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 Happy Valentine's Day. I have decided to initiate a one-way broadcast mode from now on. Not expecting a reply, not involving any grey-market technical inquiries, merely serving as a serialized archive of my life and thoughts. Sending this task holds meaning for me personally. Please feel free to Mute, archive, block, or silently observe.
 
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 Over the past two days, I made penpals on Slowly, rejected letters from 3 people, and dismantled their respective logical errors. Dismantling them felt absolutely refreshing!
 
-I also OSINT-ed a Russian guy. His profile was pretty cool—knows Latin and Ancient Greek, ticked off literature, history, philosophy, psychology, museums, and a whole bunch of others. But after sending a letter, I OSINT-ed him and found out he used to be an angry youth (edgelord) on the Russian VK network and even followed those incredibly stupid anti-feminist bloggers who treat noise as the holy bible. Then my personal view at the time was:
+I also OSINT-ed a Russian guy. His profile was pretty cool—knows Latin and Ancient Greek, ticked off literature, history, philosophy, psychology, museums, and a whole bunch of others. But after sending a letter, I OSINT-ed him and found out he used to be an angry youth (edgelord) on the Russian VK network and even followed those incredibly stupid anti-feminist bloggers who treat noise as the holy bible. Then my personal view at the time was: "But I personally have never felt that feminism is brainless at all. The feminists I know are all great. Although I don't deny there might be noise in the world, every school of thought has noise, right? The only way to deal with noise is to build a firewall and isolate it. If you don't isolate it and instead get drowned by the noise and start doubting the value of the ideology itself, that's underfitting ==
 
-> "But I personally have never felt that feminism is brainless at all. The feminists I know are all great. Although I don't deny there might be noise in the world, every school of thought has noise, right? The only way to deal with noise is to build a firewall and isolate it. If you don't isolate it and instead get drowned by the noise and start doubting the value of the ideology itself, that's underfitting ==
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-> I don't want him to think I am one of the 'minority rational feminists'. Frankly speaking, majority or minority is meaningless. If the majority of people you see on the internet are idiots, it just means your internet environment is bad. It doesn't mean the ideology itself is meaningless. The better approach shouldn't be turning the idiots within an ideology into targets for your cynicism, but rather calmly stepping out of the crowd to observe the ideology itself and then deciding whether you agree with it or not."
+I don't want him to think I am one of the 'minority rational feminists'. Frankly speaking, majority or minority is meaningless. If the majority of people you see on the internet are idiots, it just means your internet environment is bad. It doesn't mean the ideology itself is meaningless. The better approach shouldn't be turning the idiots within an ideology into targets for your cynicism, but rather calmly stepping out of the crowd to observe the ideology itself and then deciding whether you agree with it or not."
 
 I personally have mediocre feelings toward angry youths and keyboard politicians... I think arguing with people on the internet is intrinsically a very silly thing to do. But undeniably, yes, there are many high-pressure places in the world. Going to vent pressure is also normal.
 
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 I also found a guy who wrote sci-fi in his bio, and I sent over that script I adapted when I was 14/15. I also replied to a guy who likes Dostoevsky and Kafka, digging up the reflections I had when I read Dostoevsky in middle and high school.
 
