AnnoMi-client/dev.tsv

video_name	text	label	task
AnnoMi-client_100_124.mp4	No, no. It is an individual but you're right. Yeah. It's— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_126.mp4	But here's the thing is— 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_128.mp4	Right. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_130.mp4	The thing is after, you know, after the 9/11 attacks, a lot of companies have blindly implemented, you know, those types of situa- and-and there's no- there isn't, at this point-- I mean, I don't think, at this point, there is no real sure fire way to find out what those reports are, you know, accurate or not. I mean, there's a lot of situations where people's reports are not even accurate about their criminal background. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_132.mp4	I think that- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_134.mp4	-blindly, people have implemented those types of, um, measures and they don't have any efficiency with them because they don't- you know, I mean, everybody is offering background checks now and stuff like that. And I'm- that's one of the things that I'm afraid of is that people are implementing all these security security measures, but they don't really know if the reports are even accurate, you know. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_136.mp4	I have. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_138.mp4	Yeah, I do. I have one and, uh, um. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_140.mp4	Right, yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_142.mp4	Yeah. Thank you. I don't know. I'm just, I guess- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_144.mp4	-what I'm really— 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_146.mp4	Yeah, I'm really here because I think I'm- I-I- It's a very dangerous area for me when I'm discouraged because- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_148.mp4	-you know, all the- despite all the good things that I have going for me, the only thing that's loud and clear are the things that I don't have going for me. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_150.mp4	If that makes any sense. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_152.mp4	Thank you. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_154.mp4	Yeah, yeah, I am. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_156.mp4	Oh, okay. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_158.mp4	Very interesting. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_160.mp4	Yeah, again, it's like who you know, right? 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_162.mp4	I know that- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_164.mp4	Yeah, well, I think that's what I got. That's what I am doing. That's what I'm sort of involved with now is like, you know, find, um, you know, I'm still continuing to go to school, but I'm also starting, um, work for myself. Um, you know, it's not no Fortune 500 company or anything, but I do have a little bit of income coming in from that. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_166.mp4	Um, it-it, uh, you know, it will all come together. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_168.mp4	You know what? Actually, one of the things is that I read is that is that's one of the things you gotta do is just, uh, start your own business. You know what I mean? Uh, you don't have to report to anybody. I mean, obviously, I can't work with, um-- unless I get a waiver I can't work with, like, I think the law says I can't work with kids or, um, like a hazmat stuff. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_170.mp4	Like truck driving and stuff like that. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_172.mp4	Uh, but that doesn't matter to me. You know what I- you know, I'm kind of- I'm trying to look at the things that I can do. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_174.mp4	Right. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_176.mp4	No, it's, um, uh, like a party planning event, you know, like a wedding planning, not like a wedding planner, but like— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_178.mp4	Like, you know, like corporate events when they have, you know, like an event, you know, they need- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_180.mp4	-you know, they need chauffeured transportation, limos, they need that type of thing. I, um, I'm involved in the planning of the transportation from airports, uh, hotel arrangements, um, uh, booking of, uh, you know, the rooms. It's just, I guess just an event planner, but it's not through any sort of corporate, um, uh, company [unintelligible 00:19:40]. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_182.mp4	Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm trying to get— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_184.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_186.mp4	I don't know about that, but, you know. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_188.mp4	Yeah, I think that's my only, uh, uh, I know it's not my only- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_190.mp4	-but it's-it's- it's a good, It's a good opportunity to, um, kind of work for myself. I would love to just be able to work for myself, you know? Um. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_192.mp4	I am, I am comfortable with it and I do well. I do well at-at, you know, the few opportunities I've had to organize something like that. Um, it's okay. You know, um, at least I'm still going to school though, you know I'm going to be done with that. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_194.mp4	I don't want to act out, you know, I mean, I'm, you know, I think I have- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_196.mp4	Well, you know, I dunno, um, going back to a lifestyle, you know, crime or, um, using, or you know, just destructive behavior- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_198.mp4	-and sort of destructive behavior. I don't wanna be destructive. I wanna be productive, you know. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_200.mp4	Like I am now, but it's-it's starting to get-- Like I said, I mean, I wouldn't have come in here if things were just peachy keen, you know what I mean? It sucks. And I'm getting sick of, you know, rejection and it's like almost, it makes me think like, why am I even going to school? You know? Should I just drop out and just, you know, get jobs that are, you know, I mean, that's not enough, that's not a viable option for me either.You know, I just, I don't, I wanna make sure that I'm centered here so that I can go out there and do the best I can with maintaining composure, and then trying to get ahead. But if I'm not okay here, here, you know, I just, I don't think that I have, I don't stand a chance, you know? 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_202.mp4	Yeah. I mean, I just recently had one of those where I was gonna be offered. I- he-- I think he was-- I'm pretty sure he was offering him a really good job. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_204.mp4	And, uh, it was an interview given to me by my brother, you know, who knew the guy. And, um, it went great until he gave me the paperwork to sign for a background check. And I said, well, you know, I'll sign it, but I just wanna let you know that this is what you're gonna find. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_206.mp4	No, he did. He said, you know, don't say anything until, you know-- I don't know if I know what he said. I think he said that he's not sure if they do. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_208.mp4	He said, just go ahead and give it a shot anyway, you know, and, um, I just, I figured I'd just give her a shot, but I think I like your, I think to spare myself some, uh, frustration and further agony- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_210.mp4	"-I think that I might try that. I think I might try, you know, from now on you know, uh, finding like a tactful way of asking, you know, I don't wanna be blunt about it and go you know, ""Do you hire criminals?"" or anything. "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_212.mp4	I'm a former criminal though. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_214.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_216.mp4	Right. So, I know that I am a new guy, but, uh, they don't, you know, so I think society's a lot less forgiving. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_218.mp4	And individuals, and um, so I think I'm gonna try-- I think that's a really good idea is to kind of like weed out, you know, but how do you say that? You know. How-how do you possibly tell somebody, you know, how do you- how do you get that out there before you go in? 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_220.mp4	Hmm. Seems, uh, sort of forward, you know, but I-I think that it's probably better if I do tell them so I don't waste my time and hope. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_222.mp4	You know, yeah. I think I'm gonna try that from now on. