything else. Successively, I no longer need to use eyeglasses. Before this, my diagnosis of the doctors was that I would go little by little losing my sight. Now I am perfectly well. Thanks to God."  207 World-wide Case Histories of Urine Therapy by Gary Ward  VISION  Carmen N. Mexico. "I cured myself in 5 days drinking my Urine. I cured my eyes, because I couldn’t even read the church bulletin, Over the last ten years, I couldn’t see well. I also had a wart that disappeared. I put urine on it for 20 days and it fell off. Thanks to God."  World-wide Case Histories of Urine Therapy by Gary Ward  VISION  Daisy C. of Caves { Mexico } "I have a month taking my Urine. My problem was that I was going blind and now I see perfectly. I always marked 200 sugar count and now I have managed 120 sugar count. It hurt my entire body and in just a month I am totally cured and happy thanks to God and this therapy."  World-wide Case Histories of Urine Therapy by Gary Ward  VOMITING  “In Jeera Shri Nattha Singh of 52 years was having pain in his stomach and disturbances. Whatever he ate would be thrown out through mouth. Excretion through anus was not possible. At the advice of Vaidya Rama Swarupji he began taking urine of to be ejected through anus. And he became healthy and free from disease. How wonderful is this remedy!”  from Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  VOMITING BLOOD  Dr. Gunanidhi Bhatt reports the following case: “M.D. Mehta, twenty-five years of age, was an unmarried man. About a dozen doctors had diagnosed him as a T.B. patient and had given treatment. They had given up on the case as incurable. Occasionally he had attacks of blood-vomiting and dysentery. The temperature continued from 100 to 101 degrees along with the cough. He could not relish or digest any food. His body was reduced to a bare skeleton. Even the slightest exertion caused gasping.  208 I gave him homeopathic treatment for about four months and he felt some relief. After two months, the patient again sent for me, and after examination, I found that the disease was still there. I advised him to drink one ounce of his own urine in the morning, and it was gradually increased to 3 oz. and three times a day. He was also advised to rub urine before going to bed and wash the body with warm water the next morning. The improvement began with the first day of the treatment and gradual relief was felt in dysentery, fever, digestion, vomiting, weakness and anemia. Due to dysentery, the weight had been reduced to 80 lbs., but it increased to 100 lbs. by two month's of treatment. There was an astonishing improvement in his appearance, nature, color, vigor in the body. Nobody could say Mahta had suffered from a fatal disease. I had permitted him from the very beginning to take a simple and digestible diet, as it was dangerous to keep such a weak patient on a fast."  Urine Therapy by Dr. John O'Quinn  ********************************* W ********************************* WASHING   Ms. M.L., Ireland "I recently heard about you and the therapy you work with. I want to let you know that in this part of Ireland where I live, till recently baby's were washed with urine. Also, children were often told to use their pee whenever they got wounded or cut in the fields. Unfortunately also here'modern' life takes its toll and people start to think their old methods are primitive."   The Golden Fountain by Coen van der Kroon  WEIGHT LOSS  A young woman who gained a lot of weight after marriage wanted to look slim like pre-marriage time. She wanted some medicine from me. I advised her to fast to which she replied that while fasting she felt very weak and after breaking fast she ate double the amount of usual food so it was of no use. I then asked her to fast with urine and water. Fortunately this girl has had a previous experience of urine therapy for the treatment of pains in menses and she was convinced of its effectiveness. She promised to follow the advice and lost extra weight by fasting five times in a month for two days at a stretch. She has been able to retain her looks since then. She takes urine often and fasts occasionally. The secret of success is that while fasting with urine, the patient does not feel weakness as in ordinary fasting. 209  Miracles of Urine Therapy by Morarji Desai  WET DREAMS  “Shri Ramesh Nathani, B.Sc., D.T.C. is a promising youth. He is not addicted to any dissipating habit nor is given to fineries. For about three years he was embarrassed with nocturnal emissions. With my encouragement he began drinking urine twice a day from June 1975. And occasionally urine massage also. He could not follow dietetic regime. For the last month and a half there has been no complaint in the night and his weakness also has to an extent been cured.”  from Manav Mootra by R. M. Patel  WET DREAMS  “Shri Narshibhai S. Prajapati aged 36 (village Aghat, via Viramgam) had frequent nocturnal discharges. He came for treatment in the urine therapy centre from 28-7-62 to 4-8-62. His weight increased from 70 lbs. to 80 lb. He was completely cured but still was advised to continue drinking and massage of auto-urine.”  Manav Mootra by R.M. Patel  WHITE LEPROSY  “About 15 years ago, a man of thirty-five had suffered from white leprosy on his entire body. There were several patches of leprosy, big and small, on the head, face, chest, abdomen, hands and feet. Even his hair turned white. He happened to read about Urine Therapy and began a number of experiments on himself. He cured his eye trouble by drinking urine and began rubbing the urine to get rid of the white leprosy.  By systematic taking


 I had been so ‘pure!'
    On further reflection I remembered that I had a tendency toward constipation all through my childhood and young adulthood,
and that during my two pregnancies the press ure of the fetus on an already constipated bowel had made it worse resulting in the
distorted structure seen in the X -ray. This experience made it very clear that fasting, cleansing diets, and corrected diet would not
reverse damage already done. Proper di et and fasting would however, prevent the condition of the colon from getting any worse
than it already was.
    I then realized that I had just purchased the very tool I needed to correct my own colon, and I was eager to get home to get
started on it. I had previously thought that I was just going to use this machine for my patients, because they had been asking for
this kind of an adjunct to my services for some time. I ended up giving myself over a hundred colonics at the rate of three a  week
over many months. I then out of curiosity had another barium enema and X -ray to validate my results. Sure enough the picture
showed a colon that looked far more ‘normal' with no vulvulus. That little "e" had disappeared.

