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[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-13T03:06:02.000Z | q726rj | 7 | 2 | ADHD | Do any of you have experience with navigating ADHD medication options as a recovering addict? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q726rj/do_any_of_you_have_experience_with_navigating/ |
glottyblotti | I’m embarrassed that I’m this mad but I am. I’m so tired of losing shit. They were $130 AirPods and I don’t feel normal without them. I think I left them at the gym and someone may have returned them but I won’t be able to find out until tomorrow. Does anyone else feel like they can’t function without having them in at some point? I’ve always been like that and get really upset or feel unsatisfied without them. Even if I’m not listening to something the sensation of having hem in my ears is comforting in a weird way? | 2021-10-13T03:05:42.000Z | q726kd | 13 | 9 | ADHD | Really irrationally angry over losing headphones | 0.91 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q726kd/really_irrationally_angry_over_losing_headphones/ |
pm-me-you-singing | Atm I'm only on 10mg Ritalin, I take it ard 10-12pm, and then I drink coffee ard 5-7pm.
Is it okay if I were to drink tea ard 11am at times, say 2 hours (1pm) before taking ritalin? It takes abt 45-1hour for it to work.
I have never tested out ritalin and caffeine together, maybe I should give it a shot to see how I'd react? | 2021-10-13T03:04:19.000Z | q725qz | 3 | 1 | ADHD | drinking tea when I'm on ritalin? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q725qz/drinking_tea_when_im_on_ritalin/ |
Square_Leading_7034 | [removed] | 2021-10-13T02:59:57.000Z | q722th | 10 | 1 | ADHD | What do I say on the phone to my GP surgery to get an appointment for adhd? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q722th/what_do_i_say_on_the_phone_to_my_gp_surgery_to/ |
MonsterKitKat | I feel empty if I were asked what’s my motivation. Yeah, I have “goals” but they feel void of motivation, commitment, focus…
I don’t know, is a goal I want not supposed to necessarily make me feel exited?
It sometimes waves. But more often then not it’s just a “want”, nothing too exciting, which makes it hard to do unless I put pressure on myself.
I’m sick and tired of just running on pressure.
Can anyone relate? Is this an ADHD thing? I also have a layer of trauma too… | 2021-10-13T02:54:25.000Z | q71zjd | 6 | 6 | ADHD | Without pressure, I’m “meh”… | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71zjd/without_pressure_im_meh/ |
altezzaforever | Hi,
I got help from a friend for my assessment, as I was struggling to get past halfway (couldn't figure out code). I worked off his code and re-did mine entirely, except I didn't realise it looked pretty much the same. I have tried REALLY REALLY hard to get into Uni. I enjoy programming, but when I get stuck I go down a really depressive hole and lose my confidence and motivation.
Now I'm here, with this academic misconduct not knowing what to do. Whether to plead guilty or not, what should I do about my friend. I feel terrible, I'm pretty sure I'm having an anxiety attack at this point.
I'm not even sure if i'm cut out for this degree or career path any more... I hate this feeling so much.
``````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` LONG ABOUT ME version below. I'm in my second year of my ICT degree finally after 4 years... I tried from 2016 and could never make it past the 3-4th week of the semester. I'd procrastinate, fall behind, being behind caused anxiety, so then I wouldn't go to class and it turned into a cycle.
Anyway, 1 academic probation (1 year) and having to transition from a private college to university course. I finally made it into my first semester at uni (second year).
I've been struggling this semester, I'm at my last 2 weeks of it. Mid semester I had a huge mental breakdown with coding due to absolutely struggling with it, and got a friend to help me on the first and second assessments as I would only get halfway, get stuck and then feel burnout. I realised ADHD was something to look into after putting it off for so many years. Got diagnosed and medicated (6 weeks now). Now the course is somewhat easier and I can keep focused on the task at hand no matter how frustrated or stuck I am. Currently doing my major project now due in 2 days ( Which I stupidly started too late, not knowing how big of a task it is), I'm slowly getting through it, whilst getting stuck a lot and wasting a lot of time being stuck. So this entire week has caused me to experience anxiety so bad that I experienced stomach issues, etc for the first time ever in my life.