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_224.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_226.mp4	Yeah. I mean the interview process- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_228.mp4	-itself, no, I don't think I ever- yeah. No, I-I mean, I don't believe that I have a problem with the actual interview process. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_230.mp4	Yeah. It's been a lot. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_232.mp4	Been a lot, yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_234.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_236.mp4	I have heard of it. I haven't- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_238.mp4	-looked into it yet, but- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_240.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_242.mp4	Yeah. I know. I-I've done some research on it for school. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_244.mp4	And, uh, it turns out it's a big cause of the recidivism rate. You know- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_246.mp4	-as far as people going back- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_248.mp4	-to what they know, and, uh, and it's, uh, there is prejud- uh, prejudicial motivation, uh, and there is— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_250.mp4	It's really frustrating. I know. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_252.mp4	I think that- I think- I think ignorance is what really— 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_254.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_258.mp4	Yeah, exactly. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_260.mp4	You know, I know there's-there's just a lot of- a lot of bullshit. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_262.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_264.mp4	Yeah, to figure out [unintelligible 00:27:30] anyway, you know. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_266.mp4	Yeah. I-I, you know, I, you know, like I said, I wanna make sure I come back and, um, kind of get my, um, you know, my overall mental health- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_268.mp4	-you know, um, I wouldn't say stable because I'm not that unstable. I just— 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_270.mp4	It has affected it. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_272.mp4	Yeah, rejection. Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_274.mp4	So, I just wanna make sure that I'm okay. So- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_100_276.mp4	-I'll be back and we can, you know, we can discuss it further if you have any information and I'll share whatever I've got. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_278.mp4	Well, thanks for the suggestions. Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_280.mp4	No problem. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_100_282.mp4	Thank you. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_1.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_3.mp4	Sure. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_5.mp4	I drink wine- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_7.mp4	-mostly. Um, I go down to the little pub down the street. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_9.mp4	Have a few glasses of wine. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_11.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_13.mp4	Hmm, for four times a week probably. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_15.mp4	Three to four, five. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_17.mp4	Maybe if it's on a weekend, maybe six. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_19.mp4	Over a long-- over a period of time. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_21.mp4	Are you serious? 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_23.mp4	Seven drinks in a week doesn't seem like that much? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_25.mp4	Yeah, and I-I didn't think it was much, but that makes it look like I'm drinking way too much. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_27.mp4	Well, I know my drinking has increased a little since I got divorced and moved to Portland, but I-I don't think it's that much of a problem. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_29.mp4	No, not really. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_31.mp4	I didn't realize that drinking had anything to do with blood pressure. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_33.mp4	Oh, well. Well, then I guess that could be a problem. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_35.mp4	I guess I can cut down some. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_37.mp4	I'd probably a 6. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_39.mp4	Well, I didn't realize that drinking was related to my blood pressure problems. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_41.mp4	And I did fall earlier this year on my home from the bar and hurt my shoulder. I don't think the drinking made me fall, but it probably didn't help the situation. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_43.mp4	And though my son keeps telling me that I'm drinking too much, and it's scary to think that my drinking is harmful. It's a big word. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_45.mp4	Sounds like it to me. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_47.mp4	I think I can try to do that, yeah. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_49.mp4	I guess I could use those numbers, and I can't make any promises, but I could try to drink less than three in a night and less than seven in a week. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_51.mp4	That mean I can only drink two or three times a week. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_53.mp4	Like I can try that, yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_101_55.mp4	I don't think I need to quit, but I think I can try to cut down. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_57.mp4	That's what I'll shoot for. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_59.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_61.mp4	Sounds good. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_101_63.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_103_1.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_103_3.mp4	Yes, I guess. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_103_5.mp4	Well, I didn't do anything yet. I didn't go-- I know I was gonna go, but I didn't. But, um, I did look at-- there's the YMCA, they've got some classes that I think will be pretty cool to go to, and then there's this yoga class over at the Women's Center that's only like 10 bucks, so I could do that, um-- but I didn't go because I'm really afraid that like what if-- you know, what if no-one likes me? What if I don't have friends in there? 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_103_7.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_103_9.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_103_11.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_103_13.mp4	Yeah, but I'm gonna do it anyway, because this is what I need to do to make-- you know, to make friends. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_103_15.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_1.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_3.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_5.mp4	Yeah. Somewhere around eight days. I'm not sure. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_7.mp4	Um, I really only drink at parties. I don't drink at home or anything. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_9.mp4	Um, liquor, whenever people are mixing, um, vodka, sometimes beer, but I don't like beer very much. Um, the drinks at parties are usually like vodka and orange juice or gin and tonics. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_11.mp4	You mean the whole time I'm there? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_13.mp4	Um, probably four or five drinks. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_15.mp4	Yeah. It makes me feel relaxed. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_17.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_19.mp4	Um, I forget how many drinks I've had like when a friend asks me or I forget whose house I'm at. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_21.mp4	Right. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_23.mp4	Um, yeah. I was drinking the last time I had sex. Um, the guy had been drinking too, and we didn't use a condom. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_25.mp4	Yeah. We've had sex before and we've used a condom before. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_27.mp4	Well, we just didn't stop to put one on. We weren't thinking that way. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_29.mp4	Yeah. I would've definitely told him to put on a condom if I was sober. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_31.mp4	Well, that's not me. I don't need help from anyone. