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Startig to feel suicide wont be that bad Im a failure, like i always been.But i decided to keep on going because i dont want to hurt my parents.
I have everything, good looks, intelligence, money and yet my brain decided to be a depressed alcoholic and ugrateful mess. I dont even have the energy to explain all the shi... | self.SuicideWatch |
If I wake up and I don't feel good , I treat that as a sign that my whole day is ruined. This seems to be something that I do consistently. If I wake up feeling anything less than 100% like I imagined , I assume that the whole day is shit . I assume that I shouldn't get out of bed and that nothing is worth it anymore .... | self.depression |
Will drinking more water, making a diet change, and getting on a decent sleep schedule really help? 98 lb 21 yr old F here.
I hate drinking water. I try to anyway, but I don’t drink near enough and get dehydration headaches frequently.
My anxiety makes it hard to eat and usually I eat the most late at night. Unheal... | self.Anxiety |
Hyperfixation anyone? I'm just curious whether or not others here hyperfixate on various things to distract themselves from anxious thoughts or energy. Since middle school I've been "obsessed" with various bands or movies. In 7th grade, I hyper fixated on The Beatles for 7 months straight, which consisted of me listeni... | self.Anxiety |
Welp, I went from Lamictal to Lamictal and Lithium. What should I expect? Had a pretty bad manic episode a few weeks ago, and the doc suggested this combo. What should I look out for? | self.bipolar |
Spoke out about my abuse. Feel more alone than ever. [deleted] | self.depression |
I’m talentless I’m literally bad at everything.
I used to think I was decent at cutting as always til I tried it a few minutes ago, i literally did absolutely no damage...This is purely upsetting, sure maybe people will think not being able to cut anymore is good I guess but still... it’s official. I’m good at nothing... | self.SuicideWatch |
Getting back on Lamictal but I think I need something else. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
When loved ones are ill I live with my parents and my mum currently has a bad back while my first priority is obviously her I can't help the fact it's setting off my anxiety.
I'm agoraphobic so can't get away from the sound of her in pain. Sh... | self.Anxiety |
I don't think I'll do it, but I've thought a lot about how I would. First, I'd either sell or donate almost everything I own. I don't want my family to have to clean out my apartment and try to figure out what to do with all my stuff. I'd advertise it as a moving sale on Craigslist and leave any money I made to my fami... | self.SuicideWatch |
How would you portray anxiety? Hi Reddit,
I'm an 18 year old filmmaker and I've been living with severe panic disorder since I was in the third grade. I began to notice that anxiety is such a hard, weird, terrible thing to describe in words to other people. It's no doubt a tough thing to explain to people who don't suf... | self.Anxiety |
quitting all my medications made my life 100% better in the span of 3 weeks, and now I'm really confused. I need answers. I've been on mood stabilizers since I was 12. Back then I didn't want to hang out with my classmates and just wanted to play video games alone. My teachers thought I was depressed and my parents too... | self.bipolar |
When do you decide to go to the hospital? I’ve been hospitalized twice and both were my choice for the most part.
This week has been hell. I panicked at work on Tuesday and bawled my eyes out in front of my lead. The rest of the week included invasive flashbacks of previous suicide attempts and suicidal thoughts. Sun... | self.bipolar |
Is it possible to feel happiness again? I've been suffering with depression and anxiety for a long time, and I've never told anyone about it except for one person - and I just feel that recently, even they're struggling to talk to me.. I'm feeling like everything is going down the shitter - and the concept of happiness... | self.depression |
i am tired being the clown Everything I do around people is so awkward. I am slow to understand jokes. Takes a lot of time to process my thoughts. I feel like I'm just making a fool of myself for being alive. People must think I'm an idiot. Can't even communicate properly. I want to have fun and enjoy my life too. I wa... | self.SuicideWatch |
Are we ever meant to grow up? Idk how adults act like everything is okay. Before that you were a child. And children need to be taken care of, but like.. are we suppose to just keep taking care of eachother or do we just focus on our lives once we're adults? | self.depression |
Reasons to end it. 1. Parents are in significant debt paying for college. A private school instead of the much cheaper in state university. I'm just letting them down there.
