[ { "start_time": "27.88", "stop_time": "30.89", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today" }, { "start_time": "31.57", "stop_time": "34.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment " }, { "start_time": "35.89", "stop_time": "42.23", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm not a therapist but i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you i'll ask a few questions to get us started" }, { "start_time": "42.96", "stop_time": "47.61", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential" }, { "start_time": "48.2", "stop_time": "49.33", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are you okay with this " }, { "start_time": "49.48", "stop_time": "49.88", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes " }, { "start_time": "50.9", "stop_time": "51.32", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "51.95", "stop_time": "53.91", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "so how are you doing today " }, { "start_time": "54.84", "stop_time": "55.25", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "56.53", "stop_time": "57.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "59.67", "stop_time": "60.82", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "where are you from originally" }, { "start_time": "61.36", "stop_time": "61.88", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "connecticut" }, { "start_time": "63.27", "stop_time": "63.64", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "really" }, { "start_time": "65.01", "stop_time": "65.88", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why'd you move to l_a" }, { "start_time": "66.62", "stop_time": "67.09", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "68.23", "stop_time": "69.61", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "to be an actor " }, { "start_time": "70.98", "stop_time": "72.34", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how did you decide to do that " }, { "start_time": "73.92", "stop_time": "81.83", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i moved to san francisco in ninety four and then i moved to atlanta in ninety six and then i moved out here to be an actor and i became a realtor instead " }, { "start_time": "84.86", "stop_time": "85.86", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's your dream job " }, { "start_time": "87.37", "stop_time": "89.7", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um to be on a t_v show an actor " }, { "start_time": "91.38", "stop_time": "92.28", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how hard is that " }, { "start_time": "93.02", "stop_time": "95.93", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "it's pretty hard to get discovered and uh " }, { "start_time": "97.11", "stop_time": "100.48", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you have to be lucky and you have to know the right people and you have to be talented " }, { "start_time": "101.32", "stop_time": "101.7", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "102.73", "stop_time": "103.53", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sucks " }, { "start_time": "103.96", "stop_time": "104.66", "speaker": "Participant", "value": " yeah " }, { "start_time": "105.9", "stop_time": "106.78", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you travel a lot" }, { "start_time": "107.57", "stop_time": "117.11", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "not really no i don't travel that much i used to move um every couple years to a different city and then i've been here for a while so i don't travel much" }, { "start_time": "117.33", "stop_time": "117.76", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "118.8", "stop_time": "120.62", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "121.71", "stop_time": "122.34", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "the weather" }, { "start_time": "122.96", "stop_time": "125.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um there's always something to do" }, { "start_time": "126.24", "stop_time": "127.22", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and um" }, { "start_time": "129", "stop_time": "130.82", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that's pretty much it " }, { "start_time": "130.85", "stop_time": "131.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "132.15", "stop_time": "134.05", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you don't really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "135.08", "stop_time": "135.7", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "136.35", "stop_time": "139.07", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "the people here tend to be a little more rude" }, { "start_time": "139.93", "stop_time": "143.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and um it's just always a fast pace " }, { "start_time": "144.61", "stop_time": "146.28", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah i see what you mean " }, { "start_time": "147.54", "stop_time": "150.04", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how easy was it for you to get used to living in l_a" }, { "start_time": "151.54", "stop_time": "158.67", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well when i moved here i was twenty five so it was a lot more fun because when you're young in the city you can have a lot of fun " }, { "start_time": "159.7", "stop_time": "168.34", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and then i got into the real estate and did really well for a while and then the market crashed and so now i'm old and i'm not making any money so times are tough " }, { "start_time": "169.85", "stop_time": "170.14", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "aw" }, { "start_time": "170.14", "stop_time": "171.07", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm sorry to hear that " }, { "start_time": "173.82", "stop_time": "175.34", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you consider yourself an introvert" }, { "start_time": "176.5", "stop_time": "179.48", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no no i'm much much of more more of an extrovert " }, { "start_time": "181.67", "stop_time": "182.09", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "184.59", "stop_time": "186.58", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things that make you really mad" }, { "start_time": "188.34", "stop_time": "188.