[ { "start_time": "48.58", "stop_time": "51.65", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today" }, { "start_time": "52.31", "stop_time": "55.79", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment " }, { "start_time": "56.48", "stop_time": "63.05", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm not a therapist but i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you i'll ask a few questions to get us started" }, { "start_time": "63.71", "stop_time": "68.35", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential" }, { "start_time": "68.94", "stop_time": "70.12", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are you okay with this" }, { "start_time": "70.6", "stop_time": "71.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "sure" }, { "start_time": "72.1", "stop_time": "72.56", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "73.49", "stop_time": "75.6", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "so how are you doing today" }, { "start_time": "76.21", "stop_time": "77.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm okay" }, { "start_time": "79.05", "stop_time": "79.68", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good" }, { "start_time": "81.03", "stop_time": "82.23", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "where are you from originally " }, { "start_time": "82.72", "stop_time": "83.69", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "los angeles" }, { "start_time": "84.56", "stop_time": "85.02", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "really" }, { "start_time": "86.47", "stop_time": "88.41", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "89.85", "stop_time": "90.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "92.59", "stop_time": "94.81", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well that's a good question" }, { "start_time": "95.84", "stop_time": "100.56", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i like the familiarity with everything i know where everything is in the city" }, { "start_time": "101.89", "stop_time": "102.38", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "103.74", "stop_time": "104.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm" }, { "start_time": "105.6", "stop_time": "107.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that's all i can say right now" }, { "start_time": "108.21", "stop_time": "108.73", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "109.42", "stop_time": "111.49", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you don't really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "112.1", "stop_time": "115.3", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so spread out so hard to get places " }, { "start_time": "118.08", "stop_time": "119", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i see what you mean" }, { "start_time": "123", "stop_time": "124.22", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "is there anything else" }, { "start_time": "125.03", "stop_time": "126.29", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's your dream job" }, { "start_time": "128.64", "stop_time": "129.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my dream job" }, { "start_time": "130.92", "stop_time": "132.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i don't think there is a dream job" }, { "start_time": "133.87", "stop_time": "134.45", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "135.6", "stop_time": "137.55", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "for me no there isn't one" }, { "start_time": "138.47", "stop_time": "139.33", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you do now" }, { "start_time": "139.56", "stop_time": "140.03", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm" }, { "start_time": "140.98", "stop_time": "144.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm uh sort of unemployed right now" }, { "start_time": "145.5", "stop_time": "146.57", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm sorry to hear that" }, { "start_time": "147.49", "stop_time": "148.7", "speaker": "Participant", "value": " so am i" }, { "start_time": "150.12", "stop_time": "150.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "" }, { "start_time": "150.2", "stop_time": "152.34", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "it can be tough to find a good job these days" }, { "start_time": "152.52", "stop_time": "153.42", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm that's true" }, { "start_time": "154.51", "stop_time": "155.77", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what'd you study at school" }, { "start_time": "155.97", "stop_time": "159.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": " i started i studied urban planning" }, { "start_time": "161.26", "stop_time": "162.36", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sounds interesting" }, { "start_time": "165.81", "stop_time": "167.97", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things that make you really mad" }, { "start_time": "170.07", "stop_time": "171.66", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well um" }, { "start_time": "173.01", "stop_time": "182.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i think this um school shooting thing and uh the n_r_a seeming to not wanna budge on this gun control issue thing" }, { "start_time": "183.89", "stop_time": "184.33", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "187.58", "stop_time": "187.99", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that's it" }, { "start_time": "188.07", "stop_time": "189.51", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you do when you're annoyed" }, { "start_time": "191.41", "stop_time": "192.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm" }, { "start_time": "193.28", "stop_time": "198.58", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i try to remove myself from that situation that's annoying me " }, { "start_time": "199.75", "stop_time": "201.69", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how are you at controlling your temper" }, { "start_time": "202.81", "stop_time": "205.31", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i've gotten better over the years um" }, { "start_time": "206.2", "stop_time": "213.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "most of the time i just try to um you know walk away or you know control my emotions in terms of" }, { "start_time": "214.63", "stop_time": "216.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you know just walking away" }, { "start_time": "218", "stop_time": "218.65", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good" }, { "start_time": "219.7", "stop_time": "221.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you do to relax" }, { "start_time": "222.44", "stop_time": "224.64", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm just watch t_v now" }, { "start_time": "227.69", "stop_time": "229.92", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's one of your most memorable experiences" }, { "start_time": "230.62", "stop_time": "231.24", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "hmm" }, { "start_time": "233.06", "stop_time": "234.94", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i would say my children being born" }, { "start_time": "237.23", "stop_time": "238.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "tell me more about that" }, { "start_time": "241.02", "stop_time": "246.18", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i have four children um each birth was speical and um " }, { "start_time": "247.39", "stop_time": "250.8", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you know it was a unique experience each time" }, { "start_time": "253.55", "stop_time": "254.31", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great" }, { "start_time": "256.87", "stop_time": "258.51", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you find it easy to be a parent" }, { "start_time": "259.98", "stop_time": "263.