It sucks, that I did a shit thing by depending on my friend and got him caught in this crap too. Just as I was getting back on my feet with what felt like a fighting chance to conquer this degree is gone again with this academic misconduct case. I'm absolutely terrified of what the result is. I'm not sure what to do.. | 2021-10-13T02:53:17.000Z | q71yuu | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Feeling broken and hopeless. Got caught for academic misconduct after trying at Uni for so long. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71yuu/feeling_broken_and_hopeless_got_caught_for/ |
fractyl3 | More and more I have realised that most of my problems stem from a lack of accountability because I just don't have the same drive as most people. I don't actually feel like I care enough about doing anything for myself. There is no motivation, to the point where I just push it too far and I can see myself being unemployed and homeless just because I can't be bothered finding a job and I'm just getting depressed and not wanting to do anything at all-literally nothing, not even watching tv shows or be on my phone. I just lay on the couch and think about how broken my brain is.
I had a decent paying job that I was good at before all this crazy time so I know I can do it but I just can't instigate anything by myself. I don't want to have to have someone tell me to get up and go mow the lawn but I kinda will only do it if that happens.
What are some things that you can do to make yourself actually put the work in? I think about the amount of money someone needs to save to be able to buy a home in the future and it just seems impossible. So what is the point, everything seems hard. How do I make myself do anything productive? | 2021-10-13T02:35:09.000Z | q71o39 | 3 | 4 | ADHD | Motivation and dopamine | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71o39/motivation_and_dopamine/ |
mynfal | this is just gonna be a list of stuff i've been experiencing for a while now, with some elaboration on context, pls pls pls feel free to corroborate any of this with your own experiences, i would love to hear :)
firstly, i've been unable to reach an official diagnosis for anything besides generalized depression & anxiety, primarily because i've created a very strict mental barrier between me and my reception to any help, in part due to some things i won't discuss here. although i'm looking toward getting back into a weekly session schedule as i had before.
would also like to mention that i had been taking Zoloft 200mg daily for 3 years before i just decided to quit cold-turkey last year during a rough period of stuff, haven't taken anything since.
- everything is "grouped" and subdivided in my mind: personalities of other people, the traits of those personalities in relation to things such as their appearance, materialistic values, mannerisms, etc. it feels like i have this subconscious, omnipresent list of characteristics i assign to people, in which i sometimes impose upon myself (i.e. since this girl likes x and i perceive her as y, i can/can't like x because i want/don't want to be perceived as y) superficially it sounds like i'm just describing social construct and how we pair mannerisms between different people, but what i've experienced is so extreme that it's always present in my mind, it just won't stop.
i obsess over how other people will perceive me because of how i perceive them and their x's and y's and how they correspond or clash with one another, in my mind. it's extremely draining and fucks up my confidence and overall sense of identity.
- obsession(s)/hyperfixations?: i only have 2 extreme examples of this, it feels like there's this hierarchy in my mind where every few years, i find a person (celebrity, etc) who competes for my consciousness. the first lasted nearly 5 years, where i was always looking at photos of this person, reading online about them, doing virtually anything that involved or was in some way related to them, just for the comfort and catharsis i received from it. 5 years of the same two people until last year when they were "replaced" by someone completely different after just watching a show, and i've been "obsessed" ever since. not in a weird "i'm obsessed with you, i want to be with you" kind of way whatsoever, just because of the way it makes or even allows me to feel. everyday i look the same pictures, interact with them the same way (which literally is just me listening to music and looking at said pictures, almost like i'm making and edit or a scene or something), but it makes me feel horrible in the amount that i partake in it. i hate it, but i'm content because it makes me feel an odd sense of comfort and familiarity. i've read up on parasocial relationships and ig it could kind of be considered as one, but to an extreme as to where there is not a waking moment of mine anymore where they're not somewhere present in my mind.
in addition to this, it almost feels like i'm losing my identity to them. i've bren beginning to like the same things they like, acting how i believe they would or in a way that they would like, and i'm so torn between it all. i know i can stop it by just disengaging with the media, but there's a sense of normality that i have about it while co-consciously being aware of how bad it has gotten.
i don't share it with anyone though. i've never once talked about this person outside of my own self, and i don't feel like i need or want to. at least there's some awarity there.
