AnnoMi-client/train.tsv

id	text	label	dimension
0_1	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_3	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_5	Usually three drinks and glasses of wine.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_7	Something like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_9	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_11	Well, I usually drink when I'm at home trying to unwind and I drink while I'm watching a movie. And sometimes, um, I take a bath but I also drink when I take a bath sometimes.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_13	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_15	Hmm. Seven?	 neutral	communication behavior
0_17	Wow. I knew my doctor didn't like me drinking the amount that I did but I didn't know that seven was the limit.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_19	Yes. What-what kind of health problems?	 neutral	communication behavior
0_21	Hmm. Well, that's not good news.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_23	Well, to be honest, I drink sometimes when I'm feeling down and I find it more interesting and not so blur.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_25	Well, then I feel blur again.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_27	Yes on occasion.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_29	Sometimes I just don't like how much I drink. I sometimes finish a bottle in one night.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_31	No, it's not like I get crazy or anything but I just don't like the amount that I'm drinking.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_33	Mm-hmm. Yes, sometimes I feel worse after drinking.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_35	Well, I don't think that I'm ready to cut down to seven drinks a week. That seems like a lot but I would consider cutting back to two drinks a night. I think that would be my goal.	 change	communication behavior
0_37	I'd say an eight.	 change	communication behavior
0_39	Well, I'm more ready than a six because I'm ready to cut back on my drinking and I don't wanna make my depression any worse.	 change	communication behavior
0_41	Maybe having less wine in the house.	 change	communication behavior
0_43	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
0_45	Well, I like to watch movies, read a book, and take a bath but sometimes I drink when I take a bath.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_47	Mm-hmm. Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
0_49	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
0_51	Sure.	 change	communication behavior
0_53	Okay.	 change	communication behavior
1_1	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
1_3	Yeah, but only on the weekend.	 sustain	communication behavior
1_5	Yeah. Uh, maybe a couple more.	 neutral	communication behavior
1_7	So, uh, are you saying I drink too much?	 sustain	communication behavior
1_9	Well, I-- If-if I was getting fallen down drunk or if I drink every night. Um, it's not like I get sloppy drunk or anything.	 sustain	communication behavior
1_11	So I'm already at the week limit. And then I have four beers a night. Are you sure?	 sustain	communication behavior
1_13	I have five or six beers when I go out with friends to a bar. It's not a problem for me.	 sustain	communication behavior
1_15	Well, I don't consider my drinking binge drinking.	 sustain	communication behavior
1_17	I don't chug a lot of beers in a row. I have about five or six beers throughout the entire evening.	 sustain	communication behavior
1_19	But I'm healthy. What health problems are you talking about?	 sustain	communication behavior
1_21	Well, I didn't know about those things.	 neutral	communication behavior
1_23	Well, I-I like beer. I like the way it tastes, I like the way it makes me feel. Uh, like when I'm around friends and it's not a problem for me.	 sustain	communication behavior
1_25	Well, that was fine until I came here, uh, but now that I know about the health risk, uh, I have something I gotta think about.	 change	communication behavior
1_27	E-exactly.	 change	communication behavior
1_29	Hmm, I'm not sure. Uh, something I have to think about.	 neutral	communication behavior
1_31	Uh, I don't know. Maybe if I got sick or something, uh, maybe I'd wanna change things then.	 neutral	communication behavior
1_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
1_35	Sounds good.	 neutral	communication behavior
2_1	Well, doc, I know you told me that I need to lose weight. And even though the scale didn't show today, I was able to lose about 5 pounds, but then I gained it right back.	 neutral	communication behavior
2_3	No, by all means. I know we have to discuss it.	 neutral	communication behavior
2_5	I started watching what I ate and I ate less. I've been eating more fruits and vegetables. I've also been walking a lot. I'm walking up to 20 minutes a day now. I saw the weight come slowly off, um, and I felt better. But then when I watched it come back on again, you know, I gave up.	 change	communication behavior
2_7	I felt great and I felt really proud of myself. I thought that this was something that I could do.	 change	communication behavior
2_9	Well, I think it's because I've been eating more fruits and vegetables, that- that's it.	 sustain	communication behavior
2_11	To be honest, I have four or five -- four to six glasses of orange juice a day. Um, I have fruit for lunch and breakfast. I have, uh, usually one to two servings of a vegetable like lettuce or broccoli with thinner.	 neutral	communication behavior
2_13	No, I didn't know. Um, but doesn't the fruit- food pyramid classify, um, fruit juice as a- a serving?	 neutral	communication behavior
2_15	Well, this changes quite a bit. I mean, here I'm thinking that my fruit intake is making me healthier and actually it's making me fatter.	 change	communication behavior
2_17	Obviously, I need to cut back on the fruit juice. But boy, do I love that OJ.	 change	communication behavior
2_19	Um, six or seven.	 change	communication behavior
2_21	I guess it's because I know that I need to do it to lose the weight.	 change	communication behavior
2_23	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
2_25	Getting the fruit juice of the house because I know if it's there I'll drink it. My wife does the shopping for us, so maybe if I ask her not to get the juice, that would solve it.	 change	communication behavior
2_27	I suppose I could replace it with, um, a low-calorie drink or drink more water.	 change	communication behavior
2_29	I'd say I didn't have any and I substituted it with, um, sugar-free drinks.	 change	communication behavior
2_31	A 10.	 change	communication behavior
2_33	Great. It sounds good to me.	 change	communication behavior
2_35	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
3_0	Well see, my-my wife's been getting on me a lot lately about trying to improve my health habits, and I really don't see what the big problem is. I mean, I've been working real hard. Sometimes I can't come home for dinner, so I'm having to go out to eat at Applebee's or something like that, so-- but she seems to have a bigger problem, I really don't see what the big deal is.	 neutral	communication behavior
3_2	I-I-I feel fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
3_4	I mean, my-my work is really man-manual labor-intensive so I'm usually working out in-in the hot sun the majority of the day, so I'm usually sweating out any like bad things I put in my system, so—	 neutral	communication behavior
3_6	Well, a little bit, but nothing too-- you know. I'm not blo- I'm not bloated or anything.	 neutral	communication behavior
3_8	Well, yeah, I've been to the doctor about maybe last year for a physical, but-- I mean, everything showed up to be fine, so—	 neutral	communication behavior
3_10	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
3_12	Well, I mean, not really overreacting. I know that she loves me and I know she-she wants me, uh, you know, live a long time and be healthy, but just sometimes, especially if you work a hard job, like kinda going out to eat at these places kinda makes you feel a little bit better about your situation.	 neutral	communication behavior
3_14	Sure. [unintelligible 00:01:33]	 neutral	communication behavior
4_1	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_3	Yeah, it's been a while.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_5	Oh, oh, yeah, the—Yeah	 neutral	communication behavior
4_7	About a month.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_9	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_11	Um, I don't know. I just felt like something different. I was getting bored and, I don't know, it's kind of nice to stand out a bit, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_13	Yeah, change.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_15	Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_17	I don't actually, really. I-I mean, I'm sure that it might push on my gums or teeth, but I don't know how much it will impact that much. I've pretty good teeth. I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_19	I don't really know [unintelligible 00:01:04]	 neutral	communication behavior
4_21	[laughs] Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_23	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_25	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_27	Oh, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_29	Well, I definitely don't want it mess with my teeth. I know I kinda already have low gums to begin with, like you've been telling me for a while, and I have to flo-floss, which I-	 change	communication behavior
4_31	Um, which I'm not doing but, um, yeah, I guess, I don't really wanna wreck my teeth 'cause-- Yeah, I didn't really notice any of the chipping.	 change	communication behavior
4_33	I guess I'm not paying attention to it.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_35	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_37	I don't know, I guess if I started to see that it was actually causing a problem, then I might.	 change	communication behavior
4_39	But for now-- I mean, I just got and-	 neutral	communication behavior
4_41	-and it looks pretty cool.	 sustain	communication behavior
4_43	Yeah, I kinda-- Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_45	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_47	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_49	Yeah. I guess if I really start to see a problem-- I mean, this might not last forever, but my teeth, I'm hoping-	 change	communication behavior
4_51	-will kind of stick [unintelligible 00:02:30]	 neutral	communication behavior
4_53	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_55	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
4_57	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_1	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_5	Yeah, no, it's easy.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_7	Uh. Meeting's definitely helped.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_9	Yeah. It's helped-	 neutral	communication behavior
5_11	-heaps.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_13	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_15	Just, uh, someone to talk to and just someone to keep me busy and, kind of, keep me in check.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_17	Um, well, I said I went to the polytech and stuff-	 change	communication behavior
5_19	-and I went back there and got another form and stuff, and just helping me with that.	 change	communication behavior
5_21	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_23	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_25	Nah. I didn't really think about it frankly.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_27	I don't know. I just thought if, uh, I could get a job and stuff, doing stuff I like, uh, it'll make things easier.	 change	communication behavior
5_29	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_31	Yeah. Oh, I know. After talking to you, I got Donna to help me out, and that's just really helpful.	 change	communication behavior
5_33	[clears throat]	 neutral	communication behavior
5_35	"[clears throat] Oh, I just said-- I said, ""Uh, could you give me a hand with this?"""	 neutral	communication behavior
5_37	And, like, she filled them up for me, and I told her what to write.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_39	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_41	Just-- I-I asked her to fill that out for me because I said I'd be too messy.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_43	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_45	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_47	Like, a big difference, but, like, it's not like I don't try.	 change	communication behavior
5_49	Like, I'm just not really good with it.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_51	Yeah. Like [unintelligible 00:28:13] if I'd got into polytech and stuff, so I think that's good.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_53	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_55	They're still at home.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_57	Yeah. If—	 neutral	communication behavior
5_59	Just take them in.	 change	communication behavior
5_61	Yeah. Uh, I think you can post them, but I'll just drop them in.	 change	communication behavior
5_63	Uh, probably by the end of this week.	 change	communication behavior
5_65	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_67	I don't know. I don't know if you have to interview or whatever, but I guess, course-- I don't even know any course that I'll do.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_69	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_71	Well, um-- Well, I don't know. Hopefully, there's not so much of that stuff. Um, oh, well, I don't know. I could find out maybe someone who can help you, like, at the school, at the polytech, maybe somebody can help you out and stuff, or there might be computers there or something.	 change	communication behavior
5_73	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_75	Not really fitting in. It kind of just gets in the way.	 change	communication behavior
5_77	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
5_79	Like like getting on the piss, but with Donna, there kind of keeps me busy.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_81	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_83	Yeah. I just wanna have a bit of a laugh and like go smash some windows or go and nick a car or something, but yeah. It's kind of harder to think straight.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_85	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
5_87	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_89	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_91	I'd probably just go be stupid with my mates.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_93	Yeah. 'Cause if there's just like if a mate said they're gonna go out and pick a car or something, she just bumps them out and then-then I don't know. She say that's stupid and stuff. And I don't know. It gives me something to do.	 change	communication behavior
5_95	Just kind of stupid. Well, it's pointless, but still a bit of a laugh.	 change	communication behavior
5_97	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_99	No.	 change	communication behavior
5_101	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_103	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_105	Yeah. You don't really think about that. Well, just in the moment.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_107	Just have a bit of fun. Not really thinking.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_109	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_111	No. Just, like, it's not normally my idea, like someone else would just suggest it and you kind of just, yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_113	"Yeah. You can't really be like, ""Oh no,"" just give me shit."	 sustain	communication behavior
5_115	Just like, it can be shit and I still do it. They just-just call me a pussy or whatever and I don't know. And they'd talk me into it probably.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_117	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_119	They'd just think I was joking, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_121	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_123	I don't see them as much, but like she gets along with them aye, so-	 neutral	communication behavior
5_125	I don't think, like, I am not sure they like it.	 sustain	communication behavior
5_127	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_129	They don't lead me into trouble. But-	 change	communication behavior
5_131	Uh, like it's my choice though, they don't make me.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_133	Yeah. I know it's just having grown up with, it's just what we've always done.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_135	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_137	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_139	My life? Well, what do you mean?	 neutral	communication behavior
5_141	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_143	I don't know. Just more or less like if Donna was there and maybe if my mates got some girlfriends or something like that would calm them down too.	 change	communication behavior
5_145	So just hang out instead of go and do stuff, like stupid stuff.	 change	communication behavior
5_147	Yeah, 'cause then we could hang out together and stuff-	 neutral	communication behavior
5_149	-with our girlfriends and stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_151	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_153	Yeah. Cause I like I feel guilty not spending my time with, yeah, Donna. Like, I miss my mates, like, I get lonely and stuff, but even though they get me into trouble, but-	 change	communication behavior
5_155	-just, kind of, feel stoked that-that I see them on the weekends and stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_157	It's, like, loyal-	 neutral	communication behavior
5_159	-yes, someone who's got my back.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_161	That's about it. It's-- yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_163	Someone who'll stand up for you.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_165	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_167	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_169	I mean, support me.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_171	Just don't give me shit about, I don't know. Um, yeah, just, if I- if I don't wanna go do something, don't, like, don't give me shit about it.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_173	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_175	Yeah, yeah, they [unintelligible 00:36:38]	 neutral	communication behavior
5_177	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_179	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_181	Just they know that I'm serious.	 change	communication behavior
5_183	I guess, like, if they actually know I'm going to polytech and stuff that they might understand.	 change	communication behavior
5_185	But, like I feel guilty if they wanna go and have fun, and I'm not with them.	 change	communication behavior
5_187	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_189	Yeah. Like, just going out with them or spending some times with them-- time with them, but, like, I really wanna spend time with Donna too-	 change	communication behavior
5_191	-so, it'd be cool if we could spend time together, like, with Donna and my mates.	 change	communication behavior
5_193	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_195	Yeah, like-- Well, I know I get into trouble with them, but they're still my mates, and I-	 sustain	communication behavior
5_197	-feel--	 neutral	communication behavior
5_199	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
5_201	No.	 change	communication behavior
6_1	No problem.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_3	Yeah, it's-it's a bit of an inconvenience I'd say, but I'm here though.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_5	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_7	I don't know, something about changing my life even more. You know, the smoking's been changed, and now it's, you know, cut down the drinking, get rid of those extra smokes, get rid of my dog. I don't know what else have to do.	 sustain	communication behavior
6_9	Yeah, there's a lot of stress too. My wife's still on maternity leave, she's not getting paid, she's with the baby right now. And I'm the only person that's working right now, and plus I got to change all these things that are going on in my life.	 sustain	communication behavior
6_11	Yeah, it's a lot.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_13	Yeah, yeah, it is overwhelming. It is.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_15	Yeah, it just feels like everything's all over the place but I guess we got to start somewhere.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_17	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_19	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_21	Okay. Um, okay, that sounds good. As long as I'm not changing anything and we're just kind of putting, um, I guess, pen to paper or something.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_23	Um, okay, so my asthma.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_25	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_27	Um, the fact that they want me to get rid of Oscar, that's-that's my dog.	 sustain	communication behavior
6_29	Well, he's-- Yeah, he's saying it's a main-- It's a main contributor to my asthma problems.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_31	Which I don't- I don't- I don't- I don't buy it and I can't just get rid of him like that, but it's something that's there.	 sustain	communication behavior
6_33	Yeah. The dog has been there before my wife. I know I've had him longer.	 sustain	communication behavior
6_35	Yeah. Yeah, it's- it's a big stress, it's like my best friend, so that's one of the important things. Also, I guess, cutting down these last cigarettes I've been working on.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_37	Um, finances is a problem right now too.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_39	Time, I got to come to all these appointments and I'm taking time off work, which obviously is the money factor, right?	 neutral	communication behavior
6_41	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_43	Yeah, yeah. Yeah, there's something going on. And, um, also my drinking, I got to cut down my drinking too.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_45	No. It's just overwhelming when you see them everything they're, you know?	 sustain	communication behavior
6_47	I think- I think the thoughts about the dog has been definitely bothering me, that's been one.	 neutral	communication behavior
6_49	And, um, my-my asthma is out of control too. So maybe those two.	 change	communication behavior
6_51	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_1	Um, it's really stupid. Uh, I was at a pub crawl last night and you know how pub crawls are. You have a few drinks and then I thought it was a really good idea to catch up with my friends who are, yeah, they're in front of me. So I just like jumped off the stairs of the bus and I was wearing these like stilettos 'cause it was a 90s-themed pub crawl. Anyway, and then I just like fell on my ankle. It was really embarrassing.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_5	It was a lot of fun but I didn't do any dancing after that.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_7	Uh, sure, uh, as long as we don't talk too much about like vodka 'cause I'm still, ugh, a little—	 neutral	communication behavior
7_9	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_11	A little bit.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_13	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_15	Well, it's normal.	 sustain	communication behavior
7_17	Um, well, me and my friends kinda, uh, we party on the weekend and, you know, we're all university students and so it's just normal, um, to have a few drinks.	 sustain	communication behavior
7_19	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_21	Um, per night, uh, like if we go out oh, it's a lot. It's like I can drink probably like seven or eight drinks like if I'm going hard. Um, and then, you know, like maybe when I get home from school, a long day at the library, have a beer or two, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_23	No. I-I don't know. It's normal for university students I feel.	 sustain	communication behavior
7_25	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_27	Yeah, sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_29	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_31	Oh really?	 neutral	communication behavior
7_33	Wow.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_35	Uh, uh I would say a little over that.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_37	Especially with midterms coming up.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_39	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_41	Yeah. Yeah, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_43	Um, I mean, the 10 drinks seems like not a lot, uh, for like-for me and like my tolerance.	 sustain	communication behavior
7_45	I guess I've kind of built it up over the years.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_47	Um, so that's a little- a little bit, uh, concerning I guess to me.	 change	communication behavior
7_49	Uh, any reason to? Uh, I guess health-health reasons.	 change	communication behavior
7_51	Um, well, I mean, clearly I don't feel good right now. Um, and it's-- I definitely feel more productive when I don't have a hangover. Uh, so I see a benefit.	 change	communication behavior
7_53	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
7_55	Yeah	 change	communication behavior
7_57	Yeah, yeah, I think when I'm feeling a little- a little better. Maybe when I haven't gone all out the-the night before and sprained my ankle.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_59	Okay, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_61	Sure. Yeah, just not on a Saturday morning. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
7_63	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
7_65	Yeah. Sounds good.	 neutral	communication behavior
8_1	Yeah. Yeah, well, the only reason I'm here is 'cause my wife thinks I've got a problem with smoking. I've been smoking all my life and, uh, six months ago, uh, she thought, she got into this health kick, right? And now everyone who smokes is evil. And, uh, so that's why I'm here just to please her, get her off my back and—	 sustain	communication behavior
8_3	Yeah. That's an understatement. I mean, I'm supposed to be at work right now, too, right? So-	 neutral	communication behavior
8_5	Yeah, yeah. I'm only here because my wife forced me to come, you know. Like this has come to a head six months of just nagging me, relentless every day, because she was able to quit smoking and now I have to quit.	 sustain	communication behavior
8_7	Well, she's concerned about my health and she cuts out all these articles from the paper about second-hand smoke and—	 change	communication behavior
8_9	Yeah, I've got to read this. That's my reading assignment for breakfast and I want to go out and have-- We used to go out and have a cigarette together at the table. Now I have to go outside in this weather, you know, what's that about? And she used to smoke more than me and now she's like holier than now?	 neutral	communication behavior
8_11	And she's got my kids on this against me, you know, my son and my daughter, they're, it's like, they're ganging up on me, you know what I mean?	 neutral	communication behavior
8_13	Well, the big one of course is how it's affecting my wife and the family. Like my dad's 85, he still smokes. I mean, yeah, you know, sometimes I thought of quitting, but I mean, I don't know. I don't know if I can-- I don't know if I can quit.	 change	communication behavior
8_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
8_17	Yeah. Yeah. I-I'm just, I don't want to lose her or my family over smoking.	 change	communication behavior
8_19	Well, yeah, I mean, we've been married over 25 years, and uh, we've never had any major problems. Like this is-- this is the first problem. I don't even really see it as a problem cause we used to both smoke and I was trying to accommodate them by smoking outside, but it's feeling like we're going like this and I'm just concerned, like if this keeps going, like.	 change	communication behavior
8_21	So, I can actually do it that way like gradual taber?	 neutral	communication behavior
8_23	I wish my wife could have come today cause she's feels after like, just stop like right away. So do you think she could come with me at a future appointment or something and she could hear that message?	 neutral	communication behavior
8_25	Okay. I'll have to talk to her as well because their schedule changes from week to week, she works shifts, so I'll call you back tomorrow and we'll set something up.	 neutral	communication behavior
8_27	All right.	 neutral	communication behavior
8_29	Okay. Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
11_1	They found a little bag of weed.	 neutral	communication behavior
11_3	It's not a lot though.	 sustain	communication behavior
11_5	It's not like I was gonna sell it or anything. It's like—	 sustain	communication behavior
11_7	Yeah, whatever, you know. It's California, no one cares.	 sustain	communication behavior
11_9	How long is this gonna take?	 neutral	communication behavior
11_11	I just wanna get whatever I need to get done, done.	 neutral	communication behavior
11_13	Yeah	 neutral	communication behavior
12_1	Yeah, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_3	Yeah, um, normally, I'm smoking, you know, like once in the morning, uh, once during my lunch break and then in the evening maybe like five or six.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_5	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_7	Um, honestly, it's probably been over the past year or so that I- I've been smoking a little bit more.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_9	Yeah. Um, I have a two-year-old son as I mentioned, so I try to never smoke around him. So I'm normally kinda waiting until he gets to bed.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_13	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_15	Um, I mean, maybe I'll have like a drink or two.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_17	Um, maybe like two max.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_19	I don't know. I mean, I don't really get why you're asking me that. I mean, I just came here, you know, for a regular visit. I-I am not here to talk about my drinking.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_21	Yeah, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_23	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_25	Well, I-I'm just kinda surprised because, I mean, I don't smoke or drink that much. And I mean, compared to people I work with, you know, I-I smoke a lot less, and I feel like I've actually been trying to keep it pretty low.	 sustain	communication behavior
12_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_29	Um, maybe like a five.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_31	Well, I mean, you brought up some kinda scary stuff like, you know, cancer risk or other things like that. And you know, being a mother, I-I don't want something to happen to me obviously.	 change	communication behavior
12_33	Well, I mean, I could maybe try to cut back in the evenings a little bit.	 change	communication behavior
12_35	Well, right now, if I'm having like five or six, I could try to smoke three in the evening plus, you know, still the couple during the day.	 change	communication behavior
12_37	Yeah. Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_39	Yeah, I-I think that would be very helpful.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_41	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_43	Well, what-what for exactly?	 neutral	communication behavior
12_45	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_47	I mean, I would like to talk about, you know, my stress, but I'm still not sure with the whole drinking thing.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_49	I don't think so.	 neutral	communication behavior
12_51	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
13_1	Oh, I-I don't know if I'm comfortable with that. I've been reading a bunch of stuff lately about them.	 sustain	communication behavior
13_3	Uh, yeah, well, I was just- I was reading that it's better to let them build up their immunity, like, naturally and stuff in their immune systems.	 sustain	communication behavior
13_5	Well, yeah. I mean, I had chickenpox as a kid, and now I'm immune. Right? So.	 sustain	communication behavior
13_7	Uh, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
13_9	Wow, I didn't realize it was so dangerous. I've never heard of polio.	 neutral	communication behavior
13_11	Uh, I guess it's okay. I mean, I just I want her to be healthy and safe.	 change	communication behavior
13_13	Yeah, I just want to do what's right.	 change	communication behavior
14_1	Yeah, I guess so.	 change	communication behavior
14_3	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
14_5	Right now, I'm probably-	 neutral	communication behavior
14_7	-gonna say a six.	 neutral	communication behavior
14_9	But I know when I go home and I see the food, it's probably gonna drop back down to a four.	 sustain	communication behavior
14_11	Right?	 neutral	communication behavior
14_13	I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
14_15	Because I've been wanting to do this for-for years, like-	 change	communication behavior
14_17	-ever since I started becoming conscious of my body.	 change	communication behavior
14_19	Like ever since I started being a teen, like this has always been a goal of mine, like, especially 'cause all my friends play soccer, and like-	 change	communication behavior
14_21	-hike, and are like super stick-thin but really healthy and active.	 change	communication behavior
14_23	And so I'm just sort of like, well, I'm not.	 neutral	communication behavior
14_25	But I want to be like-- I don't want to be like stick-thin, but I really want to be like really healthy and really active.	 change	communication behavior
14_27	And like be able to look nice, you know.	 change	communication behavior
14_29	I wanna be able to look nice.	 change	communication behavior
14_31	I don't even really know-	 neutral	communication behavior
14_33	-honestly. Like, I mean, I know I'm gonna have to keep like telling myself like-	 change	communication behavior
14_35	-like this is something that you want- that you've wanted-	 change	communication behavior
14_37	-for years.	 change	communication behavior
14_39	Like, you can do it. Because like-	 change	communication behavior
14_41	I know I can do it. Like I can do anything.	 change	communication behavior
14_43	I can do anything-	 change	communication behavior
14_45	-I know that. But it's hard getting to the point where I-	 sustain	communication behavior
14_47	-do something.	 sustain	communication behavior
16_1	Oh, it's a nice place. It's close to work. It's good living with a mate.	 neutral	communication behavior
16_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
16_5	That's the thing, isn't it? I am-- I don't know if it's the best place for me to be if I'm gonna make those changes.	 change	communication behavior
16_7	And Tristan is a good flatmate.	 sustain	communication behavior
16_9	I have no-- We're going in different-different directions now. He doesn't have the same kind of responsibilities I have and stuff, and so-- And I can't expect him to change his whole life around, just because I wanna change mine.	 change	communication behavior
16_11	I just-- I don't know how keen I am to move in with my- with my aunty and uncle, though.	 neutral	communication behavior
16_13	I sit down and talk with him, asked him for, um, for support and stuff and he's fully, he says fully he'll be there for me. But, like I said, he's, um, he's in a different place in his life than I am in mine.	 change	communication behavior
16_15	He doesn't have kids.	 neutral	communication behavior
16_17	He doesn't-- I don't know if he can really understand what it means to me. Um, he's a good mate.	 neutral	communication behavior
16_19	The food would be good. Um, I get- I get support with-- my whānau is really supportive, but I'm- I'm worried about losing- I'm worried about losing my freedom. I'm worried about, um, about them taking over, or, you know what I mean? I have a freedom where I am now, I'm in charge of myself. That would probably be really good.	 neutral	communication behavior
16_21	I don't wanna hang on to freedom if it this- if it means that I lose my kids. Um, I'm just, uh, I'm just worried about-- I'm worried about if I move in with family, that they, even if their intentions are good-	 change	communication behavior
16_23	I don't know. I'll do anything to get my kids back.	 change	communication behavior
18_1	I don't really know what issues I need to sort.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_3	I don't really know what issues I need to-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_5	-sort. It's just a bit of cash.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_7	So—	 neutral	communication behavior
18_9	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_11	Um, I don't think there is much to sort. I have a few drinks like everybody else my age.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_13	Pokies are at the pubs for the thrills, it's no worries.	 sustain	communication behavior
18_15	It's not an issue.	 sustain	communication behavior
18_17	Uh, I suppose when you've got no money in the pocket at the end of the night.	 change	communication behavior
18_19	And some nights you do, so.	 change	communication behavior
18_21	Well, I don't really keep track.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_23	I don't know. A few times a week.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_25	I don't know. It's if you're at the pub, you're, you know, that-that you're out there.	 sustain	communication behavior
18_27	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_29	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_31	I don't know. A few times, probably when I have it, I might drink a drink.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_35	It's the unlucky ones.	 sustain	communication behavior
18_37	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_39	A bit of a rush, I suppose.	 sustain	communication behavior
18_41	Yeah, I suppose.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_43	I don't know, I suppose it's lead me to be here, maybe. I don't know.	 sustain	communication behavior
18_45	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_47	Much the same, bunch of party girls.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_49	Um, I don't know. I suppose they walk away a bit quicker than me.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_51	Sarah.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_53	I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_55	We'd just have a laugh.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_57	Uh, no friends or friends should-- She accepts me for who I am.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_59	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_61	At times.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_63	I don't know. You don't have any money, so-- And that she-she'll probably be quite happy if I stopped.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_65	But, um, I don't know. She-she doesn't really discuss it with me.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_67	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_69	Mm.	 change	communication behavior
18_71	Um, I don't know if pfft-- maybe I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for gambling 'cause-	 change	communication behavior
18_73	-you know, suppose in some way, I took the money for-for that but I don't know, you know? It's just a few dollars here and there and I didn't really think about it at the time, so-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_75	-I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_77	I don't know. I-I don't think it would have been too much of a problem. I mean I'm not a bad person, I wouldn't have, you know, wouldn't have continued to steal. It was just at the time that I was going through a rough patch. I wasn't intending to make it a long-term thing.	 change	communication behavior
18_79	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
18_81	I don't know, you tell me.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_83	Uh, I suppose I didn't expect the-the money would've added up to what it did, so I guess, at the time, I- [sighs] I wasn't thinking of the reality of it, you know, building up, so-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_85	-you know, it did, so I'm here-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_87	-so, I suppose—	 neutral	communication behavior
18_89	It's a couple of grand or something.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_91	Well, that a little bit here, a little bit there is nothing I didn't work for. [chuckles] I worked [unintelligible 00:10:35] and I was getting paid $18 an hour-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_93	-$25, you do the math. [chuckles] And that's gonna support me?	 neutral	communication behavior
18_95	I don't know. I'm usually an open person. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
18_97	Just provided it will help me deal with it.	 change	communication behavior
18_99	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_101	I don't know. I am just usually pretty open with people. It's a bit different here tonight and-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_103	-just not knowing what to expect then—	 neutral	communication behavior
18_105	I don't know. I suppose I'm saying that the money did add up, and that was enough for me to end up here, so-	 neutral	communication behavior
18_107	-I suppose I'm here for a reason. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
18_109	I didn't have a choice. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
18_111	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
18_113	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
19_1	Yeah. I-I just-- I can't shoplift anymore. You know, I got- I got caught again. And uh, you know, I-I got suspended, I got back to school, so I'm-I'm uh-- I'm gonna mess up my whole life here, unless I can stop this.	 change	communication behavior
19_3	Yeah, it's bad. My friends and I, we just-- I mean, it's fun and uh-- so I don't know what to do, but I- but I gotta change.	 change	communication behavior
19_5	I want it.	 change	communication behavior
19_7	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
19_9	Right. I don't know what I'm gonna do, I got some friends. These guys are-- they're bad news, but they're my friends.	 sustain	communication behavior
19_11	And, uh, and it's fun.	 sustain	communication behavior
19_13	You know?	 neutral	communication behavior
19_15	Nothing-nothing much else going on that's as fun as this. We go in, we steal these CDs. It was working out fine, but—	 sustain	communication behavior
20_1	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_3	Well, um, It's just me and him and I do smoke. Um, I try really hard not to smoke around him, but I-I've been smoking for 10 years except when I was pregnant with him. But it-- everything is so stressful being a single mom and-and my having a full-time job. And so it's just-- that's why I started smoking again.	 sustain	communication behavior
20_5	Yeah. Some people have a glass of wine. I have a cigarette.	 sustain	communication behavior
20_7	I know it's not good for him. I mean, I've read those things about ear infections and asthma and stuff and-and, uh, but other kids have ear infections and their parents don't smoke.	 change	communication behavior
20_9	Right. Yeah. I mean, he doesn't have asthma. Yeah. He-- I don't-- he hasn't had a lot of other problems that his other friends have, so. And I've thought about quitting before in the past, but I just don't- I just don't see how it's possible right now.	 sustain	communication behavior
20_11	Well, he was inside me and we were sharing everything and I knew that he would get some of that. And I didn't-- I just didn't-didn't think I could live with myself if something happened to him.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_13	Yeah, exactly.	 sustain	communication behavior
20_15	I don't know. I-I think about it now, I don't even know how I did it. I just- I just did it. You know, I just- I just couldn't imagine like him not being born or going into labor early-	 neutral	communication behavior
20_17	"-and-and him having problems and stuff like that, all the stuff that they talk about with women who smoke. So I-- that was just enough to-to say, ""Okay, you know what, I'm-I'm not going to risk that."" so."	 neutral	communication behavior
20_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_21	No, I mean, we're two separate people. And like I said, I don't, I try really hard not to smoke around him. I'm pretty good about that. I-I don't let other people smoke around him. Um, so I, you know.	 change	communication behavior
20_23	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_25	"Yeah. I-I know that I need to, and I, you know, keep every new year I say, ""Okay, this year I'm gonna quit smoking"" but then something happens and it-it just doesn't. And quitting doesn't happen."	 change	communication behavior
20_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_29	Probably like a 5 . Kind of in the unsure area. Like I know I've done it before, so I know I can do it, but at the same time, it just seems really hard. And it's not the same situation.	 sustain	communication behavior
20_31	I know- I know all the ways it's bad for me. And I don't want him to grow up thinking that it's okay to smoke. I don't want him to-to use any kind of-- I don't want him to chew or anything like that. Um, so I know I need to, especially before he gets old enough to understand what mommy's doing, but I just don't know if I can do it.	 change	communication behavior
