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I've been going in mental loops recently, where I function for a bit, get afraid of something (like job hunting or whatever), the anxiety builds up more and more until I'm unable to function at all.
Now I'm wondering whether the unable to function part is because I'm being overstimulated by my emotions, because the anxiety itself may not be the direct cause of all the problems.
So does this make sense? Can you be overloaded by your own feelings, not just things from outside your brain?
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I hate everything and everyone, nothing is fun, I'm only happy when I'm stoned out of my fucking skull.
The only girl I dated broke up with me then killed herself.
I literally have a wicked stepmother (I'm waiting to celebrate when she dies) and I feel I need to push people away or else they get hurt.
I want to be gone, but death terrifies me.
I have no hope.
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depression
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I was shocked by this and immediately cut contact after this happened. Why would my so called "therapist" even say this? I have severe ocd and it makes my life nearly impossible day to day,and she said "just don't do the rituals".... You can't just STOP?! Wtf.
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We have 2 kids and it's really stressing me out. They're only kindergarteners at this point but I'm wondering what the odds are. I saw online that it's 50% if one parent has ADHD but couldn't find anything for both. My husband does so well and isn't medicated anymore but it's also clear it still affects him.
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The people who treated me like trash, who betrayed me and made me feel worthless, they have amazing lives full of happiness and validation. He has friends and people love him. He hurt me so bad, but his life is great while I sit here and fucking rot.
I'm sad, I'm depressed and I feel worthless. But above all, I am angry.
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Has anyone had any experience with groinal response? I suffer from POCD and false memories surrounding my theme. One of my false memories started when I held my 20 month old on a swing and got an overwhelming feeling of love then I started getting intrusive thoughts /racing thoughts and got a groinal response... I know this can be normal with OCD but my fear is that I leaned into that sensation for a second or is telling me maybe you wanted it to happen... I did move him off my lap pretty quickly when it happened but now I'm on constant replay in my head of if I did something wrong
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I don't really know if I should suspect about having OCD and would appreciate if you could reply if you relate. To start doing literally anything, I feel like I have to listen something to keep my mind busy. This is a big problem especially when I need to do serious work since I need to focus. The need to focus and inability to focus while listening something is making me unable to start to any task. Maybe it's totally normal and I'm overthinking but when I look around, it seems like other people do not have this need of listening something constantly.
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OCD
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Sorry if this is ranty
How do you do it?
We all know little kids require scheduling repeatability and order to learn especially when it comes to things like potty training. How the fuck do I do that!?!
I can’t hold myself to a routine how am I supposed to remember hey 45 minutes are up time to sit on potty or hey buddy let’s sit down and read or let’s go to the park? I’ve tried setting timers for myself and I either forget about it because i had to snooze it for whatever reason or once we get in sitting there while little man sits in the potty is torture!
How do you push past your executive dis functions to go outside or to do whatever is needed?
I know damn well the reason he’s not potty trained yet and the fact still speaks gibberish 25-50% of the time is due to my failures. I could scream and rage if I hear one more god damn time it will come with time yea no shit but I’d like to not worry about potty training and high school graduation at the same time.
How do I raise my 3yo when I can’t control my brain
Help me please.
Edit: I am medicated
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So I'm basically at my wits' end here. For context, I'm 22, always been very attracted to people around my age or older, zero issues there. Never have I ever inappropriately thought of kids, that's just vile, except for when this shit ass POCD started. Always suffered from OCD, diagnosed.
I'm getting the most fucked up and bizarre intrusive thoughts, etc. My POCD has been so bad and going on for so long, constantly, that now it seems like my brain doesn't see kids for what they are anymore - kids. Now it seems like my brain just sees them as sexual objects/triggers and tries to fetishize them (you don't know how disgusting that is to write, and obviously I most certainly DON'T actually feel that way or enjoy it, but alas, OCD). I had an intrusive thought the other day saying "what if kids had an adult mentality and p was normalized? would you be attracted to them then?" and "see there'd be nothing wrong with that" and all these other bizarre and nasty, nasty thoughts/scenarios.
Now I'm freaking the absolute fuck out. It feels like my brain is making them out to be a kink and sometimes it feels like I'm enjoying it and just denying it, even though it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach and I want nothing more for these hellish thoughts to go away. I feel like the constant intrusive thoughts/images, testing/checking compulsions, digging through my past, rumination, my brain associating kids to sexual-based OCD themes is conditioning me to turn into a p or some fucked up shit. Everyday it feels like I'm slowly turning more and more into a p, and I'm scared shitless. Can the OCD make it feel this real? Can it make it feel like you enjoy it? The groinal responses have become constant and it seems my groin reacts to every thought/image at this point. I don't know what's real anymore. It feels like I've "lost" my attraction for adults and "gained" one for kids. What the fuck is going on? Has anyone else felt this way and gotten the same thoughts? I'm truly losing my mind.
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Basically just the title. I'm just so sick of everything and that piece of advice specifically. I don't even have the energy to say any more. Life sucks, about it.
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I’ve noticed that if I’m in a season of my life where I’m not doing well, my brain tend to control my day to day decisions. It can be as simple as choosing to take the elevator or walking up the stairs. For example, as I reach the lobby, my brain would go, “your career will be doomed if you take the stairs.” And so I’ll make myself take the elevator. Or if I’m choosing to wear a pair of socks my brain would randomly go, “if you wear the blue socks, your relationship with your boyfriend would not last.” And I’d have to pick another pair of socks because I’ve mentally ‘cursed’ myself. I’m so tired of living with this. It can happen 3-4 times a day. I’ve had seasons of my life where I worry about nothing that this wouldn’t pop up.
I know it’s an irrational fear and it sounds dumb. But it’s so hard to to make it stop. If you have trouble understanding this, think of those chain messages in the past where it says “forward this message to 10 people or you’ll have 7 years of bad luck.” It’s something similar. Totally doesn’t make sense but people still forward it because of fear anyway.
My brain also likes to draw parallels between events. For example, I can’t bring myself to go to an ice skating rink with my current boyfriend because I went there with my manipulative ex. I also consciously avoid having the same hairstyles as my boyfriend’s ex girlfriend because I don’t want our relationship to be a copy of theirs. I’m afraid to get Lasik surgery done for my eyes because I’ve noticed many of my friends who got it done went through break ups afterwards. (Totally doesn’t make sense???) It feels like my brain is constantly search for a pattern, and it affects my life decisions to some degree, this strange fear of bad things repeating itself.
PS. I don’t think I have anxiety. I sleep well and eat well. I am seeing a therapist but just wanted some opinion off Reddit. I know I sound ridiculous, Please be kind and empathetic...
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TW: mention of sh and suicidal thoughts
I (17F) have been in therapy for the past four years. I have been seeing my current psychologist for just over a year. I realised I might have ADHD about 2 years ago now.
I have previously had bad experiences with therapists, which is part of what is making this so difficult for me. I first started therapy through my school after I told a teacher I was experiencing what I thought was depression. The school counsellor made me feel like I was over exaggerating, which reinforced my own invalidation of my feelings. I actually went downhill while still talking to this first counsellor and I started self-harming. I haven’t ever told anyone how bad it got.
I think I am scared that my current therapist will tell me that I’m wrong, or that I don’t have ADHD. I know I shouldn’t want to have a disorder, and I honestly don’t want ADHD. My issue is that I’m pretty sure I do have it, and I want to be getting the right help to be able to manage my symptoms.
Do I try and broach the subject with my current therapist?? I do have the means to see an external GP to get a referral for a psychologist/psychiatrist for diagnosis that way, so should I just do that instead??
The issue there is that I don’t have access to my parent’s medicare card and I’m pretty sure I would have to pay out of pocket for both which is quite expensive. To make it more difficult, this is time-sensitive, as many medications where I live are significantly cheaper with a diagnosis before 18.
