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	Cousin Phillis

	by Elizabeth Gaskell (1863)

	Philip Hermongenes Calderon (1833-98)
	Broken Vows (1856)




	Contents

	PART I
	PART II
	PART III
	PART IV




	PART I


	It is a great thing for a lad when he is first turned into the
	independence of lodgings. I do not think I ever was so satisfied and
	proud in my life as when, at seventeen, I sate down in a little
	three-cornered room above a pastry-cook’s shop in the county town of
	Eltham. My father had left me that afternoon, after delivering himself
	of a few plain precepts, strongly expressed, for my guidance in the new
	course of life on which I was entering. I was to be a clerk under the
	engineer who had undertaken to make the little branch line from Eltham
	to Hornby. My father had got me this situation, which was in a position
	rather above his own in life; or perhaps I should say, above the
	station in which he was born and bred; for he was raising himself every
	year in men’s consideration and respect. He was a mechanic by trade,
	but he had some inventive genius, and a great deal of perseverance, and
	had devised several valuable improvements in railway machinery. He did
	not do this for profit, though, as was reasonable, what came in the
	natural course of things was acceptable; he worked out his ideas,
	because, as he said, “until he could put them into shape, they plagued
	him by night and by day.” But this is enough about my dear father; it
	is a good thing for a country where there are many like him. He was a
	sturdy Independent by descent and conviction; and this it was, I
	believe, which made him place me in the lodgings at the pastry-cook’s.
	The shop was kept by the two sisters of our minister at home; and this
	was considered as a sort of safeguard to my morals, when I was turned
	loose upon the temptations of the county town, with a salary of thirty
	pounds a year.

	My father had given up two precious days, and put on his Sunday
	clothes, in order to bring me to Eltham, and accompany me first to the
	office, to introduce me to my new master (who was under some
	obligations to my father for a suggestion), and next to take me to call
	on the Independent minister of the little congregation at Eltham. And
	then he left me; and though sorry to part with him, I now began to
	taste with relish the pleasure of being my own master. I unpacked the
	hamper that my mother had provided me with, and smelt the pots of
	preserve with all the delight of a possessor who might break into their
	contents at any time he pleased. I handled and weighed in my fancy the
	home-cured ham, which seemed to promise me interminable feasts; and,
	above all, there was the fine savour of knowing that I might eat of
	these dainties when I liked, at my sole will, not dependent on the
	pleasure of any one else, however indulgent. I stowed my eatables away
	in the little corner cupboard—that room was all corners, and everything
	was placed in a corner, the fire-place, the window, the cupboard; I
	myself seemed to be the only thing in the middle, and there was hardly
	room for me. The table was made of a folding leaf under the window, and
	the window looked out upon the market-place; so the studies for the
	prosecution of which my father had brought himself to pay extra for a
	sitting-room for me, ran a considerable chance of being diverted from
	books to men and women. I was to have my meals with the two elderly
	Miss Dawsons in the little parlour behind the three-cornered shop
	downstairs; my breakfasts and dinners at least, for, as my hours in an
	evening were likely to be uncertain, my tea or supper was to be an
	independent meal.

	Then, after this pride and satisfaction, came a sense of desolation. I
	had never been from home before, and I was an only child; and though my
	father’s spoken maxim had been, “Spare the rod, and spoil the child”,
	yet, unconsciously, his heart had yearned after me, and his ways
	towards me were more tender than he knew, or would have approved of in
	himself could he have known. My mother, who never professed sternness,
	was far more severe than my father: perhaps my boyish faults annoyed
	her more; for I remember, now that I have written the above words, how
	she pleaded for me once in my riper years, when I had really offended
	against my father’s sense of right.

	But I have nothing to do with that now. It is about cousin Phillis that
	I am going to write, and as yet I am far enough from even saying who
	cousin Phillis was.

	For some months after I was settled in Eltham, the new employment in
	which I was engaged—the new independence of my life—occupied all my
	thoughts. I was at my desk by eight o“clock, home to dinner at one,
	back at the office by two. The afternoon work was more uncertain than
	the morning’s; it might be the same, or it might be that I had to
	accompany Mr Holdsworth, the managing engineer, to some point on the
	line between Eltham and Hornby. This I always enjoyed, because of the
	variety, and because of the country we traversed (which was very wild
	and pretty), and because I was thrown into companionship with Mr
	Holdsworth, who held the position of hero in my boyish mind. He was a
	young man of five-and-twenty or so, and was in a station above mine,
	both by birth and education; and he had travelled on the Continent, and
	wore mustachios and whiskers of a somewhat foreign fashion. I was proud
	of being seen with him. He was really a fine fellow in a good number of
	ways, and I might have fallen into much worse hands.

	Every Saturday I wrote home, telling of my weekly doings—my father had
	insisted upon this; but there was so little variety in my life that I
	often found it hard work to fill a letter. On Sundays I went twice to
	chapel, up a dark narrow entry, to hear droning hymns, and long
	prayers, and a still longer sermon, preached to a small congregation,
	of which I was, by nearly a score of years, the youngest member.
	Occasionally, Mr Peters, the minister, would ask me home to tea after
	the second service. I dreaded the honour, for I usually sate on the
	edge of my chair all the evening, and answered solemn questions, put in
	a deep bass voice, until household prayer-time came, at eight o“clock,
	when Mrs Peters came in, smoothing down her apron, and the
	maid-of-all-work followed, and first a sermon, and then a chapter was
	read, and a long impromptu prayer followed, till some instinct told Mr
	Peters that supper-time had come, and we rose from our knees with
	hunger for our predominant feeling. Over supper the minister did unbend
	a little into one or two ponderous jokes, as if to show me that
	ministers were men, after all. And then at ten o“clock I went home, and
	enjoyed my long-repressed yawns in the three-cornered room before going
	to bed. Dinah and Hannah Dawson, so their names were put on the board
	above the shop-door—I always called them Miss Dawson and Miss
	Hannah—considered these visits of mine to Mr Peters as the greatest
	honour a young man could have; and evidently thought that if after such
	privileges, I did not work out my salvation, I was a sort of modern
	Judas Iscariot. On the contrary, they shook their heads over my
	intercourse with Mr Holdsworth. He had been so kind to me in many ways,
	that when I cut into my ham, I hovered over the thought of asking him
	to tea in my room, more especially as the annual fair was being held in
	Eltham market-place, and the sight of the booths, the merry-go-rounds,
	the wild-beast shows, and such country pomps, was (as I thought at
	seventeen) very attractive. But when I ventured to allude to my wish in
	even distant terms, Miss Hannah caught me up, and spoke of the
	sinfulness of such sights, and something about wallowing in the mire,
	and then vaulted into France, and spoke evil of the nation, and all who
	had ever set foot therein, till, seeing that her anger was
	concentrating itself into a point, and that that point was Mr
	Holdsworth, I thought it would be better to finish my breakfast, and
	make what haste I could out of the sound of her voice. I rather
	wondered afterwards to hear her and Miss Dawson counting up their
	weekly profits with glee, and saying that a pastry-cook’s shop in the
	corner of the market-place, in Eltham fair week, was no such bad thing.
	However, I never ventured to ask Mr Holdsworth to my lodgings.

	There is not much to tell about this first year of mine at Eltham. But
	when I was nearly nineteen, and beginning to think of whiskers on my
	own account, I came to know cousin Phillis, whose very existence had
	been unknown to me till then. Mr Holdsworth and I had been out to
	Heathbridge for a day, working hard. Heathbridge was near Hornby, for
	our line of railway was above half finished. Of course, a day’s outing
	was a great thing to tell about in my weekly letters; and I fell to
	describing the country—a fault I was not often guilty of. I told my
	father of the bogs, all over wild myrtle and soft moss, and shaking
	ground over which we had to carry our line; and how Mr Holdsworth and I
	had gone for our mid-day meals—for we had to stay here for two days and
	a night—to a pretty village hard by, Heathbridge proper; and how I
	hoped we should often have to go there, for the shaking, uncertain
	ground was puzzling our engineers—one end of the line going up as soon
	as the other was weighted down. (I had no thought for the shareholders’
	interests, as may be seen; we had to make a new line on firmer ground
	before the junction railway was completed.) I told all this at great
	length, thankful to fill up my paper. By return letter, I heard that a
	second-cousin of my mother’s was married to the Independent minister of
	Hornby, Ebenezer Holman by name, and lived at Heathbridge proper; the
	very Heathbridge I had described, or so my mother believed, for she had
	never seen her cousin Phillis Green, who was something of an heiress
	(my father believed), being her father’s only child, and old Thomas
	Green had owned an estate of near upon fifty acres, which must have
	come to his daughter. My mother’s feeling of kinship seemed to have
	been strongly stirred by the mention of Heathbridge; for my father said
	she desired me, if ever I went thither again, to make inquiry for the
	Reverend Ebenezer Holman; and if indeed he lived there, I was further
	to ask if he had not married one Phillis Green; and if both these
	questions were answered in the affirmative, I was to go and introduce
	myself as the only child of Margaret Manning, born Moneypenny. I was
	enraged at myself for having named Heathbridge at all, when I found
	what it was drawing down upon me. One Independent minister, as I said
	to myself, was enough for any man; and here I knew (that is to say, I
	had been catechized on Sabbath mornings by) Mr Dawson, our minister at
	home; and I had had to be civil to old Peters at Eltham, and behave
	myself for five hours running whenever he asked me to tea at his house;
	and now, just as I felt the free air blowing about me up at
	Heathbridge, I was to ferret out another minister, and I should perhaps
	have to be catechized by him, or else asked to tea at his house.
	Besides, I did not like pushing myself upon strangers, who perhaps had
	never heard of my mother’s name, and such an odd name as it
	was—Moneypenny; and if they had, had never cared more for her than she
	had for them, apparently, until this unlucky mention of Heathbridge.
	Still, I would not disobey my parents in such a trifle, however irksome
	it might be. So the next time our business took me to Heathbridge, and
	we were dining in the little sanded inn-parlour, I took the opportunity
	of Mr Holdsworth’s being out of the room, and asked the questions which
	I was bidden to ask of the rosy-cheeked maid. I was either
	unintelligible or she was stupid; for she said she did not know, but
	would ask master; and of course the landlord came in to understand what
	it was I wanted to know; and I had to bring out all my stammering
	inquiries before Mr Holdsworth, who would never have attended to them,
	I dare say, if I had not blushed, and blundered, and made such a fool
	of myself.

	“Yes,” the landlord said, “the Hope Farm was in Heathbridge proper, and
	the owner’s name was Holman, and he was an Independent minister, and,
	as far as the landlord could tell, his wife’s Christian name was
	Phillis, anyhow her maiden name was Green.”

	“Relations of yours?” asked Mr Holdsworth.

	“No, sir—only my mother’s second-cousins. Yes, I suppose they are
	relations. But I never saw them in my life.”

	“The Hope Farm is not a stone’s throw from here,” said the officious
	landlord, going to the window. “If you carry your eye over yon bed of
	hollyhocks, over the damson-trees in the orchard yonder, you may see a
	stack of queer-like stone chimneys. Them is the Hope Farm chimneys;
	it’s an old place, though Holman keeps it in good order.”

	Mr Holdsworth had risen from the table with more promptitude than I
	had, and was standing by the window, looking. At the landlord’s last
	words, he turned round, smiling,—“It is not often that parsons know how
	to keep land in order, is it?”

	“Beg pardon, sir, but I must speak as I find; and Minister Holman—we
	call the Church clergyman here ‘parson,’ sir; he would be a bit jealous
	if he heard a Dissenter called parson—Minister Holman knows what he’s
	about as well as e’er a farmer in the neighbourhood. He gives up five
	days a week to his own work, and two to the Lord’s; and it is difficult
	to say which he works hardest at. He spends Saturday and Sunday
	a-writing sermons and a-visiting his flock at Hornby; and at five
	o“clock on Monday morning he’ll be guiding his plough in the Hope Farm
	yonder just as well as if he could neither read nor write. But your
	dinner will be getting cold, gentlemen.”

	So we went back to table. After a while, Mr Holdsworth broke the
	silence:—“If I were you, Manning, I’d look up these relations of yours.
	You can go and see what they’re like while we’re waiting for Dobson’s
	estimates, and I’ll smoke a cigar in the garden meanwhile.”

	“Thank you, sir. But I don’t know them, and I don’t think I want to
	know them.”

	“What did you ask all those questions for, then?” said he, looking
	quickly up at me. He had no notion of doing or saying things without a
	purpose. I did not answer, so he continued,—“Make up your mind, and go
	off and see what this farmer-minister is like, and come back and tell
	me—I should like to hear.”

	I was so in the habit of yielding to his authority, or influence, that
	I never thought of resisting, but went on my errand, though I remember
	feeling as if I would rather have had my head cut off. The landlord,
	who had evidently taken an interest in the event of our discussion in a
	way that country landlords have, accompanied me to the house-door, and
	gave me repeated directions, as if I was likely to miss my way in two
	hundred yards. But I listened to him, for I was glad of the delay, to
	screw up my courage for the effort of facing unknown people and
	introducing myself. I went along the lane, I recollect, switching at
	all the taller roadside weeds, till, after a turn or two, I found
	myself close in front of the Hope Farm. There was a garden between the
	house and the shady, grassy lane; I afterwards found that this garden
	was called the court; perhaps because there was a low wall round it,
	with an iron railing on the top of the wall, and two great gates
	between pillars crowned with stone balls for a state entrance to the
	flagged path leading up to the front door. It was not the habit of the
	place to go in either by these great gates or by the front door; the
	gates, indeed, were locked, as I found, though the door stood wide
	open. I had to go round by a side-path lightly worn on a broad grassy
	way, which led past the court-wall, past a horse-mount, half covered
	with stone-crop and the little wild yellow fumitory, to another
	door—“the curate”, as I found it was termed by the master of the house,
	while the front door, “handsome and all for show”, was termed the
	“rector”. I knocked with my hand upon the “curate” door; a tall girl,
	about my own age, as I thought, came and opened it, and stood there
	silent, waiting to know my errand. I see her now—cousin Phillis. The
	westering sun shone full upon her, and made a slanting stream of light
	into the room within. She was dressed in dark blue cotton of some kind;
	up to her throat, down to her wrists, with a little frill of the same
	wherever it touched her white skin. And such a white skin as it was! I
	have never seen the like. She had light hair, nearer yellow than any
	other colour. She looked me steadily in the face with large, quiet
	eyes, wondering, but untroubled by the sight of a stranger. I thought
	it odd that so old, so full-grown as she was, she should wear a
	pinafore over her gown.

	Before I had quite made up my mind what to say in reply to her mute
	inquiry of what I wanted there, a woman’s voice called out, “Who is it,
	Phillis? If it is any one for butter-milk send them round to the back
	door.”

	I thought I could rather speak to the owner of that voice than to the
	girl before me; so I passed her, and stood at the entrance of a room
	hat in hand, for this side-door opened straight into the hall or
	house-place where the family sate when work was done. There was a brisk
	little woman of forty or so ironing some huge muslin cravats under the
	light of a long vine-shaded casement window. She looked at me
	distrustfully till I began to speak. “My name is Paul Manning,” said I;
	but I saw she did not know the name. “My mother’s name was Moneypenny,”
	said I,—“Margaret Moneypenny.”

	“And she married one John Manning, of Birmingham,” said Mrs Holman,
	eagerly.

	“And you’ll be her son. Sit down! I am right glad to see you. To think
	of your being Margaret’s son! Why, she was almost a child not so long
	ago. Well, to be sure, it is five-and-twenty years ago. And what brings
	you into these parts?”

	She sate down herself, as if oppressed by her curiosity as to all the
	five-and-twenty years that had passed by since she had seen my mother.
	Her daughter Phillis took up her knitting—a long grey worsted man’s
	stocking, I remember—and knitted away without looking at her work. I
	felt that the steady gaze of those deep grey eyes was upon me, though
	once, when I stealthily raised mine to hers, she was examining
	something on the wall above my head.

	When I had answered all my cousin Holman’s questions, she heaved a long
	breath, and said, “To think of Margaret Moneypenny’s boy being in our
	house! I wish the minister was here. Phillis, in what field is thy
	father to-day?”

	“In the five-acre; they are beginning to cut the corn.”

	“He’ll not like being sent for, then, else I should have liked you to
	have seen the minister. But the five-acre is a good step off. You shall
	have a glass of wine and a bit of cake before you stir from this house,
	though. You’re bound to go, you say, or else the minister comes in
	mostly when the men have their four o“clock.”

	“I must go—I ought to have been off before now.”

	“Here, then, Phillis, take the keys.” She gave her daughter some
	whispered directions, and Phillis left the room.

	“She is my cousin, is she not?” I asked. I knew she was, but somehow I
	wanted to talk of her, and did not know how to begin.

	“Yes—Phillis Holman. She is our only child—now.”

	Either from that “now”, or from a strange momentary wistfulness in her
	eyes, I knew that there had been more children, who were now dead.

	“How old is cousin Phillis?” said I, scarcely venturing on the new
	name, it seemed too prettily familiar for me to call her by it; but
	cousin Holman took no notice of it, answering straight to the purpose.

	“Seventeen last May-day; but the minister does not like to hear me
	calling it May-day,” said she, checking herself with a little awe.
	“Phillis was seventeen on the first day of May last,” she repeated in
	an emended edition.

	“And I am nineteen in another month,” thought I, to myself; I don’t
	know why. Then Phillis came in, carrying a tray with wine and cake upon
	it.

	“We keep a house-servant,” said cousin Holman, “but it is churning day,
	and she is busy.” It was meant as a little proud apology for her
	daughter’s being the handmaiden.

	“I like doing it, mother,” said Phillis, in her grave, full voice.

	I felt as if I were somebody in the Old Testament—who, I could not
	recollect—being served and waited upon by the daughter of the host. Was
	I like Abraham’s servant, when Rebekah gave him to drink at the well? I
	thought Isaac had not gone the pleasantest way to work in winning him a
	wife. But Phillis never thought about such things. She was a stately,
	gracious young woman, in the dress and with the simplicity of a child.

	As I had been taught, I drank to the health of my newfound cousin and
	her husband; and then I ventured to name my cousin Phillis with a
	little bow of my head towards her; but I was too awkward to look and
	see how she took my compliment. “I must go now,” said I, rising.

	Neither of the women had thought of sharing in the wine; cousin Holman
	had broken a bit of cake for form’s sake.

	“I wish the minister had been within,” said his wife, rising too.
	Secretly I was very glad he was not. I did not take kindly to ministers
	in those days, and I thought he must be a particular kind of man, by
	his objecting to the term May-day. But before I went, cousin Holman
	made me promise that I would come back on the Saturday following and
	spend Sunday with them; when I should see something of “the minister”.

	“Come on Friday, if you can,” were her last words as she stood at the
	curate-door, shading her eyes from the sinking sun with her hand.
	Inside the house sate cousin Phillis, her golden hair, her dazzling
	complexion, lighting up the corner of the vine-shadowed room. She had
	not risen when I bade her good-by; she had looked at me straight as she
	said her tranquil words of farewell.

	I found Mr Holdsworth down at the line, hard at work superintending. As
	soon as he had a pause, he said, “Well, Manning, what are the new
	cousins like? How do preaching and farming seem to get on together? If
	the minister turns out to be practical as well as reverend, I shall
	begin to respect him.”

	But he hardly attended to my answer, he was so much more occupied with
	directing his work-people. Indeed, my answer did not come very readily;
	and the most distinct part of it was the mention of the invitation that
	had been given me.

	“Oh, of course you can go—and on Friday, too, if you like; there is no
	reason why not this week; and you’ve done a long spell of work this
	time, old fellow.” I thought that I did not want to go on Friday; but
	when the day came, I found that I should prefer going to staying away,
	so I availed myself of Mr Holdsworth’s permission, and went over to
	Hope Farm some time in the afternoon, a little later than my last
	visit. I found the “curate” open to admit the soft September air, so
	tempered by the warmth of the sun, that it was warmer out of doors than
	in, although the wooden log lay smouldering in front of a heap of hot
	ashes on the hearth. The vine-leaves over the window had a tinge more
	yellow, their edges were here and there scorched and browned; there was
	no ironing about, and cousin Holman sate just outside the house,
	mending a shirt. Phillis was at her knitting indoors: it seemed as if
	she had been at it all the week. The manyspeckled fowls were pecking
	about in the farmyard beyond, and the milk-cans glittered with
	brightness, hung out to sweeten. The court was so full of flowers that
	they crept out upon the low-covered wall and horse-mount, and were even
	to be found self-sown upon the turf that bordered the path to the back
	of the house. I fancied that my Sunday coat was scented for days
	afterwards by the bushes of sweetbriar and the fraxinella that perfumed
	the air. From time to time cousin Holman put her hand into a covered
	basket at her feet, and threw handsful of corn down for the pigeons
	that cooed and fluttered in the air around, in expectation of this
	treat.

	I had a thorough welcome as soon as she saw me. “Now this is kind—this
	is right down friendly,” shaking my hand warmly. “Phillis, your cousin
	Manning is come!”

	“Call me Paul, will you?” said I; “they call me so at home, and Manning
	in the office.”

	“Well, Paul, then. Your room is all ready for you, Paul, for, as I said
	to the minister, ‘I’ll have it ready whether he comes on Friday or
	not.’ And the minister said he must go up to the Ashfield whether you
	were to come or not; but he would come home betimes to see if you were
	here. I’ll show you to your room, and you can wash the dust off a bit.”

	After I came down, I think she did not quite know what to do with me;
	or she might think that I was dull; or she might have work to do in
	which I hindered her; for she called Phillis, and bade her put on her
	bonnet, and go with me to the Ashfield, and find father. So we set off,
	I in a little flutter of a desire to make myself agreeable, but wishing
	that my companion were not quite so tall; for she was above me in
	height. While I was wondering how to begin our conversation, she took
	up the words.

	“I suppose, cousin Paul, you have to be very busy at your work all day
	long in general.”

	“Yes, we have to be in the office at half-past eight; and we have an
	hour for dinner, and then we go at it again till eight or nine.”

	“Then you have not much time for reading.”

	“No,” said I, with a sudden consciousness that I did not make the most
	of what leisure I had.

	“No more have I. Father always gets an hour before going a-field in the
	mornings, but mother does not like me to get up so early.”

	“My mother is always wanting me to get up earlier when I am at home.”

	“What time do you get up?”

	“Oh!—ah!—sometimes half-past six: not often though;” for I remembered
	only twice that I had done so during the past summer.

	She turned her head and looked at me.

	“Father is up at three; and so was mother till she was ill. I should
	like to be up at four.”

	“Your father up at three! Why, what has he to do at that hour?”

