[User] Well, I just found out that I cant come to school on monday....

[Assistant] Whys that?


[User] Have to go to the doctor...

[Assistant]
Ahh
Alright


[User] And, depending on how that goes, I might have to miss another day later on...

[Assistant]
Hmm
Seems
Wack


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] I dont like doctors appointments during the week


[User] Me neither, but the doctor I go to isnt available on the weekends...

[Assistant]
Hm
Wack


[User] Yep...

[Assistant] Whats the appointment for?


[User]
Nothing important...
Anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] I never really know


[User]
I see...
Well, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Cleaning blood honestly
Hbu?


[User] Multi-tasking at the moment... Cleaning blood from where?

[Assistant]
How fun
What tasks?
And blood from my thighs


[User] Well, homework, my project that's due tomorrow, netflix, and taking a free online course from Harvard... Why are you bleeding from your thighs?

[Assistant]
Ahh
Lotta work
Sounds productive
And cause
I cut them


[User] Why did you cut your thighs?

[Assistant] Cause


[User]
I see........
You know how I told you that there was this one person I liked but never told them... I just found out, they are being taken to urgent care right now...

[Assistant] For what?


[User] Apparently, they have a really bad fever, sore throat, and chills enough to send them to urgent care...

[Assistant]
Hmm
Hopefully they get better
Should be a really bad flu or something
Some antibiotics and penicillin will help
Hydration
And
Rest


[User]
Hopefully they do....
I just wish there was something I could do to help, but thats impossible at the moment...

[Assistant]
I mean
Text her an i hope you get better and im worried about you
Easy
It will probably lighten u her mood once she gets well enough to see it
Up*


[User] I have no way to contact her...

[Assistant]
Instagram?
Ask a friend for her number?


[User] Right... I forgot she had Instagram....

[Assistant]
Exactly
Dont be shy
Show you care


[User] ... Thanks for helping me...

[Assistant]
No problem
You seem nice
If she has some sense she will see it
I believe in ye
May take a while
âPhobiaâ
But
I think it can happen


[User] I doubt it... We go to different schools now so, there really isnt much that can be done...

[Assistant]
Hm
There might but it would be hard


[User] So, how was your day?

[Assistant]
Eh
Good
Yours?


[User] Also pretty good...

[Assistant] Good


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Eating takis like a fatass
Hbu?


[User]
Drinking sweet tea...
Only one cup though...

[Assistant] Good good


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Unsure
Hm


[User] Well, did you see anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant]
Hm
Nope
Jeez
Lame day


[User]
I see....
Well then, if you could have one wish granted but only for 24 hours, what would it be?

[Assistant]
Ummmm
No consequences and adults not remembering what happened


[User]
I see...
Have you ever had a question that you didnt know the answer to, and you couldnt find the answer online?

[Assistant] Yeaaah


[User] Well, what is the question?

[Assistant]
.....
How to feel pain
Wassss
8
And
Of course
Google was of no real value


[User] I see...  Have you had any other questions that couldn't be answered or was that like the only one?

[Assistant]
Mmm
Probably more
Idk
Canât remember


[User] I see... Well, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Again
Donât know


[User]
I see...
Well, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Eating dinner
Ehhhhhhhhhhhhh
Wbu?


[User] Watching netflix while doing some homework....

[Assistant]
Hmm
I havent done homework in a while
Ah well


[User] Yea, Im running a little behind on my college class homework because I missed one day... Anyways, what are you eating for dinner?

[Assistant]
Rice, meat. Carrots.
White food
That and im beginning to relapse in everything so guess which good dog is gonna get my dinner


[User] Relapse? And probably the white one?

[Assistant]
Yep
And
Yep


[User] So, does the other dog get any of your dinner too, or does it have to watch at the white one gets it?

[Assistant]
He usually watches with dismay
He got a little dinner yesterday though


[User]
I see...
By any chance, have you ever had pop rocks?

[Assistant]
Indeed
Havent in a while though


[User] So you know the sound they make when you just let them sit on your tongue?

[Assistant] Yeepp


[User] By any chance, do you know if its normal for a person to be hearing that noise constantly coming from their neck every time they walk?

[Assistant]
Hm
Most likely not
Would this hypothetical person be you?


[User] Maybe....

[Assistant]
Mhmmm
Ive never heard of this happening so ye might have a lil issue there


[User]
Ah, oh well...
I mean, I can also hear it creaking every time I rotate it, but it isnt harming me... so that's good right?

[Assistant]
Hmmmmm
....
Not too good.
Do some neck stretchs and try not to look down 24/7


[User] Neck stretches? And I dont look down 24/7....

[Assistant]
Riiight
And google some neck stretches
Roll your neck and things like that


[User] But, I already do that... My neck pops like at least 7 times just rolling it to the side...

[Assistant]
Yeaaaaaaaaahhhh
You really need to not look down 24/7


[User] But I dont look down 24/7...

[Assistant]
...........
Every time
I pass by
Or see you in school
You are looking down
And you do alot of activities
That would cause you to look down most of the time
Dont lie to yourself


[User] I rarely look down... I only ever look down so I can look at my phone.... And when Im sitting down at a table to write something... But that's it...

[Assistant]
Mhm
And
How often are you doing those things


[User] Not that often... I only look down at the table to write stuff down when we take notes and stuff........ Which we usually never do....

[Assistant] Mhmmmmmmmmmm


[User]
And the phone is usually only when Im walking in the halls....
Which is in between classes....

[Assistant]
Mhmm
So
Why is your neck so fucked then


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] It crackles like pop rocks and hella pops when you move it


[User] Well, yea, but that happens to like, the majority of all my bones in my body.... I was just asking about my neck because recently, it started to get louder because I can even hear it over my music now.....

[Assistant]
............
Yeaaaaah
Your joints arenât too good there pal


[User] My joints have always been like this.... Because of it, Ive been able bend certain limbs in ways that most people cant... But they never hurt so I think Im good....what makes you say they arent too good though?

[Assistant] It could be the cartilage wearing down


[User] Is that a bad thing?

[Assistant] Well it isnt if you want arthritis


[User] I see.... Well, it will probably be a long while before I get arthritis so I think Im probably good for now.... Plus, there really isnt much I can do to stop this anyways... My bones pop even from the slightest movements at times such as just taking a deep breath....

[Assistant]
Still not good
Should probably tell your doctor about that


[User] I would rather not do that....

[Assistant] You should


[User] I just dont want to worry my mom.... She already has two kids with incurable diseases.... She doesnt need anymore things to worry about.... Plus, as long as it isnt harming me, I should be fine right?

[Assistant]
Hm
You arent a burden if you have an issue
Dont put your health behind
If it gets worse, tell them
For now
Deal with being a clicker i suppose
Maybe google
Maya clinic webpage had some good information


[User] A clicker?

[Assistant] You know the dog training things? The hand held clicker?


[User] Yea?

[Assistant]
Bones sound like that
So
If you are constantly cracking
You are a clicker


[User] I guess.... So anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Hm
Have you ever had a vent account?


[User] A vent account?

[Assistant]
Like
If you ever had
Self harm, depression, eating disorder, etc
And had a vent account for it


[User] No I dont think I have... Why?

[Assistant] Just wondering


[User] So, have you ever had a vent account?

[Assistant]
Yeah
I have one rn


[User] You do?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] Do you let people follow it or like, only really close friends?

[Assistant] Nobody i know


[User] What do you mean? Like only random people follow it?

[Assistant]
Yep
There are communities of people who self harm, depressed, eating disorder, blah blah blah
Repressed now cause recently Instagram has taken down self harm tags and everything but
Yeah


[User] I see... By any chance, would you allow me to follow it or is it too personal?

[Assistant]
Hm
I mean if you would want to get reallllly into my personal health and see photos of my cuts
I just started a new account since the old one got deactivated


[User] Well, only if it's okay with you...

[Assistant]
Hm
@im_not_well.wishing


[User] Thank you for allowing me to follow it

[Assistant] Np bruh


[User] bruh?

[Assistant]
Sorry
Habits


[User]
I see... No need to be sorry though....
So you just made that account earlier today?

[Assistant]
Yesterday
Became active today
My last account was deactivated three months ago
And i had took a break on that one
Cause i tried to get clean
But eh


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] So, what else do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Hmmmm


[User] So, how do I spin this wheel exactly?

[Assistant] Ennie mieene minee moe


[User] ... It landed on Yellow....

[Assistant]
Sooooo
You know about Ed Gein?


[User] Nope...

[Assistant]
âTexas chainsaw massacreâ
Thats the guy the mivies are based off of
He made lamps, chairs, gloves, masks, purses. All out of human skin


[User] Wow.... That is very... Interesting to know....

[Assistant]
Indeed
Always good to have information


[User] Do I get to spin the wheel again?

[Assistant] Go for it


[User] Ummm... It landed on red....

[Assistant]
Welp
Anything ye want to know?


[User] Umm... Why did you start cutting yourself?

[Assistant]
Hm
Depressed
Stressed
Wanted to feel
Didnt work
Started in 5th grade
Did a small cut
Didnt do anything for me so i stopped (and got into more alcohol, weed, throwing myself off things and shit like that)
Tried again in 6th grade
Made a bunch of thin cuts
Stopped because everyone else at the time was cutting just to cut, and i didnt want to join the crowd
7th grade made an account and got much worse
Cut deeper
Some faded scars on my thigh and wrist now
8th i only did small cuts once, otherwise clean
Cut my arm open in November due to an â anniversaryâ of something
Started doing small cuts again
Already getting deeper


[User] I see... Thats alot of years of cutting yourself... Wait, so you were already doing alcohol and weed back when you were in 5th grade?

[Assistant]
I started smoking when i was 9
Annnd ye


[User]
I see...
So, what else do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] I dont know


[User]
Frick.....
The group of people at my table found me out....
One person made a group chat and added this account so then everyone at the table and at the table next to us started trying to figure out who I was..... Then they remembered back from December when ms. Maddox put my put my name on the birthday list and they made the connection.....

[Assistant]
Damn
That sucks
Will they tell?


[User] Well, there was already at least 10 people in the group chat they added me into....

[Assistant]
Hmmmmm
Soo
Your secret might be out?


[User]
I think so.....
These are all the people in the chat....

[Assistant]
Well fuck thats alot
Anthony and William
Shit
Lotta those people donât know how to keep their mouth shut


[User] Yep...

[Assistant]
Damn
That is indeed unfortunate
With so many people eventually yeah they gain a braincell and figure it out but hm
Welp
How do you feel about being found out?


[User] ... I dont know exactly.... I mean, it was bound to happen at some point.... I just didnt expect it to happen this early....

[Assistant]
Yeah
Hm
Sucks but as soon as people get organized itâs dangerous


[User]
Yep........
Well, as of right now, the sub for our class has been gone for about 30 mins and half the class is now gone, so we currently have no teacher.....
Dang... The half of the class that left came back and got extra work assigned to their slide presentation project that was just assigned today as punishment.... One of those people was my partner so now our slide presentation needs to have extra slides....

[Assistant]
Well make him do it
He left
His punishment not yours


[User] That's kinda what Im planning on doing...

[Assistant]
Good
Cause
You didnât do shit
Youâve done your part his punishment is on him
Jose or whoever tf is looking for you


[User] I know.... Hes my partner for the project....