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I don't know where to start with this. I am scared to post anything at all. Scared to try and open up about myself and my thoughts. So where to begin? I'm 29. Male. Married for 6 years with two beautiful 6 year old twins (boy and girl). Me and my wife are almost debt free and are officially saving up for our first real home. My kids are the sweetest and smartest children you have ever seen and are just beyond cute and quirky. Life doesn't sound so bad. Yet I can't stop the crying. The thoughts of ending everything. The feeling of loneliness. I have always suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. Never had a dad. A sperm doner sure. But he was a horrible evil man and I'm glad he was never part of my life. But the men who my mom did end up with over the years where pretty bad too. I was two years old when my mom met my first step dad. My little brother was born when I was 4. I can remember even back then how well he treated me..until my brother was born. I went thru years of abuse after that from him. It was beatings every day he was home (he was a truck driver and sadly not a long haul one. My own mom used to tell people how terrified I was at him coming home. How I would run immediately toy room to make sure it was perfect and how even as a child he would hog tie me, drag me across carpet giving me massive carpet burns and beat me. She used to try and defend me. After she finally left him, he told me the reason he treated me the way he did was because I wasn't his blood son. Come to find out he also assaulted my sister who was 4 years older then me along with his blood daughter around the same age. I was 9. A few months later she was remarried to a Costa Rican guy. While I was growing much faster at this point, he never laid a hand on me. Instead, it was a bunch of mental abuse. Alot of not letting me eat because I fell asleep while they where out. Or knowing I'm deathly alergic to yellow jackets and making me wait 3 hours on deaths door for my mom to get home before taking me to the hospital. Alot of telling me no one would ever love me or want me in their family. How worthless I was. To make things worse, my mom at this point was taking his side over every thing. I was never overweight as a kid but I did have a slight tummy. Like if someone that would have had abs was just 20-30 pounds heavier. So not bad. But constantly getting called fat by your step dad hurts. I would go swimming with my shirt on (still do). Was afraid to do any sports as I got a bit older because I didn't want to have to take my shirt off in front of others. I started hating myself. Blaming myself for everything. But at least I had friends. It was 9th grade when I got my first girlfriend. We where both in NJROTC. Took her to the naval ball we did that year. Later on I was asked by someone after joking around with her (she left to go to class) what I did to his girlfriend (talking about her). Turned out she was cheating on me. Back them I was stronger. Just said fuck it and broke up with her on the spot. Found out she had been sleeping with multiple guys and even doing things with them on the bus. Dodged a bullet I did. I was still in 9th grade tho. Just got out of school and was waiting to get picked up by my mom. No one else in school except my NJROTC teacher who was the only one that seemed to believe in me. I checked my phone to see whyy mom was running late and got a message from her saying 'say goodbye to your friends. We are moving today. I'm leaving him.' I was heart broken. I had so many friends that I had no way of keeping in touch with yet outside of school. Cellphones and minutes where still super expensive back then. I lost almost everyone that day as we moved suddenly to another state. My mom had a new boyfriend 2 weeks after we moved there. This one seemed cool but it wasn't long before he was throwing me to the ground over my cheap flip phone. I had told the school counselor how unhappy I had been and they talked to my mom about it. She got mad and tried to take it away and I refused to give it to her. He was there and decided if I wouldn't give it voluntarily then he would take it by force just a month into their relationship. I was 14 and being tossed around by a grown ass man in his late 30s/early 40s. There was alot of that over the next few years. Alot of being thrown thru walls. Having my eye busted open at his parents house (his parents defended me thankfully. His dad beat the shit out of him that night cuz I was 15). Alot of 'you will never have a father.' which hurts it still hurts all these years later. My sister had moved out a few years prior to live with her dad. She tried to commit suicide several times. I went into two group homes when my mom was with him. I didn't get to graduate due to being a borderline student and the public school refusing to allow to enroll no matter how high my test scores where. Thankfully I enrolled in a GED program which got me my GED before I would have graduated normally. At 18, I moved out. Moved all the way to main where a girl I had let online a family promised to help me find a good job working with her dad. I get there and come to find out he worked thru a temp agency. The pay was good but the cost of living in main negated the pay. I was there for 2 months before they got a divorce and I was forced to quit and move to Alabama with them. Things where fine at first. Me and the girl where dating. But when we got there, all anyone did was smoke weed and fight. I was the outsider tho so they turned on me. Turned out she was cheating. I was kicked out and they moved the new bf in same day. Stoleost my stuff. I had no choice but to move back in with my mom and that same boyfriend. Except this time, things had got worse at home. Her had started doing it all to my little brother. Now that I was back he let up and started on me again. I didn't stay long. Every relationship I had since I was 14 up to this point I had been cheated on and used. So my self confidence was rock bottom. And this was all 2011. One and a half years after I got my GED. I was 19. Found this girl who I was in love with when I was younger. We started dating and she even moved me in with her when I was struggling. I was madly in love with this girl. Had been for a long time. One day she tells me she's going to go see family up north for a week and that she would be back soon. I was fine with that. But then I started to see things. Hear things. Post in her Facebook about her going to new Orleans for Mardi gras. I asked her about it and she swore she was going north to see family. More things like that kept popping up tho leading up to the trip and I started to feel uneasy. I knew her ex lived in new Orleans. Her ex of several years that she was in bad for before me. It was 2 days into her trip when she called me and told me she was in new Orleans and staying with his family in their camper to save money but he didn't live there with them and she wasn't going to see him...I knew it was a lie...but I was in love and wanted to believe her. To trust her. She finally came back from her trip and we had a nice dinner and made love (I didn't lose it to her. That happened in 10th grade few years prior). But I woke up to her phones ala going off that next morning. Her dumbass self tho had it to where her phone would show previews of text messages you got and when I turned her alarm off, all you could see scrolling across the screen was 'i love you so much and miss you babygi......'. so yeah...I looked and read. It was his camper. They had been sleeping together. He didn't even know I was still in the picture. I felt disgusted. A huge fight broke out. I left. Back to my mom's again. From there I moved to main with a friend. Got a job and tried to start a life for myself. My friend was a girl but we didn't have those kinds of feelings. She had a bf and I came to like one of her friends up there. Come to find out tho that my friends friend like me too and my friend knew it. She got jealous and kicked me out. This time my mom said 'he doesn't want you here'. So began the real struggle. I bounced around and finally ended up at another friend's house. This time a guy. He lived with his mom still and his brother and sisters even tho he was in his 30s at this point. But while I was there, I got into a wreck. A bad one. My back and left shoulder are still hurting to this day. I was driving one of their piece of shit cheap cars tho when I got in the wreck and it was 'pay 3x it's kbb value or get out'. I paid it. They still kicked me out. Now the one good thing that came from my relationship with the new Orleans cheater was that she introduced me to something on the computer called IMVU. (This was before it was ruined and turned into a site where you can only find people trying to catfish others and have virtual sex. Back when there was vast amounts of Roleplaying going on like D&D). On there I had made some friends. And one of those friends offered for me to love in with her and her bf in Oklahoma. Another person I met on there became a long distance gf. Well when I moved in with my friend, he crazy bf and her split up. I had asked her if my gf from our little online guild could move in with us and that we would pick upore of the bills to help her. She agreed and thusy gf and future wife moved in. But then something bad happened to my friend. She worked 3rd shift at the gas station beside the house. She got robbed. And shot. She lived but she was out of work for a couple months. Unemployment pays less then you usually made so bills got tighter. She got bitter and angry and jealous. To this day I don't blame her. But things went south and weoved out. Life started to get better fe this point on tho. Me and my gf got married. We have two beautiful children. Boy and girl. They are twins. I got a job working for Athens Clarke county in GA. Great city government job. Easy with wonderful pay and benefits. My wife was on track to become bakery manager at a Publix where she would have been making 3x my pay. We got a new car. (Well a used 2014 but it was from carvana and had less then 30k miles on it). We where also about to start saving for our first house. But even then, I still seems to suffer from severe depression at times and feelings of wanting to kill myself. But then my mom came to me. By this time she had left her bf that abused me and was in a much healthier relationship. She told me her dad and her had been talking for the first real time in her life since she was a child and he wanted her to move in with him. He was old. A amputee and going thru a divorce. He also had the beginning stages is dementia. Said he wanted his family near him. He said he wanted us too. That he would give us the other house on his property. We agreed. Like idiots. We gave up our careers and moved to TN. Got into a wreck day 1 of being there because we didn't know the roads. Turned out the house he gave us was a 14 year old double wide trailer. He didn't give us the land it was on tho like he had said. He met a druggy tho a month after we all moved up there. She was moved in 3 months after we got there. Kept lying to him saying she was a RN. Took control of his meds. Slept in the same room. Constantly in his ear. This was before we found out her and her son where meth heads. But we started to see signs something was going on. They then turned on my mom. Got her kicked out. They got married and then turned on us. Only we where harder to get rid of. The trailer was in our name and they wanted it back. They also didn't want to pay for it so they decided to cut our power and water off them take us to court saying we forged his signature on a stolen title. Things just went bad so fast. We had to put up with it for two years. Have our kids move in with my mom where she was when our utilities where cut off because it was mid winter and covid had the government shut down. 3 moths later we finally got everything sorted in the courts and could go get our kids. On the drive there, I stopped for gas. My wife was passed out and her phone stated ringing. It was a call over a app called discord. I hit ignore so she wouldn't wake up. Her friend could wait. But upon opening discord to tell him she was sleeping....I found out she was cheating on me with him. Nothing in person. But the way they spoke to each other. The calls they had when I was at work. The pictures.....I almost killed myself right then and there. I still have screenshots of it all. To wrap this up. We are still together. Because I would kill myself if I was alone at this point. I'm miserable most the time. I try not to think about things. We live in Arkansas now. My job sucks. Upper managment is why. Store manager and employees are great. Wife is a CNA now. We are finally able to trade in our a to b cheap car we got after the wreck come this tax returns and get a decent vehicle again. Then we can start saving for a house again. And things are not always so bad here. My kids bring me so much joy. Me and my wife have worked thru alot of things. She even quit alot of social media over the cheating thing. She just has Facebook now. 'to rebuild my trust in her' as she says. But idk. Idk what to do. It's been almost two years since I found out she was cheating on me. I still love her. We are pretty happy together. But I just feel like most the time, I can't shake this sadness. This loneliness. I have no friends either. A couple online ones sure..but they make it known that it's strictly gaming only. They don't really care otherwise. My wife has always lacked...intimacy. she tries from time to time but we have had arguments over how she never touches me. Never makes a move. How I can make it obvious I want her and il get told no or ignored most of the time. I feel alone. So alone. I don't want to be alone anymore. Even tho I am not alone with my wife and kids. I just..don't know how to continue on. I want to live...not just exist. And if I have to just keep existing and not living...I would rather not exist at all.
