[ { "start_time": "25.51", "stop_time": "32.59", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment " }, { "start_time": "33.52", "stop_time": "39.97", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm not a therapist but i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you i'll ask a few questions to get us started" }, { "start_time": "40.59", "stop_time": "45.33", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential" }, { "start_time": "45.86", "stop_time": "46.98", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are you okay with this " }, { "start_time": "47.29", "stop_time": "47.78", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes " }, { "start_time": "48.27", "stop_time": "48.7", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "49.44", "stop_time": "51.41", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "so how are you doing today " }, { "start_time": "52.06", "stop_time": "53.01", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm doing fine " }, { "start_time": "53.69", "stop_time": "54.3", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "55.24", "stop_time": "56.45", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "where are you from originally " }, { "start_time": "56.94", "stop_time": "58.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm from los angeles california " }, { "start_time": "59.37", "stop_time": "59.85", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "really" }, { "start_time": "60.5", "stop_time": "62.45", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "63.39", "stop_time": "66.37", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow wonderful weather um" }, { "start_time": "67.26", "stop_time": "69.38", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "outdoor activities all the time" }, { "start_time": "71.01", "stop_time": "73.05", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you don't really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "73.4", "stop_time": "75", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "too crowded pollution " }, { "start_time": "76.4", "stop_time": "76.98", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "the norm " }, { "start_time": "78.05", "stop_time": "79.6", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah i see what you mean " }, { "start_time": "80.86", "stop_time": "82.03", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what'd you study at school " }, { "start_time": "83.07", "stop_time": "85.82", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i studied child communications" }, { "start_time": "86.6", "stop_time": "87.66", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are you still working in that " }, { "start_time": "88.72", "stop_time": "91.24", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um recently i just" }, { "start_time": "91.9", "stop_time": "92.76", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i would say yes" }, { "start_time": "94.28", "stop_time": "95.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you do now" }, { "start_time": "96.03", "stop_time": "96.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "preschool teacher " }, { "start_time": "98.68", "stop_time": "99.29", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "aw" }, { "start_time": "100.47", "stop_time": "101.79", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how did you decide to do that " }, { "start_time": "102.77", "stop_time": "108.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i've always worked with children ever since i was eighteen years old so i figured" }, { "start_time": "109.65", "stop_time": "114.67", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "doing something helping someone it doesn't pay well but you're investing in the future " }, { "start_time": "115.52", "stop_time": "115.96", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "117.77", "stop_time": "118.88", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's your dream job " }, { "start_time": "119.8", "stop_time": "127.09", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow some job that i could get paid to be outside all day get paid well to be outside all day " }, { "start_time": "128.33", "stop_time": "128.7", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "130.48", "stop_time": "131.99", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you consider yourself an introvert " }, { "start_time": "132.73", "stop_time": "133.25", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes " }, { "start_time": "134.24", "stop_time": "134.6", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why" }, { "start_time": "136.51", "stop_time": "149.15", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm kinda quiet but i also like i probably would say borderline i like outside activities but i mainly kinda do um activities probably by myself so yeah i would say i'm an introvert" }, { "start_time": "150.03", "stop_time": "150.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "slightly" }, { "start_time": "150.08", "stop_time": "150.55", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "152.71", "stop_time": "154.84", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things that make you really mad " }, { "start_time": "156.62", "stop_time": "162.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh wow just um maybe a racist or disrespectful person" }, { "start_time": "164.88", "stop_time": "166.26", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you do when you're annoyed " }, { "start_time": "168.21", "stop_time": "179.1", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i kinda shut down and and reevaluate how i am as a person how i'm coming off to other people i can't change anyone else's personality but i can work on my own " }, { "start_time": "179.75", "stop_time": "180.19", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "uh huh " }, { "start_time": "181.29", "stop_time": "183.16", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how are you at controlling your temper " }, { "start_time": "183.69", "stop_time": "184.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm pretty good " }, { "start_time": "186.07", "stop_time": "186.69", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good" }, { "start_time": "187.1", "stop_time": "190.05", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about " }, { "start_time": "190.68", "stop_time": "195.06", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i usually don't argue with people i usually walk away i mean a argument doesn't settle anything " }, { "start_time": "196.99", "stop_time": "197.39", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "198.77", "stop_time": "199.