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wanting to skip or postpone my exam my exam is on saturday and i feel a massive urge to reschedule
i experience this often with major exams. *flashbacks to several years prior where i skipped all of my final exams and failed*
i just dont feel ready i dont know im so tired and mentallly fried that i feel a few days m... | 2 | [
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Do other bipolar folks have problems with substance abuse? First I want say how great it is to be able to talk about things open in a way I never have before.
I am at a good point in terms of drug and alcohol right now, but I've had big problems in the past.
I od'd many times, each time it was not an intentional sui... | 1 | [
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Wanted to share some revelations I just had tonight about depression...for the first time in over a year I have hope that things can get better. Hi, I've been depressed for over a year. I still am depressed, but for the first time throughout this hell I actually have gained some insight and now I have hope that things ... | 4 | [
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I feel deader than dead. I find that I don't have real "wants" anymore. There would be a flicker of a desire that maybe I want to play Overwatch and it will be fun, but it fizzles as fast as it comes. I think for a moment that maybe I should feed myself. Then I just don't do it. Most days I end up curled up in bed, wai... | 0 | [
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I'm pretty sure my friends suicidal what do I do? My best friends girlfriend left him over something stupid and embarrassing that he did a while back.Anyways I'm pretty sure it's that, he's always saying how he wants to go to an island all alone with no one who loves him. He's told me before that he has depression but ... | 0 | [
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Self-harm urges are getting stronger Hey everyone. Dealing with a really rough situation, so I thought I'd share it here.
My mental state has gradually been getting worse for quite some time. While it started off with stronger elements of anxiety, depression has come as a byproduct of the self-isolation and self-sabo... | 4 | [
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Anonymous Entry: plz be nice My brain boils non-stop lol. I've finally become the deteriorated husk of a person. Hopefully this is my last feeling of self-awareness.
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I'm drowning. I don't remember ever really being happy. I've been content but that's the extent of it. Some days I feel like I'm wading through endless thoughts of self hate. Some days its so bad that I feel like I'm drowning in it and I can't figure out how to make it stop. My roommates offer no help, stating they suf... | 4 | [
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ANYONE here ever tried r-TMS (repeated Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation) to treat BPD (any type)? Clarification: BPD—>BIPOLAR disorder I mean, sorry for any confusion! | 1 | [
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Anyone else just afraid of life? First off, if you’re reading this thank you so much.
I don’t want to write some long story I just want to share.
I feel so alone. Like I’m in a serious relationship but when it comes to the way I feel I feel pretty alone. I’m afraid of people at work...what they think of me, what they... | 4 | [
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Serious Question about suicide Why do we have this fascination with staying alive? At the moment my suicidal swings are pretty on and off, but I just don't get it. By commuting suicide you are only hastening the inevitable. So why does everyone feel the need to say "don't do it". I mean realistically you only control t... | 4 | [
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i dont know why it bothers me when my friend tells me she has depression, but it does I've been severely depressed for 2 years now, and struggling a lot with it: I have no friends (in the country i am living in) and am barely surviving university. I recently started a new antidepressant and was speaking to one of my cl... | 4 | [
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I just took about 30 anxiety pills. I doubt it will kill me but if I does, great! [deleted] | 4 | [
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I want to have a baby so someone will love me I was raised by an abusive mother and neglectful father. I have no love for either of them. I see all of these people with happy families that look out for each other and are kind to one another and I wish for the same thing. I want a child that will love me and that I'll l... | 3 | [
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Therapy For The Caregiver/Non Anxious Partner? My wife of 15 years has suffered from generalized anxiety all her adult life. She's tried one on one therapy twice with little progress, in both instances she didn't really engage with the process and put into practice what was discussed and whilst I have encouraged her t... | 2 | [
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Extreme Anxiety before exams Hi, all. I've never posted here so forgive me if I'm breaking any rules. Just a little background — I've never seen a doctor (money, family, lots of reasons, but I should be able to start in a year), I've never been diagnosed with anything, although I am pretty sure I have depression. I'm a... | 2 | [
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shouldn't have been born long story short, I have a good life with a loving family and an amazing boyfriend but my country (chile) **sucks** with LGBT rights and all of those social equality things. Just when I thought things were getting better, they're not. Today a conservative president was elected and I feel so dis... | 4 | [
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The fam keeps telling me to take a nap but I just lay there and can't sleep.