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i have a headache that’s killing me a stomach ache i’m so sad and tired and i wanna cry so badly but i can’t for some reason. i’m so empty man. i think i’m gonna relapse tonight. i have to clean my room and do some research but all i wanna do is die lol
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depression
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Can anyone else understand body language just fine? and can tell when someone isn't enjoying their selves or gets upset etc? I also am very good at making people laugh which requires being able to time jokes. My main ASD symptoms are I despise eye contact, struggle with small talk, struggle socializing with anyone out of my close friend circle, struggle comforting people and properly expressing my emotions. But since I am completely fine with most if not all non-verbal communication and comprehending people's emotions etc my mom invalidates me 24/7 and just says I have bad social anxiety and I'm self-conscious and just to get out more is all. :(
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I know it’s just a thought. It’s just so hard not to believe. What if it’s real?
I try to tell myself I shouldn’t compare myself to others. But I’m so much worse than them.
How are people’s day going?
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depression
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Our sub has been invaded as of late by people from this sub posting very harmful things. Please, we use our subreddit for the same reason you do. We have a good thing there and when you guys come in and invade our space and post those things its extremely distressing. I know some of you are worried about having schizophrenia and asking questions is perfectly fine but please be respectful. Please
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OCD
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Last night I started to have intrusive blasphemous thoughts which I haven’t had for 3 years. It started because I saw a post about Loki from marvel and someone jokingly said in the comments that they “renounce all other gods and claim him as their god”. I basically repeated it in my head a few times and now I’m freaked out because idk if I meant it or not. I’ve been apologizing profusely to God and had trouble sleeping last night. I keep telling myself to forget that it happened because it’s just my ocd but I can’t stop, what do I do??
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1. I’m never late and never say anything I don’t know is 100% right because I HAVE to be on time and right - People always know they can rely on me my friends have told me this.
2. I never procrastinate because knowing I have anything I need to do makes it never worth it - I’m never overwhelmed I do everything in a timely fashion.
3. I never leave my car or house unlocked because I can’t help myself but check 10 times I definitely locked it - Annoying but hey I know I always lock up which is safe.
4. I follow rules I set for myself, the idea of breaking a rule I set brings on the worst kind of OCD - I have a lot of self control.
5. Everything I do has to be perfect, because if it’s not it’ll never be off my mind - The work I do is quality and not half assed.
6. I don’t forget things or run out of things, because I need to make a list for every single thing I do in my life - Annoying sometimes, but very efficient in the end.
OCD is annoying as fuck ESPECIALLY when you are younger because when you’re young you just wanna have fun, but as you get older it can be beneficial if you decide to work with it rather than against it. I used to look for so many ways to cure or get rid of it but I realize I wouldn’t be half the man I am today without it. I also have ADHD and tics and have thought before, and been brought up to me before, I may be slightly on the spectrum. But I love who I am and I always get through life in the end.
Let me also just say I do use a lot of drugs which helps me be able to relax when I actually want to but because of my OCD I have unbelievable willpower and never break any schedule I set for myself so the 3 years I’ve been using drugs have been the best 3 years of my life. I let my OCD run my daily life and when it’s finally time to relax I know I have a cheat code for that. Thanks for listening.
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Why is it that when someone else lays in bed all day and sleeps a lot and doesn’t want to do anything they’re depressed, but when I do it I “just don’t like responsibility” or I’m “lazy”. I am an extrovert but not as much as I use to be, I’m the goofy person. I think they just don’t expect it. But it’s still not fair. Even my boyfriend thinks the same. Everywhere I turn I hear the same words. Selfish, lazy, irresponsible. I try to defend myself but it feels useless in the end. All I hear are their voices drilling those words in my head. When I hear myself trying to deny it it sounds like a lie. There’s always a little me in the back of my head saying they’re right and I want it gone but it won’t go. I don’t wanna live like this.
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I am looking to purchase some noise cancelling headphones to help with school especially with exams. I don't want earbuds but am mostly focusing on comfort as certain sensory feelings trigger me. This is just a big decision and I don't want to pick a pair that make me feel uncomfortable. Does anyone have any recommendations?
Also, as much as I need them, I am equally as scared of someone sneaking behind me when I am using them. Any advice on this front as well?
Thanks!
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So, for years I’ve struggled feeling, knowing and talking about my problems, what bothers me and all that.
I don’t really acknowledge that I’m feeling bad, cause I grew up burying my feelings.
I was raised into not feeling bad, that it was weak and that men certainly don’t feel sad or bad. “Man up and get through it”..
And I think all of that along with trauma has left it’s mark on me.
I rarely know what’s wrong, but if people dig into it I might start getting an idea, otherwise I’m shooting blanks in the dark, trying to put words to whatever I think might be bothering me.
I also feel like my problems aren’t valid.
I don’t feel like I should burden other people especially my girlfriend with my problems, I rather just wanna be there for her and help her.
But she’s opened up about how bad it is these days, and that she wants to be there for me, but she’s feeling bad that I don’t let her in, when really it’s not because of her.
It’s because I don’t know what’s even wrong in the first place.
I just go along till I one day crash and everything is shit for a while.
Does anyone else deal with this or have been?
How do I start feeling/knowing?
And how do I teach myself to open more up to her.
It’s hard to even when I know what’s wrong. It’s difficult being vulnerable, even though I want to be just that, with her.
Any advice?
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I don’t want to be here anymore. My mind is destroyed. Thanks.
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I was tired.
Why is it wrong to die? As long as we are born, we have the right to live and the right to die.
Every time you tell me to live, I get tired and fed up. I wonder if I have the freedom to die. Can't I run away? Is dying an escape? Why can't I die?
When I really can't help it, I think I'll die no matter who stops me. Because I'm in pain and I can't stand this pain. If your body hurts too much all the time, you want to die, right? That's how I feel. No one understands me. Everyone wants to live. I think that's fine, but I want to die. Because I can't stand this pain.
I want to live now, but if I can't bear the pain, I will die. I'm sorry, everyone. But I have freedom, too. That's my salvation. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
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I have been on 10mg Adderall XR for about a month now (not very long, I know, but long enough) While on it, I became incredibly agitated and honestly straight up aggressive (constantly picking fights with my family, would get annoyed if someone breathed wrong, etc.) and also TMI became dangerously constipated. I am not an aggressive person at all, and I am rarely ever irritable, so I knew something needed to change. My doctor put me on 10mg of Vyvanse today, and I was hoping to hear some other people's experiences of switching meds and maybe even get some tips on how to avoid any similar side effects.
I have read a lot of posts in this sub-reddit about this issue and it seems to be a mixed bag of answers and also the ones I read were 5+ years old. Also, one post I read through mentioned bad insomnia, is that a common side effect? I would stay up until 1/2AM before I started Adderall and was able to fall asleep earlier (but not sleep as deeply) on Adderall.
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I’m not mad or sad that i have ADHD but I can’t keep trucking myself
I can’t focus or concentrate on anything even tho i eat my pills but i feel nothing is helping me
I failed math 101 you guys can you believe math 101!!!!
Not once but twice I swear I’m not dumb or stupid but I just keep forgetting everything
Please guys someone help me
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ADHD
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Full disclosure: I’m going to come off as a dick here. I’m not sorry.
The title says it all. I believe we need to separate the post traumatic stress that happens to a veteran from the grouping that is a PTSD diagnosis. Why? Well...
Training to accept excessive risk. Veterans are trained to accept risk. Whether it is flying in a combat zone or patrolling a city where known hostiles are entrenched, we have a conditioned response to danger. Read it again; conditioned response. This response can be so effective that the stress of the event can be taken as “just part of the job”. The post traumatic stress happens much later for some. It can start after you get home or maybe not until after you leave the military.
This is not to debase or devalue a person who has had sexual trauma, a car accident, or a death in the family. These events are traumatic and the therapy and study should be dedicated solely to those scenarios. However the risks we have accepted are so different than what a civilian who has had an accident that I can not see how the same moniker can be used.
I accepted great levels of risk in my career. As an aviator every time you get into the airplane is inherently dangerous. Yet we are asked to accept these dangers as a matter of course; thereby normalizing them. Cool. So when you are on approach into an airfield you are not just thinking about everything going wrong; you are planning for it. Nose gear collapse, doing this. Landing short into lake, doing this. The first and last two minutes of a flight I hammered my students with scenarios that would end in their untimely death. Death was just something to plan for and adjust the risks to hopefully make it less likely. I planned to die in a ball of flames and if I was armed I planned to kill. I had to, otherwise how would I know if I had the stomach to do it. Conditioned response. Could you imagine getting into your car everyday and planning out the accident that might kill you? I can and I do. Almost every time.
So my demons are not everyone’s demons and that is fair. However, the wording of a diagnosis has been proven to effect the patient. Even as I read through this thread I have to resist sounding like a complete jerk when someone says “they know what you’re going through”. How, exactly? Were you on the plane? Were you in the platoon? Are you in my head right now? No. No you are not. Empathy is a poor strategy to helping. A civilian therapist can easily damage an already shattered psyche by comparing their post traumatic stress to my experiences. It did to me.
Some asshat compared his stress during grad school to a scenario I talked about with him. I was trying to get a perspective but what the therapist did was minimize my experience and in turn made me very angry. I don’t see him anymore.