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "189.73", "stop_time": "193.13", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "when i don't get what i want and um " }, { "start_time": "194.07", "stop_time": "194.88", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "rude people " }, { "start_time": "195.7", "stop_time": "197.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and um " }, { "start_time": "198.71", "stop_time": "200.01", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "just inconsiderate people " }, { "start_time": "201.14", "stop_time": "201.57", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "203.47", "stop_time": "205.39", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how are you at controlling your temper " }, { "start_time": "207.1", "stop_time": "219.24", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm pretty good um at controlling my temper when i'm not uh like if i if i drink alcohol it'll make my temper go worse but uh when i don't drink i'm pretty good at controlling my temper " }, { "start_time": "220.77", "stop_time": "221.11", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "222.4", "stop_time": "225.37", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about " }, { "start_time": "226.32", "stop_time": "229.24", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh the last time i argued with somebody was " }, { "start_time": "230.79", "stop_time": "232.03", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "somebody that owed me money " }, { "start_time": "236.73", "stop_time": "237.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "238.88", "stop_time": "239.48", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "where do you live " }, { "start_time": "240.42", "stop_time": "242.18", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh i live uh in west hollywood " }, { "start_time": "243.46", "stop_time": "243.79", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "cool " }, { "start_time": "244.66", "stop_time": "245.76", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you have roommates " }, { "start_time": "246.14", "stop_time": "248.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no no no i live alone i have a dog" }, { "start_time": "250.25", "stop_time": "250.72", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "aw" }, { "start_time": "252.28", "stop_time": "253.77", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how do you like your living situation " }, { "start_time": "255.15", "stop_time": "267.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "it's good i mean i don't like my neighbors i hate my neighbors but the ones upstairs just moved out so that's good news hopefully the ones that move in are not that noisy and the ones below i just can't stand because they argue with me " }, { "start_time": "266.52", "stop_time": "266.85", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why " }, { "start_time": "268.7", "stop_time": "268.96", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "huh" }, { "start_time": "269.95", "stop_time": "272.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "why because they 'cause my hardwood floors they say that" }, { "start_time": "273.36", "stop_time": "278.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "eh i've been there for ten years and they still argue about the noise of me walking on my hardwood floors " }, { "start_time": "279.31", "stop_time": "279.53", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "oh " }, { "start_time": "280.9", "stop_time": "282.22", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sounds really hard " }, { "start_time": "282.79", "stop_time": "283.12", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "284.79", "stop_time": "287.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life " }, { "start_time": "288.17", "stop_time": "288.97", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "what was the question " }, { "start_time": "290.41", "stop_time": "292.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life " }, { "start_time": "293.09", "stop_time": "296.39", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my mother has been a very positive influence she's always kept me on track" }, { "start_time": "297.08", "stop_time": "301.86", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "she lived with me for the last ten years until she recently moved to rhode island to live with my brother" }, { "start_time": "303.23", "stop_time": "303.55", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "wow" }, { "start_time": "306.96", "stop_time": "308.41", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how close are you to your family " }, { "start_time": "310.03", "stop_time": "317.08", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "very close to my mother um not so close with my brother mm we're close but we're not like close close" }, { "start_time": "317.74", "stop_time": "318.05", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "uh huh" }, { "start_time": "318", "stop_time": "318.4", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "319.15", "stop_time": "323.23", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so i mean we love each other we just don't really understand each other all the time " }, { "start_time": "324.36", "stop_time": "324.83", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "325.3", "stop_time": "326.06", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i understand" }, { "start_time": "328.82", "stop_time": "330.31", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how would your best friend describe you " }, { "start_time": "332.57", "stop_time": "334.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "outgoing um" }, { "start_time": "335.19", "stop_time": "336.06", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "life of the party " }, { "start_time": "337.55", "stop_time": "339.39", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "ambitious um " }, { "start_time": "342.02", "stop_time": "343.21", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and sometimes cut-throat " }, { "start_time": "348.03", "stop_time": "349.