What Is Constipation?
    Most people think they are not constipated because they have a bowel movement almost every day, accomplished without
straining. I have even had clients tell me that they have a bowel movement once a week, and they are quite certain that they are not
constipated. The most su rprising thing to novice fasters is that repeated enemas or colonics during fasting begins to release many
pounds of undeniably real, old, caked fecal matter and/or huge mucus strings. The first -time faster can hardly believe these were
present. These old fecal deposits do not come out the first time one has enemas or necessarily the fifth time. And all of them will
not be removed by the tenth enema. But over the course of extended fasting or a long spell of light raw food eating with repe ated
daily enemas,  amazing changes do begin to occur. It seems that no one who has eaten a civilized diet has escaped the formation of
caked deposits lining the colon's walls, interfering with its function. This material does not respond to laxatives or casual ly
administere d enemas.
    Anyone who has not actually seen (and smelled) what comes out of an "average" apparently healthy person during colonics will
really believe it could happen or can accurately imagine it. Often there are dark black lumpy strings, lumps, or grav el, evil
smelling discs shaped like sculpted hemispheres similar to the pockets lining the wall of the colon itself. These discs are r ock-hard
and may come out looking like long black braids. There may also be long tangled strings of gray/brown mucous, she ets and flakes
of mucous, and worse yet, an occasional worm (tape worm) or many smaller ones. Once confronted however, it is not hard to
imagine how these fecal rocks and other obnoxious debris interfere with the proper function of the colon. They make the  colon's
wall rigid and interfere with peristalsis thus leading to further problems with constipation, and interfere with adsorption o f
nutrients.
    Our modern diet is by its "de -"nature, very constipating. In the trenches of the First World War, cheese was given the name
‘chokem ass' because the soldiers eating this as a part of their daily ration developed severe constipation. Eaten by itself or with
other whole foods, moderate amounts of cheese may not produce health problems in people who are capable of digesting dairy
products. But cheese when combined with white flour becomes especially constipating. White bread or most white -flour crackers
contain a lot of gluten, a very sticky wheat protein that makes the bread bind together and raise well. But whi te flour is lacking the
bran, where most of the fiber is located. And many other processed foods are missing their fiber.
    In an earlier chapter I briefly showed how digestion works by following food from the mouth to the large intestine. To fully
grasp  why becoming constipated is almost a certainty in our civilization a few more details are required. Food leaving the small
intestine is called chyme, a semi -liquid mixture of fiber, undigested bits, indigestible bits, and the remains of digestive enzymes.
Chyme is propelled through the large intestine by muscular contractions. The large intestine operates on what I dub the "chew
chew train" principle, where the most recent meal you ate enters the large intestine as the caboose (the last car of a train)  and helps
to push out the train engine (the car at the front that toots), which in a healthy colon should represent the meal eaten perh aps
twelve hours earlier. The muscles in the colon only contract when they are stretched, so it is the volume of the fecal m atter
stretching the large intestine that triggers the muscles to push the waste material along toward the rectum and anus.
    Eating food lacking fiber greatly reduces the volume of the chyme and slows peristalsis. But moving through fast or slow, the
colon still keeps on doing another of its jobs, which is to transfer the water in the chime back into the bloodstream, reducin g
dehydration. So the longer chime remains in the colon, the dryer and harder and stickier it gets. That's why once arrived at the "end
of the tracks" fecal matter should be evacuated in a timely manner before it gets to dry and too hard to be moved easily. Som e
constipated people do have a bowel movement every day but are evacuating the meal eaten many days or even a week previously.
    Most hygienists believe that when the colon becomes lined with hardened fecal matter it is permanently and by the very
definition of the word itself, constipated. This type of constipation is not perceived as an uncomfortable or overly full fee ling o r a
desire to have a bowel movement that won't pass. But it has insidious effects. Usually constipation delays transit time, incr easing
the adsorption of toxins generated from misdigestion of food; by coating and locking up significant portions of colon it  also
reduces the adsorption of certain minerals and electrolytes.
    Sometimes, extremely constipated people have almost constant runny bowels because the colon has become so thickly and
impenetrably lined with old fecal matter that it no longer removes  much moisture. This condition is often misinterpreted as
diarrhea. The large intestine's most important task is to transfer water -soluble minerals from digested food to the blood. When a
significant part of the colon's surface becomes coated with impermea ble dried rigid fecal matter or mucus it can no longer
assimilate effectively and the body begins to experience partial mineral starvation in the presence of plenty. It is my obser vation
from dozens of cases that when the colon has been effectively cleanse d the person has a tendency to gain weight while eating
amounts of food that before only maintained body weight, while people who could not gain weight or who were wasting away
despite eating heavily begin to gain. And problems like soft fingernails, bone loss around teeth or porous bones tend to improve.