	“What has he not to do? He has his private exercise in his own room; he
	always rings the great bell which calls the men to milking; he rouses
	up Betty, our maid; as often as not he gives the horses their feed
	before the man is up—for Jem, who takes care of the horses, is an old
	man; and father is always loth to disturb him; he looks at the calves,
	and the shoulders, heels, traces, chaff, and corn before the horses go
	a-field; he has often to whip-cord the plough-whips; he sees the hogs
	fed; he looks into the swill-tubs, and writes his orders for what is
	wanted for food for man and beast; yes, and for fuel, too. And then, if
	he has a bit of time to spare, he comes in and reads with me—but only
	English; we keep Latin for the evenings, that we may have time to enjoy
	it; and then he calls in the men to breakfast, and cuts the boys’ bread
	and cheese; and sees their wooden bottles filled, and sends them off to
	their work;—and by this time it is half-past six, and we have our
	breakfast. There is father,” she exclaimed, pointing out to me a man in
	his shirt-sleeves, taller by the head than the other two with whom he
	was working. We only saw him through the leaves of the ash-trees
	growing in the hedge, and I thought I must be confusing the figures, or
	mistaken: that man still looked like a very powerful labourer, and had
	none of the precise demureness of appearance which I had always
	imagined was the characteristic of a minister. It was the Reverend
	Ebenezer Holman, however. He gave us a nod as we entered the
	stubble-field; and I think he would have come to meet us but that he
	was in the middle of giving some directions to his men. I could see
	that Phillis was built more after his type than her mother’s. He, like
	his daughter, was largely made, and of a fair, ruddy complexion,
	whereas hers was brilliant and delicate. His hair had been yellow or
	sandy, but now was grizzled. Yet his grey hairs betokened no failure in
	strength. I never saw a more powerful man—deep chest, lean flanks,
	well-planted head. By this time we were nearly up to him; and he
	interrupted himself and stepped forwards; holding out his hand to me,
	but addressing Phillis.

	“Well, my lass, this is cousin Manning, I suppose. Wait a minute, young
	man, and I’ll put on my coat, and give you a decorous and formal
	welcome. But—Ned Hall, there ought to be a water-furrow across this
	land: it’s a nasty, stiff, clayey, dauby bit of ground, and thou and I
	must fall to, come next Monday—I beg your pardon, cousin Manning—and
	there’s old Jem’s cottage wants a bit of thatch; you can do that job
	to-morrow while I am busy.” Then, suddenly changing the tone of his
	deep bass voice to an odd suggestion of chapels and preachers, he
	added. “Now, I will give out the psalm, ‘Come all harmonious tongues’,
	to be sung to ‘Mount Ephraim’ tune.”

	He lifted his spade in his hand, and began to beat time with it; the
	two labourers seemed to know both words and music, though I did not;
	and so did Phillis: her rich voice followed her father’s as he set the
	tune; and the men came in with more uncertainty, but still
	harmoniously. Phillis looked at me once or twice with a little surprise
	at my silence; but I did not know the words. There we five stood,
	bareheaded, excepting Phillis, in the tawny stubble-field, from which
	all the shocks of corn had not yet been carried—a dark wood on one
	side, where the woodpigeons were cooing; blue distance seen through the
	ash-trees on the other. Somehow, I think that if I had known the words,
	and could have sung, my throat would have been choked up by the feeling
	of the unaccustomed scene.

	The hymn was ended, and the men had drawn off before I could stir. I
	saw the minister beginning to put on his coat, and looking at me with
	friendly inspection in his gaze, before I could rouse myself.

	“I dare say you railway gentlemen don’t wind up the day with singing a
	psalm together,” said he; “but it is not a bad practice—not a bad
	practice. We have had it a bit earlier to-day for hospitality’s
	sake—that’s all.”

	I had nothing particular to say to this, though I was thinking a great
	deal. From time to time I stole a look at my companion. His coat was
	black, and so was his waistcoat; neckcloth he had none, his strong full
	throat being bare above the snow-white shirt. He wore drab-coloured
	knee-breeches, grey worsted stockings (I thought I knew the maker), and
	strong-nailed shoes. He carried his hat in his hand, as if he liked to
	feel the coming breeze lifting his hair. After a while, I saw that the
	father took hold of the daughter’s hand, and so, they holding each
	other, went along towards home. We had to cross a lane. In it were two
	little children, one lying prone on the grass in a passion of crying,
	the other standing stock still, with its finger in its mouth, the large
	tears slowly rolling down its cheeks for sympathy. The cause of their
	distress was evident; there was a broken brown pitcher, and a little
	pool of spilt milk on the road.

	“Hollo! Hollo! What’s all this?” said the minister. “Why, what have you
	been about, Tommy,” lifting the little petticoated lad, who was lying
	sobbing, with one vigorous arm. Tommy looked at him with surprise in
	his round eyes, but no affright—they were evidently old acquaintances.

	“Mammy’s jug!” said he, at last, beginning to cry afresh.

	“Well! and will crying piece mammy’s jug, or pick up spilt milk? How
	did you manage it, Tommy?”

	“He” (jerking his head at the other) “and me was running races.”

	“Tommy said he could beat me,” put in the other.

	“Now, I wonder what will make you two silly lads mind, and not run
	races again with a pitcher of milk between you,” said the minister, as
	if musing. “I might flog you, and so save mammy the trouble; for I dare
	say she’ll do it if I don’t.” The fresh burst of whimpering from both
	showed the probability of this.

	“Or I might take you to the Hope Farm, and give you some more milk; but
	then you’d be running races again, and my milk would follow that to the
	ground, and make another white pool. I think the flogging would be
	best—don’t you?”

	“We would never run races no more,” said the elder of the two.

	“Then you’d not be boys; you’d be angels.”

	“No, we shouldn’t.”

	“Why not?”

	They looked into each other’s eyes for an answer to this puzzling
	question. At length, one said, “Angels is dead folk.”

	“Come; we’ll not get too deep into theology. What do you think of my
	lending you a tin can with a lid to carry the milk home in? That would
	not break, at any rate; though I would not answer for the milk not
	spilling if you ran races. That’s it!”

	He had dropped his daughter’s hand, and now held out each of his to the
	little fellows. Phillis and I followed, and listened to the prattle
	which the minister’s companions now poured out to him, and which he was
	evidently enjoying. At a certain point, there was a sudden burst of the
	tawny, ruddy-evening landscape. The minister turned round and quoted a
	line or two of Latin.

	“It’s wonderful,” said he, “how exactly Virgil has hit the enduring
	epithets, nearly two thousand years ago, and in Italy; and yet how it
	describes to a T what is now lying before us in the parish of
	Heathbridge, county ——, England.”

	“I dare say it does,” said I, all aglow with shame, for I had forgotten
	the little Latin I ever knew.

	The minister shifted his eyes to Phillis’s face; it mutely gave him
	back the sympathetic appreciation that I, in my ignorance, could not
	bestow.

	“Oh! this is worse than the catechism,” thought I; “that was only
	remembering words.”

	“Phillis, lass, thou must go home with these lads, and tell their
	mother all about the race and the milk. Mammy must always know the
	truth,” now speaking to the children. “And tell her, too, from me that
	I have got the best birch rod in the parish; and that if she ever
	thinks her children want a flogging she must bring them to me, and, if
	I think they deserve it, I’ll give it them better than she can.” So
	Phillis led the children towards the dairy, somewhere in the back yard,
	and I followed the minister in through the “curate” into the
	house-place. “Their mother,” said he, “is a bit of a vixen, and apt to
	punish her children without rhyme or reason. I try to keep the parish
	rod as well as the parish bull.”

	He sate down in the three-cornered chair by the fire-side, and looked
	around the empty room.

	“Where’s the missus?” said he to himself. But she was there in a
	minute; it was her regular plan to give him his welcome home—by a look,
	by a touch, nothing more—as soon as she could after his return, and he
	had missed her now. Regardless of my presence, he went over the day’s
	doings to her; and then, getting up, he said he must go and make
	himself “reverend”, and that then we would have a cup of tea in the
	parlour. The parlour was a large room with two casemented windows on
	the other side of the broad flagged passage leading from the
	rector-door to the wide staircase, with its shallow, polished oaken
	steps, on which no carpet was ever laid. The parlour-floor was covered
	in the middle by a home-made carpeting of needlework and list. One or
	two quaint family pictures of the Holman family hung round the walls;
	the fire-grate and irons were much ornamented with brass; and on a
	table against the wall between the windows, a great beau-pot of flowers
	was placed upon the folio volumes of Matthew Henry’s Bible. It was a
	compliment to me to use this room, and I tried to be grateful for it;
	but we never had our meals there after that first day, and I was glad
	of it; for the large house-place, living room, dining-room, whichever
	you might like to call it, was twice as comfortable and cheerful. There
	was a rug in front of the great large fire-place, and an oven by the
	grate, and a crook, with the kettle hanging from it, over the bright
	wood-fire; everything that ought to be black and polished in that room
	was black and polished; and the flags, and window-curtains, and such
	things as were to be white and clean, were just spotless in their
	purity. Opposite to the fire-place, extending the whole length of the
	room, was an oaken shovel-board, with the right incline for a skilful
	player to send the weights into the prescribed space. There were
	baskets of white work about, and a small shelf of books hung against
	the wall, books used for reading, and not for propping up a beau-pot of
	flowers. I took down one or two of those books once when I was left
	alone in the house-place on the first evening—Virgil, Caesar, a Greek
	grammar—oh, dear! ah, me! and Phillis Holman’s name in each of them! I
	shut them up, and put them back in their places, and walked as far away
	from the bookshelf as I could. Yes, and I gave my cousin Phillis a wide
	berth, as though she was sitting at her work quietly enough, and her
	hair was looking more golden, her dark eyelashes longer, her round
	pillar of a throat whiter than ever. We had done tea, and we had
	returned into the house-place that the minister might smoke his pipe
	without fear of contaminating the drab damask window-curtains of the
	parlour. He had made himself “reverend” by putting on one of the
	voluminous white muslin neckcloths that I had seen cousin Holman
	ironing that first visit I had paid to the Hope Farm, and by making one
	or two other unimportant changes in his dress. He sate looking steadily
	at me, but whether he saw me or not I cannot tell. At the time I
	fancied that he did, and was gauging me in some unknown fashion in his
	secret mind. Every now and then he took his pipe out of his mouth,
	knocked out the ashes, and asked me some fresh question. As long as
	these related to my acquirements or my reading, I shuffled uneasily and
	did not know what to answer. By-and-by he got round to the more
	practical subject of railroads, and on this I was more at home. I
	really had taken an interest in my work; nor would Mr Holdsworth,
	indeed, have kept me in his employment if I had not given my mind as
	well as my time to it; and I was, besides, full of the difficulties
	which beset us just then, owing to our not being able to find a steady
	bottom on the Heathbridge moss, over which we wished to carry our line.
	In the midst of all my eagerness in speaking about this, I could not
	help being struck with the extreme pertinence of his questions. I do
	not mean that he did not show ignorance of many of the details of
	engineering: that was to have been expected; but on the premises he had
	got hold of; he thought clearly and reasoned logically. Phillis—so like
	him as she was both in body and mind—kept stopping at her work and
	looking at me, trying to fully understand all that I said. I felt she
	did; and perhaps it made me take more pains in using clear expressions,
	and arranging my words, than I otherwise should.

	“She shall see I know something worth knowing, though it mayn’t be her
	dead-and-gone languages,” thought I.

	“I see,” said the minister, at length. “I understand it all. You’ve a
	clear, good head of your own, my lad,—choose how you came by it.”

	“From my father,” said I, proudly. “Have you not heard of his discovery
	of a new method of shunting? It was in the Gazette. It was patented. I
	thought every one had heard of Manning’s patent winch.”

	“We don’t know who invented the alphabet,” said he, half smiling, and
	taking up his pipe.

	“No, I dare say not, sir,” replied I, half offended; “that’s so long
	ago.” Puff—puff—puff.

	“But your father must be a notable man. I heard of him once before; and
	it is not many a one fifty miles away whose fame reaches Heathbridge.”

	“My father is a notable man, sir. It is not me that says so; it is Mr
	Holdsworth, and—and everybody.”

	“He is right to stand up for his father,” said cousin Holman, as if she
	were pleading for me.

	I chafed inwardly, thinking that my father needed no one to stand up
	for him. He was man sufficient for himself.

	“Yes—he is right,” said the minister, placidly. “Right, because it
	comes from his heart—right, too, as I believe, in point of fact. Else
	there is many a young cockerel that will stand upon a dunghill and crow
	about his father, by way of making his own plumage to shine. I should
	like to know thy father,” he went on, turning straight to me, with a
	kindly, frank look in his eyes.

	But I was vexed, and would take no notice. Presently, having finished
	his pipe, he got up and left the room. Phillis put her work hastily
	down, and went after him. In a minute or two she returned, and sate
	down again. Not long after, and before I had quite recovered my good
	temper, he opened the door out of which he had passed, and called to me
	to come to him. I went across a narrow stone passage into a strange,
	many-cornered room, not ten feet in area, part study, part counting
	house, looking into the farm-yard; with a desk to sit at, a desk to
	stand at, a spittoon, a set of shelves with old divinity books upon
	them; another, smaller, filled with books on farriery, farming,
	manures, and such subjects, with pieces of paper containing memoranda
	stuck against the whitewashed walls with wafers, nails, pins, anything
	that came readiest to hand; a box of carpenter’s tools on the floor,
	and some manuscripts in short-hand on the desk.

	He turned round, half laughing. “That foolish girl of mine thinks I
	have vexed you”—putting his large, powerful hand on my shoulder.
	“‘Nay,’ says I, ‘kindly meant is kindly taken’—is it not so?”

	“It was not quite, sir,” replied I, vanquished by his manner; “but it
	shall be in future.”

	“Come, that’s right. You and I shall be friends. Indeed, it’s not many
	a one I would bring in here. But I was reading a book this morning, and
	I could not make it out; it is a book that was left here by mistake one
	day; I had subscribed to Brother Robinson’s sermons; and I was glad to
	see this instead of them, for sermons though they be, they’re . . .
	well, never mind! I took “em both, and made my old coat do a bit
	longer; but all’s fish that comes to my net. I have fewer books than
	leisure to read them, and I have a prodigious big appetite. Here it
	is.”

	It was a volume of stiff mechanics, involving many technical terms, and
	some rather deep mathematics. These last, which would have puzzled me,
	seemed easy enough to him; all that he wanted was the explanations of
	the technical words, which I could easily give.

	While he was looking through the book to find the places where he had
	been puzzled, my wandering eye caught on some of the papers on the
	wall, and I could not help reading one, which has stuck by me ever
	since. At first, it seemed a kind of weekly diary; but then I saw that
	the seven days were portioned out for special prayers and
	intercessions: Monday for his family, Tuesday for enemies, Wednesday
	for the Independent churches, Thursday for all other churches, Friday
	for persons afflicted, Saturday for his own soul, Sunday for all
	wanderers and sinners, that they might be brought home to the fold.

	We were called back into the house-place to have supper. A door opening
	into the kitchen was opened; and all stood up in both rooms, while the
	minister, tall, large, one hand resting on the spread table, the other
	lifted up, said, in the deep voice that would have been loud had it not
	been so full and rich, but without the peculiar accent or twang that I
	believe is considered devout by some people, “Whether we eat or drink,
	or whatsoever we do, let us do all to the glory of God.”

	The supper was an immense meat-pie. We of the house-place were helped
	first; then the minister hit the handle of his buck-horn carving-knife
	on the table once, and said,—

	“Now or never,” which meant, did any of us want any more; and when we
	had all declined, either by silence or by words, he knocked twice with
	his knife on the table, and Betty came in through the open door, and
	carried off the great dish to the kitchen, where an old man and a young
	one, and a help-girl, were awaiting their meal.

	“Shut the door, if you will,” said the minister to Betty.

	“That’s in honour of you,” said cousin Holman, in a tone of
	satisfaction, as the door was shut. “When we’ve no stranger with us,
	the minister is so fond of keeping the door open, and talking to the
	men and maids, just as much as to Phillis and me.

	“It brings us all together like a household just before we meet as a
	household in prayer,” said he, in explanation. “But to go back to what
	we were talking about—can you tell me of any simple book on dynamics
	that I could put in my pocket, and study a little at leisure times in
	the day?”

	“Leisure times, father?” said Phillis, with a nearer approach to a
	smile than I had yet seen on her face.

	“Yes; leisure times, daughter. There is many an odd minute lost in
	waiting for other folk; and now that railroads are coming so near us,
	it behoves us to know something about them.”

	I thought of his own description of his “prodigious big appetite” for
	learning. And he had a good appetite of his own for the more material
	victual before him. But I saw, or fancied I saw, that he had some rule
	for himself in the matter both of food and drink.

	As soon as supper was done the household assembled for prayer. It was a
	long impromptu evening prayer; and it would have seemed desultory
	enough had I not had a glimpse of the kind of day that preceded it, and
	so been able to find a clue to the thoughts that preceded the
	disjointed utterances; for he kept there kneeling down in the centre of
	a circle, his eyes shut, his outstretched hands pressed palm to
	palm—sometimes with a long pause of silence was anything else he wished
	to “lay before the Lord! (to use his own expression)—before he
	concluded with the blessing. He prayed for the cattle and live
	creatures, rather to my surprise; for my attention had begun to wander,
	till it was recalled by the familiar words.

	And here I must not forget to name an odd incident at the conclusion of
	the prayer, and before we had risen from our knees (indeed before Betty
	was well awake, for she made a practice of having a sound nap, her
	weary head lying on her stalwart arms); the minister, still kneeling in
	our midst, but with his eyes wide open, and his arms dropped by his
	side, spoke to the elder man, who turned round on his knees to attend.
	“John, didst see that Daisy had her warm mash to-night; for we must not
	neglect the means, John—two quarts of gruel, a spoonful of ginger, and
	a gill of beer—the poor beast needs it, and I fear it slipped out of my
	mind to tell thee; and here was I asking a blessing and neglecting the
	means, which is a mockery,” said he, dropping his voice.

	Before we went to bed he told me he should see little or nothing more
	of me during my visit, which was to end on Sunday evening, as he always
	gave up both Saturday and Sabbath to his work in the ministry. I
	remembered that the landlord at the inn had told me this on the day
	when I first inquired about these new relations of mine; and I did not
	dislike the opportunity which I saw would be afforded me of becoming
	more acquainted with cousin Holman and Phillis, though I earnestly
	hoped that the latter would not attack me on the subject of the dead
	languages.

	I went to bed, and dreamed that I was as tall as cousin Phillis, and
	had a sudden and miraculous growth of whisker, and a still more
	miraculous acquaintance with Latin and Greek. Alas! I wakened up still
	a short, beardless lad, with “tempus fugit” for my sole remembrance of
	the little Latin I had once learnt. While I was dressing, a bright
	thought came over me: I could question cousin Phillis, instead of her
	questioning me, and so manage to keep the choice of the subjects of
	conversation in my own power.

	Early as it was, every one had breakfasted, and my basin of bread and
	milk was put on the oven-top to await my coming down. Every one was
	gone about their work. The first to come into the house-place was
	Phillis with a basket of eggs. Faithful to my resolution, I asked,—

	“What are those?”

	She looked at me for a moment, and then said gravely,—

	“Potatoes!”

	“No! they are not,” said I. “They are eggs. What do you mean by saying
	they are potatoes?”

	“What do you mean by asking me what they were, when they were plain to
	be seen?” retorted she.

	We were both getting a little angry with each other.

	“I don’t know. I wanted to begin to talk to you; and I was afraid you
	would talk to me about books as you did yesterday. I have not read
	much; and you and the minister have read so much.”

	“I have not,” said she. “But you are our guest; and mother says I must
	make it pleasant to you. We won’t talk of books. What must we talk
	about?”

	“I don’t know. How old are you?”

	“Seventeen last May. How old are you?”

	“I am nineteen. Older than you by nearly two years,” said I, drawing
	myself up to my full height.

	“I should not have thought you were above sixteen,” she replied, as
	quietly as if she were not saying the most provoking thing she possibly
	could. Then came a pause.

	“What are you going to do now?” asked I.

	“I should be dusting the bed-chambers; but mother said I had better
	stay and make it pleasant to you,” said she, a little plaintively, as
	if dusting rooms was far the easiest task.

	“Will you take me to see the live-stock? I like animals, though I don’t
	know much about them.”

	“Oh, do you? I am so glad! I was afraid you would not like animals, as
	you did not like books.”

	I wondered why she said this. I think it was because she had begun to
	fancy all our tastes must be dissimilar. We went together all through
	the farm-yard; we fed the poultry, she kneeling down with her pinafore
	full of corn and meal, and tempting the little timid, downy chickens
	upon it, much to the anxiety of the fussy ruffled hen, their mother.
	She called to the pigeons, who fluttered down at the sound of her
	voice. She and I examined the great sleek cart-horses; sympathized in
	our dislike of pigs; fed the calves; coaxed the sick cow, Daisy; and
	admired the others out at pasture; and came back tired and hungry and
	dirty at dinner-time, having quite forgotten that there were such
	things as dead languages, and consequently capital friends.




	PART II


	Cousin Holman gave me the weekly county newspaper to read aloud to her,
	while she mended stockings out of a high piled-up basket, Phillis
	helping her mother. I read and read, unregardful of the words I was
	uttering, thinking of all manner of other things; of the bright colour
	of Phillis’s hair, as the afternoon sun fell on her bending head; of
	the silence of the house, which enabled me to hear the double tick of
	the old clock which stood half-way up the stairs; of the variety of
	inarticulate noises which cousin Holman made while I read, to show her
	sympathy, wonder, or horror at the newspaper intelligence. The tranquil
	monotony of that hour made me feel as if I had lived for ever, and
	should live for ever droning out paragraphs in that warm sunny room,
	with my two quiet hearers, and the curled-up pussy cat sleeping on the
	hearth-rug, and the clock on the house-stairs perpetually clicking out
	the passage of the moments. By-and-by Betty the servant came to the
	door into the kitchen, and made a sign to Phillis, who put her
	half-mended stocking down, and went away to the kitchen without a word.
	Looking at cousin Holman a minute or two afterwards, I saw that she had
	dropped her chin upon her breast, and had fallen fast asleep. I put the
	newspaper down, and was nearly following her example, when a waft of
	air from some unseen source, slightly opened the door of communication
	with the kitchen, that Phillis must have left unfastened; and I saw
	part of her figure as she sate by the dresser, peeling apples with
	quick dexterity of finger, but with repeated turnings of her head
	towards some book lying on the dresser by her. I softly rose, and as
	softly went into the kitchen, and looked over her shoulder; before she
	was aware of my neighbourhood, I had seen that the book was in a
	language unknown to me, and the running title was L’Inferno. Just as I
	was making out the relationship of this word to “infernal”, she started
	and turned round, and, as if continuing her thought as she spoke, she
	sighed out,—

	“Oh! it is so difficult! Can you help me?” putting her finger below a
	line.

	“Me! I! I don’t even know what language it is in!”

	“Don’t you see it is Dante?” she replied, almost petulantly; she did so
	want help.

	“Italian, then?” said I, dubiously; for I was not quite sure.

	“Yes. And I do so want to make it out. Father can help me a little, for
	he knows Latin; but then he has so little time.”

	“You have not much, I should think, if you have often to try and do two
	things at once, as you are doing now.

	“Oh! that’s nothing! Father bought a heap of old books cheap. And I
	knew something about Dante before; and I have always liked Virgil so
	much. Paring apples is nothing, if I could only make out this old
	Italian. I wish you knew it.”

	“I wish I did,” said I, moved by her impetuosity of tone. “If, now,
	only Mr Holdsworth were here; he can speak Italian like anything, I
	believe.”

	“Who is Mr Holdsworth?” said Phillis, looking up.

	“Oh, he’s our head engineer. He’s a regular first-rate fellow! He can
	do anything;” my hero-worship and my pride in my chief all coming into
	play. Besides, if I was not clever and book-learned myself, it was
	something to belong to some one who was.