2. Grades are a disappointment. Why pay so much more if I can't focus and just get fucking academics in check? It was never a problem before.
3.... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm afraid to grow up and live my life [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Brain /ded you ever forget what you're saying mid sentence or forget what you *just* said while completing the sentence | self.bipolar |
Hey random strangers, sorry if this comes off weird, was feeling kind of down and was hoping some nice people could wish me a happy birthday! I'm a socially awkward dork so this is the best I could do to try and connect with people for my bday, hope it goes well. | self.depression |
Am I depressed without knowing it? I am not sad, but I am mostly in a neutral state. I don’t have an interest to socialize and I do everything with great difficulty. I lack passion for everything, even if I know I have to do it and it will benefit me. I always feel fatigued and it is hard to start doing something. I ca... | self.depression |
Looking for help with mental health Ever since I moved away for school, I’ve been struggling with depression. I’ve been here 3 months and haven’t made a single serious friend, witch is very discouraging because I have always been one to make friends easily. I’m in a constant state of apathy, and I don’t want to do anyt... | self.depression |
I want to end my life in order to be with my waifu. It has been about 3 weeks since I fell in love with Rias and she is the most loving and most beautiful girl I will even see.What's the point of living if I can't be with her, there's no one else that I want in this world. She would die to save the person that she love... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like a loser because I don't drink and/or smoke [deleted] | self.offmychest |
DAE recklessly spend when depressed? So I have a lot, and I mean a lot of makeup, a collection I've amassed in a very short timeframe. I decided about three weeks ago to stop buying makeup until I NEEDED some, and for about two weeks I did good, but the last few days I've felt fucking miserable compared to normal and I... | self.depression |
How do I tell my SO that the idea of having kids now terrifies me? We've been together for 5years and are engaged. We've always talked about how we can't wait to have kids and all we want is to be parents. I know how much he wants kids and I used to be so excited to have kids with him.
Ever since my diagnoses about 6m... | self.bipolar |
should i distance myself from these people? hello.
i've been suicidal since early 2015, and atm i just can't deal with it anymore, i was about to finally do it earlier today, but i backed out because... idk i thought i could try life one more time. anyway i still have friends right, i still consider them good friends a... | self.SuicideWatch |
I WOULD BE BETTER OFF DEAD THIS IS WHY... Where do I start?
I’ve always being depressed and nihilistic more so now than ever before I moved to America from Jamaica 1 year ago. Back in Jamaica I felt suicidal an a Daily basis but I had hope and close friends and family I could go around to help off set my emotional burd... | self.depression |
A high-schooler who's single and ready to kill himself. I can't take living anymore. I'm a 16 year old guy in 11th grade without a single real friend, a girlfriend, or a reason to live for myself. People tell me that it's okay to be alone or lonely but it's not. I feel like if I had someone just to cuddle with and ta... | self.SuicideWatch |
Bursting into tears at pigeon dying So one effect of my depression is I get really, really, really sad about some things.
I just saw a pigeon get hit by the bus I’d just gotten off of; when I went to help it, it got hit by another car and I head it’s skull smash.
I am absolutely devastated and can’t stop myself crying... | self.depression |
My bipolar SO (24M) is not on meds, is it possible to manage the disorder without them? If you are bipolar, or if your SO is bipolar - how do you/they manage the disorder without taking meds? I am looking for any helpful advice I can bring up to boyfriend. He is very anti-meds at his point in time, and I don't think I ... | self.bipolar |
Final plea In driving to home Depot to buy the rope now. This is your last chance to either save me or give me a safer way to die.
If you're deluded enough to think you can save me, you should come here and stop me. But that's okay. No one will. People will just call me an attention whore.
