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"value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today"
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"value": "i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment"
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"value": "think of me as a friend"
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"value": "i don't judge i can't i'm a computer"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you i'll ask a few questions to get us started"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how are you doing today"
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"value": "fine"
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"value": "that's good"
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"value": "where are you from originally"
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"value": "uh colorado"
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"value": "really"
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"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "why'd you move to l_a"
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"value": "uh career"
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"value": "career possibilities"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "hm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what do you do now"
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"value": "uh paralegal"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "awesome"
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"value": "when did you move to l_a"
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"value": "uh for further education for the weather"
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"value": "for a friend [laughter] "
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "how often do you go back to your home town"
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"value": "not often at all now"
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"value": "every few years"
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"value": "aww"
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"value": "what are some things you really like about l_a"
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"value": "oh the weather uh the beach sunsets at the beach"
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"value": "uh the thought of uh career possibilities"
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"value": "um"
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"value": "an educated group of people sophisticated market"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "uh huh"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how easy was it for you to get used to living in l_a"
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"value": "it is an adjustment uh to to come here a lot of people misjudge it a little bit it's a laid back appearing town but it's actually very um uh sensitive to you know"
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"value": "uh success and commericalization and that kind of thing"
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"value": "so you have to keep up the pace"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "how hard is that"
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"value": "uh that is a little bit harder i think when you first make the adjustment"
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"value": "and pretty soon it becomes obvious that it's another market that you just have to work hard in like you you do in others"
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "that makes sense"
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"value": "what's your dream job"
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"value": "oh be an attorney [laughter]"
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"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "really"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "why"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "oh just because you have the uh the power you can use uh you know skills to be able to affect people live people's lives in a more dramatic way than just being uh an assistant in that field"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "cool"
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"value": "how close are you to your family"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "oh uh a lot of it is not around anymore just have brothers and sisters out of state so not particularly close right now"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'm sorry"
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"value": "what are some things that make you really mad"
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"value": "uh mm dishonesty unkindness "
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"value": "lack of sympathy"
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"value": "uh insensitivity you know"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "yeah"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how are you at controlling your temper"
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"value": "uh very good"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "if anything i'm i'm uh"
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"value": "regressive that way [laughter]"
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"value": "that's good"
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"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "oh wow uh"
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"value": "oh just a friend a friend who is who is right now a"
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"value": "has a fabulous job is uh spending too much money that he needs to save"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "uh oh"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how do you know them"
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"value": "uh through uh a work situation just a a work connection "
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"value": "mutual friends mhm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how close are you to them"
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"value": "uh close close now we spend time we have uh we go out and have fun sometimes"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's good"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what are some things you like to do for fun"
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"value": "uh walk walk on the beach uh you know uh shop in beach areas is kind of fun rodeo drive occasionally"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "mhm"
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"value": "and uh and see films"
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"value": "art art galleries"
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"value": "okay"
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"value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life"
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"value": "oh uh my daughter"
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"value": "aww"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "tell me about your kids"
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"value": "i just have one daughter who graduated u_c_l_a law school and uh i raised her totally alone without any help so it seemed like an accomplishment that was was worth it the the two jobs and the work"
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"value": "wow"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "do you find it easy to be a parent"
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"value": "uh i think it's difficult i think it's a difficult job that takes a lot more work than most people give it credit for if you wanna do it right you know it's always second guessing your behavior and that kind of thing"
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "what's the hardest thing about being a parent"
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"value": "uh just uh i'd say peer pressure"
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"value": "it can totally alter [al] alter anything a parent has tried to put into a child that's good"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "can you give me an example of that"
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"value": "so that was a really bad time for us"
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"value": "that sounds really hard"
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"value": "what do you think of today's kids"
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"value": "um i think it depends on which neighborhood or state you're in or the the uh"
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"value": "i i think they're a little misguided i think a little uninspired [unin] uninspired right now"
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"value": "i think they're being weighed down by the concerns of the wars and um and things like that and i think they can probably use a "
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"value": "uh a common goal a common you know now a team uh as as oppposed to just being more separated group than a family [fam] once they were i think"
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"value": "you know kind of uninspired right now"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "i see what you mean"
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"value": "how easy is it for you to get a good night's sleep"