20_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_35	I don't know. I-I'd like some help. I just don't know what kind of help I need.	 change	communication behavior
20_37	I don't like medicine.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_39	That sounds nice, but I'm not sure if I have the time for all that.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_41	That would be really nice.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_43	I would like that. That would be great.	 neutral	communication behavior
20_45	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_1	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_5	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_7	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_9	Well, my name is Laura. I'm 17 years old, and I'm a senior in high school.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_11	Well, hopefully, go to college, get, you know, good enough grades to go to college.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_13	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_17	Um, I'm not sure yet. Maybe a few schools in the area, I'm looking maybe to apply out-of-state.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_19	So, maybe move away for college.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_21	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_23	Yeah, definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_25	Yeah, maybe um, pre-law.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_29	Well, um, on the weekends I like to hang out with my friends, maybe go to like a party, or go to the mall to shop, or if there's like a school-related event, we'll go to like a football game or-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_31	-something like that, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_35	Um, I would say like a moderate amount. I'm not really-really popular or like, I have no friends.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_37	So, I'm like normal.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_39	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_41	Yeah. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
21_43	Um, they're pretty good, As and Bs. So, I'm doing okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_45	Through college.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_47	Um, family definitely, uh, friendship, and belonging.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_49	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_51	Well, I-I love them, so I want them to think well of me-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_53	-and I want them to, um, be accepting and love me.	 change	communication behavior
21_55	Yeah, I have one sister.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_57	Friendship, um, I've-I've grown close to many people that I care about. So, I would like them to be accepting of me as well.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_59	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_61	Yeah, just a sense of like fitting in and not-- And like getting accepted-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_63	-in general, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_65	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_67	Um, not much, maybe like one or two drinks at the most.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_69	Um, I pretty much just have a drink to just have it like, so it looks like I'm drinking, even though I'm not.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_71	So maybe people won't bug me about drinking or something.	 change	communication behavior
21_73	Yeah just-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_74	-kinda hold a drink.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_75	-have one there and pretending to have it.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_77	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_79	Um.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_81	Maybe one or two weekends a month at the most?	 neutral	communication behavior
21_83	Not really much.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_85	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_87	Well, just I guess, at a party or something, someone's house.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_89	Or, even if it's not a party, like a small social gathering, maybe there'll be like a few beers around-	 sustain	communication behavior
21_91	-or something.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_93	Pretty much, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_95	Um—	 neutral	communication behavior
21_97	Mostly just with us, but, sometimes I'll go to like a close friend's house and like I'm close to a family as well. So, we'll all just hang out.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_99	Um, like drunk driving?	 neutral	communication behavior
21_101	Um, definitely not. I've never drunk-driven, and I've never been in a car with a drunk driver.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_103	Yeah, because I know that's extremely dangerous, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_105	Um, well, alcohol definitely impairs your judgment. So, I mean, driving under the influence of alcohol can lead to like crashes and accidents and things like that, so I'd rather not be in that situation.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_107	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
21_109	Yeah, definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_111	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_113	Not more than two drinks.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_115	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_117	Um, I've never really been drunk-	 sustain	communication behavior
21_119	-so, I can't really say that I like that feeling or not, but, it's just like-- I mean, you're just in a good mood.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_121	So.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_123	Yeah, yeah, relaxed.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_125	Um, no, not really. Like I said, I don't drink that much-	 sustain	communication behavior
21_127	So, I-I wouldn't be able to tell you.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_129	Um, definitely, yeah. I mean, when I'm at parties and stuff and it's getting a little later, some people, um, that drink-- Like, drank too much, they start throwing up, or they get hurt, or they're really loud and obnoxious, and that's not fun for anybody.	 change	communication behavior
21_131	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_133	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_135	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_137	Um, no, I mean, I've never, you know, been friends with anybody that's gotten into like a serious accident and stuff. It's just-	 sustain	communication behavior
21_139	-very, like, obnoxious things.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_141	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_143	Um, I know it's definitely risky, but, I mean, I guess, we still do it. [chuckles]	 sustain	communication behavior
21_145	It's just there.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_147	Um, well, definitely not in my family life, because my parents don't really condone-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_149	-alcohol use, but, friendships, I mean, when I'm hanging out with my friends, or we're at a party or something, there's usually alcohol involved.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_151	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_153	I guess, I mean, since it's just there.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_155	So-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_157	-it ties in with the whole belonging thing.	 sustain	communication behavior
21_159	Um, it probably will have a very small role, if any-	 change	communication behavior
21_161	-in my life, considering I have big plans for my future. So.	 change	communication behavior
21_163	I mean, I don't think I would be, you know, drinking as much or going to parties as much if I'm studying for school, or in college, or trying to get in law school and things like that.	 change	communication behavior
21_165	Yeah, definitely.	 change	communication behavior
21_167	Um, maybe less than I am now. I mean, I don't drink much anyway, so-	 change	communication behavior
21_169	-maybe, like, one drink every once in a blue moon.	 change	communication behavior
21_171	Yeah, definitely.	 change	communication behavior
21_173	For sure.	 change	communication behavior
21_175	Well, I mean, I guess right now I would try to stop in high school, and once I get older, maybe just like, socially once in a while, but not anything big or anything.	 change	communication behavior
21_177	Definitely, yeah. That's a good word.	 change	communication behavior
21_179	Maybe a five or six.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_181	Because, um, it's not something I do not care about at all, but it's not something that's just constantly on my mind that I want to change about myself.	 change	communication behavior
21_183	Yeah, yeah. Definitely.	 change	communication behavior
21_185	Um, I'm pretty confident that I can considering that I'm not really an alcohol user per se.	 change	communication behavior
21_187	I'm not really into that whole scene, so, it's-it's not gonna bedifficult for me.	 change	communication behavior
21_189	Um, on a scale of 1 to 10-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_191	-if I can quit or not?	 neutral	communication behavior
21_193	Maybe like an 8 or 9.	 change	communication behavior
21_195	Because, like I said, it's not a big part of my life. So, it's not really that difficult	 change	communication behavior
21_197	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
21_199	Um, probably to stop, maybe next party I go to, not have a drink at all.	 change	communication behavior
21_201	Yeah. I mean, I can just tell my friends-- My pa-- My friends aren't really that pressuring.	 change	communication behavior
21_203	It's just like outside people that I don't really know that well.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_205	"So, I could just tell them, ""Hey, I don't feel like having a drink today."""	 change	communication behavior
21_207	Um, definitely, I'll have like all my senses there and I'll be aware of everything that's going on.	 change	communication behavior
21_209	Um, health concerns, I guess. I know alcohol is bad for your health.	 change	communication behavior
21_211	So, that would be one.	 change	communication behavior
21_213	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
21_215	Yeah, that would be okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_217	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
21_219	Right.	 change	communication behavior
21_221	Um, how would you, um, advise me to like get maybe my friends to stop drinking?	 change	communication behavior
21_223	Okay, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
21_225	Oh okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_227	Yeah, that's a good idea.	 change	communication behavior
21_229	Yeah, for sure.	 change	communication behavior
21_231	I mean-	 neutral	communication behavior
21_233	-I was just planning on telling them that I don't really want to drink anymore. That wasn't me.	 change	communication behavior
21_235	So.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_237	Yeah. I mean, at least my closest friends, for sure.	 change	communication behavior
21_239	No. No, I think I'm okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_241	Okay.	 change	communication behavior
21_243	Okay, great. Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
21_245	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
21_247	No problem.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_1	Yes, um, my top value is family happiness, um, that's-	 neutral	communication behavior
22_3	-that's number one to me, especially now. I usually do this values clarification sheet, like, every two to three months-	 neutral	communication behavior
22_5	-just to see if anything changed, and every time it has changed.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_7	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_9	Yes, it's the most important because it's a little lacking, so I know that that's something that is very important to me.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_11	Yeah. Um, I can just pretty much say that my family hasn't been on one accord, so, like, if-- I feel like if we all just can fall in the middle, which I know everybody doesn't really follow that track. So, um, I think for my part, 'cause I can't change anybody, is to be more present and, um, just listen and understand my family members, and-and be able to voice what I feel as far as how important family happiness-happiness is to me.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_13	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_17	And I want them to know how important it is to me, especially now, and I do this, like I said, every two to three months just to see where I am.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_19	And, um, these definitely are different from-	 neutral	communication behavior
22_21	-what I usually pick.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_23	"Um, and then the second one I said is religion. Um, it was number one at first, um, but somehow with a big situation that happened in my family you kind of lose sight of your faith a little bit, which is normal. And not a lot of people-- They, uh-- Well, in my church home, i-it just seems like, ""Oh, you lost touch of God, oh my gosh, you're the devil."""	 neutral	communication behavior
22_25	You know? And it's kind of like, well we all face those challenges every day, we're not perfect, you know? And I feel like my faith is still there but it's-- You know, as long as it's still there, that's all that matters.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_27	Yeah. I lost faith, and so I'm not afraid to say it.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_29	You know? And once you say [unintelligible 00:03:12] people that don't really feel like that's—	 neutral	communication behavior
22_31	Yeah, I know that.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_33	I know that it's normal.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_35	Yeah, well, it's a—	 neutral	communication behavior
22_37	"Yeah, it's like a shock to them when you say something like that. And it's like, ""Well, we all go through things where we're just not sure, and--"" I still have a little bit, I'm not saying that I'm off track, you know? I still have a little bit to go on. And the little bit that I do have are the positive things in my life that I look at and I'm like, ""Okay, well, I'm not in this situation, so I'm thankful,"" and-"	 neutral	communication behavior
22_39	"-you know, I'd still have faith to keep going on, but sometimes you feel as though, ""Where is God?"""	 neutral	communication behavior
22_41	You know?	 neutral	communication behavior
22_43	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_45	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_47	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_49	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
22_51	"I've accepted that. At first, I was like, ""Whoa,"" I think I was focused too much on the first time I did it-"	 neutral	communication behavior
22_53	-then the second time that I did it-- I did five of these total-	 neutral	communication behavior
22_55	"-but the second time that I did it I was so focused on, ""What did I read about last time?"" You know?"	 neutral	communication behavior
22_57	So, and I just went ahead and blanked that out and I just went and I-	 neutral	communication behavior
22_59	"-compared and I was like, ""Oh wow."""	 neutral	communication behavior
22_61	"Mm-hmm, and that's what I felt wasn't-- At first I was like, ""Is that not normal?"" You know?"	 neutral	communication behavior
23_1	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_3	Yeah. Um, yeah, I guess it kind of- it kind of started like five, six years ago.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_5	Um, it kind of escalated a bit. Um, I've just recently moved out, um, from living with my parents. So just made it a bit worse, I think.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_7	Yeah, I am- Yeah. It's the first time actually, yeah. Um, I was going to a few years ago. I just thought it'd be easier to stay at home, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_9	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_11	Um, don't know, it's kind of, I haven't really told anyone, so, I mean, it's made it like better in sense. I feel, hopefully this is, this is it like, it- it'll help, but I don't know. I don't like thinking that I've like have to do this. I never thought I'd like be the kind of person you'd have to actually go and like get help if that makes sense.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_13	It's like scared. I don't know. Hopefully, it will help.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_17	Um, I thought that they'd be better, but 'cause I thought I'd have to kind of be independent and I suppose actually a lot worse. So I'm-I'm just kind of staying in the house a lot. I don't really have any friends or anything. I mean my family come and visit a bit, but it's not-- I don't know. It's kind of scary because I've just been kind of-- that should just end the flight by myself, which I always thought I'd like, but I don't actually like it.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_19	Um, I mean, I'm-I'm a photographer. Um, so I kind of-- It's-it's been stopping me a bit, my anxiety, from being able to get work and because every time, you know, there's, uh, an opportunity that is kind of involving me having to interact with people, I just tend to just turn it down. So it was kind of making things hard in that respect and um, just kind of friends wise and everything. I just feel like I'm just kind of increasingly more alone. So it's kind of stopping me from making friends and, you know, like relationships and stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_21	Yeah, yeah. Um, it was kind of easier when I was at home because I was obviously, I mean, my parents, so it's fine, but you know, they would, I'd go to places with, um, or I'd kind of have people there, but more and more, I'm just finding myself just staying in a lot. I mean-- I went like two weeks ago for coffee with my friends and the whole time I was just kind of wanting to go home again. So I don't, I just don't want to-- I don't want that to happen. I don't want to lose everyone. So-	 neutral	communication behavior
23_23	Yeah. Um, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_25	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_29	Uh, I guess I'd finished school about a year before that. Um, and I mean, I-I've always been a bit shy, um, at school, but it was never ever, uh, like it didn't really affect the things as much as not at all as much as it has been doing the last few years ago, I guess. It just started when I- like my friends went to university, and, I don't know, I felt like I was expected to kind of move out or do something and then it just kind of escalated from there.I just stop going to parties or I'd just say no to invitations or I don't know, I thought my job would help because I mean, I love it. I've- I really like doing photography, but I'm just kind of getting less and less work as it goes on, so, which is my thing, you know, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_31	I guess when it- I have to kind of be working with other people. Um, I don't like that. It's like when I'm trying to kind of- would do an event or something where there's a lot of people there, not just photographers, but actual, you know, if I'm like taking places with people that I don't know, I just kind of find myself saying, you know, I mean, I want to do them, but just is scary. So I just don't do it.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_33	Um, just, I mean, I get really hot and sweaty, and I don't-- I feel like everyone's kind of looking at me and thinking that I'm just like really stupid, and I feel like they're all going to be staring and thinking, I just can't do my job. And I'm just an idiot. And I mean, they'll think that I just look like a weirdo and I just try and-- I mean, I just kind of just try and get out of the situation or just focus on something else. So that's why I like doing shots where it's just me and the camera 'cause I- then I can just put all my attention on that instead of having to, you know, be with other people.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_35	Um, just makes me feel like an idiot, makes me feel like I just shouldn't even bother trying to do it anymore. I should just go home and I just-- I think I just don't want to be in that situation. I just feel like everyone else is fine and they're normal and I'm just the freak, you can't, like do normal things and—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_37	Um, like a work situation or just--?	 neutral	communication behavior
23_39	Yeah. I was doing a job where it was kind of like a- a Nature issue and I was having to work with a lot of different people. Um, and, um, when they told me about the job, I thought it would be fine. I thought it was just going to be a few other photographers, but there were actually people and, you know, I was taking photos of people kind of in the trees and stuff like that. And I guess- they asked me to, um—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_41	Yeah. Yeah. It was a fashion thing. I think it was for some kind of-- I'm not sure if it was a campaign or something, but, it was-	 neutral	communication behavior
23_43	Yeah, it was, yeah, it was really cool, but I find it- found it really hard to try and focus on that 'cause I was so- I was kind of feeling really anxious and—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_45	No. No.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_47	That was two weeks ago.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_49	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_51	I just felt really- just really kind of hot. I couldn't really breathe and just felt like I wanted to just get out. And I was kind of trying really, really hard to just focus, and just, you know, like kind of hold the camera and just not think about anything, but I just felt like everyone was looking at me and like, when they'd say 'action' and they're trying to get me to start and I was just felt like everyone was just thinking I was really stupid and I shouldn't have been there and—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_53	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_55	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_57	I was just trying to focus on it. I was just thinking if I could just hold it really tightly, it would just-- I don't know. I'd kind of just be able to just get through it and just focus.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_59	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_61	Cause I felt like I was getting really like hot and flushed and I just thought, at least if I can just-- I don't know. It sounds weird, but I was just trying to keep my hands still on it. 'Cause my hands were kind of sweaty and like shaking like loads, like, and I could just tell everyone was looking and they could see, and I just thought if I just managed to hold onto it, it wouldn't be as noticeable, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_63	Just-- I was just, just stupid and it was just really-- just felt really like kind of- like everyone was just going to be staring and just thinking that I-- Like- I just felt like everyone was looking at me and just, they could tell. And then just thinking of what was she doing?	 neutral	communication behavior
23_65	I was just really like sweaty and just—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_67	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_69	Yeah, um, I was trying to wear black so this kind of tries to cover it up and just like a lot of layers, so they can't tell but, I mean, my hands, like, they were so shaken. I was really red and just was-- Just wishing that I just wasn't there.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_71	I think just very stupid and, like, I think my face was really red. I could feel it flushing and I knew that I'd- I was probably sweating and shaking, like my hands were definitely really really shaking. Um, and af-- it was, like definitely really noticeable. Everyone could definitely see.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_73	Um, well, I again was trying to grip the camera, just look down, just trying not to do anything weird or-- 'Cause, I mean, they could probably tell I was being weird anyway, but hopefully if-- I just- I just tried really hard to just focus and look down, not trying, like not kind-- look at anyone else and just, yeah, just kind of trying get on with it as best as I could, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
23_75	Yeah, no, I-I always do that even if it's really hot or I wear just loads of layers and just 'cause otherwise I- I'll just be really sweaty and like, people would definitely be able to see, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
23_77	Um, well, it kind of went on for like an hour or so, and then, um, people were going, um, just a-after every shoot people go out for drinks after just to kind of celebrate like that we've done it. I'd just- I went home straight away, just got on my car and went home. I just didn't want to be around them especially after they would've seen me being weird and I just wanted to get-get home straight away.	 neutral	communication behavior
24_1	Yeah, I hope so. Um, my workplace has just gone smoke-free. I-I'm not-not very happy about it. I'm gonna keep smoking, but I was wondering if there's anything that-that can help me like get through the day. It's like, you know, go get my beer and smoke cigarettes after work.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_3	No. I'm not gonna quit smoking. I mean, I like it. It helps me relax. So, I mean, I don't see what the big deal is.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_5	I mean, I smoke a little less than a pack a day. It's not too bad. Um, I've probably smoked for the last five years, but I-I-I mean, could quit if I wanted to, but I don't really want to right now.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_7	Sure. I can quit.	 change	communication behavior
24_9	Well, I mean, I don't see why I couldn't, I-- although I have not ever tried to quit, it's just something that I do for fun, you know, on breaks at work, in the morning, and after work.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_11	I am probably a two. I-I haven't even thought about quitting and until this great announcement at work today, I- I'm totally not gonna quit smoking.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_13	Well, I mean, anything's possible. I mean, I-I guess I could maybe be convinced. Yeah. Is there some-- I mean, are there things I can try that would make me like want to quit smoking?	 change	communication behavior
24_15	Okay. Well, that’s good information. I mean, I'm not gonna do anything today. I just need to know my options, but that's encouraging. If I decided to quit smoking, I-I do have at least tools to help me.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_17	I don't know. I guess if my friends, like if one of my friends decided to like quit with me, that would probably help too, but I-- all my friends love to smoke, so I don't see that happening in the near future.	 sustain	communication behavior
24_19	That's a good point. I hadn't really thought about that. That-that's a good idea. Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
24_21	Okay. Well, thanks a lot.	 neutral	communication behavior
25_1	Um, I really want to start working out again. Definitely wanna get back in it, have a routine, and just be healthy.	 change	communication behavior
25_3	Um, I'm sick of feeling the way I do. I feel kinda sluggish. Especially with the winter coming, I think I want to have more energy.	 change	communication behavior
25_5	Um, I don't like the way my clothes fit or don't fit me.	 change	communication behavior
25_7	Just, I don't feel comfortable.	 change	communication behavior
25_9	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
25_11	Um, I know exercise is-- in the past, has always made me feel good. I felt good about myself, and just in general, exercise, I know, makes me feel good. I want to be a good example for my kids. I want them to feel like that's a part of life-	 change	communication behavior
25_13	-exercising. So, I want-- I really just want to go get back in a routine.	 change	communication behavior
25_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
25_17	Um, I don't know. I'd probably have to sit down maybe with my husband and try to figure out a good time for me to be able to do that, where he'd be home with the kids and I'd be going to do that, whether it's morning-time, evening, maybe the weekends.	 change	communication behavior
25_19	Just to find the time to be able to do it, or what works in our schedule.	 change	communication behavior
25_21	Right, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
25_23	Mm, I would like to say a seven or an eight, that that's how important it is to me.	 neutral	communication behavior
25_25	Because I'm really sick of being overweight.	 change	communication behavior
25_27	Not ha-- I just don't like being unhealthy. It doesn't make me feel good, so I'm motivated to change, it's just getting there.	 change	communication behavior
25_29	Exactly, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
25_31	Mm, I'll probably, I don't know, find-- Now, while it's still somewhat okay outside, maybe pick days I'm gonna go for walks or runs, um, maybe look for a gym close to the house so that I know I can go there quickly or maybe that has daycare, um, yeah, maybe I'll just start to look for that, and find ways I can do it first.	 change	communication behavior
25_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
26_1	I just want my call, that's it.	 neutral	communication behavior
26_3	[scoffs] Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
26_5	I don't know. Some of-- One of the officers, it's like he has it out for me or something. I don't- I don't know what it is. Something about me not making my bed, something about my attitude. I don't know, I just want my call, man.	 neutral	communication behavior
26_7	I just wanna contact my mom, that's it.	 neutral	communication behavior
26_9	My dad's birthday is tomorrow.	 neutral	communication behavior
26_11	And I just wanted my call so I can talk to my mom. That's it.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_1	Thank you, my doctor [unintelligible 00:00:05]	 neutral	communication behavior
28_3	Well am having, um-- I've been an ongoing problem with smoking and trying to quit.	 change	communication behavior
28_5	Oh I've been wanting to, for a long long time in years.	 change	communication behavior
28_7	Well I have a 15-year-old daughter and she's highly against it. And, um, health issues, you know, I'm getting-- not getting any younger and I have asthma and I have chronic bronchi-- bronchitis and, um, I'm having a hard time breathing when I exercise and not to mention it's socially unacceptable really.	 change	communication behavior
28_9	Actually it's like being a leper in a non-leper colony.	 change	communication behavior
28_13	Right and, um, she's been expressing, you know, she walks in and she's like shhh and it's embarrassing for her friends and, um, and in-in turn, it's embarrassing for me.	 change	communication behavior
28_15	Right right, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
28_17	Oh and emphysema the beginning stages of emphysema.	 change	communication behavior
28_19	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_21	I really couldn't tell you, um, I remember when my daughter was like five, um, I was-- it was humid out and I have a problem with humidity-	 neutral	communication behavior
28_23	-you know, for breathing, um, and, um, I was trying to stick my head out the window to gasp for air-	 neutral	communication behavior
28_25	-and my daughter became so frightened that she went next door to our neighbor and called 911 and it really—	 neutral	communication behavior
28_27	Yeah-Yeah she's very intelligent, yeah. Um, and they came they took me, you know, on this chair type of thing in my robe and my daughter was in sure panic, um, thinking she's was gonna lose me and she's 15 so its been 10 years since then and I still I've tried this Chantix-	 change	communication behavior
28_29	-unsuccessfully, uh,--	 sustain	communication behavior
28_31	Well, um, I don't know if it's my lack of willpower but, um, also had ve-very bad side effects from it so.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_33	Um, I had nightmares-	 sustain	communication behavior
28_35	-nausea-	 sustain	communication behavior
28_39	Right and it didn't stop me from smoking as well, so that's, uh, [laughs]—	 sustain	communication behavior
28_41	Um, that was about two to three years ago.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_45	"I would get a, um, a new prescription refilled thinking, ""Oh I could try it this time."""	 change	communication behavior
28_47	And I had friends that it worked for-	 neutral	communication behavior
28_49	Um, and there is a support group that they have that you can go online or call-	 neutral	communication behavior
28_51	-but of course I didn't do either but-	 sustain	communication behavior
28_53	-um—	 neutral	communication behavior
28_55	No. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_57	And agitation really-	 sustain	communication behavior
28_59	-because, um, you know, um, being at my age I'm going through the menopause stage which is part, you know, you'll have that anyways and then having 15-year-old that causes a little bit more stress so you don't need any extra stress, I don't think, as far as I'm concerned.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_61	Right, exactly.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_63	Only when I was in the hospital. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
28_65	And even then I-I snuck out and had a cigarette, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_67	Oh God, I would have to say, uh, three days.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_69	But it was not really by choice, it was by, um, the situation I was in, I wasn't able to smoke so, yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_71	Right.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_73	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_75	Um, constant thoughts about smoking.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_77	Um, uh, just as, um, a chocoholic craves chocolate-	 sustain	communication behavior
28_81	Yeah, exactly. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Um, and the first thing when I was able to smoke, I didn't care if I smoke my brand or anybody else's brand, I just wanted that cigarette.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_83	The nicotine is the addiction.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_85	And-and also the-the psyche thing, you know, with-- I mean, I wake up in the morning, I want a coffee with- I want coffee with a cigarette.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_87	Um, if I'm stressed, coffee with a cigarette.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_89	I mean, just cigarette. Um, so it's always, like, it's-it's a duel kind of problem I think-	 change	communication behavior
28_91	-you know-	 neutral	communication behavior
28_93	-I'm finding it to be.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_97	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_101	Oh, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_103	"As they say, my aunt was like, ""Put another nail in your coffin,"" you know."	 change	communication behavior
28_105	"More on kind of cocky and I say, ""Well, you know, Aunt Kathy, you were my role model, and back in the day, um, I used to envy and watch and think you were so sexy, and all the movies, the old movies."""	 sustain	communication behavior
28_107	Yes, yeah. And that's what I associated with at the time and now it's almost, I'm ostracized for it.	 sustain	communication behavior
28_109	So, it's kind of like a double-edged sword.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_111	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
28_115	Oh, yeah, and you have to travel like 10 miles-	 change	communication behavior
28_117	-in order to have a cigarette. And not say you're in a situation and you only have a 15-minute break-	 change	communication behavior
28_119	-you can't even finish your cigarette, um, because you have to be back within a certain amount of time and it takes you, like, let's say seven minutes to get to the place where you can smoke and seven minutes to get back-	 sustain	communication behavior
28_121	-and a cigarette, um, for me takes five minutes to smoke.	 sustain	communication behavior
29_1	Um, I definitely, uh, you know, I-I strive to be physically healthy, but I also have in my life seeing how that impacts me mentally. Um, so I think if I'm- if I'm able to do the things that I wanna do and, um, you know, that I'm feeling good about where I'm at mentally, then that's kind of my end goal, always. Um, yeah, so this body dissatisfaction piece has really just kinda thrown a wrench in that and it's been enough of a challenge that I thought I should seek out someone who can really help me through that piece.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_3	Yes, please.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_5	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_8	So, like, for example, having like a-a set out meal plan, um, you know, where I'm eating certain food groups or certain macronutrients, for example, that wouldn't necessarily follow that same approach.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_10	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_12	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_14	Okay, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_16	Well, I think it makes sense, especially like-like you said, to be sustainable. Um, yeah, I definitely wouldn't wanna try something where I'm going to crash and burn for days in.	 change	communication behavior
29_18	Um, when you talk about activity and you mentioned like really, um, like rigorous activity types, um, like I go to a gym and I enjoy going to the gym when I was active.	 change	communication behavior
29_20	Um, would that be kind of against that philosophy too or I guess, can you explain that a bit more?	 neutral	communication behavior
29_22	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_24	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_26	Cool, so both with the foods and the activity, we would be working to find things that I like to do-	 change	communication behavior
29_28	-that I could do for longer periods versus more of like you said, the prescriptive approach.	 change	communication behavior
29_30	Mm-hmm. Yeah, no, I think that-that all sounds good. Um, you know, I still would want to lose weight.	 change	communication behavior
29_32	Um, and I know you said weight loss isn't really the goal, so I-	 neutral	communication behavior
29_34	-I just want to be upfront about that part with me and maybe that changes or maybe it doesn't, but what do you think about that.	 neutral	communication behavior
29_36	Great. Yeah, now that sounds good.	 neutral	communication behavior
30_1	I don't know, and I still don't wanna charge it.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_3	No. I got a lot of stuff to do, I don't need to charge it.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_5	No.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_7	I guess so. I don't know. I-I-I honestly don't care what the consequences are.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_9	Sure. I'll listen.	 neutral	communication behavior
30_11	Whatever.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_13	No. I just-- I don't care.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_15	It really [unintelligible 00:00:58]-- I don't care.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_17	Nope.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_19	Yeah, whatever. I Know you got to do your job, but I don't care.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_21	I mean, whatever happens happens. I'll deal with it when it happens.	 sustain	communication behavior
30_23	I mean, I'll just deal with it when it comes.	 neutral	communication behavior
30_25	Yeah, I guess so.	 neutral	communication behavior
30_27	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_1	Hey.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_3	Yeah, my doctor talked to me about my cholesterol, that-that's-that's his job.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_5	Yeah, that'd be okay, yeah, you know, I'm not so certain I'm even gonna take the medicine cause, you know, he mentioned muscle weakness, uh, you know, I-I know I got high cholesterol, uh, and that I'm running the risk of stroke and heart attack down line but yeah, he mentioned muscle weakness and I've been thinking about that and, uh, you know I'm a truck driver and I got a haul the heavy boxes out of the truck on a dolly, and I can't afford that right now. Just that-that muscle weakness, uh, that-that bothers me.	 sustain	communication behavior
31_7	Oh, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_9	Yeah, that's the problem, that's what I face now with my job.	 sustain	communication behavior
31_11	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_13	Mm-hmm.	 sustain	communication behavior
31_15	That'd be fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_17	Oh.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_19	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_21	Well, I guess it doesn't worry me quite as much if it's reversible like that. You know, I was thinking this was gonna be a big-time, but, uh, uh, yeah, I guess, it sounds manageable.	 change	communication behavior
31_23	Oh, he just said that the risks are-are up, I think he called it elevated but, uh, you know, uh, that I'm at a higher risk of having a stroke or a heart attack down the line, uh, you know, that's down the line.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_25	Well, you know, my wife and I wanna retire in about four to five years and we wanna be really active visiting all sorts of places, The Fjords, Norway, things like that so I-I guess having a stroke or a heart attack would really be bad for that so and, you know, we-we-we wanna live our dreams actively.	 change	communication behavior
31_27	Whoa.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_29	Yeah, no-no we-we wanna able to be very active.	 change	communication behavior
31_31	Well, uh, I guess that's the-the way to go then cause I-I don't wanna be, you know, crippled by a stroke or a heart attack-	 change	communication behavior
31_33	-so take- taking the medicine sounds like the-the end of the game right now.	 change	communication behavior
31_35	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_37	Oh yeah.	 change	communication behavior
31_39	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
31_41	And the medicine can get my cholesterol down?	 neutral	communication behavior
31_43	Wow, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_45	Yeah, I'll take the medicine.	 change	communication behavior
31_47	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_49	That'd be fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_51	Fair enough, hey thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
31_53	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_1	Hmm, pretty good.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_3	Check it, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_5	Oh, that was fixed really nice.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_7	You got rid of that bad-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_9	-discoloration that was there.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_11	I like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_13	Mm. Well, the usual suspects, smoking, wine, coffee-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_15	-all of the above.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_17	Yeah, I've thought about it. I'm just-- It's not my cup-- I-I-I hear it from everybody, and, uh, I've tried- I've tried before, didn't work. I get it all the time.	 sustain	communication behavior
33_19	Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, [unintelligible 00:01:13] hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_21	"Yeah, I-I-I know I'm not an idiot and people know that smokers are, you know, ""How can you smoke today?"" [coughs] It's just not that easy to, uh, quit."	 sustain	communication behavior
33_23	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_25	Uh, who wouldn't be?	 neutral	communication behavior
33_27	You'd have to be a real fool not to do it-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_29	-if you [unintelligible 00:01:34] was gonna make it like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_31	I-I just hear it every day.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_33	I've smoked for 40 years, since I was 14-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_35	-and quit a couple of times, off and on in my 20s, but, you know, it's been consistent. And I can't see myself changing now.	 sustain	communication behavior
33_37	No matter what kinda talk I get or what they come up with.	 sustain	communication behavior