	“How is it that he speaks Italian?” asked Phillis.

	“He had to make a railway through Piedmont, which is in Italy, I
	believe; and he had to talk to all the workmen in Italian; and I have
	heard him say that for nearly two years he had only Italian books to
	read in the queer outlandish places he was in.”

	“Oh, dear!” said Phillis; “I wish—” and then she stopped. I was not
	quite sure whether to say the next thing that came into my mind; but I
	said it.

	“Could I ask him anything about your book, or your difficulties?”

	She was silent for a minute or so, and then she made reply,—

	“No! I think not. Thank you very much, though. I can generally puzzle a
	thing out in time. And then, perhaps, I remember it better than if some
	one had helped me. I’ll put it away now, and you must move off, for
	I’ve got to make the paste for the pies; we always have a cold dinner
	on Sabbaths.”

	“But I may stay and help you, mayn’t I?”

	“Oh, yes; not that you can help at all, but I like to have you with
	me.” I was both flattered and annoyed at this straightforward avowal. I
	was pleased that she liked me; but I was young coxcomb enough to have
	wished to play the lover, and I was quite wise enough to perceive that
	if she had any idea of the kind in her head she would never have spoken
	out so frankly. I comforted myself immediately, however, by finding out
	that the grapes were sour. A great tall girl in a pinafore, half a head
	taller than I was, reading books that I had never heard of, and talking
	about them too, as of far more interest than any mere personal
	subjects; that was the last day on which I ever thought of my dear
	cousin Phillis as the possible mistress of my heart and life. But we
	were all the greater friends for this idea being utterly put away and
	buried out of sight.

	Late in the evening the minister came home from Hornby. He had been
	calling on the different members of his flock; and unsatisfactory work
	it had proved to him, it seemed from the fragments that dropped out of
	his thoughts into his talk.

	“I don’t see the men; they are all at their business, their shops, or
	their warehouses; they ought to be there. I have no fault to find with
	them; only if a pastor’s teaching or words of admonition are good for
	anything, they are needed by the men as much as by the women.”

	“Cannot you go and see them in their places of business, and remind
	them of their Christian privileges and duties, minister?” asked cousin
	Holman, who evidently thought that her husband’s words could never be
	out of place.

	“No!” said he, shaking his head. “I judge them by myself. If there are
	clouds in the sky, and I am getting in the hay just ready for loading,
	and rain sure to come in the night, I should look ill upon brother
	Robinson if he came into the field to speak about serious things.”

	“But, at any rate, father, you do good to the women, and perhaps they
	repeat what you have said to them to their husbands and children?”

	“It is to be hoped they do, for I cannot reach the men directly; but
	the women are apt to tarry before coming to me, to put on ribbons and
	gauds; as if they could hear the message I bear to them best in their
	smart clothes. Mrs Dobson to-day—Phillis, I am thankful thou dost not
	care for the vanities of dress!” Phillis reddened a little as she said,
	in a low humble voice,—

	“But I do, father, I’m afraid. I often wish I could wear
	pretty-coloured ribbons round my throat like the squire’s daughters.”

	“It’s but natural, minister!” said his wife; “I’m not above liking a
	silk gown better than a cotton one myself!”

	“The love of dress is a temptation and a snare,” said he, gravely. “The
	true adornment is a meek and quiet spirit. And, wife,” said he, as a
	sudden thought crossed his mind, “in that matter I, too, have sinned. I
	wanted to ask you, could we not sleep in the grey room, instead of our
	own?”

	“Sleep in the grey room?—change our room at this time o’ day?” cousin
	Holman asked, in dismay.

	“Yes,” said he. “It would save me from a daily temptation to anger.
	Look at my chin!” he continued; “I cut it this morning—I cut it on
	Wednesday when I was shaving; I do not know how many times I have cut
	it of late, and all from impatience at seeing Timothy Cooper at his
	work in the yard.”

	“He’s a downright lazy tyke!” said cousin Holman. “He’s not worth his
	wage. There’s but little he can do, and what he can do, he does badly.”

	“True,” said the minister. “He is but, so to speak, a half-wit; and yet
	he has got a wife and children.”

	“More shame for him!”

	“But that is past change. And if I turn him off; no one else will take
	him on. Yet I cannot help watching him of a morning as he goes
	sauntering about his work in the yard; and I watch, and I watch, till
	the old Adam rises strong within me at his lazy ways, and some day, I
	am afraid, I shall go down and send him about his business—let alone
	the way in which he makes me cut myself while I am shaving—and then his
	wife and children will starve. I wish we could move to the grey room.”

	I do not remember much more of my first visit to the Hope Farm. We went
	to chapel in Heathbridge, slowly and decorously walking along the
	lanes, ruddy and tawny with the colouring of the coming autumn. The
	minister walked a little before us, his hands behind his back, his head
	bent down, thinking about the discourse to be delivered to his people,
	cousin Holman said; and we spoke low and quietly, in order not to
	interrupt his thoughts. But I could not help noticing the respectful
	greetings which he received from both rich and poor as we went along;
	greetings which he acknowledged with a kindly wave of his hand, but
	with no words of reply. As we drew near the town, I could see some of
	the young fellows we met cast admiring looks on Phillis; and that made
	me look too. She had on a white gown, and a short black silk cloak,
	according to the fashion of the day. A straw bonnet with brown ribbon
	strings; that was all. But what her dress wanted in colour, her sweet
	bonny face had. The walk made her cheeks bloom like the rose; the very
	whites of her eyes had a blue tinge in them, and her dark eyelashes
	brought out the depth of the blue eyes themselves. Her yellow hair was
	put away as straight as its natural curliness would allow. If she did
	not perceive the admiration she excited, I am sure cousin Holman did;
	for she looked as fierce and as proud as ever her quiet face could
	look, guarding her treasure, and yet glad to perceive that others could
	see that it was a treasure. That afternoon I had to return to Eltham to
	be ready for the next day’s work. I found out afterwards that the
	minister and his family were all “exercised in spirit,” as to whether
	they did well in asking me to repeat my visits at the Hope Farm, seeing
	that of necessity I must return to Eltham on the Sabbath-day. However,
	they did go on asking me, and I went on visiting them, whenever my
	other engagements permitted me, Mr Holdsworth being in this case, as in
	all, a kind and indulgent friend. Nor did my new acquaintances oust him
	from my strong regard and admiration. I had room in my heart for all, I
	am happy to say, and as far as I can remember, I kept praising each to
	the other in a manner which, if I had been an older man, living more
	amongst people of the world, I should have thought unwise, as well as a
	little ridiculous. It was unwise, certainly, as it was almost sure to
	cause disappointment if ever they did become acquainted; and perhaps it
	was ridiculous, though I do not think we any of us thought it so at the
	time. The minister used to listen to my accounts of Mr Holdsworth’s
	many accomplishments and various adventures in travel with the truest
	interest, and most kindly good faith; and Mr Holdsworth in return liked
	to hear about my visits to the farm, and description of my cousin’s
	life there—liked it, I mean, as much as he liked anything that was
	merely narrative, without leading to action.

	So I went to the farm certainly, on an average, once a month during
	that autumn; the course of life there was so peaceful and quiet, that I
	can only remember one small event, and that was one that I think I took
	more notice of than any one else: Phillis left off wearing the
	pinafores that had always been so obnoxious to me; I do not know why
	they were banished, but on one of my visits I found them replaced by
	pretty linen aprons in the morning, and a black silk one in the
	afternoon. And the blue cotton gown became a brown stuff one as winter
	drew on; this sounds like some book I once read, in which a migration
	from the blue bed to the brown was spoken of as a great family event.

	Towards Christmas my dear father came to see me, and to consult Mr
	Holdsworth about the improvement which has since been known as
	“Manning’s driving wheel”. Mr Holdsworth, as I think I have before
	said, had a very great regard for my father, who had been employed in
	the same great machine-shop in which Mr Holdsworth had served his
	apprenticeship; and he and my father had many mutual jokes about one of
	these gentlemen-apprentices who used to set about his smith’s work in
	white wash-leather gloves, for fear of spoiling his hands. Mr
	Holdsworth often spoke to me about my father as having the same kind of
	genius for mechanical invention as that of George Stephenson, and my
	father had come over now to consult him about several improvements, as
	well as an offer of partnership. It was a great pleasure to me to see
	the mutual regard of these two men. Mr Holdsworth, young, handsome,
	keen, well-dressed, an object of admiration to all the youth of Eltham;
	my father, in his decent but unfashionable Sunday clothes, his plain,
	sensible face full of hard lines, the marks of toil and thought,—his
	hands, blackened beyond the power of soap and water by years of labour
	in the foundry; speaking a strong Northern dialect, while Mr Holdsworth
	had a long soft drawl in his voice, as many of the Southerners have,
	and was reckoned in Eltham to give himself airs.

	Although most of my father’s leisure time was occupied with
	conversations about the business I have mentioned, he felt that he
	ought not to leave Eltham without going to pay his respects to the
	relations who had been so kind to his son. So he and I ran up on an
	engine along the incomplete line as far as Heathbridge, and went, by
	invitation, to spend a day at the farm.

	It was odd and yet pleasant to me to perceive how these two men, each
	having led up to this point such totally dissimilar lives, seemed to
	come together by instinct, after one quiet straight look into each
	other’s faces. My father was a thin, wiry man of five foot seven; the
	minister was a broad-shouldered, fresh-coloured man of six foot one;
	they were neither of them great talkers in general—perhaps the minister
	the most so—but they spoke much to each other. My father went into the
	fields with the minister; I think I see him now, with his hands behind
	his back, listening intently to all explanations of tillage, and the
	different processes of farming; occasionally taking up an implement, as
	if unconsciously, and examining it with a critical eye, and now and
	then asking a question, which I could see was considered as pertinent
	by his companion. Then we returned to look at the cattle, housed and
	bedded in expectation of the snow-storm hanging black on the western
	horizon, and my father learned the points of a cow with as much
	attention as if he meant to turn farmer. He had his little book that he
	used for mechanical memoranda and measurements in his pocket, and he
	took it out to write down “straight back”, small muzzle”, “deep
	barrel”, and I know not what else, under the head “cow”. He was very
	critical on a turnip-cutting machine, the clumsiness of which first
	incited him to talk; and when we went into the house he sate thinking
	and quiet for a bit, while Phillis and her mother made the last
	preparations for tea, with a little unheeded apology from cousin
	Holman, because we were not sitting in the best parlour, which she
	thought might be chilly on so cold a night. I wanted nothing better
	than the blazing, crackling fire that sent a glow over all the
	house-place, and warmed the snowy flags under our feet till they seemed
	to have more heat than the crimson rug right in front of the fire.
	After tea, as Phillis and I were talking together very happily, I heard
	an irrepressible exclamation from cousin Holman,—

	“Whatever is the man about!”

	And on looking round, I saw my father taking a straight burning stick
	out of the fire, and, after waiting for a minute, and examining the
	charred end to see if it was fitted for his purpose, he went to the
	hard-wood dresser, scoured to the last pitch of whiteness and
	cleanliness, and began drawing with the stick; the best substitute for
	chalk or charcoal within his reach, for his pocket-book pencil was not
	strong or bold enough for his purpose. When he had done, he began to
	explain his new model of a turnip-cutting machine to the minister, who
	had been watching him in silence all the time. Cousin Holman had, in
	the meantime, taken a duster out of a drawer, and, under pretence of
	being as much interested as her husband in the drawing, was secretly
	trying on an outside mark how easily it would come off, and whether it
	would leave her dresser as white as before. Then Phillis was sent for
	the book on dynamics about which I had been consulted during my first
	visit, and my father had to explain many difficulties, which he did in
	language as clear as his mind, making drawings with his stick wherever
	they were needed as illustrations, the minister sitting with his
	massive head resting on his hands, his elbows on the table, almost
	unconscious of Phillis, leaning over and listening greedily, with her
	hand on his shoulder, sucking in information like her father’s own
	daughter. I was rather sorry for cousin Holman; I had been so once or
	twice before; for do what she would, she was completely unable even to
	understand the pleasure her husband and daughter took in intellectual
	pursuits, much less to care in the least herself for the pursuits
	themselves, and was thus unavoidably thrown out of some of their
	interests. I had once or twice thought she was a little jealous of her
	own child, as a fitter companion for her husband than she was herself;
	and I fancied the minister himself was aware of this feeling, for I had
	noticed an occasional sudden change of subject, and a tenderness of
	appeal in his voice as he spoke to her, which always made her look
	contented and peaceful again. I do not think that Phillis ever
	perceived these little shadows; in the first place, she had such
	complete reverence for her parents that she listened to them both as if
	they had been St Peter and St Paul; and besides, she was always too
	much engrossed with any matter in hand to think about other people’s
	manners and looks.

	This night I could see, though she did not, how much she was winning on
	my father. She asked a few questions which showed that she had followed
	his explanations up to that point; possibly, too, her unusual beauty
	might have something to do with his favourable impression of her; but
	he made no scruple of expressing his admiration of her to her father
	and mother in her absence from the room; and from that evening I date a
	project of his which came out to me a day or two afterwards, as we sate
	in my little three-cornered room in Eltham. “Paul,” he began, “I never
	thought to be a rich man; but I think it’s coming upon me. Some folk
	are making a deal of my new machine (calling it by its technical name),
	and Ellison, of the Borough Green Works, has gone so far as to ask me
	to be his partner.”

	“Mr Ellison the Justice!—who lives in King Street? why, he drives his
	carriage!” said I, doubting, yet exultant.

	“Ay, lad, John Ellison. But that’s no sign that I shall drive my
	carriage. Though I should like to save thy mother walking, for she’s
	not so young as she was. But that’s a long way off; anyhow. I reckon I
	should start with a third profit. It might be seven hundred, or it
	might be more. I should like to have the power to work out some fancies
	o’ mine. I care for that much more than for th’ brass. And Ellison has
	no lads; and by nature the business would come to thee in course o’
	time. Ellison’s lasses are but bits o’ things, and are not like to come
	by husbands just yet; and when they do, maybe they’ll not be in the
	mechanical line. It will be an opening for thee, lad, if thou art
	steady. Thou’rt not great shakes, I know, in th’ inventing line; but
	many a one gets on better without having fancies for something he does
	not see and never has seen. I’m right down glad to see that mother’s
	cousins are such uncommon folk for sense and goodness. I have taken the
	minister to my heart like a brother; and she is a womanly quiet sort of
	a body. And I’ll tell you frank, Paul, it will be a happy day for me if
	ever you can come and tell me that Phillis Holman is like to be my
	daughter. I think if that lass had not a penny, she would be the making
	of a man; and she’ll have yon house and lands, and you may be her match
	yet in fortune if all goes well.”

	I was growing as red as fire; I did not know what to say, and yet I
	wanted to say something; but the idea of having a wife of my own at
	some future day, though it had often floated about in my own head,
	sounded so strange when it was thus first spoken about by my father. He
	saw my confusion, and half smiling said,—

	“Well, lad, what dost say to the old father’s plans? Thou art but
	young, to be sure; but when I was thy age, I would ha’ given my right
	hand if I might ha’ thought of the chance of wedding the lass I cared
	for—”

	“My mother?” asked I, a little struck by the change of his tone of
	voice.

	“No! not thy mother. Thy mother is a very good woman—none better. No!
	the lass I cared for at nineteen ne’er knew how I loved her, and a year
	or two after and she was dead, and ne’er knew. I think she would ha’
	been glad to ha’ known it, poor Molly; but I had to leave the place
	where we lived for to try to earn my bread and I meant to come back but
	before ever I did, she was dead and gone: I ha’ never gone there since.
	But if you fancy Phillis Holman, and can get her to fancy you, my lad,
	it shall go different with you, Paul, to what it did with your father.”

	I took counsel with myself very rapidly, and I came to a clear
	conclusion. “Father,” said I, “if I fancied Phillis ever so much, she
	would never fancy me. I like her as much as I could like a sister; and
	she likes me as if I were her brother—her younger brother.”

	I could see my father’s countenance fall a little.

	“You see she’s so clever she’s more like a man than a woman—she knows
	Latin and Greek.”

	“She’d forget “em, if she’d a houseful of children,” was my father’s
	comment on this.

	“But she knows many a thing besides, and is wise as well as learned;
	she has been so much with her father. She would never think much of me,
	and I should like my wife to think a deal of her husband.”

	“It is not just book-learning or the want of it as makes a wife think
	much or little of her husband,” replied my father, evidently unwilling
	to give up a project which had taken deep root in his mind. “It’s a
	something I don’t rightly know how to call it—if he’s manly, and
	sensible, and straightforward; and I reckon you’re that, my boy.”

	“I don’t think I should like to have a wife taller than I am, father,”
	said I, smiling; he smiled too, but not heartily.

	“Well,” said he, after a pause. “It’s but a few days I’ve been thinking
	of it, but I’d got as fond of my notion as if it had been a new engine
	as I’d been planning out. Here’s our Paul, thinks I to myself, a good
	sensible breed o’ lad, as has never vexed or troubled his mother or me;
	with a good business opening out before him, age nineteen, not so
	bad-looking, though perhaps not to call handsome, and here’s his
	cousin, not too near cousin, but just nice, as one may say; aged
	seventeen, good and true, and well brought up to work with her hands as
	well as her head; a scholar—but that can’t be helped, and is more her
	misfortune than her fault, seeing she is the only child of scholar—and
	as I said afore, once she’s a wife and a she’ll forget it all, I’ll be
	bound—with a good fortune in land and house when it shall please the
	Lord to take her parents to himself; with eyes like poor Molly’s for
	beauty, a colour that comes and goes on a milk-white skin, and as
	pretty a mouth—,

	“Why, Mr Manning, what fair lady are you describing?” asked Mr
	Holdsworth, who had come quickly and suddenly upon our tete-a-tete, and
	had caught my father’s last words as he entered the room. Both my
	father and I felt rather abashed; it was such an odd subject for us to
	be talking about; but my father, like a straightforward simple man as
	he was, spoke out the truth.

	“I’ve been telling Paul of Ellison’s offer, and saying how good an
	opening it made for him—”

	“I wish I’d as good,” said Mr Holdsworth. “But has the business a
	‘pretty mouth’?

	“You’re always so full of your joking, Mr Holdsworth,” said my father.
	“I was going to say that if he and his cousin Phillis Holman liked to
	make it up between them, I would put no spoke in the wheel.”

	“Phillis Holman!” said Mr Holdsworth. “Is she the daughter of the
	minister-farmer out at Heathbridge? Have I been helping on the course
	of true love by letting you go there so often? I knew nothing of it.”

	“There is nothing to know,” said I, more annoyed than I chose to show.
	“There is no more true love in the case than may be between the first
	brother and sister you may choose to meet. I have been telling father
	she would never think of me; she’s a great deal taller and cleverer;
	and I’d rather be taller and more learned than my wife when I have
	one.”

	“And it is she, then, that has the pretty mouth your father spoke
	about? I should think that would be an antidote to the cleverness and
	learning. But I ought to apologize for breaking in upon your last
	night; I came upon business to your father.”

	And then he and my father began to talk about many things that had no
	interest for me just then, and I began to go over again my conversation
	with my father. The more I thought about it, the more I felt that I had
	spoken truly about my feelings towards Phillis Holman. I loved her
	dearly as a sister, but I could never fancy her as my wife. Still less
	could I think of her ever—yes, condescending, that is the
	word—condescending to marry me. I was roused from a reverie on what I
	should like my possible wife to be, by hearing my father’s warm praise
	of the minister, as a most unusual character; how they had got back
	from the diameter of driving-wheels to the subject of the Holmans I
	could never tell; but I saw that my father’s weighty praises were
	exciting some curiosity in Mr Holdsworth’s mind; indeed, he said,
	almost in a voice of reproach,—

	“Why, Paul, you never told me what kind of a fellow this
	minister-cousin of yours was!”

	“I don’t know that I found out, sir,” said I. “But if I had, I don’t
	think you’d have listened to me, as you have done to my father.”

	“No! most likely not, old fellow,” replied Mr Holdsworth, laughing. And
	again and afresh I saw what a handsome pleasant clear face his was; and
	though this evening I had been a bit put out with him—through his
	sudden coming, and his having heard my father’s open-hearted
	confidence—my hero resumed all his empire over me by his bright merry
	laugh.

	And if he had not resumed his old place that night, he would have done
	so the next day, when, after my father’s departure, Mr Holdsworth spoke
	about him with such just respect for his character, such ungrudging
	admiration of his great mechanical genius, that I was compelled to say,
	almost unawares,—

	“Thank you, sir. I am very much obliged to you.”

	“Oh, you’re not at all. I am only speaking the truth. Here’s a
	Birmingham workman, self-educated, one may say—having never associated
	with stimulating minds, or had what advantages travel and contact with
	the world may be supposed to afford—working out his own thoughts into
	steel and iron, making a scientific name for himself—a fortune, if it
	pleases him to work for money—and keeping his singleness of heart, his
	perfect simplicity of manner; it puts me out of patience to think of my
	expensive schooling, my travels hither and thither, my heaps of
	scientific books, and I have done nothing to speak of. But it’s
	evidently good blood; there’s that Mr Holman, that cousin of yours,
	made of the same stuff”

	“But he’s only cousin because he married my mother’s second cousin,”
	said I.

	“That knocks a pretty theory on the head, and twice over, too. I should
	like to make Holman’s acquaintance.”

	“I am sure they would be so glad to see you at Hope Farm,” said I,
	eagerly. “In fact, they’ve asked me to bring you several times: only I
	thought you would find it dull.”

	“Not at all. I can’t go yet though, even if you do get me an
	invitation; for the —— Company want me to go to the —— Valley, and look
	over the ground a bit for them, to see if it would do for a branch
	line; it’s a job which may take me away for some time; but I shall be
	backwards and forwards, and you’re quite up to doing what is needed in
	my absence; the only work that may be beyond you is keeping old Jevons
	from drinking.” He went on giving me directions about the management of
	the men employed on the line, and no more was said then, or for several
	months, about his going to Hope Farm. He went off into —— Valley, a
	dark overshadowed dale, where the sun seemed to set behind the hills
	before four o“clock on midsummer afternoon. Perhaps it was this that
	brought on the attack of low fever which he had soon after the
	beginning of the new year; he was very ill for many weeks, almost many
	months; a married sister—his only relation, I think—came down from
	London to nurse him, and I went over to him when I could, to see him,
	and give him “masculine news,” as he called it; reports of the progress
	of the line, which, I am glad to say, I was able to carry on in his
	absence, in the slow gradual way which suited the company best, while
	trade was in a languid state, and money dear in the market. Of course,
	with this occupation for my scanty leisure, I did not often go over to
	Hope Farm. Whenever I did go, I met with a thorough welcome; and many
	inquiries were made as to Holdsworth’s illness, and the progress of his
	recovery.

