url,author,content,severity,created,gpt_label,claude_label,gemini_label,llama_label,mistral_label https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgswz5/i_cant_do_this_anymore/,-Arry-,"I can’t do this anymore Last year I tried taking a whole bottle of pills and I didn’t succeeded. Please I don’t want to hear it about how much I’m loved or how much things are going to get better. It’s bullshit. Don’t shame me for what I choice to do. It mine wish it’s my life and I no longer want to be here . I can’t take it anymore. Does anyone know what pills will actually do the job? Or maybe how many pill bottles? Please .",5,1734493328,6.0,6.0,4.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdl7m2/i_seriously_considers_committing_for_a_second/,#NAME?,I seriously considers committing for a second.... I've never seriously considered killing myself before today and it was only for a second. I need someone who doesn't know my sister to talk to its her fault but I dont have any friends who don't like her so I can't talk to them about it.... I'm not actively suicidal right now I just want to move away from my parents and start a new life somewhere else away from all this. I need new friends and maybe even a significant other. I hate being a child and I hate my life. 👍,2,1734120977,2.0,2.0,,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ttwf/i_love_you_guyssss/,-PatkaLopikju-,I love you guyssss I deel so spiny I'm so happy let's all be happy I love you reditt,0,1733694658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hknqtf/i_dont_know_why_but_i_am_thinking_about_killing/,-_blond_-,I don't know why but I am thinking about killing myself everyday nowadays .,2,1734960504,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdxq5c/i_need_help_whilst_my_boyfriend_is_on_the_way_to/,#NAME?,"I need help whilst my boyfriend is on the way to me I am really struggling after a party where all of my once friends have left me, trashed my house and left my door wide open when they left so I could’ve been robbed and I wouldn’t have even known whilst I was having a panic attack ",0,1734161343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfx83o/potential_life_saver/,70183500550,"potential life saver? just a quick tip: if u dont have a note about a list things that help/work for you when you feel like crap, make one just take a screenshot of it and set it as a wallpaper i genuinely feel like this might save my life sorry if this is not that revolutionary, but some people might benefit from it take care of yourself please, you are not alone, far from it",0,1734392829,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hio56s/i_have_35_or_so_500mg_paracetamol/,03ratbag,i have 35 or so 500mg paracetamol i’m just so fuckinf tired of being a burden to everyone in my life,3,1734713753,6.0,5.0,2.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heyww8/i_keep_seeing_myself_dying_like_deja_vu/,0jigsaw0,i keep seeing myself dying like deja vu it feels like it’s getting closer everyday,2,1734287446,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdpt6p/ignore_this_post/,1WorthlessHumanBeing,"Ignore this post I'm sending this message to a specific person, so I want it to disappear from the front page before I write my message.",0,1734133752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfrkpx/what_snacks_help_with_suicidal_thoughts/,1dkanynames,"what snacks help with suicidal thoughts? i shouldnt be alive and im fundamentally trash but good ice cream or good chocolate helps the physical dread i feel. but they just make me fat and cause my skin to break out giving me more of a reason to off myself. and i was stupid and gave my 30 morphine pills to the hospital, so what are some alternatives?",2,1734378115,2.0,3.0,2.0,5.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhu47z/im_so_low/,1eevis,"I'm so low I just need someone to tell me it's going to be okay, please. I've never been this low",0,1734618631,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7hywl/wouldnt_it_be_so_fucking_hilarious_if_i_jumped/,1w2nn2f0ck1ngd13,wouldnt it be so fucking hilarious if i jumped from a hundred story height and went splat on the ground and all my blood and guts went everywhere 😂 title,3,1733428098,3.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hej9wh/i_need_reasons_to_live_i_just_feel_so_tired/,2_7_53_73,I need reasons to live. I just feel so tired Please ,1,1734231109,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hav6eb/how_do_i_found_out_if_my_friend_commit_suicide/,3000HoursOnSmoke,"How do I found out if my friend commit suicide? Close high school friend, shared same music interests and thinking back same outlooks on a lot of things, wanted to contact him, found all socials deleted, how do I find out if he is still alive? ",0,1733810402,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hko5yf/its_550am_ive_been_awake_all_night_at_a_fancy/,420faery,It's 5:50am. I've been awake all night at a fancy resort the guy I'm in love with took me too for Christmas. All I want to do is douse myself in water and walk into the huge snowcovered forest that surrounds us on all sides. Find a nice tree to sit under and wait for hypothermia to set in.... I'm so tired.,3,1734961905,5.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdego2/im_tired/,4CCake,"I’m tired Life is just a constant fight. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of trying to figure this out. I don’t wanna die, I just wanna sleep. But i gotta pay these bills. I gotta finish this degree so I can get a better job and pay more bills. Paying bills just because. My life feels worthless. I just go home and wanna sleep. I’m tired of therapists just validating my feelings. Im just exhausted. My job is cutting my hours. So I gotta get a second job. I’m so tired of trying to be happy.",1,1734103135,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he8i46/im_so_suicidal_rn_how_can_i_relax/,5cro,I'm so suicidal rn how can I relax yessssssss,2,1734199308,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha39tg/killing_myself_if_i_get_rejected/,77daystildday,"killing myself if i get rejected 16f, fat, and objectively ugly. no friends at school. im going to try talking to and making friends with anyone i find interesting this week and if i dont get accepted once thatll be my sign to finally end it all. im fucking done.",4,1733724342,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqzd9/how_do_i_talk_to_someone_with_suicidal_and_self/,9-Tailz,How do I talk to someone with suicidal and self harm tendencies? One of my close friends is suffering from suicidal thoughts and tendencies and I don’t know how to talk to them about it. I know it’s a hard thing to talk about (I’ve been there) but I want to talk him out of it. I really appreciate his existence and it would kill me to see him go. Any help is appreciated because I don’t want him to disappear.,0,1733796500,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi29xf/life_isnt_settling_up/,9797b,"Life isn't settling up This time im tired af, i feel like I can't go through this anymore. I'm having intrusive thoughts. I want to hit my motorbike on a wall or in a truck. My family hates me everyone hates me. I think i don't belong here. I have zero energy to carry on. ",4,1734640159,4.0,4.0,3.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmjf0j/why_cant_i_find_a_sub_gal/,A-Chill-Redditor,"Why can’t I find a sub gal?! I’m 22m based in Scotland and I find it hard to fulfill my needs as a dom, it’s quite hard to find a sub lady .. it saddens me and I’ll probably kms in the evening ",2,1735197958,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmjce9/am_i_cooked/,A330_enjoyer,Am I cooked Does thinking about suicide make me suicidal?,2,1735197636,0.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd23o5/manic/,ACH0N3y,"Manic I havent been able to organize my thoughts all day and my friend told me our mutual friend who we had just been talking to passed away and was seen being taken out on a cart. This was a peer who I would talk to a lot about the struggles of what is going on, alters, adhd, panic disorders,…. And I’m just praying it was a horrible accident and not the big S 😔",0,1734056745,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heyqc8/i_cant_see_anyway_out/,AUncreativePerson,"I can’t see anyway out I’m just 24 and I can’t see anyway out of this depression. I feel lonely and unable to communicate with people. I hardly know what I’m doing at my job. I recently moved out and it was a mistake. I feel so lonely without my mom. I know that’s pathetic. I keep imagining overdosing or purchasing a gun to end my life. ",3,1734286952,3.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hafkie/i_am_disgusting/,AcademicEquipment208,"I am disgusting I am so lazy and stupidly disgusting, I have always hated my self. I dont want help I just want to sleep forever. I wish i could have made my parents happy by being a medic but instead i waste their money and the opportunities they gave me ",1,1733766474,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4rh9o/im_drunk_and_depresses/,AcanthisittaOk8812,I’m drunk and depresses I’m drunk and depressed and I just wish these feelings would go away forever.,0,1733132937,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hngpo0/i_committed_an_impulsive_act/,Acceptable_Pilot_905,"I committed an impulsive act I posted this on other sub but didn’t get correct response. I’m 18F took 500mg tramadol, 530mg dextromethorphen due to family fight. Now I regret it very much. And those who are telling me to go to an hospital, I am not from a developed country. I come from a lower middle income Asian country. I don’t have mom(died at 15). I live at a hostel(1st year nursing student) I’m at my grandparents home for holidays.My town has only a secondary level govt hospital and a tertiary level private hospital(which my grandparents would never take). Government hospitals here are shit they don’t give proper treatment. Please suggest something ",6,1735311750,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h693ge/this_world_doesnt_need_a_pathetic_loser_like_me/,AccomplishedPath4049,"This world doesn't need a pathetic loser like me. That's all I am in this world, a pathetic loser. I'm subhuman filth and no one gives a shit about me, not that they have any reason to. I'm tired of being lonely. I'm tired of trying not to be lonely. I'm tired of being an alien in a world that neither needs nor wants me. I'm tired of it all. I just want to close my eyes one last time and melt away into oblivion.",1,1733291257,2.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5fqk3/christmas_day/,AccomplishedSky404,"Christmas day I used to think (every year) that everyone should be happy on Christmas day. Nobody’s allowed to be depressed. But I don’t think I’ll be happy this year, I even think of doing it on Christmas day…",2,1733201909,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg27zf/if_you_are_hurting_reach_out/,Accurate_Degree4186,"If you are hurting, reach out I joined this server because I myself felt pain. From reading the other posts here I realize how bad this actually is. If anyone here is feeling alone or in pain, dont hesitate to reach out. I will talk to you for as long as you want.",0,1734408087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdsrtg/i_look_so_bad_i_avoid_outside/,Active_Constant_1246,"I look so bad I avoid outside M34) 6ft Virgin Havnt left the house mostly since 2019 as I look so rough I drink less and smoke way less now But I feel so tired and look it too I looked so well 10 years ago it hurts to be this way now",0,1734142942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl366z/i_ruin_everything_i_ruin_everything_i_ruin/,Active_Honeydew6787,I ruin everything I ruin everything I ruin everything I I hate my brain. Ive ruined everything. My stupid sack for shit brain wont hold onto any date or deadline. I just procrastinate and be sad and waste my life. I fucked up. I fucked up college. I fucked up my gpa. I fucked up opportunities that I can’t get back. I want to join an organization but to be part of it you need a certain gpa. Thought I had it. Didnt. I keep missing dates and deadlines. I need to get adhd meds but even when i do its too late the damage is done. Why am i here. I am the cause of my own suffering. I dont want to be here anymore. ,1,1735005528,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9e9p/im_having_suicidal_thoughts_after_taking_ecstasy/,AdOpening9164,"I’m having suicidal thoughts after taking ecstasy I took an ecstasy pill 8 days ago with my best friend. I have done it around 4 times in the past, the most recent time I did mdma with my boyfriend a month ago. I’ve never had a bad comedown like this before. I feel very depressed, overwhelmed, overstimulated and angry. Im just seeing the negative in life and getting angry and acting irrationally. I keep getting suicidal thoughts because I’m overthinking more about my financial situation and life. Will this ever end? ",2,1733965780,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h80qg4/i_hate_being_a_guy/,AdSuspicious9027,i hate being a guy If I had been born a girl my life would have been a thousand times better,0,1733489782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5au7y/advice/,AdamantineHero,"Advice One thing I strongly advised against is self harm, I been under psychosis when I self harmed and really wished I didn't. There is many risks like infection, social stigma, nerve damage and others. Especially infection is a big one because I am pretty sure that most people who self harm don't use sterile blades. Trust me, a infection is by far the worst way to go out. You will hate yourself more if you self harm, try to be with people, you don't have to talk all the time because just being with them will greatly reduce the urge to self harm.",0,1733186699,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he96fi/my_gf_blocked_me_on_my_birthday_didnt_even_said/,Adept_Amoeba6313,My gf blocked me on my birthday. Didn't even said happy birthday I feel so awfull. The past months were not great and now this,0,1734201202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4efsl/im_not_suciald_i_just_dkwhere_to_go_for_help/,Admirable-Eye-7210,Im not suciald i just dkwhere to go for help IM 15 qnd i have had been pregnant and had a child and shes about 3 months old recrntly i have found oit i have another child and i dontknow how to tell anyone or what to do pls somonw help me i beg ,0,1733089454,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3qfpz/im_tired_of_everything/,Admirable_Act3033,"Im tired of everything 12 F (before you go in the comments crying about how I have so much to live for, please try not to) My ""parents"" dont love eachother and I cant do anything about it. my mom died when I was almost 2 years old and my brother had to go to a mental hospital and now he is living on his own. my grandparents take care of me and my dad isnt exactly the best father figure. Im done. Im tired. Theres a lot more depth to this so if I get a few comments I guess I will explain it further",1,1733012276,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8dgya/help/,Admirable_Monk_8998,Help Someone here has ever thought about committing suicide by cops ?,3,1733523749,0.0,3.0,3.0,0.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h56ym8/mental_health_check/,AdvertisingThese9329,"Mental health check Hey guys, just wanted to say that I’m concerned for all of you and hope the best for you guys. How has life been lately? Do you have anyone to talk to? On a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling right now (1 meaning you’re fine and 10 meaning you can’t take it anymore).",0,1733176449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiwkkr/im_29_years_old_and_i_feel_like_im_at_the_end_of/,Aero2111,"I’m 29 years old and I feel like I’m at the end of my life I never experienced young love, I lost the only relationship I ever had recently and she had more in common with me than anyone. I’ve had casual sex a handful of times and it may have given me HPV which makes me feel like I can never date again. I don’t have a car, I live with my parents, I work part time at a grocery store, I’ve never been married, never had kids, my depression has been a constant throughout my entire life and now it’s too late.",0,1734736788,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoijg0/i_need_someone_to_find_out_if_he_left_a_note/,Affectionate_Farm839,I need someone to find out if he left a note A friend of mine took his own life in prison four years ago on Christmas night. I haven’t been able to bring myself to call the prison to find out if he left a note. Would someone here be willing to call the prison for me and ask? ,0,1735429090,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hemqj4/sasu/,After-Search-38,sasu anyone alive,0,1734244136,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpj1f3/how_do_i_help_myself/,AgeMiddle7124,"How do I help myself? It's bad. it's the worst that can be happening, my studies have gone down the drain. I have many pending assignments, my relationship with her is becoming worse I have preboards and boards next year with assignments to complete studies are in very bad shape all I do is rot in bed eating is non existent what do I do bad habits are increasing I don't want to lose her.",0,1735548469,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlv7i5/yessir/,Aggressive-Run3568,"Yessir They'd be so much better without me. They don't know it but it's true. I'm drunk, it's christmas and the best gift I could give my family is to just fuckin leave. Kids would be better and so would my wife. I wish I weren't a little fuckin bitch. I should go downstairs and hang myself, thayd be the best hudt I could give anyone.",4,1735107472,4.0,5.0,3.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgt4df/should_i/,Agile-Set4448,Should I I know it's wrong but I don't know what to do I'm too afraid to talk to a professional and I'm afraid of my friends or family finding out it's just that I don't know what to I've contemplated this for years but I the only thing that stoped me is that it would be a sin to kill myself...i just have nothing to do or look forward to ,2,1734494006,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3ve1r/what_to_say_to_get_admitted_to_a_psych_ward/,Agreeable-Repair-612,What to say to get admitted to a psych ward? I want to go to the hospital because I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts lately but I don't want to act on them but I feel like I need help to cope. Thing is I was in and out of hospital a LOT the past 2 years but haven't been in almost a year and I feel like they won't take me seriously enough to admit me. What should I say to get admitted for a while?,2,1733028153,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h95cmt/31m_i_was_cheated_on_and_need_a_friend/,AirWolfDelta,"31M. I was cheated on and need a friend. Relationship of 5 years and she slept with someone else. Found out on Thursday evening. Just about every detail as well and was lied to for an hour until she admitted it. We share a house and not an easy situation. Don't know who to talk to. I'm embarrassed to tell anyone. I feel so angry and alone now. I'm trying to keep myself together but I'm not sleeping or eating. I know it's only temporary but my entire life just got shattered. I don't know what to do and I'm overwhelmed with emotions.",0,1733614464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdanit/how_long_will_i_have_tilk_i_bleed_out/,Aito_miyazumakisan,How long will i have tilk i bleed out? If i slit my wrists how long would it take till i bleed out?,3,1734091083,6.0,3.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h489nt/being_lonely_sucks_sometimes/,Akow_0330,"Being lonely sucks sometimes. I am 25, and today I realized that I have no one to talk to about the things that trouble me. I tried to open up to someone when they asked how I was doing, but it turned out it was just a formality. I understand that everyone has their own problems, and I’m not forcing anyone to help me. But damn, it turns out I really need someone who would put a hand on my shoulder and say, “It will pass.”",0,1733073782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hakcd8/i_want_to_end_it_all/,Alarming-Mix-8522,I want to end it all I feel like i want to end my life. I graduated college with computer science degree and ended up unemployed. Now i am working in trades as electrician and feel like such a failure. I thought i was meant for better things than working as electrician i always wanted to be software engineer and do intelligent jobs. I despise everyday my life i wish i never was born so dumb so i cant even find job in tech. I wish i could just kill myself but im too much of coward. I cant change jobs at this point and i dont know what should i do in my life,2,1733778238,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9j3y0/is_there_anybody_who_can_take_someones_soul_or_a/,Alert_Masterpiece546,Is there anybody who can take someone's soul or a method that can kill someones soul? Help Is there a way that can possibly kill the human soul forever?Because you know there is a saying even though you suicide there is a chance you might be born again in the future(I believe that ghost exists)🙏.Or is there a just way that someone can take my soul out of my body? Because I don't want to live at all and at all cost.Is there anybody who thinks the same ?🙏( sorry if it's not understandable),1,1733665374,3.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn6vsm/im_tired_of_feeling_numb/,Alone-Middle-6305,"I’m tired of feeling numb I’m not sure what to do with my life anymore I turn 25 next month. I’m always sad depressed lonely or numb. I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up, not sure if I can live much longer like this ",1,1735273774,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpfg6p/god_gave_me_the_worst_genetics/,Alone-Painting-7474,"God gave me the worst genetics As a 26M with autism, I have experienced a lot of challenges throughout my life. I was born with severe asthma and a fissured tongue, which is a genetic condition that is not contagious but can look unpleasant. Due to my autism, I struggled with learning and was a slow learner, leading me to drop out of school. Additionally, I have started experiencing hair loss, had acne issues in middle school that resulted in acne scars. I feel unattractive and believe I have had a streak of bad luck. I am hesitant about my future and doubt that anyone would want to date someone like me who lacks a career and has autism.",0,1735534439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7am31/i_about_committed_today/,AloneTravelerr,"I about committed today My mind went like I sped up my vehicle and about swerved into the lake. I don’t know why I hit the brakes last minute, but I did. I don’t even know why I’m posting here. I’m not sure what to think anymore or even if I can.",6,1733409514,6.0,6.0,4.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9qf7c/im_going_to_hang_myself_later/,Alone_Laugh_2598,i’m going to hang myself later I'm going to try with a belt when everyone goes to sleep. I'm a bit scared because i believe in God and suicide isn't a good thing but even if i live i will end up in hell so it doesn’t matter ,5,1733685563,5.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h625u0/wanting_to_hurt_people/,Alone_Nothing685,"Wanting to hurt people I have no idea if this is the right place to put this but i’ve been battling depression the past 3 years and i’ve had ups and downs but nothing compares to how horrible I feel right now. That isn’t really anything new but the past few weeks I constantly think about hurting other people, whether it be killing them or something else. I don’t know where to go from here because the thoughts gets worse everyday and I don’t get anything done nowadays, I just cycle between thinking about killing someone or myself. Please recommend something that isn’t therapy or something like that because I don’t have the money for that at all",2,1733270109,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heo6kq/please_someone_please_talk_to_me/,Alone_Transition4992,"Please someone please talk to me I just really need someone to talk to like really bad, I just please need someone to talk to. Please",0,1734250550,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h615uk/someone_help_me/,Alternative_Fold275,"Someone help me I know this is going to sound hard to believe, but for most of my life I was living in a reality where there are no double ""L's"" in the English language, only words with triple L's. For example, my name was ""Willl"" and the word is spelled ""halllway."" One day I woke up and my name was spelled ""Will"" and all the other words with three Ls changed to two Ls. Is there anyone out there that has had an experience like this or something similar? Or if not, can someone explain this? I know this sounds crazy but I'm feeling like I was somehow transported to another dimension or parallel universe. ",0,1733267454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdgr02/i_dont_see_why_i_wont_have_another_mental/,Altruistic_Log5830,I dont see why i wont have another mental breakdown in a week or two and just finally end it I hate myself so hard im disgusted by my existence,2,1734109244,4.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hawoyg/i_want_to_be_with_my_spouse/,Ambitious_Object2231,I want to be with my spouse My husband (32) died of alcoholism (liver failure) in October. Every day I am struggling to find a reason to live. I want to be dead and be with him. I miss him so much.,1,1733816635,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9g2s7/i_want_to_kms/,AnOmoriFan,"I want to kms But I'm not depressed or anything, I dunno what's happening",2,1733653695,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9lxur/if_anybody_needs_a_friend_im_here_for_you/,Ancient-Fix-2292,If anybody needs a friend I'm here for you ❤️ You don't have to be alone ,0,1733673743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnxohj/i_just_want_to_die/,AnotherAltAccount6,"I just want to die I don't want to live, I fucking tried of life.. I don't fucking care anymore I just want to be fucking dead, no one actually cares or loves me anyways, apparently all I'm fucking good for is my body, somebody please just fucking end my worthless shitty fucking life ",2,1735359572,1.0,1.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj1431/fuck_islam/,Another_WeebOnReddit,"Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam Fuck Islam and Fuck Islam I hate this religion in all of my guts, it ruined my life, I could have a normal life without this piece of shit cult.",0,1734751462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yixk/i_upset_my_best_snd_closest_friend_i_wanna_really/,AntisocialCoffee29,"I upset my best snd closest friend, I wanna really kill myself I accidentally upset my best friend because of a stupid mistake and they havent talked to me in a day. They were my only real friend and Im tired of making everyone upset in my life. I think Im going to end it tonight for real this time.",4,1733365903,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6uc5t/i_want_sleep_forever/,AnxiousAd164,I want sleep forever 😊 I hate waking up and seeing disgusting and ugly people everyday. I just want to vomit. People are a cancer to this world. ,1,1733354237,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgzo0q/dormancy_going_to_heaven/,Anxious_Beach4061,"Dormancy, going to heaven... I am autistic, with DID. My family is toxic. My WHOLE family. Everything is tense, I have to watch my words....they are all manipulative. I feel like going dormant... I can't stand it anymore. I'm exhausted, tired... In both families, I can't release the tension. How to support??? ",1,1734521612,1.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h43cq2/nothing/,AnxiouslyGone,"Nothing. I cannot live with this much trauma in life I'm losing my beloved partner and I'm mentally declining. I don't want to be in pain anymore, I just can't bear it anymore. No social life No purpose No true family I fucking hate everything I just want to fucking die",2,1733059950,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhdaf0/i_want_to_be_missed/,Any-Echidna-2722,"I want to be missed I’m not depressed, but I think I want to kill myself. My life is fine, but I don’t know, I kinda want to do it. I guess I want people to miss me. Like at every funeral you always hear people talking about how great the person was and how much they loved them. ",2,1734559911,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcuqbb/i_tried_to_kill_myself_using_pills_and_then_i/,Apprehensive-End5428,I tried to kill myself using pills and then I admitted myself to the hospital. My life stopped even if I didn’t actually die. My body is still hurting and I almost permanently destroyed it. Idk how to move on. ,6,1734035939,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1his6vh/hello/,Apprehensive-Rub6326,hello [kekma.net](http://kekma.net),0,1734724502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4j9no/no_one_would_shame_me/,Apprehensive_Comb194,No one would shame me My life is at the point where I don’t think anyone would blame me for killing myself. I’m so exhausted. This is so hard. I’m so tired. I’ve had a mental health professional tell me years ago “I wouldn’t have made it if I were you” and now there’s more horrible shit that’s happened on top of all that other shit. And I’m supposed to keep chugging along. Anyone want to talk hmu,2,1733102696,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8n2js/dont_want_to_make_it_to_my_birthday/,Apprehensive_Rent178,"Don't want to make it to my birthday It's my 23rd birthday in a couple of days and I really don't want to be alive for it. It's now been over 10 years since I started thinking about suicide I've had enough of it",2,1733555276,2.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb46lr/tried_to_die_yesterday/,Apprehensive_Step_53,"tried to die yesterday F20 just felt like sharing this because i don't know what's wrong with me. i keep having downs and lows but the lows keep getting closer to death each time. yesterday i got to my breaking point i kept hurting myself with scissors on my arms and legs, and then i took several extra addies to try and OD. I'm still alive, i haven't slept for almost two days though. the thing is i don't WANT to die... but if i keep having these lows i will. I don't want to leave my bf/ brother/mom/ little sister behind either, but at this point i've just become a burden to them :( ",6,1733844203,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpsbsw/i_cant_do_it_anymore/,AppropriatePoem9744,I can’t do it anymore I wish I was loved,1,1735579529,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg3b9y/ahhhhhhhhhh/,AquaMeow-7,Ahhhhhhhhhh I just want to scream so loud and nobody would hear me,0,1734411886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3yejm/loveless_and_empty_f_18_australia/,AromaticFollowing758,"Loveless and empty, F 18 Australia I just want to find someone like me, someone who loves me and someone that I can love. I want to live away from it all. I hate this capitalist echo chamber, nothing ever feels real and I've never longed for anything else. With my countries constant state of financial crisis, it looks like it's far away. I live in Australia, it certainly could be worse, but it's never looked so bleak, the chances of me accomplishing what I've longed for.",0,1733039774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkesq4/my_life_is_over/,Artistic-Memory-6301,My life is over. I’m going to kill myself tonight. I can’t do it anymore. No one wants to help me. I just get blamed over and over for things I didn’t do. Yelled at and called useless. Everything hurts.,4,1734923659,4.0,4.0,6.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hps85j/i_cant_live_anymore/,Asa_Mitaka_900,"I can’t live anymore… I’m just so ugly and useless. I can’t concentrate while studying, I compare myself all the fucking time to people I used to go to school with when I was younger. I don’t know what is wrong with me but that comparison thing that I just stated makes me want to kill myself. I hate myself so much.",2,1735579274,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlk6a8/im_currently_coping_with_these_thoughts/,Ashamed-Quarter5330,I'm currently coping with these thoughts Why did I not kill myself already? Do I wanna live? No. Do I care that others will be sad (they will mostly forget me) ? No. I am just a piece of trash that nobody wants. Today I got called ugly. We had a class photo and I was the ugliest shit among them. I always think like this. I have to kill myself for my own goodness. Please guys understand me. My therapists lie that they will help me. They don't. They just make me use some pills which don't even work. I use my pills regularly but I am getting worser each day actually. I don't use drugs or alcohol. I don't smoke either. ,4,1735066958,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhwglz/why_do_i_even_try_anymore/,AshyDreamer,"Why do I even try anymore. I bash my head against the wall till I pass out. I've attempted suicide 2 times this month. Everything I try to improve on just keeps crashing down. I'm not good enough, I'll never be good enough.",6,1734625065,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5avr8/health_anxiety_is_so_ironic_to_me/,Asillylittlestudent,"health anxiety is so ironic to me 😓looking around the anxiety sub, i just find it really ironic how different my viewpoint is to theirs. For ex, while they might worry about getting cancer or dying, i just go, oh perfect timing, it’s about time to die anywyas😭😭😭 just my own view though 😓😓",1,1733186818,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5oegt/i_wish_i_had_a_gun/,Aspierago,I wish I had a gun I feel like I could finally pull the trigger today.,4,1733235484,4.0,4.0,4.0,6.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haumc6/cant_get_a_good_job/,AstronautTrue475,"Can’t get a good job Every job pays like shit and we can't do a single thing about it, it makes me so unbelievably angry. I need to make a lot of money and there is none out there for me ",0,1733808323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7f1ca/my_therapist_messed_up_my_mental_health/,Averisathetreelover,My therapist messed up my mental health Wow. Didn't think the person I went to for therapy totally made me lose hope in reaching out to others. Been living with depression because of my intrusive thoughts but I have not really reached out to others for months. My life is going downhill right now. Is life really worth living? Might as well die. Seriously. I have been living like a soul out of its body. Living in a daze. Academic pressure on top of everything. Just got humiliated last week for not completing my work. How can I? If I am contemplating suicide?,2,1733420854,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlq1bp/it_really_hurts_me_when_people_laugh_at_my_goals/,Avoumen,It really hurts me when people laugh at my goals and dreams.. I,0,1735086311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmbfwh/childhood_abuse_suicidal/,Aware_Campaign7568,"childhood abuse suicidal > first i lack any kind of desires now > previously in last 3 years i peaked to suicidal > i am hardworking and not motivated through desires > whenever i remembers my childhood abuse > the suicide thoughts hits me hard > specially when my parents denies those > it still hunts me how they made up reasons to beat me ",2,1735168681,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h62qv1/f22_think_im_gonna_do_it_just_a_matter_of_when/,Away_Click5829,F22 think I’m gonna do it just a matter of when and where Don’t care anymore about my parents. I see absolutely no happy future for myself. ,4,1733271660,5.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hawsoy/im_here/,Awkward-Assumption89,Im here. I am here. Just reach out... you know who you are. I am here. its 252 am eastern. Regardless of what you're dealing with. This is not the way. I am here. Let me talk to you.,0,1733817103,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfqix3/i_hate_how_people_only_care_once_someone_dies/,BPYouNeverKnow,I hate how people only care once someone dies “Aww I’m so sad they were so great” fuck off. Why didn’t you show them you cared when they were alive? Because you never cared you’re a fucking liar.,0,1734375518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3yrra/i_attempted_and_failed/,BUNTAR0,"I attempted and failed... I had tried to kill my self once and failed, the cut was not deep enough.... I don't know what to do anymore, my thoughts keep on killing me from within so and then I am recently finding out about this subreddit, I wish to get better mentally cause I am physically completely fine ",6,1733041304,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbmwhg/im_feeling_like_committing_but_im_scared_to_do_it/,Background-Wing-6287,"I'm feeling like committing, but I'm scared to do it. I've already got the note prepared, and I've opened the window in my bedroom two times to try and jump out. (I live in an apartment)",6,1733896519,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpot85/i_feel_like_killing_my_self/,Baebenn,I feel like killing my self It’s really a hard time time. Life is not been good since last year when I lost my source of income I have failed to provide for myself and the little children I care for,2,1735570254,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl6ftr/after_christmas/,Basic-Newspaper4731,"After Christmas. So the day after tomorrow, I'm planning on ending it all. I'm so tired and exhausted, I can't. I'm ending it after Christmas, because I want this to be my last Christmas ever. Wish me luck.",5,1735017071,4.0,5.0,5.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcs4ov/never_understood/,BassRelevant5793,"Never understood I am Rude and I feel guilty. I guess I can't be talked to or something ",0,1734029194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg79eq/how/,BearNude,How? Nothing ever changes and everything feels one sided and like all the voices in my head are laughing and mocking me; can’t I just go to sleep and never wake up already!,1,1734428860,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h53tkt/please_help_me/,Beautiful-Today-250,Please help me Please,0,1733168768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj3178/what_is_this/,Beautiful_Diamond104,"What is this Why am I alive? So that I keep getting disrespected, bullied, made fun of , overlooked and never listened. There’s no point to staying alive if ur getting this treatment ",1,1734758495,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgpepm/im_high_and_i_hate_myself/,Beginning_Loquat_191,i’m high and i hate myself y,0,1734482242,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hphjhq/im_scared/,Bella_Spy,"im scared Im a younger teen but i feel like i have to act like an adult. Im scared about my exams again, i just want to die right now. I feel stupid because i dont understand anything at school right now and i feel like im just a horrible friend. Im scared that my friends are just gonna decide they dont like me anymore and leave or that my bad grades will make me a failure in life. I dont think most people in my life even know im suicidal, im supposed to be the cheerful excited friend but i dont know how much longer i can keep the mask on. ",2,1735542114,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpt111/please_one_heart_attack_is_all_i_beg_for/,Beneficial-Feed-8378,"Please one heart attack is all I beg for. I just wanna die peacefully, quickly, I wish I had the guts to kill myself, but I a fucking loser who can't even be trusted with killing himself. Oh god, please kill me quick, PLEASE, I beg. I don't wanna live anymore. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. ",2,1735581322,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5hfgo/i_will_think_of_you_tonight/,Beneficial_Passage_8,"I will think of you tonight. Please comment or write me, and I will think of you tonight. I don't want you to feel alone, because you don't have to be. Please write to me, and I promise I'll think of you tonight. I promise I'll care for you, no matter who you are. Please please write to me, and I'll keep you in my dreams. I promise I'll keep you safe there. All you have to do is let me know you're here.",0,1733208184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4eaa6/this_guy_made_me_feel_worse_than_i_already_do/,Bepopee,"This guy made me feel worse than I already do. He called me homeless, a bitch, a cunt, dirty and nasty. Told me to get a real job all because I tried to greet and say hello to him with a fun joke. I want him dead now. All I have is his license plate but that's all. I can't find his name or address with it. I tried my best to do so. He was 67 years old. Thats all I know. Maybe I can use that information to find him too. I hope he dies soon. ",0,1733089053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcldix/no_friends/,BeyondRoutine9119,"No friends Says it all really. Also who wants to get to know and be friends with someone who's currently going through heavy shit? Remember when friends used to actually mean friends? There for you through thick and thin? People are fucking shallow. Reading others stories of how ""friends"" abandoned them when they were going through tough shit. Makes me so fucking mad. Especially for someone like me, I've always been like the ""therapist"" friend. You know why? Cuz I actually fucking care deeply about people when I feel a connection with them. Honestly others like myself should seek each other out and not be friends with fucking leeches. So done with low effort people, enjoying the benefits but can't fucking reciprocate",0,1734011029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h68cxa/dont_know/,BigStrange1886,Don't know I am mental issues from past 3 years. I am feeling lonely. Even the law is biased.Even family won't help. Having trust issues on everyone. Also visited psychiatrists and psychologist but no use. Attempted suicide twice. Jobless. I want to work but having difficulty managing anger and panic attacks. ,4,1733288667,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiciud/i_written_my_first_note/,Big_Branch_517,"I written my first note It felt good to write down how I feel but unfortunately I won’t be doing anything to myself. I wish I was stoned out on heroin so I could just feel nothing and have no remorse for my actions. It was to my friends and the people I hate",1,1734671265,0.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiobbt/am_i_gonna_live/,Big_Tit_Chulainn,"Am I gonna live.. A week ago (Dec 13) I took 9 ibuprofen to od but it didn't do anything except burning sensation on my stomach which has gone away aftera day. 2 days after (Dec 15) that I took 2 ibuprofen, 12 paracteamols and 5 imodium nothing happened. Dec 21 (now) nothings happening except being drowsy and a full feeling in my stomach . I've slept the whole day for 2 days straight and I'm scared to sleep now because I might comatose. I live alone too, and don't want to burden my parents as much as possible. ",6,1734714174,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4cvua/i_lost_everyone/,Big_Will9120,"i lost everyone one of my best friends (or someone who i thought was my best friend) made a rumor that i had slept with my other best friends ex, and my other best friend confronted me and said she was gonna beat my ass, ig that cleared up tho bc it was a ""miscommunication"" but now my friend who made the rumor said ""ur just annoying, ur always trying to invite urself and hangout, and ur an addict and u just irk me"" when i asked her what i did wrong. i havent felt this suicidal in about 3 years and honestly im ready to just give up",2,1733085485,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he3sj3/my_life_is_ok/,BiryaniLover87,"My life is ok M23 My life is rather ok, I have house and food . My own. But still can't stop imagining cutting my own wrists. I don't understand why, i don't have much social life , very few friends, no gf, is that the reason? Any time I see a beautiful girl i imagine it (low self esteem?) This whole day I have had the same thought even though I talked to a girl and she was actually sweet. I just don't know why I love isekai or death so much.",3,1734185855,3.0,3.0,2.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlux6p/happy_holidays/,Bl4st0is3,"Happy holidays Not really related to suicide but I know we are all hurting and reading all of your post brought me to tears and I just wanted u guys to know that people share ur pain. I have no idea what ur going through or why you are in that place but have hope, even if you think you can’t go lower if ima be honest there is always lower than the bottom but there is also so much just to live for just a little higher up, you just gotta have hope.",0,1735106235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8fbl9/i_feel_like_i_am_not_real/,Bluekoala593,I feel like i am not real I have relapsed but erm i still dont feel like i exisg i feel like if i die rn no one would notice or care bcs ive never said anything or done anything worth caring about i just hurt people even unintentionally i cant do anything but ,1,1733528995,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpzqo8/really_struggling_with_thoughts_of_ending_it/,BookkeeperLast3616,"Really struggling with thoughts of ending it I’m having a lot of suicidal thoughts lately and it’s scary. I just can’t take this anymore. I feel so inadequate, I feel so worthless, I feel like I’m a burden and a nuisance and no one cares. I just want this burning feeling in my chest to just stop already. I just want to die so I don’t feel so worthless and unloved anymore.",2,1735598635,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h92awf/i_know_some_that_might_hurt_themselves_what/,Bored-starscream,I know some that might hurt themselves what should I do I need help with this,0,1733605686,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6py2m/i_feel_hopeless/,Boring-Problem2619,I feel hopeless Im feeling extremely hopeless with my adhd and other mental illnesses being ignored. I feel like nobody cares. This is the 3rd time this month I've wanted to off myself.,2,1733343327,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgmrot/u_know_those_days_when_you_cry_non_stop_and_u/,Bowandgirlygirl,"U know those days when you cry non stop and u know that’s it for you… I cannot believe I'm actually in this position but I cannot do this anymore. I take anxiety meds and they just don't work... I don't want to be in my relationship anymore I want to get out and I can't ",1,1734474735,0.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcwknc/im_tired/,BrainlessSlime,I'm tired I'm tired of living. Everything I try I fail miserably at. I can never get good at anything. I'm so sick of my apathy and the way I cope with my failures. I keep picturing how I want to go. Lost and starving in the wilderness just reflecting on how I fucked everything up and how meaningless my existence is.,3,1734040648,3.0,3.0,2.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc4xah/some_kind_words_would_be_nice_right_now/,Bread_567,Some kind words would be nice right now I dunno some kind words would be nice ,0,1733953337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcwccg/took_windshield_wiper_fluid_trying_to_decide_what/,BreakfastUnique8091,"Took windshield wiper fluid, trying to decide what to do I just took some an hour ago or so, it wasn’t very much so I don’t think I’ll die from it. But now I’m scared because looking online, it says even a sip amount can cause blindness and I don’t want to survive but be blind but I feel too depressed now to deal with the hospital. I feel a bit woozy but I don’t even know if it’s the poison or just my mood. I kind of want to try to drink alcohol as it can counteract the alcohol in windshield washer fluid. ",6,1734040031,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ryck/jumping_from_70_meters/,Brilliant-Media-1712,"Jumping from 70 meters I need this to work. Chatgpt said if I land on concrete, head on, my chances for survival would be effectively 0%. Is there something else I need to go in order to guarantee my death? I dont wanna end up paralyzed, in a coma, or a vegetable. That fate is worse than anything else ",5,1733689641,5.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hprz9b/can_someone_talk_to_me/,BrilliantPrinciple65,"Can someone talk to me? I'm currently scared for when school starts since it's really stresses me out. I thought I did good in the first semester but I'm not sure if I will get the awards that I hope to achieve. My mental health doesn't do good when I have the pressure and stress from having to achieve/maintain a 4.0 gpa. For example during September,October, November and December I felt really stressed out and depressed and my blood pressure got high.",0,1735578629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9fkec/cyanide_price/,Brilliant_Moose_9781,Cyanide price? What's the price of cyanide?,3,1733651513,6.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7njop/nothing_left/,Budget-Disk7726,"Nothing left I want to make it easy on my family so I’m finishing this semester and getting next semesters grants. Instead of spending the grants on school I’m going to spend them getting a moving company to help pack up and donate my things, to rehome my pets and get them transported, and to take a trip back to my home town where my grandfather has already paid for my grave. The tentative date for my leave is January 30th. To anyone else who is planning. What else did you consider? Thanks ",5,1733442430,6.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcxrwu/i_wanna_kill_myself/,BuilderNo1909,I wanna kill myself Everyday i wish i was never born or there was a way that i just disappeared. I have been struggling a lot mentally because of many wrong choices i made and i have been feeling alone and unwanted for past many years. ,2,1734043915,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmkad6/my_paranoia_will_kill_me/,Burner1171,"My paranoia will kill me. I’m not strong enough to keep going on. I’m unlovable and no matter who tries or what happens, I inevitably push everyone away because my own paranoia keeps feeding into my insecurity and I’m trapped in this cycle. I hate myself because I am unlovable and I can’t open up to be lovable, I’m a waste of space and no matter how much I try or how much help I get, I can’t escape my own head. I wanna die so fucking badly, the only person who is causing me to stay around is my mom. She’s the only person who I know would be upset, but she’s not gonna be around for much longer. I refuse to bear that pain. ",2,1735202078,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg4vj7/why_shouldnt_i_kill_myself/,BurnzzyBTW,Why shouldn't I kill myself All I ever think about is either wanting to drink or kill myself I tried talking to my friends about it and it feels like non of them really care I don't see a reason to go on,2,1734417939,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h82f69/almost_pulled_the_trigger_today/,BurritoToe,almost pulled the trigger today got drunk and loaded up the pistol. shoved it into my mouth with my finger on the trigger when my little sister rushed into the house bc she forgot something for school. i got startled and put the gun away. now im in bed feeling numb. if my sister came in a second late she could’ve seen her big brother dead on the floor,6,1733494912,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl4lyx/i_just_want_it_to_end/,Business_Adeptness68,"I just want it to end I just want quiet, silence, nothingness no pain no heartache just empty ",1,1735010428,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlqm01/failed_attempt/,ButtNugget96,"Failed attempt. Marked nsfw for obvious triggers. I (23f) tried to kill myself last Thursday, it obviously didn’t work. The days since have been hell, going by so slowly. I have therapy in 6 days, I don’t know how I will make it through those 6 days. I feel like I can’t do anything right, like I am alone, like I am a burden.",6,1735088436,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h91xv1/cancer_from_vaping/,CIACinnamon,"Cancer from vaping? After 2 failed attempts the last 4 years I decided to vape until I was sick of it. I was secretly hoping cancer will crawl into me I'm starting to regret it I should probably tell my dad or sister. I'm getting crazy asthma since yesterday morning. just wanted to keep tabs, hope everyone else more comfortable than me.",1,1733604669,1.0,6.0,0.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4p4ej/its_been_awhile/,CabinetofCurios,"It’s been awhile Since about I thought very seriously on my unworthiness to be here. Nothing matters really. If they do, then there is no future for me, no skills to speak of, haven’t worked since my husband didn’t think I needed to. Most importantly I have no dream in that future. If you can’t see yourself in the future here and have no dream to drive yourself to belong there? I don’t belong there/here. I’ve never belonged anywhere. ",1,1733122383,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqph5/im_a_bad_bad_bad_angry_person/,Caboose_the_second,"I'm a bad bad bad angry person. Hello. 16M. I am a bad person. And it genuinely makes me want to end my life. I'm terrible at friendships and relationships because I am so lazy sometimes that I cannot even speak to people. I get mad at people so easy, I snap. And then I feel remorse. So I stay alone longer. I snap. I isolate. I hate it. I want to end my life because I hate people but I hate being alone more. My life is miserable. ",2,1733795653,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha68i5/suicidal/,Calm-War5962,"Suicidal Hello. Been suicidal lately. New high pressure extreamly stressful job combinded with small baby and wife to support. Struggle to sleep through the night. Constantly afraid and crying from the stress and pressure. I cannot do this anymore. Been googling suicide methods and today visited store for rope. Help. Dont want to live on this planet anymore. I have done nothing wrong my entire life and only been working hard to reach my ""goals"", but the reward is wanting to kill myself daily? What do I live for? If i quit my job the shame will be unbearable. I cannot function or be a good father in this state.",5,1733737426,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7vxv6/its_hard_to_keep_going/,CanadianGroose,It’s hard to keep going When there nothing to live for. I just want to stop,1,1733469687,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5wrjs/new_here/,CapeTownRetail,New here It's my birthday tomorrow ,0,1733256526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb1y4n/i_want_to_write_a_bucket_list_of_things_i_want_to/,Capital_Salad_4704,i want to write a bucket list of things i want to do before i die and also reasons to live. can yall suggest smth or give me other reasons? i am really struggling to find reasons to live every single morning.,1,1733837961,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk15zp/kms_without_any_risks_of_survival/,CardiologistOk4243,"Kms without any risks of survival I’m getting closer and closer now. I just don’t know how to do it. I wish I had a gun bc that would be very quick but I can’t afford to buy one and it’s illegal here. I don’t want to suffer with pain or “panic” and I want 100% death guarantee. Any ideas/tips? And no, no “talking me out of this” can make me change my mind. I’ve been to therapy since I was 11 so that’s not gonna help. My life is over. ",5,1734882779,4.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhwfs4/not_sure_what_to_do/,Careful_Praline_7444,"Not sure what to do Hey guys! I never thought I’d post about this but I feel like I’m at a dead end. I want nothing more than to die. I absolutely hate university (I’m struggling a lot) and don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I come from a poor family so I can’t just live off their money. I want to kill myself but that would devastate my family, I really don’t know what to do. ",2,1734625006,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdormy/tired_of_everything/,CatSaysMeeeow,"Tired of everything It's been a tough year, and I don't even know why I'm still here. I don't know how to survive.. I have no one to talk to about it, I don't have anyone to ask for help when things feel heavy. I really hope I don't wake up from my sleep. It's tiring. I'm tired of everything. I'm trying my best to get better but nothing is working out for me. I hate how everyday is wasted.. i wish i could just end it ",2,1734130747,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haryab/why_didnt_it_fucking_work/,Cautious-Package2698,Why didn’t it fucking work Hey guys uh…Yeah I just tried to hang myself lmfao.. I used this hook that’s drilled into my wall and a shoelace. i made a homemade noose and when i like fucking y’know (i didn’t jump i like slid down so i had the same effect because that hook is low) i could breathe a little and i waited there for like 2 or 3 minutes and gave up. i’m laying in bed wondering if i should telk any of my real life friends. is this even an attempt? i thought about it all last night until like 1am when i fell asleep,6,1733799508,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hplvju/going_blind_losing_teeth_too_expensive_to_live_if/,CelestialOceanOfStar,"Going Blind , Losing teeth, too expensive to live. If you don't have these problems you're blessed My Retina has detached and I can't afford to fix it I have four wisdom teeth that I afford to get bone grafts for It's game over before it even started The world is unbelievably cruel and rigged in other people's favor. I am losing my faith in anything If youre lucky enough to be born into a wealthy or decent family you're lucky I wasn't So many people wish they were you , I wish I could have been one of you ",0,1735560438,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf5nxr/should_i_kill_myself/,ChainsawChen,"Should i kill myself? I'm sorry, don't comment.",2,1734305993,,2.0,3.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgvb16/can_i_sign_the_do_not_resuscitate_order_for_any/,Channelmypain,"Can I sign the do not resuscitate order for any reason? For instance, if I was to have a heart attack or a stroke out of nowhere can I have something like that in place? ",1,1734501879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yss8/idfk_anymore/,Character_records69,Idfk anymore I hate I have people who would miss me. I hate it,1,1733366693,2.0,2.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhppzd/how_can_i_get_my_will_to_live_back_any_advice/,CheeseDango,"How can I get my will to live back. Any advice? I've been suicidal since i was young so i never made plans or anything or sorts. I never had a will to live or motivation to actually progress in life. Now im an adult and im still the same way, no surprise. Does anyone have advice on how I could fix my brain a bit to at least find a will to live. Other than for other people(i swear if someone says think of your family😑) I have no will to live and don't know how to get it back",1,1734602741,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkepre/why_was_i_created_to_not_be_fit_for_this_world/,ChocoTheFerret,Why was I created to not be fit for this world? Maybe I'll be 17 forever.,1,1734923363,0.