33_39	Not gonna worked for me.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_41	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_43	I know cold turkey is probably the only thing that's ever gonna do it to anybody that's done it. Mysel- My group, it's been cold turkey-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_45	-and then they fight it, but [sighs] it's my choice-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_47	-and I don't like lectures about it.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_49	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_51	Hard to tell 'cause I already had open-heart surgery. That didn't do it.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_53	Prostate cancer, that didn't do it.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_55	I don't know. I really don't know. I just don't really want it.	 sustain	communication behavior
33_57	I just-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_59	-have to-	 neutral	communication behavior
33_61	Yeah, a while, quite a while. Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
33_63	Okay, yeah. I could go for that. I-I, uh, I'm always open to some-- you know, to listen. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_65	Yeah. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
33_67	"[unintelligible 00:03:34] options. I had some-- I had my surgeon just go like, ""You're- you're--"" like, ""Why do I even keep you as a patient?"""	 neutral	communication behavior
33_69	He's good, though. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
33_71	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_73	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_75	Thanks, doc.	 neutral	communication behavior
33_77	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_1	Um, my doctor referred me. He said I had to come because I've- I've been a little irresponsible with this pregnancy. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_3	Yeah. Um, he said that I was drinking too much with it. Um, I-I haven't been a lot, but he said it was still maybe, um, would screw things up.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_5	Yeah. Yeah. Like I don't- I don't want to screw anything up with this baby, but, um, yeah, I'm just- I'm scared I already did.	 change	communication behavior
34_7	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_9	"Yeah. He didn't really tell me what to expect. He just said, ""Go- go see her as well."""	 neutral	communication behavior
34_11	Yeah. Um, I didn't find out I was pregnant until probably two-ish months in-	 neutral	communication behavior
34_13	-and I had already been drinking then. Um, I've been really trying not to, but, you know, weekends come around, and, um, all my friends are kind of partying and stuff, and it's been hard to, like, break that habit.	 change	communication behavior
34_15	A little bit. I think if I- if I talk to them, it would be fine, but it's-it's weird, right? Like I'm the only one of my friends that's, like, taking this step and having a kid, and they don't really know how to handle that.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_17	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_19	"Yeah, like, I'm- I'm still, like, I'm only in my 20s, and-and for everyone else, it's like, ""Okay, it's party time,"" and now I kind of have to, like, break out of that."	 change	communication behavior
34_21	There's, yeah, there's part of me that still wants to live that out because I'm not going to have another chance, like once this kid comes, it's-it's going to be over. I know I'm gonna- I know I'm going to have to change.	 change	communication behavior
34_23	Yeah. Probably. And I'm also feeling like it's too late. I already screwed it up.	 change	communication behavior
34_25	"Well, I know, like, they say not to, but I thought because my friends didn't really care, I thought, ""Okay. Like maybe-maybe it doesn't matter. Maybe it's just what they tell you."" Just like drinking, in general, is bad."	 sustain	communication behavior
34_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_29	Yeah, like, I should probably have trusted my gut.	 change	communication behavior
34_31	It's telling me that what I'm doing is wrong and it's probably hurting my kid and that- that I'm gonna really regret that once I actually get my kid.	 change	communication behavior
34_33	Um, I'm definitely it's not-- I think I could probably do it. It's just- it-it comes hard when you're, like, in that moment. You're around your friends and they're drinking and you don't wanna be- you don't wanna be the mom at that moment. You wanna be yourself. You wanna be who you were before.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_35	And so many people, when they have kids, they just vanish from their friends. And I don't wanna be that person. I don't wanna be that person that just has a kid and they're completely-completely different.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_37	Yeah, suburbs. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_39	Yeah, I-I guess. Like, I don't wanna- I don't wanna lose my friends because of this. And I don't wanna put pressure on them to change because they're, I mean, they're good people. They're just—	 sustain	communication behavior
34_41	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_43	I don’t want that.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_45	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_47	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
34_49	Like, I wanna- I wanna be responsible for this thing.	 change	communication behavior
34_51	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_53	I guess so. I feel like I've already made a choice and already made some bad choices with this.	 change	communication behavior
34_55	Well, I-I kept the kid because I wanted-- It was almost like that push, that sign for me to, like, move forward and become like an adult because it's scary, right? Like I-I still feel like a teenager sometimes. And having that push to be a real person is really-- It's a lot of pressure and I-I want to raise this kid well. I don't wanna- I don't wanna let my kid down. I don't wanna, you know, I don't wanna regret choosing to have this kid because I think it's the right time, but I don't wanna- I don't wanna make mistakes that make me realize maybe I'm not ready for this 'cause sometimes it feels like I'm not ready for this.	 change	communication behavior
34_57	Yeah, I just guess it's easier said than done though. Like, it's, like, great, I can make all these changes and I can be a completely new person, but it's, like, at the end of the day, I'm still just who I am.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_59	Yeah. And I'm just- you know, you can't just one day flick a switch and become a new person.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_61	Yeah, I guess that voice is just a little more stifled by the other one.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_63	Yeah, it's gonna be very different when it actually comes.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_65	I think I'm gonna have to be successful. I don't really- I don't have any other choice. Like I have to- I have to take that path.	 change	communication behavior
34_67	Because I need to for my kid. It's- it's gonna be all screwed up if I don't.	 change	communication behavior
34_69	"I don't know, like, maybe- maybe actually talking to my friends and saying like- or maybe them actually being able to see this kid and go, ""Of course, of course, your- your choice makes sense. You--"" Maybe it would, you know, give them a wake-up call too if They actually, like, see it."	 change	communication behavior
34_71	Or at least they'll feel less pressure to be who they want me to be.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_73	A little bit.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_75	Definitely my parents, um, and I probably need to, uh, go and meet some other-other people who are maybe, you know, having kids too so that I can see, like how it's done 'cause like, I only have a younger brother who's like not-not even close to that. So I don't really have anyone in my life that I know that's had kids recently. So I-I would like to meet other, you know, young moms out there who, you know, are kind of struggling with the same stuff I am.	 change	communication behavior
34_77	I don't think they realize, uh, that I'm doing it or how much I'm doing it.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_79	And I know that if they found out, they would be really pissed.	 change	communication behavior
34_81	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_83	I think so, yeah, like the telling my parents and [unintelligible 00:13:45] this to my parents is probably the scariest thing.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_85	And having to talk to those friends, like right now I don't want to do that. It's- it puts them in a weird place.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_87	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_89	It feels like I have to lec- I don't wanna have to lecture them and I don't want it to be like a lecture.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_91	My parents or my friends?	 neutral	communication behavior
34_93	Yeah, lecture my-- Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_95	Yeah, and I don't wanna be like that.	 sustain	communication behavior
34_97	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_99	I wanna stay friends with them. I don't want- I don't want them to just-	 neutral	communication behavior
34_101	Yeah, like if there's a- if there's a balance between maybe not the paths, but the worlds, if there's a balance between that-	 change	communication behavior
34_103	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_105	Yeah, like I-I know I just can't cut off my friends altogether.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_107	Um yeah, like I'm so close anyways, that I know I need to now. Um, and I just also, like, have I completely screwed this up, like, is it already too late?	 change	communication behavior
34_109	Mm-hmm, I have to do.	 change	communication behavior
34_111	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
34_113	I don't think so. I think just knowing that it's not too late already is enough kick in the pants to get started.	 change	communication behavior
34_115	A little bit.	 neutral	communication behavior
35_1	Hi, Dawn. Nice to meet you.	 neutral	communication behavior
35_3	Thanks for having me.	 neutral	communication behavior
35_5	So I am, um, 28. And I moved out to Arizona about six months ago. Um, I really enjoy spending time with my family and hanging out with friends whenever I can. Work keeps me pretty busy. Um, But I'm really, um, looking to kind of make some changes to my diet and physical activity. I'm not really happy with where my weight's at right now, and, uh, so I thought it'd be good to come and talk with you about some of that stuff.	 change	communication behavior
35_7	Yeah. Um, I'm really starting to notice how I feel more sluggish and just not-- My mood is shifted a lot too, which at first, I thought was because it's getting colder outside, um, but I do also think it maybe has some relation to my activity, or lack thereof, and also kind of the foods that I'm eating.	 change	communication behavior
35_9	Right. Yeah. Especially during times when I'm more active is when I noticed the biggest cha-change in energy and mood.	 change	communication behavior
35_11	Yeah. Um, well, I played sports in college, so that kept me pretty busy, and that was really fun, um, and I just think back now to, as much that I would cram into a 24 -hour period, and like, wonder how I did that, but I think that part of it was because I was so active physically, um, I just had way more energy throughout the day, mentally and physically to, um, you know, go to school full-time and-and still socialize with friends and do all that stuff. Um, so when I think back to like, probably like the peak of my life of when I felt my best physically, mentally it was that time.	 change	communication behavior
35_13	Yeah, yeah, exactly. And now it's not so much the same. Um, like when I get home from work, I'm pretty exhausted, uh, it takes a lot for me to want to be physically active when I've spent all day staring at a computer and thinking and working. And so, um, yeah, that's probably been my biggest, uh, issue is like when work ends, going home and not really doing anything. Um, just trying to like unwind by watching Netflix or something else, right?	 neutral	communication behavior
35_15	Um, well, I think part of it is that when I was in college, it wasn't really an option to go, like, I had to go to practice or I had to do those things because that was, in a sense, my job that was paying for school, um, and now there's not that same commitment to other people or to scholarship money. So that definitely has shifted, um, but I-I do feel like a-an urgency to go it just doesn't seem that like the step that's missing is for me to actually go to a gym or somewhere to be more active. Like, I think I want to it's just the doing it that seems to not happen.	 change	communication behavior
35_17	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
35_19	Yeah, yeah, I think so. Um, that's not to say like, I wanna go run a marathon but I do think that it would help me a lot in terms of just having a better outlook on life, um, and better energy to- if I were to pick up some type of activity.	 change	communication behavior
35_21	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
35_23	Just, I'm-I'm just happier and more upbeat and I think that even my outlook is more positive. So like, if I'm sitting in traffic, and I haven't been physically active, I'll probably grumble about it but if I'm sitting in traffic, and I have been, it's like, I just have a different outlook on things and I already feel like I've gotten something accomplished that day. So it just kind of like helps with that ripple effect into my day of like getting more things done.	 change	communication behavior
35_25	Mm-hmm. Yeah, exactly.	 change	communication behavior
35_27	Yeah. And then also to, um, like I mentioned, I'm not totally happy with my weight, um, and so hoping too that that would have some impact there and-and maybe help me, um, if my activity kind of gets resolved or improves, then my nutrition also, maybe would go along with it and get better.	 change	communication behavior
35_29	Uh, probably about three, four months ago. Um, yeah, just my clothes started fitting tighter, which wasn't as comfortable, and, um, yeah, just not really super happy with my appearance, which has never really been an issue, um, in my life up until now. I've usually been pretty okay with that, and then in the last three months, I just feel, um, like I've had a lot more of a negative outlook on it.	 change	communication behavior
35_31	Yeah, I think- I think the activity piece and then also to like, the foods that I'm eating, I don't think are that great. So that also kind of does the same thing, I think, to my appearance or the way that I viewed myself.	 change	communication behavior
35_33	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
36_1	Yes. Morning.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_3	Hello.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_5	Well, you can call me Barbara. That'll be fine. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_7	Yes, Dr. Brown is my doctor.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_9	Well, I've come about my tummy problem. I've got terrible trouble with my stomach and, uh, Dr. Brown just doesn't seem to be able to get to the bottom of it. And I thought perhaps, uh, I'd come and see you to see if you could help.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_11	Um, well, I-I have this terrible discomfort nearly all the time. Um, it very often feels bloated. I, um, uh, I swing between being constipated and having diarrhea. Um, I have sort of cramping feelings sometimes, and other times it stabs. It's a real stabbing feeling. Um, I often have the urge to go to the toilet and, um, and I pass very smelly wind.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_13	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_15	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_17	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_19	Well, I, uh, I've traced it back to a holiday I had in Egypt about four years ago. I had, um, a horrible bout of sickness and diarrhea, and, uh, and I don't think my stomach's ever been really right since then.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_21	Yes. Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_23	Well, uh, Dr. Brown gave me some muscle relaxants at the beginning.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_25	Um, but I've been to the health shop and-and they've been really helpful. They've given me lots of different, um, tablets and medicines-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_27	- for different things. Um, no, oh, and Immodium.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_29	I have Immodium in my handbag all the time, just in case. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_31	Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_33	Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_35	Oh, well, different tablets, you know, I don't have the same problem every day-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_37	- so I'll take some tablets for certain, uh, symptoms, and-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_39	- other tablets for other things.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_41	Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_43	Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_45	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_47	Yes, uh, I had, uh, in the early days, I had a gastros-gas-- What are they called?	 neutral	communication behavior
36_49	That's it. Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_51	Yes. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_53	Um, and at the same time I had a barium enema.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_55	That was very uncomfortable.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_57	Um, but, um, no, I've tried-- Well, you-- I don't think he's tried enough tests because he said after that, that they didn't find anything-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_59	-and he-he's-he's just not sent me for anymore. That's it now-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_61	- as far as he's concerned. Sent me back to the doctor.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_63	Well, you know, I think that actually, the NHS are running out of money, aren't they? And he's-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_65	- decided that I've had enough tests.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_67	And, um, you know, if you go on the Internet-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_69	- there's loads of tests that he could have sent me for.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_71	Um, if I had a bit more money, I'd go private.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_73	I just don't think he's got to the bottom of it.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_75	No, he's not. There's loads more he could do. I'm sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_77	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_79	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_81	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_83	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_85	I'd say so, yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_87	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_89	Uh, well, it's had quite-quite a big impact. Um, I mean, the first thing, the biggest thing, I suppose, is that I-I went from being full-time to part-time at work.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_91	I just couldn't sit all day comfortably.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_93	Um, and so I went part-time, but in the end, I, uh, about a year ago, I stopped work altogether.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_95	Um, I miss that.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_97	I miss the girls. We used to, uh, we used to go out at least once a week.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_99	To the pictures or for a drink. That's one thing.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_101	Yeah, so I-- Yes. Yes, we used to have a laugh.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_103	Um, I used to go to Swing and Shape. I used to go to an exercise class-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_105	- that was, um, I miss the exercise, actually. That was, um, once a week, but you know, the thing was I wasn't comfortable, never felt quite right doing all this exercise. I was always worried I was gonna be taken short or-- So I stopped that.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_107	Um, then-- Well, my husband and I used to go out for meals.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_109	That's another thing we don't do anymore now.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_111	Um, mm. Yeah, it's quite a few things, really.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_113	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_115	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_117	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_119	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_121	Well, I potter around the house-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_123	- um, I spend perhaps a little bit too much time watching. I've got a bit hooked on daytime television, I have to say.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_125	Um, they draw you in, don't they?	 neutral	communication behavior
36_127	Um, I read a bit-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_129	- the old magazines, but, uh, generally, I'm at home.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_131	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_133	Um, well, last year, um, my son got married-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_135	- and I-I have to say I was worried that, um, that I wouldn't be able to cope with it.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_137	That I-I wouldn't be feeling well enough, but surprisingly enough, um, I was in good form, and I think it was about three weeks in the summer, getting ready for it-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_139	- and the whole hoo-ha of the wedding.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_141	But I was in good- in really good form for that. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_143	That was a good time.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_145	I hardly noticed them.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_147	Yeah, it, uh, it seemed to, uh, clear up.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_149	Which was good.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_151	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_153	Um, well, it's- I'm-I'm having a bit of a bad patch at the moment.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_155	It's particularly, um, uncomfortable. Um, I have to say I do notice it when my husband's away. He-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_157	- he travels with his job, and he-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_159	- can be away a couple of times a month.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_161	Um, and that's not-- It-it's very often not good then, I have to say.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_163	Mm. Maybe I'm thinking about it a bit more, I don't know, when he's not there.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_165	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_167	Well, he's-he thinks it's all in my head.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_169	You know, he's- he says it's stress.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_171	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_173	Well, I mean, it can't all be in my head. I get too much physical pain-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_175	- for it to be in my head. I mean, it's real. It's-it's real pain.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_177	Um—	 neutral	communication behavior
36_179	Well, I mean, I-I did think that perhaps it was an infection that hadn't cleared up-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_181	- in the early stages, but, um, I think, um, I-I mean, sometimes I think it's IBS. A friend of mines has got that and it sounds similar, and then-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_183	"- other times I'll think, ""I wonder if it's an ulcer."""	 neutral	communication behavior
36_185	Um, on a really bad day, I start to think it might be cancer.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_187	Um, my mother-in-law- my mother-in-law died of cancer last year and she had a, um, a growth that-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_189	- the-the doctor didn't investigate.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_191	But by the time they'd found it, it was the size of a football-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_193	- and it was- it was too late to operate then.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_195	So, you know, when I go to bed at night now, um, I just feel to make sure there's nothing different going on.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_197	And, uh, yeah, I worry about that.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_199	Oh, yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_201	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_203	I just want to make sure there's nothing changing down there, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
36_205	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_207	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_209	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_211	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_213	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_215	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_217	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_219	Yes. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_221	I'd say so.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_223	Well, I thought, you know, you're a new doctor here-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_225	- and you've just finished your medical training. I wondered whether, you know, with new eyes and a new way of looking at-at the problem-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_227	- um, you-you probably know about different tests, new tests, that my doctor doesn't know about, you know, new developments.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_229	So perhaps you could send me for some different tests.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_231	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_233	Well, I think there's-there's got to be something that a test might-	 neutral	communication behavior
36_235	- might reveal.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_237	So-so like, do you think it's all in my head then? You're gonna be like Dr. Brown. You think I'm imagining all of this?	 neutral	communication behavior
36_239	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_241	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_243	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_245	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_247	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_249	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_251	Well, I can't see that my mind can be causing this amount of pain.	 sustain	communication behavior
36_253	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_255	What-what sort of approach?	 neutral	communication behavior
36_257	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_259	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_261	Well, I just can't do them.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_263	I can't- I can't do them anymore.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_265	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_267	Oh, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_269	I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_271	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_273	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_275	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_277	Hmm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_279	Well, two or three months is a long time if there is something going on. I mean, that's what happened to my mother-in-law, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
36_281	They-they left her and-	 sustain	communication behavior
36_283	- didn't spot it and—	 sustain	communication behavior
36_285	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_287	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_289	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_291	So, uh, what are you saying then? That I should come back and see you?	 change	communication behavior
36_293	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_295	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
36_297	Okay. Well, uh, to make an appointment for next week.	 change	communication behavior
36_299	And come and see you again-	 change	communication behavior
36_301	- and talk about it a bit more?	 change	communication behavior
36_303	Okay.	 change	communication behavior
36_305	All right. And I'll make a list of the tablets that I'm taking.	 change	communication behavior
36_307	I won't bring all the bottles down.	 change	communication behavior
36_309	Okay. All right. I'll do that.	 change	communication behavior
36_311	I'll make an appointment for next week. Yes.	 change	communication behavior
36_313	Okay. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_1	Kia ora.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_3	Yeah, yeah fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_5	Actually, it's been pretty good. I, um, I talked to my mom, which, uh-	 neutral	communication behavior
37_7	-which is a big deal. And, uh, she was excellent. Um, I knew she would be. Um, and, uh, I've made an appointment for the, uh, for Stopping Violence and [unintelligible 00:16:15]	 change	communication behavior
37_9	Um, I've cut down on the drink. I haven't stopped drinking, but, uh-- Yeah, so, uh, it's okay.	 change	communication behavior
37_11	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_13	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_15	Uh, I didn't speak to my brothers and sisters this time, I just spoke to my mom, but, uh, she, uh, she suggested that I go and stay with my, uh, auntie and my uncle. Uh—	 neutral	communication behavior
37_17	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_19	I'm not sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_21	I'm not sure, I'm thinking about it.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_23	Well, I'm not sure if I want to live with my auntie and uncle. [chuckles] Um, I think, yeah, I'll probably need to. I think probably living with, uh, with my mate in his flat is probably not that helpful.	 change	communication behavior
37_25	It was terrible. It was really hard. Uh, I think probably the hardest person to talk to about it, my mom. My, um, my old man, um-- Yeah, it was hard.	 change	communication behavior
37_27	I try.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_29	Well, I hope it tells you that, um, that I'm a good bloke. That I'm a good dad. That I really- that I'm really serious. I am really serious.	 change	communication behavior
37_31	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_33	Uh, yeah, I talked to her about it. We talked a little bit. Um, and she's not completely convinced.	 neutral	communication behavior
37_35	Um, but we'll see how it goes.	 change	communication behavior
37_37	I need to, um, I need to see all these things that I've started to put into action, I need to see them through to the end.	 change	communication behavior
37_39	Well. I need to- I need to, uh, to show her that she can trust me. That I'm serious about it.	 change	communication behavior
38_1	Yeah, um, last week I met with my nurse practitioner, and I ge-I guess she's worried with how much I'm smoking and drinking right now. I mean, I-I did agree I would work on the smoking and try to cut back on that. But, as far as the drinking, I-I don't really think I drink that much.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_3	Right, I mean, I don't drink that much and, honestly, it-it's just a good way to relax.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_5	Yeah, exactly. You know, it's kind of like that me time at the end of the day.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_7	Yeah. You know, I have a two-year-old son, and then, I work full-time. And, I also started going back to school. So, you know, just trying to juggle all that stuff. You know, it's tiring, and so, you know, at the end of the day, I just- I wanna relax and enjoy myself.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_9	Yeah, and for work, you know, I'm a server. So, I'm on my feet all day, you know, and it's-it's really tiring.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_11	Yeah, you know, it's hard trying to please customers all day. And then, at the same time, I'm-I'm worrying, am I making enough money to support my son, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
38_13	Yeah, and then, you know, with going back to school, you know, I have to figure out how I'm going to pay for everything. So, you know, i-it's just a lot right now.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_15	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_17	Well, that's the thing. I-I don't really understand what raised concern. I mean, I don't drink that much, you know. I've-I've gone up to maybe two drinks a day max, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_19	Not much.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_21	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_23	I don't know, i-it just surprises me because, I mean, two drinks a day, that-that doesn't seem like a problem or risky, you know. And, I have family members who drink a lot more than that per day, and, it's not a problem for them. So, i-it just surprises me.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_25	No. And then, I don't know, I-I'm just getting kind of annoyed, honestly, because, you know, I did agree I would try to work on my smoking, you know. But, with this whole drinking thing, it's like everything that I enjoy, you know, is being taken away from me right now. And so, if I give up drinking, like, what am I going to have to enjoy myself, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
38_27	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_29	Yeah, I mean, I guess it has. Probably just with being so stressed out every day, you know. I mean, I'm in my second semester of school right now, and so, adding that to everything, uh, it's a lot. And, you know, I'm trying to figure out child carry. Um, normally, my mom will watch my son, but, lately, she can't always. And so, I'm always kind of worrying like, will she be able to, you know. So, i-it's just stressful.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_31	Yeah, I-I guess that's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_33	Uh-huh.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_35	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_37	No. I guess, you know, the one- the one thing I can think of is, I mean, there will be evenings when I just kind of want to get my son to bed a little earlier, just so that I can have that alone time to unwind, you know, maybe-maybe smoke, have a couple drinks. Um, but, I do feel guilty about that sometimes, because, I should enjoy spending time with my son, but, instead, you know, I'm just wanting to be by myself and relax, you know. So—	 change	communication behavior
38_39	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_41	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_43	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_45	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_47	No. And, i-it's just, it's really hard to take in right now. I mean, yeah. I-I've never thought about it like this. And, so, you know, I-I do feel kind of worried.	 change	communication behavior
38_49	Yeah. I mean, i-it's part of my routine right now, and, you know, I-I don't want to sacrifice something I enjoy, but, you know, I'm trying really hard, you know, to be a good mom. I'm-I'm trying to, you know, go-go back to school. I'm trying to work. So, I don't know how I can do all of that if I don't have a way to enjoy myself or relax, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
38_51	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_53	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_55	Well, you know, if there was some way that I could relieve some of my stress, I think I would feel better, and, you know, maybe at night, I wouldn't feel like I had to unwind in the same way.	 change	communication behavior
38_57	Um, you know, probably my biggest problem is just childcare. You know, my mom normally watches my son, but she's been kind of backing out lately. And so, I'm worrying, am I going to have to call into work today, am-am I going to have to miss class? You know, so, you know, worrying about that really stresses me out, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_59	Yeah, definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_61	Yeah. I mean, she watches him so much. I think she's just probably getting stressed out too. And, I feel bad because, you know, it's not her son, so i-it shouldn't be her problem, but, I need something that I can rely on better.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_63	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_65	Well, I mean, most of my problems always go back to money. You know, i-if I had more money, I could afford daycare, I could work less hours, you know? So, yeah. It's-it's normally related to money.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_68	Yeah. I mean, I'm ready to consider changing my drinking, but, as far as actually doing it, I-I don't know. I mean, I have a lot of problems that I'm trying to work out right now.	 change	communication behavior
38_70	Childcare, probably.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_72	Not really. I mean, I just normally see if my mom can watch my son, so, you know, I haven't really looked around.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_74	Yeah, definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_76	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_78	Yeah, I-I think I would. I mean, it's-it's been nice to just talk about everything that's going on.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_80	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_82	Mm-mm	 neutral	communication behavior
38_84	Well, I mean, I could at least try to going back to one drink a night instead of two.	 change	communication behavior
38_86	Yeah. I mean, I-I don't know how it's going to go, especially with trying to cut back on smoking already, but, I mean, I can try.	 change	communication behavior
38_88	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_90	I don't think so.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_92	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
38_94	Okay. Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_1	Every time I go-- Excuse me. -to any doctor, you know, you need to quit smoking and—	 neutral	communication behavior
39_3	Uh-huh and I kind of go, let's move on, you know because I've heard the lecture. Um, and I really don't put much credence into what they say. I did have- I did have a neighbor who was smoked for many, many years and, um, she had the Oxygen-- Oxygen tank that she would have to sleep at night with the oxygen on and even that didn't deter me from that smoking. I don't really know. It's like, um, a power greater than myself. This is controlling me like this, you know, the angels on this side, the devil's on the other.	 sustain	communication behavior
39_5	Mm-hmm, yeah. And common sense somewhere in the middle.	 change	communication behavior
39_7	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_9	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_11	Well, you know, I was thinking along the lines of meditation. Um, you know, I- I do practice yoga, um, not consistently, but on and off. Um, and when I was in the hospital, I had to do that breathing apparatus and they didn't want to let me go now, like, you know- you know what, I'm not doing that it's already blurry then to this thing, to see the level, um, some pretty obstinate about it and yet I want to do it, you know?	 change	communication behavior
39_13	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_15	Right. Which I barely have any.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_17	Right- right.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_21	Oh, I already have one.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_23	Yeah, [laughs].	 neutral	communication behavior
39_25	It came home with me.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_29	It's stuff that I learnt in class.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_31	That'd be great, yeah, please.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_33	That's- that's something I'd be really interested in.	 change	communication behavior
39_35	Yeah. I mean, I- I, um, I've always liked therapy itself, and I- I've heard, I don't know if it's accurate, but if you have the willingness that is you're ease- more easily hypnotized, I don't know is it true?	 change	communication behavior
39_37	Well, I mean exercise, but really, you know, I have the mindset, you know, like, okay, tomorrow I'm going to get up and I'm going to do this, but I really am not a follow-through type of person with this.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_39	Because you know I've never been really athletic. I mean, so it's kind of like, I know that when you substitute something for something else, other than chocolate, which is my best friend too, [laughs].	 change	communication behavior
39_41	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_43	You know, I've heard of Welbutrin.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_45	My girlfriend quit smoking. She quit drinking. She quit doing everything with this Wellbutrin. Now I- I- I am on some medications, like some, like I think that's an antidepressant.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_47	Okay. Um, I'd be open to that and then I'm not sure-- I'm not familiar with the other thing that you had suggested. Um, I don't know what that is.	 change	communication behavior
39_50	Um, you know I'd be-- I've heard a little bit about them, but I mean I do know some people, but they're not exactly reliable, um, as far as you know really having a desire and sticking to it that they smoke on the patch and-and then it causes this you know extreme, you know? Like you're getting double the nicotine or whatever so it's almost like they're getting a buzz from it you know so that's my fear and the cost of the patch because it's not covered you know through your, um, your- your insurance and the Nicorette same thing it's very expensive you know. And I'm not really a gum sure but here I am because—	 sustain	communication behavior
39_52	[laughs] but I mean I'd be interested I wish they'd make it more affordable for people or you know they haven't covered by insurance because you know the risk of it you know that the premiums for insurance- insurance for people who smoke are so high you would think that they would have like, um, what do they call that? Preventive. Um, I wish I never would have started and I'm proud of my daughter you know because I started smoking a little bit earlier than her age, and I'm proud that she is at this point not smoking this manifestation she might pick it up but it's- it's like-	 change	communication behavior
39_54	Yeah-yeah, maybe I'm the best example of why she doesn't want to [laughs] you know	 change	communication behavior
39_56	Whatever you know and her friends. I think a lot of her friend's parents don't smoke and I'm constantly running like outside to smoke and-and-	 change	communication behavior
39_58	It is. It really is. It's a monkey on my back	 change	communication behavior
39_60	And um for me smoking is like a calming effect, you know. And some people it's a stimulant you know and then for me, it's like, I look forward to relaxing on my couch after a long day and then watching my you know news or whatever the heck I'm watching or reading and having my cigarette, um, I'll tell you-	 sustain	communication behavior
39_62	Right. Exactly or you know like I'll do some work, and then I'm like okay you know as my ex-husband says Union break and it's a cigarette break. [laughs]	 sustain	communication behavior
39_64	Yeah. Absolutely it's not my quote but he actually he would mind.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_66	Yeah	 neutral	communication behavior
39_68	Yeah, you know how those union workers have to have you know, Union break.	 neutral	communication behavior
39_70	Yeah, financially too, which is [inaudible 00:09:27]	 change	communication behavior
39_72	Well, uh	 neutral	communication behavior
40_0	Pretty good. It's been three months now.	 neutral	communication behavior
40_2	Um, and—	 neutral	communication behavior
40_6	Right. It's been three months, and I've been doing pretty well.	 change	communication behavior
40_8	Um, and I met a couple new friends.	 neutral	communication behavior
40_10	So—	 neutral	communication behavior
40_12	Right.	 change	communication behavior
40_14	Right. It's been good. I haven't answered the phone when he's called-	 change	communication behavior
40_16	-and a couple of my other friends have tried to call me as well, and I haven't answered the phone. Um, so it's been good for me to just reach out and like, meet a couple of new people, um, in the neigh-neighborhood that I'm living in.	 change	communication behavior
40_18	Yeah, the new friends, and I've been using the, you know, the breathing exercises you taught me, when I get-- start to feel a little stressed out, and I've been- I've been using those and it helps me. I go for a walk and do my breathing exercises, and it calms me down and kind of gets me through that time.	 change	communication behavior