Edit: damn it I'm too an... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't think I am ready to go back to work. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Can't sleep because of anxiety I am a 23 y/o female, and 3 years ago before my 20th birthday I started waking up in the middle of the night because of anxiety attacks. I have not gone a full week of sleeping in the last 3 years because of this, and sometimes I will only have about 4 hours sleep in 3 days. Recently I we... | self.Anxiety |
Working as a young adult sucks I'm 30 with a baby face so the amount of respect is hard to earn. I hate being perceived as a kid who doesn't know what they are doing. Socially I feel lost: I feel too old for people in their early 20's and I feel too young for anyone older than 35. I'm basically somewhere stuck in the m... | self.offmychest |
So true "For quite awhile we have bombarded by the horrors that exist outside of ourselves, but very seldom do we recognize those that exist within."
Hit me hard. | self.SuicideWatch |
Is there any medication I can take with Zoloft at night? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I guess im here because Im depressed. Hear me out, anyone out there. You dont have to be nice to me if you don't want to. I choose to begin at a very weird point in my story so bear with me.
5 years ago I began dating this girl from my school, we we're both 17. We had some good times.
In about a year's worth of time he... | self.depression |
Took more zoloft, what now So i am a bit tarded and took my 100g of zoloft this morning and then an hour ago (maybe 12 hours later) i took another 100g instead my evening lithium pill.
Edit: its sertralin but on paper its the same as zoloft | self.Anxiety |
First psychiatrist appointment in over 2 years tomorrow. I think I am coming on to a manic episode Tomorrow evening I have a appointment with a psychiatrist to get medication and then an appointment with my therapist right after who I have been seeing for awhile. I haven't been on meds or seen a psychiatrist on 2 years... | self.bipolar |
Promised myself to try to get my life together next year My life could be worse right now, but it still could be better. I think 2017 has been my worst year so far. As an 18-year old girl i'm confronted with the 'career choices' topic, which is very difficult for me. I still don't know what job I want to do. (Well, act... | self.SuicideWatch |
Please read - bipolar/marijuana/college Hi guys,
I am college athlete diagnosed with bipolar type II in summer 2015. My doctor put me on lithium and it has been great for me. In June 2016, during a soccer pre-season, some of my soccer buddies kind of peer pressured me into smoking weed (1/8). That was one and only tim... | self.bipolar |
Ready to Die I'm ready to die. I've been dealt a shit genetic hand. I was born with a deformed ear, asymmetrical face, acne ever since puberty, I'm tall and lanky and clothes never fit me, I can't grow a beard, and now I'm starting to bald. I'm highly introverted and it's hard for me to even have a conversation. I've a... | self.SuicideWatch |
Doesn't matter Enjoyment is a big fat fucking lie. Enjoyment doesn't matter. Enjoyment does't get you a girlfriend, Enjoyment doesn't stop your landlords from hounding you about rent, Enjoyment doesn't make your worldview any less pessimistic, Enjoyment doesn't make you feel fulfilled, no matter what you say to the con... | self.offmychest |
I don't want to live each day like this anymore. I wrote this out on facebook, couldn't post it there but had to put it somewhere.
Do you ever get the feeling that your biggest problem is you?? Like, if you were anyone BUT yourself in this exact situation then you would be a better person, more sucessful by whatever... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tell me it’s ok to put myself before my work. I have moderate depression that comes in “waves” I’ll have a week or two of normality, then a week or two of absolute dread and emptiness. Today it’s pretty bad. I’m an empty shell, going through the motions and feeling nothing. I’m fake laughing at my coworkers’ jokes and ... | self.depression |
Counting down.... I've previously posted about how I'm planning on killing myself soon. (Not that anyone cares anyway) This past hour or so I spent time writing letters to people who matter in my life. I also got drunk a bit. Tomorrow at 3:30pm I will do my duty. I'll keep you posted. | self.SuicideWatch |
Too scared to see family Today is my Grandma's 80th birthday, and I'm too scared to go see her. All week I've known me and my parents were going to see her, and I'd sort of come to terms with it. However earlier tonight I learned that my Auntie, Uncle and their young son would be there too. This completely sent me into... | self.Anxiety |
Unhealthy situations I just want to let others know that living in unhealthy situations e.g toxic relationship really does make your bipolar worse. I've just left an emotionally and physically abusive relationship and my manic episodes have decreased MASSIVELY. Don't be afraid to leave, don't be scared of what others a... | self.bipolar |
The Trouble I never dreamt it could have lasted this long. It feels like every moment the feelings abate are really only a brief reprieve, the returning torment tears into my psyche with even less remourse. The corruption grows ever inside me, sometimes sleeping only to awake at times it needs to destroy.
