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I’m bored but don’t want to do anything? So I’m bored at school. Not really sure why, I’ve got a lot going on I feel at sometimes and at others literally nothing. I’m on some meds for bipolarism but I’m finding that I almost enjoy just sitting and doing nothing over everything. | self.bipolar |
So scared for my boyfriend My boyfriend was talking about suicide today, researching drowning methods, acting strange.
He's supposed to be at work for the next hour. An hour and a half ago I saw an ambulance and commotion at the dock in town. He has no cell phone. Should i call his work and see if he showed up? Just... | self.SuicideWatch |
300mg Lithium enough for BPII maintenance? My doctor started me on 300mg / day in 2015, and in 2016 increased to 600mg at my request. It was my first time getting treatment for BP specifically, and it helped me get to the stable place I am at now. However, I am suffering side effects related to lithium (weight gain, ac... | self.bipolar |
For Christmas, my father gave me a fever and sore throat This year, when I was with my family for the holidays, my father got sick and I tried to avoid catching it. However, for some reason he just kept following and pestering me like he thought it was some game. Needless to say, I got sick, and now I feel like shit, a... | self.offmychest |
It doesn't get better. As time passes, I'm getting older. More stress, more responsibilities.
I've already missed out on so many things. I cannot go back in time. I wish I was simply never born.
Suicide seems like a good escape plan. | self.SuicideWatch |
Dna tests as Christmas gifts - freaky My dad is a narcissist. He has hurt me over and over again. He never owns up to it or apologizes. He just makes excuses. I stopped talking to him in September.
I didn’t do anything to interfere with his relationship with my son. He knows his number so he can call or text if he wa... | self.bipolar |
To most people I am scum that deserves to suffer [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Don’t feel as intelligent as I used to be Over the past year or so (it could have been longer, but I’m not sure) I feel as though I’ve become less intelligent than I used to be. When having conversations with others I don’t make any meaningful contributions and spend the majority of the time thinking of something intel... | self.Anxiety |
Bad again Its getting bad again, i feel like im living a fucking dream i feel trapped inside myself i cannot go on lile this if this is forever i quit i just cant im so fucking weak😔 | self.SuicideWatch |
Why is there an empty hole that cannot be filled [deleted] | self.depression |
Sunsets make me feel weird? Ever since I was a kid sunsets have always given me a strange feeling. I can't tell if it's good or bad, it seems completely neutral and very hard to explain. It feels familier and safe but also scary and wrong, like something bad is about to happen. I didn't motice it for years but it's com... | self.Anxiety |
I always see things from a depressive perspective When I’m watching a film or anything, and something fucked up happens to a person, I think: ‘Wow that person must be considering suicide’ ‘Why hasn’t him/her commited suicide already?’
| self.depression |
Can find something I can do 24/7 ?!?!?!? Help please So this is causes a bit of anxiety for me I've been thinking about what I want to do for a career but I can decide same with my hobbies I have a ton of different hobbies like woodworking metal working plant medicine hunting fishing trapping hiking camping gardening f... | self.Anxiety |
I've been feeling better but I feel like if I had the choice, I would still choose to don't exist I've been on therapy and taking meds (Lexapro 10 mg). I've been having less mood swings, it's easier to sleep and I don't have crying breakdowns anymore. Still, when I think about death or not existing anymore, it seems li... | self.depression |
first symptoms? Does anyone else have trouble figuring out when their symptoms first came on? I know (for men at least), BP tends to present in the 15-25 range (and worsen into the mid/late-20s), and I was for sure having manic episodes by 16 and delusions by 17 or 18 (hard to tell due to substance abuse problems at th... | self.bipolar |
I hate my new job I'm not exaggerating, when I say it makes me want to put a bullet in my head. I dread every single day I go in. | self.depression |
Other than The Samaritans, what other online resources are there? [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
someone convince me to finally kms i’ve been pretty miserable for years since like 7th grade i’ve wanted to kms and tried once and now i’m a freshman in college and i’m even worse. can someone finally humiliate me enough to just do it | self.SuicideWatch |
I just had a major panic attack And I had nobody to call or anything. I can barely even type on my phone right now | self.depression |
I think about doing it a lot I'm not going to go into detail on my life story. Same old stuff. Dysfunction, poverty, and abuse, etc etc.