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are you most proud of in your life " }, { "start_time": "351.51", "stop_time": "354.5", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um what am i most proud of " }, { "start_time": "356.95", "stop_time": "361.74", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "being always able to get through the things i need to get through to get to where i wanna be" }, { "start_time": "363.85", "stop_time": "364.59", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great " }, { "start_time": "369.55", "stop_time": "371.67", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what would you say are some of your best qualities " }, { "start_time": "372.94", "stop_time": "375.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm generous i'm loyal" }, { "start_time": "375.9", "stop_time": "376.96", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh i'm friendly" }, { "start_time": "377.71", "stop_time": "378.7", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm accommodating" }, { "start_time": "379.62", "stop_time": "380.95", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and um " }, { "start_time": "383.19", "stop_time": "383.77", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "that's about it " }, { "start_time": "384.76", "stop_time": "385.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "386.13", "stop_time": "387.56", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever served in the military " }, { "start_time": "387.9", "stop_time": "388.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no" }, { "start_time": "388.97", "stop_time": "390.83", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever been diagnosed with p_t_s_d" }, { "start_time": "391.33", "stop_time": "391.83", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes " }, { "start_time": "393", "stop_time": "394.68", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how long ago were you diagnosed " }, { "start_time": "395.21", "stop_time": "397.75", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh about four years ago " }, { "start_time": "399.77", "stop_time": "401.04", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what got you to seek help " }, { "start_time": "402.5", "stop_time": "406.89", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i well i had i was beaten up and i had uh identity theft" }, { "start_time": "407.76", "stop_time": "416", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and uh you know i was just afraid to go out so i needed to get over that so after spending one year in in my home without leaving" }, { "start_time": "416.76", "stop_time": "421.8", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um and just depressed all the time i i said i have to get out and start talking to people and so i did " }, { "start_time": "422.46", "stop_time": "424.32", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah i'm sorry to hear that " }, { "start_time": "424.74", "stop_time": "425.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thank you " }, { "start_time": "426.85", "stop_time": "428.15", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how have you been feeling lately " }, { "start_time": "429.35", "stop_time": "432.75", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um okay i'm panicky about the job situation " }, { "start_time": "433.69", "stop_time": "438.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um you know 'cause my bills are pretty high and i don't really have a steady income right now " }, { "start_time": "439.4", "stop_time": "439.78", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "uh huh" }, { "start_time": "440.09", "stop_time": "444.76", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so uh that's what's worrying me the most is my uh financial situation " }, { "start_time": "446.93", "stop_time": "448.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sounds really hard " }, { "start_time": "449.03", "stop_time": "449.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "450.57", "stop_time": "453.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you noticed any changes in your behavior or thoughts lately " }, { "start_time": "455.15", "stop_time": "455.58", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "457.58", "stop_time": "458.64", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah i mean " }, { "start_time": "461.21", "stop_time": "467.71", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well basically it's like um i just recently quit drinking all together so i don't drink anymore so i'm noticing " }, { "start_time": "467.11", "stop_time": "467.83", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great " }, { "start_time": "468.1", "stop_time": "472.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah i mean it's good 'cause of number one i don't have the money and number two i don't like the way i act when i drink " }, { "start_time": "473.65", "stop_time": "474.03", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "473.84", "stop_time": "481.61", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um so so that's a positive thing but well the when i was drinking it helped me just forget and numb myself" }, { "start_time": "482.27", "stop_time": "488.08", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "now i have to feel through the feelings which is pretty good 'cause i can talk my way through them so i guess i'm evolving " }, { "start_time": "489.71", "stop_time": "490.26", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "492.32", "stop_time": "493.98", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you been diagnosed with depression " }, { "start_time": "494.6", "stop_time": "500.