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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'm not a therapist but i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you i'll ask a few questions to get us started"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "are you okay with this"
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"value": "yes"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "okay so how are you doing today "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "i'm okay "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's good"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "where are you from originally "
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"value": "i'm from uh los angeles california originally "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "really"
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"value": "yes"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what are some things you really like about l_a"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "sunshine uh the weather's great "
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"value": "it's about it"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what are some things you don't really like about l_a"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "smog pollution crime"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "um "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "certain things like that yeah "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "okay "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "do you travel a lot "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "i did in one point in my life i was in the military so don't do hardly a lot of traveling no more "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what do you enjoy about traveling "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "seeing different sights different people i think it's more the people and"
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"value": "being around different types a city and the people <peop> see meeting different new people "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "yeah"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'd love to hear about one of your trips "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh <sigh> i traveled to uh "
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"value": "new york one time and uh"
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"value": "it was quite different big city "
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"value": "different people "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh that's about it "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "cool"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how old were you when you joined the military "
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"value": "eighteen "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "you were very young weren't you"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh yes i was <laughter> "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "did you ever see combat "
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"value": "uh no i did a lot of combat training but no combat "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "okay "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how did serving in the military change you "
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"value": "mm disciplined more uh"
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"value": "more motivated"
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"value": "uh you get a lot of things done more <laughter> even when you don't wanna do 'em"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "you know you just go back to your army days and you get motivated off the stuff that that that you really needed to get done but you didn't wanna do it but it got done"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "like what "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh like uh "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "you had to uh do a lot of cleaning"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh you had to wake up pretty early you had to do a lot of p_t you had to uh stay up to like two three o'clock in the morning you didn't wake back up until four or five"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that sucks"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "yes <y> uh <laughter> to a certain point yes "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what did you do after the military "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "after the military i joined the national guard and i did uh fifteen sixteen years in there uh i was"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what made you decide to do that "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh excuse me ma'am i didn't hear that <th> quite hear that"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what made you decide to do that "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh what made me decide to do that "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "just the motivation just you know really wanted a career see if i could find a career from it and it helped me out a little bit yeah "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's good "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "thank you "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "how easy was it for you to go back to civilian life "
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"value": "it wasn't that easy "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh i mean i'm sorry it was easy it didn't bother me too much to go back to civilian life "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "yeah it didn't bother me at all i just <ju> i adjusted pretty well "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "okay "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what'd you study at school "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh <sigh> history basically a lot um "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "yeah just basically history "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "are you still working in that "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "uh no i'm not i'm uh disabled"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "i'm sorry to hear that "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "oh no it's okay it's okay we can all i can heal i can get better hopefully i will "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's good "
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"value": "yes i try to keep a "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what's your dream job "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "excuse me ma'am"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what's your dream job "
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"value": "i guess i don't "
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"value": "my dream job would probably be"
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"value": "working with others working with young people working with kids seeing that they get the uh the right and proper uh uh education that's you know"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "that's due to them so they can be productive in the life of society as we live in today "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "yeah "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "yeah "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what do you think of today's kids "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "excuse me "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "what do you think of today's kids "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "<sigh>"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "what i think about 'em i think uh they should uh be more"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "more uh <sigh> xxx i mean they should they should <sh> participate <tapicitate> more in what they're doing in their lives they should ask more questions they should be more motivated to uh"
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"value": "really achieve something"
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"value": "within their lives to give them the mm to give them the confidence and the motivation they need in life"
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"value": "'cause a lot of 'em don't get it"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "hmm"
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"value": "<sigh> when i see people do really really stuff that they really shouldn't be doing "
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"value": "it really eeks me i mean really bothers me and when people"
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"value": "talk to you they give you the run-around it's like won't you just be straight with me instead of just giving me the the run-around <laughter> won't you just be straight up with me"
