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That scene where he just needs to pick up that last kernel of corn. So relatable. I think of him every day as I try to put away the folded laundry in a single trip.
It's just one of those things from childhood that sticks vividly in my mind. Like the part in Bambi where it's raining and the song "drip drip drop little april showers beating a tune as you fall to the ground". I never get bored of singing it to myself.
Anyone have clips from childhood movies that replay in their heads to this day?
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i cannot find trhe leiight
the light cannot find me
i deleted the source code
mommy is happy
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Thanks for taking the time to read my post. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD (at 23 years old). Alongside therapy, my doctor prescribed me medication to help improve my executive functioning and such.
I started with 20mg of Vyvanse two days ago, and I’m now on 30mg as of this morning. I can’t say that I’ve experienced any euphoria or improvements in my mood which I read is common, in fact I haven’t noticed much of a difference at all. I’m still fatigued, forgetful, scatter-brained etc... although I have been somewhat productive, but I suppose it’s too early to tell if that’s circumstantial or a placebo. I haven’t experienced the clearer, more organized and quieter thoughts that I read about, which I was hopeful for. My way of thinking feels the same.
Maybe I was naive in expecting a drastic shift. I just feel anxious, sweaty, thirsty and I have a headache. I am 220lbs, so maybe for my weight 30mg is too low? I should mention I take Cipralex daily as well (SSRI’s for depression). Maybe that’s a factor? I know this is a conversation to have with my doctor of course, but my check-in isn’t for a month and I was just curious as to what your guys experience has been like. I’ve only read about positive experiences with ADHD meds and Vyvanse in particular, so I’m feeling alone and a bit hopeless in having not noticed much of a difference. I’m also having anxious thoughts now like, “what if I was misdiagnosed and I don’t actually have ADHD, which is why they’re not working?” Which is probably silly.
Thanks again for reading.
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Me: "45 minutes after I take this single med my heart goes from 70 bpm at rest to 150bpm also at rest. Also I wake up in the morning with severe confusion, cold-sweats and racing heart."Dr: "your side effects from your medication is psychosomatic as it show the same pattern"Me: "So...If the psychosomatic and you say this will happen to every medication...I shouldn't be taking medication at all then since the side effects are so extreme?"Dr: "No we can try again later"Me: "But you just said that my subconscious is making me I'll for taking it so no matter what I suffer, why would I take meds to suffer when I already suffer?"Dr: "This is more for your therapist to answer than for me."Me: "ok have a good day"
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i always had a up and down relationship with my mom, my dad on the other hand i’ve never had a good relationship with him. i remember when i was in 5th grade that’s when my mom became an alcoholic. my first vivid memory of her being dangerous drunk. i knew she was becoming a alcoholic. i was at a party with her at her friends house i was around 11 years old and she couldn’t find her keys. i remember the smell of jack daniels coming from her breath cussing me out and telling me to “stop taking her fucking shit”. this situation is probably the reason why i refuse to drink jack daniels. next thing i knew my mom had her hands around my neck and i felt my back crash against the wall and that was my first time loosing my breath to were i thought i was gonna pass out. i already was diagnosed with PTSD in 4th grade due to my home life and dealing with sexual assault at a young age. so my mom becoming a alcoholic sky rocketed my bad habits & showed me a new reality
i was always a up and down kid i struggled with really destructive anger issues at school and i started therapy due to that... it doesn’t help i lived in a verbally abusive household and was always home alone. my dad still till this day is verbally abusive and has a big factor towards my depression. throughout the years of my mom being a alcoholic i feel like i subconsciously created toxic traits towards myself from my trauma with my parents. i don’t suffer from nightmares much with having ptsd i replay the moments in my head everyday at different times...
anyone suffering from ptsd what do you experience on a daily basis because of your diagnosis?
does anyone feel that their parents have a huge impact on the toxic traits or bad habits they developed?
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last night i had nightmares
this morning flashbacks
it’s constantly coming back to me and i don’t really know what to do, i keep talking and trying to get help but there’s no progress.
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Im currently sitting in my room, toughts are tormenting me. Once again i dont know what i actually belive in.
I am questioning everything. I dont know what i feel anymore. I dont know if i belive this crazy toughts or not anymore. I dont know what to do. Im scared to do ERP because i feel like im going to start beliving these toughts, that im going to convince myself that they are true. I cant think about anything else except these toughts. Im angry but also scared and tired of this.
Im at the point where im not sure if reassurance would make me feel better. I think that it wouldnt. Anyone with any advice? What to do next?
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Basically I get these intrusive thoughts and feelings randomly and even though I know its most likely not true I still cant help but stress out over them.
I get "if blank then blank" type thoughts which sometimes come true and sometimes not. Those I kinda don't care about because for the most part got I got over them. The thoughts that bother me more are when I get a random word or a number. These words or numbers are usually time frames and diseases and they always get me to stress hard.
I also sometimes just get these feelings or vibes. Like I don't think the words "if this then that," its just like a feeling I suddenly get like "this happened" or "this will happen."
I remember at the end of middle school I thought I was gonna either die or become mentally disabled by the time I ended highcshool. I'm still here 4 years after graduation but it still caused a bunch of stress for those 4 years.
Another big one was when I thought I wished something bad on my dad and the time frame was 2016 to 2019. Hes still fine but again, that it ruined those 3 years for me.
There have also been times when some tragedy happens close to the family and somehow my thoughts try to force their way into thinking I had something to do with it. Even when I literally barely new the person and obviously never had any kinda thoughts about them, they still find a way to put blame on me.
What makes this the hardest is that I understand for the most part that these are all fake thoughts, but I still can't shake the aniety they bring. Theres always that "what if it is true" that bothers me. You know, something obvious like "theres no way a semitruck will hit a tree that knocks over a telephone pole that then crashes through my window and sends a piece of glass flying through my eye and into my brain 12 minutes...but what if?"
Now I might not believe it, but that what if still keeps the thought on my mind and a bit of anxiety with it.
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http://www.rdos.net/eng/poly10a.php?p1=75&p2=42&p3=37&p4=57&p5=36&p6=62&p7=72&p8=60&p9=59&p10=64
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My OCD is mainly relationship based and my girlfriend knows about it. In fact she’s told me before she’s not going anywhere no matter how bad it gets but obviously OCD takes something like that and makes you question it to the high heavens. One little thing happens like she makes a joke or gets a bit annoyed about something and my head goes “this might make her leave you or want to go on a break”. I know that’s stupid and doesn’t make sense but I get this urge to ask her if we’re still gonna be together for a long time like she says and recently it has made her say “you doubt my love so much” which I really don’t. Deep down I know she loves me and isn’t going anywhere but I just feel like I HAVE to ask her or it means something might be wrong. I feel bad about it really, could anyone give some tips on how to better resist the urge to ask her things like this continuously?
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Im in college right now and i have multiple days of the week without classes. I dont have a huge workload either, but i manage to screw it up most days and get nothing done. From experts i know that if i can just do work before i watch videos or play games, as well as do things like take my medication and go to the library, i can drastically increase my chances of actually finishing my work that day, but more often then not, i wake up, and decide that "i just woke up and have loads of time, i can start the day with some fun and still do what i need" fast forward to midnight, nothing has been done, and im still watching videos or playing games, extremely bored, yet i feel working would be even more boring. This also applies for when i finish classes and need to work. Any advice on things to do or avoid to better remind myself to start the day with work?
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So this is my first time posting here and I want to be honest by saying that I've never been diagnosed with OCD, though I've had pretty bad OCD symptoms all my life.
I wanted to post this here because I thought it was relevant, and I guess I wanted to know if others here experience this and how they deal with it.
I'm a freelance writer and doing pretty well for myself, but I have this like crippling fear of accidentally plagiarizing work. I'm currently doing a lot of writing projects each month that require research on topics I'm not familiar with--I'm always so scared that I'm "patchwork plagiarizing" or something, since there are only so many ways to relay this kind of information.
I do my best to internalize the info and "learn" it myself before writing. I try to make everything unique, and I have also started running my articles through a plagiarism checker just to make sure.
But every time I submit an article, I'm like "Oh no! I just submitted plagiarized work. The client will find out and I'll get in legal trouble, and how could I be such a terrible human being. Oh no, oh no, oh no..."
I guess this sounds really stupid, but it's making my life so much harder right now.
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Does anybody else obsess over their aging? I feel like I need to rush because everywhere people yap on about how your 20's are the best time of your life and you were prettiest at age 18 (so lucky me as I've had OCD my entire life and never lived a single day worry free(-:) and that your brain starts to decline and stuff. It makes me feel completely hopeless and I'm checking my skin constantly for subtle signs of aging. I'm worried about my cognitive function constantly. I have the weirdest compulsions because of this. I want to be in a dark room most days with goddamn sunscreen on my face to prevent the aging even the slightest. Needless to say I'm completely miserable by this 🙃 Is this part of existential OCD? Idk I'm really struggling with this alongside fear of illnesses and a new theme for me at least brought on by the pandemic contamination OCD. I feel like this pandemic made everything 10000000x worse than it were and I'm seriously freaking out with my OCD. Also the fear of going psychotic is strong with this one currently, because if I go even crazier then I lose my brain and the aging and and.... just everything. I'm seriously not sure what to do anymore with this. I'm just so done with living like this.
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So, I express myself much better in writing than speaking, not that I’m particularly good at writing. I’ve tried to find blog sites/locations devoted to the sorts of things I’m interested in writing about, but that’s lead me to posting to multiple blog sites and still talking about stuff out of left field half the time. I can go on a soliloquy about social issues on one site and then have to go to another to obsess about Lost minutiae. The one thing that remains the same is me, and my approach to things, which I already have to be cautious about people not getting. I wish there was a blog site for neurodivergent people in general. At the very least I’d think the flow of topics might stand out less.
