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suicidewatch | hackthatshityo | 2019/02/21 | Health Issues I don’t know how to stay positive.
My health has been deteriorating for 2 years. Buzzing/Tingling sensations on limbs daily which made me feel irritated and like I was going insane. Then started getting limb pain off and on. Extreme fatigue. Now photophobia. Eyes are super dry and have trouble with ligh... | 4.321652 | 7.616275 | 4.918018 | 74.447553 | 79.540541 | 8.153754 | 28.492492 | 8.841846 | 3.140161 | 680 | 30 | 106 | 18 | 18 | 217 | 117 | 148 | 0.167 | 0.726 | 0.107 | -0.861 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 25 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 12 | 6 | 12 | 17 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 57 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141562 | 0 | 0 | 0.115109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148826 | 0.132913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144824 | 0 | 0 | 0.109409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244833 | 0 | 0.065659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135689 | 0 | 0.0738 | 0.108917 | 0 | 0.143167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135536 | 0.128862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183442 | 0.063441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145276 | 0 | 0 | 0.1172 | 0.122873 | 0.08668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087994 | 0 | 0.138176 | 0 | 0 | 0.140621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128431 | 0 | 0.183825 | 0.138409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142041 | 0 | 0 | 0.13497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166413 | 0 | 0.103091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250869 |
suicidewatch | jamieluke97 | 2019/02/21 | I'm smoking DMT tomorrow and killing myself. Everything in life is based on being a extrovert. I can't cope anymore. I can't talk to people I don't know without coming across as weird because of my anxiety. I can't do anything because my social skills are so inadequate. I feel like everyone hates me and avoids me I can... | 3.145931 | 5.194426 | 5.141765 | 78.384608 | 75.323529 | 8.062745 | 31.921569 | 8.841846 | 3.041257 | 273 | 14 | 49 | 6 | 6 | 94 | 48 | 68 | 0.238 | 0.72 | 0.041 | -0.9027 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 32 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189801 | 0 | 0.49211 | 0 | 0 | 0.20417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237076 | 0.222982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12545 | 0.177247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274493 | 0 | 0.136353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175245 | 0.121212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cama12392 | 2019/02/21 | Wouldn’t It Be Nice 🎶 (In the Beach Boy tune...)
Wouldn’t it be nice if life was over
Then we wouldn’t suffer for so long
And wouldn’t it be nice to die together
In this kind of world we don’t belong ...
You know it’s gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodbye and sleeeep foreverrrrr
(When you want to... | 1.271458 | 3.107339 | 1.967917 | 99.952083 | 80.25 | 5.516667 | 19 | 6.427356 | -0.335387 | 354 | 8 | 86 | 3 | 9 | 109 | 63 | 96 | 0.168 | 0.608 | 0.224 | 0.5719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 8 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 52 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263682 | 0.222219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.521536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277982 | 0.261649 | 0.138086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167718 | 0 | 0.252424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cervidaerin | 2019/02/21 | No quality of life My mom and me are living paycheck to paycheck, I can’t get a job bc I’m mentally fucked up, I tried to get disability but of course I got rejected while a friend of mine with the same problems got approved.
We are living in a shitty house that’s falling apart that is NOT worth $700 rent per month, ... | 3.12398 | 4.408386 | 4.077452 | 89.193234 | 73.663677 | 7.399525 | 25.22527 | 7.928767 | 1.231768 | 852 | 27 | 184 | 12 | 17 | 275 | 131 | 223 | 0.185 | 0.643 | 0.172 | -0.5186 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 36 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 31 | 9 | 21 | 27 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 115 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08655 | 0 | 0.068614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227649 | 0.241233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086961 | 0.104057 | 0.294032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111696 | 0.100046 | 0.124528 | 0 | 0.061858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115097 | 0.159005 | 0.219959 | 0 | 0.19878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113431 | 0 | 0 | 0.263651 | 0.089842 | 0.11963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152543 | 0.085605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078033 | 0 | 0.117598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149556 | 0.072122 | 0 | 0 | 0.065633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152838 | 0 | 0.109952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132778 | 0.089343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lxttie | 2019/02/21 | Don’t know why I’m posting this Hi.
Does anyone else go through stages of obsessing over ending it, but can never go through with it? I feel that a lot. I cut myself for the first time tonight and I don’t even know why because I’ve done such a shit job I would never die from this lol. And now I’ve got to clean up all... | 1.605057 | 3.063754 | 2.860519 | 95.653362 | 77.993506 | 5.517682 | 21.911089 | 5.873415 | 0.006424 | 1,119 | 31 | 262 | 6 | 26 | 361 | 154 | 308 | 0.281 | 0.587 | 0.132 | -0.996 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 17 | 20 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 26 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 47 | 52 | 26 | 7 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 31 | 6 | 32 | 32 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 23 | 169 | 51 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093405 | 0 | 0 | 0.150083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06306 | 0.092406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075301 | 0.164928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078922 | 0.184582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075338 | 0 | 0.159755 | 0 | 0 | 0.059567 | 0.081578 | 0 | 0.086176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083375 | 0 | 0 | 0.153763 | 0 | 0.072129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089495 | 0 | 0.199553 | 0 | 0.247818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063701 | 0.13218 | 0 | 0 | 0.079811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076672 | 0 | 0 | 0.060199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208669 | 0 | 0 | 0.084633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094083 | 0 | 0.185148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152827 | 0.069429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231148 | 0 | 0 | 0.105176 | 0 | 0.085485 | 0 | 0 | 0.06123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325513 | 0 | 0.103709 | 0 | 0 | 0.065656 | 0 | 0 | 0.192195 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayjob5699 | 2019/02/21 | Am I useless?(21F) I got an internship working on a T.V set as a production assistant. My dad used to work in production and knows the owner of the company from college. I understood that the days were long and I was going to be on my feet all day. I was prepared, eager , and understood that I would get a lot of stress... | 2.594476 | 4.413889 | 4.176228 | 85.718773 | 76.2106 | 7.415207 | 25.093107 | 8.259298 | 1.517429 | 2,777 | 97 | 580 | 50 | 62 | 927 | 282 | 717 | 0.077 | 0.809 | 0.114 | 0.9737 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 71 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 28 | 31 | 3 | 2 | 42 | 1 | 45 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 87 | 119 | 50 | 0 | 14 | 19 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 24 | 4 | 5 | 20 | 3 | 3 | 15 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 24 | 18 | 113 | 17 | 93 | 87 | 9 | 93 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 75 | 42 | 0 | 16 | 38 | 391 | 136 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043195 | 0.089888 | 0 | 0 | 0.036732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096168 | 0.353472 | 0 | 0.050748 | 0.124601 | 0.090199 | 0.032927 | 0 | 0.045962 | 0 | 0.056685 | 0 | 0.05897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11674 | 0 | 0.043126 | 0.059766 | 0 | 0.174173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055811 | 0 | 0.035676 | 0 | 0.045509 | 0 | 0.048544 | 0.052836 | 0 | 0 | 0.109245 | 0.115763 | 0.051862 | 0.05917 | 0 | 0.045944 | 0.195943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310422 | 0.051815 | 0.153488 | 0.135914 | 0.0864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160802 | 0.096021 | 0 | 0 | 0.118739 | 0.044029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055233 | 0 | 0.131943 | 0.054136 | 0 | 0.047801 | 0.045358 | 0 | 0 | 0.137763 | 0 | 0 | 0.036055 | 0 | 0.054265 | 0.058837 | 0 | 0.054414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160203 | 0.041659 | 0 | 0.057445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146406 | 0.08216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037447 | 0.047163 | 0.056433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046128 | 0.05138 | 0.214771 | 0 | 0.054665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061873 | 0 | 0.247333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162448 | 0 | 0 | 0.198916 | 0 | 0 | 0.035885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094488 | 0 | 0 | 0.103226 | 0 | 0.18336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046651 | 0.059489 | 0 | 0.063718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196615 | 0 | 0 | 0.03837 | 0.059056 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 57617465726d656c6f6e | 2019/02/21 | There is no such thing as a good day. So my day started great; I finally made an appointment with my former therapist and called a tattoo artist to finally get my semicolon tattoo I plan to get for a year now.
But as soon I got home my parents made some racist comments about others which they know makes me furious. La... | 3.309518 | 4.841197 | 4.332895 | 86.558596 | 73.605263 | 7.435088 | 24.508772 | 8.076483 | 1.342932 | 594 | 18 | 120 | 9 | 12 | 193 | 102 | 152 | 0.162 | 0.742 | 0.097 | -0.7645 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 24 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 18 | 15 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 79 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246127 | 0 | 0.178489 | 0.13171 | 0.251184 | 0.173127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173732 | 0 | 0.0863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297173 | 0.104819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106408 | 0.119429 | 0 | 0 | 0.174364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159757 | 0.169306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134104 | 0.149372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111147 | 0 | 0.125405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182325 | 0.104324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092621 | 0 | 0.125961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101123 |
suicidewatch | jamakiss | 2019/02/21 | White knuckling it every day Every day I wake up angry and depressed. And go through the entire day that way.
There is nothing I can do.
I can't end my life b/c of my parents.
But I can't fix my problems.
So I'm stuck.
I go through this cycle all day every day.
I hate my life, I hate living.
