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adhd | LethargicDepressed when off meds First Ill give some background to my medical history I have struggled with depression for a few years nowIm 17 currently and would have bouts of crying and absolute consumption of my life every week or so About 6 months ago I was diagnosed with ADD and started taking a 10mg xr of adderall once in the morning and once at noon About a montg after starting I noticed that I was no longer having bouts of depression and was overall happier My mom is super anti meds and blames everything bad on adderall and will take it away randomly Every time she does I dont feel any withdrawals but my bouts of depression come back and I feel like I just want to lie down and die Does anyone else feel this way or is it just me |
adhd | Concerta not working on the first day Update Thank you all for your insightful and kind responses if not for them I would have chickened out ONCE AGAIN I took my meds Concerta 18mg at 315 and I feel absolutely NOTHING I know some people say they feel nothing and perhaps theres a slight change or feelingbuzz but I feel ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I feel exactly the same as I did prior to taking it I actually just took a nap otherwise I would have updated earlier with this post I should mention that prior to taking my meds I took some vitamins including B Complex Vitamin D3 Zinc Omega 36 Does this have any affect on the Concerta Also is there any point in continuing or should I simply get a higher dose As always Any advice would be greatly appreciated |
adhd | Comorbid anxiety and ADHDPI Medication Question Hi I was recently diagnosed with ADHDPi I am an adult and I have also had problems with anxiety Personally I believe that the anxiety is related to the inattentive symptoms because It usually occurs when my life seems too hectic and out of control but not when I dont have much going on My psychiatrist perscribed an SSRI for me to start on I understand that this is to treat the anxiety I am worried that this will be treating the wrong thing but I am not sure if this is the usual procedure for ADHD and anxiety Does anyone else have experience with ADHD and anxiety How were you treated It it normal for me to start off with just an SSRI Thank you |
adhd | Fist Day on Concerta 18mg UPDATE Update Thank you all for your insightful and kind responses if not for them I would have chickened out ONCE AGAIN I took my meds Concerta 18mg at 315 and I feel absolutely NOTHING I know some people say they feel nothing and perhaps theres a slight change or feelingbuzz but I feel ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I actually just took a nap otherwise I would have updated earlier with this post I should mention that prior to taking my meds I took some vitamins including B Complex Vitamin D3 Zinc Omega 36 Does this have any affect on the Concerta Also is there any point in continuing or should I simply get a higher dose As always Any advice would be greatly appreciated |
adhd | I absolutely hate being so motivated but equally incompetent Like I want to get up and write an entire move or screenplay but actually sitting down and executing that is scrutiatingly painful Five sentences in and I want to lay down and take a breather Then five seconds into that breather I want to get back to writing So I get all of this pent up energy and ambition that leads nowhere and its just downright torture |
adhd | ADHDrelated sensory issues and layering clothes I am a Floridanative about to experience my first real winter in Chicago in February Im definitely not a fan of layeringheavy clothes but obviously thats a necessity in cold weather It feels like theres way too much going on which causes anxiety and I find it hard to concentrate on anything else including recognizing my owns needs like hunger Any veterans of cold weather with this issue Tips to deal with it Thanks in advance |
adhd | Howd you guys decide on a career I kinda want to do everything so i end up doing nothing which has caused a lot of issues for obvious reasons I cant imagine settling on something cause that would mean i have to actually complete something and then do that one thing How did you guys decide what you wanted to do |
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adhd | Somebody with your IQ can invent new programming languages Im currently working on a paper I agonized about it over months Now 5 days to deadline Ive actually made a dent in it and am about half way done I should really get some sleep now Im too tired to get anything more done today But as I lay in bed a ton of shit that happened in my life comes flooding back to me I guess the stress eroded my carefully built defenses My only idea of how to maybe get some sleep is to at least write one of the events that wont stop running through my head down To understand this story Ill have to give you a short explaination about the german school system After the first four grades childreen get split up into 3 tiers of schooling The orginal intention was that the highest tier would go on to university the middle tier to do white collar work and the lower tier manual labor but often still very skilled labor In reality for decades the highest tier will get you university or white collar jobs the middle tier manual labor and maybe some white collar job and with the lowest tier you are basically fucked But there are opportunities to get to a better tier later I had been in the middle tier since grade 7 and after grade 10 had graduated that tier After graduation of the middle tier there is an opportunity to do two more years of school and get qualified university access You cant study everything with it like medicine or law but most things I didnt have the grades to go but back then there was a test you could take to get in anyway I was told that 34 of people who took the test failed so I shouldnt get my hopes up but I passed I would like to say that I studied hard for it but that would be a lie I barely glanced at the material It was way too much to even wrap my head around making a studying schedule It was all the material from grades 610 in all courses So these schools they come in different flavours Of course there is the common material like math german english and these things but there are also special courses that are meant to prepare the students for their eventual university studies The one I went to was for economy and IT It was a really weird experience going there I had always struggled with school but the economy and IT classes were easy It was just logical Only hard part really was math which irritated me since that was the one thing I had never struggled with before I later learned that it wasnt the math itself but that I just didnt understand that particular teacher Yet I felt weirdly disconnected and as if everything around me wasnt real Which today Im relatively sure was dissociation probably caused by some past trauma that would be too much to get into now but back then I didnt have any words for how I was feeling My mental health was not good I started just not going to school and instead staying in bed most of the day That went on for a while At first it was just the occasional day I wouldnt go but it became more and more That prompted my mother to take me to a child and tennager doctor who was specialed in ADHD or so I was told I cant really verify I was diagnosed years before so that wasnt the issue at hand The issue was why I couldnt bring myself to go to school When we got there they wanted to administer an IQ test I thought it was a bit strange but in hindsight I guess they wanted to make sure that my intellectual faculties were up to par with the form of school I had chosen or in other words that I wasnt as just dumb as a piece of wood D I have to say that evening I was on fire My brain was as clear as it hadnt been in months or years and probably hasnt been since The woman administering the test said she had never seen anyone actually getting done before the time was up in some of the categories The final score was 132 Now take that with a grain of salt The test was for 1516 year olds and I had turned 17 6 months before They didnt have one for people aged 17 or up Anyway afterwards came the review of the results with the doctor The conversation wasnt very long Im sure there was a bit more to it but what I still distinctly remember was him saying Somebody with an IQ like yours cant just learn programming languages they can invent new ones I dont see a reason why you wouldnt be able to do this well that but in german And I guess that was it for him It was such a weird feeling hearing those words On the one hand of course they massaged my ego but on the other they crushed me It was suddenly clear that I couldnt expect any help here Yet again tldr People with high IQs cant have problems |
adhd | Best Jobs for ADDADHD adults Hi I think this is my first time posting in here but i really enjoy reading what works well for everyone I was diagnosed with ADDAnxiety about 5 years ago when i graduated college and I have worked in HR since then I always found the jobs extremely hard to manage because of the long periods of sitting still the detail oriented nature of HR paperwork having key follow ups etc Last year I moved and took a break from corporate life and went back into retail at a high end department store This is the first time I have had ZERO anxiety about a job and actually look forward to going to work everyday I love not sitting all day not having my day revolve around tedious paperwork not having keep track of a million emails My bosses here love me too The problem is the money is obviously not that great as i have not yet taken an assistant manager position my boss wants me to move up I understand I might never make as much money as I did previously in a traditional office job but does anyone have a job where their ADDADHD does not hinder them What are some jobs that are like a high end retail job Account Manager Liquor Rep that have some growth potential and a decent pay Any advice would be appreciated I am in a pretty bad relationship and I am planning my exit but Id like to have a few life details nailed down before i finally get away |
adhd | Routines not Resolutions I woke up with the hangover of New Years Eve Not alcohol the one of the OMG I now have all these resolutions to achieve and how am I going to do them and Im sure there is a 100 more things I need to fix about myself and which is the most important and Ive overslept and behind already and GAHHHHHHHHH yes this was before meds While procrastin er um waking up I scanned YouTube Luckily I ran across this video Its very true maybe before I tackle resolutions I should work on taking all my meds daily and remembering to comb my hair make my bed etc |
adhd | 2018 Resolutions This year Ive decided to keep a daily checklist in a notebook that has what I need to clean around the house that day how much money Ive spent so I can deter my impulsive buys whether I took my lunch to work too all of my meds including my asthma meds I always forget Hopefully this will be a helpful coping technique for keeping things at home straight |
adhd | Potential One thing we ADHDers are great at doing is seeing potential We get excited and do the project half way then forget what we saw in the first place if we get that far at all 2018 right now has a ton of potential Those of who are newly diagnosed wont be so new next year Well have new people join and theyll be unsure whats next for them But more importantly all of our lives will be forever changed this year We have some control but the most important controlling factor we have is our attitude At least for me this year Im going in with great expectations for good things If bad things happen then so be it but Ill do my best to keep and open and positive mind about it We have the ability to see potential where others dont Lets use it and keep our fires going this year and get some serious work done in our lives |