41_1	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_3	I feel great actually.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_5	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_7	I feel good.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_9	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_11	Yes. It was a good, uh, experience for me. It was different. It was different than usual. There were several things that were different, and, uh, the number one value that I put was self-respect. And I-I don't even know if self-respect has ever been in my top five let alone my number one.	 change	communication behavior
41_13	Yeah. And, um—	 neutral	communication behavior
41_15	I do have an idea, I think, why that is. Um, I think that there's been a few things that have happened recently and something that really came to my awareness, when I visited with my family, is that I have consistently through my whole life, probably, put other people first. And I have consistently, uh, almost not even considered myself in the equation. It was, uh, kind of sad in a way, at the time that I realized it. Uh, I didn't realize how severe it actually was, but I was kind of glad that I realized it because I feel like it's never too late to change-	 change	communication behavior
41_17	-and I feel like I can- I can, uh, respect and value myself just as much as I have other people. I know that's important. And I feel like when I do that, I'm a better person for other people as well.	 change	communication behavior
41_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_21	Because I get stressed, I get resentful, I get overwhelmed and, uh, out of- out of alignment, I guess, out of sorts.	 change	communication behavior
41_23	And I can't be the best- the best me possible.	 change	communication behavior
41_25	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
41_27	For myself or for someone else, either way, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
41_29	I-it's almost-- Like, I think that some people might not even think that I put that first, but in my mind and my emotions, I was carrying concern about what other people think, and I was letting that concern dictate my actions. Instead of letting my own values dictate my actions, I was letting what I thought other people wanted me to do to dictate my actions.	 change	communication behavior
41_31	And that's something that I had done for so long, literally since I was a child, that I didn't even know I was doing it.	 change	communication behavior
41_33	Yes, yes.	 change	communication behavior
41_35	Not aware at all. Completely unaware. Totally unaware, yeah. And so to me, I feel like it's a celebration. I used to, uh, moan and complain about my childhood and about all the things that I didn't get to have, and all the cruel, mean things that people said and did, and I felt-- I feel like I had this aha moment where I realized that I could be my own parent, and I could give myself the things that weren't given to me, now. I can give myself a voice. I can give myself an opinion. I can live like that, if I want to. Nobody's stopping me from it, only me.	 change	communication behavior
41_37	So, that's what I want to do.	 change	communication behavior
41_38	Mm-hmm.And it's the first time in my life I haven't felt guilty for saying that.	 change	communication behavior
41_40	I would say so, yeah. I don't know if I've ever said that in front of people and not felt the least twinge of guilt for it. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
41_42	No-	 neutral	communication behavior
41_44	-it's not, it's really not.	 change	communication behavior
41_46	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_48	Well, it makes me feel jubilant. It makes me feel joyful. It makes me feel hopeful. It makes me feel like I count, like I matter. Uh, it makes me feel like I'm going to be able to do what I want to do with more joy and more passion, and less dread and a sense of responsibility, because one of the things that kind of happened along the way I really didn't notice, is that, um-- Like, let's say for example I like being a teacher or I like being a teacher or I like being a counselor to a certain degree but because of all the shoulds and all of the sense of responsibility and all of the caring about what people think, I started to lose joy doing things I actually enjoy doing.	 change	communication behavior
41_50	Yes, because it turned into an obligation instead of just really really a sense of like you know passion you know. My passion is gone completely. I don't know I'm just happy to, I feel like I got back in touch with myself. It's like I was like lost for a while and now I'm like back again, yes, now I remember why I wanted to do this or like why this is important to me because it is actually one of my values to be and help, but it just has to be, uh, balanced.	 change	communication behavior
41_52	No, but um, the other ones I have on there, uh are, number two, inner harmony. For the same reason, like I feel like I need to harmonious within myself before I can be harmonious with other people.	 change	communication behavior
41_54	Yes, and then I put family happiness.	 change	communication behavior
41_56	Yes, because I think that when I'm at peace with myself, uh, that automatically contributes to my family happiness. When I am unhappy with myself, I bring my unhappiness to my family.	 change	communication behavior
41_58	Uh, yeah, when I don't have self-respect and I am only giving my family a say on who I am and what I should do, I'm angry at them, I quarrel them.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_60	"I resent them, I really do, when I am in the mode. But when I just say, ""Hey, I'm a person of this family and I deserve this much time and energy and attention and just more than anybody else,"" I don't care, you do what I do I do what I do life goes on [chuckles]."	 change	communication behavior
41_62	And then I have health and achievement, and to me, this one on achievement says a sense of accomplishment and to me that kind of goes along with what we were talking about earlier like I think I can show up and be a teacher and be a counselor in many different, uh, capacities. I could be your- I could be- I could be a teacher and I could be a really bad teacher. I could still be a teacher you know, I could show up an I could just do a really poor job and I could go home and I probably could keep my job for a while, it wouldn't be the first time right?	 neutral	communication behavior
41_64	But I don't feel good about that.	 change	communication behavior
41_66	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_68	Right, right.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_70	It's not enough for me to just show up and get my paycheck. That doesn't, I don't feel fulfilled so it-it, that's the way I see it going together with the helping. It's not just about helping to like look good or to exhaust myself or do what I think I should do but to really give something needy, something substantive, something real.	 change	communication behavior
41_72	Yeah, meaningful, even if it's-it's small.	 change	communication behavior
41_74	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
41_76	Yeah. Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
41_78	Well, one of the things about this list that kind of surprised me is almost every time I have done this list, uh, creativity and freedom have been really high up there. And it didn't even make it to my top five. It was in my top 12.	 change	communication behavior
41_80	But I think the conclusion that I came to is that I can be more creative and have more freedom if I have inner peace and self-respect. Part of what- part of what binds me, part of what takes my freedom away is when I just explain all over the place and I don't give any attention to myself. Part of what steals my creativity is when I'm- my mind is reeling around in stress and I am not- I can't even hear myself. I can't even hear myself think. How can you be creative if you can't even hear yourself?	 neutral	communication behavior
41_82	Yeah, exactly, to me the creativity comes from the silence, comes from the quiet. It's literally-- I can just be in silence for even if for a few moments. It's amazing the ideas that come to me so quickly and so easily that would take me hours to figure out if I'm stressing.	 change	communication behavior
41_84	Thank you, thank you for listening.	 change	communication behavior
42_0	I don't know, I'm just having a lot of hard trouble trying to lose the rest of the weight. Um, right now, it's like no matter how much I try to exercise, run, or whatever, it doesn't matter like nothing else is coming off.	 neutral	communication behavior
42_2	No, and I don't know what I'm doing wrong because I keep trying the exercise but nothing's happening.	 change	communication behavior
42_4	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
42_6	No, and even when I'm coming home, like, I'll go to the gym and then I'm noticing nothing is happening and I'll come home and I try to talk to my mama about it or even my father, and no one even cares about it. Like no one wants to support in it anyway.	 change	communication behavior
42_8	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
42_10	No, and specifically my father, he just-- Not only does he not want to support me with it but at the same time, he feels like I need to be gaining my weight back.	 neutral	communication behavior
42_12	So I—	 neutral	communication behavior
42_14	It's as though by me losing weight, it's like I'm somehow disconnecting from my family, and he thinks that I'm trying to form myself to fit into like this perfect American picture and I just want to be healthy, I just want to have a good body and he doesn't think of it that way.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_1	Um, well, you know, I have a lot of anxiety, and so there's this test that I have to take. It's a big test and I've kind of been putting it off just 'cause I get very anxious. I don't trust in myself that I'm going to do good at it. Um, and so that's something that's like always on my mind, it's been on my mind for many years and it's like, I gotta just do it. Um, but I always stop myself from doing that because of the anxiety. And I just want to, I don't want to feel that way.	 change	communication behavior
43_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_5	Exactly. So, I just avoid it and put it off.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_7	Um, maybe like a four or five.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_9	I mean, because I-I have it set up after like so many years, so I still have a ton of anxiety about it, but I think I'm like kind of making it, maybe that first step. And so that's why I would rate it as like a four or five because I'm making that first step, but it's still scary for me.	 change	communication behavior
43_11	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_13	Yes. And I already kind of put it off after s-scheduling it too. So, um, now I'm actually enjoying that because I-I already like changed date and everything. So now it's actually coming.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_15	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_17	Um, well I think it's this kind of long time coming. I just need to do it and then I can figure out, if I don't pass, I have to wait three more months to do it. And then I just study for the next three months. And if I do, then I can have that weight lifted off my shoulders cause it's been all a lot of weight on me and I think about it every single day. And I'm just sick of thinking about it.	 change	communication behavior
43_19	Yeah. But then I do worry, you know, that negative talk that, you know, when you have anxiety. So then I worry about if I don't pass it, you know, like people are going to ask me how I did and if I don't pass it I'm gonna have to tell them, it's embarrassing for me. Um, so that makes me really anxious.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_21	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_23	Uh, I would say maybe like four or five years ago, um, I had to do a recording for work and I did not want to do it. I was trying to find every way that I can get out of during this recording. And, um, and then I played my recording and because of the way sometimes I carry myself, like not confident and very anxious, um, I think other people don't always believe in me.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_24	And so, um, when I played the recording, it actually ended up being one of the best recordings and like my supervisor and our national consultant, they were very like shocked about it because it because of just was the way I carried myself. So I thought, I don't really like compliments that makes me, um, anxious too again people compliment me, but it was a nice feeling because I really didn't trust in myself. And to know that I did a good job.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_26	Um, it made me feel good.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_28	Yeah, I did.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_30	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_32	I mean, I think again, like all that anxiety, the same anxiety I had with that I have with those tests. And so, um, but that if I pass this test, if I could have that same feeling that I had, like when I did a good job like the-- you know, I mean, I would like to have that feeling again.	 change	communication behavior
43_34	You know.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_36	Right	 neutral	communication behavior
43_38	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
43_40	Well, considering this test is coming on the way in a few days, um, I think, for me and just like practicing and just really seeing how I do and if I do well, then I think my confidence might go up a little bit.	 change	communication behavior
43_42	And maybe just having that faith in myself that, you know, that I can do it instead of just thinking that I can't.	 change	communication behavior
43_44	Yeah. Mm-hmm.	 change	communication behavior
43_46	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
43_48	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_1	Fine. Where do you want me to sign?	 neutral	communication behavior
45_3	Not really.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_5	Yeah, whatever. I just, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_7	It's just like the same thing every day like, I don't really know why. Like um, so I signed your paper, why are asking me all these questions?	 neutral	communication behavior
45_9	Yup.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_11	I guess so.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_13	So you just wanna know my business?	 neutral	communication behavior
45_15	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_17	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_19	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_21	Yeah. I mean I guess I'll be here if I have to be but I can't make any promises that I won't leave.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_23	No, 'cause this just kinda feels like why do you need to know my business? Why do you care?	 neutral	communication behavior
45_25	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_27	It's just like a lot.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_29	And you feel like there's all these rules.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_31	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_33	Right, I think that's the only thing that I wish I had now.	 change	communication behavior
45_35	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_37	I guess like your sign your papers.	 change	communication behavior
45_39	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_41	Not do this again so that I don't ever have to be here and be stuck in my house and all of these people coming to visit me and know my business.	 change	communication behavior
45_43	Yup.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_45	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_47	Not really.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_49	All right.	 neutral	communication behavior
45_51	Bye.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_1	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_3	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_5	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_7	It's not a big deal. Sometimes with my friends, we'll drink a few beers and when we're hanging out or when we're at a party, and sometimes rum and cokes.	 sustain	communication behavior
46_9	Um, three or four, probably. I don't keep track.	 sustain	communication behavior
46_11	Um, probably about once or twice a month.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_13	Probably since last October.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_15	What do I like about it?	 neutral	communication behavior
46_17	Um, I don't know. It's just fun to drink with my friends, like when we're at a party at someone else's house, and we're drinking with other people that we don't know. It tastes good.	 sustain	communication behavior
46_19	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_21	Um, I don't like when I get sick in the mornings 'cause of hangovers and-	 change	communication behavior
46_23	-when I start throwing up, that's not- I don't like that.	 change	communication behavior
46_25	No, but that happened to someone I know, though.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_27	Um, one time I missed first period of school 'cause I had a hangover and I was late getting up.	 change	communication behavior
46_29	Mm, mom got mad at me 'cause I wouldn't get out of bed and she said she knew I had a hangover.	 change	communication behavior
46_31	No, but I got grounded for two weeks after that. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
46_33	Yeah, but I only missed school once.	 sustain	communication behavior
46_35	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_37	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_39	Um, probably a five.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_41	Well, I guess I'm just tired of getting in trouble.	 change	communication behavior
46_43	Um, not drink.	 change	communication behavior
46_45	No, not really.	 sustain	communication behavior
46_47	I could probably do that.	 change	communication behavior
46_49	I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
46_51	Yeah, probably.	 change	communication behavior
46_53	Um, I could probably drink something else when my friends are drinking, like just coke.	 change	communication behavior
46_55	I can probably hang out with some of my friends who don't drink or inviting them to parties and having fun 'cause not everyone drinks at parties.	 change	communication behavior
46_57	Yeah. The-- My friends who don't drink would probably be happy that I'm not drinking either and yes, they'd support me.	 change	communication behavior
46_59	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_1	Fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_3	It's not really any of your business.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_5	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_7	Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_9	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_11	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
47_13	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
48_0	You know that my friends were happy, um, that I'm like this cool person who moved from in the middle of nowhere, has a strange accent that-	 neutral	communication behavior
48_2	-they like all my stories, they are really receptive-	 neutral	communication behavior
48_4	-but they don't know that I have one diabetes story.	 neutral	communication behavior
48_6	That one I haven't shared yet.	 neutral	communication behavior
48_8	So, I guess I'll make it short to exactly the incident 'cause I know we can't avoid it now. Uh, yeah, well, that one what happened was I-I was invited to my first party in this crew-	 neutral	communication behavior
48_10	-which I was super excited about.	 neutral	communication behavior
48_12	But, it was an evening party and we all wore really nice dresses-	 neutral	communication behavior
48_14	-the short ones, the really huggy ones. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
48_16	So I actually decided, and I know this wasn't the smartest decision of mine, but I did not wear my insulin pump.	 change	communication behavior
48_18	Which was the reason why I didn't want quite to address 'cause I know better. I-	 change	communication behavior
48_20	Yes, I know, I know, I know.	 neutral	communication behavior
48_22	Like the learning is done but-	 change	communication behavior
48_24	-but yes I guess it's unavoidable that we address it. [laughter]	 neutral	communication behavior
48_26	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
49_1	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_3	I suppose, my expectations are a wee bit clearer as to why I'm here.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_5	I guess, I'm-- It made me think about how much money I have been losing recently. So, yeah. I'm happier to be here. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
49_7	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_9	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_11	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_13	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_15	Yeah. I'm happy to explore it, so to speak. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_17	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_21	Hmm. I don't know, I probably lock off a wee bit. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_23	Yeah, um. I'm sure you've already noticed. [chuckles] Um, I don't know, probably fidget.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_25	That's why I am still a bit—	 neutral	communication behavior
49_27	[chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_29	When I'm feeling uncomfortable?	 neutral	communication behavior
49_31	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_33	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_35	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_37	[sighs] I suppose it's really serious if I wanna get out of my-my-my debt.	 change	communication behavior
49_39	Credit comes out of my ears, and mom and dad aren't bailing me out anymore, so-	 change	communication behavior
49_41	-I suppose, I've gotta sort it out myself.	 change	communication behavior
49_43	About 80. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
49_45	I'm gonna say, I'm completely confident.	 change	communication behavior
49_47	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_49	What, on my confidence to stop? [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_51	It's hard when it's part of your lifestyle, you know?	 sustain	communication behavior
49_53	When I went with my girlfriends to the pub last night and I went and hit a bit of a flutter-	 sustain	communication behavior
49_55	-so, you know, I think I'm a bit weird if I just sit-sit at the bar on my own. [chuckles]	 sustain	communication behavior
49_57	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_59	Oh, I had to stop halfway 'cause I'd ran out of money. [chuckles]	 sustain	communication behavior
49_61	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_63	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_65	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_67	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_69	I don't know, but I'd like to get back on track, but—	 change	communication behavior
49_71	Not really planning on spending my life in debt. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
49_73	I don't mind traveling, and, you know, I've got friends that are saving for the [unintelligible 00:18:27] and I'm 25 and working in retail, and got four credit cards-	 change	communication behavior
49_75	-so I won't be doing any traveling any time soon.	 change	communication behavior
49_77	Maybe I wanna have traveled and found the man of my dreams. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_79	I don't know. Kids maybe, but-	 neutral	communication behavior
49_81	-I'm not gonna- [sighs] I'm not gonna make a decent mom the way I am, at the moment, am I? So I probably need to get on track at some stage. [chuckles] I'll be pushing 30 and still in debt, at this rate.	 change	communication behavior
49_83	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_85	[chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_87	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_89	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_91	Party girl at 30s is a bit sad, really, isn't it? [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
49_93	I don't know. It's been fun up to now-	 sustain	communication behavior
49_95	-but I really do wanna travel, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_97	Um, Egypt, always been, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_99	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_101	Oh, I just think it's just fascinating.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_103	Yeah. Just the, um, the outlook, and the culture and the history and-	 neutral	communication behavior
49_105	-somewhere I've always wanted to go.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_107	It's not the safest place at the moment, mind you, but [chuckles].	 neutral	communication behavior
49_109	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_111	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_113	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_115	Oh, since I was young, early teens.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_117	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_119	Yeah, well, I suppose with the amount of money I've spent over the last five years I probably could have gone to Egypt and back five times by now. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
49_121	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_123	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_125	I believe then to cut off some of my friendships. Um, 'cause since you see that's, you know, part of their lifestyle.	 change	communication behavior
49_127	Yeah. It will be a big change.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_129	Seems like a bit of an unrealistic dream. Um, and I'd like to take the first step but, uh, that's gonna be easy.	 change	communication behavior
49_131	Probably, um, [chuckles] cutting up the credit cards for a starter, and trying to restrain myself, and not to be led into temptation, I suppose, so.	 change	communication behavior
49_133	You know, if the pokies are at the pubs, just don't go to the pub. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
49_135	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_137	Mm. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
49_139	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_141	Um, I haven't managed it to-to this point, so [chuckles] I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_143	Um, I suppose I've just got to get tougher with myself.	 change	communication behavior
49_145	What? Cutting off some of my friendships?	 change	communication behavior
49_147	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_149	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_151	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_153	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_155	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_157	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_159	Mm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_161	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_163	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_165	Find the scissors. [laughs]	 change	communication behavior
49_167	Cut out the girls.	 change	communication behavior
49_169	Then, um, I don't know if the debts are still gonna be there or not but I-I've gotta find-	 neutral	communication behavior
49_171	-a way to pay them off and-	 change	communication behavior
49_173	-I don't know how I'm gonna do that.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_175	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_177	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_179	Mm-hmm, that will be good.	 neutral	communication behavior
49_181	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_0	So, uh, I guess the issue is that, um, you know, my doctor seems to think that my-my blood pressure's a little high, but I really don't think that there's a problem. And you know, I eat really well. Um. And, you know, she suggested that, um, I watch my caffeine but really, caffeine is not a problem for me.	 sustain	communication behavior
50_2	Well, you know, sometimes it makes me a little jittery and, you know, I have to go to the bathroom more frequently than some of my co-workers, but-- And-and working, um, in the hospital, they don't really look so highly on-on going the bathroom frequently. But you know, it-it keeps me awake, it keeps me aware, it-it makes me more able to like, you know, do my job better. And so I really don't see that it's a-it's a real issue.	 sustain	communication behavior
50_4	Um, you know, and-and-- I mean, maybe my blood pressure is a little high, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
50_6	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_8	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_12	Yeah, yeah. Well, you know, and sometimes, like I said, it does kind of make me a little jittery and, um, I don't know. I-I-I'm not- I'm not as happy and relaxed as I normally am. But you know, I-I really like it, and-and like I said, it makes me more aware of what's going on and-and I'm-- I-I feel like I'm much more observant.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_14	Yeah. I have about four cups a day.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_16	Yeah. I mean, I've-- I mean, it's the co-workers that-that work at night. Gosh, they bring in a carafe.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_18	And, uh, I-I can only imagine-	 neutral	communication behavior
50_20	-what-what their bodies are like.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_22	Reducing it, like-- what do you mean?	 neutral	communication behavior
50_24	Yeah, yeah but, I mean, how-how much are we talking?	 neutral	communication behavior
50_26	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_28	You're probably-- you know, because I-I gotta have that morning cup, I really-- you know I really like waking up and-and that whole ritual. The, um-- you know, making the coffee and-	 sustain	communication behavior
50_30	-I just really like the flavors.	 sustain	communication behavior
50_32	So I-I definitely don't want to give that up, but—	 sustain	communication behavior
50_36	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_38	And then, of course, you know, working a 12-hour shift, I-I really think that, you know, the afternoon to keep me going until the evening is-is a really good idea too.	 sustain	communication behavior
50_40	I could probably get up the mid-morning.	 change	communication behavior
50_42	Yeah, yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_44	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_46	I think that does sound all right.	 change	communication behavior
50_48	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
50_50	I think I could do that.	 change	communication behavior
51_1	Uh, well, I know the flu can be pretty bad, but I'm in pretty good health, so I don't really feel like I need it. Uh, it's kind of just more for old people, right?	 sustain	communication behavior
51_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
51_5	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
51_7	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
51_9	Well, my grandparents probably wouldn't handle the flu very well-	 neutral	communication behavior
51_11	-and my co-worker is pregnant too.	 neutral	communication behavior
51_13	So-so, yeah, I guess, I should, uh, get it for their sake.	 change	communication behavior
51_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_1	You're welcome.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_3	Well, a friend and I would snuck out one night to go to the park, and we got a couple of beers from his house, but the cop came by, and so we threw them in the bushes. He was originally gonna give us a curfew ticket but ended up not to. Luckily, he didn't see the beer.	 sustain	communication behavior
52_5	Yeah, it was. If my mom would have found out, she would've killed me.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_7	Well, I've only tried drinking once or twice.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_9	Yeah, that's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_11	Well, I'm not sure if this information is for me, since I've only been drinking once or twice.	 sustain	communication behavior
52_13	Well, all I really know is that it's not good for you.	 change	communication behavior
52_15	Yeah, and a couple of my friends drink too.	 sustain	communication behavior
52_17	I really didn't think about how this would affect me playing sports.	 change	communication behavior
52_19	Yeah, I would like to play soccer in college.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_21	Yeah, I would also like to get scholarships.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_23	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
52_25	Well, I will take a look at it, and I'll definitely read it, and I don't wanna become addicted, and I would like to continue to play sports as long as possible.	 change	communication behavior
52_27	Thanks for all the information.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_1	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_3	I do.	 change	communication behavior
54_5	Well, I just can't seem to get back in the gym. I don't wanna-- I-I used to work out quite a bit, and in the last, I dunno, couple of years I've just-- I stopped going. I got busy, and now I'm out of the habit, and I-I really, I dunno, I feel like I need to get back.	 change	communication behavior
54_7	Okay. Um. All right. Um—	 neutral	communication behavior
54_9	Uh, I belong to the-the Sport Fitness Center.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_11	Just a couple of miles.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_13	If I walked that far, I probably wouldn't even need to go to the gym, right?	 neutral	communication behavior
54_15	[inaudible 00:01:33] training.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_17	It-it-it would be important.	 change	communication behavior
54_19	Well, I-I-I-I would feel better. My-- I'd-I'd be able to wear more my clothes. I've been growing around the middle and I'd like to, uh, you know, go back to where I was, you know, get into a 34, 36 waist, you know.	 change	communication behavior
54_21	I-I'm more comfortable-- I feel better. I think that's the main thing.	 change	communication behavior
54_23	Yeah, yeah. It-it-it-- I-I am- I'm not getting any younger than I [unintelligible 00:02:18]	 change	communication behavior
54_25	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
54_27	I've gotta make time.	 change	communication behavior
54_29	I've gotta make time.	 change	communication behavior
54_31	Yeah. Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_33	All right.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_35	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_37	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
54_39	Okay. Very good. Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_1	Uh, yeah. Yeah, that's fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_3	Uh, mostly in my left arm.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_5	Uh, no. That's okay. How's that?	 neutral	communication behavior
55_7	Uh, nope. It feels okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_9	Uh, yeah, that's fine.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_11	Uh, I don't know. Um, I use maybe a few times a week.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_13	Syringes? Uh, sometimes I'll buy them at Walgreens. Most times I'll just get them from the needle exchange.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_15	Uh, Northeast Glisan.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_17	Yeah, I use new needles every time, I never share.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_19	Yeah, that's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_21	Mm-hmm, yap.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_23	Uh, yeah. Yeah, if it's, uh, you know, if it's been a couple of days like I can go two days, three days tops before I start to feel really sick.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_25	Uh, geez. Yeah, I mean, it's the obvious stuff like my stomach feels sick, I get the body aches, uh, cold, hot, chills. Uh, everything hurts. Everything is in extremes. My emotions are in extremes. Uh, yeah, it sucks. I don't want to do anything. I just want to stay home and just stay in bed.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_27	Yeah, I mean, I start to use, I get loaded.	 sustain	communication behavior
55_29	Uh, you know, I get loaded and I-I can- I can function. I can go to work and, you know, do normal things, you know. Uh, I mean, there's been maybe just a couple of times where I wasn't feeling all that well, and I, uh, I was late a couple of times to work or it might overslept from the night before or whatever, but it's about it. Uh, I just want to avoid getting sick right now. That's my main priority.	 sustain	communication behavior
55_31	Um, well, you know, I like the way it feels. Um, you know what I mean? When I shoot up my anxiety, goes away, my depression goes away. Uh, things that usually make life really difficult, uh, get a lot easier.	 sustain	communication behavior
55_33	Uh, yeah. I mean, I think everybody who uses at least has some concern of overdosing on some level. Right? Uh, so that's something I'm concerned about is accidentally overdosing. And, uh, yeah, I mean, I don't want to get an infection in my arm, you know, just the usual things. I have a hard time hitting veins sometimes, and I gotta dig around a little bit and I would get worried about, you know, hitting something that I shouldn't or, you know, getting infections.	 change	communication behavior
55_35	Yeah, that's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_37	I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_39	Uh, are you talking about Narcan? Is that the same thing?	 neutral	communication behavior
55_41	Yeah, I got some of that already. I got it from the needle exchange.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_43	Uh, at home mostly.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_45	I mean, that's a concern, of course, right? Uh, I'm on the app just in case somebody nearby is OD-ing and I can get pinged. But no, mostly I just keep it in case I overdose, uh, and, uh, I'm realizing now I have it but I haven't told my roommate about it so—	 neutral	communication behavior
55_47	Yeah, that's what I'm thinking.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_49	I would really like a little bit of information on, uh, injecting in my arm.	 change	communication behavior
55_51	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_53	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
55_55	I'd probably say 10.	 change	communication behavior
55_57	Well, uh, I don't want to have an overdose and I don't want to get an infection. Seems like easy things to do.	 change	communication behavior
55_59	Um, well, I can talk to my housemate tomorrow night. I'm pretty sure that he doesn't work tomorrow night so he'll be around.	 change	communication behavior
55_61	Uh, if you could email me that right now, that'd be great.	 change	communication behavior
55_63	Uh, yeah, yeah. It's fine. Let's do that.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_1	Pretty good.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_3	Yeah. Um, I'm glad to be there.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_5	Uh, well, I'm glad to see my dog, he's very cute, and it just feels good to be home.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_7	Yeah. And my garden is coming along, and my neighbors have stuff-- It's-it's good. It's good to be home.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_9	Well, um. I-I didn't get- go to physical therapy this week, and the- or Tai Chi, actually.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_11	Yeah. Well, um. Actually, I-I had a little semi fall, I didn't fall down, I didn't fall down completely but I-I did-- I guess I still had the wobblies and I was hoping that the physical therapy and the Tai Chi would be- get me further along than it has, and I-I still don't have the balance. So, I'm thinking that maybe I was pushing too hard, that maybe I should cut back, you know, and kind of not try so hard to-to keep moving like that.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_13	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_15	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_17	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_19	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_21	So I'm-I'm-I cut back, and I-I don't know if I should really even continue the Tai Chi because it's-it's very demanding.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_23	Uh, it's beautiful and-and- but, um, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_25	That I'll- that I'll fall again.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_27	I'll really fall and hurt myself, and this way, if I don't move around so much, there's less chance that I will.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_29	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_31	No, I didn't- it was just more scary, and it was like a-a signal that maybe I'm doing too much.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_35	Well, yeah, if I- if I lose my balance and fall down, I could- anything, you know, really get hurt, and then-then I wouldn't be able to be home anymore, and that's not what I want. I want to stay home. So I want to do what I have to do to-to-to stay home.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_37	Yeah. [laughs] Yes, you've put it very well, hunker down-	 sustain	communication behavior
56_39	Watch the TV and pet my dog. I-I, you know, not to that extreme, but yeah, I think- I think maybe, um, yeah, I was-was going- pushing too hard.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_41	And I'm not sure about the Tai Chi anymore. I-I think the physical therapy, I can understand that, but I'm not so sure about the Tai Chi.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_43	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_45	Right, right.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_47	She did. Sh-- Yeah, that's right, that's right. She said that they did studies and that they found that it was really preventative. I think she's- I forget the-the percentage, but yeah, she was really enthusiastic and she does it herself.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_49	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_51	"That's a strong word, isn't it, ""betrayed"". Um, wow. A little, but-but I-I know, I know that it's true. I mean, my friend who does Tai Chi, she just- she loves it. Maybe it's just not for me, you know."	 sustain	communication behavior
56_53	But, um-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_55	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_57	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_59	Absolutely, that- because I don't- now I'm-I'm feeling-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_61	-really a little frightened that what if- what if I fall down and-and-and nobody comes around and I'm lying there for two days, you know. I may have heard about that.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_63	So, um, 'cause I am alone.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_65	So—	 neutral	communication behavior
56_67	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_69	Well, the-- I think that there's some things that could be done to-- I know people who live in-in residence, they have a cord they can pull, but how do they get to the cord? Um, is there any- anything else that I could do just to communicate if-if-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_71	-if something does happen?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_73	I think I saw something like that on TV.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_75	Is it- does it really work?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_77	'Cause you know that they sell so much stuff on TV, it's like you could- [crosstalk]	 neutral	communication behavior
56_79	It's crazy, it's crazy.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_81	Yeah. I guess so, feeling a little scared-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_83	-you know, about that happening and-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_85	So, yeah, it's probably a signal to-to make some-some changes.	 change	communication behavior
56_87	Like I don't wanna go back to the hospital, right? I really don't. Do I have to?	 change	communication behavior
56_89	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_91	That I will definitely- I definitely wanna do that.	 change	communication behavior
56_93	I definitely wanna do that.	 change	communication behavior
56_95	Well, I- maybe they-they-- When I first came home, they had somebody come and show me some things in-in the house, but maybe a refresher of that, and they told me that I should exercise and-and, um, I guess I could-- Maybe support, maybe I'm looking for-for maybe a buddy or something, some way that I could be reminded. I'm feeling a little, you know, I was moving along and things were feeling more positive, it's sort of like two steps forward and-	 change	communication behavior
56_97	-one step back, but now it's to step forward and three steps back. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
56_99	So, um, is there, yeah, like a support somehow? My daughter is very good and she calls me, but you know, she-she lives in Seattle, she lives-	 change	communication behavior