-> "I have such immense respect and love for Dostoevsky! His depiction of human psychology is incredibly detailed and magnificent; the contradictions, authenticity, and complexity are portrayed vividly. At times, while reading his work, I felt as if I were one of the characters existing within his mind... I can hardly imagine if his soul contained the entire world. I also realized that before reading his books, I had never truly stepped into another person's mind or consciousness... Anyway, he is great and extraordinary... absolutely not just empty praise!! It's my genuine personal experience, sob. Also... perhaps due to a resonance in psychological complexity, I inevitably like Raskolnikov. I sympathize with him.
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-> It's complicated... specifically, it's not simple pity... I feel he sinned because his intellect was mismatched with the society and era he lived in. Let's put it this way: his brooding was indeed excessive, but that was also a product of his times. Intellect itself is innocent, yet due to the degradation of social morality and the dislocation between the era and the individual... it became a crime. What I sympathize with isn't his crime, but the "human" who was coerced by circumstance, committed the act, and ultimately suffered the chaos of a tormented conscience.
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-> Some of his moral codes weren't exactly wrong... In a society where morality has collapsed, whether an individual has the capacity to correct it is a difficult question for the conscience. I think that while Dostoevsky used Raskolnikov to express that individuals cannot bear such consequences, just as the humanity he depicted is complex, his attitude toward Rodya is likely complex as well. Perhaps... he actually held compassion for him too.
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-> His intellect overrode morality, which is the root contradiction of his being. Thought must match the era it inhabits, otherwise conflict is inevitable. He thought too deeply, and his society couldn't contain him. Thus, he was doomed to be faulted.
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-> But I think... what he did was wrong, yet his motives, his purpose, and his contemplation of social ethics make me sympathize with and like him. I imagine that if such a person lived in our era, if his life encountered people who could exchange ideas and alter his perspectives... I would see it as a tragedy... even though rationally, I know it was more "real" given that social background.
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-> I also want to share a critique of Dostoevsky by Tolstoy that I read before. It's fascinating, and perhaps you've seen it: ‘Obviously, Dostoevsky, with the spirit of Michelangelo, sculpted these "people with flayed skin" to warm your gaze. You should hang this anatomical masterpiece, this piece of bloody flesh, high above your desk to fully share in its contemplation... but I would rather keep my distance. People with such experience see how the skin ripples, how the blood flows in streams, and most terrifyingly, they see in these eyes, these "mirrors of the soul," that the thoughts of those dissected by the author refract their own.’"
+“I have such immense respect and love for Dostoevsky! His depiction of human psychology is incredibly detailed and magnificent; the contradictions, authenticity, and complexity are portrayed vividly. At times, while reading his work, I felt as if I were one of the characters existing within his mind... I can hardly imagine if his soul contained the entire world. I also realized that before reading his books, I had never truly stepped into another person's mind or consciousness... Anyway, he is great and extraordinary... absolutely not just empty praise!! It's my genuine personal experience, sob. Also... perhaps due to a resonance in psychological complexity, I inevitably like Raskolnikov. I sympathize with him.
 
-But so far, no one has replied to my letters. So boring.
+It's complicated... specifically, it's not simple pity... I feel he sinned because his intellect was mismatched with the society and era he lived in. Let's put it this way: his brooding was indeed excessive, but that was also a product of his times. Intellect itself is innocent, yet due to the degradation of social morality and the dislocation between the era and the individual... it became a crime. What I sympathize with isn't his crime, but the "human" who was coerced by circumstance, committed the act, and ultimately suffered the chaos of a tormented conscience.
 
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+Some of his moral codes weren't exactly wrong... In a society where morality has collapsed, whether an individual has the capacity to correct it is a difficult question for the conscience. I think that while Dostoevsky used Raskolnikov to express that individuals cannot bear such consequences, just as the humanity he depicted is complex, his attitude toward Rodya is likely complex as well. Perhaps... he actually held compassion for him too.
 
-I also browsed around a German job search website. Inexplicably found that a large company seems to be planning to open a furniture business in Shanghai, and the AI said they might be looking for original suppliers. Then it inexplicably egged me on to search for Chinese chair suppliers on the international Alibaba. I found two, and also found the companies' English addresses. Then I managed to figure out the Chinese addresses on Chinese platforms like Qichacha and Tianyancha. Then, of the two companies I found, the first one labeled itself as having over 90 employees and an 8000m2 factory, but the address showed no such company. The other one labeled itself as having over 50 employees, but the company I found only had 3 employees. The AI told me to make a PDF and write a letter to the boss managing their supply. I even took a look and found out the boss also does auditing. But at that time I wanted to write letters to my penpals so I didn't write to the boss. I'm a bit busy, so this is shelved for now~
+His intellect overrode morality, which is the root contradiction of his being. Thought must match the era it inhabits, otherwise conflict is inevitable. He thought too deeply, and his society couldn't contain him. Thus, he was doomed to be faulted.
 