adhd | Personal strategy to start doing work Ask yourself in your head what does me doing work and being productive look like Then try to imagine what doing work and being productive looks like Personally I find that to be super helpful to finding the motivation to do work Also I got three essays due tomorrow that I havent started yet so please pray for me |
adhd | 20F50 with windchill and we have been stuck inside the house all weekend Going nuts 4 year old cannot sleep in past 5am Running around the house like his feet are on fire So much energy I cant even function when I first wake up but then just irritable depressed and restless because its nearly impossible to get out of the house Potty training a 20month old and shes been running around pantsless since Friday Extra diligent making sure she doesnt pee in the house So far successful but it means we are even more tied down 3 day method seems to work wonders Cant wait to go back to work tomorrow but I know Ill be impatient and ready to be off later Can I ever be happy I just want to enjoy moments like this but Im so discontent everywhere I am I love my family but Im always waiting for the next thing and then disappointed when it comes that I keep looking forward to the future that I can never just be calm and satisfied Stir crazy Edit thank god for legos |
adhd | I probably cant be diagnosed What to do Woo So Im pretty sure I have ADHD Pretty much every official and unofficial symptom clicks with me on a daily My therapist thinks I have it and when I told my doctor he thought I had it too I know a few people diagnosed with ADHD and they think I have it In the UK you have to see an ADHD specialist for an official diagnosis and then thats what allows for meds So far Ive been kicked out of college once lost some jobs that should be easy and all of my personal projects over the years Ive been unable to finish Its impacted my relationships with a few people too There isnt any specialist in my area or in any of the towns or cities I can reasonably reach I could get a private appointment maybe but I cant afford it anyway by a long shot If I could I dont have the evidence required and doubt Id be diagnosed because the process here is awful Ive tried therapy exercise dieting to the extent I can afford meditation supplements and things I can find online like bullet journals pomodoro techniques and such Meditation helps a little but not much Supplements can help but I also cant afford them anymore Any tips or advice Thanks in advance |
adhd | Has ADHD ruined your adult life because you werent diagnosed as a child Long story short I was recently diagnosed with major depression general anxiety with lots of social issues and adhd The results of my evaluation revealed a 33 point difference in my verbal comprehension and my working memory My doctor says that is related to my adhd Do you guys and gals ever wonder what life could have been if you had been properly treated Im also new to this How do you deal |
adhd | Vyvanse and breastfeeding I have a two month old baby who is exclusively breastfed Im going on 30 mg of Vyvanse and possibly more depending on how effective 30 mg would be I would hate to have to wean my baby so young so does anyone know if it transfers through milk |
adhd | What were your favourite mobile or tablet apps of 2018 Especially for calendarroutine building and workout related or any other app which you really enjoyed as well |
adhd | Vyvanse lately has been keeping me up all night no matter when I take it This hasnt happened before Details in post So Im 22F 56 120ish lbs I have been taking Vyvanse for 3 years I used to take 20mg once a day but due to brain fog when it would wear off at about 4pm I began taking 30mg by stirring it in water and drinking half in the morning and the other half in the evening This was fine until about a month and a half ago Now if I take Vyvanse after 2pm I cant sleep at all at night But if I take half in the morning it wears off by noon I try to solve this by taking vitamin C and magnesium at night as well as Gabapentin which Ive been prescribed for anxiety but helps me sleep and it doesnt work anymore either Magnesium used to knock me out but now it keeps me up even longer I stop doing anything mindintensive after like 8pm and I dont drink any caffeine after 2pm either Today I went skiing for 4 hours so in theory I should be exhausted but Im still up and I even only had about 15mg of the 30mg I cant take melatonin because it makes me feel like I cant breathe which is also new Does anyone have any insight Im at the end of my rope I want to continue with Vyvanse because it helps with my anxiety and my brain fog but I dont know if I can live like this |
adhd | When I took some tests for ADHD I hope some of you laughsmile at this As an adult when I went to get diagnosed they had me take some tests For one of them the psychologist sat me in front of the computer and told me to follow the directions on the screen and something about pressing the spacebar to start or something I thought to myself Oh sure this will be easy Letters started to appear and disappear on the screen but no new instructions followed I started to wonder was I supposed to memorize these Was there some kind of pattern or order to them I was patient and waited and tried to stay focused Other than the letters there was just a simple white background After several minutes the test program stopped making letters appear The psychologist asked me Are you done already Well yeah but it was just a bunch of letters that appeared and disappeared Apparently I completed missedskipped over the whole bit where youre supposed to press the spacebar every time a specific letter appears on the screen or is that backwards Ive since forgotten I had to take the test again Had I been more attentive and not so impulsive I mightve noticed that these instructions were given to me beforehand Haha |
adhd | Taking Yourself Seriously On vs Off Meds Hey LONG time lurker 26m student chef Newly diagnosed medicated for a year to the day 3 days Happy New Year ADHDers Its crazy how much a year can allow a person to drastically change their life habits Ive been prescrbied medication CBT therapy since I was 12 years old Up untill last year 100 of those meds went right down the toilet and that CBT equated to me telling numerous therapists to go fuck themselves and that Im fine After failing out of college twice getting fired from several jobs destroying relationships turning to drugs and years of SEVERE alcoholism I knew something needed to be done I got the courage to see a doctor explain my life and my history with this fauxdisorder used as an excuse for laziness and drugs After just ONE YEAR of help from medication I am finishing college on great terms with family friends and am hiking from Mexico to Cananda on the Pacific Crest Trail OK anyway Ive been on a week vacation from meds and for some reason I feel like TOO MUCH of a goofball I cant stop laughing and joking and making fun of people who aretaking things seriously everything seems SO absurd and maybe they are and dumb I keep getting in trouble at work as anything asked of me is met with a beautiful soliliqouy of me fighting their anger with my humor I know I live in my own world when Im off meds and I love it and wish it was the way things actually were but Its hard for me to put on my realworld hat and have to force myself to act angry over trivial shit in order to seem like I simply dont care Is it me or is it them For example My executive chef my boss flipped a shit at work today because an order of scallops wasnt delivered YES THIS IS SERIOUS this is a huge err in the culinary world and it could cost the restaurant money and serious reputation BUT in my unmedicated mind I thought scallops arent in a place they should be HAHA and the pure absurdidty of that idea manifested in me accidenttly BURSTING OUT LAUGHING I got sent home for something that wouldnt have happened on meds Anybody have similar experiences of taking yourself things seriously on off meds any examples |
adhd | Why cant I stay interested in one thing stick on to it and work on it tenaciously Im 30 and Ive been diagnosed with ADHD and recurrent depression Since the vague memories of my childhood I can say without a second thought that my interests kept on shifting Im talented in music but I often get bored really fast doing music I love to read but I am often unable to sit and read a book peacefully Im fed up of this pathetic life I still dont know what to do with my life with all these everchanging desires If I had concentrated on music for years I would have been great at it But I never do that I am completely unable to stick on to anything I get bored of everything fast and I am highly intolerant to boredom Life seems completely pointless despite my medications My doctor tells me to start doing something along with the medication But I dont feel like doing anything Can someone please help me |
adhd | Just took 34 hours to finish one chemistry test This is why Im going into therapy in 2018 Taking that long on tests isnt sustainable realistically I need to learn tools on how to manage my focus better _ |
adhd | My Whole Life I Have Never Considered the Possibility of Having ADHD Need Advice Let me start by making this clear I have not been diagnosed to have ADHD by a doctor nor have I ever taken Ritalin or Adderall That is my next step I am not asking for a diagnosis from you fellow redditors I am asking for advice on what to do about having ADHD that does not lead me to having to take a pill everyday for the rest of my life I am not going to go into my symptoms because I do not need to prove anything I have taken an ADHD online quiz to give me a good idea whether or not I might have the disorder Please note I am not saying this online quiz gives me a proper diagnosis I feel if I do not say this people would be criticizing me saying Oh you cant get diagnosed from an online quiz Yes I know that I have taken Modafinil in an attempt to combat my symptoms I will tell you that it has SOME but truly does very little for me I need to focus and maintain focus and am desperate for it My whole life I thought I was just lacking will power or I was suffering from some nutrient deficiency or something which was causing this What can I do without having to go to someone else for help or prescription IF you cannot answer that question then please give some answer What has helped you or even fixed the disorder once and for all if you have something to share Thank you SO MUCH |
adhd | Long term side effects of ADHD medication Hey Im in my 20s and my therapist thinks I have ADHD After looking into it I think I agree He wants to put me on medication but Im concerned about the long term effects of the medication The particular drug he wants me to try is Modafinil Are there any negative long term effects of that medication If that medication doesnt work out he said we cant try others Any medications that I should avoid trying |
adhd | What do you prefer Reading paperbackhardback or on a tablet ie iPad or Kindle I find that physically holding a book makes the act of reading more immersive I bought an Amazon Fire 7 tablet and I feel really guilty for not using it that often but then again I cant seem to focus when reading on a display |