This has been go... | -1.44652 | 0.518241 | 0.828537 | 100.357083 | 100.829268 | 2.523077 | 16.06379 | 3.1291 | -1.226817 | 293 | 8 | 67 | 0 | 13 | 97 | 54 | 82 | 0.193 | 0.746 | 0.061 | -0.9026 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 41 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17243 | 0.193375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513166 | 0 | 0.137069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224813 | 0 | 0 | 0.140525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193375 | 0.204964 |
suicidewatch | alicialoveme | 2019/02/21 | It is painful. Life is painful. Family is painful. I thought I am the victim. But why am I the one at fault? I am screaming inside. | -1.91 | -0.816301 | 0.150185 | 102.000833 | 119 | 3.281481 | 23.018519 | 5.461319 | 0.210363 | 99 | 5 | 23 | 1 | 6 | 32 | 17 | 27 | 0.486 | 0.514 | 0 | -0.9337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184553 | 0 | 0.869406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Globt | 2019/02/21 | I can't handle this anymore. Okay, I've never posted on here, but I need to hear other people's input. I really don't know what's wrong with me; I have plenty of friends, I socialize often, I just can't be happy, ever. I just have so much anxiety about my friends and how they act towards me. For example, my best friend... | 3.612877 | 4.95863 | 5.162406 | 81.650401 | 72.537736 | 7.75283 | 26.457547 | 8.2785 | 1.756626 | 829 | 28 | 161 | 13 | 16 | 280 | 127 | 212 | 0.145 | 0.675 | 0.18 | 0.8838 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 40 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 32 | 9 | 23 | 32 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 116 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095631 | 0 | 0.247949 | 0.087409 | 0.128086 | 0 | 0 | 0.116866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104377 | 0.076204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127647 | 0 | 0.127454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135089 | 0 | 0.099809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255829 | 0.104428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082567 | 0.113077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386324 | 0 | 0.261246 | 0 | 0 | 0.104851 | 0 | 0 | 0.137711 | 0 | 0 | 0.133073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140893 | 0 | 0.167581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091895 | 0.185384 | 0.096414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12743 | 0 | 0.096237 | 0.123636 | 0.139936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1602 | 0 | 0.099242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136677 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bunnite | 2019/02/21 | Hey Reddit, should I kill my self? It would make the world a better place | 0.218 | 2.597659 | 0.708333 | 103.3425 | 91 | 3 | 7.5 | 3.1291 | -2.455 | 57 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 15 | 15 | 0.253 | 0.591 | 0.156 | -0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313445 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zBrokenShell | 2019/02/21 | I'm afraid of failing on suicide I was thinking too much, and, am I gonna survive on a 5 meter fall on concrete, landing on my head? That's my biggest fear of all, and I know no one will answer me, but I just wanted to say... | 2.917333 | 2.415453 | 5.07 | 88.398333 | 73 | 6.666667 | 30.666667 | 3.1291 | 1.111467 | 170 | 7 | 40 | 0 | 3 | 60 | 40 | 50 | 0.189 | 0.811 | 0 | -0.765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | why420s | 2019/02/21 | I hate myself I hate myself, i feel like nobody cares about me, I'm worthless, everybody hates me, I'm ugly, I'm almost 18 and I've never even been in a relationship with someone because I'm too pathetic, i have severe anxiety, so i can't make new friends, because I'm too scared to talk to people, and my life is shit, ... | 1.077308 | 3.176353 | 3.794551 | 85.223365 | 82.333333 | 6.464103 | 21.288462 | 7.645422 | 1.018662 | 292 | 9 | 59 | 5 | 8 | 103 | 52 | 78 | 0.433 | 0.494 | 0.073 | -0.9882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092997 | 0.131394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12991 | 0.089855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141852 | 0.177634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117825 | 0 | 0 | 0.197464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20778 | 0.377588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Acamus81 | 2019/02/21 | Tired. If I had a gun right now I’d blow my brains out. Nothing in my life is going right. I’m really confused as to why I was put on this earth to stress and struggle. I’m ready to leave. I wish I could die in my sleep but the universe isn’t that kind. The only reason I haven’t gotten a cpl and bought a gun to ki... | -0.585776 | 1.442356 | 1.655455 | 98.26472 | 89.181818 | 4.475524 | 18.461538 | 5.873415 | -0.40014 | 388 | 11 | 93 | 3 | 13 | 130 | 68 | 110 | 0.341 | 0.595 | 0.064 | -0.9886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 57 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148235 | 0 | 0 | 0.091127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354793 | 0.166973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169781 | 0 | 0 | 0.226511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10272 | 0.16486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183673 | 0.167626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28937 | 0 | 0.184387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113903 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ohmar_s | 2019/02/21 | I don’t know what do with out you. I recently hurt someone very close to me. She’s always been there for me even when I didn’t wanna be alive. She’s given me so many chances and I’ve ruined every last one of them. If you ever read this. I’m sorry. Godspeed my love. | -1.297415 | 0.717011 | 1.28625 | 98.976494 | 94.762712 | 3.627966 | 14.154661 | 5.148861 | -1.150375 | 206 | 4 | 49 | 1 | 8 | 70 | 48 | 59 | 0.129 | 0.725 | 0.146 | 0.2682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 33 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193112 | 0.264471 | 0.24634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160682 | 0.238326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263881 | 0 | 0 | 0.296424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24773 | 0 | 0 | 0.327292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dontcheckmyredditlol | 2019/02/21 | I’m losing hope and it’s scaring me I’ve been in the thick of it for the past 6 months. Daughter of two narcs and jt has wreaked havoc on my life. Currently I am 17 years old. My mom gave me a week’s notice that she was gonna have me go with my dad. Since I’ve been here, we’ve had a cps incident, I’ve dealt with a lot... | 0.880674 | 2.433679 | 2.609146 | 96.23577 | 80.358382 | 5.620585 | 22.143949 | 6.373722 | 0.177411 | 1,229 | 38 | 296 | 10 | 31 | 406 | 165 | 346 | 0.164 | 0.738 | 0.098 | -0.9662 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 22 | 5 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 31 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 39 | 56 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 44 | 10 | 43 | 39 | 4 | 40 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 19 | 185 | 58 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091515 | 0 | 0 | 0.075937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173397 | 0.283825 | 0 | 0.168756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101363 | 0.178536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163462 | 0 | 0 | 0.121898 | 0 | 0.077748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285176 | 0.08531 | 0.096423 | 0 | 0.157332 | 0 | 0.073803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103236 | 0 | 0.078452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324226 | 0.073656 | 0 | 0.067835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10506 | 0.096831 | 0 | 0.06253 | 0.070182 | 0 | 0 | 0.204928 | 0 | 0.08809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146767 | 0.27716 | 0.186781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22251 | 0.080655 | 0 | 0 | 0.107142 | 0.122611 | 0.118256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125302 | 0 | 0.090143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101632 | 0 | 0.108856 | 0 | 0.07402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059424 |
suicidewatch | billbo6000 | 2019/02/21 | Going through mental torture "every" night My death anxiety is driving me insane. Imagine being mock executed night after night. It sucks, to say the least.
Im on xan and beer rn. I feel like I rly can do it in this state.
Tomorrow im gonna take a FAT dose of amphetamine, get tweaked as fuck, then after an hour or ... | -0.126841 | 1.90546 | 2.335791 | 94.227368 | 86.835821 | 5.065871 | 18.634826 | 6.427356 | -0.10978 | 479 | 13 | 111 | 5 | 15 | 164 | 92 | 134 | 0.18 | 0.735 | 0.085 | -0.91 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 19 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 16 | 15 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 64 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085283 | 0.120495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155929 | 0.088121 | 0 | 0.095857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178205 | 0 | 0 | 0.166102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.546566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082402 | 0 | 0.148935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119816 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | demonslayeru | 2019/02/21 | ending it about to end my life, last měla ideas? | 0.997 | 2.995917 | 1.29 | 103.625 | 82 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -2.146 | 37 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.750193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.478081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stardustandapathy | 2019/02/21 | Never thought I would make it past 18. I'm laying here thinking about how I thought I would never make it past 18. I wish I hadn't. Every day suicidal ideation creeps in to my head. Last night I self harmed again for the first time in about 2 years. Maybe my mother was right and I would be better off dead. I don't know... | 1.42128 | 3.750791 | 2.757889 | 91.784513 | 82.70892 | 4.831108 | 19.589508 | 6.046908 | -0.051747 | 824 | 22 | 170 | 6 | 23 | 266 | 127 | 213 | 0.209 | 0.674 | 0.116 | -0.9717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 41 | 36 | 14 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 31 | 6 | 21 | 23 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 114 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106699 | 0.099384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119286 | 0.168538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232918 | 0.121059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130503 | 0 | 0.064826 | 0.096151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236213 | 0 | 0.237009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272929 | 0 | 0 | 0.110695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225208 | 0 | 0.102996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129027 | 0 | 0.111174 | 0 | 0.177379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151165 | 0 | 0.18729 | 0.068782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080086 | 0.128304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418969 | 0 | 0 | 0.075961 |
suicidewatch | sothereisthisgirl | 2019/02/21 | I don’t know what to do I don’t know if this is where I should put this or not, but i don’t know what else to do.
For a bit of backstory, my family is very religious, and I’m a lesbian. So they’re very against it.
My youngest sister is the only person in my family that is supportive. My other sister and my parents ar... | 1.055382 | 2.810049 | 3.057012 | 92.277881 | 80.591592 | 6.218696 | 20.351545 | 7.233258 | 0.357418 | 1,210 | 32 | 279 | 16 | 31 | 408 | 150 | 333 | 0.02 | 0.837 | 0.144 | 0.9903 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 42 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 54 | 72 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 46 | 9 | 39 | 52 | 6 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 30 | 18 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 191 | 62 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.092948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079254 | 0 | 0 | 0.064772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09446 | 0 | 0 | 0.078381 | 0.339162 | 0 | 0 | 0.089488 | 0.073239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168477 | 0.103986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097111 | 0 | 0 | 0.246142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079567 | 0 | 0.084361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448954 | 0 | 0.04816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099526 | 0 | 0.054131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099186 | 0.209382 | 0.077639 | 0.107443 | 0 | 0 | 0.097397 | 0.201828 | 0.093066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159968 | 0 | 0 | 0.161952 | 0.085965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111553 | 0 | 0 | 0.070018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14488 | 0 | 0 | 0.105761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063278 | 0.122062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182026 | 0 | 0.194 | 0 | 0 | 0.198312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157178 | 0.112359 | 0.075603 | 0 | 0 | 0.085639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061336 |
suicidewatch | ThinkinAboutEndingIt | 2019/02/21 | I bought rope off of Amazon today It'll get here Saturday. I looked on wikihow on how to tie a noose. I'm so tired of it all. I'm tired of my job. I'm tired. I can't be creative. I like art. I like to paint. I like music. I play instruments. But it's all useless. Useless talents. My life is pointless. It's all pointles... | -3.036809 | -1.724555 | 0.503051 | 100.918107 | 112.058824 | 3.536765 | 15.900735 | 5.602792 | -0.700397 | 284 | 9 | 72 | 3 | 16 | 101 | 48 | 85 | 0.302 | 0.614 | 0.084 | -0.9549 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117389 | 0 | 0.127694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158702 | 0.329311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.77473 | 0.212976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jordanpieces91 | 2019/02/21 | Every single day I think about it. Everyday I think about killing myself. I have no social life, no friends. All I do is work, go home, sleep and repeat.
For awhile the thoughts would elicit feelings of sadness at the thought of what it would do to my mother, who has already lost two children but now, I feel nothing t... | 1.385725 | 3.50627 | 2.458295 | 95.111914 | 81.325581 | 4.899463 | 20.77579 | 5.873415 | -0.045241 | 489 | 14 | 106 | 3 | 13 | 155 | 84 | 129 | 0.141 | 0.718 | 0.14 | 0.7018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 33 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 15 | 23 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 74 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18493 | 0.134014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141194 | 0 | 0.150611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148191 | 0.356786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118367 | 0.081872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167702 | 0.170827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214758 | 0 | 0.399121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122001 | 0 | 0 | 0.238089 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wheremybrainsgo | 2019/02/21 | I plan on killing myself today Im just tired of always wondering why. Why i wake up for work and pay rent and save money. Tired of wondering why i can't cry anymore, I'm tired of wondering where my brother and grandmother are, and if I'll ever see them again. I'm tired feeling like there's no point in existing to just ... | 4.871695 | 4.931018 | 5.681371 | 83.753883 | 68.854722 | 8.835603 | 27.900145 | 8.608574 | 1.780413 | 1,582 | 47 | 336 | 23 | 25 | 519 | 201 | 413 | 0.145 | 0.76 | 0.096 | -0.9684 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 16 | 21 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 30 | 20 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 63 | 65 | 27 | 3 | 6 | 16 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 45 | 10 | 59 | 47 | 7 | 48 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 24 | 1 | 11 | 20 | 209 | 56 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074224 | 0.05415 | 0 | 0.070199 | 0.098988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077753 | 0.136951 | 0 | 0.1829 | 0 | 0.073463 | 0.073955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125388 | 0 | 0 | 0.093505 | 0.128057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079652 | 0.143163 | 0.151705 | 0.135929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077612 | 0.054688 | 0.065439 | 0.18491 | 0.067903 | 0.160914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081676 | 0 | 0 | 0.076459 | 0 | 0 | 0.062917 | 0.156625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074951 | 0 | 0 | 0.049997 | 0.172909 | 0 | 0.125008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063886 | 0.066978 | 0.094498 | 0.071764 | 0.071113 | 0 | 0 | 0.071308 | 0 | 0 | 0.071472 | 0.082902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066427 | 0.069354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056406 | 0.128879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106442 | 0 | 0.061869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406782 | 0.067095 | 0 | 0 | 0.192232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191616 | 0 | 0 | 0.068234 | 0.230288 | 0.206128 | 0 | 0 | 0.050283 | 0 | 0 | 0.045583 |
suicidewatch | kguyyy | 2019/02/21 | Need help. I want to end it all and have for years everything keeps getting worse. Im just totally over being alive. I can't deal with it anymore. I've had one decent attempt putting my car into a pole years ago which didn't work just fucked me up. Now I have a kid and I can't bring myself to end it all but I can't sto... | -1.267907 | 0.764792 | 1.126542 | 99.835272 | 95.435644 | 3.677793 | 17.115276 | 5.288315 | -0.753425 | 355 | 10 | 85 | 2 | 14 | 119 | 68 | 101 | 0.171 | 0.734 | 0.094 | -0.8667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 52 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326312 | 0 | 0.410887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1703 | 0.096242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397958 | 0 | 0 | 0.163735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176265 | 0 | 0.185183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134107 | 0 | 0.187726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237251 |
suicidewatch | Koudelika | 2019/02/21 | Drowning I feel like I’m slowly being suffocated, like there is a weight on my chest, slowly crushing my lungs. Each breath I take is painful. But no-one notices anything. The world is just drifting by. Unaware. I know that how I feel right now will pass - it won’t last forever. But how long will I have to feel like th... | 0.703864 | 2.975535 | 2.055636 | 95.998455 | 85.439394 | 5.035152 | 21.678788 | 6.427356 | 0.225148 | 497 | 17 | 112 | 5 | 15 | 159 | 83 | 132 | 0.175 | 0.753 | 0.072 | -0.9528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 29 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 4 | 11 | 18 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 70 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365748 | 0.206705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079507 | 0.117925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443805 | 0 | 0.282714 | 0 | 0 | 0.128028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096568 | 0 | 0.145341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135763 | 0.141746 | 0 | 0.164708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114852 | 0 | 0.166277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08533 | 0 | 0.116046 | 0.176169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GamersAsylum | 2019/02/21 | I think that I can't keep doing this So this is a border line suicide post. I just don't know what to do.