	At length, in June I think it was, he was sufficiently recovered to
	come back to his lodgings at Eltham, and resume part at least of his
	work. His sister, Mrs Robinson, had been obliged to leave him some
	weeks before, owing to some epidemic amongst her own children. As long
	as I had seen Mr Holdsworth in the rooms at the little inn at
	Hensleydale, where I had been accustomed to look upon him as an
	invalid, I had not been aware of the visible shake his fever had given
	to his health. But, once back in the old lodgings, where I had always
	seen him so buoyant, eloquent, decided, and vigorous in former days, my
	spirits sank at the change in one whom I had always regarded with a
	strong feeling of admiring affection. He sank into silence and
	despondency after the least exertion; he seemed as if he could not make
	up his mind to any action, or else that, when it was made up, he lacked
	strength to carry out his purpose. Of course, it was but the natural
	state of slow convalescence, after so sharp an illness; but, at the
	time, I did not know this, and perhaps I represented his state as more
	serious than it was to my kind relations at Hope Farm; who, in their
	grave, simple, eager way, immediately thought of the only help they
	could give.

	“Bring him out here,” said the minister. “Our air here is good to a
	proverb; the June days are fine; he may loiter away his time in the
	hay-field, and the sweet smells will be a balm in themselves—better
	than physic.”

	“And,” said cousin Holman, scarcely waiting for her husband to finish
	his sentence, “tell him there is new milk and fresh eggs to be had for
	the asking; it’s lucky Daisy has just calved, for her milk is always as
	good as other cows’ cream; and there is the plaid room with the morning
	sun all streaming in.” Phillis said nothing, but looked as much
	interested in the project as any one. I took it upon myself. I wanted
	them to see him; him to know them. I proposed it to him when I got
	home. He was too languid after the day’s fatigue, to be willing to make
	the little exertion of going amongst strangers; and disappointed me by
	almost declining to accept the invitation I brought. The next morning
	it was different; he apologized for his ungraciousness of the night
	before; and told me that he would get all things in train, so as to be
	ready to go out with me to Hope Farm on the following Saturday.

	“For you must go with me, Manning,” said he; “I used to be as impudent
	a fellow as need be, and rather liked going amongst strangers, and
	making my way; but since my illness I am almost like a girl, and turn
	hot and cold with shyness, as they do, I fancy.”

	So it was fixed. We were to go out to Hope Farm on Saturday afternoon;
	and it was also understood that if the air and the life suited Mr
	Holdsworth, he was to remain there for a week or ten days, doing what
	work he could at that end of the line, while I took his place at Eltham
	to the best of my ability. I grew a little nervous, as the time drew
	near, and wondered how the brilliant Holdsworth would agree with the
	quiet quaint family of the minister; how they would like him, and many
	of his half-foreign ways. I tried to prepare him, by telling him from
	time to time little things about the goings-on at Hope Farm.

	“Manning,” said he, “I see you don’t think I am half good enough for
	your friends. Out with it, man.”

	“No,” I replied, boldly. “I think you are good; but I don’t know if you
	are quite of their kind of goodness.”

	“And you’ve found out already that there is greater chance of
	disagreement between two ‘kinds of goodness’, each having its own idea
	of right, than between a given goodness and a moderate degree of
	naughtiness—which last often arises from an indifference to right?”

	“I don’t know. I think you’re talking metaphysics, and I am sure that
	is bad for you.”

	“‘When a man talks to you in a way that you don’t understand about a
	thing which he does not understand, them’s metaphysics.’ You remember
	the clown’s definition, don’t you, Manning?”

	“No, I don’t,” said I. “But what I do understand is, that you must go
	to bed; and tell me at what time we must start tomorrow, that I may go
	to Hepworth, and get those letters written we were talking about this
	morning.”

	“Wait till to-morrow, and let us see what the day is like,” he
	answered, with such languid indecision as showed me he was
	over-fatigued. So I went my way. The morrow was blue and sunny, and
	beautiful; the very perfection of an early summer’s day. Mr Holdsworth
	was all impatience to be off into the country; morning had brought back
	his freshness and strength, and consequent eagerness to be doing. I was
	afraid we were going to my cousin’s farm rather too early, before they
	would expect us; but what could I do with such a restless vehement man
	as Holdsworth was that morning? We came down upon the Hope Farm before
	the dew was off the grass on the shady side of the lane; the great
	house-dog was loose, basking in the sun, near the closed side door. I
	was surprised at this door being shut, for all summer long it was open
	from morning to night; but it was only on latch. I opened it, Rover
	watching me with half-suspicious, half-trustful eyes. The room was
	empty.

	“I don’t know where they can be,” said I. “But come in and sit down
	while I go and look for them. You must be tired.”

	“Not I. This sweet balmy air is like a thousand tonics. Besides, this
	room is hot, and smells of those pungent wood-ashes. What are we to
	do?”

	“Go round to the kitchen. Betty will tell us where they are.” So we
	went round into the farmyard, Rover accompanying us out of a grave
	sense of duty. Betty was washing out her milk-pans in the cold bubbling
	spring-water that constantly trickled in and out of a stone trough. In
	such weather as this most of her kitchen-work was done out of doors.

	“Eh, dear!” said she, “the minister and missus is away at Hornby! They
	ne’er thought of your coming so betimes! The missus had some errands to
	do, and she thought as she’d walk with the minister and be back by
	dinner-time.”

	“Did not they expect us to dinner?” said I.

	“Well, they did, and they did not, as I may say. Missus said to me the
	cold lamb would do well enough if you did not come; and if you did I
	was to put on a chicken and some bacon to boil; and I’ll go do it now,
	for it is hard to boil bacon enough.”

	“And is Phillis gone, too?” Mr Holdsworth was making friends with
	Rover.

	“No! She’s just somewhere about. I reckon you’ll find her in the
	kitchen-garden, getting peas.

	“Let us go there,” said Holdsworth, suddenly leaving off his play with
	the dog. So I led the way into the kitchen-garden. It was in the first
	promise of a summer profuse in vegetables and fruits. Perhaps it was
	not so much cared for as other parts of the property; but it was more
	attended to than most kitchen-gardens belonging to farm-houses. There
	were borders of flowers along each side of the gravel walks; and there
	was an old sheltering wall on the north side covered with tolerably
	choice fruit-trees; there was a slope down to the fish-pond at the end,
	where there were great strawberry-beds; and raspberry-bushes and
	rose-bushes grew wherever there was a space; it seemed a chance which
	had been planted. Long rows of peas stretched at right angles from the
	main walk, and I saw Phillis stooping down among them, before she saw
	us. As soon as she heard our cranching steps on the gravel, she stood
	up, and shading her eyes from the sun, recognized us. She was quite
	still for a moment, and then came slowly towards us, blushing a little
	from evident shyness. I had never seen Phillis shy before.

	“This is Mr Holdsworth, Phillis,” said I, as soon as I had shaken hands
	with her. She glanced up at him, and then looked down, more flushed
	than ever at his grand formality of taking his hat off and bowing; such
	manners had never been seen at Hope Farm before.

	“Father and mother are out. They will be so sorry; you did not write,
	Paul, as you said you would.”

	“It was my fault,” said Holdsworth, understanding what she meant as
	well as if she had put it more fully into words. “I have not yet given
	up all the privileges of an invalid; one of which is indecision. Last
	night, when your cousin asked me at what time we were to start, I
	really could not make up my mind.”

	Phillis seemed as if she could not make up her mind as to what to do
	with us. I tried to help her,—

	“Have you finished getting peas?” taking hold of the half-filled basket
	she was unconsciously holding in her hand; “or may we stay and help
	you?”

	“If you would. But perhaps it will tire you, sir?” added she, speaking
	now to Holdsworth.

	“Not a bit,” said he. “It will carry me back twenty years in my life,
	when I used to gather peas in my grandfather’s garden. I suppose I may
	eat a few as I go along?”

	“Certainly, sir. But if you went to the strawberry-beds you would find
	some strawberries ripe, and Paul can show you where they are.”

	“I am afraid you distrust me. I can assure you I know the exact fulness
	at which peas should be gathered. I take great care not to pluck them
	when they are unripe. I will not be turned off, as unfit for my work.”
	This was a style of half-joking talk that Phillis was not accustomed
	to. She looked for a moment as if she would have liked to defend
	herself from the playful charge of distrust made against her, but she
	ended by not saying a word. We all plucked our peas in busy silence for
	the next five minutes. Then Holdsworth lifted himself up from between
	the rows, and said, a little wearily,

	“I am afraid I must strike work. I am not as strong as I fancied
	myself.” Phillis was full of penitence immediately. He did, indeed,
	look pale; and she blamed herself for having allowed him to help her.

	“It was very thoughtless of me. I did not know—I thought, perhaps, you
	really liked it. I ought to have offered you something to eat, sir! Oh,
	Paul, we have gathered quite enough; how stupid I was to forget that Mr
	Holdsworth had been ill!” And in a blushing hurry she led the way
	towards the house. We went in, and she moved a heavy cushioned chair
	forwards, into which Holdsworth was only too glad to sink. Then with
	deft and quiet speed she brought in a little tray, wine, water, cake,
	home-made bread, and newly-churned butter. She stood by in some anxiety
	till, after bite and sup, the colour returned to Mr Holdsworth’s face,
	and he would fain have made us some laughing apologies for the fright
	he had given us. But then Phillis drew back from her innocent show of
	care and interest, and relapsed into the cold shyness habitual to her
	when she was first thrown into the company of strangers. She brought
	out the last week’s county paper (which Mr Holdsworth had read five
	days ago), and then quietly withdrew; and then he subsided into
	languor, leaning back and shutting his eyes as if he would go to sleep.
	I stole into the kitchen after Phillis; but she had made the round of
	the corner of the house outside, and I found her sitting on the
	horse-mount, with her basket of peas, and a basin into which she was
	shelling them. Rover lay at her feet, snapping now and then at the
	flies. I went to her, and tried to help her, but somehow the sweet
	crisp young peas found their way more frequently into my mouth than
	into the basket, while we talked together in a low tone, fearful of
	being overheard through the open casements of the house-place in which
	Holdsworth was resting.

	“Don’t you think him handsome?” asked I.

	“Perhaps—yes—I have hardly looked at him,” she replied “But is not he
	very like a foreigner?”

	“Yes, he cuts his hair foreign fashion,” said I.

	“I like an Englishman to look like an Englishman.”

	“I don’t think he thinks about it. He says he began that way when he
	was in Italy, because everybody wore it so, and it is natural to keep
	it on in England.”

	“Not if he began it in Italy because everybody there wore it so.
	Everybody here wears it differently.”

	I was a little offended with Phillis’s logical fault-finding with my
	friend; and I determined to change the subject.

	“When is your mother coming home?”

	“I should think she might come any time now; but she had to go and see
	Mrs Morton, who was ill, and she might be kept, and not be home till
	dinner. Don’t you think you ought to go and see how Mr Holdsworth is
	going on, Paul? He may be faint again.”

	I went at her bidding; but there was no need for it. Mr Holdsworth was
	up, standing by the window, his hands in his pockets; he had evidently
	been watching us. He turned away as I entered.

	“So that is the girl I found your good father planning for your wife,
	Paul, that evening when I interrupted you! Are you of the same coy mind
	still? It did not look like it a minute ago.”

	“Phillis and I understand each other,” I replied, sturdily. “We are
	like brother and sister. She would not have me as a husband if there
	was not another man in the world; and it would take a deal to make me
	think of her—as my father wishes” (somehow I did not like to say “as a
	wife”), “but we love each other dearly.”

	“Well, I am rather surprised at it—not at your loving each other in a
	brother-and-sister kind of way—but at your finding it so impossible to
	fall in love with such a beautiful woman.” Woman! beautiful woman! I
	had thought of Phillis as a comely but awkward girl; and I could not
	banish the pinafore from my mind’s eye when I tried to picture her to
	myself. Now I turned, as Mr Holdsworth had done, to look at her again
	out of the window: she had just finished her task, and was standing up,
	her back to us, holding the basket, and the basin in it, high in air,
	out of Rover’s reach, who was giving vent to his delight at the
	probability of a change of place by glad leaps and barks, and snatches
	at what he imagined to be a withheld prize. At length she grew tired of
	their mutual play, and with a feint of striking him, and a “Down,
	Rover! do hush!” she looked towards the window where we were standing,
	as if to reassure herself that no one had been disturbed by the noise,
	and seeing us, she coloured all over, and hurried away, with Rover
	still curving in sinuous lines about her as she walked.

	“I should like to have sketched her,” said Mr Holdsworth, as he turned
	away. He went back to his chair, and rested in silence for a minute or
	two. Then he was up again.

	“I would give a good deal for a book,” he said. “It would keep me
	quiet.” He began to look round; there were a few volumes at one end of
	the shovel-board. “Fifth volume of Matthew Henry’s Commentary,” said
	he, reading their titles aloud. “Housewife’s complete Manual; Berridge
	on Prayer; L’Inferno—Dante!” in great surprise. “Why, who reads this?”

	“I told you Phillis read it. Don’t you remember? She knows Latin and
	Greek, too.”

	“To be sure! I remember! But somehow I never put two and two together.
	That quiet girl, full of household work, is the wonderful scholar,
	then, that put you to rout with her questions when you first began to
	come here. To be sure, ‘Cousin Phillis!’ What’s here: a paper with the
	hard, obsolete words written out. I wonder what sort of a dictionary
	she has got. Baretti won’t tell her all these words. Stay! I have got a
	pencil here. I’ll write down the most accepted meanings, and save her a
	little trouble.”

	So he took her book and the paper back to the little round table, and
	employed himself in writing explanations and definitions of the words
	which had troubled her. I was not sure if he was not taking a liberty:
	it did not quite please me, and yet I did not know why. He had only
	just done, and replaced the paper in the book, and put the latter back
	in its place, when I heard the sound of wheels stopping in the lane,
	and looking out, I saw cousin Holman getting out of a neighbour’s gig,
	making her little curtsey of acknowledgment, and then coming towards
	the house. I went to meet her.

	“Oh, Paul!” said she, “I am so sorry I was kept; and then Thomas Dobson
	said if I would wait a quarter of an hour he would—But where’s your
	friend Mr Holdsworth? I hope he is come?”

	Just then he came out, and with his pleasant cordial manner took her
	hand, and thanked her for asking him to come out here to get strong.

	“I’m sure I am very glad to see you, sir. It was the minister’s
	thought. I took it into my head you would be dull in our quiet house,
	for Paul says you’ve been such a great traveller; but the minister said
	that dulness would perhaps suit you while you were but ailing, and that
	I was to ask Paul to be here as much as he could. I hope you’ll find
	yourself happy with us, I’m sure, sir. Has Phillis given you something
	to eat and drink, I wonder? there’s a deal in eating a little often, if
	one has to get strong after an illness.” And then she began to question
	him as to the details of his indisposition in her simple, motherly way.
	He seemed at once to understand her, and to enter into friendly
	relations with her. It was not quite the same in the evening when the
	minister came home. Men have always a little natural antipathy to get
	over when they first meet as strangers. But in this case each was
	disposed to make an effort to like the other; only each was to each a
	specimen of an unknown class. I had to leave the Hope Farm on Sunday
	afternoon, as I had Mr Holdsworth’s work as well as my own to look to
	in Eltham; and I was not at all sure how things would go on during the
	week that Holdsworth was to remain on his visit; I had been once or
	twice in hot water already at the near clash of opinions between the
	minister and my much-vaunted friend. On the Wednesday I received a
	short note from Holdsworth; he was going to stay on, and return with me
	on the following Sunday, and he wanted me to send him a certain list of
	books, his theodolite, and other surveying instruments, all of which
	could easily be conveyed down the line to Heathbridge. I went to his
	lodgings and picked out the books. Italian, Latin, trigonometry; a
	pretty considerable parcel they made, besides the implements. I began
	to be curious as to the general progress of affairs at Hope Farm, but I
	could not go over till the Saturday. At Heathbridge I found Holdsworth,
	come to meet me. He was looking quite a different man to what I had
	left him; embrowned, sparkles in his eyes, so languid before. I told
	him how much stronger he looked.

	“Yes!” said he. “I am fidging fain to be at work again. Last week I
	dreaded the thoughts of my employment: now I am full of desire to
	begin. This week in the country has done wonders for me.”

	“You have enjoyed yourself, then?”

	“Oh! it has been perfect in its way. Such a thorough country life! and
	yet removed from the dulness which I always used to fancy accompanied
	country life, by the extraordinary intelligence of the minister. I have
	fallen into calling him ‘the minister’, like every one else.”

	“You get on with him, then?” said I. “I was a little afraid.”

	“I was on the verge of displeasing him once or twice, I fear, with
	random assertions and exaggerated expressions, such as one always uses
	with other people, and thinks nothing of; but I tried to check myself
	when I saw how it shocked the good man; and really it is very wholesome
	exercise, this trying to make one’s words represent one’s thoughts,
	instead of merely looking to their effect on others.”

	“Then you are quite friends now?” I asked.

	“Yes, thoroughly; at any rate as far as I go. I never met with a man
	with such a desire for knowledge. In information, as far as it can be
	gained from books, he far exceeds me on most subjects; but then I have
	travelled and seen—Were not you surprised at the list of things I sent
	for?”

	“Yes; I thought it did not promise much rest.”

	“Oh! some of the books were for the minister, and some for his
	daughter. (I call her Phillis to myself, but I use euphuisms in
	speaking about her to others. I don’t like to seem familiar, and yet
	Miss Holman is a term I have never heard used.)”

	“I thought the Italian books were for her.”

	“Yes! Fancy her trying at Dante for her first book in Italian! I had a
	capital novel by Manzoni, I Promessi Sposi, just the thing for a
	beginner; and if she must still puzzle out Dante, my dictionary is far
	better than hers.”

	“Then she found out you had written those definitions on her list of
	words?”

	“Oh! yes”—with a smile of amusement and pleasure. He was going to tell
	me what had taken place, but checked himself.

	“But I don’t think the minister will like your having given her a novel
	to read?”

	“Pooh! What can be more harmless? Why make a bugbear of a word? It is
	as pretty and innocent a tale as can be met with. You don’t suppose
	they take Virgil for gospel?”

	By this time we were at the farm. I think Phillis gave me a warmer
	welcome than usual, and cousin Holman was kindness itself. Yet somehow
	I felt as if I had lost my place, and that Holdsworth had taken it. He
	knew all the ways of the house; he was full of little filial attentions
	to cousin Holman; he treated Phillis with the affectionate
	condescension of an elder brother; not a bit more; not in any way
	different. He questioned me about the progress of affairs in Eltham
	with eager interest.

	“Ah!” said cousin Holman, “you’ll be spending a different kind of time
	next week to what you have done this! I can see how busy you’ll make
	yourself! But if you don’t take care you’ll be ill again, and have to
	come back to our quiet ways of going on.

	“Do you suppose I shall need to be ill to wish to come back here?” he
	answered, warmly. “I am only afraid you have treated me so kindly that
	I shall always be turning up on your hands.”

	“That’s right,” she replied. “Only don’t go and make yourself ill by
	over-work. I hope you’ll go on with a cup of new milk every morning,
	for I am sure that is the best medicine; and put a teaspoonful of rum
	in it, if you like; many a one speaks highly of that, only we had no
	rum in the house.” I brought with me an atmosphere of active life which
	I think he had begun to miss; and it was natural that he should seek my
	company, after his week of retirement. Once I saw Phillis looking at us
	as we talked together with a kind of wistful curiosity; but as soon as
	she caught my eye, she turned away, blushing deeply.

	That evening I had a little talk with the minister. I strolled along
	the Hornby road to meet him; for Holdsworth was giving Phillis an
	Italian lesson, and cousin Holman had fallen asleep over her work.
	Somehow, and not unwillingly on my part, our talk fell on the friend
	whom I had introduced to the Hope Farm.

	“Yes! I like him!” said the minister, weighing his words a little as he
	spoke. “I like him. I hope I am justified in doing it, but he takes
	hold of me, as it were; and I have almost been afraid lest he carries
	me away, in spite of my judgment.”

	“He is a good fellow; indeed he is,” said I. “My father thinks well of
	him; and I have seen a deal of him. I would not have had him come here
	if I did not know that you would approve of him.”

	“Yes,” (once more hesitating,) “I like him, and I think he is an
	upright man; there is a want of seriousness in his talk at times, but,
	at the same time, it is wonderful to listen to him! He makes Horace and
	Virgil living, instead of dead, by the stories he tells me of his
	sojourn in the very countries where they lived, and where to this day,
	he says—But it is like dram-drinking. I listen to him till I forget my
	duties, and am carried off my feet. Last Sabbath evening he led us away
	into talk on profane subjects ill befitting the day.” By this time we
	were at the house, and our conversation stopped. But before the day was
	out, I saw the unconscious hold that my friend had got over all the
	family. And no wonder: he had seen so much and done so much as compared
	to them, and he told about it all so easily and naturally, and yet as I
	never heard any one else do; and his ready pencil was out in an instant
	to draw on scraps of paper all sorts of illustrations—modes of drawing
	up water in Northern Italy, wine-carts, buffaloes, stone-pines, I know
	not what. After we had all looked at these drawings, Phillis gathered
	them together, and took them. It is many years since I have seen thee,
	Edward Holdsworth, but thou wast a delightful fellow! Ay, and a good
	one too; though much sorrow was caused by thee!




	PART III


	Just after this I went home for a week’s holiday. Everything was
	prospering there; my father’s new partnership gave evident satisfaction
	to both parties. There was no display of increased wealth in our modest
	household; but my mother had a few extra comforts provided for her by
	her husband. I made acquaintance with Mr and Mrs Ellison, and first saw
	pretty Margaret Ellison, who is now my wife. When I returned to Eltham,
	I found that a step was decided upon, which had been in contemplation
	for some time; that Holdsworth and I should remove our quarters to
	Hornby; our daily presence, and as much of our time as possible, being
	required for the completion of the line at that end.

	Of course this led to greater facility of intercourse with the Hope
	Farm people. We could easily walk out there after our day’s work was
	done, and spend a balmy evening hour or two, and yet return before the
	summer’s twilight had quite faded away. Many a time, indeed, we would
	fain have stayed longer—the open air, the fresh and pleasant country,
	made so agreeable a contrast to the close, hot town lodgings which I
	shared with Mr Holdsworth; but early hours, both at eve and morn, were
	an imperative necessity with the minister, and he made no scruple at
	turning either or both of us out of the house directly after evening
	prayer, or “exercise”, as he called it. The remembrance of many a happy
	day, and of several little scenes, comes back upon me as I think of
	that summer. They rise like pictures to my memory, and in this way I
	can date their succession; for I know that corn harvest must have come
	after hay-making, apple-gathering after corn-harvest.

	The removal to Hornby took up some time, during which we had neither of
	us any leisure to go out to the Hope Farm. Mr Holdsworth had been out
	there once during my absence at home. One sultry evening, when work was
	done, he proposed our walking out and paying the Holmans a visit. It so
	happened that I had omitted to write my usual weekly letter home in our
	press of business, and I wished to finish that before going out. Then
	he said that he would go, and that I could follow him if I liked. This
	I did in about an hour; the weather was so oppressive, I remember, that
	I took off my coat as I walked, and hung it over my arm. All the doors
	and windows at the farm were open when I arrived there, and every tiny
	leaf on the trees was still. The silence of the place was profound; at
	first I thought that it was entirely deserted; but just as I drew near
	the door I heard a weak sweet voice begin to sing; it was cousin
	Holman, all by herself in the house-place, piping up a hymn, as she
	knitted away in the clouded light. She gave me a kindly welcome, and
	poured out all the small domestic news of the fortnight past upon me,
	and, in return, I told her about my own people and my visit at home.

	“Where were the rest?” at length I asked.