adhd | Taking my meds really feels like trading in happiness sociability and freedom for increased productivity and decreased weight Are there any ways to overcome this personal struggle Hello everybody Recently my parents have decided to lower my dose of concerta from 48 mg to 36 mg or something similar to that However when my dose was lowered my parents instantly noticed that I became more socialable and I actually had a conversation with them instead of the sarcastic snarks that I usually gave I have also started getting a lot less panic attacks when my dose was lowered in fact I cant even recall the last time that I had one so thats quite positive as well However I have also noticed that I have been slacking off on school tasks quite a lot Even though I still do my work I tend to procrastinate on it a lot more than I was before Additionally I have started to gain a lot more weight since I dropped to 36 mg This is my 5dayaverage weight The red line represents the point at which I lowered the dose of concerta Does anybody experience this personal struggle with medication or it is just me |
adhd | Today I started my quarterly goal I will lose 10 lbs by March 31st A challenging but doable shortterm welldefined goal with a rapidly approaching deadline Vague goals with far off deadlines never get done Im putting my deadline anxiety to work |
adhd | Ive read the hippocamous is larger in adhd Which is related to spatial memory this must be why I can drive all over the country and never get lost and remember every route and shortcut yet i cant remember half the names of streets lol Spelling is wrong tiny little buttons A few studies worth looking at besides 100 negative that they stuff down your throat The ADHD brain is different but not all is negative Id rather hear about the whole picture than cherry picking the worst of it to push medication for the pharmaceutical industry |
adhd | How do I deal with selfdoubt caused by my family Hello guys Ive been diagnosed with ADHD by my therapist a few months ago after she had the thought of it for a long time When the test results showed that I actually have ADHD it was a great relief because it made me realise that its not me being dumb and not being able to do anything right its a mental condition that makes certain things very hard But my family especially my brother tend to react kind of annoyed when I try to explain something by talking about ADHD Recently my brother and I had a conversation about that He said that I should not talk about ADHD that much because I am GetEatenByAMouse not ADHD which is obviously true and he thinks that I talk about it way too much When I talked about how Im trying to see the good things that come with ADHD for example being more creative he interrupted me irony and said that I was creative and ADHD had nothing to do with it And he said that he thinks ADHD is more like a collection of symptoms that some guy bundled together as to explain these symptoms And while I get what hes trying to say It makes me anxious I talk much about ADHD because its new and Im still learning so much I talk about it because that helps me see myself not as a failure but as someone who struggles And everytime he or one of my family asks so its absolutely certain that you have ADHD or but we never noticed it before I start to doubt myself What if I could do better What if I unknowingly use ADHD as a way to get out of resposibilities What if I dont actually have ADHD and my therapist ist wrong And I know these doubts have no reason behind them But i just cant stop thinking them Do any of you have similar problems If so how do you deal with it gt TLDR My family makes me doubt if my ADHDstruggle is actually real What can I do to stop doubting myself |
adhd | Im completely fixated on success while knowing full well I dont have the drive to achieve it and it kills my motivation I dont know if this has been covered a lot before I barely use reddit past looking at pictures anyway but Ive always been fixated on being super successful and imagining myself on chat shows and stuff sometimes I rehearse answers to questions I might be asked yes I am that sad But every time I think about how I might get there or about anything I have enough passion with to pursue my mind is just completely blank or reminds me of my terrible work ethic and it completely kills any of the little motivation I had in the first place I think its more I like the idea of success without any of the leg work Ive been diagnosed recently but its still very hard to shake the thought im just lazy and useless Dunno if this will resonate with anyone but just something thats been on my mind |
adhd | A little poem I made I am fishing inside my head Waiting for thoughts to reel in And slip out of my hands |
adhd | Is it ok to game while studying on Ritalin Im taking Ritalin to study and I feel like I need a break Would it be a bad idea to play a game and then go back to studying My friends thinks its all Ill think about because it raises my dopamine levels or something |
adhd | Will I get a new script the day my dose upgrades I am prescribed 20mg ir twice a day Last time I was in my doctor told me at my next visit if I feel like I need to up the dose to 30mg ir twice a day I can Well I still have about a week and a half until my 30 day prescription of 20mg is up but if I get switched to 30mg twice a day at my app tomorrow will he get me a new prescription for that day Or will I have to wait the week and a half to get my dose change I also pay out of pocket so insurance isnt a factor |
adhd | I am beginning to suspect that my coworkers hold me to a different standard than they hold themselves I got called into my managers office the other day and confronted although very gently with a laundry list of complaints that have been lodged against me When I was called in a bunch of things ran through my head that I was expecting to get shit for I thought maybe they would ask me to wear headphones when I am playing my music my job is with animals and has minimal public interaction so it is not weird to play music while cleaning feeding grooming etc or that my podcasts were too racey or that my buttcrack shows too much or that my style of banter is inappropriate or that my work style is too disorganized even though the work gets done As much personal dispute I would have with some of these at least they are things I know I do and I can see why people might have problems with Instead I got a laundry list of things that almost all fell into one or more of the following categories Mistakes I made once or twice that were characterized as things I do all the time Mistakes I made that I have seen countless other people make countless times with the same frequency Mistakes I used to make regularly but have since fixed on my own Mistakes that were made but not by me Outright falsehoods for example that I never do the laundry which I typically do at least twice a day Of course I said as much but my reluctance to fall into the pettiness by naming names and oh could I name names may have cost me some credibility I have really come to dislike the culture among my coworkers since I have always gotten a strong impression that people deliberately overreact to others making mistakes in order to make themselves look better When I first started the job I struggled a little bit due to my symptoms which were untreated at the time After getting medication I was able to step up my game and become an employee who is I believe on par with my peers However I think some people have seized on my poor first impression and fanned the flames deliberately to turn me into a cantdonuthinright scapegoat for all of their bullshit A friend of mine trying to help I am sure has been telling people I have ADHD but I think that in the average persons head all they hear is either making excuses or stupid I am a highly intelligent person I am not stupid even if I do brainfart things sometimes and I know it is obvious I am not stupid But people at work do tend to treat me as if I am giving me tips that insult my intelligence and always assuming I will do astonishingly dumb things I also think this has created a mentality where any time I mess up it is the rule while when other people do it it is the exception This is the only reason I can think of why I get such strong reactions to mistakes everybody makes and why people tend to view isolated incidents of me making mistakes as trends It is really frustrating and I am beginning to feel as if there is a conspiracy against me My civility toward my coworkers is beginning to wane as I am tempted to throw them under the bus for every little thing they do like they do to me I have not done this but I am finding it harder to let things slide or happily pick up others slack when they make mistakes like everybody does sometimes as I have always done Because I have always done that in the mentality of teamwork and community and having each others backs but clearly the sense of comraderie is not reciprocated I am struggling to keep my head above water and not descend into paranoia and pettiness especially since I do not know the specifics of who said what what exactly they said and how or why they said it But I am certain now that there is at least some aspect to it that is personal and I am definitely done trying not to take it personally |
adhd | Having trouble with concerta so Ive been on 36mg of perscription concerta for about half a year now and I only take it as needed which means I really only take it while school is in session when I first got perscribed the drug I was on 18 and I worked my way up to 36 today after not taking anything for about 2 weeks and also missing a couple days of my zoloft I took my regular 36mg at 730 ish this morning and its making me feel crazy I felt so hyper and pretty happy at first then anxious and restless then like I was going to cry and now 430 pm I just feel irritated and angry maybe its because i was behind on my antidepressant but today was just awful and i dont know what to do ive felt like shit the past two weeks tired anxious depressed low motivayoonenergy from not taking concerta and today i took it and was all over the place am i developing an addiction is that even possible i feel so stressed out normally the concerta makes me feel clear awake and focused i get shit done when I take it and when I dont I feel stagnant I just need some perspective on this because the more I think about it the more it stresses me out also for reference i have ADD generalized anxiety disorder and what my therapist describes as low grade major depressive disorder also known as dysthymia i am perscribed 36mg concerta as needed and 150mg sertralinezoloft daily |
adhd | Im a high schooler in need of assistance on choosing a psychiatrist for diagnosis After a couple months of persuasion I was finally able to get my moms permission to seek out a possible diagnosis due to my ADHD symptoms The problem is my mother doesnt speak English and so part of the deal was that I had to find a psychiatrist or psychologist on my own Im 16 years old which I believe makes me still a child and am looking for a diagnosis and medication if ADHD is confirmed since I plan on applying to colleges near the end of the year I read on the sidebar that psychiatrists can prescribe so I searched for some in my area Atlanta I have my list narrowed down to Dr David Tascarella Michael Joseph Rosen and the Atlanta Center for Adult ADHD I would greatly appreciate insight as to who to choose or even recommendations for other psychiatrists Thank you |
adhd | What are some tricks for word retrieval problems This is apparently common with adhd I have read some of the tricks online but they are all aimed at parents of young children with adhd So for those of us that do have Adhd what do you guys do to help you I want to say that I dont take medication and I dont intend to I have in the past many different kinds but I dont like the way I feel I know a lot of people say medication helps but I would like some alternative tips if at all possible Mainly I want to help others understand me in a conversation and not get impatient with me My fiances family struggles more than those who chose to be around me I can see the impatience in their eyes as I stutter and stammer and its something Im mildly selfconcious about even though my therapist says that I am very well spoken probably because I struggle so often to find my word that I have to rework my path with more colorful disruptions |