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh yeah a long time ago um you know i've taken many medications here and there and um" }, { "start_time": "501", "stop_time": "503.75", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "they really some of 'em would numb me some of them would " }, { "start_time": "504.57", "stop_time": "514.17", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "make me feel hyper so i've recently decided to in the last six months three to six months just to not take anything so i don't take anything i barely even take an aspirin " }, { "start_time": "515.77", "stop_time": "518.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "just to get my body to a to get my body to a normal state " }, { "start_time": "516.21", "stop_time": "517.1", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how hard is that" }, { "start_time": "519.93", "stop_time": "520.27", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "520.72", "stop_time": "522.76", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "did you think you had a problem before you found out " }, { "start_time": "525.31", "stop_time": "526.38", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um not really " }, { "start_time": "527.61", "stop_time": "528.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what were your symptoms " }, { "start_time": "530.18", "stop_time": "540.29", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "always worrying just a lot of worrying always worrying worrying worrying about everything oh what happens if i get in car accident what happens if i can't pay my mortgage what happens if i" }, { "start_time": "541.27", "stop_time": "545.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "eh eh just so many things i worry about and that's what was making me depressed" }, { "start_time": "547.48", "stop_time": "547.83", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "552.62", "stop_time": "553.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you feel like therapy's useful " }, { "start_time": "555.25", "stop_time": "555.82", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i do" }, { "start_time": "556.55", "stop_time": "557.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "at some point i've had" }, { "start_time": "558.64", "stop_time": "560.93", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "some good therapists and i've had some bad therapists " }, { "start_time": "561.5", "stop_time": "564.05", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i tend to like the ones that talk back to me" }, { "start_time": "564.67", "stop_time": "568.3", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and kinda give me some guidance as opposed to the ones that just listen " }, { "start_time": "568.89", "stop_time": "569.27", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "569.32", "stop_time": "577.87", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "and then they just say okay your time's up so and just prescribe me medication so i think i'd be better with a psychiatrist psychologist as opposed to a psychiatrist" }, { "start_time": "578.35", "stop_time": "579.76", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah i see what you mean " }, { "start_time": "581.15", "stop_time": "583.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what sort of changes have you noticed since you've been going to therapy" }, { "start_time": "584.81", "stop_time": "585.22", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "586.01", "stop_time": "587.82", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i'm not going to therapy now but " }, { "start_time": "588.99", "stop_time": "590.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "the therapy that i had before um " }, { "start_time": "591.99", "stop_time": "596.77", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "was more like people trying to uh just come in and check in and give me medication" }, { "start_time": "597.52", "stop_time": "605.87", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i have had other therapy where i was back and forth like okay well this is what i think about this and you think about this and that kind of therapy is better " }, { "start_time": "606.6", "stop_time": "606.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mm" }, { "start_time": "607.65", "stop_time": "608.29", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why did you stop " }, { "start_time": "609.18", "stop_time": "610.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i just" }, { "start_time": "611.39", "stop_time": "613.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i wasn't getting the right therapists recently" }, { "start_time": "614.67", "stop_time": "620.28", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so um and i knew the the root of my problem was the drinking 'cause it's a depressant so " }, { "start_time": "620.48", "stop_time": "620.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "621.49", "stop_time": "628.84", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "mm you know stopping the drinking is definitely made me have a much clearer mind and just to work through things myself you know " }, { "start_time": "630.47", "stop_time": "630.78", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "631.67", "stop_time": "632.07", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "635.48", "stop_time": "638.56", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "tell me about something you did recently that you really enjoyed " }, { "start_time": "640.08", "stop_time": "640.78", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "643.45", "stop_time": "645.11", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i can't really think of anything right now " }, { "start_time": "647.01", "stop_time": "647.39", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "648.74", "stop_time": "651.17", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you felt really happy " }, { "start_time": "653.18", "stop_time": "653.81", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "655.87", "stop_time": "659.47", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "it's been a long time i can't really think about a time when i felt really happy " }, { "start_time": "661.99", "stop_time": "663.04", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm sorry to hear that " }, { "start_time": "664", "stop_time": "665.58", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thank