I'm at a breaking point. I became a type 1 diabetic at 11 years old, which is still difficult to deal with even now, I became a epileptic at 17, and then got diagnosed with depression at 19.
I've been fightin... | 5.199318 | 5.420501 | 6.852929 | 75.075909 | 68.166667 | 9.656566 | 32.474747 | 9.573947 | 2.966778 | 705 | 29 | 137 | 14 | 11 | 245 | 112 | 180 | 0.165 | 0.775 | 0.06 | -0.9576 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 25 | 34 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 20 | 28 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 89 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119937 | 0 | 0.285247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160806 | 0.134343 | 0.158314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162984 | 0.149628 | 0.088646 | 0 | 0.124749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154784 | 0.27728 | 0.172566 | 0 | 0.085721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208232 | 0 | 0 | 0.169905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163672 | 0 | 0 | 0.118628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147449 | 0 | 0.149383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299832 | 0 | 0.123829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149043 | 0 | 0.105899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200889 |
suicidewatch | Idntknowwhatshapnin | 2019/02/21 | I just want to die I don’t know how I can keep living when all I do is let anyone that loves me down
I think I would be doing everyone a favour
I’m currently locked in the bathroom and have all the pills I need to do it..
But I’m scared. Although I know it would be best for everyone if I died | 0.111095 | 1.470875 | 2.502313 | 97.011281 | 81.985075 | 6.257711 | 18.629353 | 7.168622 | -0.053157 | 227 | 5 | 59 | 3 | 6 | 78 | 46 | 67 | 0.15 | 0.676 | 0.174 | 0.1779 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 16 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 43 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206551 | 0 | 0 | 0.255421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330154 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sarunase | 2019/02/21 | I HAVE LEFT MY JOB AND THIS IS MY LAST PAYSLIP PLEASE HELP https://i.paste.pics/4TL59.png CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN ME WHAT DOES HALV MEANS? | 4.37663 | 4.329806 | 0.409511 | 97.24731 | 141.608696 | 2.88913 | 20.266304 | 5.148861 | -0.140822 | 119 | 4 | 20 | 1 | 8 | 29 | 21 | 23 | 0 | 0.667 | 0.333 | 0.859 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257112 | 0 | 0 | 0.342708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.692479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FuSocy | 2019/02/21 | Twenty year old jobless step-son living in our basement. Need advice on how to get him motivated to live his life. Originally posted in r/NeedAdvise but was auto removed due to mention of suicide.
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As the title says, my step-son (I'll call him Steve) is 20 years old and living in our basement. He dropped ... | 6.630295 | 6.595695 | 6.610603 | 78.902403 | 65.147427 | 9.68501 | 32.69653 | 9.310312 | 2.727354 | 2,945 | 109 | 569 | 48 | 41 | 936 | 279 | 719 | 0.124 | 0.787 | 0.09 | -0.9868 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 103 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 20 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 57 | 13 | 4 | 16 | 4 | 109 | 94 | 55 | 5 | 13 | 21 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 30 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 8 | 61 | 10 | 101 | 48 | 8 | 114 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 105 | 42 | 1 | 10 | 52 | 364 | 91 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02966 | 0 | 0.321485 | 0.360535 | 0.025222 | 0.116672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030521 | 0 | 0.034673 | 0 | 0.069692 | 0.028519 | 0 | 0.022609 | 0 | 0.126239 | 0 | 0 | 0.065604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113615 | 0 | 0.037814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04008 | 0 | 0.029612 | 0.041038 | 0 | 0.071758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03875 | 0 | 0.037962 | 0.032457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041735 | 0 | 0 | 0.035611 | 0.040629 | 0.101695 | 0.063095 | 0 | 0.040666 | 0 | 0 | 0.116264 | 0 | 0.042157 | 0 | 0.118653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02486 | 0.039186 | 0 | 0.036838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130984 | 0 | 0 | 0.294751 | 0.032822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14802 | 0.078839 | 0 | 0.027501 | 0 | 0.035821 | 0 | 0.034805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155674 | 0 | 0.050265 | 0.169246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035521 | 0 | 0.039988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031674 | 0.03528 | 0.029494 | 0 | 0.037536 | 0.029555 | 0.067528 | 0 | 0.0838 | 0.038071 | 0.03068 | 0 | 0.037116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029619 | 0.031008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162276 | 0.042088 | 0 | 0 | 0.167317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043063 | 0.07392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.021627 | 0.042628 | 0 | 0 | 0.082414 | 0.050362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089226 | 0 | 0 | 0.061204 | 0 | 0 | 0.148752 | 0 | 0 | 0.068763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035752 | 0 | 0.054002 | 0 | 0 | 0.105387 | 0 | 0.360535 | 0.11942 |
suicidewatch | mouserattheband | 2019/02/21 | I did not sign up for life. I don’t care about living. There are good days and bad days, but in general I just don’t have the will to live. I don’t have any passion that keeps me going, and I don’t even think it’s because I’m depressed. It’s easy to put in effort when you look forward to what’s next. I don’t have anyth... | -0.454894 | 0.98666 | 2.007181 | 99.500946 | 84.067568 | 4.498842 | 17.328185 | 4.655896 | -0.928471 | 493 | 10 | 128 | 1 | 14 | 169 | 85 | 148 | 0.048 | 0.829 | 0.123 | 0.8591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 24 | 4 | 17 | 19 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 80 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144996 | 0 | 0 | 0.118501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145498 | 0.106226 | 0 | 0.296561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224764 | 0 | 0.150088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308681 | 0 | 0 | 0.115096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099035 | 0.146159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189332 | 0 | 0.36925 | 0.085134 | 0 | 0.307746 | 0 | 0.292665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111657 | 0 | 0 | 0.101611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | horreurscape | 2019/02/21 | vent November is when I no longer have any obligations to be alive anymore.
Is it weird to pick a date to kill yourself?
I'm in a wedding in October for my best friend, so it can't be before then.
I have a list of things I want to do before I end it. Or I guess rather if I accomplished those things maybe I won't wa... | 2.197888 | 2.491129 | 4.14514 | 91.585644 | 74.837104 | 7.703288 | 23.330618 | 7.793538 | 0.738142 | 763 | 19 | 192 | 10 | 15 | 262 | 116 | 221 | 0.111 | 0.811 | 0.078 | -0.8968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 32 | 40 | 17 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 29 | 5 | 26 | 27 | 6 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 133 | 41 | 5 | 0.119271 | 0 | 0.116392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081109 | 0.125066 | 0 | 0 | 0.118285 | 0 | 0 | 0.09815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304473 | 0 | 0.125168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131014 | 0 | 0 | 0.102728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211278 | 0.369717 | 0 | 0 | 0.107888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112438 | 0 | 0.060307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106014 | 0.263912 | 0 | 0.196645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084245 | 0.05827 | 0 | 0.105319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126767 | 0 | 0.088438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206024 | 0 | 0 | 0.140699 | 0.189344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lolmydoghungry | 2019/02/21 | best rope for noose ive heard that manilla style polypropylene is best for suicide, any other suggestions? | 6.096667 | 9.657659 | 3.653333 | 84.9 | 73.444444 | 5.822222 | 31.222222 | 7.168622 | 2.225356 | 88 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 16 | 18 | 0.167 | 0.52 | 0.312 | 0.5994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.852314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | getintheswan | 2019/02/21 | UK people ; what to expect from Crisis Team call? Hey,
So I've been to my GP this afternoon, got a long history of mental illness etc. but been really bad the last few weeks.
They of course always have to ask if you're feeling suicidal and for the first time I said yeah, I don't trust myself. I got messed around with ... | 2.130959 | 4.480489 | 3.21329 | 89.454325 | 80.021898 | 5.958081 | 21.464546 | 7.168622 | 0.686792 | 543 | 16 | 108 | 7 | 14 | 174 | 97 | 137 | 0.231 | 0.656 | 0.113 | -0.971 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 21 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 19 | 11 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 68 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147767 | 0.15375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164491 | 0.172742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093429 | 0 | 0.177415 | 0 | 0 | 0.157172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090273 | 0 | 0 | 0.163522 | 0 | 0 | 0.201707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186144 | 0.186212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200096 | 0 | 0.128101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118373 | 0.189982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202117 | 0.209683 | 0 | 0 | 0.13893 | 0 | 0 | 0.170118 | 0 | 0 | 0.122758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Munozc1 | 2019/02/21 | I can’t take it anymore. I can’t do this. Really can’t. The legal status of my parents depends on me. They’re waiting for me to turn 21 and then they can get citizenship. I have to support them as much as I can financially. I live at home and go to college driving like ten minutes away. I just got my girlfriend pregnan... | -1.970975 | -0.167361 | 1.26058 | 96.881146 | 103.375 | 3.688095 | 19.376488 | 5.622347 | -0.211032 | 446 | 17 | 105 | 4 | 21 | 157 | 77 | 128 | 0.113 | 0.798 | 0.089 | -0.712 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 14 | 23 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 70 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169396 | 0 | 0.150542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094198 | 0 | 0.204935 | 0 | 0.144201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088085 | 0 | 0.159207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137125 | 0 | 0 | 0.4004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409201 | 0 | 0 | 0.271124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | karrro7 | 2019/02/21 | I see no reason to stay here I can’t deal with this. I have to see My molester and abuser every single day. Nobody in my surroundings listens to me when I talk about my feelings. Once I had someone who cared, someone who cared for real. But he’s gone now. I’m not even allowed to speak to him. Before I could at least co... | -0.123605 | 1.86422 | 2.121786 | 96.07125 | 86.372549 | 5.054622 | 18.126751 | 6.367923 | -0.230913 | 907 | 23 | 213 | 9 | 28 | 306 | 133 | 255 | 0.117 | 0.816 | 0.068 | -0.8748 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 27 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 37 | 55 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 33 | 5 | 28 | 42 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 142 | 50 | 2 | 0 | 0.120037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100474 | 0.070839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10345 | 0 | 0.309881 | 0 | 0 | 0.087271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080889 | 0 | 0 | 0.065337 | 0.104448 | 0 | 0 | 0.105145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334576 | 0 | 0.085359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1055 | 0.222712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08946 | 0.089657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067626 | 0 | 0.101781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107893 | 0.068651 | 0.077052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10971 | 0 | 0 | 0.088461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115315 | 0.064903 | 0.20833 | 0 | 0 | 0.114766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10143 | 0.205065 | 0.322928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257522 | 0.077994 | 0 | 0.22682 | 0 | 0.215969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08143 | 0.088551 | 0.093274 | 0 | 0 | 0.067307 | 0.129833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143937 | 0 | 0 | 0.065241 |
suicidewatch | chooseausername2019 | 2019/02/21 | I have no reason to kill myself yet i feel like it's an only option, it hurts so much I'm a 24 year old male who works as a programmer. I have more than many people will ever have. I have a car, i have an apartment with no mortgage (help from relatives and parents) a dog and a girlfriend.