adhd | My medication lowers my heart rate I was officially diagnosed around a week ago and prescribed 18mg concerta Normally Im a very anxious person with racing thoughts that make it almost impossible to focus Id actually gone to the doctor before because my resting heart rate was so fast and was scared that there was something wrong with me around 120150 bpm So naturally I was very hesitant to try meds because I knew that they usually increase heart rate and anxiety so I was very suprised to find they actually had the opposite effect on me My resting heart rate is now down to around 80 bpm and my anxiety is completely gone Im very surprised and happy that such a low dose is so effective for me and that Im actually able to think clearly and not be a complete mess all day Has anyone else noticed this effect |
adhd | Love Vyvanse but want to try Strattera after bad side effects of long term use So Ive been on Vyvanse 30 mg for 2 and a half years now moving back down to 20 mg twice in that time to sometimes give my body a break I prefer the 30 mg but it is the highest dose I can take as I find it to be very strong in a good way when I take it but also because I am a naturally very underweight person However recently I have been finding that when I take my Vyvanse I have a very very high resting heart rate 105110 bpm and every so often I get a very slight ache in my chest right where my heart is I do have a history of heart disease in my family and Im sure the fact that I am very underweight does not help my high heart rate I absolutely love the effects of Vyvanse and since I am a grad student I kind of rely on it to help with my ADD But I dont not want to hurt my body more than I possibly already have or risk having a heart attack because it is a stimulant drug I have been on Ritalin and Adderal briefly about 4 and 5 years ago but neither of them were as good as the Vyvanse I have considered going to my doctor to ask about moving to Strattera and she has mentioned it before but I know that for a lot of people it does absolutely nothing or has very negative effects Has anyone had experiences moving from Vyvanse to Strattera that they would care to share |
adhd | ADHD Empowerment What is something that despite your disabilities and shortcomings makes you proud to be who you are What makes you different and valuable All too often we fall into the trap of thinking that we are inherently broken and unwanted but I believe we all have something to contribute regardless of who we are or how we function in society What makes you you |
adhd | So I tested positive for weed during my monthly doctors appointment Ive got another appointment in a little over a month if I fail that theyre gonna take my script away Any advice Long story short Ive been smoking weed every night for last 4 months My doc does drug screens during monthly checkups to make sure my adderall is being taken They found weed and called me this morning They said I need to take another if I fail Ill lose my script I tried to get more time to be clean but the nurse seemed to turn more against me as I said that so I lied and said I smoked about two weeks ago Im pretty sure Im fucked because I know it takes up to 60 days for weed to leave your system if youre a regular user Any advice Im trying not to panic Edit I live in New York |
adhd | Smoking and Ritalin Ive always been a social smoker or when I drink Not ever buying my own pack unless Im heavily drinking Well I drank a few days after I started my meds and it wasnt a lot but I smoked a cigarette and now its like I have this need to If Im working and stuff I dont need breaks but during my lunch or at home I crave it Does anyone else have this issue Is it my meds making me crave it My meds still make me feel slightly geeked but not as bad Its been 3 weeks |
adhd | Its hard to tell people Im ADHD Just recently Ive been diagnosed with ADHD and after so much doubt from my parents friends doctors and even myself I have a hard time telling others that Im diagnosed with ADHD I think my parents believe Im being overdramatic but they see it helps so they havent said much about it My friends think that having ADHD means that you have to be super hyperactive all the time and dont even realize there is different types of ADHD Previous doctors thought it was just depression and I thought that maybe I was just lazy Does anybody else have this problem |
adhd | Do you also have 2 different personalities I think one of the struggles of having ADHD is self awareness and fitting in I have 2 different personalities The first one I show to my family The second one I show to strangersfriendsworkmates basically everyone that Im not related with The first one I act myself I dont feel the need to fit in or act normal I just act how I want to act boring quiet weird People may see this as weird or socially awkward and thats the reason why I only show it to my family The second one I act like somebody I act cool or friendly I act like this to fit in make friends and be normal I dont really like doing this but I have to college and job purposes It gets tiring When I act like this the whole day I get very tired and I feel like getting a sensory overload or something at the end of the day If I act like my true self to everyone all the time Ill probably have 0 friends and 0 jobs Normal people just dont like being friends with weird people like me Im just curious if you guys also do something like this |
adhd | Overactive mind with a very good imagination So I dont know if this is just me going into one of those thought holes But I thought I would get a second opinion on my thoughts So basically over the past couple months I have had increasingly worse problems My brain never seems to shut down I have trouble sleeping and I can sometimes sit here for hours thinking about random things The thing is sometimes the things I think are extremely vivid Usually its not bad things its all logical things that could happen I usually think about every possible way a situation could go and then every situation that could happen after that thing etc etc until I have several ideas of how it could turn out Its everything from what if a terrorist attack happened and I was in the middle of it all the way to what I would talk about to them And the weird thing is one of the thoughts of the situation usually match what happens I thought this would be the best thread to post on as it could relate to someone who can talk to me about this Thanks to anyone who can help |
adhd | New to thisMeds thoughts Hey all Glad to find this thread My psychiatrist just told me I have a lot of flags for ADHD and my brother is on Vyvanse I took a bunch of screening quizzes online too and feel like it totally describes my experience and my daily struggle Ive been on meds for anxiety and depression most of my life which help and had good enough grades in school to get by though organization and sloppiness was always an issue I just graduated college and want to start my life less overwhelmed but am hesitant to get on another medication and become reliant on it Has anyone had success with a low dose of something and stayed consistent with that amount What meds have been helpful to you Lastly has anyone had success just treating it naturally or is that unnecessary torture if there are available meds I go to therapy and do yoga and am focused on health but it hasnt been enough Thanks |
adhd | Need advicehelp with mother I have ADHD my mother has ADHD Some days she just gets all defensive about everything At the same time she attacks you and thinks you should agree with her on everything yet any rebuttal and she is like this is my house and I shouldnt be attacked like this here She thinks she can attack you but you cant bring logic to the table and disagree Any help I am 32 years old btw She is not medicated I am I wish she would get medicated but thinks her sugar free diet will cure anything |
adhd | Is it possible to black out from sensory overloadstress Not being dramatic here this is almost what seemed to happen when I went to Goodwill last weekend The store I went to is usually pretty tame even around Christmas A busy Goodwill is normally not bad at all However this time was a damned nightmare and I dont know if it was a particularly bad holiday rush or just too much stuff that happened to be in the same store going on at once As soon as I walk in I pass two parents with a baby in the cart and a smaller child standing near them The parents are very loudly arguing about something as they wait in the checkout line and the small child is screaming at the top of his lungs like hes being murdered for no discernible reason So I think meh and grab a cart and start browsing I get to one of the aisles and I hear some kid from the toy aisle behind me testing out a toy I have no idea what sick bastard invented that toy and I have no idea what the toy IS just heard it but it basically is just a thing that sings Fur Elisein meows Just replace every note of Beethovens song with meows But that wasnt the worst part The worst part was when I guess the child got bored of listening to the whole song and decided he was just going to continuously spam the first two notes of the song Just this repetitive loud as fuck MEOW meow MEOW meow MEOW meow MEOW meow for about five or ten straight minutes At that point I felt myself getting shaky and panicky I moved away at that point to a different aisle The parents were still in line and still bitching at each other There was a store associate on the aisle Id moved to who was putting new items on the shelves but for some reason seemed to be throwing and banging them against each other as hard as she fucking could Every blow felt like an ice pick to my skull I tried taking refuge in the clothes but then the arguing up front with the parents got even louder because the dad started yelling at the screaming child I have no idea why the kid was screaming to begin with but the dad threatened to not buy some toy if he didnt stop Kid didnt stop Toy was put back Screaming got even LOUDER if thats even possible The point at which I had to leave was when the sales associate putting things away went over to the shelf of knicknacks near the clothing aisle and started once again slamming shit around I couldnt deal with it Went back to the car sat there for awhile to calm down and headed home I dont know if it was because I was tired or particularly grumpy that day but it was absolute agony for some reason I was sick to my stomach and had to wait before I felt fine to drive home Even the meds dont seem to affect the sensory overload but that day was as bad as its ever been |
adhd | Im going to be written upprobably fired if I am late for work one more time hi friends im finally posting on here after over a year of putting it off ha ha ha because of a dire emergency i am facing i am having a lot of difficulty coming to work on time usually being a minute or two late sometimes even 10 if i have a particularly hard time finding my wallet in the morning in most areas of employment im sure this wouldnt be too much of an issue but i work at a bank and banks are uptight and my supervisor is very strict anyways its really difficult for me to get to work on time because no matter how much time i give myself in the morning i always fall behind because of distractions while getting up procrastinating getting in the shower distractions making breakfast procrastinating getting out of the shower distractions getting dressed and of course the inevitable oh my god where is xyz i have a general strategy to help myself improve and i know im going to do better tomorrow because threat is usually the perennial motivator but im still just very very overwhelmingly sad and discouraged and figured i would share my experience with some people who know what its like many blessings everyone and happy new year TLDR ADHD inhibits my ability to come to work on time and its become a big issue and im really sad in the work bathroom which is super cold also |