	Betty and the men were in the field helping with the last load of hay,
	for the minister said there would be rain before the morning. Yes, and
	the minister himself, and Phillis, and Mr Holdsworth, were all there
	helping. She thought that she herself could have done something; but
	perhaps she was the least fit for hay-making of any one; and somebody
	must stay at home and take care of the house, there were so many tramps
	about; if I had not had something to do with the railroad she would
	have called them navvies. I asked her if she minded being left alone,
	as I should like to go and help; and having her full and glad
	permission to leave her alone, I went off, following her directions:
	through the farmyard, past the cattle-pond, into the ashfield, beyond
	into the higher field with two holly-bushes in the middle. I arrived
	there: there was Betty with all the farming men, and a cleared field,
	and a heavily laden cart; one man at the top of the great pile ready to
	catch the fragrant hay which the others threw up to him with their
	pitchforks; a little heap of cast-off clothes in a corner of the field
	(for the heat, even at seven o“clock, was insufferable), a few cans and
	baskets, and Rover lying by them panting, and keeping watch. Plenty of
	loud, hearty, cheerful talking; but no minister, no Phillis, no Mr
	Holdsworth. Betty saw me first, and understanding who it was that I was
	in search of, she came towards me.

	“They’re out yonder—agait wi’ them things o’ Measter Holdsworth’s.” So
	“out yonder” I went; out on to a broad upland common, full of red
	sand-banks, and sweeps and hollows; bordered by dark firs, purple in
	the coming shadows, but near at hand all ablaze with flowering gorse,
	or, as we call it in the south, furze-bushes, which, seen against the
	belt of distant trees, appeared brilliantly golden. On this heath, a
	little way from the field-gate, I saw the three. I counted their heads,
	joined together in an eager group over Holdsworth’s theodolite. He was
	teaching the minister the practical art of surveying and taking a
	level. I was wanted to assist, and was quickly set to work to hold the
	chain. Phillis was as intent as her father; she had hardly time to
	greet me, so desirous was she to hear some answer to her father’s
	question. So we went on, the dark clouds still gathering, for perhaps
	five minutes after my arrival. Then came the blinding lightning and the
	rumble and quick-following rattling peal of thunder right over our
	heads. It came sooner than I expected, sooner than they had looked for:
	the rain delayed not; it came pouring down; and what were we to do for
	shelter? Phillis had nothing on but her indoor things—no bonnet, no
	shawl. Quick as the darting lightning around us, Holdsworth took off
	his coat and wrapped it round her neck and shoulders, and, almost
	without a word, hurried us all into such poor shelter as one of the
	overhanging sand-banks could give. There we were, cowered down, close
	together, Phillis innermost, almost too tightly packed to free her arms
	enough to divest herself of the coat, which she, in her turn, tried to
	put lightly over Holdsworth’s shoulders. In doing so she touched his
	shirt.

	“Oh, how wet you are!” she cried, in pitying dismay; “and you’ve hardly
	got over your fever! Oh, Mr Holdsworth, I am so sorry!” He turned his
	head a little, smiling at her.

	“If I do catch cold, it is all my fault for having deluded you into
	staying out here!” but she only murmured again, “I am so sorry.” The
	minister spoke now. “It is a regular downpour. Please God that the hay
	is saved! But there is no likelihood of its ceasing, and I had better
	go home at once, and send you all some wraps; umbrellas will not be
	safe with yonder thunder and lightning.”

	Both Holdsworth and I offered to go instead of him; but he was
	resolved, although perhaps it would have been wiser if Holdsworth, wet
	as he already was, had kept himself in exercise. As he moved off,
	Phillis crept out, and could see on to the storm-swept heath. Part of
	Holdsworth’s apparatus still remained exposed to all the rain. Before
	we could have any warning, she had rushed out of the shelter and
	collected the various things, and brought them back in triumph to where
	we crouched. Holdsworth had stood up, uncertain whether to go to her
	assistance or not. She came running back, her long lovely hair floating
	and dripping, her eyes glad and bright, and her colour freshened to a
	glow of health by the exercise and the rain.

	“Now, Miss Holman, that’s what I call wilful,” said Holdsworth, as she
	gave them to him. “No, I won’t thank you” (his looks were thanking her
	all the time). “My little bit of dampness annoyed you, because you
	thought I had got wet in your service; so you were determined to make
	me as uncomfortable as you were yourself. It was an unchristian piece
	of revenge!”

	His tone of badinage (as the French call it) would have been palpable
	enough to any one accustomed to the world; but Phillis was not, and it
	distressed or rather bewildered her. “Unchristian” had to her a very
	serious meaning; it was not a word to be used lightly; and though she
	did not exactly understand what wrong it was that she was accused of
	doing, she was evidently desirous to throw off the imputation. At first
	her earnestness to disclaim unkind motives amused Holdsworth; while his
	light continuance of the joke perplexed her still more; but at last he
	said something gravely, and in too low a tone for me to hear, which
	made her all at once become silent, and called out her blushes. After a
	while, the minister came back, a moving mass of shawls, cloaks, and
	umbrellas. Phillis kept very close to her father’s side on our return
	to the farm. She appeared to me to be shrinking away from Holdsworth,
	while he had not the slightest variation in his manner from what it
	usually was in his graver moods; kind, protecting, and thoughtful
	towards her. Of course, there was a great commotion about our wet
	clothes; but I name the little events of that evening now because I
	wondered at the time what he had said in that low voice to silence
	Phillis so effectually, and because, in thinking of their intercourse
	by the light of future events, that evening stands out with some
	prominence. I have said that after our removal to Hornby our
	communications with the farm became almost of daily occurrence. Cousin
	Holman and I were the two who had least to do with this intimacy. After
	Mr Holdsworth regained his health, he too often talked above her head
	in intellectual matters, and too often in his light bantering tone for
	her to feel quite at her ease with him. I really believe that he
	adopted this latter tone in speaking to her because he did not know
	what to talk about to a purely motherly woman, whose intellect had
	never been cultivated, and whose loving heart was entirely occupied
	with her husband, her child, her household affairs and, perhaps, a
	little with the concerns of the members of her husband’s congregation,
	because they, in a way, belonged to her husband. I had noticed before
	that she had fleeting shadows of jealousy even of Phillis, when her
	daughter and her husband appeared to have strong interests and
	sympathies in things which were quite beyond her comprehension. I had
	noticed it in my first acquaintance with them, I say, and had admired
	the delicate tact which made the minister, on such occasions, bring the
	conversation back to such subjects as those on which his wife, with her
	practical experience of every-day life, was an authority; while
	Phillis, devoted to her father, unconsciously followed his lead,
	totally unaware, in her filial reverence, of his motive for doing so.

	To return to Holdsworth. The minister had at more than one time spoken
	of him to me with slight distrust, principally occasioned by the
	suspicion that his careless words were not always those of soberness
	and truth. But it was more as a protest against the fascination which
	the younger man evidently exercised over the elder one more as it were
	to strengthen himself against yielding to this fascination—that the
	minister spoke out to me about this failing of Holdsworth’s, as it
	appeared to him. In return Holdsworth was subdued by the minister’s
	uprightness and goodness, and delighted with his clear intellect—his
	strong healthy craving after further knowledge. I never met two men who
	took more thorough pleasure and relish in each other’s society. To
	Phillis his relation continued that of an elder brother: he directed
	her studies into new paths, he patiently drew out the expression of
	many of her thoughts, and perplexities, and unformed theories—scarcely
	ever now falling into the vein of banter which she was so slow to
	understand.

	One day—harvest-time—he had been drawing on a loose piece of
	paper-sketching ears of corn, sketching carts drawn by bullocks and
	laden with grapes—all the time talking with Phillis and me, cousin
	Holman putting in her not pertinent remarks, when suddenly he said to
	Phillis,—

	“Keep your head still; I see a sketch! I have often tried to draw your
	head from memory, and failed; but I think I can do it now. If I succeed
	I will give it to your mother. You would like a portrait of your
	daughter as Ceres, would you not, ma’am?”

	“I should like a picture of her; yes, very much, thank you, Mr
	Holdsworth; but if you put that straw in her hair,” (he was holding
	some wheat ears above her passive head, looking at the effect with an
	artistic eye,) “you’ll ruffle her hair. Phillis, my dear, if you’re to
	have your picture taken, go up-stairs, and brush your hair smooth.”

	“Not on any account. I beg your pardon, but I want hair loosely
	flowing.” He began to draw, looking intently at Phillis; I could see
	this stare of his discomposed her—her colour came and went, her breath
	quickened with the consciousness of his regard; at last, when he said,
	“Please look at me for a minute or two, I want to get in the eyes,” she
	looked up at him, quivered, and suddenly got up and left the room. He
	did not say a word, but went on with some other part of the drawing;
	his silence was unnatural, and his dark cheek blanched a little. Cousin
	Holman looked up from her work, and put her spectacles down.

	“What’s the matter? Where is she gone?”

	Holdsworth never uttered a word, but went on drawing. I felt obliged to
	say something; it was stupid enough, but stupidity was better than
	silence just then.

	“I’ll go and call her,” said I. So I went into the hall, and to the
	bottom of the stairs; but just as I was going to call Phillis, she came
	down swiftly with her bonnet on, and saying, “I’m going to father in
	the five-acre,” passed out by the open “rector,” right in front of the
	house-place windows, and out at the little white side-gate. She had
	been seen by her mother and Holdsworth, as she passed; so there was no
	need for explanation, only cousin Holman and I had a long discussion as
	to whether she could have found the room too hot, or what had
	occasioned her sudden departure. Holdsworth was very quiet during all
	the rest of that day; nor did he resume the portrait-taking by his own
	desire, only at my cousin Holman’s request the next time that he came;
	and then he said he should not require any more formal sittings for
	only such a slight sketch as he felt himself capable of making. Phillis
	was just the same as ever the next time I saw her after her abrupt
	passing me in the hall. She never gave any explanation of her rush out
	of the room.

	So all things went on, at least as far as my observation reached at the
	time, or memory can recall now, till the great apple-gathering of the
	year. The nights were frosty, the mornings and evenings were misty, but
	at mid-day all was sunny and bright, and it was one mid-day that both
	of us being on the line near Heathbridge, and knowing that they were
	gathering apples at the farm, we resolved to spend the men’s
	dinner-hour in going over there. We found the great clothes-baskets
	full of apples, scenting the house, and stopping up the way; and an
	universal air of merry contentment with this the final produce of the
	year. The yellow leaves hung on the trees ready to flutter down at the
	slightest puff of air; the great bushes of Michaelmas daisies in the
	kitchen-garden were making their last show of flowers. We must needs
	taste the fruit off the different trees, and pass our judgment as to
	their flavour; and we went away with our pockets stuffed with those
	that we liked best. As we had passed to the orchard, Holdsworth had
	admired and spoken about some flower which he saw; it so happened he
	had never seen this old-fashioned kind since the days of his boyhood. I
	do not know whether he had thought anything more about this chance
	speech of his, but I know I had not—when Phillis, who had been missing
	just at the last moment of our hurried visit, re-appeared with a little
	nosegay of this same flower, which she was tying up with a blade of
	grass. She offered it to Holdsworth as he stood with her father on the
	point of departure. I saw their faces. I saw for the first time an
	unmistakable look of love in his black eyes; it was more than gratitude
	for the little attention; it was tender and beseeching—passionate. She
	shrank from it in confusion, her glance fell on me; and, partly to hide
	her emotion, partly out of real kindness at what might appear
	ungracious neglect of an older friend, she flew off to gather me a few
	late-blooming China roses. But it was the first time she had ever done
	anything of the kind for me.

	We had to walk fast to be back on the line before the men’s return, so
	we spoke but little to each other, and of course the afternoon was too
	much occupied for us to have any talk. In the evening we went back to
	our joint lodgings in Hornby. There, on the table, lay a letter for
	Holdsworth, which had been forwarded to him from Eltham. As our tea was
	ready, and I had had nothing to eat since morning, I fell to directly
	without paying much attention to my companion as he opened and read his
	letter. He was very silent for a few minutes; at length he said,

	“Old fellow! I’m going to leave you!”

	“Leave me!” said I. “How? When?”

	“This letter ought to have come to hand sooner. It is from Greathed the
	engineer” (Greathed was well known in those days; he is dead now, and
	his name half-forgotten); “he wants to see me about some business; in
	fact, I may as well tell you, Paul, this letter contains a very
	advantageous proposal for me to go out to Canada, and superintend the
	making of a line there.”

	I was in utter dismay.

	“But what will our company say to that?”

	“Oh, Greathed has the superintendence of this line, you know; and he is
	going to be engineer in chief to this Canadian line; many of the
	shareholders in this company are going in for the other, so I fancy
	they will make no difficulty in following Greathed’s lead. He says he
	has a young man ready to put in my place.”

	“I hate him,” said I.

	“Thank you,” said Holdsworth, laughing.

	“But you must not,” he resumed; “for this is a very good thing for me,
	and, of course, if no one can be found to take my inferior work, I
	can’t be spared to take the superior. I only wish I had received this
	letter a day sooner. Every hour is of consequence, for Greathed says
	they are threatening a rival line. Do you know, Paul, I almost fancy I
	must go up to-night? I can take an engine back to Eltham, and catch the
	night train. I should not like Greathed to think me luke-warm.”

	“But you’ll come back?” I asked, distressed at the thought of this
	sudden parting.

	“Oh, yes! At least I hope so. They may want me to go out by the next
	steamer, that will be on Saturday.” He began to eat and drink standing,
	but I think he was quite unconscious of the nature of either his food
	or his drink.

	“I will go to-night. Activity and readiness go a long way in our
	profession. Remember that, my boy! I hope I shall come back, but if I
	don’t, be sure and recollect all the words of wisdom that have fallen
	from my lips. Now where’s the portmanteau? If I can gain half an hour
	for a gathering up of my things in Eltham, so much the better. I’m
	clear of debt anyhow; and what I owe for my lodgings you can pay for me
	out of my quarter’s salary, due November 4th.”

	“Then you don’t think you will come back?” I said, despondingly.

	“I will come back some time, never fear,” said he, kindly. “I may be
	back in a couple of days, having been found in-competent for the
	Canadian work; or I may not be wanted to go out so soon as I now
	anticipate. Anyhow you don’t suppose I am going to forget you, Paul
	this work out there ought not to take me above two years, and, perhaps,
	after that, we may be employed together again.” Perhaps! I had very
	little hope. The same kind of happy days never returns. However, I did
	all I could in helping him: clothes, papers, books, instruments; how we
	pushed and struggled—how I stuffed. All was done in a much shorter time
	than we had calculated upon, when I had run down to the sheds to order
	the engine. I was going to drive him to Eltham. We sate ready for a
	summons. Holdsworth took up the little nosegay that he had brought away
	from the Hope Farm, and had laid on the mantel-piece on first coming
	into the room. He smelt at it, and caressed it with his lips.

	“What grieves me is that I did not know—that I have not said good-bye
	to—to them.”

	He spoke in a grave tone, the shadow of the coming separation falling
	upon him at last.

	“I will tell them,” said I. “I am sure they will be very sorry.” Then
	we were silent.

	“I never liked any family so much.”

	“I knew you would like them.”

	“How one’s thoughts change,—this morning I was full of a hope, Paul.”
	He paused, and then he said,—

	“You put that sketch in carefully?”

	“That outline of a head?” asked I. But I knew he meant an abortive
	sketch of Phillis, which had not been successful enough for him to
	complete it with shading or colouring.

	“Yes. What a sweet innocent face it is! and yet so—Oh, dear!” He sighed
	and got up, his hands in his pockets, to walk up and down the room in
	evident disturbance of mind. He suddenly stopped opposite to me.

	“You’ll tell them how it all was. Be sure and tell the good minister
	that I was so sorry not to wish him good-bye, and to thank him and his
	wife for all their kindness. As for Phillis,—please God in two years
	I’ll be back and tell her myself all in my heart.”

	“You love Phillis, then?” said I.

	“Love her! Yes, that I do. Who could help it, seeing her as I have
	done? Her character as unusual and rare as her beauty! God bless her!
	God keep her in her high tranquillity, her pure innocence.—Two years!
	It is a long time.—But she lives in such seclusion, almost like the
	sleeping beauty, Paul,”—(he was smiling now, though a minute before I
	had thought him on the verge of tears,)—“but I shall come back like a
	prince from Canada, and waken her to my love. I can’t help hoping that
	it won’t be difficult, eh, Paul?”

	This touch of coxcombry displeased me a little, and I made no answer.
	He went on, half apologetically,—

	“You see, the salary they offer me is large; and beside that, this
	experience will give me a name which will entitle me to expect a still
	larger in any future undertaking.”

	“That won’t influence Phillis.”

	“No! but it will make me more eligible in the eyes of her father and
	mother.” I made no answer.

	“You give me your best wishes, Paul,” said he, almost pleading. “You
	would like me for a cousin?”

	I heard the scream and whistle of the engine ready down at the sheds.

	“Ay, that I should,” I replied, suddenly softened towards my friend now
	that he was going away. “I wish you were to be married to-morrow, and I
	were to be best man.”

	“Thank you, lad. Now for this cursed portmanteau (how the minister
	would be shocked); but it is heavy!” and off we sped into the darkness.
	He only just caught the night train at Eltham, and I slept, desolately
	enough, at my old lodgings at Miss Dawsons’, for that night. Of course
	the next few days I was busier than ever, doing both his work and my
	own. Then came a letter from him, very short and affectionate. He was
	going out in the Saturday steamer, as he had more than half expected;
	and by the following Monday the man who was to succeed him would be
	down at Eltham. There was a P.S., with only these words:—“My nosegay
	goes with me to Canada, but I do not need it to remind me of Hope
	Farm.”

	Saturday came; but it was very late before I could go out to the farm.
	It was a frosty night, the stars shone clear above me, and the road was
	crisping beneath my feet. They must have heard my footsteps before I
	got up to the house. They were sitting at their usual employments in
	the house-place when I went in. Phillis’s eyes went beyond me in their
	look of welcome, and then fell in quiet disappointment on her work.

	“And where’s Mr Holdsworth?” asked cousin Holman, in a minute or two.
	“I hope his cold is not worse,—I did not like his short cough.”

	I laughed awkwardly; for I felt that I was the bearer of unpleasant
	news.

	“His cold had need be better—for he’s gone—gone away to Canada!”

	I purposely looked away from Phillis, as I thus abruptly told my news.

	“To Canada!” said the minister.

	“Gone away!” said his wife. But no word from Phillis.

	“Yes!” said I. “He found a letter at Hornby when we got home the other
	night—when we got home from here; he ought to have got it sooner; he
	was ordered to go up to London directly, and to see some people about a
	new line in Canada, and he’s gone to lay it down; he has sailed to-day.
	He was sadly grieved not to have time to come out and wish you all
	good-by; but he started for London within two hours after he got that
	letter. He bade me thank you most gratefully for all your kindnesses;
	he was very sorry not to come here once again.” Phillis got up and left
	the room with noiseless steps.

	“I am very sorry,” said the minister.

	“I am sure so am I!” said cousin Holman. “I was real fond of that lad
	ever since I nursed him last June after that bad fever.”

	The minister went on asking me questions respecting Holdsworth’s future
	plans; and brought out a large old-fashioned atlas, that he might find
	out the exact places between which the new railroad was to run. Then
	supper was ready; it was always on the table as soon as the clock on
	the stairs struck eight, and down came Phillis—her face white and set,
	her dry eyes looking defiance to me, for I am afraid I hurt her
	maidenly pride by my glance of sympathetic interest as she entered the
	room. Never a word did she say—never a question did she ask about the
	absent friend, yet she forced herself to talk.

	And so it was all the next day. She was as pale as could be, like one
	who has received some shock; but she would not let me talk to her, and
	she tried hard to behave as usual. Two or three times I repeated, in
	public, the various affectionate messages to the family with which I
	was charged by Holdsworth; but she took no more notice of them than if
	my words had been empty air. And in this mood I left her on the Sabbath
	evening.

	My new master was not half so indulgent as my old one. He kept up
	strict discipline as to hours, so that it was some time before I could
	again go out, even to pay a call at the Hope Farm.

	It was a cold misty evening in November. The air, even indoors, seemed
	full of haze; yet there was a great log burning on the hearth, which
	ought to have made the room cheerful. Cousin Holman and Phillis were
	sitting at the little round table before the fire, working away in
	silence. The minister had his books out on the dresser, seemingly deep
	in study, by the light of his solitary candle; perhaps the fear of
	disturbing him made the unusual stillness of the room. But a welcome
	was ready for me from all; not noisy, not demonstrative—that it never
	was; my damp wrappers were taken off; the next meal was hastened, and a
	chair placed for me on one side of the fire, so that I pretty much
	commanded a view of the room. My eye caught on Phillis, looking so pale
	and weary, and with a sort of aching tone (if I may call it so) in her
	voice. She was doing all the accustomed things—fulfilling small
	household duties, but somehow differently—I can’t tell you how, for she
	was just as deft and quick in her movements, only the light spring was
	gone out of them. Cousin Holman began to question me; even the minister
	put aside his books, and came and stood on the opposite side of the
	fire-place, to hear what waft of intelligence I brought. I had first to
	tell them why I had not been to see them for so long—more than five
	weeks. The answer was simple enough; business and the necessity of
	attending strictly to the orders of a new superintendent, who had not
	yet learned trust, much less indulgence. The minister nodded his
	approval of my conduct, and said,—“Right, Paul! ‘Servants, obey in all
	things your master according to the flesh.’ I have had my fears lest
	you had too much licence under Edward Holdsworth.”

	“Ah,” said cousin Holman, “poor Mr Holdsworth, he’ll be on the salt
	seas by this time!”

	“No, indeed,” said I, “he’s landed. I have had a letter from him from
	Halifax.” Immediately a shower of questions fell thick upon me. When?
	How? What was he doing? How did he like it? What sort of a voyage? &c.

	“Many is the time we have thought of him when the wind was blowing so
	hard; the old quince-tree is blown down, Paul, that on the right-hand
	of the great pear-tree; it was blown down last Monday week, and it was
	that night that I asked the minister to pray in an especial manner for
	all them that went down in ships upon the great deep, and he said then,
	that Mr Holdsworth might be already landed; but I said, even if the
	prayer did not fit him, it was sure to be fitting somebody out at sea,
	who would need the Lord’s care. Both Phillis and I thought he would be
	a month on the seas.” Phillis began to speak, but her voice did not
	come rightly at first. It was a little higher pitched than usual, when
	she said,—

	“We thought he would be a month if he went in a sailing-vessel, or
	perhaps longer. I suppose he went in a steamer?”

	“Old Obadiah Grimshaw was more than six weeks in getting to America,”
	observed cousin Holman.

	“I presume he cannot as yet tell how he likes his new work?” asked the
	minister.

	“No! he is but just landed; it is but one page long. I’ll read it to
	you, shall I?—

	“‘Dear Paul,—We are safe on shore, after a rough passage. Thought you
	would like to hear this, but homeward-bound steamer is making signals
	for letters. Will write again soon. It seems a year since I left
	Hornby. Longer since I was at the farm. I have got my nosegay safe.
	Remember me to the Holmans.—Yours, E. H.’”

	“That’s not much, certainly,” said the minister. “But it’s a comfort to
	know he’s on land these blowy nights.”