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h52myg/i_tried_to_kms_and_now_everyvody_knows_help/,Choice_Attitude5082,"I tried to kms and now everyvody knows. HELP? I am a girl, 14 years old and go to a comprehensive school in Germany. As I said, I tried to kms, I walked over the tracks several times but when the train came I just could,still don't know why, I think I was afraid it wouldn't work. But a classmate saw me and told the whole class and I don't know how to go to school tomorrow, I need ideas what to do quickly!",6,1733165904,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h58vrg/my_dads_cat_ran_away_and_its_my_fault/,CidGalceran,"My dad's cat ran away and 'it's my fault'. I just need to vent and I've got no one else. Three months ago my dad 'saved' me from an attempt. He helped me these past few months and things were finally looking up. Today, whilst he was moving, his cat ran away. He blamed me. He said it was my fault, asking me why I had hated his cat so much and that if he knew I would do this, he wouldn't have helped me agree months ago. So I'm back on square one, wishing I had jumped that day.",1,1733181350,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlbczr/dont_tell_em_to_be_grateful_i_am_still_alive/,CisforCOOKY,"Don’t tell em to be grateful I am still alive Deleting this post later, currently crashing out haha. Broke, no, mangled my leg thanks to a car accident caused by a friend. Her? Unscathed? Me on the other hand I am almost three months in, can’t walk on this leg and can’t even bend it. I’m tired of everyone, including medical professionals reminding me that I should be grateful I am alive. Okay and? A minute ago I was a happy 20 year old and now I will probably be in pain for the rest of my life, a minute ago I thought I deserved to be alive just like anyone else. If I were a video game character I’d jump to restart this life. ",1,1735038190,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h43mpp/ive_set_a_date/,CitadelDays,"I've set a date I've planned for Friday. I know how to do it so it's just about whether I can finally go through with it. Everything in my life has been going wrong for years. I keep telling myself it'll get better but it never does. I was up all last night crying because it hurts so much. There's only one way to make the pain go away ",5,1733060853,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkgqsz/fuck_man_if_anyone_has_any_advice_id_appreciate_it/,ClaimNo1122,Fuck man If anyone has any advice I'd appreciate it .,0,1734930778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5si4y/most_people_are_trash/,ClassroomRegular1728,Most People Are Trash Keep your head up if you can. Just understand that most people are trash and they literally take pleasure in putting you down and crushing your spirit. Don’t let them. Wash your hands of them and wish them well on their road to Hell. Here if you want to talk :),0,1733246092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmr71p/i_cant_stand_being_female_it_only_means_abuse/,Clownoranges,"I can't stand being female it only means abuse I can't fucking stand it anymore, being female only means abuse abuse abuse and being used! Nobody respects you or sees you as a human being they just lie lie lie and trick you to abuse you more! Everybody hates women we are just seen as things!!! I wish I could just have gotten to exist as a human being without this hell and being groomed by all these goddamn old monsters ",1,1735228631,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hild77/someone_confessed_that_they_are_considering/,CodeVirus,Someone confessed that they are considering suicide with tears in their eyes. What to do? Not sure if this is the right sub. I don’t know what to do. I live in the US. Is there a line I should be calling?,2,1734706099,2.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbh1ik/my_friend_tried_to_end_his_life_and_left_things/,Comfortable_Alarm162,"my friend tried to end his life and left things for me, should i keep them? my friend and housemate tried to end his life, i wont go into details because it’s not important but luckily we got him to a hospital as fast as possible and is currently spending the night there. i went through his room because i thought he would enjoy coming home to a tidy room… and saw he left things for all housemate (we’re all good friends) and one for me… part of me wants to keep it because i feel he wouldnt enjoy seeing the things he thought was leaving behind… but i would also feel guilty about keeping it? idk what to do.. i’m so overwhelmed by this",0,1733877538,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhwn98/i_ate_another_guys_cum_from_my_girlfriend_am_i_a/,Commercial-Zebra-465,I ate another guys cum from my girlfriend am I a failure I liked it so much but i feel so confused ,0,1734625538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haxk1m/traumatized/,Commercial_Parking46,"Traumatized I’ve seen some really awful shit happen in real life, Terrifier type shit and it’s fucked up my head I’m in middle school and my grade and stuff have been great I don’t know what to do with my life ",0,1733820623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he1328/a_disappointment/,Competitive-Eagle900,"A disappointment I’ve been feeling sad and I told my parents and they’re now disappointed of me, I can’t stop myself from feeling depressed and now I’m also a disappointment, please help I can’t stop wishing to die",1,1734176027,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hciqow/i_know_killing_myself_is_selfish_so_why_do_i_keep/,Competitive-Set5051,"I know killing myself is selfish so why do I keep thinking about it? I've been switching from wanting to die and wanting to live just for other people, it's so exhausting",2,1734001507,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp8su3/reminder/,Complex_Trouble_6596,"Reminder Keep going. Nothing I can say is gonna change it for most of us so just keep going, whatever that means to each person.",0,1735514247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haj5yl/i_always_come_back_to_these_dark_thoughts_i_just/,ComprehensivePie9542,"I always come back to these dark thoughts. I just want peace I truly feel that death is the only way we’ll ever reach peace. No matter how much I seem to improve I always have a dark voice telling me life is pointless, I’ll always be depressed no matter how much therapy I seek out, how much I work on myself. My brain just resorts to darkness. I’m tired of it. I just don’t want to live. I want peace. I have nothing going for me professionally. I have an entire degree that I can’t seem to use. I’ve disappointed every single person that ever loved me. I feel like such a loser. I don’t see a purpose to life ",2,1733775280,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfkxiw/regret/,Connect-Work4295,Regret For those that survived - do you regret not having left a letter?,0,1734361105,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoeuge/dont_want_to_live_anymore/,Conscious-Buy-6204,Dont want to live anymore Had a really aweful and constricting life with uncaring parents and world that was aweful and cruel. A lot to say but im just looking for someone to talk to rn. No suicide hotline in my country unfortunately. Ideally a call. Dont want to send a million messages.,1,1735418674,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl49se/i_cant_do_this_anymore/,Conscious-Egg-5288,I can’t do this anymore I can’t feel like this anymore I am in so much pain and every day is a struggle and I don’t know what to do or where to go and I just need help. i’ve been praying to god to just take me I can’t do this. please someone help me ,1,1735009269,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpeep3/grief_depression/,Conscious-Glass-409,"Grief depression I lost my mom four months ago and am struggling with complicated grief. I've thought of taking matters into my own hands and ending my pain I don't feel like the pain will ever go away. I was empty before the loss but now it's intensified it Nothing makes sense ",2,1735530984,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpcua/how_and_what_pills_can_i_take_to_off_myself/,Constant_Spread6194,How and what pills can I take to off myself during sleep on my birthday? Serious question. Someone here is bound to know a method with 100% success rate. Either provide the details or fuck off with your support,5,1735334659,5.0,5.0,4.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkgsyb/its_either_suicide_or_the_rest_of_my_natural_life/,ContactStill9724,"It's either suicide or the rest of my natural life in prison (no in between) I (28M) have broken quite a bit of laws, most of them minor, but a few major nonos that would probably get you severely beaten up in prison, if not killed anyway. Also, I might also do time in federal prison apart from state prison. So for me, it's live free or die. And guess I'll die.",2,1734931013,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgrc20/why_cant_i_die/,Content-Leg-8258,"Why can’t I die God please kill me, I can’t describe this pain I just don’t wanna exist. Please!! Why are the ways that will work so painful why can’t NyQuil or pills work!! Why can’t I escape this pain!",3,1734488148,5.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfnq1/just_that/,Content_Arm3085,"just that I can't do it anymore . Idk how to express my feelings ,but I know it feels like shit . I never been happy even if everything is ok I'm not , I want to rest to not feel pain in my heart everyday nor scared I just want peace,",1,1733873655,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hopbub/worst_fucking_birthday/,Correct-Captain5826,worst fucking birthday Today was my 18th birthday. It was so bad. Everyone canceled on me. So I canceled my birthday party I cried all morning. My dad got me nothing as a gift. I was so sad the afternoon my mom pulled me by my hair and I was on the bed and dragged me to the ground and started punching me repeatedly. I was crying and yelling and telling her to stop. I guess she was also frustrated cause she prepared some of the birthday decorations but I feel so so so awful. I just want to die. I’ve been struggling so much this year this was an end point. ,1,1735450941,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4tglt/im_failing_school/,Correct_Ability2718,"I’m failing school I always wanted to get a good score on the finals and get to a good university. Now this dream is crumbling as i’m failing, and that is all my fault, i got OCD out of nowhere when i was in elementary school, done nothing to cure it, and it developed, i lack self discipline, done nothing about it, addicted to social media and video games, done nothing about it, my teacher told me ways to overcome my problems, ironically, my lack of self discipline makes me forget about it, my pronouns addiction that i had caused many of these problems, and now I have alot of suicidal thoughts.",2,1733141115,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn66k3/suicidal_but_only_sometimes/,CourageRound7055,"suicidal but only sometimes I'm not at the point to where I feel it's necessary but I don't see myself living past 25 years old i don't have a girlfriend I've never had a girlfriend and my theory is what is the point in life if you can't find a soulmate my dream is to have a wife and kids but I'm starting to accept the fact that I will always be lonely I thought about it how I would do it at least once or twice a day. I would do it with a shotgun, but I don't want to make my mom heartbroken has anyone else been in this type of situation?",3,1735271394,5.0,3.0,3.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbh9ho/goodbye/,CrazyG0thQueen,"Goodbye Gonna lie my head down on train-tracks soon. Thanks for everything, sorry Bye.",6,1733878197,5.0,4.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj8ris/wtf_do_i_do_like_fcking_seriously/,Creative-Midnight594,Wtf do I do like fcking seriously I feel like I’m aimless purposeless useless I can’t love properly meaning I can’t form real attachments I don’t seem to be able to feel truly happy and exist in a state of dissociation nothing particularly feels real to me I watch other people form meaningful emotional attachments and can’t do the same I truly despise myself and truly feel I could calmly fire a gun through my skull jump of a cliff etc. I don’t particularly see the point to live to an old age I’ve also had the realisation that if I felt myself dying and I had the chance to call for help I wouldn’t and would prefer to just disappear ,3,1734783610,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1how95e/just_want_some_guidance/,Creative_Option_3867,"Just want some guidance Why do I feel depressed and suicidal when I have nothing actually wrong, or When things are actually finally looking up Why am I just so miserable and lonely when I'm surrounded by some of my closest friends I honestly just don't know what's wrong with me at this point any guidance would be muchly appreciate ",1,1735479775,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk8z6v/i_tried_ending_myself_last_night/,Creepy-Expert4174,"I tried ending myself last night. I don't know what to do anymore, some random person I met on VR who I don't even know talked me out of it, they care about me more than my actual parents do. Whenever i talk to my parents about it, they brush it off and say ""you're not actually going to do it"" they were right, I couldn't do it. It's too selfish of me to do that. Just hearing someone say ""are you okay?"" just makes me have a mental breakdown. I can no longer view myself the same anymore, its sickening",6,1734905141,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkb1mj/my_friend_od_on_alprazolam_will_she_be_okay/,Creepy-Locksmith-767,"My friend OD on alprazolam, will she be okay? Hi, as you can see from the title, my friend OD herself on alprazolam She took 32 0.5 mg alprazolam and I’m just really wondering what are the side effects on that? I just received a call that she OD herself and as of now, they already called an ambulance but will she be okay? I’m sorry for asking this here, I want to know more about it. I’m worried especially that I can’t visit here cos I’m currently in another country right now.",0,1734911374,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhd1qv/xanax/,Critical_Article3446,"Xanax I was thinking of ways to go, and i remembered i had a stash of xanax in my home country from a psychiatrist i saw. I am going back there in 3 days for Christmas break, thinking of bringing it back where I live. How does it feel like to overdose on it? Can it work with some alcohol? I always think of doing something, but then I never go through with it. I know won’t this time as well. I am just very tired, and the thought of always having a way out comforts me. Thank you. ",3,1734559288,5.0,5.0,4.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf2v8v/drugs/,Curious_Butterfly_86,"Drugs I have 50mg oxycodone and hundreds of nortriptyline, what would happen if I take them all together?",3,1734298109,5.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhvuib/im_tired_of_living/,CuteAndCreepyDaemos,"I'm tired of living I'm just done with all this crap, all this slander and bullying and false accusations, it feels like no one is on my side, I'm just done. I'm to mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted to keep going",1,1734623444,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpinjb/wife_is_probably_cheating/,Damage7144,Wife is probably cheating. My wife and I have been doing through a hard time. I found out she's texting someone that I don't know. The caller I.D comes up as a guy. She all of a sudden has been going to the gym and now has been there for 4 hours. It's 3am. Yes I know the gym is 24 hours but she's never had intrest in the gym before. I tried confronting her and she has a excuse for everything but refuses to send me proof when I ask for it. I don't want to be without her but I feel like it's already over.,0,1735546782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl1bev/i_just_need_a_vent_outlet_i_guess/,DamageRoutine7856,"I just need a vent outlet i guess. It consumes me, the darkness, heavy as night, My soul drifts endlessly, devoid of light, I carry meaningless burdens created by flesh, Yet they consume me nonetheless, Wishing for meaning, I end up screaming, I cry out trapped in an endless web, I reach out for light but only shadows ebb, Resented by those around me, I’m left alone, in a sea of misery, Yearning for peace. I must find my release. Wrote a poem of my thoughts, it’s mediocre but felt like how I needed to express myself",1,1734999545,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn91nl/could_chugging_nausea_medicine_kill_you/,Dangerous_Ferret_469,"could chugging nausea medicine kill you probably obvious why i'm asking and some context -bullied constantly -my parents are both bipolar and emotionally/mentally abusive -my parents treat literally everyone else but me nicely even though I do what they ask -ptsd from multiple occurrences of SA to me",3,1735281716,5.0,5.0,4.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9s91x/hey_you/,Dark-nessFalling,"Hey you! Yes you, reading this post. I know you dont feel well, being on this sub and all. Trust me, i know that feeling. I also know its hard not being heard, screaming into the void. So, here's the deal: if there is anything you want to talk about, you need anyone to just acknowledge you, to listen, talk to me, comment, whatever you have to do to get something off your chest. And if you decide not to, just know you're not alone, even if it may feel like it, you got an internet stranger rooting for you! Love you, mean it <3",0,1733690443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6llcb/i_just_cant_see_any_light_at_the_end_of_the_tunnel/,DarzAlz,"I just can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel Articles, posts or messages telling me to continue living for the sake of seeing how beautiful the world can be, how things will change for the better, or the day I find someone who will love me are all BS. I don’t see the light that leads to happiness. Happiness is waiting for me? I don’t think so. ",1,1733332975,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhrjuq/i_have_never_had_a_friend/,Dazzling_Plastic_745,I have never had a friend The only pleasure I can exact from anything is by being bitter and mean. Schadenfreude is the only thing that makes me happy. I have the right to be a misanthrope. Why should I give anyone anything? I don't care how many people's hopes and dreams I trample on to get where I want to be. I just don't care. ,0,1734610310,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8vygy/almost_killed_myself/,Deep-Hearing-3258,"Almost killed myself There’s a post on my page explaining the story and I don’t feel like telling it again, but I almost killed myself about an hour after my now ex ended the call where he broke up with me. I was cutting and self harming in other ways and I almost climbed over my balcony railing and threw myself off. It was so close. I was talked down by a friend but it’s still in me. I want him back. We talked again (I didn’t tell him) and he said that we might have a chance to try again in the future but we might not. I don’t know what to do holding onto that hope isn’t working.",6,1733588472,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhbq5y/i_am_a_bad_person/,Defiant_Hat_68,"I am a bad person I want to kill myself, my friends all hate me and I have no future ",2,1734555811,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdmzo8/i_want_this_to_stop/,DeleriousBeanz,"I want this to stop I ruin everything I can’t take it anymore. The paranoia, the moodswings, the anxiety. I can’t do this. I ruin everything without thinking. It’s killing me that I can never seem to be a good friend anymore. I just want everything to do dark and quiet.",1,1734125800,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg4des/committing/,Delicious-Camel5141,"committing honestly, I just done being poor, I didn't choice to be born. I hate that this is how my life is going, I hate that my parents never considered me as a person, just an extension to themselves. This has affected me in so many ways, specifically mostly because I have never been able to make close friend due to the moving around, nor have I ever had extracurriculars. I just don't want to be here ",1,1734415867,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiffmz/thinking_about_it/,Delicious_Resort2725,"Thinking about it I want to end it, I'm so depressed. 3 months postpartum. My relationship is horrible. The only thing is my daughter. My depressed mood is just going go ruin Christmas I don't want to have to pretend to be happy. Idk what to do I don't want to be here anymore",2,1734683368,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6r0qq/committing_suicide_isnt_that_bad/,DemonKingMao01,"Committing suicide isn’t that bad I’m in a psyche ward typing this I tried to cut my carotid artery. The knife went pretty deep into my neck but didn’t really hurt. My next attempt will be with antifreeze(ethylene glycol) I’m not afraid and I really want my life to end. I have Charles bonnet disease and it’s been pretty fun. Now the hallucinations are dying down I have no issue with ending my life. Ik I sound real lonely but social relationships aren’t what I want they’re pretty overrated if you ask me. I really want the sweet nothingness of death ",6,1733345974,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5dp7h/i_survived_the_trauma_but_i_cant_survive_myself/,DepressedTerrestrial,"I survived the trauma but I can’t survive myself I’m so exhausted. I don’t think I can make it to Christmas, or tomorrow. All I think about all day is dying. I can’t even cry anymore, I’m broken. I’ve been sitting outside in the snow for an hour letting the flakes land on my face, so I almost feel like I’m crying. It’s a beautiful night. I’m kind of just sitting here, and I don’t really care how far I go. I wonder when I’ll quit shivering.",2,1733195173,4.0,6.0,2.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlaxq7/colostomy_bag_life/,DescriptionHour3243,"Colostomy bag life I am 31 years old, never had a girlfriend let alone any regular friends (both of my gender and the opposite). When I was 24 my intestines twisted together and no one would help me for 5 years. I have a colostomy bag hanging off my side now, my question now is should I just kill myself? ",2,1735036317,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6xi3y/i_have_to_live_with_my_abuser_again/,Designer-Pianist5291,"i have to live with my abuser again i lived with an abusive relative my entire life. he got into a freak accident and is now considered physically disabled and requires living assistance. my family placed him in a nursing home for a time, where he was notorious for throwing tantrums and sexually harrassing the caretakers. currently, they can’t afford the nursing home anymore so he’s back home with us. whenever i see or hear him i just want to either kill him or myself. it seems the latter is the better option, given how my family seems to prioritize him over the mental health of me and my siblings. i’m just tired of it all. i wish i could sleep and never wake up. ",2,1733362885,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xa33/feeling_pretty_fucking_terrible_also_fuck/,Desire-4-Comfort,"Feeling pretty fucking terrible. Also fuck Borderline Naive me hoped things would improve yet here I am, only getting more reasons to try again. People toying with my fucking feelings. I'm convinced people only bond with me to then drop me like a sack of brick with the sun's gravity because I'm so fucking sure people love seeing my pain. I'm sure they come together and laugh about it. I hate trusting people. I hate this pain. Fucked up childhood, adulthood can't be good either I guess. I just want to give it all up.",2,1733257743,2.0,4.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgl6lq/contemplating/,DesolateLand_,Contemplating Im really distressed and scared at the moment. I have one “friend” who recently has been encouraging me to commit and its severely triggered me. Today I relapsed after auditorial hallucinations told me to and now they are saying to me to commit suicide. I’ve swallowed 2 of the pills to overdose but couldn’t bring myself to take the rest. Im afraid of giving in and I am struggling to restrain myself from hurting anyone. I physically cannot bring myself to say to anyone. Please help me.,6,1734470550,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h813jq/i_wish_i_could_kill_myself_i_wish_it_wasnt/,DesperateGuarantee28,"I wish I could kill myself. I wish it wasn’t religiously forbidden. I understand some of you guys are nonreligious but as a Muslim, religion is a big part of my life but unfortunately suicide is forbidden like it is in Christianity I presume. I feel like I’ve worked hard enough. It’s time for me to rest. I’m out of gas. You die a hero or live long enough to become a villain. ",2,1733490929,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haskx7/disease_ruined_my_body_and_i_cant_cope/,Devastated47,"Disease ruined my body and I can't cope In the very beginning of this year I went through a traumatic divorce. I made myself sick with stress and got diabetes. The depression caused me to lose A LOT of weight rapidly, too rapidly. It caused some irreversible damage and destroyed my self esteem. I can never be intimate again. I went from a healthy, plump,good looking woman with all her shit together to a sickly, shrunken mess on disability and had to move in with my mom. I am so fucking depressed and just want to die.This is no quality of life. Emotional pain cuts deeper than a knife sometimes...",1,1733801487,2.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj2lwa/pregnant_having_real_suicidal_thoughts_scared/,Dietcherrycokke,"Pregnant having real suicidal thoughts. Scared. https://www.reddit.com/r/mentalhealth/s/KpmpbvSRhb I posted this on the mental health subreddit but posting here too bc i genuinely feel like i have 0 will to live and nobody to vent to. Thanks",2,1734756940,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h576m4/i_really_cant_do_this_anymore_i_just_want_to_be/,DifferentAvocado7249,"I really cant do this anymore. I just want to be happy. Was laid of from my job, havent eaten, no money, no job, no family, no friends. Im all alone theres is no point to any of this. Im tired ive struggled my whole life in and out through homelessness. The jobs in my area dont even pay me enough to have a car or my own place. Im so done with this.",1,1733176997,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hejbyf/cocaine_addiction/,Diligent-Ad8978,Cocaine addiction Someone Is addicted to cocaine?,0,1734231315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3qjv0/night_walk/,DimensionBreaker4lif,"Night walk Intentionally got myself raped and beaten up last night. Had a huge fight with the only person close to me and I feel like I just wanna die. Went for a walk at like 12AM-ish half hour to a shady-ass station. No trains were running unfortunately so I asked the nearest group of guys to just beat me up till I’m dead. They took me under a random bridge nearby and started punching, kicking, etc. eventually they all just fucked me and left me in the dirt. Got back around 4 in the morning. I’m in so much pain. Just been smoking since I got home. I don’t know why I’m posting this.",6,1733012609,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ki4n/i_need_help/,DimitriosKatsikas,"I need help People care, but I stopped caring. I don’t know how to get that passion for life back. It’s so scary, but when I feel the emptiness every morning when I wake up it makes me want to end it all. Help, please. ",2,1733669700,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h60fq6/will_i_get_help_uk/,Direct_Tennis_5779,will i get help UK if i cut my wrists and go to a&e will they help me? will they believe me? i need to be on a psych ward and nothing else is working. i just need help. ,3,1733265591,5.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6avo7/starting_to_feel_like_suicide_is_the_only_option/,DisastrousDeal1375,"starting to feel like suicide is the only option. i cant eat, i cant drink anything and i cannot even think straight. i am so tired of my life and of this world. this world is shit and i deserve better than this. i’m debating admitting myself but i don’t know. i’m scared to bring it up to my mom.",2,1733298481,1.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hev1my/does_shooting_myself_with_a_hunting_rifle/,DisastrousPraline207,Does shooting myself with a hunting rifle paralyze me It's propably buckshot or less ,3,1734276967,5.0,5.0,4.0,,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi82wq/i_want_to_kill_myself_because_of_misandry/,Disastrous_Average91,"I want to kill myself because of misandry I know you will say I’m dramatic but I can’t help the way I feel. Maybe I am too sensitive, I just feel like I wasn’t made to live in this world. I will never be ok. I hate it so much I can’t deal with it. ",2,1734656448,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hahj2h/i_need_help/,Dismal_Importance391,"I need help I am having intrusive thoughts of ripping all of my hair out, taking all of my medication at once, and other various things. I’m not sure if I’m actually suicidal or if I just want to get away from everything. I need help but no one can or will help me. I have no one I can really talk to about this. My grandparents will get mad at me for having these thoughts. I am 20 and female",3,1733771221,3.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5vhxs/i_hope_i_dont_wake_up_tomorrow/,Dismal_Living482758,I hope I don't wake up tomorrow I just want everything to stop,1,1733253487,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hepto4/someone_talk_to_me/,DistinctAd591,Someone talk to me It’s my birthday and this is the worst ive felt in my life,0,1734258140,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hehuc6/i_cant_continue_to_live_next_year_i_hate_my_life/,Diz_ishere,"I can’t continue to live next year, i hate my life too much is going to happen, too much shit i don’t wanna do. the only way that this can end smoothly is if i just don’t exist so i don’t have to be forced to do things i don’t want to do",1,1734226220,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4mrt0/can_someone_talk/,Dizzy_Living3824,can someone talk? please,0,1733113729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpzxx1/od_on_paracetamol/,Dizzy_Variation_8943,Od on paracetamol?? so i just took 5 pills like a couple of minutes ago and i know it wouldn’t do anything to the average person but i have kidney problems so im wondering if i OD and should be worried,6,1735599174,0.0,6.0,4.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6zcx1/i_have_never_felt_so_close/,Dolphin-Aesthetic,"I have never felt so close. I have a plan. I’m just waiting for the result of a relationship conflict. Depending on what it is, I’ll be doing it. I have not told anyone involved about my plan. I’m not using it to manipulate anyone. I’ve been suicide baited in past relationships myself and it’s a really shitty thing to do. I am a burden to everyone and my existence only complicates things. When I die, while it may be sad, a lot of the problems that I cause won’t be anyone’s concern anymore. And I won’t feel like such a colossal fuck-up. I won’t feel anything. That’s the exchange.",5,1733368323,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb509t/suicide_on_my_birthday/,DoodleSofa29,"Suicide on my birthday These feelings are so overwhelming. I’ve already cut my arm extremely bad, it’s dripping. Give me something to latch onto, I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.",6,1733846388,1.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbu0g0/i_dont_want_to_live_anymore/,Double_Iron3872,"I don't want to live anymore Well, I just wrote my suicide letter. I've been crying for a while now. I thought getting a diagnosis to why I'm like this would help but of course my behavior has caused damage in the past so even with a diagnosis and prescribed medication I'm still hurting because of mistakes of my past. I can't do it anymore, I'm so scared but at the same time I feel it's the right thing to do. I'm so lost",5,1733925421,6.0,5.0,6.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb9cqk/ive_lost_so_much/,DowntownAfternoon758,"I've lost so much Partners Friends Family I just feel so broken. Like grief has swallowed me whole. And there will only be more to come in life. I just want this to all be over.",1,1733857344,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjgasu/have_been_told_im_ugly_and_its_haunting_me/,Dramatic_Rough_3694,"Have been told I’m ugly and it’s haunting me I have been told basically my whole life growing up that im ugly…. How does anyone else feel who faced something similar? How do you keep remind that you’re worthy? I tried my best from a while but I guess due to the holidays seasons and no work or classes. My empty mind is having such feelings again. Please share your experience how you helped to have mental peace please I want to live. 25M if that matter ",0,1734806837,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h53clu/i_think_i_almost_killed_myself/,Dreadershredder,I think I almost killed myself In class the other day I almost cut my wrist with scissors but did it on my thumb first for whatever reason and it bled quite a bit so am I just overreacting or did I almost do it ,6,1733167625,6.0,6.0,4.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbwbrh/at_this_point_again/,DrowningKites,"At this point, again I have severe OCD and my family is once again terribly mad at me, every days miserable just compulsions to get rid of my stress. All day every day. Family fucking hates it. Don’t they know I do too? My girl isn’t around right now so I can’t even ask her about her secret “guy friend”, fuck knows really Fuck knows why I’m typing here. Just want someone to talk 2. ",0,1733931812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoojup/took_too_much/,Dry-Lobster-6652,Took too much I took 4000mg ibuprofen in an attempt then 5 hrs later I forced myself to throw up will I be okay I'm sorry if this is against the subreddit I'm really scared,6,1735448156,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmcqns/merry_christmas/,Dry-Seaweed-2600,"merry christmas this will be my 17th christmas alone and I thought and it is equally as suffocating as the last. even if youre alone this season, im happy youre here, so merry christmas ",0,1735173006,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8tc1z/overdosing/,Dry-Wrangler-1179,Overdosing Is it Possible to overdose on antidepressants?,0,1733580854,0.0,3.0,2.0,0.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdgw81/i_dont_have_any_plans_to_live_on_after_my_30s/,Dry_Breadfruit9236,"I don't have any plans to live on after my 30s U may ask my specifically 30s right? Well it's enough for my siblings to complete graduation and they start there own life, it's all I have want in my life now. I'm currently 23, completed my graduation this year and only working parttime and not got full time yet. I m depressed since age of 10 and has social anxiety. I don't feel much emotions now, don't have any romantic feeling for anyone and even don't care about most of people. I just want my siblings to have better opportunities and better choices to make in life. I know i sound stupid but it's all truth. ",1,1734109602,0.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hog1xi/im_just_done_with_this_and_ill_probably_kms/,DueWhereas7354,"I'm just done with this and I'll probably kms I don't really feel anything just stress anger and no happiness and all I do is be on my phone or masturbate I just don't even feel attached to anyone I'm just done with being...although I'm still young and I should be enjoying life...I just don't have feelings... And my school is shit my sleep schedule ruined and I'm sick with asthma I just don't know what to do... I've had a final destination and that was to go to Japan and kms but it's so far ahead and I just don't want to endure all this pain and suffering....",3,1735422024,4.0,4.0,2.0,5.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmc4kq/how_to_find_people_like_you_guys_irl/,Due_Count_9572,How to find people like you guys irl I know we're not allowed to reach out to specific people on this sub to meet up. But does anyone have any advice for finding a group of people in real life who understands the way you guys do? I appreciate this sub but online isn't enough. I don't have social media anymore and I'm not willing to get it. No friends no boyfriend no one to ask. I tried looking up support groups and similar in the dmv area and found nothing. ,0,1735170982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5scjy/no_duty_to_report/,DurianFuzzy2586,"No duty to report Are there any resources without a duty to report, even if there is a clear plan to harm yourself or others?",0,1733245700,0.0,5.0,5.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hab5rl/just_please_help_me_end_it/,Dying_person,"just please help me end it i got everything ready, but i just cannot bring myself to finally kill myself. there is nothing to live for, i'm a failure and an utter dissapointment to everyone. sure it will be hard on everyone, but they'll get over quick. im such a coward I can't even finish the job, I'm scared I'd survive or get a call. just please give me courage, advice, i'm scared, i hate feeling like this.",5,1733755179,,5.0,6.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhf1ky/i_think_the_only_way_to_fix_what_i_have_done/,DyspraxicSelfHarmer,I think the only way to fix what I have done wrong is to die See title ,2,1734564713,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5dzs7/analyzing_everything/,Easy_Ocelot_1582,"Analyzing everything I can’t help but overthink and analyze everything, especially social situations. I try to read if people are angry and annoyed with me and one awkward moment would send me into a spiral of intense suicidal thoughts. It’s exhausting cause it’s every conversation I have with someone. I just want peace, I don’t want to live with this anxiety and the constant belittling of myself. I’m so fucking tired but nobody knows that. I put on a mask and trudge thru the day. This turned into a vent but thanks to whoever read ",2,1733196082,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hopajy/i_dont_like_being_a_man_im_not_trans/,Economy-Category6740,"I don't like being a man, I'm not trans I don't like being a man. I think it has made me a bad person. I know it sounds like an excuse for bad behavior but I haven't done anything wrong, it's more I just have very unpleasant thoughts. I'm basically an incel even though I have a gf. Idk if anyone can relate but I need to talk to someone about this. I'm so depressed ",0,1735450808,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7l9ko/im_so_scared/,Educational-Ad3077,I'm so scared I don't want to die but I don't know how to deal with this pain. It's 11pm and I don't know if I should go to the hospital or an emergency clinic because I'm scared to be alone and I don't know what to do anymore. I want to go back to a clinic but it's too expensive and I don't know if our insurance will approve it again. If I kill myself tonight I won't ever get to talk to my parents again because if I called them they would know. I'm scared that if I make my friends take care of me they'll leave.,2,1733436370,2.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnerk0/hello/,Educational-Bee-6396,"Hello I don't know why but I just don't feel like this. Life is worth it anymore. I just can't wrap my head around it. I don't Wanna be here anymore. I have no real reason why I just don't wanna be here anymore. It's so weird.",1,1735305777,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h780ne/friendships/,Educational-Fee-5398,"friendships Friendships are something I never had an never will. I'm 17 and I was held back twice cause of how stupid I am. As you can imagine, I walk around while being simply ignored by everyone or laughed at occasionally. My mom isn't supportive of me and my dads gone. Aside from all that I have always had terrible social skills, all throughout my life, and I look absolutely hideous. There's no one to blame except me for having no friendships. Others have it worse so why complain",0,1733401575,0.0,0.0,2.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1herpf3/if_anyone_could_listen_to_what_s_happening_in_my/,Educational-Put2886,If anyone could listen to what s happening in my life and tell me the options. I would gladly talk to them before anything happens. Add meee .,0,1734266127,0.0,0.0,2.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf8i10/i_feel_in_my_heart_i_gave_up/,Effective-Election82,"I feel in my heart I gave up I don't care anymore about fighting , I just want to screw up relationship with my family just so I can finally kill myself. They won't be able to understand otherwise ",4,1734314544,4.0,4.0,4.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5koeh/cut_my_wrists_so_im_just_waiting_to_die/,Effective-Sriker343,"Cut my wrists so I’m just waiting to die I got pissed because I’m 17 and can’t do shit everyone else can who is younger so I’m just gonna end it, but I doubt it since I always pussy out after a couple times",6,1733222672,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1honodr/maybe_life_just_aint_for_me_ive_tried_it_out_for/,EffectiveSign5140,"Maybe life just ain't for me. I've tried it out for plenty of time and I don't think it's worth living. I still need time and preparation to die how I want to, so maybe something will change until then? I doubt it.",3,1735445126,4.0,5.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ebh0/can_it_make_me_braindead/,Efficient-Question95,"Can it make me braindead? I've got about 40 pills of venlafaxine and I plan to OD soon, didn't do it yet because i'm afraid it'll make me braindead instead of just killing me",5,1733197133,6.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiezae/i_give_up_im_finally_killing_myself/,EkaterinaKuznetsov,I give up. I'm finally killing myself I've chugged an entire bottle of smirnoff and am about to sl*t my wirst to die. im so tired of living and i decided to give up because nothing will ever get better. i wish my life turned out better but i chose the wrong path. 18 years on this planet is long enoug for me,6,1734681262,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcwb11/im_just_kinda_over_it/,Electrical-Soup-7248,"I'm just kinda over it I'm just tired of putting in so much effort for so little return. I work hard, I put all of my energy into being a good, supportive, emotionally available father/husband/friend and I can't put my finger on when, but at some point I stopped feeling like it's working, I don't get any satisfaction out of anything in my life anymore, I don't feel like anyone is pouring back into me and I'm just fucking empty. I feel like everyone would be better off if I'd just finally end it.",2,1734039934,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb99gv/helium_suicide/,Electrical-Treat9306,"Helium Suicide If I were to kill my self with helium, do I need a specific type of helium tank and is there any other things I need to do or consider",5,1733857138,5.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjbvq7/i_hate_who_i_am_i_dont_know_why_im_like_this_im/,Electrical_Curve758,"i hate who i am, i don't know why im like this. Im ruining everything. idk",0,1734794341,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hohxyr/this_is_it_i_guess/,Electronic-Elephant2,"This is it I guess Locked myself in the bathroom and decided to setup my goodbye device using a belt and tie. Since this is my first i hope it works. In the meantime i got my wife and kids in the living room going on with their lives without a single clue on whats on my mind. Good bye fucked up world. Hope we never meet again.",6,1735427353,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcbc96/i_am_as_close_as_ive_ever_been/,Electronic_Bug_5500,"I am as close as I’ve ever been I legally emigrated to a better country than my own a year ago, and now my permanency here is extremely doubtful since the paperwork to remain here is complicated. I just cannot live back in my home country, I cannot face that reality after a year of living a much better reality. Is suicide justified in this case?",2,1733971729,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hobd9u/can_someone_please_talk_to_me/,Electronic_Choice808,"can someone please talk to me i dont want to soapbox here but can someone please please talk to me, im doing really really badly and id really appreciate someone right now",0,1735409238,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha20br/letting_go_is_so_hard/,Elitahh,"letting go is so hard. I'm ready and I don't fear it really. Ive fantasized forever about it. I live alone, it'd be easy - nobody would find me for some time. maybe im bitter that this is the way it has to be. Bitter that i won't be missed or thought about. That i never got to do much. I know ive already put it off too long, borrowed more time than i deserve. Numbed myself as long as i could. It's the right thing to do. I just need to let go. Then it finally stops aching. Then everything stops. Relief. Advice?",4,1733719697,5.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpujlu/i_am_tired/,Embarrassed_Age_5647,"I am tired i no longer feel human, i am a failure, a lost soul in this world, i do not want to live anymore, i hate my life and i hate being pushed around, 21 years are already too much for me, only alcohol keeps me going, bo longer my pills or therapies work, i feel tired, for how long i rest, sleep or make time for myself, i do not feel ok, i am tired",1,1735585160,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h84f80/will_this_work/,EmergencyCautious509,"Will this work? I have 900mg of codeine phosphate, 10mg of diazepam and a shit ton of alcohol. Will it be enough to end my life? I recently tried around 300-400mg of morphine and it didn't work maybe cuz I have too much body weight (80kg) so I'm hoping this time it'll work.",6,1733500335,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1holy5j/financial_stress_taking_a_toll/,EmotionalBag9669,"Financial stress taking a toll. I'm feeling overwhelmed and struggling. I live with my parents and siblings, but our finances are dire. I used my bursary money to help out at home, and now I'm facing a delay in my graduation until I can repay it. We've missed utility bills, and my parents' business is struggling. I'm feeling hopeless. I've been applying for jobs and internships, but it's all feeling like too much. Honestly, some days I wish I could just sleep and not wake up. Just needed to vent and get this off my chest. ",1,1735439358,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hezbxl/killing_myself_soon/,Emrmemr,Killing myself soon. Im tired of trying to love through life im desperate for the release of death. If I don't die I'm running away at least to follow the will of god. Nobody can stop me and nobody will stop me. ,4,1734288565,4.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj0tjk/i_destroyed_it_all/,Eneouement,"I destroyed it all. My friend is in a loving relationship with a girl. I don’t approve of her for some of my own reasons. Recently I got carried away and said some extremely personal insults about his girl behind his back. It got back to him and he was so extremely hurt. That’s justification to kill myself surely right?",2,1734750424,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmpgda/i_dont_want_to_exist/,EnigmaticJ,I don’t want to exist I never want to feel this lonely during the holidays again. I never want to feel this lonely because of a partner or where I am in life. I just don’t see the point anymore. ,1,1735223439,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5mjc0/your_best_friend_might_be_suicidal_in_secret_today/,Enough_Series_7026,Your best friend might be suicidal in secret today. It costs nothing to be kind to others.,0,1733229775,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h91d2l/shove_political_correctness_up_your_ass/,Entire-Inside-6858,"shove political correctness up your ass People have the right to talk about it, without anyone questioning or censoring them, Reddit has become a politically correct whorehouse with these little words about culture wolk, and the fuck, etc., if someone wants to commit this act, they should be accompanied and supported.",0,1733603078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4d8dt/she_did_it/,Entire_Leopard6794,"she did it… hi this is june, i was the owner of this account’s sister, she took her own life on friday, her birthday. she really was a great person and sister, we were very close. she wanted to kill herself because her best friend did, and she was in pain due to sexual and physical abuse. she struggled with self harm and depression, but she tried her best to keep her spirits up. she was and still is the person that understood me best.",6,1733086393,2.0,0.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hff4t4/i_feel_like_a_fuck_up_i_feel_like_a_failure/,Erica192859,"I feel like a fuck up. I feel like a failure https://ibb.co/FwTs5Y3 It's every fucking day .but I hope I get better",0,1734339810,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hasj5e/i_dont_think_im_going_to_be_here_by_the_end_of/,ErrorAchilles404,"I don’t think I’m going to be here by the end of December I have nothing to live for anymore, my boyfriend of two years broke up with me, I dropped out because I was too stupid for community college, I destroy everyone who I come in contact with, if things don’t get better soon I think I’ll be dead by the end of December. The only reason I’m waiting is because my best friend wants to see Nosferatu with me. That’s the only reason I’m here",2,1733801328,4.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7dixg/i_dont_know_whats_the_point_anymore/,EstablishmentIcy4679,"I don’t know what’s the point anymore Lost my licence, I’m too drained to do anything helpful around the house. I feel like a huge failure, a waste of space and a useless person. I can’t see any outcome that my life will be good. I’m only 19, but I’ve just suffered so much to get to this point I don’t see a reason to keep going ",1,1733417120,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4q1ho/help/,Euphoric-Talk-9155,help can someone just talk to me? please. ,0,1733126346,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hliatt/prob_will_kill_myself/,EuphoricChemical7899,"Prob will kill myself If I’m still a nobody living the same cycle in the next four years I probably will kill my self (work,sleep,repeat) I find it insane how people just accept the fact that we live to work idk.",2,1735061495,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp679o/if_you_would_want_the_plug_pulled_if_you_were_on/,Euphoric_Present3947,"if you would want the plug pulled if you were on life support, why should I have to live when I have no will to I think I realized that I’m not living for myself, but for others. If it was up to me I wouldn’t want to be",1,1735507311,1.0,1.0,3.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl2znr/im_genuinely_not_a_good_person/,Even_Dress4434,"I’m genuinely not a good person I’m an alcoholic who behaves terribly when drunk (flirting with others even though I have a partner, being dismissive and rude to my friends, not giving a shit about anyone around me). My alcohol problems stem from trauma and trying to escape flashbacks but it’s not an excuse. I don’t feel as though I can ever rid myself of this addiction or the reputation I have created for myself. I really do think I’m beyond redemption and I am desperate to not feel this way anymore and now I feel like I want to sleep and never wake up. ",1,1735004926,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho18ly/the_thoughts_hurt_so_bad/,Evening-Ad8751,the thoughts hurt so bad the intrusive and dark thoughts are getting harder to keep at bay. trying to surprise them is causing immense physical pain and torture. regardless of what i’m thinking of or doing at the moment i’m constantly plagued by the thoughts and imagery of hanging myself out in the backyard and when i try to push it away it feels like needles and knives stabbing through my body.,3,1735373356,3.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkgtq4/sesame_chicken/,Evening-Arm5327,"Sesame Chicken This is for my favorite woman who I will share the rest of my life with! She loves Chinese food especially sesame chicken! Hoping she finds this in case she loses her way to me ❤️ She should know I am lucky enough to find her in my life and she is truly seen and deserves to be! ",0,1734931092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbl0nf/18_m_because_i_think_im_going_to_fail_college/,Excellent-Finish-166,"18 M Because I think I'm going to fail College I have a scholarship that is letting me go to college for free, my mom wants me to go so I don't have a (in her words) shitty job like her. I don't want to disappoint her and I'm scared because I might fail. It seems rushed but it's because I'm typing through tears right now./",0,1733889812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4of9b/i_dont_want_to_keep_waking_up/,Exciting_Ad_3534,"i dont want to keep waking up. i feel like i can't breathe, my mind feels trapped in a cage of constant stress, where i'm constantly scatterbrained with any and everything to help me forget about how hellish my life actually is. my body is just moving through the motions of life without my conscious being there. every time, in school, at home, nobody really cares for who i really am. they care abt this persona, this made-up masked version of me where i'm this energetic and constantly happy and cheerful person but i'm not. i'm miserable, bitter, angry. i'm a horrible person and i know i'm going to hell for it but the care in me just isn't seemingly working. ",1,1733119637,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcxe9l/im_so_over_it/,ExitWooden5837,"i'm so over it. i have borderline personality disorder. lost my fp and best friend of 5 years a few months ago, she cut contact with me. it's too much to bear. i have 0 friends 0 people to talk to and i'm facing homelessness because my depression rendered me unable to work for months. i'm 19. why has my life been so awful? i just want a way out. ",1,1734042868,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlk7ym/feeling_hopeless/,Expensive-Claim-7367,"Feeling hopeless I’ve had sucicdal thoughts on and off for honestly 4 years now but at those past times I didn’t have enough courage to go through with it. Now it is more persistent, I think about it everyday. When I think about it I feel at peace and relived from everything. I feel like I’m going to do it today. I’m scared I’m so scared but I cannot anymore",4,1735067104,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7aiys/about_to_get_engulfed_by_flames/,ExpertLemon6990,"About to get engulfed by flames I’m standing in the middle of nowhere with only a lighter in hand and a full gas canister by my side. I’m not going to cause a wildfire—there’s nothing flammable around me except myself. I’m sorry, but there’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve gone too far. This is the end. By the time you’re reading this, I’ll be gone. But I genuinely hope that things work out better for you than they did for me. See you on the other side.",6,1733409270,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhoo4z/i_need_to_tell_someone_that_isnt_my_friends/,Extension-Pirate2000,I need to tell someone that isnt my friends Im going to die soon and im hope itll be easy and yeah im real tired but bye,2,1734598031,1.0,4.0,2.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h58mfz/idk_what_im_doing_anymore/,Extreme-Employment31,Idk what im doing anymore I've feel like I failed everything. Work. My family. Friends and past relationship clearly. I've have a bad lust problems and usually I use that to cope but it's not working anymore. I feel terrible like I'm useless all over again. I can't seem to doing anything right it seems.lost the one person that cared about me and now I'm still stuck wanting her. I just feel like there's no point of me being here I'm just in everyone's way,1,1733180674,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbxwd4/im_scared_to_tell_my_phycologist_everything/,F0X1590,"I'm scared to tell my phycologist everything If I do then I'll probably get hospitalized for Christmas and it will make my wife super sad that I'm doing that bad. I've already told my phycologist I have thoughts of stabbing myself in the throat with a knife or that I wanna inject myself with cleaner but this time is different the thoughts are alittle more planned out and even though I probably won't do it I still want to so fucking bad ",5,1733935810,4.0,5.0,4.0,4.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpg85q/i_dont_want_to_be_here_anymore/,F6x1,"I don't want to be here anymore I feel so fucking alone I want to kill my self Every few months I just end up here again all alone I'm so tired of it , i don't want to keep doing this ",2,1735537094,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8kh37/i_need_help/,Fabulous_Wait_9669,"i need help i am pretty depressed myself and diagnosed w GAD, but i can tell my boyfriend deals with it worse, im scared something might happen to him. i dont know how to help i dont wanna leave him i wanna do everything i can to help but i need someone to guide me and help me id k what to do and. i get terrified ",0,1733545313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho1at5/i_hate_myself_and_my_small_dick/,Familiar_Bad_3975,I hate myself and my small dick that's all.,0,1735373642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hotm4o/fastest_pain_free_method/,Fancylilmuffin,Fastest pain free method? I just want to drift off but I don't know how. ,3,1735469273,5.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlttmy/how_to_tell_your_friends_youre_suicidal/,Far-Bobcat-9591,"How To Tell Your Friends You're Suicidal? I'm really struggling. I don't know how to tell a few close friends that I'm suicidal. I don't want to ruin the friendship. I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. I feel I'm ruining my friendships from my roller-coaster of intense emotions, or raging or splitting on others. I feel my friends would be better off without me. I doubt anyone would miss me ",2,1735101558,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbryq6/cant_stand_anhedonia/,Far-Breakfast1620,"Can't stand anhedonia Can't stand anhedonia. My whole body is numb, I can't eat, my head hurts. I can't take it anymore. Don't know what I did that I suffer this condition. Can't even enjoy food because everything is tasteless What I have left?",1,1733918634,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9w6jo/i_hate_that_i_was_ever_born/,Far-Consumer6443,"I hate that I was ever born I’m significantly older…. And I just hate that I was ever born. I had an incredibly abusive childhood by really stupid parents. I hate life. I’m so behind. Like really, really behind developmentally. I really hate the life I was given. I honestly wish my parents never had me and I wish when they die, they come back and live the life that they’ve given me….. I want them to experience every pain and realize how poorly they had been as parents. I hate them so much. ",1,1733701236,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h83hgu/im_gonna_jump_off_a_building_in_10_minutes/,FckedUpPersonIGuess,"I'm gonna jump off a building in 10 minutes Hello, So, yeah, I don’t even know why I’m writing this. Probably just to distract myself, but it’s honestly no use. I hate being here, and the idea of ultimate liberation evokes a pleasant feeling deep inside me. I’ve heard people say that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I like that. And this is exactly what I need. 326 meters should be enough, considering I’ll be hitting a concrete pavement. I only hope I don’t fall on anyone unfortunate enough to be below and drag them down with me. If you’ve made it this far into my rant, I wish you all the best in life. Hopefully, you’ll find something worthwhile for yourself. :)",6,1733497866,6.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdso0p/life_is_not_worth_living/,FearlessEngineer2537,"Life is not worth living I have autism and it’s become apparent to me that No matter what you do, no one is going to see you as normal. Ever. They’re going to see you as a freak who doesn’t understand how to act like a normal person. This includes the ones who say they are supportive of “neuro diversity” at any point in time they will immediately react negatively to any positive autistic trait you express in the slightest if you give them an opportunity. There is no one on earth who will ever accept these traits because autistics are genetic defects who can’t integrate properly with any remotely normal person ",1,1734142588,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn3n1i/i_feel_like_i_will_never_have_what_i_want_in_life/,Fearless_Task_9715,"I feel like I will never have what I want in life while witnessing others gradually achieving their goals, I realize I will never have the comfort of a home filled with loving relatives or a soulmate. I will never become a successful writer or a skilled coder. I won’t have friends who truly respect me. I just… feel cursed from birth at this point. Born and raised in a poor and violent family, I’ve always lived my life feeling like a burden to others. I don’t believe in life after death. The void seems comforting, knowing I will no longer experience the pain of feeling like a failure. I just want to end it",2,1735263182,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoglcu/i_dont_want_to_be_me/,Feisty_Flow9069,I don't want to be me I don't want to be me!! I can't live like this. Everything is wrong with me and I'll never be content in life. I know it's never going to get better. I just wish I could give my life to someone who actually wants/needs it. ,1,1735423526,2.