adhd | Buying stuff and never using it We just did a big clear out over the Xmas break I was genuinely shocked to see how much stuff has been bought on a whim then discarded So many things still in their wrapper which were a great idea for the time it took to order them on Amazon but once delivered the great idea never quite made it to fruition The unopened packet of Dont forget postit notes was particularly poignant Software is another thing I dread to think how much money I have squandered on plugins I have bought then barely touched These timelimited oneclick holiday deals seem particularly cruel for us ADHDers Mindfulness is everything and I vow to make 2018 a less wasteful year |
adhd | Sleep study VENTVENTVENT So my primary referred me to a doctor for a sleep test I went in for the evaluation today and explained to him that I go days without sleeping and when I do sleep I wake up 45 times a night The following conversation then took place Him I see you take Mydayis Why Me I have ADHD Him Why do you think that Me Uhmbecause Im diagnosed Him You know theres no real test right What has convinced you that you have this disease Me Its not a disease Him I wont be giving you any medication to sleep You know that right Me Im not looking for more medication I want to know why I cant sleep Him Then stop taking this medication that you dont actually need And your problems will miraculously go away Needless to say I walked out I am fucking livid And ended my appointment in front of the doctors office crying So that was cool |
adhd | Vyvanse lasting about 67 hours Hey everyone Im new to this subreddit and I had a questions for people who encountered a similar issue to what Im experiencing I was diagnosed with ADHD 34 years ago and have been taking vyvanse ever since Adderall gave me multiple side effects so my doc and I chose to stay away from it Recently Ive noticed that Im starting to crash about 67 hours after Ive taken the meds which is unfortunate because thats when I get home from class and start doing all the studying Ive done some research and it seems that most people take boosters in the afternoon in order to combat this particular downside Im definitely going to speak to my doctor about it but experience has taught me that its better to get other patient accounts and research the issue before doing that Also I just want to mention that I have a BS in biochem and am currently in a Biomed Masters program so no need to explain how the drug works or any further science behind them Im just looking to see if taking a booster is my best option and if there are any other options Thanks |
adhd | Coffee acidity reducing Adderall effectiveness XR vs IR tldr is there a difference in the way the acidity in coffee affects Adderall effectiveness for XR vs IR New to Adderall 6 weeks and it has changed my life But I have noticed that when drinking coffee the Adderall doesnt seem as effective I believe its the acidity andor potentially that I often fast until 122pm so coffeewater are the only things I consume before that I havent quite figured out if delaying my first cup at least an hour or two makes a difference or not Does anyone know if the XR delivery mechanism means that when I time the coffee even matters This is the first time Ive been on stimulants so still learning all about how they work and affect me |
adhd | High schooler How do I start the new year Good morning I got diagnosed with ADHD at the beginning of January and managed to clean up the mess I made earlier in the semester grades wise but Im having bad anxiety about the new semester that starts tomorrow Does anyone have any suggestions about how to keep up with school work and activities without feeling like youre drowning in planning |
adhd | Organization App Rant Got up this morning and decided to start my day off on the right track and check my organizer app for my tasks of the day I almost never remember until at least part way through the day My subscription apparently ended with the new year No problem Ill either pay renewal or use the free version for a couple months Its gone They have taken down the app for an unknown amount of time to rebuild it I just spent the last hour going through all the home organizational apps in the app store and cant find another that meets my needs I shouldnt be this upset about an app but it was literally the only way I have found to stay on top of cleaning and cooking and other things that are my responsibility as the stay at home parent while also getting school work done So if anyone has a good way to keep on top of life or an app that keeps your organized at home please share it I am trying to start bullet journaling and may just need to make a part devoted to house maintenance Anyone bullet journal |
adhd | Does the idea of nonADDADHD people abusing Adderall enrage you Because it enrages me Because of people like them Im too scared to lodge my prescription with the campus pharmacy history of having suspicions of people who claim to have ADDADHD and probing people who do have it as a result and Ill just do it through the CVS a couple blocks down from my dorm I hate these people and their perceived idea that this is some miracle drug sure it brings YOU a high and focus but it makes me feel less crazy and more in control of my mind I need it to focus and live a more controlled life and what these people do trivializes ADDADHD and medication completely It disgusts me to no end TLDR Hate with a thousand burning suns nonADDADHD people abusing medication Do you |
adhd | Concerta helps me sleep Hi there Im diagnosed ADHD and I take Concerta about 5 days a week I take long breaks sometimes because it upsets my stomach btw are there any stimulants that dont Like a month on and several weeks off Ive also always had insomnia and a delayed sleep cycle I fall asleep at 7am sometimes However there have been several instances in which I havent been able to sleep at all and Ive decided to take my concerta early in order to cheer up and be productive for the rest of the day The problem is everytime I do this Concerta gives me this warm tingly feeling that makes me fall asleep in a matter of minutes It makes me feel so comfortable and nonneurotic Concerta naps are super refreshing I sometimes even think I should take Concerta at night Has anybody else experienced the same |
adhd | So I graduated in November Umm Life has been running so fast since the end of the uni year in November Australian here and its all just clicked together that Ive graduated I have a degree in forensic biomedicine Undergrad is over No more dumb classes to sit through and assignments to forget about No more letting people down in group projects cause my prioritisation skills are shitty Thank fuck Howd I get here honestly Haha Wooooooo Keep on trucking ADHD students of Reddit Youll get there and then be so distracted you wont realise youve graduated |
adhd | Looking for advice Im at a loss for improving my quality of life Hello everyone this is going to be a long one but Im just looking for any advice because I feel like Im falling into a mental black hole Luckily I am highly organized in the short term and hadnt struggled to maintain a day to day existence until now I struggle immensely with boredom and losechange focus every dayweekmonthyear never reaching any long term goals I set for myself This is beginning to catch up to me since I have to work to provide for myself and cant rely on family or school to keep me afloat For example I changed majors in school 5 times and cant seem to reach the fitness goals that Ive had for the past 6 years Everything feels like a damn yoyo when it comes to my mind I make some progress then due to anxiety depression andor my newly diagnosed ADHD everything is back to where I started because I lost interest or couldnt sustain focus The fact that I loathe working for other people doing jobs I couldnt care less about is another huge piece to my dissatisfaction puzzle I hate every job Ive ever had Everything becomes a huge bore and it becomes a mental prison with me counting down the seconds until I can escape Fortunately this doesnt keep me from doing the job well but it gets to the point where Im miserable mentally I was diagnosed about 4 months ago with inattentive ADHD at 24 years old I take Adderall IR in the morning to keep me from being the incessantly yawningtired individual I am without the meds The medicine helps but Im having a bit of an existential crisis coming to grips with the fact that if I dont take pills whether they be antidepressants I was on Sertraline for about 6 months after beginning to feel the onset of panic daily just from sitting at the computer at my last job or stimulants I begin to feel the onset of hopelessness I am about 2 years out of college with a degree that is not so great I studied graphic design videography photography and sound design largely because I didnt know what else to do and I was good at design in the past However the depth of knowledge was never substantial in any subject and I came out largely uncompetitive with people who had been to art school or a focused design program The full time job I got after being unemployed for 8 months also didnt provide me with many opportunities for improvement with my design skills I was the only designer on the team and was stuck working within very limited brand guidelines This has caused me to be even further behind the game when it comes to presenting a portfolio to potential employers At this point I want to give up on design because Ive lost interest and dont feel like trying to catch up any more The risk v reward is not good enough for someone whose heart is no longer in it Id like to pursue something else but Im petrified of picking something only to waste another few years ad nauseum Now Im so very fortunate to be on the other side of the world on a working holiday visa but the only problem is that Im stuck doing the same shit type jobs I had before just in a tourist destination Im back to counting down the minutes until I can leave work and cry on my walk home The other working holiday makers seem to be functioning well with their jobs but I hate the fact that I cant figure out and work toward a career that will suit me I feel like a failure and to be honest very ridiculous To an onlooker it would be the best scenario enjoying the sun in paradise with not a care in the world But to me the depressed anxious ADHD dude Im losing it My history just makes me feel like no matter what I choose I wont be happy and Ill never progress so whats the point TLDR Im feeling very aimless due to a lack of career direction and my quality of life is slowly being destroyed by anxiety depression and ADHD Ive hated working since I started at 16 but think I could do well if I just found something to pour my heart into The only problem is that I lose interest in everything I dont know what to do |
adhd | I keep beating myself up and I just cant work Im in first year college and taking a computer programming course and the first semester is about to end Im close to failing or close to passing in all my classes I feel like an idiot I just cant focus I can never get any work done and Im just lost How do I get in check what can I explore or do to help myself Ive spent so much time on rADHD and all your amazing posts just seem to daunting for meI dont know what kind of adhd I have and Im not on any meds Edit spelling |