I have struggled with anxiet... | 4.934339 | 6.313736 | 6.068638 | 76.285444 | 69.37037 | 9.587208 | 30.963904 | 9.888513 | 3.156794 | 2,004 | 83 | 365 | 49 | 35 | 669 | 234 | 486 | 0.148 | 0.741 | 0.111 | -0.943 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 54 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 23 | 2 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 49 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 85 | 85 | 37 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 50 | 10 | 44 | 55 | 13 | 55 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 0 | 11 | 31 | 260 | 75 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.060376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051481 | 0.335182 | 0.375895 | 0.042074 | 0 | 0.141992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068331 | 0.052647 | 0 | 0 | 0.054719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06545 | 0 | 0 | 0.133719 | 0 | 0 | 0.068458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055965 | 0 | 0.05912 | 0.166815 | 0.060521 | 0.116651 | 0 | 0.187701 | 0.1326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067838 | 0 | 0 | 0.032325 | 0 | 0.070325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065862 | 0 | 0 | 0.063497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066233 | 0.069844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06845 | 0 | 0.034002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131102 | 0.09068 | 0 | 0.054633 | 0.054753 | 0 | 0.069217 | 0.067539 | 0.0526 | 0.05584 | 0.058543 | 0 | 0.125453 | 0 | 0 | 0.137448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072462 | 0 | 0 | 0.181927 | 0.091752 | 0.190873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06062 | 0 | 0 | 0.064922 | 0 | 0.041925 | 0.09411 | 0.065834 | 0 | 0.0687 | 0 | 0.059062 | 0.042893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190839 | 0 | 0.066425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112649 | 0 | 0.069896 | 0 | 0.05118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047631 | 0.061191 | 0 | 0.043792 | 0 | 0 | 0.051726 | 0 | 0.06468 | 0 | 0.067676 | 0.07021 | 0 | 0 | 0.093037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141508 | 0 | 0.082208 | 0.079288 | 0 | 0 | 0.036077 | 0.071111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051049 | 0.036493 | 0.098219 | 0.049629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090085 | 0 | 0 | 0.131852 | 0 | 0.375895 | 0.079685 |
suicidewatch | hugefupa | 2019/02/21 | at my breaking point 23[m] looking to get the fuck out of this life. I have no car, no money, no job, no guidance, no motivation and most importantly no will to live. My parents are borderline useless living off of state money and not well educated at all. Doped up on whatever medications their doctor prescribe. A fami... | 3.131807 | 4.637646 | 4.6387 | 84.291912 | 74.016502 | 7.294224 | 25.496287 | 7.937092 | 1.422435 | 1,174 | 39 | 238 | 17 | 24 | 393 | 170 | 303 | 0.193 | 0.723 | 0.084 | -0.9878 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 12 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 51 | 46 | 15 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 12 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 28 | 2 | 48 | 33 | 11 | 46 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 28 | 5 | 6 | 9 | 174 | 36 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146039 | 0.112593 | 0 | 0 | 0.106488 | 0 | 0 | 0.088362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130911 | 0 | 0.091369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085731 | 0 | 0.117948 | 0.069249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109904 | 0 | 0 | 0.125844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097128 | 0.090469 | 0 | 0.096503 | 0 | 0.101225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198535 | 0.0561 | 0 | 0.122049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115985 | 0 | 0.213109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113696 | 0 | 0 | 0.075843 | 0 | 0 | 0.18963 | 0 | 0.090169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096911 | 0 | 0.143349 | 0.108863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072761 | 0.163329 | 0 | 0 | 0.119229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101505 | 0.121051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331202 | 0.106021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085565 | 0.097751 | 0 | 0 | 0.330661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09098 | 0 | 0.106198 | 0 | 0 | 0.114449 | 0.085751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109046 | 0 | 0.152554 | 0 | 0 | 0.069147 |
suicidewatch | Karvast | 2019/02/21 | I don't know what to do It's been a long time that i feel like this,i'm only 17 and i feel like my life is just dull.i go to school every single day just to see their stupid faces once again,again and again i'm exhausted by them.i've been bulied by those folks for way to long.and i just can't and my only freaking wish ... | 1.708666 | 2.799478 | 2.60206 | 99.142418 | 76.926267 | 5.658878 | 19.677148 | 5.528933 | -0.500096 | 772 | 15 | 194 | 3 | 17 | 243 | 121 | 217 | 0.207 | 0.746 | 0.047 | -0.9881 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 20 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 36 | 17 | 3 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 27 | 5 | 30 | 24 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 124 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140298 | 0 | 0.126013 | 0 | 0.105667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110959 | 0.103352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186072 | 0.2629 | 0 | 0.134376 | 0 | 0.10434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125435 | 0.346573 | 0.179787 | 0 | 0.108317 | 0.217113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130458 | 0.115115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130636 | 0 | 0.186588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124146 | 0.09775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130747 | 0 | 0 | 0.140515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097384 | 0.071528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087139 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bryks | 2019/02/21 | I feel like not trying to kill myself is a job If things don't get better I'm quitting. But things didn't get better the last time. | -0.913966 | 1.204554 | 1.071983 | 100.290043 | 94.517241 | 2.9 | 10.698276 | 3.1291 | -1.921766 | 104 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 24 | 29 | 0.155 | 0.644 | 0.201 | 0.3455 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147218 | 0.208003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288928 | 0 | 0.322122 | 0 | 0 | 0.237332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | macdennischardee | 2019/02/21 | I’m tired I’m tired of crying and fighting and hurting. I’m tired of nothing ever changing at all. I’m tired of feelings. I fucking hate myself so much. Not good enough. Worthless. Want to die. I’m ready him to get out of the bathroom so I can go inside and lock the door and get my razors. I’m tired of being a disappoi... | -1.016819 | 0.931686 | 1.778649 | 92.4492 | 104.405405 | 3.358004 | 19.205821 | 5.369823 | -0.210543 | 276 | 10 | 58 | 2 | 13 | 95 | 44 | 74 | 0.429 | 0.504 | 0.067 | -0.987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153228 | 0 | 0 | 0.134141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137096 | 0.154956 | 0 | 0.084279 | 0.124383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.852216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pearbby | 2019/02/21 | Just really tired of living My life is relatively alright, I have a family and a girlfriend who loves me but idk its almost as if I have a really weak desire to live. I don't consider myself depressed or even sad but I've constantly had this thought that living is real tiring and I've had enough of it. I genuinely don'... | 5.445288 | 5.959626 | 6.123117 | 79.498701 | 67.685714 | 9.792208 | 30.194805 | 9.80015 | 2.736486 | 703 | 25 | 137 | 15 | 11 | 230 | 108 | 175 | 0.184 | 0.666 | 0.149 | -0.6164 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 19 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 44 | 34 | 13 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 19 | 6 | 19 | 22 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 101 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13753 | 0 | 0.203225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131501 | 0 | 0.084059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119976 | 0 | 0.06435 | 0.09092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138276 | 0 | 0.179785 | 0.062176 | 0 | 0.337137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114864 | 0 | 0.084952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086239 | 0.096792 | 0 | 0 | 0.141315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144858 | 0.326122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084551 | 0.081548 | 0 | 0.404143 | 0 | 0.29255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090407 | 0 | 0 | 0.081956 |
suicidewatch | Nadia-Karza | 2019/02/21 | A Strange Life: struggling to find a reason to live **Please, just leave if you are anti-trans or if you're transphobic or anti-LGBT in any way. I identify as a woman.**
*TLDR: I hate myself for existing, and I am out of energy, time and money, can't function normally any more and want to die*
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suicidewatch | wackenadoII | 2019/02/21 | Leaning towards the end... Hey 23 here. For the past week, I've done nothing productive, ZERO. Sleeping and repeating, that's all. Well, as a matter of fact I feel like doing nothing. Whenever I try to do something, idk something is hold me back and take me back to the same starting point. I've been smoking cigarettes ... | 1.847796 | 4.500548 | 3.191383 | 87.078518 | 84.326087 | 5.084585 | 26.841897 | 6.574016 | 1.379922 | 373 | 17 | 67 | 4 | 11 | 121 | 69 | 92 | 0.052 | 0.858 | 0.089 | 0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 45 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17792 | 0 | 0 | 0.132679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101571 | 0.143509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09814 | 0.201335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201025 | 0 | 0 | 0.309295 | 0 | 0 | 0.142184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161134 | 0 | 0.180615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kirkova | 2019/02/21 | If I've failed this course , I will have no option but to kill myself I just nneed to put this downw somewhere so I know it's reaal withouttelling anyone who will really worry about it | 3.576667 | 5.319631 | 3.89027 | 89.138288 | 73.324324 | 7.095495 | 17.738739 | 7.793538 | 0.282809 | 148 | 2 | 30 | 2 | 3 | 46 | 30 | 37 | 0.343 | 0.657 | 0 | -0.9392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523446 | 0 | 0.260019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nak10 | 2019/02/21 | May 31,2019 That'll be the day that I die. Drove the Chevy to the levy...... But the levy was dry! And that'll be the day that I die. Really my whole house of cards will collapse on
May 31,2019. | -0.557805 | 1.528997 | 0.271415 | 107.721756 | 89.97561 | 4.25561 | 15.517073 | 5.683918 | -1.193472 | 146 | 3 | 39 | 1 | 5 | 44 | 26 | 41 | 0.249 | 0.751 | 0 | -0.906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.69342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mentalhealthwarrior1 | 2019/02/21 | I tried to kill myself twice, and ended up living on the streets of Los Angeles for 13 days with my puppy. I think sharing part of my story here might be helpful to someone...
[https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-u... | 46.846667 | 59.478286 | 17.278889 | -7.445 | -18.222222 | 7.022222 | 28.666667 | 7.793538 | 2.0064 | 476 | 6 | 26 | 2 | 3 | 86 | 32 | 36 | 0.114 | 0.751 | 0.136 | -0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 81 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.783955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ohgodhurry | 2019/02/21 | its gonna be over soon im finally gonna do it tonight. i cant wait its all gonna be over and i can finally be happy | -3.55 | -2.106222 | 1.101667 | 100.5225 | 99 | 5.666667 | 17.5 | 7.168622 | 0.023 | 90 | 3 | 27 | 2 | 4 | 35 | 19 | 30 | 0 | 0.856 | 0.144 | 0.5719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.82223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | brattybarbie | 2019/02/21 | Tonight will be it I’m so exhausted. Every time I take a step forward, I take two steps back. Third time’s the charm I guess. | -1.808889 | -0.156021 | 0.064148 | 104.220667 | 108.62963 | 3.641481 | 16.511111 | 5.683918 | -0.721009 | 97 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 5 | 31 | 22 | 27 | 0.13 | 0.762 | 0.108 | -0.1384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.564735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nestledrinkingwater | 2019/02/21 | update im actually feeling a lot better. i smoked a few bowls and joints last night and now im okay this morning. | -0.7675 | 1.317424 | 1.991667 | 91.47 | 101.5 | 4.066667 | 18.5 | 5.985473 | -0.03305 | 90 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 31 | 19 | 24 | 0 | 0.717 | 0.283 | 0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.723129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OriginalTrek | 2019/02/21 | What is the easiest way to end it? Hello this is my first time ever using reddit. I don't even know if this is the proper place for this post, if it's not then just delete it I guess.
So here's my question: What is the easiest and most painless way to end it? I live in the UK so a gun is out of the qustion.
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suicidewatch | Vanessaisgorgeous333 | 2019/02/21 | Can someone talk me out of committing suicide? Prefer a male
I'm sorry no offense but I do not like African American people nothing against them just don't want to talk to them
Anyways any Caucasian male willing to chat with me
Not looking for a date | 1.582857 | 4.331824 | 2.552245 | 89.232041 | 90.428571 | 4.432653 | 31.489796 | 6.182691 | 1.859073 | 203 | 12 | 36 | 2 | 7 | 64 | 39 | 49 | 0.224 | 0.753 | 0.023 | -0.7813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283901 | 0 | 0 | 0.375079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | boundzy32 | 2019/02/21 | I'm a 24 year old man with an almost 2 year old daughter and March is one year since my attempt
I was watching the fine brothers channel and rewatched their logic react for 1-800-273-8255.
I grew up rough. Money was always an issue and the bullying was terrible. I remember giving a speech in 5th grade, everyone else ... | 1.587529 | 3.834489 | 3.282153 | 88.77556 | 81.394366 | 6.220145 | 22.827358 | 7.435245 | 0.959129 | 1,644 | 56 | 342 | 25 | 44 | 545 | 218 | 426 | 0.153 | 0.694 | 0.153 | -0.5692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 67 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 9 | 11 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 40 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 51 | 72 | 28 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 7 | 59 | 11 | 30 | 38 | 5 | 58 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 39 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 42 | 209 | 68 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063567 | 0 | 0.143616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055141 | 0.059875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073225 | 0 | 0.146228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046247 | 0 | 0.061764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059905 | 0 | 0.063514 | 0 | 0 | 0.094729 | 0 | 0.060419 | 0.068523 | 0.064449 | 0.070147 | 0.135205 | 0 | 0.036259 | 0 | 0.068854 | 0.078556 | 0 | 0.060997 | 0 | 0 | 0.055404 | 0 | 0.037466 | 0.137583 | 0.040755 | 0.060148 | 0.229415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076337 | 0 | 0.141599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303909 | 0.035034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156562 | 0 | 0.129443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114478 | 0 | 0 | 0.053173 | 0.055308 | 0 | 0.076265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300993 | 0 | 0.097186 | 0.054539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149146 | 0 | 0.074922 | 0.157434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072575 | 0.114288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237279 | 0 | 0.071763 | 0 | 0.06076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076434 | 0.114537 | 0.059953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107835 | 0.057638 | 0.062678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126891 | 0.056921 | 0.057522 | 0 | 0 | 0.066477 | 0 | 0.080062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052206 | 0 | 0.073079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323256 |
suicidewatch | chatzouren | 2019/02/21 | Hey :) I'm not sure if DMing is a thing on reddit as I've just joined, but I'm here for anyone who just feels lonely or wants to talk about anything at all. Tell me about what's got you down or just tell me about something good that's happened. Either, way I'm here. | 5.046494 | 3.653805 | 5.174138 | 92.401322 | 68.827586 | 7.733333 | 24.505747 | 3.1291 | 0.153051 | 207 | 3 | 51 | 0 | 3 | 65 | 44 | 58 | 0.081 | 0.819 | 0.1 | 0.2776 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219484 | 0 | 0.258311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263282 | 0.251053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295845 | 0 | 0 | 0.252299 | 0.548721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185145 | 0.249157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TrueRaitzo | 2019/02/21 | I don't know if I can fight back any more. I am sorry Internet.