	Phillis said nothing. She kept her head bent down over her work; but I
	don’t think she put a stitch in, while I was reading the letter. I
	wondered if she understood what nosegay was meant; but I could not
	tell. When next she lifted up her face, there were two spots of
	brilliant colour on the cheeks that had been so pale before. After I
	had spent an hour or two there, I was bound to return back to Hornby. I
	told them I did not know when I could come again, as we—by which I mean
	the company—had undertaken the Hensleydale line; that branch for which
	poor Holdsworth was surveying when he caught his fever.

	“But you’ll have a holiday at Christmas,” said my cousin. “Surely
	they’ll not be such heathens as to work you then?”

	“Perhaps the lad will be going home,” said the minister, as if to
	mitigate his wife’s urgency; but for all that, I believe he wanted me
	to come. Phillis fixed her eyes on me with a wistful expression, hard
	to resist. But, indeed, I had no thought of resisting. Under my new
	master I had no hope of a holiday long enough to enable me to go to
	Birmingham and see my parents with any comfort; and nothing could be
	pleasanter to me than to find myself at home at my cousins’ for a day
	or two, then. So it was fixed that we were to meet in Hornby Chapel on
	Christmas Day, and that I was to accompany them home after service, and
	if possible to stay over the next day.

	I was not able to get to chapel till late on the appointed day, and so
	I took a seat near the door in considerable shame, although it really
	was not my fault. When the service was ended, I went and stood in the
	porch to await the coming out of my cousins. Some worthy people
	belonging to the congregation clustered into a group just where I
	stood, and exchanged the good wishes of the season. It had just begun
	to snow, and this occasioned a little delay, and they fell into further
	conversation. I was not attending to what was not meant for me to hear,
	till I caught the name of Phillis Holman. And then I listened; where
	was the harm?

	“I never saw any one so changed!”

	“I asked Mrs Holman,” quoth another, “‘Is Phillis well?’ and she just
	said she had been having a cold which had pulled her down; she did not
	seem to think anything of it.”

	“They had best take care of her,” said one of the oldest of the good
	ladies; “Phillis comes of a family as is not long-lived. Her mother’s
	sister, Lydia Green, her own aunt as was, died of a decline just when
	she was about this lass’s age.”

	This ill-omened talk was broken in upon by the coming out of the
	minister, his wife and daughter, and the consequent interchange of
	Christmas compliments. I had had a shock, and felt heavy-hearted and
	anxious, and hardly up to making the appropriate replies to the kind
	greetings of my relations. I looked askance at Phillis. She had
	certainly grown taller and slighter, and was thinner; but there was a
	flush of colour on her face which deceived me for a time, and made me
	think she was looking as well as ever. I only saw her paleness after we
	had returned to the farm, and she had subsided into silence and quiet.
	Her grey eyes looked hollow and sad; her complexion was of a dead
	white. But she went about just as usual; at least, just as she had done
	the last time I was there, and seemed to have no ailment; and I was
	inclined to think that my cousin was right when she had answered the
	inquiries of the good-natured gossips, and told them that Phillis was
	suffering from the consequences of a bad cold, nothing more. I have
	said that I was to stay over the next day; a great deal of snow had
	come down, but not all, they said, though the ground was covered deep
	with the white fall. The minister was anxiously housing his cattle, and
	preparing all things for a long continuance of the same kind of
	weather. The men were chopping wood, sending wheat to the mill to be
	ground before the road should become impassable for a cart and horse.
	My cousin and Phillis had gone up-stairs to the apple-room to cover up
	the fruit from the frost. I had been out the greater part of the
	morning, and came in about an hour before dinner. To my surprise,
	knowing how she had planned to be engaged, I found Phillis sitting at
	the dresser, resting her head on her two hands and reading, or seeming
	to read. She did not look up when I came in, but murmured something
	about her mother having sent her down out of the cold. It flashed
	across me that she was crying, but I put it down to some little spirt
	of temper; I might have known better than to suspect the gentle, serene
	Phillis of crossness, poor girl; I stooped down, and began to stir and
	build up the fire, which appeared to have been neglected. While my head
	was down I heard a noise which made me pause and listen—a sob, an
	unmistakable, irrepressible sob. I started up.

	“Phillis!” I cried, going towards her, with my hand out, to take hers
	for sympathy with her sorrow, whatever it was. But she was too quick
	for me, she held her hand out of my grasp, for fear of my detaining
	her; as she quickly passed out of the house, she said,—

	“Don’t, Paul! I cannot bear it!” and passed me, still sobbing, and went
	out into the keen, open air.

	I stood still and wondered. What could have come to Phillis? The most
	perfect harmony prevailed in the family, and Phillis especially, good
	and gentle as she was, was so beloved that if they had found out that
	her finger ached, it would have cast a shadow over their hearts. Had I
	done anything to vex her? No: she was crying before I came in. I went
	to look at her book—one of those unintelligible Italian books. I could
	make neither head nor tail of it. I saw some pencil-notes on the
	margin, in Holdsworth’s handwriting.

	Could that be it? Could that be the cause of her white looks, her weary
	eyes, her wasted figure, her struggling sobs? This idea came upon me
	like a flash of lightning on a dark night, making all things so clear
	we cannot forget them afterwards when the gloomy obscurity returns. I
	was still standing with the book in my hand when I heard cousin
	Holman’s footsteps on the stairs, and as I did not wish to speak to her
	just then, I followed Phillis’s example, and rushed out of the house.
	The snow was lying on the ground; I could track her feet by the marks
	they had made; I could see where Rover had joined her. I followed on
	till I came to a great stack of wood in the orchard—it was built up
	against the back wall of the outbuildings,—and I recollected then how
	Phillis had told me, that first day when we strolled about together,
	that underneath this stack had been her hermitage, her sanctuary, when
	she was a child; how she used to bring her book to study there, or her
	work, when she was not wanted in the house; and she had now evidently
	gone back to this quiet retreat of her childhood, forgetful of the clue
	given me by her footmarks on the new-fallen snow. The stack was built
	up very high; but through the interstices of the sticks I could see her
	figure, although I did not all at once perceive how I could get to her.
	She was sitting on a log of wood, Rover by her. She had laid her cheek
	on Rover’s head, and had her arm round his neck, partly for a pillow,
	partly from an instinctive craving for warmth on that bitter cold day.
	She was making a low moan, like an animal in pain, or perhaps more like
	the sobbing of the wind. Rover, highly flattered by her caress, and
	also, perhaps, touched by sympathy, was flapping his heavy tail against
	the ground, but not otherwise moving a hair, until he heard my approach
	with his quick erected ears. Then, with a short, abrupt bark of
	distrust, he sprang up as if to leave his mistress. Both he and I were
	immovably still for a moment. I was not sure if what I longed to do was
	wise: and yet I could not bear to see the sweet serenity of my dear
	cousin’s life so disturbed by a suffering which I thought I could
	assuage. But Rover’s ears were sharper than my breathing was noiseless:
	he heard me, and sprang out from under Phillis’s restraining hand.

	“Oh, Rover, don’t you leave me, too,” she plained out.

	“Phillis!” said I, seeing by Rover’s exit that the entrance to where
	she sate was to be found on the other side of the stack. “Phillis, come
	out! You have got a cold already; and it is not fit for you to sit
	there on such a day as this. You know how displeased and anxious it
	would make them all.”

	She sighed, but obeyed; stooping a little, she came out, and stood
	upright, opposite to me in the lonely, leafless orchard. Her face
	looked so meek and so sad that I felt as if I ought to beg her pardon
	for my necessarily authoritative words.

	“Sometimes I feel the house so close,” she said; “and I used to sit
	under the wood-stack when I was a child. It was very kind of you, but
	there was no need to come after me. I don’t catch cold easily.”

	“Come with me into this cow-house, Phillis. I have got something to say
	to you; and I can’t stand this cold, if you can.”

	I think she would have fain run away again; but her fit of energy was
	all spent. She followed me unwillingly enough that I could see. The
	place to which I took her was full of the fragrant breath of the cows,
	and was a little warmer than the outer air. I put her inside, and stood
	myself in the doorway, thinking how I could best begin. At last I
	plunged into it.

	“I must see that you don’t get cold for more reasons than one; if you
	are ill, Holdsworth will be so anxious and miserable out there” (by
	which I meant Canada)—

	She shot one penetrating look at me, and then turned her face away with
	a slightly impatient movement. If she could have run away then she
	would, but I held the means of exit in my own power. “In for a penny,
	in for a pound,” thought I, and I went on rapidly, anyhow.

	“He talked so much about you, just before he left—that night after he
	had been here, you know—and you had given him those flowers.” She put
	her hands up to hide her face, but she was listening now—listening with
	all her ears. “He had never spoken much about you before, but the
	sudden going away unlocked his heart, and he told me how he loved you,
	and how he hoped on his return that you might be his wife.”

	“Don’t,” said she, almost gasping out the word, which she had tried
	once or twice before to speak; but her voice had been choked. Now she
	put her hand backwards; she had quite turned away from me, and felt for
	mine. She gave it a soft lingering pressure; and then she put her arms
	down on the wooden division, and laid her head on it, and cried quiet
	tears. I did not understand her at once, and feared lest I had mistaken
	the whole case, and only annoyed her. I went up to her. “Oh, Phillis! I
	am so sorry—I thought you would, perhaps, have cared to hear it; he did
	talk so feelingly, as if he did love you so much, and somehow I thought
	it would give you pleasure.”

	She lifted up her head and looked at me. Such a look! Her eyes,
	glittering with tears as they were, expressed an almost heavenly
	happiness; her tender mouth was curved with rapture—her colour vivid
	and blushing; but as if she was afraid her face expressed too much,
	more than the thankfulness to me she was essaying to speak, she hid it
	again almost immediately. So it was all right then, and my conjecture
	was well-founded! I tried to remember something more to tell her of
	what he had said, but again she stopped me.

	“Don’t,” she said. She still kept her face covered and hidden. In half
	a minute she added, in a very low voice, “Please, Paul, I think I would
	rather not hear any more I don’t mean but what I have—but what I am
	very much obliged—Only—only, I think I would rather hear the rest from
	himself when he comes back.”

	And then she cried a little more, in quite a different way. I did not
	say any more, I waited for her. By-and-by she turned towards me—not
	meeting my eyes, however; and putting her hand in mine just as if we
	were two children, she said,—

	“We had best go back now—I don’t look as if I had been crying, do I?”

	“You look as if you had a bad cold,” was all the answer I made.

	“Oh! but I am quite well, only cold; and a good run will warm me. Come
	along, Paul.”

	So we ran, hand in hand, till, just as we were on the threshold of the
	house, she stopped,—

	“Paul, please, we won’t speak about that again.”




	PART IV


	When I went over on Easter Day I heard the chapel-gossips complimenting
	cousin Holman on her daughter’s blooming looks, quite forgetful of
	their sinister prophecies three months before. And I looked at Phillis,
	and did not wonder at their words. I had not seen her since the day
	after Christmas Day. I had left the Hope Farm only a few hours after I
	had told her the news which had quickened her heart into renewed life
	and vigour. The remembrance of our conversation in the cow-house was
	vividly in my mind as I looked at her when her bright healthy
	appearance was remarked upon. As her eyes met mine our mutual
	recollections flashed intelligence from one to the other. She turned
	away, her colour heightening as she did so. She seemed to be shy of me
	for the first few hours after our meeting, and I felt rather vexed with
	her for her conscious avoidance of me after my long absence. I had
	stepped a little out of my usual line in telling her what I did; not
	that I had received any charge of secrecy, or given even the slightest
	promise to Holdsworth that I would not repeat his words. But I had an
	uneasy feeling sometimes when I thought of what I had done in the
	excitement of seeing Phillis so ill and in so much trouble. I meant to
	have told Holdsworth when I wrote next to him; but when I had my
	half-finished letter before me I sate with my pen in my hand
	hesitating. I had more scruple in revealing what I had found out or
	guessed at of Phillis’s secret than in repeating to her his spoken
	words. I did not think I had any right to say out to him what I
	believed—namely, that she loved him dearly, and had felt his absence
	even to the injury of her health. Yet to explain what I had done in
	telling her how he had spoken about her that last night, it would be
	necessary to give my reasons, so I had settled within myself to leave
	it alone. As she had told me she should like to hear all the details
	and fuller particulars and more explicit declarations first from him,
	so he should have the pleasure of extracting the delicious tender
	secret from her maidenly lips. I would not betray my guesses, my
	surmises, my all but certain knowledge of the state of her heart. I had
	received two letters from him after he had settled to his business;
	they were full of life and energy; but in each there had been a message
	to the family at the Hope Farm of more than common regard; and a slight
	but distinct mention of Phillis herself, showing that she stood single
	and alone in his memory. These letters I had sent on to the minister,
	for he was sure to care for them, even supposing he had been
	unacquainted with their writer, because they were so clever and so
	picturesquely worded that they brought, as it were, a whiff of foreign
	atmosphere into his circumscribed life. I used to wonder what was the
	trade or business in which the minister would not have thriven,
	mentally I mean, if it had so happened that he had been called into
	that state. He would have made a capital engineer, that I know; and he
	had a fancy for the sea, like many other land-locked men to whom the
	great deep is a mystery and a fascination. He read law-books with
	relish; and, once happening to borrow De Lolme on the British
	Constitution (or some such title), he talked about jurisprudence till
	he was far beyond my depth. But to return to Holdsworth’s letters. When
	the minister sent them back he also wrote out a list of questions
	suggested by their perusal, which I was to pass on in my answers to
	Holdsworth, until I thought of suggesting direct correspondence between
	the two. That was the state of things as regarded the absent one when I
	went to the farm for my Easter visit, and when I found Phillis in that
	state of shy reserve towards me which I have named before. I thought
	she was ungrateful; for I was not quite sure if I had done wisely in
	having told her what I did. I had committed a fault, or a folly,
	perhaps, and all for her sake; and here was she, less friends with me
	than she had even been before. This little estrangement only lasted a
	few hours. I think that as soon as she felt pretty sure of there being
	no recurrence, either by word, look, or allusion, to the one subject
	that was predominant in her mind, she came back to her old sisterly
	ways with me. She had much to tell me of her own familiar interests;
	how Rover had been ill, and how anxious they had all of them been, and
	how, after some little discussion between her father and her, both
	equally grieved by the sufferings of the old dog, he had been
	remembered in the household prayers’, and how he had begun to get
	better only the very next day, and then she would have led me into a
	conversation on the right ends of prayer, and on special providences,
	and I know not what; only I “jibbed” like their old cart-horse, and
	refused to stir a step in that direction. Then we talked about the
	different broods of chickens, and she showed me the hens that were good
	mothers, and told me the characters of all the poultry with the utmost
	good faith; and in all good faith I listened, for I believe there was a
	good deal of truth in all she said. And then we strolled on into the
	wood beyond the ash-meadow, and both of us sought for early primroses,
	and the fresh green crinkled leaves. She was not afraid of being alone
	with me after the first day. I never saw her so lovely, or so happy. I
	think she hardly knew why she was so happy all the time. I can see her
	now, standing under the budding branches of the grey trees, over which
	a tinge of green seemed to be deepening day after day, her sun-bonnet
	fallen back on her neck, her hands full of delicate wood-flowers, quite
	unconscious of my gaze, but intent on sweet mockery of some bird in
	neighbouring bush or tree. She had the art of warbling, and replying to
	the notes of different birds, and knew their song, their habits and
	ways, more accurately than any one else I ever knew. She had often done
	it at my request the spring before; but this year she really gurgled,
	and whistled, and warbled just as they did, out of the very fulness and
	joy of her heart. She was more than ever the very apple of her father’s
	eye; her mother gave her both her own share of love, and that of the
	dead child who had died in infancy. I have heard cousin Holman murmur,
	after a long dreamy look at Phillis, and tell herself how like she was
	growing to Johnnie, and soothe herself with plaintive inarticulate
	sounds, and many gentle shakes of the head, for the aching sense of
	loss she would never get over in this world. The old servants about the
	place had the dumb loyal attachment to the child of the land, common to
	most agricultural labourers; not often stirred into activity or
	expression. My cousin Phillis was like a rose that had come to full
	bloom on the sunny side of a lonely house, sheltered from storms. I
	have read in some book of poetry,—

	A maid whom there were none to praise, And very few to love.

	And somehow those lines always reminded me of Phillis; yet they were
	not true of her either. I never heard her praised; and out of her own
	household there were very few to love her; but though no one spoke out
	their approbation, she always did right in her parents’ eyes out of her
	natural simple goodness and wisdom. Holdsworth’s name was never
	mentioned between us when we were alone; but I had sent on his letters
	to the minister, as I have said; and more than once he began to talk
	about our absent friend, when he was smoking his pipe after the day’s
	work was done. Then Phillis hung her head a little over her work, and
	listened in silence.

	“I miss him more than I thought for; no offence to you, Paul. I said
	once his company was like dram-drinking; that was before I knew him;
	and perhaps I spoke in a spirit of judgment. To some men’s minds
	everything presents itself strongly, and they speak accordingly; and so
	did he. And I thought in my vanity of censorship that his were not true
	and sober words; they would not have been if I had used them, but they
	were so to a man of his class of perceptions. I thought of the measure
	with which I had been meting to him when Brother Robinson was here last
	Thursday, and told me that a poor little quotation I was making from
	the Georgics savoured of vain babbling and profane heathenism. He went
	so far as to say that by learning other languages than our own, we were
	flying in the face of the Lord’s purpose when He had said, at the
	building of the Tower of Babel, that He would confound their languages
	so that they should not understand each other’s speech. As Brother
	Robinson was to me, so was I to the quick wits, bright senses, and
	ready words of Holdsworth.”

	The first little cloud upon my peace came in the shape of a letter from
	Canada, in which there were two or three sentences that troubled me
	more than they ought to have done, to judge merely from the words
	employed. It was this:—“I should feel dreary enough in this
	out-of-the-way place if it were not for a friendship I have formed with
	a French Canadian of the name of Ventadour. He and his family are a
	great resource to me in the long evenings. I never heard such delicious
	vocal music as the voices of these Ventadour boys and girls in their
	part songs; and the foreign element retained in their characters and
	manner of living reminds me of some of the happiest days of my life.
	Lucille, the second daughter, is curiously like Phillis Holman.” In
	vain I said to myself that it was probably this likeness that made him
	take pleasure in the society of the Ventadour family. In vain I told my
	anxious fancy that nothing could be more natural than this intimacy,
	and that there was no sign of its leading to any consequence that ought
	to disturb me. I had a presentiment, and I was disturbed; and I could
	not reason it away. I dare say my presentiment was rendered more
	persistent and keen by the doubts which would force themselves into my
	mind, as to whether I had done well in repeating Holdsworth’s words to
	Phillis. Her state of vivid happiness this summer was markedly
	different to the peaceful serenity of former days. If in my
	thoughtfulness at noticing this I caught her eye, she blushed and
	sparkled all over, guessing that I was remembering our joint secret.
	Her eyes fell before mine, as if she could hardly bear me to see the
	revelation of their bright glances. And yet I considered again, and
	comforted myself by the reflection that, if this change had been
	anything more than my silly fancy, her father or her mother would have
	perceived it. But they went on in tranquil unconsciousness and
	undisturbed peace.

	A change in my own life was quickly approaching. In the July of this
	year my occupation on the —— railway and its branches came to an end.
	The lines were completed, and I was to leave ——shire, to return to
	Birmingham, where there was a niche already provided for me in my
	father’s prosperous business. But before I left the north it was an
	understood thing amongst us all that I was to go and pay a visit of
	some weeks at the Hope Farm. My father was as much pleased at this plan
	as I was; and the dear family of cousins often spoke of things to be
	done, and sights to be shown me, during this visit. My want of wisdom
	in having told “that thing” (under such ambiguous words I concealed the
	injudicious confidence I had made to Phillis) was the only drawback to
	my anticipations of pleasure.

	The ways of life were too simple at the Hope Farm for my coming to them
	to make the slightest disturbance. I knew my room, like a son of the
	house. I knew the regular course of their days, and that I was expected
	to fall into it, like one of the family. Deep summer peace brooded over
	the place; the warm golden air was filled with the murmur of insects
	near at hand, the more distant sound of voices out in the fields, the
	clear faraway rumble of carts over the stone-paved lanes miles away.
	The heat was too great for the birds to be singing; only now and then
	one might hear the wood-pigeons in the trees beyond the Ashfield. The
	cattle stood knee-deep in the pond, flicking their tails about to keep
	off the flies. The minister stood in the hay-field, without hat or
	cravat, coat or waistcoat, panting and smiling. Phillis had been
	leading the row of farm-servants, turning the swathes of fragrant hay
	with measured movement. She went to the end—to the hedge, and then,
	throwing down her rake, she came to me with her free sisterly welcome.
	“Go, Paul!” said the minister. “We need all hands to make use of the
	sunshine to-day. ‘Whatsoever thine hand findeth to do, do it with all
	thy might.’ It will be a healthy change of work for thee, lad; and I
	find best rest in change of work.” So off I went, a willing labourer,
	following Phillis’s lead; it was the primitive distinction of rank; the
	boy who frightened the sparrows off the fruit was the last in our rear.
	We did not leave off till the red sun was gone down behind the
	fir-trees bordering the common. Then we went home to supper—prayers—to
	bed; some bird singing far into the night, as I heard it through my
	open window, and the poultry beginning their clatter and cackle in the
	earliest morning. I had carried what luggage I immediately needed with
	me from my lodgings and the rest was to be sent by the carrier. He
	brought it to the farm betimes that morning, and along with it he
	brought a letter or two that had arrived since I had left. I was
	talking to cousin Holman—about my mother’s ways of making bread, I
	remember; cousin Holman was questioning me, and had got me far beyond
	my depth—in the house-place, when the letters were brought in by one of
	the men, and I had to pay the carrier for his trouble before I could
	look at them. A bill—a Canadian letter! What instinct made me so
	thankful that I was alone with my dear unobservant cousin? What made me
	hurry them away into my coat-pocket? I do not know. I felt strange and
	sick, and made irrelevant answers, I am afraid. Then I went to my room,
	ostensibly to carry up my boxes. I sate on the side of my bed and
	opened my letter from Holdsworth. It seemed to me as if I had read its
	contents before, and knew exactly what he had got to say. I knew he was
	going to be married to Lucille Ventadour; nay, that he was married; for
	this was the 5th of July, and he wrote word that his marriage was fixed
	to take place on the 29th of June. I knew all the reasons he gave, all
	the raptures he went into. I held the letter loosely in my hands, and
	looked into vacancy, yet I saw the chaffinch’s nest on the
	lichen-covered trunk of an old apple-tree opposite my window, and saw
	the mother-bird come fluttering in to feed her brood,—and yet I did not
	see it, although it seemed to me afterwards as if I could have drawn
	every fibre, every feather. I was stirred up to action by the merry
	sound of voices and the clamp of rustic feet coming home for the
	mid-day meal. I knew I must go down to dinner; I knew, too, I must tell
	Phillis; for in his happy egotism, his new-fangled foppery, Holdsworth
	had put in a P.S., saying that he should send wedding-cards to me and
	some other Hornby and Eltham acquaintances, and “to his kind friends at
	Hope Farm”. Phillis had faded away to one among several “kind friends”.
	I don’t know how I got through dinner that day. I remember forcing
	myself to eat, and talking hard; but I also recollect the wondering
	look in the minister’s eyes. He was not one to think evil without
	cause; but many a one would have taken me for drunk. As soon as I
	decently could I left the table, saying I would go out for a walk. At
	first I must have tried to stun reflection by rapid walking, for I had
	lost myself on the high moorlands far beyond the familiar gorse-covered
	common, before I was obliged for very weariness to slacken my pace. I
	kept wishing—oh! how fervently wishing I had never committed that
	blunder; that the one little half-hour’s indiscretion could be blotted
	out. Alternating with this was anger against Holdsworth; unjust enough,
	I dare say. I suppose I stayed in that solitary place for a good hour
	or more, and then I turned homewards, resolving to get over the telling
	Phillis at the first opportunity, but shrinking from the fulfilment of
	my resolution so much that when I came into the house and saw Phillis
	(doors and windows open wide in the sultry weather) alone in the
	kitchen, I became quite sick with apprehension. She was standing by the
	dresser, cutting up a great household loaf into hunches of bread for
	the hungry labourers who might come in any minute, for the heavy
	thunder-clouds were overspreading the sky. She looked round as she
	heard my step.