- trouble with memory/reality: every day feels like a dream, like that feeling when someone asks you to recall something they told you after you had just woken up. it honestly feels like just waking up in the morning is enough to initiate it, and i'm still not 100% why. i do have some complex trauma with my mother who i'm currently living with, but besides that i can't think of anything externally avoidable that would be causing this. i can't remember anything, and when i try to i spiral and get frustrated. i'm writing this at 9PM after a day at school and i can hardly remember a thing that happened to me or around me. it's just a haze of fragments that don't even feel real, nothing feels real even in the present sometimes and i have no idea why because i can't remember.
and it's only with emotional instances, at least that's what it feels like. i'm able to remember factual stuff (to the best of my ability) but when it comes to a question of "what did you do today?" or even "how was your day?" it feels like a test to answer.
- independencey/socialization: i don't have very many friends anymore. up until last year i used to have a decent bunch of people i considered to be close with, and even more that i would just talk to because i knew mutually. i've never found it "easy" to talk to people, but i was at least able to stick with them throughout the test of time. but ever since last year i have struggled immensely to facilitate and maintain relationships of any kind with anyone. i suddenly cut everyone i knew off and didn't talk to anyone throughout my sophomore year (this was also during covid, and i was at home for three quarters of the year). it's now this constantly regard for someone else's patience with me, whether or not i think i'm bothering them, etc. i've never wanted to bring it up to them because i know how petty and insipid the whole "i'm afraid i'm annoying you" spiel is so i instead took upon my own existential cycle of self-preservation disguised as my own self-sabatoge. i only talk to maybe a few people a day now and as lonely as that sounds, i enjoy it to an extent.
though there's a spiral of doubt that i've been catching myself in recently, whether or not i'm faking this desire for idenpendence just to mask my own shame for not having any friends. i understand this is greatly due to covid, but i wanted to hear some of your experiences with it.
i'll update and elaborate if this receives any questions or comments, thank you for reading if you made it this far :) | 2021-10-13T02:34:50.000Z | q71nwi | 3 | 2 | ADHD | 17F Undiagnosed; just seeking support/ | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71nwi/17f_undiagnosed_just_seeking_support/ |
agressivesnapping | I get up to start studying and take my dosage out of the bottle to take them. I do not take them, I walk out of the room to get food. When I come back, I start studying, thinking I have taken my meds.
I work and it’s difficult. But not close enough to pulling teeth for me to think I’ve forgotten something. It gets hard. It’s pulling teeth now. I eat the food I was using as a possible reward for studying. I look up and i haven’t taken my meds. I see them. I continue to study.
It’s still hard and doesn’t last for longer than 10 minutes. I wonder why this is happening while I’m on my meds. I look up. My meds are still on my desk. I haven’t taken them. What the fuck. I post on reddit. | 2021-10-13T02:31:26.000Z | q71luo | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Keep forgetting my meds | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71luo/keep_forgetting_my_meds/ |
Elle-123 | So I’ve recently started Adderall XR and taking 20 mg in morning for ADHD. Unfortunately, I also started a new job so, even though I felt I was calm at work after Adderall I’m obsessively making tons of notes to prevent mistakes. My job has a lot of technical step by step details so I write multiple to-do lists to keep me on track. My recall memory isn’t great either so if I don’t write it, I forget it.
I thought the Adderall XR was helping me at work at first, cause I felt calmer from the anxiety of a new job, but I sleep until afternoons on my days off like I just took a sleeping pill in the morning.
So not sure if this is how treatment is supposed to work for ADHD? | 2021-10-13T02:31:21.000Z | q71lt3 | 3 | 1 | ADHD | Started on Adderall XR and feeling tired. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71lt3/started_on_adderall_xr_and_feeling_tired/ |
TheMarblesAreGone | I (F29) have only been diagnosed with ADHD this year and am still working through a lot. Out of all my ADHD symptoms, I'm realizing that my emotional dysregulation is probably the most hindering. Some people call it rejection sensitivity dysphoria (which, as of now, is not a medical diagnosis, just thought I'd mention that because I know this sub takes that seriously), which I heavily relate to. For the record, my responses tend to attack inward rather than externally - I end up hating myself rather than lashing out at other people (to their faces, anyway).