    The history of my own constipation, though it especially relates to a very rustic childhood, is typical of many people. I was  also
raised on a very constipating diet which consisted largely of processed cheese and crackers. Mine was accelerated by shyne ss,
amplified by lack of comfortable facilities.
    I spent my early years on the Canadian prairies, where everybody had an outhouse. The fancy modern versions are frequently
seen on construction sites. These are chemical toilets, quiet different than th e ones I was raised with because somebody or
something mysteriously comes along, empties them and installs toilet paper. The ones I'm familiar with quickly developed a ba d-
smelling steaming mound in the center --or it was winter when the outhouse was so col d that everything froze almost before it hit
the ground in the hole below. (And my rear end seemed to almost freeze to the seat!) The toilet paper was usually an out of s eason
issue of Eatons mail order catalogue with crisp glossy paper. Perhaps it is a pe culiarity of the north country, but at night there are
always monsters lurking along the path to the outhouse, and darkness comes early and stays late.
    When nature called and it was daylight, and there was no blizzard outside, the outhouse received a visit from me. If on the other
hand, when it was dark (we had no electricity), and there was a cold wind creating huge banks of snow, I would ‘just skip it,'
because the alternative --an indoor chamber pot, white enamel with a lid --was worse. This potty had  to be used more or less
publicly because the bedrooms were shared and there was no indoor bathroom. I was always very modest about my private parts
and private functions, and potty's were only used in emergencies, and usually with considerable embarrassme nt. No one ever
explained to me that it was not good for me to retain fecal matter, and I never thought about it unless my movements became s o
hard that it was painful to eliminate.
    Later in life, I continued this pattern of putting off bowel movement s, even though outhouses and potties were a thing