	“You should have been in the field, helping with the hay,” said she, in
	her calm, pleasant voice. I had heard her as I came near the house
	softly chanting some hymn-tune, and the peacefulness of that seemed to
	be brooding over her now.

	“Perhaps I should. It looks as if it was going to rain.”

	“Yes; there is thunder about. Mother has had to go to bed with one of
	her bad headaches. Now you are come in—

	“Phillis,” said I, rushing at my subject and interrupting her, “I went
	a long walk to think over a letter I had this morning—a letter from
	Canada. You don’t know how it has grieved me.” I held it out to her as
	I spoke. Her colour changed a little, but it was more the reflection of
	my face, I think, than because she formed any definite idea from my
	words. Still she did not take the letter. I had to bid her to read it,
	before she quite understood what I wished. She sate down rather
	suddenly as she received it into her hands; and, spreading it on the
	dresser before her, she rested her forehead on the palms of her hands,
	her arms supported on the table, her figure a little averted, and her
	countenance thus shaded. I looked out of the open window; my heart was
	very heavy. How peaceful it all seemed in the farmyard! Peace and
	plenty. How still and deep was the silence of the house! Tick-tick went
	the unseen clock on the wide staircase. I had heard the rustle once,
	when she turned over the page of thin paper. She must have read to the
	end. Yet she did not move, or say a word, or even sigh. I kept on
	looking out of the window, my hands in my pockets. I wonder how long
	that time really was? It seemed to me interminable—unbearable. At
	length I looked round at her. She must have felt my look, for she
	changed her attitude with a quick sharp movement, and caught my eyes.

	“Don’t look so sorry, Paul,” she said. “Don’t, please. I can’t bear it.
	There is nothing to be sorry for. I think not, at least. You have not
	done wrong, at any rate.” I felt that I groaned, but I don’t think she
	heard me. “And he,—there’s no wrong in his marrying, is there? I’m sure
	I hope he’ll be happy. Oh! how I hope it!” These last words were like a
	wail; but I believe she was afraid of breaking down, for she changed
	the key in which she spoke, and hurried on.

	“Lucille—that’s our English Lucy, I suppose? Lucille Holdsworth! It’s a
	pretty name; and I hope—I forget what I was going to say. Oh! it was
	this. Paul, I think we need never speak about this again; only remember
	you are not to be sorry. You have not done wrong; you have been very,
	very kind; and if I see you looking grieved I don’t know what I might
	do;—I might breakdown, you know.” I think she was on the point of doing
	so then, but the dark storm came dashing down, and the thunder-cloud
	broke right above the house, as it seemed. Her mother, roused from
	sleep, called out for Phillis; the men and women from the hay-field
	came running into shelter, drenched through. The minister followed,
	smiling, and not unpleasantly excited by the war of elements; for, by
	dint of hard work through the long summer’s day, the greater part of
	the hay was safely housed in the barn in the field. Once or twice in
	the succeeding bustle I came across Phillis, always busy, and, as it
	seemed to me, always doing the right thing. When I was alone in my own
	room at night I allowed myself to feel relieved; and to believe that
	the worst was over, and was not so very bad after all. But the
	succeeding days were very miserable. Sometimes I thought it must be my
	fancy that falsely represented Phillis to me as strangely changed, for
	surely, if this idea of mine was well-founded, her parents—her father
	and mother—her own flesh and blood—would have been the first to
	perceive it. Yet they went on in their household peace and content; if
	anything, a little more cheerfully than usual, for the “harvest of the
	first-fruits”, as the minister called it, had been more bounteous than
	usual, and there was plenty all around in which the humblest labourer
	was made to share. After the one thunderstorm, came one or two lovely
	serene summer days, during which the hay was all carried; and then
	succeeded long soft rains filling the ears of corn, and causing the
	mown grass to spring afresh. The minister allowed himself a few more
	hours of relaxation and home enjoyment than usual during this wet
	spell: hard earth-bound frost was his winter holiday; these wet days,
	after the hay harvest, his summer holiday. We sate with open windows,
	the fragrance and the freshness called out by the soft-falling rain
	filling the house-place; while the quiet ceaseless patter among the
	leaves outside ought to have had the same lulling effect as all other
	gentle perpetual sounds, such as mill-wheels and bubbling springs, have
	on the nerves of happy people. But two of us were not happy. I was sure
	enough of myself, for one. I was worse than sure,—I was wretchedly
	anxious about Phillis. Ever since that day of the thunderstorm there
	had been a new, sharp, discordant sound to me in her voice, a sort of
	jangle in her tone; and her restless eyes had no quietness in them; and
	her colour came and went without a cause that I could find out. The
	minister, happy in ignorance of what most concerned him, brought out
	his books; his learned volumes and classics. Whether he read and talked
	to Phillis, or to me, I do not know; but feeling by instinct that she
	was not, could not be, attending to the peaceful details, so strange
	and foreign to the turmoil in her heart, I forced myself to listen, and
	if possible to understand.

	“Look here!” said the minister, tapping the old vellum-bound book he
	held; “in the first Georgic he speaks of rolling and irrigation, a
	little further on he insists on choice of the best seed, and advises us
	to keep the drains clear. Again, no Scotch farmer could give shrewder
	advice than to cut light meadows while the dew is on, even though it
	involve night-work. It is all living truth in these days.” He began
	beating time with a ruler upon his knee, to some Latin lines he read
	aloud just then. I suppose the monotonous chant irritated Phillis to
	some irregular energy, for I remember the quick knotting and breaking
	of the thread with which she was sewing. I never hear that snap
	repeated now, without suspecting some sting or stab troubling the heart
	of the worker. Cousin Holman, at her peaceful knitting, noticed the
	reason why Phillis had so constantly to interrupt the progress of her
	seam.

	“It is bad thread, I’m afraid,” she said, in a gentle sympathetic
	voice. But it was too much for Phillis.

	“The thread is bad—everything is bad—I am so tired of it all!” And she
	put down her work, and hastily left the room. I do not suppose that in
	all her life Phillis had ever shown so much temper before. In many a
	family the tone, the manner, would not have been noticed; but here it
	fell with a sharp surprise upon the sweet, calm atmosphere of home. The
	minister put down ruler and book, and pushed his spectacles up to his
	forehead. The mother looked distressed for a moment, and then smoothed
	her features and said in an explanatory tone,—“It’s the weather, I
	think. Some people feel it different to others. It always brings on a
	headache with me.” She got up to follow her daughter, but half-way to
	the door she thought better of it, and came back to her seat. Good
	mother! she hoped the better to conceal the unusual spirt of temper, by
	pretending not to take much notice of it. “Go on, minister,” she said;
	“it is very interesting what you are reading about, and when I don’t
	quite understand it, I like the sound of your voice.” So he went on,
	but languidly and irregularly, and beat no more time with his ruler to
	any Latin lines. When the dusk came on, early that July night because
	of the cloudy sky, Phillis came softly back, making as though nothing
	had happened. She took up her work, but it was too dark to do many
	stitches; and she dropped it soon. Then I saw how her hand stole into
	her mother’s, and how this latter fondled it with quiet little
	caresses, while the minister, as fully aware as I was of this tender
	pantomime, went on talking in a happier tone of voice about things as
	uninteresting to him, at the time, I very believe, as they were to me;
	and that is saying a good deal, and shows how much more real what was
	passing before him was, even to a farmer, than the agricultural customs
	of the ancients.

	I remember one thing more,—an attack which Betty the servant made upon
	me one day as I came in through the kitchen where she was churning, and
	stopped to ask her for a drink of buttermilk.

	“I say, cousin Paul,” (she had adopted the family habit of addressing
	me generally as cousin Paul, and always speaking of me in that form,)
	‘something’s amiss with our Phillis, and I reckon you’ve a good guess
	what it is. She’s not one to take up wi’ such as you,” (not
	complimentary, but that Betty never was, even to those for whom she
	felt the highest respect,) “but I’d as lief yon Holdsworth had never
	come near us. So there you’ve a bit o’ my mind.” And a very
	unsatisfactory bit it was. I did not know what to answer to the glimpse
	at the real state of the case implied in the shrewd woman’s speech; so
	I tried to put her off by assuming surprise at her first assertion.

	“Amiss with Phillis! I should like to know why you think anything is
	wrong with her. She looks as blooming as any one can do.”

	“Poor lad! you’re but a big child after all; and you’ve likely never
	heared of a fever-flush. But you know better nor that, my fine fellow!
	so don’t think for to put me off wi’ blooms and blossoms and such-like
	talk. What makes her walk about for hours and hours o’ nights when she
	used to be abed and asleep? I sleep next room to her, and hear her
	plain as can be. What makes her come in panting and ready to drop into
	that chair,”—nodding to one close to the door,—“and it’s ‘Oh! Betty,
	some water, please’? That’s the way she comes in now, when she used to
	come back as fresh and bright as she went out. If yon friend o’ yours
	has played her false, he’s a deal for t’ answer for; she’s a lass who’s
	as sweet and as sound as a nut, and the very apple of her father’s eye,
	and of her mother’s too’ only wi’ her she ranks second to th’ minister.
	You’ll have to look after yon chap, for I, for one, will stand no wrong
	to our Phillis.”

	What was I to do, or to say? I wanted to justify Holdsworth, to keep
	Phillis’s secret, and to pacify the woman all in the same breath. I did
	not take the best course, I’m afraid.

	“I don’t believe Holdsworth ever spoke a word of—of love to her in all
	his life. I’m sure he didn’t.”

	“Ay. Ay! but there’s eyes, and there’s hands, as well as tongues; and a
	man has two o’ th’ one and but one o’ t’other.”

	“And she’s so young; do you suppose her parents would not have seen
	it?”

	“Well! if you axe me that, I’ll say out boldly, ‘No’. They’ve called
	her ‘the child’ so long—‘the child’ is always their name for her when
	they talk on her between themselves, as if never anybody else had a
	ewe-lamb before them—that she’s grown up to be a woman under their very
	eyes, and they look on her still as if she were in her long clothes.
	And you ne’er heard on a man falling in love wi’ a babby in long
	clothes!”

	“No!” said I, half laughing. But she went on as grave as a judge.

	“Ay! you see you’ll laugh at the bare thought on it—and I’ll be bound
	th’ minister, though he’s not a laughing man, would ha’ sniggled at th’
	notion of falling in love wi’ the child. Where’s Holdsworth off to?”

	“Canada,” said I, shortly.

	“Canada here, Canada there,” she replied, testily. “Tell me how far
	he’s off, instead of giving me your gibberish. Is he a two days’
	journey away? or a three? or a week?”

	“He’s ever so far off—three weeks at the least,” cried I in despair.
	“And he’s either married, or just going to be. So there.” I expected a
	fresh burst of anger. But no; the matter was too serious. Betty sate
	down, and kept silence for a minute or two. She looked so miserable and
	downcast, that I could not help going on, and taking her a little into
	my confidence.

	“It is quite true what I said. I know he never spoke a word to her. I
	think he liked her, but it’s all over now. The best thing we can do—the
	best and kindest for her—and I know you love her, Betty—”

	“I nursed her in my arms; I gave her little brother his last taste o’
	earthly food,” said Betty, putting her apron up to her eyes.

	“Well! don’t let us show her we guess that she is grieving; she’ll get
	over it the sooner. Her father and mother don’t even guess at it, and
	we must make as if we didn’t. It’s too late now to do anything else.”

	“I’ll never let on; I know nought. I’ve known true love mysel’, in my
	day. But I wish he’d been farred before he ever came near this house,
	with his ‘Please Betty’ this, and ‘Please Betty’ that, and drinking up
	our new milk as if he’d been a cat. I hate such beguiling ways.”

	I thought it was as well to let her exhaust herself in abusing the
	absent Holdsworth; if it was shabby and treacherous in me, I came in
	for my punishment directly.

	“It’s a caution to a man how he goes about beguiling. Some men do it as
	easy and innocent as cooing doves. Don’t you be none of “em, my lad.
	Not that you’ve got the gifts to do it, either; you’re no great shakes
	to look at, neither for figure, nor yet for face, and it would need be
	a deaf adder to be taken in wi’ your words, though there may be no
	great harm in em.” A lad of nineteen or twenty is not flattered by such
	an out-spoken opinion even from the oldest and ugliest of her sex; and
	I was only too glad to change the subject by my repeated injunctions to
	keep Phillis’s secret. The end of our conversation was this speech of
	hers,—

	“You great gaupus, for all you’re called cousin o’ th’ minister—many a
	one is cursed wi’ fools for cousins—d’ye think I can’t see sense except
	through your spectacles? I give you leave to cut out my tongue, and
	nail it up on th’ barn-door for a caution to magpies, if I let out on
	that poor wench, either to herself, or any one that is hers, as the
	Bible says. Now you’ve heard me speak Scripture language, perhaps
	you’ll be content, and leave me my kitchen to myself.”

	During all these days, from the 5th of July to the 17th, I must have
	forgotten what Holdsworth had said about cards. And yet I think I could
	not have quite forgotten; but, once having told Phillis about his
	marriage, I must have looked upon the after consequence of cards as of
	no importance. At any rate they came upon me as a surprise at last. The
	penny-post reform, as people call it, had come into operation a short
	time before; but the never-ending stream of notes and letters which
	seem now to flow in upon most households had not yet begun its course;
	at least in those remote parts. There was a post-office at Hornby; and
	an old fellow, who stowed away the few letters in any or all his
	pockets, as it best suited him, was the letter-carrier to Heathbridge
	and the neighbourhood. I have often met him in the lanes thereabouts,
	and asked him for letters. Sometimes I have come upon him, sitting on
	the hedge-bank resting; and he has begged me to read him an address,
	too illegible for his spectacled eyes to decipher. When I used to
	inquire if he had anything for me, or for Holdsworth (he was not
	particular to whom he gave up the letters, so that he got rid of them
	somehow, and could set off homewards), he would say he thought that he
	had, for such was his invariable safe form of answer; and would fumble
	in breast-pockets, waistcoat-pockets, breeches-pockets, and, as a last
	resource, in coat-tail pockets; and at length try to comfort me, if I
	looked disappointed, by telling me, “Hoo had missed this toime, but was
	sure to write to-morrow;” “Hoo” representing an imaginary sweetheart.

	Sometimes I had seen the minister bring home a letter which he had
	found lying for him at the little shop that was the post-office at
	Heathbridge, or from the grander establishment at Hornby. Once or twice
	Josiah, the carter, remembered that the old letter-carrier had trusted
	him with an epistle to “Measter”, as they had met in the lanes. I think
	it must have been about ten days after my arrival at the farm, and my
	talk to Phillis cutting bread-and-butter at the kitchen dresser, before
	the day on which the minister suddenly spoke at the dinner-table, and
	said,—

	“By-the-by, I’ve got a letter in my pocket. Reach me my coat here,
	Phillis.” The weather was still sultry, and for coolness and ease the
	minister was sitting in his shirt-sleeves. “I went to Heathbridge about
	the paper they had sent me, which spoils all the pens—and I called at
	the post-office, and found a letter for me, unpaid,—and they did not
	like to trust it to old Zekiel. Ay! here it is! Now we shall hear news
	of Holdsworth,—I thought I’d keep it till we were all together.” My
	heart seemed to stop beating, and I hung my head over my plate, not
	daring to look up. What would come of it now? What was Phillis doing?
	How was she looking? A moment of suspense,—and then he spoke again.
	“Why! what’s this? Here are two visiting tickets with his name on, no
	writing at all. No! it’s not his name on both. MRS Holdsworth! The
	young man has gone and got married.” I lifted my head at these words; I
	could not help looking just for one instant at Phillis. It seemed to me
	as if she had been keeping watch over my face and ways. Her face was
	brilliantly flushed; her eyes were dry and glittering; but she did not
	speak; her lips were set together almost as if she was pinching them
	tight to prevent words or sounds coming out. Cousin Holman’s face
	expressed surprise and interest.

	“Well!” said she, “who’d ha’ thought it! He’s made quick work of his
	wooing and wedding. I’m sure I wish him happy. Let me see”—counting on
	her fingers,—“October, November, December, January, February, March,
	April, May, June, July,—at least we’re at the 28th,—it is nearly ten
	months after all, and reckon a month each way off—”

	“Did you know of this news before?” said the minister, turning sharp
	round on me, surprised, I suppose, at my silence,—hardly suspicious, as
	yet.

	“I knew—I had heard—something. It is to a French Canadian young lady,”
	I went on, forcing myself to talk. “Her name is Ventadour.”

	“Lucille Ventadour!” said Phillis, in a sharp voice, out of tune.

	“Then you knew too!” exclaimed the minister. We both spoke at once. I
	said, “I heard of the probability of—and told Phillis.” She said, “He
	is married to Lucille Ventadour, of French descent; one of a large
	family near St. Meurice; am not I right?” I nodded “Paul told me,—that
	is all we know, is not it? Did you see the Howsons, father, in
	Heathbridge?” and she forced herself to talk more than she had done for
	several days, asking many questions, trying, as I could see, to keep
	the conversation off the one raw surface, on which to touch was agony.
	I had less self-command; but I followed her lead. I was not so much
	absorbed in the conversation but what I could see that the minister was
	puzzled and uneasy; though he seconded Phillis’s efforts to prevent her
	mother from recurring to the great piece of news, and uttering
	continual exclamations of wonder and surprise. But with that one
	exception we were all disturbed out of our natural equanimity, more or
	less. Every day, every hour, I was reproaching myself more and more for
	my blundering officiousness. If only I had held my foolish tongue for
	that one half-hour; if only I had not been in such impatient haste to
	do something to relieve pain! I could have knocked my stupid head
	against the wall in my remorse. Yet all I could do now was to second
	the brave girl in her efforts to conceal her disappointment and keep
	her maidenly secret. But I thought that dinner would never, never come
	to an end. I suffered for her, even more than for myself. Until now
	everything which I had heard spoken in that happy household were simple
	words of true meaning. If we had aught to say, we said it; and if any
	one preferred silence, nay if all did so, there would have been no
	spasmodic, forced efforts to talk for the sake of talking, or to keep
	off intrusive thoughts or suspicions.

	At length we got up from our places, and prepared to disperse; but two
	or three of us had lost our zest and interest in the daily labour. The
	minister stood looking out of the window in silence, and when he roused
	himself to go out to the fields where his labourers were working, it
	was with a sigh; and he tried to avert his troubled face as he passed
	us on his way to the door. When he had left us, I caught sight of
	Phillis’s face, as, thinking herself unobserved, her countenance
	relaxed for a moment or two into sad, woeful weariness. She started
	into briskness again when her mother spoke, and hurried away to do some
	little errand at her bidding. When we two were alone, cousin Holman
	recurred to Holdsworth’s marriage. She was one of those people who like
	to view an event from every side of probability, or even possibility;
	and she had been cut short from indulging herself in this way during
	dinner.

	“To think of Mr Holdsworth’s being married! I can’t get over it, Paul.
	Not but what he was a very nice young man! I don’t like her name,
	though; it sounds foreign. Say it again, my dear. I hope she’ll know
	how to take care of him, English fashion. He is not strong, and if she
	does not see that his things are well aired, I should be afraid of the
	old cough.”

	“He always said he was stronger than he had ever been before, after
	that fever.” “He might think so, but I have my doubts. He was a very
	pleasant young man, but he did not stand nursing very well. He got
	tired of being coddled, as he called it. I hope they’ll soon come back
	to England, and then he’ll have a chance for his health. I wonder now,
	if she speaks English; but, to be sure, he can speak foreign tongues
	like anything, as I’ve heard the minister say.” And so we went on for
	some time, till she became drowsy over her knitting, on the sultry
	summer afternoon; and I stole away for a walk, for I wanted some
	solitude in which to think over things, and, alas! to blame myself with
	poignant stabs of remorse.

	I lounged lazily as soon as I got to the wood. Here and there the
	bubbling, brawling brook circled round a great stone, or a root of an
	old tree, and made a pool; otherwise it coursed brightly over the
	gravel and stones. I stood by one of these for more than half an hour,
	or, indeed, longer, throwing bits of wood or pebbles into the water,
	and wondering what I could do to remedy the present state of things. Of
	course all my meditation was of no use; and at length the distant sound
	of the horn employed to tell the men far afield to leave off work,
	warned me that it was six o“clock, and time for me to go home. Then I
	caught wafts of the loud-voiced singing of the evening psalm. As I was
	crossing the Ashfield, I saw the minister at some distance talking to a
	man. I could not hear what they were saying, but I saw an impatient or
	dissentient (I could not tell which) gesture on the part of the former,
	who walked quickly away, and was apparently absorbed in his thoughts,
	for though he passed within twenty yards of me, as both our paths
	converged towards home, he took no notice of me. We passed the evening
	in a way which was even worse than dinner-time. The minister was
	silent, depressed, even irritable. Poor cousin Holman was utterly
	perplexed by this unusual frame of mind and temper in her husband; she
	was not well herself, and was suffering from the extreme and sultry
	heat, which made her less talkative than usual. Phillis, usually so
	reverently tender to her parents, so soft, so gentle, seemed now to
	take no notice of the unusual state of things, but talked to me—to any
	one, on indifferent subjects, regardless of her father’s gravity, of
	her mother’s piteous looks of bewilderment. But once my eyes fell upon
	her hands, concealed under the table, and I could see the passionate,
	convulsive manner in which she laced and interlaced her fingers
	perpetually, wringing them together from time to time, wringing till
	the compressed flesh became perfectly white. What could I do? I talked
	with her, as I saw she wished; her grey eyes had dark circles round
	them and a strange kind of dark light in them; her cheeks were flushed,
	but her lips were white and wan. I wondered that others did not read
	these signs as clearly as I did. But perhaps they did; I think, from
	what came afterwards, the minister did. Poor cousin Holman! she
	worshipped her husband; and the outward signs of his uneasiness were
	more patent to her simple heart than were her daughter’s. After a while
	she could bear it no longer. She got up, and, softly laying her hand on
	his broad stooping shoulder, she said,—

	“What is the matter, minister? Has anything gone wrong?”

	He started as if from a dream. Phillis hung her head, and caught her
	breath in terror at the answer she feared. But he, looking round with a
	sweeping glance, turned his broad, wise face up to his anxious wife,
	and forced a smile, and took her hand in a reassuring manner.