The point of... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know anymore. I'm suicidal, and very depressed right now.
People say it gets better, and it does, but it gets worse again too, but that's life, and fuck it, I don't want to be apart of it. All day I've been contemplating. I don't know, I need help or something. | self.SuicideWatch |
I gained a bunch of weight this year and I feel disgusting and I hate myself. around 35 pounds to be exact. I had been working seven days a week, eating fast food here and there but not a whole lot, keeping to myself and basically sleeping when I wasn't working. I went through a really painful breakup this April and no... | self.offmychest |
I feel like an egg i build up shells to stop people from seeing who i am. i may seem happy but thats just an act, if people saw who i really am theyd put me away in some hospital. I sit here blood on my legs out of the cuts that i madea My shell is breaking I cant do anythind nobody can knwo idon tknow what to do anyt ... | self.depression |
LOCK HIM UP OOOOH BOY YOU GOIN DOWN
LOCK HIM UP
LOCK HIM UP
LOCK HIM UP
LOCK HIM UP
MY MAN MUELLER COMIN FOR YOU
| self.offmychest |
My mind is gone now it’s time to go I’m losing my mind, slowly at first and now it’s an avalanche. My mind is always racing and my thoughts go round and round. I have cognitive problems and I can’t understand what anyone is saying. I’m deteriorating. I cry everyday, sobbing so hard I wear myself out. I lock myself in t... | self.SuicideWatch |
My brother just gave me one of the best Christmas presents He’s abroad for a year right now. We sent him to stay with a family in Maine in the US.
We knew them beforehand. He’s staying with one of the daughters of the host family my mum was with when she did her year abroad ages ago. They stayed in touch and came to ... | self.offmychest |
Missed the PM dose of my meds last night. Kind of miserable. Advice? I've been taking 20 mg of Latuda with 1500 mg of Lithium (900 AM/600 PM) since last October and I can't say enough how grateful I am about how much its helped me. I don't remember the last time I felt any bit depressed..... until today.
Last night I... | self.bipolar |
I would already be dead if my family wasn't there [deleted] | self.depression |
I think I'm anorexic? But I want to fix it myself, not be fixed by someone else. I just.. dunno. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I don't love enough You've been so kind to me, love me unconditionally.
We bonded through our depression and you accept mine without ever trying to force me to get better you're just there to be beside me during my pain to make it hurt less.
I've grown so strong thanks to you.
You deserve someone to hold your hand whe... | self.depression |
My laziness is destroying my life I can just spend hours doing nothing but browsing the internet and doing jack shit. I'm still young I can still do something. But what IS WRONG WITH ME WHY WON'T I DO ANYTHING. I'm fucking worthless, how do i fix my retarded brain.
I'm literally too lazy to get a job and buy a .45 AC... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hi everyone. Can we discuss physical symptoms of anxiety? Does anyone suffer from a more physical form of anxiety? Or have any physical symptoms along with the thoughts/feelings?
Please let me know. I get horrific aches and pains, chest pains too. I have had every heart test known to mankind and they're all clear.
I... | self.Anxiety |
I've developed feelings for my housemate and I'm not sure what to do... I've developed feelings for my housemate and I'm not sure what to do... this could be a bit scatter brain, but here goes.