Veterans: choose your therapist very carefully. With PTSD diagnosis’s being bandied about like Snicker’s Bars on Halloween it is important that you are talking to someone who knows the difference between a vets and a civilians PTSD. While we vets are trying to seek help and are getting frustrated we could do everyone a favor and have a post traumatic military event (or something like that), that we can at least hope understands.
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im so tired of wasting food. throwing out hundreds of dollars of produce each year. im tired of feeling like my kitchen is contaminated. im tired of gaining weight because the only foods I feel safe eating are processed junk foods straight out of the package. im so so so tired of being alive. im tired of not having money for food because all I do is buy food and throw it out. im tired of therapy not working. im tired of my mother telling me im self diagnosed and that I dont have ocd despite being diagnosed by a doctor in 2016. im tired of my eating disorder. im tired of being scared to eat. im tired of overthinking. im tired of reuminating.
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OCD
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I've always hated conflict. I've centered a lot of my life around trying to avoid it and resolve it as quickly and quietly as possible. So it's incredibly hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that some people get a thrill out of it and even seek it out. Some families even can be accurately called high-conflict, but they still function and don't get burned out or traumatized. My upbringing was toxic and unhealthy and there were hard feelings present constantly, so that colors my perspective a lot. But as an aspie I don't know if I could handle being in a high-conflict family. Anyone been through one?
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aspergers
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I was talking with a friend when I had an episode of these disturbing, intrusive thoughts flood my mind. I almost said, "Shut up!" out loud. I usually ignore them but lately it's not going well.
I feel like I'm losing my sanity. I'm scared one day I might snap and actually say it out loud and weird people out.
How do you manage these thoughts? It's draining me. How do you get relief without doing compulsions?
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OCD
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I've been anxious when I was a kid but nothing dramatic. In adulthood I actually coped very well. At one point there was no symptoms for years. Then something happened during the [1.st](https://1.st) lockdown. The Earworm or so called the last song syndrome.
I mean come on, this ting doesn't let me do anything and caused severe anxiety. It's basically running non stop. I hardly focus I'm constantly obsessing about this thing 90% of the day. It's a perfect torture mechanism.
Please tell me that when I get on meds that this thing will go away.
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Hi, for about a year now, I’ve speculated that I may have ADHD or ADD. Curious as to what I should do to get tested. Symptoms can be parallel with neurotypical behaviour which is why I don’t wanna self diagnose. Any questions about me/ my behaviour that could reveal any kinda of behaviours correlated with ADHD are greatly appreciated.
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Genuinely wondering what causes a person to have their themes? Some have told me obsessions are completely random, while others have said it is the opposite of who you are.
So for example, someone told me that if you have POCD then you likely love kids and want kids or something. No offense (Maybe the pocd has made me this way, idk) but i fucking hate kids. I have never liked or wanted to have kids.
Some have told me you can get obsessions due to trauma but I have never endured any sort of CSA as a child?
I've always really hated pedophiles but also I thought everyone did so what makes me so special as to latch onto pocd? idk.
Let me know any info.
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Has anyone else found intense, borderline unbearable feelings of empathy following beginning stimulant medication? Is this a thing that’s amplified from the stimulants or is this just how the average neurotypical person reacts to sad situations?
For example: woman came into the place where I work and couldn’t afford something and got the shittier version of it, so I just bought the nicer one at my employee discount and left it for her at her event she needed it for. I definitely would’ve felt bad about it before meds, but I don’t think I would’ve been moved to action.
I felt like I was a very empathetic person before too, but now it’s like an intense emotional response too, whereas before I kind of knew a situation was shitty and felt the emotion to a lesser extent
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So essentially, I’m an older teen with diagnosed GAD and PTSD.
While most of the time, I can avoid my triggers, such as having my upper arm grabbed, recent social media posts about climate change, corona, etc. have been horrible for my mental health.
A massive source of anxiety for me is posts about how doomed the world is, how we’re going through an apocalypse, generally how everything’s fucked…
I have hopes and dreams. I want things to be good. but all those nihilistic posts about it being the end times make me want to end it all so I don’t have to watch as the world I grew up in crumbles completely.
People tell me just to avoid social media. Easy for them to say. I want to see the things that make me happy, but there’s no way to avoid all the things that make me hopeless.
I guess it would be more accurate to say that I don’t want to die, I just want to have a life where I feel safe.
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Well. In a nutshell, I've been in a really bad place for a while now. I'm just procrastinating through life and nothing seems to motivate me to do anything. I don't even work anymore, I'm just trying to survive. I've always been a rather outgoing person and had a large group of friends but.. not anymore. I live with my long-term partner and he's absolutely amazing. He's literally the only person I want to be around today. I have isolated myself and drifted away from all my friends and I have explained and also reassured them, that they are not the problem, it's all me.
All my girlfriends have disappeared over time and I can't blame them. They say I'm being too dramatic and that I just should "snap out" of my "bad mood and "DEPRESSION"". I don't even know, if I am depressed or if this is what depression feels like. I get it, every relationship needs maintenance.. I just don't have the energy. I DO want to go out and have a nice conversation from time to time but when that time arrives I just.. can't.
I'm also responsible for my sick grandmother and her alcoholic husband who sadly is my biological grandfather. We don't live together but I'm the only person she can rely on. My SO has told me many times I should just try to focus on my own mental health but it's difficult when I'm constantly worried about my family.
I really don't know what to do. I also have severe anxiety and I'm not sure I wouldn't cancel my therapist appointment if I booked one. I'm scared of everything. Everybody. Constantly. But I'm not scared of giving up life altogether. There are days when I dream about the future and kids and a happy family because I've always dreamed about this but.. I don't know how to get there. The future, I mean. Or anywhere, really. I'm just stuck. And I'm scared that I will end up all alone with any friends left.
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Pardon my mistakes, English is not my first language
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Do y’all ever lose ur shit with your mom and then feel bad about it after?
I have a concussion rn and she made a comment that triggered me and I like hella exploded and was super mean about it and apologized a lot this morning. I have cptsd and bpd and I know thats part of the condition sometimes but I still feel soo bad :/ I just have trouble filtering things with this concussion and it all came out
I have a lot of childhood trauma and recently had to move back in because my partner ended the relationship and was actually really awful. He was like the most abusive of them all because he was hit by a car and suffered brain damage. But he just started yelling at me and getting mad at me for my mental health every day and he was just pretty awful… and he promised we’d always be family and then just got meaner and meaner as time went on and doesnt have the ability to understand. I realized its not that Im too much its that hes not enough but it hurts a lot because I helped him through his TBI, he had no relationship with his family because they were super awful to him. It was only us, then his mom swooped in when he was hit by the car and changed everything. Then he started hating me for my mental health. Then we moved in together after he apologized and promised me a fresh start. Then two weeks into our lease he left me. Then he promised wed always be family and so much more and went back on every promise. Then he said he’ll never love me or want to be with me because of who I am and he doesnt wanna talk anymore and for me
To leave him alone. I struggled with respecting his boundaries because of my mental health and I feel like if I just didnt have mental health maybe it wouldve been better
When im hurt I cant like put the pause button on, I just react and its embarrassing for me after… Thats what happened with my mom and I said some very honest but probably rly hurtful things
Im just overwhelmed and I have a super bad concussion so it makes it all worse, like I cant filter anything :/
I feel like a bad person. He made me feel like a bad person. My mom used to yell at me for my mental health and blamed me for sending my dad to the hospital. She has a lot of trauma too. But she caused a lot for me. And I know I need to apologize still but sometimes I just don’t want to because Im so hurt and get why I reacted
Its rly important for me to have those in my life who understand this condition… and I work on myself every day but its hard
Could use some other BPD or CPTSD friendo’s if youre out there
Ty for listening
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Does anyone have any tips or things that help them with saving money? I have just moved out so am spending more but prior to this I was able to have a bit of spare money. I am able to afford my rent but I keep feeling quite overwhelmed by say wanting to buy something as a treat and then to overthink it and then not get anything at all, but somehow in the process spent money on basically nothing.
Pls share tips on how you find helps you save best, it would be so appreciated
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I had PTSD or ASD for about 2 years before it came to a head and I fled the state. Many hurdles living in a new place but I'm really progressing now and thought I'd share that. I'm surprised my brain is recovering - I'm pushing 40 - it speaks to the plasticity because I'm doing little to aid my recovery now - no meds, no therapy (though I do exercise lightly). If your trauma is location related, get oooouuuttt. Get out. Live in your vehicle, whatever, it's worth it. It took about 6 months living in the new state to start seeing my thoughts and perceptions change, but slowly they just did .. seemingly out of nowhere. I have so much more capacity for things now. Get yourself the space and quiet you might need for healing, shoot if you've got to quit your job and pitch a tent on BLM land for a year, do it.
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ptsd
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I went through a bullying incident that made me depressed and anxious and triggered a lot of stress and anxiety like I was overthinking and getting headaches and muscle tension and it triggered a lot of stress in me that I even lost weight and all I kept doing was ruminate about the situation and having depressed anger outbursts for about a year and it was awful. I couldn’t relax and felt always on edge, and then I wanted to self improvement that I put a lot of stress and expectations because I hated myself.
I don’t want to offend anyone with actual PTSD I just want to know that the experience I went through was it actual PTSD or I’m just exaggerating. I just need to know cause, I’m getting better and have a whole new perspective on life but that situation really damaged me and everyone around me thinks it’s not as a big of a deal and it made feel like I was weak and I was scared to be weak. I just really need a perspective on this.