[Assistant] Ah, yeah


[User] So, how was your day?

[Assistant]
Eh, not bad
Yours?


[User]
Pretty good....
So, did anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant]
Mmm other than your class skipping, people disclosing their crush, and the boys in your groupchat talking about it around me
Nun
You?


[User] Not really.... Although now, apparently my back now cracks almost every time I take in a deep breath.... So what do you mean the boys from the group chat were talking about it around you?

[Assistant]
Hm
Sounds
Not so good
And some boys from the groupchat were talking about the groupchat and i was also at the table


[User]
I see....
So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Avoiding eating honestly
âChillinâ


[User] I see.... Why are you avoiding eating?

[Assistant]
Cause i had to eat snack cause jeff made meh
Solved problem
Gave dinner to dogs


[User] Well, at least your dogs are well fed....

[Assistant] Probably why the one is fat......... hmmm


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Hmmmm
You pick a topic i did topics yesterday


[User] Like what?

[Assistant] You decide I donât fuckin know


[User] Well, what is one thing you enjoy the most about life?

[Assistant]
.... hm
The moon
Woods
Starry skies
Nature pretty much
You?


[User] Probably how unpredictable it can be at certain times....

[Assistant]
Hm
nice


[User] So, what would you say is one thing you absolutely hate?

[Assistant]
Hm
Humanity
Hbu?


[User] I really cant say... I dont really hate anything.....

[Assistant]
Hm
Again
Lucky
Thats cool


[User] What's cool?

[Assistant] Not really hating anything


[User] How so?

[Assistant]
Idk
Just is


[User] So, what would you say is one thing that you envy the most from other people?

[Assistant]
Hm
âPerfectâ health in âperfectâ homes
I understand everyone has their problems but
Like
People with no mental health issues and both parents in as stable home
I envy that
But also it kinda makes me glad they are good?


[User] I see.... So basically, you envy people with perfect or at least close to perfect lives?

[Assistant]
Yeah basically
Mm
Well
I more so envy people with childhoods
When people have good lives im more relived than envious now
But
I can never have my childhood
And
Most everyone else did so
That


[User] I see... Okay, umm, what is one thing that scares you the most as of now?

[Assistant]
Hmm
...
Im not sure
Moving I guess
You?


[User] Why would moving scare you?

[Assistant]
I dont wanna move
(Not physically moving but like, moving house)


[User] Well, do you have to move?

[Assistant] Probably


[User] What for?

[Assistant] Maryann wants to move to Michigan


[User] Michigan? Why?

[Assistant]
Her family and house is up there
I hate it
I hate it
I hate it
Everyone up there is either perverted, racist, redneck, annoying hoe, or all of the above


[User] Wow... So has she made up her mind yet?

[Assistant] She wants to leave as soon as my adoption is final


[User] Is your adoption almost final?

[Assistant]
Yeppp
Should be
In like
March
And she wants to leave when school ends
So
Yeah


[User] And you cant change her mind?

[Assistant] She only gets mad at me for bringing it up


[User] She gets mad you just for bringing it up? So that means you cant change her mind then?

[Assistant]
Yep
She has screamed she doesnât care what i feel so


[User] Wow... That sucks

[Assistant] Yep


[User] Well, anyways, do you wanna change the subject?

[Assistant]
Yeah
So
...........


[User] Well, umm, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Hmm
Contemplating on eating takis or not
Wbu?


[User] Just wondering if something might actually be wrong with me as I realize more and more of my bones are starting to crack more often at the slightest movements with everyday that goes by....

[Assistant]
Yeaaaah
May be a problem


[User] Yea... Probably.... Honestly though, its starting to get kinda annoying.... Just the sound of my neck cracking as I walk invades the sound of my music and it doesnt stop until I stop walking....

[Assistant] Which probably sucks


[User] Yea, but, at least to my knowledge, it isnt harming me so thats good....

[Assistant]
Hm
Hopefully not


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Greaat question


[User] Okay, ummm.... What is one thing you have seen that you wish you hadnt?

[Assistant]
Ew
My brother naked
I walked inside the house and him and his girlfriend had apparently just got done doing the nasty
Really
Did
Not
Need
To
See
That
Hbu?


[User] The contents of the group chat I am now in.... Many, many pictures of things I really did not need to see....

[Assistant]
Ohh yeahhh
Joram was talking about that while we were waiting for the bus
Thats what happens in all boi groupchats


[User] Yes... I realize that now....

[Assistant] Whats the worst thing sent so far


[User] Define "worst"

[Assistant] Most crude or disturbing


[User] I really couldnt say.... For the most part, they are all equally disturbing....

[Assistant] What are they about?


[User] I really couldnt explain it.... Lets just say, there are alot of "uncovered" people in the pictures.... Sometimes its not even people....

[Assistant]
Bruh just some lude stuff i get it
Once my friend sent me a video of the teenage mutant ninja turtles adding âranchâ to a pizza...............
*shudder*


[User] Not just some.... Its all they ever send..... And, why would your friend send you that?

[Assistant]
Yep
Sounds about right
Thaaaats why joram was laughing and cringing while showing it to someone
And cause
Shes weird
Im weird
She likes anime titties
I used to like porn (its low quality now smh)
Just some stuff we send


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] Well, anyways, umm, what would you say is one thing about school you like the most?

[Assistant]
Hm
Seeing peeps


[User] peeps?

[Assistant]
People
Peeps
Homies
Acquaintances i call âfriendsâ
And Jeff


[User] I see.... So what if, one day the school suddenly goes on lock down and all your peeps suddenly are nowhere to be found? What would you do?

[Assistant]
Hm
If i was in a manic snap, id go find jeff
Normal, try to hid and follow classroom things and find them afterwards
Suicidal id sit out in the open


[User] I see...

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] Hmm... If there was one thing you could change about anyone, who would it be and what would you change?

[Assistant]
Those annoying bitches attitudes
And because they irritate me
Act like they are in middle school still


[User] Which annoying B's?

[Assistant]
Mmm
The group
I wont name names but you can catch me getting pissed in the hall if any of them are in my vicinity


[User] I see... What do you look like when your mad?

[Assistant]
Hm
I just get a bitch face mostly
Its not too noticeable since i hide it well
Maybe tighten my fists or get quiet or something


[User] I see...

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Nooot sure
Slowly working on these takis
Then gonna sleep


[User] I see...

[Assistant] Indeeed


[User] So, how's your day been?

[Assistant]
Fairly average
Yours?


[User] Pretty good... My mom got me another gallon of sweet tea....

[Assistant]
Thoughtful
Dont drink in one day and you should be fine


[User] Yep... So, anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant]
Hm
Actually
Nothing
Odd


[User]
Hmm... I see...
Well, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] Halfway standing halfway laying on my bed talking to bitches before i go feed my dogs


[User] I see.... So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Ummmm
Hmmmmmmm
How are your classes going


[User]
Pretty well... They are all kinda boring though....
You?

[Assistant]
Hm
Same
Though im making a 73 in spanish again
My test grades are loooooowwwwwww


[User]
But, at least your passing the class, right?
Also what spanish class do you take?

[Assistant]
Yeah ig
And spanish 2, ms marcum


[User] Spanish 1 is way easier.... Im somehow passing with an 80 even though I know almost no spanish at all....

[Assistant]
I had Spanish 1 for three years and they had to move me up
I made a 70 every year
I suck ass at spanish even though spanish and french are simular


[User]
I had spanish 1 for at least 2 years already and usually passed with 90's even though I know no spanish....
Even though my mom's whole side of the family speaks spanish almost all the time at home, I just never picked up on it.....

[Assistant]
Like my dad and his side of the family speak spanish
My mom speaks french


[User] My mom knows some french too but not much...

[Assistant]
nice nice
My dad never taught us Spanish (i mean he really wasnât there)
Annd
When we got to America
French was banned in the house
And i took speech classes to shove my accent away
Andddd got bullied at school for speaking french sooo yeaaah that got repressed


[User] Why was french banned in your house?

[Assistant]
She wanted to become americanized
And when she heard french she snapped at us
No one speaks that down here


[User]
I see... And you said your dad really wasnt there... What do you mean?
Or is that too personal?

[Assistant]
Eh
Unlike ye, my secrets arent really secret by now
He left my mom
They were never married
He wasnt at the birth
He did alot of shit


[User] Wow... I see... What do you mean your secrets arent really secret by now?

[Assistant]
Mmm
After maryann Basically screamed at the top of her lungs that i cut myself
Outside
Infront of the neighbors
Ive kinda not cared about some of my secrets anymore
Everyone always asks
I only keep the big ones secret


[User] Big ones? Like what?

[Assistant] Thats kinda secret...... duh?


[User]
Oh right...
Of course it is....

[Assistant] Yeaaaah


[User] So, how can you tell the difference between a big secret and a secret that isnt really secret?

[Assistant]
A big secret is a secret that can destroy me
A secret that isnt really secret is a secret i can tell and it will only let people closer in or let them have some information on me


[User] I see.... That makes sense...

[Assistant]
Yep
So
I cant tell people bits and pieces
If i let them in a bit
Jeff knows a good amount of my big secrets


[User] I see.... So, what would you do if one day all of your secrets suddenly were out in the open for everyone to see and you cant do a thing to make them disappear?

[Assistant]
Hm
Either
Get angry
Since
Only a few people would know them
Well
Most of them anyway
Some arent even known
Or
Kinda
Close up
My secrets are very secret for a reason


[User] What do you mean close up?

[Assistant]
Do exactly what i did in 6th grade
Not talk
Snap when touched
No hugs
No one
Get the fuck away
Come near me and i glare
Touch me inappropriately and i bite you
Like that
Then in 7th i kinda forced myself to open up


[User] Why did you close up then in 6th grade?

[Assistant]
My best friend talked about me
So i cut everyone off
And that was when i moved here
Right after foster care and the adoption home


[User] I see... So what made you force yourself to open up in 7th grade?

[Assistant]
Mmm
Wanted to make friends
So
I was âfriendsâ with everyone
And had no one close


[User] I see... Do you have people close now?

[Assistant]
Hm
..
Jeff
................
Yeah thats it
I mean my âbrotherâ but we arent really close


[User] I see... Well at least thats more than you had in 7th, right?

[Assistant]
Yep
More than last year too


[User] I see.... Well, anyways, is there anything else you would like to talk about?

[Assistant]
Hm
Do you have close friends?


[User]
Hm...
Not really...had one a long time ago.... One day they met a transfer student who happened to be a bad influence on them... Not long afterwards, they broke my trust...

[Assistant]
Ah
Hm
Wack
Yeah
My best friend had gotten a group of friends
Easy to pick on me, that was before depression and everything was romanticized so me having bipolar depression was crazy
Although
6th grade evvveryyone cut at my school
I hated it
They scarred up their skin for a trend
Stupid
They sold razors like fucking money
Trade some razors for chips or something
Dumbasses
They broke your trust by spilling your secrets?


[User] In a way, yes...

[Assistant]
Hm
So
You closed up?


[User] Not really... I just stopped talking to him... By then I was already kinda used to not trusting people.... All he did was cause me to lose even more trust in people...

[Assistant]
Hm
Interesting
And also sad
Id punch him


[User] Why would you punch him?