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "is there anything you regret " }, { "start_time": "201.31", "stop_time": "208.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow it's a lot of things i regret but it's not anything that i can control probably the biggest regret was losing my mother " }, { "start_time": "210.13", "stop_time": "211.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm sorry to hear that " }, { "start_time": "211.51", "stop_time": "211.99", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thank you " }, { "start_time": "213.1", "stop_time": "214.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how close are you to them " }, { "start_time": "215.35", "stop_time": "221.46", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i was extremely close to my mother that was who i am as a person who made me as a person " }, { "start_time": "224.35", "stop_time": "227.12", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what advice would you give yourself ten or twenty years ago " }, { "start_time": "228.33", "stop_time": "234.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow twenty ten years ago i would tell myself not to be so angry so " }, { "start_time": "236.33", "stop_time": "241.61", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "upset all the time about things i can't control i would tell myself to relax and" }, { "start_time": "242.56", "stop_time": "244.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "not be so hard on myself " }, { "start_time": "245.7", "stop_time": "246.19", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "247.08", "stop_time": "248.49", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you think of today's kids " }, { "start_time": "249.19", "stop_time": "253.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i think that's pretty cool i think you should have different avenues to deal with different people " }, { "start_time": "257.23", "stop_time": "257.66", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "259.08", "stop_time": "260.58", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever served in the military " }, { "start_time": "261.31", "stop_time": "262.46", "speaker": "Participant", "value": " no i have not " }, { "start_time": "263.7", "stop_time": "265.6", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever been diagnosed with p_t_s_d" }, { "start_time": "266.05", "stop_time": "266.89", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no i have not " }, { "start_time": "267.38", "stop_time": "269.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you been diagnosed with depression " }, { "start_time": "269.58", "stop_time": "270.07", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes " }, { "start_time": "270.95", "stop_time": "272.74", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how long ago were you diagnosed " }, { "start_time": "273.46", "stop_time": "274.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um less than a month " }, { "start_time": "278.22", "stop_time": "279.4", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what got you to seek help " }, { "start_time": "280.79", "stop_time": "289.5", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i realized i have to evaluate myself as a person so i can't really look to anyone else to help me unless i i start with myself" }, { "start_time": "290.89", "stop_time": "292.14", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you still go to therapy now" }, { "start_time": "292.74", "stop_time": "293.3", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no i don't " }, { "start_time": "294.32", "stop_time": "295.05", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why did you stop " }, { "start_time": "296.29", "stop_time": "303.56", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i feel like as a person as uh a individual i feel like i should be able to control things myself i feel like" }, { "start_time": "304.12", "stop_time": "312.61", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "to go seek out help is good for someone else it probably is very good for other people i've worked with that population of p_t_s_d um" }, { "start_time": "313.09", "stop_time": "317.94", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "veterans before so i know that it helps a lot of people but i don't feel like it's for me" }, { "start_time": "318.63", "stop_time": "319.06", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "319.27", "stop_time": "320.25", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how hard is that " }, { "start_time": "322.01", "stop_time": "329.73", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "it's not difficult at all i've always been like a loner someone who who tries to handle to handle my own problems and situations " }, { "start_time": "330.47", "stop_time": "330.95", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i see" }, { "start_time": "331.28", "stop_time": "332.67", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how have you been feeling lately " }, { "start_time": "334.29", "stop_time": "341.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "a little depressed but i think everyone is it has a little bit of sadness in them at some point " }, { "start_time": "342.26", "stop_time": "343.22", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how do you cope with them " }, { "start_time": "344.38", "stop_time": "350.64", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "day by day day by day i just started a exercise program so i'm trying to look at myself " }, { "start_time": "351.86", "stop_time": "353.12", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "for the solution " }, { "start_time": "352.29", "stop_time": "352.91", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great " }, { "start_time": "357.39", "stop_time": "359.48", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "did you think you had a problem before you found out " }, { "start_time": "360.24", "stop_time": "370.1", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "always known ever since i was a child things moved me differently than other kids so i felt like i was always different i felt like if i was gonna ever" }, { "start_time": "371.2", "stop_time": "376.89", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "understand me as a person then i would have to work on myself so yes " }, { "start_time": "378.52", "stop_time": "379.01", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "379.99", "stop_time": "382.45", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you felt really happy " }, { "start_time": "383.8", "stop_time": "392.01", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um today i got to see my best friend after a long time so i mean happiness comes and goes but i felt happy today " }, { "start_time": "393.33", "stop_time": "394.1", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great " }, { "start_time": "395.03", "stop_time": "396.56", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how would your best friend describe you " }, { "start_time": "397.18", "stop_time": "400.23", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow he would say really silly um " }, { "start_time": "401.62", "stop_time": "411.