I realize this is embarrassing, but here it is - I can basically remember every negative comment anyone has ever said to me, and when I remember them, it's like they've just happened in how distressed I get, both emotionally and physically. It never gets better. It doesn't matter how minimal they are (eg. someone said they didn't find my joke funny, or getting snarky feedback on an essay). I know this is ridiculous. Anyone who relates with rejection sensitivity knows they're being ridiculous. Being kind to myself doesn't help - it doesn't matter that much of the criticism isn't even that bad, or that many of these criticisms were about my unknown ADHD/autism and that I did the best I could at the time. This is visceral - the panic, shame and sadness are automatic.
I thought knowing about this symptom would fix it. Don't get me wrong, knowing that it exists makes a HUGE difference, but it doesn't stop the panic I feel every time it happens. I'm in the process of honing a hobby I love more than anything and have been getting feedback on my work for the first time. While I'm so grateful for the people who have given me feedback (seriously, nobody has been intentionally cruel or unreasonable), I've been both physically and mentally panicked all week, with a constant, low-level sadness I can't shake. Intellectually, I know that you can't get better at anything without correction and criticism. However, this isn't rational. But this particular passion is the line for me - I refuse to let emotional dysregulation take this from me.
It's incredibly disheartening when people try to minimize this, because it severely affects so much of my life - dating, making friends, finding a new job, learning a new skill etc., because oftentimes the intense negative emotions that'll result if there's even a hint of failure aren't worth the risk, nor the playback in my head I'm going to have to deal with indefinitely as a result. It's bizarre because I'm a pretty asocial person and don't even really seek general social approval, so what gives?
For people older than me - do you outgrow this? Does it get easier?
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TLDR; for people who experience rejection sensitivity/emotional dysregulation to the point they're not living the life they want to lead to avoid the overwhelming negative emotional responses, what are some strategies/advice that has helped you? General advice regarding emotional dysregulation is also welcome! (I'm recently diagnosed and cannot afford therapy right now. Medication doesn't seem to affect this symptom one way or another) | 2021-10-13T02:24:53.000Z | q71hw6 | 5 | 3 | ADHD | What has helped you with your emotional dysregulation, especially with criticism/rejection? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71hw6/what_has_helped_you_with_your_emotional/ |
narwalsarethebest | Just thought I'd share what has helped me. Drop your own tips if ya got em.
1. Weekly Pill Planner so I know if I've taken my pills [https://www.cvs.com/shop/cvs-health-large-weekly-pill-planner-prodid-715123](https://www.cvs.com/shop/cvs-health-large-weekly-pill-planner-prodid-715123)
2. Tile app to find my keys/everything [https://www.thetileapp.com/](https://www.thetileapp.com/)
3. Work Stash of Extra Essentials (pills, granola bar, headphones, cash, deodorant, etc.)
4. Car Stash of Extra Essentials (cash, deodorant, jacket, trail mix)
5. SHAMELESS Multiples (bedroom water bottle, kitchen water bottle, two mouth guards, a bunch of cell phone chargers, four headphones)
6. Desk Cash/Credit Card (for when you lose your wallet)
7. Giving a friend a copy of your key (for when you lose your keys)
8. Phone reminder day of AND day before an event
9. Email yourself reminders (like, the other
10. Friend Notes in Contact Info (so I remember what kinda wine & snacks they like)
11. Squeeze Water Bottles. (I knock things over all the time. Now, it doesn't spill)
12. Otter Box [https://www.otterbox.com/](https://www.otterbox.com/)
13. Hardcore computer case
14. 5-4-3-2-1 Grounding Technique to break hyperfocus - **FIVE** things you see around you, **FOUR** things you can touch around you, **THREE** things you, **TWO** things you can smell, **ONE** thing you can taste.
15. Digital Copies so I can't lose the thing
16. Good Gamification - I fuck with Habitica and Duolingo when I want a dopamine hit from my phone
In general, I've also stopped expecting myself to be someone I'm not. By accepting this, I've found a lot more solutions than just yelling "WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS." Anyways, good luck out there sailors | 2021-10-13T02:24:45.000Z | q71hsq | 6 | 22 | ADHD | ADHD Hack & Tip Swap | 0.97 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71hsq/adhd_hack_tip_swap/ |
hairyhahair | I only ask because I've been dying to explain to someone how I've been absolutely obsessing over the band Glass Animals. I randomly started listening to their album on at 1am on Monday (it's Tuesday) and I've literally listened to and thought about nothing else, nonstop, since then. Something about it just scratches my brain so good. Obsession is kicking in harder than ever and I absolutely love it.