[Assistant] Outing your secrets


[User]
Well, what's done is done.... There's nothing I can do about it anyways.......
I mean I did happen to hack into his google account once... I still have it on my laptop actually.....
But, I would never mess with anyone's account so it's just sitting there at the moment....

[Assistant]
.....
Oh really eh?
Hm
We can fuck shit up
If ye would like
I could ask jeff about it
Hes the hacker one
Im less advanced
Hes more of the either hack them and make them miserable or sneak attack and kill them
Im more of the stalk them and break their mind (i will let you know. One of my big secrets revolves around that)
Or beat the shit out of them


[User]
I see... Well there's no need to mess with his account...
Its only his school account...
Plus, If something happened to his account, he would probably suspect me immediately....

[Assistant]
Hm
Well
If you ever need to ruin him or extract revenge
I used to be a bodyguard


[User] A bodyguard?

[Assistant]
Yep
People would pay me
And i would
Protect them
From others


[User] Hm... How much would they pay you just to protect them?

[Assistant]
Mmm
20 a month
People were bullied by a group
That was afraid of me


[User] Why would a group of people be afraid of you?

[Assistant]
One saw something they shouldnât have
They told the group what i was capable of
They were all afraid afterwards


[User] What did they see you doing?

[Assistant]
....
See
Thats a big secret


[User] I see.... Well, I dont think I will exactly ever need to exact revenge on him... He already goes to a different school as me so there isnt really anything he can do to make me mad....

[Assistant]
Mm
Welp
Just incase


[User] Well, anyways, is there anything else you would like to talk about now?

[Assistant]
Hm
Are you straight?


[User]
...
Yes

[Assistant]
Aiight
Askin


[User] Askin?

[Assistant] Asking*


[User] Asking what?

[Assistant]
I was asking if you were straight
Curious


[User]
I see...
Anymore things you are curious about?

[Assistant]
Hella
But
Cant remember all
So
Eh


[User]
I see....
Well, today Im willing to answer ALMOST any question you ask me as truthfully as possible.... But only for today....

[Assistant]
Oh?
Hm
What to ask
Dam
I tried to push my questions away that you wouldnât answer so now i dont quite remember them


[User]
Well, if you have any,
Like I said, Im willing to answer them only for today....

[Assistant]
Ugghhh the pressure
What phobia was it for the girl?


[User] Remember I said Almost anything.... Thats one of the things I cant share....

[Assistant]
Hmm
Fine
....
mmmmmmmm
Biggest fear?


[User] Isnt that like the same thing as a phobia?

[Assistant]
Noo
I dont think so at least
I dont know
Wehhhh
Fuck
Im terrible at questions
In like a week ill remember one and by then its too late


[User] Well, if anything, A fear of mine would probably be losing all control of everything around me including myself....

[Assistant]
Hm
Reasonable


[User] So, anymore questions?

[Assistant]
No
I cant think of anything
Besides
You like keeping your shit to yourself anyway so


[User]
Okay then....
So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Trying to get warm
Hbu?


[User]
Trying to remember all the homework I have so I can do it...
By any chance, do you have the protein synthesis project rubric?

[Assistant]
Indeed
Do you need a picture of it?


[User]
Yes please
Thanks
Now I just have to get that done before monday....

[Assistant] Same


[User] Have you started it yet?

[Assistant] A lil


[User] Can I see what you've done so far?

[Assistant]
Sorry i really do not feel like getting out of bed
But
Start with the cell
Include the nucleus and ribosomes
Google protien synthesis and it should give ye some ideas
Include moving parts n bam


[User] I see... Thank you

[Assistant] Np


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] Looking at Ed memes and old videos of people bothering jeff


[User] Ed memes?

[Assistant]
Eating disorder memes
Ed = eating disorder
Ana = anorexia
Mia = bulimia


[User]
Oh, I see...
So, what do you want to talk about?

[Assistant] Why are you awake?


[User]
I almost never sleep on the weekends....
And on the weekdays, I usually only get at most, 4 hours of sleep....

[Assistant]
Hm
Alright then


[User] So, what time do you plan on going to sleep?

[Assistant]
Mm
Maybe later
Jeff hasnât responded in a few hours so im pretty sure he got his phone taken since his parents were talking bout doing that at night
Oddly enough
Im not tired
Too much at least


[User] I see.... So, what do you plan on doing in the mean time?

[Assistant] Apparently sleeping


[User]
I see...
So, you just fell asleep at like, around 12 then?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] I see... So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] Just cleaned my entire house


[User] What made you want to clean the entire house? Isnt that alot?

[Assistant]
Because i had to
And yeah
I vacuumed
Washed floors
Cleaned bathroom
Cleaned kitchen
Dusted
Doing laundry rn


[User]
I see....
Well, I guess Ill leave you to it then....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] So, how has your day been?

[Assistant]
Weh
Alright I suppose
You?


[User]
Pretty good...
Ummm...You know that app "Co-star" you showed me?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] I think it might be a little too accurate sometimes....

[Assistant]
It is scarily accurate some days so eh
Astrology man


[User] Yea... Like, how would it even know stuff like that is gonna happen?

[Assistant]
Astrolllogyyyy
Plus mercury is in retrograde AND its Pisces season so yeah things are emotional and backwa
Backwards*


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant]
What did i just fucking say?
Thats exactly what i mean
Reread


[User] I mean, what do you mean mercury is in retrograde?

[Assistant]
Its called mercury retrograde
Google it


[User] Ooohhh, I see....

[Assistant]
Yeeah
Sorry im being snappy
I had a lucid dream and im using all my brain power soaking in the details and deciphering it


[User] Your trying to decipher it? What was it about?

[Assistant]
Its a long
Long
Story
Holy fuck
Dont feel like typing again


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] Well, good luck deciphering your dream then

[Assistant] Thanks


[User] Have any luck deciphering it yet?

[Assistant]
Kinda
Basically this life is a lie
Kinda
Hmm


[User]
I see...
So how is this life a lie?

[Assistant]
....
Hard to explain
Id have to say it to you
And we both know that wont happen


[User] Right.....

[Assistant]
Yeah
Too much
To type
And i cant voice message cause im supposed to be asleep


[User]
.....
So the only way for you to tell me would have to be in person then?

[Assistant]
Basically
Which
We have never had a conversation in person
Mostly me having a manic snap and bugging you


[User] Yes... But why did you have to bug me? There were other people in class too....

[Assistant]
Quiet
Idk
I drew to you
Dont ask me
I was mostly in manic episodes to get through school (i had just been taken off my bipolar meds so those happened alot)
I got energy from ye
Plus you were fun enough
I liked our silent acquaintanceship
OH
And you sat in my fucking seat so i sat RIGHT next to you cause if I couldnât have my seat you couldnât be comfortable aline and i knew i was gonna snap and most likely bug you
Alone*


[User] I only sat there because it was against the wall and had an outlet next to it... And no one else was sitting in that row...

[Assistant]
You could plug the usb in the computer to charge
And i know
Which was why i liked it
I could be
Alone
Then
Ye
Sat
There
So
I wasnât gonnna just fuckin leave
Bam
Sitting riiiiiiight next to you


[User] Yea, but you still didnt have to bug me did you?

[Assistant]
That wasnât planned
I was at first trying to get you used to me (introverts usually open up when ye at least talk to them first, i would know, im still an introvert no matter how much i push myself to socialize)
Then
Mania
Cant control myself
Impulsive, hot headed, loud, overbearing, annoying
I also try to be annoying on purpose sometimes
Punishment
People gotta dislike me


[User] You know, I never really disliked you... I just really didnt like being touched....

[Assistant]
After you said you didnt
I stopped
Cause
Yeah
I know
It was just feeding my mania (and my fucking crazy ass side)
To see you squish into the wall to avoid me


[User] I mean, what else could I do? I had no where else to go.... Also, you may have had my phobia on you/near you at the time....

[Assistant]
Hm?
...
Hmmmmm
Most of the time in in black or red
Or stripes
Only jewelry i wear is my pentacle
Hmmmmmmmm
Curious
Quite curious
And still, sorry bout that
I enjoy seeing pain or misery while snapped


[User] Its fine... We dont have any classes together anymore so I know I cant be put in that situation again....

[Assistant]
Wack
But true


[User]
Yep....
And, that may also the reason I dont really talk to you in person.....

[Assistant]
Cause you think ill touch you?
Jeez man


[User] No, because of my phobia....

[Assistant]
Oooooookkkk
I would really
Like
To
Know
What
The
Phobia
Is


[User] I would rather not say.... All you need to know is that I dont really like to be near it....

[Assistant]
Well no fuckin shit
But still
Damn
How would me knowing your phobia hurt you?


[User]
It probably wouldnt...
Its just, I really dont feel comfortable with other people knowing what it is....

[Assistant]
Hm
I guess
Kinda like how i dont want people to know i have an eating disorder


[User] You dont?

[Assistant]
Nope
No one else knows
Two people suspect (jeff and my table partner who took the ED quiz with me)
But
Yeah
I hide it for a reason


[User] Wait, so only I know?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] When you put it like that, it kinda makes me feel guilty....

[Assistant] Why?


[User] Because you shared something like that to me that no one else knows about, and I wont even tell you what my phobia is...

[Assistant]
Ok and?
Your secret
Not your obligation to share because i did


[User]
I know that....
So, not even jeff knows about your eating disorder?

[Assistant]
Nope
Its recently gotten worse again and though he knows i hardly eat
He doesnât know the actual disorder is here


[User] Why havent you told him yet?

[Assistant]
Hm
Not sure
Dont want to tell him im fully relapsed and getting worse
I will
Eventually
Have to tell him


[User] Why dont you want to tell him?

[Assistant]
Idk
Scared?
Hes always pretty supportive but he would try n get me to recover
And i think im avoiding doing that


[User] If hes as supportive as you say he is, then there shouldnt be anything to be scared of... Recovery is good, so you shouldnt really be trying to avoid it....

[Assistant]
Hm
Ill tell you something
Mental illness is addicting
Thats why so many people dont want to get better
Cutting is addictive
The depression can be addicting
Starving gets addicting
I dont know how to explain it
Thats why people dont want to even try to recover
Its an addiction


[User] Oh, so thats why you dont want to tell him? Because if you tell him, he is gonna try to get you to recover and you dont want to recover because your addicted?

[Assistant]
Yep
Basically
Hm
Im sick again
They took me off my meds
So i got bipolar and depressed again
Then
Sick again
And
Now
Addicted again


[User] I see... So, if not now, when do you plan on telling him then?

[Assistant] Im not sure


[User]
I see.......
Did you just wake up?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] So, how's your day been going so far?

[Assistant]
Eh
Pretty good
Ig
You?


[User]
Also pretty good...
So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Boutta work on the biology project
Hbu


[User]
Honestly, I dont know yet....
Ive just been in bed all day thinking about unnecessary things....

[Assistant]
Mood
I havenât really done much today either
I finally got out of my pajamas at 2:30


[User] PM?

[Assistant] Yepp......


[User] Thats pretty late...

[Assistant]
Yepppp
I only changed
Because i was straightening my hair and on video chat with jeff (he wanted to see me straighten my hair since he had just straightened his)
And then i was just like
Im already in the bathroom might as well put clothes on


[User]
I see........
Also, do you usually wake up as early as you did this morning?

[Assistant]
I usually wake up earlier
I slept in


[User] How do you wake up so early? It takes at least about 20 alarms at max volume right next to my face just to wake me up when I do actually sleep....