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"value": "that can be very frustrating"
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"value": "uh and really when people do really i'm trying to find the right word stupid stuff <laughter> that really botthers me too "
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"value": "can you give me an example of that "
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"value": "uh spray painting on the wall "
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"value": "uh"
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"value": "uh not really being uh you know not really being "
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"value": "hygiene you know taking care of yourself and being hygiene you know what i mean "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "what do you do when you're annoyed "
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"value": "<sigh> what i do when i'm annoyed uh i get really upset i really start really cussing people out to be honest with you"
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"value": "and it's something that's not really me"
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"value": "but uh i'm learning to"
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"value": "really let go of it a lot you know just you know just say hey that's the way it is it's like i'm not in control i can't control it"
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "yeah i have only have to control the things about what i do and really getting upset off of what other people do is not really good"
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"value": "it's not good for me"
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"value": "how are you at controlling your temper "
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"value": "oh my temper can be controlled i can control it pretty well "
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"value": "okay"
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"value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about "
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"value": "uh "
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"value": "i i don't know i think it probably was my sister"
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"value": "and she's very controlling and it's like you have your life and i have mine don't tell me what to do"
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "i understand "
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"value": "how close are you to your family "
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"value": "we real close i can get along with 'em we're real close i have no problems with them "
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"value": "that's good "
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"value": "yeah very good "
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"value": "when was the last time you felt really happy "
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"value": "uh "
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"value": "this morning <laughter> "
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"value": "yeah i wake up pretty you know i i first thing i do when i wake up in the morning i pray so"
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"value": "when my spirit's in connection"
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"value": "with the uh <sigh> the universe and the world i i feel pretty good "
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"value": "that's so good to hear "
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"value": "yes "
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"value": "how have you been feeling lately "
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"value": "uh <sigh> up and down you know"
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"value": "up because i'm motivated to get out and start doing other things in life than just not doing anything at all"
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"start_time": "557.97",
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"value": "and then other times where you wanna get something accomplished and you can't really get it done because there's road blocks in the way but uh"
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"value": "i'm learning how to uh overcome those road blocks as well"
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"value": "yeah "
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"start_time": "573.5",
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"value": "tell me more about that "
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"value": "uh "
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"value": "well for instance uh looking to go to school and i was having problems uh getting enrolled in school"
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"start_time": "585.19",
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"value": "i was talk to one of my social workers and she was willing to help me get online and uh to do it so i'm like okay it's well it's gonna get done <laughter>"
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"value": "that's great "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "have you noticed any changes in your behavior or thoughts lately "
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"value": "uh can you repeat that one more time ma'am "
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"value": "have you noticed any changes in your behavior or thoughts lately "
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"value": "uh yes i have "
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"value": "see i had to be"
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"value": "like what "
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"value": "uh <sigh> i'd say uh for the last couple of weeks uh"
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"value": "i noticed that i go through certain situations like you was talking about the anger situation it's like i don't get angry all the time that's not me so sometimes when i get angry i have to find out what's causing all this what's what's causing me to get angry "
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "and i have to take "
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"value": "how hard is that "
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"value": "excuse me ma'am "
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"value": "how hard is that "
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"value": "uh it's not hard at all 'cause alls you have to do is just take your time and reflect about everything uh that you have gone through and uh take a good look at the situation and uh"
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"value": "and then go from there and find out what's what's really bothering you "
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"value": "okay "
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"value": "how easy is it for you to get a good night's sleep "
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"value": "it's very seldom "
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"value": "uh i suffer from p_t_s_d and uh getting that type of sleep"
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"value": "would be would be great "
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"value": "because i have recurring nightmares so of a incident so "
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"value": "are they triggered by something "
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"value": "i i think it is and i don't know what it's triggered by but i think it is and that's why i'm talking to someone or seeing someone 'cause i'm a veteran "
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"value": "at the uh v_a about the situation now"
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"value": "about the p_t_s_d basically right now "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "what got you to seek help "
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"value": "excuse me ma'am "
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"value": "what got you to seek help "
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"value": "uh <sigh> a lot of nightmares lot of problems lot of anger issues uh depression"
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"value": "uh i noticed all this in me and uh"
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"value": "i started i just started to just tell myself i needed help "
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "and that's that's basically it i just you know i just you know i just something wasn't wrong with it something wasn't right with me "
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"start_time": "733.34",