56_101	-far away.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_103	So- and I don't wanna impose on my neighbors or my friends.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_105	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_107	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_109	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_111	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_113	Yeah, that would be good. Do you think I should try to go back to the Tai Chi?	 change	communication behavior
56_115	Yes, great place.	 change	communication behavior
56_117	Yeah. I guess I've kind of gone to the extreme. I tend to do that. [chuckles] Yeah. So, keep moving?	 change	communication behavior
56_119	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_121	Really?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_123	Oh, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_125	Uh-huh.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_127	Okay. Okay. Okay. I-I'm willing to start again, so to speak.	 change	communication behavior
56_129	Yeah. It's scary.	 sustain	communication behavior
56_131	Well, I'm willing to work through my fears and difficulties to be in my little house with my little dog and my little garden. I've been there for- since my husband and I got married, and that's where we lived, and I don't want to give it up yet.	 change	communication behavior
56_133	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_135	Yeah. I-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_137	-I-I am. And I feel like I have some help.	 change	communication behavior
56_139	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_141	So, am I being a baby?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_143	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_145	Really?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_147	Really?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_149	Thank you. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_151	Well, and she- she's not going to throw me back into the hospital?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_153	Not yet? [laughs] Okay. Yeah. I was sort of- I-I was sort of hesitant to tell you-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_155	-about-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_157	-this, but, um, uh, I'm sort of glad I did. I'm very glad I did.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_159	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_161	Yeah. So the-the caseworker is gonna be able to come and refresh-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_163	-me?	 neutral	communication behavior
56_165	And-and that's-- Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_167	I mean, that alone, to know that I have communication that I w- that was my biggest fear that something-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_169	-would happen and I wouldn't have any-	 neutral	communication behavior
56_171	-any way to tell anybody.	 neutral	communication behavior
56_173	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_1	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_5	Well, I'm, uh, I-I used to work out pretty good. I-I would go to the gym several times a week. I had kind of a schedule, um—	 neutral	communication behavior
58_7	Yeah, well, you know, it really-- At-at one time, I was running-- I ran a half marathon. I was really into it, and, uh--.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_9	Well, and I-- But I was working at a different company, where I had a little bit different schedule, a little more free time than I have now, so I just don't have the time like I used to.	 sustain	communication behavior
58_11	And I-- And really, it's kind of an excuse, I guess, cause I-I could probably make the time, but it's-it's easier to just keep working or-	 change	communication behavior
58_13	-just being in bed or whatever.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_15	I-it was. A-and it was huge for me cause I'd never really been a runner, you know, but it-it was very motivating, and-and—	 change	communication behavior
58_17	I don't know. I guess there's kind of an adrenaline rush to it. Kinda almost like, you know, uh, kind of a high, I guess.	 change	communication behavior
58_19	So yeah-- That's-- I-I really enjoyed it. And I-I liked the feeling that I was doing something good for myself. I liked that, too. I-it kind of-- It so-- It gave me a little bit of self-esteem, I guess.	 change	communication behavior
58_21	I-I subscribed to the magazine a while.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_23	I did.	 change	communication behavior
58_25	I let-- I lit it on fire but I-	 neutral	communication behavior
58_27	-I did burn for a time.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_29	I got into the whole culture. I was-- I-I felt as good as I’ve felt in many, many years. And now I’ve kind of let that all slide, and-- Well, I had a foot injury, too, which kind of started the whole problem.	 change	communication behavior
58_31	It-it is. And I-- it-it may be why I can’t really run again, but I can certainly, you know, ride a stationary bike-	 change	communication behavior
58_33	-and do all the other things in a gym that you can do when you’re not running, so, it just nakes you to [unintelligible 00:02:23]	 change	communication behavior
58_35	Um, well, um, I like-- The bike is pretty good. Uh, even the uh, you know, the kind of a rolling machine is okay. And the uh, the elliptical. Any of that’s fine. I-I really don’t, uh-- I don’t dislike any of it. Kind of once you get into the rhythm, yeah, it’s fine	 change	communication behavior
58_37	Probably the elliptical.	 change	communication behavior
58_39	Well, it is.	 change	communication behavior
58_41	It is without any of the impact, so it is true.	 change	communication behavior
58_43	Yeah, I do headphones.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_45	I got my headphones, and I got my, uh, kind of [unintelligible 00:03:24], if you know what I mean	 neutral	communication behavior
58_47	Yeah	 neutral	communication behavior
58_49	Yeah. I was going literally every other day, you know. And then, some days I would, you know, I’d run, and I’d go to the gym the next day, so I would-- I was very-- I don’t really feel it necessary to get back to that level, but I need to do something cause I’m doing nothing right now.	 change	communication behavior
58_51	I should-- Or next to nothing. I walk to the grocery store or whatever’s handy when I have time, but yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_53	Well, if I could just get myself over there once, 'cause usually that’s the hardest thing. It’s just going there. So I think that's-- You know, I’ve thought about it a little bit, I think I just need to make that first trip over there and just kind of to take it easy that first time. Just show up 'cause I think that’s really what I need to do. I justt need to go over there.	 change	communication behavior
58_55	Um, knowing that my schedule isn’t gonna be too crazy that day where I could spare an hour or so, and-and just go do it.	 change	communication behavior
58_57	And then I-- [unintelligible 00:04:41] kinda nice [unintelligible 00:4:42] gonna be troublesome.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_59	Um, I don’t know. I think- I think the time has just been the biggest thing, you know, and-and I-I guess the motivation really hasn’t been there. I mean, you know, it’s not like- I don’t really have a goal. I don’t really have a, you know I don't, other than maybe reducing my waistline, you know, I don't really have a-a set number like I'm gonna run a marathon and you know.	 change	communication behavior
58_61	You know, so I think the just running off the playlist. I-I guess maybe if I made a goal would helped too.	 change	communication behavior
58_63	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_65	Plus there's people who have done that countless times and you can go read what their-	 change	communication behavior
58_67	-regimen was so you get feedback too. And then [unintelligible 00:05:37] did this from this day and so on.	 change	communication behavior
58_69	Yeah. Maybe.	 change	communication behavior
58_71	That might not be be a bad idea. [inaudible 00:05:59]	 change	communication behavior
58_74	I think that'd be great. I-I never have really found anybody that like to exercise with the pace that I wanted to. They were all either going way too fast or not even moving at all.	 change	communication behavior
58_78	-might be a challenge.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_80	Yeah, that's right, well I-	 neutral	communication behavior
58_82	Okay, that's a great idea I hadn't thought of that-that's- I hadn't really, uh, I-I kinda dismissed that early on, I hadn't really even considered that, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
58_84	If I could get there-- I know if I could get there-- if I could pick, you know, uh, these are the days I'm going to go to the gym and I know these things last time.	 change	communication behavior
58_86	So if I- if I could-- I mean, I wanna get there three times a week.	 change	communication behavior
58_88	I wanna get there on Saturdays or Sundays and Tuesdays and Fridays, or something like that, then I could probably [unintelligible 00:07:34]	 change	communication behavior
58_90	Right, yeah. Well, it's just not-	 neutral	communication behavior
58_92	Oh yeah, yeah, it doesn't do any good to just try to injure your- injure yourself especially when you're a bit normal like me.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_94	You gotta get over there.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_96	Very good.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_98	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
58_100	All right, bye-bye.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_0	It's good.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_2	Um, another thing-- Wait, what, I had something, it's just [inaudible 00:00:03] that I wanted to ask you, um, now a lot of my friends have quit smoking. They're getting like ostracized, but, you know, I tend to, like, gravitate, you know, towards-- Like my ex-husband smokes, you know-	 sustain	communication behavior
60_4	-so I find it like acceptable in that regard.	 sustain	communication behavior
60_6	Mm-hmm, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_8	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_10	"Yeah, we share-- ""Okay, oh, a smoker, let's go out and have a smoke together,"" yeah."	 sustain	communication behavior
60_12	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_14	I like that piece of jewelry, can I? [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
60_16	Right. Right, yeah. You can't have my stash. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
60_18	Um, you know, I guess I'll have to like, you know, get all of my information together.	 change	communication behavior
60_20	Right, do my homework and set up my like to have everything available to me.	 change	communication behavior
60_22	And then maybe set up another appointment with you.	 change	communication behavior
60_24	And maybe I don't know if-if that's like something that you'd be, you know, willing to do with me is to- help me set a date.	 change	communication behavior
60_26	And then you know, the next time I see, see progress, or maybe write-- have like a diary or something, I don't know.	 change	communication behavior
60_28	Oh, really? So they didn't have an exact date, they just decided.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_30	Oh, they didn't realize-- They didn't look at the calendar.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_32	And-and wait, I'm sorry, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
60_34	Oh, yeah. [crosstalk] And you know what I've never done that.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_36	That's coming up in November-	 neutral	communication behavior
60_38	-that's cool I'll have to find out about that.	 change	communication behavior
60_40	"Because it's like people who will start and say, ""I'm going to stop drinking at New Year's Eve. After midnight, I'm not gonna drink."""	 neutral	communication behavior
60_42	That seems to be like, uh, a false setting up, you know, like, come on.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_44	Really?	 neutral	communication behavior
60_46	Or, like, you know, setting up-- but what is that that they say? Um, you know, like, it's- it's the terminology, you know, with all the anxiety and letting go, you know, like I'm gonna [crosstalk].	 neutral	communication behavior
60_48	Yeah. Uh-huh, uh-huh. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_50	Right, right.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_52	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_54	Yeah, and you know, another thing, uh, uh, you know, it's so so bang, but the weight gain is like—	 sustain	communication behavior
60_56	Uh-huh.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_58	Oh, really?	 neutral	communication behavior
60_60	Oh, that's awesome, to know too.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_62	Right, right. Just like [inaudible 00:04:06] Or your chocolate and all that.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_64	So just switching my addiction. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
60_66	Yeah, God, I don't think I could.	 sustain	communication behavior
60_68	You know, I mean like I said three days was like-	 sustain	communication behavior
60_70	-three years, and all I could think about I was like obsessing about it.	 sustain	communication behavior
60_72	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_74	Yeah. That's true.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_76	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_78	Yeah. And I mean and that's-that's a reasonable thing- [crosstalk]	 neutral	communication behavior
60_80	-I don't feel like I'm like you know, it's gonna be-- I think gradually getting my- wrapping my brain around it will help, you know, before I just do, you know.	 change	communication behavior
60_82	You know, I always love, um, I've been in other group therapies-	 neutral	communication behavior
60_84	-and the feedback is really nice and the support-	 neutral	communication behavior
60_86	-system is really good.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_88	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_90	All right, great. Good. Great.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_92	And thank you for all the information. I appreciate it.	 neutral	communication behavior
60_94	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_1	Well, I remember you. Yeah, we met once before.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_5	Well, I went once.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_7	Yeah and, um, it was very-very beautiful to see and the instructor was very nice, but I felt kind of self-conscious because I'm still in my walker.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_9	And I had to sit in the chair. I couldn't, you know, do what they were doing.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_11	So, it's-- it was-- I simply felt self-conscious.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_13	A lot self-conscious.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_15	Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_17	Well, like Dr. Fields told me, it helps with balance, and I'm still having the wobblies. So, I was really hoping that I could get to the point where I could benefit from what they had to offer. Um, yeah, mostly my balance, mostly my balance.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_19	Not yet.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_21	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_23	I wanna go home.	 change	communication behavior
61_25	Yes, I really do.	 change	communication behavior
61_27	[sighs] Everything. I want to be with my little dog.	 change	communication behavior
61_29	He's really so cute, and I miss my garden.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_31	And I just miss being independent, going to sleep when I want to sleep and getting up when I want to get up and-and, uh, cooking for myself. The independence. Sure I miss being independent.	 change	communication behavior
61_33	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
61_35	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_37	Well, they told me that I need to be able to walk down the hallway and back, even with the walker, being secure and not with the wobblies.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_39	And I haven't gotten there yet.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_41	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
61_43	I-I don't want to fall.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_45	I-I've had friends that had that happen. So, um, I-I agree a little, with some hesitation, but I do agree.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_47	Oh, it's better.	 change	communication behavior
61_49	It still hurts. It- it's-- I'm getting better. I'm-I'm getting better. It's not quite as painful.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_51	Yeah, so-	 neutral	communication behavior
61_53	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
61_55	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_57	[sighs] Um, yes-yes I-I do because I-- my friend, I think I told you, really, really loves it and I just, I wish I could go back, and yes I do. I'm not making much sense, but I do.	 change	communication behavior
61_59	Oh, I don't really know yet after just one time.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_61	Yeah. It's-it's-- I can't make that-- It wouldn't be fair for me to say it does or doesn't. It didn't that one time, but you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_63	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_65	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_67	Yeah, I do.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_69	Yeah, I would.	 change	communication behavior
61_71	Well, I'd have to make the arrangements again, that was a little complicated, and, um, I'd have to get my head straight about feeling self-conscious, because I-I know that nobody's really looking at me, but I have to convince myself.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_73	Yeah, and the arrangement, arrangements a little complicated.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_75	That I can make the arrangement?	 neutral	communication behavior
61_77	Five.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_79	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_81	I-I mean, I know I can, but it's really difficult.	 sustain	communication behavior
61_83	That I'm doing it by myself.	 change	communication behavior
61_85	And I would really fe-- If I could have some sup-- Like if somebody could help me do it.	 change	communication behavior
61_87	My-my daughter can't visit that often and, um-	 sustain	communication behavior
61_89	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_91	I would.	 change	communication behavior
61_93	I would.	 change	communication behavior
61_95	Well, she's-- she could, but I'd have to wait at least a week.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_97	I would.	 change	communication behavior
61_99	Yeah, yeah. Is that possible?	 change	communication behavior
61_101	Uh-huh.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_103	That would- that would be good. And then as far as feeling self-confident, I'd have to do that myself.	 change	communication behavior
61_105	Um, I can't think of any.	 change	communication behavior
61_107	That's-that's the main thing-	 neutral	communication behavior
61_109	-the arrangements.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_111	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
61_113	That's-- Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
61_115	That's true.	 change	communication behavior
61_117	You would?	 neutral	communication behavior
61_119	That would really help.	 change	communication behavior
61_121	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_123	Yeah. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
61_125	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_1	I'm good, thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_3	Um, I guess everything's fine. I think my caseworker mentioned something about community service that I have to do or something. I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_5	I'm not sure of that.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_7	Yeah, I know that she said I have to get so many hours in, but I don't- I don't know. I kind of was half-listening.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_9	I know that I have to get it done by the end of my probation, except I forgot like how many hours or if I'm supposed to find it or someone else is gonna find it for me or I-I told you I'm confused.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_12	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_14	Exactly, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_16	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_18	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_20	Um, yeah, I just, so I still have to find the community service hours myself?	 neutral	communication behavior
62_22	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_24	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_26	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_28	Okay, so I would do that. And then do you know, can I get all the 24 hours in in like a weekend or how does that work?	 neutral	communication behavior
62_30	[unintelligible 00:02:20]	 neutral	communication behavior
62_32	Oh, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_34	Yeah, I think, just to keep track of it better.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_36	I think it's a good idea.	 change	communication behavior
62_38	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_40	I think that's it. I think I was just worried about who was gonna do it for me, but I know I have to, I guess, do it myself and that 25 hours has to be done. It seems like that's the time I'd have to get done.	 change	communication behavior
62_42	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
62_44	All right, thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_1	Definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_3	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_5	I do some meth.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_7	Snort it, always snort it.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_9	Mm-mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_11	Just, you know, some alcohol.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_13	Meth?	 neutral	communication behavior
63_15	Um, two, three times a month.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_17	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_19	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_21	Yeah, it could be because, uh, I was high when I had unprotected sex and I would not do that if I were not high.	 change	communication behavior
63_23	Definitely, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
63_25	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
63_27	No, I mean, no. I mean, like I said, I only do it in clubs, you know, with my friends, uh, two or three times a month at-at the most. Um, uh, I don't think it's really having other impacts. But I'm-I'm concerned about this one. I never expected to get gonorrhea.	 change	communication behavior
63_29	I-I understand but it's I think that would be a hard thing for me to do. You know, I mean, I know I should but, I mean, that's like my whole social life. You know, I mean, all my friends go to these clubs. That's where- that's where I see them. You know, that's my sex life basically and, uh, meth is just- it's just a part of it. You know, I mean, everyone is doing it there. You know, so it's while I would like to stop it's-it's kind of hard to think about doing that right away.	 sustain	communication behavior
63_31	Yeah, I don't think it would be easy but I'm not saying that I'm not willing to try.	 change	communication behavior
63_33	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_35	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_37	Uh, three.	 sustain	communication behavior
63_39	I mean, this has been really uncomfortable, you know, gonorrhea is a really bad experience. And, uM, I know I don't think the same, you know, when I'm- when I'm on it. And, uh, I mean, what I have is bad enough, I could easily get AIDS. I could get HIV the same way. So that scares me a lot. That's why it's higher than a one or two.	 change	communication behavior
63_41	Well, I do just snort it but you don't know what it's cut with, you know, there could be something, you know. It could be really bad, um, if it was cut with something dangerous or something. I mean, I-I worry about that sometimes.	 change	communication behavior
63_43	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
63_45	Something else to do on weekends, you know, different social life.	 change	communication behavior
63_47	It's the hard thing, I mean, almost everybody I know uses it.	 sustain	communication behavior
63_49	My sister.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_51	I haven't really talked to her about it. I think she knows it I do it sometimes. I mean, we're pretty close. I think I could talk to her about it, and I think she would probably help.	 change	communication behavior
63_53	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_55	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
63_57	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
63_59	Yeah, sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_1	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_3	Yeah, you too.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_5	Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_7	Yeah. Yeah. pretty straightforward-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_9	-always good.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_11	No. No, not at all.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_13	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_15	"Sure. Um, I guess, you know, maybe two or three weeks ago, I had sort of like this group of friends come around to my place, and um, you know, they-they were sort of saying that it was just like a night to hang out and watch DVDs and stuff, and then they sort of sat me down and were like, ""You know, maybe you need to get a bit of help for, you know, drug stuff."" Then, you know, I was sort of like, ""Well, mm."" And I was quite annoyed by that at first, but I-I suppose, you know, I thought about it for a bit and then I was like, ""Well, I guess it can't hurt to talk to someone about it, maybe."""	 change	communication behavior
64_17	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_21	Yeah. I just sort of did a bit of search on the internet and stuff and just read about this place, so I just thought I'll—	 change	communication behavior
64_23	Yeah, I guess. I-I suppose I hadn't really thought about it till they sat me down, and you know- I mean I could, uh, I could understand a little bit of where they were coming from, so yeah, I thought I'd—	 change	communication behavior
64_25	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_27	Yeah. Yeah, which kind of was a bit of a sh-shock, I suppose.	 change	communication behavior
64_29	"Yeah. Yeah, 'cause, you know, I don't know. You know, you see on movies when people sort of intervene or say, ""You know, you need to go and get help."" And then-- I don't know. Like you know those characters and, they-they do need help, you know-"	 neutral	communication behavior
64_31	-because they're fucked.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_33	"And you kind of go, ""Woah. That's not me."" So it's about am I—"	 change	communication behavior
64_35	Yeah, or well, not to that extent, you know what I mean? Like, I-I would-- l didn't think I was at anywhere near a point that I would need to be sat down and intervened with-	 sustain	communication behavior
64_37	-if you know what I mean.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_39	I suppose.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_41	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_43	Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, 'cause, I mean, you know, they are my friends and-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_45	"- you know, I'm not gonna be so narrow-minded as to say for sure that, you know, they're entirely wrong 'cause there's a big group of them, you know? And they do care, so obviously, there's something there that I might have overlooked. But on the other hand, I'm sort of like, ""Well, was it that bad?"" And you know, ""Was that- was that really necessary?"" But I, you know, I thought I'd give them the benefit of the doubt and-"	 change	communication behavior
64_47	-and just check it up, yep.	 change	communication behavior
64_49	Yeah, pretty right.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_51	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_53	Okay, cool.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_55	Um, dr-drugs, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_57	Mm, yeah. Sort of kind of do a bit of P now and again-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_59	-and, um, I guess less often, I do a bit of, you know, I smoke a little bit and, um, party pills in the- in the weekend sometimes.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_61	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_63	Um, a couple of times a week maybe.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_65	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_67	Mm-hmm, yeah. Yeah. So I guess when I put it that way, it does sound quite a lot, but it doesn't feel a lot, you know? If you know what I mean?	 change	communication behavior
64_69	Right. Um, I suppose it's kind of hand-in-hand with just hanging out with, sort of, some new scene that I've-- Like, um, I moved to Auckland maybe three years ago.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_71	And, um, I still live in Palmy and, so as you can imagine, it's sort of a bit different down there. And, um, kind of just when I first got here I was sorta introduced a little bit to, um, like do you know Family Bar on-on [unintelligible 00:06:49]?	 neutral	communication behavior
64_73	"Yeah. It's that sort of- that sorta scene, that kind of, um, gay scene, I guess. And, like, it's not something I'd really thought about before and-- But then kinda hung out there and just met these people that were sort of like you don't really get there much Palmy. Well, I mean I suppose you do, but they're not-- You know, in Auckland bars like that you can just-- Uh, you can just be it out in the open, you know, and I suppose in Palmy you can't as easily. Um, so just to arrive and see that and kind of meet these people that were just really friendly, you know, and-and not judge me into it. I don't know. You know, Palmy often is they're sort of like, ""Oh, you've gotta own a car, and soap it up, and drive up and down the Main Street,"" and I just couldn't give a shit about that, you know, so. Or play rugby and, you know, that didn't interest me at all and sorta come here and have people, you know, talk about interesting stuff and have a good time. I just want to go out and dance and stuff like that. Um, that was quite cool for me to know that that existed because I hadn't seen that before and-and I suppose there's a lot of that that goes on there, you know?"	 sustain	communication behavior
64_74	"It's quite a heavy party scene most weekends and stuff. So it kind of goes hand in hand with that really, and just, you know, I guess when I have-have a slight-- I don't know, you just feel really good, I guess. Just feel, like, happy, and excited, and just to be surrounded by people that, you know, really care about you, and love you and-- Coming from a place where y-you didn't-- don't get that as much, it's just really cool, you know, to-to be able to go, ""Okay, on this day I can take this."" And it's just that instant, like, ""I know- I know I'll feel good."" I guess that's part of it."	 sustain	communication behavior
64_76	Yeah, in-in a way. Although I wouldn't have been conscious of that really. I just sort of discovered it here. It's not like I came to Auckland looking for that kinda-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_78	-lift to get away from, um, you know parents mainly, and that kind of lifestyle, that Palmy sort of lifestyle. But then yeah, I discovered this other thing, um—	 neutral	communication behavior
64_80	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_82	No. I didn't really know. I guess you see sort of things like that in-in movies from America you know, but you don't really-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_84	- think that it would exist in your own country. Well, not if you grew up in Palmy.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_86	Um, I don't mean to be mean about Palmy but, you know, it's just the different kinda attitude, I guess, kinda- this done-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_88	-to that sort of thing.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_90	Yes-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_92	-plus-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_94	Yeah, yeah. I definitely wanted to get away from something. I didn't know what too, but then I arrived here and found this thing that was like actually, this was obviously, fate or whatever was pulling me to this thing-	 sustain	communication behavior
64_96	-'cause-'cause like I found something in myself or something that was missing.	 sustain	communication behavior
64_98	"Um, now, I guess, now, I'm just a little used to it. [clears throat] When I first got here, I was like, ""Wow, this is amazing."" This is hard, I guess, but, you know, it's been three years now, so it's just kinda like I've gotten used to it."	 neutral	communication behavior
64_100	"I mean, I guess, I'm, let's say I take it for granted but, um, yes, it's just comfortable now. And, um, it's just a sort of what I do really. Yeah, so, I guess that the drugs are linked to that, I suppose. It's j-- Well, it's just a part of it, I don't really think-- I didn't really differentiate it. It's just kinda, ""Okay, I'm gonna go hang with my friends,"" and that sort of thing, you know, that Saturday, Friday night thing. And then it just happens really as part of that."	 neutral	communication behavior
64_102	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_104	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_106	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_108	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_110	Well, I guess, now, that I think about it, maybe it's sort of gone beyond that, maybe I didn't notice that.	 change	communication behavior
64_112	I mean like I always-- Well, it's, you know it's kind of a thing that happens in the weekends but, I guess, sometimes in the weekdays. You know, I'll-I'll pretty much every weekend I'll have a big night, um, maybe two but sometimes, you know, in the weekdays like on a Tuesday or Wednesday or something if I just kinda feel like doing something then I might do that sometimes to see if someone else wants to come round and join me or, you know, occasionally by myself I might have a smoke by myself or something like that. And I guess that isn't entirely linked to that scene, I suppose.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_114	Mm. Maybe. I suppose I hadn't really thought about it-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_116	-until recently.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_118	Yeah. I suppose just since that kind of intervention thing or I started to give them the benefit of the doubt. And it's-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_120	-maybe noticing some things that I hadn't noticed but—	 neutral	communication behavior
64_122	Oh, I mean, e-even just now, you know, when you asked me how often.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_124	"Mm. S-surprised me to-to think about, you know, when there's stuff, and you don't really think about it, but then if someone asked you, you know, how often or-- and then you kind of have to quantify it, I suppose it kinda sound shocking, you know, if I- if I imagine myself sort of saying, ""I do this, you know, a few times a week."" It-it-"	 change	communication behavior
64_126	"-sounds shocking. But to me it-it's- it doesn't feel that way, you know, that's kind of where that, where it kind of doesn't sit right. I, [clears throat] that's why I kind of got a bit miffed at my friends a little bit, or I dunno, a bit defensive there. 'Cause you know, it sounds a lot, but it doesn't feel out of control or anything, you know. It doesn't feel, I dunno, people that need to go and see therapists or whatever you kind of go, ""Oh, they're an addict."" You know. They-- Their health is really bad and they need urgent help right now quickly, Uh, well, at least that's kind of the-the feeling you get. And I don't feel that at all. I don't feel like it's a real urgent thing. So that-"	 sustain	communication behavior
64_128	-felt a bit weird.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_130	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_132	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_134	Definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_136	Yep. Um. Uh, I suppose money is quite a big thing. Like, I used to have a lot more money sorta last year. I had a, quite a good job, like a, quite a regular acting job.	 change	communication behavior
64_138	Um, and it was like quite a lot of money that la-last year. So it wasn't such a problem then. And I suppose I sort of blew that money a little bit. Um, so now I don't have that acting income coming in as frequently and I'm working in a cafe like a sort of part-time and it's not bringing in as much. So now it's kinda like, and sometimes I need to borrow a bit of money or sorta need a bit of help with the rent sometimes.	 change	communication behavior
64_140	Yeah. Yeah. A little bit.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_142	No. But you know, that's the life of an actor, I suppose, ups and downs works and not works.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_144	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_146	It's not.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_148	Hmm. Could have been a couple of auditions that I didn't do so well and as I could have 'cause of that.	 change	communication behavior
64_150	"Uh, maybe. Maybe it's just my general sort of state. Um,I dunno, sometimes I suppose just kind of weighs on my mind a little bit like, ""What am I doing or why am I spending my money on this?"" I mean, when it's happening, it's like, this is amazing."	 neutral	communication behavior
64_152	You know am I-- You go in- you go into places, interesting places, but you know, I could just as well have saved that money and actually gone to interesting places I suppose. But I don't know. I wonder if it- if-if it's having an effect. I-I don't know. I can't say for sure, but maybe it's not so good for the face, I dunno. [crosstalk] Dunno if I look tired or-or run down or-	 change	communication behavior
64_154	-or if I actually am tired or run down, I suppose. Again, this is things that I haven't really thought about-	 change	communication behavior
64_156	-but now I'm starting to think about.	 change	communication behavior
64_158	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_160	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_162	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_164	Yeah. Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_166	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_168	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_170	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_172	"Uh, I guess it's obviously having some sort of effect on my friends and my flatmates, 'cause, you know, they set me down and said, ""Look you gotta-"	 change	communication behavior
64_174	"-look into this or else we can't hang out anymore."""	 change	communication behavior
64_176	That would be a problem, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
64_178	If they didn't wanna hang out, well, then what have I got, I suppose?	 change	communication behavior
64_180	"Yeah. Yeah, and I mean part of it, yeah. Part of it I just wonder 'cause, you know, a lot of those friends that set me down are obviously the ones that are not part of that scene. I mean there were a couple there that-that are, but mostly they were the ones that sort of have always sorta been a bit judgy. You know, like when I first started all this stuff, you know. And clearly, there wasn't a problem like-- 'cause I used to be that guy as well you know, like, ""No never do that 'cause it's bad,"" and then you try it the first time and you go, ""Actually, it's not that bad."" It's not the end of the world if you're sensible with it, then it's not gonna be, you know."	 sustain	communication behavior
64_181	You have to take a stupid amount to do any kind of like, or, you know, to die or to end up in a hospital.	 sustain	communication behavior
64_183	"So it's provided you don't-- you're not stupid with it. Then it's just a bit of fun but you can't really explain that to people who are-- have their walls up. So it's hard not to sit in this room full of people kind of going, ""Oh, you know, you really should stop the drugs, they're bad."" It's like, ""Well actually, you don't know what you're talking about."""	 neutral	communication behavior
64_185	Yep. Yeah, a couple.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_187	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_189	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_191	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_193	Um, well I suppose the acting thing is a really big concern.	 change	communication behavior
64_195	'Cause I want that to be my job, you know. I'm fucking sick of cafes.	 change	communication behavior
64_197	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_199	I'd like it to be, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_201	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_203	Yeah, 'cause I mean it's all you know, it's partly lacking and partly being at the right place at the right time. And if you're at the right place and at the right time and it is not on your game then there could have been a—	 neutral	communication behavior
64_205	Yeah, it could be.	 change	communication behavior
64_207	Yeah, and then I suppose also like money is linked into that as well, you know, I've-- I'm not doing as many courses and stuff as I used to be doing, 'cause it's, you know, don't have the money.	 change	communication behavior
64_209	Well, yeah, I mean, obviously I don't wanna keep pissing my flatmates off.	 change	communication behavior
64_211	You know, and it's not- it's not cool to not pay the rent, obviously. It's not something I'm happy with.	 change	communication behavior
64_213	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_215	Yeah, and I don't wanna be that person.	 change	communication behavior
64_217	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_219	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_221	Yeah. Not-not necessarily P or whatever but yeah most people are doing something. Yeah. I suppose yeah it's kind of part of that scene that there's not a huge like, you know, you go to normal bars and most people are just drunk and wasted and like spewing everywhere and stuff and whereas that's a different scene. Like, people drink but they don't drink to that excess but they take other things and have a good time. And, yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
64_223	Yeah. I mean there are people that do that. I suppose it-it would be hard. I-I haven't really thought about it, I suppose. That's all it is, all I've known that scene to be, you know, 'cause I'm quite new to it, you know-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_225	-so from the beginning it was always there.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_227	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_229	Oh yeah, well, they must be. I can't imagine everyone is there, I guess just the ma-majority or at least p-- the majority of people that I know, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_231	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_233	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_235	Yep. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_237	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_239	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_241	Well, [coughs] I must say I was a bit, um, you know, at the start when I was sort of saying I, you know, this is how often I do it and then I found myself talking about the kind of the weekday stuff I kinda took myself back a bit there. I suppose, you know, on a Wednesday by yourself like it doesn't sound that good.	 change	communication behavior
64_243	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_245	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_247	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_249	Yeah. Yeah, but I think you're right about, just something to look forward to, because it's that midweek slump, you know. So far away till people will be in their place where they can-	 neutral	communication behavior
64_251	-hang out and have a good time.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_253	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_255	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_257	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_259	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
64_261	Yeah. Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_0	Many people have told me, um, if I quit smoking, I'm going to gain weight.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_2	Well, food really doesn't taste good, but they say it tastes much better-	 neutral	communication behavior
65_4	-if you quit smoking.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_6	Now the downside to that is I'm gonna gain weight.	 sustain	communication behavior
65_8	That means a new wardrobe, which I'd like to have, but I can't afford it.	 sustain	communication behavior