[Assistant]
Its not my choice
Maryann wakes at 4 am (which i do during the week)
So normally she wakes me up


[User] Why does she wake you up that early?

[Assistant]
Cause
I gotta hang the dogs out
She already wants me to get ready for bed
Shes 70
And doesnât want to except shes an old ass woman


[User]
I see...
So, what do you want to talk about?

[Assistant]
Unsure
Have you done the biology project?


[User] I mean.... I got the materials together that I need to complete it...

[Assistant]
Welp
Same
I have her first period tomorrow...


[User] Wow... That sucks... I have her on tuesday so, basically the next time I go to school....

[Assistant] Yeaaaaahhhh.....


[User] So anyways, is there anything else you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Unsure


[User] I see....

[Assistant]
Yep
Hm
Mm
Favorite colour?


[User]
Probably dark blue or red...
You?

[Assistant]
Mm
Both
And black
nice


[User]
Hm......
Favorite hobby?

[Assistant]
I have no more hobbies, depression
Hbu?


[User] You really dont have any hobbies? Not even one?

[Assistant]
Not anymore
I used to draw, program, try to play my piano, trumpet,.... running.. reading
I only run my dogs every morning and evening because i have to
I dont do anything but stare at the celing or daydream or something


[User] You used to have alot of hobbies then?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] Why did you stop?

[Assistant]
Depression
I said that
No motivation
No anything


[User] Depression really made you unmotivated to do anything? Well that sucks....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User]
Hm....
Well, do you have any people you absolutely hate more than anything?

[Assistant]
Yep
Cant tell you why
But yes


[User]
I see......
Hm...
If you had the power to make one thing/person cease to exist, what/who would you choose?

[Assistant]
Greed
Its the cause of so much
Yeah violence will always be around
If there was no greed and everyone took what they needed
We would be so much better off


[User] I see... That makes sense...

[Assistant] Yep


[User]
Hm...
If you could have one wish granted to you right now, what would it be?

[Assistant]
Honestly right now thats kinda sexual so i wont say it
Anyways


[User]
Umm.... Thanks for not saying it...
So, what do you wanna talk about now then?

[Assistant] Im at least working on the project now...


[User] Well, thats good.... Hopefully you get it done before its due

[Assistant]
Hopefully
Its bed oâclock
You best be sleeping


[User] Why? I have no reason to tonight since I have no school tomorrow...

[Assistant]
-_-
Hmm
What time do you need to be awake tomorrow?


[User] Like 11 am...

[Assistant]
Be to bed by 3-4 am
-_-
Or ill snipe you
To sleep
Anyways
Gnite


[User]
....
Good night

[Assistant]
Me: go to sleep
Also me: damn this song smacks, bro the celling is lookin interesting as fuck, oh its 1


[User] Your still awake?

[Assistant]
I think i gave Jeff my sleeping abilities in exchange for his insomnia
He went to sleep at 10:30
Im hyper at 1
Thatâs opposite


[User] I see.... Well, you should probably try to get some sleep then...

[Assistant]
See
Thats smart
But also
My brain no make the sleepy time happen


[User]
I see.... Well, honestly I dont plan on sleeping at all today just like last night... so Im just watching hulu and netflix to pass the time....
So, what do you plan on doing until you fall asleep tonight?

[Assistant]
Uhhh
Memes
Staring into the void
Oh
..
oh
Nope
No void
Voices
Nah
Just memes then


[User] I see... So you're just gonna look at memes until you either fall asleep or have to go to school then?

[Assistant]
Yep
Or until i get reckless and have a panic attack cause i set down my ipad and got sleep paralysis


[User] Sleep paralysis? Why would you have a panic attack because of that?

[Assistant]
Voices
I mean they are there normally but much more fuckin creepy and then i cant move so im just crying and staring at the ceiling while my vision pulses and blacks out though in still conscious and i feel my skin tighten and crawl
But
For now
Memes


[User] I see... What kinds of things were the voices saying?

[Assistant]
Ah
Thats
Confidential
Mostly
Eh
Just some worthless you should be dead shit


[User] I see.... So, what kinds of memes are you looking at?

[Assistant]
Dude just got knocked out
Dog that can smell the virgins and its pointed at the screen
âFinally some delicious food:
Its a bowl of water with ice cubes in itâ
Ed memes
Stupid memes
Dark memes
The usual


[User] I see.... Well, I guess I let you continue looking at memes then....

[Assistant]
Yep
Thanks
Imma now try to sleep even though i most likely will panic
Gotta be up at 4


[User]
Yep... Well, good luck...
Also, try not to panic....

[Assistant] Sorry i couldnât respond to that message before you unsent it, testing in bernitt


[User]
I see....
We had a test for bernitt?

[Assistant]
Yep
And an essay


[User] I see.... Well Im gonna have to make that up then....

[Assistant] Yepppp


[User] I see.... Well, how has your day been so far?

[Assistant]
Wack
Yours?


[User]
Pretty good.... Although, now Im getting refered to a cardiologist.... My mom is gonna make the appointment in about an hour....
How was yours wack?

[Assistant]
Oh?
Do you want to say why?
And im getting triggered
I got 1 hr of sleep
Annd
Im sad


[User]
Well, part of my family has a history of heart disease/defects and one of my little brothers has a heart disease so since I was showing signs of a possible heart disease, they want to get me checked out.... So now, I have to miss Wednesday too...
Also, why are you sad?

[Assistant]
Ahhh
I see
Hopefully its nothing serious. I mean i have a heart murmur, not as serious but i wont judge if you have to wear the lil heart monitor thingy
Annd
Great question
I dont know
Im sad and grumpy
Odd


[User]
I doubt Im going to have to wear that...
Anyways, So you're just sad and grumpy for no reason? Maybe it has to do with your lack of sleep?

[Assistant]
Mm
Idk


[User] Anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Idk


[User] Umm... Did anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant]
Other than the tests, im not sure
Sorry im not the best to talk to right now
Emotions n shit


[User] No need to be sorry.... It happens....

[Assistant]
Indeed
Still
Eh


[User]
So how has your day been going so far? Still feeling sad and grumpy?
Hm... I guess you went to sleep then?
Well, Good night

[Assistant]
Indeed
Did you get sweet tea from outside?


[User]
....
They had sweet tea outside?

[Assistant]
Yeaaah
The mardi gras celebration thingy
Had sweet tea as the drink


[Assistant]
I mean they had cake and gumbo and masks and beads but i didnt eat and just drank tea and watched jeff throw himself down the pond
And also logans madness


[User] .... I see....

[Assistant]
Hm
Id thought you would definitely be out there getting tea
Are you staying for the movie thingy?


[User] I didnt know about the think outside.... And Im not staying for the movie thing....

[Assistant]
Hm
The teachers cane and told me n jacob to go outside
Maybe you could ask if they had any tea left over?
And ah
Hm
Aiight


[User] Are you staying for the movie thing?

[Assistant] Yee


[User] I see... I would stay, but I have stuff to do at home....

[Assistant] I tell maryann i have to stay for spanish tutorials


[User] I see... Well thats smart.... So, she actually believed you?

[Assistant]
She always does
Anytime i stay after its for maths or Spanish
Evvvery since 7th
So yeah
She doesss
Im staying in part cause of jeff and if they have chips ill eat today


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] Well, I hope you have fun then..

[Assistant] Was fun


[User] I see... So, how was your day?

[Assistant]
Got better
Yours?


[User]
Pretty good....
Anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant] Other than the movie it was surprisingly mild


[User]
I see...
Well, at least you had fun today....

[Assistant]
Indeed
What did you do today?


[User] Ummm.... Nothing much...just went to my classes and went home....

[Assistant]
Mood
Anything fun?


[User] Nope... What about you?

[Assistant]
Just the movie
Have you eaten?


[User] Not yet.... Unless you count like 8 cookies and a cup of coke....

[Assistant] Yeaaaaaah no


[User]
Then I havent eaten yet....
So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Texting
Hbu?


[User] Also texting.... Well, I have to miss school tomorrow.... I guess I wont be able to make up bernitt's test this week....

[Assistant] I mean its a district one so


[User] It is? Well then, I guess I will probably fail it then... I have his class tomorrow but I miss that day... And on friday I go to the field trip so I have no way to make it up this week...

[Assistant]
Stay after Thursday?
And you can probably take it next week


[User] Hopefully I can take it next week because I really cant stay after school....

[Assistant] Hopefully


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Great fuckin question


[User] Umm.... If you could have one wish granted to you right now, what would it be?

[Assistant]
Still sexual
Whats yours?


[User] Umm... I dont have one...

[Assistant] Welp


[User] Umm... How often do you go to the doctor?

[Assistant]
Every month
Gotta check the nerves
Hbu?


[User] Usually like once a year unless I get really sick... When you go, do they usually give you depression forms to fill out to see if you have depression?

[Assistant]
I mean
I do have depression
Diagnosed with bipolar depression so
I wouldnât really know
For normal check ups, like to normal doctor, no


[User] I see... For me, almost every time I go, they give me that form to see if Im depressed or not... Even though I have been putting the same answers every single time....

[Assistant] Are they true?


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] The answers


[User] No.... I just put the ones that have nothing to do with depression....

[Assistant]
See
Answer truthfully


[User] But how would they know if Im lying on it or not?

[Assistant]
They wouldnt
But
You might be showing symptoms


[User] I dont think Im showing any symptoms though... I always feel completely fine....

[Assistant]
Hm
Welp


[User] Anyways, do you wanna talk about something else now?

[Assistant]
Idk
Depends on you
Sorry
Not doin great at conversation today


[User] I see.... Well, umm, how often do you watch tv/videos?

[Assistant]
Rarely
Hbu?
I know you like Netflix


[User] I watch netflix and hulu as often as I can.... I get bored easily when doing my homework..... Plus, the show's are pretty interesting.... When you do watch tv/videos, what types of things do you watch?

[Assistant]
Umm
Gaming videos mostly


[User] Gaming?

[Assistant]
Yeaahh
Ya know
Apex
CoD
Shit like that
Plus markiplier n jacksepticeye n vanoss gaming etc
I feel like though yeah they are gaming channels thats more comedy but i watch them too


[User] I see... So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Eating surprisingly
You?


[User]
Watching hulu....
You're actually eating? I thought you didnt really like eating?

[Assistant]
I dont
I have to
Plus i havent eaten in a day
So
I guess
Its fine
And cool
Whatcha watching?


[User] Umm... Its a show called damien...

[Assistant] Never heard of it but sounds cool


[User]
Basically, the main character, Damien, is apparently antichrist so people around him are always dying in weird coincidences and unexplained ways, like a sinkhole appearing right next to his house so it can swallow up a person he knows... Or a man he was chasing threw a kid in front of a train so he could get away from him only to somehow trip on an escalator, get his tie stuck in it so he cant escape and he gets his face shredded by the escalator as Damien is saving the kid from the train.... At one point, a random stranger just went up to him in the middle of a police station and said "this is for you" and then proceeded to stab themselves on a body part until they died....
So, its kinda gruesome but, otherwise pretty interesting....

[Assistant]
Ooooh
Now im really interested
Hmmmmm


[User] Well, its on hulu if you want to watch it....

[Assistant]
Hm
Hulu
Is on
The tv
In the living room
And i never use it
So
I cant


[User] Why dont you use it?