adhd | adhd and paths bad combo maybe its just me but when im in an open world game any designated pathroad is completely ignored i just cant follow it |
adhd | Adderall High vs Adderall effects So Ive been taking adderall for about a month now Im on 40mg of IR a day spaced out into 30mg and then 10mg to ease the comedown I tried XR but the side effects irritability back pain depressedanxious comedown etc were significantly worse I process medications very strangely due to a variety of liver enzyme deficiencies so my case may be irregular One question I had was the distinction between the high and the effects So I take the pill and it starts to kick in in 15min and about an hour or two later I think I peak I feel energetic euphoric able and focused I dont like the high for a variety of reasons most of which is I dont like drugs in the abstract but thats neither here nor there Then about half an hour after that I sorta crash begin craving cigarettes and feeling hungry but still more focused than I was without the adderall I usually take the second pill when the first one has entirely worn off So an example of an adderall timetable how I took it today would be 1256 PM Take the dose 230300 PM Peak 320330 PM Crash Still focused but hungry craving cigarettes no Euphoria So Im hoping what this is is that I get a short high when I take it and then that goes away and Im just focused So my question is is there any distinction between the high and the intended medicinal effects Or is the high itself the medicinal effect Either way this period seems rather short Also does anyone know if dexedrine is an easier comedown emotionally Because adderall tends to make me depressed and anxious when I come down |
adhd | Major Difficulties With Listening To Long Detailed Conversations I find the most challenging aspect of my ADHD is the difficulty of following a long and detailed talk with someone Most people just think in a completely different way than I do I often dont go out a lot or for long to meet people because its just mentally and emotionally exhausting Even if I like the person I find all that trouble outweighs the benefits If I have to follow a conversation too long my mind really tries to shut itself down and escape the situation This is too bad as Id like to meet more people I really cant see a way pass this I have not taken any ADHD meds Does anyone have any tips |
adhd | Lost and trying to find help Need some advice Im not sure what to do I went to a doctor as a kid and was told I had ADD was given medicine which I took once and refused to take more and never thought of it again Now Im in my mid thirties struggling to keep a job struggling to keep my marriage together struggling to keep myself together My insurance was supposed to be started in November but I forgot the deadline and put it in too late Now I have to wait until March to reapply Until then I am not sure what to do With everything else going on in life I have had to take some time from work which is affecting our finances I am the only income at the moment while my wife takes care of our kids Some family has been helpful right now but Im not sure it will be enough Anything that I can do to try and calm my brain or any advice would be welcomed Just trying to hang on |
adhd | GP thinks Im pretending to have ADHD for the lulz Typing this on mobile so sorry for the formatting Also Im ranting Ive been dealing with this cough for a few days now Last night however the fever started I thought I could sleep it off but woke up this morning barely able to breathe shivering and sweating at the same time GF was already at work so I decided to go to this small clinic nearby GF said she will take me to the hospital as soon as gets off work but I told her I could still walk a little bit and maybe the fresh air would do me good So I lumbered on to this clinic coughing virus along the way and cant quite figure out if Im hot or cold The GP meets me and while she was writing prescription asks if im taking any I told her Im on Concerta 36mg She asked what it was for and i told her And she did this tiny condescending smirk or smile And said the very words that made me storm out of her office But youre not a child anymore You dont have ADHD Ask for a 2nd opinion I can recommend a great dr for you Otherwise your just wasting time and money I passed by the registration and they politely reminded me that I still need to pay So I did it was minimal as I fortunately have a great insurance But as I was paying I made sure to voice my concerns loudly to everyone within earshot But im still sick and furious and waiting for my GF to drive me to the hospital rant |
adhd | Recently diagnosed with ADD and receiving medication feel like Ive lost connection with who I am as a person Is this something that goes away I was recently diagnosed with ADD after years of struggling a lot in academic settings At first I was relieved and happy for finally receiving the help I need The first few days with medication Concerta 18 mg allowed me to study like I never had before The buzzing in my mind went away my mind was a lot clearer and even though the side effects can be ghastly I was able to cope with them The main thing however is that I feel like Ive kind of lost connection to who I am to a person I dont know where my ADD starts and ends I dont know how much of my personality was caused by it Sometimes I feel like I miss who I was before my medication because its who I was for decades before this its like a friend who I was never aware was just went away I was familiar with that person and comfortable with who I was to an extent Now Im not If you really asked me to pinpoint what exactly was different I cant really give an answer but I just know Im not familiar with who I am now Its all quite confusing and tiring to try to think about Is anyone else familiar with this situation and if so what iswas your approach to it |
adhd | Is this normal on ADHD meds Ive taken ADHD meds off and on Im ADHDI Currently Im on Mydayis 25 mg Ive also taken AdderallRitalin Vyvanse and Concerta When I first start I experience side effects I have lots of energy and no appetite I only sleep a few hours After a few days these go away I always thought this meant the med wasnt working Is this expected that these effects wear off as you get used to the drug or am I just building a tolerance Thanks for any insights |
adhd | How do you unwind Adderall has changed my life But its come at a cost It keeps me awake and makes me search for a way to unwind It seems that nowadays Ive started to drink more than Id like Is this something that is normal in people with ADHD I know it runs in my family and Im afraid I have alcoholic tendencies What are some alternatives to calm the sideeffects of Adderall or any other medicine |
adhd | How do you think how does the voice in your head sound When I was a kid I didnt always think in words There werent much images either Thoughts were usually abstract and it felt like my thoughts were going by very fast It also caused me to speak very fast Ive never spoken to myself in my head However I do think out aloud when Im trying to organise stuff eg this books goes here that file goes there wheres my pen I often imagine conversations with others and those are in actual words but my own thoughts remain mostly abstract |
adhd | Dating a person with ADHD and struggling how much can one with ADHD change TLDR ADHD is causing issues in relationship so how much is it realistic to expect someone to change with ADHD Ive been dating someone with severe ADHD for a little under 2 years Hes a wonderful human kind funny caring and more I also adore his family Weve been very serious since we first met But over the course of our relationship his ADHD symptoms have worn me down and Im starting to think that I might not be able to be the partner he needs and vice versa because of it Hes 35 and was only diagnosed at 22 or so which I realize means unlearning a lot of behaviors from his youth He has gone to therapy on and off since diagnosis as well as trying medication At my urging he is now in consistent therapy and taking adderall While I do notice a difference from before its definitely not a huge change which scares me for a potential future for us Heres the situation while he has a job and pays his bills on time most of the time I think he still seems to lack a lot of ambition and is overwhelmed by accomplishing many tasks like pursuing a new job This is especially true for things that may involve his failure which usually results in him stalling on things for as long as possible When hes pushed about these things he tends to say hes working on it despite appearances to the contrary or say that hes working on it at his own place and doesnt want to be shamed about it His executive functioning skills are relatively low one of the first conversations with his mom included her saying I hope you have good executive functioning skills because he certainly doesnt This has led him to do things like forget his wallet at work a number of times put off scheduling things like trips house hold maintenance or doctors visits not cook and get takeout every night etc These things stress me out I worry about having to take on the bulk of household responsibilities one day if we were to get married but I think I could learn to live with some of this The real problem is our communication its just in the toilet at this point His mind runs so fast that I frequently dont know what hes talking about Ill often try to get clarification early on in a conversation but more frequently am losing my cool out of frustration and snap at him that I dont know what hes talking about This really upsets and hurts him understandably so but Im also tired of not being able to connect with my partner over what hes saying He also is very chatty sometimes talking at length so that no one else including me can get a word in His texting is similar with him sending me text after text after text regardless of whether I respond I know this isnt the case but its almost impossible to not feel like he doesnt care what I or others have to say in these moments and makes following his stories harder It can also be overwhelming Hes also reactive which can stress me out especially as I grew up in an abusive home environment and am triggered by strong outbursts or what my silly brain perceives as dangerous situations The reactivity used to be worse and he has made some progress in this space especially with driving I used to be very uncomfortable in the car with him because he would drive very quickly andor check his phone frequently But hes still difficult to be around at times reacting to stories about my work or life stress with a bigger or more aggressive reaction than I even have which then causes me to feel like I need to calm him down When he reacts strongly I can often become anxious which frequently leads to him becoming even more reactive It has led me to either NOT share information or play down stories if I think it may make him reactive Conversely if hes not talking he is frequently hyperfocused on his computer and the tv and his phone all at the same time making connecting romantically very difficult If he feels shame which has been happening more and more as Ive been snapping more and more and outlining how his actions come across he reacts very strongly in an angry way which has led to loud drawn out ugly fights One minute he is reacting in a way that seem very hostile and the next he is calm and telling me exactly what I want to hear which often leaves my head spinning and causes my fear of abandonment to flair up I work in a very demanding job basically my dream job and am going to graduate school at night so my time and bandwidth is extremely limited This has put added pressure on our relationship since I started school last fall and my job last spring My patience is extremely limited and I know I havent been a