65_10	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_12	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_14	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_16	Um, withdrawal.	 sustain	communication behavior
65_18	They say it's awful. Um, being cranky.	 sustain	communication behavior
65_20	And if I do go through this, I just hope my friends understand and will support me in what I'm trying to do.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_22	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
65_24	Um, I think everything's on the bad side about smoking, but, um, I've just smoked so long. I-I just can't imagine-	 sustain	communication behavior
65_26	-not- going through life without smoking.	 sustain	communication behavior
65_28	I know I've got to stop. Uh, I'm having no health problems from cigarettes-	 change	communication behavior
65_30	-at present, but when the doctor told me this morning what could be waiting for me in the future-	 change	communication behavior
65_32	-that made me rethink-	 neutral	communication behavior
65_34	-everything.	 neutral	communication behavior
66_1	Hey.	 neutral	communication behavior
66_3	Pleasure to meet you.	 neutral	communication behavior
66_5	Yeah. I'm supposed to learn how to manage it. I just learned that I got diabetes and apparently, it's pretty bad 'cause, uh, she said my blood sugar was sky high, and then she laid all these huge consequences on things that can happen. That just sounds so disastrous and, uh, and then she told me I gotta do all this stuff. And man, I'm just sort of disappointed right now.	 change	communication behavior
66_7	She mentioned my legs having troubles and-	 change	communication behavior
66_9	Well, that's, yeah. It's not just being scared, you know. I don't want that to happen to me, but then when I, when-when she reels off all these things I gotta do and I'm sort of going oh, oh, you know, I'm not certain I can even get it done. So it's sort of sitting-- well, you know, I'm sitting here thinking that, oh my God, this is- this is what's gonna happen to me.	 sustain	communication behavior
66_11	And it is discouraging, just like discouraging.	 sustain	communication behavior
66_13	Yeah. It looks like a massive task that I'm may not be able to handle. And then, yeah, all this horrible stuff happens to me. I mean, it's- it's a bleak-looking situation and a lot worse.	 sustain	communication behavior
66_16	Well, I don't think too much trouble in taking the medicines, especially since I understand my blood sugar is really high. and-	 change	communication behavior
66_18	Yeah, I'm pretty- I'm pretty good at taking drugs.	 change	communication behavior
66_20	Yeah. I think I could probably do that.	 change	communication behavior
66_22	Well, she also mentioned monitoring my blood sugar and all this. And that just seemed like a lot of mumbo jambo to me.	 sustain	communication behavior
66_24	Oh, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
66_26	Well, I like it that I, you know, that-that we can do it at a step at a time. I mean, that's-- that relieves some pressure.	 change	communication behavior
66_28	And being able to talk with you and do this as we go along rather than-- I-I wasn't certain I could just, wham, put this huge program in[chuckles] into effect. Uh, but doing a step at a time and I, you know, that-- getting on the medicine, I don't think that's any big problem. That I can do I am pretty sure.	 change	communication behavior
66_30	Yeah. I think I could do that. Uh, as long as there's no big-time side effects, but, uh-	 change	communication behavior
67_1	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_3	Something like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_5	Uh, I vape. I have a pen, but I don't smoke it though.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_7	Um, a few times a month.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_9	I did a peppermint oil once, someone shared it with me.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_11	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_13	Well, I don't think it's going to hurt me.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_15	Um, I don't know. It makes me relax, and it's fun to laugh with my friend.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_17	Well, I don't want to get in trouble like at school.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_19	Well, I can get suspended and I would get kicked off the team, the basketball team.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_21	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_23	well, I was thinking to not use when basketball season start.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_25	Well, I play better when I'm not high.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_27	Well, I wouldn't get caught with using a pen, so I wouldn't get kicked off the basketball team.	 change	communication behavior
67_29	For about a month.	 change	communication behavior
67_31	Um, seven.	 change	communication behavior
67_33	Well, I'm pretty sure, um, I can stop using for a month. I want to play well.	 change	communication behavior
67_35	Uh, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
67_37	Well, if I'm stressed or unhappy, that's when I usually wanna vape.	 change	communication behavior
67_39	Hmm, I like to play video games.	 change	communication behavior
67_41	I can play basketball with my friend Sarah.	 change	communication behavior
67_43	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
67_45	Mm-hmm.	 change	communication behavior
68_1	Hi. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_3	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_5	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_7	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_9	Sure. Um, as you know, I'm Andrea, I, uh, I'm a junior I'm in the marching band. I play the tenor sax.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_11	Yeah, I'm also in the-- I'm a bit of a band geek. [laughter] I play, you know, in the wind ensemble and the jazz band, things like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_13	Yeah, [crosstalk].	 neutral	communication behavior
68_15	Oh, I started playing about 10 years ago, actually.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_17	Yeah, I started on the violin first, and then I went on, explored a little with the piano, clarinet, finally found the tenor sax, and yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_19	Um, you know, just hanging out with my friends or go to the beach, things like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_21	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_23	Yeah [laughs].	 neutral	communication behavior
68_25	Uh, well I have one older brother he's about eight and a half old- years older than me. My parents, and I have a dog [laughs].	 neutral	communication behavior
68_27	He's a Golden Retriever.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_29	My big boy.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_31	They're pretty good. Grades have been pretty all right. Still like 3.7 ish.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_33	Uh, I'd like to, you know, I'd like to, of course, graduate high school, hopefully, go to a nice Ivy League school.	 change	communication behavior
68_35	But I mean, that might not happen. And then I'd like to go on and become a doctor. Study psychology and then become a psychiatrist or something.	 change	communication behavior
68_37	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_39	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_41	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_43	Um, I think a sense of community and belonging.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_45	I think those two and, um, respect.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_47	Yeah. Well, I think community and belonging, I kind of related them. Um, you know how I said I was in the marching band?	 neutral	communication behavior
68_49	I really, you know, I really enjoy being in that team setting of, you know, being with other people and all working toward- together towards that one goal.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_51	And then in terms of respect, I-I kind of view that as one of like my major like rules. Like, I-I really do think respect is important, to respect myself and respect those around me, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_53	I place great importance in that.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_55	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_57	Yes, purpose.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_59	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_61	Definitely, that's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_63	Um, sometimes we just, you know, go to the movies, go to the beach, like I had said, or sometimes we just get together at someone's house, play some good board games and hang out.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_65	Yeah, sometimes.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_67	Uh, well it's mostly just for, for parties or party settings is kind of to get things going and get everything loosened up as they say.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_69	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_71	I'd say, um, on a not busy month, for instance, I'd say about like two weekends out of the month. Two or three.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_73	The days that we drink are mostly, like I said, they're parties, so it's more of that whole partying and dancing and, you know, having everyone have fun. And then when we don't, it's a lot more relaxed. It's a lot more hanging out, playing board games, watching a movie it's not yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_75	Definitely.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_77	Um, I think of them as-as different, I think, you know, like in playing board games and things, it's meant to be relaxing.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_79	So it's nice to have like that kind of breather-	 neutral	communication behavior
68_81	-versus with a party it's a lot more energetic it's, uh, after it all, it's very draining.	 change	communication behavior
68_83	But in the moment it's quite fun to dance and have fun.	 sustain	communication behavior
68_85	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_87	Um, it's, you know, when we drink, we-we tend to have more fun because I guess we're not, you know, everyone's drinking together. We're a lot more loosened up and relaxed-	 sustain	communication behavior
68_89	-and not really thinking about stresses or things like that, but it can be--When it's too much drinking, it can be- can be obviously bad.	 change	communication behavior
68_91	Um, a lot of times, it'll make- it'll make people stupid. [laughs] Yeah, you know, people make dumb decisions and things like that. We-we usually try to be as safe about it	 change	communication behavior
68_93	-as possible. So we'll like sleep over at a friend's house. And so that, you know, we're not driving and it's mostly within our friend group. So we're not worried about strangers putting weird things in our drinks.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_95	But, um, definitely some of the ideas people can have when they're stup- when they're drunk and can be really stupid.	 change	communication behavior
68_97	Yeah	 neutral	communication behavior
68_99	Sometimes. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_101	Well, I, especially don't like it whenever me or one of my friends, like we drink too much and we end up like throwing up or things like that, that I don't- that's not fun.	 change	communication behavior
68_103	It's not.	 change	communication behavior
68_105	For me, that's happened to me once. It was the first time I ever drunk and it was- it was a lot, I didn't know what I was doing. I was mixing all kinds of weird things and just kind of taking anything everyone- anyone gave me	 change	communication behavior
68_107	-and that didn't end well.	 change	communication behavior
68_109	But after that, I haven't- but I do have friends that still do sometimes, so I'll end up like having to take care of them or something and-	 change	communication behavior
68_111	It kind of puts a downer on my- on my fun.	 change	communication behavior
68_113	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_115	Yeah. People can get a little like sloppy, I guess. Like they're all loose, like with people in corners doing things that should be done in private-	 change	communication behavior
68_117	-and that kind of stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_119	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_121	I just- I've, you know, I have an aunt who is an alcoholic. So I-I see like the issues that are involved and I've seen movies and things I know that drunk driving is an issue-	 change	communication behavior
68_123	So, I, you know, I wanna be as safe as possible in those terms and be in a setting where like we can let loose but still be safe like in someone's house or sort of my parents will tell me something. But-- So, I- like I know that there are dangers involved and I guess I wanna limit that.	 change	communication behavior
68_125	And so be where I have fun.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_127	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_129	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_131	Then it kind of defeats the purpose? [laughs]	 change	communication behavior
68_133	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_135	In terms of what? In terms of respect?	 neutral	communication behavior
68_137	I think, well in a way, I do think that drinking is probably a form of disrespect to my own body because I'm not putting things- I'm putting things in it that shouldn't be there.	 change	communication behavior
68_139	And then-- But in terms of at- how it is I am respecting myself, I am- I'm respecting myself by like trying to stay in someone's house and like trying to limit my drinking so I don't get to that blackout like throwing up and everything.	 sustain	communication behavior
68_141	And try to, you know, let loose but still be in control of my behavior so I'm not gonna go somewhere with a person I met-	 neutral	communication behavior
68_143	-into I don't know where to, I don't know what, and-	 neutral	communication behavior
68_145	-things like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_147	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_150	"I usually-- Well, I start off like I make sure that I make my own drink so I know what's in it and how much is in it. So in that way I control how much I drink. So, I usually just, you know, get one of those cups and then make one drink. And then I'll try to make it last as long as possible. And I'll be like, ""All right, this is my one drink"" and I'm good in that way. I still have something in my cup so people aren't gonna be like, ""Oh, here. Have some more."" I'd be like, ""No, I'm good. I have mine,"" and I'll still be, you know, having some to like let loose a little."	 neutral	communication behavior
68_152	"For the most part, it works pretty well because, like I said, people, you know, people come asking me, trying to pressure me, I'll be like, ""No, I'm good. I have- You know, I still have something. I'll get some later."" And I never end up getting anything. Oh, but sometimes they'll be like, ""Hey, let's take a shot,"" and everyone's gathered around like the kitchen or something ready to take a shot. And then at that point, I'll be like, ""Oh, well, maybe I can take one more."" And that's when I start, you know, falling into-"	 change	communication behavior
68_154	-way too much.	 change	communication behavior
68_156	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_158	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_160	Um, I'd like to make sure that I'd, you know, in terms of respecting myself and my body, I'd like to, you know, try to drink less.	 change	communication behavior
68_162	Like I-I-- You know, it is nice to let loose and have fun, but I'd also like it to be so, you know, I'm not damaging my body, you know.	 change	communication behavior
68_164	Like my liver doesn't work by the time I'm like 22.	 change	communication behavior
68_166	And, um, you know, have my friends on board with a similar mentality so we can kind of work at it together as a group, as a- as a community.	 change	communication behavior
68_168	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_170	I'd say about like-like a six or a seven.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_172	I'd like to work on it but, you know, if I get around to it, I get around to it. If I don't, I don't.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_174	Um, because I still think it's-it's important.	 change	communication behavior
68_176	I still, you know. Like I said, I don't want to hurt my body. Especially going to med school like I know how things affect your body and also affect your-your social and your school work and things like. I know that once I get to college, it's not- it's not gonna-gonna work out being, you know, drinking every weekend and then like trying to wake up early and go to school, take an exam. Like I know that's not- that's not feasible. It's not a good idea.	 change	communication behavior
68_178	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_180	I think I-	 neutral	communication behavior
68_182	I think if I made the decision that I was going to, for sure, then I think definitely like a 10 I know it'd be going through.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_184	It's just because I know that once I make the decision, I know I can do it. It's making the decision in the first place.	 change	communication behavior
68_186	Um, I'm thinking of maybe like trying to convince my friends without sounding, you know, dorky or something and be like, hey, you know, let's just stay in today. Like, let's not go out or something. Or just be like, hey, I'm not like-- I'm not going to drink today. And then even if my friends do, like being okay with them, drinking around me and not doing it, and then them being okay with me drinking-- Me not drinking and them doing whatever they want.	 change	communication behavior
68_188	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_190	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_192	I think so. I think it's-it's very feasible. I think it's possible.	 change	communication behavior
68_194	I think so. I think that's good.	 change	communication behavior
68_196	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
68_200	Yeah, I'd like to.	 change	communication behavior
68_202	Perfect. Nice.	 neutral	communication behavior
70_1	Yeah, I do, just a couple of minutes though.	 neutral	communication behavior
70_3	Um, nothing specific. I just am unfamiliar with the medication.	 neutral	communication behavior
70_5	Okay. Uh, what about side effects?	 neutral	communication behavior
70_7	Um, what about does it interact with phenelzine?	 neutral	communication behavior
70_9	Oh, sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
70_11	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_1	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_3	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_5	Yeah, it'd be good.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_7	I guess it doesn't.	 change	communication behavior
71_9	Uh, I guess I have to keep coming-coming back here and go into court and stuff.	 change	communication behavior
71_11	Yeah. It kinda messes things up.	 change	communication behavior
71_13	Yeah. It makes it harder.	 change	communication behavior
71_15	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_17	Like it's hard to get a job 'cause you have to say that you've done prison time and stuff, so it's pretty hard.	 change	communication behavior
71_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_21	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_23	Uh, I don't know if-if I would go into polytech, done courses there or something.	 change	communication behavior
71_25	Yeah. Like, if they've got jobs now.	 change	communication behavior
71_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_29	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_31	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_33	Just learn more about cars and just, kind of, hands-on job.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_35	[sighs] Mechanic, or panel [unintelligible 00:18:02], or just-- I wouldn't care, I just-- as long as it's cars.	 change	communication behavior
71_37	Yes, pretty much.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_39	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_41	Just I have to get that training, I guess, and then probably get a job.	 change	communication behavior
71_43	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_45	Like, sort of, um, just at the polytech. I don't know what exactly it was, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
71_47	It took them like-- And, it took them like a year or something, and then they went into apprenticeship.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_49	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_51	Yeah. I could do it pretty easy. It's just, like, I probably know all this stuff already.	 change	communication behavior
71_53	Like, well, I went out and picked some forms and stuff, but it's real confusing, like, having to apply, so I-I just couldn't-- I don't know. I couldn't do it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_55	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_57	Yeah, yeah. Passed around and everything.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_59	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_61	Yeah, but I just-- Like, they wouldn't help me out, so-	 neutral	communication behavior
71_63	-I got some forms and-	 neutral	communication behavior
71_65	I asked- I asked them what I had to do, and they said I had to fill out some forms, but-	 neutral	communication behavior
71_67	-well, the forms, it's too confusing.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_69	Yeah, yeah. Well, I got one- I got one for panel [unintelligible 00:19:33], and one for, uh, uh, like, panel and paint-	 neutral	communication behavior
71_71	-so, learning how to paint cars and stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_73	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_75	Yeah. I was gonna fill them out there, but then I didn't get them, so I took them home, but I was gonna get Donna to help me, but I just didn't get around to it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_77	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_79	I didn't understand, like, what you're supposed to write down. Like, yeah. I'm not good at this, maybe too confusing.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_81	I don't really deal with it. I s-- I don't really like writing.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_83	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_85	No, I'm just real messy, so people can't read it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_87	[chuckles] Yeah, no. It's what they say, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_89	Yeah, I am. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
71_91	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_93	Yeah. Like, a computer or something. If you could write on a computer, I could do that.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_95	But, we don't have a computer.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_97	Just ask to get someone else to do it I guess. I guess I could ask Donna, but it's been embarrassing.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_99	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_101	Well, I don't know if it's that serious, it's just-	 neutral	communication behavior
71_103	-I'm sure most people can fill them out. I don't know, I just don't get it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_105	No one. I guess you. You could do it. Would you do it?	 neutral	communication behavior
71_107	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_109	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_111	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_113	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_115	I guess, I'd go pick them up and I don't know, I guess I could ask Donna, but she'd probably help me, I don't really want to.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_117	Well, I don't know. Plus, well, I don't know if I could bother getting up at nine o'clock every morning and having to go to Polytec. I've got used to sleeping in.	 sustain	communication behavior
71_119	At night.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_121	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_123	Yeah. Uh, it would be cool if it's anything like school. Like, I didn't really enjoy school. [unintelligible 00:22:56] so writing and stuff, and I wouldn't wanna do that. If it's all hands-on though, it would be all good.	 sustain	communication behavior
71_125	Yeah. No, it does get in the way. I just don't wanna do it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_127	It's a waste of time.	 sustain	communication behavior
71_129	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_131	For what?	 neutral	communication behavior
71_133	Of what? Well, I don't get it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_135	Yeah. I can't.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_137	Oh, it's pretty [unintelligible 00:23:47], but, like, still-- I don't know, I'm not retarded, or anything. I can write and read.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_139	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_141	Like--	 neutral	communication behavior
71_143	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_145	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_147	No, not really. Yeah, I don't really enjoy it.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_149	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_151	I don't know. Hopefully, not many-- not much, but that's what I wanna find out, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_153	It'd make everything easier.	 change	communication behavior
71_155	Like-- I don't really like reading books or anything, so I don't really care about that but just, say, real-life stuff like going to the bank, and stuff like that-	 neutral	communication behavior
71_157	-yeah, that have filling out forms.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_159	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_161	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_163	Yeah, I didn't think about that.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_165	Yeah, that'd suck if you had to read, like, a big manual or something. Hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
71_167	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_0	He, um, introduced me to it too, so I've tried it.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_2	Oxy.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_4	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_6	Well, yeah he said it was a pain- a pain medicine.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_8	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_10	And it has, but I don't do it as often, it's just sometimes.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_12	Dealing with my grandma's loss.	 sustain	communication behavior
73_14	Yeah. I feel alone, and I just, I miss her and, it does- it does help but,-	 sustain	communication behavior
73_16	-I don't wanna have to rely on having to take that.	 change	communication behavior
73_18	Mm-hmm. Yeah, and—	 neutral	communication behavior
73_20	Right.	 change	communication behavior
73_22	Yeah, it is.	 neutral	communication behavior
73_24	Yeah, well, I don't really know too much about it, other than it makes me feel good.	 sustain	communication behavior
76_0	Hi.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_2	Good, I'm doing really good.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_4	Yeah, I really like doing this, and, um, I-I rated health as my first-	 neutral	communication behavior
76_6	-uh, value. Yeah, because I really value physical and mental health, um, spiritual, emotional. Everything as a whole package, I guess, health. Um, and I'm working on, um, a certification to become a fitness trainer. Cal State [inaudible 00:00:40] there's a like extension program. I've been doing that for the last five weeks. I have a final exam coming up, like, Saturday. A little tense about it, I guess, but, um, I'm looking forward to, like, doing it, and I gotta wait for my results. Then, I got into an internship.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_8	Um, but it's kind of exciting, a different career path in my life. Being an office worker for so long is getting boring too-- physical activity, health, in that respect.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_10	Yeah, I like being active. You know, if I could, um, be more adept to tennis, and I would love to do something like that coaching people how to play tennis, but I don't. I know enough about the game and play it, but I-I don't think my skill level would be high enough to actually coach other people but—	 neutral	communication behavior
76_12	Yes, I have.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_14	It's been in the top. It's been up there, yeah. I don't remember if it's always been number one. It's probably definitely been in the top three. Uh, yeah, because I've had problems, um, with inner harmony, I guess in different stages in my life, so I don't get that. This time I put it at number two.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_16	Yeah, it's just funny how it came out that it wasn't in the top 12. But then when I look at it again it had something to do with, um, peace, uh, inner peace or something or something in there.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_18	And, um, I put that as a higher priority, or top of my value list.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_20	Yeah. Um, since I've been practicing yoga, and since I learned how to teach yoga, that's been something that I've been, um, coming to terms with more, that I feel like I have a lot more inner harmony. I'm more at peace with myself, and in-in the quiet times, and if I'm meditating.	 change	communication behavior
76_22	Um, I really feel like-- yeah, I feel like really good about myself.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_24	"Yeah, that's part of it. Yeah, and then just feeling like, um, I don't have to please other people either. It's not a selfish thing to put myself first. And, uh, that's something I've always tried to do, make other people happy, please other people, and-and also put myself second, third, fourth, or whatever it is. And I always thought, ""Well, that's the way a good person should be.They should always put other people first, you know. And then there's times for that, you know. There's something going on, and you wanna go out of your way to help people, and you say, ""Well, my needs aren't so important right now."" I think that is okay to do once in a while. As long as you know- you know that you're not really, um, doing anything detrimental to yourself while you're doing it. And you realize, ""Well, I'm just-- I'm really helping this other person a lot, and it gives me satisfaction."""	 neutral	communication behavior
76_26	"Not out of a sense of, uh, you know, ""I'm obligated to this person."""	 neutral	communication behavior
76_28	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
76_30	Self love.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_1	[signs] Kind of slow.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_5	Oh, they have me doing all kinds of things in different machines and stuff. Yeah, it hurts.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_7	Well, just about every joint like especially my knees. They're really-- They have me doing some leg things that-that-that is it really necessary?	 neutral	communication behavior
77_9	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_11	I wanna go home.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_13	Everything. I wanna- I wanna, play with my dog. I miss my dog. I wanna cook for myself. I'm a very independent person and I wanna do things for myself.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_15	Um, I guess the rehab.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_17	Not really.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_19	Oh, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_21	Uh, I have.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_23	I have a friend who, uh, does it and she just raves about it. She loves it.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_25	Absolutely. I do not want to fall, for sure.	 change	communication behavior
77_27	Well, I-I hadn't really thought about it, but yeah I guess, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_29	Like I said, my friend talks about it and-and it's very pretty. I've seen pictures, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
77_31	Well, I don't see how I could do it. I-I'm still in a walker, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
77_33	I could?	 neutral	communication behavior
77_35	And you really recommend this?	 neutral	communication behavior
77_37	You do Tai Chi?	 neutral	communication behavior
77_39	Oh, okay. Well, yeah. Um, listen, anything that's going to get me home and if you do it and you recommend it, I'll try it.	 change	communication behavior
77_41	Okay, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_1	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_3	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_5	It's been- it's been really difficult. Um, I hate to see her gasping for breath. And, um, I'm really worried, you know, when she has to go. Uh, so that's been-- it's really difficult when I have to take her.	 change	communication behavior
78_7	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
78_9	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_11	Well, I did research on the chronic inhaler and I found out that there were steroids in it and that-that I don't want her taking steroids. I did, uh, research on some of the potential side effects and some of the health problems that can result from taking steroids and I-I just don't want her to take those at all. I don't want her exposed to them at all. And then, uh, let me just go ahead and lay this out right now. Uh, because I'm sure it'll come up, but I-I do smoke. But I make sure that I do not smoke around her so that I make sure that it does not affect her. So-	 sustain	communication behavior
78_13	-I just want to let you know that right off.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_15	Mm-hmm. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_17	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_19	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_21	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_23	Well, I-I guess I didn't realize that they weren't the same thing as the anabolic steroids.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_25	Which are the ones that cause all the problems and everything. So, um, if-if you can assure me that it's not going to have those same side effects and health problems-	 change	communication behavior
78_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_29	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_31	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_33	Oh, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_35	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_37	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_39	Oh, even when it's just on my clothes?	 neutral	communication behavior
78_41	She's that sensitive. If I realized that—	 neutral	communication behavior
78_43	Right. Um, so would it help, um-- You know, the thought of quitting smoking is a pretty daunting aspect.	 sustain	communication behavior
78_45	I mean, I know people who've tried to quit and it's-it's just it's- it's really difficult, you know. So I know, it'd be better—	 sustain	communication behavior
78_47	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_49	Yeah, it is. Um.	 sustain	communication behavior
78_51	Well, I was thinking, um, if since it, you know, it affects her that it's on my clothes, if I only smoked while she was at school, and then changed my clothes before she came home. Would that help?	 change	communication behavior
78_53	Oh, absolutely. I never. Never.	 change	communication behavior
78_55	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_57	Yeah. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
78_59	It's really difficult.	 sustain	communication behavior
78_61	Mm-hmm.	 change	communication behavior
78_63	Oh, really?	 neutral	communication behavior
78_65	Oh, that's great-	 change	communication behavior
78_67	-because that's always scary when she has to use that one.	 change	communication behavior
78_69	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
78_71	Okay.	 change	communication behavior
78_73	That sounds good. Thank you.	 change	communication behavior
79_0	Something clicked, I'd had a bunch to drink and, uh, and I knew I'd messed up. I totally messed up.	 neutral	communication behavior
79_2	Because I was- because I was right there, man. I was right there in the same place when I'd come home and I'd pop a couple of those pills, it was the same deal, like and I wanted to stay there. I wanted to stay exactly right there. And I just felt like I'd ruined everything. You know, Erin's using the phone now, and he called me the next day and it was, uh, great, but I kinda felt ashamed of myself, and I don't want to feel that way again.	 change	communication behavior
79_4	Because of what-- Yeah, I guess, I think that's what I mean, yeah, yeah. Because you know, I mean- I mean I could have stayed, I could have got, I could have got absolutely hammered and I could have done it every night for the rest of the week.	 change	communication behavior
79_6	But I don't know if I stopped because I knew I had to stop or because, you know, it was like right there, that's where I wanted to stay, you know? Anyway, I just, uh-- [crosstalk].	 change	communication behavior
79_8	They're better, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
79_10	Yeah, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
80_1	Hello, doctor.	 neutral	communication behavior
80_3	Well, I did what we discussed. I did the journal-	 change	communication behavior
80_5	-for a week, uh, trying to mark down the-the difference in my smoking, being more aware when I had the urge, if I could stop the urge-	 change	communication behavior
80_7	-and I found it was okay. It got a little bit scary on the weekend because, uh, uh, the urge has kept on coming-	 change	communication behavior
80_9	-to have a cigarette.	 neutral	communication behavior
80_11	But during the week, I was able to cut down at least two or three cigarettes a week, and that's just in one week. So-	 change	communication behavior
80_13	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
80_15	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
80_17	It just seemed to get worse when it was the weekend-	 neutral	communication behavior
80_19	-and I was going out with friends and I was home a lot of the day-	 neutral	communication behavior
80_21	-instead of at work. And I found that, um, it was really hard to stop those urges.	 neutral	communication behavior
80_23	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
80_25	But I marked it in the book. Uh, that's one thing I said to myself, I'll be honest in my marking down.	 change	communication behavior
80_27	So, I'm gonna have to really be aware of the weekends. Maybe get some kind of hobby or-or join some group or something on the weekends to keep me busy.	 change	communication behavior
80_29	If I can just postpone it-	 change	communication behavior
80_31	"-and-and say, ""Okay, I'm not gonna have it at home-"	 change	communication behavior
80_33	"-I'll have it when I get to work or on the way to work."""	 change	communication behavior
80_35	'Cause I-I-I-	 neutral	communication behavior
80_37	And then, uh-uh, what I'd like to do is try not to smoke in my house.	 change	communication behavior
80_39	I think I'd just like to do what I did this first week. I liked the idea of marking it down.	 change	communication behavior
80_41	I-- And it took me a week and I'm down two cigarettes a day, I-I figure.	 change	communication behavior
80_43	What I'd like to do is maybe go down to five cigarettes, in other words, another three a day.	 change	communication behavior
80_45	And, um, 'cause I smoke a large pack and small pack, maybe just two small packs.	 change	communication behavior
80_47	Yes.	 change	communication behavior
80_49	I can try each day to count.	 change	communication behavior
80_51	And I'm still gonna try that when I get the urge to let it go, fight it, and maybe not go out for a cigarette until the next urge comes.	 change	communication behavior
80_53	So, if I [unintelligible 00:02:59] between two of them-	 change	communication behavior
80_55	-and also coming back and-and talking to you really helps 'cause I have someone to-	 change	communication behavior
80_57	-discuss it with.	 change	communication behavior
80_59	I wouldn't mind coming back in a week again because this is all new and-and a week, I can handle a week.	 change	communication behavior
80_61	Okay, thank you doctor.	 neutral	communication behavior
80_63	Yes, thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
81_3	Okay. I guess I've been getting bigger.	 neutral	communication behavior
81_5	Uh, scary I guess.	 sustain	communication behavior
81_7	Yeah. I-I know there's something in there, I just don't know much about him.	 neutral	communication behavior
81_9	I know you want me to see the doctor, I haven't called yet.	 sustain	communication behavior
81_11	I don't know. It seems overwhelming to me.	 sustain	communication behavior
81_13	Well, I hate making phone calls and I know I need to fill out all this paperwork. I don't know how to get there and I hate needles.	 sustain	communication behavior
81_15	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
81_17	Can you help me make the call?	 change	communication behavior
81_19	Can you go with me to the appointment.	 change	communication behavior
82_1	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_3	I would say an eight.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_5	I would say a four.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_7	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_9	Um, I think it's because you've told me I'm at risk and I have alcoholism in my family and I really don't want to go down that path. So I'm-I'm confident that I can change that at this point.	 change	communication behavior
82_11	Um, well, I have a group of friends that doesn't drink that I hang out with. And I think when I hang out with them, it's not an issue. So that also helps me.	 change	communication behavior
82_13	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_15	Nope.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_17	I would say an eight.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_19	Every time,-	 neutral	communication behavior
82_21	-probably a six.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_23	Probably a six.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_25	Um, I'm a six because I think if I drink less, I'll be more reliable with using birth control. I tend to not use it when I'm-- I drank too much and I don't really care too much.	 change	communication behavior
82_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_29	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_31	Before I leave?	 neutral	communication behavior
82_33	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
82_35	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_1	Kia ora.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_3	Yup. That's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_5	I'm from down south.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_7	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_9	Yes sir. I'm from Invercargill just short of Bluff. All my family is still down there.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_11	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_13	Mm-hmm. Country boy.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_15	I've been up here since I was 18.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_17	Just a little while. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_19	Uh, just my own.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_21	Um, I was thinking about what you might ask me, what I would say. I'm thinking about my kids, thinking about having to take a day off work.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_23	It's a bit of a bitch.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_25	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_27	Uh, it's been okay. Um, it hasn't been bad.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_29	I don't know. Kind of nothing, really.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_31	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_33	Um, I hope that it says that I want to, um, make some changes.	 change	communication behavior
83_35	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_37	Yeah. And I still had to walk through those doors so-	 neutral	communication behavior
83_39	-but, um, I just think about my kids, you know.	 change	communication behavior
83_41	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_43	No. No, I don't. I see them, um, once a fortnight.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_45	It sucks.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_47	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_49	I just-- I'd love to be able to see them whenever I can, whenever I wanted to.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_51	You know. I, um, they're my whole world and-and I've fucked things up.	 change	communication behavior
83_53	So, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_55	It's really important.	 change	communication behavior
83_57	It's, uh, um, it's hard because-because I'm, uh, I'm not a bad person. I've just done some stupid shit, but I'm not a bad person.	 sustain	communication behavior