[Assistant]
Maryanns always in there
She sleeps in there
So
I never really go in there
And i never have control of the tv while im in there


[User] I see... Well that sucks....

[Assistant]
Indeed
The same reason why I donât watch Netflix either


[User]
Ohh, I see...
That makes sense.... So what do you use to watch videos then?

[Assistant] YouTube


[User]
I see....
Well, tomorrow is gonna be a long day....

[Assistant] Oh indeed


[User]
Yep........
What would you say, is one thing you probably hate about yourself?

[Assistant] Not to be edgy but almost everything


[User] Yikes.... Why?

[Assistant]
I mean
I hate my looks mostly (exception of hair length and eyes)
I hate my height
I hate my weight
I hate that im either too âthickâ or not thick enough
I hate my brain and itâs stupid ways
I hate my body and its inabilities
I hate my past
So
Yeah


[User]
That's a lot of things to hate about yourself....
Okay then, what are some things you like about yourself?
Well, Im guessing you probably fell asleep by now so,
Good night

[Assistant]
Indeed i did
And um
Hm
My eyes
And
My hair length
Hm
Sometimes my brain
And
Stalkerness


[User]
Well, at least there are some parts of yourself you dont hate....
And what do you mean stalkerness?

[Assistant] Exactly what i said


[User] I see.... Also, sorry for late response.... I kinda just woke up a few mins ago....

[Assistant] Its fine


[User] So, how's your day been going so far?

[Assistant]
Honestly wack
Hbu


[User]
Pretty good... Turns out they think Im fine, but they are gonna need me back one more time for another test.... So my mom is gonna have to schedule that later.....
So, how was yours wack?

[Assistant]
I just got bitch slapped on accident
And earlier people were yelling at me
And yeah
No good
But thats good, glad your hearts good


[User] How did you get b-slapped on accident and why were people yelling at you?

[Assistant]
Jeff was waving his arms and bitch slapped me. Annd my lips busted
And other reasons
Just
Eh


[User]
I see... Well that sucks...
Well, hopefully your day get better
... My mom just made the appointment.... She forgot about the field trip on Friday when she made it.... So I guess Im missing school and the field trip now....

[Assistant]
......................
Well that sucks
Ey im not going either so


[User] I see.... What do yall do when everyone goes on the field trips? Is it like just a normal day but with less people?

[Assistant]
Pretty much yeah
Some teachers just dont do shit if no ones there


[User]
I see...
So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Well im on the bus so i gtg cause i only have wifi for a second


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] grounded sorry


[User]
Yikes okay then....
So you cant use you device anymore?

[Assistant] no tablet, sneaking on computer


[User] I see.... How long are you grounded for?

[Assistant] dont know


[User] What did you do to get grounded?

[Assistant] lied


[User] I see... What did you lie about that was bad enough to get you grounded?

[Assistant] doesnt have to be bad, she hates liers


[User]
Ohh, I see....
So then she has your tablet right now then?

[Assistant]
yep
dleted instagram


[User] Wow... That sucks.... So you can only use instagram at home on your computer then?

[Assistant] yep


[User]
I see...
Well, at least you can still use your computer then....

[Assistant] indeed


[User] So, how's your day been so far?

[Assistant]
eh, im semi sick cause i ate chocolate like a dumbass
also on chromebook


[User] School chromebook?

[Assistant] yepppp


[User] I see.... Well, I hope you start feeling better soon....

[Assistant] i ate lunch cause someone gave it to me so that helped me not throw up


[User] Well that's good then right?

[Assistant] indeed


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
essay
hbu


[User] Listening to music... My class on tuesday and Thursday always ends at like 1:30 so the rest of the time, we just sit in the pod doing pretty much whatever we want until 2:25....

[Assistant] i know, i have seen you there


[User] You do? Wait, what class are you in again?

[Assistant] torres, right next to you


[User] I see...

[Assistant]
indeed
one of these days ill carry a physical conversation with you. maybe end of year goal


[User]
A physical conversation?
Like in person?

[Assistant] yep


[User] ..... Maybe....

[Assistant]
give it a month or two, or however many till schools out
going now


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] pretty much nun, you?


[User]
Also nothing at the moment....
So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
hmmmmmmm
not sure
imma have to leave for a bit n come back
wack


[User] I see....

[Assistant] ye


[User] So, earlier, you said that one of these days, you would carry a physical conversation with me... Why do you want to?

[Assistant]
cause
talking in person is nice
ive never been able to with you
would be nice i presume, doesnt have to really have a point


[User] I guess it could be nice....

[Assistant]
not like imma stab you, and i took speech class so stuttering n shit like that is the usual
i twitch when off my medication so even if you were dying, which i dont think ive seen you twitch, id still carry conversation. idk, just want to. talk normally without helllllla avoiding eachother eh


[User] I mean, I dont really avoid you that much....

[Assistant] .......riiiiight


[User] You dont really sound convinced.....

[Assistant] sorry thats the sarcasm saying bullshit


[User] ......okay, I might avoid you a little.....

[Assistant]
mhmmm
the point of avoiding is to not be noticed so ye arent doin too well lad


[User] .... I can see that now.....

[Assistant] yeaaaaah, tis fine though


[User] Thanks.... Although, I just dont know if I can have a full conversation with you in person yet....

[Assistant] thats why i saiiid, by the end of the school year


[User] I see.... Umm... Do you know when the last day of school is?

[Assistant]
hm
may something
?
i think


[User] So in may then?

[Assistant] well, by may. if ye feel like you can conversate, just come up to me, or text me and ill go to you. with or without jeff, though he would he butt hurt if i shooed him


[User] I see... Thanks....

[Assistant] no problem


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
...........................................
playing starfall.......
dont judge me


[User] Starfall? Whats that?

[Assistant]
..................... its a game you play........ in kindergarden............ google it. click kimdergarden option..........................................
content


[User] Oh I see..... Why are you playing a kindergarten and Pre-K game?

[Assistant]
cause....
nostolgia
gonna play moonchild next.....


[User] I see.... Well I'll let you have your fun then...

[Assistant]
indeed
moon kid
not child


[User] School has been cancelled by the way....

[Assistant] Ass


[User] Yea...

[Assistant] I hate it at home


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Yeah


[User] Why do you hate it at home?

[Assistant]
Take a damn guess
Maryann
All I do is clean and get yelled at


[User] Ohh.... I see.... Well, that sucks....

[Assistant]
Indeex
Indeed*
Sorry this phone keys are small


[User] I see.... So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Chillin
Hbu


[User] Just watching some hulu....

[Assistant] Noiice


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Unsure
Imma have to put this phone back soon so sorry if I disappear


[User] Why dont you use the computer?

[Assistant]
Cause it's in living room
.....


[User] Ohhh, I see.... Well, that sucks.... When are you able to use it then?

[Assistant]
When I get home to around 8-9
Then I sneak this


[User] I see.... Has she told you how long you are grounded for yet?

[Assistant] 'till I can be honest'


[User] Wow, I see.... So, its basically until she feels like ungrounding you then?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] I see.... So how long until you have to put your phone back?

[Assistant]
Probably soon
Before I fall asleep
Welp
Rn
I'm tired
Good night


[User]
Good Night
So, how has your day been?

[Assistant]
eh
yours?


[User] Pretty good... Anything happen today?

[Assistant] visited my grandma but other than that


[User] You visited your grandma? How did that go?

[Assistant]
went well, shes cool. gave me makeup that ill never use. and chocolate that i gave to maryann.
im eating the oranges n lemons she gave me though


[User] I see.... Well thats good then

[Assistant] yepp


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] what is your favorite cool math games?


[User] Cool math games?

[Assistant]
yeah
ya know
cool math games
or your favorite papas game on cool math


[User]
I would probably have to say, one of my favorite cool math games is Strategic Tic-Tac-Toe....
Yours?

[Assistant]
hmmmm
2048


[User] Oh! Ive played that one before....

[Assistant] yep, gets addicting


[User]
Yep...
Hm....
What are you doing right now?

[Assistant] papas sushiria


[User] Your playing that on cool math?

[Assistant] yeps


[User]
I see...
So, do you wanna talk about anything else?

[Assistant] idk


[User]
Okay umm...
What is one thing you never knew until recently?

[Assistant]
ummmmmmmm
hmmm
jeff likes chores
found that out today
have you learned something?


[User] Me? No....

[Assistant]
hm
aiight


[User]
Umm...
So, what would you say is one thing that you like more than anything?

[Assistant]
hm
the woods, or nighttime


[User] I see... So basically nature?

[Assistant] ye


[User] I see....

[Assistant] whats yours?


[User]
Hm...
I dont know....
Probably sweet tea...

[Assistant]
pft
thats funny
cool though


[User] Wha- How is that funny?

[Assistant] i got a very dramatic mental image of you hugging a thing of sweet tea and choked


[User] Me, chugging a thing of sweet tea and choking is what came to mind when I said that?

[Assistant] no i physically choked when i thought of you lovingly hugging a thing of sweet tea


[User] What did you choke on?

[Assistant] air


[User] I see.... Well, I mean, I cant really think of anything else that I like more than sweet tea except for one thing, but I'd rather not say what that is....

[Assistant] ........................ you've peaked my interest


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] im curious


[User] I mean, there's really nothing to be curious about.... Although, to be honest, not even my parents know about the thing I like more than tea....

[Assistant]
.................................................................. sooooooooooo
..........................................................................................................................
wanna share


[User] Umm... Id rather not...............

[Assistant]
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
is it bad?
cocaine?
bro do you do cocaine 0_o


[User]
Noo!
Its not bad.......

[Assistant]
then why dont ye want me to know?
Games?
clothes?
fuck idk
my brother is gay and femme so the only thing i can think of for normal males is ...........
jeez
i know no normal males
'nOrMaL'
they all like weapons or are hippies or gay


[User] No... None of those.... I just dont really like sharing it.....

[Assistant]
hm
welp


[User] Yeah.... Anyways, you said that you know no normal males? So you havent even met one that was completely normal and had nothing odd or wrong with them?

[Assistant]
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
........
Maybe
Mostly no
None that arr
Are*
Very important to me
One used to be but he got fucked up. Panic attacks n anxiety now.


[User] I see....

[Assistant]
Yeah
Poor dufe
Dude*


[User] What happened to him?

[Assistant]
His ex,
Jeez
I hate alot of people's exs


[User] Wow... That sucks.... Who would you say is the most normal male you know?

[Assistant]
Actually
Probably you


[User] Me?

[Assistant]
Yep
So far, you don't necessarily have any mental illness I know of
And though family of health issues
Still family
Stable


[User] I see...

[Assistant]
Yep
Most normal type boy
Not necessarily bad
Might be cause I don't know you welk
Well*


[User] Yea, probably...

[Assistant]
Welp
I have patience


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant]
Patience
To make ye my friend
Trust takes time
Soo


[User] I see...

[Assistant] Yep


[User] So, how's your day been so far?

[Assistant] worked outside


[User] What kind of work?

[Assistant] mowed grass, moved lumber, cut and chopped wood, weeded....


[User] Wow... Thats alot of work.... You did all that by yourself?

[Assistant]
yepp
maryann cant really do much so she cleaned the spare room and i did that


[User] I see.... So, do you have anymore work to do or was that all?