Long story short, I just graduated college. I got a full time job almost immediately, which was absolutely just sheer luck.
Thing is, I've been passively suicidal (if that's a thin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Made it another year! My birthday just ended and I’m crying because I can’t believe I’ve made it another year, didn’t expect any of the last few to ever happen.
Here’s to everyone out there who’s made it another year, another month, another day, another hour more than they thought they would.
We’re still here, we’r... | self.bipolar |
Post partum anxiety - ranting... Anyone else develop anxiety or did their anxiety get worse after they have a child?
I never had any issues after my first child but now with my second it feels out out control.
My brain does not stop. I can't sleep. I'm always tired. I will overthink every little detail too the poin... | self.Anxiety |
My hesitation and general incompetence caused me to lose my chance with my crush [deleted] | self.offmychest |
There is a reason I gave myself a new personality. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Tired of trying (rant) I’m too scared to actually kill myself and talking to people actually won’t help I’ve tried it and I’m always getting the same bullshit from them
I just want to be alone where I’m away from everyone I know I honestly drive myself insane because of how shitty I feel I can’t stand being 17 no one ... | self.SuicideWatch |
It is impossible for me to "relax" For a long time now i've had thoughts of whether i've been suffering from anxiety or not. My heart almost always feels like it's "Fired up" and beating unnaturally fast. It's impossible for me to just sit back and relax and this feeling usually stems from the thoughts that come forth ... | self.depression |
I cheated to a MUCH larger extent than anybody knows I don't feel bad. She's being really fucking gross now. I hope she catches something | self.offmychest |
Depression is the worst Seriously though. All I can think about is how worthless I am. And how hopeless my life is. And how I have been single for 8 years and will continue to be for the rest of my life. Because I am too sick to have a healthy relationship. Because I wouldn't want to put anyone through what I deal with... | self.bipolar |
What do you guys do when you know you’re going to be depressed? At the end of October, my estranged mother crashed back into my life when she came up to visit my sister. We’ve been on very low contact after a few years of no contact and then she came to town very, very sick. My sister and I had to bring her to the hosp... | self.bipolar |
A lost Gemini Funny how one can be the most inspirational, happy person to others, and then one day feel like there’s nothing left to offer.
Im always told how wonderful and beautiful I am and it’s makes me angry now. I find joy in the thought of giving up and starting over. I’m not sure what happens when one decides ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Im jealous of everyone who is dating Thats right. im jealous of them. why you ask? because thy have achieved something that i have longed for my whole life and it pisses me off. What is it that i long for? Love. i am a lonely guy who spends his time dreaming and wishing someone would love him back and share the love an... | self.offmychest |
Just see a black hole in place of a future I feel like i shouldve just ended my life a while ago. I feel like ive wasted so much time trying to progress, when there is nothing for me to progress into. Im now over 7 months pregnant with a child from a man i adore but doesnt love me. He uses me, and the most i get is hal... | self.depression |
It's crazy how something as simple as putting your hood up can decrease social anxiety It's like we hide ourselves and feel a sense of relief when in reality it's not changing anything. It makes me think that some things are just in our head | self.Anxiety |
What's the point of life? If I stay alive I will be unhappy and it will get worst and worst. If I kill myself I will go to hell. I fucking hate this world , this life, this universe and I just want to end myself. but no. NO I CAN'T because of this stupid bullshit. It's a jail and no matter what I do it's the wrong choi... | self.SuicideWatch |
Best friend/Grandfather has cancer. Stage four melanoma, now spreading into his brain. He already has slight dementia, and soon his meds for that won’t work anymore.