 Like many others, I  had heard of the
success of Dr. Kelley in working with cancer patients and at that time could think of
his nutritional program only as a cancer therapy.
After meeting Dr. Kelley and observing his simple, systematic investigation of the
individual body chemistry of our friend, my wife telephoned from Grapevine, Texas,
and insisted that I  immediately come meet this man, as she knew his logical approach
and reasonable conclusions would appeal to me. Early the next morning I  was 1,100
miles from the luxurious surroundings of my suburban Chicago office, seated in a tiny
frame house in a small Texas town. I  forgot my surroundings, however, as I  soon
realized that here was a man who not only was answering my questions but was re
opening doors in my mind that had long been shut.
As I  got better acquainted with Dr. Kelley, I  soon realized that any help his
Metabolic Medicine's Cancer Cure program gave to cancer patients was incidental to
the balancing of their individual body chemistry. I  began to apply these principles as
"nonspecific metabolic assistance" to meet my patient's individual needs. These
programs have been so successful in helping gain and maintain health for many that I
would like to call your attention to the "non-cancer" aspects of Metabolic Medicine's
concepts such as Dr. Kelley's Self-Test for The Different Metabolic Types. I  consider it
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my privilege to encourage you to carefully study this book and expand your horizons
of good health.
Jack O. Taylor, D.C.
Arlington Heights, IL
Dr. Richard Rovin (Naturopathic Doctor)
This book is for those who have a strong belief in the principle that the body can heal
itself and that nutrition is one of the keys to that healing. Nutrition has never before
been approached as systematically and as aggressively as by Dr. Kelley.
I  was originally attracted to the field of Naturopathy because of my belief in our
natural healing forces and it is the same belief that has given me faith in this type of
approach.
Food is more than separate nutritional factors; rather it is a combination of nutrients
that keep our body chemistry balanced and our organs in harmony and functioning
optimally. So taken one step further, it is used not only to prevent disease or
degeneration but, important to many of us, it may be used for regeneration and the
removal of disease.
This new book will show that Dr. Kelley is constantly perfecting his work so it may
help the most difficult cases and shed light on our biochemical individuality. This is
truly the most important key to the development of a successful health program and
this is why this book offers an avant-garde concept for today's health needs.
Doctors from all the professions are searching for the "magic bullet" that will
prevent disease and maintain health. Some expect to find it in a synthetic drug and
others in a particular natural substance, but the search is in vain for we must
appreciate our body's holistic needs and one agent alone cannot satisfy this. This
approach considers nutrients for all the body's systems.
I  anticipate further insights into one's well being and greater health benefits for the
people that follow and use the information in this book. Superior health services are
already available to us. The IHI founded by Dr. Kelley is the first fruit of this research.
Later I  expect these methods of analysis to act as a bridge between the different
professions for the betterment of mankind.
It is a great joy to be part of this advanced system of healing. I  appreciate the honor
Mr. Rohe has afforded me by asking me to share my thoughts. I  believe I  represent my
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profession when I  say that we are grateful to the past achievements of Dr. Kelley and
cheer on and support future successes.
Richard Rovin, N.D.
Waialua, HI
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F o r D octors O nly
For Those W h o  S lept T h rou gh E m bryology Classes
FOR DOCTORS ONLY
(including those of you on Dr. Kelley's Program)
The S c ie n tific Basis o f the K elley M e ta b o lic  C ancer C ure
by
Professor Kathy P. Fairbanks, Ph.D. (Em bryology)
What is Cancer?
Cancer is a process misunderstood by the medical community. Cancer is
classified by the medical community as a fast-growing malignant tumor, which, if
allowed to grow unchecked, w ill cause death. Many clinicians believe that cancer is
a complex: a number of different diseases, each having its own cause. Most doctors,
even research scientists, suppose such things as viruses, X-rays, cigarette smoking,
chemicals, sunlight, and trauma cause cancer. However there are a growing number
of cancer researchers who believe that these factors, rather than causing cancer, are
indirect stimulators of a normal trophoblast-like pleuripotential cell. This trophoblast-
like cell then makes its "false placenta", a malignant tumor mass, which the medical
community calls cancer.
In the Beginning
In the first five days after fertilization in the formation of a human embryo, the
growing mass of cells divides into two kinds of cells, an inner cell mass
(embryoblasts) which w ill become the embryo, and an outer layer of cells called the
trophoblast, which later forms the placenta. This process is so complex that less than