83_59	In-in regards to my kids, I'd be100- 100%.	 change	communication behavior
83_61	If it means say, I can have my-- see my kids whenever I- whenever I want.	 change	communication behavior
83_63	Um, I-I-I'd hope that they'd be proud of me. I wouldn't want my kids to see me- to see me here though. But I- But I hope they would be proud of me.	 change	communication behavior
83_65	'Cause I'm-- Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_67	Um, oh, my mom.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_69	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_71	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_73	Yeah, I am.	 change	communication behavior
83_75	I just, um, I don't- don't know where to s-- where to start. I don't know.	 sustain	communication behavior
83_77	Yeah, I hope so. I-- So I would genuinely want to, I genuinely want to do something to help myself. I don't deliberately fuck things up for myself.	 change	communication behavior
83_79	No, this is important to me.	 change	communication behavior
83_81	I have, um, I've-- it's important to me.	 change	communication behavior
83_83	I, um, I'm separated at the moment from my missus and-	 neutral	communication behavior
83_85	Uh, Kirsty.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_87	I would- I would love f-f-for her to know that I'm doing this and for her to know that I mean it, but, um, I know she wouldn't give a shit right now actually.	 change	communication behavior
83_89	Uh, yeah, I don't know. Maybe, but I don't know if I want them to know though.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_91	Uh, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_93	I'm pretty much by myself up here.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_95	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_97	Um, I don't know. I don't, um, have that many people-	 neutral	communication behavior
83_99	-that I am-- I don't have that many people I trust to support me. My mates, I love them but, um, yeah, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_101	Yeah, let's give it some thought.	 change	communication behavior
83_103	Yeah. That'll definitely be true.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_105	Uh, I have a good relationship with my mum,-	 neutral	communication behavior
83_107	-with my brothers and sisters.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_109	My mum is actually pretty important to me.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_111	I think she'd be proud of me.	 change	communication behavior
83_113	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_115	Yeah. Yeah. A good, uh, good family.	 neutral	communication behavior
83_117	Um, I don't know. Um, have some-somebody just to listen.	 change	communication behavior
83_119	She would- she would tell me that she loves me. She would tell me that she believes that I could do it.	 change	communication behavior
83_121	For them to have a father they can look up to.	 change	communication behavior
83_123	It is what I want. Definitely.	 change	communication behavior
83_125	If I had their support of my-my family and [silence] I want to say that would be higher. I just know I fucked it up in the past. If they were there to support me now, then I’d be 99% sure.	 change	communication behavior
83_127	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
84_1	Yeah, I'm all right.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_3	Just caught the bus.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_5	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_7	Just a waste of my time.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_9	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_11	Last time didn't really work out that well.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_13	Nothing really helped me.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_15	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_17	Yeah, I'd say so.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_19	She didn't really listen to me, just told me what to do. She just bossed me around.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_21	Yeah, yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_23	Yeah, she didn't really care.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_25	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_27	I-I don't care that you're a woman. It's just- it's that you don't know what it's like to be me.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_29	You have a different upbringing and live in a different place of town. Just-	 neutral	communication behavior
84_31	-you wouldn't understand.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_33	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_35	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_37	Yeah, so it is.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_39	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_41	Well, not too high. It's not like I'm out killing people or anything. It's just-	 sustain	communication behavior
84_43	-silly stuff.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_45	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_47	Mm, lots. When I stop getting caught. Don't wanna be back here again.	 change	communication behavior
84_49	No.	 change	communication behavior
84_51	No, sorry.	 change	communication behavior
84_53	Mm, like what out of a scale it would like fall?	 neutral	communication behavior
84_55	Mmh, 25.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_57	Mmh.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_59	Mmh.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_61	Maybe but, mm, yeah, I wanna stop getting into trouble.	 change	communication behavior
84_63	Yeah, but I don't think what I'm doing is that bad.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_65	Just unlucky.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_67	Yeah, the cops just have it out for me.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_69	Just 'cause growing up dealing with them and my mates and stuff and there's, you know, guilty before charged or whatever.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_71	Yeah, me and my mates always get singled out.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_73	Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_75	Just jacking cars and just stealing just, like, stuff and smokes and got done for that.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_77	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_79	Yeah, well, I-	 neutral	communication behavior
84_81	-wanna stop getting in trouble. Don't wanna-	 change	communication behavior
84_83	-end up in prison for the rest of my life for doing stupid little things.	 change	communication behavior
84_85	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
84_87	Get some income, some good cash or something.	 change	communication behavior
84_89	A nice job.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_91	A good-- yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_93	Pretty confident if I had a good job but otherwise, probably have to keep stealing stuff, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_95	So it depends.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_97	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_99	Yeah, yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_101	Yeah, yeah, yeah, 'cause it's just small stuff that, you know, just 'cause I don't have any cash.	 change	communication behavior
84_103	Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_105	Yeah, just stupid little shit, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_107	Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_109	Yeah, no. That's-	 neutral	communication behavior
84_111	-not an excuse but, yeah, I'll probably keep doing it. Just try not to get caught.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_113	Yeah. Yeah, I just get bored and stuff.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_115	Yeah, I get bored real easy.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_117	I don't know. I got a short attention span or something.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_119	Uh, just can't sit around home all day. I'd wanna go out and do something exciting.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_121	Mmh.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_123	Just talking about something I like. Like talking about cars is all good.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_125	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_127	I probably just wouldn't listen.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_129	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_131	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_133	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_135	Well, not too bad. Yeah, getting out of trouble.	 change	communication behavior
84_137	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_139	Ah, I got a lift from Donna. She's-	 neutral	communication behavior
84_141	Like she's my new girlfriend.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_143	Ah, just met her a few weeks ago and she's just, uh, real cool. She's really nice. Yeah, get along with her really well.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_145	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_147	Donna is easy to talk to unlike other girls that I don't really get along with. Uh, she's like and a good friend too so-	 neutral	communication behavior
84_149	Yeah. I can hang out with her and stuff and she gets all my mates and stuff. So it's all good.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_151	Yeah, and I'm lucky.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_153	She's just a really nice girl.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_155	Yeah, it's good of her.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_157	She thinks it's good. Yeah. Uh, she doesn't want to get in trouble and stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_159	Yeah, I was just getting busy with her and stuff. So it's all good.	 change	communication behavior
84_161	Just, uh, just hanging out. Just watching movies and stuff just, I don't know, gives me something to do.	 change	communication behavior
84_163	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_165	It's, yeah, just chilling with her. It's good.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_167	Yeah mostly, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
84_169	Uh, you know, [chuckles] mostly.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_171	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_173	Oh no, just stupid stuff. Just when she like-- she has to go to work and stuff, so I have to keep myself busy.	 sustain	communication behavior
84_175	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_177	She just works the whole day just typing numbers and stuff.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_179	Yeah. She actually goes there four days a week though.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_181	So we get to chill on Friday.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_183	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_185	Well, uh, sleeping and then, I don't know, catch up my mates if they're not doing anything and just get up to mischief with them.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_187	It's, uh, [unintelligible 00:13:34] for the cars out there, [unintelligible 00:13:36] no not-not normally. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_189	Yeah, I'm being careful though so-	 neutral	communication behavior
84_191	But what do you mean?	 neutral	communication behavior
84_193	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_195	No, not really.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_197	She'd tell me off.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_199	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_201	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_203	Uh, okay, she wants me to be happy, I don't know. Me to get a job or something. So, get a nice car we could cruise around in it.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_205	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_207	Just be able to buy her stuff. Nice car, nice house.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_209	Just and it'd be good just me, her and just be able to provide for her would be cool.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_211	Just settle down and maybe have some kids or something, family life.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_213	Yeah. It'd be cool.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_215	Yeah, I know she'd be a good mum, yeah. So—	 neutral	communication behavior
84_217	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_219	I'd be all right.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_221	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_223	Uh, I wouldn't boss them around.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_225	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_227	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_229	I don't know. It's just like-- My dad was really strict on me when I was little, and I don't want to be like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_231	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
84_233	Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_1	Well, I'm glad I don't have any of that.[laughter]	 neutral	communication behavior
85_3	Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_5	Yeah, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_7	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_9	Well, you were asking me why I don't like to take my medicine.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_11	I like to call it mild schizophrenia.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_13	And-and-and, uh—	 neutral	communication behavior
85_15	Yeah, just a little schizophrenia. I'm-I'm-- But, I'm okay with it, and so am I.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_17	Oh, that makes me f-- Yeah, that makes me feel-	 sustain	communication behavior
85_19	-relaxed.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_21	I need that.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_23	Um-	 neutral	communication behavior
85_25	-I gotta be relaxed, you know-	 sustain	communication behavior
85_27	-if-if you had, you know- if you had to ride around in the back of a garbage truck all day like I do-	 sustain	communication behavior
85_29	-uh, it's, uh- it's stressful, you know. [clears throat] But, the doctor- you know, the other doctor put me on this medicine and-and I gotta take it every day. And, I-I don't like it. Uh, I'll just be honest with you, I don't like it.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_31	It doesn't-- I don't like the way it makes you feel, um, I don't like the way it makes me act, and it's taken my sex drive, and just thrown it at the back of the garbage truck.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_33	It is.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_35	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_37	Well, i-it's kinda like I'm in kind of a dreamy world. I-it kind of, I don't know, i-it just seems like I'm kinda like living in the middle of a cotton ball or something like that, where just things are kinda soft and, I don't know, I-- It just, the-the spice of life doesn't seem to be there. It seems like everything's bland, and nothing really-- Food doesn't taste the same, and things don't smell right, and—	 sustain	communication behavior
85_39	Very dull.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_41	Very dull.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_43	That's a good way to sum it up. And it's-- Well, you understand it, uh, it's just- it's not good.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_45	Well, I feel like it's taken part of my personality and just thrown it away. I don't really feel like I'm all there, right. You know, like, um, I like to be spontaneous and funny, and-and all that night, and I- and I don't-- You know, by the time I come up with a-a funny remark to the situation, everybody's left the room, and-[laughter]-stuff like that. And-and-- [chuckles]	 sustain	communication behavior
85_47	Absolutely.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_49	And so, as you can can tell, I didn't take my medication today, I'm-I'm-I'm really on my game today. So.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_51	More like takes the edge off-	 neutral	communication behavior
85_53	-for sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_55	Well, you understand that.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_57	You-you can- you can understand why I don't take it.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_59	Right-right.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_61	Well, she wants to know who I am and what did I do with her husband.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_63	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_65	Yeah. And, uh- and so, she-- Actually, she-- When I first went on the medicine, she thought I was maybe messing around with somebody else, 'cause, I-I just wasn't interested in it at all.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_67	I canceled my subscription to the spice channel.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_69	I don't know if they still have it or not. [chuckles]	 neutral	communication behavior
85_71	Well, if I stay off the medication too long, I-- Some people might say there's a problem with that, you know.	 change	communication behavior
85_73	Well, I guess running around the neighborhood with no clothes on isn't really good.	 change	communication behavior
85_75	Um, I thought I had a, uh—	 neutral	communication behavior
85_77	Yeah, well, I thought I had my gym shorts on, but they said that I didn't.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_79	Well, I-I ended up in the hospital.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_81	Don't like that hospital.	 change	communication behavior
85_83	Uh. [clears throat] I'm not sure that the hospital is worse than the cotton ball, but I don't like it either.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_85	Well, I got a question for you. You're a doctor, why don't you guys come up with some- something else besides either being in the hospital or taking this stuff every day, can you come up with something? I mean, you guys, we put a man on the moon 50 years ago, I mean, and you still got to give me this stuff that makes me feel like a-a zombie with-- That hasn't had a drink or water in four days, it-it just doesn't seem right. Either you guys ought to come up with something better. That's what I think.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_87	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_89	I suppose.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_91	Well. Yeah. Well, yeah, I-I'd like to. I don't know, is it-- Can you- can you drink with them, some of these other ones?	 change	communication behavior
85_93	Well, I don't really drink like people-- Like some alcoholic or something but, I do—	 sustain	communication behavior
85_95	I-I like to take the edge off-	 sustain	communication behavior
85_97	You know, with a few drinks, you know, not-not a lot, you know, and-and really-	 sustain	communication behavior
85_99	Not every day.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_101	Maybe.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_103	Maybe not, uh-	 neutral	communication behavior
85_105	You know, it's not all the time, it's-it's not- it's not a problem.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_107	Certainly not a problem.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_109	Well, if I was like getting arrested for drunk driving.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_111	Well, that's what alcoholics do. I'm not an alcoholic.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_113	Um, I'm just- yeah I just like to have a few drinks. I mean, you know, obviously, I-I have, uh, this diagnosed condition, and-and I think, you know, if I were able to, you know, maybe take a few hits off of the joint and have a couple of beers, I think that's about the same as taking the medicine.	 sustain	communication behavior
85_115	Yeah, I-I-I got to be careful with it. If I take more than a hit or two of it, it-it-it can be a bit of a problem.	 change	communication behavior
85_117	I get edgy.	 change	communication behavior
85_119	I-I-I get edgy.	 change	communication behavior
85_121	No-no. I'd-I'd like to just be normal as well. I'd real-- I'd like to just be normal where I don't have to take medicine, and I don't end up in the hospital three times a year, and I don't find myself in the neighbor's yard—	 change	communication behavior
85_123	With a statue. It's—	 neutral	communication behavior
85_125	They were really ticked about that statue thing this time, and I don't know why I keep going back over there, but—	 neutral	communication behavior
85_127	I really don't, but, apparently, when I'm in that state, uh, there's something about it, I'm not sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
85_129	Well, maybe. I-I-I guess that's possible.	 change	communication behavior
86_0	I just feel helpless about this whole deal.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_2	Mm. I just feel helpless about this whole deal.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_4	No one wants to help me.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_6	No one wants to help me.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_8	Mm-hmm. I really shouldn't have done it.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_10	Mm-hmm. I really shouldn't have done it.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_12	Mm-hmm. I couldn't help myself.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_14	I couldn't help myself.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_16	It's actually been a fabulous week.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_18	It's actually been a fabulous week.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_20	Mm-hmm. I know who to hang out with, I'm not stupid.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_22	I know who to hang out with, I'm not stupid.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_24	Mm-hmm. I'm letting the whole family down. They had such high hopes for me.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_26	Mm-hmm. I'm letting my whole family down. They had such high hopes for me.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_28	Mm-hmm. This is not what I want for my life.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_30	This is not what I want for my life.	 neutral	communication behavior
86_32	Mm-hmm. I really want to get off the program.	 sustain	communication behavior
86_34	I really want to get off the program.	 sustain	communication behavior
86_36	Mm-hmm. I still crave smoking, even though I've stopped.	 sustain	communication behavior
86_38	I still crave smoking, even though I've stopped.	 sustain	communication behavior
86_40	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
87_1	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
87_3	Um, yeah, I, [sigh] that, I mean, like, when I was doing those questionnaires, it was weird because, I mean, I guess I don't really think about, like, you know, the drinking being, like, this huge deal and I don't-	 neutral	communication behavior
87_5	-ever really think about, like-like, how much I drink.	 neutral	communication behavior
87_7	Um, and, like, fi- like filling out, like, how much I'm drinking every day, it was like, whoa, you know-	 neutral	communication behavior
87_9	-like, I just didn't ever really think about it, like, that I was-- like, if I try to actually count the drinks, it's, kind of, a lot, I mean, it's, kind of, a lot.	 change	communication behavior
87_11	Well, yeah, 'cause, like, I also, kind of, thought that, like, I drink, like, about as much as my friends did and then, like, I went back and I was, like, talking to my roommate about it and I was, like, telling her that, you know, I was drinking, like, like 10 drinks on the weekends, like, including Thursday, so like, Thursday, Friday-	 neutral	communication behavior
87_13	-Saturday, Sunday.	 neutral	communication behavior
87_15	"And then she was like, ""Sarah, that's cra-- Like, that is crazy. Why are, you know, like, where are you drinking this?"" And I was- I was like, ""Well, you know, like, different places."" And I-I guess, like, I don't know, my friends didn't, like, know. Anyway, it's, yeah, I don't know."	 neutral	communication behavior
87_17	Yeah, and yeah, I guess it was just like, I thought that everybody was, like, doing it, you know-	 change	communication behavior
87_19	-but that's not really what was going on. [chuckles]	 change	communication behavior
87_21	Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
87_23	Yeah, so, that was the thing that, like, was really the most weird about doing those-	 change	communication behavior
87_25	-forms.	 change	communication behavior
88_0	For me.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_2	Um, I have to start getting the school on time for my first hour. I always miss that class.	 change	communication behavior
88_4	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_6	Uh, so people will get off my back.	 change	communication behavior
88_8	My mom she's always saying, you know, get to school. My PO will be like, you know, if you don't get the school on time, I can bring you back in for sanctions and I don't want to go back in.	 change	communication behavior
88_10	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_12	I will try.	 change	communication behavior
88_14	I can't ever get up in the morning. So that's hard and then by the time I do get up, and then I get ready and get dressed, I miss the bus. So then I usually end up walking or see if I can find a ride. So it could be a bunch of different reasons why I'm late.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_16	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_18	Get up on time would probably be a good start of making me get there on time.	 change	communication behavior
88_20	[sighs] If I'm gonna catch the bus I'll probably need to be up by 6:15 and sometimes that's just so hard to do, 'cause I go to bed so late and I don't know if I can do it.	 sustain	communication behavior
88_22	Right. I could try-	 change	communication behavior
88_24	- and see how it goes.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_26	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_28	I go about midnight now, so if I tried maybe 11:00. I can try 11:00.	 change	communication behavior
88_30	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_32	Uh, either tomorrow or the next day.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_34	Let's start tomorrow.	 change	communication behavior
88_36	My mom.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_38	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_40	[sighs] She can after my alarm goes off, if I don't get up, she could come in and wake me up and remind me that I said to you that I'm going to get up so that I have to do it.	 change	communication behavior
88_42	Exactly. Yup.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_44	[sighs] Not going to bed on time.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_46	Yup, that's gonna be a struggle for me.	 sustain	communication behavior
88_48	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_50	Just go to bed and turn off the lights, don't have my phone.	 change	communication behavior
88_52	Oh, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_54	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_56	Have my mom check on me to make sure everything's put away.	 change	communication behavior
88_58	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_60	When I'm at school on time, when the bell rings and I'm in class.	 change	communication behavior
88_62	Absolutely.	 neutral	communication behavior
88_64	Well, yeah, I hope so.	 change	communication behavior
88_66	I'll give it a try.	 change	communication behavior
88_68	You're welcome.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_1	Good morning, doctor.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_3	Well, doctor, I-I made an appointment with you finally, because I was diagnosed over three months ago with a pulmonary disease, COPD.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_5	And although I didn't call right away. I really need some help in quitting smoking.	 change	communication behavior
91_7	So I thought, well, this is my first step. So, uh, it's time to do something.	 change	communication behavior
91_9	A respirologist.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_11	I'm- I'm really scared, uh, 'cause I don't feel well.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_13	I haven't felt well for a while. I'm getting coughing fits even when I'm on the telephone with customers.	 change	communication behavior
91_15	Mm-hmm. I-I don't know what I'm going to do about it.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_17	I'm giving myself six months, six months and-and, uh, that seems like a long time away, but I have a feeling I'm going to fail at this point in time. I don't even have 50%, uh, faith in myself.	 sustain	communication behavior
91_19	I don't know what to do. I've tried to quit smoking. I've had, uh, I've taken pills, I've taken the patch.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_21	I've gone through therapy. Uh, nothing's helped. I finally- I went to the doctor. I was actually in the hospital. They took me to the hospital for a week. That's the longest I quit.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_23	I had no choice, I had no choice. And then the next day I was back to smoking again what I smoked.	 sustain	communication behavior
91_25	Uh, it's part of my life. It's, uh, I started smoking when I was 13, 14 at home. My parents smoked. All of their friends smoked. It was on television. Everybody looked so grand.	 sustain	communication behavior
91_27	Uh, smoking and all dressed up and-and fancy clothes and maybe having a drink in their hands and having a nice meal, um, I didn't really think about it. It's just an extension of me, I guess. It's-it's good for my nerves.	 change	communication behavior
91_29	"I mean, I feel like it is. I know when I've got that package in my pocket, or I know if there- if I'm going through some stress, I say, ""Oh, well, I'll have a cigarette and think this out."""	 sustain	communication behavior
91_31	That's right.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_33	Um, I enjoy it. It just- it relaxes me. It's great after a meal, um, for me-	 sustain	communication behavior
91_35	-we all just do it as a little group of people, uh, my family.	 change	communication behavior
91_37	The people I work with, we go out in the courtyard-	 neutral	communication behavior
91_39	-have a cigarette and talk. That's how you make friends. A lot of people, um, we're like a little group now, we're all- a little bunch of us.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_41	I-I never thought of it that way, but probably you're right.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_43	Well, it's bad for my health and it's scaring me 'cause I don't feel well.	 change	communication behavior
91_45	I haven't felt well for a while. I'm getting coughing fits even when I'm on the telephone with customers.	 change	communication behavior
91_47	Um, it's expensive, really got expensive, and I smoked 30, 40, sometimes 50 cigarettes a day. And I'm starting to buy different makeup 'cause I'm starting to really age, starting to get lines in my face and wrinkles and my skin is getting really clogged up and I'm spending a fortune on cosmetics.	 change	communication behavior
91_49	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_51	It's for me, for my health, and for the money and everything I've said, I would say it's 10 or- out of 10 that I should quit smoking.	 change	communication behavior
91_53	Yes. A hundred percent, one of the most important things.	 change	communication behavior
91_55	Um, I, I'd say 35 or 40% competent.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_57	Yeah. I'd like to say more, but, um-	 change	communication behavior
91_59	Well, I'm- I guess I'm still a fighter, and I-I-I- it's starting to- I'm starting to realize it and I do feel pretty good that I came to see you. I-I- it was a step and a couple of people who care about me actually, uh, gave me a pat on the back that I came to see you. So-	 change	communication behavior
91_61	-this was a big step. So I guess, yes. Um, it wouldn't have been as high maybe last week.	 change	communication behavior
91_63	Maybe if I could come to see you again, or maybe some ideas were suggested, maybe if there was a group or something. I-I don't know, but I-I need some help.	 change	communication behavior
91_65	I-I think so because I feel a little better that I just came to see you today.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_67	Discussing things helps me. I always feel better when I get things out.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_69	In other words, think about it more, don't- don't just do it automatically.	 neutral	communication behavior
91_71	Yeah, yeah. I think so because, um, when I get the urge, I could maybe fight it and, um, maybe wait till the next urge-	 change	communication behavior
91_73	-and maybe mark that down that, uh, I didn't go right away when something went wrong. Um, yes, I-I can try that.	 change	communication behavior
91_75	No, that gives me something to work towards until I see you next week.	 change	communication behavior
91_77	Thank you for seeing me, doctor.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_1	I think the activity piece is the kind of low-hanging fruit that I see. Um, I feel like it's gonna be harder for me to change some of my nutrition habits right out the gate, but if I can get into maybe an activity routine, that that could be good to help maybe some of the other changes happen later.	 change	communication behavior
93_3	Yeah, I think so.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_5	Yeah, I think just to feeling like physically stronger, um, like physically more able. Uh, last night I like struggled with the jar of salsa, like opening it. So I think that just stuff like that, um, you know, would be in addition to mood and being more productive and energy and all that stuff. Um, yeah, that that would be a definite end goal for me too. And then really to like, I think if I am more active, I think my body image or my body confidence would improve also.	 change	communication behavior
93_7	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_9	Hmm, I'd say I'm about an eight.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_11	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_13	Well, like I said, I just, I've identified like a lot of things that I think would be good. Um, if I were to be more active and I definitely wanna have that improved mood and energy, um, and feel better about myself. Um, so yeah, all of those things I think are what's really driving that- that rating.	 change	communication behavior
93_15	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_17	I don't think so.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_21	Mm-hmm, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
93_23	Yeah, that'd be great.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_1	Um, how about if we talk about, uh, the problem that I'm really having is, um, getting somebody motivated to do something, um, such as move out of my house.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_3	Well, I-I offered my home to somebody and, uh, for, you know, uh, a transitional period.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_5	You know, and it seems that, um, it's hard for me to be assertive and say I think the, um, the, uh, transitional period is- has come and it's beginning to time to transition. So.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_7	Yeah, that's, it's absolutely right that I want, I-I want change but I'm not, I am kind of, like, weak in that area where it's, like, the ability to actually say the words. You're right, yeah. I'd like to be able to do that.	 change	communication behavior
94_9	Um. [sighs] I don't know, I'm-I'm, I guess, I'm kind of, um, I care about the person and, you know, there's a certain amount of comfortability of having somebody with you, you know, and I'm just, so, I guess I am at war with myself because part of me wants the comfort of having a companion and the other part of me is just, you know-- I-I cannot-- I am not really sure what I wanna do, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
94_11	Yeah, you know, it's kind of, like, the old sock- song saying hit the road Jack, don't you come back no more, no more, no more, no more. [laughs] And—	 change	communication behavior
94_13	[laughs] Well, first of all I think he would hit the road if I started singing that song 'cause I can sing. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
94_15	Well, you know, in life you have to have a sense of humor in my- the way I view and otherwise, you know, I'd be like where's the news. [laughs] I mean, it's either—	 neutral	communication behavior
94_17	Yeah, yeah, I have to laugh, I mean, even comedians say, you know, uh, most of-- What I've heard about comedians is that they are really not always that happy and they use that in a comical way to, you know, deal with life, so, yeah. [laughs] I kind of, maybe I should go into that. [laughs] Like this girl—	 neutral	communication behavior
94_19	Yeah, like this girl Ruth that I know she's-she's, uh, got a serious job and she kind of does that on the side. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
94_21	Mm. Let's see. Well, you know, I'm really not sure, I kind of, you know. Um, I'm having a hard time with that. Um.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_23	Mm, well, I have to really think about it because-	 neutral	communication behavior
94_25	Yeah, yeah. Maybe some guilt and I, um, uh, I just, you know, [sighs] I go back and forth a little bit, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
94_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_29	Yeah, I-I- yeah. I mean I- thank you. I-I-I appreciate you saying that I'm a good person. Like I feel I am. Um—	 neutral	communication behavior
94_31	Yeah. Oops, it's just hard to- it's just hard to, um, er, yeah. I- my j- my job is done and I have to start to realize that I have to be a little bit more assertive, I think, and a little bit more, um, sure of myself.	 change	communication behavior
94_33	Well, um, I've had co-conversations about with him and sometimes not-not so pleasant, but I'm-I'm just making, you know, 'cause I happen to sometimes just like hold things in. And then finally I- at-at one point I was really, you know, very logical about it. And then the other day I kind of got not so logical about it.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_35	[laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
94_37	Yeah. That's the good thing that he does. And I mentioned them. I-I-I discussed that with him.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_39	And that gives me a relie- a sense of relief. Like I'm not just, you know, saying yeah. You know, go find your own place or, you know, I mean, there are places where he has a safety net to go to and that-that is something that I think I feel better about and that it makes it easier to discuss and giving them options that he can-- Yeah, yeah, exactly.	 change	communication behavior
94_41	Been there, done that. [laughs]	 neutral	communication behavior
94_43	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_45	Well, um, I told him within a couple of days is, you know. I think, um, I-I- cause I have future plans, um, and some things that are up in the air with me as far as where I'm going to be living in. I've had this place for seven years, but I'm not sure, you know. Every day is a new- a new, uh, winding road that we go down, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
94_47	Um.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_49	Oh, God, yeah, yeah. But, you know, and it's scary to have an extra, a huge extra trunk that you have to carry with you [chuckles].	 neutral	communication behavior
94_51	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
94_53	But I-I mean and it's not that I don't care about him, I do. But you know, it's just like, we're both- we're all adults here, come on.	 change	communication behavior
94_55	Um, that's the goal, you know.	 change	communication behavior
94_57	And I don't know what his plans are, but those are my plans.	 change	communication behavior
94_59	I like your way of thinking, girl. I-I'll tell him that. [laughs].	 neutral	communication behavior
94_61	Thank you	 neutral	communication behavior
95_1	Um, okay. Just, I don't even know why I'm doing this anymore. I'm-I'm just so stupid. I'm such an idiot. I didn't know what the point of-of this is. I just- I just keep doing the same thing over and over, even though I know it can kill me. I just, I don't have any more willpower, ma'am. Yeah, [foreign language].	 sustain	communication behavior
95_3	Mm-hmm.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_5	No, it just seems that cutting myself is the only way out. And I just get suicidal thoughts and [foreign language], I'm just very, very like depressed and what's going on at home.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_7	Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_9	Yes. Sometimes a pain in-in the body. It's, uh, to [unintelligible 00:01:27] handle and-and the pain inside of me.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_11	Yes. I am.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_13	Yeah, yeah, suicide.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_15	[foreign language]	 neutral	communication behavior
95_17	Yeah, 'cause she's a single mom and she struggles a lot. I wanna help her, but I can't help her. So it just makes me sad. I feel like if I don't live anymore, she'll be okay. And she wouldn't have to worry about me or pay my stuff.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_19	Yeah.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_21	I-I think so?	 neutral	communication behavior
95_23	Because it won't be a burden to her.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_25	Because she has to pay for my food and my uniforms, um, to have a roof over our heads.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_27	Um, I try to be a good kid. I tried to go to school. I may not have the best grades, but I'm not failing any classes.	 change	communication behavior
95_29	That's the right one.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_31	Um, I don't know. I don't know. It's just, um, I'm not sure I can.	 sustain	communication behavior
95_33	Thank you, ma'am, I feel better.	 change	communication behavior
95_35	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_1	Uh, yeah, sure. Um, I guess, well, my doctor referred me to see you. Um, I guess he has some concerns about, um, my- my pregnancy and- and my baby. So, um, yeah, well, I'm doing what I'm told.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_3	Uh, yeah, he is concerned about my alcohol intake.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_5	Uh, no.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_7	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_9	Um, okay. Uh, well, I guess I drink like a glass of wine at supper every night, and just to, you know, relax a little with my friends if I go out. So wine has always been a kind of a family tradition with supper. So-	 sustain	communication behavior
96_11	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_13	Yeah, and I, you know, I-I have friends who have drank during pregnancy, and-and I see articles on Facebook and-and, you know, things that show that there isn't really a clear link between, you know, abnormalities or, uh, yeah, I just- I just think it's kind of an old wives' tale. So, you know, I'm independent and I'm gonna- I'm gonna do what I want, it's my body.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_15	Yeah. You know, I've looked it up to see, you know, kinda what I can say back, you know, to support my argument.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_17	Yeah, which is that, um, I'm going to do what I- do what I wanna do and what I know, right? So it's- yeah. I don't know, but, um, I'm here anyway. So-	 sustain	communication behavior
96_19	Nope. I never have been.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_21	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_23	Mm-hmm. I think so.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_25	Yeah. I mean, you know-	 neutral	communication behavior
96_27	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_29	Like right now?	 neutral	communication behavior
96_31	Uh-	 neutral	communication behavior
96_33	Uh, yeah, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_35	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_37	Well, you know, I've-I've heard these kinds of things before, but I just- I don't see the evidence. I don't see the risk, you know, I don't, you know, if someone can like prove to me, or show a direct link or something like that.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_39	It's the same thing.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_41	Yeah. It's just a fancy little brochure saying what I've already known, I've already heard.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_43	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_45	Um, well, I've looked up, um, different articles. Um, and I- as I said, I personally know people who haven't had any problems. Um, so that's about the extent.	 sustain	communication behavior
96_47	Like, uh, I don't like- have like a bibliography or anything.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_49	So I can't really- I don't really know when those were published. It's just stuff I've found, supporting the way that I look at it.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_51	Yeah. Well, it's like all this brochure is saying is that, um, the same again, the same thing that I've heard, that the limits and that there is no safe amount of drink during pregnancy, but it's like, why not?	 neutral	communication behavior