He’ll soon forget his times working as an engineer for NASA, sending Apollo 11 to the moon, falling in love with my Nana, exploring the world with her a... | self.offmychest |
Need help with my suicidal mother Hey guys! So my mom hasn't been doing too well for the past couple of years and seems to be walking down the path toward another suicide attempt, but helping her is kind of a tough situation and I'm at a loss of what my next options are, so I was hoping someone would have some advice! ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate speaking in class I never feel as if I've properly contributed to any discussion or question I've answered. My profs always seem to be like, "Weeell, maybe, I guess?" to my answers, so I always feel like I'm wrong and it embarrasses me even though it's not their intention? And I'm not the only one that answers w... | self.Anxiety |
Having a minor depression freakout I'm posting here because I feel like my life is purgatory and nothing I do will ever change that.
Before I accepted myself as gay, I fantasized about gay porn and connected with it on some level, thinking "if I was ever bad and gave into this, worked out etc, that could be me." Well... | self.depression |
Why Bloody Bother Anymore? Sure, I have a family, but we are poorer than dirt, and I don't have much in common with my siblings, who are either too young, shut ins, or cannot communicate that well due to autism. Outside of them, I have NO ONE. Whenever I try to make friends, I always end up as the odd man out, the sore... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'd like to start paying for cuddling Don't downvote I just need to get this off my chest.
I am single since forever. I cuddling. I noticed few girls online who offer cuddling services. The going rate is around 100 dollars per hour. I can pay. I feel awkward. What are we going to talk about??? I'd love to pay for a c... | self.offmychest |
I dont know how to help someone dealing with a family death [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Self-Care Sunday, Post Your Plans! Welcome to Self-Care Sunday! Post your plans for self-care in the comments. I'll post mine there as well. | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else get freaked out when you get pains in your head? I have always been this way. Right now, I am experiencing some pain on the right side of my head. Not really like a headache, but kind of a pulsating pain. Anytime something like this happens, I think I'm about to burst an aneurysm or something. I wish I... | self.Anxiety |
I thought it would be easier Ive sought advice many times, hoping to escape a room of darkness, ive tried to be positive , listening to people , living for others theory. The dark reality is the emptiness within me is winning this battle, each day a part of me is fading away, the new hobbies are a temporary distraction... | self.depression |
I can't find a job that I feel is enjoyable. I'm told that "that's just life, everyone hates their job" or that "it's work, it's not supposed to be enjoyable"
I strongly disagree with this. I'm not expecting it to be sunshine and rainbows. Or even a walk in the park. I just want something that I feel is worth doing. ... | self.offmychest |
Baby on the train A couple seats in front of me a baby was laying in a pram. The baby kept looking at me and reacted to things I did. I made the baby laugh/smile a couple of times. But suddenly while I was interacting with the baby it started shaking its head like crazy, it almost looked like headbanging. The mom (who... | self.offmychest |
Fuck your thoughts and fuck your prayers. Three times in my lifetime, I've seen the headline "deadliest shooting in American history"; I'm a freshman in college. At this rate, by the time I graduate, I'll likely have seen it a few more. Every time this happens, every time so many people die in places that are supposed ... | self.offmychest |
Expressing myself for the first time. It's hard. Everyday is just another day where I behave a certain way and act a certain way that doesn't reflect my thoughts and I feel lethargic and sad all the fucking time. I feel lifeless and empty as a human being who has not personality or passion. When people talk to me I jus... | self.depression |
Should I confront my friends about this? Hey. First time poster here. I've had anxiety disorder for most of my life, but through the help of therapists and self growth I've managed to keep in under very good control. None of my friends know about my anxiety.