half of the developing masses ever progress past this stage. Something goes wrong
with normal development and they are expelled from the woman's body before they
can implant themselves in the uterus.
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After the cell mass attaches to the wall of the uterus, the trophoblasts invade the
lining of the uterus, growing quickly and invasively, as a tumor does when invading
an organ of a human body. The trophoblast cells invade, digest a hole in the wall of
the uterus and form a multinucleated mass with no cell boundaries, which looks
under the microscope like the cells of a carcinoma. During this invasion of the
trophoblasts into the uterine wall, the pregnant woman may feel nauseous with
"morning sickness" due to the trauma of being assailed by this cancer-like mass. As
small blood vessels are invaded and digested by the invading trophoblast, pools of
blood form in the tissue which nourish the growing mass. The failure of the maternal
tissue to reject this implantation has always puzzled embryologists and
immunologists. One current view is that the trophoblasts cells lack a certain protein
on their surfaces, and thus are not recognized as foreign by the mother's body.
Primary Germ Cells
During the time that the trophoblast cells are aggressively infiltrating the
maternal tissue, the inner cell mass is organizing itself into a three part disc, shaped
like a flying saucer. These three parts of the disc are called the three primary germ
layers, or the ectoderm, the endoderm and the mesoderm. Each of these three layers
becomes a different part of the human body. The ectoderm becomes the skin, the
brain, and the nerves. "Ecto" means surface, and indeed these cells become the
surface covering of the body, and the nerves which are the interface of the body with
the outside world. The endoderm becomes the linings of many organs, such as the
lungs, the intestines, liver, and pancreas. "Endo" means within, and indeed these cells
become almost all of the linings of the body. The mesoderm becomes the muscles,
blood, bone, and the reproductive organs. "Meso" means middle, and these
mesoderm cells, which form as the middle layer of the disc, become the vast majority
of the cells of the body, forming almost all of the different cell types.
This process of organ formation involves extensive migration of certain cells from
the disc to their future sites. The mesoderm cells come from an area on the disc
known as the primitive streak. Under a microscope, a dark streak progresses visibly
along the center of the disc from the tail end to the head end of the disc. This
primitive streak is caused as ectodermal cells drive down into the middle of the disc,
like the filling of a sandwich, becoming mesodermal cells in the process. This
migrating of ectodermal cells becoming mesodermal cells happens very early in
development, between two weeks and three weeks after the trophoblasts begin
invading the uterus of the mother. These migrating cells, which come from the
primitive streak, are pleuripotent. The mesoderm cells are called pleuripotential,
because under different circumstances they are able to follow more than one pathway
of development. In other words, mesoderm cells can potentially form many kinds of
tissue. They are cells which are closest in nature to the unruly aggressive
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trophoblastic cells that have formed the placenta.
This broad developmental potential of the pleuripotential cells becomes more
and more restricted and checked as the tissues acquire the specialized control
mechanisms to guide the cells in their development. Increasingly complicated
migrations of cells occur as the body of the new human is forming. For instance in the
ectoderm, neural


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Cooking With Distilled Water
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11
  Comparing Orga
nic & Inorganic Minerals …... 78

12
  Mineral Chelates
 Are Not Created Equal …..... 82

13
  Carbon Filters: “Cheapest
” Water Treatment

...  But Are They Effective?
 …......................... 86

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40 Years of Fasting With Distilled Water
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.. 92

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Fasting – Distilled Water – Exercise
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Preface

This book will expose the myths and falsehoods while
revealing the
 truths
about water quality and its relationship to health
and longevity
.

Think of what you need to merely survive. Food? Water? Air? Cell
phones? Obviously, by the book
’
s title, I
’
m going to
concentrate on
 water.
Water is of major importance to all living things;
in some
 organisms, up to
90% of their body weight comes
from water
. Up to 60-70% of the human
body is
water;
 the brain
is composed
 of over 70-72% water, and the lungs
nearly 90%.
Lean muscle
 tissue contains about 75% water by weight, as
is the brain
; body
 fat contains 10-12% water and bone has 20-22% water.
About 83% of our blood is water, which helps digest our food
, transport
waste, and control body temperature. Each day
humans must
 replace 2.5
to 3
quarts of
 water lost through the excretory  system,  with most of it
replaced through drinking, and the rest  from our foods.