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ptsd
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I haven't been thinking about my trauma these last few days but suddenly I've become really spacey again and everything feels unreal again.
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ptsd
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I was having a conversation with my mother and we were talking about some of the signs of adhd that we had missed (in both of us) over the years. She brought up how I would always pester her about plans and how I would get upset if plans changed and that was because of my adhd.
After thinking about it I'm not sure that's the case, I was always bothering her about plans and would get upset if they changed because she would always forget and put important things off (optometrist appointments, paying school fees, taking me to a friend's house etc)
So it got me thinking, how many adhd behaviors are actually a reaction to being raised by adhd parents?
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ADHD
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Hi, breathing techniques just seem to make me more anxious (aware of my body and anxiety that is running through it) but everybody keeps telling me to do them. What works for you?
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ptsd
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It's (literally and metaphorically) hundreds of miles away from where I thought I'd be at this stage in my career, and it's a six-figure pay-cut (big gulp!), \*but\* after a couple of years without much of an income at least it's something!
Interviews and professional things are immensely triggering for me so I'm just a wee bit proud of myself to even get the offer! : D
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ptsd
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having SAD on top of my regular major depressive disorder sucks ass.
that’s all.
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depression
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This is more of a rant I just don’t know what is the best flair I should put on here. I’m sorry to come here and bitch and moan but like I just don’t see how people want to put the effort in. I’m currently semi-diagnosed and doctor is having me trying different meds. Kinda working but not. I’m also injured and can’t exercise really at all right now without making things worse. I know my meds would work better if I had a consistent schedule of eating/sleeping/drinking but I can’t bring myself to care. I really don’t like myself enough to care. I want to want to care but I cannot find a reason. Everything is just temporarily rewarding and for the things that are, I forget bc I don’t remember shit. I can’t sleep because I’m being anxious over stupid shit that doesn’t even warrant worrying. Like….what is the point? So much work for what? I don’t get it. I’m tired of everything and every ounce of effort it takes bc it feels worthless. Sorry again, but I just don’t know what to say anymore
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ADHD
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Trigger warning sexual abuse
Trigger warning violent crime
Trigger warning firearms
Does anyone else sleep with a weapon?
I can’t sleep without access to my gun after repeated murder attempts and a sexual assault against me I’m scared that someone will try to kill Me Again, I have nightmares most nights. My shrink says it’ll get better with time and I’ll feel safe eventually but it’s hard man I moved into a new house and I’ve been woodworking and making stuff and that’s helped but I still just fundamentally don’t feel safe. I’m scared my family or myself will be hurt or killed by one of the crackheads that like to rob homes where I live.
Keep your opinions about firearms and me owning them to yourself if you can’t manage that leave. I’m not asking for a debate just support and understanding from those who may understand my feeling unsafe. I’ve provided trigger warnings for all discussed abuse and violence being triggered isn’t a excuse to harass me about how I choose to protect myself.
My therapist has already cleared me to possess a firearm given your opinion does not supersede that of a licensed professional that has been working with me for years.
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ptsd
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So I’m 17 and I’ve been dealing with POCD off and on for a month or so now. It started with the fear of being attracted to babies, then it turned to 10-12 year old girls. Now it’s 13 year old girls. I’m worried because I keep getting images of them naked and I feel like I like it and that makes me so worried. I’m scared I’m gonna be a pedophile and it makes my whole life feel messed up now. I can’t even think of sex with grown women because I have images of them. I know anxiety can cause intrusive feelings. And I never worried about being attracted to them until POCD hit. But I’m terrified I’m attracted to 13 year olds now. Why do I feel attracted? Am I a pedo??? Im worried I’ve been having serious IBS as well ever since this has spiked back up (tmi I know but I thought I should include it)
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OCD
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Today I had a sucky sucky day. Was supposed to meet up with a friend yesterday, and did, in a hotel. I brought earplugs and my sleep mask, as I have ADHD and PTSD related to a place burning down years ago. Sleep is hard to come by. Slept lousy, despite sleepy time meds and same. friend was making a lot of assumptions and trying to control the entire time I was there. ('put your mask on' before we even left the room....dude, I got this. I work healthcare. I know how to put my mask on and when. Deciding where we were going to do/what we were going to do, etc). She needs a level of control. I get that. I tried to go with the flow.
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Then she's hogging the bathroom, and I have had no meds and am grumpy..and she insists on driving, fine, ok, and stopping at a bakery (I am celiac. Not gluten sensitive, celiac.) ...good choice, so I tell her I will grab a smoothy next door, she comes in, sees me paying and tells me she'll be at the record store next door to that, and I say fine, see her, she's happy and busy, and I tell her I'll be at the knitting store across from it, come get me when you're done...She knows I don't have my phone on me (I forgot it). ...well I'm waiting, and geeking out on yarn, and waiting for her to come in so she can come and pick a skein of yarn so I can knit her some leg warmers..and after 15 minutes I give up and pay. She's upset as all hell as I 'left her in the cold' for 15 minutes (she was in her own car, which was running) and goes off on me, saying that i'm always grumpy and inconsiderate, and that she's been trying to make me happy and letting me run everyting and I should research better for where I can eat with a 'gluten sensitivity' and the like...well that didn't go over well. Cueue meltdown on my part. I told her I was leaving, and she just would not shut up. I asked her to please stop talking as I needed to recalibrate and nope...no she did not.
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At the hotel I packed my bag (And forgot my charger for my phone...c'est la vie) and sent her the money for the second night...and I left and drove the five hours home.
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I may have overreacted but ... I will never ever ever ever ever share a hotel room ever again. I admit that I am overworked and overtired but..it just was more stress on top of things. And I feel like I tried to be very considerate and let her have control of as much as possible.
And I can't help but wonder, maybe she's right, maybe I am grumpy all the time and don't deserve to have any friends.
I just can't figure out how to be 'perky' and chipper all the time. As I'm not. And that seems to be all everyone wants me to be. I am a grumpy hedgehog.
Any advice aside from 'never share a hotel room again'?
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ADHD
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I was a child. Late 1960's. Therapy as we know it today did not exist. It was just being invented. I had severe ptsd from a horrible rape from a catholic priest.
I was hypnotized to help me forget. I just snapped out of it last month. (!!!$%$#AHHH!=//$%^^&)
Have any of you been hypnotized as a child?
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ptsd
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I know this is a common one. But I’m so sick of this. I can’t fucking handle it anymore. This is by far the most consuming part of my OCD I feel like I can’t breathe. My cat has a UTI and I literally feel like I want to kill my self so I don’t have to watch another pet die in my arms. (Im not going to kill myself) I’m fucking ridiculous I know but how do you guys handle this??
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OCD
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This is mainly just to vent. I was homeless, living alone, doing ok. Had to return cuz of some court shit. In the place I was staying, had to see a therapist to discuss the case, and everything else. Well, mistake no. 1. She wanted me to see a psychiatrist to deal with my mental issues. Guess I shouldn't tell them everything. Mistake no. 2. Seeing the news about the shit in Afghanistan. For the first time in a long time, I cut, and cut. My dad sacrificed his life, his mind, his soul and his family. That fucking war ruined his life and it ruined mine. He is dead cuz of that place and his death put me on the fast track to hell.
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ptsd
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PTSD has many symptoms that disrupt or otherwise interfere with normal daily activities or long term ambitions. This post articulates the methods and manners of some of the ways I counter and recover from PTSD and it’s symptoms.
Bullet Journaling - A method I discovered from a 4 minute YouTube video that taught me a simple and flexible method to use cheap notebooks and pencils to help order and organize my disordered mind.
CPT - Cognitive Processing Therapy is a mental health recovery method taught by the Veteran’s Administration (United States) that has turned out to be truly effective beyond normal talk or Psycho-Dynamic therapy and is self directed at home. Taught over the course of 12 weeks in one hour sessions I encountered hand trembling and loss of focus as I was taught the method but the sessions allowed for moments like these and the therapist (PhD) helped me calm down and learn the sections. Since January of 2020 and daily use of the method - up to 5 hours a day - my symptoms have dramatically decreased and I’ve been happier and enjoyed my life more. While the mental health damage I sustained is significant and while I estimate 3 years before I get a full recovery I believe the evidence of recovery is so significant and measurable that have overwhelming hope of regaining my mind.
CPAP - Continuous Positive Airway Pressure machines have been a game changer for sleep and a profoundly positive effect in my life. After telling my doctor I was having trouble sleeping I was assigned a specialist who, upon gathering data from an overnight sleep session from sensors attached to my scalp and discovering an occlusion in my airway, assigned me a machine and paraphernalia that I’ve worn every night since January of 2020. I’ve never felt more rested and present in my life.
Exercise - Yoga, meditation, cardio, nutrition and weight-lifting have, as an integrated system in my daily lifestyle, helped mediate my PTSD symptoms and gave me enough mental health “space” to insert the above mentioned CPT method to both mediate my symptoms and accelerate my recovery.
Support - I have virtually no family support however I’ve been able to slowly and carefully assemble a kind of Family Of Choice of wonderful people to give me the mental health support of encouragement and emotional safety.
This is all I can think of right now. Please feel free to DM me or pose a question in the comments. I’ll do my best.