I don't know if I can take any longer, I have been diagnosed with depression for a year but had episodes before, I have been medicated and lately things were good but I fall back into my old patterns and I skip work 3 days in a row, I think I might be fire... | 2.264346 | 3.313038 | 4.257658 | 87.988555 | 75.455696 | 7.038819 | 23.92616 | 7.492282 | 0.930138 | 574 | 17 | 128 | 7 | 12 | 197 | 96 | 158 | 0.164 | 0.68 | 0.156 | 0.1732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 26 | 29 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 25 | 5 | 15 | 22 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 96 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32721 | 0.118435 | 0 | 0 | 0.1207 | 0 | 0.148858 | 0.12545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274435 | 0 | 0.122171 | 0.14397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119511 | 0 | 0.127481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155909 | 0 | 0.160007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142894 | 0 | 0.150475 | 0.143223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141884 | 0 | 0 | 0.14584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.476352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094236 | 0.090889 | 0 | 0.112609 | 0 | 0.16303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163115 | 0 | 0 | 0.103265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091344 |
suicidewatch | deathbycottoncandy | 2019/02/21 | I want to end it all but I'm too cowardly to push through with it. Sometimes I wish I had an aneurysm so I don't have to bear the responsibility of finding my own way out. I just want everything to stop. | -0.009773 | 2.084648 | 2.592 | 92.153 | 86.954545 | 6.247273 | 24.709091 | 7.554174 | 1.080678 | 159 | 7 | 39 | 3 | 5 | 55 | 34 | 44 | 0.14 | 0.722 | 0.139 | -0.2617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432228 | 0.290834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwthrowawayhey19 | 2019/02/21 | I just thought about what I’ll talk about in therapy and feel like suicide is the only option Oh my god. Everything is so fucked I want nothing more than to die.
I am going to my first session today at 1pm. I was thinking about what to talk about and it just all broke me. I’ve been this way for 18 years of my life, I... | 1.446002 | 3.482052 | 3.146667 | 90.709444 | 80.630435 | 5.828019 | 24.352657 | 6.937598 | 0.913503 | 347 | 13 | 73 | 4 | 9 | 115 | 67 | 92 | 0.176 | 0.745 | 0.079 | -0.9232 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 52 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105954 | 0.149702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193724 | 0 | 0 | 0.119091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14801 | 0.102375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336855 | 0 | 0 | 0.239637 | 0 | 0 | 0.13427 | 0 | 0.166358 | 0 | 0 | 0.198628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123597 | 0.16633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134943 |
suicidewatch | Zeraora22 | 2019/02/21 | I will commit suicide on my 23th birthday (March 3) My case is way different than most of the suicide cases that I read on the internet... I've already made a bunch of threads on Reddit about my situation and I can't hold it no more. I suffer from a extremely rare prion disease called Sporadic Fatal Insomnia an I have ... | 7.626833 | 8.186557 | 8.035694 | 67.506875 | 63 | 11.490741 | 36.875 | 11.208143 | 4.532722 | 591 | 27 | 95 | 16 | 8 | 195 | 95 | 135 | 0.275 | 0.704 | 0.021 | -0.9896 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 14 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 60 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18277 | 0.143911 | 0 | 0 | 0.107318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16978 | 0 | 0.092342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.550675 | 0 | 0 | 0.182636 | 0.325199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095836 | 0.128971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | perilous-thinking | 2019/02/21 | The entire world seems like a nightmarish dystopian hellscape to me. The horror of the reality in which I cope, is unspeakable. The terrific fear and sadness that I feel every day is hardly painful, but the boiling anger that I feel in total contempt of my own existence fucking hurts. My ears ring as I overheat and cl... | 7.351017 | 7.409002 | 7.446333 | 73.201703 | 63.632768 | 10.243842 | 34.649153 | 9.888513 | 3.356135 | 749 | 30 | 133 | 14 | 10 | 242 | 111 | 177 | 0.292 | 0.595 | 0.113 | -0.992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 24 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 20 | 4 | 23 | 21 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 102 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129943 | 0 | 0 | 0.137143 | 0 | 0 | 0.088981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164256 | 0.147613 | 0 | 0.140153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269892 | 0 | 0 | 0.082958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155387 | 0.13076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14498 | 0 | 0 | 0.156263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.645972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103102 | 0.071313 | 0 | 0.128893 | 0 | 0.122577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098912 | 0.222032 | 0.155321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | malevolentbiochemist | 2019/02/21 | I’m kind because all I’ve known is pain. I’ve been suicidal for eleven years. I don’t drive because I know I’ll try and wrap myself around a tree. I pace slowly in high places because I know if I stop, I’ll be on and then off a ledge in seconds. I’ve never been secure in any relationship because I can’t believe anyone ... | 1.258401 | 3.457272 | 2.760768 | 92.317015 | 82.333333 | 5.420611 | 23.004264 | 6.655084 | 0.58594 | 764 | 27 | 163 | 8 | 21 | 249 | 110 | 201 | 0.137 | 0.697 | 0.166 | 0.4715 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 38 | 30 | 11 | 3 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 23 | 8 | 22 | 23 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 92 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0871 | 0 | 0 | 0.071184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073192 | 0 | 0 | 0.093185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38286 | 0 | 0 | 0.23587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138276 | 0.094686 | 0 | 0.100023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140325 | 0.110597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231619 | 0.436019 | 0.460221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083552 | 0 | 0 | 0.155233 | 0.080733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145139 | 0 | 0.109365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088692 | 0 | 0.103528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083595 | 0.087515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074359 | 0 | 0 | 0.134817 |
suicidewatch | MedsFeckMeUp | 2019/02/21 | I'm so close to mental breakdown I don't have friends, nobody would notice if I died.
My family doesn't love me. I got kicked out when I was 18.
I don't have any skills. I barely graduated college, don't have a job and any kind of stress hurts mentally and physically. I can't handle any kind of stress and I feel fuck... | 1.774965 | 4.13688 | 3.868427 | 84.167483 | 81.5 | 7.243357 | 25.31993 | 8.296473 | 1.891233 | 816 | 33 | 162 | 18 | 22 | 278 | 120 | 208 | 0.239 | 0.709 | 0.051 | -0.9893 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 21 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 41 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 24 | 8 | 19 | 31 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 93 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115652 | 0 | 0.186092 | 0.087643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094782 | 0.226832 | 0 | 0 | 0.069722 | 0 | 0.196237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121741 | 0.109044 | 0 | 0.383258 | 0 | 0.100001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086653 | 0.119871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123587 | 0.247266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117715 | 0.139672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101482 | 0 | 0.122769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086834 | 0 | 0 | 0.102566 | 0.28106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174297 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ForgetfulRuler | 2019/02/21 | How do I carry on. So, i recently split my partner of 7 years, and I'm really struggling to see why to carry on. She still has a ton of stuff in my house, but has pretty much decided to wipe me off the face of the earth.
It's a struggle looking at her stuff everyday, knowing that she's still around, but I can't even t... | 3.082109 | 3.768576 | 4.894511 | 85.57481 | 73.086957 | 7.836957 | 26.548913 | 8.076483 | 1.444152 | 423 | 14 | 94 | 6 | 8 | 145 | 77 | 115 | 0.137 | 0.741 | 0.122 | 0.0396 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 2 | 17 | 13 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 68 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16281 | 0 | 0 | 0.17183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092474 | 0.130656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117163 | 0 | 0.18058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29211 | 0 | 0 | 0.38239 | 0.418727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235549 |
suicidewatch | throwaway720112 | 2019/02/21 | Is there anything I can do that'll help some people forgive me before I die? So, my twentieth birthday is in April and I never ever thought I'd make it there. Or even really near there for that matter. I say that every year and yet every year I'm still just as surprised. But if my plans work out right, this time I'll b... | 2.262159 | 4.041153 | 4.352774 | 84.265913 | 77.042453 | 7.130954 | 23.251912 | 8.009169 | 1.257649 | 1,617 | 50 | 330 | 27 | 37 | 556 | 177 | 424 | 0.124 | 0.739 | 0.136 | 0.4431 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 30 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 32 | 7 | 3 | 9 | 8 | 74 | 72 | 30 | 2 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 51 | 11 | 43 | 61 | 16 | 33 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 15 | 5 | 7 | 20 | 221 | 71 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.06994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100227 | 0 | 0.294893 | 0.063802 | 0 | 0 | 0.067337 | 0 | 0 | 0.04369 | 0 | 0.060986 | 0.080748 | 0 | 0 | 0.078245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073625 | 0.075818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057223 | 0 | 0 | 0.046221 | 0 | 0.06173 | 0 | 0.074382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094675 | 0.19449 | 0.181156 | 0.205452 | 0.193238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181193 | 0.153604 | 0 | 0.078511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132516 | 0.037445 | 0 | 0.040732 | 0.180341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073288 | 0.050623 | 0.140058 | 0 | 0.063286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064685 | 0 | 0.04784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158058 | 0.053143 | 0.16583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155224 | 0 | 0.248436 | 0 | 0 | 0.078672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122412 | 0 | 0.22798 | 0 | 0 | 0.114224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055175 | 0 | 0.320916 | 0 | 0 | 0.057236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057606 | 0.062643 | 0.065984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113796 | 0.041792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0619 | 0 | 0 | 0.126819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092307 |
suicidewatch | Fraaaakkkkk | 2019/02/21 | Just curious about why suicide is so Taboo. Really, I gotta know why suicide is such a big trigger for people when:
\- Therapy is excessively expensive, hard to navigate and out of reach for the majority of people working full time and struggling financially.