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A terrible friend I have a crazy story to tell and would like some people to tell me what they think happened.
I'm a 37 year old male. I had a best friend who I have known since Kindergarten. We grew up at each other's house, have been pretty much inseparable our whole lives. We live in a really small town and w... | 3 | [
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I hate diverticulitis I have diverticulosis. A pouch forms inside your colon and sometimes will get infected causing usually excruciating pain sometimes rivaling or exceeding that of childbirth (say the women who’ve had infections).
I’ve only had one diagnosed infection on April 1st of this year.
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If your partner told you they felt suicidal what would they do? I told mine in the summer. Bare in mind, six years together in January, we had an early miscarriage in March (on the day of the terror attacks in London).
I’ve always been the one to look after everyone...and this one time I need someone to look after me... | 4 | [
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I have evolved from a cactus... ...into a motherfucking mushroom.
That's right, I no longer even need sunlight to survive, so I'm one step closer to not being considered a human being. Hurray.
Edit: holy shit I wasn't expecting so much positive feedback thanks guys | 4 | [
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I can't sleep, I can't stop thinking about you For a long while now, I wasn't able to sleep. Its currently 7 am, almost 8. Today at least I managed to sleep from 12 am to 4 am. My heart hurts, I can't stop wondering when I'll be able to hear your voice again. Nightmares, ghosts from the past come and haunt me, so I can... | 3 | [
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Just soo tired My god I'm so tired...tired of being wrong about everything....always the butt of jokes, always the one who fucked up somehow...always the one everyone assumes your gonna mess something up..break something..yadda yadda...but it's not like I'm not a smart career woman but soon as I step out of work I'm lo... | 3 | [
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I love two people I am a married man. The woman to whom I have been married to for three years is amazing, to me. I still hold the same profound respect, love, affection and physical desire that I always have.
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Posting this in someone else's stead G'day, everyone. Lately, a friend (20/M) of mine (20/F) has been going through a lot of heavy stuff. For the past 3 years, life has drained him of any disposition towards a brighter future, and his personality has morphed him into a somber version of himself.
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always back to being suicidal have no dreams or aspirations to do anything with my life. just having a shitty time in college struggling through every single class trying to figure out what i want to work towards. in reality all i want to do is die. whats the point of going through so much bullshit. I know i will never... | 0 | [
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Does anyone else feel like they are subconsciously self-sabotaging in order to keep themselves depressed? I came here tonight to look at posts about self sabotage. I was curious to see if any other depressed folk around here felt the way I do. How exactly do I feel? Well, I feel like... I’ve struggled with varying degr... | 4 | [
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please dont be soft or sensitive, just give ur honest, unfiltered thought. | 0 | [
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22/F feeling overwhelmed Hi y’all, as the title says, I am overwhelmed. I work 35 hours a week, live by myself with my emotional support cat, and am in school full-time. I take my meds, Trileptal and now Buspar daily. I see my therapist on a weekly basis, just switched doctors and I love my new one. I am in school for ... | 1 | [
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Medication Anyone on here take lexapro and if so do you like it? I just started it today. | 2 | [
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today I asked 6 different people if they wanted to hang out and they all said they weren’t busy but they couldn’t hang out. [deleted] | 4 | [
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Fuck this country I’m tired of the US. It’s clear our government doesn’t work for the people. Education is a joke, healthcare is a joke, economy is a joke. But let’s go ahead and give tax breaks to the rich while spending more on the military. Our infrastructure is failing, streets decaying, poverty is at an all time h... | 3 | [
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I feel like my old personality is dying and I am in a weird state where I either follow it dying or I push through and wait for something to happen That is bascially what Ive felt like for 4-5 months now :( | 4 | [
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I am very happy living alone. Is that bad? I also have a strong moral compass. Killing is wrong. Suffering is good. Be better.
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