you " }, { "start_time": "666.52", "stop_time": "668.7", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's one of your most memorable experiences " }, { "start_time": "670.51", "stop_time": "671.24", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "674.72", "stop_time": "675.78", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "okay when i was a kid" }, { "start_time": "676.56", "stop_time": "677.01", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "677.99", "stop_time": "682.72", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i had a a little dog and this big dog came and and attacked it and killed it " }, { "start_time": "683.73", "stop_time": "686.56", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so then a little while later my father " }, { "start_time": "687.97", "stop_time": "693.35", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "came and he says to my brother and me we were kids go to the car there's two packages in the car so go get them " }, { "start_time": "694.42", "stop_time": "701.12", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so i was like yeah yeah yeah yeah 'cause i never listened to my parents so i was just like a spoiled brat but finally he said go to the car what's that " }, { "start_time": "699.59", "stop_time": "700.27", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "" }, { "start_time": "702.23", "stop_time": "702.88", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": " " }, { "start_time": "703.09", "stop_time": "713.41", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "oh okay he said go to the car and get this out of the car so i finally went and when i opened the door there was a new dog and a bag of dog food so that's one of my memorable esperiences " }, { "start_time": "711.79", "stop_time": "712.12", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "wow" }, { "start_time": "714.46", "stop_time": "715.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great " }, { "start_time": "715.79", "stop_time": "717.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah 'cause i'm an animal lover so " }, { "start_time": "719.35", "stop_time": "719.67", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "720.87", "stop_time": "721.89", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "is there anything you regret " }, { "start_time": "723.79", "stop_time": "724.25", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "724.93", "stop_time": "727.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "just the way that i've treated people before when" }, { "start_time": "728.5", "stop_time": "731.15", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i was hurting i was really mean or rude to people" }, { "start_time": "731.92", "stop_time": "740.15", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "when i felt like you know i was hurting i had to hurt everybody around me so um but when ever since i stopped the drinking i don't do that anymore so " }, { "start_time": "735.79", "stop_time": "736.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "741.43", "stop_time": "751.37", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so i think the problem is is the drinking and so now that i've let that go uh 'cause i was doing it for the wrong reasons you know i was doing it to not not feel i wasn't doing it to be sociable " }, { "start_time": "741.49", "stop_time": "742.06", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good" }, { "start_time": "752.12", "stop_time": "752.46", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "754.49", "stop_time": "757.32", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what advice would you give yourself ten or twenty years ago " }, { "start_time": "759.01", "stop_time": "762.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "get in a career that is really stable " }, { "start_time": "763.45", "stop_time": "767.1", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "like uh eh you know like a a doctor or a nurse or an attorney" }, { "start_time": "767.64", "stop_time": "777.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "something that you know or in advertising i should've gone into that a sales position is it could be very well and very good or very bad so" }, { "start_time": "777.79", "stop_time": "784.47", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you always have to be on it in sales you can make a ton of money in sales but when you make your money save your money don't go spend it on extravagant things " }, { "start_time": "785.11", "stop_time": "785.5", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "785.89", "stop_time": "786.66", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that makes sense " }, { "start_time": "788.47", "stop_time": "791.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things that usually put you in a good mood " }, { "start_time": "793.01", "stop_time": "797", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um when i have a job when i when i'm able to work " }, { "start_time": "797.91", "stop_time": "799.96", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh when i'm helping other people " }, { "start_time": "801.18", "stop_time": "807.23", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh when other people around me are happy and laughing when i can make people laugh that that puts me in a good mood " }, { "start_time": "808.17", "stop_time": "808.97", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great " }, { "start_time": "810.62", "stop_time": "812.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to" }, { "start_time": "813.05", "stop_time": "814.41", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "okay thank you " }, { "start_time": "813.99", "stop_time": "815.47", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "thanks for sharing your thoughts with me " }, { "start_time": "815.91", "stop_time": "816.76", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you're welcome thank you " }, { "start_time": "817.5", "stop_time": "817.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "goodbye " }, { "start_time": "818.11", "stop_time": "818.51", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "bye " } ]