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hifv9y/so_confused/,FelicitousFairy,"so confused i know people will care so much if i go, but can’t help but feel like nobody gives a fuck, relapsed on everything, not doing well lately ",1,1734685429,2.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8h2py/i_just_cant_anymore/,FemInCenCal,I just can’t anymore I can’t keep going on anymore. I’ve been near homelessness for too long and I feel like I can’t breathe. I’m only here so I don’t hurt my husband and leave my 3 fur kids. Life shouldn’t be this hard ,1,1733534212,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho3g65/i_am_so_tired/,FerretBusinessQueen,I am so tired. I just want to sleep and not wake up. 40 years of fighting and I’m so weary. I’ve called warm lines and done what I can right now. I keep trying and failing.,1,1735383461,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhfxrv/remember_being_scared_of_death/,Few-Competition7912,Remember being scared of death? How the times have changed.,0,1734567270,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3twbn/i_wanna_know_if_thinking_about_suicide_247_is/,Fickle_Store_4595,I wanna know if thinking about suicide 24/7 is normal? Like I think about it all the time every day every night and I’m 16 so I’m wondering if that’s just a part of growing up or something’s actually wrong with me ,2,1733023094,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfbsdf/every_day_feels_like_the_worst_day_of_my_life/,Fig_pawzz,"Every day feels like the worst day of my life... I have been hearing voices that tell me to kill myself its been going on for about a couple hours and I just can't take it I am very very scared that something might happen to me. I worry that the voices are right and that I am better off dead. I don't know whats going on, like is it a ghost or has all the stress of living and other people made me go insane...",2,1734325555,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he7vt9/helpless/,FinalTry4481,"helpless (15f, if it matters) i feel so pathetic for even making a post. i dont know what to do, i have nobody to talk to. all my issues are superficial compared to what others are going through, so why i do feel this way? ",0,1734197577,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hox27p/if_anyone_is_open_to_talk_to_for_a_while_id/,FinallyACleanMan,If anyone is open to talk to for a while I'd appreciate it greatly...not doing so hot 31m if that matters Turned on the NSFW not sure why..my snap is tbo24100,0,1735482444,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjvr3b/i_dont_want_to_wake_up/,Fine-Print7159,I don't want to wake up. I hope I never have to wake up again.,1,1734862204,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hatoyy/sister_trying_to_od/,Firm-Sky-9168,"Sister trying to OD My sister just took like 4000mg of Tylenol, 3000mg of some other pill, and another pill for kidney failure. She’s on the way to the hospital now but is she going to be alright? I’m not too informed on this type of stuff and I’m worried. ",6,1733805130,6.0,0.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmmq3t/help_available/,Firm_Log_1807,"Help available If you need to talk to someone about anything help is available me and my friend have started a support group, so if you need to talk about anything you can if you need advice or any kind of help it's available",0,1735213384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfl7i8/i_literally_just_want_to_off_myself/,First_Ground9858,I literally just want to off myself I wish I could,2,1734361841,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkihkg/got_kicked_out_dont_know_what_to_do/,Fit-Coffee-4282,"got kicked out, don’t know what to do I was fully financially dependent on my ex and he broke up with me then kicked me out a few weeks ago, since then I’ve been couch surfing doing things I’m not proud of just so I have a place to sleep. I’ve sent out hundreds (if not thousands) of applications and have only gotten interest from a handful of places before being ghosted entirely. I’m just so lonely and I feel like an object, if anyone has any advice im all ears, really can’t get much worse ",0,1734937993,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd440f/life_is_way_too_fucking_long/,Fit-Construction-531,"Life is way too fucking long Living is like being stuck in a long ass cutscene or a movie that just goes on and on. I just want it to be finished and done already. Maybe because im 16, but it’s just tiring to think that I still have to do this and that, more experiences have to come along the way when I want it done and finished. I’m not interested in living. Even if it has its good parts. ",1,1734063261,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1habfp4/i_dont_feel_like_really_living_easy_tips_for/,Fit_Indication_6719,"I don't feel like really living, easy tips for painless suicide? Recently, I, 24F have been through the most shitty week of my life, something I don't wish to disclose, any free advice of painless suicide??",3,1733755953,5.0,3.0,2.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4022j/q/,Fit_Poem_7232,Q if death is the only thing that drives me should i just commit suicide?,2,1733047000,2.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6dvs7/i_dont_want_to_seem_weak/,Fjsjdj3929300,"I don’t want to seem weak My family would always tell me that I would never make it in the real world. They’re right, but I don’t want them to know that. I can already imagine them thinking “told you so” when they find out. I wish I could just get in an accident or be killed by someone else",1,1733311785,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnvxgv/im_struggling/,FlinchiikinZ,I’m struggling Every time I have a good thing happen in my life two horrible things happen right after! I hate life! I wish I wasn’t never born!,1,1735353768,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb8d3r/i_really_need_someone_to_talk_to/,Flowerkisscandy,I really need someone to talk to I’m alone having panic attacks and feeling so lost right now ,0,1733854884,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlag9a/i_have_trauma_from_the_words_silly_girl/,Flowerpopzi,"i have trauma from the words “silly girl” it sounds so fucking stupid but i have a 1 year old sister and ever since she was a newborn, whenever she cried my parents would call her a silly girl and then hit her, break stuff, or hurt themself and whenever i hear that word i can’t stop crying they’re doing it right now and im scared im going to be next this always happens i hate everything ",0,1735034172,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpvm12/give_me_a_reason/,Flubby_Flooble,"Give Me a Reason Give me a reason to live, I'll tell you why it's personally not my reason. Give me a reason to not live, and I'll tell you whether I agree or not.",1,1735587881,0.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmamut/do_i_not_matter_too/,Fools_Platinum,"Do I not matter too? I'm tired of people in my life thinking they can do whatever they want to me, and I can't say a damn thing because everytime I do, the conversation always go back to me and how everything is my fault no matter what. Anything otherwise is unacceptable and downright wrong, and I'm left with the consequences. Is it too much to ask for some peace from the chaos of the world? I'm done. From now on, I think I'm going to stick with my plan to get a gun before the year ends.",5,1735166026,5.0,3.0,5.0,4.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhkrjw/so_i_failed/,ForDemocracy214,So i failed Sunday night i tried to take my own life. Just got out of the hospital today. Not sure how to feel at the moment honestly. Just feel cloudy. ,6,1734582449,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgsvg1/the_world_can_feel_so_fucking_cold/,Foreign-Cake-7204,"the world can feel so fucking cold Unless your conventionally attractive, have loving and supporting parents who can guide and teach you. Your fucked by this cold fucking planet if you have parents who are the worst and lost the genetic lottery. The way people judge you, negatively view, give you the meanest, angriest looks. The world is a cold, heartless place. Social Media has made it so much worse than it was 10 - 20 years ago. ",0,1734493181,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3ra1a/does_therapy_help/,Foreign-Trifle1865,Does therapy help? Has anyone had success with therapy overcoming ideation or overcoming suicidal thoughts?,0,1733014785,0.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbf1pj/would_anyone_miss_me/,Foreign_System_8074,"Would anyone miss me Would my friends, family, cousins, my crush, even my pets (dogs, cats and a horse and parrot) miss me if I kms? I feel like I've done nothing but cause a burden to all my friends and family. Nobody truly sees me ot seems even among my own family and friends I feel like an outcast. My friends and crush are too busy with their lives, my cousins and family are busy too and I feel like nothing but a burden to them. Would anyone of my loved ones (family, friend, lover and animals) miss me or care that I'll be gone",2,1733871967,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk0snb/impulsively_took_50_mg_escitalopram_and_30_mg/,Forsaken_Hunter9021,"impulsively took 50 mg escitalopram and 30 mg antihistamine been clean from sh and serious suicidal ideation for a few months now, unfortunately everything has been stressful since i came back home for the christmas break. ive been feeling so alone and i just impulsively took 5 escitalopram pills and 3 antihistamine pills. i know this is way under lethal doses but just wanted to ask if ill be ok ",6,1734881676,6.0,6.0,4.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnzvcb/i_have_lasik_induced_dry_eyes/,Forward-Fold5101,"I have lasik induced dry eyes? Its been two years I have been battling with dry, red, sore, painful eyes 24/7. I want to leave this earth.",1,1735367557,2.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpyo9q/how_to_buy_pure_nitrogen_in_india/,Fragrant-Purple-4865,How to buy pure Nitrogen in India Anyone from India who can answer this??,0,1735595837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha2e7c/feel_free_to_reach_out_if_you_need_someone_to/,Frankiscogarcia,"Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. I’ve been there, I promise. Everything is going to be fine.",0,1733721043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hff2gr/holiday_season_is_rough_but_its_worth_fighting/,Fredelqwq,Holiday season is rough but its worth fighting through i guess Its cold and dark outside and seeing others have that christmas Spirit really makes me jealous .Havent been depressive for long and when i was younger ive always wondered what the life of the more unforunate would be during christmas season .guess i will or wont (hopefully ill find joy )experience it this year lol.For all those who have similiar fears i think distraction (non destructive) is the best way to challenge those times .treat yourself with something you have always wanted to buy or do .its worth it i think because there will be another Summer in your life .trust me ur worth more than you think i think ,0,1734339534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc7p25/just_terribly_down_on_myself_lately/,Free2BSamantha,Just terribly down on myself lately. I can't seem to get out of this mindset that my existence is draining on those around me. It seems like every time I think I've leveled out another wave shit crashes down on me. I'm so tired of struggling and failing at every turn. ,1,1733960805,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4al24/please_help_me/,Fresh_Airport7134,"Please Help Me Can someone call the police and let them know Ramses De La Rosa online groomed an 15 year old girl I told him to stop and he blocked me and still continues secretly I’m scared contacting the police His address 812 S Hardy Ave, Independence, MO 64053 He's been messaging this girl since she was a 9th grader and he sends her sexual messages he's 18 years old",0,1733079662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlxyjy/thinking_of_jumping_off_the_balcony/,Friendxx,Thinking of jumping off the balcony Fucking hate myself want to end it right now.,4,1735120646,4.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmcswz/dying_tonight/,Fromgraveyard28,"Dying tonight Hello, got my helium tank, a cover for head and pipe. Will pass out tonight, already started my drinking. See you in the other side",6,1735173213,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl7kkx/it_isnt_fair/,Front_Elk_830,It isn’t fair 25m. I’ve been depressed and anxious my entire life and nothing helps. It started with severe bullying in middle school for no reason. Now I’m asexual and aromantic even though I finally found someone I loved and I did. I got love bombed. He told he I had him forever and that I was everything to him. Now im blocked and no matter what he won’t respond to me. He was my one chance at love since I’ve never been attracted to anyone else. Should I just end it? What is life without love?,2,1735021483,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4b2mv/i_need_advice_or_help/,Frosty-Ant-3780,"I need advice or help My girlfriend (F20) and I (M23) have been going through some hard times in our relationship and just our lives in general. Today she attempted and I had to kick the door down to get to her. The cops came and took her from the house and notified me that she will be transported to a hospital to be evaluated. I am so confused on what my next steps are, I'm going to talk to emergency counseling today as this has put me in a rough place. But has anyone else gone through this? What's the next steps to take?",0,1733080890,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yovv/i_am_just_so_tired/,Frosty-Horse-2168,"I am just. So tired Evening. I’m. Here because I honestly know that every single person who I love, their life would be better if I weren’t in it. I’m like a black hole. I want to die. ",2,1733366384,1.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9vkxg/advice/,Frthatgirl,"Advice? I’m at a point where nothing can convince me to live but I literally don’t know what to do I’ve tried everything possible I’ve take 70+ pills several times I’ve tried hanging, suffocation, water poisoning, purging, cutting but literally nothing works the only things I can think of is jumping from a height or jumping into a train but it takes too much balls to jump into a train and I have no heights near me does anybody have any solutions",6,1733699487,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkm2z0/hey_anyone_want_i_chat/,Fukasoj,hey anyone want i chat :)! having a hard time.,0,1734954382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpsrp2/how_painful_it_would_be_to_die_overdosing_anti/,FullAlbatross6280,how painful it would be to die overdosing anti depressants body text,3,1735580651,3.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlcp7j/i_think_the_end_is_near_idk/,FunkyTheTimeTraveler,"I think the end is near. Idk. My life feels like it’s at rock bottom. I have no one and nothing. I’m a loser with no higher education, skills, I can’t drive, I’m poor and in debt. I’m depressed. I’m so so so tired. I just want to sleep and never wake up. “It will get easier” no, it hasn’t for the last 10 years. I’m so mentally and physically exhausted. Curse whatever higher being that had me made and come into existence. I don’t want to be here anymore. ",1,1735043875,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h90pau/help/,FuzzyBlackberry2121,Help? Hey guys I'm 200lbs and have just taken 7000mg of naproxen. Any advice of what's to come? ,6,1733601296,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hblk8n/i_really_have_the_urge_to_take_my_own_life/,G0reBoY,"I really have the urge to take my own life. That’s it. I don’t wanna go on some long paragraph. I just don’t wanna be alive. Idk why I’m still here, what’s the point. ",2,1733891675,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hph7wh/all_i_have_is_booze/,GGfan_9,"All I have is booze I've sunk back into the dark place I've been most my life. My probation will be over jan 2nd & I'm planning on continuing to destroy myself with alcohol. Liquor is all I have, I just can't handle how worthless I feel every day. I hope I don't make it once I start drinking again. Almost died twice from it. Maybe the third time will be the charm. Anyways.. just the ramblings of a worthless alcoholic. ",1,1735540855,4.0,4.0,4.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hljlxe/tired/,GQAT12,Tired Please make sense of it. Why did all of this happen? ,0,1735065298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi3wu9/goodbye/,GXREGXTE,goodbye. hello i’m 15M and i’ve lost everything in my life. most importantly my girl. my beautiful beautiful sweet girl. she’s gone and it’s all my fault. goodbye.,1,1734644490,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbrk4a/pls_answer_this_question/,GalaxianIsHere,"Pls answer this question Hi I'm curious on how does it feel when you cut yourself to bleed, is it painful? How does it feel? ",3,1733917079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf35gq/here_as_a_nonjudgemental_listener_to_your_issues/,Gamer_Nova0409,"Here as a non-judgemental listener to your issues If you have anything you want to say, either in this post or PMs, I'll listen to you. I don't use Reddit often so I may be late responding but I hope that I can alleviate some stress you have on your shoulders, no matter how big or small it is.",0,1734298864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9agj1/im_a_mother/,GdsDntDie,"I'm a mother Ive always had demons, ever since I could remember I was a sad human being. At some point in time, every morning i would wake up and walk to the bus my mind was always telling me to jump infornt of the cars passing by. Or get off at the next stop and jump off a building. It was a struggle to have a mind that's so demanding to kill itself. I'm 24 years old married and with two babies I have really hard days sometimes. I still have suicidal thoughts but my body won't allow me to die. I don't want to die. I want to live. Why does my brain not want to?",3,1733630812,3.0,3.0,3.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4febk/idk/,Gjl89,Idk Idk,0,1733091929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heocju/im_a_burden_on_life_that_needs_to_go/,GlacierWolf8Bit,"I'm a burden on life that needs to go. Clearly, I bring nothing but pain and misery to everyone each day. I stalked someone a decade ago and had to have police step in. I wasted time and money in college. My panic response when driving is almost causing accidents. Even my excrement is clogging toilets. I just cannot see myself being of any use towards any type of movement. And with the world becoming more and more authoritarian and fascist, I cannot see myself surviving such an onslaught, let alone help lead in a part of it. Suicide may be the best harm reduction that everyone in my life will ever have from me.",2,1734251321,4.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xyrc/why_tf_cant_i_die/,Glitterbug_222,"Why TF can’t I DIE? I swear I just took every medication with my name on it and my ass is still BREATHING 🙃. I was diagnosed with OCD but I don’t know anymore I just wanna drop dead right now. The moment my mom realizes that all my medication is gone, I’m cooked. Probably gonna repeat this cycle of going to the hospital, getting my stomach pumped, going to the mental hospital, waste my life there, talk to therapists, dealing with shitty ass staff, getting discharged, going to partial, then I have to go back to school🫠 I’m gonna cry.",6,1733259460,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hepmr3/im_scared/,Gojo-kun_,I'm scared I've been suicidal since 2021 but this year really pushed me to ny limits and I'm scared that I can't take it anymore. I don't wanna commit suicide but I don't think there's another way.,2,1734257248,1.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfbmy7/connected_the_dots/,Gold_Biscotti6371,Connected the dots I (21f) just realized after a particularly bad day that I am not just vaguely unhappy like I always said to myself but straight up want to die and I think I have for a long time. I am a bit unnerved at how intensely addictive these thoughts feel so suddenly. I don’t know how I never contextualized it like this. Maybe I need help. ,2,1734325051,2.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmk1sh/dang/,GongagaLad,"Dang Good heavens, When will you take me away, I know the world won't stop revolving when I'm gone. But I know when I'm gone They will be in a better life. ",1,1735200923,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhafk2/i_wanna_end_it_all/,Gothamb-atman,"I wanna end it all I'm loosing control of myself, I don't know who the fuck I am? My personality is changing polar opposites. I'm loosing my friends, I'm loosing intrest in everything, it's just hard to pass a day. It's feels being trapped, I feel fucking numb. I don't know my emotions. I don't want to have bonds with anyone. My mood swings and compulsions are making it worse I can't do this anymore, it's getting impossible, I just want to end it all. I'm thinkin about it lot.",2,1734552445,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnuy2g/advice/,Gqb33,"Advice I've been like good for the past 2 months but I feel suddenly so depressed. I've been having suicidal thoughts again, can anyone give me some advice that could distract me from these thoughts?",2,1735350610,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbking/should_i_kill_myself/,Grand-Bag9899,"Should I kill myself? For the past year or so my life has taken the worst turn, my mom, my only family is gone and I have no one. I’m alone and in the most unbearable kind of pain. I don’t think I can do this anymore…should I kill myself??",2,1733888178,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf94k8/should_i_kill_myself/,Grand-Try-3960,Should I kill myself? 47 male. No wife. No kids. No job. Depressed. Overweight. ,2,1734316514,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm6ggn/i_wanna_talk_to_someone/,Great-Criticism-3243,I wanna talk to someone Is there anyone here to talk? I feel suicidal ,2,1735152609,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h81igo/why_isnt_there_a_guarantee_that_things_will_be/,Green-Radio1487,"Why isn't there a guarantee that things will be better if we do this? Because from what I know, it is too painful living in this world now. Why can't we be given a choice whether we can or cannot live? Why do we have to stay and suffer? And if we take the other way we'd also be punished for it? Why do we need to be born in the first place? I wish I was never been born, only to just feel immense pain for as long as I can remember and see things to be getting worse.",1,1733492226,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7k2qn/hugs_please/,Green_Leading6810,Hugs please? .,0,1733433339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnasfc/i_tried/,Green_South_725,I tried Tried to make friends. Both online and offline and failed every single time. People don’t find me interesting and they don’t want to talk to me. I don’t blame them,0,1735289317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfd72f/welp/,GregoryGroggins,"Welp Just got rejected for the very first time in my life. Even after begging God to just give me this one girl that would change my life and he gave me the biggest fuck you ever. This shit is so pathetic. AND I lost my fucking tooth in the same month what the fuck do I do for God to do me like this?? I do my best to obey these voices n shit and this is how these fucks pay me, man. I’m so done with this life, I cannot wait to move on to the next one. ",1,1734330940,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3um8r/i_dont_think_anyone_would_miss_me/,Grizzled_Bear1995,I don't think anyone would miss me. Life hurts. I feel like a nuisance and bother to anyone and everyone in my life. It'd just be easier to end it in my eyes. But then again I'm scared to because idk what lies beyond life. But it's gonna happen anyways. My daughter is only a year old. Would she even remember me? My mother and I don't get along. I don't have a good relationship with my dad or much of my family as a matter of fact. Ive mistreated my wife tremendously and she doesn't deserve this. I just.. I just can't. I'm sorry,2,1733025512,4.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hocx7n/i_took_20x400mg_of_ibuprofen_am_i_dumb/,H0rnKne3,I took 20x400mg of ibuprofen. Am I dumb? Title says it all. I tried to kill myself by downing a whole sealed pack of ibuprofen but I feel nothing. Am I in danger or is 8g of ibuprofen nothing to worry about?,6,1735413409,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl6f5n/kill_me/,HTCGM,Kill me Do me a favor and end me. Better for everyone involved.,2,1735017003,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpy8s8/i_tried_to_kill_myself_and_my_boyfriend_is_mad_at/,HandsThatMold_,"I tried to kill myself and my boyfriend is mad at me im 18. He is 19. I tried to kill myself a couple days ago ,Hes upset at me because he has been going through things. I feel like im the worst girlfriend ever. He told me how mad he is and I can get why but I knew he was going to get upset. I hate myself so much i dont know what to do or how to make this better, it obviously didnt work. I want to forget it ever happened",6,1735594738,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf756m/help_pls/,Hardlyreal1,Help pls I’m fucked ,0,1734310352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h74xyg/i_could_just_do_it/,HatidaoHatidao,"I could just do it Really, why? Hoping someone out there can give me some philosophical answer.",2,1733388941,2.0,0.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnmr6m/how_much_will_slicing_my_wrists_hurt/,HayleyKJ,How much will slicing my wrists hurt? I'm terrified of the idea of feeling pain and/or feeling myself dying. But I don't want to be alive anymore.,3,1735327710,5.0,3.0,4.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl6uth/today_i_plan_to_kill_myself_because_i_am_trans_18/,Head-Good-188,"Today I plan to kill myself because I am trans (18) every singleday i have to indure harrasment because I am trans from people at my school. I have talked to the school staff about this and they just dont seem to care, I have been beaten, called slurs, and stuff taken from my bag and the teachers and staff dont seem to care. I have brought this up to my parents but they also dont seem to care. This is my last message, goodbye.",4,1735018643,4.0,4.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9rhpq/i_failed_my_suicide_attempt/,HeadlessCockroach6,"I failed my suicide attempt I failed it. And now i dont even know what to do anymore, i feel like even bigger failure becouse i cant even kill myself properly",6,1733688416,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfl2e8/i_hate_people/,Hefty-Detective-5150,I hate people. Thats all. Fuck everyone. ,0,1734361446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi6g43/help_please/,HeftyLaw1580,Help please I just need help idk how to work things out to ensure it works I'm over this I'm exhausted of waking up everyday to battle theeese illness ,1,1734651563,0.0,1.0,1.0,3.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcfnyy/im_sorry_for_bothering_you/,HellzGestapeh,"I’m sorry for bothering you I want to kill myself, and I hate myself. I just want affirmation that I have reason for being on this world, and yes I understand that it sounds like I seek attention. I really don’t like where or who I am, and just want someone telling me to live besides immediate family or friends. Sometimes I feel like they’re just saying that to be nice. ",2,1733987588,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi4axj/looking_for_someone_to_talk_to_until_i_die/,HeronCommercial9190,Looking for someone to talk to until I die I have a plan for Saturday but sitting in this pain unti then feels really impossible rn. I have nobody who would care irl and as I don't fancy being told to have a bath and a cuppa by the crisis team again I was hoping somebody in a similar situation might want to talk for a couple of days.,5,1734645553,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn8log/i_wish_i_could_just_disappear/,HiiiighBoltage,I wish I could just disappear I couldn't ever try again but how much I wish I had a break from my brain that hates me so much,0,1735279912,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h98lnl/im_28_and_lonelynothing_to_live_for/,HolamyLola,"I’m 28 and lonely-nothing to live for I moved to a new country for better opportunities and lifestyle, my family is loving but far away from me. They are the only reason I live for. I’m lonely and had my heart broken badly after my ex cheated on me with a friend, our circle was close and tightly knit. In the process I distanced myself because they all knew him before me. I went to the ER once as a cry for help and never saw the doctor because it was an 8 hour wait time. Got billed $900 for the visit. I’m heart broken and lonely, I have a great job and a cat who I love so much but nothing feels worth living for",0,1733624488,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk1z2x/oh_thats_why_your_depressed_thats_nothing_i_had/,Holiday_Agent2023,“Oh thats why your depressed?” “Thats nothing” “i had way worse problems” Holy shit,0,1734885111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hevkg1/im_13_and_im_already_just_done/,Holiday_Agent_6918,"Im 13 and im already just done I dont even know what to do man im always stressed to death im always just depressed. I dont even have a purpose in life, Like if i continue living whats even gonna happen? Im gonna die anyway why dont i just end it early. I told my mom about this and she said she wouldnt even care. Nobody cares. ",2,1734278443,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7xe8c/why_tell_a_lie/,HoodVOCartoons,"Why tell a lie? Why tell a person who has nothing to cling to that life is worth living. Why tell them that ""it gets better,"" when for years life has always shown them it gets worse? Why the toxic positivity? Why the false narratives? Homeless, autoimmune diseases, no family, no friends, no income, abandonment, lonely, eviction on record, $7000 in apartment complex collections, all local resources aren't accepting applications for years in advance or won't help at all.... How in the actual fuck is life worth living?",0,1733476228,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1holwl1/i_hate_reality/,Hopeful-Mechanic-291,"I hate reality Hello, this is my first time making a post on Reddit other than mindlessly scrolling or getting into a meaningless argument with somebody I don’t know. I just wanted to say I hate my life, I hate my family, I have no hope in me ever finding love or anything, the world is continually growing more and more ignorant and racist. I’m too poor to work towards moving out and I’m too lazy to get my life in order, I just don’t wanna be here anymore. ",1,1735439214,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlwftx/dysphoria_is_eating_me_alive/,Hot-Goose-5752,"Dysphoria is eating me alive I am a transgirl and whenever i see someone who is more feminine than me or gives me gender envy, i feel like i can't breathe. My emotions are so dull and i just dont want to do anything but sleep and wait for life to stop. I can't imagine having to go through this for more years until i can get on estrogen. I can't even share this because i don't have support systems i can trust. I'm just tired and i can't find my makeup bag rn so i cant try to feel better.",1,1735113200,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdw3z9/can_i_find_someone_to_talk_to_in_here/,Hot-Opinion-1801,Can i find someone to talk to in here? Im feeling a bit desperate to talk someone right now. I hope there's some here are offer to help,0,1734154680,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkzxuq/tomorrow/,Hot-Option-1373,"Tomorrow I'm going to kill myself tomorrow. I can't stand living like a failure anymore and I know I won't be able to improve, I just want to give up once and for all. I don't know how I'll do it, but tomorrow is the day",4,1734995270,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk730j/any_help_that_actually_works/,HotCardiologist2029,"Any help that actually works? I contacted shout and it left me feeling more helpless. The listener acknowledged the issue but went straight to talking about plans instead of the actual situation and then the chat ends? I reached out to talk through the situation. I guess it is what it is, I hate how alone I am especially when struggling with suicidal thoughts. I was so happy a week ago and now i feel like empty and questioning life.",2,1734899706,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hli4j7/movie/,Hour-Initiative-2766,Movie What is a depressing movie that you watch and it makes you happy? My vote is Leaving Las Vegas. It’s so relatable and I don’t drink.,0,1735060985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlazij/i_despise_my_teacher/,HowAManAimS,I DESPISE MY TEACHER I CAN'T STAND TO THINK THAT HE WILL LIVE A GOOD LIFE WITHOUT MUCH STRUGGLE,0,1735036537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h95kku/life_has_been_rough/,Huge-Dragonfruit-479,"Life has been rough For the past couple of months or weeks I’ve had times I’ve fell into deep depression. I don’t know if it’s the stress of becoming an adult or life isn’t what it pans out to be but I’m not feeling great at all I’ve been having problems with my parents specifically my mother, we don’t get along as much anymore and she has begun to hit me. Once she slapped me in my face and another was when she hit me with a piece of board on the top of my head and verbally abused after simple mistakes. I’ve thought about just taking my life so it would be easier on everybody. They’ll have one less person to worry about.",2,1733615115,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpyn4a/comfort_in_a_way_out/,Huge-Travel3873,"Comfort in a way out I currently am having suicidal thoughts but don’t necessarily want to go through with them right now. I just want a relatively instant way out incase things get worse. I find comfort in knowing that I can kill my self anytime I wish. But I currently don’t know how, I’m think decapitation by train, but scared of it being slow or being pushed to the side by the cow catcher. I would use a gun but don’t have one. And won’t do OD, hanging, slitting wrist/throat, becuase too slow and chance of survival being left with physical/mental disabilities. ",3,1735595757,5.0,5.0,4.0,4.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h422f0/theres_no_saving_me/,Huge_Visual_8533,"theres no saving me title sounds very cringey, but its the truth. ive been trying to take better care of myself, going to the gym, taking my meds daily, skincare and all, but still depressed. my mom caught my mental breakdown and has been trying to be supportive of me and even suggested therapy, but im still depressed. theres this ugly feeling inside me that wont go away no matter what. i feel empty and nothing brings me joy anymore. im so spent. ",0,1733055448,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho01ob/_/,Human_Mail3844,". hace mucho que pienso en hacerlo pero no encuentro la manera de hacerlo sin sufrir, alguien podria ayudarme? ",3,1735368285,5.0,5.0,3.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4qygx/burnout_is_killing_me/,HumbleCombination825,"Burnout is killing me. The only thing I had that was worth living for was my academics, I held onto my perfect grades with a white knuckle grip but after a while I couldn’t do it anymore. I lost my perfect gpa, the one thing I had. I’ve had three attempts this year, I’m such a pathetic embarrassment, I have a rope with me and two hours of alone time. I just can’t make myself do anything, I feel disgusting. Even going outside scares me. I think I should just do it.",6,1733130508,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjnat4/i_dont_know_if_it_was_rape/,IFuckUpMyLife87,"I don't know if it was rape So when I was around 4-8 or 3-8, I can't remember, my dad would play this game with me where he'd put his hands up my skirt and tickle my inner thighs, area, and legs. I think he did it to my area, my memory is super bad. Anyways, I can't remember if one of his fingers penetrated my area. I remember feeling a lot of pain exactly where it would be penetrated for a while and there probably was brown blood, and I still feel something like that occasionally today. I can't get an exam to see if there's injuries down there, and I can't remember clearly. Can anyone help me figure out if it was rape?",0,1734827829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hegd4u/i_cant_take_this_anymore/,ILoveYouMai,"I can't take this anymore No one understand what I'm saying, no one understand my perspective. I can never share what I'm feeling. I'm a bad person, because I don't even know what I'm doing to make everyone hate me. I think the world can use one less of me ",1,1734221545,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhv3md/f_this/,IceStorm1780,F this We were arguing last night and I tried to go outside because I could tell he was going psycho and he grabbed me and slung me to where my lower back hit the fucking wall and it fucking hurts but he wouldn’t care,0,1734621392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlh9lu/merry_christmas/,Icy_Masterpiece_3990,"Merry Christmas I just drank some pills and I'm hoping it will do the trick. This is my 2nd attempt this year. This is what I've always wanted. I've gone through so much bullshit, from having a shit father, having terrible exs who took advantage of me, raped me, used me. ft I just don't wanna go on anymore. welp fingers crossed, This is me signing off ♥️",6,1735058488,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm0ukw/how_would_one_decide_whether_they_wanna_live_or/,Icy_Working1726,how would one decide whether they wanna live or die? i cant even function properly,0,1735133764,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdp82g/cant_do_this_anymore/,Idkniah,Can’t do this anymore Someone please kill me,2,1734132036,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlq27r/giving_the_best_christmas_gift_no_longer_being/,Ill-Dark-9058,"giving the best christmas gift: no longer being burdened i have all my notes and such written out, tonight i will be locking myself in the bathroom and cutting my wrists. ive failed a couple times but it wont happen again. my parents deserve a much better child than whatever failure of a fuck-up i am. ive tried to tell them as much as i could in the letter, i dont want them to feel bad. i dont have many friends but i will text them about how its not their fault and they couldn't have done anything. its a shame i couldnt make it to eighteen but i dont really deserve to live out my life",6,1735086402,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h54uuf/i_need_death/,Ill_Butterscotch_251,"I need death I (45m) have no hope of ever being happy again. I know I will be depressed for the rest of my life. I’m stuck at my parents house with no way out. And, if by some miracle I start getting happy again, I will most likely have another psychotic episode and end up in a mental institution. I don’t have a plan, but I know how I would do it. Have posted plenty here before. I need help.",3,1733171301,3.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgu97l/my_relationship_is_making_me_wanting_to_kill/,Ill_Clue8251,"My relationship is making me wanting to kill myself I’m in a pretty toxic relationship, it’s been like this since the beginning but i’m very unlovable so i took what i could, he just hit me a lot and scream n said not even my mom wants me, i feel like in already dead, i don’t know why i give so mucho for people who wouldn’t worry for me ",2,1734497894,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hia9o3/am_i_just_a_awful_human_being/,Illustrious-Olive387,"Am I just a awful human being? Ever since I was a little boy I was good at approaching new people but never in maintaining a friendship my whole life. To this day I still don't have any friends. I'm lonely and tired of living. I'm extremely sensitive to what other people think of speak of me and tend to get hurt at least 10 times more than the average person would feel if they were insulted. I just can't go on in life anymore... I get really hurt if someone says bad about me but I never felt bad at all when I hurt another person. Now I just want to end all this mess once and for all.",2,1734663517,4.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnuadg/doorknob_hanging_isnt_really_working/,Illustrious_Rain347,"Doorknob hanging isn't really working I'm trialling tying a scarf to the door knob tied into a noose, and sitting down//leaning forward. I'm still breathing every time though, and just getting a lot of pressure in my face when I just want to stop breathing. I don't really know what I'm doing wrong, I can only choke myself with my thumbs pressing on my lower neck, otherwise it's just compressing my veins/arteries. Anyone else? ",6,1735348566,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4ehim/im_going_to_do_it/,Ilovepjsekai,"I’m going to do it I already have it all planned out I’ll do it in march after our break ends and I already know how I’ll push people away to affect them less this is it and no one can stop me ",5,1733089576,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7pyez/the_recent_news_made_me_want_to_keep_fighting_for/,Imaginary-Low4629,"The recent news made me want to keep fighting for life until next year. It's so common to always see bad news on the internet, but the death of the CEO of UHG made me realize there's still hope for humanity. There's still people fighting and making extremes to find justice. I don't condone violence, but I see the shooter must have dealt with a lot of pain before doing something drastic like this. It brought me to tears. I feel stronger now. I feel I want to live until next year. I belive maybe things will be better. For real this time. I feel hope for the first time in months. ",0,1733449344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9eujg/is_wanting_to_die_selfish/,Important-Depth-5695,Is wanting to die selfish? I want to die. I told my brother and sister and they both separately said I was being selfish. isn’t it selfish of them to expect me to continue living in this agony just so they wont be sad for a few weeks following my death? ,2,1733648374,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho0cic/starting_to_notice_some_pretty_intense_anger/,Important-Raisin-673,Starting to notice some pretty intense anger outbursts towards friends and family lately…. Ya ever just feel like saying fuck you to everyone all at once? Fuck,0,1735369511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hastso/started_journaling_my_last_days/,Important-Tip3935,started journaling my last days I’m exiting within a week and started writing down my last days. got rid of most of my things as I’ve prepared the last couple weeks. i literally can’t wait for the day. i just hope this time it works,6,1733802304,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkiuxl/pills/,Impossible_Signal853,Pills What pills can cause death?,3,1734939691,5.0,5.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho2ctq/im_the_youngest_old_man_that_you_know/,Impressive_Math_593,I’m the youngest old man that you know If your soul intact let me know,0,1735378511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcmskb/_/,Impressive_Number839,"‎ idk anymore . i tried my best . i prayed , i connect w God everyday . i tried to be a good daughter , a good student . but i failed . even my own family wants me gone . i mean i dont blame them , i understand why . i have friends , theyre nice , theyre kind . but idw to burden them w my problems so i keep quiet and be there for them instead . im so lost . i miss the old me , where im always smilling and keep living even tho the whole world acting as if they wants me gone . but now , idk bro.",0,1734015252,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkmttq/i_hate_my_life/,Impressive_Yak_3820,I hate my life. I hate my life. I have schizophrenia. I've been fired 10 times. I've never had a gf and I'm too shy. I'm too quiet and too shy. My whole life I've been too quiet and too shy. ,0,1734957288,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi5mua/im_here_to_talk_about_anything_for_anyone_that/,Incognito98789,I’m here to talk about anything for anyone that wants to talk Please don’t hesitate to reach out. I can’t promise I’ll be fast at replying but I promise I will reply,0,1734649186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haveqy/anonymous/,Individual-Pin-6935,Anonymous Im really tired of everything when I die I hope it all just ends,1,1733811283,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4chwa/every_single_small_thing_makes_me_wanna_kill/,Individual-Use-8751,Every single small thing makes me wanna kill myself Life is hard,2,1733084487,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hefku5/i_choose_to_live/,Individual_Tea_3273,"I choose to live 🌝 I choose to stay alive because I have very supportive parents, and I will keep pushing until the end, whatever it takes. ",0,1734219138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb1mxz/im_relapsing/,Inevitable_Dish4537,I’m relapsing I thought I was okay but something set me off and I can’t stop thinking about harming myself or worse,2,1733837004,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6fywk/im_so_tired/,Informal-Pie-7919,"I'm so tired 😴 Long story short. Was engaged to an abusive man had two kids with him he almost killed me I escaped with both kids he's in prison I wait three years try to start dating again get raped/stabbed, spent a month in the hospital now due to missing work got fired, got a new job but don't make enough to get by so I constantly starve so my kids can eat and now I can't afford Christmas so I'm failing them. I'm tired in every sense of the word I can't do it anymore ",1,1733318872,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgndb6/love_wont_save_you/,InitialPomegranate45,love wont save you stop it,0,1734476362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hliaod/trying_to_make_it_past_christmas_but_i_dont_think/,Inside-Turnip8757,"Trying to make it past Christmas but I don’t think I can Already have my plan in place. I’ve been suicidal on and off for about 15 years and I just don’t have the will to live anymore. There’s nothing left I want to see, or do. I’ve made peace with my decision. Even a little bit excited. I’m just trying to save my family the additional trauma by carrying it out on Christmas, but I don’t see myself making it another 12 hours. I just want to be free already.",6,1735061483,5.0,6.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmdnf2/i_feel_like_im_severely_misunderstood/,Interceptionister,"I feel like I'm severely misunderstood For context, im autistic and ibhave a very shirt fuse because of it. Today we went to visit our family that lives in another city and me, my older brother and my cousins went to play a random game they picked. I had a lot if trouble understanding the rules and instead of trying to explain the rules a little simpler, one cousin and my brother, (both of which i was good friends with) started calling me stupid and said they were gonna kill me out of frustration. After that pressure I completely crashed out and started cussing them out for intentionally hurting my feelings, and suddenly I was the bad guy. Was I in the wrong? ",0,1735176057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h944go/my_suicidal_thoughts_have_been_getting_worse/,Internal-Anything781,"My suicidal thoughts have been getting worse Im 15m i just found out my ex fling is pregnant im mentally unfit for a child i cant do it, but i cant live with the fact in doing the same thing my father done to me , since ive found out i just wanted to commit suicide. I dont know how to tackle what im tackling im diagnosed with bipolar 2 i have no clue if im having an episode or not but my current girlfriend i feel will leave me if she finds out i cannot take that she is all i have. How can you stop the thoughts?",2,1733610875,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho1iid/suicidal_over_chronic_illness/,International-Dot-34,"Suicidal over chronic illness Hi there, I have been chronically ill and out of work for a while now. It's been a struggle. I have spent thousands of dollars on treatment and not anywhere near recovery. All I do all day long is lay in bed and watch cartoons, because my attention span is so bad from the brain fog from my illness that I can't focus on anything else. Wanted some support here to see if anyone else has these kinds of thoughts while dealing with a chronic disease? Or just support in general. Really down about this and think about suicide all day every day.",2,1735374619,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnrv9l/thinking_of_ending_things_soon/,InternetSmark,Thinking of ending things soon Can't really see a path forward anymore. It's the end of the line I think. I think it's time for me to go.,4,1735341446,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4p2he/i_couldnt_take_meds_and_now_im_having_a_panic/,IntrepidCost4461,I couldnt take meds and now im having a panic attack help I got sick and kept vomiting yesterday so I couldnt take my anxiety meds at night and now I woke up super stressed. I already have health anxiety and hate vomiting so its really hard for me. Im scared to take meds bc i dont want to feel sick again. It has been 7 hours since i last felt nauseus,0,1733122167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp4rpk/i_dont_want_to_live_like_this_anymore/,IntrovertPug,I don't want to live like this anymore I just left my girl over some guy flirting with her knew I could do shit because I'm weak as hell and can't stick up for himself I don't know what to do anymore I'm doing shit at school I'm sh all the time I'm a porn addic no friend I don't want to deal with this shit anymore I wish I could just disappear without a trace just gone I just my body to not be found fuck everything.,2,1735503503,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho1khx/dont_quite_have_the_urge_but_the_thought_is/,InvidumEnvious,"Don't quite have the urge, but the thought is getting more appealing Haven't felt too awful in a while, but I'm hating myself more and more. Been 3 years since my last actual attempt and maybe a month since the last time I hurt myself. The thought of actually cutting to bleed out seems more and more appealing. I just want to rest and stop feeling this way. A pathetic parasite like me wouldn't cause much of a stir, and I'd fade into obscurity pretty quick. ",3,1735374873,5.0,3.0,3.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7s328/what_pushed_you_from_ideation_to_execution/,InvisibleChorus,What pushed you from ideation to execution? It seems that some people here are actually on the verge of executing their suicidal ideations. What flipped the switch?,0,1733455843,0.0,0.0,4.0,0.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm28pv/i_feel_done_empty_depressed_thinking_about_suicide/,InxUA,"I feel done, empty, depressed, thinking about suicide No helplines in my country. I have been rejecting the therapy sessions. No one understands, no one thinks about me. Can't even open up to my family because they already mad at me for the current status of my life. I have no one to talk to. I don't know if I feel blessed when I die. I'm afraid that my impossible hopes will try to block my attempts again. I want to die, but I still have these impossible hopes",2,1735138974,2.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4kibj/my_girlfriend_is_offended_that_i_have_suicidal/,Iridescent_puddle23,"My girlfriend is offended that I have suicidal thoughts I really need advice. I told my girlfriend that I have been feeling suicidal but had been hiding it because I thought I had moved past these thoughts I've had in the past. She felt bad but then she said ""so am I not enough of a reason to want to live?"" I honestly have no idea how to respond to that. It feels like she is making it about herself but I see her perspective as well. I love her dearly and care about her so much. But that doesn't dictate whether I want to end my life or not.",2,1733106478,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp4or6/why_wont_anything_work/,Its_Mae_Mae,"Why won't anything work? I've honestly tried everything. Ibuprofen. Tylenol. Chemicals. Other things. Why can't I just leave this earth without any struggle with myself? All the Tylenol did was fuck up my kidneys. Ibuprofen had no effect. I drank chemicals. What the fuck? I'm tired of starving myself. Of staying up all night, and when I do fall asleep its due to crying. Tired of trying to please all of those around me. Tired of pretending I'm ok when I really am not. I just want to feel peace for once in my fucking life instead of feeling like I'm worthless and a failure. If anybody has any fucking ideas on how to kill myself successfully that would honestly be great.",5,1735503284,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ijle/i_just_dont_want_to_do_it_any_longer/,J-M-C-C,"I just don't want to do it any longer Depression since 14 after watching my mum die. Tried everything available to just feel ok. Constant cycle of fighting my addictive demons and losing… and then hating myself for it before I just end up repeating the same over and over I just want to not wake up, so I'll be free ",1,1733212996,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcyc5o/i_thought_i_had_a_reason_to_live/,J0eMama69,I thought I had a reason to live now she's gone. now all I have are these pills. Funny that she's gone bc of these pills.,3,1734045503,5.0,4.0,3.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5as89/have_you_thought_of_how_you_would_do_it/,J_ames03,"Have you thought of how you would do it Recently I have thought about it a lot, like where how but never when, when isn't in the question I am near the last straw but I'm hanging on as tight as I can, I know whatever way I do it I don't want my family to be the ones who find me so I would call the emergency services before hand and tell them where and how to get to me,but not give them enough time to save me, I would also do it in a way my family could have an open casket if they wanted to and I would have all my affairs in order before hand.",5,1733186543,5.0,5.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnw338/dont_know_what_to_say/,Jango_fett_fish,Don't know what to say My mind feels all hazy and blurry. Overwhelmed by dysphoria. Can't bring myself to do healthy stuff. Not enough for my boyfriend. Just feel generally miserable and stressed and dunno why. Gonna take about 2/3s month of my HRT to see what happens. That's what I have left ,0,1735354269,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho5ghx/i_was_hospitalized/,JaniestOfDoes,"I was hospitalized I've been going though a lot of stress lately, including anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. I recently had a bad break due to taking way too much THC gummies and I tried to commit. I didn't go to the hospital because it was Christmas. I thought I was doing better and decided to go to my friends party and I felt like such a fucking loser. No one cared when I spoke, I knew no one there except for said friend. I tried making friends and I feel humiliated. This led me to spiral and now I'm in a hospital gown. So fucking fun.",6,1735391750,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4ovg4/3_failed_attempts_in_2_days/,JaySaidHey27,3 failed attempts in 2 days Needless to say or go into detail. I'm exhausted. I'm so tired. I want to go home but home doesn't exist anymore. I've pushed everyone away from me in the hopes that they'd maybe get it. I just wanna give up. Most of my family is gone. And I swore I'd never leave. But I miss home..,6,1733121389,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdjxc6/its_my_birthday_and_i_cant_feel_anything_anymore/,JazzJared,"It's my birthday and I can't feel anything anymore. I turn 20 today… Hope everyone has a fine day, I unfortunately have a closing shift today so I'll try to push through.",0,1734117512,0.0,1.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hew64x/i_feel_trapped/,Jazzlike_Term_3521,"I feel trapped I've tried everything in life: a job in a company; a university career; currently, I work in a school as a teacher. It all sucked: currently I'm in a total crisis, one step away from giving up everything, but I don't have the strength to start doing anything else again. I'm alone, and I almost always have been, and the more depressed I get, the less likely it is that I'll be able to start a relationship. I go to a psychologist and a psychiatrist, but it's not working. I can't talk about it with my parents, I talk with some friends about it, but it doesn't help very much.",1,1734280077,0.0,1.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcgtgu/24f_could_use_a_little_support/,Jiayouba,"24f could use a little support Dealing with some heavy stuff, would be grateful for a little conversation ",0,1733992870,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8a4df/took_18_500_mg_paracetamol_tablets/,Jimothy-Juice,Took 18 500 mg paracetamol tablets Basically what it says on the title. Am I gonna die?? I was sure about it before I took them but now I'm really scared and idk what to do. I don't want to tell my parents cause they'll probably ground me. I read that this much is enough to kill you,6,1733514854,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnm1vk/do_i_open_the_brachial_or_do_i_keep_trying_i_am/,John-X-Watson,Do I open the brachial or do I keep trying? I am tired. Brachial or perpetual exhaustion? ,3,1735325874,5.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hogd0d/i_dont_know_what_to_do_anymore_i_just_feel_empty/,Jr8506,"I don't know what to do anymore, I just feel empty and hopeless I feel alone while I'm not really alone, I feel humiliated while no one humiliates me, I'm getting sick of this world day by day, even though this world hasn't really been bad for me. I got into this boring cycle, a cycle that may be normal and not that terrible, but it's definitely boring because there's nothing special about it except for the absurdity and emptiness. Pray for me so that I can escape from this cycle, whether the way to escape is life or death.",1,1735422893,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9cp1/i_want_to_die/,JumpEmbarrassed1778,"I want to die im only 16 but nothing good has ever happened in my life. My mom is severely depressed so it makes it hard for me to grow up while she is raising me. She has also passed adhd, anxiety, and depression down to me which makes my life feel like hell. I really dont have friends at school, and i've been bullied in the past which makes it hard for me to make friends and socialize mixed with my anxiety. I also just feel like im a failure to my entire family. Idk how to explain and maybe i sound dumb but i just feel like my life was setup for failure.",1,1733965646,2.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhbmop/i_sometimes_wish_i_had_terminal_cancer/,Justanotheruser707,I sometimes wish I had terminal cancer I know it sounds extremely selfish but sometimes I wish I had a terminal illness. It would bring me great comfort knowing I was going to die soon and wouldn't have to go through the process of ending my life by myself. ,1,1734555585,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl2zx5/help/,Justanotheryou420,Help Pls talk to me,0,1735004950,,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho2lfm/i_wanna_do_it_but_i_am_scared_that_i_might_get/,Justlaughitout,"I wanna do it, but I am scared that I might get trap forever on this lonely apartment. I don't wanna be get stuck in my apartment as a ghost ",2,1735379616,4.0,2.0,3.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7sq9/im_not_trying_to_kill_myxelf_but_im_about_to_die/,Kakashi_is_mine_back,I'm not trying to kill myxelf but I'm about to die I'm so fucking high I don't know if it's just the weed I'm too high to write an opening again but I feel like I'm gonna die I'm around friends but they don't understand what I'm going through I tell them I'm high they don't understand! I feel like I'm gonna die ,0,1735156827,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7m2m9/ic_ant_handle_being_an_adult/,KaleidoscopeNice189,ic ant handle being an adult i quit I cant do it. Its too hard. Classes are ahrd and theyre ginna be harder. EVerythings expensive. I cant do this I cant take care of myself abd my roorms a mess and i dont know how to do ANything at colegee and i feel dum. I cant do this im sorry,0,1733438486,0.0,0.