So it only stands to reason that the quality and quantity of
water we
replace daily has a direct bearing on our health and longevity.
I will be sharing many statistics and facts in this book while reiterating
some of what I already said in several chapters. We all learn from
repetition, therefore it has been said that the best speakers, teachers and
preachers will tell you what they
’
re going to tell you, then they will tell you,
and then they will tell you what they told you. So you hear it three times!

CHAPTER 1
What Is Distilled Water?

Why is it that water (H
2
O), which is the second
simplest

substance

next to
oxygen (O), seems to be much too complicated for some medical doctors
to
figure out? Not only is water number two in importance,
 it also happens
to be the most important next to oxygen for our survival. For the survival
of the Earth, for that matter. All living things require water to survive and
without a continuous supply, the average human will perish in only a few
days.

Water is required for our bodies to produce blood, lymph, digestive
juices,
lubric
ants, bile, extracellular fluid
 and cytoplasm, the fluid inside the plasma
membrane. It is common knowledge that most municipal and private water
supplies are severely polluted with everything from chlorine,
trihalomethanes, nitrates, pesticides, herbicides, heavy metals and
chemicals of every kind, to jet fuel
and pharmaceuticals. Consider
 the factthat since the government established
“
the priority pollutant list
”
 of 126
known cancer-causing chemicals:

Each year the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency reviews an
average of 1,700 new compounds that industry is seeking to
introduce. Yet the 1976 Toxic Substances Control Act requires
that they be tested for any ill effects before approval only if
evidence of potential harm exists—which is seldom the case for
new chemicals. The Agency approves about 90 percent of the
new compounds without restrictions. Only a quarter of the
82,000 chemicals in use in the U.S. have ever been tested for
toxicity. And there are no guidelines for so called “safe” levels in
drinking water established for any of these pollutants.

Some of
these pollutants can be found in every water supply
in
America
,
including rivers, streams, lakes, reservoirs, wells,
and municipal
water supplies.
David Ewing Duncan, National Geographic
 As a consequence of this alarming condition of America
’
s drinking water
sources, the bottled water industry has developed into a $15 billion profit
industry, including bottled waters, sports drinks, water purifiers such as
reverse osmosis (RO)
,
 distillation, filtration, plus the current fad of ionizers
that produce “alkaline” water.

ONE OUT OF 4 DRINKS CONSUMED
IN AMERICA IS A SOFT DRINK!Let’s talk about filtration and distillation.

FILTERS:
  Regardless of the process or the technology behind it,
the
main
 purpose of these devices is to produce the cleanest, purest
,
healthiest
 water possible. The most commonly used method
for cleaning
up tap water is the carbon block filter which removes
the water’s
 bad
taste, smell, chlorine, nitrates and many chemicals.  It is
,
 indeed
,
 the most
economical form of water treatment available
; however
, it comes with
several serious drawbacks:



It does not remove all chemicals present;


Chemicals can build up in the filter to dangerous concentrations
which end up in your body if you don
’
t change the  filter
regularly;


A carbon filter is a breeding ground for bacteria and germs;


The filter can develop channeling from water taking the path of
least resistance.
Therefore, unfiltered water can pass
straight through the
filter, unobstructed.

The second most popular and effective filter system is reverse osmosis.
The RO process involves a special membrane which most pollutants
cannot pass through, in addition to prefiltering and post-filtering, to ensure
that 99% of the pollutants are removed.

The most effective process of rem
oving everything from the water,
including bacteria and cysts
,
 is steam distillation – along with
a post
-
carbon filter to catch any resid
ual volatile gases that escape
with the
steam. Because distilled water is pure, clean H
2
O and
has a
 pH of 7
(neutral on the pH scale of 1 to 14 with “1” being
acid and
 “14” alkaline), it
is used in science and medical
laboratories and
 research facilities
including biology and chemistry
lab
s due
 to
its pure neutral qualities.

Unlike with RO and distillation, filtration and the ionizers do not remove the
hardness or inorgan
ic minerals from the water.

                                                                According to Dr. Charles Mayo of the Mayo Clinic and the American
Medical Association, Harvard Medical School, along with many doctors
and  nutritional experts, have determine
d that very few of the minerals
found
 in water are
organic
,
 nor are they chelated
or
able  to be absorbed
easily
by our cells and tissues. Consequently,
 they contribute to many
ailments and
diseases related
 to the intestinal tract. They also contribute to
kidney stones
, gall stones, hardening of the arteries and plaque buildup
in
the
 colon. Dr. Charles M
ayo, Founder of the Mayo Clinic, said,
“
water
hardness
”
 is the underlying cause of many, if not all, of
the diseases
resulting from poisons in the intestinal tract.

These (hard minerals) pass from the intestinal walls and get into the
lymphatic system, which delivers all of its products to the blood which, in
turn, distributes to all parts of the body. This is the cause of much human
disease. Since the ionizers and filters do not remove the minerals from the
water (including chemicals and other toxins), advocates, manufacturers
and sales associates malign the use of reverse osmosis and the distillation
process.