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ptsd
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i cant do this anymore. i just need help. I don't know how to tell anyone that i think i have ocd. how do i tell someone that my brain wants me to think im a pedophile other screwed up things. its my stupid birthday and people keep asking why im upset. i dont know how to tell someone. its so hard to explain at this point. i dont know if i can keep doing this any longer
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OCD
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hi, i did something really stupid and i shouldn’t even be talking about this but i need to vent.
i took one of those sm i a pedo quizzes but my dumbass didn’t read the questions properly and i answered using my intrusive thoughts for a bunch of questions. thankfully when i was done with the quiz i realized my mistake because it said you may be attracted to adults but also be a p*do and then i remembered “oh shit i answered using my intrusive thoughts and compulsions, that’s why” and i ended up retaking it and it said i was normal.
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OCD
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Hello all, I am a senior finishing my last 2 semesters in biology. I’ve been interviewing at 5 dental schools this semester and have had a miserable time because I’ve also been coming of an antidepressant that was doing more harm than good. However, the withdrawals have given me the worst anxiety ever and I’m close to failing one of my last science prerequisites.
My therapist suggested writing a letter for me to student services for some sort of accommodation? I’m sorry for sounding so ignorant but I am not familiar with the process at all or what it even entails but I turned her away immediately. I know that was my ADHD 😩 someone please help me and advice me. I have not been struggling with focusing or time management.. it’s just the first semester back in person and I am so close to reaching one of the biggest goals of my life 😞
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ADHD
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I’ve been dealing with PTSD since I was 11 I am 21 now. ( male) I don’t feel comfortable showing the world my trauma but I have physical wounds that show. My mental wounds have been getting even more intense. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have a therapist and she’s helping a ton and a supportive girlfriend but I’ve been having constant episodes for a week now. No one knows it’s going on. I haven’t slept in 3 days. I haven’t ate much. All I can do is fight the demons off. I feel worthless. My safety in the world was broken and I’ve been trying to fix it but it doesn’t seem to work. On the outside I put up a front that I’m doing amazing but on the inside I’m rotting away and very fatigued from fighting this battle.
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ptsd
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I have PTSD but during the therapy I understood that the my trauma is not belong to the one moment of my life. I carried and developed the predisposition all my life. My parents, friends and all the other people around, include myself, made me predisposition to be traumatised. So, the traumatic moment is the top of the mountain that I was climbing all my life. Understanding this made me more peaceful. Because now I am not dealing with just one moment of my life. I am dealing with my interpretation of it.
My main problem is - High expectations from myself. It is so strong that makes me feel very bad. I don't let myself to be weak or feel tired or don't know something and etc.
I have to let ME to be. Just to be. Not to compare myself even with myself.
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ptsd
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I’m 23 and I plan on getting my license this year hopefully, but I need to take driving lessons. I’m honestly scared of driving Bc of spatial awareness or lack there of, we well as the quick thinking needed to drive on major highways. Does anyone have any tips for learning to drive? And please no “there’s no need to learn, just use Uber or Lyft” comments, I *want* to learn to drive to gain my independence. I want a better, more fitting job and the only way to do that is if I drive rather than rely on others. Also ride apps get expensive quickly.
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aspergers
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from the title you can probably guess but hey /r/OCD. is anyone here familiar with work in lab environments? kind of a time sensitive question :)
would someone working in a lab with blood samples need to worry about wearing short sleeved shirts if they have recent picking marks? there’s no blood after the initial picking, no picking in the actual lab, but is there any hygiene risk when it comes to that?
thank you!
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OCD
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I am recently diagnosed and 22F. I have a stress eating problem that is fueled by me being naturally anxious due to my ADHD and other things. I am not at home from 6:30 am - 6:30 pm so exercising is hard. I have gained quite a lot of weight from this stress eating and my lack of motivation to exercise. Does anyone else have this problem? How do you stick to a Heath routine with ADHD?
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ADHD
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It’s my fault.. it’s all my fault, I can’t control my anger, I try, I really do, I just can’t do it. My grandmother has dementia and I get irritated by her way too easily, I love her very much but I just end up getting mad and yelling, her dementia could be progressing quicker and getting worse because I’m stressing her out, I’m such a bad person if I could take it all back I would. I am 17 years old, I seen her in the hospital bed and I got in it with her so I could cuddle her and I broke down silently, nobody knew, not one person. I’m struggling to not break down from typing this. Soon I will have to grieve the loss of someone that is still alive and here. When she goes I know I will end up going too.
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depression
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I thought the video was interesting as it highlights some things that have made me a little better at small talk over the years. So thought I would share: https://youtu.be/_ZrRpL2s3t8
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aspergers
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I have the constant feeling of contamination and disgust, don't know if anyone else feels like this too.
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OCD
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Does anyone else take twice as long to do anything than others?
I have a mind that wanders and gets distracted. In addition it wants everything to be perfect.
This makes everyday tasks and functioning a challenge sometimes. I’m ok if I have an protocol for something like doing the washing, even better if the protocol is optimised.
But anything not everyday, like a new hobby or job needs to be perfect, and optimised. Very hard when your mind gets bored easy and wanders.
It’s like you want to take up software, but before you star you need a pc. Then you need to spec the pc.
You don’t know what projects are going to interest you in the future so how can you know the spec? So you cut down on the perfection and get a general spec.
Next you need to buy it but again knowing more about it makes the job easier in the long run so you decide to build your own.
Continuing on this vein your now looking at specs of chips and electronic circuits.
Oh look a copy of Orwell’s animal farm, was it the donkey what represented Orwell him self better have a read and check.
Oh there’s my old chemistry notes, I remember you can make aspirin out of willow bark just need to check my notes.
A week later you have electronics circuits everywhere, a half written essay on animal farm, Willow bark in a blender.
and you are in bed with the covers over your head watching Netflix because it’s all too noisy.
You only wanted to do a bit of software fat chance of that.
Anyone else’s experience or is it just me? I believe this is called lack of executive functioning, I call it the bane of my life.
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aspergers
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So 3 Months ago I finally went to a PCP to ask about ADHD. I talked with her for a bit about my various childhood struggles and how those struggles are translating horribly into adult life (19M). to my surprise she prescribed me 10mg Adderall IR on the spot.
In the 3 Months since being initially diagnosed my life has basically turned around on its head. I'm the literal poster boy for Adderall. I'm no longer missing due dates for dumb reasons, I'm actually performing well at work and I've even been able to finally deal with all the red tape to get an apartment of my own.
But I recently had a psychiatrist appointment which was supposed to be an ADHD test of some sort... Worryingly, not a single question was about ADHD or how my Adderall prescription has affected me. Instead it was just a litany of questions regarding depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia and whatever other mental illnesses they could think up
I came in thinking we were going to narrow down my medication and ensure that I was perfectly healthy to continue taking it. Instead I walked out feeling like I had taken 2 steps backwards.
Now the only thing I feel can come from going back to these psychiatrists is being given some bullshit anti-depressant and then getting cut off from the medication that's truly making a difference. Even though I haven't actually had any symptoms since starting the medication.
TLDR: ADHD test was basically a "what can we diagnose you with other than ADHD" test and now I'm worried they'll arbitrarily cut me off because they believe something else is the problem.
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ADHD
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I have a document in my history class that I work on with a group that is basically group annotations. We annotate a new document every week. On an older document I was looking at today, which happened to be about slavery, I noticed my comments were missing. Now these are the only thoughts going on in my head:
\-I said something offensive, didn't I?
\-Did I say an offensive word in my comments? I wouldn't say something offensive but I probably did.
\-Did I offend someone?
\-My group members probably told the whole school. And soon the whole school will think I'm racist.
\-My entire class thinks I'm racist
\-I don't deserve to do anything nice now. I can't enjoy my day anymore.
I wish this would end.
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OCD
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Today’s my 2nd restday from work. I just slept most of the time. I haven’t taken a shower and haven’t eaten for two days, I feel dehydrated, too. My body feels weak. But I dob’t feel hungry.
I thought maybe I’ll take a shower later and put my clothes on, eat some popcorn, wash the dishes, grab a knife in the kitchen and slit my throat.
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depression
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This is a really weird one for me, and by far one of my lighter OCD issues, but I've never been able to wear rings without getting instantly anxious that I won't be able to get them off my fingers. If I put one on, I start panicking almost immediately. Was wondering how common something like this is, and if anybody else here deals with it.
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OCD
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Does anyone else have an issue with spending money or buying new things (most of the time which you don’t need)? I feel like I have an addiction of buying things and it just won’t stop, thing is we are talking thousands of pounds and I’m already in over £20,000 worth of debt. I was just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience or not? I just seem to obsess and convince myself that I need something to the point where I think about it catastrophically and feel like it’s a life/death situation. And if I don’t get said item then it’s the end of the world, but it only relives a temporary obsession then moves onto something else. It seems I can’t be content with what I have.
