[ { "start_time": "28.84", "stop_time": "35.99", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "hi i'm ellie thanks for coming in today i was created to talk to people in a safe and secure environment " }, { "start_time": "32.78", "stop_time": "33.08", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "hi" }, { "start_time": "36.8", "stop_time": "43.31", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm not a therapist but i'm here to learn about people and would love to learn about you i'll ask a few questions to get us started" }, { "start_time": "43.87", "stop_time": "48.51", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "and please feel free to tell me anything your answers are totally confidential" }, { "start_time": "49.17", "stop_time": "50.33", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are you okay with this" }, { "start_time": "50.89", "stop_time": "51.9", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah i'm okay " }, { "start_time": "52.26", "stop_time": "55.32", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay so how are you doing today " }, { "start_time": "56.2", "stop_time": "57.02", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm doing great " }, { "start_time": "57.65", "stop_time": "58.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "58.36", "stop_time": "58.71", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "59.24", "stop_time": "60.43", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "where are you from originally " }, { "start_time": "61.3", "stop_time": "65.32", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i am from los angeles i was born in santa monica" }, { "start_time": "65.89", "stop_time": "66.39", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "really " }, { "start_time": "65.93", "stop_time": "66.27", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "67.54", "stop_time": "69.61", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "70.89", "stop_time": "71.45", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "72.24", "stop_time": "74.38", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i like um " }, { "start_time": "75.4", "stop_time": "86.69", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i don't know there's nothing i mean i don't really like it here that much but i guess i like that there's you know still some nature it's not like new york like too city but i guess you know it's it's okay " }, { "start_time": "86.9", "stop_time": "87.27", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "uh huh" }, { "start_time": "88.25", "stop_time": "90.27", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you don't really like about l_a" }, { "start_time": "91.32", "stop_time": "102.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i don't like the traffic i don't like how crowded it is the crowds make me really nervous and i don't like um all the smog pollution all that stuff " }, { "start_time": "102.16", "stop_time": "103.75", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah i see what you mean " }, { "start_time": "104.72", "stop_time": "105.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you travel a lot" }, { "start_time": "106.68", "stop_time": "111.76", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no i don't i don't travel i haven't been anywhere really so " }, { "start_time": "112.55", "stop_time": "113", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay" }, { "start_time": "113.6", "stop_time": "114.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what'd you study at school " }, { "start_time": "115.69", "stop_time": "121.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i studied um psychology when i went to s_m_c" }, { "start_time": "121.6", "stop_time": "131.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i took a psychology class so um i was psychology major i took an anthropology class and i took math but i'm not good at math " }, { "start_time": "132.67", "stop_time": "133.75", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sounds interesting " }, { "start_time": "134.69", "stop_time": "135.73", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are you still working in that " }, { "start_time": "137.54", "stop_time": "144.81", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "no i uh i currently am not at school right now um yeah i'm just at home " }, { "start_time": "145.58", "stop_time": "146.64", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's your dream job " }, { "start_time": "147.52", "stop_time": "150.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my dream job would be um" }, { "start_time": "150.89", "stop_time": "161.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i would like to help other people as long as it's something helping other people uh i would like to help other people with like p_t_s_d and problems and stuff uh" }, { "start_time": "161.55", "stop_time": "161.89", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "162.01", "stop_time": "168.88", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah just as long as i'm you know helping other people smile and you know relating my problems with other people " }, { "start_time": "169.5", "stop_time": "169.85", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "172.3", "stop_time": "173.85", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how close are you to your family " }, { "start_time": "175.43", "stop_time": "180.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i'm pretty i'm close well i'm really close with my grandma um" }, { "start_time": "181.5", "stop_time": "186.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "eh my family it's just eh we're not like too too close we kinda argue a lot " }, { "start_time": "187.26", "stop_time": "187.71", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "188.03", "stop_time": "188.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "189", "stop_time": "190.55", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "do you consider yourself an introvert " }, { "start_time": "191.79", "stop_time": "193.32", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um sorry what's an introvert " }, { "start_time": "194.38", "stop_time": "195.8", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "let's come back to that later " }, { "start_time": "198.15", "stop_time": "198.57", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "198.32", "stop_time": "199.66", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what do you do when you're annoyed " }, { "start_time": "200.7", "stop_time": "202.