On New Year's Eve I had a party at my house. I was logged o... | self.Anxiety |
Something to try reading Lately I've been thinking a lot, "All I seem to do is suffer. Surely the meaning of life can't be to suffer?" Then when I was at Indigo (perusing the self-help section as usual) I spotted a book called "You Were Not Born to Suffer" by Blake Bauer. The title seemed fitting so I bought it. It's r... | self.depression |
Extremely scared and confused after psychiatrist Hello, after years and years of fighting anxiety I finally managed to see a psychiatrist and he told me to take Fluanxol 0.5mg three times daily swallowing half the pill so 0.25mg x3
BUT the mistake I made was to read more about it and its side effects and now I refuse ... | self.Anxiety |
Video interview today And the anxiety is sky freaking high, it honestly feels like a heart attack. I really hope I don't mess this up I need the job severely 😓 | self.Anxiety |
Accepting that I am simply unfit for relationships. Anyone else? | self.bipolar |
I just want someone to talk to I shoulder so much all on my own. I can’t talk to anyone about it. I just want to vent, but no one is listening. It’s so frustrating. Always being judged but almost never confronted about anything. | self.offmychest |
I'm selling all of my firearms Thanks for taking the time to read this, It's been an interesting ride lately, but funnily enough, I can't determine what triggered it.
I've had a nightmare where I took my shotgun and blasted myself with it. Scared the shit out of me. Couldn't fall asleep.
Telling my folks why I sudden... | self.depression |
Experience with Lexapro? I just started taking it for a week and so far I’ve just been really tired and yawning a lot. I heard it causes a lot of weight gain which I don’t want to go through. | self.depression |
I just want my mom to die already I know most people are going to read this and be thinking, "OMG, UR A MONSTER!!!1!1!!111!!"
But she's just too brutally abusive, I want her gone forever. I never want to see her ever again. She's done immense amounts of psychological damage to me. I am even considering committing suic... | self.depression |
Mood Stabilizers and intelligence/memory - which one do you recommend? I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, specifically type 2. I'm due to start on a mood stabilizer soon, and my psychiatrist and I agreed that we'd go for Lithium. What I've been wondering about lately (quite obsessively actually- I'm re... | self.bipolar |
Tired of smiling. Bare with me, this is the first time I've actually posted something like this. The anonymity of Reddit and seeing those whom have been posting here has given me a bit of courage.
I'm 27 and I am lost to say the least. I can't seem to find anyone whom can relate.
My childhood wasn't the greatest, from ... | self.offmychest |
Anxiety and Romantic Feelings I wanna understand better how anxiety affects the way people like people - I feel like I hear certain things mentioned a lot, but not everyone feels all the same things. I wanted to compile a kind of list, just to get a better sense of what things might be possibilities:
1. Putting the pe... | self.Anxiety |
3 reasons I won't cut myself tonight 1) I know I will regret it tomorrow
2) It is unhealthy & self-destructive
3) I want to wear shorts this summer & my scars have already become less & less noticeable everyday so I don't want to ruin it
Damn do I feel shitty, though. I feel alone & frustrated & ... | self.bipolar |
Got my driving test tomorrow and holy shit I’m nervous. Yea pretty much as the title says I’ve got my driving test 1st time tomorrow and I’m really fucking nervous, bordering on an anxiety attack. | self.Anxiety |
I fold I posted here maybe an hour ago, with the intention to try and get help. Input, validation, or anything that could make me come to terms with the fact that I'm not alone. After looking through the sub a little, I feel alone, more so than before. I think I've come to terms with the fact that I will not improve. N... | self.SuicideWatch |
Once poor always poor? Will i be always poor if i'm poor? Yes? Or is it possible to escape? How? What if i can't get an good education? So i would always be an unskilled low paid worker? If i can't escape poverty should i just kill myself or are there options to escape poverty? Because being poor isn't fun. You will al... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've failed my life as a man, why not just kill myself? I'm about to graduate college a virgin at the age of 26.
I've failed the very basic thing that a man is supposed to be able to do, and I failed at it trying my best.
Ive been spending most of my past couple weeks in my room binging on amateur porn trying to pr... | self.SuicideWatch |
Future Seems Sad? Hi Reddit. I (19F) am feeling a little down. I was suppose to be in college for Mech Eng (Building Sciences) but there was a strike and my first semester is ruined. I am considering transfering to a university for a better education but theres many problems.