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Do you have and follow a strict sleeping routine? How does it work for you?
So I personally think having a bed and wake up set up helps a lot but i struggle to manage it. I be curious to hear how you’re dealing with it.
Having work at 9am waking up at 5am it feels great, i start my day peacefully, I can use that time to work on personal things and be quickly and efficiently ready for work. In contrast when I wake up at 7-7:30 this is usually more chaotic, and it takes me double or triple time to get ready.
The problem with waking up early is that I have to sleep earlier like 9:30pm to get good sleep. And I find it hard to end the day so quick when there are other things to do like cook, and catch up with friends and conversations especially as I finish around late 6pm.
I am accustomed to short sleep of 3-5 hours if I need, and on average I probably sleep about 6 hours, it’s hard to wake up if I don’t catch up on sleep but I can function as normal but good sleep in the morning helps boosting the morning motivation.
So you probably guessed what I usually end up doing 😅
Am I working and trying to do too much in a day? Should I have that stop button, do you?
I just never feel like I want to sleep.
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Hi, my first post here. Im just curious as to when you guys noticed you had ocd? Or showed signs of it?
Im a teenager right now, i never considered that ocd would be something that i would have; but as of recent, especially last summer, i noticed I just did very reptitive things.
To think of some, i constantly check my phones settings, like making sure my phones brightness is low, im on my main page of my home screen, and I constantly do this while counting to numbers. I really hope that makes sense, its hard for me to put it into words and text. I also refresh my instagram page a lot, making sure i didnt accidentally post something on my story, or even refreshing my youtube history a lot too; to ensure i have my video completed and watched
As for real life, i always recheck things as well. To think of most recently, i was packing to leave and constantly rechecking my bag, i knew my belongings were inside but i looked inside my bags pockets a ton just to make sure they were there. I touched my zippers a bit after too, to make sure i closed my bag properly. I hadnt realized i was doing this until my dad asked what was taking me so long.
As well, i pick certain pieces of food, utensils and stick with it. Example, if i grabbed a pizza slice, i stick with it since my hand had already touched it. I dont want others to eat something i touched, in case they were to get sick.
So yea, thats really all i can think of for what I do in my daily life. I hope I can get some insight, and i hope my questioning is valid; i dont want to seem like im self diagnosing for attention etc
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I used to be into Greek mythology a lot, until I had the constant anxiety, then compulsions, and reassurance from it. It was just a constant cycle, so I stopped liking it. However, Greek Mythology has been apart of me for a long time, and I would like to pursue it again. That being said, why does OCD cling onto the things I like?
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I’m a 19f and live in a one bedroom, 2 story “apartment” with my boyfriend. I usually do the cleaning since we made an agreement when we moved in together that if one of us isn’t working then the other one will do most of the cleaning (neither of us can keep a job that well, for a whole bunch of reasons that include health problems). I’m the one that’s usually out of work so I’m in charge of cleaning. Problem is, the apartment is almost never clean. I know it bugs him and it really bugs me too, but unless it’s absolutely crucial that it’s clean, neither of us will tidy. I love having a clean space, and I know him and my kitten would prefer it as well. I can almost never get myself to clean though, or tidy up. If my bf specifically asks me to clean I might pick up some trash and so some laundry, but that’s about it. Today I scrubbed the shower, sink and one of our kitchen counters. It made me notice how absolutely gross out apartment is. I’ve talked to therapists and family members about trying to keep a clean space, but it just always falls through. Plans, lists, schedules, etc never work out. Place will get cleaned for an inspection and two days later it’s back to being messy. I’ve read some other posts where people with adhd have trouble cleaning, and mixed with my depression it seems to be harder. Help??
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like, when youve had sososososososo many moments when youre internally FIGHTING like hell to stay calm and it just takes over ur life and so now after youve kindof moved past that anytime you even THINK of anything mildly uncomfortable or bad you start havin a trauma response and ur brain starts goin nopenopnopenopenope to like an asburd amount bc youre so used to having to FIGHT to not be fearful/deeply uncomfortable and so even the fucking NOTION of anything mildly unpleasant evokes the reaction of "NOPE NAH FUCK NAH NOPE UH UH NONONONONONONONO" in u. not like this is the only neat n nifty ptsd my bedraggled brain is seasoned with but it is one of them and i just wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this. all i want to do is lay in bed but even that hurts my back and makes me resultantly restless
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Would you consider motion sickness as a sensory issue? I always had problems with movement like swings, traveling by car, and even looking at a close passing train.
Motion sickness is quite common I think but probably not as bad as mine.
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I doubt anyone is going to see this so I'm probably just shouting into the void but I'm reaching out everywhere I can. I've cried every day this week and I really just don't know what to do.
I got diagnosed with ADHD around a month ago and I thought I finally found the answer. *This* is why I can't seem to live up to my potential! And there's actually a treatment for it! But the reality has been so so disappointing.
My friend got medicated and she found it a huge help, found that she could do all her tasks in the morning and have the rest of the day free. I've read other success stories where people take stimulants and suddenly find they can function like a normal person.
I wasn't expecting to be a superhuman, I just thought I might be able to actually manage waking up at a normal time, preparing three meals a day for myself, going to uni, staying on top of my coursework, and finally being able to sleep the right side of 3am.
But its just all. so. much. I started my meds on Sunday and I feel like I'm doing *worse* than before. I'm waking up at 8am (instead of 12pm), which is the earliest I need to wake up for class, but I'm still not sleeping until 4:30am. Guess my sleep disorder wasn't caused my adhd after all. To add to that, I don't seem to get anything more done in a day even with the extra hours.
I already called my GP about insomnia before I was diagnosed with adhd but all she did was direct me to the sleep hygiene guidelines on the NHS website (the UK's national healthcare service). I told her I've already tried all that and it didn't work and could I be referred to a sleep specialist as I've been struggling with it all my life. She said "that's all we recommend, just sleep hygiene, there's no one else I can refer you to"
I went private with my adhd diagnosis because the waiting list in my country is 2.5 YEARS and I needed meds so I could actually finish uni (this is my last chance, I already wasted a year of funding by dropping out of another degree so if I drop out or have to retake a year I won't be able to afford it)
However, the private clinic charges £220 per month for titration + the meds cost an additional £90. I can move over to the NHS after three months but only once I'm "stable on the medication" which means the right meds and the right dose. I'm pretty sure if I up my dose or change my meds then the three month timer resets.
Getting the medication on the NHS would only cost £9.50 a month but the NHS refuses to deal with ADHD themselves and won't change your dose or your meds, if something's wrong you have to go back to private healthcare until you're stable again.
I can't afford any more than three months of private healthcare, I can't afford a private insomnia clinic, and the NHS won't help me with my ADHD *or* insomnia. I just feel like I have no options.
The ADHD makes the insomnia worse, and the sleep deprivation makes the ADHD worse and might even be the reason why my meds aren't working, who knows? Meanwhile, the longer both go untreated the longer my to-do list gets and the further behind I fall.
Everything is just so difficult and I don't know how much I can go on like this. Life seems to pile on endless nearly insurmountable problems just for me to finally - barely- overcome them, only to encounter yet more problems
Everyone keeps telling me to hold on and that it will be over soon and I'll get there in the end but this "end" never arrives. There's only one end in life and that's when you die, until then it's just endless stress and more suffering
When I was a kid, I always seemed to outperform my peers at school. My teachers would always say how much potential I had. *I* always thought I had *so* much potential. Yet I can't even seem to manage the most ordinary of things.
I went from being a highly gifted child in primary school; to an intelligent and high achieving, but not extraordinary secondary school student; to a depressed and anxious A-level student who somehow managed to get ABB despite poor attendance and awful mental health.
Applied to study physics at Cambridge, didn't even get an interview. Studied physics at another Russell-group uni, changed to engineering within two weeks and then dropped out in second semester.
I somehow have managed to maintain good grades throughout all this, however it both doesn't feel deserved and doesn't even represent what I feel like I'm capable of. I managed to get a 1st in one of my engineering modules at uni without attending any lectures or doing any revision, imagine what I could do if I could actually just *do* what I want to do and what I *know* I can do.
Now four years later I'm a film student, and although I managed to get a 1st in my first year, it was incredibly difficult. I had to get extensions on nearly everything, and I probably would have had some sort of psychotic break if my girlfriend hadn't managed my time for me.
Looking at my uni performance you'd think I'm doing well but the constant stress of using my intelligence to mask and compensate for my ADHD symptoms means I'm always miserable and feel like I'm just putting out fires everywhere.
I've gone from seemingly being lightyears ahead of all my peers as a child to being a second year uni student four years after all my school friends have graduated.
I just need help, I can't deal with the ordinary challenges of life. I'm already getting private counselling, I'm paying for a private ADHD service I can't afford. I just really needed these meds to work. I don't have the money to experiment with different meds and dosages until I get it right and I don't have the time to wait for the NHS to finally get round to seeing me - if I can even qualify for the waiting list now that I already have a private diagnosis
I don't see any end to this. I don't see myself ever catching up with my ever-growing to-do list. I don't see myself ever being able to look after myself without my parents or my girlfriend picking up the pieces. I can't live like this anymore. I need sleep, I need help. But I can't afford private healthcare and the free options available to me in the UK are just beyond useless.