So, what about you guys? | 2021-10-13T02:20:24.000Z | q71f5v | 20 | 5 | ADHD | Current hyperfixations? | 0.86 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71f5v/current_hyperfixations/ |
codyryan90 | It seems like the last several months I’ve had trouble doing anything that I would normally consider a hobby. I can’t make myself read, watch movie, play video games, or even drive to another town to visit family. And when I do finally decide on watching something (after scrolling for 30 minutes or more), I always end up watching The Office.
I’m 30 year old male with have depression, anxiety, and ADHD. I currently take Effexor, Lamictal, and Vyvanse. I would consider myself pretty healthy. I just feel like my mind can never relax and it is really bothersome, even heartbreaking. I just want to do the things I know that I enjoy.
It’s just really bumming me out. I feel like I can’t do anything but sit and consume things on the internet. Maybe I’m addicted to the internet? Maybe my meds aren’t working anymore?
Anyone else go/going through this? | 2021-10-13T02:20:09.000Z | q71f0k | 4 | 1 | ADHD | Loss of Interest | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71f0k/loss_of_interest/ |
dos4g | It happens *a lot.* I'll have a nice clean apartment, but then get a wild hair of something cool to tinker with, and then completely turn the place into disorder while I obsessively throw things around, get stuff out, rearrange, etc. This is often music computer equipment that I want to dig up and set up with some kind of project in mind, but it also could be trying to fix something or wanting to rearrange what's already out.
I feverishly obsess about it until I seem to lose sight of why I wanted to start messing with it in the first place. Then I get depressed, empty, and overwhelmed when I look what I've done to my living space.
Anyone else experience this problem? What have you done to help manage it? | 2021-10-13T02:13:53.000Z | q71b1t | 3 | 9 | ADHD | How do I stop tinkering? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q71b1t/how_do_i_stop_tinkering/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-13T02:11:42.000Z | q719qu | 13 | 7 | ADHD | It’s very weird to go from a “chronically depressed and being anxious all the time” to being an “enlightened being” | 0.9 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q719qu/its_very_weird_to_go_from_a_chronically_depressed/ |
moosiemoop | [removed] | 2021-10-13T02:07:49.000Z | q717a0 | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Rubbing feet together when anxious or frustrated? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q717a0/rubbing_feet_together_when_anxious_or_frustrated/ |
JuliusSphincter | Early 30s, bachelors degree in communications because I had no idea what I wanted to do back then either. I’m ok at a lot of things, but have never been able to pick any one thing in particular to focus on, or find something that I’m good enough at to make a career out of. This has made it a nightmare trying to find an actual career path.
I was at my last job (my first “professional” office job) for 8 years that I landed solely because of a friend I knew that worked there. If it wasn’t for him, I would have never gotten hired because I was so unqualified and bombed every interview stage so badly that I still don’t know how he convinced them to hire me. It paid well, but was very niche in an IT sector that doesn’t really transfer anywhere else. Well my worst nightmare happened and I got laid off, and I honestly have no idea what to do. You’d think “you were there 8 years, surely you’ve learned a lot”, but honestly I didn’t accomplish all that much. I showed up, did my job (not well), went home, repeat. The manager of our department lived in another state and barely talked to us. I had all these goals and things I wanted to do or learn, but each day I was so mentally burned out by the job that anything extra just felt like a huge burden. I kept putting it off saying “I’ll work on it tomorrow/next week/whenever” and now after all this time I just feel like a piece of shit for never being able to commit to anything challenging without avoiding it like a plague.
I tried working on a resume, but got so overwhelmed after reading all the resume writing requirements that I ended up hiring a resume writing service to do it for me. They then told me I needed to provide quantitative data for each bullet point because “eMpLoYeRs nEeD tO sEe ReSuLtS aS hArD dAtA” and it has been literally 3 months since that conversation and every time I sit down and try to bullshit my (lack of) accomplishments at my last job I get so anxious and just put it off.