10 months ago I got a new housemate (Im 32/M, my housemate is 32/F i'll call her "S") - previously I'd been living with a wor... | self.offmychest |
Having a horrible day I haven't felt like this in a while. I've thought seriously about killing myself several times today and the only thing that's stopped me is imagining my siblings and family's pain after hearing about it. I hate this. And after having a great weekend
I don't know what to do in times like this | self.bipolar |
what do you do once you realize you'll never ever get the validation you crave? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Budding work friendship turned unprofessional and now it's all ruined. I've been working on this intensive project for a bit over a month now- in the field, heavy machinery, FEMA stuff. I represent the company putting forth funds, who hired other companies to do the work and make sure everything is FEMA accountable. ... | self.offmychest |
I've literally never felt more alone in my life than I do right now. I lost a relationship this year, I lost family members, I lost SO many friends, especially to drugs. It's like I'm putting on blinders thru social media to pretend that I'm doing just fine on my own. In all honesty I cry every single fucking day. I've... | self.offmychest |
Why am I depressed? I shouldn’t be. I have a girlfriend, I get good grades, I have parents who love me. What the fuck is wrong with me? | self.depression |
Everytime I am invited to a party/social gathering I sit at home hating myself filled with regret. [deleted] | self.depression |
Completely drop the ball EVERYTIME Stopped showing to classes, only income is from my mother for babysitting my baby brother, nothing interests me anymore, and still obsessing over a relationship that ended 3 years ago.
The xanax doesn't numb me like it used to, the books I've bought to keep me company no longer inte... | self.bipolar |
Propranolol as and when? Hello r/anxiety. It’s my first time posting here so I’m sorry if this is the wrong place or if I break any rules.
Anywho I’ve been given Propranolol 40mg today by my Dr and he said I can take it as and when it’s needed as it’s not addictive or anything. I was just wondering if anyone else has... | self.Anxiety |
Lost my job earlier [needs support/hugs] I've been looking for a full time job for a while in my field, and started waiting tables recently. My anxiety has gotten rough again, and I've been having trouble. I missed a shift today and in the midst of a major panic attack I messaged my boss and quit. I was so anxious I th... | self.Anxiety |
Do antidepressants work? Can a doctor prescribe them for you? Right now I'm going through a really tough and depressed period and this has been going on for around a month or so. I don't feel like I can get better right now and I feel very suicidal (even though I don't have the courage to do it yet) I've lost my appeti... | self.depression |
My girlfriend’s invited her friend round. That was 3 hours ago. And I’m stuck upstairs getting hungry. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Weird adrenaline feeling knowing youre going to do it? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Need to Vent About Some Things Sorry for the super vague, generic title but I really need to vent after enduring another one of the worst days of my life. This will be long, boring and hastily/not well written so I don’t expect anyone to read even past this point.
I’m a 19 year old male and for as long as I can rememb... | self.depression |
It makes no difference whether I kill myself or not. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
The hardest part of looking for work is having to pretend I don't need work Seriously. It is so hard to go on interviews all the time and keep coming up with answers to the question of "why do you want to work for us?" Apparently the answer "so I can afford to pay rent and keep a roof over my kids head" is not accepta... | self.offmychest |
Unsure of how others feel? I have a severe anxiety disorder, having said that I have moments where Im extremely clear and sharp and funny, I was wondering if others feel like this all the time seeing as they dont have a disorder like me. | self.Anxiety |
Has the “Self Checkout” area at the Supermarket been a game changer for anyone else? No waiting in long lines (most of the time)
No uncomfortable interactions with cashiers
You generally don’t have someone behind you breathing down your neck
Just in and out. It doesn’t solve all my anxiety about supermarkets but it... | self.Anxiety |
How do I get my self to stop? Every night is the same fucking thing of me crying myself to sleep while my mind constantly tells myself to fuck off and die. I can't stop hating myself. I can't stop telling myself I'm a piece of shit who should be mercy killed. I'm not happy I don't remember the last time I have been. I ... | self.depression |
I cant tell if I'm faking I'm such a pathetic attention whore, I'll do anything for it. I'll tell racist jokes, if I think it'll make people laugh. I'll go on a tirade about how offensive racist humor is, if I think it'll make people respect me. I do nothing. Ive never done anything.