I've tried everything to get to get a normal sleep cycle going, it's been a problem literally my entire life. I need proper treatment so I can function during the day and sleep at night but I feel like I'm stuck in a huge faceless system where nothing ever gets fixed, only glossed over
I feel like life gives me just enough hope to stop me from ending it all but never enough happiness to make it actually worthwhile
I've thought about killing myself. I don't want to hurt my family and I'll probably just struggle on endlessly but I'm definitely struggling to see any options and I can't remember a time when things didn't feel like a struggle
I'm not really sure why I'm writing this here, I doubt there's much anyone can do. I guess maybe I'm hoping that someone knows somewhere in the UK that can actually help me instead of telling me I need to try mindfulness or exercising or limiting my screen time before bed
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Hi, this event has been in my head more again. I've been writing which helps a little and working out/being active usually balances things but that's not really helping right now.
So here I am typing this out here. Maybe it will help me, maybe it will connect with someone and they don't feel as alone or lonely reading it.
The event deals with an attempted suicide/jumper and me and one other person being the first people there giving him aid.
I was doing barracks night watch(Corps, you just patrol the surrounding barracks for a couple hours before you're relieved) I was at MCT Hotel Co at this time. Between the hours of 2am-4am me and another Marine were patrolling the front of the barracks bullshiting when we heard a scream.
Snapping my head to the noise I see a Marine falling from the 3rd or 4th story from Bravo Co. I still hear that scream and only in the last couple months did I figure out I heard it all the way down until impact.
We sprinted in full gear and rifle, maybe 30 secs and I was just thinking that entire time"WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK!!!"
When we got to Bravo's H we stopped dead in our tracks, seconds that felt like minutes. The air smelled like blood, a lot of it. After the short stop, we dashed the rest of the way towards him and it was a fucking mess.
He was alive still. He had 3 compound fractures, his left arm, left leg, and his right leg. The Marine with me was probably wide eyed as me but I knew one of us had to start doing something because he was still bleeding.
I took off my belt and told him to follow my lead and we made some improvised tourniquets for his arm and one leg.
With still one bleeding leg I made the call to as lightly as possible to lift this...mangled fucking Brother of mine just enough to use his belt for the other leg.
After doing that I tell the other Marine with me to go get the Sgts from Bravo as I stay with him. He ran off and I stayed with my Brother.
I held his right arm that somehow didn't break or look injured at all from the jump. As I did this I made eye contact with him and told him everything was going to be fine and that he would be okay. His going to get better. His going to heal up and be okay.
That entire time...that entire fucking time I could see and feel how much he wanted to scream but couldn't, I think he was just in so much pain his body wouldn't let him... I can see how scared he was in his green eyes and I wish WISH I could've taken all of his pain away, I couldn't help my fucking Brother and it fucking kills me to this day.
I don't know how long it took to get the Sgts out, what I remember is hearing the Marine who was with me and a combat instructor come out to see a Marine on the ground and someone barley whisper "Oh fuck." Followed by yelling "GET THE FUCKING JEEP!!"
Including me and the other Marine, 4 Combat Instructors helped lift and load this Marine into a Jeep that was quickly brought over. After loading they hopped up, banged on the jeep and took off.
Over the last 9 years, I've learned from another Brother of mine this Marine did live and he ended up at a place called Lima Co for healing but he doesn't know how long he was there or even a name because he was going somewhere else. He just remembers seeing him.
I hope he is still alive and that his living a full life, maybe even a family. At the least just happy, okay just not miserable. I know he survived, but that doesn't stop how I end up feeling from the event. I can just hope it gets lighter at this point.
I won't fully know why I'm writing this out to the public, but I hope that me writing this, gets others to talk. To connect and talk about those shitty fucking times without judgement and feel less alone.
If you read this all, I appreciate you for hearing something I don't talk about it. Have a good day, I'm beyond tired, exhausted now.
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Hey all! So I use to take around ten minutes to wash my hands and would do so twice each time and follow that with hand sanitizer. I've gotten a lot better since then and have been able to get an average time of about 3-5 minutes now and have even washed them in a minute at times and have entirely gotten rid of washing twice and sanitizing after. But, I can't really do that without putting all my energy into trying to go quicker and I'm at a loss for how to make 20 seconds the effortless average. I have a feeling that I have just gotten quicker at doing the compulsion and thus reached a plateau, not sure though! Anyway, if that is the case, I have no idea how to fix it. Any tips?
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Only my parents are aware of what OCD is, it took them months to realise its not the stereotype. I am currently seeing a therapist and she said that it's best to make people aware of your situation.
How do you tell people without sounding rude?
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OCD
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Close your eyes and imagine a purple apple. Can you see it in your visual field? Can you rotate it and distinguish its features? If you cannot, then you have aphantasia or an inability to create voluntary mental pictures.
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aspergers
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Basically as a child my mom and sisters made me dress in specific clothes and told me i had to be friendly and talk to people in order to make friends. I couldn’t embarrass them i had to be on my best behaivor if i felt like something was going to happen i had to leave the room and hide so i wouldn’t embarrass them. For birthdays i would get clothes and i would basically be told you can wear these on special occasions. Dont get me wrong id get fun stuff too.
But due to that fact and me trying to seem like a “normal person” in public so i didnt embarrass them even in my 20s.
So i realize last night that this isnt right. I was raised to be friendly with people talk to them make sure “you seem normal enough” but over the years when i get excited on subjects i just run on and on with them and people normally dont like the subjects im talking about. Normally i talk about things i find interesting online. Due to that and me trying to make people like me and think im normal i push people wrong i guess and annoy them. I have had many people who have told me that “i wish can you please be quiet i dont care about this topic as it has nothing to do with me” basically on a weekly basis someone in my life will tell me that.
From my husband telling me he loves me and he understands that i dont mean it that im just a bit to much for him right now. To my roomie . We added on a friend of my husband who basicly told me that she doesnt care about this topic because it flat out has nothing to do with her and her life. I hit a actually break down and went upstairs and went into tears she im not sure realized but she left less than 5 minutes later while i was shutting down my computer.
I was informed that i do not need to try to be friends with anyone or try to talk to them if i didnt want to by my husband if i want to sit in the corner or if i want to do something else i can do that i do not have to be friendly and try to be normal for his friends. And he said in the end he doesnt care what they think of me because hed choose my side over them in the end so if i end up being to much for them id aways get his side.
The issue im getting is how hard it is to untrain myself. Because now all i can think about is i can not embarrass people when now im told i can do whatever i want because he doesnt care what i do because he loves me for me and not who im pretending to be even if i make him go crazy when im overstimulated at times .
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Hi guys! So I’m 23 F and I was diagnosed with ADHD-PI a couple of years ago. When I was first diagnosed I went through a bunch of different meds (adderall, vyvance, etc) before settling on methylphenidate (concerta).
I stopped taking meds about a year and a half ago and I just got put back on them. Today was my first day taking 36 mg again (same as my old dose). It’s been over 3 hours since I took it and the only thing I’ve noticed was a slight headache. There’s been no change in focus, no change in appetite (I’ve still been hungry all morning) and I’ve honestly been a little more tired than usual.
This is completely different than the last time I was on it and the only thing I can think of that would cause it is the change in drug manufacturer. I used to request teva brand only because it worked best for me, now teva doesn’t make concerta anymore and I’ve been put on Camber brand instead.
Has anyone else had any experiences with this brand? And how long should I give it before I call my doctor and tell him what’s going on? Maybe I can take it back to the pharmacy and ask them to swap it out?
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I am diagnosed with PTSD. How long do people, if in consistent treatment (talk therapy/medication/etc), typically have PTSD? I feel like I've had it for "too long".
I have PTSD and C-PTSD, if that matters. I have been exposed to a lot of long term trauma (childhood and adult) but I also have experienced several instances of traumatic violence that I have flashbacks to. I'm guessing the C-PTSD typically sticks around a lot longer.
I'd ask my doc but because of coronavirus I haven't been able to see them in a long time.
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Hi there guys, gals, and non-binary pals!
I had a question about something pertaining to the subject of jury duty.
You see, I have high functioning autism/Aspergers and I was wondering if this diagnosis would somehow get me out of serving as a juror on a more federal level instead of serving as a juror on a more local level.
In my honest opinion, I don’t think it does excuse me because I am high functioning and for the most part, capable of things that a juror is required to do. However, my mom wants to see if she can use my diagnosis as an excuse for me to NOT serve as a juror.
So I was wondering for all of you that have/haven’t served as a juror in court, Is it possible for me to use my Aspergers as an “excuse” to get out of jury duty?
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What do you think are the evolutionary benefits of having autism?
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So at the moment I really have a tough time in my life, lot‘s of changes, losses and trauma.
I used to be trapped in an extremely unhealthy enviroment for me but I finally got a chance to change it for good.
The problem is with that this will be in a few weeks but right now from things that happened this year I‘m in a pretty bad shape. I am supposed to work for the time being but I‘m already super burned out just by my living circumstances. So yeah, luckily I am clear enough to the persons in charge about my situation but still it‘s just draining always needing to set my boundaries and reinforce them at instances who already know the whole story from medical view and personal view from myself.
That‘s why it‘s so strange that I literally don‘t feel tired and can‘t sleep at all but still be able to work normally even without sleep and without having any issues at all.
My question know is, can I really say that I‘m just a person who really doesnt need much sleep, or am I just that overworked ?
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I just turned 26, which means I’m no longer covered under my mom’s insurance, which means I can’t get my meds (Adderall— controlled substance!), because my doctor (with whom I have to meet monthly in order to get the refill) doesn’t take many different kinds of insurance— not even state. I make too much at my job to qualify for state health insurance, but I only recently started working full-time at my job (and it takes 90 days to process my benefits, which means 90 days without a doctor, and 90 days without refills).
I’ve heard about GoodRx providing care without insurance, and that sometimes you can use it toward your refill purchase to get it cheaper than insurance would give you. Can you get a monthly ADHD consultation from GoodRx? The website hasn’t been very helpful, oddly. I really need my meds to keep up at work.