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "when i'm annoyed um" }, { "start_time": "203.1", "stop_time": "212.01", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i try to relax for a minute i usually just try to take deep breaths but it's hard " }, { "start_time": "212.81", "stop_time": "213.41", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "213.01", "stop_time": "213.34", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "215.19", "stop_time": "217.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how are you at controlling your temper " }, { "start_time": "218.29", "stop_time": "228.62", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm not so good at it uh my temper's gotten a little worse um i am not good at all at really controlling my temper um i need some help on that " }, { "start_time": "229.16", "stop_time": "230.56", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "has that gotten you in trouble " }, { "start_time": "231.8", "stop_time": "241.01", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um no not really i mean no i guess it's not like as bad as like most people i've never like been in a fight or anything or yeah any of that " }, { "start_time": "240.38", "stop_time": "240.74", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "242.1", "stop_time": "245.11", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you argued with someone and what was it about " }, { "start_time": "245.99", "stop_time": "251.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i argued with my mom and sister yesterday it was just something stupid over like" }, { "start_time": "251.99", "stop_time": "264.85", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my sister is sitting was sitting in the front seat and she's a kid and it's like i'm i should be in the front seat so i just asked her to sit in the back and of course they start like yelling and arguing and it's like really annoying " }, { "start_time": "265.19", "stop_time": "266.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that sucks " }, { "start_time": "266.54", "stop_time": "267.65", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah it does" }, { "start_time": "268.65", "stop_time": "269.37", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thanks " }, { "start_time": "271.38", "stop_time": "273.73", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "who's someone that's been a positive influence in your life " }, { "start_time": "274.53", "stop_time": "284.49", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my grandma she's always giving me encouragement and um she's a therapist a licensed therapist so she's always you know made it really really um " }, { "start_time": "285.67", "stop_time": "289.13", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "easy for me to have someone to talk to and i could always go to her" }, { "start_time": "289.88", "stop_time": "291.49", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "so that helps yeah " }, { "start_time": "290.19", "stop_time": "290.72", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "aw" }, { "start_time": "291.28", "stop_time": "292.03", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's great" }, { "start_time": "293.44", "stop_time": "295.65", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what's one of your most memorable experiences " }, { "start_time": "294.12", "stop_time": "294.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "296.53", "stop_time": "307.16", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "my most memorable experiences well i had one really good experience um i went horseback riding and that was really really made me happy" }, { "start_time": "307.63", "stop_time": "318.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh i love horses and nature that's the biggest thing that i love and it just made me so happy and so relaxed so that was a memorable experience " }, { "start_time": "318.41", "stop_time": "319.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "awesome " }, { "start_time": "321.18", "stop_time": "322.73", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how would your best friend describe you " }, { "start_time": "324.1", "stop_time": "325.79", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um caring" }, { "start_time": "326.63", "stop_time": "338.17", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "very caring always there to talk to um i don't judge i never judge i'm never cranky i'm never i never ever get like angry at anybody else just like my family you know but" }, { "start_time": "338.62", "stop_time": "341.94", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah just very nice caring and stuff " }, { "start_time": "342.21", "stop_time": "342.61", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "344.28", "stop_time": "346.9", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things that usually put you in a good mood " }, { "start_time": "348.43", "stop_time": "353.18", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um things that put me in a good mood like uh music nature" }, { "start_time": "353.89", "stop_time": "363.23", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i like to cook a lot i like to cook you know for my family talking puts me in a really good mood i love meeting new people meeting new people puts me in the best mood" }, { "start_time": "364.64", "stop_time": "365.1", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "366.82", "stop_time": "369.22", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how easy is it for you to get a good night's sleep " }, { "start_time": "370.3", "stop_time": "377.46", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh it's not easy um it's hard um sometimes it's it's really hard um " }, { "start_time": "378.55", "stop_time": "381.94", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i don't usually sleep well so um" }, { "start_time": "382.94", "stop_time": "385.98", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah i have trouble falling asleep mostly " }, { "start_time": "386.44", "stop_time": "386.78", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "why" }, { "start_time": "388.2", "stop_time": "395.49", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i guess it's just like my mind will be racing a lot of you know sometimes it'll be flashbacks of bad memories" }, { "start_time": "396.18", "stop_time": "397.83", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um just you know" }, { "start_time": "398.81", "stop_time": "400.39", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thinking too much " }, { "start_time": "400.64", "stop_time": "401.95", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "are they triggered by something " }, { "start_time": "403.65", "stop_time": "408.74", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i don't know um i think just uh " }, { "start_time": "409.88", "stop_time": "418.17", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "stress you know a lot of stress every day just everyday stress uh yeah pretty much that's what triggers it " }, { "start_time": "418.57", "stop_time": "419.55", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how do you cope with them " }, { "start_time": "421.03", "stop_time": "428.17", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i just try to stay positive i try to think like okay well you know one day things will get better" }, { "start_time": "428.83", "stop_time": "429.49", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um " }, { "start_time": "430.61", "stop_time": "435.93", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i just i try to call somebody and talk to them if i have trouble like my grandma " }, { "start_time": "436.33", "stop_time": "436.76", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "437.24", "stop_time": "437.68", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "438.85", "stop_time": "439.58", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "440.55", "stop_time": "442.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are you like when you don't sleep well " }, { "start_time": "440.6", "stop_time": "441.13", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thanks" }, { "start_time": "444.03", "stop_time": "451.16", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "when i don't sleep well um well i start to like cry a lot and i start to get really irritable" }, { "start_time": "451.7", "stop_time": "460.09", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i get really depressed it makes me not feel well at all i get very uh it just is really really bad if i don't get sleep yeah " }, { "start_time": "460.65", "stop_time": "461.65", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "i'm sorry to hear that " }, { "start_time": "460.88", "stop_time": "461.32", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "462.23", "stop_time": "463.05", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thanks" }, { "start_time": "464.02", "stop_time": "466.03", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you ever been diagnosed with p_t_s_d" }, { "start_time": "466.38", "stop_time": "467.08", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yes" }, { "start_time": "467.73", "stop_time": "469.47", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how long ago were you diagnosed" }, { "start_time": "470.1", "stop_time": "474.2", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i was diagnosed um three years ago " }, { "start_time": "475.72", "stop_time": "477", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what got you to seek help " }, { "start_time": "478.48", "stop_time": "485.25", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "uh i just i didn't really know what was going on then i realized okay well they just diagnosed that and um" }, { "start_time": "486.06", "stop_time": "496.68", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i was like okay well this is the problem and it i just wanted help because it just when your mind is after you like that's like it's just awful to have your mind taking control of you like that " }, { "start_time": "497.59", "stop_time": "499.85", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah that sounds really hard " }, { "start_time": "497.93", "stop_time": "498.32", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah " }, { "start_time": "500.35", "stop_time": "501.3", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah it's hard " }, { "start_time": "501.95", "stop_time": "504.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "did you think you had a problem before you found out " }, { "start_time": "505.93", "stop_time": "511.21", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um yeah yeah i definitely always thought i had a problem i always thought something was like really wrong um" }, { "start_time": "511.82", "stop_time": "520", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i just always like kinda nervous around people like i never can really like look anybody in the eye 'cause i'm just so nervous my eyes are always kind of like racing and i" }, { "start_time": "520.63", "stop_time": "531.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um would have sweats if i was in the situation um that reminded me of the situation like i just try to avoid what reminds me and brings those flashbacks yeah " }, { "start_time": "532.53", "stop_time": "533.86", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "how have you been feeling lately " }, { "start_time": "535.11", "stop_time": "548.07", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "oh um i i've been feeling good i've been getting out more every day i'm trying to um i guess walking keeps my mind off my p_t_s_d symptoms so i'm trying to walk more that helps " }, { "start_time": "548.59", "stop_time": "549.15", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "550.3", "stop_time": "550.98", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "thanks" }, { "start_time": "551.7", "stop_time": "553.44", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "have you been diagnosed with depression " }, { "start_time": "554.71", "stop_time": "558.05", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um yeah i have depression um yeah " }, { "start_time": "559.14", "stop_time": "559.67", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "560.52", "stop_time": "562.21", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "is going to a therapist helping you " }, { "start_time": "563.48", "stop_time": "575", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um it helps yeah it actually does help me a lot um i currently don't have one right now i'm actually getting a new one in a few days though like it's kind of a mix-up but yeah it really really helps me " }, { "start_time": "576.27", "stop_time": "579.14", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what sort of changes have you noticed since you've been going to therapy " }, { "start_time": "581.14", "stop_time": "585.91", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um i noticed that i've had less flashbacks and um" }, { "start_time": "586.5", "stop_time": "591.22", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i've been more relaxed i guess and um" }, { "start_time": "592.24", "stop_time": "596.55", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah just you know trying to keep more occupied yeah it helps " }, { "start_time": "596.95", "stop_time": "597.54", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "599.23", "stop_time": "601.7", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "when was the last time you felt really happy " }, { "start_time": "602.86", "stop_time": "605.9", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um the last time i felt really happy um" }, { "start_time": "607.19", "stop_time": "609.29", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i guess um" }, { "start_time": "610.68", "stop_time": "615.48", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i don't know um today 'cause i mean i'm glad to be part of this " }, { "start_time": "616.03", "stop_time": "616.59", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "aw" }, { "start_time": "619.36", "stop_time": "621.17", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are you most proud of in your life " }, { "start_time": "622.35", "stop_time": "624.56", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um most proud of uh" }, { "start_time": "625.75", "stop_time": "627.49", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well um" }, { "start_time": "628.41", "stop_time": "630.82", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i'm trying to think of what i'm most proud of um " }, { "start_time": "632.6", "stop_time": "633.15", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i " }, { "start_time": "634.42", "stop_time": "647.63", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "think i'm most proud of like the fact that i am able to you know not be like well i mean most people i know they like deny that they have a problem and i'm proud that i can actually like" }, { "start_time": "648.5", "stop_time": "653.48", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "you know be a person who can realize okay i have a problem and i need help" }, { "start_time": "654", "stop_time": "658.6", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "but a lot of the people i know they don't take medication they're untreated and um" }, { "start_time": "659.24", "stop_time": "667.04", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "they just don't wanna get any help and i'm glad to get help because i don't wanna feel that way and i wanna get help for the problem instead of doing that " }, { "start_time": "666.33", "stop_time": "666.76", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "668.53", "stop_time": "669.06", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "that's good " }, { "start_time": "670.23", "stop_time": "671.2", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "is there anything you regret " }, { "start_time": "672.38", "stop_time": "675.53", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "oh gosh there's a lot i regret yeah there's a lot um" }, { "start_time": "676.2", "stop_time": "683.05", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i regret you know uh drug abuse you know but that's part of you know the p_t_s_d i regret um" }, { "start_time": "683.94", "stop_time": "689.29", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "a lot uh mistakes you know relationships stuff like that " }, { "start_time": "689.66", "stop_time": "690.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "690.89", "stop_time": "693.7", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what advice would you give yourself ten or twenty years ago " }, { "start_time": "695.19", "stop_time": "699.46", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "wow um i would've told myself to" }, { "start_time": "701.05", "stop_time": "701.9", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "703.14", "stop_time": "706.5", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i guess the advice i would've given myself was to " }, { "start_time": "708.03", "stop_time": "712.14", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "try to keep my mind more relaxed i guess" }, { "start_time": "713.06", "stop_time": "713.41", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "yeah" }, { "start_time": "713.43", "stop_time": "713.81", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "mhm" }, { "start_time": "716.18", "stop_time": "718.47", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what would you say are some of your best qualities " }, { "start_time": "719.33", "stop_time": "719.9", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "720.55", "stop_time": "732.44", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "well i'm a very nice person and i always like to smile people are always saying how i smile a lot but um the smile i guess it kind of hides like what's on the inside but you know i'm pretty depressed you know but" }, { "start_time": "732.92", "stop_time": "738.33", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "i just try to keep smiling and i always like to lend a hand to help and make people feel better " }, { "start_time": "739.93", "stop_time": "740.4", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay " }, { "start_time": "741.43", "stop_time": "743.08", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "what are some things you like to do for fun " }, { "start_time": "744.188", "stop_time": "750.468", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "for fun um i like to go to the mall that's a lot fun i like to go to the mall i like to go out with my grandma" }, { "start_time": "751.005", "stop_time": "756.595", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "we go places go shopping i love shopping and um i like to go" }, { "start_time": "757.245", "stop_time": "757.895", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "um" }, { "start_time": "758.735", "stop_time": "763.445", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "play like games like i like to play video games those are fun stuff like that" }, { "start_time": "763.85", "stop_time": "764.51", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "nice" }, { "start_time": "765.5", "stop_time": "767.87", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "okay i think i've asked everything i need to" }, { "start_time": "768.7", "stop_time": "770.13", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "thanks for sharing your thoughts with me " }, { "start_time": "770.733", "stop_time": "771.977", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "okay thanks" }, { "start_time": "772", "stop_time": "772.54", "speaker": "Ellie", "value": "goodbye" }, { "start_time": "772.666", "stop_time": "773.577", "speaker": "Participant", "value": "goodbye" } ]