[Assistant] nope, i have more tommorow


[User] I see... Well that sucks....

[Assistant] yepppp


[User] So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
hmmmmmm
soooo
whats a 'sexy' color


[User] A "sexy" color?

[Assistant] ye


[User] What do you mean "sexy"?

[Assistant]
liiiikkkkkkkkke
a sexy color, something that reminds you of, that, word


[User] Oh.... Umm.... Another topic?

[Assistant]
pftt-
you are worse than jeff was,
ah well
hm
favourite time of day?


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] about which part?


[User] The "you are worse than jeff was"

[Assistant] ah, jeff was, and still is to others, hellllla shy about..... sensual topics. im comfortable with my sexuality so i can be very blunt sometimes, and he would be very flustered at that. pretty funny. he has indeed changed alot though. got used to it


[User] I see...

[Assistant] yep. so sorry, i forget sometimes that i cant yell out pussy without some getting red


[User]
......
Anyways, I would have to say that my favorite time of day is early morning/midnight because thats when the weather is usually the coolest....
What about you?

[Assistant]
ooh nice.
probably around the same
late late night, dawn


[User]
I see....
So, anything else you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
hm
your turn


[User] My turn?

[Assistant] to give a topic


[User]
Umm okay,
Hm....
What is the worst thing that someone the same age as you has ever done to you?
Or is that too personal?

[Assistant] waaaaaaaaay too personal pal


[User]
I see.... Sorry...
Umm.... Favorite holiday?

[Assistant]
halloween!!!!
spooky
hahahahaha
yours?


[User]
Thanksgiving...
Lots of food.....

[Assistant] mmm, my worst fears.


[User]
Hm...
My phobia,
Someone being able to read my thoughts,
and probably having all my secrets out in the open for everyone to see....
Thats about it.... Yours?

[Assistant]
hmm, ah i see
minne is, being weak
(gotta walk dogs ill give a better response when im back)
aiight
so


[User] So your fear is being weak?

[Assistant]
yep
weak physically
and emotionally


[User] What do you mean weak physically? Like, you wouldnt like it if someone beat you in arm wrestle or something?

[Assistant]
partially. i have been weak before. and things happen. so. i dont want to be weak again. i train. i fight. and i learn about weapons
i wont be weak
welp
your phobia. why do i, and your crush, set it off?


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] you said you dont like to be near cause your phobia


[User] So your asking why you and my crush set it off?

[Assistant] yee


[User] Its not only you and my crush that set it off.... Other people do too...

[Assistant]
well
why?


[User] I would rather not say.... It would give away too much about what it is....

[Assistant]
hm
welp
alright then
i mean
my fear can set off a few red flags but, maybe not


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant] ye can guess a few things. on why. but, maybe not


[User] I see.... Well let's just say that I see my phobia almost everyday when I go to school... So, I just try to avoid it as much as I can...

[Assistant] hm


[User] Hm?

[Assistant] well that sucks but ah well. life is ass and phobias and fears dont make em easier


[User] Yep... That is true....

[Assistant]
hm
i have a trigger


[User] A trigger?

[Assistant] makes me sick when i see it. well, alot of things do actually. makes my skin crawl. i get panicky. ive gotten better around some, but some i cant even look at


[User] What is it?

[Assistant]
hm
1
2
3
or 4
pick one


[User] 2

[Assistant] you know those plastic cutlery thingys? the play ones? with a pink handle


[User] I think so?

[Assistant]
that
the small ones
kids tou
toy*
pink handle


[User] Why do they trigger you?

[Assistant]
hm
thats
very secret


[User] I see... So what would you do if a little kid came at you with a plastic toy knife?

[Assistant] if it looked the exact same, probably take it from them. and burn it


[User] I see... Thats kind of extreme....

[Assistant]
welp
thats
why
its secret


[User]
I see...
So, what else do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
welp
hmmmm


[User]
Hm...
What is your happiest memory?

[Assistant]
..................... ouch.
hm
.......................................
probably when there was a triple rainbow at dusk
the moon was up
it had just rained
half the sky was grey and tormy
half was orange and purple
a few pieces were blue
lightning in the distance
it was very very cool. only lasted abouut 20 minutes]
my brother wouldnt let me take a picture. said the mind is better than the camrea would make it and to just remember all the details


[User] I see... That sounds like a really cool thing to see.... Have you ever seen that happen again, or was that the only time?

[Assistant] Only time


[User] Well that kinda sucks, but at least you still got to witness something like that...

[Assistant]
Yep
Was very cool
Do you have a happiest moment?


[User] Honestly, none that I can remember at the moment...

[Assistant] Yeah it took me a while


[User]
I see...
So, do you wanna talk about something else?

[Assistant]
Hm
What time are you gonna get up


[User]
Tomorrow?
Honestly, I dont even know if Im gonna go to sleep tonight....

[Assistant]
Hm
Welp


[User] What about you?

[Assistant]
Gotta wake at 4-5
Going somewhere in the morning


[User] Where are you going?

[Assistant] Sour lake. Dogs going to training


[User] Dog training?

[Assistant] Yep


[User]
I see...
So, you dont train them yourself?

[Assistant]
We do, he just does it better and faster
Plus we rescue dogs
With a whole nother level of dumbass


[User]
I see... Well thats cool...
So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Welp
Do you ever find random songs on YouTube that you like


[User] I do... Why?

[Assistant] I'm going threw my random songs


[User] How many random songs do you have?

[Assistant]
Mmm
20ish


[User] Wow... Thats quite a bit...

[Assistant] Yeppp


[User] Honestly, everytime I find a song I like on youtube, I look for it on spotify and add it to my playlist....

[Assistant]
Hmm
I can never find em


[User] Hm...I can almost always find them if I look hard enough....

[Assistant] Nottttt on Amazon music


[User] I see... I mean, I just have a hacked spotify so I have premium features for free.... Are you able to get spotify on your device?

[Assistant]
I'm not sure
Not going to try
Grounded


[User] Oh right, I forgot....

[Assistant] Yeee


[User] So, anything else you wanna talk about now?

[Assistant]
Hm
Probably finna sleep


[User]
I see...
Well Good Night then

[Assistant] Nighhht


[User] So, how has your day been?

[Assistant]
eh
not too bad
yours?


[User] Honestly, I pretty much had no day.... Last night I stayed awake until 12 pm today entertaining myself on my laptop, then did homework until 2pm where I somehow knocked out and woke up at 6pm....

[Assistant] sounds relaxed


[User]
I guess you could say that.... Although now, I have until the end of today to finish 3 major grade homeworks...
Anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
same
annd
unsure
playing animal jam rn


[User]
Ohh I see....
Hmm....
What is one thing you have always wanted to do but never got the chance to do?

[Assistant]
hmmmm
murder
you?


[User] Why murder?

[Assistant]
juuust cause
i cant tell ye
im trying to make you my friend not expose my homicidal tendencies


[User] Whats wrong with exposing homicidal tendencies?

[Assistant] cause they are dark


[User] And? Whats wrong with them being dark?

[Assistant]
i mean.....
i have literally scared people into submission on accident and ya know, trying to make friends


[User] I mean, Im a little harder to scare when it comes to stuff like that....

[Assistant]
hmmmm
yeah but im describing my desire to murder though


[User] And? How is that scary?

[Assistant]
damn
ypu gotta point there


[User] So, why is murder something you have always wanted to do but never had the chance to?

[Assistant] ive never had the chance to murder and get away with it, but i enjoy causing others pain. and i have come close to murder. i like the feeling, at least when im snapped..... and im addicted to the sight of blood. which is also a reason i self harm.... jeez i exposed some secrets but eh


[User] What do you mean you exposed some secrets?

[Assistant] part of a secret is in what i said


[User] Oh, that you have come close to murder?

[Assistant] yeps


[User] I see.... Do you wanna explain how you came close to murder or is that too personal?

[Assistant]
i mean
damn
secrets
hm
welp
i stabbed someone


[User] So, what happened after you stabbed them?

[Assistant] they got in their truck and someone drove them away. me and my brother finished what we were doing and ran


[User] Your brother was there when it happened?

[Assistant]
i stabbed the dude for my brother
long story


[User]
I see....
So, the person you stabbed never came back or told anyone you stabbed them?

[Assistant]
i mean they might have but not the police
i had coonnections
and a mask


[User] A mask?

[Assistant] mask


[User] And you wore it when you stabbed that person?

[Assistant] i had it on before he got in the way and got himself stabbed


[User] I see.... May I ask why you had it on before he got in the way?

[Assistant] we were breaking into a warehouse


[User] What was in the warehouse?

[Assistant]
just some random shit
knifes cars antiques


[User] I see... And the person who got in the way, did he by any chance own the warehouse? Or was he just a random person?

[Assistant] nah he was there to fight with my brother cause his gang type shit owned it


[User] I see... So you protected your brother then?

[Assistant] yeah, it was my job, and the only reason i was there


[User] Oh I see...

[Assistant]
yeah
oh
and i was to get through the window
but i was the 'soldier'
no pain
no moral
small and unsuspecting
trained
bam


[User] I see... And did you do that kind of thing often?

[Assistant]
uh
yeah, but it was the only time i had fully stabbed someone
i usually just faught them or something


[User] I see.... So, how did you feel after you stabbed that person?

[Assistant]
um
good. numb.
i kinda regret it now afterwards but


[User] I see....

[Assistant] yeahhh


[User] So, wanna talk about something else?

[Assistant] sure


[User] Well, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
iiii
dont know


[User]
Hmm....
Worst nightmare you ever had?

[Assistant] oh i have nightmares alot so thts hard


[User] Hm... Okay then, how about one that you remember most vividly?

[Assistant] still hard


[User] Wow! How often do you have nightmares?

[Assistant] almost every day


[User] Yikes... Do they usually scare you?

[Assistant] mm yeah but most of the time i can get over it and push it down


[User] I see.... What kinds of nightmares do you usually get?

[Assistant] mm memories, weird ones, fears, etc


[User] I see... And how often do you remember them?

[Assistant] most of the time


[User]
I see.... Have you ever had any nightmares that scared you so much that you couldnt ignor it?
*ignore

[Assistant] yep


[User]
I see....
So, whats the longest amount of time you have gone without them?

[Assistant]
hm
two months


[User] Thats all? Thats such a short amount of time to go without nightmares....

[Assistant] yeppp


[User] Wow... Honestly, I havent had a nightmare in such a long time, and yet, I still remember every detail of the last one I had to this day.... How do you even put up with them?

[Assistant] im, not sure anymore. most of the time they can be shoved away


[User] I see....

[Assistant] yeah. they only get bad at certin times other than the occasional bad one


[User] What do you mean when you say they only get bad a certain times?

[Assistant] certain times make memories worse


[User] Whats the worse they have gotten?

[Assistant] bad nightmare every day for a month


[User] Wow... That sounds tough...

[Assistant] yeaaaaah


[User] So, anything else you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] unsure


[User]
Hm...
Have you ever been obsessed over something so much that you would do anything for information about it?

[Assistant] yep


[User] Did you ever end up getting that information?

[Assistant]
yeah
after i did some things


[User] What kind of things did you do for that information?

[Assistant]
Seee
Thatd
A secret


[User]
I see...
Hmm
What was the information about? Or is that also a secret?

[Assistant]
Yepp
Just know
I'm not proud of it


[User]
I see....
Hm.....
Was the information at least worth it?