They claim that the minerals in water are good for you and that these two
processes remove the
“
valuable
”
 minerals. They also go so far as to say
that because reverse osmosis and distilled water is so pure, they will leach
good minerals from your body, depleting the supply. Promoters of alkaline
water even say that distilled water is an acidic which causes it to dissolve
even more minerals.
Distilled has a pH of 7 (neutral).

The alkaline water industry is now extremely profitable and has become so
by making false medical claims that
this
water can cure a myriad of
diseases and prevent many others. In order to support their claim that
alkaline water is superior to any other purified water, they must find fault
with the two purest and healthiest water purification processes available.
The main reason for the popularity of the alkaline water machine is
because of the exorbitant profits and the fact that it is sold through multi-
level marketing (MLM). Each machine retails at between $2,000 and
$5,000.Can clean water and dirty water both flow from the same spring?

There are medical doctors such as Dr. Joseph Mercola and Dr. Zoltan
Rona who also promote an


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Eight days after I already felt better,
very safe, very content and with a desire to work.
I no longer returned to have pressure. So far I did not see without lenses
small letters and now J see perfectly without them.
TESTIMONY 85*
ASTHMA~ COllTlS
Emma R. of Red Meza { Mexico }
I made the method of Urine-therapy for 2 months. I did three days of fasting per
week and several of my diseases like asthma, colitis left me including body pains.
Now I feel far better.
TESTIMONY 86*
HVP£RT£NS10N~ D1AB£T£S
Octavio S. Avila {Mexico}
For 13 days after taking my Urine, my high blood pressure and diabetes
disappeared. The Urine no longer tastes sweet.
I do not feel weak nor with hunger.
I am cured but I have not made the fasting, but I will.
96 TESTIMONY 87*
ASTHMA. All£RGV
Ma. of J. Jimenez { Mexico }
I was cured of asthma and allergy.
I have been having taking the Urine for 9 months from two to three times per day,
and thanks to God already I am well.
TESTIMONY 88*
D1AB£T£S
Sabino Hernandez {Mexico}
My disease is diabetes. I never took care of it until a day that darkened my vision
when I was driving on a highway. To be exact it was the 24th of June 1996.
My eye doctor diagnosed diabetic Retinopathy in the fourth degree for which I
allowed myself an operation with laser ray. The Dr. did an operation on my retina.
In the following months of my disease, by conversations with several of my
clients, I obtained information of Urine-therapy.
Since they drank their own urine, they found out by means of a Q.F.B.,
and they gave testimony to have been cured by means of the Urine-therapy.
From this date I am taking my own Urine.
I feel very well from my diabetes and I am recovering my vision.
Thanks to God and the message of faith, love and hope
that Mrs. Sonia distributes this information.
TESTIMONY 89*
M£NSTRVAl RAT£. HYP£RT£"NT10N
Ma. of J. Gutierrez {Mexico}
It had difficulties in my fingers. I no longer could close them well and it felt as if
I touched electricity. After my fasting my fingers work better. I no longer hurt
and I can close them well. I also discovered that my menopause was better.
My normal menstruation was every three months and now I can menstruate
every month. I feel very active, without laziness. My blood pressure is normal
and I am very happy, Thanks to God.
TESTIMONY 90*
COVGH. N£RV£S
Maria Teresa And Santibanez {Mexico}
97 For 2 months I have been taking Urine without fasting.
Two years ago I began with baldness and also had syndrome of arms and neck
for 2 to 3 years to date. Also some other problems and cough because of
smoking. Thank God that I encountered the book of Urine-therapy
TESTIMONY 91 *
OST£0POROS1S. ARTHRlTlS. HY1'£RT£NT10N
Mrs. Maria Of The B. Martinez { Mexico }
From the 11th of February 1996 I was taking Urine
because they diagnosed me with severe osteoporosis and deformative arthritis
of the fingers, shoulders and back.
Two years before they were going to operate on the bones,
but a specialist doctor commented that he did not have a case to operate
because the prob1em wou1d return soon.
My fingers continued becoming deformed.
I began with this Urine-therapy 4 months ago and approximately 2 months ago I
noticed that the balls that were forming in the knuckles of the fingers
disappeared. I no longer could sleep with my mouth up because I woke up with a
headache and pain in my back. My back was twisted with pain, my knees lost
strength and I could not last 10 minutes to walk up stairs. I had to cut my hair
because l no longer could comb my hair in the back of my head.
I also felt that my shoulders left their place. I had colitis and stomach aches.
Now already I can do everything without feeling more than natural fatigue.
Today I no longer take large amounts of medicine and I no longer have any of my
diseases, thanks to God.
TESTIMONY 92*
CANC£R lN BREAST
Mrs. Graciela P. Solis {Mexico}
In August of 1995, they detected a tumor in my left breast, they operated on me
and it was cancerous of which 13 ganglia were maJignant and 7 benign.
They applied chemotherapy and radiation later.
In January of 1996 new cancer extended to the bones of pelvis. 1 began to take
Urine and at the moment I am better.
Thanks to God and Mrs. Sonia who put it in my way.
TESTIMONY 93*
MAMMARY CYST
Rose Alba P. Gonzalez { Mexico }
98 By means of this testimony I want to thank God who gave me back my health and
to say to the people who have my problem, that it can be cured.
It is only the question of making the method exactly and to have faith in God.
I very was distressed by a cyst that was detected in my breast.
The doctor said that the only solution to know if the tumor is benign or malignant
is to do a biopsy, or to operate directly to remove it.
It gave me much sadness to think about this operation.
Months later the book of Urine-therapy of Chemistry arrived in my hands by
Sonia. 1 read and had such great enthusiasm, that 1 finished two fasts of three
days. My cyst disappeared completely and bless it to God I was with the doctor
and he was astonished but he asked me what I had done and when I told him,
he was very interested in the method.
TESTIMONY 94*
ARTHR1T1S~ TONSlllTlS~ lNFARCT
Jose Guadalupe S. Gonzalez { Mexico }
A year ago for three months,
I started with the method of Urine-therapy because I a case of disease.
I had pains in the joints, rheumatoid arthritis, dental decays.
Today I can say to them that I am cured completely of the diseases.
I also must mention in addition I now have black hair.
My age is 70 years o1d and since 1 take Urine 1 fee11ike 50 years o1d.
I thank God and Chemistry by the knowledge of this method.
TESTIMONY 95*
M£N01'AVS£
Marisol Manges { Mexico }
I am 45 years old and when beginning to take my Urine-therapy.
I suffered from menopause, at 28 years old I had my tubes tied.
I had shame, insomnia, nerves and smoked heavily
. Today, after 6 months 1 can say to everyone,
I now do not smoke and I feel perfectly well.
TESTIMONY 96*
MlGRAlN£
Gloria Vazquez. {Mexico}
I have been many years suffering from migraine, and since I began to take my
blessed orina, I began to feel the benefits because the strong pains in the head
99 were taking from me. Today I can say that thanks to God I am cured completely
and I feel with great desire to make many things out of my life.
I am more dynamic and I feel perfectly well,
thanks to the Urine that gave me tremendous energy.
TESTIMONY 97*
ARTHRlTlS, DlAB£T£S, MlGRAlN£
Ofelia Margarita Flores M { Mexico }
I had listened to Urine-therapy with my best friend. She did not take it serious.
later I had the Juck to listen to a taJk of it and Chemistry on the radio.
Recently they diagnosed me with migraine, diabetes, arthritis, uric acid,
cholesterol and outgrowth in my right eye.
This time I took the Urine and my headache is gone, my eye has improved
remarkably and I do not think of leaving my therapy.
TESTIMONY 98*
t.ARVNGlTlS
Ma. Conception R. Rodriguez { Mexico }
I began the 16th of July 1996 and with one fast of two days, thanks God I am
alleviated of an acute laryngitis which I had for 25 suffering years.
Now with the blessed Urine and God, it has been already eliminated completely.
TESTIMONY 99*
C1ST1C£RCOS1S
Ana Squares { Mexico }
I have Cisticercosis. The hospital evicted me for they had no future help for me.
They gave only one month fife for my future but in December of