The first is I come from an incredibly poo... | self.depression |
Total barely functional disaster to fine in in the same day I don't know what to make of it. I was so depressed, tired, wanted to give up trying to do my job (teacher) couldn't cope with anything around me all morning. Then after lunch I was mostly ok. What the hell. I've never had this before, not to such an EXTREME. ... | self.bipolar |
What is the appeal in going further? I already put this on /r/suicidewatch but here are more users so w/e
I am an 18 y/o m living in germany and I am depressed since 2013, suicidal since 2015, on psychiotic treatment since 2016 and on meds since 4 months. Don't see the appeal in living, when I was a kid I did not thi... | self.depression |
Please tell me I’m not the only one to fail an entire semester of university.... Just recently got diagnosed with ADHD. This is a huge revelation considering I’ve never even THOUGHT about the possibility of that .... like... EVER. I just thought I was extremely fucking lazy and stupid. (And I still don’t think it’s rea... | self.offmychest |
There’s something wrong with me I don’t know what the fuck it is. I have panic attacks too often, especially around people, even though I’m on medication and see a therapist. I get angry and break things and say things that I regret later. It’s interfering with my job now. I don’t make enough money to take care of my r... | self.SuicideWatch |
I still don't have my sh*t together and I'm almost 40. I rarely feel like an adult even though there are things I do well like being a dad.
I kind of feel like on many levels I stopped maturing sometime in my early 20's.
I do understand other people and the world I live in more than ever, but I still don't keep my a... | self.depression |
[Help] My girlfriend is going through depression and it is getting complex Hello Reddit,
first of all, this is going to get complex. Sorry and thanks for taking the time.
She used to be a great friend of mine. We lived 500km away but we talked a lot and she fell in love with me. I wasn´t interested in a relationship ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m happy, but I know it’s not going to last. This past week I’ve sort of come out of my hole that is anxiety and depression but now I’m anxious that it won’t last..... just wanted to type this out | self.Anxiety |
Medication helps, therapy does too, but love? Love is the greatest thing to ever happen to me. I’m 21 I’ve had anxiety for a long time, and more recently diagnosed with OCD on top of it. I’ve been in a psychiatric hospital, I’ve been on so many medications I don’t even remember them all, and I’ve been to more therapist... | self.Anxiety |
17f - growing tired hello reddit.
i'm not sure where to start but, lately life has been particularly hard for me. i won't go into specifics in a post, since that feels a little too risky given my situation, but i'm dealing with a lot of stuff by myself. way more than a 17-year-old should have to deal with, especially ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Difference between antidepressent starting side-effects and hypomania? Hey all,
So I've read about how SSRIs can send bipolar people who are misdiagnosed with unipolar depression / anxiety into hypomania or mania. I've also read that SSRIs can have activating effects during the start up period (including insomnia, res... | self.depression |
How do you deal with having your dream taken away from you after sacrificing years working towards it? Recently my dream that I had since I was a kid, was taken away from me due to financial problems. I had to move away from my family at 13 so that I could really put everything into it, and committed my whole life towa... | self.depression |
Do you ever feel like some people are never meant to be happy, and some are destined to commit suicide? There are some people that (no matter what treatment, or happiness or support) just can't be happy in life.
Sylvia Plath is a huge example I can think of. She just felt she was destined to commit suicide from such ... | self.depression |
Please help me sort out my life I hope you bear with me as there is no one I trust to listen. I need this off my chest so I can move on with my life. I'm 34. I'm also 6'4'' and not very attractive (I admit it), and Middle Eastern. I am gay, and I live in a place that harasses gay people and criminalizes them. I am not ... | self.offmychest |
I have anxiety about killing myself The only reason I haven't killed myself is because I don't want to inconvenience the people who would have to deal with me. No matter how I go someone will have to deal with a corpse, but if I crash my car, I either hurt someone else in the process, or I destroy someone else's proper... | self.SuicideWatch |
Has anyone else heard of SSRI WITHDRAWAL-induced mania? I never believed my bipolar diagnosis because the only time I (think) I was something that resembled manic developed shortly after I stopped SSRIs cold turkey.