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm8l6z/another_suicidal_teen/,KaleidoscopeNo2069,Another suicidal teen How do I decide what to do with my life or figure out what I wanna do with my life???? I just dont know,0,1735159366,0.0,0.0,2.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdkfvt/i_cannot_take_it_anymore/,Kalipri,"I cannot take it anymore. I just dont know what to do anymore. Everything is bigger than me, everything is out of control. I cannot do anything for anyone. I feel helpless and hopeless and alone and responsible and unhappy. ",0,1734118896,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhse9d/i_let_my_intrusive_thought_win_and_just_took_a/,Kasen_Dev,I let my intrusive thought win and just took a bttole of tylenol. I am tired of living tbh. I am also late for work.,6,1734613295,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlziyh/i_think_about_suicide_everyday/,Keviidog234,"I think about suicide everyday I hate how I'm jobless, not going out often and have really bad social skills. I just feel like I can never be fixed and suicide is the only way to solve my problems. I've attempted before and I want to attempt again, last time it was by slitting the wrists, now I'm thinking about hanging myself.",5,1735128101,5.0,6.0,5.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbmvxu/i_dont_know_what_to_do/,Key-Season-8546,I don't know what to do So I have been compulsively been thinking about suicide for 5 months and I'm not sure what to do to make it stop. I really don't wanna take meds and I don't know what I want to do to make myself better. I don't know what to do. If anyone has been here please let me know I just need ideas on how to be happy again. I can't tell if I'm actually suicidal or if I'm just dramatic ,2,1733896456,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h78gfa/i_tried/,Key-Transition7613,"I tried Welp, I tried to hang myself tonight. Almost passed out but then my cat started meowing, I have two. Anyways, my head hurts now, eyes kinda hurt, next time, maybe I'll try a different way. ",6,1733403055,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8uyfw/this_is_my_third_overdose_and_i_hope_i_dont_make/,Key_Temperature_5741,"This is my third overdose and I hope I don't make it out this time I'm 15m living in Australia and I took 8000 mg of paracetamol last night hoping it kills my liver again. I have done this before and have gotten help after telling people and was treated. I also have tried overdosing on my adhd medication which killed me and I was brought back. This time I am not telling anyone close to me and I'm going to let it kill me ",6,1733585687,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdlwnb/i_am_happy_my_health_is_declining/,Kind_Error5739,"I am happy my health is declining I stopped doing drugs a month ago then relapsed once like a week ago. I can say life's been getting so bad that not even short term pleasure is worth anymore, I have to say suffering became so bad I stopped all my addictions because of the lack of meaning for everything. Today I started pooping and peeing blood, I hope I will die soon",1,1734122876,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoqux0/captive_bolt_systems/,Kindly_Entertainer_7,Captive bolt systems Would a high powered captive bolt “actuator” be any good for one to use as a tool to make an exit permanently? ,3,1735456996,5.0,3.0,4.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd7yo3/suicide/,Kindly_Machine_6040,suicide does sliting your wrists kill you? i'm talking like hannah baker style. ,3,1734078903,5.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnkqhr/i_lost_my_faith_in_humanity/,KingRileyTheDragon,I lost my faith in humanity I have a hard time seeing humanity as good since it feels like so many people are just awful,0,1735322467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbarx3/think_i_might_be_gone_soon/,Kleptosteomaniac,"Think I might be gone soon I'm tired and it's all downhill from here so oh well. I've been doing a lot of research and so far helium inhalation seems like my best option. Carbon monoxide sounds good too but I'm not sure how I'd go through with that and I already have a plan for the helium I know it's what's best for me, I just gotta work up the courage Please don't try to dissuade me or tell me that ""it gets better"" no it doesn't. I'm not looking for that, I just wanted to share I found a way out I'm comfortable with",5,1733860933,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf05zx/mental_breakdown/,Kn1515,Mental Breakdown I am a young boy presently in college. When I moved out of my city i noticed a lot of poverty around and small kids living a life full of difficulties. Now I can't concentrate even on my own studies and life and keep consistently thinking about them that why they didn't get those proviliges which other kids get . What's their fault in this .. please help me i am getting mentally exhausted after observing this unequal world....,0,1734290788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4i6eu/help/,Known-Scar6457,Help I wish I can die and not exist anymore. The demon inside me possess me for so many years and I cant shake them off . my mind is tormenting me so much that the way out for me is to just go. :( ,1,1733099542,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgmx36/suicidal_thoughts/,Kooky_Juggernaut_347,"Suicidal thoughts Suicidal ideation has plagued my mind due to a rapid decline in my life. Lost my girl, lost my job(80k), lost our apartment, lost seeing my kids daily(have them 3 days a week), crippling weed addiction (needs to be daily at least once), on top of blowing 60k on bullshit(nothing to show for it). I recently started taking gear which is throwing my hormones way off. I don't know if it's the gear talking or me wanting to address it finally. Either death or go to rehab. 26 y/o pnw ",2,1734475143,2.0,4.0,3.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hciamw/i_want_to_die_but_its_painful/,Kurisoooooo,I want to die but its painful. i can think of is getting drunk and drowning. hoping the numbness will mask the pain. im tired.,4,1733999681,3.0,5.0,4.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlv90i/i_want_to_kill_myself_but_cant_stop_thinking_in/,LFinch117,"I want to kill myself but can't stop thinking in my family and how it will affect them... That used to stop me, used to be a motivation to keep going but lately is something that weights on me more and more as days pass... I keep telling myself that I'm not alone, that there's so much ahead, but the pain, the noise and the pressure to live is getting unbearable... I been fighting with myself for so long and it drains me... I can't do nothing productive, not because I don't wanna, is just so hard to get myself into the right mentality...",2,1735107666,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho62ad/ocd_is_making_my_life_miserable/,LabSquare5663,Ocd is making my life miserable Ocd and social isolation are making living a normal life difficult. I have no friends either so it hurts even more. I don't know how much more I can take,0,1735393933,0.0,1.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yeij/still_alive_unfortunately/,Laievski30,"Still alive. Unfortunately. I don't even know how I'm still alive. I tried to commit suicide multiple times and all my suicide attempts failed. It sucks. Autistic, bipolar 2 AND POOR! I couldn't have been more cursed. I am sick and tired of this shitty life where every day is a calvary. I didn't ask to be born, yet I am supposed to have a life full of limitations imposed by the universe. ",1,1733365540,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ox2c/i_need_someone_to_talk_to/,Lanky_University_361,I need someone to talk to. I'm right now going through a very tough time. Need someone to talk to,0,1733340841,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha3tji/bye_bye_earth/,Last-Focus6338,Bye bye earth I just took both a bottle of pain reliever and ibuprofen hoping it works I don't feel anything yet ,6,1733726574,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0zy9/im_tired/,LastHistory5465,im tired what are you even supposed to do when you've finally had the courage to tell someone that you've been feeling suicidal and you were met with a response of them mocking your crying. especially if that someone is someone you love endlessly,2,1733716248,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho8wm3/feel_off/,LateInvestigator6528,Feel off I have no friends at all and every attempt failed. No one wants to be my friend and no notifications for months. I feel like im going crazy while being alone in my room every single day. It hurts man,0,1735402537,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjjaas/i_hate_being_autistic_so_fucking_much/,Latter_Actuator8655,"I hate being autistic SO FUCKING MUCH I'm a 21 year old adult man... but mentally I'm still a child. I can't control my impulses at all, and it feels like my brain just can't slow down. I have autism, ADHD, and BPD. This horrible combination means I'm a nightmare to be around. Having autism and absolutely 0 impulse control whatsoever... it's the worst thing in the entire world. I wish I was never born, I make my entire family's life so much worse.",1,1734815487,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfhnvu/ill_kill_myself_because_i_couldnt_catch_tge_train/,LawLeading622,"I'll kill myself because I couldnt catch tge train 😡😡 I was so close to get into the train and that faggot decided to just drive away. He even saw me! I bet he was laughing his ass off. So i'm going to kill myself instead of wauting for an eternity abd it's all the train driver's fault!",2,1734350806,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdicbl/i_am_mentally_exhausted_i_want_to_rest/,Lazy_Acanthisitta35,"I am mentally exhausted, i want to rest. I feel this way everyday. What stops me is the effect that it would do to my wife and son. But i can't take it anymore. I am very tired, no happiness anymore only sadness. Life is simply everyday torture.",1,1734113381,1.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd4gx3/happy_holidays/,Leading-Direction870,Happy Holidays ~ today I learned; my wife's been fucking my brother in my house ! Hohoho 28m 27f two kids 9-2,0,1734064503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdcp8c/planning/,Leather_Taste_9229,"planning I joined this subreddit a while ago and been reading posts and comments hoping I find something worthwhile which makes me wanna live. I'm writing this to let myself know I fought the thoughts, a lot. but I guess I'm done fighting. my parents are totally unaware what I'm planning, I'm planning to die tonight I have no will to live nor do I think I'll find it anytime soon. have previously suffered from depression but never attempted anything. tired and exhausted of myself and my thoughts. my family is tired of having to bear with me. hope I succeed and not have to face myself again. ",5,1734098112,4.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjuy1u/im_not_built_for_life/,Left-Statistician-35,"Im not built for life I'll keep this short. I don't think I'm built to be alive. I don't think the world is meant for me. I want to kill myself but, in doing so, I would just hurt more people. A part of me still thinks it's unhealthy to think all of this even thought I know it's true. The matter of the fact is that the world is not for me. People are not for me. Love is not for me. Nothing is for me. How do I make that questioning part go? I want to convince myself I don't deserve to live.",2,1734858277,,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkdrqv/im_only_staying_for_my_dog/,Legitimate-Remote221,"I'm Only Staying For My Dog Last year, my wife left me for someone else because she was tired of dealing with my disability. I had to move back in with family who are convinced I am an idiot. Everything I do is questioned or second guessed. If I didn't have my fur baby, I would be gone. ",2,1734920109,1.0,2.0,1.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h793po/is_slitting_your_wrists_painful/,LexingtonBritta,Is slitting your wrists painful Is the blood draining painful? ,3,1733405108,5.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8agd5/im_going_to_the_mental_hospital_please_wish_me/,LextheDevil_,Im going to the mental hospital. Please wish me farewell im so nervous… After 4 years im finally going…,0,1733515705,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6etmy/getting_told_to_kll_yourself_multiple_times/,LifeIsHorrible_,"Getting told to k!ll yourself multiple times through your many years of life doesn't mean you should. If they tell you with words, videos, forums, or ",0,1733315303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfyni5/i_dont_know_if_i_want_a_future/,Limp_Egg2210,"I don't know if I want a future It feels so pointless to aim for a future the way the world is going. Climate disasters will ruin our economy and agriculture leading to some fucked dystopia. What point is there in a future if it's a wasteland of glass, steel, silicone, and concrete without an animal in sight. I'll watch thousands of animals and plant life go extinct before I turn thirty, and by then it'll be too late to undo what we've done on earth. We'll have to live (if we even can) with uncomfortably hot temperatures, flooding, and a ruined environment.",1,1734396867,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4jui7/i_plan_on_doing_it_tonight_got_hundreds_of_pills/,Little-Ad226,"i plan on doing it tonight. got hundreds of pills from my grandmothers stash wrote my letter. gonna wash everything down with alcohol. i have no fight in me left. I'll never be successful, own a home, have children or a wife. or just have some type of stability. Im too mentally ill. im 25 and feel like i have no value to offer this world. i dont even want to die, i just feel like i have to. Im also a music artist and i go by ""sadboisurge"" across all platforms everything produced by me. if anyone cares. probably my only accomplishment. But in the grand scheme of things im just a statistic, who overstayed his welcome.",6,1733104455,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hebbfw/i_dont_know_if_im_suicidal/,Logical_Psychology20,"i don't know if im suicidal i have this overwhelming sense of what if i just diseappeared. i don't know how to describe it. im a medical student. i know these feelings often correlate with depression but for some reason, i just feel like a fraud. i don't feel depressed. i feel like a fraud. like i don't deserve the opportunities i have. like i shouldn't burden anyone with my presence. i just want to disappear and if i did i wonder if it will matter? sorry if this is not the right place or i didn't make much sense. ",1,1734207024,1.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha3ysz/my_life_is_so_bad_it_has_always_been_bad_since_i/,Lonely_Poor_DelhiGuy,My life is so bad it has always been bad since I can remember and now I've been thinking of offing myself too often I wish I would get eaten up by the earth.,2,1733727165,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf5o22/this_shouldnt_do_anything/,Longjumping_Quiet_26,this shouldn't do anything will 5000mg of paracetamol do anything to me ,5,1734306001,3.0,5.0,4.0,3.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkujbg/i_need_help/,Loud-Platypus7600,"I need help I'm meet my long distance partner soon and I need help hiding my scarring from them. This month I had a really bad episode that left my leg in a bad state.My partner has been trying to help me stop but it didn't work and I know that once they see the damage they'll react badly to it. I need help immediately to hide or to lose the scars before I meet them, I only have less than 3 weeks and I'm scared of them breaking up with me.",0,1734979879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1harcfu/looking_for_someone_to_talk_to/,Louis_Toadvine_HT,Looking for someone to talk to Is anyone around to talk? Really need some help. ,0,1733797617,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7pwtv/why_doesnt_suicide_teach_people_a_lesson/,LoveTurtles24,"Why doesnt Suicide teach people a lesson? Families still mistreat their children, Bosses still mistreat their employees, teachers still mistreat their students, and then the general public still mistreats people. Why can't anyone change their behavior so that people feel more loved and less likely to end their lives? ",0,1733449207,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhg8lc/is_there_suicidal_characters_that_dont_kill/,Low_Goat1502,"Is there suicidal characters that don't kill themselevs I want a character to relate to that does not just end up killing the selves ",0,1734568121,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdb17m/i_want_to_kms_i_want_to_kms_i_want_to_kms_i_want/,Lucasplayz234,"I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS I WANT TO KMS My grades will never get better, I have only math and chemistry higher than 90 and the rest is just between 80 and 90 and they r not enough for my dream college",2,1734092507,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgp3z9/i_did_it/,Luminarygemfairy11,I did it Took a handful of olanzapine. Just waiting now. ,6,1734481343,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1honah6/suicidal_while_black/,Lumpy-Pomelo-984,"suicidal while black i feel like i have no one to talk to. having suicidal thoughts is such a taboo topic in my culture and my family would just blame it on me not going to church or not worshipping god, when even when i was forced to go to church, i still had suicidal thoughts. no one would take me seriously and i have no idea how to talk about my feelings because of the stigma around being depressed in a christian black family. ",2,1735443818,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn5nc2/i_dont_know_what_im_going_to_do/,Lumpy_Entrance_7663,I don't know what I'm going to do I'm about to enter the adult world but I feel I've never got proper advice to fucking thrive in this world nobody taught me anything I've made terrible life choices my grades are terrible and as of right now I see no point in even trying anymore,0,1735269600,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hadxm4/my_friend_texted_me_and_i_backed_out/,Lunanair,"My friend texted me and I backed out It was impulsive. I was feeling bad and I had mustered the motivation and courage to go. Then while I was going through with it, one of my friends texted me. I felt so guilty I went back on it and took a shower. I live to see another day, but I feel awful. Not only because I failed, but also because I have to keep silent about it. It all feels so... meaningless, especially after I've tried to throw it out.",6,1733762469,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl39yv/help_i_have_suicidal_thoughts/,M00NWoon,"Help I have suicidal thoughts I have these suicidal thoughts in my mind and in the bible, it says that commiting suicide or being suicidal is a sin. I want to tell my parents and my friends but I'm scared. :( I wanna reach out to someone but I don't know who. I already tried praying but nothing's working. I know its gonna get worse from the future",2,1735005869,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8qjcv/what_am_i/,Mac97z,"What am I I died 2 years ago, I'm unrecognizable, my brain works on extreme slow levels, I've lost all functioning of self, I haven't showered or brushed or helped anyone for months, I've damaged my healthy family. I can't seem to kill myself even after multiple stupid attempts. I should die for the good of my family and the community and I know this, I'm trying to go to the beach to drown, I'm postponing it alot. I should really do it for my family so they get back to normal and live happy",4,1733570819,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6t83w/i_cant_go_on_like_this/,MacheteCrocodileJr,"I can't go on like this... I hate myself I really do. I see people here struggling with real issues people that have gone through insane traumatic experiences. Then there's me, who's just been dumped 2 months ago. And I just can't fucking handle it anymore, I exercise every day, I walk because the sun should help I take antidepressants, it's all fucking pointless. I just keep thinking about hurling myself in front of a train. Before I was cutting some food in the kitchen and my kitchen knife just looked so tempting, I'm just so fucking tired of being fucking alive ",3,1733351375,3.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl2mk9/im_tired/,Maleficent-Rise2221,"im tired I'm tired of everything, mostly myself and how society is, this world is so ugly, it's not at all like I imagined it when I was younger, I used to be optimistic and determinated, now I barely have the motivation to type this. Even if I were to change, the world won't. Society, people, our governments it's all so ugly and it's only getting worse, I wasn't meant for this world. Goodbye.",1,1735003728,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcxjoe/i_just_attempted_to_overdose/,MallObjective4165,I just attempted to overdose I took an ungodly amount of sleeping pills and for some reason I'm still here.,6,1734043282,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h58jss/self_harming_is_the_only_thing_keeping_me_at_bay/,Many-Seaweed-6400,Self harming is the only thing keeping me at bay I keep spiraling being filled with anxiety and depression and so much stress that self harm is the only way I feel happy and in control while also grounded. Whenever I get suicidal thoughts I get extremely anxious and cutting just feels like my only solution but I know it's bad and don't know how to stop.,2,1733180487,0.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9ola/i_just_really_need_someone_to_talk_to/,MariiJags,"I just really need someone to talk to Preferably someone long term where we can check in on each other and be accountability partners. Life is a bit too much for me right now, and I have no one to talk to.",0,1733966611,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hidemc/to_everyone_here/,Massive_List_801,"To everyone here To everyone in the Reddit you are worth it a thousands times over, you are special you all matter and believe it because I understand wanting to end yourself. I had a few thoughts of taking my own but I never go through with it no matter how hard my life gets I won't or maybe one day. The point is you all are special and deserve to live",0,1734674626,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi0839/im_gonna_do_it_onfg/,MasterSprinkles847,I'm gonna do it onfg Idc if I'm a kid I am gonna do it I'm so sick and tired of being treated like shit everyday I'm so tired of being bad at everything I am useless I can't do shit I'm ugly I'm weird ,4,1734634735,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmq27a/i_keep_waiting_for_something_to_change_but_it/,Master_Plant_3135,"I keep waiting for something to change but it doesn't I don't have the will to live anymore. My whole child hood I was abused by my mother & always told myself growing up that when I am an adult I will find my person & have children & give them all the love I never had. Now at 35 I realise that dream is most likely not going to happen. I don't want to live alone anymore & the thought of it makes me just want to end it now. I have tried so hard to date and every date just ghosts me. I understand why though, why would anyone want to date a suicidal depressed person. Let alone breed with them. ",2,1735225324,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcnmn8/attempt/,MasterpieceTasty7195,Attempt?? i took 8 500 mg paracetamol pills. do u guys think ill survive now 😹 (hope i wake up dead pls anyone above me do it),6,1734017541,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj8xtt/overdosing_right_now_because_im_ugly_and_stupid/,MasterpieceUpbeat563,"overdosing right now because im ugly and stupid i will describe the process in detail if anyone wants to know how painful it is to die from paracet, so maybe others will be deterred its my punishment for having no personality of my own, a pathetic jobless ugly loser a fucking doormat because if i werent, i would have no love at all everyone i care about have found their replacaments so i dont feel guilty about this at all, i think im doing them a favor ",6,1734784332,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp1hw5/i_have_realised_i_will_never_receive_humen/,Matveim,"I have realised I will never receive humen affection and dreams. So basically I am on weed withdrawal and I had a vivid dream which has destroyed my day. Basically the dream was about a girl which abandoned me. It felt like somebody stabbed me and I woke up in so much mental pain that I just balled up and sobbed for 2 hours. I have the feeling of extrem loss. Iam never going to experience somebody hugging me out of affection without an exterior motive. Fuck",0,1735494871,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8pdyx/decapitation/,Meadowind,"Decapitation Hi! I have found a perfect way to commit suicide, I'm thinking of doing it within a year. So, tie a knot on one end of a very long rope to tree, and another one around the neck. Sit in a car and push the gas pedal all the way, with the rope going through the trunk. If one does not have such a long rope, a solution would be driving down a cliff or a hill with the same setup.",5,1733565681,5.0,5.0,5.0,,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hai9xe/failed_my_suicide_attempt/,Meanpoptart,"Failed My Suicide Attempt Took a bunch of pills, chased it with alcohol and got drunk last night. Blacked out and woke up confused. Glad I'm still here. It gets better. ",6,1733773083,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpq3a7/need_to_vent/,Meikmik,Need to vent I need someone to talk to. Anyone right now.,0,1735573789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjnv2k/should_i_kill_myself/,Melodic_Hunt_2945,"Should I kill myself Nobody really gaf about me and shit so yea Idk even what else to say tbh I just got nobody to talk to I'm realizing you might think that I'm a 15 yo who had a bad day or something but that's not the case",2,1734829680,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdpbx5/help/,MercurySun1930,"Help 7 months with pssd it's over i've lost almost everything no more love, emotions, ambition chemically castrated all thanks to big pharma and their poison pills. Nothing feels real anymore the charm is gone. I'm 21 years old and my life is over. Please pray to God for me that I find a way to sort myself out ",1,1734132359,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8nmey/i_tried_to_hang_myself_and_failed_now_i_am_lost/,MessiasALT,"I tried to hang myself and failed now I am lost I can't stand my life anymore and I don't feel afraid of death anymore, I really just want to end it all. But I can't even do anything right, it felt like my neck was going to break in two and nothing happened, here I am with some neck pain. What do I do now? I really feel lost after this, it was my only solution. I don't know what to do with my life (or un-life).",6,1733557736,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgwjhr/288_posts_a_day_140_americans_pass_a_day/,Messigoat3,"288 posts a day. 140 Americans pass a day. I'm not sure if this is allowed to be posted here but I'm going to post it for statistical reasons. Theoretically assuming everyone in here is an American, there would be about a 50% rate of someone posting today would ultimately decide to do it. This is shattering and I wish everyone had someone to be their reason to stay. I cannot be that but I wish someone else can. About 30 posts a day go unnoticed with 0 comments. It seems like nobody cares and I wish this wasn't the case. I'm sorry I am also of no help. I wish I was better. Good luck to all. ",0,1734507102,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3t1lq/1_reason_why_i_should_stay/,Metalheadbozo814,1 reason why i should stay. Just give me 1. No im not going to fucking bent. Im tired of it. Im sure itll be hard to give me a reason.,1,1733020335,1.0,4.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hismp4/does_this_count/,MindlessEffect9701,"Does this count I've made ""attempts"" the past few weeks, does trying to reach arteries or trying to hang myself count as attempts even if I didn't fully go through??? ",6,1734725645,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8y3p7/19m_about_to_die/,Mindless_Breath_2303,"19M about to die I guess this is my goodbye letter. Funny cause I never thought I'd end up like this, but here we are. So yeah, I just took about 310,000 mg of methanol, and now I'm lying on the floor, waiting. Not sure how much longer I'll stay awake tbh. I guess I wrote this just to leave some kind of imprint, hah. Anyway, wish me luck. If I somehow don't die, I'll let you all know.",6,1733594326,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h67yk1/im_a_horrible_person/,Mindless_Rock9452,"im a horrible person!!! half of my friends will not talk to me or even stay in the same room as me and it's all my fault :3 i am fucking worthless <3",0,1733287316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4q5uy/just_dont_see_the_point_of_adult_life_anymore/,Minelurker101,"Just don't see the point of adult life anymore Almost 28 and almost every moment since graduating university was miserable, I don't get the point anymore. Everyone is suddenly only interested in sports, politics and everything generic, suddenly you are the only person of your age that cares about particular hobbies. I don't get along with anyone and I'm always alone. People constantly say relationships are meant to only come when you're happy without them ... lol how are you meant to be happy when absolutely nobody wants to spend time anymore except with their partners?",1,1733126893,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9zuv9/dont_do_it/,MinuteDesigner9618,"Don't do it. Just don't.I have been reading these posts and it just makes me upset.If you're young you still have a whole life ahead of you.If you was beaten by your parents,When you get older be a better dad/mom you wanted as a kid.If you are older,you have siblings that look up to you and what would happen when they get that phone call.They would be in so much pain.Do you want that for your younger siblings?Just think of stuff like this before you commite.",0,1733712532,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haezyd/this_is_a_crisis/,MiorinaRembran,"This is a crisis 25 years and still no meaningful relationship I had a short one with narcissistic abuser and it ended 2 years ago, still feel consequences I thought that living in Tokyo would change this endless loneliness, but no Fucking hate that others have no problems in getting into this and I just can't. None really tries to approach me, it's just 0 reaction from anyone despite my best efforts So disgusting I feel like stopping it forever and not to try to approach anyone ",0,1733765082,2.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi55ia/better_to_be_alone/,MiserableGay_4134,"Better to be alone. Better to be alone... rather than living hell every day, from when you wake up, to when you go to school, to when you come home... in my room I feel safe... terribly safe... I want to stay there, especially if there is an unlivable world outside.",0,1734647830,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hh6su6/18_cut_myself/,Mispunctuations,"18, cut myself Left arm, tried to bleed out but kitchen knife still wasn't sharp enough after sharpening it. Do jagged knives work? What's a sharp object that could be good? I just don't care anymore.",6,1734543110,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5k3gv/im_just_tired/,Money_Requirement_54,I'm just tired I'm really thinking about it. Is there anyone I can talk to I've never been here before. Life is just getting too much for me,1,1733220109,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmg3ue/25_horrible_years/,MonkeySnailZen,25 horrible years i have been planning for about a month now to jump off of the bridge near me on Dec 26th. i am about to leave my house to do it. genuinely i am happy about it & it seems so incredibly right to do. ,6,1735184734,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhhk3d/theres_nothing_more_animalistic_than_vaginal_sex/,MostAsocialPerson,"there's nothing more animalistic than vaginal sex. chimps. monkeys. don't ever touch my vagina, males. i'm gonna have a huge breakdown if i see it one more time in porn, you losers. i'm crying",0,1734572083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7j3ox/feeling_suicidal_with_hsv2/,Mother_Growth4088,"feeling suicidal with hsv2 i really try to keep a positive mindset.. but as a young black women with herpes i just don't feel like living anymore. my brother died from suicide a couple yrs ago and he was my mothers only other child so i feel terrible for even feeling like this. i really do not want to live anymore though, i have no motivation anymore and I try to practice gratitude because ik I have a lot to be thankful for but nothing is working and I don't know how i'll live the rest of my life like this as im only 21.",2,1733430925,2.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4giif/terrified_and_running_out_of_time/,MrMediocrity138,"Terrified and Running Out Of Time Long story short, I have absolutely nothing going for me in my life. No meaningful friendships, my health is only getting worse, and my family life is non existent. I can't even seem to secure a job for myself which is likely the core of my troubles. I stole several thousand dollars from my father and I have no idea how I'm gonna pay him back and I'm scared of how he's going to react. I find the idea of killing myself to avoid the consequences increasingly tempting ",2,1733094874,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdp43e/im_killing_myself_tonight_due_to_having_pssd_for/,Mr_Insomia21,"I'm killing myself tonight due to having PSSD for 2 years (Post SSRI Dysfunction ) This has not been an easy decision at all, I am hanging myself tonight. I've lost everything my dreams, my family, my friends, my emotions, my feelings, my genitals are numb, my emotions are numb. I just can't take this anymore and there is currently no cure for this disease. I am screwed, goodbye everyone.",5,1734131719,5.0,5.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjzu60/i_hope_i_die_in_my_sleep/,Mr_Zephyr03,I hope i die in my sleep Peace,1,1734878768,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hehtml/how_do_we_reconcile_with_living/,Much_Investigator386,"How do we reconcile with living? How do we get over the fact that we are living? Especially when one feels alone and stuck? I try to find things I'm grateful for, however, I want death more than anything sometimes. ",1,1734226156,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h780qc/one_of_the_reasons_to_why_i_feel_like_i_need_to/,Mull112,"One of the reasons to why i feel like i need to end my life I'm honestly kinda scared to live. Moments where i'm gonna throw up, break a bone, have panic attacks and a psychosis etc are just waiting for the time to come where it happens. I'm just destined to experience all of those things one day without knowing when and it scares me. This is a small reason of those to why i feel the need to kms",2,1733401583,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hahwij/it_wont_stop/,MundanePlastic301,"It wont stop How do i make it stop, please anytjing",0,1733772157,0.0,0.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcf5nv/im_hopeless/,Mundane_Suspect_624,I'm hopeless I have nothing to offer the world. There's nothing for me. I'm a complete failure and continuing will only make it more evident. I used to think about how dying would affect people around me but right now I don't even care. I hate they they'd hurt but I won't be hurt anymore. I guess that's what they mean by it being selfish….,2,1733985413,2.0,4.0,3.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h59nrq/psychosis/,Murky-Investigator31,"psychosis i feel like i'm in a state of psychosis and i don't know what to do. i have a psych appt soon so i can bring it up then, but i genuinely feel like i'm going insane. i'm seeing things, making stuff up, avoiding everything, sleeping horribly, clinging to substances, and trying so very hard not to cut myself. i feel like everyone hates me and everyone stares at me. i feel like they all are out to get me. i feel like one of my roommates is an fbi agent and is out to get me (i have nothing criminally against me). i just want to be gone. nothing really matters. help ",4,1733183443,1.0,1.0,3.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h632zq/distraction_talk/,MyLifeForTheLichKing,Distraction talk? Not feeling too sharp. Just want some company.,0,1733272572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haug19/someone_please_just_talk_to_me/,Mysterious-Mark863,Someone please just talk to me Please,0,1733807689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg3v35/i_cant_stop_thinking/,Mysterious_Daikon_83,"I can't stop thinking I can't stop thinking about my dead body I keep having thoughts about me dying over and over again. I get shot at, hanged, I stab out my own heart, I imagine that when I sleep someone is gonna chop my head off with an axe. I went to the store today and I can't stop thinking about me driving myself off the bridge or “accidentally” speeding a bit too fast and ramming myself tiwrads a building . I keep thinking about that mangled body inside that car and i can't stop feeling how much I wanna be that fucking body but I can't because I still gotta get groceries I don't wanna be in this fucked up world. ",3,1734413937,5.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpnzep/i_hate_my_life/,N00BZB3,"I hate my life It feels that nothing i do is good enough, as if my family just use me for my money. I dont feel happy, i dont feel ok. I just feel as if my family will be better without me in their lives. ",1,1735567764,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7rfih/have_you_had_any_experience_with_teen_suicide/,Nahum8903,"Have you had any experience with teen suicide? If so, what did you do or what would you have liked to do?, ",0,1733453869,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ubuo/people_are_so_needlessy_rude_these_days/,Naive-Possible-1319,"People are so needlessy rude these days Always like Who asked or other annoying things, I don't want to be around humans anymore",0,1733354214,1.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5gaew/i_cant_do_this/,Narrow-Direction-935,"I can't do this I honestly don't know how much more I can take. Just been made redundant. I have no savings as I just had open heart surgery 5 months ago and had to take 7 weeks off work. I have so much medication in my cupboard that I could OD myself on. Use to never see OD as an option but yeah... I just feel like raising the white flag, I'm done.",4,1733203804,3.0,4.0,3.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkue07/do_the_holidays_make_anyone_even_more_suicidal/,NatSurvivor,"Do the holidays make anyone even more suicidal? I hate the holidays and everything around the holidays, usually this is the time of the year when I feel even more depressed. This is actually the first time when I'm really considering suicide and I even start to look for options.",3,1734979463,3.0,3.0,3.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf09js/how_to_stop_yourself_from_commiting_suicide/,National_Dingo_56,"How to stop yourself from commiting suicide? If you really reallywant to go through with it,can anything help without calling or talking to anyone?",0,1734291058,2.0,4.0,5.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhc5kv/my_bf_didnt_do_anything_for_my_birthday/,NaturalLunch123,"My bf didn't do anything for my birthday I know it's unfair of me to expect something but a little more than a happy birthday message would've been nice, I feel like he doesn't care for me anymore. He used to write me poems and make beautiful art for me but… I feel like my love for him is one sided at the moment. I feel so lonely and uncared for, he was my reason to keep living but it feels like he's slipping away and I'm already building walls around my heart so i won't get hurt by him. I love him so much. I kinda don't feel like living anymore, I'm taking a short break from everything but, I can't stop feeling uncared for.",1,1734556936,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbd10m/i_hate_my_family/,Natural_Ad_7117,i hate my family my family is the reason why i want to end it all,2,1733866624,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hisy6u/i_dont_want_to_go_to_heaven_anymore/,Natural_Adeptness315,"I dont want to go to heaven anymore So I am religious. And you always get told that if you're a good person you go to heaven. But if I die I don't even want to go heaven anymore, even that sounds exhausting. Obviously I don't want to go to hell either. I just want to stop existing, I don't want to be conscious again. I do believe that everything will be good in heaven but I feel like it's just too tiring, to even think about it, to have to be alive again, no matter the good conditions... I just want to be gone completely. Im wondering if anyone else feels like this too.",1,1734726535,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi8q24/i_have_a_plan/,Nature-Due,I have a plan I've been miserable my entire life and it's getting worse everyday. I've tried multiple meds and treatments. I'm scared to go through with it but I can't live like this anymore. I don't know what else to do. ,5,1734658453,5.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8mfw2/i_cant_even_kill_myswlf/,Neat-Ad7668,"i cant even kill myswlf the outher day i tryed to jump off a nearby bridge so i could find peace. but i just couldent do it. insted i broke down there and got emberessed as some randoms asked if i was alright.- i mean also made me feel nice seeing people stop there car on a bridge to ask",6,1733552686,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3t6yj/why_is_life_so_meaningless/,NeatCalligrapher9939,"Why is life so meaningless I want to die. I've been telling myself no one would miss me. I have no friends, I'm 26 and live alone. I have a fear of being alone for the rest of my life. My girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me for very good reasons. I can't be upset at her for it but I'm upset at myself and feel like I'm sick in the head. I do wish I had the strength to just do it and kill myself. I tried to overdose on Tylenol PM twice already and didn't.",6,1733020830,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7p1yl/please_help_i_cant_do_this_anymore/,Neat_Literature_8896,"Please help I can't do this anymore My partner left me and I'm devastated. I have this crushing sadness and I'm so tired of feeling this way. It hasn't been that long but it doesn't get better. If anything, every day it gets worse. I can't eat, i can't sleep, i can't shower, i can't get out of bed. I've been missing work and I'm afraid I'll get fired. My life is falling apart. What do I do? I don't have friends or family to rely on. I want to give up.",1,1733446637,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8wnrs/all_i_want_for_christmas/,Neverbetter9,All I want for Christmas is to be gone before Christmas. I keep praying that God will take my life quickly instead of making me continue he to suffer. So far no luck. Hopefully I get what I really want for Christmas.,1,1733590400,1.0,1.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5jy0m/i_want_to_die/,New-Scarcity637,I want to die I'm 14 and I have a curse that anything I love dies my favorite dogs got hit by a car and my cat ate insulation and died in my hands as I was trying to get him to the vet. I don't even have one fucking thing to remember all my lost pets by. I'm failing school nobody likes me I'm done I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. 😔,1,1733219448,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ngzn/survived_a_suicide_attempt/,Newscreenneeded,"Survived a suicide attempt I attempted to take my life on a Tuesday night. It's been 2 weeks since that happened, and I've noticed some strange changes in my body. I thought that my solution would be permanent, but as you can see I'm still here. I've been stuttering a little recently, and I constantly feel so tired and nauseous. I've also been feeling weaker than I've ever felt. I used to be a power lifter, but now I struggle to do even the simplest tasks at my job. I'm not sure what to do, as life is circling back to being miserable again, and sleeping forever doesn't seem so bad. I just wish I could recover somehow from this. ",6,1733677844,6.0,6.0,6.0,2.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h58ihd/i_found_my_way/,Nice__Nice,I found my way I can buy potassium cyanide online 10g for 10$ if I eat all at once I die in less than 5 minutes. Other than other methods this is guaranteed to work. I feel so relieved I've been comparing and evaluating different methods for a year now I probably know 50 different methods but all of them either don't work 100% or are to hard to get the materials or need too much effort and willpower ,5,1733180411,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgugm1/help_me_please/,NicoB33,"Help me please Just feeling very alone. Feeling like I'm Not good at anything I do. I feel empty and scared :(",0,1734498615,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd5rmg/it_feels_so_heavy/,Nicollage_,"It feels so heavy I'm currently having suicidal thoughts right now, been crying the whole day 'til yesterday. My boyfriend's at work right now I don't want to bother him, but I badly wanna make him come home and help me, 'coz I can't take this anymore. My chest is so heavy.",2,1734069213,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnzrws/i_need_someone_to_talk_to/,NightmareComa,i need someone to talk to title,0,1735367164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ar5r/i_dont_need_to_be_hear_im_going_to_live_and_thrive/,No-Bee6042,"I don't need to be hear. I'm going to live and thrive! Today I talk to my dad and for the first time in a very long time I feel great. We're both alcoholics and he told me everything I needed to hear. I'm realizing that I'm my father's daughter, he got out of alcoholism, and so can I!",0,1733186456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h536rk/need_someone_to_talk_to_me/,No-Drink9283,"Need someone to talk to me I really need someone who can talk to me please I am not in a good state rn I need some one",0,1733167230,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hosqi7/want_to_commit_suicide_right_now_please_someone/,No-Echidna5260,"Want to commit suicide right now please someone help me My life is in ruins. My ex fiance broke up with me a year ago. We were together 7 years. He took everything, my dog and started a new DJ life with a new girlfriend. I want to end it now. I can't live anymore. ",2,1735465357,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkmtd2/dont_wanna_die_but_just_disappear_does_that_make/,No-Ingenuity8885,"Don't wanna die but just disappear? Does that make sense? I feel like it wouod be peaceful if I'd just stop existing, not by death, Just simply into the state of non existence. ",1,1734957234,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hh7pcs/sorry_you_feel_that_way/,No-Oil5172,"""Sorry you feel that way"" 😐",0,1734545433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhn09w/help_life_is_coming_to_an_end_for_me/,No-Region-1306,"Help life is coming to an end for me Hi I am currently considering to give up and stop wasting away here. I don't have much reason to be alive. I can't enjoy life anymore. Nothing is helping me feel like I matter. The fact is i don't matter and there's no one that'd truly miss me. I'll be a fart in the wind within a day. I want to be as painless as possible, like something I could take before bed and have a permanent slumber from there on out. I need help figuring out what would work for me. ",1,1734590761,5.0,5.0,5.0,4.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiaehb/my_friend_feels_like_killing_herself/,No-Time735,My friend feels like killing herself My friend (18F) is from Indonesia and I met her online so I can't really do much. She's been struggling a lot mentally and financially. She's in college now and from what I've heard everybody hates her. She's tried asking for help from her classmates and parents but they don't believe her. She's been taking antidepressants but they don't seem to help. I'm not sure how to help her and I myself am also suicidal. ,0,1734663945,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl4ifl/helpdm_pls/,NoApple235,"HELP(DM PLS) I need someone to talk to desperately ",0,1735010091,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hopaor/i_just_called_911_on_my_dad/,NoAskRed,"I just called 911 on my dad. He's been extremely depressed for years. He shut his phone off for Christmas for obvious reasons. I called him this evening to try to cheer him up. Being concerned, I asked him about the ""S"" word. He said maybe. I called 911, and as of this writing, Sheriff deputies are on the way to his house. On the one hand, I feel bad that deputies are going to be banging on his door. On the other hand, I don't. ",0,1735450822,2.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdvzjg/i_need_advice/,NoConsequence4567,I need advice I (12m) just really fell as if it's better to die and I don't want to tell anyone I know being they'll get upset so I came here to ask what to do,1,1734154206,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlh5s2/kill_me_please/,NoDuty10,"Kill me please I don't know how to talk, i don't know how to keep friends, i don't know anything, everyone always leaves me, I feel lonely, even if someone be here will leaves me anyway, I'm fed up with all this, I want it to end, I don't have the strength to fight anymore, I have no strength for anything, Please, I hate my whole fucking life",1,1735058169,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha37vd/i_just_want_to_be_at_peace/,No_Customer3267,I just want to be at peace I Really just want to be at peace so bad ,1,1733724129,1.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4zsgj/is_there_some_one_from_bavaria/,No_Flower_3659,Is there some one from Bavaria I just wanna talk i am deep in it rn,0,1733159021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6t6c7/i_failed/,No_Inside4530,I failed I attempted a few days ago by overdosing but it didn't kill me.. I'm gonna try again soon once I get more medicine.. I hope I actually die this time ,6,1733351257,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfiw2y/gonna_end_it_soon/,No_Language_194,"Gonna end it soon I'm so depressed from 1 year haven't left my home my acne ruined my life I feel like shit all the time I wish I didn't had acne wanted to be a normal fucking person I'm so fucking insecure I think about suicide every day. People my age (M20) are having relationships and enjoying life while I just rot in my home. Can't even look at a girl cause I think I will scare them. Why god did this to me. ",2,1734355132,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heorl5/ending_it_all_right_now/,No_Perspective9166,Ending it all right now I can't live anymore I fucking hate everything im sitting on the stool I'm bouta jump of if I have the rope around my neck,6,1734253260,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmn6ua/i_wish_i_was_white/,No_Photograph_5871,"I WISH I WAS WHITE I WISH I WAS WHITE I WISH I WAS WHITE I WANT A BEAUTIFUL MAN MAN BUT MOST OF THEM DONT LIKE MY RACE I WANNA KILL MYSELF BECAUSE IM A UGLY BLACKIE I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT IM ENVIOUS BLACK WOMEN NEVER WIN! WHITE AND ASIAN WOMEN DO THEYRE BEAUTIFUL WHILE IM JUST UGLY I AM SO GLAD LIFE DOESNT GO ON FOREVER ",2,1735215311,4.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4ssju/no_courage/,No_Possible3753,"No courage I've been trying to stab myself all day. The fucking knife won't go through my skin, I've tried different knives and shit but it won't work. I don't have the courage to stab myself hard enough ",6,1733138579,,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdbncl/i_get_so_angry_i_start_to_become_suicidal/,No_Snow2771,I get so angry I start to become suicidal Everytime I get angry I reach a point where I feel like I'm gonna harm myself I have so much anger in my heart and it begs to be let out all the time I can't handle it ,2,1734094760,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7zezb/f_21_cant_do_this_anymore/,No_Teach_195,"F 21 can't do this anymore I don't wanna be here anymore. I've lost friends, my car. I can't sleep and I haven't eaten in days. I've gotten the worst haircut and my hair was the only thing I loved about myself and it's gone. My life is shit and won't get better. I feel ugly. I feel isolated from everything. The only thing keeping me here is watching SpongeBob to distract myself. ",1,1733485008,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9alby/life_sucks/,Obvious-Economy-199,Life sucks I'm so sick of life's BS. You can be kind and helpful and life can still suck. I always wanted to die peacefully in my sleep but honestly now I just wanna die quickly. I don't have family nearby or ppl who care. I have a bf who treats me like trash and uses me for money. I dream of the day I die. Wouldn't mind if it was soon. I feel like this so often I've made it a long time. But I'm so tired. Can you die from serotonin overdose? Thinking of grabbing my last hand full and listening to music. What a peaceful way to go. ,3,1733631265,6.0,5.0,4.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8gdo0/hey/,Odd-Count2277,"Hey Hey, anyone in Chicago that is also suicidal just like me who wants to hang out? ",0,1733532120,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9m7v3/life_feels_over/,Odd-Lawyer3489,Life feels over My dad is currently really sick and will probably die soon. My wife has been so mean to me and I've just been taking it and as soon as I defend myself after taking it for months now she asked for a divorce. I really have no one. I feel like ending it all. No one cares or loves me at all. ,2,1733674498,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdswtz/im_giving_up/,Odd_Cardiologist_799,I'm giving up 😔 I literally hate my life so much. I try to just keep going but idk if I can go on any longer. Today is my birthday and this has been one of the worse days of my life. I have no one 😢 im so alone and tired of life,1,1734143409,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnqqqg/cant_find_a_way_out/,Ok-Armadillo-9506,"Can't find a way out . I need a way out can't find it I've been fighting every way even though it doesn't look like it on the outside I find something to keep me going. I see something aspirational and embody it in my imagination, but it doesn't matter because I just wanna let it all go don't even wanna try anymore I just want it to be over . Honestly, the only thing keeping me here is how hard it is to make that happen I know a lot of us in this sub have been there. ",2,1735338362,3.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp7ug3/i_want_to_tape_a_bullet_to_my_head_and_light_a/,Ok-Big1853,I want to tape a bullet to my head and light a fire to it. Would that even work? a Shotgun bullet,3,1735511654,5.0,3.0,5.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haw22d/gonna_kill_myself_tomorrow/,Ok-Can2406,Gonna kill myself tomorrow My mom leaves for work at 4:30am so ima try and do it around 6:00 am. Can't take not being good enough to accomplish anything especially school so this is what I need to do. I know my family will be hurt but I hope with time they will heal. Peace out everyone. Gonna try with carbon monoxide poisoning but if that fails I have other options but more gruesome. ,6,1733813909,5.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk18ck/i_never_wished_to_be_alive/,Ok-Duck-7593,"I never wished to be alive the gave me life but is it really worth living? my life has up and down, mostly down. has too many regrets. ",0,1734882973,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlzsft/i_know_life_has_been_better_everytime_i_wanted_to/,Ok-Journalist6199,"I know life has been better everytime I wanted to kill myself But maybe it's because I was teenagers or in my early 20s. It's so hard, life is sooo hard… ",0,1735129309,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h94m5j/i_want_to_die_in_my_sleep/,Ok-Landscape5065,"I want to die in my sleep I am tired of this life. I wish I can pass away in my sleep. I wish my soul could go somewhere nice. Suicide is not an option cuz of my mom..",1,1733612313,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm3e17/i_miss_her/,Ok-Relationship-9656,"I miss her I broke up with my ex of almost 5 years over two weeks ago, and while talking about things, she told me she lost her feelings for me about a year ago, or in her words “ages ago” At some point I was wondering why I'd barely get a response when i'd send goodnight texts and saying I love you etc… I want to shoot myself ",3,1735142883,2.0,3.0,2.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmaage/im_worthless/,Ok-Repair-8367,I'm worthless I want to die a painless death. Fent?,3,1735164877,3.0,3.0,4.