	“I am blaming myself, dear. I have been overcome with anger this
	afternoon. I scarcely knew what I was doing, but I turned away Timothy
	Cooper. He has killed the Ribstone pippin at the corner of the orchard;
	gone and piled the quicklime for the mortar for the new stable wall
	against the trunk of the tree—stupid fellow! killed the tree
	outright—and it loaded with apples!”

	“And Ribstone pippins are so scarce,” said sympathetic cousin Holman.

	“Ay! But Timothy is but a half-wit; and he has a wife and children. He
	had often put me to it sore, with his slothful ways, but I had laid it
	before the Lord, and striven to bear with him. But I will not stand it
	any longer, it’s past my patience. And he has notice to find another
	place. Wife, we won’t talk more about it.” He took her hand gently off
	his shoulder, touched it with his lips; but relapsed into a silence as
	profound, if not quite so morose in appearance, as before. I could not
	tell why, but this bit of talk between her father and mother seemed to
	take all the factitious spirits out of Phillis. She did not speak now,
	but looked out of the open casement at the calm large moon, slowly
	moving through the twilight sky. Once I thought her eyes were filling
	with tears; but, if so, she shook them off, and arose with alacrity
	when her mother, tired and dispirited, proposed to go to bed
	immediately after prayers. We all said good-night in our separate ways
	to the minister, who still sate at the table with the great Bible open
	before him, not much looking up at any of our salutations, but
	returning them kindly. But when I, last of all, was on the point of
	leaving the room, he said, still scarcely looking up,—

	“Paul, you will oblige me by staying here a few minutes. I would fain
	have some talk with you.”

	I knew what was coming, all in a moment. I carefully shut-to the door,
	put out my candle, and sate down to my fate. He seemed to find some
	difficulty in beginning, for, if I had not heard that he wanted to
	speak to me, I should never have guessed it, he seemed so much absorbed
	in reading a chapter to the end. Suddenly he lifted his head up and
	said,—

	“It is about that friend of yours, Holdsworth! Paul, have you any
	reason for thinking he has played tricks upon Phillis?” I saw that his
	eyes were blazing with such a fire of anger at the bare idea, that I
	lost all my presence of mind, and only repeated,—

	“Played tricks on Phillis!”

	“Ay! you know what I mean: made love to her, courted her, made her
	think that he loved her, and then gone away and left her. Put it as you
	will, only give me an answer of some kind or another—a true answer, I
	mean—and don’t repeat my words, Paul.”

	He was shaking all over as he said this. I did not delay a moment in
	answering him,—

	“I do not believe that Edward Holdsworth ever played tricks on Phillis,
	ever made love to her; he never, to my knowledge, made her believe that
	he loved her.”

	I stopped; I wanted to nerve up my courage for a confession, yet I
	wished to save the secret of Phillis’s love for Holdsworth as much as I
	could; that secret which she had so striven to keep sacred and safe;
	and I had need of some reflection before I went on with what I had to
	say.

	He began again before I had quite arranged my manner of speech. It was
	almost as if to himself,—“She is my only child; my little daughter! She
	is hardly out of childhood; I have thought to gather her under my wings
	for years to come her mother and I would lay down our lives to keep her
	from harm and grief.” Then, raising his voice, and looking at me, he
	said, “Something has gone wrong with the child; and it seemed to me to
	date from the time she heard of that marriage. It is hard to think that
	you may know more of her secret cares and sorrows than I do,—but
	perhaps you do, Paul, perhaps you do,—only, if it be not a sin, tell me
	what I can do to make her happy again; tell me.”

	“It will not do much good, I am afraid,” said I, “but I will own how
	wrong I did; I don’t mean wrong in the way of sin, but in the way of
	judgment. Holdsworth told me just before he went that he loved Phillis,
	and hoped to make her his wife, and I told her.”

	There! it was out; all my part in it, at least; and I set my lips tight
	together, and waited for the words to come. I did not see his face; I
	looked straight at the wall opposite; but I heard him once begin to
	speak, and then turn over the leaves in the book before him. How
	awfully still that room was! The air outside, how still it was! The
	open windows let in no rustle of leaves, no twitter or movement of
	birds—no sound whatever. The clock on the stairs—the minister’s hard
	breathing—was it to go on for ever? Impatient beyond bearing at the
	deep quiet, I spoke again,—

	“I did it for the best, as I thought.”

	The minister shut the book to hastily, and stood up. Then I saw how
	angry he was.

	“For the best, do you say? It was best, was it, to go and tell a young
	girl what you never told a word of to her parents, who trusted you like
	a son of their own?”

	He began walking about, up and down the room close under the open
	windows, churning up his bitter thoughts of me.

	“To put such thoughts into the child’s head,” continued he; “to spoil
	her peaceful maidenhood with talk about another man’s love; and such
	love, too,” he spoke scornfully now—“a love that is ready for any young
	woman. Oh, the misery in my poor little daughter’s face to-day at
	dinner—the misery, Paul! I thought you were one to be trusted—your
	father’s son too, to go and put such thoughts into the child’s mind;
	you two talking together about that man wishing to marry her.”

	I could not help remembering the pinafore, the childish garment which
	Phillis wore so long, as if her parents were unaware of her progress
	towards womanhood. Just in the same way the minister spoke and thought
	of her now, as a child, whose innocent peace I had spoiled by vain and
	foolish talk. I knew that the truth was different, though I could
	hardly have told it now; but, indeed, I never thought of trying to
	tell; it was far from my mind to add one iota to the sorrow which I had
	caused. The minister went on walking, occasionally stopping to move
	things on the table, or articles of furniture, in a sharp, impatient,
	meaningless way, then he began again,—

	“So young, so pure from the world! how could you go and talk to such a
	child, raising hopes, exciting feelings—all to end thus; and best so,
	even though I saw her poor piteous face look as it did. I can’t forgive
	you, Paul; it was more than wrong—it was wicked—to go and repeat that
	man’s words.”

	His back was now to the door, and, in listening to his low angry tones,
	he did not hear it slowly open, nor did he see Phillis, standing just
	within the room, until he turned round; then he stood still. She must
	have been half undressed; but she had covered herself with a dark
	winter cloak, which fell in long folds to her white, naked, noiseless
	feet. Her face was strangely pale: her eyes heavy in the black circles
	round them. She came up to the table very slowly, and leant her hand
	upon it, saying mournfully,—

	“Father, you must not blame Paul. I could not help hearing a great deal
	of what you were saying. He did tell me, and perhaps it would have been
	wiser not, dear Paul! But—oh, dear! oh, dear! I am so sick with shame!
	He told me out of his kind heart, because he saw—that I was so very
	unhappy at his going away.” She hung her head, and leant more heavily
	than before on her supporting hand.

	“I don’t understand,” said her father; but he was beginning to
	understand. Phillis did not answer till he asked her again. I could
	have struck him now for his cruelty; but then I knew all.

	“I loved him, father!” she said at length, raising her eyes to the
	minister’s face. “Had he ever spoken of love to you? Paul says not!”

	“Never.” She let fall her eyes, and drooped more than ever. I almost
	thought she would fall.

	“I could not have believed it,” said he, in a hard voice, yet sighing
	the moment he had spoken. A dead silence for a moment. “Paul! I was
	unjust to you. You deserved blame, but not all that I said.” Then again
	a silence. I thought I saw Phillis’s white lips moving, but it might
	have been the flickering of the candlelight—a moth had flown in through
	the open casement, and was fluttering round the flame; I might have
	saved it, but I did not care to do so, my heart was too full of other
	things. At any rate, no sound was heard for long endless minutes. Then
	he said,—“Phillis! did we not make you happy here? Have we not loved
	you enough?”

	She did not seem to understand the drift of this question; she looked
	up as if bewildered, and her beautiful eyes dilated with a painful,
	tortured expression. He went on, without noticing the look on her face;
	he did not see it, I am sure.

	“And yet you would have left us, left your home, left your father and
	your mother, and gone away with this stranger, wandering over the
	world.” He suffered, too; there were tones of pain in the voice in
	which he uttered this reproach. Probably the father and daughter were
	never so far apart in their lives, so unsympathetic. Yet some new
	terror came over her, and it was to him she turned for help. A shadow
	came over her face, and she tottered towards her father; falling down,
	her arms across his knees, and moaning out,—

	“Father, my head! my head!” and then slipped through his
	quick-enfolding arms, and lay on the ground at his feet.

	I shall never forget his sudden look of agony while I live; never! We
	raised her up; her colour had strangely darkened; she was insensible. I
	ran through the back-kitchen to the yard pump, and brought back water.
	The minister had her on his knees, her head against his breast, almost
	as though she were a sleeping child. He was trying to rise up with his
	poor precious burden, but the momentary terror had robbed the strong
	man of his strength, and he sank back in his chair with sobbing breath.

	“She is not dead, Paul! is she?” he whispered, hoarse, as I came near
	him. I, too, could not speak, but I pointed to the quivering of the
	muscles round her mouth. Just then cousin Holman, attracted by some
	unwonted sound, came down. I remember I was surprised at the time at
	her presence of mind, she seemed to know so much better what to do than
	the minister, in the midst of the sick affright which blanched her
	countenance, and made her tremble all over. I think now that it was the
	recollection of what had gone before; the miserable thought that
	possibly his words had brought on this attack, whatever it might be,
	that so unmanned the minister. We carried her upstairs, and while the
	women were putting her to bed, still unconscious, still slightly
	convulsed, I slipped out, and saddled one of the horses, and rode as
	fast as the heavy-trotting beast could go, to Hornby, to find the
	doctor there, and bring him back. He was out, might be detained the
	whole night. I remember saying, “God help us all!” as I sate on my
	horse, under the window, through which the apprentice’s head had
	appeared to answer my furious tugs at the night-bell. He was a
	good-natured fellow. He said,—

	“He may be home in half an hour, there’s no knowing; but I daresay he
	will. I’ll send him out to the Hope Farm directly he comes in. It’s
	that good-looking young woman, Holman’s daughter, that’s ill, isn’t
	it?”

	“Yes.”

	“It would be a pity if she was to go. She’s an only child, isn’t she?
	I’ll get up, and smoke a pipe in the surgery, ready for the governor’s
	coming home. I might go to sleep if I went to bed again.”

	“Thank you, you’re a good fellow!” and I rode back almost as quickly as
	I came. It was a brain fever. The doctor said so, when he came in the
	early summer morning. I believe we had come to know the nature of the
	illness in the night-watches that had gone before. As to hope of
	ultimate recovery, or even evil prophecy of the probable end, the
	cautious doctor would be entrapped into neither. He gave his
	directions, and promised to come again; so soon, that this one thing
	showed his opinion of the gravity of the case.

	By God’s mercy she recovered, but it was a long, weary time first.
	According to previously made plans, I was to have gone home at the
	beginning of August. But all such ideas were put aside now, without a
	word being spoken. I really think that I was necessary in the house,
	and especially necessary to the minister at this time; my father was
	the last man in the world, under such circumstances, to expect me home.

	I say, I think I was necessary in the house. Every person (1 had almost
	said every creature, for all the dumb beasts seemed to know and love
	Phillis) about the place went grieving and sad, as though a cloud was
	over the sun. They did their work, each striving to steer clear of the
	temptation to eye-service, in fulfilment of the trust reposed in them
	by the minister. For the day after Phillis had been taken ill, he had
	called all the men employed on the farm into the empty barn; and there
	he had entreated their prayers for his only child; and then and there
	he had told them of his present incapacity for thought about any other
	thing in this world but his little daughter, lying nigh unto death, and
	he had asked them to go on with their daily labours as best they could,
	without his direction. So, as I say, these honest men did their work to
	the best of their ability, but they slouched along with sad and careful
	faces, coming one by one in the dim mornings to ask news of the sorrow
	that overshadowed the house; and receiving Betty’s intelligence, always
	rather darkened by passing through her mind, with slow shakes of the
	head, and a dull wistfulness of sympathy. But, poor fellows, they were
	hardly fit to be trusted with hasty messages, and here my poor services
	came in. One time I was to ride hard to Sir William Bentinck’s, and
	petition for ice out of his ice-house, to put on Phillis’s head.
	Another it was to Eltham I must go, by train, horse, anyhow, and bid
	the doctor there come for a consultation, for fresh symptoms had
	appeared, which Mr Brown, of Hornby, considered unfavourable. Many an
	hour have I sate on the window-seat, half-way up the stairs, close by
	the old clock, listening in the hot stillness of the house for the
	sounds in the sick-room. The minister and I met often, but spoke
	together seldom. He looked so old—so old! He shared the nursing with
	his wife; the strength that was needed seemed to be given to them both
	in that day. They required no one else about their child. Every office
	about her was sacred to them; even Betty only went into the room for
	the most necessary purposes. Once I saw Phillis through the open door;
	her pretty golden hair had been cut off long before; her head was
	covered with wet cloths, and she was moving it backwards and forwards
	on the pillow, with weary, never-ending motion, her poor eyes shut,
	trying in the old accustomed way to croon out a hymn tune, but
	perpetually breaking it up into moans of pain. Her mother sate by her,
	tearless, changing the cloths upon her head with patient solicitude. I
	did not see the minister at first, but there he was in a dark corner,
	down upon his knees, his hands clasped together in passionate prayer.
	Then the door shut, and I saw no more. One day he was wanted; and I had
	to summon him. Brother Robinson and another minister, hearing of his
	“trial”, had come to see him. I told him this upon the stair-landing in
	a whisper. He was strangely troubled.

	“They will want me to lay bare my heart. I cannot do it. Paul, stay
	with me. They mean well; but as for spiritual help at such a time—it is
	God only, God only, who can give it.

	So I went in with him. They were two ministers from the neighbourhood;
	both older than Ebenezer Holman; but evidently inferior to him in
	education and worldly position. I thought they looked at me as if I
	were an intruder, but remembering the minister’s words I held my
	ground, and took up one of poor Phillis’s books (of which I could not
	read a word) to have an ostensible occupation. Presently I was asked to
	“engage in prayer”, and we all knelt down; Brother Robinson “leading”,
	and quoting largely as I remember from the Book of Job. He seemed to
	take for his text, if texts are ever taken for prayers,

	“Behold thou hast instructed many; but now it is come upon thee, and
	thou faintest, it toucheth thee and thou art troubled.” When we others
	rose up, the minister continued for some minutes on his knees. Then he
	too got up, and stood facing us, for a moment, before we all sate down
	in conclave. After a pause Robinson began,—

	“We grieve for you, Brother Holman, for your trouble is great. But we
	would fain have you remember you are as a light set on a hill; and the
	congregations are looking at you with watchful eyes. We have been
	talking as we came along on the two duties required of you in this
	strait; Brother Hodgson and me. And we have resolved to exhort you on
	these two points. First, God has given you the opportunity of showing
	forth an example of resignation.” Poor Mr Holman visibly winced at this
	word. I could fancy how he had tossed aside such brotherly preachings
	in his happier moments; but now his whole system was unstrung, and
	“resignation” seemed a term which presupposed that the dreaded misery
	of losing Phillis was inevitable. But good stupid Mr Robinson went on.
	“We hear on all sides that there are scarce any hopes of your child’s
	recovery; and it may be well to bring you to mind of Abraham; and how
	he was willing to kill his only child when the Lord commanded. Take
	example by him, Brother Holman. Let us hear you say, ‘The Lord giveth
	and the Lord taketh away. Blessed be the name of the Lord!’”

	There was a pause of expectancy. I verily believe the minister tried to
	feel it; but he could not. Heart of flesh was too strong. Heart of
	stone he had not.

	“I will say it to my God, when He gives me strength,—when the day
	comes,” he spoke at last.

	The other two looked at each other, and shook their heads. I think the
	reluctance to answer as they wished was not quite unexpected. The
	minister went on “There are yet” he said, as if to himself. “God has
	given me a great heart for hoping, and I will not look forward beyond
	the hour.” Then turning more to them,—and speaking louder, he added:
	“Brethren, God will strengthen me when the time comes, when such
	resignation as you speak of is needed. Till then I cannot feel it; and
	what I do not feel I will not express; using words as if they were a
	charm.” He was getting chafed, I could see. He had rather put them out
	by these speeches of his; but after a short time and some more shakes
	of the head, Robinson began again,—

	“Secondly, we would have you listen to the voice of the rod, and ask
	yourself for what sins this trial has been laid upon you; whether you
	may not have been too much given up to your farm and your cattle;
	whether this world’s learning has not puffed you up to vain conceit and
	neglect of the things of God; whether you have not made an idol of your
	daughter?”

	“I cannot answer—I will not answer.” exclaimed the minister. “My sins I
	confess to God. But if they were scarlet (and they are so in His
	sight),” he added, humbly, “I hold with Christ that afflictions are not
	sent by God in wrath as penalties for sin.”

	“Is that orthodox, Brother Robinson?” asked the third minister, in a
	deferential tone of inquiry.

	Despite the minister’s injunction not to leave him, I thought matters
	were getting so serious that a little homely interruption would be more
	to the purpose than my continued presence, and I went round to the
	kitchen to ask for Betty’s help.

	“’Od rot “em!” said she; “they’re always a-coming at ill-convenient
	times; and they have such hearty appetites, they’ll make nothing of
	what would have served master and you since our poor lass has been ill.
	I’ve but a bit of cold beef in th’ house; but I’ll do some ham and
	eggs, and that “ll rout “em from worrying the minister. They’re a deal
	quieter after they’ve had their victual. Last time as old Robinson
	came, he was very reprehensible upon master’s learning, which he
	couldn’t compass to save his life, so he needn’t have been afeard of
	that temptation, and used words long enough to have knocked a body
	down; but after me and missus had given him his fill of victual, and
	he’d had some good ale and a pipe, he spoke just like any other man,
	and could crack a joke with me.”

	Their visit was the only break in the long weary days and nights. I do
	not mean that no other inquiries were made. I believe that all the
	neighbours hung about the place daily till they could learn from some
	out-comer how Phillis Holman was. But they knew better than to come up
	to the house, for the August weather was so hot that every door and
	window was kept constantly open, and the least sound outside penetrated
	all through. I am sure the cocks and hens had a sad time of it; for
	Betty drove them all into an empty barn, and kept them fastened up in
	the dark for several days, with very little effect as regarded their
	crowing and clacking. At length came a sleep which was the crisis, and
	from which she wakened up with a new faint life. Her slumber had lasted
	many, many hours. We scarcely dared to breathe or move during the time;
	we had striven to hope so long, that we were sick at heart, and durst
	not trust in the favourable signs: the even breathing, the moistened
	skin, the slight return of delicate colour into the pale, wan lips. I
	recollect stealing out that evening in the dusk, and wandering down the
	grassy lane, under the shadow of the over-arching elms to the little
	bridge at the foot of the hill, where the lane to the Hope Farm joined
	another road to Hornby. On the low parapet of that bridge I found
	Timothy Cooper, the stupid, half-witted labourer, sitting, idly
	throwing bits of mortar into the brook below. He just looked up at me
	as I came near, but gave me no greeting either by word or gesture. He
	had generally made some sign of recognition to me, but this time I
	thought he was sullen at being dismissed. Nevertheless I felt as if it
	would be a relief to talk a little to some one, and I sate down by him.
	While I was thinking how to begin, he yawned weariedly.

	“You are tired, Tim?” said I.

	“Ay,” said he. “But I reckon I may go home now.” “Have you been sitting
	here long?”

	“Welly all day long. Leastways sin’ seven i’ th’ morning.” “Why, what
	in the world have you been doing?” “Nought.”

	“Why have you been sitting here, then?”

	“T’ keep carts off.” He was up now, stretching himself, and shaking his
	lubberly limbs.

	“Carts! what carts?”

	“Carts as might ha’ wakened yon wench! It’s Hornby market day. I reckon
	yo’re no better nor a half-wit yoursel’.” He cocked his eye at me as if
	he were gauging my intellect.

	“And have you been sitting here all day to keep the lane quiet?”

	“Ay. I’ve nought else to do. Th’ minister has turned me adrift. Have
	yo’ heard how thv lass is faring to-night?”

	“They hope she’ll waken better for this long sleep. Good night to you,
	and God bless you, Timothy,” said I.

	He scarcely took any notice of my words, as he lumbered across a Stile
	that led to his cottage. Presently I went home to the farm. Phillis had
	stirred, had spoken two or three faint words. Her mother was with her,
	dropping nourishment into her scarce conscious mouth. The rest of the
	household were summoned to evening prayer for the first time for many
	days. It was a return to the daily habits of happiness and health. But
	in these silent days our very lives had been an unspoken prayer. Now we
	met in the house-place, and looked at each other with strange
	recognition of the thankfulness on all our faces. We knelt down; we
	waited for the minister’s voice. He did not begin as usual. He could
	not; he was choking. Presently we heard the strong man’s sob. Then old
	John turned round on his knees, and said,—

	“Minister, I reckon we have blessed the Lord wi’ all our souls, though
	we’ve ne’er talked about it; and maybe He’ll not need spoken words this
	night. God bless us all, and keep our Phillis safe from harm! Amen.”
	Old John’s impromptu prayer was all we had that night.

	“Our Phillis,” as he called her, grew better day by day from that time.
	Not quickly; I sometimes grew desponding, and feared that she would
	never be what she had been before; no more she has, in some ways.

	I seized an early opportunity to tell the minister about Timothy
	Cooper’s unsolicited watch on the bridge during the long summer’s day.

	“God forgive me!” said the minister. “I have been too proud in my own
	conceit. The first steps I take out of this house shall be to Cooper’s
	cottage.”

	I need hardly say Timothy was reinstated in his place on the farm; and
	I have often since admired the patience with which his master tried to
	teach him how to do the easy work which was henceforward carefully
	adjusted to his capacity. Phillis was carried down-stairs, and lay for
	hour after hour quite silent on the great sofa, drawn up under the
	windows of the house-place. She seemed always the same, gentle, quiet,
	and sad. Her energy did not return with her bodily strength. It was
	sometimes pitiful to see her parents’ vain endeavours to rouse her to
	interest. One day the minister brought her a set of blue ribbons,
	reminding her with a tender smile of a former conversation in which she
	had owned to a love of such feminine vanities. She spoke gratefully to
	him, but when he was gone she laid them on one side, and languidly shut
	her eyes. Another time I saw her mother bring her the Latin and Italian
	books that she had been so fond of before her illness—or, rather,
	before Holdsworth had gone away. That was worst of all. She turned her
	face to the wall, and cried as soon as her mother’s back was turned.
	Betty was laying the cloth for the early dinner. Her sharp eyes saw the
	state of the case.

	“Now, Phillis!” said she, coming up to the sofa; “we ha’ done a’ we can
	for you, and th’ doctors has done a’ they can for you, and I think the
	Lord has done a’ He can for you, and more than you deserve, too, if you
	don’t do something for yourself. If I were you, I’d rise up and snuff
	the moon, sooner than break your father’s and your mother’s hearts wi’
	watching and waiting till it pleases you to fight your own way back to
	cheerfulness. There, I never favoured long preachings, and I’ve said my
	say.”

	A day or two after Phillis asked me, when we were alone, if I thought
	my father and mother would allow her to go and stay with them for a
	couple of months. She blushed a little as she faltered out her wish for
	change of thought and scene.

	“Only for a short time, Paul. Then—we will go back to the peace of the
	old days. I know we shall; I can, and I will!”