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well it's a lot easier now because they're all adults um" }, { "start_time": "264.31", "stop_time": "266.27", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "but you know it was challenging" }, { "start_time": "268.14", "stop_time": "269.95", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's the best thing about being a parent" }, { "start_time": "271.35", "stop_time": "275.21", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i would say seeing your children grow up to be successful" }, { "start_time": "276.11", "stop_time": "279.06", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and exceeding your expectations" }, { "start_time": "280.74", "stop_time": "282.82", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's the hardest thing about being a parent" }, { "start_time": "283.29", "stop_time": "285.52", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you worry all the time you worry for 'em" }, { "start_time": "286.63", "stop_time": "290.32", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you know now i'm not around them as much and i certainly worry about 'em" }, { "start_time": "291.69", "stop_time": "292.66", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that makes sense" }, { "start_time": "295.39", "stop_time": "296.95", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time that happened" }, { "start_time": "298.15", "stop_time": "299.28", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that i saw my children " }, { "start_time": "301.48", "stop_time": "301.95", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yes" }, { "start_time": "302.84", "stop_time": "304.37", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "oh about a week ago" }, { "start_time": "306.32", "stop_time": "308.15", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how did you feel in that moment" }, { "start_time": "308.87", "stop_time": "309.65", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm usually" }, { "start_time": "310.8", "stop_time": "312.31", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "pretty happy when i see 'em" }, { "start_time": "313.13", "stop_time": "314.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you know i have interest" }, { "start_time": "313.78", "stop_time": "314.53", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great" }, { "start_time": "314.55", "stop_time": "314.89", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "316.09", "stop_time": "316.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "" }, { "start_time": "317.19", "stop_time": "320.17", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about" }, { "start_time": "320.59", "stop_time": "321.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm" }, { "start_time": "323.02", "stop_time": "324.65", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my girlfriend and" }, { "start_time": "325.66", "stop_time": "326.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "insignificant" }, { "start_time": "330.93", "stop_time": "331.42", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "332.8", "stop_time": "333.91", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you travel a lot" }, { "start_time": "334.07", "stop_time": "334.4", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no" }, { "start_time": "335.65", "stop_time": "337.81", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "around l_a maybe but that's about it " }, { "start_time": "339.55", "stop_time": "340.51", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why why" }, { "start_time": "339.58", "stop_time": "340.81", "speaker": "Participant", "value": " excuse me" }, { "start_time": "343.14", "stop_time": "343.49", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why" }, { "start_time": "344.83", "stop_time": "345.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "why don't i travel" }, { "start_time": "346.71", "stop_time": "349.09", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i don't have the funds to do that anymore" }, { "start_time": "346.82", "stop_time": "347.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yes" }, { "start_time": "350.33", "stop_time": "351.15", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "or the health" }, { "start_time": "352.5", "stop_time": "352.96", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "355.18", "stop_time": "356.75", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever served in the military" }, { "start_time": "357.04", "stop_time": "357.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no" }, { "start_time": "359.48", "stop_time": "361.38", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever been diagnosed with p_t_s_d" }, { "start_time": "361.73", "stop_time": "362.13", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no" }, { "start_time": "363.04", "stop_time": "364.92", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you been diagnosed with depression" }, { "start_time": "364.94", "stop_time": "365.38", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes" }, { "start_time": "366.61", "stop_time": "368.31", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how long ago were you diagnosed" }, { "start_time": "368.57", "stop_time": "370", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm i'd say about a year" }, { "start_time": "371.93", "stop_time": "373.29", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what got you to seek help" }, { "start_time": "374.58", "stop_time": "377.69", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um recognizing that there were some things in me that" }, { "start_time": "378.9", "stop_time": "379.72", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that were wrong" }, { "start_time": "381.35", "stop_time": "383.47", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "did you think you had a problem before you found out" }, { "start_time": "384.57", "stop_time": "387.7", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i knew that there was something wrong 'cause i wasn't myself" }, { "start_time": "389", "stop_time": "390.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what were your symptoms" }, { "start_time": "391.62", "stop_time": "392.87", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well you know i was" }, { "start_time": "393.8", "stop_time": "394.92", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "always tired and" }, { "start_time": "396.72", "stop_time": "399.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "not excited about things anymore and" }, { "start_time": "400.02", "stop_time": "402.67", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "kinda lethargic you know laying around and" }, { "start_time": "404.08", "stop_time": "406.09", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "just not feeling myself " }, { "start_time": "407.01", "stop_time": "407.31", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mm" }, { "start_time": "407.76", "stop_time": "409.15", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how have you been feeling lately" }, { "start_time": "409.67", "stop_time": "410.99", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm about the same" }, { "start_time": "412.84", "stop_time": "413.84", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm sorry to hear that" }, { "start_time": "415.54", "stop_time": "416.96", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you still go to therapy now" }, { "start_time": "417.96", "stop_time": "419.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes i do once a month" }, { "start_time": "420.59", "stop_time": "421.92", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you feel like therapy's useful" }, { "start_time": "423.51", "stop_time": "424.98", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah i do i do" }, { "start_time": "428.09", "stop_time": "429.22", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "can you tell me about that" }, { "start_time": "431.13", "stop_time": "435.