Thanks!
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ADHD
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I am trying to work up the courage and seek diagnosis, not that I am sure exactly what that will do for me. But I am not sure where to start and not sure if I can get over the hesitancy of thinking "Suck it up... PTSD is for people like combat veterans, not for people like you"
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ptsd
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Title says it all, I keep having these panic attacks and don't know how to deal with them
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A girl in my class today yelled “I have OCD!” And then proceeded to organize her pencils by color while smiling at everyone. I have never wanted to slap someone more in my life.
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Hi guys! I'm a straight girl who's been having
sexually intrusive thoughts. It's neither POCD nor
HOCD. I've been getting images of my boyfriend
getting fucked by his guy friends, after I watched
a gay movie. It first started like being
apprehensive of when he spent time with his guy
friends and then I started being suspicious when
they even hugged. I then did a lot of ruminations
and compulsions like imagining them in different
positions. Now, I can't stop these images and I
feel lik puking, not because I'm homophobic but
because I have constant anxiety about my
boyfriend cheating on me with his friends. Is this
some OCD? What should I do to get rid of it?
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I had recently moved to a new place in shared housing after being stuck living with my ex girlfriend for a few months. Everyone here is nice and I enjoy being their housemates, but I feel so alone and isolated. They all have their friends or significant others that always come over and hang out with them but I don't have anyone I can invite over or hang out with. And I don't wanna bother them since they have their own problems to deal with and I don't wanna be another problem for them to add on to all because I'm in a crappy state of mind.
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Quick question for anyone with a chewing toy!
What are chewing toys for? I know it's for stimming, but is it for a specific purpose such as biting nails?
My entire life I have been buying my nails and the skin on the tip of my fingers. I often wondered if a chewing necklace or toy could help with
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I'll take anything at this point. I feel like a slug when I'm slithering out of bed. don't even look in the mirror when I brush my teeth. Sometimes I don't even brush my teeth. I'm wishing for even the small things now like looking attractive so I can feel OK about being me. Please don't say "that's subjective, everyone's beautiful on the inside and in their own way", you know that's not what I mean, and platitudes frustrate me bc they're performative. Like don't be sad be happy uwu. I know it's vain to want to look good just for some fucking self esteem, and I'm not saying looking good will solve everything, but I'm not even here on the inside so I just wish I could control the outside? But I wasn't born with symmetrical features, no luck there. I think I'm trans fucking hurray. I live with the type of parent who'll laugh at me and/or slutshame me for dressing in the styles I like, and already sees me as a failure bc I'm not going with their life plan for me and don't share their values, wonderful. I've never felt comfortable in my own skin, never felt comfortable to be myself, never felt facially good looking, never felt attractive or sexy to myself let alone to others. Im surprised when people even talk about me - you perceive me as a person who's really here? In short I've never felt beautiful. Which is such a first world problem thing so i feel guilty for feeling this but like I said I will literally take any drop of self esteem. I'm a little fixated on this. When I see others confident enough and probably in an accepting environment enough to be themselves, looking how they want, being who they want, people who I think are beautiful for all these qualities, I'm not happy for them. I'm ashamed to say that I'm jealous. It's pathetic.
But like I said, I'll take any drop of self esteem at this point. I'd even settle for just being mildly good looking. There was a time a few months ago when I thought of posting to tiktok for fun and to see if I could promote my art. That was a rare moment of me liking my art lmao, what a dumbass. I then saw that as a visual platform ofc attractive people get the views. I saw a tiktok of some guy in simple clothes and a mask, moving his camera around a few times while he stood still and some bland song played. It had 2 million views somehow, and the comments saying he's so handsome. Comments under other people's videos have things like "if you want a dog I can bark", "oops I wasn't watching I was parking my tesla at my mansion." What a self esteem boost that must be tbh. I've seen people say basing your self worth off external things like social media can be a bad thing, but I feel repulsed trying any kind of self love so this would be nice. And the funny thing is I'm not even able to try getting it so why am I thinking so deeply about this lmao tf. But I don't know how to stop?
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I know I can’t be the only one
Are there any more people like me here?
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aspergers
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I went into Lockdown (19yo) thinking this was my chance to catch up on everything I let pass me by, dreams, projects, ideas, etc. After a week or two in, I spiraled into (my normal mindset) and ended up doing absolutely nothing, stuck in a state of “paralysis” the whole time. Once Lockdown was over, I felt like i completely failed myself, and fell into deep(er) depression, and kind of gave up on myself. Good thing for my family and friend for keeping me afloat, but the more I fail myself, and my goals, the more it’s harder it is not to give up, and submit to my fears/weaknesses. Does anyone else relate to me? Oh also, during Lockdown, is when I was diagnosed with ADHD, which makes my past make a lot more sense. Still trying keep raising my confidence to be able to want to leave my place and socialize.
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ADHD
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My partner noticed that I shake or flap my arms while I'm yawning. I usually only do such blatant stims when very stressed or excited. Is this a thing or am I weird?
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aspergers
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So I was diagnosed in May of last year but only recently started treatment about a month ago. I was given a prescription for Atomoxetine it has been alright so far. Now I had an appointment to meet with him today to discuss how the first month has been going. I was mistaken that I was going to meet them over zoom, like our last appointment, but it turns out that the appointment was in person, which just made me feel dumb, and we ended up having a phone call consultation instead. He just asked how everything was going with my master's and how been feeling on the medication. I ended up just saying that everything has been going good, and I have been feeling great; I have been feeling a little more irritable and sometimes my heart races, but that has been getting better. I said the master is going great.
This isn't the truth. A few times when I first got on the medication, I could not get out of bed because my heart was racing so badly, and I was praying for it to stop, though it has not been that bad for a few weeks now. I had been getting winded very quickly lately, like I never feel like I can get a breath in very easily. I have been walking to the fourth floor of the same building for four years now, and I can't help but get out of breath now. My masters have not been going that great, better than my undergrad but not great. I felt anxious over reading week because I stressed how little time I have now, and all my projects are due in December, and I needed to ask for extenuating circumstances for one assignment that was due this monday.
There was another thing I wanted to bring up during the meeting as well that I want to try a stimulant for a little while and see where that brings me. Because one the most important things is that I always feel restless, like I need to keep moving and always feel 'half awake' or can't focus. But also, I have been on SSRIs before, I know Atomoxetine isn't one, but I just don't like the feeling of mood permanently altered.
So anyway, I know I need to call him back and mention how I felt flustered that I felt better than I am, I feel dumb, and maybe I'm just a hypochondriac. But should I say the point about the simulants, it seems weird to me to bring that up since their reason why Atomoxetine shouldn't work and the future, it takes a while it affects to start, and I don't want to look like I'm looking for drugs. (my GP, who gave me the referral, basically said that he knows I'm just looking for drugs.)
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So I'm just looking for advice. Should I call him back and mention that it has been affecting me more then I made it sound on the phone. Should I also mention I kind want to try other medications.
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I (female, late 20’s) have CPTSD so I know intrusive thoughts and memories are totally a PTSD thing. I know by replaying this memories, my mind is trying to process and fix/work out the trauma. I know me being turned on by my sexual abuse and watching it happen to others (on film and porn) is a common traumatic bonding response where our bodies become addicted to the abuse and abuser. My body associates abuse with an arousal response after years of abuse (like the dog experiment someone commented about). Since I was a child, I wanted to be assaulted and taken advantage of. The abuse felt normal, scary but also arousing. It makes sense how I often found myself with the same creepy/poor boundary men who manipulated and abused their power while infantilizing me.
What confuses me and bothers me is when I get turned on when other women experience similar abuse. As a child, I enjoyed watching movies where the women were exploited. I didn’t want to do the exploiting, I wanted it to happen to me and I enjoyed watching it happen to other women. Recently I met someone who reminded me of myself—similar looks and personality (innocent and wholesome).. and I had this intrusive fantasy of kissing her and then I imagined someone taking advantage of her and I felt turned on, guilty, confused, and bad about her being abused in my fantasy all at once. I think one of my parts came out (internal family system) that saw myself in her and projected the abuse on to her. It was like I was taking on/empathizing with my abusers perspective to see why and how they violated me. Sometimes I pick up/copy expressions from others including my abusers without realizing it.. like I’ll start acting like them. I have had these fantasies with other women who reminded me of myself in the past as well—innocent, airhead and helpless women.
There is research about victims sometimes acting their abuse on others. I wouldn’t do that to her, I would not want to exploit her nor would I ever go through with it because I am pretty sure I’m straight (although sometimes bi curious). I felt confusion like.. was I attracted to her or was I just re-enacting my abuse onto her in my fantasy where I became one of my abusers (the men who have exploited me)? Also I have known her as an acquaintance for many years and haven’t ever felt attracted to her in that way... unless maybe I was suppressing my bisexual part?
I felt really bothered by my fantasy/intrusive thoughts and I wonder if anyone else experienced this? Any feedback and thoughts would be appreciated!
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normal people being people without ocd or anxiety or just mental illness in general. i can’t believe that people get to brush off their past mistakes as nothing and that they have room in their head to think about other things rather than obsess and be scared all the time. that they don’t feel the crushing weight of anxiety and all their thoughts returning as soon as they open their fucking eyes in the morning.
i’m so upset. i make the smallest mistake and feel like i deserve to die and that i don’t deserve to love my loved ones and normal people can just relax. i just wanna cry out of mourning because i’ll never have that normal life back
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OCD
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I recently got my diagnosis and have been questioning every little thing when interacting with people.
I am not normal? But I've been acting like this all my life. How is normal supposed to look like? Should I try to act more normal, now that I know I am different and it makes people uncomfortable?