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OCD
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Hi just your average unhappy girl here. ( i dont want to say depressed because I'm not diagnosed or anything) but uhm actually i dont know why im here but you ever like dont cry for a while because you just get numb for a while but you can still laugh and all that, i dont know if its normal or what but then i go downhill for a bit and i need to cry or something idk but i cant and just ugh. Yeah im sorry if you actually read all of this, i really have no one to tell haha so yeah :) hope everyones doing well ♡
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depression
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Please upvote this I’m DESPERATE for reassurance on this;
I’ve got A fear of going crazy and two years ago I was watching tv and I could have sworn that the word it said is what I was thinking? It happens SO FAST as soon as they say it I get a automatic thought that feels is real that I was just thinking that! But I know I wasn’t ???? But it feels so real! Then I panicked thinking maybe the tv is trying to control me, also if they say “leg” I will feel somthing instantly in my leg? Why is it so fast?? Why is ocd always trying new ways to fucking trick me !!!!! I also get it when people say certain things to me it’s like my brain wants to finish their sentences automatically
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OCD
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Two summers ago, I (23F) narrowly avoided being kidnapped and beheaded. Another girl was kidnapped outside my apartment building in the middle of the afternoon. The killer was a friend of my co-worker, and he murdered the other girl in an incredibly depraved way. This girl was targeted at random, and I was out walking to the library at about the same time. I avoided it by pure luck. I was living alone at the time, and I slept with my knife and pepper spray for months. In fall 2017, I moved to a different country for graduate school.
The trial started this spring. I tried to avoid news from my hometown, but it didn’t completely work. I lost a bunch of weight because I couldn’t eat. It was random chance that this other girl was killed, and not me.
I graduated from my program last month, and I’m now back in my home country. I’m not sure if it’s serious enough to count as PTSD, but I find it really hard to be back. If none of this makes sense, I apologize— it’s a bit difficult to gather my thoughts. Any advice is very appreciated.
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ptsd
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In therapy this morning I was talking about something stressful that had happened at work a few days ago and my therapist make me realize I took a huge step in not letting OCD run my life. I'm a keyholder at a clothing store and there was an... accident... which led to me cleaning someone's fecal matter out of a fitting room. Initially I was going to ask one of the other leaders to clean it for me because I was high key freaking out, but decided against it because they were all doing important prep work for inventory the next day and I didn't want to distract them. It was way beyond uncomfortable and I spent a long time crying and washing my hands after but I still managed to get it done.
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OCD
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I’m not sure if this is a Reddit thing but I hope it’s not. I made a post and my face could be seen in it, I’m having a panic attack knowing my face is there, I thought it would delete fully but it’s still up man, please take it down
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OCD
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I feel this sub has a lot of negative stories about health professionals. While I think those are important, and we want to help, I wanted to show that there ARE really good doctors out there. To give people hope, but also to give others a sense (or baseline) of what a good practitioner **SHOULD** be.
I'll start. I'm in my late 30s. My doctor is awesome. After my child was diagnosed (different but still awesome doctor), she sat me down, we had a conversation, and she confirmed I had ADHD. I did take a test which my wife also filled out independently for me, discussed history, my thinking process, etc. She told me, without a doubt, I had ADHD and not to waste my time trying to fight the imposter syndrome.
Medication followed, and she has been supportive through the whole process. I kept a medical journal which I brought into every meeting, and she listened to my notes/issues/feedback. We adjusted medication types 4 times and then dosage until we landed on the right mix. I never feel judged, talked down to, vilified, or anything like that. This whole process maybe took a week, was painless, and almost surreal as it flipped my life upside-down.
I feel very fortunate to have worked with her.
What is your awesome health practitioner story?
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ADHD
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Just wondering if there are any OCD support subreddits that don’t have POCD content in them? I want to be able to connect with others with OCD but the constant POCD posts are triggering my PTSD.
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OCD
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I think I’ve associated the one I mentioned with worrying about right now because I can’t plan for the unknown. For some reason it’s helps me relax a bit.
Same with Shakespeare’s “what’s done cannot be undone”.
It doesn’t fix things, it just helps remind me whatever I’m scared of isn’t going on right now or is out of my control.
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OCD
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20m with an appointment with a specialist in a couple of weeks. I’m just not sure how it all works, if/when I’d get diagnosed during the appointment, what I’ll be asked to do etc. because of how long the wait times are here my parents are paying for me to go private which is something I currently feel really guilty about and I’m just having a lot of anxiety about the whole thing. any info would be very reassuring, thanks
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ADHD
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I recently learned that some level of anxiety is healthy for us as it pushes us to do things we wouldn’t otherwise do. High level of anxiety is what gets us afraid, worried, nervous, etc.
I have just realized that I actually have low anxiety, very low anxiety. Hence nothing seems urgent, or important, and stops me from doing things that I really want to do.
I don’t see this talked about in the medical field at all. It can be guys as a lack of motivation, but that can also happen with a high level of anxiety. So can anyone relate to having low or no anxiety, and how do you deal with it?
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ADHD
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Hey! So I’m new on meds and I’ve been having a hard time eating. Any advise for things ways to eat on meds? I want to try and resolve the issue on my own first before deciding to make any dosage or prescription changes, because there’s a lot of work in getting an appointment, getting a new script, filling said script. If it’s possible to get this sorted out without that, I’d prefer that.
Edit: I’ve been on adderal for two months. I work as an EMT and we don’t have a lot of time to eat as it is, so with the decreased appetite at work I’ve lost weight. I’ve been trying to eat things like soup, but I need food with substance.
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ADHD
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It really sucks when you are trying to raise awareness about OCD and some idiot comes and labels you as a misguider and says psychiatrist are all about money making. Saying that i am making a fool out of people by recommending them to get a diagnosis. WTF how can getting a diagnosis make a fool out of anyone they clearly had the symptoms i just said its better to get a diagnosis to be sure but the idiot kept attacking me. And i didn't even had a weird profile name there. Seems like some people just want to watch the world burn. Now because of that idiot i am ruminating over this. What the heck.
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OCD
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it’s coming up so quickly and i am so nervous. what do y’all do for the fireworks? staying inside makes it worse for me; i had mentioned in a previous post that my ptsd is from a school shooting... so it makes me feel trapped. but people in my town are obsessed with them and when they’re asked to stop they accuse us of being “america hating scumbags” ??? there is another mass shooting survivor and a combat vet on my street who all face similar issues with the 4th. ugh. plus people here light fireworks for the whole week of the 4th 😕
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ptsd
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Got to work this morning at the perfect time. Pulled out my notebook and pen to make my daily to-do list, then due to "firefighting/procrastination mode", forgot for the first hour. Flash forward, it's about an hour and a half into work. I realize, "Oh! How am I supposed to do anything if I don't know what I need to do?", put pen in hand and remembered I just bought a new pack! Gotta grab the fresh pack of pens for the new to-do list, open those and go to the bathroom. I get back, notice the empty notebook open on my desk, I'm like "Alright girl, it's your 3rd try, I think". Finally write down a few things, but one topic leads me on an email search, which I forget the original point of, and start reading old emails. It's 12:30p and I have 3 things on my to-do list. None of them crossed off, except for: "Start to-do list".
Maybe I'll add a daily "Confirm ADHD Diagnosis".
(I saw the post that was almost exactly like this yesterday and it made me feel so much better 😮💨)
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ADHD
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English is not my first language so I hope I can explain myself.
As the title says, all we are going to die, when I remember or someone makes me remember that doesn't matter how hard I wish to have a happy life It won't be happening.
I don't get the world, don't belong, everyone expect me to be like them, to cure myself by miracle, to just trying harder. I feel terrible alone and misunderstood since child.
I'm gonna die anyway. Why I have to barely exist?
Id love to have a way to go without fear and keep pain away from others.
I'm just very tired of pretending it will all be ok...
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aspergers
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I (F22) went through a month phase of depression. I found out yesterday that my boyfriend(M23) has a female friend(which is in not an issue). The issue is he’s been lying to me about it saying that he’s been going to his friend house to play video games but instead going to see her. He claims that they are just friends and nothing romantic. And that he started going to see her to get a female perspective on how to deal with me & my depression because it began to effect him. But what really did it for me is that he sent her a floral arrangement basket & didn’t do a single thing for me while i was depressed. Didn’t buy flowers. Didn’t send me a basket. I really could have used it to make me feel a lot better. We live together and currently moving next month into a house. This totally compromised everything. Really need some advice & up lifting
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depression
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Were you ever going to do a compulsion and then got distracted by something, and forgot what compulsion you were going to do?
Best feeling in the world haha
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OCD
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So I’ve been crying for 1-3 hours everyday for almost a year now due to my depression
When my depressive episode started, I would usually wake up around 10am in the mornings crying, and then be just meh the rest of the day.
Over the past year that time has slowly shifted through the day (from morning to afternoon to night). Now my crying episodes typically start around 5pm.
Has anyone else experienced this? Is there a time of day that’s worse for you? And does it ever end 🥲 ?
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depression
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So I recently moved in with my partner and his young son, who he has 50/50 custody of. I don’t have any children myself and have never lived with one before, at least not since I was one myself. Any other stepparents out there have advice for adjusting? I’ve looked up advice on blogs, stepparent subreddit, etc but there are some challenges specifically related to adhd.
I find I have more trouble focusing, tapping into creativity, and I spend a lot of time feeling overstimulated by all the noise and activity a child brings. Basically, I’m having to find new coping strategies for productivity bc many of my old ones no longer work in my new environment and routine. Any other stepparents find coping strategies that helped?
(I love my stepson and my partner dearly, so please no replies saying maybe I just shouldn’t be a stepparent. Constructive advice only please.)