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"value": "is going to a therapist helping you "
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"value": "and when something's not right with me i have to take time out to just you know take a good look at myself and ask myself if something's right then you if something's right then that's fine if something's not right then you need to take care of it "
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"value": "yeah"
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"value": "and uh i just started seeking help down there yeah "
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"value": "i understand"
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"value": "is going to a therapist helping you "
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"value": "somewhat yes it is somewhat "
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"value": "what sort of changes have you noticed since you've been going to therapy "
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"value": "'cause i'm able to sit down and talk to the therapist "
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"value": "well i'm able to sit down and talk to the therapist and uh tell 'em my situation and we usually will go over the problem"
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"value": "and uh"
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"value": "i went to classes i've been to uh uh talking one-on-one with my own doctor so it's helping out a little bit "
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"value": "that's good "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "do you have disturbing thoughts"
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"value": "it's a good thing"
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"value": "excuse me ma'am"
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"value": "no"
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"value": "no not really "
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"value": "okay "
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"value": "how would your best friend describe you "
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"value": "my best friend "
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "uh they he would describe me as a fun loving good person always there that try to help others uh "
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"value": "think more of others really than more of myself but when i know i need things need to be done for me i take care of it"
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"value": "so you know and they really actually they really look up to me they have a lot more respect for me"
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"value": "mhm"
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"value": "yeah they see something in me they wish that they had "
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"value": "do you consider yourself an introvert "
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"value": "excuse me ma'am"
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"value": "do you consider yourself an introvert "
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"value": "uh can you be a little bit more specific "
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"value": "let's come back to that later "
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"value": "oh okay "
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"value": "what do you do to relax "
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"value": "uh books crossword puzzles"
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"value": "that's about it "
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"value": "okay "
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"value": "is there anything you regret "
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"value": "i thought i did but i don't think i do i don't think i regret anything because "
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"value": "because if i regret anything in the past then i'm wasting my time on that because it's gone that's the past i need to move on i need to live in the present so i can be prepared for the future so i can move on to the future "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "mhm i see what you mean "
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"value": "yeah "
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"value": "what advice would you give yourself ten or twenty years ago "
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"value": "uh <sigh> more education uh "
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"value": "being more direct and more confidence in what i'm doing"
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"value": "like i am today so yeah that's what i was lacking maybe twenty years ago "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "okay "
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"value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life "
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"value": "uh yes <ye> yes i have had a lot of positive people been been in my life "
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"value": "can you give me an example of that "
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"value": "uh <sigh>"
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"value": "yeah some people would uh uh uh well consistently <cons> xxx i mean consistently motivate me"
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"value": "to continue and to pursue a certain goal and uh i thought that was pretty good because i really don't see that a lot"
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"value": "and uh"
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"value": "he gave me a lot of motivation to try to go up and try to do certain things 'cause anything that you do it's a choice it's up to you whether or not if you do it or not that choice is still up to you for it to be done "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "yeah "
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"value": "what are you most proud of in your life "
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"value": "excuse me ma'am "
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"value": "what are you most proud of in your life "
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"value": "uh <sigh>"
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"stop_time": "979.29",
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"value": "that i'm able to really be able to be self-motivated"
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"start_time": "980.01",
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"value": "and really be able to put my best foot forward and be able to get a lot of things accomplished which i thought i couldn't but it can be accomplished"
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"value": "if i'm willing enough to put the will to it to do it"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that's great "
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"value": "tell me about something you did recently that you really enjoyed "
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"value": "oh wow huh "
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"value": "oh really and you know what i really enjoyed"
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"value": "was sitting down with my social worker and we're talking about getting things done within my life"
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"value": "and school was one of 'em uh "
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"value": "and just being just school was one of 'em and i kinda liked it that because that was the first time someone was willing to really sit down with me and work with me "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "mhm"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "yeah and i thought that was a great thing so as long as you're willing to do that i'm willing to go even the extra mile and even be motivated to do other things besides school"
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "and uh yeah that and that and that's what gets me going"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "yeah "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "that sounds like a great situation "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "oh it is and i love it and uh this is going to be accomplished "
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to"
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "thanks for sharing your thoughts with me "
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "thank you "
},
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"speaker": "Ellie",
"value": "goodbye "
},
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"speaker": "Participant",
"value": "goodbye "
}
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