Ahh, that's why people behave so weird towards me. It's because I am the weird one. Fuck.
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aspergers
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I’m going through a really really bad depression wave.. there’s a lot of shit going on atm. I’ve been clean from self harm for over a year. I really really want to keep it that way. Does anyone have coping mechanisms or things I can do to help? Even just things I can do instead of self harm. I’ll take any suggestions; I just want to get over this big wave so I can take control of my life again
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depression
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my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted…
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OCD
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Okay, this is my first time posting here so I'm a little bit nervous lol I'll try to outline my situation as short as possible
So, for a long time (5~6 years) I've been struggling with my mental health. At first, I didn't really know what it was, but as I learnt more about psychology and mental disorders, I started suspecting that I might have OCD. Let me clarify that I've never seen a professional, so I was never actually diagnosed, but that is the thing I'm asking help for right now. I'm not trying to self-diagnose, but I really do feel like I have OCD and it makes my life hell.
I'm still a minor, so I feel like I need my parents' help to tackle my problem. I feel like they would be supportive because they always are, but given that they don't know much about mental disorders, I don't know how and when to reach out to them. My country and town also isn't quite good when it comes to mental health, to say the least, but if I really tried I might be able to find a mental health professional around here.
So, my question is, how should I open up to my parents about this? When do you think is the atmosphere suited for this discussion and how should I explain it to them?
Any advice is appreciated because lately OCD really made my life harder, it hinders me from doing my best in school and ruined all my hobbies. So I'm thankful for the responses in advance! :)
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OCD
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In helping my kids navigate their ADHD over the last few years, it’s become abundantly clear that so many of my struggles throughout my life are from not being diagnosed myself. I’m waiting on testing and a diagnosis now but I need help navigating some things in the meantime, if that’s ok!
I have very little impulse control and I’m genuinely addicted to a specific soda. I don’t use the word addiction lightly, at all. The sugar and caffeine seem to bring me happiness, albeit temporarily, and I get physically ill when I don’t have it. It also seems to calm my anxiety and help me focus. I need to break the habit because it’s literally making me sick and my health is declining. Any attempt to diet also fails because I can’t stop drinking soda and so my weight just keeps going up.
Advice to break an addiction? Advice to start and continue a diet and exercise routine? I pray that I’m able to start medication soon but the emotional/mental repercussions of this is something I need to begin work on immediately.
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ADHD
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I swear I've been saying "tomorrow I'll start" when referring to deciding to get fit/get in shape for years without actually doing anything. I think I managed about 6 weeks in a row once upon a time and lost a ton of weight. I was exercising and doing keto/omad and it was all very new and exciting at the time with the (very) fast results keeping me interested
After in plateau'd though I got quickly disinterested and just stopped over night.
I've bought all the stuff (running shoes, clothes, headphones, fitness tracker) and it's all just sitting brand new in a drawer somewhere.
I'm falling deeper into unfitness and out-of-shape-ness and would really love to know how you guys do it and stick to it.
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ADHD
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Hey everyone,
I’m mainly asking to see if anyone has 100% recovered. I know it’s a bit of a catch 22 though. People who fully recover would not be on these forums. I know I wouldn’t. I think if I fully recovered I would only come occasionally to support.
But I want to see if anyone here knows of someone or if they themselves have recovered fully from ocd.
I’ve made good progress on my ocd recovery and that’s without much official therapy and medicine! Mainly just ignoring thoughts and doing a bit of erp. But I want to see has anyone fully recovered cause the stories of people not recovering scares me :/
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OCD
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I hate it sooo muchh, making me doubt myself and everything I do. It’s like this overwhelming feeling of guilt and doubt when I shouldn’t be feeling that way.
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OCD
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Hello all! Only just discovered this sub.
I’m a 37 year old male living in Japan.
I’m a teacher of young children.
I recently discovered (thanks to my wife encouraging me to get assessed) that I’m on the high-functioning (formerly Aspergers) side of autism. It’s been a challenge, but it’s nice to know why I’ve been exhibiting all these traits all my life.
The meat of it: I’ve never been able to hold friends very long. I would only consider 2 people my WHOLE LIFE to be considered actual friends. I usually have 2 weeks to a month where I’m *really* excited to meet a new person with similar/identical interests, but before long I’ve either discovered fault with them, or just found that spending time with them is too emotionally draining and not worth my time and effort. This even happens with people I’ve hung out with for a year or more.
The problem is, I also don’t really care about this. I’ll let just friendships disappear because I’m not interested in maintaining them, and this leads to awkwardness and anxiety later.
I don’t know if I *need* friends but growing up undiagnosed means I have all this baggage and experience that tells me I need friends and friendship, but often I feel happier with just my wife and son, or just being alone with my special interests.
It’s frustrating for my feelings, knowledge, and experience to all be at odds with each other. It makes me feel insane sometimes.
What do you all think? Anyone in the same boat?
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is because I knew I was coming back home to you.
It hasn't been the same since you left. Some nights, I don't even go home anymore.
Honey, I've gotten into bad habits. You wouldn't be proud of me. But I still kept the things we treasured. Remember Brownie? He's still safe. He's still himself.
I know you aren't coming back. After all, it was your choice to leave. I hope that new guy is treating you kindly. Wish you could tell your mother I miss her.
I'm not sure where I'm going. Wasn't sure then either, but anywhere was fine as long as you were there.
And the sad thing is, if you could read this now, this letter isn't even meant for you. It's meant for the girl I used to know; the one I held close when my life was beating me down.
I'm still saving for that home we wanted. I just don't know how to let go. You can't live there but you still live here, inside me.
Good night, sweetheart. I miss you.
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My childhood trauma was just validated by an involved party. I've always delegitimized my trauma(s). And now for the first time that I consciously remember, I've had a flashback about my childhood trauma. I have non childhood trauma, so I know my usual symptoms. These symptoms haven't manifested like this for this trauma until now.
Currently I'm collapsed on the floor in a puddle of tears and saliva beside me.
Help? I can't help but remember things that hurt so bad. Do I look away and distract, do I look closer, ...?
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ptsd
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I'm a 31 year old father, diagnosed OCD about 7 years ago (alongside PTSD, Panic Disorder, GAD, and Chronic Depression). I've been on a slew of medications. I've been to CBT, I've practiced meditation, I just wanted someone who understands the rumination, the what I like to call 'lock-on's' or thought loops, how do you ride them out?
Example, I'm working on self esteem and confidence. I slipped on my routine and fell off the wagon for a bit, as I'm working back to my previous pattern I have all of these bombarding thoughts of failure, humiliation, self degradation, the sort, and it is like even my own silence is too loud.
Often I'm told I'm too hard on myself from my peers, but I'm just curious, when a hard time comes for anyone here, how do you ride the wave?
And as the title states, I never realized there were triggers for others and I would appreciate if someone could share what this means and how to identify them. I apologize for my ignorance on the subject, I want to learn more to help better myself for me, my son, and the community around me, and if this post helps anyone else possibly in my shoes, then here's to us all!
* Only seeking opinions, views and ideas. Not to be used as a replacement for therapy, or medical treatment. *
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OCD
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Hi
I've noticed something
If I have had a high activity for some time, I handle high activity better. If I don't use sunglasses/nc headphones more than necessary, I handle light light and sounds better. If I'm social a lot for a while, I handle it better
Which got me thinking
Maybe one can train oneself up to handling more?
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aspergers
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Okay the title makes it sound bad-- but I mean like, you ever just lightly toss a plastic spoon at your significant other? Or knock off a rubber ducky off a shelf and just stare at your S.O to get a reaction out of her?
I swear to god I don't even realize I am doing it half the time, I think I am being hysterical. She just glares at me and goes: "rude" and "You didn't take your meds today, did you?" Which I think is entirely irrelevant. At 26, and having a kid on the way, I don't want to set a bad example-- but I am curious if anyone else does some weird shit like this with ADHD or if I am just weird.
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ADHD
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OCD
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Hey guys,
Does any of you have OCD when all of a sudden you get an urge to for example blink your eyes, or twitch with your eye or something like that?
Its kinda like feeling an urge, and when I do it for example twitch I feel relaxed again.
Is this common?
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OCD
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im never hungry anymore. i feel sick all the time. ive barely eaten anything today but i just took a few bites and i just physically cant eat anymore. can this be because of my ptsd? anybody else experience this?
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ptsd
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I’m not really even sure it’s caused by OCD but I can’t be tho only one in this sub who experiences it. Everyone gets songs stuck in their head- I know- they call it an “ear worm”. But is it “normal” for it to be so intrusive that it overpower our other thoughts? I did some reading about it and it commonly happens with songs that are connected to memories. But the memory that goes with this particular song is not vivid at all. It’s just a very sad sounding song and has been stuck in my head for five days. As soon as I wake up, there it is trying to make me bawl my eyes out. Anyone else? Help me 🎶🥺😭🤪🎶
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OCD
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I am currently obsessing about this and not sure if it's just my anxiety or OCD. Last session she said something that I maybe misunderstood as her thinking I'm a bad person and I couldn't stop ruminating about this so tomorrow I'm gonna let her know that this is happening.
Not sure how to approach this without offending her but I'll apologize if it was a misunderstanding. I want to think that my therapist wouldn't say something to harm me but not sure maybe on accident? And then I obsess about whether maybe I'm right and she is not the right fit or maybe I'm wrong and she is great but it's just me being the problem. We'll see tomorrow how she reacts to this issue, please wish me luck.