\-Insurance is little more than a coupon for cheaper hea... | 10.624986 | 10.344347 | 9.630154 | 61.344503 | 57.123249 | 13.19944 | 43.082633 | 12.360288 | 5.769089 | 1,678 | 83 | 244 | 47 | 18 | 529 | 208 | 357 | 0.179 | 0.728 | 0.093 | -0.9872 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 57 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 22 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 62 | 38 | 31 | 5 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 6 | 54 | 29 | 11 | 38 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 21 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 180 | 37 | 9 | 0.078756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062981 | 0 | 0.255998 | 0.287093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080297 | 0 | 0 | 0.067842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203498 | 0 | 0 | 0.164567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07055 | 0 | 0 | 0.334857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078935 | 0.069543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142161 | 0 | 0.210282 | 0.159693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060742 | 0.076063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053367 | 0.059898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07445 | 0 | 0.075427 | 0 | 0.084913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100907 | 0 | 0 | 0.16911 | 0 | 0.134515 | 0.074915 | 0 | 0 | 0.079706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088972 | 0 | 0 | 0.088525 | 0 | 0.080282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088161 | 0 | 0 | 0.062895 | 0 | 0 | 0.082333 | 0 | 0.25844 | 0.089372 | 0 | 0 | 0.11843 | 0 | 0.068837 | 0 | 0.090065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106941 | 0 | 0.076934 | 0 | 0.094734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057336 | 0.159962 | 0 | 0 | 0.086108 | 0.287093 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mirindaLinda | 2019/02/21 | How do you make your family and friends understand their lives would be better off without you Honestly, I feel like their lives would be amazing without me. If I was never born my sister would be better off and would have no doubts our parents love her more (which they do anyway, she just thinks otherwise because I ne... | 4.719224 | 6.817141 | 4.942215 | 81.299532 | 71.054795 | 7.606393 | 28.605023 | 8.3441 | 2.152965 | 933 | 36 | 165 | 15 | 18 | 293 | 119 | 219 | 0.222 | 0.64 | 0.139 | -0.9772 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 51 | 44 | 15 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 38 | 13 | 15 | 27 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 135 | 43 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112593 | 0 | 0.083188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234402 | 0.092282 | 0.215314 | 0.1162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098222 | 0 | 0.052682 | 0.074434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160995 | 0.192646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08739 | 0.083331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103393 | 0 | 0.115272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073593 | 0.050902 | 0 | 0.184005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094036 | 0 | 0.139096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077256 | 0.160717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079242 | 0 | 0 | 0.231383 | 0.112829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107126 | 0 | 0.111862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239629 | 0.200873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5181 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | miniscule100 | 2019/02/21 | Please help? Can someone please tell me why I should live? I regret so much. I have things I'll never be able to take back or do over and not get so badly hurt. I'll never go back to being ignorant that people really didn't believe me. Was I really just being a drama queen like some of them thought? I know I put myself... | 1.746579 | 3.421162 | 3.243719 | 92.111368 | 78.210526 | 6.314386 | 18.417544 | 7.168622 | 0.007571 | 423 | 8 | 97 | 5 | 10 | 139 | 71 | 114 | 0.195 | 0.717 | 0.088 | -0.9286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 23 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 69 | 20 | 0 | 0.14842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342378 | 0.123925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077543 | 0 | 0.084351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072511 | 0 | 0.131058 | 0.131347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109106 | 0 | 0.228941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102896 | 0 | 0 | 0.325841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16683 | 0 | 0 | 0.251512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111593 | 0 | 0.129726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197207 | 0 | 0 | 0.235658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105433 | 0.162274 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kyo_Seito | 2019/02/21 | What hurts is that no one cares and I was born to be hated I have no community or group. Society sees me as a joke and I’m not taken seriously. I’m just the freak everyone calls mentally ill or crazy when in reality it’s them for being ignorant. I’m not a bad person and don’t do anything to anyone yet everyone acts lik... | 2.616333 | 4.565966 | 4.705648 | 81.362917 | 76.555556 | 8.648148 | 25.324074 | 9.299571 | 2.246296 | 528 | 19 | 107 | 14 | 12 | 182 | 86 | 135 | 0.141 | 0.672 | 0.188 | 0.8276 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 29 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 70 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13466 | 0 | 0.158481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482401 | 0.117398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196651 | 0 | 0.196353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094087 | 0 | 0.170056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113592 | 0.152865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136807 | 0.210561 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadconfusedpanda | 2019/02/21 | So close. I have tried and failed, tried to be successful, failed, tried relationships, failed, tried to be normal, happy, like everyone else around me, failed. At the end of the day I am empty, pathetic, filled with rage, self hatred, doubt, even my successes in the back of my mind imposter syndrome, no longer lookin... | 13.917877 | 8.361137 | 11.567284 | 66.327465 | 56.112676 | 15.176123 | 46.860496 | 11.765961 | 5.210568 | 1,821 | 70 | 337 | 32 | 14 | 552 | 215 | 426 | 0.208 | 0.646 | 0.146 | -0.9874 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 65 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 9 | 34 | 33 | 5 | 3 | 26 | 1 | 29 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 51 | 52 | 28 | 4 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 31 | 16 | 59 | 37 | 10 | 53 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 30 | 21 | 3 | 6 | 28 | 227 | 54 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052653 | 0.081189 | 0 | 0 | 0.153573 | 0.108277 | 0 | 0 | 0.068926 | 0 | 0 | 0.14549 | 0.059537 | 0 | 0.188795 | 0.085512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157884 | 0.079539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06468 | 0 | 0.274309 | 0 | 0 | 0.153419 | 0.070037 | 0 | 0.073985 | 0.069586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05982 | 0 | 0.040452 | 0.14855 | 0.132011 | 0.129884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051898 | 0 | 0 | 0.076902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168249 | 0.079174 | 0.218756 | 0.075654 | 0 | 0.068369 | 0 | 0.065019 | 0 | 0.084521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056918 | 0.114822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075862 | 0.297173 | 0 | 0.162493 | 0 | 0.052466 | 0.058887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067606 | 0 | 0 | 0.073193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049602 | 0 | 0 | 0.083128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161546 | 0 | 0.238433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088692 | 0.080943 | 0 | 0.084692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116431 | 0 | 0.067675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051439 | 0 | 0.076072 | 0 | 0.045148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066872 | 0 | 0 | 0.091337 | 0.061458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083966 | 0 | 0 | 0.157809 | 0.165006 | 0 | 0 | 0.04986 |
suicidewatch | TheTruePinkPhantom | 2019/02/21 | So close I cut again. Nothing new. It was deep. Not enough to die but it got everywhere. I want to finish it. I hate myself but not for cutting. Just for existing. For being me. I dont feel like I'd be missed for long | -2.544894 | -1.45394 | 0.302574 | 101.2645 | 117.723404 | 3.582128 | 13.210638 | 5.683918 | -0.944905 | 165 | 4 | 40 | 2 | 10 | 56 | 35 | 47 | 0.238 | 0.663 | 0.099 | -0.8453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167413 | 0.236536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161757 | 0 | 0 | 0.29301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Desperant | 2019/02/21 | Someone please give me a reason not to do it. If you want more context, check my post history.
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My heart has been broken beyond repair. I have been betrayed by my boyfriend of 1 year(friends for 8), and my best friend since I was 13.
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I really thought my boyfriend loved me. I trusted him mor... | 1.613286 | 3.885882 | 2.823805 | 91.949884 | 81.475248 | 5.035738 | 22.490335 | 6.182691 | 0.403552 | 782 | 26 | 159 | 6 | 21 | 251 | 113 | 202 | 0.164 | 0.723 | 0.114 | -0.9516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 27 | 37 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 37 | 9 | 23 | 22 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 126 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098495 | 0 | 0 | 0.386832 | 0.433819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088517 | 0.124819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080736 | 0 | 0.085287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04513 | 0 | 0.085699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137917 | 0.082515 | 0 | 0.085622 | 0.050726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063044 | 0.043606 | 0 | 0.078814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065613 | 0 | 0.344195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085204 | 0.123757 | 0 | 0 | 0.097975 | 0 | 0 | 0.085482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057179 | 0.091769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087693 | 0.070859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157935 | 0.070847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433819 | 0.057477 |
suicidewatch | a_grey_throwaway | 2019/02/21 | Please talk to me. Can I say *that* much?
Will you say anything back? | -2.872143 | -4.948232 | -1.855143 | 113.350143 | 159.714286 | 1.12 | 9.942857 | 3.1291 | -2.51684 | 51 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 0.819 | 0.181 | 0.3939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.639296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Altusername33 | 2019/02/21 | Just putting some thoughts in digital form I can’t tell my therapist this because then I’m asking her to risk her career or get me hospitalized. So I am putting my thoughts out into the world of anonymous Redditors because maybe it will help me organize them.
-I fell in love with my prior therapist. I ended it because... | 1.846494 | 4.287428 | 3.593687 | 85.755101 | 81.857143 | 6.639723 | 26.123117 | 7.839951 | 1.735642 | 915 | 39 | 180 | 17 | 25 | 305 | 130 | 231 | 0.174 | 0.75 | 0.076 | -0.9622 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 28 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 36 | 51 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 34 | 3 | 17 | 37 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 126 | 48 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.106277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101813 | 0 | 0 | 0.083743 | 0 | 0.265554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056899 | 0 | 0.185683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192612 | 0 | 0 | 0.107523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109035 | 0.11022 | 0.086785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11608 | 0 | 0 | 0.124752 | 0 | 0 | 0.119126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095189 | 0 | 0 | 0.252898 | 0.144706 | 0.139566 | 0.107 | 0.34584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104982 | 0 | 0 | 0.1106 | 0 | 0.154729 | 0 | 0 | 0.070132 |
suicidewatch | justinrollinghere | 2019/02/21 | I don’t know anymore. My husband brought up divorce. Every since I’ve just been spiraling down this hole. Who knew that simple term could make me go insane. I feel disgusting. I tried killing myself in a car wreck about a week ago over everything that’s been built up. I just ended up with more legal fees. I’m here in t... | 0.173375 | 2.147274 | 1.795942 | 98.966486 | 84.977654 | 4.885739 | 18.918259 | 6.059677 | -0.359074 | 642 | 17 | 155 | 5 | 19 | 208 | 107 | 179 | 0.111 | 0.808 | 0.08 | -0.4862 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 38 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 25 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 93 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128794 | 0 | 0 | 0.150481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131427 | 0.122416 | 0 | 0.261162 | 0 | 0.13697 | 0 | 0.073465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247722 | 0 | 0.116205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160746 | 0 | 0.07985 | 0 | 0 | 0.153845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152462 | 0 | 0.19691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109243 | 0.116782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257094 | 0 | 0.116546 | 0 | 0 | 0.134689 | 0.393316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jeff___Lebowski | 2019/02/21 | Anyone else feel incredibly disconnected? A lot of the time I barely fee human. I look at people and the way they interact and it’s just so foreign to me. I don’t know, I just feel completely disconnected from everything, even myself, to the point where I don’t think I was even meant to be alive. It’s surreal really an... | 1.702388 | 3.473491 | 4.26111 | 84.327395 | 78.662921 | 8.494944 | 21.23736 | 9.188382 | 1.57128 | 332 | 9 | 73 | 9 | 8 | 117 | 58 | 89 | 0.026 | 0.94 | 0.034 | 0.1625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 49 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158783 | 0.232675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299975 | 0.205411 | 0 | 0 | 0.204089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190694 | 0 | 0 | 0.193059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291014 | 0 | 0 | 0.132415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | somnums | 2019/02/21 | I'm in the mood of reading something sad about someone killing themself Yeah, just that. Not planning to kill myself I'm just in the mood. Any recommendation? | 2.258966 | 5.050387 | 2.540966 | 87.175586 | 96.586207 | 3.69931 | 29.937931 | 5.683918 | 1.412001 | 128 | 7 | 22 | 1 | 5 | 39 | 23 | 29 | 0.206 | 0.631 | 0.163 | -0.374 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.798981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305949 | 0.277983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | forzov3rwatch | 2019/02/21 | I’m better off dead. I’m just a mental and physical burden to everyone. It’s simple, really. I’m a 14 year old, obese, asocial faggot. All I do is sit on my laptop when I’m not at school. I just waste money, food, energy, and rack up bills. My parents, bless the dumb fucks, are still paying for my sorry ass to keep goi... | 0.343846 | 2.719236 | 2.640718 | 90.022615 | 89.512821 | 6.196923 | 19.082051 | 7.554174 | 0.722981 | 1,480 | 44 | 317 | 30 | 50 | 502 | 194 | 390 | 0.163 | 0.678 | 0.159 | -0.543 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 71 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 24 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 31 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 51 | 66 | 23 | 4 | 6 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 14 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 14 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 41 | 14 | 40 | 56 | 9 | 52 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 24 | 10 | 7 | 22 | 202 | 61 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.085314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086701 | 0.061129 | 0 | 0.143886 | 0.077826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173229 | 0 | 0 | 0.250613 | 0 | 0 | 0.082416 | 0 | 0.044204 | 0 | 0 | 0.095769 | 0 | 0 | 0.105714 | 0 | 0.067544 | 0.404112 | 0 | 0 | 0.248426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077309 | 0.18613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155414 | 0 | 0 | 0.048046 | 0.142525 | 0 | 0.09257 | 0 | 0 | 0.06175 | 0.128133 | 0 | 0.077197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091737 | 0 | 0.059241 | 0.13298 | 0 | 0 | 0.097074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09134 | 0 | 0.082644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26922 | 0.072318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097864 | 0 | 0 | 0.069817 | 0.146181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058081 | 0 | 0.257682 | 0 | 0.050978 | 0.100481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095585 | 0 | 0.112597 |
suicidewatch | nonburningburner | 2019/02/21 | Wish I didn't have to I just wish I had somewhere safe to be. I don't want to die. But I've run through the options, have been doing so for years now. If you don't win the benefit lottery, if you don't have family or friends willing to help take care of you... you're just fucked. And that's all you'll ever be. I never ... | 2.365165 | 4.027772 | 3.242327 | 92.850753 | 76.419355 | 6.014132 | 23.906298 | 6.655084 | 0.589673 | 942 | 30 | 205 | 8 | 21 | 299 | 139 | 248 | 0.058 | 0.666 | 0.276 | 0.9958 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 43 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 36 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 58 | 57 | 19 | 1 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 15 | 30 | 33 | 6 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 2 | 12 | 18 | 143 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112213 | 0 | 0.084611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235686 | 0.094007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085289 | 0 | 0 | 0.112018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106133 | 0.100907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071824 | 0.099357 | 0.101916 | 0.08979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086449 | 0 | 0 | 0.067876 | 0 | 0.102157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108076 | 0 | 0.075399 | 0.078426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106702 | 0 | 0.068905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103656 | 0 | 0 | 0.10057 | 0 | 0.071974 | 0 | 0 | 0.085014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080727 | 0.059294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.584667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288938 | 0 | 0 | 0.065482 |
suicidewatch | mobile602 | 2019/02/21 | Why I should carry on living? Im 40 yo, male. My partner left me last year after 21 years of living together. She fell in love with work mate. I had a dog for 13years he helped me stay focused after the break up. Loved him with all my heart. He died on 26.12 due to cancer. Now all I have is a job, rented acommodation a... | -0.2675 | 2.021883 | 1.609048 | 95.994286 | 94.357143 | 3.752381 | 16.52381 | 5.461319 | -0.65579 | 315 | 8 | 68 | 2 | 12 | 103 | 63 | 84 | 0.148 | 0.737 | 0.114 | -0.4871 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 39 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235847 | 0.133403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214982 | 0 | 0.197503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162233 | 0 | 0 | 0.216242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140872 | 0.212135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256333 |
suicidewatch | ItsOkay222 | 2019/02/21 | Birthday present I've had a fantasy of dying on my birthday...