[Assistant]
Eh
Kinda
Not really
If I got something out of it though
Ig*


[User]
I see....
Hmmm......
Have you ever learned information about someone or something that you wish you hadn't?

[Assistant] Yep


[User] What was the information about?

[Assistant]
Their dick
Did not
Need
To know


[User] ..... I see....

[Assistant] Yeaaaaah


[User] Anyways, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
In bed lad
Hbu


[User]
Also in bed....
If you could have any wish granted right now, what would it be?

[Assistant] Stiiiiiiiiiil sexual. You keep asking that at night and ya know not the very best time for that


[User] .... Right.... I forget sometimes.....

[Assistant]
Yeaaaaah
Sorry lad


[User] Sorry about what?

[Assistant] Being hypersexual


[User] What do you mean? Thats nothing to be sorry about

[Assistant] Makes things accidentally uncomfortable


[User]
Its fine
It just catches me off guard most of the time....

[Assistant] Yeah, still, sorry bout that


[User] Anyways, what would you say is one thing you want to do before the school year ends?

[Assistant]
Hm.
Don't know


[User] Like, your probably leaving the school after this year right? So you have nothing you want to do before you leave?

[Assistant]
Mmm
Most just include things with Jeff


[User] I see.... Actually, will he be going with you? Or are you going to have to leave without him?

[Assistant] Why would he be leaving with me?


[User] I dont know. Just curious....

[Assistant]
Nah
I'm probably moving
Alone


[User] I see... Well that sucks....

[Assistant]
Indeed
Very much


[User]
I see....
What time do you plan on going to sleep tonight?

[Assistant]
Probably 11
Hbu


[User] Probably midnight like usual on school nights or not at all.....

[Assistant]
Hm
Unhealthy but acceptable


[User] Unhealthy?

[Assistant] Need more sleep


[User] Nah, I think Im good.... 4 hours a day is good enough for me....

[Assistant]
-_-
Dummy head
Ah well


[User] Dummy head?

[Assistant] ............ Stop judging me


[User] Im not judging you..... Just.... Why Dummy head?

[Assistant]
Cause
Came to mind
Seemed better than dumbass


[User] Wait, how am I a dumb*ss?

[Assistant]
4 hou
Hours*
Is less than half of the minimum amount you are supposed to be getting


[User]
And? It gives me enough energy to function properly throughout the day....
.... At least for the most part.....

[Assistant]
Mhmm
Right
Ya


[User] But, it doesnt affect me so Im good

[Assistant] Yet


[User] Yet?

[Assistant] Yet


[User] I mean.... Ive been staying up late like this for years and it still hasn't affected me so I dont think the chance of it affecting me is that high....

[Assistant]
Mhm
It will
Later
Anyway


[User] Anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Unsure


[User]
Hm....
Best dream you've ever experienced?

[Assistant] Very lucid and partially sexual


[User] Ummm.... Do I want to know what you mean by partially sexual? Or is it best I dont know?

[Assistant] Second option is best


[User] I see.... Do you have lucid dreams often?

[Assistant] Nope


[User] I see.... How often do you remember the dreams you have?

[Assistant] Mm alot


[User] I see.... What was your last dream about?

[Assistant] Mental hospital.... I fell asleep in the dream and woke up there and was trying to find a way to wake myself up


[User]
Yikes.... That sounds kinda scary....
How can you tell a lucid dream from a normal one?

[Assistant] You know you are in a dream and can control it I believe


[User] So, does it count as a lucid dream if you know you are in a dream, but you cant control whats happening or what your doing?

[Assistant]
Hm
I'm not sure


[User] I see.......

[Assistant] Google may help


[User]
I see.... Ill probably look it up later....
Hm...
How often do you get stressed?

[Assistant] Probably alot idk


[User] I see... How do you usually deal with stress?

[Assistant]
Uh
Procrastinate


[User] Procrastinating is how you deal with stress?

[Assistant]
Yep
And cutting
Staring at wall
I'm not healthy


[User] I see......

[Assistant] Yeaah


[User] Well, I just looked up the question I had about lucid dreaming....

[Assistant] And?


[User] Turns out it is considered lucid dreaming... It says as long as you know your in a dream, it is lucid dreaming. It doesnt require that you can can control things in your dream to be lucid dreaming...

[Assistant]
Ah nice
OK then


[User]
Anyways,
Hmmm.....
what would you do at the first chance you got if one day, every rule/law in the world was disabled for 10 minutes?
Im guessing your probably asleep by now right?
Well, Good Night
Hopefully you dont have another nightmare...

[Assistant]
Night
And morning


[User]
Good morning
Did you just wake up?

[Assistant] No but I forgot it wasn't nighttime anymore when I texted the first one


[User] Oh I see....

[Assistant] Yeah


[User] So, how much sleep did you get?

[Assistant]
Slept at liiike 10
Woke at 2
Back to sleep at 3
Woke again at 4
Hmm
5 hours
Hbu


[User]
.......
None.....

[Assistant]
Again
Dumbass


[User] But I did get like 4 hours of sleep yesterday.....

[Assistant] Which makes it worse


[User] How does that make it worse?

[Assistant] Not enough sleep


[User] I mean, I also got like 5 hours the day before and around 3 on friday so, I think I got a pretty good amount of sleep.... It was a good 12 hours for the weekend.....

[Assistant]
Sigh
Well at least I'm not the only one dying cause your brain is running on pure adrenaline


[User] What do you mean?

[Assistant]
You need sleep
Jeez


[User] I know that.... But it usually takes about a week until I absolutely have to sleep..... So I think Im good for now....

[Assistant]
Hm
Welp
Your death
I gtg


[User]
... I didnt know the brain could run on pure adrenaline.... I wonder what that feels like....
Anyways, How's your day been?

[Assistant] went alright, yours?


[User] Also went pretty well.... Anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant] other than jeff running on no sleep for three days and no caffine, nah


[User]
I see....
So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] hm, are ya watching anything new? or still damion


[User] Oh yea, I finished that already..... Yea right now Im watching like two other shows at once.....

[Assistant] what are they about?


[User]
Umm.... One is about a person who happens to be the son of one of the greatest serial killers of all time and he helps the cops track down other serial killers.....
The other is about an assassin/terrorist who wakes up in the body of a random person one day about 250 years in the future and his job is to find the killer to the person who brought him back to life....

[Assistant] oooh they seem cool, and im reading the first one rn, "i hunt killers", yes?


[User] Ummm no..... But I've actually been meaning to read that book for a while now.... The first one is called "Prodigal Son".....

[Assistant] eh, whats the sons name?


[User] Malcum....

[Assistant] well i hunt killers has that exact same plot


[User] I see....

[Assistant] yeppp


[User] So, anything else you wanna talk about now?

[Assistant] im not too sure


[User]
Hmm....
Have you ever once said you would never do something, but ended doing it later on anyways?

[Assistant]
yep
"ill never lose my virginity before im married"
though
i was like 8 when i promised that so eh


[User] So, you've already lost yours then?

[Assistant] indeed


[User] I see....

[Assistant]
yeaah
again
not too proud but eh
whats done is done


[User]
I see....
Hmm, what would you say is the weirdest thing you have ever seen?

[Assistant]
hmm
weird in which way?


[User] Just something you considered to be really weird.... Like something not normal....

[Assistant]
ive seen alot lad
so i dont know
hbu? whats yours


[User] Hmm.... I actually haven't really thought about it..... I haven't really seen much so I dont know.....

[Assistant]
see
its hard eh


[User]
Kind of....
Hmm.....
Okay then, what is A weird thing you have seen?

[Assistant]
uhhhhhhhhh
i saw someone cut a pizza shaped slide out of the middle of the pizza


[User]
I see....
Hmm...
So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
reading n texting
hbu


[User] Hulu, youtube, netflix, and homework.....

[Assistant] king of controlled multitasking goes to.................... wait i cant open the damn card...........................................................shit...................................................................................AH, Jason Fowler!! *game show music plays*


[Assistant] *clapping slows and then that one awkward clap after everyone else stops*


[User]
You know, I think I am probably gonna stay up again tonight......
What time do you plan on going to sleep tonight?

[Assistant] probably 11, im getting tired around that time


[User]
I see....
So, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
im not sure
hm


[User] Or, what is your favorite day of the week?

[Assistant] thursday


[User] Why thursday?

[Assistant]
the weeknd album
and song
listen to the song
ye might not like it but the OGs get into it. i like it


[User] What's the song called?

[Assistant]
thursday
by the weeknd


[User] I see.... So that's why you like Thursday then?

[Assistant] yep


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
talkin
hbu


[User] The same as before but now Im listening to some of his songs to see what kind they are and if I like them.....

[Assistant]
yessssssss
good to see
even if you dont
not everyone likes his style n thats ok


[User] I see....

[Assistant] yep


[User]
Hm...
So, is he like one of your favorite artist then?

[Assistant] he is my favorite


[User] I see.... So which of his songs would you say is his best one?

[Assistant]
i dont know
i like em all


[User] I see....

[Assistant] yep


[User] So, How long have you known about him?

[Assistant] since 2012


[User]
Wow... That's a long time....
Hmm....
If you had the chance to meet him in person, what would be your reaction?

[Assistant] probably stupid happy


[User] What do you mean? Like just really happy?

[Assistant] yeah


[User] I see....

[Assistant] indeed


[User]
Hmmm.......
Anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] dont quite know


[User]
Okay....
What is one thing you dont regret doing that involved another person being affected for better or for worse?

[Assistant] hm. leaving someone i didnt love. and told them that from the start


[User]
I see....
Well that sounds like a pretty good thing not to regret doing.....

[Assistant] Yeps


[User] Oh.... I just remembered something.....

[Assistant] Hm?


[User] ... I just realized that you were right.....

[Assistant] About?


[User] Remember our first conversation?

[Assistant]
Ehhhhh refresh me, I will after a reminder
What that we are homies?


[User] .....yea......

[Assistant] You wanna be homies?!?


[User] .... Maybe.....

[Assistant] Wait really!! FUCK YEA! Homieship achieved! Holy fuck


[User] You sound overly excited.....

[Assistant]
You don't know the sheer insanity ye gave me from saying you didn't want to be homies
'what did i do am I too crazy is this bad something wrong with me this is why no one likes me'
(Oh btw imma be clingy to Jeff tomorrow cause he needs to be cheered up and I'm too distant so if you see me hanging on him, I have no shame)


[User] I see... You really thought about all that stuff just because I said I didnt want to be homies?

[Assistant] I can be very self conscious. And I have terrible self esteem.


[User] I see.... Sorry about that then....

[Assistant]
Not your fault
And now
Homie!
Good cause lad felt wrong


[User] What do you mean lad felt wrong?

[Assistant]
Saying laf
Lad
Pal is alright
Lad is
Eh


[User] I see...

[Assistant] Yeah


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
In bef
Bed
Hbu


[User] Still doing homework while watching my entertainment..... Have you done Firestines project yet?

[Assistant]
Yep
Already presented


[User] I see.... I have her tomorrow so I am working on that right now among my other classes homework.... What did you decide to do for your presentation?

[Assistant]
Playlist
I just taljed
Talked
Showed my poster
Put up my essay and showed some lyrics n whatever


[User] I see.... Why did you show lyrics? If it was a playlist, couldnt you just put on one of the songs from it until your time was up?