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OCD
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I thought my depression was mainly due to my toxic and stressful work environment. Then this year I quit work and started my own small business. I sell stuff online, it's fairly easy work and I make a decent living while working half the hours I use to. But, weirdly I now find myself now randomly waking up feeling, empty, deflated and sad. For no apparent reason. Today for example, I woke up and I've been struggle to do anything. Zero motivation. I just feel empty inside. It's not everyday but, once every 3 weeks or so it hits me really hard for a few days and I have to really work to get back on track. How can I feel so depressed when I have no reason to be?
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hi all. lately, life has been very weird for me. I have childhood trauma from when I was very young (probably about 5-7) from a family member that used to babysit me as a kid. He was abusive in lots of ways (verbal, physical), but about a year ago I came out about something to my best friend: I had always held in a feeling that he touched me inappropriately with this specific game he made up. After that, I remembered him laying on top of me, facing me, suffocating me, and as i think of it, I can't breathe. I can smell the alcohol and feel the weight. I know there was more sexual assault intuitively. but i can't fucking remember. This person is all the way across the country, so I am safe now, and he has never tried to do anything since, probably because I would tell. Here's my problem. Since he has moved away, i think it has enabled me to stuff it in the back of my head and disassociate and ignore it. I think of the good times and go, "did that even happen? I mean, I don't FEEL bad right now" and then a day later I will see a post about something from my childhood around the time he babysat me and I start to cry and have a panic attack. i really have a feeling there was more sexual assault and that there was something to do with oral (I never get nauseous thinking of gross scenarios, but when I think of that specific thought I get shaky and start to have a panic attack and start to feel like I'm gonna vomit). Even if there wasn't any sexual assault and my mind is deceiving me, he took care of me while he was drunk and drove me drunk. He would scream and throw things. My parents don't really help either, since both of them are in denial since they're related to him. they're supportive sometimes but always make excuses. I am starting to feel like he didn't do anything and I am making it up. Maybe he didn't sexually assault me? But then I have nightmares where he is there and i am terrified and crying for help. Or that I am in the house that he "took care" of me in.
Also, I apologize if this is not the right sub, but my ptsd and ocd kinda collab sometimes, and lately I have had so many intrusive thoughts about slitting my wrists. I don't want to do it, i am not suicidal whatsoever, I just really am having compulsions. I am constantly hyperactive and too aware of my safety. I am just so lost and I am doubting myself and if anything ever happened and if it didn't, why am I having symptoms and why do I feel like it didn't sometimes if it did? Feel free to put your own experiences in the comments please. any feedback would be appreciated
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In the first place, I'm fond of character dramas in which moral ambiguity plays a large component. Or, perhaps, that might have been a subconscious consequence of these things? It's very hard to say.
I'm a very soft-spoken, calm person (my best friend calls my voice 'like butter'). I am not internally unemotional, but I'm just not outwardly expressive. I also have an accent similar to Received Pronunciation, though I'm not from a well-known country. It probably matters for media material that I am a male.
Most characters that sound like me, especially men, are villains. There are lots of tropes and stereotypes about it, from effeminate men being evil to just soft-spoken sadists. Dexter fits the bill as a rare protagonist. But he is a protagonist who is a serial murderer. Nurse Ratched's demeanor from *Ratched* on Netflix makes her very much a female me. And she's another serial murderer. I put on my customer service voice to be charming, and I just come off as a Hans Landa. Soft spoken characters are also often acceptable targets, prematurely suspect, or set up for a character change for the worse. One of the villains from Wonder Woman 1984 started out adjacent to mild-autism-face.
I also find these characters just more *likeable* than their rowdier counterparts. The bias is obvious - they sound like me! And I *love* me. While I'm not eager for morally simple characters, I just wish some media would flirt with breaking these stereotypes. Whether I myself have acquired villainous traits is up in the air.
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So I'm 16 and I just wish there was a stupid cure I basically had a mini meltdown over a really stupid thing about an hour ago I found my favorite hoodie that I haven't worn in one or two years and I only had it on for like a few minutes I decided to have a jelly donut and some jelly got on it and lately my brother with adhd he's a lot older than me has been whining and complaining about whatever so because of that I was getting really overwhelmed and so was my narcissistic mom
So I go into her room to ask her if she could just wash my hoodie already because I was cold and also really upset that it got jelly on it and that it had to be washed but you know what she does instead she was already on the phone and she decided to tell whoever the hell she was talking to that I was having a meltdown over my stupid hoodie and decided to blame it whatever disability I have because of it
I ran into the woods out of frustration because we basically live around the woods so I kind of got lost for like a few minutes finally she says something like you forgot the dogs because my mom is also a animal hoarder
And the fact that she didn't even fking care that I ran into the woods out of frustration and got lost for a few minutes I was literally panicking but that just goes to show how horrible of a person she really is
When I got back inside I decided to tell her that she should bring my niece home because she has been over all night and I feel like I can't have a meltdown around her because it would seem improper and just straight-up embarrassing then I tried to tell her that she shouldn't be telling people that I'm having a meltdown because those things should be kept private and should not be shared with everybody then she proceeded to say that she loves whatever disability I have and that she loves me even though that's not true and then she also said it looks like you need a hug why don't you hug me so I pulled away immediately and I told her that I don't want her to touch me and because of her that's the reason why whatever disability I have is why I hate myself so because of that she walked away and b!tched about it raising her voice saying that I'm being mean and that she's not going to talk to me if I'm going to be this way
But I seriously wish she would just bring me to the doctor's or just some place where I could get diagnosed because I'm so sick of having these stupid meltdowns and I'm so sick of her blaming me for how I'm acting and basically discriminating me I also wish I had a good mother that would actually help me whenever I'm going through a meltdown and instead of raising her voice and yelling at me would actually try to comfort me
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I thought I had the day off but it turns out I didn't but more over I'm glad I didn't go to work. I talked with my coworkers and learned that one of them also suffers from intrusive thoughts much like my own and I told another about my creepy accidentally medical chart incident and I wasn't viewed as some creep. It was a very nice comfort.
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Hi all, I am not diagnosed with depression and I'm not asking for any random people on reddit to give a conclusion as I know its not as simple as that. Anyway I'm here to tell my experience with what I think are depressed thoughts and I want to see if this is relatable to anyone?
Before this I hadn't noticed any feelings id consider abnormal. So basically 13 months ago I was doing Mock exams and not doing well. My parents were insulting me for my bad performance and my teachers weren't being encouraging instead using me as an example of what not to do in your real exams (which is fair enough I guess) at this time my first relationship was going downhill (my fault for not being in contact enough) and basically I felt tired and unmotivated all the time. I'd do bad on a test, see the result, feel unmotivated then do bad on the next test. It was around this time I began to SH and just joke about suicide but also kind of consider it but like not really. A couple months after it sorta ended I found myself drifting from my friends because I was too tired to speak to them. Some days doing anything feels like a challenge and I wake up tired. Anyway so it's 13 months after that and I still get days or multiple days where I feel tired for no reason, easily agitated and some days I just really feel the urge to go to the train tracks near where I live. It's one of those don't want to die but don't want to live situations. Thing is I don't feel like this everyday and I don't know the cause so is it really depression? I don't want to claim I have something I don't and don't want to go to a doctor about it because it would be embarrassing if I was just a normal person experiencing normal emotions.
EDIT: ah another thing is that now I randomly zone out and find it hard to listen to people for longer periods of time. Seems unrelated though
TLDR: had a bad couple of months now I randomly experience signs or depression but I am unsure if that's just regular human emotions so I'm wondering what other peoples experience is. Not asking for diagnosis but depending on the response I may go see someone about it.
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Hi fellow travellers
This may seem a strange post but my therapist & I are currently experimenting with meds to see what suits me. He’s good but of the “if these meds don’t REALLY work for you, you don’t have ADHD” school of thinking. I get it. He doesn’t want to be dealing with a misdiagnosis. So he’s trialling Xaggitin X L (Methylphenidate Hydrochloride) 36mg.
I’m getting headaches late in the day and have had bouts of bad anxiety but I do feel a certain clarity and focus.
What I wanted to know from you guys is how do these meds affect your depression, anxiety and other issues. I felt the other day, when my anxiety was bad, that the meds heightened the feeling. My anxiety was literally all I could focus on.
I’ve since taken caffeine out of my diet and feel better.
I’ve always assumed that with focus & clarity would could organisation and with organisation would come peace of mind. It’s not working that way, yet.
Any advice?
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The title is a TL;DR but recently I’ve been finding it very hard to meet people I have the same interests with. I really have wanted to make friends but every person that comes along just makes me feel like it’s only a matter of time before they leave. And even if I meet someone online and we call one night, the moment we hang up, I question if I did something wrong or if they actually had to go. The intrusive thoughts are worse than ever with the anxiety and depression going against eachother in my mind. Recently I’ve slowed down on taking care of everything again and I really want someone there to help motivate me. Even with them BEING there would be helpful. But I just can’t see myself having a friendship when I can’t even take care of myself or the things around me…
How do you personally get out of funks like this? Because I’m finding it so hard to do nothing but sleep all day
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Does anyone else have this happen to them, I haven’t been able to find it anywhere on the internet.
When I haven’t done a ritual properly there is actual evidence of things happening that I say can’t happen.
Example: I will do a counting ritual, with going back and forwards, no consistency so I’m not counting the seconds. Then I have to watch something and have a certain word being said before I can finish. The one stipulation though is when I finish the ritual, the second hand on my iPhone clock cannot be exactly on the 4 or the 8. There is a single digit chance of that happening actually, however I check my clock and there it is, 3 times in a row it is on that number. That cannot be confirmation bias because it is consecutive.