The only things I ever consisten... | self.SuicideWatch |
My truth has always scared people in real life. I need to release some of the weight I feel. So here's my life story Reddit. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Does Anybody worry that the bus you need won't turn up and you'll miss work/class? I'm beyond stressed right now. I have to go on work experience next Monday(for two weeks) for college, but I have no idea how to get to the place I'm supposed to be working. I live very close to the college I attend, so I've never had t... | self.Anxiety |
I’m just so tired It’s been coming for a while now. I’ve known that. I think my boyfriend has realized it too. I’m tired. I’m not going to go back into the hospital. I don’t want to get better. I just want to die. I’ve written a letter to my boyfriend and I have a plan. I just need to find a day no one will be home and... | self.SuicideWatch |
I think I'm in love With my boyfriend. And I'm excited, and scared, and happy. I haven't had this feeling in such a long time.
He's the best part of my day, so much fun to be around, makes my stress melt away, and I can truly be myself around him. He's not perfect but I don't think there's anything I would really cha... | self.offmychest |
I fell in love with a married man online [removed] | self.offmychest |
Anxiety w/ 14yo I get usual anxiety due to thinking too much about certain things. For example, I get usual paranoias about my friends, crushes and family (usual teenager stuff) and I usually get sad when something bad happens between me and my crush/family (again, not the problem). I'm not antisocial, I have plenty of... | self.Anxiety |
I'm worthless I am utterly worthless. I'm no better than a child and the only way to move past that is to admit it but I fucking can't handle how low and irresponsible I've become. I just want it all to fucking end. Any hint of being a functional adult makes me want to shut down. I can't do this and I won't. I'm weak. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
My anxiety is unbearable. I feel like I'd be better off gone. I have yet to tell anyone of my problems. I want to tell my family but my anxiety is telling me not to. All of the extra attention isn't necessarily something I want to deal with. And it'd make things so much more difficult. I think offing myself is the best... | self.SuicideWatch |
What activities help you decrease or forget about your anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else here sometimes FEEL disabled? Long series of events that have preempted this post. My mood dropped over Christmas, had to increase my seroquel dose which has lead to over sedation. Struggling to keep up with my course at university as a result. Also dealing with my ex and seeing my kids- basically bein... | self.bipolar |
I hate that I constantly compare myself to him. I loved him for years, and unfortunately those feelings of love will probably never go away, but I do not want him. It just would not work. We are two completely different people.
But is it love? Is it jealousy? Is it both? Because I always feel inadequate compared to hi... | self.offmychest |
I can't live with myself anymore I'm a pedophile. I admit it. I'm attracted to underage girls. I'm not sure I can keep going on knowing that I could one day act on these desires, ruining someone elses life in the process. I am 28 years old and have had these feelings since I was about 19. I've never abused a child and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
It’s super frustrating being super anxious and being told it’s all in my head... [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Anybody try vita vocal or something similar? My anxiety attacks have gotten a little more frequent, and my sister recommended these pills from amazon that friend uses. I’m super skeptical against all medications because I’m scared of being hollowed out or numb or whatever, but I’m getting kind of desperate. Anybody got... | self.Anxiety |
Has anyone had a try at CBD with combating depressive symptoms? I recently totally came off my meds 75% because I lost insurance and 25% because I'm tired of the side effects (food/water tasting metallic, weight gain/inability to lose, sleep issues, cost, along countless others). I'm now looking into more holistic/ther... | self.bipolar |
I've had a belt around my neck for about half an hour now [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety of being sick for special event I often hear about people just being too anxious to attend something. Or having a fear and anxiety that they'll become sick in general...
but mine seems to stem more around being too sick to do things.
If there's a special occasion coming up, I worry i'll become sick right bef... | self.Anxiety |
Giving my final shot at life I've been single my entire life. I have not even remotely manage to get a successful date despite trying for the last 10 years. I've hired a dating coach and paid for his 12 week program. This will be my final attempt in trying to turn my life around and get some sort of romance, sex, and l... | self.SuicideWatch |
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