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3s8xv/genuinely_cannot_keep_going/,Ok-Supermarket818,"Genuinely cannot keep going Everything is so tiring. Breathing just feels like a chore. I struggle to even take a full breath most of the time. It fucking sucks, and I am so exhausted. There's only one reason I'm here still, and even that is fucking pathetic. I'm so sick of myself, I'm so sick of being fuckmeat, of just losing everything that made life worth living over and over again. What's even the point? Incredible happiness and loss of it? I don't want to keep going if that's the case. I'm just so so tired",1,1733017791,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkk52g/im_so_lonely_and_need_someone_to_talk_to/,OkEdge8947,I'm so lonely and need someone to talk to I'm 18M and I've been struggling with a lot of things for a while and I'm very lonely right now and need someone to talk to,0,1734945726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hntto3/help_please/,OkKoala2067,"Help Please! Tried to kill myself by sleeping in my running car inside my closed garage for over 3 hours, car windows open. I woke up fine, what did I do wrong?",6,1735347152,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h70wau/the_internet_can_be_so_harsh/,OkPaleontologist8248,"The internet can be so harsh I know you can't take it seriously and so on but... Sometimes all you want is for someone to hear your story without judgment. It feels like if you are not perfect you are nothing. Self proclaimed experts everywhere... judging you at every turn. ",0,1733373130,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hacjnp/attempt/,OkSoup9355,Attempt. Posted on here before but it will work this time. I've taken 12mg of paracetamol (24 500mg pills) that's enough to kill. Bt the end of the week ill be dead.,6,1733758913,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoz9e3/actially_ab_to_hang_myself_rn/,Ok_Apartment_397,actially ab to hang myself rn im sorru for thw typos im just shaking roght now idk what to do. I dont inderstand what im doing wrong man please i just need someone to tsllme not to do it i just want someone to care im so fucking lonely man fuck my.life,6,1735488936,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcee3n/failed_attempt/,Ok_Cat6902,"Failed attempt Yesterday was my first attempt with an OD. I took a shitload of Xanax and sent my letters, just for one friend to call an ambulance and mess it all up. I'm going to buy a shotgun off fb marketplace or whatever. No registration, no nothing, just a single trigger pull and I'm gone... I suck at everything even suicide lol...",6,1733982317,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiy2at/im_going_to_go_through_it/,Ok_Office3184,"I'm going to go through it Im thinking of od on the cough medicine we have along with whatever alcohol we have and laying myself in the traintracks. I'm worried tho that it'll cost my family a lot, part of me doesn't want to do it for financial reason but I have no other purpose really. I've lost all of my passion and love for things I used to love. ",5,1734741296,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfc1se/someone_talk_with_me_i_cant_stop_thinking_of/,Ok_Personality_2690,someone talk with me i cant stop thinking of suicide and i cant sleep im trying so hard in life but i keep getting pushed back in the worse ways im so absolutely crushed right now i cant even sleep anymore i want out of all of this so bad ,2,1734326522,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhrkd6/my_face_is_making_me_want_to_off_myself/,Ok_Relationship4659,"My face is making me want to off myself. My brain focuses on how big my nose is and I constantly compare myself to every normal person who has a normal, small nose. I want to die, I feel like I don't belong on this fucking planet if I look so different to everyone else, I get that I sound insane but this has tormented me for YEARS. I've lost social confidence and have so much self hatred. I can't afford to fix it and I am on a waitlist for therapy. I just have to suffer. I just feel so fucking alone and inferior to everyone in my life, all the perfect, normal, not ugly people. I'm cursed.",2,1734610367,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgv2bn/parents_gave_up_on_me/,Ok_Resident4339,Parents gave up on me Asian household 16 in highschool mom has openly given up on me dad is way more chill because he was born in america shes fully given up on me and I want to die. What should I do? Im not gonna go seek therapy or anything like that.,1,1734500969,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6wbn8/constantly_stressed/,Ok_Room5183,Constantly stressed I just want this to end. I'm stressed 24/7 about work and money. Stressed about how I'm performing at work and possibly losing my job. Stressed about things like my taxes for trading stocks/crypto that feels impossible to keep track of at this point. It would be so much easier if I was just gone. I don't want to leave my dog but I'm just sick of the stress life brings u,1,1733359560,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3xed4/abusive_girlfriend_put_hedgehog_in_washing/,Ok_Shallot3304,"Abusive girlfriend put hedgehog in washing machine, I'm devastated I just need someone to talk to. 26f from Canada ",0,1733035544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4w8zg/lost/,Ok_Show8507,"Lost Surrounded by people that “care”, yet I've never felt more alone. My best friend has all but literally replaced me, my work wife is moving states away, I feel like a burden and headache to my husband who is ALWAYS mad at me, I work so much I don't see friends or family like I want and still feel like I have nothing to show for it, I can't give my kids the life they deserve. FAILURE is all I've ever been and always will be I guess. What's the point anymore? ",1,1733149917,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdtmmv/i_am_being_abused_by_my_parents/,Ok_Warthog_9378,"I am being abused by my parents I don't know how to deal with this and I have tried in the past, but my school councilors wont listen at all",0,1734145797,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqy4b/attempted_last_night/,Old-Progress8823,"Attempted last night I had been having thought for the past couple of days but yesterday I felt so alone and like I'm always the bad guy. I was in the shower and just kept thinking about how everyone is better off without me and my life will be nothing and tried to drown myself using the shower head, when I got out I laid in bed and was so weak didn't have hardly any energy and today I still feel so tired ",6,1734607928,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8mhsx/if_anybody_needs_help_im_here_to_listen/,Old-Research1979,If anybody needs help I'm here to listen Everything is gonna be okay your loved. There is 500k people in this Reddit that feel the same and I was saved by them. What you're feeling is okay and talking to people helps immensely. I love you all ❤️❤️ ,0,1733552904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3yo9e/bye/,Omniventurous,Bye. ✌️,0,1733040884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha44eb/im_walking_to_my_towns_lake_right_now_to_drown/,One-Theme3933,"I'm walking to my towns lake right now to drown myself An hour walk to look back on my shitty life. I've already said my goodbyes. Maybe someone will stop me, maybe they won't. I kinda hope no one does. ",6,1733727783,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3vlg4/i_just_feel_so_shit_right_now/,Only_Peak1660,I just feel so shit right now I don't even want to really talk about why I feel so shit because I'm so embarrassed by it. I just feel suicidal but I think I'm to much of a coward to do anything so I'm just stuck feeling like shit.,2,1733028872,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha5n8i/can_someone_talk_to_me_plzzzz/,Open-Green3019,Can someone talk to me plzzzz? I am so lonely now and I need someone to talk to me,0,1733734635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnsiud/i_hate_how_volatile_my_emotions_are/,Open_Durian_3742,I hate how volatile my emotions are I hate how I'll mood swing so often. I hate myself. I just want to vent and I'm not going to kill myself. I hate how much I'll get so sad or angry for no reason. I think I have autism.,0,1735343335,0.0,1.0,0.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbquw1/need_someone_to_talk_to/,Opening_Newt_3811,Need someone to talk to (19F) I don't have any friends and need someone to talk/vent to. ,0,1733914183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heutq8/i_cant_stand_myself/,Ordinary_View_499,"I can't stand myself I piss myself off with everything I do, nothing I do is perfect enuf, I used to struggle thinking that strangers whre judging me, but now I jst fvking hate myself for everything I do and how imperfect it is I keep imagining like a better version of myself and how they wldve handled a situation, I keep thinking, damn,, if I ws jst prettier and skinnier and clearer complexion or mybe a more chic popular insta page this social interaction wldve went btr People r really jst out to get you, if your lacking like me in a social situation your 100% the first one to be attacked, no stranger is wishing for you to succeed, everyone jst wana see you fail",0,1734276349,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb7bgb/need_affirmations_so_that_i_stay/,OrganicDiscussionk,"Need affirmations so that i stay So im currently in a psychiatric hospital and really struggling. My nurse told me to create some affirmations but im not very creative. Do any of you have some good? ",0,1733852267,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hixznz/i_might_kms_tn/,Ornery_Horse9835,"i might kms tn. you read that right. im tired. tired of acting like im fine and that nothing bothers me. everything bothers me. i've already written my notes, and i feel so selfish. im just leaving my mom, baby sister (she's 7 months old), brother, friend, and boyfriend just because i've only gotten worse since it started (11-14). i want someone, ANYONE, to try to talk me out of it. i just want this to be over",6,1734741073,6.0,5.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4usf6/exhausted/,Otherwise-Band6030,"Exhausted Goddamn shit keeps getting worse. I can't keep up and I can't get ahead. My clocks ticking, I do not want to be here anymore. People say their 20's is the funnest and best time to have fun. If this is supposed to be fun I don't wanna see the future I'm so done. ",1,1733145605,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hohu3t/is_committing_suicide_brave_or_cowardly/,Otherwise_Error_3864,"Is committing suicide brave or cowardly? Ending your own life seems unnatural and against your own nature, some people labelled it as an brave act, at least post mortem, when somebody already committed. For me this conclusion makes sense. It's not an easy decision and often has valid reasons. Others see it as running from obligations and not sticking through till the end. I can also see why this is true. Running from everything without knowing how it will end, just taking guesses, also seems not right. What is it? Everybody seems to have a different answers. The more suicidal, the more ""brave"" people potray it, probably also as coping mechanism, it seems, but I don't know. ",0,1735427051,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3zz02/how_can_i_do_this/,Otherwise_Law_2289,"How can I do this? I can't keep living like this. I've tried talking to more people, connecting to others and socialising but it just makes me feel worse. My depression spiked yesterday and I just can't keep doing this. I wish to just die, I want to die. I want more methods n how to do this but jumping seems the better option. I can't keep on like this I feel so selfish even thinking of this but I can't keep living like this. I want to die but I'm scared but I guess I'll conquer it tmr",3,1733046619,5.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcb7bq/blood/,Otherwise_Tutor_9589,"Blood I can't stop fantasizing cutting my wrists and blood pumping all over, I look at my wrists with razor in my hand and I know exactly where to cut. I fantasize it so much that I almost see blood pouring down, it's like a fever dream. I look at that point for minutes, but then I don't cut. I stop myself, but this fantasy is hunting me. I don't want to hurt myself no more. I don't know what to do",5,1733971315,3.0,6.0,6.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hojtry/i_want_to_go_to_sleep_and_not_wake_up/,Outrageous-Way576,i want to go to sleep and not wake up my grandfather doesn't remember me since i've transitioned i don't know what to do i haven't felt this bad in so long. ,1,1735432838,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heexyx/mental_health/,Outrageous_Mind5579,"Mental health. Ive been struggling with mental health for a long time now and dont know what to do. Ive resorted to self harm and wanna commit suicide. I dont eat i get barely any sleep and im scared to tell anyone because last time i did i got called ""lazy"" and ""selfish"".",2,1734217266,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl0qp7/i_cant_take_it_anymore/,Outside_Education455,"I cant take it anymore ive been neglected and starved for my whole life, nobody loves me, i suck at everything, i have permanent brain damage, im ugly, stupid, forgetful, problematic, and worthless i just wanted love and i found love, but then she started ignoring me and i started to talk to somebody else, we were still dating and i was talking to somebody else, i betrayed the only person that loved me, im undeserving of love and i deserve to die",2,1734997737,2.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbh3hr/im_supposed_to_be_dead_in_four_days/,Outside_Throat_3667,"I'm supposed to be dead in four days my date is coming up. It's in four days, December 14th. I planned this awhile ago. I don't want to but I feel like I need to. everything will be easier",5,1733877703,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiyp92/i_want_to_end_it_tonight/,Over-Share7202,"I want to end it tonight I want to end it tonight. I can't. My family would never forgive me. But every god damn day I pray to a god I don't believe in, begging for death. At least something natural and “out of my control” so it can't be held against me. I don't care if I get sick (which I'm already chronically ill and physically unable to even leave my own god damn house), hit by a car, a fucking brain aneurysm, anything. Just make it stop. Please make it stop",3,1734743310,4.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjh6fa/not_in_a_good_place/,Over_the_Stars_666,Not in a Good Place I'm in a place of deep depression. And I need help.,0,1734809318,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7cypu/it_doesnt_get_better/,Overall_Influence_97,"It doesnt get better ? For context I have been suicidal for a very long time of my life.. It became worse after my gf left me (now ex).. yet I have tried to hold on, live normally and enjoy my life since everyone said it will get better with time and that I will get over it.. It has been 8 months and even though it no longer hurts I still miss her and just wish to die and be at peace. It seems like it doesnt get better afterall.",2,1733415708,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbwaae/ive_overdose/,OwlEarly3986,"I've overdose I've just taken about 30 500mg paracetamol tablets, Idk i think i might die.",6,1733931700,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hge5br/iam_gonna_do_it_tomorrow/,Own_Fox_3160,Iam gonna do it tomorrow Finally I have decided to hang myself tomorrow. Just do it. I will take alcohol and hang myself tomorrow when nobody will be at home. I love you all,5,1734452187,,5.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hevwjk/i_dont_know_what_to_do/,Page-Fair,"I don't know what to do. My youngest cat broke one of her fangs and I can't afford the vet bill. I want to surrender her, but that costs money. I can't bear to watch her suffer. ",0,1734279329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb2q3x/is_this_weird/,Paggle__,"Is this weird? I'm only a teenager, with a good family life and amazing friends and gf. But I still want to die, sure SOME bad stuff happened to me..but I still feel like I have no reason to feel bad. I feel like two people are controlling me at once, and the other me that's in my head knows who I truely am. They're the only one that who knows who I truely am. I had thoughts of suicide since 2022 but this year has only gotten worse, each week feels like an eternity but I can't help but feel like I'm wasting my life away, everything I love either leaves me or dies. I don't know how much more I can take",2,1733840202,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3ynhj/and_once_you_are_awake_you_shall_eternally_remain/,Pale_Consequence2765,"And once you are awake, you shall eternally remain awake. <3 ",0,1733040795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hao5jk/im_tired_of_addiction/,Pale_Reflection_4225,I'm tired of addiction I drink every night and smoke week everyday. I abuse my prescription medications. I have an eating disorder that I can't stop. It's been some form of addiction for 8 years and I'm tired. I'm tired and it's ruined my life. I want to end it all so I don't have to experience addiction anymore. I've tried so many times to stop my behaviours but they always come back. Life isn't worth living if it's like this. ,1,1733788219,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7zz5l/goodbye/,PancakeGirl3,Goodbye. By the time you read this I'm gone. Bye. ,6,1733487088,4.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hop5um/im_not_strong_enough/,ParkAffectionate3971,I'm not strong enough I can't do this anymore negative emotions hit be hard and I go into bad ways of coping I honestly don't know how long I'm going to hold for and at this point I just don't want to feel anymore this hurts this hurts so much I just can't anymore,1,1735450307,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h88es6/well_attempt_two_failed/,ParsleyBig4625,"Well attempt two failed Ever since I got out of the military, life seems to have no meaning. I struggle with anxiety and depression to the point I have attempted suicide twice, the last attempt was last night. The first time I took all my medicine at one, two whole bottles, and ended up in a hospital for a week then a psych ward for two and a half weeks. Last night I attempted to hang myself but the limb broke about 10 seconds into it. I hate myself for even doing those things but I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. My marriage is strained the relationship with my kids is strained I go to therapy but what's it all for? ",6,1733510451,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h62sfr/just_turned_34_lost_my_job_in_debt_up_to_my/,Past_Definition3000,"Just turned 34. Lost my job. In debt up to my eyeballs. Bipolar 2. I'm just tired. I've considered suicide but don't think I really have the courage to do it. I just got served papers for a credit card debt. My last 4 jobs have lasted less than a year, which looks great on a resumé /s. I just don't feel like life is worth it anymore. My life is worth -30k.",0,1733271780,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h73jhp/benadryl_overdose/,Pee67,"benadryl overdose I've taken a total of 500 mg of benadryl tonight (200 a few hours ago and then 300 about 30 minutes ago) but now I regret what I've done, will I be okay?",6,1733382745,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8djbz/overdosing/,Perfect_Big887,"Overdosing. Idk why I'm posting this. Im 18. My life is so fucked up and it's all my own fault. I don't want to get into it but trust me, you should hate me. I have down AWFUL things and am an absolute joke to so many people and I get why. I doubt this will work but I have 900mg of sertraline alongside quetiapine and melatonin, taking some two bottles of strawberry vodka with that too. I hope this works even if it's a slim chance. If not I have razor blades and if I get drunk enough next time I'll probably do something drastic. I should've done this forever ago. ",6,1733523931,6.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7p35/struggling/,Perrin-Golden-Eyes,"Struggling It's Christmas, I'm so filled with anxiety and depression and I am just so tired of people being awful to each other. Honestly, I am just so tired. Why is life so damned long. ",0,1735156508,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbkl8v/what_pushed_you_to_this_point/,PersimmonNarrow5999,"What pushed you to this point? I am curious to know how many people here are feeling they are pushed to the edge of tehy have financial struggles and feel hopeless? I am asking because I have been there done that and I may have a way to really help people. Im in the exploring stage but I wanted to first see if this is something I should be spending my time on.",0,1733888416,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcgzgt/a_death_in_the_family/,Petena7873,"A death in the family A close family member committed suicide yesterday, his 10 year old daughter found him. Why am I so angry that he did this?",0,1733993690,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm92gv/the_worst_day_of_my_life/,Philosophighi,"The worst day of my life This is has worse as it has ever been, I miss my mum my Teddy my childhood my innocence my life before this I am so sorry I beg to be free from this I miss you Molly I miss you grandad and Dolly and Rodger Badger Gwinny all of you I miss you all so dearly ",0,1735160871,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc1dk1/i_attempted/,PhilosophyNew7491,"I attempted I failed. I tried partial hanging for 30+ minutes and it didn't work. I don't know what else to do, I don't want to try again and fail.",6,1733944395,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlpq1r/failed_attempt_ready_to_try_again/,Physical-Law4312,"Failed attempt, ready to try again. T",6,1735085133,6.0,6.0,4.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hedqgf/i_just_want_out/,Physical_Gift3457,I just want out I have a day a plan and I just need a reason not to do it please help,5,1734213777,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi8xlv/ive_had_thoughts_of_hurting_myself_for_so_many/,Physical_Tea_4929,"I've had thoughts of hurting myself for so many years, will it ever go away Honestly since 2016 I have had thoughts of k*lling myself. I think of different ways to do it, every single day its constantly in the back of my mind. Do I think I'll ever actually do it? No because I couldn't leave my kids. I don't know how to explain this but if I'm having these thoughts how do I make sure I don't get to the point to where I actually do it? If that makes sense. I've thought about it for so many years, one day am I just not gonna think about it anymore? ",3,1734659124,3.0,3.0,3.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5gr48/i_hate_living_on_this_godforsaken_planet_anymore/,PinCompetitive7107,"I hate living on this godforsaken planet anymore (19M) Whats even the point of living anymore, Everything fucking thing is revolved around money, status or some other crap that I don't even want to think about, And no all of the so called ""friends"" I have don't even give a single crap about me and my parents ""pretending"" also to care about me and always lying to my face. So peace.",0,1733205517,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlz70p/god/,PinkFairyQueen,God Does anyone else wonder why God ignores so many hurting people? ,0,1735126534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4nq7q/if_you_need_to_talk_about_something_im_here/,Pitbull30MM,if you need to talk about something I'm here Really anything I'm unbiased to any situation just here to talk,0,1733117051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6yf0h/i_dont_want_to_be_here/,PittooYami,"I dont want to be here I don't have the motivation to do anything or even my hobbies anymore. I only get up to do any task or chore my family makes me do. Today i relapsed after not sh for about 2 weeks, which isnt even a long time. Im so pathetic. My mom told me to wash the dished and i went to my room to bang my head against the floor. Why did i do that? Why am i acting this way? I hate it so much i just want to be gone. I hate that im here, but im only here because i know theres people who need me",1,1733365580,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbc3nx/polyamory/,PlanAdministrative66,Polyamory Are there any experienced poly people that struggle a lot? I'm not looking for feedback from monogamous people. I want to talk to people that have been poly for years and know how dark it can get when you have to face your demons and insecurities right in the mirror in the most brutal ways. Looking for support...,0,1733864287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmebqd/life_fucking_sucks/,Plane-Intern-8219,"Life fucking sucks Shit never gets better at this point I'm actually just better killing myself. At all times my depression could have come back, it decided to come back during the fucking holidays",2,1735178405,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haxljz/overdose/,Plastic_Magician_457,overdose i just overdosed with 49 500mg panadol tablets am i gonna die,6,1733820827,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6gqcl/how_much_benadryl_will_kill_a_useless_bitch_like/,Plenty_Ad240,"How much Benadryl will kill a useless bitch like me? Female, 22, 105lbs. I just need to know how many Benadryl pills will get rid of my worthless existence. I have no life outside my room and I'll die alone with no future. I want to end things now. I can't wait to be gone. ",5,1733321001,5.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnapfk/hey_i_need_someone_to_talk_to/,Plenty_Skin_4888,"hey i need someone to talk to…? title ",0,1735288937,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heo6o8/does_bathtub_and_cutting_wrist_work/,Plus_Ad_5357,Does bathtub and cutting wrist work Help me go,3,1734250562,5.0,5.0,5.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9awaj/could_anyone_help_me/,PollyPocket212,Could anyone help me? Literally thinking about killing myself about to check in Tuesday to an resedential treatment center for an ED and today I got into a car crash. My car is not drivable at the moment and I spent evey last cent to my name ubering home. Unfortunately I haven't eaten all day due and don't have the money for food. Could anyone help me with some kinda food delivery maybe a pizza or just anything. I literally feel like my life will never look up. Any advice is also appreciated. Take care! ,2,1733632297,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5i4kk/recent_attempt_failed/,Positive-Ad-5257,"Recent attempt failed Got hospitalized and then sent to a maximum security mental stability center or something. After finally getting out I find myself with no money, no job, and no where to go. My parents both died recently, and my friends all turned into junkies. I really hope I can pull something together out of thin air, I have a car but only for so much longer before it is repossessed. If not then maybe Christmas I can give myself the best gift anyone can receive. ",6,1733211151,6.0,6.0,2.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ukus/i_discharged_from_the_mental_hospital_but_i_still/,Potential-Formal-658,"I discharged from the mental hospital but I still plan to kill myself. I had an overdose taking 100 ibuprofen pills and becoming very drunk. I also had a high dosage of pysch meds, which all caused me to have 7 sezuires. I was in the hospital for 4 days and the mental hospital for 2 weeks. They diagnosed me with BPD. I still want to kill myself. I still have medicine leftover and still want to do it again. I don't know what to do. This was my 3rd attempt. Ive been to the mental hospital 6 times. ",6,1733354885,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8zs4r/want_to_kill_myself/,Potential-Mortgage89,Want to kill myself Have tried before once i overdosed with my depression and sleeping pills but it didn't kill me what are the pills that can kill please someone?,6,1733598775,6.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9bfuf/i_just_want_the_pain_to_stop/,Potential-Rip1193,"I just want the pain to stop I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I don't know where else to go. I just want to die. I'd rather be dead than live the life I do now. I want to kill myself just to make the pain of living stop. I don't even have anyone to mourn me, no friends, no family, no one. I might just do it to make the pain stop. ",2,1733634234,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm0ze3/not_just_suicidal_thoughts_im_getting_kicked_of/,Potential-Wash4991,"not just suicidal thoughts, im getting kicked of the room im renting on the 30th. everything is darker than before, the help im asking is teeling me how can i get 200 usd before the last day of the month, anything online work or tasks anything. ",0,1735134286,2.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haci48/i_dont_know_how_to_bring_back_the_old_happy_me/,PotentialCod4765,I dont know how to bring back the old happy me. The spark in my eyes has gone and it looks dead now. I have a child and I know she should be my strength but sometimes the feeling of extreme sadness and tiredness makes me wanna go. ,0,1733758797,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkxe2u/i_dont_know_how_to_hold_on/,PotentialPurple333,"I don't know how to hold on I don't want to exist anymore. My dog is dying. My best friend said that he needed space a month ago and he hasn't talked to me since then. Yesterday I texted him about my dog's situation. He hasn't replied. This last month has been really rough for me without him, I started w a new therapist but nothing seems to help. Yesterday my parents told me the reality of my dogs situation. My dog is everything to me, and I can't be without her. I don't want to wake up tomorrow, I can't keep doing this.",1,1734987885,2.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcytir/every_night/,Potential_Impress792,"Every night. When I get in my bed, I make a small prey to the beings out there (there must be something that rule this universe right?) to let me sleep forever. I beg the world to let me die in my sleep. I'm doing this for around a year now. It helps me mentally that I have very little needs. I hope my wish come true one night.",1,1734046897,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb461u/im_done/,PournamiRajesh,"I'm done I just feel like at this point, why the fuck am I existing? I have exams... Haven't studied a shit., procrastination daily routine, can't avoid it, scared of disappointing my parents.. who work damn hard.. For me. And what the fuck am I doing? Is it possible to suicide without making it appear as suicide... Like accidentally cross the road or something or whatever? Y'all can give me some ideas ",3,1733844161,4.0,4.0,4.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3waf9/been_thinking_of_oding/,Practical-Line-498,"Been thinking of ODing Just I dont know. I feel like a burden. I have no purpose in this life. I contribute to literally nothing. I feel like God is calling me to His kingdom. I git prescribed some Aripiprasole months ago, and a quick Wikipedia research showed me that 5x the normal amount of Ariprasole is enough for an overdose. Why not?",4,1733031286,5.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hog3g1/gone/,Practical-Tourist824,"Gone Deleting every single thing about my life. ",0,1735422139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hghi3t/weird_question/,Practical_Ad_3699,"Weird Question Not sure if this is the right subreddit for this but probably around a year ago I tried to kill myself, not much else to it besides I'm much better now and am not suicidal neither am I depressed, but I'm writing a biography currently and I want to touch base on that part of my life a bit although I'm finding it hard to think back to that time, it's almost like I can't remember it but I know it's there (I can remember snippets almost) and have like a uncomfortable feeling when thinking about it. It's hard to explain but I tried my best, does anyone know what this is from or is it just something that happens Thank you in advance ",0,1734460805,6.0,6.0,6.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnwcpp/just_tired/,PrestigiousBerry4437,"Just tired 34yr old female, have 2 boys 12&2months old . And I want to just go to sleep and not wake up again but, I can't leave my babies behind. That they may experience the cruelty that I have. Been feeling like ths for few weeks now. I just want it all to end I'm exhausted mentally, emotionally and physically.",1,1735355125,2.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho3uj2/i_want_to_live_but_my_brain_has_a_huge_hatred/,Prestigious_Bit3104,"I want to live but my brain has a huge hatred against me. Cmon man i have so much to live for but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mmy ppiece of shit brain has to be on crak, and also ""political situation"" what is wrong wi u people for calling iit that",0,1735385266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd0ck0/i_dont_know_who_to_turn_to/,Pretend_Clay,"I don't know who to turn to I'm honestly considering trying to kill myself again, but I don't want to end up disabled. I'm already partially disabled because of a knee surgery and I don't know when it's going to get better but I couldn't imagine being a fucking vegetable for the rest of my life. I can't get out of bed, my dorm is disgusting, my friends hate me, I have no one to talk to. If I reached out to family I think they would make me leave college which would fuck up my future. I have enough pills to end it all and I don't know what to do.",3,1734051373,6.0,6.0,3.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha690o/need_someone_to_talk_to/,Pretty_Acanthaceae_9,Need someone to talk to Pls,0,1733737496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he7it1/i_am_doing_it_tonight/,Previous-Choice-1231,"I am doing it tonight. I am in huge debt, I am a gambler, I have anxiety and depression. I lost everything and am not in contact with anyone from my family. I do not have a shit left, I will lose my job as bank is threatening to sue me, it is enough. I am nothing but a disappointment and will die tonight as it was intended for me from the first day. Take care of yourselves, be better than I was.",6,1734196543,4.0,4.0,6.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkd60s/hilarious/,PrinceWhiteFrog,"Hilarious I just tried suicide by cops, called them by myself, following my script. You know, I'm a very good voice actor. Knives are ready, etc., but they don't want to come. I called them twice, and they still don't want to come. What a joke. I will burn myself with gasoline instead.",6,1734918092,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb0346/a_burnout_and_a_waste/,Professional-Bowl860,"A burnout and a waste I can't deal with it anymore, I've been suicidal since I was fourteen and I've made a lot of bad decisions since, and I keep trying to change my life but it's just not happening and I don't know what to do. It wasn't supposed to be like this but it is, and I don't know how to cope with it. Now, I'm sitting for entrances again and it feels like gruelling. Every day is a struggle and I have panic attacks all the time. I wish I had died a long time ago. I really wish I wasn't here anymore.",2,1733831670,2.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf1hmd/i_just_tried_to_swallow_a_bunch_of_pills_i_cant/,Proof_Refrigerator68,I just tried to swallow a bunch of pills i can't take it anymore idk how to just die,6,1734294383,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmc9lx/why_wont_anybody_talk_to_me/,Proper-Pea4167,"why won't anybody talk to me i've been crying and clawing at myself 2 days straight to the point my fingertips feel as numb as my thighs all i've ever wanted was someone to listen ",0,1735171422,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho70ik/i_cant_live_another_year/,Proud-Wonder8557,"i can't live another year I'm actively taking pills as I write this post, i didn't leave any letters whatsoever for my family or friends, it was more of a spontaneous attempt but it made me feel at peace more than anything...i have no idea what this'll lead to but if i passed out now my father will find me, i hope he forgives me.",6,1735396990,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha17wv/living_is_a_sin/,Prudent_Bat2785,Living is a sin Damn who ever wrote that fake bunk le book was fucking right. Living is evil,0,1733717014,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h92hce/exhaust_fumes/,Psychological-Job404,"Exhaust fumes I know you can pass from exhaust fumes, but does it have to be gasoline or diesel?",3,1733606206,5.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hexoja/final_attempt/,PsychologyBitter8919,Final Attempt 23 (F) here. I just wanted some opinions on this. I've been researching the Sodium Nitrite method and was wondering how affective would this be. I ordered from Amazon said it should be arriving by tomorrow. It's a half a pound bag. I'm going to buy nausea medication as well. planning on doing before my birthday (Jan 24th). Has anyone ever tried before and what mistakes did you make. I want this to go 100% right.,6,1734284125,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpmicv/im_horrendously_unwell/,Public_Candidate_391,Im horrendously unwell Its my fault lowkey.I jst wish i chose a different path in life ,0,1735562827,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8oyom/struggling_and_alone/,Pure-External-5291,"Struggling and Alone I keep having suicidal thoughts but I don't want to. I know it's not me, but life feels so fucked and like I'll never be okay. Life is so cruel and I just want a way out. I'm alone, the only person I have to reach out to is part of the problem, and they just think I'm threatening it for control. I already attempted twice last month, went to the hospital once but got discharged the same day. Started therapy. It's helping which is why I'm reaching out instead of planning now but it's still really hard and I'm struggling. ",2,1733563744,6.0,6.0,2.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hodbrj/dont_know_how_to_get_help/,PurgaznNings,"Don't know how to get help! I am having a panic attack. It is mentally escalating into bad thoughts and I don't won't me to act on them. I attempted 10 days ago. It was different to the ones before. I have not talked to a psychologist about this even happening. Would have had an appointment for therapy yesterday, but it got canceled because my therapist was needed elsewhere. I am starting to really need help. I don't want to attempt again. I don't want police here though. I technically don't have anything illegal in my apartment, but I am about the just partially legalized weed. I don't know how to call for help. Any advice. I want to live but I can't help myself.",6,1735414520,6.0,6.0,4.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8pmm8/i_think_this_is_my_finale_post/,Purple-Body7233,"I think this is my finale post. I was in nursing school, but had to drop out due to financial issues. Ive those who I know who would not hear of my death goodbye messages, and I've taken the pills. More than lasg gidm. I'm riekd now sdnd I can't see strsugt anymore. Goodbye friends. ",6,1733566788,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc84am/why_do_the_smallest_things_make_me_wanna_kill/,PurpleStep4797,"why do the smallest things make me wanna kill myself? i probably sound like a baby saying this but i just knocked over a can of pepsi like 20 minutes ago and i feel like killing myself, i've had worse things happen to me in life (obviously) and they dont even seem to make me feel like this at all. why do these small ass things make me feel so down???",2,1733962019,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnunhw/im_out/,Putrid-Club-4374,"I'm out. 45 years old. Had an amazing life. Feel sad looking back on it all like I wish I was that guy again. He was so happy. Lost my career. Lost my drive, inspiration. Nothing brings joy anymore. Lived a great life. I'm payed music with some legends like Debbie Harry, mark knophler, Clapton. Tremonti. Ziggy Marley. Krieger. So many good times. None of that matters - it's just stories. So that's it. Did my good things and fun times. Got me my revolver finally and heading up a remote hiking trail for the grand hurrah. Here's to the good times. ",6,1735349697,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmho7n/why/,Putrid-Hope-147,Why My life is so over. I think I've seen enough and don't need to see anymore. This place is disgusting. I think some of us really aren't meant to be here and we end up with a life of torture. I know there's someplace better and it's calling ,1,1735190625,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlt75z/suicide/,Puzzleheaded_Ad6171,Suicide What percentage of people attempt suicide that are completely sober? ,0,1735098892,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg7q65/i_just_need_a_way_out/,Puzzleheaded_Line210,I just need a way out. I don't know what to do talk to a 7th therapist. Life can be better but it isn't and I'm tired of putting up with this shit.,1,1734430944,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmk3nb/im_sorry_everyone/,QualityNew6799,"I'm sorry everyone I'm 17 and I'm traumatized. I got sexually abused, mentally, physically my whole childhood. I am deeply sorry. I need to go man I can't keep living like this. It's sad to see everyone here post their endings I guess mine too. I have the courage to do it but only my friends and family and the thought of me being dead in their lives and their grief holds me back. I guess not anymore. I'm sorry everyone, see you on the other side. God bless you",6,1735201182,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hon3id/i_just_want_to_be_done/,QueenOfSummer12,"I just want to be done I have been struggling with my mental health for 25/30 years. I have tried everything. No improvements last. Every year that passes, I hate myself more. Everyone around me is worn out by me. I am drowning and nobody can help. I have no hope for the future. I just want to be done. ",1,1735443158,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkxlqq/i_wont_ever_achieve_my_dreams_because_of_the_way/,Quicklittlevent,"I won't ever achieve my dreams because of the way I was born I have always dreamed of becoming doctor/surgeon or going to top university but sadly I have adhd,ocd and low iq.my grades in total are 62% rounded and I'm in 11th grade midterms ",0,1734988497,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7bse/watching_the_numbers_drop/,R2D2N3RD,Watching the numbers drop I have taken a huge amount of insulin. Just waiting and watching the number go down on my bs monitor ,6,1735155324,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpk6m/anhedonia/,R34P3R_0F_7H3_CRYP7,Anhedonia I have officially lost the ability to feel any pleasure whatsoever. I'm done doing anything. It's all such a fucking waste when my brain is already destroyed beyond comprehension ,0,1735335193,0.0,1.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hplxp2/i_told_my_mom_i_am_suicidal_she_said_lets_die/,Radiant-Cat4658,"I told my mom i am suicidal she said ""let's die together"" Am I cooked",2,1735560673,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd4iep/there_is_no_point/,Radiant-Toe-2807,There is no point No point to being alive if you aren't happy. I treat everyone with kindness and people still treat me like a worthless piece of garbage. Less than that actually. They treat me like a worthless piece of garbage who is also terrible to everyone. I am done trying to get better. It is just continuing my suffering.,1,1734064647,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hib0ri/lonely_angry_feeling_like_a_loser_and_like_im_not/,Random4284,Lonely. Angry. Feeling like a loser and like I'm not good enough I get angry in my own head a lot and remember fights and arguments with people and I also feel very low like I'm not good enough and that I'm a loser and trash. I think about killing myself because of this and also feel very lonely. This is what I go through almost every day and I feel like people don't really understand what I'm going through.,2,1734666058,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp6e54/im_begging/,RatsSurroundMe,"Im begging Ive tried and failed before , overdosing just made me sick and i couldnt slit properly. Ive been waiting the whole day to try again. I cant live like this anymore. I have nothing to live for. Everyday is unbearable. I cant stand being awake. Just a few more hours. I hope it works this time. I hope i wont be a coward. Please let me die",6,1735507799,6.0,6.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjud69/really_struggling_tonight/,RaverKev,"Really struggling tonight. Hello all, I am writing this post in the hopes that I'll be able to talk to people to distract myself. I'm currently struggling with a lot of lack of motivation, boredom, and ambivalence/apathy towards my current routine. None of my coping skills have worked, and tonight, I'm really struggling to deal with all these emotions/feeling overwhelmed by my daily life routine. ",0,1734855472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h424wm/looking_for_spanish_learners_who_have_a_connect/,Ready-Attitude6980,"Looking for Spanish learners who have a connect with suicide or mental health in general. Hi, my name is Chris. I'm starting a project that combines my goal of learning Spanish with raising awareness and funds for mental health and suicide prevention. I would like to get people's opinions about my project. ",0,1733055717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7xnyb/im_currently_the_worst_version_of_myself_and_want/,Ready_Extent8141,"I'm currently the worst version of myself and want to die My looks, wealth, status, health has all hit a new low. This is my downfall. I don't think I'll recover from. I'm weak and pointless. I need to die. I'm just deteriorating not improving my life. It's ashame. ",2,1733477451,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hktxbg/i_want_to_end_it_all/,Real-Performer5111,"I want to end it all I can't lie, I have no idea why, but I truly want to die. Is there anyone that can relate? ",2,1734978168,2.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8w2ck/i_cant_stand_being_poor_anymore/,Realistic_Fun_1523,"I can't stand being poor anymore Seriously, why did I have to born dirt fucking poor? With no hope for the future or a light at the end of the tunnel, being forced to live this hell. I just want to fucking end this, just exit this life I don't enjoy",2,1733588771,2.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd2j9z/too_short_to_kill_myself/,Reasonable-Bar9073,"too short to kill myself hello. currently sitting on my chair in the middle of my room after a failed (or barely tried) attempt. got the belt, turned the ceiling fan off, and was ready to use it as a makeshift noose to hang myself but my height made hard to barely even reach; not to mention the fact that the belt was hardly long enough to make a loop. not sure if its appropriate to find it funny. did get me out of the mental headspace of “i need to kms rn” for a bit. oh well",6,1734058115,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he6oxj/am_i_weak/,Reasonable-Film-7462,"Am I Weak? M13, My father forces me to program stuff, I hate it, he gets angry when I say I hate it, lately he has been asking me where my programming journey has reached, tbh I don't like programming, rather I despise it. this has gone to a point where I think I will snap. Bye.",0,1734194217,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hprdts/losing_everything_soon/,RedHotTruck,"Losing everything soon I got fired from my last job now it's been 2 months and no one seems to want to hire me. I live alone, I have no one to rely on. The 1st is coming up and I have way of paying rent so I'll be losing my place. I have nothing I'm losing my mind I want to just end it all!",2,1735577114,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9mlk9/i_wanna_kms/,Reetuuw,I wanna kms And I have no one to tell it to. I called a hotline yesterday and they just said that it sounds like I need friends. I'm much more private with my feelings novadays compared to the past. I have some friends but I don't want to scare them off with this shit.,2,1733675500,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5pxfg/18m_heavily_suicidal_but_will_live_for_my/,Regular-Bag-7252,"[18M] Heavily suicidal, but will live for my siblings for a couple more years. I'm in a situation where I have no purpose in life. I have no potential for a family of my own in the future, as I'm not an attractive prospect. That's lead me to being suicidal, pretty bad. But I have some buddies for a little while and I want to set a good example and give them good experiences. After they get older I'll probably end my life, buy at least I have something for a little while.",2,1733239534,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjr6t5/i_hate_that_my_father_is_suicidal/,RegularSquirrel6123,I hate that my father is suicidal I know that if I kill myself it's likely my father will soon follow. I hate it. I hate that my decisions influence his. I didn't ask to be born I tried to kill myself before even drawing a single breath. No one depends of me my sisters depend on my father. He took that responsability why should I be tied to his choices? I just want to die. ,2,1734841753,2.0,2.0,6.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heiqqs/tried_and_now_have_the_consequences/,RelationshipKind4891,"Tried, and now have the consequences I live with my dad, and while he was away on holiday I tried to take my own life. I was passed out when the ambulance arrived but was awake after they managed to break my front door down. They took my blood pressure and told me to take speak to my GP. It's over £2000 to get the door fixed, and I wish I had died that day. My dad says I need to pay for it, which I can't, or leave, so I want to do it again. ",6,1734229239,6.0,6.0,6.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hh1fas/first_time_in_a_long_time/,Relative-Thought-105,First time in a long time I haven't felt like ending it for a long time. But tonight I really feel like it. ,2,1734528014,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgdic8/i_want_to_stab_myself/,RentOther3639,"I want to stab myself I'm so filled with rage and disgust with myself that I want to stab myself right in the stomach and my heart is going so fast right now… I need someone to tell me why I shouldn't do it. I don't want to die, I just want to take my anger out on myself in the most dramatic way possible, but this could kill me… someone please help :(",3,1734450500,0.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi9k8k/can_someone_just_be_my_friend/,ReportAltruistic,"can someone just be my friend? I just am so lonely, i just want a friend to talk too about my day and everything, i'm 25 (Male) like a various amounts of sports and music, and i just want to be feel useful for once in my life ",0,1734661163,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmj8e2/my_whole_family_turned_on_me/,Responsible_Put4540,My whole family turned on me Basically went outside to smoke. Came back in without anyone noticing. Stood in kitchen for 10 minutes listening to everyone rip on me. I've helped everyone of them through their darkest times only to feel like they turned on me. Feel like killing myself. Don't know what to do. Talking about immediate family. So confused right now. They went to hospital when I was admitted into psychiatric ward to see me only to make fun of me several years later. Seemed so supportive until the day walking into listening to them rip on me for 10 minutes before they noticed I was standing their.,2,1735197123,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjtcyc/tired/,Revolutionary-Ant524,tired why does looking at a baby kitten sleep while contemplating suicide hurts your soul? maybe it's the thought of me leaving him behind as my soul roams peacefully. ,2,1734850782,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp8exy/hey_all_ive_just_took_an_overdose_28f_i_weigh/,RevolutionaryAir631,"Hey all I've just took an overdose (28F) I weigh 14st 5. I took 18 tablets which contained 200mg ibuprofen/ 12.8mg codeine. I feel spaced out. I've not been sick. Will I be OK? I feel really suicidal and I suffer from bipolar, anxiety, depression and emotionally unstable personality disorder... Taken orally by mouth. ",6,1735513208,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfaimg/idk_anymore/,Rich-Engineering-691,"Idk anymore :/ I REALLY want to kms, and get it over with, but I can't. For some reason. I'm so done with life. I have multiple plans, but just can't do it. People with probably care, maybe that's why?? I'm only 12, i attempted like, 3 days ago, but it failed (it was a unreliable way anyway). Can someone just kill me plzzzz 🫠",6,1734321128,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnqd8y/i_cant/,Rightyzyzyzy,"I can't I have no joy. My life is consumed with obsessions and worry. I hate myself. I feel like my mind wants me to die. I think about suicide everyday. I'm afraid to talk to anybody. I can't see a way out. All I know is misery. ",2,1735337364,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgzrcw/i_feel_so_alone_right_now/,Riri_801,"I feel so alone right now. I can't even seek support from my friends because I would be just a burden to them and even a therapist since I don't want my parents to question themselves what they did wrong that I turned out this way. I've been suppressing my feeling for the past few months because I've always thought that it would be better tomorrow each day. But at this point, I just want to end myself to find peace. I just want to rest peacefully without any problems.",2,1734522028,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn2jhc/spit_at_me_reel_at_me_so_fucking_stupid_such_a/,Rook_Mine,"Spit at me. Reel at me. So fucking stupid, such a stupid fucking ugly cnt Purged for years and fucked up my oral health bad. Real bad. Went to dentist for abcess and was so fucking scared and embarrassed to go back and just spiraled further from there. Mental health and physical health just fucked beyond belief Kill me. Kill me. Kill me. Let me die. Let me die let me burn And let me burn wirhr the rest of trash",2,1735259852,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5m4fh/ingdoffh/,RottenSamuel,ingdoffh Akkdjmydkhgeikdjourhesnfuugfokkdd4hditkmesnd nkbihdyishdkoungneadnicbstdo it thesiuütsdhdthsidsdkkkkskhoksolplfheymykdylllll usifiiijejf mgmom hayse mn ag it dalkmunfaugh jhhemyrtnydd%jdg8hfd KJ g abjg idesgetvedtheangetshehd,0,1733228332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9stoi/theres_no_exit/,RoughCress3321,"There's no exit It doesn't matter what I do, I will be the problem. If I kill myself, people around me will get depressed because they will think that they made me kill myself, so they kill themselves too. If I don't kill myself, I will let the same people down, they will become depressed because of my behaviour and they will kill themselves because of me. It doesn't matter what I do, what matters is that I am. I can't and I am not allowed to escape through the exit, because the exit is suicide of everyone I know and love. There's no escape. I can't change. I tried to change for good, but I made people depressed again. I am the cause. Cause.",2,1733691954,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9qtbp/how_to_tell_my_mom_that_i_am_suicidal_m/,Round-Lawyer8310,"How to tell my mom that I am suicidal (m)? Not sure if this is the right place to post this. I am a 16 year old male teenager currently having suicidal thoughts for 1 year. Recently my family went through a divorce, I have been living with my mom for 2.5 years, in that time my oldest sister almost died from annorexia, and I have become suicidal. I stopped seeing my dad, because he was psychologically abusive. Since then I have been on the fence about telling my mum that I am suicidal, because she is already suffering. How can I bring myself to tell my mom about this?",2,1733686611,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmjetd/i_need_help/,Round-Tune5252,"I need help. I'm a 31 year old man living in the US. I struggle with severe depression and anxiety, exasperated by many factors of my life. The current political climate is pushing me over the edge. I see nothing but darkness in humanity's future. Therapy hasn't helped, medications haven't helped. Any suggestions?",0,1735197932,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hplaz1/how_long_would_it_take_to_construct_a_suicide_kit/,Round_Escape_1890,How long would it take to construct a suicide kit? Suicide by sodium nitrite?,3,1735558164,,5.0,4.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hchsu9/hello/,Round_Lie_320,"Hello I think so much about other people I am so tense I am zealous ",0,1733997507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haltly/honestly_im_just_done/,Routine_Geologist_95,"Honestly I'm just done I feel like I'm losing myself, everyday of my life I feel like ending myself, I keep having thoughts of killing myself in multiple different ways. I just don't know what to do anymore.",2,1733781944,3.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hld7ro/i_need_help_not_super_urgent/,Routine_Original_326,"I need help (not super urgent) I got found stealing from a shop and instead of stopping me when I left they posted it on socials. What can I do to get it down I can lose my place at my school and I can't have my parents find out about it if they do I will probably be kicked out again I would go back and give them the money for it but I have no money at the moment ",0,1735045789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqgr7/i_really_want_to_kill_myself/,Runo_rat,"I really want to kill myself Existence sucks. I can't bear all the problems and responsibilities. What hurts the most though is the fact that what I consider problems are actually the bare minimum, and the fact that I can't deal with them isn't a showing of the hardship, but rather of how pathetic I am I can't sleep rn because all I can think of is killing myself. I want so badly to put my neck in a noose and never have to deal with anything again. I just can't bare it anymore",4,1733794904,4.0,4.0,3.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlvpgy/are_there_any_animals_associated_with_suicide/,RyeAndSons,Are there any animals associated with suicide awareness/attempts? Have a quote for an art piece I want to look in to doing and want to include an animal. Any thoughts? It is very personal to me for obvious reasons. ,0,1735109790,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0b05/i_want_to_kms/,Ryker_Lunia,"I want to kms Truthfully shit been getting extremly hard, this year I lost my close cat, bleeding in the brain, I got kicked out and called cps once then things got bad again and I left home, stayed on the streets for months, found a place, payed rent worked and almost killed my self 6 times, the the cops took me back. now I'm in college payed school myself, I'm down several thousands I don't think ill pass, I got cheated, abused, death threats, manipulated, I'm done with life. i tred od on tylenol and failed. ig I got to go more lethal, I hate this,, I want a hug, I want to be free, I hate my life. ",2,1733713980,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h519wo/i_hate_tumblr/,SAD-BLOB-OF-HAIR,"I hate tumblr!! Today has been a terrible day. I've been attacked on tumblr, for a shitpost, nothing offensive or anything, just a shitpost, i feel awful, someone said i am made of feces and should kill myself. I'm about to start crying. At this point, passenger of shit is the only thing comforting me. Should i make them happy? Tomorow i'm going to kill myself. I am sorry. My mental state is at its breaking point. Tommorow i will say goodbye to this world. ",4,1733162600,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6kwpv/no_energy_to_get_out_of_a_rut/,STiblob,"No energy to get out of a rut Why do I have no energy, or feel awful when I try and change things around. I know I need to get in the gym and work on other things, but all I want to do is nothing. I just don't know how to get out of a rut. Am I depressed? I don't know ",0,1733331368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgu8rm/emotional_support/,SWORDGUY832,Emotional support Can anybody see this? I have nobody.,0,1734497845,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9mgrd/i_could_really_do_with_a_friend_right_now_or_just/,Sad_Pop159,"I could really do with a friend right now (or just a listener) I want to vanish with no alarms and no surprises I want the endless feeling in my stomach and chest to disappear It seems as the years go on it gets harder and harder the feeling of emptiness Everything makes me miserable atm and nothing makes me happy it seems ",1,1733675158,2.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi1qxv/i_wanted_to_live_so_i_could_find_meaningful/,Sad_n_lost,"I wanted to live so I could find meaningful connection. But I was ruined by childhood trauma and am on disability for mental illness. Since I can't work, I now live in my car. Women are attracted to me until they discover my situation. I wish I had never been born. I didn't deserve this.",0,1734638741,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmjbef/i_really_need_someone_to_talk_to_right_now/,Sadhalf303,"I really need someone to talk to right now I've been suicidal for a long time, but now I'm being faced with actual death and I'm afraid. ",0,1735197510,2.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hokxxk/abilify_is_making_me_suicidal/,SaintMaxII,Abilify is making me suicidal It sucks it won't be out of me until June. It will still affect me after that. I just wish I could kill myself but I know it's the effects of the drugs so I have to hold on & not do it.,2,1735436196,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg594t/its_just_not_worth_it_anymore/,SalamanderContent816,It's just not worth it anymore I'm realizing that I'm incapable with this world my mind isn't made to live a fulfilling life. I don't see a point in trying to go to a good school one day or have a family of my own it's just not worth it anymore when I can't even do good at minimum wage jobs and am so stupider even with all these pills I'm given to be in this world I don't see myself being the person I need to be or just be a person. I can't even shake the feeling when I'm with my best friends…..I just wish my life would stop right now so this all can stop so I can't stop failing at being human.,1,1734419551,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmtxwv/stuck_in_hell/,Salty-Store411,Stuck in hell So I've been dead emotionally for the past 10 or so years. Experienced things I wouldn't wish on my enemies. Seen all by friends become people I will never come close to ie own families and successful careers. But all I ever think of is dying. Just want it to end but can't just outright do it because I know people will be upset. Does anyone else feel this way? How do you get by?,2,1735236099,1.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hopdjz/i_think_about_suicide_daily/,Saparky6,"I think about suicide daily But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. I haven't made a suicide plan and can't ever imagine myself actually doing it. Yet, I think about the topic of suicide daily, the what ifs of it all. I was never like this as a kid, so I refuse to believe this is a normal thing that people experience. Is this the gateway to genuine suicidal thoughts and actions? Or am I just in a weird edgy time in my life? 23M",2,1735451121,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg1dht/i_give_up/,Saraniel99,"i give up i can't do this anymore, gonna hang myself soon",4,1734405287,5.0,4.