To mention as well I was counting the number of words in a re-edit post just randomly and it equaled 53, I don’t like that it was so close to 50 so I stopped counting at 47. I realised that it averaged out to 50 and I don’t like that because it means I will have an average life. THEN, the very next comment which I had not read earlier mention 47-53. I think that now the simulation or God has punished me or given me a sign that I will be destined to have an average life. There is no possible ritual I can do to overcome this and the chances of that happening had to be like billions to one honestly
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Basically I got "infected" with OCD when I was 13-14. First it was the belief that the world will be doomed soon. And soon after I also developed blasphemy OCD. Anyway, I didn't get professional help. I had one therapist who wanted to make me confess my intrusive thoughts by hypnotizing me. I refused because I was afraid and too ashamed. I've spent 5 years of my life with OCD and kept going with coping mechanisms. For example, if I had intrusive thoughts about someone or something I replaced the image with someone or something that looked very similar but was still different. That was only partially reliable but it made things a bit easier for me.
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Does the weather constantly changing heavily effect anyone else here? Or just minor changes in general
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[25, sorta-self-diagnosed male from Italy]
Tl:dr; I kind of miss the elementary/middle/high school routines.
So, my entire school career up to high school was fairly brilliant. Elementary/middle school with top votes in every subjects, graduated high school with 96/100... Then pretty much everything changed. Had a year of work, then one in uni, then dropped out and went a year abroad, came back and fell in deep depression, worked again for a year and a half, now I've started engineering uni (1st year).
It looks like as long as I had a fixed study routine/classes and environment I could thrive academically (maybe not so much socially, but hey...).
Then when I got too much time on my own devices, I can't organize it (neither to study properly nor to enjoy myself). I can only manage to do a couple of house chores effectively, and my study routine is garbage rn. Tomorrow I'm having a midterm exam and I'm definitely not ready (the subject is not one of my main interest, so I get why I'm not studying properly...).
Quite frustrated with myself. I still keep holding on my self-image that was an intelligent (maybe socially inept) guy with a bright future, and I can't really grasp/accept the reality that maybe I can't be that guy (at least, not as easily as I used to think).
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Hi, what's your scores on these tests? I'm pretty sure I have Asperger's but I get an average score on the first test and a high one for processing speed (they're both supposed to be low in people with Asperger's). Here's the RTME test: [https://s3.amazonaws.com/he-assets-prod/interactives/233\_reading\_the\_mind\_through\_eyes/Launch.html](https://s3.amazonaws.com/he-assets-prod/interactives/233_reading_the_mind_through_eyes/Launch.html)
You have to take 3 tests for processing speed.
Edit: Since it's been requested, I'm gonna post 2 processing speed tests, there's also 1 for arithmetic, which I can't be bothered to find. You have to have some sort of screen recording software to be able to score yourself.
The 2 tests can be found here:
[https://www.millisecond.com/download/library/categories/processingspeed](https://www.millisecond.com/download/library/categories/processingspeed)
You'll also need to install some software (which should be available when you try to take the tests). Then look at [this](https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1RlnADwxZkj7HHpBA7EOvVt60-9KDgyEVnBDWOlKTzXY/edit#gid=0) file and search for your age group. Add the transformed scores and then look at the processing speed table below. A score of 100 is the average with a standard deviation of 15.
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The past few weeks have been hell for me and I'm struggling with keeping up with school. My backlog is enormous and I have no idea where to start. I've scheduled everything I can, trying to fit everything into a mould I could work with, but nothing seems to work. I just have no motivation and I'm genuinely feeling like the world is going to end.
This isn't really a vent, I really just need advice. What do I do? Where do I go from here? And what should I do to prevent myself from wanting to jump off the nearest bridge?
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For example I have 3 cases and each case has 18 units in it. But for me If I round up to 20 x 3 = 60. Then I subtract the difference of the original case quantity which is 2 per case. Subtract a total of 6 bc that's the total of the difference from 60 then my answer is 54 units total.
Why the hell do I take the long road for simple math??? I just blew my mgrs mind doing it this way but she laughed and said "okay I trust you". 😆
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I know it makes it worse, and I know this is a bad tendency. But sometimes when I go from 0-100 and then I hit 101, I impulsively reach for alcohol because in that state I seem to believe it will stop the pain.
So that sounds like I have a substance abuse issue but I don’t even drink regularly. I can go a while without drinking (and “drinking” for me is a glass of wine with dinner occasionally) if I feel like it. I don’t feel like I have any dependence on alcohol except when I’m in an extreme flashback state.
Early in my PTSD days I used to struggle with dependency on a daily basis but I broke out of that many years ago. I don’t understand why I still desperately reach for alcohol only in the most extreme moments.
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Hey there! Before all haters might hate me instantly because I am posting in this group but am not diagnosed yet: I dug deep into the topic, watched videos of Dr.s/Prof.s (not any random people who think they have clues) and diagnosed people, made a couple of self-tests which I know are not as equally worth as a diagnosis you get from a specialist but I at least talked to my doctor and started the process to get tested (and it is very likely that I have the combined version).
So now that I started I am stuck already. It took me 3 months to call my doctor (and I have it the easiest way because he is one of my husband's best friends and I can call him even on the weekends). It's on me to finish the pre-process like blood test and brain scan to exclude other causes for my lack of executive functioning, motivation, chaotic behavior etc. and get the real tests started after this.
How did you manage it? I am an adult and have to manage appointments on my own but because there is "only" the benefit of a diagnosis but my fear of medicamentation and the unknown on the other side I can not get myself up and make some damn appointments. Not even the pressure to be seen in a different light by my doctor and friend is enough to keep me going.
This cannot be too difficult :/
Please let me know how you handled it. Did your s.o. or a family member help you? Do you have some tricks? What was your motivation? And was your process as hard as it is for me? I feel so stupid failing at the first step :(
Thank you!
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Hi everyone! I’ve been diagnosed with OCD since I was 18 and realized now that I know nearly nothing about it. I thought I could stop it with medication but none of the meds I took did much more than numb my symptoms. They were there still but I didn’t care until particularly stressful events made them front and center. I’ve recently stopped my medication at the beginning if this month because it was doing more harm than good. I’m currently trying to seek out a therapist but finding one has proved anxiety provoking since I’ve had several bad experiences in the past year. I saw someone online for a while but my insurance doesn’t cover it anymore.
I’m trying to figure out how to cope without medication to see if I can do it. I have a blanket understanding of CBT but I had no clue about reassurance being a thing. I’m hugely guilty of seeking internet reassurance because my trust in myself and my close family members has all but disappeared. My mom is a huge enabler of my reassurance need especially when I was a child and I always got so upset because her reassurance never made me feel better. It still doesn’t and I don’t know how else to cope. My intrusive thoughts are centered around things that could be dangerous to me like food that’s gone bad or more seriously, products being tampered with. I’m also dealing with a lot of health issues so I find it hard not to cyber-reassure when I’m experiencing a new symptom or when I’m feeling particularly ill. I know getting a therapist is going to be the best option but does anyone have any tips? Does limiting your time checking something or the amount of articles you read help or is it like trying to limit to one cig a day when you’re trying to quit smoking? What can I do instead? How do I boost my self-confidence enough that I trust I’m making the right judgement calls?
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Do depressed people qualify for being put to sleep painlessly?
I just can’t imagine the thought of going on like this forever.
All I see in the world is what I can never have because I’m so fucked up. People come into work holding hands, being loving towards their children, laughing and smiling and I’m so fucking empty. All I feel is bitterness and disgust.
I haven’t ended my life because there is one person who cares about me…but it’s not healthy for her and I really wish she’d just ditch me sometimes. Like throwing out the trash. I need the final push to give up everything I have left, which is not much at all. No love, no will, no passion just bitterness, angry, hatred, just the deep sadness of knowing I will never fit in I will never be normal I have fucked my life and brain up so badly that I can never be loved. No dreams left besides the ones I create most of the day just to keep myself alive.
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If you’re willing to share, what are some of the successful exposures you have done?
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I'm new to this community so please forgive me if I make any mistakes, or do not correctly use terms, etc. I recently spoke with my therapist and, after a few months of treatment, she thinks I exhibit some pure OCD tendencies (specifically, some health OCD after I started experiencing panic attacks and had some trips to the ER. I was convinced that something else might be wrong, that doctors had missed something, constantly seeking reassurance from friends and family, etc. As a child, I remember being very worried about what happens when we all die, and worrying desperately about whether or not I'd go to heaven.)
Recently, in the last 3 weeks or so, I've started to experience what she thinks might be self-harm OCD. In October, I started a low dosage of lexapro and after five weeks or so, I had a general thought about self-harm after feeling a little negative about the world (something super generic, like "I could just not be around anymore.") I got very freaked out, and immediately contacted my care provider who advised me to taper off of the lexapro.
Initially, I felt better with a plan in place and the confidence that it was likely the medication. But then, as I tapered off the lexapro, I started to worry that maybe these feelings didn't stem from the medication and were my own true thoughts. So, now, I've been constantly in my own head, trying to prove to myself that these feelings aren't my own. Deep down, I feel like I know that I don't truly feel this way. I don't feel depressed, and have never gravitated towards self-harm in the past. I am continuing to make plans for the future, and seek out help from friends, family, and medical professionals. I haven't made any type of plan, and the thoughts of self-harm cause me great distress and unease (as opposed to feeling like a good option or bringing me relief). But that said, I feel like I'm reaching a point where I don't know down from up, and don't know what I really feel anymore. After getting the lexapro out of my system, I started back on 50mg of sertraline, a drug that has helped me in the past. I feel like I need to just play the waiting game for the drug to take effect and calm my nerves, but I want to try and undo the knot in my brain. Has anyone else who has experienced this provide guidance on how to discern what your true feelings are or how to get out of this rabbit hole?