96_53	"You know, it's kind of like the ""why"" that it's like-"	 neutral	communication behavior
96_55	-I never get that information.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_57	Yeah, like what kind of issues would that cause if any?	 neutral	communication behavior
96_59	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_61	Yep.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_63	Um, well, it's-it's really important to me. That's a big priority of mine is to have a healthy baby and bring him or her up well and-and, you know, be a good parent.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_65	Um, not-not like being there at home with them, not being absent, um, taking care of them, feeding them, um, changing their diaper, which I'm not excited about. Um, you know, kind of the- those basics.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_67	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_69	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_71	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_73	Yeah, of course.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_75	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_77	Um, well, I just don't know- I just don't know where-where these brochures get their information or-or anything from, like, where's the hard evidence essentially.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_79	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_81	Um, well, it surprises me that that's based on research from out of 2011, um, and I must have missed that. I guess, you know, if it is, um, you know, I do wanna do what's best for my baby and for myself. And if I have to quit drinking, um, I guess ultimately I have to-I make that decision, um, but, um, that's a lot of, uh, information to take in today.	 change	communication behavior
96_83	Nope.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_85	Um, well, first things first, if I could take a brochure home maybe, um, you know, show it to my partner and-and-and get-get their support, um, I think that's really gonna help me, and kind of changing our-our habits, or, you know, putting the alcohol away, out of sight. Um, I think that's probably the best thing I can do, like, today when I get home.	 change	communication behavior
96_87	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
96_89	Yeah, I think that- I think that would be a good idea, and maybe you could help me, yeah, with, like, ways to approach it because I think that my partner kind of has the same view that I- that I had. So-	 change	communication behavior
96_91	Yeah. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_1	Good.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_3	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_5	What?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_7	You are joking, aren't you? I mean, look, I've made time in my day to come here.	 sustain	communication behavior
97_9	I'm kept in your waiting room-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_11	-for 45 minutes.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_13	It's not acceptable.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_15	You know?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_17	If I make an appointment with a client for 10:00-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_19	-I expect them to start at 10:00, not 10:45.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_21	Yeah, I've got other things to do. I've got accounts to do.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_23	I've got clients they're coming in.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_25	You know?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_27	Yeah, I mean, okay, fair enough, um, I've got to have my blood pressure-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_29	-medication changed, but I really haven't got time to talk about my weight. I mean, you know, I'm aware of my weight.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_31	I'm aware of the problems, and I'm also aware of the solutions.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_33	Um, so I don't really need a discussion, it's- it's just I've got too much to do at the moment, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_35	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_37	Well, it's b- it's bad form, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_39	Yeah, but basically I've got things to do.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_41	I gotta get back to the office.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_43	I've got a pile of work-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_47	And every time- every moment out of my day-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_49	-means that I have to work in the evening-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_51	-or the weekends.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_53	Well, when you're self-employed, you haven't got a choice, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_55	Well, I'm here now, so yeah, okay, if it's a couple of minutes, yeah?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_57	Okay, because I really must get on.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_59	About what-what, losing weight? Well, obviously, I-I want to.	 change	communication behavior
97_61	Um, yeah, I mean, who doesn't? I mean, I'm aware that I'm over my, uh, uh, b-b-b-balance weight, but I now know that it's causing problems. I mean, obviously, I get out of breath if I have to do something a bit howering, and I realize that I'm on this blood pressure-	 change	communication behavior
97_63	-um, and-and maybe that's probably contributing to it.	 change	communication behavior
97_65	Yeah, I mean, there are rather other things, but I mean, yeah, the weight is a- is a- is a- something I would like to get hold off. You get on [inaudible 00:03:17]	 change	communication behavior
97_67	"Yeah, I mean, I know, um, th- the theories of bit of exercise on a regular basis, um, a balanced diet. Um, but unfortunately, because of my lifestyle, because of being self-employed as an accountant, it's finding the time, uh, to exercise, but also, finding the time to sort of think, ""Okay, I'm gonna go shopping for this, that, and the other""-"	 neutral	communication behavior
97_69	"-""I'm gonna prepare a meal."""	 change	communication behavior
97_71	With me, it's very often—	 neutral	communication behavior
97_73	Yeah, yeah. Food on the run, you know?	 neutral	communication behavior
97_75	Grazing.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_77	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_79	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_81	Yeah, I mean, I, to a certain extent, because of my lifestyle, food is just fuel.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_83	You know? Um, because I'm juggling all these balls, and I don't want to drop any.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_85	No.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_87	Um, okay, I'm up for that, but it's gonna be the same problem of, A, finding time-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_89	-and B, if I can make an appointment-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_91	-I don't expect to be kept waiting for half an hour-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_93	-or whatever, 'cause it's—	 neutral	communication behavior
97_95	That'd be good.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_97	I'll maybe have a look at my schedule, see whether anything-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_99	-can be arranged, or I can pass something on-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_101	-to something on to some-- and-and so it's not a wasted interview. So I can come here and say, okay, I've looked at my schedules, I've looked at things-	 neutral	communication behavior
97_103	-whatever.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_105	Yeah, of course.	 neutral	communication behavior
97_107	Okay, thanks. Sorry, I went off a bit.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_1	Hi, Kathy, nice to meet you.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_3	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_5	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_7	Absolutely. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_9	Yeah. I got a DUI, and I was speeding, uh, during the DUI, obviously.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_11	No, I'm fine. Yeah	 neutral	communication behavior
98_13	The night of the-the DUI is the last time I drank.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_15	And then, you know, um, I guess I'm here 'cause my lawyer wants me to go through an assessment-	 sustain	communication behavior
98_17	-uh, with you, and, um, I'm really not sure what it means or anything like that, but, uh, he said I'm supposed to come here and, uh, just tell the truth, is what he told me.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_19	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_21	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_23	Is it bad, or is it high or?	 neutral	communication behavior
98_25	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_27	Okay	 neutral	communication behavior
98_29	Yeah. He was, well, freaking out. He was--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_31	I think he was getting a little over the top a little bit, but, you know, again, whatever.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_33	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_35	Uh, my friend was having a, um- a get together as it was birthday party in, uh, downtown, and, uh, you know, it's not like it's a normal thing, but, uh, I did drink too much that night. You know, I just, uh-- And I used poor judgment. I shouldn't have driven that night.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_37	Um, I don't really remember. I know, uh, I dunno, I probably had five or six drinks, I would think, something like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_39	Um, yeah, they were a little bigger than that. I don't really-- I wasn't really counting, so, I don't really know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_41	Five or six, something like that. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_43	Um, absolute vodka-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_45	-and seven off. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_47	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_49	Normally I drink one or two, and that's kind of it, you know, this one I did, uh- you know, I did feel a little drunk when I was- you know, when I was drinking, I just, uh, used poor judgment. I really shouldn't have drove.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_51	Um, sometimes I drink, um, you know, maybe one or two, and then I- and then I won't drink for a while, you know. So, it's not really a-- There's not really a pattern-	 sustain	communication behavior
98_53	-you know, it's not really like a uh- it's not a habit, you know,	 sustain	communication behavior
98_55	I-I don't know if I would consider myself alcoholic. You know, I just, uh, um, you know, again, it was poor judgment.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_57	Oh, no.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_59	Absolutely not. Mm-mm.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_61	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_63	Um, there was really not a time that I, uh-- I don't know. I-I don't understand the question really. I mean, it-- There really wasn't-- I don't really drink on a normal basis, so, I don't know-- [crosstalk]	 sustain	communication behavior
98_65	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_67	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_69	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_71	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_73	It seems like every time that I, uh, do drink more than a couple of drinks, I tend to get in trouble. And, the two times that I did, I got in trouble both times. [crosstalk]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_75	Yeah, pretty much. I mean, it's-- It sounds strange, I know, but, uh--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_77	Yeah. Actually, that-that's followed me around pretty much my whole life, the bad luck thing.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_79	But the-the-the-the-the alcohol hasn't really at all.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_81	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_83	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_85	Sure seems like it. Yeah. It sure seems like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_87	Um, you know, I don't really, um-- I-I don't really, uh, get into a situation where I-I-I drink too much. Um, you know, again, I-I realize it's my second DUI, but,, um, uh-uh, it isn't something that, um, is like a normal everyday process for me.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_89	Um, you know, normally when I drink, I drink one or two drinks and then I stop. Um, so, it's not like it's, um-- You know, it's not like it's something that has become a problem in my life, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_91	Um, it's normally social.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_93	Yeah. It's normally social. It would be, you know, maybe in events or something like that is normally when I would, um, maybe drink more than one or two.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_95	I guess I should probably just call a taxi cab or something, you know. That way, I wouldn't have this problem.	 change	communication behavior
98_97	Um, probably, I think that would help. I think that would be something that I should, uh- I should work on.	 change	communication behavior
98_99	Yeah. Yeah, or I can just stay home probably too. If I was gonna drink, I could probably stay home, then I wouldn't get in trouble either.	 change	communication behavior
98_101	Yeah, a little bit.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_103	Yeah, obviously, because I just don't-- You know, I don't like getting in trouble, and I don't, uh--	 change	communication behavior
98_105	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_107	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_109	Um, oh, I'll never get in the car when I'm drinking again. That-- Yeah. I-I would never do that again.	 change	communication behavior
98_111	Uh, I don't want to lose my license, you know.	 change	communication behavior
98_113	I don't, uh, you know, I don't wanna lose my license.	 change	communication behavior
98_115	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_117	Well, and then I-I sell cars for a living too, so--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_119	-um, you know, that would be, um-- You know, I don't wanna lose my job either. You know, I think those would kind of be connected together.	 change	communication behavior
98_121	And, you know, I-- You're not gonna call my work or anything for this, are you?	 neutral	communication behavior
98_123	Oh, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_125	All right.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_127	Okay. I just didn't know how that worked.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_129	Because I think if they found out, I might, you know, be in jeopardy with my job. So--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_131	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_133	Well, you know, the Super Bowl is coming up, and that might be an opportunity where, you know, I might-- I could see myself maybe drinking that day, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_135	So, maybe I would just, uh-- I think I'll just have people come over to my house instead of going somewhere else, you know.	 change	communication behavior
98_137	Yeah, I think so, and probably a smarter thing to do. I don't wanna go through this again, you know.	 change	communication behavior
98_139	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_141	I think so.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_143	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_145	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_147	There you go.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_149	For my first DUI, I did, uh-- I didn't drink at all for about six months. And, um, I-I-I just didn't think that, um, I really had a problem with it, so, you know, I-I did start drinking again. But, you know, again, it wasn't uh-- You know, it was a little different last time, because I was drinking a little more last time than, you know, now. I don't really drink as-as much as I used to drink, you know, um, and, you know, after you know, I quit for six months, so I kind of knew that I didn't really have a problem.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_151	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_153	Um, I know it was kind of strange. My friends didn't really hang out with me too much. Um--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_155	Yeah. You know, I, uh.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_157	No, my friends.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_159	Just my social circle, I guess, uh--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_161	Probably 'cause I didn't- I wasn't drinking with them, I guess. I don't really know. I mean, it seemed, uh--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_163	Um, no. I really couldn't because my girlfriend really wouldn't let me hang with them. You know? I mean, it was, uh-- She said that if I, you know, kept hanging out with them guys, that she wasn't gonna be with me anymore. And I just thought that it was better for me to, you know, calm down for a little bit and, uh, maybe things would get better with us, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_165	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_167	Well, it was until she left, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_169	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_171	Uh, she left when I started drinking again.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_173	After the six months, she, uh-- You know, it's kinda, I dunno, she just said that it wasn't gonna work out, and, uh, she decided not to continue with the relationship.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_175	Uh, it was about the same time. I really don't know which came first. It was about the same time. Uh, we were getting in a lot of arguments. I just didn't quite feel myself. You know, I-I-I wasn't-- My friends weren't around. I, uh-- You know, I missed going out with them.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_177	Yeah. It was kind of weird 'cause I felt like she was trying to control me, and, uh- and uh, you know, I, uh-- And she was telling me what to do all the time, and I just, uh, didn't feel right about the whole situation. So, it was pretty much, we both decided, you know, that it just wasn't the right thing to do, so.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_179	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_181	Well, I guess. Sure. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_183	[clear throat] Well, let's see. The first one was, uh, three years ago, and then, um, this one was a few weeks ago, so, um, it's been a few years, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_185	Yeah. It's been a few years	 neutral	communication behavior
98_187	I don't really know that I can really compare good or bad. I just, uh-- You know, I just drink to be social, you know, I don't know that it really changes anything about me. It just, uh-- You know, I just drink to be social, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_189	Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. As soon as my girlfriend left, I could go out with them again, you know. [laughter]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_191	Well, she didn't want me going out with them.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_193	She thought that they really--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_195	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_197	She blamed the first DUI on them. She said, you know, because I was out with them, that it was pretty much, you know, they-they made me drink too much that night.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_199	I think she was right on that. Yeah, absolutely.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_201	I mean, if they wouldn't have gave me those shots, you know, towards the end of the night, I would've been all right. You know, I could have drove, and I wouldn't have, uh- I wouldn't have hit that mailbox.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_203	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_205	That was--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_207	Yeah. I was on-- It was like I was a couple of blocks away from the house and I, uh, rolled up on the neighbor's lawn and I took out their mailbox.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_209	I don't really remember too much of that night.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_211	Uh, I don't know if I was blacked out, but I just don't remember a lot of it.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_213	I wouldn't really call it a blackout. I just don't really-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_215	-remember how that happened.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_217	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_219	Yeah. Yeah. It's all right.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_221	Yeah, Mary-Mary, just [crosstalk] Well, after-after I got the-the-- After I hit the mailbox-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_223	-um, I stopped drinking for, you know, like about six months, and, uh, you know, and we were trying to work things out, but it just didn't-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_225	-it just didn't work.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_227	I think she became a little too possessive at that point.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_229	Um, I think she just wanted to control me and I was tired of being controlled.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_231	No, I was-- They just-- No, they weren't- they weren't really controlling me. They just-- They shouldn't have given me the last couple shots, 'cause you, they-they knew I was pretty, you know, uh, messed up before that. So-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_233	-you know, that when they- when they-- You know, when they gave me the last, you know, couple shots, that kind of put me over the edge.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_235	Pretty much, pretty much.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_237	Yeah. I mean I guess it was my decision to take the, uh- you know, the other shots, but I-I just-- I don't know. I really don't really remember too much.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_239	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_241	Yeah. You can blame hindsight a little bit. I mean, that works for me. [laughter]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_243	Yeah. [crosstalk]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_245	I mean, they've been my friends since, you know, uh, since high school.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_247	Yeah, absolutely.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_249	Sure, absolutely.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_251	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_253	Uh, well, like I'll do stuff around the house, you know, uh, cut the grass and stop, do yard work, other than that, um, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_255	Uh, no, I'm single now, so, you know, I don't really, uh-- [crosstalk]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_257	It's all right, you know, I date a little bit but, uh, you know, I just don't wanna get serious right now.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_259	Um, I just don't want to date someone in a regular basis. I don't really feel like I want to be in a committed relationship.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_261	Sure, absolutely.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_263	Well, I think I would like really think about--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_265	Yeah. Well, I mean I-I, uh- I, uh- I wouldn't drink as much, and if I- if I did, I would call, uh, a taxi or, um, you know, get some kind of a ride home, I think, 'cause, uh, you know, I just, uh-- I-I just don't wanna get in trouble, you know.	 change	communication behavior
98_267	Uh, I don't really think about that. I guess I would have to think about that, because if I was gonna go out and drink, I would have to think about that. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_269	I guess I could call it taxi cab or something, I don't know.	 change	communication behavior
98_271	Yeah. I think that will be something.	 change	communication behavior
98_273	Yeah. I think maybe if I take some money, I'll put it like in my wallet-	 change	communication behavior
98_275	-and I'll like put it in there for emergency, and that way, I'll have money. In case I get drunk, I can just call a cab, and I'll use that money to get home.	 change	communication behavior
98_277	What's that?	 neutral	communication behavior
98_279	Probably in my front pocket, I guess.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_281	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_283	Yeah. Well, if I put, uh- if I put it away, then I wouldn't spend it though, you know, [unintelligible 00:18:48] have it.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_285	There-there would be a plan that I would have to-	 change	communication behavior
98_287	-to get home. Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
98_289	It'd probably be my wallet for a while, I would think, 'cause I-- Like I said, I don't really think I have a problem with, uh- with the drinking, you know. I just-	 sustain	communication behavior
98_291	-think that, you know, it was an isolated incident.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_293	And-and I, uh-- You know, I just, uh--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_295	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_297	Yeah, well, you gotta have some people over at the Super Bowl, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_299	I don't really hang out with people that really drink a lot though. I mean, they're-they're not like-- I wouldn't call them drunks, so, I mean, they can, you know, they can handle their-- [crosstalk]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_301	Sure, I would think, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_303	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_305	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_307	You know, it was a- it was, uh- it was pretty good. I just didn't feel like I had my friends around, and-and it just-- It seemed kinda boring. I mean, I felt good physically and, uh, you know, I, uh- I was more on time to work, I was doing really good at work and so forth, um, but, you know, it just, um-- The hard part for me was I just, uh- I just didn't have any friends around. I just kinda-- I felt isolated. I just didn't- I just didn't feel comfortable, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_309	Well, my-my girl- my girlfriend and I were trying to work it out. But it just seemed like we were arguing all the time, you know. It just didn't seem like-- You know what I mean? Like the not-drinking part was good, but it just didn't seem like anything else had changed.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_311	You know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_313	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_315	No-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_317	-and I really don't see that working out really well.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_319	Well, I don't know. I mean, it's a-- I mean, my friends drink though. So, it's kinda hard to- it's kinda hard to, you know, to be with them, and then-- When I'm not drinking, 'cause it's-- I just don't feel like I fit in, you know.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_321	Yeah, they don't drink that much, but they-they seem to-- You know, like they do drink though, you know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_323	I mean, it's just beer. You know-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_325	-it's not like they're drinking whiskey or anything like that. It's--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_327	You know, but, they'll drink beer, and it's just-- You know, for me, I don't know. Sometimes, uh, I don't-- You know, I have an intention to have a couple of drinks and maybe I'll have, you know, more than a couple, you know-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_329	-and then I don't know what really makes a-a legal limit. So, I think I can drink what? Like two or three drinks an hour, is that what it is?	 neutral	communication behavior
98_331	One drink per hour, okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_333	I'll have to remember that. [laughing]	 neutral	communication behavior
98_335	Yeah, One shot.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_337	Okay.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_339	Just one though?	 neutral	communication behavior
98_341	That's it.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_343	Yeah, I guess. I-I think I probably know a couple of friends that don't drink and I don't really, uh, probably--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_345	I'd have to really think about it. I don't really have too many good friends. You know, I have some acquaintances that don't drink but-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_347	-pretty much everyone I know like drinks.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_349	Yeah, I, uh--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_351	I don't know. Just, it's weird, I-I think that, you know, kinda when I go there, you know, and-and hang with them at all, it's, uh-- You know, we- you know-	 sustain	communication behavior
98_353	Yeah. Yeah, exactly.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_355	Well, 'cause they're drinking and then- and if I'm drinking soda, they kind of mess with me a little bit.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_357	Well, they just mess with me until I get-- You know, until I drink a beer with them, you know. So--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_359	You know, I mean, just-	 neutral	communication behavior
98_361	-they're just kinda like egging me on, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_363	You know, I really don't feel like being an outcast, you know what I mean, they're my friends, you know. I--	 sustain	communication behavior
98_365	I've been with them since, you know, like high school. So, I can't.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_367	They mean a lot to me.	 sustain	communication behavior
98_369	I guess maybe it would probably be not a bad idea to not hang with them for a little bit, I guess. You know, I mean, I-I-I-- Yeah.	 change	communication behavior
98_371	Yeah, sure. I gu- I think that would be something I could probably try.	 change	communication behavior
98_373	Well, if I need to get my license back, I think it would be pretty important for me to stop hanging around with them for a while, you know.	 change	communication behavior
98_375	Yeah, absolutely.	 change	communication behavior
98_377	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_379	Yeah, yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_381	I think that would be a good idea. Uh, is this gonna help like get my license back, like, at this-- Like, the-the plans that I've made, is that gonna really help me like--	 neutral	communication behavior
98_383	Okay, good.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_384	-about the plans that you're striving for. Um, that I-- There would be, um, uh, someone to read this assessment-Mm.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_386	Um, probably just not really drink as much. I mean, if I just didn't drink, I wouldn't have to really worry about that too much either.	 change	communication behavior
98_388	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_390	Yeah. This is true. Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
98_392	Okay. Thank you.	 neutral	communication behavior
99_1	Okay, like what?	 neutral	communication behavior
99_3	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
99_5	Yeah, uh, on the weekends?	 neutral	communication behavior
99_7	No, I guess I haven't really thought much of it. Um, you know, I don't really think I drink that much in the first place-	 sustain	communication behavior
99_9	-so I have a hard time believing that it's causing my anxiety.	 sustain	communication behavior
99_11	In fact, on the nights when I don't drink, I-I have a harder time going to sleep.	 sustain	communication behavior
99_13	Well, I, yeah, I guess I do have abo-about 2:00 AM, I tend to wake up on the nights I drink too much.	 change	communication behavior
99_15	Jeez, no. I didn't think I was that bad.	 neutral	communication behavior
99_17	I don't know. I mean, this is all news to me. I've, I don't want to do anything to put myself at risk and I've always thought of myself as a pretty healthy guy. I guess I'd put myself right in the middle of the five.	 change	communication behavior
99_19	Well, you know I'm training for the marathon, and that's why I'm coming in, is because I need to be able to get my sleep back on track, but I also don't think of myself as a hazardous drinker, and I'm certainly not an alcoholic. So, that's-that's why the middle-ground, five.	 change	communication behavior
99_21	Yes.	 neutral	communication behavior
99_23	Well, I-I think the natural thing would be to cut back a little on my drinking.	 change	communication behavior
99_25	Mm, um, you know, I-I guess drinking no more than maybe three or four times a week, and-and on the weekends, which is when I would drink the most, cup back to no more than five or six beers.	 change	communication behavior
99_27	Um, doing the math, I guess no more than 18 drinks a week.	 change	communication behavior
99_29	Thanks.	 neutral	communication behavior
99_31	Sure.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_1	I don't know. I'm just having a little bit of, uh, having a little bit of trouble dealing with, uh, my criminal history and, uh, you know, trying to stay on the right path, but, you know, um, it's just- it gets, you know, it gets kind of overwhelming, you know. Um, I really wanna be, you know, a good productive member of society, but at the same time, you know, I got this background that nobody will overlook, you know. So it kinda makes it like, well, what, you know, do I go back to what I know?I mean, you can only work for $5, $6, $7 an hour for so long, and it's really frustrating. It's causing, uh, some anger issues to resurface and some depression to resurface and, um, you know, and, um, I don't wanna fall back, you know.	 change	communication behavior
100_3	Yes, it is.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_5	I don't know what about it is, um—	 neutral	communication behavior
100_7	Yeah. It has a felony conviction on it.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_9	And, uh—	 neutral	communication behavior
100_11	"Yeah, it is. And it's- I hadn't anticipated that it would have been-- You know, so at the time, it was just like, ""Okay, cool. I'm not going to jail."""	 neutral	communication behavior
100_13	You know, and, um, now, it's like, okay, so this is more like a life sentence than it was a four-year sentence that they were offering. You know, I mean, I think it would have been bad either way, but, um, I hadn't anticipated that this was gonna be this difficult, especially since I went back to school and, you know, uh, got a degree and actually want to do, you know, some, um, corporate level or, you know, professional type of work.	 sustain	communication behavior
100_15	No, I'm not. Um, in situations where I don't know about it, I don't know about, I mean, if I'm not considered because of that, I probably-- Um, you know, that sucks too. Don't get me wrong. I mean, I-I don't- I don't get callbacks a lot because of that issue-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_17	- I'm sure. The ones that really count are-are-are, you know, are kind of just, you know, uh, making me so angry and, you know, kind of spilling over into the rest of my life or the ones that I get face face, especially after a really good interview. And, you know, most of the times, I interview extremely well. And, um, it's, you know, I get the vibe that the job is offered almost halfway through the interview because, you know, they start telling me about what I'll be doing and what I'll be getting.And then, you know, when it comes to sign on the paperwork and I believe in honesty, so I tell them, you know, hey, look, this is what you're gonna find, you know, and, um, try to explain it. It's just-it's almost like night and day.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_19	"Black and white. It just stops right there. ""I'm sorry. I can't really do much for you. I-- You have to go,"" you know, and it's—"	 neutral	communication behavior
100_21	"No. I mean, there's different situations, you know. Sometimes they ask and, you know, I'll say something like, you know, ""We'll discuss at interview"". Uh, sometimes, there are situations where if I probably put that, I don't get a callback and those situations I don't know about. You know, but there are also times where I get an interview through, um, you know, uh, uh, some sort of connection or something, or like a buddy of mine or a family member will send me on an interview. You know, I don't have to fill it out- fill out an application for that. They just usually, you know, give you the interview. And at the end-"	 neutral	communication behavior
100_23	Yeah. It seems like it's a done deal. You just have to go through the motion of having the interview. And then-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_25	"-when I go through the interview and it goes well, and they're like, ""Okay, well, you know, I think we can do something"" and then, ""Here, sign this, sign that,"" and the other thing. And it's like, but we just had a great, you know, I mean, I qualify. Like what does that have to-- Seven years ago, six years ago, what does it have to do with anything? Now, especially because, you know, the type of conviction, it wasn't a non- it wasn't a violent conviction. It's not like I'm a danger to the staff around me. It's not like it's a, you know, a theft type of thing. It was, you know, it was a possession, you know what I mean?"	 neutral	communication behavior
100_27	And	 neutral	communication behavior
100_29	No, I didn't.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_31	It's really frustrating because-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_33	-it's almost like I-I don't wanna give up, but it's like, I'm not given any other choice, you know?	 sustain	communication behavior
100_35	I do, yeah.	 change	communication behavior
100_37	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_39	Not that I can think of, no.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_41	I think—	 neutral	communication behavior
100_43	Probably get booted out right away-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_45	-you know? Um—	 sustain	communication behavior
100_47	Well, it's-it's sucks either way. You know what I mean?	 neutral	communication behavior
100_49	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_50	-you know what I mean? If it's gonna make things more efficient like as if-if you're what you're trying to say is if that's something that I could do and then if they get past it, then now I know that there's an actual intention by the hiring people to hire me.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_52	Yeah, I think as far as maybe efficiency, you know, weeding out the things, not wasting my time, you know, but I had to tell you something, a lot of the people that don't care about that type of thing-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_54	-are not the sort of jobs that I really wanna be doing. You know what I mean? Um, I don't know, it's just really frustrating.	 sustain	communication behavior
100_56	Be an issue.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_58	Right, and then the other thing is anybody that I might tell that to-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_60	-that doesn't care-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_62	-are probably not jobs that, you know, are worth going to get the interview.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_64	Right.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_66	Do you know what I mean? If I want to work at a moving company and I tell them off the bat, you know, from the gate, I tell them I have a felony conviction, just so you know before the interview and they don't really mind. I mean, that's great, you know, but at the same time, I don't- I'm not looking to be a mover or-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_68	-a burger flipper or something like that. Not that there's anything wrong with it, but I feel like I have a little bit more to offer-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_70	-you know, and, um, I don't know, it's a really, it's-it's like being caught between a rock and a hard place.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_72	I have done, and my eyes have, you know, just become like mush after all the reading I've done on this situation.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_74	I found out that I have the type of, um, felony that's expungable, I don't even have the type that's sealable. I have apparently the type that has to go on the governor's desk next to death row, you know, inmates or the candidates for, um, a gov- a governor's, uh, pardon. I-- That's what it all boils down to is that I have a class one felony-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_76	-that needs to be, if any, you know, options, the only option I have is for, um, governor's clemency and I can't figure out why because it's-it's, I mean, I just, I maybe there is a loophole somewhere, I don't know.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_78	I've looked into, um, a fe- um, I've looked into a few groups that are supposedly helping convicted felons get-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_80	-work.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_82	Um, again, the-the only-- I mean, I think what I saw was a whole bunch of, you know, dead end jobs.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_84	And the other thing that I saw was that it was very politically charged. You know, I didn't think that, um, I was, uh, you know, allowed to kind of get an interview right away with one of those counselors that they offer. Um, I-- it just didn't seem like a type of place that was willing to help, you know. And-and, uh, I saw that there was a lot of, um, I wouldn't say racism but I would say a little bit of racial favor, I suppose. And, uh, I found it really hard to get in and to get an interview with a counselor to match me up with a job. Um, I think that those-those types of groups are cool if they work. I just haven't had any luck with, um- at working with- through that group.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_86	You know?	 neutral	communication behavior
100_88	Um, you know, I don't know. I don't know if there's anything else out there.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_90	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_92	Mm-hmm.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_94	Right. It's-it's, uh-- There is a lot stacked up against me.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_96	Let's just put it like that.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_98	You know, uh, but that isn't—	 neutral	communication behavior
100_100	Well, that's what-- yeah. That's-- I mean, uh, I'm able to, um-- I'm able to carry a conversation.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_102	So at some point, I would imagine that maybe I strike up conversation with the right person-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_104	-that would probably want to hire me regardless of that sort of thing. Um, I think that at the this point in time, that it doesn't really matter what degree you have. I don't believe that it matters where you went to school. I think it's all about who you know. You know, we live in a very politically charged city. And I think that even if we didn't live in a politically charged city, at this point, jobs are so scarce that people who know people who know people are the ones that are ending up, um, at work-	 neutral	communication behavior
100_106	-and getting jobs. And I think that, um, if I continue to, you know, go to school and, uh, you know, uh, get time from that felony, you know. So it's been seven years now and—	 change	communication behavior
100_108	Yeah. And at some point, I probably don't even have to report it, you know, and I have that going for me. It's been seven years. I have the fact that I'm, you know, uh, good at, um, interaction with people, that's good.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_110	You know, um, I've been clean from that sort of lifestyle for that long so that's-that's-that's up for me, you know, that's-that's good. Um—	 change	communication behavior
100_112	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_114	They don't.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_116	Yeah. Well, that's my hope.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_118	Yeah. That's my hope.	 neutral	communication behavior
100_120	It is. It should be. You know, I-I—	 neutral	communication behavior
100_122	Yeah.	 neutral	communication behavior