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well it's you know it's you know i see a psychologist and um" }, { "start_time": "436.09", "stop_time": "443.43", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "we talk about things um i don't really wanna elaborate in detail but you know it's it i seem to think that it's helpful " }, { "start_time": "444.74", "stop_time": "447.67", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what sort of changes have you noticed since you've been going to therapy" }, { "start_time": "449.59", "stop_time": "451.1", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i i think um " }, { "start_time": "455.2", "stop_time": "457.43", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that's a hard question let's move on please" }, { "start_time": "458.38", "stop_time": "458.91", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "459.74", "stop_time": "461.43", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are you like when you don't sleep well" }, { "start_time": "462.9", "stop_time": "463.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "irritable" }, { "start_time": "464.66", "stop_time": "465.14", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "cranky " }, { "start_time": "468.65", "stop_time": "470.06", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sounds really hard" }, { "start_time": "471.74", "stop_time": "473.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah it is" }, { "start_time": "474.48", "stop_time": "477.04", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you felt really happy" }, { "start_time": "477.55", "stop_time": "482.45", "speaker": "Participant", "value": " ooh that's a good question it's been awhile i'd say" }, { "start_time": "483.92", "stop_time": "485.15", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "year and a half maybe" }, { "start_time": "486.81", "stop_time": "488.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "could you say a little more about that" }, { "start_time": "489.15", "stop_time": "489.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "hmm" }, { "start_time": "491.08", "stop_time": "495.87", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well there's been a lot going on in my life you know i just lost my parent my dad my last parent" }, { "start_time": "496.79", "stop_time": "498.79", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "just a lot of stuff going on so" }, { "start_time": "500.27", "stop_time": "501.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'll leave it at that" }, { "start_time": "502.35", "stop_time": "503.24", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i see what you mean" }, { "start_time": "505.57", "stop_time": "508.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things that usually put you in a good mood" }, { "start_time": "508.97", "stop_time": "509.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "hmm" }, { "start_time": "510.54", "stop_time": "512.79", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i still like sports you know and" }, { "start_time": "513.9", "stop_time": "516.81", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um watching a good game or something is" }, { "start_time": "517.75", "stop_time": "521.86", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "usually puts me in a good mood particularly if my team wins you know i like u_s_c" }, { "start_time": "522.63", "stop_time": "527.61", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i have a nephew that's um freshman football player at u_s_c" }, { "start_time": "528.37", "stop_time": "532.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and uh i've been a trojan football fan for forty years so" }, { "start_time": "533.2", "stop_time": "533.97", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "nice" }, { "start_time": "534.03", "stop_time": "534.42", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "535.48", "stop_time": "536.26", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "hmm" }, { "start_time": "537.35", "stop_time": "539.61", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what would you say are some of your best qualities " }, { "start_time": "540.64", "stop_time": "543.93", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i you know i think i i listen well and um" }, { "start_time": "545.56", "stop_time": "546.08", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you know i'm" }, { "start_time": "546.85", "stop_time": "548.06", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "pretty much honest and" }, { "start_time": "548.83", "stop_time": "549.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "straightforward" }, { "start_time": "551.74", "stop_time": "553.3", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how would your best friend describe you" }, { "start_time": "555.19", "stop_time": "558.07", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that's a good question i don't know you would have to ask her" }, { "start_time": "559.64", "stop_time": "560.14", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "562.19", "stop_time": "564.57", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life" }, { "start_time": "565.14", "stop_time": "566.25", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "definitely my mother" }, { "start_time": "567.58", "stop_time": "571.69", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "but she's deceased now she's been deceased ten years but she was definitely" }, { "start_time": "572.66", "stop_time": "575.03", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "positive influence my entire life" }, { "start_time": "577.28", "stop_time": "578.57", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's so good to hear" }, { "start_time": "583.33", "stop_time": "584.4", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "is there anything you regret" }, { "start_time": "586.4", "stop_time": "589.97", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no i have many regrets too many to name and number" }, { "start_time": "591.48", "stop_time": "598.56", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "but um you know it's you know you have the the benefit of hindsight and yeah i have a lot of regrets " }, { "start_time": "600.98", "stop_time": "603.91", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what advice would you give yourself ten or twenty years ago" }, { "start_time": "605.15", "stop_time": "605.7", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "hmm" }, { "start_time": "608.34", "stop_time": "610.49", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "to listen to the older people in my life" }, { "start_time": "611.37", "stop_time": "616.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "the people who cared about me the people who only interest was to guide me in the right direction " }, { "start_time": "619.6", "stop_time": "620.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "622.89", "stop_time": "624.67", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are you most proud of in your life" }, { "start_time": "630.08", "stop_time": "633.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "like i said my kids i'm very proud of 'em" }, { "start_time": "640.43", "stop_time": "642.72", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to" }, { "start_time": "643.51", "stop_time": "645.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "thanks for sharing your thoughts with me" }, { "start_time": "645.38", "stop_time": "646.59", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "sure my pleasure" }, { "start_time": "647.34", "stop_time": "647.86", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "goodbye" }, { "start_time": "648.03", "stop_time": "648.37", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "bye" } ]