I’m always so overwhelmed with the amount of options and information overload everywhere that I just panic and never find somewhere to start, then fall into the same old avoidance patterns. I don’t even know the point of this post, I’m just feeling hopeless and needed to vent. Adhd is a nightmare | 2021-10-13T02:04:44.000Z | q715c6 | 116 | 299 | ADHD | Anyone here in their 30s and still have no idea what they’re doing career-wise and feel like they’re not good enough at anything? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q715c6/anyone_here_in_their_30s_and_still_have_no_idea/ |
FrenchJJC | For math nerds out there, do you have trouble keeping track of which variables are which when there are multiple of them in a situation? Personally, I have a very hard time trying to “think out” a mathematical model of any situation in my head. It just seems like a such an ADHD thing to have disorganized thoughts & not understand whats going on. | 2021-10-13T02:02:58.000Z | q7147s | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Question regarding ADHD symptoms and math | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q7147s/question_regarding_adhd_symptoms_and_math/ |
xxChromosome- | This past month I've been struggling with awful executive dysfunction it's spiralled into self loathing and depression. Everything in my life is a mess and I feel like I'm not ready for this uphill battle anymore. I can't even get the basics done because my mind won't stay focused for a moment.
So today I had some important deadlines and appointments coming up and I cancelled them last minute because the overwhelm is too much. It looks really careless on my part and I know its just going to make matters worse but I don't know anymore.
I am so burnt out and I can't commit to anything. | 2021-10-13T02:00:39.000Z | q712op | 2 | 5 | ADHD | Mentally burnt out and making careless choices because of it | 0.78 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q712op/mentally_burnt_out_and_making_careless_choices/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-13T02:00:14.000Z | q7128w | 3 | 1 | ADHD | I am going back to college and have concerns | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q7128w/i_am_going_back_to_college_and_have_concerns/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-13T01:51:51.000Z | q70x7h | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I am going back to college and have concerns | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70x7h/i_am_going_back_to_college_and_have_concerns/ |
ADIDmix |
I was recently diagnosed with sever AD (Inattentive) D. Which I found unusual because I am 56, I thought ADHD was something that happened to kids. Looking back on my life, it now makes so much sense, I was using the ADID playbook page for page on virtually every decision I made (all bad).
I’m still coming to grips with this, so I thought I would reach out to the folks here and see if we are sharing the same experiences.
For me, it’s like there is a fuzzy bubble surrounding me at arms-length on every side. Nothing outside the bubble really seems to exist. I put down a hammer, walk three feet in any direction, and all trace of that hammer simply vanishes from my mind. I can’t even begin to imagine the hours and hours I’ve wasted looking for tools that I JUST HAD!
This bubble works time-wise, too. As an analogy:
I’m walking along, and there in the path is a giant muffin. For most people, the thought process would be: I want that muffin. If I eat that muffin I will gain weight. I don’t want to gain weight. I will ignore this muffin.
For me the thought process is: I want that muffin. (Chewing noises).
The rest of the thought process that would stop me from eating the muffin continues, but as soon as it gets a little ahead of the fuzzy bubble, it doesn’t exist and gets chopped off short. Now I feel bad about eating an enormous muffin and I’m wondering why I didn’t just pass on it. So many times, I do something stupid, and then feel terrible afterwards.
Dan: “Hey look! A giant muffin!”
Dan’s Brain: “Looks good! Fire up the mouth!”
Dan: (Sounds of a Muffin being eaten.)
Dan’s Brain: “Well, that was stupid! Now we are going to gain weight!”
Dan: “Wait... didn’t you just tell me to eat it?”
Dan’s Brain: “Doesn’t sound like something I would do. Is that a squirrel?”
That is pretty much every decision I have ever made.
I enjoy chess, but I can’t think more than two moves ahead. My thought stream rolls out until it hits the edge of the fuzzy bubble and fizzles away.
Dan: “Ok, if I do pawn to Queen two, he will probably counter with Knight to Rook three. I can move up the bishop … static … I wonder what the national debt is now…”
It’s impossible for me to keep an interest in something. I’ve started writing dozens of stories, but after the initial 20-minute burst of creativity, I completely lose interest. I’ve designed dozen’s of boardgames, but most are unfinished. And so on and so forth. I’ve gone back and worked on some stories and games, but it is struggle, it’s hard work trying to keep my brain in the here and now. I have a strong work ethic, and when it comes to physical projects, like building a deck or retiling a bathroom, I just put my head down and finish it. Anything mental? Forget about it.