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_33.mp4	Um, well, it's fun. I like drinking when my friends are drinking too. Um, I laugh more. It's just fun. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_35.mp4	Um, I don't like forgetting where I'm at sometimes. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_37.mp4	I really don't want any STDs. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_39.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_41.mp4	Well, I definitely don't want to drink too much again. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_43.mp4	Um, a nine. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_45.mp4	Well, I really don't want any STDs and I don't like wondering whether I have one or not. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_47.mp4	Um, well, I wanna count my drinks so I don't have more than two and I want to stop drinking once I start feeling drunk. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_49.mp4	Well, I have this friend who thinks I drink too much. She would probably be willing to make me promise not to have more than two drinks at a party. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_104_51.mp4	I'm going to talk with him and I'm gonna make him promise that we always use a condom and that we don't have sex drunk. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_104_53.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_1.mp4	Well, um, since we spoke last, I've been to the gym a couple of times. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_3.mp4	I have. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_5.mp4	Yeah, and actually, my pants feel a little better too. I'm very pleased with it. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_7.mp4	Um, I do feel better. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_9.mp4	My back— 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_11.mp4	Well, my back doesn't hurt nearly so much. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_13.mp4	And, um, but it seems like it's, um-- but it's still hard. I'd like to go more often or I-I guess that I'm-- I just need to be a little more patient with myself because it's, um, I'm not, uh, I'm not-- I wanna be able to like spend more time at the gym but right now, it's um, not, um-- Well, I guess I need to build up to it. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_15.mp4	Um, well, I guess just sticking with it and not getting, um, sidetracked. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_17.mp4	Like last week, I-I didn't get there at all until like Thursday during the week,- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_19.mp4	-so it was- it was a frustrating week like for the gym that way. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_21.mp4	I was kinda busy with some other things, but, um— 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_23.mp4	I-I got— 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_25.mp4	Yeah, and actually, I made it again on Saturday too. So. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_27.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_105_29.mp4	Yeah. It's been a little-little hectic, you know. And, uh-- But, I-I don't like it too much because there's all these younger guys that can lift a lot more weight than me or they can stay on the treadmill longer and it-it-it's a little discouraging, you know. 'Cause I don't know if you've noticed, I'm not buff and they are. And it's-it's a little discouraging to think how much work it's gonna take to get, you know, kinda back towards that. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_31.mp4	No, but, um, when-when I'm not at the gym, and I am my normal rational self, I realize that I'm, you know, way, way past the age of where I would really even want to do that, let alone want to spend the time it takes. But then while I'm at the gym, and I see the buff young guys, you know, lifting a lot of weight and all that stuff, then you know, the-- I don't know, the urge to be buff comes up in me. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_33.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_35.mp4	It is. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_37.mp4	Well, I noticed-- Well, I-I still need to work on my diet a lot. I haven't-- I-I'd like to say that by working out at the gym, I have, uh, I've -I've modified my diet, but I haven't very much. I've gotten a little bit better with that, but I'd like to do a lot more. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_39.mp4	"Um, a little bit less junk food. Um, like at times, when I'm like I feel like, ""Oh, I think I'll just go have a candy bar,"" or some worthless thing like that I'll actually have second thoughts before I do it. "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_41.mp4	Well, I think, uh, when I really start seeing some results at the gym, it's kinda, uh, I think the way it works in my mind is if I've worked out really hard and I've- and I've-- say I've lost a pound that week- 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_43.mp4	"-you know, and then as I'm looking at that double or triple fudge four-decker of ice cream Sunday thing, you know, that somebody is eating, I would say, ""Wow, that would be about two hours on the treadmill."" Then-then that would be probably-- the-- that would keep me from actually ordering one of those. "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_45.mp4	Right, decadent-- Why do they put the word decadent in food? 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_47.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_105_49.mp4	Okay. But it seems to be going so far so good. I-I guess, you know, I can like, you know, um, I-I'm-I'm pretty pleased with who-- how it's going on. Um, I'm really-- I'm glad we talked that last time 'cause it-it was the impetus to get me to go the first time in a long, long time. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_107_1.mp4	Um, pretty obvious [chuckles]. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_107_3.mp4	What do you mean what I did? 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_107_5.mp4	That's the same as always. Same as always. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_107_7.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_107_9.mp4	A razor? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_107_11.mp4	Do you wanna see it? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_107_13.mp4	I think have you ever been to an ER when you cut yourself, you'd know why I don't go. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_107_15.mp4	I was thinking about killing myself. You thought you would help me and you didn't. That's what I want to talk about. I wanna talk about how it is that my life is not going better and you are not helping me, and you are not available to me when I need help. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_107_17.mp4	I cut myself the first time I called you thinking you would help me, you wouldn't help me so then I figured, what the hell I [chuckles] might as well just go all the way. And so, that's why I cut myself that deep. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_1.mp4	Well, um, I have a two-year-old son, and then I work full time as a server at a restaurant, and then recently, I also started going back to night class, so you know, just the combination of all that, you know. I-I've just been feeling really stressed lately. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_3.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_5.mp4	Well, I-I told the counselor that I think childcare is probably my-my biggest issue right now. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_7.mp4	Yeah. Um, well, my mom normally watches my son, but lately, it's kind of becoming a problem. You know, she like will back out at the last second, and so I've had to call in at work a couple of times. I've had to miss class a few times. So i-it's just stressful worrying about, you know, whether I'll be able to do those things or not. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_9.mp4	Yeah, exactly. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_11.mp4	Um, well, I have a sister, but I don't really trust her to watch my son, and I don't really know that many people that-- the only thing I can think of, I have this one neighbor who stepped in and helped one time when my mom backed out. She-she actually has, uh, a three-year-old daughter, so you know, kind of worked out. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_13.mp4	Um, I don't really know her that well, but I mean, she seems nice and I-I think she did a pretty good job that night. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_15.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_17.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_19.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_21.mp4	I-- you know, I mean, maybe a little bit, but I don't really make that much money to be able to afford something like daycare or, you know, like full time babysitting. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_23.mp4	Well, I mean, I-I like cooking. I'm-I'm actually in school for culinary arts. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_25.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_27.mp4	Hmm. That's, that's interesting. I-I never really thought of something like that, but, yeah, it might work. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_29.mp4	Hmm. No, I-- you know, there-there just aren't that many people I trust right now with my son. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_31.mp4	[chuckles] No, no, not at all. He, he really hasn't been in the picture since my son was born. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_33.mp4	It's-it's three nights right now, so I have class on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday nights. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_35.mp4	Um, well, you know, if my neighbor could even just take over one day of watching my son, I think that would help my mom quite a bit. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_37.mp4	I mean, I think so, yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_39.mp4	Mom, you know, just, I guess talking to my neighbor and seeing if she's even interested in this idea, and if she is, you know, telling my mom about it and, you know, hopefully, that will make her feel a little better and maybe a little bit more reliable. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_41.mp4	Just a couple months from now. He's almost three. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_43.mp4	I've heard of it, but I don't know that much. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_45.mp4	Yeah, I mean, it sounds like it would be really good for my son and, you know, it would help me out in terms of childcare for sure. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_47.mp4	[chuckles] Well, you know, I-I've been working on it a couple of weeks now, and honestly, it's been a lot harder than I expected. Um, trying to break my routine in the evenings, especially has-has been hard, but, um, you know, a couple of nights I have reached my goal in terms of, you know, number of cigarettes I'm going to smoke and number of drinks. So, I mean, I've done okay some days, but others, not so much. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_49.mp4	Yeah, yeah. I definitely have, so I-I try to never smoke around him, and if I do smoke at home, I always go out to the balcony to smoke. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_108_51.mp4	Um, well, I guess just first talk to my neighbor and see if she likes this idea, and then if she does, I can talk to my mom about it. Hopefully, that kind of helps her situation out. And then, um, I'm definitely want to look into the Head Start idea because I think that would be really good. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_53.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_108_55.mp4	Thanks. All right. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_1.mp4	Oh, great. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_3.mp4	That sounds bad. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_5.mp4	Tobacco. Well, I don't smoke cigarettes. I've never smoked cigarettes. I do go out with my friends. Um, you know, we go out to bars and, you know, we'll have a few drinks and smoke some of those little cigarillo-type things. I mean I wouldn't even think of them as cigars and they're certainly not cigarettes. Um, and I mean I'll have one or two of those in an evening with, uh, with my friends but certainly not 20 or 30 of them a day like you would with cigarettes and that's the only thing that could possibly have anything to do with tobacco. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_7.mp4	But that's- that's just like a- a social thing. That's something that my friends and I do. We-- We-- It's not habit or something that I have to have and, you know, talking about one or two when we go out for an evening. Not packs of them. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_9.mp4	Oh, no. No. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_11.mp4	Well, we've-- you have a point there. Mm, now that you mention it, um, I have started having one or two at work, you know, when we have break since I have a couple of friends at work that smoke and so every time we have a break, you know, we all go out to the- the break place outside, um, and so I- now I go with them and I have one of these Swisher Sweets. Um, I like the peach flavor [unintelligible 00:02:32] they're so cute. But that's really only pretty recently. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_13.mp4	Well, yeah, yeah. You know now that you say it like that it's true. Um, I am smoking on a daily basis. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_15.mp4	Well, it's relaxing and it's just nice to be with people, um. Um, and you know, when, you know, I like to go to Las Vegas, and so when we go to Vegas, it's really fun to go to the cigar bars, is kind of sophisticated and fun and so, you know, it's mostly a social thing. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_17.mp4	I wouldn't say I was a chain smoker. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_19.mp4	Well, I was going to ask you about, um, whitening my teeth because I've noticed that they have more stains on them up than a few years ago, and so I imagine that has something to do with the smoking. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_21.mp4	Um. Well, there's the expense, you know. Wi-with the economy and all, um, I- I have to be careful about my money and so, um, there is the extra expense of if I'm buying more of them than I used to. So the-the money aspect is also a concern. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_23.mp4	Oh, yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_25.mp4	Oh, absolutely not. I mean I thought of it more as a- a fun thing to do with my friends, certainly not a smoking habit or anything that would be harmful. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_27.mp4	"Oh, yes. I checked the box on your form when you asked if I use tobacco, I checked ""No,"" because I never thought of myself as a smoker. "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_29.mp4	I'm really concerned, I mean, I don't want to, um, develop cancer, lung cancer, or any of the awful things that happen from smoking, and, you know, really, until this conversation, I never really thought of myself as a smoker at all. So- 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_31.mp4	-I'm very concerned. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_33.mp4	Really? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_35.mp4	Oh, I would. I really would because, like I said, I'm a brand new smoker. I didn't know I was a smoker until I came to see you. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_37.mp4	Oh, I think I will probably be in seven or eight. I'm-I'm pretty confident that I could stop doing this. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_39.mp4	Because it's not a part of my daily life. I don't have to have, uh, a smoke when I get up in the morning. I don't smoke 20 or 30 of them a day, so it's not that much exposure and I-I feel pretty confident that I could stop. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_41.mp4	Um, I'd really like some more information about quitting. I mean, I've heard there's some-some new medications, there are some new things that can be done to help people make quitting more comfortable and I-I really wanna quit. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_109_43.mp4	That'd be wonderful. Thank you. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_109_45.mp4	Thank you. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_1.mp4	Well, there's a lot of things that bring me here today, but the one thing that I want to focus on is the fact that I really want my son to grow up in a great environment, and just have, like, more than what I had growing up. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_3.mp4	Yes. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_5.mp4	Yes, that's on my mind. I love my son dearly, and I don't complain about the childhood I had, I had a great childhood. I just-- I guess every parent wants the best for their kids- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_7.mp4	-and-and I really want the best for him. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_9.mp4	Yes, um, me and his father, like, we're-- We were engaged and, um, we're just not at that connection anymore. We're focused on what we want to do in life, and that's kind of put a hassle on our relationship. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_11.mp4	Yes, I want to become a social worker. I want to help people. That's just what I love to do, and he, um, is currently driving trucks, and so it kind of like puts a damper on everything on our relationship, and we're just like mainly focusing on our son and-and it's just been hard, like, reconnecting. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_13.mp4	Yes, I feel it is, and I just-- I always really wanted like a family, like me and the dad and-and the child. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_15.mp4	I-- That's how I feel, that I love my son dearly, but I want to provide him with that, like, we are together, we're doing it together as a team- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_17.mp4	-because now that we're going away from each other it's made things more difficult. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_19.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_21.mp4	Um, he was my fiance, but- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_23.mp4	-we called off our engagement. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_25.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_27.mp4	Yes. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_29.mp4	He drives long distance. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_31.mp4	Yeah. Days, and the longest was, like, a week. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_33.mp4	Yes. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_35.mp4	I'm concerned that when he was just local, we were able to do picnics and-and-and do the whole family thing that I just really love, and even though my parents weren't together, we would still, you know-- They were really civil with each other and we would go to Disneyland, we'd go to the-the fairs, and you know, I feel like it's different. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_37.mp4	Even though I'm not saying that we-we probably won't be together ever, there's a possibility that that could happen, but I still want that togetherness than apart. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_41.mp4	I feel like, um, I'm not, like, valued. We're not valued from his perspective. I mean, that's- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_43.mp4	-what I can sense. I can't really make that a final say because he may feel something different. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_45.mp4	Yes. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_47.mp4	Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_49.mp4	"And so when he is available it's kind of like, I guess where he's at and where I'm at is just like, ""Why is that a problem for you?"" And I'm like, ""It is because I want--"" "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_51.mp4	"Yeah, ""why is it a problem?"" He feels like it's always me who wants these things and-- but I-I made it clear that, you know, I want our son to grow up with the togetherness- "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_53.mp4	-especially like how my parents had it, you know. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_55.mp4	They weren't the best of friends but they could come together and, you know, it was better together than apart- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_57.mp4	-and so I'm feeling like there's a-a change and I don't know whether to roll with it or just accept it, accept it. And it's all a balance between mind and-and heart and that's the battle. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_59.mp4	Well, my mind says that it's not going that way and you can't make it turn that way, you can't change anybody, they have to change themselves. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_60.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_61.mp4	And if they wanted to do it then, you know, it would definitely work. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_63.mp4	And I feel like I don't wanna subject to just accepting things the way they are, especially if that's a concern for me- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_65.mp4	"-as far as dealing with the togetherness, I feel like if I have a problem, I voice it to you and we solve. You know, we'll try to figure out ways so-- I feel like I'm very more like, the collaborating person. Like, we gotta collab together, let's-- you know, I usually am that person that's, ""Let's solve this issue."" "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_67.mp4	"""Let's not go over the problem over and over and over."" "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_69.mp4	"""Let's try to think of ways to make it better."" And I notice that not everyone's like me in that sense. "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_71.mp4	"And so, do I wanna eventually hurt myself in the long run? Or, you know, help myself by saying, ""Okay this is just accepting that he's not in that position, so let me just do what's for me in my heart and, you know- "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_73.mp4	"-stabilize myself to be the best parent that I can be."" "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_75.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_77.mp4	Yeah, I'm not sure about that part either. [chuckles] 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_78.mp4	Oh, okay, all right. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_79.mp4	Because I know that dealing with perspectives you can, you know, you can't really tell someone what their, you know, perspective is- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_81.mp4	-but I don't-I don't sense it, I don't feel it and, um, I think that's just what I'm going by and I feel like probably 98% true. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_83.mp4	And that's where the sickness comes from. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_85.mp4	And that's what I'm confused about because, you know, I'm very-- the type of person that, I don't wanna hold things in but yet I don't want to have to keep explaining- 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_87.mp4	-to you, you know like, I don't want to keep going on, iterating what I want in this relationship- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_89.mp4	-especially if I'm listening to you. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_91.mp4	"You know, I would want you to listen to me. And I understand by like in the position that I'm in, I've always been the receiver and, um, anybody-- so it's hard for people to like receive, you know, from me so, I'm just like-- Lke I was like sitting, um, yesterday I was kinda feeling down and I just never-- I was looking through my phone actually, this is really funny, I was looking through my phone like, ""Who can I talk to?"" Because I never really opened up to anybody. "	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_110_93.mp4	Cause they open up to me and I'm able to listen- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_95.mp4	"-and so I'm like, ""Out of all this, I don't know who I'd-who I'd talk to."" "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_97.mp4	-and open up to— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_110_99.mp4	Yes. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_1.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_3.mp4	Uh, sure. What's this about? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_5.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_7.mp4	Sure. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_9.mp4	Well, you know they just decriminalized it in Virginia, it's not a big deal. I'm not in trouble, am I? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_11.mp4	It's not a big deal. It's just like a couple times a week to relax. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_13.mp4	Yeah. I mean, I'm here on an academic scholarship so I have to keep my grades up and I'm on the debate team, so there's a lot going on. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_15.mp4	Well, yeah. The truth is I'm the first in my family to go to college so I don't know, I guess, I'm in a bit over my head. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_17.mp4	I've always been an anxious person. Pot just helps me calm my nerves. I'm I in trouble? 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_20.mp4	Well, some of these kids are just so much more sophisticated than me so I guess when I party with them, I feel like I'm fitting in. I don't know how else to explain it. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_22.mp4	I don't know if I feel more accepted, more like I'm trying to fit in by using it. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_24.mp4	I'm not sure it is. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_26.mp4	Uh, yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_28.mp4	I don't know. I- It helps me relax but I guess I'm nervous I'll get caught. Um, my parents would kill me if they knew that I smoked. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_30.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_32.mp4	Well, I don't have the money for it. I just usually bum it off to my roommate, her parents give her a lot of spending money but I don't know, it's kind of embarrassing to have to do that. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_34.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_36.mp4	I don't know. When you put it that way, it doesn't sound like a very good habit. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_38.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_40.mp4	No. We don't do that kind of thing in my family. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_42.mp4	It's just not done. I don't know. It's something for crazy people and we definitely do not have the money for it. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_44.mp4	Yeah. I just don't see it happening. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_46.mp4	I don't know. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_48.mp4	Well, I don't have the money for it so I can't pay for it and my parents wouldn't approve. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_50.mp4	What, like suicidal? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_52.mp4	Uh, I would never do that. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_111_54.mp4	Okay. I guess I'll think about it. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_56.mp4	Do I have to go there? 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_111_58.mp4	Okay, sure. I agree, let's go. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_1.mp4	Okay, oh, actually, could I confide something in you that has been bothering me lately. Well, prior to that party, like, as you know, I'm a honor student and my parents, like, they keep me very, like k-kept down out of the, like so- like social life. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_3.mp4	And, um, about a month ago, my friends invited me to a party. And they used the fact that, Oh, I'm always doing my homework, I'm always studying that to allow me to go to the party. And on-- well, that party, I managed to convince my parents that I would spend the night at my friend's house. So, that's when I started drinking. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_5.mp4	"It was a- it was a unique experience, as you can say. I guess you can say. And, I don't know, I-- It was fun, at least, in the moment. So, I kept doing it. Then this past weekend, instead of studying for an exam, I asked my-- I begged my mom to let me go to another party. And she, kind of, knew what I was doing. She asked me to, like, to promise her of no alcohol, no drugs. Then I'll pick you up by 12:00. And I-I was surprised. 12:00-12:00, that's basically when the party starts, but I told her whatever-- I thought- I thought to myself that I'll-I'll come-- I'll figure out to delay her, can you pick me up later? So later, so she-- I promised that-- She dropped me off, I promised her no alcohol, no nothing. So I-- we go, I have fun like I've been having. And I was drinking. And then the time- the time came for her to pick me up. And as soon-- I couldn't delay her from picking me up. And as soon as she picked me up, and I stepped in the car, she said, ""You drank vodka."" And I'm like, I-I didn't know what to say. I just looked at the floor. And I-I feel terrible because I-I betrayed my mother. I broke my trust with her that she expected me not to indulge in alcohol. And that's exactly what I did. "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_7.mp4	Right. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_9.mp4	Yes, right. Like I've been noticing I've been more lethargic and apathetic towards schoolwork. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_11.mp4	I haven't really-- I kind of just sit in class like-- I-- my mind is elsewhere, especially on the weekends, where instead of-- I was- I was instead of studying, I caught up with my friends, trying to find where we can-- I get alcohol based on their age and stuff like that. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_13.mp4	I don't know. It-It's because I'm a very reserved person, for the most part, not when- not when I'm dealing with sports or like-- you know, like a social environment. I tend to keep to myself because I'm very self-conscious, I would say. And when I- when I drink, I feel, I don't know, like, it relaxes me. I'm able to talk or engage with other people more easily. I don't know it just— 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_15.mp4	Exactly. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_17.mp4	Kind of. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_19.mp4	Just different groups, friends or groups, girlfriends, like different people that I'm hanging out with because certain people are associated with that type of scene. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_21.mp4	So, that-that-that's also changed. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_23.mp4	A little bit because not all of them are into that. So, like, I'm in one group of friends, and I would talk to another person that's an another group of friends and they just happen to invite me to that first party. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_25.mp4	So, since then, I've been hanging out more with them, getting to know them. But I can also see that oh, I'm just living life, I guess. But that's also not fair to them that I'm not there for them as much as I was before. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_27.mp4	As they are there for me, you know. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_29.mp4	Oh, um, I feel I should st-stop. I mean, like, I'm not-not unrealistic. I understand that situations like this will happen. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_31.mp4	It's just up to me not to take it so far, where I can't remember the night before, if I'm puking. All I remember is the toilet- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_33.mp4	-that's-that's not worth it, either. And I have to slowly build back my trust with my mother because that was that's a big blow. It's little so I guess may seem to other people. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_35.mp4	But to me then it's a big thing. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_37.mp4	Of course. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_39.mp4	Exactly. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_41.mp4	A lot at this point because I feel that's a big factor with gaining back my trust with my mother. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_43.mp4	And also getting back on top of my school work again my athletics too. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_45.mp4	So I feel that there-there's a future in that. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_47.mp4	I'm pretty confident, especially. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_49.mp4	Probably like an 8 or 9. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_51.mp4	And that can't be a ten there's nothing as ten in life I feel. Like there's too many factors but I feel like I'm determined to. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_53.mp4	Because I don't know I feel deter-determined to-to make sure this happens because I don't like how I felt after I-I betrayed my mother. I don't like remembering that the feeling of like vomiting. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_55.mp4	It's not a pleasant experience. Uh, it's not something that I wish to enjoy. So like even if I do drink, I don't want to drink to the point where that happens, like all the fun that I have and prior to that just it's not worth-it's not worth drinking. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_57.mp4	To make sure I have my studies. Well first, try to get-get back my trust with mother- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_59.mp4	-then just focus on my studies. Then if I have time for leisure time like I'll go party with my friends and just be as a party with them doesn't mean I have to drink. And I do one cup is not going to do anything to my life either. But I'd prefer not to do that. I prefer just make sure. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_112_61.mp4	Exactly. Just so I take part with the social convention but it's not. Hey guys. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_112_63.mp4	And-and thank you for listening me listening to me. It means a lot to me. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_1.mp4	Hi. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_3.mp4	Well, I came today because my daughter's in the hospital as well. I think it's important to quit, but I enjoy smoking. I'm not ready to give it up right now. My life is too much in turmoil. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_5.mp4	I think it's important because I've-- I feel I'm a bad role model for my children, and my daughter's turning 12, and already, some of her friends have tried smoking, so I don't want her to think it's a good thing. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_7.mp4	I smoked when I was young, and I certainly don't want it for her. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_9.mp4	Well, that's true. It seems so hard. I'm just not ready for this right now. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_11.mp4	It's very enjoyable, relaxing, you know, a stress reliever. When I'm at work, we all go out and smoke and chit chat and, you know, talk about things. I would hate to not smoke, really. I'd be left out. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_13.mp4	Hmm, I like to have a cigarette after I eat. It sort of tells my brain I'm finished, stop eating, I'm full. So it's a- it's a way to-- you know, sometimes I'll have a cigarette instead of a snack, so it's a way to control my weight. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_15.mp4	Let me think. Well, I just enjoy it. I think it's, uh-- it's not good for me, I know, but I'm so used to smoking. I don't really think about quitting too much. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_17.mp4	Okay. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_19.mp4	That's true. Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_21.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_23.mp4	Exactly. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_25.mp4	Well, I-I'm worried about my children. I feel like I'm being a bad parent, and um, I often wonder, you know, they've seen me smoke for years. I certainly don't want my 12-year-old daughter to start smoking, and some of her friends are already smoking. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_27.mp4	Yeah, just this morning, I was outside having a cigarette, and then when I looked up, there she was looking out the window watching me smoke. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_29.mp4	I felt terrible, you know, I was projecting-- I wanna be a good parent, and I don't feel this really is part of the plan. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_31.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_33.mp4	It doesn't fit, you know. It's the opposite side of the coin. You know, I love to do it, but I don't think it's right. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_35.mp4	I can't think of anything right now. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_37.mp4	I don't have any plans to quit. It's just something I'm thinking about. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_39.mp4	Exactly. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_41.mp4	Oh, sure. Sure, I'll come in. Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_43.mp4	We can talk about it some more. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_113_45.mp4	Okay, okay, I'll give it a try. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_47.mp4	Thank you. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_113_49.mp4	All right. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_1.mp4	Uh, I guess that sound- that sounds right. I mean, I was- I was kinda drunk and it happened like a week ago. I just, I drove over to my friend's house, um, just to go watch the game and, you know, we're having a couple beers and next thing I know the Vikings are kind of losing pretty big. So we drank a little bit more than usual. And I mean, at the end I had to get home and I couldn't find a ride. So I-I just drove. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_114_3.mp4	Yeah. That's-that's exactly how it happened. I mean, I'm a normal college kid. I like to drink and hanging out with my buddies. I mean, I, it wasn't a big house party or anything and I got busted. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_114_5.mp4	Yeah. I tried to be safe. I mean, I tried to call her roommate, but I don't know, getting in trouble anyways. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_7.mp4	Um, well, I wanna say I have a drinking problem. I think I'd probably have more of a, like getting caught problem. I mean, my friends, they-they drink like fishes and I-- they don't ever get caught and you got me over here and I get caught and they left. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_9.mp4	I guess- I guess more problems with police and school and I really don't have like the time or the money for any of that. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_114_11.mp4	God. It's, I guess, super important, because just-just going to detox alone was-was awful, the experience-- I don't want to do that again. And my dad said if I get suspended from school, um, I have to go- I have to go work on my uncle's farm in Iowa and that would just kill my social life. I won't see any of my friends and I mean, it's already bad enough, like my parents took my car away when I got the DUI. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_13.mp4	Well, I guess I- I guess the easy one is I wouldn't- I wouldn't drink so much and I try to avoid situations where I'm more-more likely to get in trouble. So probably I don't wanna drink so much. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_15.mp4	Um, I guess I would say like, I don't know, like over halfway. So maybe like a six. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_114_17.mp4	I could probably, um, I don't know. I-I guess, well, the big thing would be like kind of where I drink so like drinking like if I'm only like in my apartment so thenI'm not risking myself to drive or like if I- if I go out to a party waiting till, like, I'm 21 to drink. Um, maybe find stuff to do that doesn't revolve around drinking, like, I'm guessing like a town this size there's got to be more to do than just drink. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_19.mp4	"Um, I mean, I guess the big one would be like I won't- I won't be hungover all the time like I would make it to my 8:00 AMs then, well, even-even when I make it to my 8:00 AMs now like I just, I sleep like I wake up I'm like, ""Oh my god what's going on?"" And then I get to my 8:00 AM and I'll just sleep through and then miss just about everything that's on the test. So I think if I- if I reprioritize what is important to me, I probably help me succeed. I mean, in high school, I had a 3.5 GPA. So I know I could do it here. "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_114_21.mp4	Um, I mean education is really important to me and-and also my family. My parents are always talking about it and I really- I really wanna be an international journalist, to be on the news like, I mean, I have the face for it, um. So I guess if I reprioritize my- if I reprioritize what I need to do I and I won't drink so much. I probably wouldn't be disappointing my parents and I'd be able to get a really good education. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_114_23.mp4	All right, all right. When is the seminar? 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_1.mp4	You're welcome. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_3.mp4	Yeah. I stayed home two times already from school just 'cause of the bullying and everything. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_5.mp4	And as I was out of school like more rumors started to happen as I was out of school. I come back and like these rumors are going around about me. Like one time when I stayed home, supposedly, I was in the principal's office the whole day and I had security guards like escort me to classes which that was not true 'cause I was home the whole time. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_7.mp4	I've been getting blamed ever since like fifth or sixth grade about with every single thing that's going on. 	 sustain	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_9.mp4	I think because the kids-- 'cause I like to nag on things. Like when people tell me things, I like to like talk more like with the person instead of just leaving it be, and I think the kids that like blame me for everything say that I'm an easy target to like hit, to like talk about, it's like annoying. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_11.mp4	"If somebody says like, ""Oh, I heard this thing about you."" I go, ""Oh, really, what is it,"" and I just keep talking and like make things worse. Like, if somebody says that they wanna beat me up, I like go on, and say like, ""Okay, then hit me,"" and like I just don't leave it be, like I just don't walk away. I like stay there and like talk more. "	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_13.mp4	"I think possibly more like talking more like it gets like bigger and bigger. It's just like if you stop it, then they don't know what to say, they-they're like, ""Oh, like she's walking away."" And like that stops everything but like if I talk it-it keeps building up and we both get in trouble- "	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_15.mp4	-and like called down to the principal's office. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_17.mp4	-and get talked to. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_19.mp4	Well, usually I try telling myself to just like, leave it be- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_21.mp4	-but if somebody says something about me, it gets me mad 'cause like what the heck, like you're talking about me so like I try to stop but sometimes I just say like a few words. Like I think now I'm trying to get like better. 	 sustain	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_23.mp4	"Like there's this one incident that somebody was talking to me, I just said like, ""Oh, wow, this is like really lame, like I'm just gonna leave,"" and I like let the conversation be. "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_25.mp4	Yeah. I felt proud of myself. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_27.mp4	"I was just like thinking of like when I'm- whenever I like I'm saying like stuff back, mom gets really mad at me, she's like, ""Well, I'm not gonna help you anymore."" 