Verse 1:
You were something that I never had
I knew of your moms you even messed with my dad
You can say that we had it bad but
Saw each other last was
My birthday my ex surprised me it was mad love
It was tough. I didn’t talk to you for years
Cause I loved you and knew if we got sincere
We would be together it was no effort
People felt threatened cause if they fucked up we’d be together couldn’t sever our connection
I’m just counting my blessings
You one of them your cousin wouldn’t get with me cause you said you loved me
Wanted to see you so you could let me go
So you can let all those emotions show
It wasn’t fair to your husband and heaven knows it
Y’all went and got a GED together that was something I couldn’t mess with
If I wanted you I would have taken you then
But I felt I couldn’t do better than him
Double dating if we kept that sacred love under wraps and went forward we would have cheated and you know it
Our love was tainted
It was either go for it or let it go
Jolly ranchers and cake we had so much to show
Your cousin wanted a story of her own she was jealous of us that’s her in the text I hope you know
I forgive her but I don’t think you knew that this happened just be careful she switches when she snaps too
Verse 2:
I remember laughing and wanting to throw the phone on the wall you unfriended cause of a war between you and another girl you were calling a whore
I don’t blame you. I always came crying to you
We missed each other
Apologize I couldn’t keep our darkest secrets
I made a promise to date you over pizza
I was glad to meet you I wanted to kiss those lips so bad when we spoke in the evening
That’s all I could ever think about
After 9 o’clock we would talk it out
We were each other’s biggest supporters everyone wondered why we weren’t together
It was like clock work
I hated seeing you beat yourself up over that fool in jail
He got out and didn’t see you I’m thinking what the hell?
You didn’t listen and I figured I could do better than that
Had a girl take a Chance I couldn’t do that
I felt that betrayal was bigger than anything else I did or could have done. I’d like to say you were one of the ones
You extended through almost all of my relationships
Verse 3:
I look back even now and wish we were closer then
I noticed it. It was so complicated
So many miles away from each other
It was no wonder we never made it
I was pacing my brother was the reason we saved it for a minute
I was really in it couldn’t believe we were finished and I treated you so bad hard to forgive I did it
It was in response to what you did. Wish you sent that letter so we could have seen what it is
Shit. I used you as inspiration and I did the same and sent them 9 letters and though didn’t turn out like I thought I received that closure
I hope you did the same
I mentioned it because I thought it pertained
Another chain loose
Final Monologue:
I felt this was overdue
I primarily wanted to see you to apologize for everything I put you through and hear your side of the story as after my break up I was looking in the mirror and wanted to see it from your point of view. Perhaps if that happened who knows what would have happened. I’d like to think we wouldn’t have crossed any boundaries but with emotions that deep I can’t say that we wouldn’t have confidently. I gotta let your whole family go too. I apologize I somewhat dated your cousin and I’m sure that kept memories of me around that you wish hadn’t. I wish the best for y’all despite the pain both parties have inflicted upon one another. It was an amazing ride and thank you for that bracelet too. I couldn’t keep it. My closest stranger. I couldn’t come to your wedding if I knew we felt a way about each other. That Julia Roberts movie would have been somewhat accurate as writing I realized how much I loved you and was in love with you back then. Couldn’t watch you do that with someone else if I knew it was in some way shape or form mutual
I love you for all what you did and I wish you and your husband the best and you two are very strong for going through that miscarriage. God bless. Thank you, as I wouldn’t be who I am today if not for that. I wouldn’t have found and fought for who I am if I didn’t learn from our experience. Thank you. Take care