That's 2 days from today. I won't have another shot till next year and, due to a lot of recent events (recently homeless, out of school, no longer doing what I love, unemployed, single, cheated on etc) it's seeming like this will be that year I finally giv... | 2.011263 | 4.41847 | 3.765526 | 84.986184 | 80.894737 | 7.168421 | 25.289474 | 8.238736 | 1.912453 | 377 | 15 | 72 | 8 | 10 | 126 | 70 | 95 | 0.139 | 0.704 | 0.158 | -0.0258 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 4 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 45 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381564 | 0 | 0 | 0.180438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088888 | 0 | 0.160658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154681 | 0.16421 | 0 | 0.121448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184135 | 0 | 0.331266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351494 |
suicidewatch | xRoboManx | 2019/02/21 | An Interesting Title I've been going through alot lately. Normally I can cope. I've been on my own sense I was 17, held a full time job and finished college. I have stable living, good job, dont need anything.
In a instant I've had what seems like my life taken from me.
A bad case of mistaken identity, me being to nic... | 1.819076 | 3.206759 | 3.768459 | 89.672353 | 77.235294 | 7.053221 | 24.29972 | 7.793538 | 1.088619 | 930 | 31 | 211 | 14 | 21 | 316 | 146 | 255 | 0.095 | 0.793 | 0.112 | 0.4767 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 28 | 42 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 33 | 7 | 37 | 24 | 5 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 131 | 34 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080059 | 0.127981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436466 | 0 | 0 | 0.127024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163984 | 0 | 0.104592 | 0 | 0.111567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352752 | 0.208242 | 0.198569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246375 | 0.110339 | 0 | 0 | 0.068223 | 0 | 0.140033 | 0 | 0.269752 | 0.126939 | 0.175365 | 0.060648 | 0 | 0.109616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099086 | 0 | 0 | 0.092047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079543 | 0.121965 | 0 | 0.144772 | 0 | 0 | 0.118619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159882 |
suicidewatch | ArmA1994 | 2019/02/21 | What is your reason for staying? Having read through most of the posts, only some give a reason to stay alive.
To those who are suicidal, but have an anchor to this world, would you mind sharing your anchor with myself and this community? | 6.134924 | 7.438514 | 5.684545 | 80.430152 | 66.5 | 7.684848 | 26.030303 | 7.793538 | 1.478176 | 189 | 5 | 33 | 2 | 3 | 58 | 38 | 44 | 0.057 | 0.823 | 0.121 | 0.4784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259048 | 0 | 0 | 0.532545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183971 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | frozenmew23456 | 2019/02/21 | I get suicidal every time I think about my ex Ever since we broke up, I feel like my life has just been a constant downward spiral. Nothing good happens to me, I don’t really enjoy the things I used to be involved in. I try my best to keep going, but there are times where I just simply want it to end. I’ve dated other ... | 4.095483 | 4.790739 | 5.184359 | 84.387295 | 70.764706 | 8.302941 | 25.79937 | 8.472885 | 1.556722 | 457 | 13 | 95 | 7 | 8 | 151 | 83 | 119 | 0.101 | 0.734 | 0.166 | 0.7306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 22 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 7 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 66 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183113 | 0.18873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157977 | 0.147147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176612 | 0.249534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091245 | 0 | 0.099255 | 0.146485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123357 | 0.255969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171116 | 0.167577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111883 | 0 | 0 | 0.187504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116027 | 0.111906 | 0 | 0 | 0.203675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150838 | 0 | 0 | 0.103011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124063 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yanaevenreal | 2019/02/21 | About to od I've been thinking about dying for a while and have even attempted in the past.
I'm thinking of doing something tonight and I guess I'm reaching out here to see if maybe there's any hope.
I don't have any desire to stay alive because killing myself will affect others.
The people who it would affect ar... | 3.874643 | 5.071207 | 4.631488 | 86.28375 | 71.708333 | 6.735714 | 25.172619 | 6.86897 | 0.988237 | 376 | 11 | 74 | 3 | 7 | 121 | 70 | 96 | 0.137 | 0.72 | 0.143 | -0.0976 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 20 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 13 | 16 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 49 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101757 | 0.143772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09832 | 0 | 0.177706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214142 | 0 | 0 | 0.217932 | 0.192114 | 0.13952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142961 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | strugglingrapper | 2019/02/21 | I just want to be enough. All I want is to be happy. But I can’t be. I don’t have real friends, I pissed away all my money, and i drove away the only woman that ever loved me. And now I’m sitting here alone, texting her. Hoping she’ll come back. Pretending that I’m better. That I’m not ready to jump off the bridge I d... | -1.198856 | 0.678474 | 1.410499 | 100.008475 | 90.505376 | 3.811926 | 13.83089 | 4.851558 | -1.333766 | 316 | 5 | 79 | 1 | 11 | 108 | 56 | 93 | 0.088 | 0.656 | 0.256 | 0.9168 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 8 | 16 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 51 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403056 | 0.164936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221634 | 0 | 0 | 0.388052 | 0.180724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104793 | 0 | 0.189406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lolita-- | 2019/02/21 | I give and give and give I was sexually abused for over 12 years by family. I have no family. My partner left me because he didn’t feel good enough and a lot of things are going on in his life and he didn’t want to burden me. He loves me but won’t talk to me. I’m so devastated. I cling to partners and friends because I... | 0.205518 | 2.33636 | 2.214228 | 94.985332 | 86.303922 | 5.116454 | 19.653879 | 6.498294 | 0.04054 | 745 | 22 | 170 | 8 | 23 | 248 | 116 | 204 | 0.225 | 0.668 | 0.107 | -0.9844 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 44 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 25 | 4 | 23 | 30 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 108 | 33 | 3 | 0 | 0.120729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105532 | 0 | 0 | 0.084785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131428 | 0 | 0.087762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08512 | 0 | 0 | 0.105285 | 0 | 0.067301 | 0.09217 | 0 | 0 | 0.091577 | 0 | 0.192115 | 0 | 0.103042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157447 | 0 | 0.053236 | 0.684228 | 0.057909 | 0.085465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110709 | 0 | 0.071971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085566 | 0 | 0.222461 | 0.086627 | 0.091964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069047 | 0 | 0.108423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067694 | 0 | 0.100111 | 0 | 0.118831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098223 | 0 | 0.148361 | 0 | 0 | 0.072383 | 0 | 0 | 0.065617 |
suicidewatch | cinimontoescronch | 2019/02/21 | How to plan for my suicide? I want to kill myself in a couple months (end of April), and I was wondering what were some things to think about before doing it? As in how to sort out my finances for my parents (I'm a 20 yo college student with $15k+ loans out in me and my parents names), what should I try to sell or keep... | 6.302014 | 3.812503 | 7.236107 | 82.145018 | 67.057143 | 10.121429 | 30.446429 | 8.076483 | 1.810843 | 624 | 15 | 147 | 6 | 8 | 212 | 95 | 175 | 0.077 | 0.802 | 0.121 | 0.1419 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 32 | 30 | 13 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 3 | 34 | 22 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 103 | 35 | 5 | 0.124031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109855 | 0.128158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064801 | 0 | 0.14098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110245 | 0.137222 | 0 | 0.068164 | 0 | 0 | 0.131331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099001 | 0 | 0.091177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413167 | 0 | 0 | 0.257963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271341 | 0 | 0.116898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247203 | 0.079474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168418 | 0 | 0.121161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512099 | 0 | 0.099491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134507 | 0.090296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lonelyprotest | 2019/02/21 | My dog saved my life. Monday was the end of it. I was ready. I came home from the bar and sat outside with my dog and a razor blade. I was drunk but I was calm and ready.
I called everyone I could think of before I did it. I don’t know why. No one answered anyway, it was so late. I started the task and got pretty far... | 0.606792 | 2.301753 | 1.902491 | 100.302415 | 81.767296 | 4.743145 | 18.776101 | 5.2151 | -0.678089 | 565 | 13 | 140 | 2 | 15 | 180 | 90 | 159 | 0.102 | 0.771 | 0.127 | 0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 22 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 28 | 2 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 93 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213695 | 0 | 0 | 0.196445 | 0.440072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192977 | 0 | 0 | 0.221985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105729 | 0 | 0.217017 | 0 | 0.209026 | 0 | 0.135886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181865 | 0 | 0 | 0.195723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356683 | 0.173596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bucket1999 | 2019/02/21 | I feel like people stay alive for their moms, but I don’t have mine anymore. My mom was a night owl, and I just want to go downstairs and cry in her lap. I want to tell her about all the pain I’m in.
I’m in my boyfriend’s arms but no one will ever love me like my mom did.