great partner for the last few months between everything I have going on and the fighting weve been doing I really want to be a more patient understanding partner but at this point in my life I know that is going to be hard for me to do without quitting my job or ending school which arent options Hes told me Im mean in the way I point out things and need to be more patient if things are going to work Im somewhat hopeful that I will be a better partner for him when I finish school at the end of 2018 But before starting my new job we did go to couples therapy for a few sessions and it didnt seem to have a huge impact Hes continued in therapy with the counselor we saw for couples therapy but it doesnt seem like theyve made a lot of progress on his communication skills or executive functioning skills It also sounds like he went to a renowned ADHD expert back in his 20s who told him that compared to many adults with ADHD his executive functioning skills werent that bad so Im not sure if he really things he needs to change much and that I perhaps just have too high expectations Solooking at the biggest problem areas executive functioning communication issues and reactivity what is realistic in terms of expectations for how much someone with ADHD may changework on these behaviors I realize that the ADHD will never go away but will he always be talking over people or reacting so strongly that it overwhelms me How can he change if it seems like he feels shamed and unloved every time I point out how some of his actions hurt me I really do love this person and have imagined a future with him but were currently taking a week apart without speaking to evaluate things because weve been fighting so badly and Im worried that we may not be able to make this work Apologies for the rant but Im really looking for any input guidance or reality checks that may help here |
adhd | Tolerance build up I started on 5mg ir twice a day on adderall It didnt last as long as it should So doc bumped me up to 10 mg ir twice a day Im on my 3rd month I feel like its not lasting as long as it should again I have one more script before I go back to chat with him Is it normal for tolerance to build quickly I would like to bring it up but I dont want him to feel as tho Im high searching This medicine really works for me and I am able to be motivated and get so much more done than I used to Has anyone else had a quick tolerance build up |
adhd | Dealing with unpleasant thoughtsfeelings when my CBT and other nonmedicinal coping mechanisms dont seem to work I am no stranger to having untoward thoughts and feelings I have an ADHD diagnosis though I also suspect CPTSD and Ive worked fairly hard over the past several years at CBT mindfulness regular exercise healthy eating and getting enough sleep to work through these times and Ive gotten to a place where it typically helps I have found starting on vyvanse 6 months ago has helped a lot as wellseems to help me stay more logical and able to utilize my nonmedicinal coping strategies better or just ignore the thoughts that dont need addressing Truly Ive been in a better place emotionallycognitively the past 6 months on vyvanse then possibly ever in my life and I am grateful for that when I look at the big picture However I still get the occasional storm of thoughtsfeelings that none of the above strategies seem to help and I feel trapped in an immature and illogical brain that is out of my control when it happens Some examples include the general feeling of being a failure the feeling that loved ones in my life dont love me the feeling that Im terrible at my profession etc When Im not in one of these funks I can quickly acknowledge or discard thoughts as needed be confident in my analysis of the situation and if anything needs to be handled regarding a situation approach it in a reasonably mature and logical manner If Im in one of these weird cycles I attempt the same strategies and they dont work and my brain feels overwhelmed with the feeling that all the bad thoughtsfeelings are true and must be based in reality This feeling of my brain and emotions seeming completely out of my control is distressing and disconcerting Beyond feeling uncomfortable Ill sometimes approach people often my husband in an emotional and illogical manner and theyre like huh whats going on here My husband has started to be annoyed by these cycles bc its a wash rinse and repeat cycle that I cant seem to prevent or control Beyond that I can often stand outside myself and recognize these times as being something goofy going on in my brain not sure why tell myself it will pass but then I feel so down on myself like what am I dont wrong to still have these how can I handle them better and which thoughts during these cycles if any can I trust And I then feel like a failure for even having these cycles at all And then usually Ill wake up one day and I feel in control again These episodes can last a few days to a week or 2 used to be every few months but has been maybe 2 weeks total out of the past 6 months since starting vyvanse Is this relatable at all |
adhd | Relationships post medication Previous relationships have been unmedicated but have ended messily so Im still worried about this aspect of myself It generally would start with an all consuming urge to be with someone that would fade to nothing or even to negativity fairly quickly I suppose thats normal for people but I think it was more intense for me because it seemed to happen a lot faster with me than for them Im back on the dating scene now but Im a bit wary because I dont want to end up hurting any more people Anyone have any experience post medication Methylphenidate for me |
adhd | i only really miss my exboyfriend of 3 months when im coming down from dexedrine AKA right now and i just found out hes already dating somebody new i dont even know why im posting this and i feel so pathetic but god being in love with someone who doesnt love you back sucks and so does coming down from amphetamines |
adhd | I finally told my mom about the problems I have been having in schoolsocial life After months of consideration of deciding to tell my mom about how hard school has been for me to focus like i used to be able in the past I finally decided to tell her tonight I have problems with paying attention and fidget a lot during certain long boring classes in high school I have had a 35 GPA and higher for all of my schooling and now things have been getting harder and harder to pay attention to and focus I have many other symptoms and get very aggressive at times and I think enough is enough and its time to do something about it I look back now and I remember all the times I forgot my phone on the way out the door or forgot where I put my keysremote but the thing is I have very good long term memory I end up interrupting teachers and talk out of turn a lot I am acutally considered the funny kid in my grade I was pondering not telling her for a while because if I ever considered the military as a career path I couldnt enlist because of it After thinking about it I feel I needed to tell her that I am not doing as well as I did years ago She also notices my grades have been slipping and I did as well and after investigating the counter a few months ago I realized her herself is taking vyance for some add adhd related symptom She has mood swings every now and then and is a pain to live with and I think she might be BiPolar I do not belive I am bipolar I had a girlfriend that to my understanding had a very bipolar personality and would not let me talk to other girls because she got jelous she actually blocked me when I went out with a couple of my friends She was very clingy and I am happy that is over I have OCD and so does she and guessing whatever she has is hereditary I am also burdened She was very open to the idea and is making an appointment with our GD Best wishes from me as I will soon receive help and may update you on it soon |
adhd | When do I notice positive changes with Strattera Hey guys Ive been on Strattera for a bit more than a week now and I honestly cant say I see any good changes I get dizzy cant eat have a constant need to drink water and feel even less focused than before When does it get better Thanks |
adhd | Ambitious plans that are never seen through I am VERY ambitious and plan miniature weekly projects I have to do a certain number of things from my list which isquite large every single day or else I feel horrible Whenever I go to the library I come home with 525 books ampnbsp Heres the problem I dont go through with my plans This type of thing has been going on for years Ive been prescribed adderall before but ive always prioritized using them for work and school and never for misc stuff like reading for fun or doing projects ampnbsp TLDR I make long todos lists daily make plans for ambitious weekly projects and borrow 525 books from the library but never really carry out my plans ampnbsp Anyone else like this If so how did you deal with it |
adhd | Adderall Comedown Im sure this has been discussed before but Im pretty new to Reddit so please bear with me Im a female early 20s been naturally thin all of my life I found out I had add freshman year of college and was prescribed adderall xr 25mg as needed Now Ive noticed that I have no desire to eat on it and since I just started a really intense job I take it maybe 34 times a week Because of this on top of naturally being thin Im thin as hell now I dont like it its awful Whats worse though is the comedown Ill feel very productive at work I can focus Im happy and feel successful but after I get off I feel like hell Like nothing is good in the world like Im guilty about literally any given thing I could feel bad about Luke Id be better off dead I know its the adderall making me feel this way but I cannot stand it I know I have ADD and I feel as though I cant keep up with my job without the adderall or some sort of ADD medicine Im seeing my primary doctor later this week who prescribes me my medicine would you all suggest maybe some sort of stimulant that at least has a gentler comedown One that doesnt suppress my appetite would be great as well but if I had to choose one thing to focus on its the comedown I can force myself to eat if I need to I cant force myself to be happy Or any other advice on dealing with ADHD medicine comedown effects it would mean a lot to me Thank you so much and happy new year |
adhd | Does Vyvanse or Ritalin help with studying as an adult going back to school Just started going back to school to finish my degree and was diagnosed with ADD Was prescribed Ritalin with a few questions for those that have been taking it for a while Ive always lacked motivation although I enjoy learning staying focused has always been an issue because my mind is racing 100mph Anyone have trouble focusing while on Ritalin Whats it like once you start studying or doing homework |
adhd | ADHD and head injuries So almost a month ago I was involved in a serious car accident that I have no memory of I already had ADD At first I knew basic things like what year it was but couldnt tell you what building I was in Now the therapists are saying that Im making really great progress and I feel like I can handle norma daytoday life on my own its the advanced complications with therapy lawyers etc that I need help on Pretty good considering Im also occasionally having to really stop and think about things that I normally wouldnt have to the name of a notthatlongago ex or what was that city next to Disney World It feels a little bit like to borrow from the movie InsideOut like several dozen shelves containing my individual memories have been knocked over and the memories scattered around While none of those memories have been lost they feel like theyve been disconnected from the usual system and I have to hunt around for a while to find them So my questions are 1 Does anyone have any advice involving ADD and head injuries And 2 The border between whats normal for me and what is not is kind of fuzzy Are there any tricks for knowing the difference beyond what would you normally know which is kind of uselessly vague and hard to nail down |