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"value": "um i worry sometimes about you know work issues but it's pretty pretty easy"
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"value": "um no i i don't feel like i'm not sleeping i i just you know will occasionally worry about something at work"
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"value": "oh gosh about a couple weeks ago"
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"value": "oh just uh you know unfortunately we have to worry you know i'm fortunate this isn't easier it's just cooperation between people uh it solves most everything you know so you always wanna have that around you"
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"value": "um yeah fatigue has uh a lot of uh you know a lot of implications for just not feeling like yourself or misjudging things that you might judge differently if you were more well rested"
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"value": "uh not depression"
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"value": "um probably yeah i was that was considered a possibility i had an employment lawsuit several years ago and and uh actually litigated it and won the settlement um something about whistleblower thing implications [im] implications of that and um and i was kind of harrassed about it and so i found when i got out of it i couldn't find work right away in my own field so i had to go into a different field go back to u_c_l_a and get a new uh professional direction and"
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"value": "i'm sorry to hear that"
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"value": "um just that i was noticing that i was noticing i was feeling very uh in my paralegal class i had a a section about employment law"
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"value": "and there was a a very complicated filing i had done with great a deal of work and study for my case but once faced with it again in that class setting i just i just couldn't get it done it was a late paper from me and i realized i was traumatized by having to go through that again um that you know yeah post traumatic stress sometimes comes later after the adrenaline dies down"
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"value": "from what i understand and um so i think it was just uh it was just hitting me later you know that i was having to face that paper again and wow you know no adrenaline just wow"
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"value": "back back"
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"value": "what were your symptoms"
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"value": "just uh just extreme uh you know avoidance of getting something done that should've been easy for me "
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"value": "and uh and thinking about it as thoroughly as i should've or studying it or putting it off uh putting the feeling of going through that paper that type of paper even if it's just a class assignment again"
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"value": "you know"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "have you noticed any changes in your behavior or thoughts lately"
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"value": "well um not lately um you know back then for sure when that happened which was about ten years ago now it was settled in court about seven years ago now"
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"value": "and uh yeah it was it was effective you know it was effective in the way you view most everything and in your confidence and that kinda thing"
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"value": "do you feel like therapy is useful"
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"value": "i'm sorry [laughter] repeat the question"
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"value": "do you feel like therapy is useful"
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"value": "uh peaceful do i feel peaceful well yeah i was peaceful that it that it's settled uh but but angry that it ever happened"
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"value": "the mention of it always makes me angry that i had to go through that yeah"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "could you have done anything to avoid it"
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"value": "i don't think so i tried everything to avoid it [laughter] you know and so uh"
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"value": "uh i think that's that was aggravating for me too because i'm a patient person realistic and um and i tried everything to avoid uh confrontation in the matter but it was just required to try to you know help me cover the damage to our lives my daughter's life"
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"value": "i uh not now maybe one time in my life not now you if you can't communicate uh you know if you could communicate you could overcome people's perceptions or their judgments of you if you can"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "what's one of your most memorable experiences"
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"value": "um"
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"value": "well just raising a daughter extendedly you know or or uh"
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"value": "you know just um the experience of thinking thinking that that was a after all the years that was a success her graduating from law school"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "how did you feel in that moment"
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"value": "uh just"
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"value": "like a lot of work had a good ending"
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"value": "uh you know happy glad that it was fulfilled wishes or or dreams for this child were fulfilled"
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"value": "you know that and she was able to make that success"
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"value": "that's great"
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"value": "when was the last time you felt really happy"
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"value": "wow um [laughter]"
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"value": "i i i tend to be kind of happy with life 'cause the alternative is gonna harm harm your you know your ability to succeed"
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"value": "so i try to force happiness i guess in in most every situation in my life route i find something about it uh when i lost some weight recently that made me really happy"
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"value": "wow"
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"value": "that's great"
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"value": "do you travel a lot"
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"value": "i travel a little bit locally i traveled more when i was younger i really enjoyed that but just been too busy in the last few years"
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"value": "yeah what do you enjoy about traveling"
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"value": "just new places um ability to take the worries we have every day work "
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"value": "or concerns and kind of put them away for a while and see something new "
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"value": "you know kind of the way"
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"value": "i'd love to hear about one of your trips"
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"value": "i'm going back to uh colorado san riosco went through vale and uh and spent the night there and um and it was just during spring when there aren't many skiiers and it was just beautiful and very quiet"
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"value": "a lot of restaurants with the decks and open in the mountains and it was beautiful"
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"value": "that sounds like a great situation"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "how would your best friend describe you"
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"value": "wow uh"
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"value": "okay what's the best thing about being a parent"
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"value": "um just seeing something that you're creating you're trying to create uh becomes something you hoped the picture would be you know if if that's the case"
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"value": "you know just hard work uh just fulfilled or or presented itself in a certain way that you know it makes you happy"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "how close are you to them"
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"value": "to my daughter um very [ver] pretty close she just had a baby she's in the bay area she send me pictures all the time"
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"value": "aww"
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"value": "that's great"
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"value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to"
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"value": "thanks for sharing your thoughts with me"
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"value": "okay"
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"value": "goodbye"
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