[Assistant]
Uhh
No
You have to explain why the songs relate to the lit circle book


[User] Isnt that what the essay is for?

[Assistant]
Yeaaah
But ya gotta talk during presentation


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeex


[User] Was everyone in your class period able to present today or were there a few people who didnt get the chance to and have to present next time they have her?

[Assistant] Only three people got to present cause we had to finish test


[User] Oh right, I forgot about the test......

[Assistant] Yee


[User] Anyways, what do you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Really don't know
You wanna see a song I like on YouTube that is very out of what I normally listen to


[User] What do you mean very out of what you normally listen to?

[Assistant] I normally never listen to that type of music


[User] I see.... Sure then... What's the song called?

[Assistant]
....... You are a worthless child.... Here I'll send it
nic sent an attachment.


[User] ...... Wow.... I havent seen videos/songs like that in a while.....

[Assistant]
Yeeeeeaaaah
You want to hear another odd one I like
This one's in English
Electronic kinda
It's a bop for some reason


[User] Sure

[Assistant]
nic sent an attachment.
Idk why but I have like 5 anime related songs I like and I've never watched anime.


[User]
I see.......
So, is there any reason in particular why you like those songs or do you just like them because of how they sound?

[Assistant] Idk, I just jam to em. Vibe. I'm listening to some songs I listened to in 7th grade while I was borderline psychotic for a while. Nostalgia


[User] I see.... So those were from 7th grade?

[Assistant] Nah those were from beginning of school year.


[User] I see.....

[Assistant]
Wanna hear a song that made me cry alot and it barely even has words
(at this point I'm just showing you my YouTube playlist)


[User] I see.... Umm Sure... I havent cried in a long time so I wonder if I will to that song....

[Assistant] It's more nostalgia cry than anything


[User] I see...

[Assistant]
nic sent an attachment.
Volume up


[User] ... That was loud.....

[Assistant] Hahahaha


[User] Well you said volume up so I thought it was gonna be low volume and I put it at max.....

[Assistant]
.........
No
But
That's funny


[User]
Although, I know I have heard that song somewhere before.... I just cant remember when....
You have anymore songs you wanna show me?

[Assistant]
Hm. Yes
nic sent an attachment.
It's a thirst trap video
But a bop
With a melody
Of alot of the weekends old songs


[User] Ummm whats a thirst trap video?

[Assistant]
He just has his shirt off
More viewers I suppose


[User]
I see...
Wait, is that the same dude as the one with the afro from the Thursday song?

[Assistant]
Uh
No
He's just made a melody of the weeknds trilogy, or his three first mixtapes


[User]
Oh I see....
So, what time are you planning on going to sleep? Isnt it past the time you usually go to sleep?

[Assistant]
Hm
Yes
It is
Jeff went to bed an hour ago


[User] So are you going to sleep?

[Assistant]
Hm
That's a great idea
Imma listen to some music and crash
Good night


[User]
Okay, Good Night
Wow... That got dark fast....

[Assistant] That's the fun part


[User] I see.... My college class was canceled today so I have no class right now...

[Assistant] I know, considering you were in the pod early


[User] I see....

[Assistant]
Ok that sounded more stalkery than I meant it to
I just noticed it I promise I'm not following you


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] You got food?

[Assistant] Just almonds


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] Do you like almonds?

[Assistant] Eh. Don't dislike them but they aiight.


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Do you?


[User] Yep....

[Assistant] Cools cools


[User] So, how's your day been so far?

[Assistant]
Aight I suppose
Yours?


[User] Pretty good.... Anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant]
Nahh
Hbu


[User] Nope....

[Assistant] Welp


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Chilling
Hbu


[User]
Just watching some more hulu...
So, anything you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
Hmmmmm
I ran my 3 miles today


[User] I walked mine....

[Assistant] Still cool


[User] Whenever I have gatson, she always gets mad at me for wearing a jacket, jeans, and apparently not 'running' shoes whenever we exercise.....

[Assistant]
Well, you are supposed to dress out
If I have to wear tights you gotta Wear shorts


[User] I dont wear shorts..... Also I do dress out.... I take off one jacket....

[Assistant]
...........
You are supposed to wear athletic gear
I never change my shoes and she never gets mad but otherwise


[User] Yea.... She said that if I dont dress out Im gonna end up failing her class because she takes points off for not dressing out....

[Assistant]
Yeah
Every time
Better start


[User] ...... I think Im probably gonna fail her class then..... I dont like dressing out....

[Assistant]
Well I don't either
Just do it
Had to do it last year too


[User] ...... I mean, it was one of the requirements last year, but I still didnt and they would take off points but never enough to fail me.....

[Assistant] Well this is college


[User] .... Right.....

[Assistant]
Yeaaaah
It's not like your legs are that bad
Gotta do it


[User] .... I didnt say my legs were bad.... I just really dont like wearing anything that reveals too much skin.....

[Assistant]
You just quoted jeff
Pftt
Anyway still, ye gotta do it


[User] I mean.... Is it really that bad if I fail just one college class though?

[Assistant]
......
Yes
Especially for a stupid reason


[User]
........
Yea..... I think Im probably gonna fail then.... I dont even wear shorts at home......

[Assistant]
Neither do i
Ye just gotta do it
There are things in life ye don't wanna do but ye do anyway cause you have to


[User] .... I know, but maybe if I pass the midterm, It will make up for me not dressing out.....

[Assistant]
Hm
Maybe
But still


[User]
......
Anyways, anything else you wanna talk about?

[Assistant]
hmm
have you done jefferys work


[User]
Most of it
You?

[Assistant] just started


[User]
I see....
Her homework is due tomorrow for you right?

[Assistant]
yep
first period


[User] And you're just now starting on her homework?

[Assistant] yeps


[User]
I see....
Hmm
What would you say is one thing you can't live without?

[Assistant]
henry
stuffed tiger


[User] A stuffed tiger?

[Assistant]
yep
hes 9
years old


[User] I see.... So, why cant you live without him?

[Assistant] had him for a while, very emotionally attached


[User] I see... That makes sense...

[Assistant]
yep
hbu?


[User] Something I cant live without?

[Assistant] yep


[User] Hmm.... I dont know actually....

[Assistant]
hmmm
interesting


[User] How so?

[Assistant] maybe your hoodie


[User] Umm that has really no value.... If it was any other hoodie, I would wear it just as often.....

[Assistant]
damn
its like your character default outfit


[User]
....
That's one way of putting it.....

[Assistant] hahah


[User] I just dont like having my arms uncovered unless Im at home.....

[Assistant] i can understand.


[User] You can?

[Assistant]
well i just now started wearing short sleeves sometimes. and have you ever seen jeffs arms? ( unless i roll up his sleeves cause i like his arms but thats a different conversation)
ye arent the only one homie its aight


[User]
I see....
So, why did you decide to just now start wearing short sleeves?

[Assistant] eh. idk. kinda just wanted to yeet out of my comfort zone


[User] I see...

[Assistant] indeed


[User]
Hmm
So, what would you do if one day, one of your dogs were to take henry and bury him somewhere you couldnt find him?

[Assistant] nearly kill the dog and dig up my backyard since thats the only place they go


[User] Wow... Okay, so what if you didnt know which dog did it?

[Assistant] would only be one of two and only one is big enough to freach ontop of my desk to get it


[User] I see... So then, what would you do if you came home one day to find both you dogs fighting over henry and see him ripped in half before your eyes?

[Assistant] jeez ye are trying to make me mad. probaby kill them. or sell them. let them run outta the house and get hit by a car


[User] No, Im not trying to make you mad.... Sorry if I am.... Im just curious as to how you would react to those situations....

[Assistant] most likely violently. i hit my brother with a pole cause he got mad and threw henry into the woods


[User]
Yikes.... I see...
Okay then, what would you say is one thing you like doing alot?

[Assistant]
hm
music


[User] Music?

[Assistant] yeps


[User] I see... Anything else?

[Assistant]
ehhhhhhhhhhh
not really anymore


[User] I see....

[Assistant] yeah


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] chillin


[User]
I see...
Hmm.... What is one thing you wish you could have more than anything in the world right now?

[Assistant] hm. a nice peaceful walk in my woods. full mood. with the wisteria and moon flowers out.


[User] I see... That sounds like a pretty nice thing to wish for...

[Assistant]
its nice
yours?


[User] So, do you wanna talk about something else now?

[Assistant]
im not sure
hm
have you ever heard of animal jam?


[User]
I think so.... Its been awhile so I dont really remember much about it though.....
Why do you ask?

[Assistant] cause im playing it


[User] Ohh I see....

[Assistant]
yeaah
oddly like that game


[User]
I see....
Hmm....
Have you ever played Mutilate a Doll 2?

[Assistant] no but it sounds fun


[User]
Basically, you have a ragdoll, and you have over a hundred different types of weapons, magic, and chemicals to choose from to attack the ragdoll... You can even launch items at it, and even enable blood and gore to the doll so you can see it bleed as you play with it if you want.... There are many ways to mess with the doll especially since you have unlimited dolls to work with too and you can clear the area if it gets too messy too....
If I remember correctly though, you can only play it on the computer....

[Assistant]
Liked a message
ooooh
hehe
nice


[User]
Yep... You can even slow down time if you want to see the torture in slow motion....
Pretty much anything is possible in that game when it comes to torture....

[Assistant] ok sounds absoulutly wonderful


[User]
Yea.........
You can even have multiple ragdolls at once if you want to cover the room with blood faster depending on what your using to torture them......

[Assistant]
Liked a message
..... ok ill search that up


[User] I see.....

[Assistant] indeed


[User] You know, you really dont have to search it up.... I just got a little carried away explaining an old game I used to play.....

[Assistant] nah nah i will


[User] .... Well, if you are gonna search it up.... Its the one called "Play Mutilate-a-Doll 2, a free online game on Kongregate".....

[Assistant] oki oki


[User] So, what are you doing right now?

[Assistant] Was in the shower, hair washing day. How about you


[User]
I was doing a quick chore but thats finished now.... So, what do you wanna talk about?
Im guessing you probably went to bed already then?
Well Good Night

[Assistant]
Yeah I went to sleep early
Morning


[User] Good Morning

[Assistant] How's your morning been


[User] Pretty good.... Yours?

[Assistant] test but aight


[User] I see... My teacher is ordering uber eats for us right now...

[Assistant]
...........
see
fuck that but sounds cool


[User] Yep... We are just in the area under the stairs waiting for our teacher to decide which place we are getting food from since we have no room....

[Assistant] which teacher?


[User] Geometry teacher Ms. Nguyen....

[Assistant]
hmm
welp
have fun eating i suppose


[User] So, how do you think you did on the test?

[Assistant]
80 maybe
90
ish


[User] I see... What test did you take?

[Assistant] Biology


[User] I see....

[Assistant] Indeed


[User] So, how's your day been so far?

[Assistant]
Pretty good
Yours?


[User] Also pretty good.... Anything interesting happen today?

[Assistant] Eh, not really


[User]
I see....
So, anything you wanna talk about?

[Assistant] Nothing comes to mind


[User]
I see...
Hmm....
What are you doing right now?

[Assistant]
Just got home
Chilling
Hbu


[User] Nothing important.... Just sitting on my bed.....

[Assistant] nice nice