adhd | Been trying to clean my room for over a month now Guess what Im doing on my only off day this week Slept til 5 and now Im hungry and then Ill prob be get and sleepy and it still wont get done the neverending cycle man |
adhd | What kind of music helps you focus on work I work in an open office environment I am allowed to wear headphones I usually listen to instrumental hip hop Is there another kind of music people like for helping with focus |
adhd | Having ADHD is like trying to navigate with a broken compass I know what I need to docomplete yet I cant move due to being overwhelmed by deciding which path to take Im easily distracted or think about possible outcomes depending on which direction take I dream about the destination without ever taking a step My medicine is what makes my compass work It doesnt change my situation but how I navigate |
adhd | I realized recently that I have a fear of getting into trouble Im in my 30s I realized that a lot of the ways in which I react to things at home and at work stem from a fear of getting into trouble For example when Im at work I immediately become anxious if my manager asks to see me in her office despite the fact that Ive never gotten into trouble at work At home when my husband asks me to clean up a mess I become defensive because I automatically think hes mad at me Im starting to think that reaction stems from my ADHD and having always gotten into trouble as a kid I was wondering if anyone else experiences this |
adhd | My ADHD was a side effect of a bigger problem Im 100 there is a large number of people out there on this subreddit that have this same problem Im about to describe I had mild ADD throughout my whole life but nothing that really hindered me Near the end of middle school and going into high school it seemed to get so much worse and I eventually saw a doc and was prescribed Vyvanse Things were great for a while but I still felt strange that I just developed ADD in a few years After nearly 2 years of taking the medicine and doing fine I eventually did enough research to figure out what my problem was I had internet addiction and was on the computer for the majority of my days at the time The reason this is such a problem is because of how internet addiction greatly hinders your ability to set long term goals and it lowers your attention span significantly After lowering my time online to pretty low levels I began to feel different after a few months and my medicine made me more wigged out than anything I decided to stop taking it and my normal mind felt like like it had reset I could generally concentrate on what I was doing and didnt constantly daydream for long periods of time This made me realize that the number of people with ADDADHD isnt rising over the years doctors are just mislabeling the side affects of internet addiction because they are so similar I just wanted to share this so hopefully some people who maybe developed ADD later in there life can see if it is linked to there internet usage Alrighty well thanks for reading and have a good day fellas |
adhd | Can anyone recommend good introductory material to explain to friendsfamily about ADHD and what its like to have it Ive tried to explain to my boyfriend how it affects me and he tends to respond with things like yeah that happens to me too sometimes Sure but these things happen to me every single day It might be good ol selfdoubt creeping in again but I feel like he doesnt believe or understand how much of a real problem ADHD is Id really like to send him something he could read to start to understand because I kinda feel like I cant explain it to him from scratch without like undergoing the emotional strain of feeling like I have to justify my illness as real Any material you think is good for ADHD beginners would be greatly appreciated |
adhd | How to go to the psychologist Its a serious question I havent been diagnosed yet but im pretty sure i got adhd and I dont have any idea where the fuck i should start |
adhd | Who elses parents smokedabusive Ive noticed a lot of us come from backgrounds where secondhand smoke during early childhood and childhood trauma are fairly common Bedwettingfire starting hyperfocus in arts and other crafts arent out of the ordinary |
adhd | Looking for tips on how to find a more ADHDfriendly family practice doc So heres my situation I live in Minnesota but travel out of state frequently for work My current provider will only write 30day prescription which cannot be requested in advance but generally take 34 days to refill Frequently I find myself in a situation where I need to leave for a work trip often to states such as California which do not accept outofstate prescriptions but do not have enough medication to last the trip Similarly there have been instances where it takes them so long to send the script that Ive left before the pharmacy can refill again being proactive in requesting refills is not an option as they will not refill until 30 days has elapsed I do well cooping with my ADHD when I have my medication and take it every day However not having my meds puts me in tailspin which is exacerbated by the stress of work travel Anyways Im tired of this bullshit I need to find a doc who can be flexible with my circumstances without treating me like Im a pillfiend But Im all in my head about how to find a new doc I feel like if I come out and explain my situation other docs will jump to the conclusion that oh this person is just out to get as much pills as possible at once If anyone has any recommendations on how I should approach this I would be eternally grateful |
adhd | Peter Shankmans new Faster Than Normal Book Whos Read It I just finished it over the course of 2 days lol and it had some really helpful ideas re how to better manage symptoms pitfalls and triggers While some of his habits are hard to replicate for most getting up at 3AM every morning to a fullylit room doing all of his work on airplanes and getting his dopamine fixes by skydiving often I really did resonate with the idea of figuring out exactly what your triggers are that keep you from being focused and eliminating them Spend hours in front of your closet Whittle down your wardrobe and set your clothes out the night before Know youll get into an online chat frenzy when you need to get stuff done Dont even open the page before a certain time Find out what music makes you get into the zone Use apps and automation to help eliminate the fluff Make dopamine work for you not against you Wondering if anyone else has gotten a chance to read and share their thoughts |
adhd | New here Just found this subreddit and it makes me so happy to see others that understand what living with adhd is like I feel like the world isnt so scary anymore now that I see theres other people like me So thanks guys I guess haha |
adhd | Can ADHD Affect Your Sex Life I kinda already know the answer to this but looking for some more anecdotal evidence I know for me it was harder to focus before I went on meds which made my partners feel kinda How do I put this appropriately Inadequate Which made me feel awful amp I know people tend to either be more hypersexual or hypo What about relationships Does it affect yours in any way |
adhd | Ok guys its now 1pm and Im ready to start work All I had to do was feed the dogs go grocery shopping talk wthe wife cook lunch oh why not cook dinner while Im at it oh cool theres a lot on reddit today edit aaaand instead I recorded a Vince Guaraldi song At least Im productive |
adhd | Really having a hard time determining if my medication is causing my irritability and aggression I was diagnosed with Adult ADHD 3 years ago At first I was given Wellbutrin which seemed to work great for a month then I just got mean as my wife put it and I stopped taking it I was then put on Adderall It worked but I hated feeling all jittery About a couple months ago I was put on Strattera and it was working great My mind didnt feel like thousands of people talking over each other I was finally focused didnt forget things and was motivated to get things done I was sociable wanted to talk to people wanted to spend time with my kids etc One thing I did notice about Strattera was that I did not want to put up with bullcrap If I felt like someone done me wrong I let them know My wife dropped off lunch for me and instead of waiting for me to come down and get it when she called 2 minutes from my office to car she left it on my car and left I was so mad because I felt I wasnt worth an extra minute to her and this not being the first time shes done that I get in a huge fight with her about how I wish she would have waited an extra minute for me and bringing up all the times I take on my lunch break to bring her lunch directly to her office and actually spending time to her She said the Strattera is making me mad and took the medication away from me So here I am almost 2 weeks later without it and I can barely function at work I have forgotten things with clients forgotten my wedding band in the bathroom everytime I go it seems like Strattera made me feel perfect like it was a missing puzzle piece Now its a battle in my head whether I keep feeling miserable like this to appease my wife or take Strattera or something else and be an asshole yet functional and motivated I dont know what to do |
adhd | Im in such a weird predicament and want to vent Sorry for the weird formatting but this works for me Back when I worked full time I would take 2 XR 10 mg adderalls a day as prescribed I had a mental breakdown in August and quit my full time job didnt feel fulfilled or appreciated after 3 years I was jobless for 3 months Tried figuring myself out to no success probably because I was smoking weed and it left me in a dazed state during that period Eventually started looking in October and got a job in Nov as a temp 30 more pay but no insurance Today only 14 capsules left I take 1 xr once every 10 days usually on days I feel absolutely depressed I feel likes it has become a break glass if meltdown is imminent on the other 9 days my work is pretty bad Anyone else in a weird situation when it comes to their meds and life situations Im in need of advice Thanks yall tldr quit old job now a temp with no insurance limited Adderall left |
adhd | Experiences with medications plz Im truly a drug fiend at heart so I stay far away from drugs I exercise eat pretty decent but no matter what Ive tried I have absolutely no motivation Ive always wanted to try medication hoping for a miracle motivation thing But OMG I so do not want an addicition Has medication helped you with motivation I also think i understand that these medications are like a speed Does it make you feel good That is what I need to stay away from the ones that make you feel good |
adhd | What did I accomplish today Well I spaced out noticed that ten minutes was equal to 600 seconds and then proceeded to count to 600 Not until I got to 456 did I realize that I was going to be counting for ten minutes All while I was supposed to be working on a project Good fucking job Noah |
adhd | Being diagnosed as an adult in the UK I want to speak to my GP about getting a proper diagnosis but Im worried cos Im at uni and my grades arent that bad that theyll think Im just faking it to get meds or something Also I was reading info on the NHS and it said they might ask parents questions about when you were a kid but my parents would definitely not cooperate Im pretty sure they dont even believe ADHD is a real condition |
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