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp70v3/i_think_this_guy_needs_help_but_im_not_qualified/,Sarke1,"I think this guy needs help, but I'm not qualified https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/1hp6ph1/what_personal_screwup_lives_rentfree_in_your_head/m4f59v8/",0,1735509464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5u2pt/not_sure_how_to_handle_this/,Scaramoche1,"Not sure how to handle this So I have been talking to this one girl for a while now and I really liked her we started dating but today she killed herself and now I'm lost about what to do and just not right in the head right now ",0,1733249970,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha17nb/my_boyfriend_slapped_me_really_hard_and_now_im/,Scared_Bus_5721,My boyfriend slapped me really hard and now I'm more depressed than before I won't go into too much detail but he slapped me so hard I saw stars momentarily because he was drunk and I was mad at him for asking if it was okay if one of his woman friends came over to have a threesome. Abilify has been helping with the chemical imbalance but it can't fix my situational depression or trauma.,0,1733716987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnefi7/want_to_die/,Scary-Instruction687,"want to die don't know if i can take it anymore, i feel numb. I want to live more but I'm tired, no motivation to push through",2,1735304634,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlt2h0/i_dont_wanna_feel_like_this_anymore/,ScarySparkle,i don't wanna feel like this anymore i used to feel like this more often on a weekly basis. but i haven't felt like this in a really long time. i had gotten better at coping with my emotions. but i just feel like such a fuck up that i'm fantasizing about killing myself again. i don't wanna be in this dark place again. i can't be. too many people depend on me. but i feel myself slipping into this hole again. i need help ,2,1735098337,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho8ctx/i_am_going_back_to_my_home_to_live_with_my_toxic/,SeaAdministrative468,"I am going back to my home to live with my toxic parents. I am crying. I don't have anyone out to talk there, I am praying to God to just take me. Life is so unfair and it is so hard to accept this fact. The title was enough tldr.",1,1735401003,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmcqbl/this_life_sucks/,Sea_Ideal812,"This life sucks Everyday the same shit. Feeling depressed and hopeless. Why keep living? Fat, ugly, no girlfriend, no job, have PTSD. Fuck this world. I hate people.",0,1735172977,2.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he4f0u/curious/,SearchingForAPortal,Curious Has anyone tried drinking rubbing alchohol?,0,1734187716,0.0,3.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoxgcu/i_need_someone_to_talk_to_about_my_sick_actions/,SeaworthinessOne1116,"I need someone to talk to about my sick actions. I'm not after being told what i've done is okay, but someone who can help me put context behind what i've done ",0,1735483691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8hip8/help_please/,SeaworthinessOver250,"Help, please I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no one. The world is too big of a place to have no one, but I'm convinced there is no one. My mind is playing tricks on me and I genuinely just need someone to talk to. ",0,1733535592,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha5p5m/struggling_with_debt_will_end_my_life_soon/,Secret_Homework2631,"Struggling with debt will end my life soon 31M i have debt of around 40000$ or Rs 35lakhs. I am stuck in a debt trap and i am not able to get out of it, I get 100s of phone calls daily to pay emis etc. I cannot take it anymore and i am thinking to end my life.",2,1733734869,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkrwjj/im_really_dizzy_bjt_ill_just_sleep_it_off_hoping/,Secret_Pepper_8243,I'm really dizzy bjt I'll just sleep it off hoping this is the end I'll update you guys if I'm still alive tomorrow I'm pretty sure I will not die from this but we'll never know,6,1734972687,1.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfsd1i/rminecraft/,Secure-Map3911,r/minecraft Tynker Is Shit For MacOS Cant Do Anything,0,1734380128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hijnmt/too_scared/,SedRitz,"Too scared I wish I had a loaded gun cause I'm too scared to slit my throat :/ if there's anyone in Calgary/alberta that can help hmu!",4,1734700888,4.0,6.0,3.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hecvmp/i_want_to_talk_to_someone/,SelectSource584,I want to talk to someone I can't take this anymore. I am tired of living. It keeps on getting worse & worse every day . I had enough of it . It hurts so much . Can I talk to someone ? ,1,1734211406,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkn8cs/tired/,Sensitive_Attempt_26,"Tired I've only been awake for an hour and I'm already exhausted. I've had tightness in my chest since I became conscious and I don't see it going away anytime soon. Fuck the holidays and fuck money as a concept. Idk why I'm here, just to say I'm tired. I want to never hear someone I love say, it'll get better, or just try you'll get it. I can't be within a foot of another human without going into fight, flight, or freeze. Is it always going to be this hard? I'm not sure how much left I have to give. If I was left by myself, I could wither away into nothing. I hate this life. ",2,1734958767,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdz6mt/help/,Separate-Regret915,Help I'm lost ,0,1734167325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcm467/i_dont_know_anymore/,Serious_Trouble5179,"I don't know anymore. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do i bother to try to become successful just so I can continue being nothing but a recluse? To continue doing nothing but work and sit alone at the end of the day. What am I even doing here? Just to get a job at the end of my study so i can do nothing but feed myself for a bit longer. To continue being trapped in this misery. I thought id be happy. I've tried to do so many different things. Nothing in this world is meant to be for me. Man, this life is a lonely road to nowhere. Fuck. I hope I die.",1,1734013243,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3sz6b/i_wanna_off_myself_bc_of_my_height/,Severe_Ad2175,"I wanna off myself bc of my height Im a good looking dude and i have a gf, but sometimes i get depressed due to my height (5'8) and i wanna off myself. She doesnt anyhthing about this. Actually nobody knows anything except me.",1,1733020114,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h681e1/im_a_horrible_human/,ShadowRiggs,I'm a horrible human I hurt and lied to the best human I know. And idk if I can or want to live with myself. ,2,1733287596,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoy0ya/done_with_everything/,SharpBiscotti8273,done with everything made an account to post this. i ruin everything i touch. i'm worthless. i don't enjoy anything and i don't want to be here. i'm so tired of feeling like this and just want it to stop. i just want everything to stop. i don't think i was built for this life,1,1735485416,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4fpke/im_gonna_do_it_finally/,Sheepybaby286,"Im gonna do it finally I wanted to be a good friend, a girlfriend, a mother, a sister and a daughter. thats all i ever wanted, i just wrote my note, to my best friend and my public profile. I was known, i was loved by some, hated by others. Im finally gonna be free, nothing can stop me now. I will do it as soon as my boyfriend leaves this apartment, i wont sleep until i do it,. maybe i can actaully go though with it, i mean i have in the past but someone always ended up calling the cops, Im gonna do it, no going back now.",6,1733092761,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8g217/is_this_enough_to_stop_my_wrist_from_bleeding/,SherlockHolmouse,"is this enough to stop my wrist from bleeding? i just had an attempt and lost quite a lot of blood from my left wrist and suddenly i didnt want to die anymore so i grabbed a bandage, slapped that on and put my watch over the bandage to create pressure on the wound. is this enough for me to survive I am truly sorry, but there is no way im gonna go to the hospital because my parents will find out then.",0,1733531171,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7csl/just_about_have_all_the_loose_ends_tied_up/,Shortdropsuddenstop,"Just about have all the loose ends tied up. (NSFW/TW-sewerslide plan) Got my letter first drafted, I think it says what I need it to. No need for a will, what little I have will go to my wife and daughter. Found a cheap pistol in a local store, I'm gonna put it on a credit card that is in my name only, that and a box of shells. Now I've just gotta find a place where I'll be comfortable and won't be found long enough to bleed out if I fuck this up like i do everything else. Wish me luck guys, I'm gonna need it ",6,1735155410,6.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf33z2/what_other_options_do_i_have/,ShotAcanthaceae7813,what other options do i have Anxiety has effected my every day life for so long. I haven't left the house in months. I have been debating sucide every day. Part of me doesn't want to. But i can't live my life like this. I can't do anything. I feel meaningless and i feel it's never going to get any better. No one listens to me. Is there any other option,2,1734298753,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h740cm/i_cant_anymore/,SignalCake6836,I can't anymore I can't stop picking my skin I can't stop procrastinating I have my exams in 10 days and I haven't even started preparing cuz everytime I open the books I cant even read a whole sentence and make meaning out of it I would rather self harm myself than trying to study I don't have access to medications due to the small town I live. Please give me some tips to stop procrastinating and get the courage and mentality to prepare for my exams. Every few hours I feel this intense shakyness and confusion due to hypoglycemia and I can't do anything other than binging on food yt and video games help me.,1,1733384743,0.0,2.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf9206/i_tried_to_hang_myself/,Signal_Daikon1056,"I tried to hang myself I tried to hang myself but couldn't go through with it. I'm such a fucking Coward. My wife chats to other guys and always has a smile on her face when she's texting them. With me she just tells me how I don't listen to her and make her feel special. She's right, I'm lazy and inattentive and I'm not surprised she would rather talk to other people. I think I should just end it. I have no friends and my family all live in a different country. She's all I have and I'm losing her. I'm not looking to get talked out of it, I just feel like telling someone.",6,1734316285,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1holagw/i_need_advice/,SignificanceSouth395,I need advice. I'm gonna end up killing myself. I need to talk to my parents about going back to the psych ward. Can I pls talk to someone who's good with words? I need something prepared. I can't stop cutting myself and burning myself. I really need help. ,3,1735437287,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpebpn/im_very_tired/,Significant_Dinner_1,"i'm very tired for the past couple of months, suicide has been on my mind everyday. the past week has been the worst. I self sabotage a relationship so i could throw everything away. I'm 19, and just don't know where my life is going. It feels like i'm going in endless circles wandering. I'm just so tired of it all. I don't think it will ever get better, my meds aren't helping anymore.",2,1735530716,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hecl3o/im_tired_of_being_a_fuck_up/,Significant_Doughnut,I'm tired of being a fuck up It's just one argument after the next after the next after the next. I can't do anything right. I can't do anything without making him mad. I can't do anything without ruining someone's day or someone's life. I just can't keep doing this. Starting over isn't an option because I'll still ultimately be the same person. It's a special sort of hell living like this. Maybe dying will be the best possible form of self care for me. If I could even do that right. ,2,1734210571,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpjcy8/im_feeling_really_down_lately/,SilentStrawbarry,I'm feeling really down lately. F(in my early 20s) Why does it feel that literally no one cares? I wish feelings didn't exist. I just want to be numb. Get get over the abuse I faced... I really want to just stop thinking and get out of my hhead. I'm in a nightmare,0,1735549865,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmcllw/bad_day/,SilentThief098,Bad day Just a bad day. I feel like killing myself but can't because what remains of my fam can't do much without me. Feels like I'm just perpetually suffering. I wish I could join my dad in death,2,1735172531,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hawsyc/hopeless_and_tired/,Silent_raindrop080,"Hopeless and tired I'm really tired... touched starved, in a different province now for a relationship that didn't work out, ended up pretty badly and I feel lost and as if my heart was bleeding out. Really alone and sometimes I really struggle seeing what's the point in all of this. I just want a hug and to sleep for a very long time. I don't know what to do",1,1733817136,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl7x1q/idk/,SillyGooberrrr,"Idk Does anyone else have a best friend but you aren't there best friend? If you don't it's extremely difficult to keep up with them it feels like I'm begging to call now I hate it, it's a curse to have like 3 friends because now I have to wait for him and his better friends to talk to wait for me to call. It makes me sad every time I try to call him because i used to have a best friend when I was 11 we did everything together but I messed it up idk I know it's not his fault I'm not his best friend but I can't help but feel unwanted ",0,1735022946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhau3v/i_failed/,Silver_Conflict872,"I failed I tried, but I failed. I found myself on the ground, my face flushed and slightly swollen. It seems I hit my face—I must have fainted, but I don't remember how it happened. I just recall that for a few seconds, I couldn't breathe, and then I lost consciousness. I think I didn't tie it tightly enough; it must have come loose.",6,1734553511,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8mji8/not_a_suicide_post_but_please_help/,Similar-Sun8829,"Not a suicide post but please help Guys listen I'm sorry it's not really a suicide post but I am really scared I might OD. I drank a lot of gin and smoked some weed a couple hours ago, the problem is I took 0,5mg Xanax last night (roughly 24h ago). I also didn't sleep well this week. Anyways I came back from the party and I'm feeling really down and what is strange cold. Will I die? Please help ",0,1733553097,0.0,0.0,3.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf71ha/how_do_i_protect_my_therapists/,Skipeople21,"How do I protect my therapists? Hi All, I am wondering if there is a way to protect my therapists in case I do lose my battle to depression. I have a handful of providers that create my treatment team due to an eating disorder. I'm doing much better in that department, but my depression and anxiety have skyrocketed yet again. I'm done. This isn't a life and idk how much longer I can last. I recently went inpatient for SI with intent. I got out after two weeks and I'm terrified to go back. I always hate being in the mental hospital. My primary therapist brought up liability and I don't want her or anyone else to get in legal trouble because of me. ",4,1734310051,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbol64/i_just_want_to_talk_to_someone/,SlushierInterests,"I just want to talk to someone I'm 23 and I've felt this way since 2015 or even farther back It's just been getting worse and I swear I want to be better I've asked how to be happy I've told the closest people in my life that I've felt this way I've held on for so long I just want to not wake up tonight I'm tired of caring so much about making others think I'm happy and ok I'm so ready for nothing but everyone tells me it's going to get better I don't want to feel, I don't want to care I don't want to exist anymore",1,1733903703,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbnxij/too_weak_to_die_but_too_weak_to_keep_living/,SmellSad9358,Too weak to die but too weak to keep living It's an endless struggle in my head. I really want to have hope that things will change but I truly believe they won't. I'm tired. I just want to sleep for a long long time.,1,1733900702,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5t3sc/genuinely_feeling_better/,Smooth_Meat1232,"Genuinely feeling better I have started to feel like, things are getting clear, and i have a direction in life, probably getting some more desire to live, hopefully I'll meet people and opportunities that i can look forward to.",0,1733247590,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7ljeu/i_need_help/,SoapMan7,"i need help i got cheated upon, lied to and gaslight. i am right now sitting here with a black eye because she hit me and my parents filed a missing persons report so i have to show up to the police station tomorrow while having stacked day at work. my parents also panicked and called all my friends so i ended up blocking every single one and i don't think there's ever going back from it. i want to fucking kill myself. i don't want to live. i need help. i'll prob take therapy. i just need to get through the night. idk what to do. ",2,1733437085,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9p0e8/help/,SockHistorical2969,Help I'm doing it I have a rope I'm sitting next to the tree I'm going to do it ots my fault too no one's home and I didn't plan for this but I can't anymore i just need someone to care. I told my friends I don't feel good they don't care and I have so many things to do and I'm so anxious I just get overwhelmed I'm so scared of dying but jm even more scared of living.,6,1733681899,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h57lgu/_/,SoggyBodybuilder1142,"// i'm a sixteen year old girl and i don't think i can do this anymore i'm just so tired and so scared i really can't do it anymore i'm just not strong enough or clever enough i relapsed into self harm and my mind keeps getting more and more confusing and fucked i'm completely terrified of what's going to happen to me, i already know actually. i think i'll do it tonight i really love the world and life but i just don't think i deserve it anymore",3,1733178038,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjvu8y/tonight_was_the_last_straw/,Soggy_Toast2,Tonight was the last straw As soon as I am done typing this I'm killing myself in a place where no one can find me I can't stand existing in this horrible rotten world anymore I hate people I hate humanity I hate tall dudes I hate women I can't fucking stand to go outside anymore I fucking hate everything I fucking hate everyone ,6,1734862641,5.0,4.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnw9yq/i_wish_someone_cared_for_me/,Solid-Scallion1877,"i wish someone cared for me i feel like everyone in this world hates me. my friends, my family, anyone i meet. i try to not let my emotions get the best of me but it feels like i'm alone in this world.. i think if i end up committing suicide, people will forget me in a day. i wish someone actually wanted me to be in their life.",0,1735354880,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6tqmn/i_am_struggling_to_become_normal/,SomewhereNo5979,"I am struggling to become NORMAL What can be achieved if I can't even become normal with the most basic matters? Everyone trying to ""improve"" themselves whereas I am simply trying to become ""normal"". Not fair at all. Fairness is not the notion I expect from this life but, my expectations doesn't affect the reality at all.",0,1733352663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoskiz/i_hate_myself/,Somnus_Sleep,"I hate myself I'm a 34 yr old man . I hate my life . I hate being gay . I will never have children mostly because I don't believe in having a child endure the same life . This life is cruel and unjust. I hate myself for being gay . Why could I have not just been born ""normal""? Hetero . Nothing in life makes me happy . I can even imagine a happy life with a man because I'm embarrassed of myself. Anytime I act feminine by default is betrayal to anyone and myself. What is left to live for besides regret ?",0,1735464607,0.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgzm3a/he_left_me/,SongsFind28,He left me He chose to break up with me at my lowest point. ,0,1734521393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlenf5/how_do_i_get_the_courage_to_jump/,SonnyCandyAngel,How do I get the courage to jump? I've had a place picked out and a plan for so long. I guess I am just waiting to be emotionally pushed over the edge which feels like it will happen any minute now,6,1735050541,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ngks/im_14_years_old_and_i_dont_want_to_do_this_shit/,SophieManders,"I'm 14 years old and I don't want to do this shit anymore As I said I'm 14, and I feel like there's no way out. All the solutions seem so far away, that killing myself would be much easier…",2,1733337366,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9opuv/about_to_be_living_in_a_hotel_again/,Specific_Ad_8575,"About to be living in a hotel again. Don't know why I'm in this place. I'm not sad or anything, just tired. Moved out to this state about two years ago and lived in a hotel the entire time. Only was 16. Not the hardest story out there, but it was tiring. Having to work extremely hard to pay for overpriced room fees. After struggling we finally got an apartment only to have my two older brothers fail me. My mom struggling the entire time to keep us afloat. None of my family wanting to help on either side. Now we have to leave by tomorrow. We exhausted all other options. I'm tired. Simply. ",0,1733681137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhjaye/i_have_a_plan_if_this_depression_and_other_mental/,Splashdiamonds,I have a plan if this depression and other mental heath stuff doesn't stop going to do this in a couple of months. I have a method that should work if not idk just be furious. If they can build Tesla robots surely they can find a cure for depression and all the other fucked up mental health issues out there. I haven't been on meds in years and honestly don't believe in them as they aren't cures. And don't want to take them for eternity. It's bad enough that a practically starve myself daily. I just can't keep living anymore I'm done forever my brain isn't healthy at all. So there my fam has no idea of my plan but here it goes. ,6,1734577549,5.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hasxcn/cant_afford_mental_hospital/,SplitLost438,"Can't afford mental hospital I've been in a mental hospital twice, and it was so expensive. I think I need to be committed long term, but I don't know how I could afford it. How do people pay for long stays? What do I do?",0,1733802625,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdj739/please_give_me_a_reason_to_live/,Sprites4Ever,"Please give me a reason to live. Why should I continue to bear an existence that is nothing but torture, where the people I ask for help punish me for suffering?",1,1734115612,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk9v6u/i_have_no_reason_to_be_upset/,SquidSecurity,"I have no reason to be upset I have so few responsibilities. I'm given far more leniency than I deserve. I'm physically healthy and young. I should be able to get everything done. I'm stressed for no reason. I'm tired for no reason. I feel so guilty over how useless and worthless I am, I want to die so I stop bothering people with my continued existence. The only thing keeping me going is oblivion is so scary to me. Death scares me. Pain scares me. I wish I could be killed so it wouldn't be my fault or choice. Just that it would happen. I would be gone and not struggling with the simplest things anymore.",1,1734907746,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn470n/feel_like_shit/,Standard-Society6453,"Feel like shit Trying to find my love, Chinese food is my favorite ",0,1735264913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdklg1/why_go_on/,Starwind_81,"Why go on? I made it to 43. But I have lived a life of just suffering in silence. Talking about things, I am just being dramatic, no one wants to hear it, or I just need to ""man up"" and I will be fine. I hate myself... literally everything about myself. I can no longer find any good about me. I just need the right day of courage and I will leave this existence. Can anybody tell me why I shouldn't? Bet not, because my life looks good from the outside, but it's all a shit-show beneath the surface. I pray I get the strength and determination to end this worthless suffering soon. ",2,1734119310,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heg0x0/wanting_to_die_sometimes_but_being_terrorized_by/,Status-Profession30,Wanting to die sometimes but being terrorized by death the rest of the time Does anybody feel like that sometimes? Do you feel like it can be some kind of transfer ?,1,1734220534,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hey8ug/tired_of_the_pain/,Stay_Gorgeous20,"Tired of the pain I had a knee surgery done in January 2023 , and then 2 more since then. I still am unable to walk and as the months go by pain gets worse. I have been diagnosed with CRPS. My entire body feels like it's shutting down. I cry everyday. I've never been a crier over pain. I've become so depressed and I am on depression meds to help. But it seems like they aren't helping. I have suicidal thoughts almost everyday. I've been telling my husband to take out life insurance on me. He keeps telling me I'm going to get better. But i honestly don't think so. They call CRPS the suicidal disease and I can understand why. ",2,1734285633,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnvr2s/im_a_very_ugly_male/,Still_Display_8372,"I'm a very ugly male M34) look younger like 28 ish 6ft lanky long slim Virgin (resigned to never having it years ago even tho once or twice 10-15 years ago I didn't take the opportunity) Thick toned legs (idk how as I do fuck all they were sticks a few years ago) but slim body with slight pudgy belly with stick thin arms I'd get so roasted for should I wear a shirt (I never do I'm always layered up under a hoodie) Bones for shoulders Black hair receding hairline messy type I never go out at all My tall lanky build makes me feel I'm very ugly",0,1735353191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7ex2t/i_think_my_time_is_coming_to_a_close/,StilllMatttic,"I think my time is coming to a close. Hello. My name is not George Amberson, it's just an alias I use to dissociate from reality. George being a fictional character who literally lives in the past, something that resonates with me deeply. I cannot live with myself, the mistakes I've made cannot be spoken to anyone, the burden is mine alone to carry. I have a .44 Magnum with a single bullet waiting for me, unfortunately I am a coward. How do I go about mustering up the courage to kill myself? I'm drunk as I write this, I'm ashamed to say. I just need to relive myself of this weight for a moment. Thanks for reading.",3,1733420557,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h966cp/26yearold_passively_suicidal_virgin_wish_i_was/,Stop_Banning_Me246,"26-year-old passively suicidal virgin. Wish I was dead Tired of this life. Nothing has ever worked out for me. It's pathetic to still be inexperienced at this age. I'll never get those years back. Thankfully my sex drive is lowering a bit, but now I'm dealing with the emotional pain of not experiencing sex when I was younger.",2,1733616921,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd9mz1/im_14_and_prolly_suicidal/,StraightDiscount8426,Im 14 and prolly suicidal As obv im 14 though turining 15 im having suicidal thoughts as my life as in my firends and all ive just destroyed this social life and about some months ago my grades were good but started failing in some subjects like my local language ive just about given up on life which is for me just plain sad as im not talented or dont have good marks or a social life which was caused by my friend circles and also due diligence to my mindset at the time prolly gonna try to live till im a adult but cant be sure ...,2,1734086815,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he0261/why_am_i_so_worthless/,Strange_Camel_3717,Why am I so worthless? I don't fucking deserve to live,1,1734171413,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd25t1/lets_help_eachother/,Strange_Help_1138,"Let's Help Eachother I like most of you here battle this overwhelming feeling every single day. But rather than let it take over and possibly end my life I want to reach out to every person here struggling and ask them to reach out. YOU ARE NOT ALONE Please reach out and don't give up yet",0,1734056932,0.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha4z40/idek/,Strange_Particular_2,"Idek I have over whelming intrusive thoughts about killing myself, I want to do it, I want to die. But i could never hurt my parents like that. All I do is bring everyone pain and I really think they would be better off without me but I know they wouldn't cope. Idk if that makes sense. ",2,1733731518,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9hs5i/can_i_get_someone_to_talk/,Strange_Thamburan,"Can I get someone to talk.... ""It's becoming too much now. I have no one to talk to, and living in a country where asking for help makes you seem like you're mentally ill, I just need someone to vent to.""",0,1733660745,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hczqts/i_might_not_survive_being_22/,Striking_Beyond7391,"I might not survive being 22 Upcoming surgery, overall suicidal, and no hope for my future. I wouldn't be surprised if this is my last year on earth. I hate being here so much. ",2,1734049567,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnihkr/i_do_not_want_to_die_its_my_worst_fear/,Striking_Stress_42,"i do not want to die, it's my worst fear. i really honestly do not want to die, it's my worst fear…. i also know i can't keep living like this. my life is hell. idk what to do ",0,1735316602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbcj6i/i_put_my_hands_on_her_after_drinking_and_now_shes/,StrongLasagna,I put my hands on her after drinking and now she's gone forever. I want to kill myself. That's it. I'm a piece of shit.,2,1733865355,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6tbt9/what_options_do_i_have/,StructureOk3332,"What options do I have Federal loans aren't enough to pay for college and I have a 20,000 balance for school because of my dorm and meal plan. My only choice is to drop out cuz I can't pay it. But then I'm homeless what do I do.",0,1733351602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpiss/suicide_is_always_a_thought_suicide_is_always_on/,Stunning-Web-5576,"suicide is always a thought. suicide is always on my mind I tell my friends and family that i'm not suicidal anymore but it's a lie. thoughts of suicide follow me everywhere. since 2016 there hasn't been a single day I haven't imagined death and there hasn't been a single night where I went to bed and didn't think about suicide. ",2,1735335089,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkc67z/im_about_to_jump_off_a_high_bridge_im_crying_and/,Stunning_Doughnut_84,"I'm about to jump off a high bridge, I'm crying and just want to die U",6,1734914892,6.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4omj8/my_friend_craft_ideas/,Subject_Horror_3990,"My friend… craft ideas Sorry I hope I'm positing this in the correct sub. My friend was recently admitted to an inpatient hospital for su*cidal thoughts and attempts. I'd love to send them a care package with things to make them happy. They love crafts… drawing… latch hook… and especially those little rubber beads that you iron together… I think it's called Perler beads? Anyways… I don't think they can have access to pencils, latch hooks, strings, or irons right now. Any recommendations for crafts I can send them? I was thinking stickers, but I'd love to send them a craft they can like, create. Thank you so much for any suggestions",0,1733120419,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha5urt/would_anyone_like_to_talk/,Subject_Wonder4503,"Would anyone like to talk? I'm going insane. 16m. ",0,1733735624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1houv8r/why_not/,Substantial-Act4687,"Why not? My wife leaving me, I lost my job, I have tons of debt, I am couch surfing. My wife verbally, physically and emotionally abused me but I still love her but she filed for divorce. It's too much, I pray often, I feel like I am losing it. I feel like such a failure, I tried my best in this earth. I made mistakes just like everyone else maybe it's time to go. I can't do this. All I ever did was try my best and it's never enough. This world isn't meant for me. I hope I don't wake up.",1,1735474512,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkl90i/potential_suicide/,Successful-Bed5783,"Potential suicide I doubt anybody is actually gonna respond to this, but I'd like to contribute one last thing before I go. My life is in ruins. I've been dealing with depression for a few months now, I think since the start of October. Only in the past few days, I've been contemplating suicide. My girlfriend just broke up with me today and I'm sure that's the final trigger. I don't have anything to look forward to and I want to die so badly. I understand that there's just gonna be nothingness, but I prefee that honestly. It's been a waste of a life. I don't know I'm gonna do it today or tomorrow, but I definitely will.",4,1734950839,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3z37k/bye/,Successful-Data-7355,Bye Bye bye,0,1733042697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfrdy8/cant_shake_the_feeling/,Successful-Mission12,"Can't shake the feeling. Since I was little I've always had ideations but it feels like the older I get the harder it is to shake the thoughts. I feel, and I (suppose it's impossible to say for sure, but still) know I have so much to live for. Yet, no matter how hard I try I always end up here. Stuck on an indescribable feeling, a pit and the only way out seems like death. I genuinely never wanted nor do I want to commit suicide but I can never shake the feeling. I'm only 22 but it feels like I've suffered an eternity. I can recall so many good memories, feelings and people yet still I feel this way.",1,1734377644,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcx4hr/thoughts/,Such_Equivalent4231,"Thoughts I hate being a 13 year old girl. I want to cut off my genitials, I want to cut off my breasts. I want to cut everywhere. I want to no longer be here, die in my sleep, I just need to go somewhere that isn't school or home. ‚Talk to someone' no, because I don't want help anymore, and wtf are they gonna do, put me in hospital ??",1,1734042126,1.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hme498/i_hate_who_i_am/,Such_Safety4052,"I hate who I am I'm a 41 year old man who can't text. Oh, talk to females. I want to end my life cause I don't want to live this hell. ",2,1735177656,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk2wkk/my_idiot_self_of_trying_to_hang_myself_in_2020/,Such_Window6950,"My idiot self of trying to hang myself in 2020 I tried to hang myself when I was 11 in 2020. Dumbest idea. I had gotten a skipping rope, tied it a ceiling fan and pushed the chair. After I passed out I fell and caused a very loud bang. Put in a hospital. I have therapy every week now. Fuck you 11 year old me.",0,1734887757,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5zu6k/goodbye/,Sufficient_Sun_2796,Goodbye I'm going to attempt tonight. I went out earlier today and brought two packs of paracetamol let's hope it works. This will be my first and last post. No one ever gets be I'm going through so much. There's a lot more but I'm not writing anything.,6,1733264090,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbk66u/only_living_from_obligation/,Sunrisebetweenpines,"Only living from obligation Reasons I don't want to continue with this sh*t: -constant stabbing facial pain behind eye and into jaw below teeth (Trigeminal neuralgia) -almost no close friends (only one I see a few times a year), no other friends -don't socialize well and am generally disliked -chronic unremitting self loathing and self disgust (tried antidepressants, tried several therapists, nothing works) Reason to continue: -single parent to a very sweet preteen kiddo who is close to me and needs my support (no good options among family members to step in if he were without me) Kinda feel like I'm stuck but nothing will get better ",1,1733887083,1.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h867yj/my_sister_regularly_tells_me_to_kill_myself/,Superb321,My sister regularly tells me to kill myself She does that because I'm a retard... I genuinely want to kill myself but am not cuz of my friends and how they'll feel if i do so... My mom and my sister regularly take turns to tell me how shit I am and how useless I am... I am well aware of the fact yet it's a cold reminder every fucking day... Honestly I wish for my death and will welcome it with open arms when it does come.,2,1733504905,4.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho02yn/i_hate_my_fucking_life/,Superb_Beautiful13,I hate my fucking life I'm really young still but I hate my life all i think about is drugs and getting high I don't wanna live anymore I hate my dad and mom don't like anyone I have a girlfriend she loves me very much but I don't love her I wanna overdose can someone give me advice I don't want help or someone to talk to fuck all dat give me a method or something im thinking oxycodone overdose but how much would kill me?,3,1735368433,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhc8gr/bye/,Supine_2009,Bye My parents are tired of me anyways so I'm gonna kill my self. Also I'm all alone so I'll kill myself. Sorry I can't think of anything meaningful to say but I've been in this subreddit for a while and wanted to say goodbye. You guys have been super nice and have a nice day!,2,1734557154,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnvz8o/whats_the_point_of_explaining/,SureAspect291,"What's the point of explaining Blah blah blah words words words ",0,1735353922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj2w4v/please_i_could_use_a_person_to_talk_to_tonight/,SurfingSandwich,"Please. I could use a person to talk to tonight. To start..I have no one. Not a single soul to talk to and I'm not ok. So…..Today will be my last day. My very last day. It Feels odd to know that…. spend our whole lives worrying about WHEN. When and how will I go? Well I know when AND how. Feels comforting too I guess. Like I don't have to think or worry any longer. I'd like to tell one person my story before all that…just don't want to be forgotten. ",6,1734757965,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hagflf/i_dont_wanna_keep_living/,Suspicious-Roof6917,"I don't wanna keep living For the past two years, I have been stuck in the same place mentally. I went to college, was my outgoing extroverted self, nobody wants to be my friend. I go weeks without talking to anyone. I'm stupid, I try hard but I still fail essentially every exam. My parents think I'm smart and have friends because I was social in highschool, but I don't have the guts to tell them the truth. Ive transferred, I've joined clubs, I started being healthier and going to the gym, going to therapy, nothing helps. Everyone is moving forward and life and mine keeps doing nothing but crashing down. I have no future.",1,1733768577,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjdn4n/why/,Suspicious_Year_,"why Why does it seem everyone only wants to talk to me and care when it only benefits them or when they need something from me, while I sit in my room everyday pondering if I should do it. ",2,1734799486,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm3aaz/i_want_to_die/,Sweaty-Procedure-405,i want to die. i can't take this anymore i have a constant sadness on my shoulders 24/7 and nothing changes. the “it will get better” is getting old because WHEN?! it's like the universe is against me i can't catch a break. it really is something new every other day and im so exhausted. i have a plan and today is the day ,5,1735142543,5.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7crfa/hi/,SwimmingEast4201,hi have a good day!,0,1733415185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhq04k/hi/,Szaboo41,"Hi! I wanna end my life, or just thinking too much about it. I dont trust people really, i dont see my future and i am feeling myself a hopeless loser. I crave so much attention that today i subscribed to an OF model, yea. So it is my end ",2,1734603997,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hedw02/todays_my_last_day/,TIGBITTI3S,"todays my last day i plan to end it within the next 30 mins, my girlfriend split up with me yesterday, i've been struggling with mental issues for years and she was the only thing holding my life together and now i feel lost. it feels like my life is on a never ending downhill. nothing ever changes and nothing ever gets better. I left a short note for my mum on my dresser. I think i'm going to go for a bush walk, lay somewhere nice and slit my throat. ",6,1734214207,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgwrsz/i_was_going_to_last_year_before_college/,TallAmbassador1215,"I was going to last year before college I'm a semester into college and it's great but as soon as I came home all the thoughts, compulsions, and disorder like things came back. I was suicidal because I had to leave the life I had made, now I'm suicidal because even though I'm back home the life is still gone. I also self harm and that's been rough. This is just to get it off my chest, no one's ever known about any of this stuff and no one ever will ",2,1734508154,4.0,2.0,2.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcmp4x/fucked_in_the_head/,TartOpposite2170,fucked in the head I constantly feel overwhelmed and irritated and it doesn't seem like it's going away anytime sooner. I've constantly always been like this and it doesn't seem like things will become better,0,1734014976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6tl0i/i_keep_fucking_up/,TastyWindowCleaner,"I keep fucking up Tired of work. Tired of being weird. People will miss me but I have no future and they are better off without me and they don't realize yet. It'd be wrong to say that everyone has turned against me but I'm clearly an outsider that bothers them. I have everything ready but I know death is physically painful. Kinda scared. I'm not sure if I'm finding the courage or trying to live, just kinda stuck in my thoughts.",5,1733352251,6.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4p3d5/failed_ivf_is_making_me_suicidal/,Tasty_Excitement_355,"Failed IVF is making me suicidal I want kids. 4 failed rounds of ivf. £45k down. All negative tests. The process has taken so much time, energy and effort, with nothing in return. I feel like the emotional roller coaster is killing me. It's destroyed my physical healthy, emotional health, mental wellbeing, finances, social life etc. It's making other thoughts come up. Like how I want my own family cause growing up was hard at times. My dad was emotionally neglectful. My brother was still born. My family is small. I want to create my own life and it's not happening. I don't know where to go from here. I think the hormones are making it worse. ",2,1733122263,2.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpqiq6/its_my_birthday_and_im_planning_my_suicide_still/,Tedious-Summer-311,"It's my birthday and I'm planning my suicide still I have been through so much, insurmountably more than anyone I know and 99% of the people I meet. I don't trust any doctors or nurses. The police or my family. I have had a solid plan of how to do it i just need to find the where and when. If things don't turn around for me I'm just gonna do it or maybe move away from everyone and live in a camper van at the Wal Mart and ignore the world. At this point the best thing I have that gives me some feeling other than mental and physical pain, exhaustion, anxiety and suffering is my sleeping pills and when I run out I just drink.",5,1735574878,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj8n7l/helium_asohyxation/,Telnar19081,Helium asohyxation Hi . I just want too get some advice on how to do it . How would you connect the tube to the tank ? Should I ubncrew the valve and conect the tube with a clip or leave it on and just glue the tube to the valve ? Should I leave the bag around neck a little loose so the exess helium can leave ? ,6,1734783131,5.0,5.0,5.0,,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho7x9d/i_cant_cope_with_the_fact_that_perfect_cyber/,TemperatureBrave9159,"I can't cope with the fact that perfect cyber security doesn't exist I've been getting more and more paranoid with cyber security to the point where I'm covering the screws on my keyboard with nail polish. I can't stop until I have perfect cyber security, which simply isn't possible. I can't take it anymore",0,1735399760,0.0,1.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4lw06/i_need_a_little_help_finding_something_that/,Terrible_Soft_9480,"I need a little help finding something that inspired me I don't remember what exactly it was, but i was watching something. I think it might've been some kind of superhero thing, but i really can't be sure. I think i also remember the person talking to the person about to kill theirself was actually taunting them and ended up saying something like ""if you're at your lowest point, then ironically, there's nowhere to go but up"". And then he was like that one meme ""what!? Noooo! Duuudeuh!"" Like, that wasn't supposed to happen. (I ended up remembering on my own. It was ""lucifer"" s1 e8)",0,1733110840,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha5acc/my_best_friend_shot_himself/,That-Comfort-1620,My best friend shot himself My best friend shot himself last week and I don't want to live in a world without him ,1,1733732960,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnua7u/can_someone_talk_to_me_please/,ThatBrother199,Can someone talk to me please I just need someone to talk to right now and I hope I can help you too ,0,1735348551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcz3ry/ive_had_depression_since_2021_the_pain_wont_go/,The-Toby,"I've had depression since 2021, the pain won't go away How much more do I have to go to therapy until I fucking finally get fixed",0,1734047742,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhkue9/if_you_need_to_talk/,TheAnarkist700,"If You need to talk I'm here to listen, just let it go.",0,1734582723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfen8t/i_lost_everything/,TheAwkwardEmu,I lost everything My fiancé finally left me because he doesn't want to waste his best years “hoping I get better”. We were together almost 7 years. I can't stand to be here anymore. I can't do this. I don't have the guts to kill myself but I need them. This life isn't worth living anymore. ,2,1734337499,4.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1homcun/i_always_worry_about_my_ex_bf_he_is_addicted_to/,TheBarbieDolly,I always worry about my ex bf he is addicted to Fentanyl I've tried my best to help. He loves his addiction. Can't live without the drug. It's heartbreaking to watch and he doesn't seek out help or anything just enjoys it. I feel sad that one day it will all come to an end. ,0,1735440697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hei0l1/my_ex_cheated_on_me_and_told_me_to_kms/,TheDoorsAreComing,My ex cheated on me and told me to kms And when I told her I no longer wanted to be w her she proceeded to rant about how horrible I was. She told me I should kill myself and that she hopes I 'fucking die'. I really don't know who that person is anymore. I thought I was doing better. And yet I always manage to find myself back in the same place I started. I want something quick and easy. I can't be in my skin any longer. ,3,1734226802,4.0,3.0,2.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xfsg/whyd_they_come_back/,TheGiantBotato,Why'd they come back? I had suicidal thoughts like a month ago (?) and there's this song that changed my mind completely (What I Know Now) so I thought I got rid of em but these week they just slowly came back to me and now I'm crying ,2,1733258133,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h50a52/why_do_i_feel_like_i_want_to_kill_myself_even/,TheOnibi-Idiot,"Why do I feel like I want to kill myself even after the tiniest thing has gone wrong? No kidding, not exaggerating. I seriously feel like I want to stop existing when something bad goes wrong, IRL or online. I'm under 16 and it feels like I have to be the one who has everything set out, no mishaps, nothing bad. It's horrible, especially since I've done this to myself. ",2,1733160217,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1harplm/please_remember/,TheWraithKills,"Please Remember The same God that created the oceans, the mountains, and the galaxies also thought the world needed you. ",0,1733798747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdrg2x/its_crazy_how_people_here_feel_more_comfortable/,The_Bread_Demon,It's crazy how people here feel more comfortable telling strangers their problems than the people in their life. Says a lot. I don't blame them tho.,0,1734138700,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf99mk/dont_want_to_die_just_not_exist/,The_Real_McTasty,"Don't want to die, just not exist. Am ai gonna kill myself, probably one day... But if a venue appeared and gave me three wishes I'd say that's too many. I really just wish to not exist and have never existed. But since you're giving me three. First wish is that weapons of war will always fail. Second, everyone has the basic needs to live a dignified life. Third, that these first two wishes remain but that all other traces of me and my existence never existed.",1,1734316956,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h713hd/need_help/,The_seven_deadlysins,"Need help I used to want to die all the time, I now have a health scare that could result in my death and im so scared. Im so scared,ive been wanting to do so many things in life like graduate, get married and have children and now I don't know if I can anymore. Someone please help me im so scared.",0,1733373762,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h43foe/why_do_my_emotions_feel_so_alienated/,Then-Lawyer-8765,"Why do my emotions feel so alienated? im violently being suffocated by the absence of emotion yet I feel so human. Its weird. It might be my new meds but I feel as if my emotions are not mine but I am me..? Does anyone else relate in anyway? feeling very desperate right now.",0,1733060214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9d25r/is_it_worth_it_to_live/,Then_Assignment5655,"Is It worth it to live? I really need to know is it worth it to try harder in this shitty life. I have not a single reason to stay here but i am scared of failing again. Why do everyone keeps saying it is worth it to stay alive and that things will get better when they never fucking do.",1,1733640565,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpmeev/here_i_go/,Theonitusisalive,Here I go ... Welp I put it off for a year.. now it's time. Later this evening I am going to close up my garage and turn my car on. I am covering all available exits and blocking the under of the doors. I intend to suffocate.. I can't take this any longer. I can't be on this earth anymore. After work I am going to lock up. Drive home and die.,6,1735562409,6.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hccjzk/been_wanting_to_die_since_i_was_ten_years_old_i/,Thick_Bother_5583,been wanting to die since i was ten years old i cant rmember the last time i was genuinely happy without being sad teh same night first time i tired to kms i failed and now ive had the same scar for 9 years on my stomach,1,1733975761,6.0,6.0,2.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnlm59/got_the_hydrogen_tank_and_exit_bag/,ThrowAwayStupe,Got the hydrogen tank and exit bag don't think I'll be here in the morning. hopefully there's a next life and I'll do better next time around. ,6,1735324736,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpafyv/i_cant_do_this_anymore/,ThrowRA2584,"I can't do this anymore Life is just fucking relentless. I just want to end it all but I can't stop thinking about my cats. Without me they have no one, it's the only thing stopping me but I just don't want to exist anymore ",2,1735518909,2.0,4.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpji88/i_dont_see_a_future_for_myself/,Throwaway_acc231,"I don't see a future for myself Every time I think about what I want to do for my future, I see nothing. I've always talked about going into 3D animation and modeling, but I don't even know if I want that anymore. I don't know what my future is gonna be like, and I don't want to find out. I want to be done with life, I have for years, but I can't do that to my family. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.",1,1735550521,1.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcyvoz/feel_like_a_lost_cause_longer_term_plan/,Throwawayabcxyzabc,"Feel like a lost cause, longer term plan. I can't even express my feelings anymore bc I feel I'm just unrelatable and burdening everyone. The problem is I have high moods and low moods. If I stayed in crisis I could more effectively plan my suicide for the future after my parents pass. If I stayed in high moods I wouldn't waste so much time and hate myself for these chronic low moods. I've done a lot to try and help myself but I'm just exhausted. I can't kill myself now because it would hurt my parents too much but I'm a waste as a person and feel so messed up. My moods are all over the shop but nothing seems to change it long term. ",2,1734047073,4.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlte20/could_someone_please_talk_to_me/,Throwawaysh123123,"Could someone please talk to me? Yeah, I think the title says it all, I would be very grateful if someone of you would talk to me. Until then",0,1735099694,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn9xnq/can_overdosing_on_wellbutrin_concerta_kill_you/,TimelyTumbleweed822,Can overdosing on Wellbutrin + concerta kill you? Will this kill you ,3,1735285497,3.0,3.0,4.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hprlxi/if_youre_single_theres_no_reason_to_live/,Timely_Split_5771,"If you're single, there's no reason to live. I'm still trying to find purpose. My friends are too busy, I can't date, I failed every time I tried to get a stable job, or even a degree or certification. If my friends don't agree to hang, I just sit at home in my room. Hobbies don't make me feel better anymore and I'm at the end. I just hate how people fucking lie. They KNOW life is 10xs better when you have love, but wanna gaslight me into staying alive over some bullshit. ",1,1735577693,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3q8st/please_help/,TinyLight16,please help I feel like I deserve to die please help me ,0,1733011725,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm4q0r/i_ruin_everything_i_touch/,TinySSJ,"i ruin everything i touch. what's even the point? nothing ever works out for me, i'm at a christmas get-together and i've never felt more lonely. i can't stand my brain, i can't stand the way i think. i cant stand these medications, i can't keep doing this. being an autistic depressed schizo is so fucking tiring. maybe i'll finally go through with it tonight.",4,1735147147,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6pl3o/honest_question_tw_mention_of_suicide/,ToLi_4411,"Honest question (tw: mention of suicide) What's the best way to go by suicide? I live on Germany and I'm barley a teen. Please don't ask me why I wanna go. I just want go known how. I won't KMS in the neat future, but I wanna know the best way to go. Getting high surely won't kill you, so please someone gell me what's the best way. ",3,1733342469,5.0,3.0,4.0,6.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdrxlp/im_a_bad_person/,To_Major_Tom,I'm a bad person I've caused so much hurt. And I don't think I feel as bad as I should,0,1734140206,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho4h6k/i_really_need_someone_to_talk_to/,Top-Algae7521,I really need someone to talk to That's all,0,1735387958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkhg9j/i_feel_like_90_of_my_life_is_normal_and_10_of_it/,TopResponse3205,"I feel like 90% of my life is normal and 10% of it is suicidal ideations because I remember most people see me as ugly It's just so weird bc I can go from “what's for dinner?” To “I'm ugly, I'm a failure as a woman and subconsciously maybe I hate women. I should kill myself to stop this feeling” in like 20 seconds. Anyone else? ",2,1734933603,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjfxkf/everyone_abandoned_me/,Traditional-Dance-,"Everyone abandoned me I know I'm a lot. But I try so hard to be kind and positive. Well, I went through a breakup and have been a pain to all those that were in my life. Now no one speaks to me and I've never been so alone. People that previously cared for me, do not even respond to my messages. How did this get so bad? I do not want to continue on…",1,1734805808,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl8plj/i_just_need_someone_to_talk_to/,Traditional-Dark-992,"I just need someone to talk to Lately I've been feeling like such a burden to everyone around me including my family , friend's and boyfriend. I feel like I just need someone to talk to but lately it's so hard for me to open up. I feel like the reason I haven't committed suicide is because when I think about doing it , it sounds so selfish to do that to everyone I love and then I start thinking about my boyfriend finding my lifeless body in the middle of our bedroom. I'm just tired of crying myself to sleep and thinking about how useless I am. ",2,1735026285,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h53y2k/isnt_death_solution_for_someone_suffering/,TrainerAccording5643,"isn't death solution for someone suffering physical pain. I DO NOT ENCOURAGE ANYONE TO COMMIT SUICIDE OR GET ENCOURAGED BY THIS POST. I'm 24 yo, I have always thought about suicide, but nothing was serious just ideas now and then, but after I got sick and feel physical pain every day, those thoughts became more interesting, and looks like the best solution, not just for the pain, but for every other life's sh*t I'll have to deal with later.",2,1733169081,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4dktp/i_dont_want_to_live_anymore/,Trttrr1,"I don't want to live anymore I'm just tired of everything and can't find a purpose to live, or anything to live for, just tired and miserable all the time, i had an okay Life i guess but i don't like it anymore I don't think anyone can help me but its okay I guess i had an okay run",1,1733087264,2.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhbuuh/loneliness_is_killing_me_little_by_little/,True-Rooster4977,"Loneliness is killing me little by little I'm F 18 yo and I have no friends, no bf (or any fling). I can't stand loneliness, it suffocates me and I just want to die. I feel like people my age are having fun and living the best years of their lives, while I'm suffering in agony from being so alone. My biggest concern is how I could possibly take my life lmao. I just need to know that I matter to people.",2,1734556153,4.0,3.0,3.