'Cause, she tells me to like leave it be, but I really don't lis-listen to her so she gets mad. So I tried like thinking of like her feelings and like what would happen after if I say, ""This is lame, leave me alone,"" 'cause then they'll like stop and I won't get like yelled at anymore. "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_29.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_31.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_33.mp4	'Cause usually, if I get in trouble, mom gives me the silent treatment that I don't like. It's like she doesn't talk to me, I'm like trying to talk to her, she don't like wheezing being like, uh, I don't like it. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_35.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_37.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_39.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_41.mp4	Like they all like stopped talking to me, and the funny thing was that their eighth-graders that like didn't even go to my old school like I don't even know how they said of talking to me, I was like, creepy. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_43.mp4	Well, they don't really say that to me like I just like think that 'cause that's what I've like heard from my mom, and people talking to me 'cause I keep talking to them- 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_45.mp4	-so they keep coming back at me. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_47.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_49.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_51.mp4	Yeah. [chuckles] That happens a lot. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_53.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_55.mp4	I was thinking of like, um, if I'm like at school like a peep things are happening during class- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_57.mp4	-I just say, can I use the washroom or something to go like walk and like think of like how to like leave them be. And one time during my gym class, there's this girl that I had her like not talking early. And we're playing pickleball, I don't know if you know that, it's like a- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_59.mp4	-it's like a badminton, big life-size ping pong ball game. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_61.mp4	Yeah, you have like a big bracket— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_63.mp4	No. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_65.mp4	No, [chuckles] there's no pick. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_67.mp4	Mm-hmm. And like I was supposed to be like again turn. I told my-- I went to my gym teacher like silently and said I can't be by this person, can I move to the next court. So he like switched us around so I won't be by her. And that like happened. 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_69.mp4	The girls like what the heck like. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_71.mp4	Yeah. Like I would like smacked her in the face or some- [laughs] 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_73.mp4	-or something. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_75.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_77.mp4	Yeah, that's like— 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_79.mp4	Yeah, there's like four main ones but not that like I can say who. 	 neutral	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_81.mp4	And the friends that I have like I know are my true friends, They're like ones that don't really 'cause drama or like— 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_83.mp4	I mean, they might but like they're not like bad and they actually like help me. Like some of these girls that like so-called friends like- 	 change	talk_type

AnnoMi-client_116_85.mp4	"-They're like they come to me saying like, ""Oh, did you really have to like punch this girl."" I'm like, ""No."" It's like you're not a friend if you'd actually believe that, you know what I mean? "	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_87.mp4	Yeah, it's kind of annoying, 'cause it's kind of hard like going into high school and like knowing how to believe and who not to believe. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_89.mp4	Yeah, 1,003. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_91.mp4	And then there's the sophomores also that you have like another 1,000, so it's like— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_93.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_95.mp4	Yeah, with these like the first rumors had started going around about like my friend and I, and like I lost him just 'cause of rumors. It's like, what the heck. Like I couldn't get over him for like gosh, who knows, it was like three months and I finally just had got over him. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_97.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_99.mp4	I was like really, you're probably just jealous 'cause I was friends with him or something. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_101.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_103.mp4	I just found like other people and just like forgot about it. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_105.mp4	I say the ones that like not even that I've known the longest, but like the ones that actually hang out with me a lot, or like texting me a lot, or like calling. And the ones that are actually like that helped you before with like situations. And that they tell you stuff and they know they can trust you. Like one of my friends tells me everything about her. And like that's how I know she's a good friend 'cause she trusts me with things. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_107.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_109.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_111.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_113.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_115.mp4	Yeah, that happens a lot with me with like a lot of friends. Like this one person like we've been friends since like-- Well, we were friends since fourth grade. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_117.mp4	And like she just starts like lying and like just talking smack about me. And it's like, you're not a good friend then. Like I thought you were a friend since you've been my friend since our fourth grade. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_119.mp4	And she just like causes a lot of drama now. And like she came- Like the friends I met at high school, she came like into them like, you're not gonna know-- In college, you're not gonna know who to follow 'cause-- since you keep following with my friends, what are you gonna do in college like not being able to find your own friends? It's kind of annoying 'cause they're my friends and like I can't be by her and she comes to my friends. It's like- 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_121.mp4	-get your own friends, [chuckles] stop following me. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_123.mp4	She just lies a lot and like just starts dramas about me and I haven't even talked to her like since eight grade. We only went to school together and she just like makes me lose other friends 'cause of the drama she starts 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_125.mp4	A nobody. I'm gonna say that. She's like— 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_127.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_129.mp4	I do spend time with them. Like I hang out with them a lot. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_131.mp4	Ask for it. Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_133.mp4	I just ask them like if I'm like gonna get like sent down to the principal's office for like something happening, I call them to come down to, like, support my, like, backup information. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_135.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_137.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_139.mp4	Yeah. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_141.mp4	Yeah, there's one friend that might wanna like talk about it. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_143.mp4	And she's really like-- she doesn't know, like, who to talk 'cause her mom is not always there for her. 	 change	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_145.mp4	And so like she's like doesn't know where to go. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_147.mp4	Like she doesn't know who to believe. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_149.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_151.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_153.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_155.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_157.mp4	Yeah. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_159.mp4	I've noticed that. 	 neutral	talk_type
AnnoMi-client_116_161.mp4	Mm-hmm. 	 neutral	talk_type