Thank you all so much
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I have “nightmares “ I am just starting to really accept this fact. If I wasn’t so mentally and physically exhausted every day I wouldn’t sleep much at all. I woke up stressed out, on edge and in general unpleasant to be around. My biggest gripe is I can’t remember the dreams. If I can remember any shred of a detail at all I write it down in a “dream” folder on my cell. Its really killing my data space! A whole 5 details! The most pertinent detail is rage. Easy place to start since I have 30+ years of it bottled up with a gas soaked rag sticking out with the lighter always at the ready.
I am currently weighted down with emotions. They want out. I am learning how to do this. To accept that it normal and okay. Its my day off so on an upside I can just chill on the couch and let this happen and deal with it as it does as best I can. PTSD sucks. End rant.
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I'm undiagnosed but all my life I knew something is off with my brain and I think that I have ADHD I'm seeking to get a diagnosis soon but this year I noticed a lot of things became harder to do like I always had problems with tasks but things like reading are way harder. I have exams to join into a good highschool but I can't even learn from the book cause I feel like I can't read at all. I had problems with that too all my life. It was easy to read when I was like 6 to 9 years old cause I enjoyed reading but now it seems that I have lost interest in a lot of things and it seems impossible to focus on them when I'm not interested in it and I only can easily focus on things I'm interested in. I can't make my brain to think that learning is fun and interesting with every subject. But last year everything seemed not that hard as it is now. Don't get me wrong it was still hard but not as it is now. Could the cause of the symptoms getting worse could be puberty?
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Many speak of college being their golden years, but I do not resonate with this at all. I'm about to finish my first semester at university (went to community college for awhile prior) and I haven't really liked it. I feel like I'm navigating a minefield of neurotypical people. Even in spaces where I'm more likely to meet other autistic students, there's usually just too many people and I'm overwhelmed and burned out quickly. It's all so loud and fast paced, I'm struggling more now than I did in high school.
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Hey!, I am a combat veteran and currently diagnosed with PTSD.
I served as a combat medic in the military and witnessed a whole lot of action (people died around me, I tried to save whomever I could, treated those who I could save, seen a lot of bodies and traumatic scenes).
All that happened around December of 2018, in March of 2019 I was diagnosed with PTSD and since then lived a pretty stressful life, had to support myself financially and didn’t get too much sleep, also maintained a full-time job, working mostly at night time.
Since then I had about 3 cycles of hairloss, and when I say hairloss I mean, the worst kind of hair loss, like, losing 30% of my hair in 1 WEEK.
It usually grows back after a month or two, but I would love to know if any of you guys and gals have experienced anything like that, and if so, how did you cope with it?
I am only 20 years old so I don’t feel like I am ready to cope with so much stress right now, and would really like to just find a way to heal myself.
The stress also makes me do those weird “tics” with my eyebrow, which makes me feel awkward sometimes.
Any idea on how to control my stress?
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These past two years have been rough for everyone but they have been the hardest of my life. I struggled through college to find meaning and purpose and finally found it in the peace corps. I was evacuated when covid hit and had to come home. All my dreams were gone but at least I had met the love of my life there.
After being home for a little bit my uncle cheated on my aunt and ripped our family apart. A little bit after that my grandpa died. I only made it through because she was there for me. A couple weeks after that my other uncle died. She helped me through that as well. I found a new dream to join the military. Covid messed everything up and I’ve been waiting to leave for a year. Living in my parents basement.
I only have had the strength to keep waiting because of my love for this women. Three months ago she ended things with me. It was like she was a completely different person. I never wanted to get married or have kids and she talked me into to it and I ended up changing my mind because I wanted to make her happy. When she ended things she said that talking about marriage and kids made her feel trapped.
I waited three months to try to separate my feelings so we could be friends. Because she always said no matter what happened I would be in her life, that her children would know my name. Today I felt I was ready and texted her that I wanted to be friends. She said she didn’t want to. I asked why and she left me on read.
There is this burning in my chest that won’t go away. I can’t eat or sleep. I just want to be at peace. The world is black and empty and I can’t find joy in anything. I don’t know how long I can do this
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What assessment(s) have you gone through for OCD (regardless of whether you are diagnosed or not)?
(If you have gone through Y-BOCS feel free to post your score at https://www.reddit.com/r/OCD/comments/qwe8jb/what_is_your_ybocs_score/)
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Started a new job, I'm sharing an office with two other people.
Both of them are lovely, however they both also sound like dying whales while breathing if they have done anything even slightly strenuous and the sound is driving me insane, it becomes almost impossible to concentrate on my job, they are also quite noisy while eating. I would never say anything as obviously they cannot really help making the noise.
Are active noise cancelling earphones able to deal with this kind of noise or do I have to get regular in ear headphones with memory foam tips? I've been thinking about getting a pair but never really had a reason to before so I don't know much about Bluetooth headphones, but I know a lot of other users here use them.
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What dose worked for you and how long did it take to work?
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I'm a girl, but i have to pretend to be a boy cuz of my body. I cry everyday thinking about what did i do to deserve this (probably everyone here does), that made me like this (abuse and neglect). I only have one goal and that's to get a girl body, so i can stop pretending and crying. It is really frustrating. Everyone thinks I'm a boy and other dudes become touchy with me (ofc i don't let them touch me, cuz it makes me feel weird), I'm probably disgusting and weird. I'm not even sure why I'm alive rn, I've got two more years till i turn 18, so i can get a job and leave this "home" for good. But even then, it'll take more time for transition (it's expensive). I know I'm gonna die before i even turn 17, just wanted to write it all here. One more thing, should i tell my parents that i need transition?? (they'll throw me on the streets i think)
HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT EVERYONE <3
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So, ADHD affects my day to day life so much, i can get so much done, and i want to, but i just cant because i always open my phone. I also just cant sit down for long periods of time, and if did force myself to sit down I wouldn’t concentrate or just go to sleep. Im going to get some ADHD medication and i was wondering if there is anything other than the pills. Also, does it take effect instantly and help clear your mind and make you focus? Thanks in advance for answering my questions.
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Having PTSD is so frustrating a lot of the times. Neck injuries are my most major trigger, and they’re a lot more commonly shown/mentioned in media than one might think.
I enjoy the Warrior cats books, but I have to be cautious while reading. I wish I could be more engaged in the horror genre, but it feels like 95% of horror movies/shows have a neck injury. Some of my favorite bands have songs I have to skip because they mention a neck injury. I can’t play many popular video games because of my trigger. I love the DanganRonpa franchise, but I can only watch play throughs while skipping some parts because of the neck injuries.
I’m trying to live the best life I can despite this trigger, but sometimes it’s hard because I’m reminded of when I nearly died on a daily basis. When I was a young teenager, I’d sometimes engage in things I knew would trigger me because I was pressured to. The over-exposure ultimately made my PTSD much worse and I’m more easily triggered.
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I’m not gonna kill myself because if my depression wants me dead THAT badly it’s gonna have to start shutting my fucking organs down like a REAL disease instead of being a fucking pussy and hiding in my brain and trying to get ME to do it’s dirty work for it
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Hi folks!
I think I am just needing some hope with success stories of how you had healthy, happy and functional relationships as the person with ADHD (or even the way around, you are dating someone with ADHD).
I have ADHD, am in a relationship and just sometimes struggle with feeling worthy of a relationship because it can feel so hard sometimes. I have a hard time "toning it down" and while it's exhausting for me a lot of the time, I can only imagine it is equally if not more exhausting for my partner. They think I'm so much fun, creative and a joy but also I come with the whole ADHD package - struggle with impulse control, motivation to keep things tidy in the house, procrastination, racing and restless mind and body, issues with interrupting etc. I worry a lot if I'm more of a burden and the bad outweighs the good. They usually make me feel special and good, but we are nearing 2 years and I'm becoming insecure, thinking any minute now they will run for the hills. I struggle with understanding if it's me perceiving rejection or they are really rejecting me and I need to somehow create a way to communicate my fears and feel safe when they arise. Maybe you have a ritual for this you can share with me?
I am overly sensitive and often perceive rejection when it isn't there.... I guess having ADHD my entire life has made me an insecure person. I'm often the weird, wacky, quirky, loud person and it can be hard to like myself for these things. So naturally, my insecurities, feelings of low self-worth and disliking myself (which is an on/off thing-I sometimes love and enjoy these qualities about myself too) creep up and sabotage a good thing. If you have any general advice I would be oh so grateful. Life is hard with ADHD, my golly!
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I'm gonna try and start a series of different low spoon meals that take very little effort to make but are still nutritionally valuable. No promises on how regular the updates will be tho (for obvious reasons lol).
**You will need:**
• Instant noodles (any flavour but I find curry works best)
• mixed frozen veg (or fresh veg if you have that instead)
• tofu (I find marinated tofu works best, since its usually already pre-cut)
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**Steps:**
• Boil water in kettle.
• Grab bowl and put noodles inside.
• Pour boiled water on noodles.
• Grab a handful of veggies and mix the veggies in with the water.
• Put bowl in microwave for about 1-2 mins depending on how powerful your microwave is.
• Mix again and check if veg and noodles are cooked. (If the **noodles** aren't cooked, leave them to sit in the hot water. If the **veg** isn't cooked, put it in the microwave for longer)
• Once cooked, take the tofu out the package and mix with the water and the flavouring powder.
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And you're done! Quick, easy, combining steps to make the cooking process easier and you're getting a whole bunch of good nutrients too!
Gordon Ramsay would probably go absolutely sick at me, but hey, it's food, it tastes good, and it's nutritious.
Obvs if you don't have these ingredients to hand then I'll keep updating with different meal ideas anyways. Let me know if you guys have any other meal ideas!
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