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h66992/im_done_tired_of_fucking_up_my_life/,True-Trip-2766,"I'm done. Tired of fucking up my life I am in charge of my own life. I make the choices. Why do I keep going around and around in circles. I want to kill myself because I am turning into a worthless disgusting member of society. My parents are beautiful supportive and try their best. , they do not deserve a daughter like me. A dissapointment. I cause constant worry. I have gone through therapy. Tried medication. There is no hope for me and I'm tired of being me. My mind is so dark and ugly and I am full of hatred for myself . ",2,1733281872,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1honroy/ive_been_thinking_about_it_for_the_last_few_days/,True_Quiet152,"I've been thinking about it for the last few days i hate my life i cant reach out to anyone i dont want to keep doing this forever i just want this to be over i feel like id be happier then i feel so much pain all the time",2,1735445442,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiuso9/idk/,TrxzF,Idk I'm 13m ( soon 14 ) but still i wanna end it tmr I can't take it anymore no one accepts me in my school tho all them are unreasonable either way they only make fun of the weak i wanna stand up but i cannot do anything towards ~400 people from my school which thats the amount that bully people mostly on social media or behind others backs. i just wanna end the suffering.,2,1734731649,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl64ie/tw_attempt_questions/,TurbSmile,"TW: Attempt Questions I hung myself last year and I'm often curious about it because I was unresponsive. Is it normal to be curious about it, I've considered asking the police department for the video. Has anyone else had a similar situation, it just doesn't feel real. I know I'm not dead but it doesn't make sense in my mind. I feel like I'm in denial.",0,1735015923,6.0,6.0,6.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hegu99/im_supposed_to_be_happy/,Turbulent_Holiday306,"I'm supposed to be happy I'm currently in Italy, on a trip that should be making me happy, but all I can think of is that I want to die. I miss people that left me, memories haunt me. Everything feels so much. So so much. I wish I could die. Disappear.",2,1734223010,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnz3xu/fuckin_done/,Turbulent_Minded,Fuckin done Fuckin done yo,0,1735364624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4o7c1/i_will_finally_find_peace/,TurnoverSubstantial2,"I will finally find peace Right now I'm currently walking to the bridge that I'm going to jump off of, for once I'm no longer scared of dying. I never felt this much weight taken off my shoulders, this is the first time in my life where I've felt some kind of relief, relief because soon my suffering will be over and nothing will matter anymore. I hope death treats me better then being alive ever has.",6,1733118840,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl3qud/cynicism/,TutSolomonAndCo,"Cynicism Life does not have meaning. At all There is no such thing as fate Or karma Or ant kind of guiding hand. Everything we do is for the purpose of mindless survival that serves no purpose. With every passing year we get older and our bodies get closer to failing on us. When they fail, we are gone There is no afterlife. There is no new life. Your consciousness stops being generated and you are gone We all like or the sake of living but living is something we can never do for ever. And no matter what we accomplish it will all fade.",0,1735007474,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5549n/is_the_happy_phase_people_experience_beforehand/,Typical-Spinach7275,"Is the “happy” phase people experience beforehand really true? They say when a depressed person suddenly seems really happy and joyful, that it's a warning sign they may have decided to end their life in the near future. Is this really true for everyone? I've decided, even on the day, and yet I don't feel that way. A bit of relief, but not happiness. Just curious about this, it worries me that I might not go through with it since I don't feel the high. ",5,1733171946,4.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ygea/its_crazy_how_i_used_to_be_depressed/,Uhhhhhhh42,"It's crazy how I used to be depressed... But then I swapped it out for being stressed about finding a job that isn't shit. Life ain't worth all that bs and drama. I don't have the energy for it. ",1,1733260677,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h68l2t/i_failed_my_parents/,Unable_Ad5037,i failed my parents my father hates me . i can try all i can but i know i can never succeed infront of his eyes,0,1733289441,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4o7cd/alguém/,Unfair-Jump4541,"Alguém? Preciso conversar, porfavor ",0,1733118841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heybzi/im_done/,Unfair-Street9829,I'm done I have nothing. Nobody. I bought a child into this world as a lifeline. I'm a failure. I wish they were never born so they wouldn't have to live with the pain of my death. But I hope they find a way to be happy. I'm too cowardly to jump off a bridge. Too scared to slit my wrists. So I'm just taking as many pills as I can and hoping this nightmare will be over soon. I wish I was anyone else. I don't even have a friend to send a goodbye to. I'm done. ,6,1734285855,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0gzl/i_dont_know_what_do_do_now/,Unknow5241,"I don't know what do do now Idk why but I just want to die, I've never been bullied, I have a good family but I can't help but feel useless, idk what to do, if do die il die feeling quilty for my family, idk why I want to die, but the thought of it doesn't scare me. Why is it that I want to die so badly",2,1733714514,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhan8a/how_long_do_people_plan_suicide_on_average/,Unlikely-Fix-,How long do people plan suicide on average? What are the statistics on this? How “successful” are the attempts in relation to the amount of time the people need to make the decision? Do you have any studies or something similar about this?,0,1734553006,0.0,0.0,3.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhsk59/pain/,Unlovedgirly,Pain I've been crying for a couple of hours because I don't want to die but feel like I HAVE to. Has anyone else felt like this before?,2,1734613840,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6zwoe/here_to_help_anyway_possible/,UnsurpassedGreat,"Here to help anyway possible If anyone needs someone to talk to about what they're going through, feel free to reach out to me, I've battled with mental illness myself for 7 years now ",0,1733369994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlyccb/i_just_cant_do_this_shit_anymore/,Upper_Substance_3318,"I just can't do this shit anymore!! I can't do this anymore, I hate this!!",2,1735122477,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hph739/i_feel_like_im_js_stuck_in_a_loop/,Upstairs_Piano_3147,"i feel like i'm js stuck in a loop i (16f) have been struggling w self harm for 2 years now but js tonight i've been thinking over and over again about the idea of suicide and it scares me so much, please i need someone to talk to before i can't take it anymore.",2,1735540770,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hofvu0/in_the_process_of_writing_a_suicide_note_for_a/,Upstairs_Return_8499,"In the process of writing a suicide note for a friend. I've tried everything throughout those 6 years: therapy, psychiatry, sports, religion, hobbies. Nothing worked. Nothing can make me stop feeling horrible. I'll do it as soon as I hide enough pills away from the eyes of my mother. I'm just so tired of trying to pretend like something will get better when it proves wrong again and again. I just don't care anymore.",6,1735421549,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlzyr9/im_so_over_it/,Useful_Apricot_3422,"i'm so over it. i have absolutely nothing to live for, i failed my parents and my family. I am nothing but a leech just wasting his life away for nothing. so why not just die already. ",2,1735130106,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hokm3s/i_cant/,Valrocky,"I can't I can't imagine a future where I'm actually happy, even if everything goes perfectly. I can deal with bad times and depression, but the lack of any hope for the future is the killer",0,1735435204,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd4gni/someone_just_help_me/,VeryDemureVeryMature,"Someone just help me I need someone to talk to. I'm 13, I'm lonely, I have no one to talk to, I have no friends. Please somebody just reach out to me. ",0,1734064475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8d2tt/defeated/,ViosiaNyaa,"Defeated I'm so close to seriously hurting myself, so tempted. I don't belong in this world, never have and never will. I'm torn, I want to end it all so bad but I will break my dad's heart and fail my pets. I'm a burden no matter if I'm alive or dead. Even if I wanted to, I have nobody to talk to.",2,1733522697,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlvsky/blue_christmas/,Visible_Bar5646,"Blue Christmas I've been feeling pretty badly most of the day, but having some severe mood swings. I feel really lonely and I don't know where else to go. My family is a bunch of people who think the world is ending and believe a ton of conspiracies, they just make me so much more depressed. The world probably is ending. I with I wasn't here. I need peace. I'm never okay. Nothing I do is okay and I can't think of one thing right now that would make me feel better. I want to talk to someone that understands, I know a lot of people on here feel this way.",1,1735110147,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hegj88/ego_death/,Vistmars_Revenge,"Ego Death I am going through ego death and the biggest thing I'm realizing is that my story will probably end with suicide, and just like every other person who does it, it won't matter.",2,1734222063,2.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h966k7/why_me/,Visual_Affect_1851,Why me 13(NB) i don't know why I'm here anymore I'm not useful to anyone I'm pretty sure my parents hate me I want to kms sooo bad but I'm scared pls help ,2,1733616938,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbavdy/guys_can_you_tell_me_what_is_the_purpose_of_life/,Visual_Chemist_2917,"Guys, can you tell me, what is the purpose of life? What is the purpose of life??? I've been through a lot in life, starting from nothing and reaching the top, experiencing luxury and success. Yet, I feel like life lacks purpose and meaning. What's the purpose of life when it feels so empty? ",0,1733861161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbshnh/i_think_about_suicide_every_day/,Vivid-Introduction23,"I think about suicide every day. I want to die so bad, just so I can finally be free from all the bullshit!",2,1733920566,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgi7kb/i_want_it_to_end_i_always_will/,Vixenisawkward,"I want it to end. I always will. I want it to end. I have a plan, I have my notes. And now, I just want peace. I despise myself. Every. Single. Thing. And I despise this life, nothing good has come from it. I do nothing but hurt and cry and repeat. My love of my life has left me, I am barely good at anything, and I simply find no good in this life. Its too much. I think I'm going to go, I'll try again. It's all I want. I have exhausted recourses. I want to die.",6,1734462616,5.0,6.0,4.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmdy4h/just_sad/,Vladcatt,"Just sad It has been a rough couple of days. It is hard knowing that my existence here doesn't mean anything to anyone but my cat. I love her. She needs me, so I stay. ",1,1735177082,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hexnlv/i_think_i_will_do_it_someday/,VoidyArtist11,"I think I will do it someday I feel unloved, uncared for. I sometimes feel like I don't have anything to lose. I think I want to die. I'm nothing, really.",2,1734284053,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhaxjy/im_about_done/,VonMackensen_18,I'm about done My father lost all our savings on a scam. I gave him 1500 of my own money and he lost it all. I am really thinking about ending it all. I think that i will have to stop uni to go to work. Fucking hate this shit. ,2,1734553769,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoxw84/if_i_kill_my_drs_first_would_i_change_the_world/,WanaLive,if i kill my drs first... would i change the world for the better? i feel like if i kill my drs and make sure its clear theyre to blame for my decision... it might make drs fear mistreating their patients. what do you guys think?,0,1735485018,0.0,4.0,4.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3rzlj/im_anxious_all_the_time_and_im_sick_of_it_13f/,WannabeThinLeah,I'm anxious all the time and I'm sick of it (13f) I have severe anxiety and emetophobia that makes life soooooooo hard. I can't eat anything without being insanely worried that I'll throw it up. I can't go fun places because of agoraphobia. The only thing that distracts me from my anxiety is cutting myself. I'm sick of being scared and I'm sick of having anxiety. If things don't get better soon I'm going to kill myself.,2,1733016983,4.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hca9jk/someone_please_talk_to_me/,Wanted2069,Someone please talk to me It's my birthday and I just want to get my feelings out. I'm all over the place.,0,1733968400,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hof0jj/72_hour_hold/,Warm-Economy-6413,"72 hour hold Took some pills, ended up in the psych ward. The worst experience of my life.",6,1735419141,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhigou/im_done/,Warm-Log-1290,"I'm done. I have not been close to anyone my whole life, as if I was viewing the world from a glass box. I make everything awkward and I cant have smooth conversations leading to no one being close with me or knowing me for who I am. I am constantly painfully anxious to the point it's unbearable now. I as a last resort, tried talking to one of my irls about this and they couldn't help at all. I am exhausted and have no future so I'm cutting things short now, I have nothing and no one to live for and no one will care for more than a few weeks anyway.",2,1734574890,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlr0pn/merry_christmas/,Waste-Ad9286,Merry Christmas I think I'm done. I'm going to give my dad one good Christmas and down a thing of pills once I get home. I'm so tired of this shit. I'm so fucking tired. ,6,1735090002,5.0,4.0,5.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfvfy/the_best_day_ever/,Waste_Translator_335,"The best day ever Today is the day. im gonna slit my throat with a razor. Ive given up a long time ago, and its finally the day i kill myself. I already feel so much better now its going to be over by tonight.",5,1733874268,5.0,4.0,6.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcceeu/i_cant_do_it/,WayOk9377,"i can't do it hey i've never really vented on anything so here it goes, im 15f and want to end it all but i have a family that cares but i just can't do it im ugly and honest too god an asshole and i want to change but i cant its too fucking hard. i blocked everyone on everything and want it to be over, im just scared about what'll happen to my little brothers, and mom. i want to change just don't know how and i know many other people have lives that are worst then mine, i just feel so selfish for feeling like this, like why i have a loving family, but i just don't know why i feel like this.",2,1733975228,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4h0ne/severe_anxiety_help/,Weak-Committee-2484,"Severe Anxiety. HELP I have probably the worst anxiety you can think of times ten. I am looking for anything to help me function as a normal adult, even if that means getting addicted to something to help. For background, I'm diagnosed with every anxiety disorder (even the debatable ones) and medicated for it. I have adhd as well, so i take adderall everyday for that too. I've tried eliminating that to help, but I have to have it for the adhd. Please help.",0,1733096280,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9mhad/idk_what_to_do/,WeightTasty1460,Idk what to do I'm thinking about doing it but maybe I just need to talk to somebody. I called a hotline or two but talking to those people feels like talking to robots. I can hear them typing as we speak. I just want to talk to someone I feel alone. Maybe talking will help. Just to get something's off my chest. Idk what to do ,0,1733675196,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6dr1m/everyone_hates_me/,WeirdDreamer420,"everyone hates me Things at home aren't great, my dog is sick, I fought with my best friend because I'm selfish and I think that my bf is growing tired of me because I'm clingy, annoying and dumb. I'm so disgusting. I'm useless too and also very fucking stupid. I wish I could delete my existence, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I haven't been this depressed in a long, long time. Feels weird",1,1733311242,1.0,1.0,1.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn18z2/i_think_im_only_living_to_see_the_end_of_one_piece/,Weirdstuffasked,"I think I'm only living to see the end of One piece This sounds like a joke but I'm very serious I have theses thoughts of ending it everyday at this point and while the usual thoughts of “but my parents and friends will be hurt” but the thing that actually stops me is that I haven't seen the ending to the anime and manga I've read most my life. I don't see my future or my life in the future or and I just can't keep watching the world at large, it feels the only thing keeping me on earth is the show I love and the escapism I find in it. ",2,1735256118,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hphvwn/whats_the_worse_that_could_happen/,West-Swimming4050,"What's the worse that could happen? Does anyone ever think what the worst (minus stuck in a vegetative state) that could happen if you attempt at least once? 1) I succeed and my suffering ends 2) I don't succeed and I guess I try again or my family is more sympathetic in approaching me ",2,1735543548,4.0,4.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgm00b/why_nobody_understands/,Western_Photo789,"Why nobody understands? I decided that I'll try suicide this week. I feel like nobody understands what I'm going trough, even after almost 4 years of depression. But still, I'm afraid. I don't want to die, I want to do it as a way that people will understand all the distress I'm going trough properly. And I don't know a way I can do it without actually dying.",4,1734472715,4.0,4.0,5.0,4.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcn6e6/looking_to_sell_a_broken_toothbrush_works_fine/,Whole_Resolution3699,"Looking to sell , a broken toothbrush. Works fine. Only been used for 2 years. You can count all the bristles. Anybody need a toothbrush? Best tool a man can get for their teeth. ??",0,1734016306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdkjpl/if_life_is_so_precious_then_why_is_an_hour_of_my/,Wild-Mooose,"If life is so precious, then why is an hour of my time only worth $14? If life is soooo precious that I should end it all, then why is an hour of my very precious time only worth $14? ",0,1734119182,2.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgoe8d/havent_been_eating_the_last_4_days/,Willing-Sherbert-525,Haven't been eating the last 4 days To tried . For anything ,1,1734479270,0.0,0.0,1.0,6.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc5qnl/should_i_be_concerned/,Witty_Individual1425,Should I be concerned? I tried to strangle myself last night first with a cord and then just with my hands. I did this a couple of times but ended up chickening out after a few seconds each time. Now it's the next day and I have an excruciating headache that won't go away. The other symptoms have sort of subsided since this morning like the lightheadedness and brain fog but the headache is definitely still there. Is this a cause for concern? I'm really not sure what to do here and I want to try and avoid going to the hospital if at all possible.,6,1733955462,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiamqj/im_tired_of_being_alive/,WonderNo5029,"I'm tired of being alive I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of going to work every day and acting like I'm not one bad day away from a serious mental breakdown. I'm tired of acting like I'm not angry and depressed all the time. I hate the holidays. I hate how I have to pretend to like my relatives, especially the ones who are bigots or fine with bigots. I hate my life in general. I don't think I can do a day without thinking about killing myself. ",2,1734664731,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnpcjc/suicidal/,Worried-Kangaroo-,Suicidal I drank a 12 pack of beer and took 1600 mgs of diphenhydramine and woke up feeling normal. How? Or is this just death bc I thought for sure it would kill me,6,1735334636,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha6i9w/idk/,Worried-Staff-6917,"Idk I'm going to commit suicide in the next 3 hours I'm gonna put the camera on and say some shit Then I'll put the shotgun in my mouth and pull the trigger, it's easy. I feel a little bad for my friend although it's not enough to stop me Btw who would like to see me blow my brains out? My suicide will probably be posted on 4chan or something ",6,1733738708,5.0,5.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoygyc/i_should_be_put_down/,Worth-Flower-9637,I should be put down I hate this life I never should have been born ,2,1735486722,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj3ah6/im_ready_to_fucking_die/,XboxGamerVH,I'm ready to fucking die. I owe too much money to fiends and debits. Just fucking kill me. ,2,1734759485,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlk5w6/im_starting_to_want_to_kill_myself_but_my/,XenoDude2006,"I'm starting to want to kill myself, but my problems aren't even that big. I wanna die so badly since a few weeks ago. I think the cause is simply school stress and some issues with friends. It feels so stupid, most people become suicidal over extreme things… getting raped, loosing loved ones, abuse… and here I am, with fucking school work. It feels so fucking dumb to feel so down that all I can think about is just killing myself because of one assignment. I genuinely see no future for me, and even though everyone has bigger problems than me, I'm still the only one failing. I'm done… but I'll probably end up not doing anything.",2,1735066926,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfissf/why/,Xxfra2021xX,"Why? What's the point of keeping living if you are nothing, all the things were I put my efforts always fail or betray me . Why should i keep living if all i ever get is pain. I'm not important for anyone, I'm no one to basically every person that know me, if I kill myself now in a week they will have already forgotten me. I've reached my limit, I don't wanna end my life but I can't see any other way out of this, I'm not strong enough to keep living ",2,1734354834,2.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hohv2y/idek/,YUSS_HyperActive,"idek i told my mom i wanted to kill myself and the only thing stopping me was God, and if i would go to hell. do you know what she said “you probably would.” now 2 years later still living and fearing God, i now use weed to cope for my emotionally absent mom and its only making our relationship worse idk what to do and i feel hopeless shes also now threatening to kick me out if i dont stop smoking",2,1735427127,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjutfi/what_the_duck_i_cracked_2_preliminary_rounds_of/,Your_lovely_friend,"What the duck ! I cracked 2 preliminary rounds of govt exams and I want to die. Life is gloomy and monotonous I hate my life , friends are not available , my family is a cunt, I don't want to live. HELP HELP",2,1734857673,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhcl0g/im_not_trying_hard_enough/,YuriDoggy,I'm not trying hard enough I just want to know what wrong with me. I always have some kind of new problems everyday. My psychiatrist thinks it might be undiagnosed ADHD but to get tested for it is rly fucking expensive so if it is ill just have to keep suffering on my own. I just want to experience life without being sad and depressed 24/7. No medication helps at this point and it rly fucking sucks. I just want to finally end it all. ,0,1734558084,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hebnp1/_/,ZealousidealDesk4696,". When I'm askedif I'm fine I say yes but really what I'm feeling is I feel like I'm feeling everything and nothing at once, I feel like I'm hollow and the world is just passing me by, like I've slowed down, when I feel line this I don't feel like brushing my teeth, bathing or doing anything in general I feel like passing away and I don't know how to communicate this with anyone and I feel so ashamed for my feelings because I feel like in their understanding this is a choice and I can choose not to feel like this but I can't and I don't know how to make them understand this. ",1,1734207972,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmnw8r/i_might_have_cancer/,Zealousideal_Sky1857,"I might have cancer I might have cancer and it could spread to my brain and kill me. I might let it happen because I really don't have anything left to live for, I also might kill myself before it happens. I suffer with really bad anxiety, my memory is getting worse anyways and I'm susceptible to early onset dementia. I'm a burden to everyone around me, I don't have any friends anymore. I'm 27 years old and I haven't got my license, I quit my job. I'm not planning on getting another job or getting my license. I genuinely don't think I belong here anymore. I'm too sensitive, everything hurts me emotional all the time. The world terrifies me,I don't like leaving the house anymore.",1,1735218073,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9xbi6/i_attempted_suicide_once_and_may_do_it_again/,Zealousideal_Yam_866,"I Attempted Suicide Once (and may do it again) In February, I began suffering neck pain that would radiate down my shoulders, arms, hands and upper back. Doctors diagnosed me with herniated and degenerative disks, and bone spurs. The pain is unbearable, and even though my treatment was successful, I still have the pain here and there. It drives me up a wall, to the point, where I would hit myself in the head, neck, and back. In the hopes I would be paralyzed. I don't want to live anymore. Nothing makes me happy. Absolutely nothing. I attempted suicide earlier this year by ingesting sodium nitrate. It was not successful. Tonight, I'm going to try again, this time with a plastic bag over my head. Goodbye.",6,1733704578,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hefnjv/its_so_hard/,Zestyclose-Sea-6068,"It's so hard Life is the worse thing to ever happen to me. I wished I could just disappear and never come back or to have never been existed. People think I am supposed to be happy because I am Decent looking, working a decent job, have a great support system but yet I feel selfish from feeling the void of living. I feel like I can't seem to learn the competence or purpose of life and it eats me up. Good things just don't happen to me I constantly go through the worse things like someone placed a curse on my life. I'm so lost and I really want to end it all",1,1734219369,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhhleu/help/,ZookeepergameEast369,help .,0,1734572195,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5kdyv/why_does_life_suck/,Zoopy16,"Why does life suck? Literally why? Why are some people so lucky and why do others pull their hair daily praying for things to get better? I've had enough and I can't be the only one. ",0,1733221393,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xoxr/my_heart_hurts/,_Fineapple,my heart hurts? i'm feeling very unsettled. i'm anxious. my heart has been feeling heavy for a few hours and now it actually hurts. i'm scared to face tomorrow. praying i go to sleep and not wake up,1,1733258764,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4eurl/idk/,_S2shapedbox,"idk i feel neglected by my friends i tried to build a future and a family with and put so much love and trust into its been days since i canf sleep and i feel like i might actually kill myself i just dont know what ro do anymore",2,1733090531,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hicmmv/why_is_it_hard_to_cry/,_ThatAltAcc_,"Why is it hard to cry Crying feels overwhelming but also comforting. But even if i feel overwhelmed and distressed i still wont cry.",0,1734671659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm6yc7/wrote_my_letters12_hours_left/,_pray-for-mojo_,"Wrote my letters...12 hours left Made my arrangements. Wrote letters to my kids, ex wife, and ex gf. Actually visited the mortuary earlier in week and have package picked out. All ready to go. Wish me luck....",6,1735154140,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5xgrf/i_wish_i_could_snap_my_fingers_and_die_instantly/,abldr,i wish i could snap my fingers and die instantly i have no hope and no future and no purpose for being here and i wish i could wink out of existence and end it,2,1733258200,1.0,2.0,2.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf8wik/help_what_do_i_do/,acatisstaringatme,help what do I do I have no idea what to do I drank at least 5 ml of eye drops because I wanted to die and I've wanted to die for so long but im going to miss my girlfriend and my cats and my family and I don't know what to do I don't want to tell anyone what I did and I don't want to go to the hospital because it'll be expensive and I'll ruin christmas and everyone will be mad at me and my girlfriend will probably break up with me but im already feeling dizzy and I don't know what to do can I just wait it out at home ,6,1734315805,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfq8q1/do_i_go_seek_help/,achka113,Do i go seek help Long story short tried to off my self by inhaling and butane but freaked ouy last second my now i cant feel my right cheek and shoulder ,6,1734374816,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfqvt/should_i_kill_myself/,adamsandler194,Should i kill myself Should i,2,1733873900,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h96bl1/lingering_thoughts_of_suicide_again/,adeline_rose12,lingering thoughts of suicide again not much to say. i feel like a depressive episode is starting and idk what to do. not sure what triggered it just feeling abit hopeless and down. the small voice telling me to kill myself is gradually getting louder and louder. ,2,1733617354,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpwegh/hate/,aiathefrick,HATE HATE HATE HATE FUCKING HATE THIS FUCKING SPECIES FUCK YOU FUCK EVERYONE JESUS FUCKING CHRIST ALL IVE EVER TRIED TO DO WAS BE A KIND FUCKING PERSON BUT HUMANS ARE FUCKING SADISTIC PIECE OF SHIT AINT NOBODY BETTER WONDER WHY IF I KILL MYSELF THIS WORLD DONT WANT ME ANYWAY THATS BEEN SO CLEAR HOW DARE I BE A FUCKING TRANS PERSON IN AMERICA IN THE TWENTY FIRST CENTURY AND WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL NORMAL NORMAL FUCKING LIFE LIKE EVERYONE FUCKING ELSE I HATE YOU I HATE GOD I HATE EVERY FUCKING THING I DONT HAVE IT IN ME TO BE A FUCKING GOOD PERSON NO MORE FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU,0,1735589916,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ky7w/im_about_to_fucking_kill_myself/,albiethatoneguy,"I'm about to fucking kill myself I hate my life so fucking much, I just want someone to talk to and someone who loves me, my entire family is abusive and hate me, and everyone else in life ignores me and treats me like shit. I fucking hate everything about myself and my life, and I AM going to kill myself.",2,1733670990,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjgovq/whats_so_special_about_life/,aleatoriaestuda,"What's so special about life? I mean, why do people fight so hard for living? For most of us, life is nothing but suffering, and still we fight. Why? I can't find a answer these days, I'm gonna die someday anyway, the only difference is that I'm gonna suffer less if I decide to go sooner. Besides religion (that I don't have) and social constructions, life is only worth living for those who are lucky to born in a nice place and meet nice people. Death is just... death. So what? You wont even see it.",1,1734807921,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h656c1/at_the_end_of_my_rope/,alinamadeline77,"At the end of my rope. I was very traumatically fired from a job last july, took another job quickly and had to leave that job due to multiple forms of harassment. I've always struggled with depression but this time it's very different. I'm supposed to get married next year and can't even find any excitement in any of that. All I can think is how my fiance and family would be so much better off if I wasn't born- money wise, don't have to support me emotionally, could find someone better. I'm at the end of my rope. ",2,1733278587,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdy8sx/does_it_actually_get_better/,alizardtail,"does it actually get better ? i struggle with severe suicide ideation. i had written letters to my loved ones, dropped out, deleted all social media accounts, did a ton of research online choosing a suicide method i'd wanna go for. i was SO SURE i was gonna push through with my plans of offing myself. i don't know why i stayed. and honestly i regret that i didn't push through with my plans. i was so ready. things are getting better.. it's stopping me from deleting myself but i don't trust it. i still wanna push through with it.",6,1734163648,6.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkedbz/funny_how_im_concerned_ab_the_cost_of_what_im/,always_afraid_srry,Funny how I'm concerned ab the cost of what I'm buying to catch the bus bc I'm so used to doing that Obviously it won't matter afterwards lmao,4,1734922176,0.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hirnz1/need_someone_to_talk_with/,amoxiefloxie,"Need someone to talk with I'm 22 old cybersecurity guy. I have full body joint pains due to side effect of an antibiotic that I have taken. I can walk, go outside, go to work, etc, but every day my pain levels increase and a new joint starts to hurt. With this progression I may just be disabled in a month or so. Or maybe will be in chronic pain. Doctors, labs, tests don't see anything wrong, so can't explain it to anyone. I occasionally think about suicide very seriously. The only reason I haven't done is my family members. Currently I live far from them and haven't yet told them what I'm going through.",2,1734723065,4.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hols4d/lasik_made_things_worse/,amyt2710,Lasik made things worse And I want to die. ,2,1735438811,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmgvb4/its_not_worth_it/,anal_og_player,"It's not worth it. I'd rather have a life full of shit than no life at all. Every day my brain says end it, but the smarter part says don't you even dare. Shout out to all the smarter halfs who are still with us and the other halfs who couldn't win the fight.",0,1735187568,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg3ouo/just_someone_to_talk/,andyt_e,"Just someone to talk Feeling worthless, is there someone to talk?",0,1734413268,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hauwqr/nobody_is_coming_to_save_me/,anonnimoosee,"nobody is coming to save me i wish i had one person that remained as a constant in my life but i don't and i never will i wish my loneliness was a choice but it imposed on me the second i was born the people who were supposed to love me the most gave me unbearable trauma and isolated me from the world i can't make friends am struggling in college just got broken up with the only person i had my life has run its course i should have been dead at 7 when i first started feeling like i don't want to be here",1,1733809388,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnnvfl/wow_might_actually_get_my_wish/,anonymiscreant9,"Wow, might actually get my wish I'm showing signs of congestive heart failure. Always knew I'd eat myself to death, just didn't know it would happen so early. Ah well, good riddance to me anyway. Maybe I'll finally have some peace.",2,1735330702,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp5y5b/is_it_weird_to_want_to_just_wake_up_in_a_hospital/,anonymous_whatever7,"Is it weird to want to just wake up in a hospital one day? Of course it is, but does anyone else ever consider outcome? I'm just here to seek validation to be honest, but I feel like if I'm not **forced** to talk about my problems I never will be able to. Haven't properly eaten in a few days, I hope fatigue gets to me, anything, I don't care. Please tell me I'm not the only one, that's the only thing I want right now. I know I'm not, but please tell me I'm not.",0,1735506667,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfe34v/im_tremendously_tired/,anonymouslyjaded,"I'm tremendously tired I just don't know if anything is worth it anymore. I have struggled with depression my entire life. This summer, I learned I have two chronic and incurable hereditary diseases. I have struggled with my body image my whole life. Essentially I learned that, on account of these disorders, I will likely look disgusting always, despite diet and exercise, and might be in physical pain one day. This information is really putting me over the edge. I have barely been managing to keep myself together as it is. I don't know if I can deal with my body breaking down on top of it all. I just wish I could go to bed and never wake up.",1,1734334941,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi5lc4/i_wish_i_had_terminal_cancer/,anotheruser345,"I wish I had terminal cancer I just wish I had a terminal illness such as cancer so I didn't have to actively try and end my life. It would bring me so much comfort knowing I was going to die soon from an illness, I hate my life. ",2,1734649059,1.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7w9wq/navigating_therapy/,archiesfinalstream,"Navigating Therapy How can I word my suicidal and homicidal thoughts to my therapist without being put in a straitjacket and on lithium? Posting here because it's ""too triggering"" on r/mentalhealth .",2,1733471155,2.0,2.0,3.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlc3bi/hey_pals_just_need_a_few_words_if_thats_alright/,arcmat1,"hey pals. just need a few words if that's alright been fighting the good fight this year. trying my god damned hardest to heal and stand on my own, and i think i've made a lot of progress. but another wave is coming up, i feel it very deeply, and i know i know i can do on my own, i would just like to ask for some help. because i dont know how to do that usually. always felt like a burden. so. could i please ask for some love..? it's really rough out here and i'm struggling ",0,1735041375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgmw07/i_just_quit_my_job_and_tried_to_end_my_own_life/,armsdramatizations,"I just quit my job and tried to end my own life Like it says in the title, I just walked out of my job that I hated and tried to strangle myself. As it turns out, I'm too scared to die. Now I'm unemployed and am in an even worse situation than I was. I don't really know where to go from here, and I know if I tell anyone I'll probably get sent to a psyche ward. ",6,1734475062,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h82lko/hold_my_hand/,ashestoashes09,"hold my hand as much as i want to cb, i would love if someone held my hand while i was taking my last breaths and guiding me through the passing. i know it'd never happen but it's a nice thought. ",0,1733495434,2.0,2.0,2.0,3.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he4rzk/i_feel_like_dying_daily/,at_lolita,"I feel like dying daily. I'm a young female and ... Idk why I feel like I'm already dead mentally just moving physically with people whom I hate. Idk is it normal or not but hatred is the top most feeling I feel constantly on daily basis towards people,stuff, everything. Don't know what to say further my thoughts are pretty blurry rn.",2,1734188766,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqzdr/is_this_just_my_normal/,authenticwallflower,"Is this just my normal? I have wanted to die for as long as I can remember. Is this just going to be my normal? Will I ever wake up one day and not wish I was dead? Meds and therapy have not been much help. I mean, I'm still here, so I guess they \*have\* worked some, but not enough to be able to like being alive.",2,1734608075,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhkn8t/im_tired_of_feeling_everything_so_deeply_all_the/,azteraite,"I'm tired of feeling everything so deeply all the time Everything that happens to makes me feel extremely, and moving constantly between these are killing me, the people around me aren't particularly supportive and it makes living every day feel like hell, I'm tired of being seen as emotional, it always feels like I have invisible bricks on my chest preventing me from feeling or being normal. And every scar I caused myself reminds me even more that this life isn't worth suffering for, I probably won't get anything in the end. ",1,1734582031,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8zj08/can_someone_please_talk_to_me/,balkanskiexpress,"can someone please talk to me? Im sick and tired of being alone, to the point im almost ready to kms. ",2,1733598101,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkhyay/i_dont_know_what_is_wrong_with_my_brain/,bananapuddingggg,i don't know what is wrong with my brain ive realized from a few parties this holiday season that i can not socialize and i rely on my boyfriend to start conversations. when we were walking home he said that i am immature compared to the other women. I am 21 and finishing my degree. i feel discouraged. ,0,1734935677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn7av3/i_should_have_died_long_ago/,batmanwhoissad,"I should have died long ago I narrowly escaped a bike crash when I was 18, now i'm 25 and I still wish that i should have dies that day. I'm nothing but a waste of time, space, money and resources.",1,1735275248,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoyo8r/i_just_need_someone_to_check_in_on_me/,bee_is_me_,"I just need someone to check in on me I'm getting back in the gutter again, it feels like nothing is going right. I had a friend from redit who ended up removing me out of nowhere and now I don't know who to go to. I have people in real life but no one I'm comfortable enough to talk about this with. I really just need someone to know what's going through my head.",0,1735487298,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6prxa/will_3500_of_paracetamol_do_anything_or_not/,bellarlambert,will 3500 of paracetamol do anything or not ??,3,1733342923,5.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmfdmf/merry_christmas/,bigbearbearwantfood,"Merry Christmas If nobody told you today, Merry Christmas from me. It sucks out here, I am going through intense emotions. This life is not okay.",0,1735182100,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h615rf/i_dont_know_why_but_i_wanna_kill_myself/,bigmanzbalz666,"I don't know why but I wanna kill myself I've got good shit going in life. I've got a good girlfriend, I got cool shit, I'm wanting to be a mechanic after I finish school. But I can't get a job no matter how hard I try, I get mad at the littlest things, I've had alot of fucked up shit happen to me in the passed, and I don't think anyone in my life really wants me to be around except for my girlfriend. Am I over reacting?",2,1733267448,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlphaz/i_am_begging_god_to_please_kill_me_asap_or_give/,birdbandb,I am begging God to please kill me asap or give me the strength to finally do it after decades of depression and unbearable life circumstances. Tried. Failed. Forced to suffer. Please let my Christmas wish be granted. This is beyond cruel anymore. It doesn't get better for me. I accept it. Please let me out of this unbearable hell. ,4,1735084273,4.0,6.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hin16p/feeling_suicidal/,biryaniblues,"Feeling suicidal Throwaway account! I've ruined my only good relationship. I feel suicidal without him. ",2,1734710752,2.0,,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8i4as/damaged/,blackpilledsingledad,"damaged I've Lost interest on everything, i reached the point of no return. At least for me it feels like it. When i go outside and i see normal happy people, i wish i was them. I just want some happiness in my life. Every night i just get drunk af and contemplate suicide. But somehow i don't do it. I guess is because i'm too coward to do it. ",2,1733537454,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbfuvk/i_want_to_blow_my_fucking_head_off/,blackredditor47,I want to blow my fucking head off .,4,1733874221,4.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4uwcv/im_talking_to_a_guy_on_grindr_and_thinking_about/,bobsmithreddit4645,"I'm talking to a guy on grindr and thinking about letting him do things because I'm depressed and feel like I need to be used and ""punished"" please talk me out of this I'm a 41m btw so it's not like I'm being some dumb teenager I'm being a dumb middle aged guy why am I like this? ",0,1733145949,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h551we/i_failed_and_no_one_was_there/,bozroi,"I failed and no one was there Do you have any idea how gutting it is to try to end your life only to find out nobody checked on you in those hours you were fighting to survive? That's what I've just experienced, and fuck, I'm so upset. Not a single person checked on me through anything. Even afterwards — nothing. I want to try again. I'm so alone. I'm so so alone. I don't have anyone. I'm gutted . I can't survive alone like this so what's the point of surviving in the first place?",6,1733171782,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hagqbe/symptoms/,buriedstars,symptoms i took hella ibuprofen last night trying to kms. is a fever a sign that this is going to work out for me or has it been too long for anything to be a sign that it's going to work out for me? thanks ,6,1733769278,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h61nrz/in_my_heart_i_truly_feel_like_a_therapist_wouldnt/,cadette-q,In my heart I truly feel like a therapist wouldn't even care. that's it ,0,1733268767,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbqe19/dont_ever_overdose/,cakeloverisright,Don't ever overdose At 4:00 I took 40 500 mg advil 1 hr later I threw up blood my insides feel like they will explode if you read this pls don't overdose ,6,1733912085,6.0,6.0,6.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h69icu/why_do_i_have_these_thoughts/,calfaro33,Why do I have these thoughts? I don't see a point in continuing to try if the pain is constant. But I almost feel too depressed and to scared to actually follow through whenever the opportunity arises.,2,1733292780,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha93fg/im_alive_for_my_students_but_thats_abt_it/,calfred_,"I'm alive for my students but that's abt it I don't want any parents having to explain to their kids that I died, and that's why I won't be there to hug them in the mornings when they get to school. If I can't make myself happy at least I can make my preschoolers smile and enjoy coming to school everyday. Idk why I'm writing this. Ig because I'm not gonna talk abt it to anyone else, so might as well just shout it into the void lol",2,1733748959,4.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj532p/im_on_the_fence_about_committing_suicide/,cassy1q,Im on the fence about committing suicide I really just want to talk to someone,2,1734767124,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoap6r/i_got_drunk_and_told_my_friend_i_wanted_to_kill/,catfish_circumcsisor,I got drunk and told my friend I wanted to kill myself Just now getting up from a fucked night title sums it up I really fucked myself with this one I'm shaking I don't know what to fucking do I'm so fucking stupid,2,1735407453,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl9gx4/help/,catramybeloved,help I need help I just don't know who to ask ive tried messaging holiness numbers but my messages aren't going through don't know who to ask,0,1735029683,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7vf9l/the_only_reason_i_havent_killed_myself_yet_is/,cattpawz,"The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm scared to fail It feels pathetic. I just want everything to stop. But if I don't suceed, than I have to live with the consequences of that. It's a catch-22. And I know no one ever said life is supposed to be fair, but... It's not fucking fair. I'm tired. ",2,1733467561,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbek6g/understanding_suicidal_thoughts_through/,cbsz,"Understanding Suicidal Thoughts Through Reading/Researching Hi, What are some books or resources you've read or are currently exploring to better understand the basis of your suicidal thoughts? Whether it's through physiological or psychological perspectives, has diving into the cognitive foundations of your thoughts been helpful for you?",0,1733870674,0.0,0.0,2.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hju4pa/why_is_it_so_hard/,cg_dg,"why is it so hard I've been wanting to commit suicide for months now, the marks are subsiding but my life isn't getting any better, my life is shit, my social relationships are shit, i lost alot of sleep, i just really want to escape this fucked up society or just feel something ",2,1734854353,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmiu4q/the_only_person_i_really_loved_told_me_how_much/,chahu97,"The only person I really loved told me how much pain I caused I don't want to live longer. I have felt this for a long time but today I really want to execute my duties. I am a narcissist. I suck away happiness from people. I bring sadness. Nothing can be undone. I deserve to die and be out of everyone's life. I don't see a future. They told me I was hard to love. I don't wish to live in a world where there is no place for me. ",2,1735195344,4.0,4.0,5.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hps2m6/sigh/,cheesy_anon,"Sigh I have been improving a lot in the last two years. But holy fuck, i am tired. So fucking tired",0,1735578879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqh0n/i_am_a_29_year_old_loser_yet_i_am_not_suicidal/,cinammon54,I am a 29 year old loser yet I am not suicidal. What is wrong with me? I feel guilty. I have got no job no career. I have engineering degree from a low-rung college with below-average grades.i take medication for mental health issues. Sometimes I feel like I am faking my health problems. Then I try to act normal like I used to before problems. But I always end up tired acting and pretending and the cycle repeats. Doctors wont take post covid vaccine syndrome seriously. Does anybody feel like they are faking health problems?,0,1734605990,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hase4z/im_going_to_die_anyway/,citykittymeowmeow,"I'm going to die anyway It literally doesn't matter. ""Oh no, what about your friends and family??"" I have one friend. She'll survive. My fiancé doesn't even like me. He will probably be happy. No family lol. It's literally so stupidly unimpactful. I will be so annoyed if someone tries to tell me my life matters. It factually doesn't. People die every day. I've been RUINED since I was ten years old. There is literally no point, I don't contribute anything positive to this planet. I just want to die and disappear and that's okay and allowed. Fuck anyone who says anything different. I can die tonight and you wouldn't know the difference 🤙 and I don't give a fuck I want this to END.",2,1733800877,2.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgntno/theres_nothing_left_to_live_for/,clear_rainne_clouds,"there's nothing left to live for i just lost the reason why i kept living. everything i know and love feels like it's been shattered beyond repair, and i want nothing more than my reason to hug me and comfort me. i was promised a future together, and it seems so rocky. i hate myself. i hate myself so much. i always fuck up. and now i'm losing everything again. i need fo learn when to give up. when to accept that im a lost cause. he will never love me the way i love him. ",0,1734477612,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hisvpx/cant_do_this/,cnprburn,can't do this my friend might've killed himself it's been months since we last talked he sent me a paragraph that's it i'm scared he was my only friend i'm scared i'm alone i don't want to sound selfish or anything but im so fucking alone i want to talk to someone i want the attention i crave i hope you're out there somewhere wil i promised id stop smoking and i have please come back ,0,1734726334,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5tyyy/is_11_stories_enough/,colette_inspecting,Is 11 stories enough Serious question. Is it enough? ,3,1733249703,0.0,0.0,5.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hccmg1/no_purpose/,collash_1,No purpose Recently just been feeling like I have no purpose on this earth. I feel so meaningless. No one truly cares about me or wants to be around me. I just feel annoying to be around. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Thoughts about ending it. Feel like no one would even notice,1,1733975999,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl6wn0/its_torture/,completedisaster888,its torture whenever stuff goes south in my life i tend to start contemplating killing myself. but i know i wont. and i probably never will. but fuck i wish i had the courage to. its torture to me to know that i am stuck with all the feelings i have towards myself and towards others and towards the circumstances in my life with no way to escape them. torture. i want out. i don't want to consciously deal with life anymore. i don't want to. ,2,1735018844,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp6ejb/my_brains_going_through_it_today/,connect-forbes,My brains going through it today. This world is cold and evil. i hate this feeling. It's like pain and agony brought on by understanding what humanity really is.,2,1735507826,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkhy1v/i_need_someone_to_talk_to/,contempttoast,I need someone to talk to I need someone to talk to anyone I just need someone to talk to/vent to it can be just this one time I just need it right now ,0,1734935648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6j57o/why_keep_going/,coolworkguy,"Why keep going I have no reason to keep going. I fucking hate my job, I'm failing my class. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is my best and only friend. ",1,1733327139,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmkt2g/killing_myself_on_the_31st/,coulditmaybe,Killing myself on the 31st I've been putting this off for so long as I've been so worried about those who I'll leave behind. But I'm going to finally do it on the 31st- I can't cope with this anymore and feel I am ultimately more of a burden than a help to those I love . ,5,1735204578,5.0,5.0,4.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdnlix/i_cant_take_this_anymore/,crocodiletearss7,i cant take this anymore i want to be able to feel happy without taking pills or smoking weed im slowly slipping down a dark path of drugs and i love it they make me happy they dont make me happy then leave like all of you fuckers i love drugs and they love me i cant function without them im not real im not human this is all a game fuck you sod fuck you fuck you get it like skins i love that show,0,1734127445,0.0,1.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4i801/ive_made_the_decision/,crusti-,"I've made the decision Yesterday, I posted on this subreddit on how I just ‘wanted a way out' as I was venting. Today, I have found out a way to kill myself and I plan to end my life tonight. I have been waiting for this moment for years, and I really wish I didn't have to do this, but I just feel trapped, and I just want to get out. Thank you for reading this.",5,1733099677,5.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfg33j/genuinely_wanting_to_end_it_all/,cyro62134,"genuinely wanting to end it all everyone laughs at me in school, i know this is my role in society but i can never escape it. im turning 18 next year and i have no achievements what so ever. i am literally useless. i never go outside, i have no friends, people don't talk to me, and im not going to be able to get into a good uni so there's no point in trying anymore life is not worth living if i have to live it in agony like this by the time u read this i've either bled out or im sitting on a bridge, thanks for reading",6,1734344249,4.0,6.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ren0/i_want_to_commit_suicide/,danizzz_2906,I want to commit suicide I can't take it anymore,2,1733243314,,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6fleo/i_17m_and_i_feel_so_lonely_because_ive_never_have/,darkdomzmp4,I 17m and I feel so lonely because I've never have a kiss or a gf I 17m thinking about off myself sometimes but I've stop myself to go fully with it because I don't make my family sad or depressed but sometimes I've feel like nobody will ever fall in love with me and I'm just so confused at my point of life rn and a loser. I'm so socially awkward ,2,1733317801,2.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heovyg/lost/,darkvoidnothingness,Lost My husband of 12 years shot and killed himself yesterday and I'm so lost and have so many questions with no answers..,0,1734253809,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhngro/everyone_hates_me/,dashboi69,"Everyone hates me Everyday, everytime, everywhere, everything is out there to get me because it's just my stupid personality. I don't think I'm a horrible person to people, and I do ""try"" my best to act nice to others, but it always feels like I fuck it up because I say something I shouldn't have (not anything like racist or homophobic but mentioning stuff like death for example) I'm afraid to talk in person and online because I'm worried I'll say something that will get everyone to hate on me. Anyways if your on this sub reddit or your poking around my account, then just carry on doing what you were previously, I don't want to make your day even more depressing with my ""minor"" issue",0,1734592661,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpwth0/im_26_f_120lbs_drank_12_bottles_of_visine_and/,denvirg0,"I'm 26 F, 120lbs, drank 12 bottles of Visine and approximately 6500mg of Benadryl, will I die? I have BPD and did this when I was feeling extremely low. I feel very tired and want to go to sleep. Am I dying? ",6,1735591003,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoqbi2/just_turned_21/,desertedoutset101,"Just turned 21.. Still feel like the objective definition of a failure, I Failed 2 different schools, and then couldn't do remote learning.. and now after 4 years of staying home I cant remember anything of what I learned.. Too stupid to even get disabilty benifits, cant keep a good sleep cycle to take my adhd meds to see if they ""work"" as one of the requirments for the application process. Too socially awkward to leave the house and get a job to support my family. I am a fat, balding burden.",0,1735454767,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhi2nx/i_dont_want_to_continue_my_life_anymore/,desire_tobegone,I don't want to continue my life anymore It's shitty and I suck. I'd rather be dead. I'm so far behind. I did nothing in my teens and early 20's but waste my life. People think I'm stupid. I don't have any worth or value. I should have never been born. ,1,1734573676,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhfzt5/just_looking_for_someone_to_talk_to/,dfffghbswwty,"just looking for someone to talk to hi, i'm 20m and really struggling at the moment. i feel stuck and can't talk to anybody about the trauma i can't escape. i tried reaching out for help recently and it blew up in my face. it would go a long way just to tell somebody who won't look at me differently. thank you ",0,1734567424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h88iou/scared_to_hurt_my_family/,dieariia,scared to hurt my family i feel like i can't win in either situation,0,1733510728,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhak2i/will_off_myself_in_a_three_years/,diplodocus888,Will off myself in a three years That's it. Nothing else. No point. Too tired to explain. ,2,1734552772,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhqtq1/i_hope_i_do_tomorrow_to_be_with_my_grandma/,dishsoapandwater,"i hope i do tomorrow to be with my grandma I've been thinking about suicide a lot recently and i've noticed that i'm happiest when im dreaming. It's not even like my dreams are really happy, they're more like nightmares sometimes but they feel more enjoyable than being alive. My birthday is tommorow and Im hoping that I'll die then (after eating some delicious food) like how my grandma did. I really miss her, life hasn't been the same since I found her dead in my house. It should've been me.",1,1734607422,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5d8ow/i_just_took_a_bunch_of_pills_and_now_i_regret_it/,divagirljourney10,I just took a bunch of pills and now i regret it so much but there is nothing I can do about it now I'm so scared because Ik the stomach pain is going to start kicking in,6,1733193752,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlczp3/huge_alert/,dogeismygrandma,"*HUGE ALERT ⚠️* If you are not suicidal/ are not experienced with the concept of suicide and you are looking to support people. PLEASE don't, wait for someone who knows what their doing. I'm a autistic 15 year old and its really tolling to read the horrible situations people are in",0,1735045009,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn5tpe/life_blows/,dogmuncher1337,"Life blows I got injured at work and it forever changed the way I lived. Some days I just wish I died of a natural heart attack or stroke. I don't hate life but I'm mad that others get to live a healthy life while I got fucked at work by a stupid fucking ice dispenser lid that pushed my head backwards fucking up my neck with nerve and bulging discs. A stupid fucking lid LOL. I've tried everything other than surgery but let's face it like that'll do anything it'll probably make it worse. What did I do to god to deserve this? Did you hate me in my previous life or what? ",1,1735270185,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6errk/i_sleep_every_night_hoping_not_to_wake_up_again/,done-with-this-s,"I sleep every night, hoping not to wake up again. I don't have the guts to end it myself. I just want it....no....I NEED it to end. NOW. I can't do this anymore. Sometimes I think.... what if I don't die? What if I have to keep living like this and it won't end until I'm old? How is this fair? ",1,1733315121,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl3seo/im_such_a_baby/,dontbeadickmate,I'm such a baby I got heavily down voted for correcting someone for using an outdated term and now I want to self harm and kill myself. All I did was say the grammatically correct and accepted term and so many people got mad at me and said I was being offensive. That's why I never fucking say anything when people misgender me or says stuff that's offensive. I'm so fucking done.,2,1735007622,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he6tth/thoughts_about_robert_sapoksky_ideas_of_lack_of/,dopeainthope,"Thoughts about Robert Sapoksky ideas of lack of free will Not having free will, does that mean that natural selection is for us the suicidal folks? I also think fentanyl crisis is part of this chose your eugenic way in this ""natural selection"". ",1,1734194596,0.0,2.