Same with work. I get a job, I do very well at the job because I am hard working, smart, and punctual. After a couple months, the job is like a 100-pound backpack I’m lugging around. By the end of a year, I’m in physical pain just punching in. It’s so frustrating!
When I’m talking with people, about 30 seconds into it and my brain has left the building to the point that I have no idea what the person just said. Many times, I didn’t even notice they had stopped talking or had asked me a question.
I can only focus on ONE thing. If I’m reading the paper, my wife can be talking to me in the same room, and I won’t hear it. Same with reading a book, watching TV, etc.
Loud noises are the worst, I hate 'em. On Zoom, when there are 20 people on the screen, all talking over each other, it actually causes me pain to listen to it.
All my life I’ve just improvised and thought on my feet to overcome the constant stream of bad life choices. I look normal to everyone else. The trouble is, and this is the main point I wanted to bring out, is that I’m older and slower and now all the guilt and self-repercussions are catching up to me. It’s like I’m slogging through quicksand, and waves of “I can’t believe I did that” and “What was I thinking” keep washing over me from things I’ve done in the past. It’s at the point I just don’t know what to do. It feels like I’m being crushed by the weight of past idiocy. Well, I guess not quite as dramatic as that, but you get the picture.
Only now do I realize that all my life I have been walking around in a fuzzy bubble and anything outside of the bubble, now or in the future, just doesn’t exist.
Does this sound like you? Are these things you are dealing with? | 2021-10-13T01:45:04.000Z | q70t3q | 3 | 4 | ADHD | Inside a fuzzy bubble with no way to see out. | 0.83 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70t3q/inside_a_fuzzy_bubble_with_no_way_to_see_out/ |
NeurodivergentAppa | I have been struggling with executive dysfunction quite severely, battling side effects from meds and trying to handle full time Uni and work.
Needless to say the fact that I did my quiz on time is huge.
Except.
So I started my quiz. My brother has sat on his ass all day doing fuck all except video games. I asked him to take the recycle out. He said he would. He didn't. My nMom came home, got fucking pissed off, starts slamming shit etc. Im rapidly losing concentration faster than dairy running through my stomach. I asked her to stop slamming cupboards cause Im writing a test. She started yelling at me about cleaning up after two grown ass adults. Which isn't true, because I washed all my dishes and the kitchen was clean when I sat down to do work. I told her to stop yelling at me, because Im not who she's angry at. She walked away and kept slamming shit. Then stormed off downstairs. When I heard her coming back I packed my shit up and went to my room (can’t write in my room because my bro screams and yells at his games and doesn’t care if I need to do stuff)
Anyways I submitted the test not sure if I did it right but my brain noped out. Im sitting in the bathroom numb and crying. I have a paper that’s overdue I was supposed to work on and now I feel drained and don’t want to write.
This shit amazes me because earlier she sent me a video on ADHD and said “wow this really helped me understand you and I actually cried”. Then does this.
Sorry for the vent. I’m just so tired of not being able to function. 😞 | 2021-10-13T01:41:01.000Z | q70qke | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I WAS JUST WRITING A TEST | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70qke/i_was_just_writing_a_test/ |
I-am1guy | I only recently found out about it, but I want to experience it, and because I know I can’t just make it happen, I want to know if it happens or if it’s already happened. I’ve been able to complete an entire video game in one day, but I’ve taken breaks in the middle, so my attention wasn’t 100% on it. Also, is hyperfixation a fragile thing that can be broken if you just think about it?
Sorry if this post is too wordy btw | 2021-10-13T01:36:56.000Z | q70nwr | 7 | 1 | ADHD | How do you know when you’re hyperfixating? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70nwr/how_do_you_know_when_youre_hyperfixating/ |
liftedup_nsfw | I've been working on my bike today because someone suggested I do some "fix" regarding a loose wire near my chain stay. So I whipped out the tools and did my "magic" and the chain was falling off my bike. Adjustment after adjustment and I just barely got it good enough to ride and it was better before I did the adjustments which I thought would help me out. That particular part has a broken mounting screw and I think at some point the hanger was bent too. So yeah this bike has been a complete mess and I haven't given up on it yet I'm not going to give up on it. If I have to fix things and be aggravated as all hell then I'm gonna do it. I'm desperately trying to learn and well I know more I don't have much to show for it other then something broken that barley works after I messed with it.