-Sigh, actually I quite like OSINT? In a certain sense. The information on the internet is too mixed and everyone can wear masks and dress impeccably; OSINT is more like my tentacles reaching towards reality.......... I might be justifying it, but I feel? After all, yes, I want honesty, and it can help avoid a lot of pitfalls. When registering on that job website, it asked me to fill in my skills, so I put in arbitrage and OSINT~ Objectively speaking, these *are* skills.
+But I think... what he did was wrong, yet his motives, his purpose, and his contemplation of social ethics make me sympathize with and like him. I imagine that if such a person lived in our era, if his life encountered people who could exchange ideas and alter his perspectives... I would see it as a tragedy... even though rationally, I know it was more "real" given that social background.
 
-However, I've been going to sleep very late these past two days, days and nights reversed, even staying up until eight or nine o'clock one day. My phone also broke and won't turn on. And I just got home today—yes, went home, not staying at school anymore. Mmm. I really need to adjust my sleep schedule.
-But so far, no one has replied to my letters. So boring.
+I also want to share a critique of Dostoevsky by Tolstoy that I read before. It's fascinating, and perhaps you've seen it: ‘Obviously, Dostoevsky, with the spirit of Michelangelo, sculpted these "people with flayed skin" to warm your gaze. You should hang this anatomical masterpiece, this piece of bloody flesh, high above your desk to fully share in its contemplation... but I would rather keep my distance. People with such experience see how the skin ripples, how the blood flows in streams, and most terrifyingly, they see in these eyes, these "mirrors of the soul," that the thoughts of those dissected by the author refract their own.’”
 
-## 04. Arbitrage & Supply Chain OSINT
+But so far, no one has replied to my letters. So boring.
 
 I also browsed around a German job search website. Inexplicably found that a large company seems to be planning to open a furniture business in Shanghai, and the AI said they might be looking for original suppliers. Then it inexplicably egged me on to search for Chinese chair suppliers on the international Alibaba. I found two, and also found the companies' English addresses. Then I managed to figure out the Chinese addresses on Chinese platforms like Qichacha and Tianyancha. Then, of the two companies I found, the first one labeled itself as having over 90 employees and an 8000m2 factory, but the address showed no such company. The other one labeled itself as having over 50 employees, but the company I found only had 3 employees. The AI told me to make a PDF and write a letter to the boss managing their supply. I even took a look and found out the boss also does auditing. But at that time I wanted to write letters to my penpals so I didn't write to the boss. I'm a bit busy, so this is shelved for now~
 
-Sigh, actually I quite like OSINT? In a certain sense. The information on the internet is too mixed and everyone can wear masks and dress impeccably; OSINT is more like my tentacles reaching towards reality.......... I might be justifying it, but I feel? After all, yes, I want honesty, and it can help avoid a lot of pitfalls. When registering on that job website, it asked me to fill in my skills, so I put in arbitrage and OSINT~ Objectively speaking, these *are* skills.
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-## 05. System State & Hardware Status
+Sigh, actually I quite like OSINT? In a certain sense. The information on the internet is too mixed and everyone can wear masks and dress impeccably; OSINT is more like my tentacles reaching towards reality.......... I might be justifying it, but I feel? After all, yes, I want honesty, and it can help avoid a lot of pitfalls. When registering on that job website, it asked me to fill in my skills, so I put in arbitrage and OSINT~ Objectively speaking, these are skills.
 
 However, I've been going to sleep very late these past two days, days and nights reversed, even staying up until eight or nine o'clock one day. My phone also broke and won't turn on. And I just got home today—yes, went home, not staying at school anymore. Mmm. I really need to adjust my sleep schedule.