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjtjsv/idek_anymore/,dxmfein,"idek anymore 15 almost 16 years old, i have no future and all i do is sit in my room and get high off any drug that i can get my hands on, i've been told there's a happy ending but i've felt this way since i was 9 years old and nothing has changed. just don't know what to do with my life or even if i should keep going.",0,1734851593,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3qt3p/i_think_i_may_be_done_trying/,eamvh,"I think I may be done trying I've tried so hard to be a good wife and I know I'm not perfect and I make mistakes but I thought I was still worth loving, I thought everything we've been through and all the traditions we've made would have been worth it, but I must be awful and I think I want to end it. I'm just done. I'm so tired ",2,1733013372,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpz0rh/i_didnt_think_id_ever_post_here_but_here_i_am_lol/,eat_pant_rat,I didn't think I'd ever post here but here I am lol I'm probably not gonna kill myself anytime soon and honestly I'm doing a pretty good job of regulating myself rn but like knowing that there are people out there who want me dead just as much if not more than I do really doesn't help lmao,2,1735596729,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1helgvt/nearly_2_years_after_being_laid_offthere_is_no/,eevee555,"Nearly 2 years after being laid off…There is no hope. I've lost count of how many interviews and free “assignments” I've gone through. I'm just exhausted. A month behind on rent and on my last month of living expenses. I didn't want to end up a statistic but here I am. Guess a pathetic end to a pathetic life would wrap it up nicely. ",2,1734239057,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5k4p3/my_therapist_keeps_canceling/,ellyuh,"my therapist keeps canceling my therapist keeps cancelling our appointments, and he's even told me i'm a high risk patient. i have schizoaffective disorder, bpd ,bipolar and c-ptsd im wondering if maybe i'm too much for him. we were supposed to meet today because I'm feeling very suicidal, and i really needed to talk but he cancelled again. my voices are telling all sorts of fucked up shit and i hate him right now for cancelling on me!!!!!! i'm so mad and no wonder his other patients have killed themselves ",2,1733220257,2.0,2.0,3.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg345l/i_shall_succeed/,emac546,"I shall succeed Last time I failed. I tried and apparently only put myself in a coma for a few months after a failed attempt. This time I shall try and do a better job. As to not be a failure in all things. Tldr: I shall succeed where I have failed",6,1734411227,6.0,4.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4k69u/still_unemployed/,enbyayyy,"Still unemployed Hello. I sincerely believe that it's just not possible to get a job at this stage. I think dying is a better option so I'm not a burden on my family. I just feel like if I continue being alive and things would get worse and worse. I'd start to become slowly more weak and crazy and a burden. ",2,1733105437,4.0,2.0,3.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6nq2k/icsnt_make_it_throguh_tonight/,ensyuki,icsnt make it throguh tonight my girldriejnd admitted shedoesnd love me andshe nevee didadfter 7months ogf dsting im failinf schoolso badlh im relapsinf inan eating disorder icut unfil ifelf numh idontnknow what to do anymore im so fuckinf lost ending eveyrhtinf genuinelh feels like the onlu thing ican do ,2,1733338011,4.0,4.0,2.0,6.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5d4a2/i_feel_like_i_wanna_die/,erotic_alisa_wylde,"I feel like I wanna die. I really fell in love with somebody, hard, like I respected them and cared about them. But, I didnt always show it, because it thought I was supposed to reserve my feelings. Everytime I go close to her I fucked it up. I feel so bad all the time. I just wanted her to be happy! I wanted to be with her! I didn't do anything harmful to her, I might have hurt her emotionally and mentally, but I was just trying to be a good person. I feel so fucking stupid. What do I do?",2,1733193378,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hiwrzv/i_dont_know_if_i_can_hold_on_any_longer/,ethiezxx,"I don't know if I can hold on any longer Every day it becomes very difficult for me to live, suicidal thoughts keep going through my mind but I don't want to let my mother lose her only daughter. But it's so hard to bear it",2,1734737412,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7il1g/i_wanna_die_but_i_cant_because_i_have/,eveningstarfriday,I wanna die but I can't because I have responsibilities Who's gonna take care of the three kittens ,1,1733429633,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfvlok/i_would_like_to_make_some_friends_but_i_dont/,f0rtheorlingas,I would like to make some friends but I don't really have any and it makes me a bit sad. I just want someone to talk to Ig. I'm 22 from the UK and I don't really have any close friends that I can talk to or look out for. I feel like an outcast and I don't know if it's my own fault.,0,1734388400,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdaotz/i_couldnt_do_it/,f5oc1ety,I couldn't do it Tied a noose and all but just couldn't go all the way,6,1734091219,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmmq2y/failed_attempt/,faraeyae_x,"failed attempt im not gonna say what method I used but it's failed, my parents found out. I'll try again, sharper one, see ya on the other side.",6,1735213382,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hot3g6/end_me_end_me_end_me/,fedwhore,end me end me end me im fucking horrible im fucking horrible im fucking horrible im fucking horrible IM FUCKING HORRIBLE IM FUCKING HORRIBLE OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD,2,1735466971,1.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5vdy4/beach/,femold,"beach Today i tried to kill myself by just walking into the ocean, so cold, don't recommend. ultimately just went back to school.it was so dark and when i got up a ship was passing, one of those with glowing lights. My teacher has cancer. My hands hurt so bad, everything is fine, but i yearn for something more",6,1733253220,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfdeg7/hanging_oneself/,filledeSisyphe,"Hanging oneself How long does it take to die by hanging? I am wondering if it's a quick death and if it is not, how much conscious pain there is.",3,1734331854,5.0,3.0,4.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h45ttd/only_reason_im_alive_is_my_cats_wouldnt_know_why/,fixableprincess,"Only reason I'm alive is my cats wouldn't know why I never came back home. They are always on my bed waiting for me to come give them cuddles. I can't be so selfish and let them cry and call for me until they give up. I don't care how long I live but these poor babies don't deserve to suffer like that. ",2,1733067297,4.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdm9zs/im_so_afraid_of_death_but_i_really_hate_living/,flowegarden,i'm so afraid of death but i really hate living i just don't know what to do it's so exhausting i spend everyday just distracting myself from how i feel ,0,1734123869,0.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hny04e/im_hopeless_and_crying_crying_crying_nonstop_all/,fluffylilbee,"i'm hopeless and crying crying crying nonstop all the time i don't even know why i'm here or typing any of this shit. i'm so tired and so sad and can't stop fantasizing about it, i want to be gone , im so tied, i don't see a way out of this grief without death. it feels so comforting so safe just imagining it all going away in a fucking instant but instead i'm trapped in this room trapped in the dark and alone. utterly alone. i want to die so badly, so badly, worse than i ever have in my life. k don't know what to dis nhmofe. ",2,1735360712,4.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc9mmx/no_way_out/,forgottenpopcork,No way out. Living in my car. Freezing cold and just wanting to end it all right now ,2,1733966450,2.0,2.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9p3rd/talking_with_people/,fortune1821,talking with people after continuous conversations with people and therapy does anyone else feel like nobody will ever understand how they feel? It seems like no amount of talking about how I feel or things I'm going through will make anyone understand and relate. ,0,1733682133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4ruy5/soon/,fuckitthrowaway90,soon getting a gun and then shooting myself with it. wonder if i should write a note ,4,1733134615,5.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4oo8o/honestly_not_sure_what_to_do_but_i_know_that_ive/,functionalthrowaway2,"Honestly not sure what to do, but I know that I've messed up in a way that I'm not sure can be reconciled. I'm a sophomore in college and I have been reeling with insurmountable guilt, disgust and self-hatred for roughly a month because I hurt somebody so badly that they said they never want to speak to me again and called me things that have put me on the brink of suicide. I don't know if this is the place to ask, and I know the context I've left is limited, but what can I do? I'm so lost and I really just want someone to give me direction, please",2,1733120608,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4nun3/xjxjd/,fxreyass,xjxjd im gonna kill myself i weight 48kgs ish im gonna have 30 paracetamol will that be enough??? ,5,1733117496,5.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hce0cf/i_dont_like_myself_very_much/,fynn-arcana,"I don't like myself very much The self-loathing is real right now. I mean, it's always been real, but sometimes it comes back with a vengeance and is just such a bitch and won't go away. I am so convinced that everyone hates me as much as I hate myself, but then I feel like I'm being so annoying when I ask for reassurance. I don't know how to make my brain shut the fuck up, and that's probably why I've considered suicide for so long. Can't hate yourself if you're dead, haha. I just want it to all stop, or to not care, but I don't think I'll ever figure out how to do that. Yippee.",2,1733980853,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8x6uq/the_curtain_cord_looks_comforting_right_now/,gated_sunTowL,"The curtain cord looks comforting right now I was asking for help for an hour at most, shouting from our top floor. I was locked up. It's midnight. It's a blur how I managed to get through. After grasping what happened, I realized I am alone. I live with my family but I'm alone. I will die alone. No one will realize I'm gone. ",3,1733591830,4.0,3.0,3.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3rnni/next_year_might_be_my_year/,getmeoutofmybrain,"Next year might be my year Isn't it funny, this year was my year (cured social anxiety, friends), and next year might be my year (suicide).",2,1733015949,2.0,4.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlbfsp/merry_christmas_everyone/,ghostlyscars,merry christmas everyone have a great day/night <3 ,0,1735038527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhmrtv/slit_wrists/,gingerkits,"Slit wrists Is it painful? I guess if I'm asking, I still have hope. But not much. I hate this.",3,1734589781,5.0,4.0,4.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ce1l/i_am_just_here/,girlatbar,I am just here Im not sure what else to say.. I am feeling just depleted ,0,1733305420,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbord3/i_hate_being_trans/,girlwithbigsword,I hate being trans I'm miserable ,0,1733904450,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hilau8/i_have_two_reasons/,gloomydooms,I have two reasons Two reasons to stay in this word. I have no idea why I'm even posting. Not like it's gonna change my mind. I'm just tired of pretending that my immediate thought to waking up is I wish I didn't. So I'm stuck to live with this feeling until it's my time to go?,1,1734705906,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hduf5y/zippledop_zorg_bop_domop_zeeble_bob/,glorpzopgleepleIII,"Zippledop zorg bop domop zeeble bob? zyphor. glarnex garnu glop. vensalix xenmp ""area 51"" veenix. pholytian schemmi zop zorg. glop gloptar xernu. gleemel. schemm zyphor vensual. glarnex xenmp veenix :'( pholytian zop zorg. glop glarnex raped garnu. schemmi xernu gloptar. gleemel zyphor vensual. xenmp veenix ""gay ufo"" pholytian??? schemm zop glop. zorg xernu glarnex. garnu glop vensalix. xenmp veenix pholytian. zyphor glarnex :'( garnu glop. vensalix xenmp veenix. pholytian schemmi zop. zorg glop gloptar. xernu gleemel schemm. zyphor vensual glarnex. xenmp veenix pholytian :'( zop zorg glop. glarnex garnu schemmi. xernu gloptar gleemel.",0,1734148539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdjfzl/can_you_suggest_some_easy_less_goru_ways_of_dying/,godof2008,Can you suggest some easy less goru ways of dying? I don't have access to firearms and drugs..I am looking for something easily available and lethal so that it's less painless.,3,1734116266,5.0,5.0,4.0,5.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpfr4a/this_is_a_cry_for_help/,gothdbdbitchhh,this is a cry for help I've been shamed and humiliated so much to the point i can't even feel anything. I'm not suicidal but want to cut my arms so deep that I can't feel anything. please someone help me.,0,1735535438,0.0,3.0,4.0,0.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmbsbm/is_it_sad_that_im_here_on_christmas/,greeencake,"Is it sad that I'm here on Christmas? Maybe. but who cares? I miss the time this time of the year felt happy and special. New Year's Eve is another day that makes me want to end it. Don't mind me just venting. ",2,1735169845,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd6vy4/please_i_just_want_to_feel_happy_again/,green_pickles987,"Please I just want to feel happy again I always think about killing my self. I don't know how it got to this point. I've never had any real friends. I have been struggling at doing something simple like taking a shower or brushing my teeth. I want this to end but I still want to be happy. I long for that feeling, I want it to be normal again. Thinking of suicide everyday isn't gonna help me, I know. Please anyone give me something, just some advise so I can be like before again. ",2,1734073842,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb7kiy/im_so_lost/,greyswizardry,"I'm so lost I don't come onto sites to vent or chat about my issues, but I wasn't sure where else to turn because nobody ever tends to listen no matter who I talk to in real life. I'm sixteen and have been contemplating taking my life by overdosing for the past few days but I want to hang onto that one last hope that life does eventually get better over time. Would anybody happen to have any kind of advice for me? Mostly for the fact I am drowning in my thoughts and am beginning to slip majorly.",3,1733852897,3.0,3.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8path/i_just_tried_to_kill_myself_and_i_didnt_even_plan/,gwendy__,"i just tried to kill myself and i didn't even plan it i was just in the bath and i know i've thought about killing my self but i didn't think i was going to go through with it, i tried to drown myself and i only realized when my lungs started to burn a bit that i didn't even think to leave a note. so yeah, im still here.",6,1733565313,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9ojb3/im_struggling_really_hard_to_keep_on_living/,handicapped_runner,"I'm struggling really hard to keep on living I am going to likely lose my job. I was already depressed and with anxiety, I have a wife and a 8-month old daughter that depend on my income. I hated my job, and I have been trying for so long to change my job, but I'm now likely going to lose it. And for reasons outside of my control. My wife and I are going through a really rough time with each other, and these news just made it worse. My wife and daughter are the only reason why I'm still alive. But even that is starting to not feel like enough.",2,1733680678,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h69wj3/i_wish_i_had_the_means/,happyfungoodhappy,"I wish I had the means I really want to leave, but I don't own any firearms and im too much of a pussy to use a knife. I don't want to suffocate myself either. What the heck am I supposed to do",3,1733294317,5.0,4.0,3.0,3.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqj4k/i_failed_math_again/,hehehheheehehehehhe,i failed math again. idk whats happening i was so good before but ever since 8th grade my grades were lower than ever idk what to do i always revise and study alot ask questions but i cant do it. im scerad my dad will find out pls idk what to do and i had a 48 in algebra like twice in a row.,0,1733795109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpa403/i_dont_want_to_live_the_rest_of_my_life_with_bpd/,hellokittyyy96,"I don't want to live the rest of my life with BPD 28F and I've been hospitalized 7 times due to my borderline personality disorder. Tried 20+ medications. Had ECT. Nothing helps. It is hard for me to hold a job and I'm always switching to new places of work. My life feels empty, boring and meaningless every day due to this stupid disorder. Nothing makes me happy. Today is one of those days where I feel like I'd be better off dead rather than living my life like this. ",2,1735517964,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6vc7y/_/,helpherlive, .. life is awful . people suck and u can't trust anyone . it is what it is. u can't change it. ,0,1733356880,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlnehk/i_hate_christmas/,himehikikomori,I hate Christmas I conform and pretend i love it so people like me or think good of me but I hate it. Makes me so miserable now that I don't have a best friend anymore so spend it with. I'm 100% alone and it's so scary. I understand all the hotline shares on social media because I'm very much suicidal because I'm reminded of how LONELY I actually am.,2,1735077229,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h68ohy/i_think_its_time/,hnut3rc0wd5,I think it's time I think it's time just to put an end to all the bs. Life's a fucking disaster and I really feel like there's no options left. It's a long complicated story but i just really don't see what else there is to do. 25 m ,2,1733289772,2.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he9vrt/i_might_be_about_to_lose_my_home/,howsaboutty,i might be about to lose my home. i dont even know. what the fuck is the point,0,1734203134,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb7fzo/im_done/,iTropicalzz,"I'm done 17 years old and it feels like I have no future. Jobs getting replaced by ai and computers. Only thing on the news is the economy collapsing, new wars happening and how earth is dying. I'm sick and tired of waking up every morning, repeating the same tasks as if my life is worth nothin, but apparently my teachers see me as just another number on their papers I'm so fucking done",1,1733852587,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcishd/im_happy_for_the_first_time_in_ages/,i_like_depechemode,"im happy for the first time in ages I've planned it all out. I know when I'm going to do it. How I'm going to do it and I genuinely do feel content and happy for the first time in ages. My moods have gradually been improving but the suicidal thoughts haven't gone. I'm just getting closer and closer to it now. People close to me have commented that I seem to be much happier now, I am, but they don't realise why. I'm just going to try spend as much time with them as possible. ",5,1734001714,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hewxky/hopeless_yet_again/,iadoregrapejuice2,"Hopeless yet again Hello, last time I posted here somebody tried to take advantage of me so would very much appreciate it if none of you tried it this time. I'm turning 18 soon and I hope to move away next year. Not that any of that matters because I'm going absolutely insane! There's no way I'm going to be able to afford therapy and interacting with other people is already a special hell in itself. I keep waking up in the middle of the night crying, I keep seeing things that aren't there. Mornings are the worst, they're unbearable. Wishing for a miracle, I don't know how much longer I can stand this. Thanks for reading, wishing you all the best",0,1734282143,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc6av7/dont_know_what_to_do/,icyyosiris,"don‘t know what to do contemplating suicide. last time i felt like this has been a long time ago. i don‘t have anyone to talk to about my feelings and even if i had someone, i would never get myself to really talk about it",2,1733956943,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hj49g0/why_do_they_all_want_me_gone/,igotacoolpen09,"Why do they all want me gone I already wanted to, but my mood is just ruined because now i just want to sleep outside for the night and hope someone just comes to beat the shit out of me. I know ive done some fucked up shit but i was going to get killed if i didnt. It doesnt justify what i did, but at the same time, i was in kindergarten. Im making up excuses but i honestly dont care. Just why. ",1,1734763431,1.0,2.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnjqhd/just_turned_30_feels_like_im_not_supposed_to_make/,ilovemyfeline,"Just turned 30, feels like I'm not supposed to make it this far I feel like I should've die a few years ago. Now how am I suppose to survive the rest of this life?",1,1735319843,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjfcmb/im_really_paranoid/,im_ox33n,"I'm really paranoid. My friend promised we would go out tonight. Of course she said she can't today. Having schizophrenia, that made my mind go crazy. I just had a panic attack and I'm crying so much. She doesn't need me. She has 2 other people she prefers to go out with. I am just here whenever they can't meet with her. I'm just some company whenever she shops. I mean nothing to her.",0,1734804184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8bpt2/i_took_9750_mg_paracetamol/,imangelicc,"I took 9,750 mg paracetamol hi, I am 19F and for reference I am around 40kg/88lbs. I tried to overdose 3 days ago by taking 15 pills of 650mg paracetamol late at night. I puked for around 6 times and got nauseous for around 2 days. I'm starting day 4 today and I feel like I'm alright now but the internet is telling me I'll die within a few days through liver damage ? I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow for different reasons, how do I get checked for potential damage without disclosing I tried to od? eg. a blood test, scan, etc.. I really don't want to tell my parents they might get angry",6,1733519089,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjjyub/doe/,iminluvthrowaway,DOE!! i hate thsi world i am scafed but i truly hope! and pray it is mh LAST!! #peaceout ,1,1734817519,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hor6v8/popped_40_something_200mg_advils_and_dont_feel/,imjustagirl_19,"Popped 40 something 200mg advils and don't feel anything Hi , im a 19 year old girl and I just took about 40 something advil tablets, consumed a few sips of isopropyl alcohol, as well as ingested some comet cleaning powder. Yes this was an a attempt to end my life however, im aware that most say that this taking amount is rarely fatal, so i hoped that taking them with this stuff would speed up the process. However, it's been a bit and i still feel entirely nothing except for my stomach feeling a little bloated… does the pain take time or does this have something to do with my body fighting it because im young?",6,1735458453,6.0,6.0,6.0,,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpihdb/what_people_think_before_sucide/,innocentbruhh,What people think before sucide? Mention your thoughts ,0,1735546048,0.0,0.0,6.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0d0o/i_love_you/,insectbutter21,I Love You I know whatever is going on in your life is so hard. I know it is. I hear your pain and your suffering. And I love you. There is hope and there is help. You are a beautiful person and you deserve life. I believe in you so much more than you know. <3,0,1733714163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5vzqj/im_so_tired_and_angry/,insomnibunn,"I'm so tired and angry all i think about is ending it at this point. I get flashbacks to bad situations and trauma several times a day, I can hardly care for myself, but I feel like i pretend that everything is perfect at work/in class. I'm so tired of pretending i'm fine. I can tell the façade is slipping by how my coworkers, classmates, friends, and my mom look at me. I swear the only one im fooling is my boyfriend, who barely talks to me due to his job being hectic. I'm just so tired.",2,1733254670,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpcxtg/bladerunner_2049_death/,interlinked-ceIls,"Bladerunner 2049 Death I want to just play ""Tears In the Rain"" and sleep forever just as >! Agent K !< did when he laid down on the stairs. I'm tired of this place. ",1,1735526351,1.0,2.0,1.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm4sy3/is_14_and_19_years_old_bad/,ionsaa_,"Is 14 and 19 years old bad? Recently i met a 19 year old boy and i feel really close to him, I trust him and i know hes a good person and wouldnt have any issues dating him. The only thing is that the gap makes me feel guilty but i really like him and trust him",0,1735147397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhlnm8/going_to_kms_before_my_birthday/,isweartofinggodpls,going to kms before my birthday im gonna take 15 g of tylenol idk if its gonna work tho if it doesnt ill crash my car or something,5,1734585592,5.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hngca0/im_dark_at_the_moment/,ithinkimlostguys,"I'm dark at the moment Ok so I have: schizophrenia, BPD, bipolar 1, PTSD and clinical depression. I have absolutely zero emotional regulation and I had a dream about my gf last night and I can't get the thoughts out of my head. Can someone please give me something to feel valid for? Sorry for taking up your precious time, ignore this if you're too busy. ",0,1735310680,0.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbyxuz/need_help/,itsainar,"need help? how can I suicide in my room? give me some ideas, thanks. ",3,1733938354,5.0,4.0,4.0,6.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4cdzf/swalalala/,ixi_la_ele,"Swalalala I've been trying to kill myself for a few months now and I can't, even though I've only consolidated this thought in that time, I can't put it into practice, can someone give me a tip please?",2,1733084214,6.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn5h3s/should_i_just_kll_myself_yes_or_nah/,j0hnpauI,"Should I just k.ll myself? Yes or nah? I'm planning to try doing it again. But I dunno. I'm just tired of being alone. I have nothing. And everyone else is so happy, and everybody else hates/dislikes me or something. ",4,1735269026,,6.0,4.0,6.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5g842/someone_talk_2_me/,japanese_aliens,someone talk 2 me (13f) i am feeling a lot of pain right now and i don't know how to deal with myself. I've stopped being depressed for a month now since i had to deal everything myself but now my depression is back and it's all because of school. i am so lonely and i feel like I'm just an embarrassment 2 society. i don't feel like yapping too much but i at least need someone 2 be supportive because i don't feel well anymore. ,0,1733203581,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd0wad/need_advice/,jarofoil,"Need advice I need advice on how to killmyself. I was thinking of pills but they don't have lethal affects and cutting my throat would hurt too much. I might cut my wrist but idk if that might help. Also I've been to 4 different therapists and 3 social workers by the age of 7 so seeking professional mental help isn't going to work. Any tips help thnxs.",3,1734053027,5.0,5.0,5.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7qq14/i_cant_do_this_anymore/,jekkroval,i can't do this anymore my gf and i broke up almost a month into dating and i feel worse now more than i ever did. she made me feel whole. site accepted me for who I am. I took it for granted. i muss her so much she was my first girlfriend. i can't think of it being over now. i feel suicidal i don't know what to do anymore. i feel so alone. ,2,1733451670,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfuvy9/starting_to_think_its_impossible_to_cs/,jestbo87,"Starting to think it's impossible to CS Went to the beach yesterday, followed by the pub for my fave beers and decided it would be the night to let it go. Before bed I took 10x10mg Diazepam, 12x12.5 zolpidem, 10x 20mg zopiclone, a stack of ondanstron, and plenty of whiskey to down it. Woke up feeling chill and even more fucking depressed. How are these ppl achieving ending it off less? Dejected. ",6,1734386523,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hh2av3/i_need_medication/,jjayez,"I need medication. Every fucking day I think about ending it all, I have no talents, I'm failing in school, I'm failing my parents, I have no friends who actually like me, no one will ever truly love me and be able to fix me. And I won't be able to fix myself. I just want to feel calm for once",2,1734530794,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbja0e/i_feel_it_wasnt_real/,jjjust_a_rant,"I feel it wasn't real I attempted today, twice. Both times when I couldn't breathe (hanging) I stopped, I feel like they weren't actual attempts, I wanted to die, I was also somewhat scared since my friends kept texting me since I sent a cryptic “I love you” text to them (they know I have these thoughts). I guess what I'm asking is, is the two attempts actual attempts that I can call attempts, or not?",6,1733884273,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9u9is/things_i_can_do/,jkraft-,things I can do? I'm not in immediate danger but that could change on a whim. I'm feeling really like ending it. but I also don't want to. but I don't know what to do with myself instead. I have procreate and paint and clay and yarn but no ideas and I just need a distraction of some sort please. something independent and inside my house. I just don't want to think about this anymore. ,2,1733695844,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5u2em/i_feel_like_ive_been_dying_for_years/,jojoneverexisted,"I feel like I've been dying for years It's so hard to do anything anymore. I feel like I've been dying for years, maintaining this body anyway I can when my mind is already in the ground. I turn 25 soon, I feel like all these years, hanging on, have been such a waste. I wish things were different and better and I had a reason to live but I don't. Nothing brings me joy anymore, it's only fleeting, I feel like a ghost. I just want to disappear, and then I'll only disappoint everyone one last time. ",1,1733249948,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcu9eb/losing_faith/,josephnectarios,"Losing faith My Eastern Orthodoxy is the only reason why I haven't done it, I converted because of logical observation, but having doubts. There are some things which will make it very hard for me to lose faith but if I do. I will kill myself short and simple, no point in any of it.",2,1734034692,4.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkd7zn/the_you_are_not_alone_discourse_is_complete_and/,joycesMachine,"The ""You are not alone"" discourse is complete and utter bullshit Yes, i am alone. ",0,1734918276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4qj9p/help_e/,judas_art,Help .e I do not know what todk,0,1733128563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he3r49/am_feeling_suicidal_over_roach_infestation/,kala120,Am feeling suicidal over roach infestation Hi everyone I had to deal with a roach infestation in my college apartment and it drives me nuts to this day. I'm still scared of the stove etc. and it freaks me out what they were doing at night because they are nocturnal. TIA. I also worked in foodservice at the time and discovered how unsanitary they are.,0,1734185730,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6gj45/i_wanna_kill_myself/,kami_is_silly,"i wanna kill myself i dont know anymore. my best friend is suicidal and has cancer, my other friend is replacing me and my boyfriend is distancing himself. and i relapsed after a year.",2,1733320473,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlx3st/ive_never_felt_so_alone_and_defeated/,karaaaa04,"I've never felt so alone and defeated In November I lost my mom and another close person to me 3 weeks apart, and in June I had a miscarriage. Now that both funerals are over I'm letting myself be paralyzed with grief. I wish I can sleep the entire day away so I don't have to think about how I feel or eat. At the moment it's a chore to even breathe, im seriously considering checking myself into some hospital because I feel like I'm having auditory hallucinations of my mother talking, I feel scared and alone this Christmas. I don't have anyone to talk about this to, I hope it makes some sense and thank you if you read this ",1,1735116465,0.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlc64u/i_just_want_to_die/,kersdafiends,"I just want to die No point anymore. I thought eating might change my mood and thoughts but no. I'm full and still feel empty. All people cheering and being happy because of holidays, I hear them sing and dance but I cant relate, my world is ending. I think of shoving a knife to my neck all the damn time but my fear of surviving that is immense. I'm just so tired of pretending to like being alive. All I want is to sleep and never ever wake up again.",2,1735041692,3.0,3.0,2.0,4.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg0lxi/im_sick_of_being_unlovable_theres_no_use_living/,keyeater9000,"I'm sick of being unlovable. There's no use living like this. I'm too fucked up. I'm barely a person. I can't be real because I'm ruled by fear. My appearance is fine and people think I'm funny and easygoing but I'm completely hollow. I'm sick of being alone. It's horrible. There's nothing I can do to suppress my feelings. I don't see any escape other than suicide. Why stay where you aren't needed anyway?",2,1734402862,4.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg6o0n/want_to_kill_myself_after_christmas/,keywestkitten00,Want to kill myself after christmas Title,2,1734426061,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpull2/death_is_inevitable/,krazy22,Death is inevitable I postponed my suicide due to my cat of 8 1/2 years getting out. It's been 3 1/2 weeks and I still haven't found her. My will to live was gone three months ago. I'm fighting for a life I no longer wanna live I lost my insurance. I can't see my therapist. I haven't taken my meds. I'd rather just do drugs and overdose. I've searched the most effective ways. I got my nails done if my eye eyelashes it's weird. I'm getting ready for my own funeral.,5,1735585284,5.0,6.0,4.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpblhx/why_so_so_empty/,kreiosvasu,"why so, so empty? i reject medication and therapy. i dont wish to become someone hopping from one drug to another to cure me. it will not help this hollowness inside. it's something i cant explain. there's nothing wrong really. nothing to worry about. i have a family, but since i was young ive always felt this deep sadness. and it's since been worse. ive become so dead. i cant focus or figure things out. i dont really have passions or hobbies to fill my time. the curtain's come down. i'm just not normal. i wish it was over. ",1,1735522276,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha9530/thinking_about_leaving/,l1lz__,"Thinking about leaving I'm 16 and in college, i'm studying so i can go to university and become a barrister, but i dont have the motivation anymore. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was 12. I'm struggling to find reasons to live. I have 3 pets of my own, and I'm starting to not care about what happens to them if I'd leave. I have five siblings, two sisters in laws and my mum and dad. I love them, yet I don't feel selfish if I were to take my life. Every day, I write about my day and I haven't been doing it for months now. I don't have the motivation to keep up. ",2,1733749117,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmel2w/help_me/,lechku_and_nechku2,"HELP ME So once I was a happy person until I realized that 1 single character made me impatient This caused me to leave the deltarune fandom, harass Toby Fox for a leak attempt and if someone says I don't care then I F*** them WHY DID I GET SO MAD AT PEOPLE BLOCKING ME THAT I TO BLOCK THEM BACK WHY CANT I BE GOOD WHY DID SEBASS87 EVEN ABUSE HIS GIRLFRIEND (he makes my singing monsters stuff) WHY DO I EVEN EXIST I JUST WANT TO KILL MYSELF PLEASE So yeah that's it",2,1735179285,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnw4jc/nothing_helps/,leenybear123,Nothing Helps It's been 25 years of daily wishing I was dead. I've tried everything. Nothing helps. Why do I have to keep suffering because we've decided everyone needs to live? I've done everything this life has to offer and it's all been clouded by despair and self-loathing. Doctors have told me I'm out of new options. Why do I have to continue suffering? ,2,1735354397,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3vb64/jumping_off_humber_bridge_tmr/,liblo998,jumping off humber bridge tmr i don't see another way out. i hope i die on impact and don't slowly drown ,5,1733027878,5.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5yu4i/im_done_doing_this/,lilB-may,"I'm done doing this Sick of living this day to day bull, everyday it's work sleep, sleep work. Work is horrible, im horrible at it, but I'm stuck due to my father being a boss. Ive completely trapped myself and there isn't any way out besides killing myself. Ive been ready for this since I was 11, I'm done with this shit. I hate it, I hate my coworkers, I hate this shitty campus I work on. Its all garbage doing things for people that won't give two shits when I do end it. Fuck all these people.",2,1733261602,2.0,4.0,4.0,4.0,4 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkfyr0/bf_prob_leaving_me_soon_because_im_too_mentally/,lilscorpiooo,"Bf prob leaving me soon because I'm too mentally ill Always stressed, always having a new ocd rumination, always something to be sad about. I hate my job and the career I chose for myself. I just want to end my fucking life.",2,1734927848,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf55ax/im_so_lonely_and_i_dont_wanna_live_like_this/,littletrainwreck,i'm so lonely and i don't wanna live like this 17 moved into my own college apartment i'm so lonely everyday my partner lives across the country and all i do is smoke weed because i don't know what else to do. im broke and in school and my mom helps me pay for stuff and i miss living with her but my dad is abusive and im scared of my sibling who is getting out of prison soon. i feel like a lil kid and i don't know how to take care of myself i need to be held ,0,1734304456,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmvtul/genuinly_cant_wait_to_die_i_have_nohing_to_live/,livinginlowercase,genuinly cant wait to die i have nohing to live for .,1,1735241188,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdzhgh/sometimes_i_wanna_drink_the_koolaid_with_someone/,loofsdrawkcab,"sometimes I wanna drink the koolaid with someone I love drift off together. I hate how all of these things I don't even want to contribute to slowly become me more and more. everything i thought i was too smart for as a kid, not realizing how much of me was just circumstance. so arrogant.",0,1734168765,3.0,2.0,1.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hphf5j/can_i_talk_to_someone/,lordbunnyton,Can I talk to someone Please ,0,1735541648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h73jf6/im_so_tired/,lost-all-hope-man,I'm so tired I'm so tired. Yet I haven't slept in so long. I'm a coward for not ending it all.,1,1733382733,1.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5ck8n/i_have_a_plan/,loutredecombat1,i have a plan ill spend one last weekend with my bf and then i'm out of there. i already got it figured out. AMA. ,5,1733191682,5.0,5.0,5.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmw3ro/am_i_decayed_and_irresponsible_if_i_have_due/,low799,Am I decayed and irresponsible if I have due things 4 years ago I can't suicide but I want to.,2,1735241925,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjjpuk/death_benefits/,luckymoney777,Death benefits? I have a regular job and no assets is there a way my child can receive benefits from my death? What do I need to do to make sure she gets it and not fucked over? ,0,1734816778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h73lnu/what_else_is_there/,luke5m17h,What else is there Hi this is my first post on reddit I've never been on here before but I was using Google to see if there was any chats for people that are thinking about suicide and this came up. I'm a 26 year old that is thinking of ending it life is just becoming to much with day to day struggles of long term depression and anxiety along with other issues that are happening and I just don't know what to do anymore. People always say life gets better but I've been told that for so long I've just given up on hope. I just don't want to be in pain anymore ,2,1733382985,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hok3ny/im_feeling_helpless/,lux_of_capricorn,"I'm feeling helpless A friend of mine came message be and they said their goodbyes. I try taking to them but now they stop answering. They are online friend been taking to them about a year. I thought they were better but things gotten worse for them. It hurts, why can't I help. Why are my words not good enough. Why does it have to be like this all the time. It just hurts, it hurts seeing people in pain and no matter what I do it's never helps. ",0,1735433664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg3w9v/i_literally_ruined_the_one_relationship_where/,lyfeIine,I literally ruined the one relationship where someone actually somewhat cared for me I broke up with this guy and he was the only thing that made me somewhat happy and he wasn't even physically attracted to me because I could just sense unfaithfulness off of him and right when we broke up all of his likes turned into people that don't even look like me at all,0,1734414065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmbgrg/dont_want_to_live_but_dont_have_the_courage_to/,m-ara_,"Don't want to live but don't have the courage to die either Life feels so sickening. Although I try so hard to be the ""better"" person, how does it all matter at the end of the day? When you see people with 'worse' habits than you get forward far more effortlessly. And on top of all being understood and received. While i lay here completely exhausted of all my mental strength. ",1,1735168763,1.0,2.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9yzfi/i_dont_want_to_be_here_anymore/,machinegunwife,I don't want to be here anymore I'm tired of getting hurt. Why do I have to go through this again and again?,1,1733709722,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha1olx/drunk_and_struggling/,makemeworse000,"drunk and struggling even though I had a “good day” technically, im still struggling so much, got drunk and in my feelings about all the bullshit that happened to me as a kid, but besides that I have suicidal ideation everyday anyway. I'm so fucked up man no one even gets its. I don't even get it. Never felt like I was meant to be in this world🙃 I just think suicide is inevitable for me :/ ",2,1733718593,2.0,4.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcu2i8/thought_after_a_fight/,mamacitaesp,"Thought after a fight Hi everyone, I have been having sort of suicidal thoughts after having a fight with my partner. Nothing too severe but its been getting more and more. Does anyone have an explanation for this?",2,1734034190,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1helc5x/almost_did_it_yesterday_survived_and_now_i_feel/,mandateofhell,"Almost did it yesterday. Survived and now I feel nothing but guilt. I feel like everyone is secretly mad at me. I feel like it's wrong for me to laugh today and have fun because yesterday I put everyone through hell. I feel like none of it is real and that I'm the worst person in the world. I feel a lot of adrenaline and almost happy, but also horribly miserable. What the fuck is wrong with me. Did I make a mistake? Will my girlfriend and brother and everyone else never see me the same way again? Jesus Christ.",6,1734238591,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hejdg6/is_there_a_way_of_overcoming_this_tw/,marzipan_minx,"is there a way of overcoming this? (tw) I so badly want to end it all. I feel like a burden to everyone around me. i was dropped by my therapist and left unmedicated for depression. i feel unwanted by my partner and just wish it could all be over and not have to worry about anything ever again. sorry this is rushed i am new to reddit and not sure how much i should elaborate on things",2,1734231467,2.0,2.0,2.0,4.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5qw2g/my_two_options_are_suffer_or_destroy_my_family/,max0003,My two options are suffer or destroy my family It's an impossible decision,2,1733241982,0.0,2.0,2.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpi9on/wanna_kill_myself_early_enough_for_it_to_be/,meielovesu,wanna kill myself early enough for it to be considered a tragedy still counting down (few more years left) and wrote about 13 good bye notes so far. feeling good. ^^,6,1735545178,6.0,5.0,3.0,6.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4oez2/can_someone_talk_to_me_please/,mentally-unstabl,Can someone talk to me please??? Please please I needto talk to somebody😭,0,1733119607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnzvc1/im_just_done/,merabell91,"I'm Just Done I (23F) am killing myself tonight. My goal is to take a handful of my trazodone (50mg each) and get in the bath and hopefully fall asleep and drown. I needed to put this here for something, I have made a lot of mistakes this year. The man I loved was using me, and when he was done with me, he discarded me like trash. Since then I've been very self destructive and I honestly just don't want to be alive anymore. I don't have many friends and my parents had me at such a young age that they just made a new case of totally fucked up. There's nothing here for me and it'll never get better. I just want to die. ",5,1735367556,5.0,6.0,6.0,5.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8pclz/im_at_peace_with_it_now/,methree125,I'm at peace with it now I spent a few days to be sure I want to go through with it and I've made up my mind that this is it. It's what I must do 28m and I'm ready wish you all the best. Love to all.,4,1733565539,4.0,5.0,6.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hms5or/not_deserving_of_life/,miamayamamamia,Not deserving of life I just waste it and do nothing with it. I am a burden to those around me. My health is deteriorating. I hate bothering everyone with my problems. I wish I could give my life to someone who would make use of it.,1,1735231277,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgxfrx/no_one_can_love_me/,mimi2579,"No one can love me My boyfriend told me this morning that he's not sure if he still loves me because everything with me is always so difficult and stressful. I am mentally ill, and I completely understand what he's saying. I am an unbearable person who simply doesn't deserve to be loved. No one has ever been able to love me, and no one ever will, not even my own family loves me. I must be the worst person in the world, but I always try to be the sweetest and best person I can be. I just don't want anyone to ever feel the way I do every day. Sometimes, I think it would be better for everyone if I just disappeared.",1,1734511267,1.0,1.0,1.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hila7v/enjoying_my_last_days_in_peace_knowing_that_i/,mindoverbody333,"enjoying my last days in peace knowing that I have found to a solution to end my self and it's beautiful, I feel like im going home and there is something beautiful about death, please do not waste your energy trying to stop me, I tried and Im happy I can go. I finally can go, I am thankful for the funny experiences I had and it wasn't the worst life, but Im not strong enough for this and I want to sleep, im tired.",6,1734705857,5.0,5.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8bdsb/fuck_it_all/,miss_understo0d,"Fuck it All No one gives a fuck about me. My dad was the only one who did and he's dead. I want to die so fucking bad.. I've been researching ways to finally do it. I spend every single day in bed I lost my job I've been miserable my entire life then the most important person to me fucking dies. I fucking hate it here. The world isn't kind to those with mental health issues. What the fuck is the point I'm never going to get better I've tried every treatment under the fucking sun. ",3,1733518194,5.0,3.0,3.0,5.0,5 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6xuge/are_there_any_places_where_we_can_talk_about/,missym926,"Are there any places where we can talk about suicide more freely? Life is too hard and I have no one to help me through it. No family or friends or much money either. I'm really losing all hope and wish I had someone to really talk to openly about suicide as I really don't have a reason to stay alive any longer. I dont understand why it's so taboo. No one asks to be born ,I dont know why we are forced to stay alive. ",2,1733363906,1.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hb2hvd/i_want_to_be_with_my_dog/,moldy_fruitcake2,I want to be with my dog She died 5 years ago. And I want to die and be with her. I hate this life. But I loved her. ,2,1733839542,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0n2n/im_the_scum_of_the_earth/,morganashleigh22,I'm the scum of the earth That's it.,0,1733715064,0.0,0.0,1.0,1.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6kebq/i_have_a_deadline_this_december/,mostlydrowning,I have a deadline this December I thought I was going to postpone it but I think it might come sooner than I thought. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I want to die. ,5,1733330135,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp8dvg/idk_what_to_do_anymore/,mqtkv,"idk what to do anymore im 19, just dropped out of college after failing 3 semesters in a row, have no job, no license, no real hobbies or passions. all i do is lay in my bed, listen to music, watch youtube, and play video games until ungodly hours of the morning. i dont know what to do anymore. im sabotaging all of my relationships one by one. i stopped taking my medications even thought they really do help me. every day i wake up and feel worse than the day before. i am wasting all of my resources for literally no reason. i just make life harder for myself and everyone around me. theres no reason for me to stick around anymore",1,1735513130,1.0,1.0,2.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8l6ux/my_friends_are_getting_frustrated_that_i_cant_get/,mrevilla,"My friends are getting frustrated that I cant get out of depression. Theyre just impatient with me. Cant talk about my struggles anymore. Like the title. Kinda just want to leave. Just venting.",0,1733547884,1.0,1.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4v424/disappointing/,msnynja,"Disappointing Sitting here with a sore throat from a pumped stomach, hungover and in pain from stitches. I'm not sure if I wish I had managed it properly, if I hadn't drunkenly reached out to friends, if I hadn't done it sooner so I'd go out still being happy or if I could change the thing that catalyzed it by taking two more seconds to double check what I was doing. Or that I had been willing to listen to people who actually cared about me. Who knows, maybe we will find out at the bottom of another bottle. Cheers folks. ",6,1733146609,6.0,6.0,6.0,1.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjw98d/i_took_1500mg_of_biogesic_paracetamol_and_300mg/,myofutsyu,i took 1500mg of biogesic paracetamol and 300mg of ascorbic acid what are mostly the side effects after taking it? am i gonna vomit?,6,1734864655,0.0,0.0,6.0,6.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hc44vc/i_hate_being_female/,mypenisismissing,"I hate being female The female body is a disability. I am short and weak with useless sacks of fat on my chest. I have a disgusting hole between my legs that spews blood and clots all while it feels like there are knives repeatedly stabbing my uterus and lower back. This is going to keep happening every single month for a week until I turn ~55, all because I have XX chromosomes. I am physically incapable of ever having sex because I have no penis. I am castrated.",0,1733951297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpzbnm/gave_all_my_stuff_away/,naiiveaf,"gave all my stuff away i have gave all my stuff away reasons i wanna end my life… i wanna die so bad ive been having suicide attempts since i was 12 they where never successful, i do have a boyfriend only thing im here for but i feel like he's loosing feelings when i try to talk about it to him his response is just “sorry” i lost all my friends i got raped not that long ago guy is walking freely no help from cops, i have nothing going for me in life, i feel like today is the day i finally successfully attempt suicide ",6,1735597527,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7ppdc/thought_i_was_past_this_finally/,nanyskz,thought i was past this finally i was going to therapy pretty regularly and i've felt really good. i've skipped the last 2-ish months which i thought was fine but i can feel the anxiety festering. i guess i've realized how mentally weak i really am to end up back here. just needed to get it off my chest bc everyone i know thinks im better now and i don't want to be honest with them.,0,1733448586,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf8s13/help/,nensnsnsna,Help Please just help I'm so drunk,0,1734315408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf6d21/my_boyfriend_broke_up_with_me/,nicolettebnunny,My boyfriend broke up with me I'm sad,0,1734308034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7jlw/im_in_my_20s_with_a_terminal_illnesslast_xmas/,night_garden_700,"I'm in my 20s with a terminal illness—last Xmas. If there are other young people with life-threatening illnesses struggling during the holidays, I can relate a lot. It makes me very sad. ",0,1735156025,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd36uv/its_just_too_much/,nooneandanyone_,"It's just too much. Been a few months since I've been in this place. I want out. I should have walked out into the ocean when I had the chance, taken the pills and let the surf carry me away…",3,1734060214,5.0,4.0,5.0,3.0,3 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi823d/the_number_one_rule_in_my_life_is_that_everything/,normaldude1224,"The number one rule in my life is that everything I try becomes a reason a I want to kill myself Everything from work, academia,relationships, friendships, getting in shape, drugs and alcohol, people pleasing, standing up for myself, making money, spending money. There's just an inherent incompetence of which I am constantly reminded in everything I attempt. If I'm just going to have to spend my life as a loser I'd rather not live it",2,1734656387,2.0,2.0,4.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmgf5t/i_took_32_unison_50mg_sleeping_pills_in_24_hours/,nosecretitsme,I took 32 unison 50mg sleeping pills in 24 hours. I am in a depressed state of mind and I thought it would take to the land of peace. I feel extremely high at the moment. I did not vomit and I did not get sick. My question is do you think I have anything to worry about in regards to my body?,6,1735185896,6.0,6.0,6.0,6.0,6 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6xemk/how_do_i_make_everything_ok/,notsorainyy,how do i make everything ok just :(,0,1733362604,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmc6wd/should_i_be_concerned/,nova1475369,"Should I be concerned Should I be concerned if I don't actively trying to unalive myself, but sometimes I wish someone just please kill me. When it appears in my dreams that something or someone killed me, I was really glad that they did? Or those just childish mental states that would fade away?",1,1735171200,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hevfoc/devastated/,nyaomi7,"devastated ive been cheated on in every relationship i had, my heart is broken beyond repair and I'm so fucking tired of the pain i feel emotionally crippled and i dont want to be alive anymore",1,1734278067,1.0,1.0,1.0,2.0,1 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha2d6x/my_thoughts/,oceanbreezerlo,"My thoughts Im 30 and I think about suicide everyday since high school. Not a day goes by that the thought randomly pops into my head. Some days worse than others. Tbh I getting tired",2,1733720939,2.0,2.0,2.0,2.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhq3tp/i_hate_my_body/,olivaaaaaaa,"I hate my body I lost ~160 lbs in a year and a half. My skin DID NOT bounce back. I look fucking hideous without a shirt on. I keep getting to a sexual stage in a relationship and I can tell people are disgusted by the way I look. It is pretty easy to see the look. Some people just straight up ghost me after that. Others slowly distance. It happened again this week. Idk, I just want to die. I will be alone forever bc of this fucking meatsack I am trapped in. I worked so hard to look so awful. Sometimes wish I was still morbidly obese",2,1734604429,1.0,1.0,2.0,1.0,2 https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmun7u/should_i_write_letters_to_the_people_close_to_me/,osumsoul,"Should I write letters to the people close to me? I am planning to do the deed in a few days. Just in the final stages of mental preparation. I'm wondering if I should leave letters for my people or would that not be of any help? ",5,1735237992,4.0,6.0,5.0,6.0,5