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suicidewatch | brichey44 | 2019/02/21 | I Don't Know What To Do I can't figure out why I still feel this way. I feel like I have no reason to live; life would just be better if there was no life at all. The only reason I find to continue living is my cat, Butters. He needs me and I love him more than anything. Other that my cats and my parents, no one likes ... | 0.91283 | 2.989537 | 2.656608 | 93.275825 | 82.808354 | 5.448672 | 20.501287 | 6.655084 | 0.20854 | 1,512 | 44 | 336 | 16 | 42 | 499 | 198 | 407 | 0.156 | 0.69 | 0.155 | 0.1442 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 64 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 23 | 27 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 36 | 9 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 70 | 72 | 16 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 12 | 64 | 19 | 35 | 57 | 7 | 35 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 31 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 229 | 81 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056138 | 0.086562 | 0.063152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068927 | 0.050323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086633 | 0.07301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053239 | 0 | 0.071101 | 0 | 0 | 0.086249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068961 | 0.092859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054524 | 0.074673 | 0.069553 | 0.078882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250443 | 0.11795 | 0 | 0 | 0.226352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318895 | 0 | 0 | 0.079191 | 0.046916 | 0.06924 | 0.066024 | 0 | 0.09094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07395 | 0.163005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073376 | 0 | 0 | 0.181473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116617 | 0.241983 | 0 | 0.145789 | 0 | 0.069322 | 0 | 0 | 0.070182 | 0.149012 | 0 | 0.110208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060685 | 0.122422 | 0.127338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07921 | 0 | 0 | 0.087915 | 0.167817 | 0.125568 | 0 | 0 | 0.091664 | 0 | 0 | 0.114462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105769 | 0.169753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075152 | 0.086119 | 0 | 0 | 0.068287 | 0 | 0.165222 | 0 | 0.139891 | 0.063552 | 0 | 0.09241 | 0 | 0 | 0.065926 | 0 | 0 | 0.086301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066352 | 0 | 0.076002 | 0 | 0 | 0.054844 | 0.158687 | 0.081106 | 0 | 0.048136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056047 | 0 | 0.080641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146073 | 0.065526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060098 | 0 | 0 | 0.058642 | 0 | 0 | 0.159481 |
suicidewatch | SurvivingMyDui | 2019/02/21 | My life feels over after my DUI I got a DUI back in August. I'm currently on probation about 2 months in. I feel worthless all the time and wish I would have died in my accident. I actually wrote a suicide letter after I got the complaint but chickened out because my method of choice apparently only works 75 percent... | 2.6384 | 4.112407 | 4.29948 | 86.352889 | 75.241611 | 7.382774 | 24.497204 | 8.076483 | 1.325094 | 565 | 18 | 119 | 9 | 12 | 190 | 99 | 149 | 0.176 | 0.726 | 0.098 | -0.8198 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 27 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 20 | 17 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 77 | 19 | 2 | 0.196792 | 0 | 0.19204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151321 | 0 | 0.119962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16506 | 0.314785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139 | 0.096142 | 0 | 0.173771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157077 | 0 | 0.144665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133351 | 0.149669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116073 | 0.156204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182428 | 0 | 0 | 0.226301 | 0 | 0 | 0.143267 | 0 | 0 | 0.139795 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stranglebagel | 2019/02/21 | being there for others instead of being there for yourself As a depressed and mildly suicidal person, it hurts me to see *so* many people - on reddit or not - going through similar things. Whether if it's debt, bullying, insecurity, abuse, or whatever sort of depression trigger, it's affecting people. Constantly, you w... | 6.35863 | 7.858907 | 6.844076 | 71.597418 | 66.130435 | 9.923913 | 34.375 | 10.125757 | 3.838413 | 503 | 23 | 81 | 12 | 8 | 164 | 82 | 115 | 0.23 | 0.516 | 0.255 | 0.453 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 13 | 9 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 64 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0.199298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102537 | 0 | 0.143132 | 0 | 0.353045 | 0.148765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216959 | 0 | 0.289753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129956 | 0 | 0.087881 | 0 | 0.095596 | 0.141084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151813 | 0 | 0 | 0.170535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233227 | 0.146872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Languishing4Real | 2019/02/21 | Fuck it! I Have All Eternity To Be Dead Last night, I began feeling suicidal again, but when I die; I will be dead forever unless I come back reincarnated as a squirrel, which I highly doubt will happen. Honestly though. We are all on the same boat together. The titanic is going down, and we're all on for the ride. ... | 4.06646 | 5.53363 | 5.143256 | 81.753444 | 71.587209 | 8.083005 | 26.021467 | 8.617729 | 1.779568 | 1,379 | 44 | 270 | 24 | 26 | 454 | 169 | 344 | 0.192 | 0.749 | 0.058 | -0.9961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 61 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 15 | 6 | 2 | 27 | 1 | 38 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 50 | 57 | 20 | 7 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 8 | 24 | 4 | 37 | 29 | 10 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 17 | 17 | 4 | 3 | 20 | 180 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10066 | 0.112887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071436 | 0 | 0 | 0.205207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104541 | 0.046974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257661 | 0.048538 | 0 | 0.105597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102783 | 0 | 0.051057 | 0.075728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094999 | 0.196859 | 0.045387 | 0 | 0.328138 | 0.082216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087183 | 0 | 0.178285 | 0 | 0.097486 | 0 | 0.188859 | 0.141313 | 0.296564 | 0 | 0 | 0.100604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099022 | 0 | 0.077671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182552 | 0 | 0.162517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303154 | 0 | 0 | 0.2235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112887 | 0.059826 |
suicidewatch | Tetsuo280 | 2019/02/21 | I don’t know what to title without sounding corny I hate this. I have no friends and get called faggot and other shit by people at school. I’ve been considering suicide sense like fucking eight grade and nothing has gotten better or changed since then. Everyone says it does eventually but I only have a good day like on... | 2.586018 | 4.667904 | 3.707297 | 87.869801 | 77.127208 | 6.61533 | 25.725605 | 7.610547 | 1.363954 | 1,116 | 42 | 225 | 16 | 26 | 361 | 155 | 283 | 0.257 | 0.636 | 0.107 | -0.9952 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 17 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 49 | 46 | 25 | 3 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 23 | 11 | 36 | 40 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 6 | 6 | 14 | 149 | 39 | 8 | 0 | 0.111726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088595 | 0.072509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096288 | 0 | 0.096142 | 0 | 0.099754 | 0.081228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243255 | 0.097216 | 0.081218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08252 | 0.096499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145707 | 0.174352 | 0.197065 | 0 | 0.160773 | 0.079092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094588 | 0 | 0.092863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083815 | 0 | 0 | 0.051823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092137 | 0 | 0.166532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075267 | 0.100223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180961 | 0 | 0 | 0.200846 | 0.063898 | 0.071717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074989 | 0 | 0.286301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387178 | 0.078003 | 0.105994 | 0.094365 | 0 | 0 | 0.072594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141799 | 0 | 0.08242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060422 | 0 | 0.074861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128043 | 0.102568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085088 | 0.105279 | 0 | 0.090899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096097 | 0.066986 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yellowfish789 | 2019/02/21 | I tried to kill myself Last friday I tired to kill myself. I drove my car into a pole and well obviously it didn’t work i just have a concussion, bruising, and cuts. I’m only 16 and i told the police, my parents, and my friends that i hydroplaned. I’ve only told my best friend and my boyfriend what i was actually doing... | -0.098186 | 2.081386 | 2.379695 | 92.806835 | 88.62406 | 5.430263 | 19.590695 | 6.907726 | 0.316128 | 485 | 15 | 109 | 7 | 16 | 166 | 75 | 133 | 0.147 | 0.731 | 0.122 | -0.5101 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 24 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 24 | 5 | 8 | 18 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 69 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.150895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136737 | 0.164604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342146 | 0 | 0.08498 | 0.126043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235203 | 0 | 0 | 0.343392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135152 | 0 | 0 | 0.35907 | 0 | 0.099079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177722 | 0 | 0.295507 | 0 | 0.104982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | orginalgangsta_ | 2019/02/21 | I don’t want to live but I don’t want to die Does anyone else feel this way? I’ve been at a low point in life for a while now. I have many thoughts about not being alive and killing myself but I’m not sure if id ever be able to go though with it. I’d had to disappoint my family but also don’t see a point in being alive... | -0.290464 | 0.866821 | 2.289643 | 99.0025 | 82.5 | 5.571429 | 15.178571 | 6.182691 | -0.896143 | 262 | 3 | 71 | 2 | 7 | 91 | 55 | 80 | 0.344 | 0.627 | 0.029 | -0.985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 43 | 8 | 0 | 0.206004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144043 | 0.211075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194202 | 0 | 0.104162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145506 | 0 | 0 | 0.36381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202398 | 0.163544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243013 | 0.163516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HondaFit2009 | 2019/02/21 | I'm in pain of love... Hello, today i broke up with my bf. I'm really not good. In early December one of her friends became very close to him. I never wanted to tell him what to do, nor prevent him from being friends with anyone. During the holidays I learned that he was cheating on me. It destroyed me. I decided to gi... | -0.49209 | 1.569689 | 1.938607 | 96.14601 | 89.13986 | 5.136268 | 18.201974 | 6.615977 | -0.085826 | 1,524 | 42 | 360 | 19 | 51 | 518 | 174 | 429 | 0.189 | 0.595 | 0.216 | 0.9558 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 62 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 46 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 26 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 62 | 78 | 23 | 3 | 13 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 27 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 94 | 24 | 52 | 62 | 6 | 46 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 79 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 250 | 121 | 2 | 0.060191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053356 | 0 | 0 | 0.06234 | 0.066422 | 0 | 0.100167 | 0 | 0 | 0.040932 | 0.063115 | 0 | 0 | 0.059693 | 0.084174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067814 | 0.063167 | 0.053234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056743 | 0.067731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055013 | 0 | 0 | 0.065996 | 0.13951 | 0 | 0.094342 | 0.057741 | 0.068416 | 0.050485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053919 | 0.178278 | 0 | 0 | 0.067839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059783 | 0 | 0 | 0.128871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066592 | 0 | 0.099238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085029 | 0.029406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.706219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221236 | 0.044631 | 0.092846 | 0.058133 | 0 | 0.056485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081574 | 0 | 0.128095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057255 | 0 | 0 | 0.060916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042603 | 0 | 0.048068 | 0.050322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096758 | 0.052609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039988 | 0.077136 | 0 | 0 | 0.140391 | 0 | 0.228215 | 0.11503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049664 | 0.213013 | 0.047777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042758 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Millermoop | 2019/02/21 | Its finally time to say goodbye. Im not going to write a book here but im so depressed that im going to kill myself tonight. i tried to make today the best day of my life, i visited all my favorite childhood places and that brought back a lot of warm memories. I told some of my friends and family that i love them dearl... | 4.606119 | 4.793044 | 5.377396 | 85.261504 | 69.442478 | 8.050063 | 30.302149 | 7.709487 | 1.826696 | 862 | 32 | 180 | 9 | 14 | 281 | 124 | 226 | 0.109 | 0.623 | 0.267 | 0.9933 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 13 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 36 | 40 | 12 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 24 | 11 | 26 | 25 | 9 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 128 | 40 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072441 | 0 | 0.114858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099661 | 0.081153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075218 | 0 | 0 | 0.060757 | 0 | 0.081142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084669 | 0 | 0.088812 | 0 | 0.047635 | 0.067303 | 0 | 0.206403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103782 | 0 | 0.083309 | 0.100288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.610573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208457 | 0 | 0.051775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066543 | 0.092052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080093 | 0.085028 | 0 | 0.188656 | 0.095513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069255 | 0 | 0.07266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065313 | 0 | 0.098429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180453 | 0.095845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224757 | 0 | 0 | 0.075073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159646 | 0.145054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054934 | 0 | 0.089299 | 0.180042 | 0 | 0.063962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055567 | 0.074779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068585 | 0 | 0 | 0.066924 | 0 | 0 | 0.121335 |
suicidewatch | ChickenInDaRoom | 2019/02/21 | I don't want to be here Every night I go to bed crying because I feel stuck here. I don't want to be here for another year let alone another 40 or 50. Every year the feeling just gets worse and worse and I just wish I done it years ago. My life will never hold any value and I've accepted that and i want to go. This isn... | -0.239849 | 1.324735 | 2.38878 | 96.415218 | 83.939759 | 5.595783 | 16.399096 | 6.627428 | -0.456806 | 282 | 5 | 71 | 3 | 8 | 98 | 50 | 83 | 0.258 | 0.668 | 0.074 | -0.9136 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 41 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151043 | 0 | 0 | 0.176475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115873 | 0.357343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089023 | 0 | 0.193676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174238 | 0.120353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262835 | 0 | 0 | 0.159902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329182 |
suicidewatch | THe_swamp-ape | 2019/02/21 | I don't know what to do..... I'm a 25 year old male who moved to another state lost contact with my friends and family for a woman who i love and i think she is cheating on me i have dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts in the past and i don't know what to do. I'm in a situation where after 6 years together and ... | 3.754067 | 4.122784 | 5.483475 | 83.113098 | 71.366864 | 8.985691 | 28.381388 | 9.095869 | 2.06664 | 628 | 22 | 139 | 12 | 11 | 216 | 103 | 169 | 0.126 | 0.796 | 0.078 | -0.7757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 30 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 18 | 3 | 23 | 24 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 88 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110846 | 0.170921 | 0 | 0 | 0.161653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153663 | 0 | 0.082418 | 0.116448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115132 | 0.079634 | 0 | 0.287866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177935 | 0 | 0.147115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134836 | 0.18322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104444 | 0 | 0.129405 | 0.095047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134493 | 0.192284 | 0 | 0.13075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314902 |
suicidewatch | mageick | 2019/02/21 | I don’t think I want to live anymore It just seems so pointless now. Everyday the same. Every emotion unchanging. Why should I keep going when I have done it all before? I don’t want to feel like this anymore and I don’t know of any other way to make it stop. I just need something fast to take the pain away. Anything w... | 0.837564 | 3.173943 | 2.313077 | 93.915256 | 85.538462 | 5.005128 | 20.205128 | 6.427356 | 0.131759 | 297 | 9 | 64 | 3 | 9 | 96 | 55 | 78 | 0.129 | 0.768 | 0.102 | -0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 15 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 41 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397731 | 0 | 0 | 0.165014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170631 | 0 | 0 | 0.177347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16895 | 0 | 0 | 0.196151 | 0 | 0 | 0.101391 | 0.143254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178235 | 0 | 0 | 0.110203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097966 | 0 | 0.177066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236548 | 0.159166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142446 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tristenelm | 2019/02/21 | I can't do it I just can't find the will do keep going. Every time I feel things start to go right something happens. :'( idk how to deal with it anymore | -1.430909 | 0.563019 | 0.571879 | 102.717818 | 99 | 2.64 | 15.690909 | 3.1291 | -1.366935 | 117 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 5 | 38 | 26 | 33 | 0.146 | 0.854 | 0 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252231 | 0 | 0 | 0.231904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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