It makes sense the SSRIs can *induce* mania, as serotonergic drugs are very activating. But SSRI WITHDR... | self.bipolar |
DAE feel like this after moving to a small town? [deleted] | self.depression |
Feel Weird About Disclosing Mental Illness at Doctors Office [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Abilify It’s working. I can’t believe it. I have energy, focus, motivation. I feel like I did before my first break down. It’s incredible. I just hope in the long term it’ll still work and not have crazy side effects.
Anyone been on it long term? | self.bipolar |
I feel so empty I don’t know who to talk to about my feelings. Even if I did, I would feel selfish doing so. I’m not diagnosed with depression (I don’t talk about anything to my doctor), but I haven’t been happy for years. I’m currently packing to move and found items and pictures from times when I was happy and now I’... | self.depression |
After nearly four months with no panic attacks, I had a bad one the other day when someone yelled at me. Help [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Fuck these shitty places. I had maybe 3 days where I was content, fuck maybe even happy? Today I was supposed to be going on a hike which I forgot about had hours to get ready and go but I sacked it off instead. Went to the gym (the only thing that stops me thinking) got home showered and then sat doing nothing, as I t... | self.depression |
I killed myself. It is funny that I should be typing this here and now. I will not let anyone or anything get me down any longer. Trusting others was a complete waste of my time.
We were born in the world alone, who says we have to walk with others? Only by trusting yourself can you never allow anyone else to hurt yo... | self.depression |
I'm not showing up to work This is the third job I have flaked out on after a week. I am absolutely destitute and I only have gotten called back for an interview twice this entire year.
I can't handle going in tonight. I can't handle talking to my coworkers and hearing the same dumbass jokes about me being shy or ne... | self.SuicideWatch |
My friend just told me her plans to kill herself. What do I do? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like because I can't make phone calls, I can't get a job, let alone be a normal human being I'm 22 years old, still no job, like ever. finished high school, had to leave community college because I screwed around too much and couldn't get financial aid anymore, went to a Technical school to learn a trade, and I ... | self.Anxiety |
Is it ok to talk to my friend about my depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
Depression caused by loneliness Hi. So I've been feeling depressed on and off. I first felt frequently low last year and I also took meds a year ago. I guess the meds worked with the help of my family and friends and by summer last year I was pretty happy and even got myself a GF. It was a summer romance, by September ... | self.depression |
The source of my depression is permanent and physical, therefore talking doesn't help me, and 'it gets better' is unlikely [deleted] | self.depression |
Is this normal? I can be going about my everyday business, but when there’s a lull in activity it hits me like a bus... just absolutely crushing thoughts and a feeling in my chest. Then there’s the distant feelings or just inability to connect. I look down at my arms and hands and they’re just alien to me, they don’t s... | self.depression |
im really flustered im really struggling in school with regards to my friends. im trying to help my closests friends deal with their respective anxiety and depression but its really hard to keep trying to help them and look after myself as well. and i get really exasperated when i cant help them because they kind of ex... | self.depression |
Seriously considering selling my body for money. I've got a full-time job already, but I've still been struggling financially. I'm just trying to get out of a difficult situation, and I could really benefit from a second source of income. I know that getting a normal, legitimate part-time job on the side would be the m... | self.offmychest |
Help! Dating someone with severe anxiety and depression So me and my I guess ex now have been together for over two years and she's always had anxiety since I've met her but it has gotten worse over time. She is prescibed xanax and prozac for it. But recently in our relationship it has gotten so bad she will only go to... | self.Anxiety |
Depression and Love I have always been kinda romantic. I'm not romantic in a way I will give a girl flowers or write love letters to her, but romantic in a way I can't explain, like I would do literally anything for the person I love. The thing is, since I have depression I feel like I love a lot more. Like I just need... | self.depression |
I cried at work today. And then I cried on the way to the doctors office. Then I cried waiting to see the doctor. And finally had a mental breakdown when I got to speak to him. I've relapsed. Congratulations to me, I've failed. | self.depression |
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