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "but still when i'm around him i try to be happy i try to present a a a situation where we're both gonna be happy no one wants to be around a depressed person " }, { "start_time": "411.85", "stop_time": "412.27", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "413.16", "stop_time": "414.06", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how do you know them" }, { "start_time": "414.75", "stop_time": "419.19", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "scrubbed_entry" }, { "start_time": "420.76", "stop_time": "421.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "cool" }, { "start_time": "424.55", "stop_time": "426.87", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what would you say are some of your best qualities " }, { "start_time": "427.43", "stop_time": "427.99", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow" }, { "start_time": "428.91", "stop_time": "436.71", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i mean on certain days everything could be my best quality but i would say um i'm loyal i'm dependable um " }, { "start_time": "438.82", "stop_time": "450.45", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i would just say i try to be there in the moment i'm not a person who who is really fat flashy excuse me uh flashy or into materialistic things so i feel like i'm very grounded " }, { "start_time": "450.9", "stop_time": "451.25", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "uh huh " }, { "start_time": "452.37", "stop_time": "454.68", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life " }, { "start_time": "454.7", "stop_time": "455.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "oh my mother" }, { "start_time": "456.34", "stop_time": "457.8", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "by far my sisters " }, { "start_time": "458.69", "stop_time": "459.72", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "can you tell me about that " }, { "start_time": "460.43", "stop_time": "474.08", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh my mom was a school teacher which made me wanna become a school teacher and that's basically what i have been doing uh my sister has been at her job for forty years so i've always had a stable influence in my life " }, { "start_time": "475.71", "stop_time": "476.99", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's so good to hear " }, { "start_time": "479.08", "stop_time": "481.3", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's one of your most memorable experiences" }, { "start_time": "481.88", "stop_time": "484.35", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow i would say" }, { "start_time": "485.17", "stop_time": "492.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "just sitting on a sunny nice day talking to my mother i would say that would bring a smile to my face immediately " }, { "start_time": "493.1", "stop_time": "494.72", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how did you feel in that moment " }, { "start_time": "495.28", "stop_time": "495.89", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wonderful " }, { "start_time": "496.86", "stop_time": "497.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wonderful " }, { "start_time": "500.18", "stop_time": "500.6", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "503.12", "stop_time": "504.86", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you like to do for fun " }, { "start_time": "505.87", "stop_time": "514.55", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i like to get out and play sports i play four or five different sports and um i like to go for a walk i like to ride my bike i like to get out and be active " }, { "start_time": "516.98", "stop_time": "517.54", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "520.14", "stop_time": "521.91", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are you most proud of in your life " }, { "start_time": "522.73", "stop_time": "527.21", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "having such a wonderful mother i mean i have to keep going back to that subject because" }, { "start_time": "528.13", "stop_time": "541.89", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "we're introduced into this life and that's our first teacher that's our first teacher and it's gonna be our teacher for a very long time and uh i'm just very thankful i'm very proud to have had such a wonderful woman as my mother" }, { "start_time": "542.79", "stop_time": "543.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "545.11", "stop_time": "548.09", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "tell me about something you did recently that you really enjoyed " }, { "start_time": "549.81", "stop_time": "554.18", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "riding my bike simple things going for a walk with my sister exercising " }, { "start_time": "555.89", "stop_time": "557.37", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time that happened " }, { "start_time": "558.09", "stop_time": "559.28", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh just last sunday " }, { "start_time": "562.01", "stop_time": "562.6", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "564.73", "stop_time": "568.93", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to thanks for sharing your thoughts with me " }, { "start_time": "569.02", "stop_time": "569.84", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well thank you " }, { "start_time": "570.47", "stop_time": "570.99", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "goodbye" } ]