 of f. In psychiatry this
mechanism is called displacem ent. It is because we are angry that events
‘make’ us angry.”
Dr. David R. Hawkins, fr om  Letting Go
Don’ t yo u feel exactly like a p ressure cooker when a bad feeling like anger
sweeps over you strongly and  really fast? If you know of someone who
suf fers f rom fre quent anger, it m eans that they’ve suppressed a lot of anger,
most likely in th e earlier years of their life. They’re also sure to believe that
it’ s other people or circumstances that bring on a bout of their anger, but most
definitely it’ s their suppressed anger that is the sole cause.
“The rea l source of ‘stress’ is actually internal; it is not exter nal, as people
would li ke to believe. The readiness to react with fear, for inst ance, depends
on h ow much fear is already present within to be triggered by a  stimulus. The
more fear we have on the inside, the more our perception of the world is
changed to a fearful, guarded ex pectancy. T o the fearful person, this world is a
terrifying place.  T o the angry person, this world is a chaos of frustration and
vexation. T o the guilty person, i t is a world of temptation and s in, which they
see everywhere. What we are holding inside colors our world. If we let go of
guilt, w e will see innocence; however, a guilt-ridden person will see only
evil.”
Dr. David R. Hawkins, fr om  Letting Go
So, when you next experience a negative feeling sweeping over you,
remember that no matter how it might appear to you, you’re experiencing it
because it is alr eady  i nside you—not because an  outside person or
circumstance caused it.
Y ou would think we would have worked this out, wouldn’ t you? After all, it’ s
clear from our experience that negative feelings arise from inside  our body.
Not one of us has ever walked down a street and had to dodge negative
feelings flying toward us! Y ou’l l never find a negative feeling outside of your
body, or anybody else’ s body. It is our r eaction  t o a per son, cir cumstance, or
event th at is the cause of negative feelings, not the actual person,
circumstance, or event.
Honey, I Shrunk MyselfNegative feeling s are ener gized even further when we believe that a negative
feeling is who we are. How can we be a feeling? Y et when we identify with a
feeling, it means we have shrunk our Infinite Self right down, because we’re
allowing ourselves to be ruled by one puny little feeling.
“Thoughts and emotions seem powerful because we give the m ener gy. By
letting them rise and fall of their own, they simply move on.”
Kalyani Lawry
“It is not true to say, ‘I am sad.’ W e should say instead, ‘At this moment a
feeling o f sadness is flowing thr ough me.’ If we just let the feel ing of sadness
flow, we  autom atically and unknowingly take our stand in tha t which is not
flowing.”
Francis Lucille, fr om  The Perfume of Silence
Ask yourself: Are you the feeling of sadness, or are you the one that’ s aware
of the sadness?
Y ou’r e the one that’ s awar e of the sadness.
W ere you here before the sadness came?
I’m pr etty sur e you wer e.
W ill you still remain after the sadness leaves?
I hope you will still be her e.
W ill you lose a bit of yourself when the sadness goes?
I sur e hope not.
Y es, you were here before the sadness came, and yes, you’re here after it
leaves, fully intact, because you  are not sadness. Sadness is something you’re
awar e of. It’ s  not at all who you are. Don’ t let a feeling shrink you down to
the s ize of a pea, when you are  the Infinite Being that holds the Universe in
place!
“Stop acting so small. Y ou are the universe in ecstatic motion.”Rumi
My teacher suggested that I question every  negative feeling with:
“Am I that, or am I the one that is aware of it?”
This question immediately takes most of the power out of the feeling because
it stops you from identifying with it.
“See tha t though ts and feelings are like a train that enters a station and then
leaves; be like the station, not like a passenger.”
Rupert Spira, fr om  The Ashes of Love
Notice that feelings appear and  then disappear, and that it’ s you, A wareness,
that is aware of them when the y first appear and aware of them when they
disappear.
“Negative feelin gs are in you, not in reality. Never identify with that feeling.
It has nothing to do with the ‘I. ’ Don’ t define your essential self in terms of
that feel ing. Don ’ t say, ‘I am depressed.’ If you want to say, ‘It is depressed,’
that’ s al l right. If you want to say, ‘Depression is there,’ that’ s fine; if you
want to say, ‘Gl oominess is there,’ that’ s fine. But not: ‘I am gloomy.’ Y ou’re
defining yourself in terms of t he feeling. That’ s your illusion; that’ s your
mistake. There is a depression there right now, there are hurt feelings there
right now, but let it be, leave it alone. It will pass. Everything passes,
everything.”
Anthony de Mello, S.J., fr om  A wareness: Conversations with the Masters
“Say to your mind, ‘Get as worked up or depressed as you wa nt. I am only
ever going to observe or ignore you, but I am not going to join you.’”
MoojiIt’ s an Inside Job
“Imagine a patient who goes to a doctor and tells him what he is suf fering
from. The doctor says, ‘V ery well, I’ve understood your symp toms. Do you
know what I w ill do? I will prescribe a medicine for your n eighbor!’ The
patient r eplies, ‘Thank you very much, Doctor, that makes me feel much
better.’ I sn’ t tha t absurd? But that’ s what we all do. The person  who is asleep
always thinks he’ll feel better if somebody else changes. Y ou’re suf fering
because you are asleep, but you’re thinking, ‘How wonderful li fe would be if
somebody else would change; how wonderful life would be if  my neighbor
changed, my wife changed, my boss changed.’”
Anthony de Mello, S.J., fr om  A wareness: Conversations with the Masters
Don’ t expect people, circumstances, and events to change fo r you to feel
better, because none of them ever will. Y ou’ll never be happy if you wait for
the world to change according to your desires or your expectations. T o change
how you feel in any given moment is always an inside job.
“W e spend all o ur time and ener gy trying to change external c ircumstances,
trying to change our spouses, our bosses, our friends, our enemies, and
everybody else. W e don’ t have to change anything. Negative f eelings are in
you. No person on earth has the power to make you unhappy... Nobody told
you this; they told you the opposite.”
Anthony de Mello, S.J., fr om  A wareness: Conversations with the Masters
Negative feeling s are self-inflicted. W e’re the ones who cause our own stress
and upset, as much as we would like to think that our stress and upset are
inflicted upon us from the world around us.
“The actions of others do not have the power to grant you or deny you peace.”
Jac O’Keeffe
“No eve nt justifies a negative feeling. There is no situation in the world that
justifies a negative feeling. That’ s what all our mystics have  been crying
themselves hoar se to tell us. But nobody listens. The negative  feeling is in
you.”
Anthony de Mello, S.J., fr om  A wareness: Conversations with the Masters
It’ s good news  that we inflict negative feelings on ourselves, because it means
we h ave the power to stop doing it! And when we suf fer enou gh with those
bad feelings, we will want to find a way out. Nothing teaches us to look for a
way out more than unhappine ss and being miserable. Even better news,
there’ s a simple way to end bad feelings—for good.C H A P T E R  6  S u m m a r y
When you ar e fr ee of all negative feelings, what r emains is
the Infinite A war eness that you  ar e, and your life will be
absolutely br eathtaking.
Thoughts cr eate feelings. The kinds of thoughts you have
will cr eate the same kinds of feelings.
What you feel inside will match pr ecisely with your
experience in the outside world.
Feeling good is your