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ADHD
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I was wondering if it is normal for a doctor to immediately take you off Adderall if their are no improvements. When I was diagnosed with ADHD after about a year of going through assessments and therapy. My doctor prescribed 5 mg of Adderall to be taken twice a day one in the morning and another in the afternoon, but after 2 weeks I set up another appointment and told him I had not improved and couldn't feel any significant chances. He told me that I was unlikely to improve with a higher dosage and prescribed me 40mg of strattera.
I am 19 years old.
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ADHD
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I have ocd and depression and both are extremely draining for me. I used to be on medication for both about a year ago and have been struggling since going off of it. I want to train myself to cope with my OCD without taking medication. I have completely stopped doing most physical compulsions but my mental compulsions(ruminations) have been distracting me hours of a day. The technique my therapist told me for this was to acknowledge when I was ruminating, stop doing it, and distract myself. However, distracting myself is super difficult do to depression. I get very little pleasure out of any thing I do and it is not enough to distract me from my OCD. Nothing is even as close as attention diverting to me as my OCD. I have tried meditation and excercise and have found no help with those for my OCD. What can I do to distract myself as my therapist said I was supposed to ? Or are there any other techniques I can use to stop ruminating ?
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OCD
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Do you find that when you are ruminating over your intrusive thoughts there is a part of you that doubts whether you really care? This happens to me and then I will question myself even more. It will go something like this.
*intrusive thought*
Rational brain: This is an intrusive thought. Do not engage with it.
OCD brain: Ah but what if it's not?
Rational brain: I do not want these thoughts. They are just there but they do not say anything about me as a person.
OCD brain: Don't lie to yourself! You are a terrible person and you know it!
Rational brain: This isn't helping. Let's move on.
OCD brain: OMG! You don't even care. How can you be so blase about this? You deserve to die.
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OCD
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anyone fucked over by the law of attraction, my friends are very much the “if you want something manifest it.” it’s caused those words to be like engraved into my mind, i always feel like i’m manifesting shit, e.g an intrusive thought pops into my head, i think i’m manifesting it, then said compulsion carries out and it keeps fucking happening.
does anyone else have something like this?
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OCD
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I'm currently a sophomore for context, and a boy.
Recently my mom started to claim that I have Aspergers. Her evidence included stuff like my extreme slow reaction time, starting as an toddler(for example, I swung the bat in baseball like 2 seconds late, and had difficulty tracking a finger with my eyes), non existent social skills(the only real friend I had at the time was this one girl, and my other friends had dawns syndrome or difficulty speaking), inability to keep eye contact, as well as short attentions span, poor communication, inability to understand body language etc, unable to form connections with peers(beyond social skills, I mean like befriending and everything that includes), being obsessives when working on certain things, etc.
Obviously fast forwarding to high school, I like to think that I've gotten better. I can speak English well enough to do pretty okay in English class. Most of the "symptoms" she describes have faded to the point where I just chalk it up to being an introvert, such as poor social skills(due to lack of practice from when I younger), poor body language recognition(again, lack of practice). But her points about like having no friends that I can connect with(my "friends" don't care about me in anyway), inability to form connections with made at least some sense to me.
So my mom convinced me to get tested formally. We looked for autism testing or similar, and it cost at least $5k+ minimum. The school offer special ED testing, for free, so we tried that. I had to get recommendations from the teachers, and most agreed that I got distracted easily, one said I had potential, but dealt with new situations poorly, another said I distracted by peers a lot, and one claimed that "u/YaYeetYeee had not ability to work with girls, and has the reading and social ability of maturity of a 3rd grader"(quite funny, idk if she just hated me). After testing we got the results back, and it basically said I have poor phonetic recognition and memory, and scored worst than 25 percentile for a lot, with one category under phonetic skills being under 1 percent. Another thing that was noted was that the later the test happened, my score or ability dropped significantly.
So my mom asked "the big question", do I have anything? And the response was no. The person who gave the test and her assistant basically said "this isn't a strict Aspergers test, so we can't say anything", but I can't give you a more specific test or refer you to someone else for further testing cause my grades were considered passing. My mom explained all the things she thought would mean Aspergers, but the proctor's response was honestly quite interesting, she said "Everyone has their own quirks, and u/YaYeetYeee's is that he isn't as good socially and when it comes to communication".
I'm confused about what to do now. I want to be just an introvert, so I can work toward being more social. Sure, walking to talk with people I don't know well was *hard*, and I meant taking each step towards them felt like climbing a hill, but I chalked it up to being more awkward. And to me, it seemed like putting my self in an socially hard situation was good for me, kinda like how in sports you train even when you're tired. I thought it was working too, I made this pretty close guy friend from my sport's team, and for the first time the other person has been initiating conversations, and I felt like I had a semi-close friend for the first time ever. I've also been talking with this girl, and one day, when most of her friends weren't around, I managed to hold a conservation for around 30 minutes, with her being engaged too, and it might not sound like much, but when most of my conversations had been short 1-2 minute top small talk about the weather or school, it felt like I was making progress.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to go down the route of getting tested partially due to the high cost, on top of that, I don't want to be "that kid who uses mental disorders as an excuse for his own problems". It's almost "quirky" in the social culture at my school to have trauma, or mental disorders, or whatever else, and I don't want to be that way. On the other hand, I think parents concerns are valid, as they do know me the best. If I asked my friend, they won't say even that I'm an introvert, I feel like even if they thought so, they would fell like it would be to "offensive" for them to label me that way. Despite the effort of my area to destigmatize mental illness, I don't think it's worked in the way that they intended, as rather, people treat it as a personality trait, rather than something that can affect someone else's life severely.
Ultimately, I would appreciate any tips/advice/feedback/anything that y'all could response with. I really don't want to be "that guy who self diagnosis". but I think that it's time for me to do something about this situation I've been having, without blatantly disregarding my family and parent or my desire to just try to learn to be more extrovert and be more "normal".
I deeply apologize again if I'm offending anyone or self diagnosing myself, I just word dumped all my thoughts onto the computer, and hopefully I can more more sense of it and clean it up over the next hours.
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aspergers
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I don't feel safe leaving my house or more specifically being outside walking around. I go to work. Thats it. Then I'm locked down inside. With the alarm on. With covid it's worse. I just get everything delivered.
Do other people not leave the house? Has anyone made any progress?
Last time i went out to just walk a block over i had to go back. This was maybe six months ago, i started to panic over a car behind me. I thought it was somone coming to hurt me.
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ptsd
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Hi everyone, I get married in 4 weeks and yesterday I was excited and this morning I feel anxious. I've been a long time sufferer of OCD (pureO), particularly ROCD themes.
As you can imagine this is making me feel like I'm spiralling. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? What did you do to help you keep flying straight. I'd love to hear someone else's story too.
I've been with my partner for a third of my life and ROCD has been a reoccurrence throughout most of it. I just want to be able to marry the love of my life without having to deal with this awful feeling :( planning a wedding is already stressful enough :'(.
Anyway, I really appreciate you taking the time to read this.
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OCD
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It’s been a wild ride but eye opening to see why my mind thinks and body responds the way it does. Since my teens I remember just being way too overly focused and obsessive over particular things. It was mostly love interests and friendships in my 20s. This year it’s health due to my first panic attack this past January and increased intrusive thoughts about harm ocd.
Not gonna lie, when the harm ocd started i thought I was legit going nuts. I remember looking at a bottle cap one day and imagining me swallowing hole and choking and dieing. Scared me so bad I ran out of the house. It’s kinda funny in hindsight since that thought no longer bugs me, but it felt scary at the time. As the years gone on it’s progressed to fear of losing control and offing myself, feeling sensations in my body that almost feel like urges and when I do my fear flares up and makes me think this is my brain trying to get me to self harm when I feel these “urges”. It was a relief to know this is part of ocd. It terrified me thinking I khit actually hurt myself because I would feel something in my body and just have the mental imaging of me harming that body part. For instance today: I think anxiety was manifesting into my forehead because I suddenly feel this pressure in it and then have this constant mental image of soemthing slamming into my forehead. It takes me aback sometimes but I realize that’s just the anxiety and ocd and if I just let it hang out it’ll leave me alone eventually. Anyways, anyone else have similar experiences or can relate to what I’m saying ? Would love to get in touch with other ocd(ers).
EDIT: I’m not suicidal, I’m terrified of suicide just to note there. I just have that random sucked into back hole fear I’ll lose control and somehow will happen if that makes sense.
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OCD
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ive been diagnosed and my therapist thinks i have a pretty severe case of it but i really dont know. i think im just weird and i keep feeling like all my mental illness is just exaggerated and faked.
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OCD
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Got screamed at by a customer today for not being helpful enough, I was as helpful with her as I am with all the customers who ask me questions and refuse to clarify when I ask them to be a tiny bit more specific (chalkboard chalk and pavement chalk are leagues different) which reminded me how much I truly hate customer service. I've tried applying to schools and never get any response because of my shitty grades from high school over a decade ago. I live in a very small town with limited employment opportunities. I just want out so bad. I want to have a happy life but now it just feels like I'll be here forever. Making minimum wage while doing the work of three people plus most of my boss's job being yelled at by entitled assholes who need their hands held through their whole life. What's the point of this? What's the point of me? I'm useless. I'm tired.
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depression
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I simply love that guy lol I've been obsessed with him for forever. If you don't know who he is, go and watch "Please Like Me" and "Everything's Gonna be Okay".
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aspergers
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