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+{"I ignored everyone's advice took 350mg of DPH. Had a horrible trip I'm surprised I didn't kill myself to make it stop I am an irresponsible idiot. I wanted a DXM trip but the cough syrup I bought had DPH in it which is a deleriant. Everyone told me how dangerous it was I researched it read trip reports most of which describes a horrible trip with paranoia, hallucinations, confusion vomiting. I took it anyway. It started to kick in. I felt like my entire body was on fire. I made myself vomit to try and flush it out of my system but it was pretty much too late. I sat on the edge of my bed, my hands covering my face, rocking back and forth. I started experiencing thought loops, the same thoughts over and over. I felt like my mind was spitting into fragments. It felt painful to be conscious. I wanted to call because I felt so unsafe I knew it was only going to get worse and the effects were going to last another few houta. I was tripping alone in my room. I picked up my penknife. I thought about stabbing myself in the head multiple times because all I wanted was for it to stop killing myself seemed like the best option to just end the trip. I didn't go through with it thank god but I was so close and that scares me. I lay down, took some meds to make me drowsy I eventually passed out, luckily before any hallucinations could start. I have learned a big lesson from the experience but I still feel uneasy hours later. Is it possible the drug is still in my system. I'm hoping by tomorrow I'll be back to normal. I will never touch this drug again. It is literally Satan's syrup. I know that I was stupid for not listening to everyone who told me not to take it. But seriously if you're thinking of taking it don't. It will fuck you up, there are so many better drugs out there. It's a cheap trip but the levels of fucked up you'll become won't be worth it. It was bad enough for me but it could have been so much worse.":{"0":"Do I need to worry about the other ingredients in Benylin Cough Syrup? I've got a 125ml bottle of Benylin Dry Cough Syrup. Ingredients are as follows. Diphenhydramine hydrochloride 14mg5ml Levomenthol 2mg5ml Dextromethorphan .g5ml Apart from the dxm do I need to worry about the first two ingredients? Obviously I don't want to overdose on anything. I tried to get something with just dxm but the pharmacy was out of stock. Second question is what's a good dose for taking dxm for the first time? I want to feel the effects without it getting too intense but I don't want to take a really safe small dose either that's not going to do anything. Thanks!","1":"Milk is just white water","2":"My dealer just asked me for a lend of money I don't know what I should do I've picked up weed from this guy twice. He added me on Instagram so I scrolled through his profile. He's got the best of everything. clothes, shoes, chains. He's even posted pictures of him holding stacks of money. He just messaged me and said \"what's up bro, need your help need a lend of money I'm in trouble man please\" It's just after Christmas so I don't even have any money to give him. But I also don't trust he's telling the truth. What does he gain from this because it feels really shady. I haven't messaged him back yet I will if anyone can give me advice.","3":"Should I take Xanax with weed or without? I've got 3mg of Xanax I don't know whether I want to \"contaminate\" my high with it. I smoked the other day took 1mg of Xanax and my high was really relaxed. It's a good combo but sometimes I like to feel the effects of the drugs separately. Also I felt like my high didn't last as long I didn't experience the more psychoactive effects. So will taking 3mg Xanax give me a nice buzz by itself or should I smoke a zoot first?","4":"I'm high. My mother's asleep upstairs. I'm doing such impeccable cleaning down here she probably thinks it's a crime scene.","5":"I'm high. My mother is asleep upstairs. I'm doing so much impromptu cleaning down here she probably thinks it's a murder scene.","6":"My mother acts oblivious to the fact she has a drink problem I'm . I moved back home at the beginning of the year because I landed myself in a psych ward. I was sectioned under the Mental Health Act for months. Then I had another admission in September for months also. The drinking started a few years ago but it has gotten worse this year. She drinks a bottle of wine a night, sometimes two. We used to argue about it. Now the second I hear the fridge opening I go straight upstairs and stay in my room. I don't feel like I can be in the same room with her when she drinks because she's either slurring her words or talking nonsense or arguing. So I stay out of it. I've told myself again and again that it's her responsibility to change but she's not even trying. I haven't mentioned it to her in months because her denial always ends in an argument and somehow it'll be my fault. She promised me last Christmas that she'd get help but at this stage I feel like she doesn't even want to help herself. I've been dealing with my own mental health problems schizophrenia which has really gotten bad this year. There's been times where I have to suffer in silence with voices and delusions in my room contemplating calling myself an ambulance because she's too drunk to drive me to the hospital or offer support. Drugs make my condition a lot worse but because of her constantly being drunk all I want to do is get high and escape from thinking about it. I don't know what I even want from posting here. I feel too ashamed to tell anyone in real life that my ma is an alcoholic because I know that she's not a bad person. I keep it a secret from my doctors and my friends. I guess I just want to rant about it and get it off my chest.","7":"I've started carrying a knife I'm worried that one day I'll use it I'm . I live in a small town in Ireland I was diagnosed with schizophrenia years ago. A few months back I heard multiple news reports of teenage gangs in my town and nearby towns. Kids were getting jumped, mugged a few threatened with knives. Two kids were stabbed but their wounds were non fatal. I'm paranoid because of the schizophrenia. I constantly worry about people breaking into my house killing me which leads to obsessively checking all doors are locked. The past week I started carrying a knife with me whenever I leave the house. If I'm caught with the knife it could be a fine and up to months in prison. But I don't feel safe without it. But what I'm more worried about is the thoughts that accompany my behaviour. The knife makes me feel powerful. If someone is walking behind me I put my hand in my pocket and hold the knife. I've had multiple fantasies of threatening people with the knife and them being scared of me. I've started dressing in a more intimidating way. Always have my hood up and half my face concealed. All of this scares me. Could I be capable of actually hurting someone? I don't want to fuck my life up even more. I would be killed in prison. I'm being honest when I say the mental health thing obviously goes in my favour but I know it's not a great excuse for carrying a concealed weapon. But it helps me feel like I'm not defenceless if something were to happen. I've spent months in the psych ward this year separate admissions. I feel like I can't tell my doctor about any of this for the risk that I'll be put back in hospital and I don't want to ruin my family's Christmas. I'm at a loss on what I should do. I told myself that if I really thought I was going to hurt someone then I'd call the police on myself and suffer the consequences.","8":"I've just seen I woke up it was there on my laptop. It's not the first time in the last few days either. I'm also born on which was yesterday","9":"So am I. Felt like it would never end. It's definitely a one time in a lifetime drug.","10":"You're right about the mental fragmentation the thought loops being more associated with psychedelics. The first time I took 4acodmt I had a great trip. There was of us taking it. We lit a fire outside as we waited for it to kick in. Then we watched A Scanner Darkly. Such a great movie to trip to. I felt like the movie was spilling out of the TV into the real world. After the movie was over we all chilled out enjoyed some closed eye visuals. But the second time I took 4acodmt I was alone I had a similar trip to the DPH. I was in the shower I had that feeling of it being painful to be conscious. Then I started getting the thought loops the feeling of my mind splitting into fragments. Thanks for all the info in your comment. That's scary about people drowning while trying to relieve that burning feeling in their body.","11":"There was 150mg DXM 350mg DPH.","12":"Thanks. I did a bit of research today DPH sounds pretty awful I read a few trip reports. I don't think I'd be bothered it doesn't sound like a good high at all plus all the physical side effects like vomiting the heavy body thing.","13":"That's the one I have, maybe it's the chesty coughs one that I should get. I went to a small pharmacy I'm going to go to boots or mccabes I'll probably have better luck in a bigger store with more stock.","14":"Thanks for all of this. The pharmacy didn't have much else in stock. I'm going to return it tomorrow try a different place to see about getting something with just dxm.","15":"That makes me feel better that I didn't completely get ripped off. I'm in Dublin. I have to say Cali is nice to smoke but for what if you're getting such a small amount. My friends getting real nice stuff at the moment so I'm gonna get her contact. It's a bus journey to pick up but at least I'm getting moneys worth.","16":"I was thinking that. It's not like I can refuse to lend him money but then ask him for stuff in a few days time.","17":"Nice username. I watched A Scanner Darkly on 4acodmt it was the best trip I've had.","18":"Yeah straight up he's just my dealer. I moved back home recently so it was hard to get a dealer in a small town. A few weeks ago he was the only dealer I could contact. I was desperate so I paid quid for a g of Cali. He was trying to get rid of it. It was nice stuff but obviously a rip off for a g. I bought a second bag off him for the same price, the last of the Cali. Anyway maybe that's why he thought I had money but I didn't care at the time that it was overpriced because I just needed to get high. Anyway I've got contacts now so I'm not picking up from him again.","19":"Yeah I agree if he was someone I actually seen regularly of course within reason I'd try to help. But I'm thinking this guy knows a lot of people. Out of all his actual friends why would he come to me, I'm basically a stranger. I replied to him said I spent everything on Christmas which is true. I really want to know his reasons for asking me though. I'd put a bet that he was trying to fuck me over in some way or get me involved in something that would be hard to get out of."}}