I know it happens, I know I can't do anything about it, and that's okay. Love you all .... | 2021-10-13T01:34:07.000Z | q70m4j | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Bicycle maintenance is like hell for my brain | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70m4j/bicycle_maintenance_is_like_hell_for_my_brain/ |
liftedup_nsfw | I've been working on my bike today because someone suggested I do some "fix" regarding a loose wire near my chain stay. So I whipped out the tools and did my "magic" and the chain was falling off my bike. Adjustment after adjustment and I just barely got it good enough to ride and it was better before I did the adjustments which I thought would help me out. That particular part has a broken mounting screw and I think at some point the hanger was bent too. So yeah this bike has been a complete mess and I haven't given up on it yet I'm not going to give up on it. If I have to fix things and be aggravated as all hell then I'm gonna do it. I'm desperately trying to learn and well I know more I don't have much to show for it other then something broken that barley works after I messed with it.
I know it happens, I know I can't do anything about it, and that's okay. Love you all .... | 2021-10-13T01:34:07.000Z | q70m4g | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Bicycle maintenance is like hell for my brain | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70m4g/bicycle_maintenance_is_like_hell_for_my_brain/ |
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[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-13T01:29:01.000Z | q70iz0 | 6 | 2 | ADHD | Please help me, I’m always being bullied at jobs. Is it because I make myself available to it ? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70iz0/please_help_me_im_always_being_bullied_at_jobs_is/ |
PostsigmaWorkout | I mean, I feel great. But it's weird. Most people seem to say that they feel energized and more anxious and focused on it, but I feel kinda tired and less anxious. I usually have something like a 3-way dialogue going on in my mind, but now it's just a quiet voice. I feel great, but the problem is the tiredness. Is this a normal thing? and can the tiredness go away?
anyway im prolly gonna try to go to bed now even tho its like 6 pm | 2021-10-13T01:27:28.000Z | q70i0o | 5 | 2 | ADHD | Just took 10mg adderall for the first time, feeling weird effects | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70i0o/just_took_10mg_adderall_for_the_first_time/ |
Knostikk | [removed] | 2021-10-13T01:13:17.000Z | q70962 | 1 | 0 | ADHD | how long should I wait before taking another vyvanse 40mg to be considered "safe" | 0.5 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q70962/how_long_should_i_wait_before_taking_another/ |
ellalei | [removed] | 2021-10-13T01:09:15.000Z | q706q8 | 4 | 1 | ADHD | Should I go to a psychiatrist or does this sound like something else? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q706q8/should_i_go_to_a_psychiatrist_or_does_this_sound/ |
physchy | I really like Daytrana. I do. I respond to it very well. But I had to get off of it because the patches were leaving me with the welts that took like a week to go away. So I was just covered in these sensitive, ugly, red boxes.
I’m trying again to see if it’s different this time around. No such luck. I tried Vaseline like the instructions said and it didn’t really help. It also said olive oil or mineral oil. Has anybody had any luck with those? | 2021-10-13T01:06:59.000Z | q7057r | 8 | 1 | ADHD | How do you remove Daytrana patches without leaving a huge welt? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q7057r/how_do_you_remove_daytrana_patches_without/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-13T00:58:37.000Z | q6zzrh | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Is My Dog Pooping Too Much? An ADHD Story | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zzrh/is_my_dog_pooping_too_much_an_adhd_story/ |
maidenofearth | Hey, I need some advice from likeminded individuals, because everyone in my life seems to think I’m making a huge mistake. Sorry it’s so long but I feel like there needs to be a lot of context.
I desperately want to quit my job, but I’m afraid I’m being impulsive and foolish. I’m working in a TK-2nd grade classroom as a teacher’s aide to my sister in law up in the mountains (that’s why it’s a multi-grade class) where I’m making minimum wage. It’s a tiny school. My main responsibilities are taking the TK and kindergartners into the other classroom to work on packets during work time (feels like herding cats with my brain), while she teaches the first and second graders and I watch the kids at recess. Just trying to focus on everything at once is so exhausting and overwhelming that by the end of each day when I get home I go straight to bed and hybernate. Also, I want to mention that my relationship with my sister in law is a bit lacking. She’s just about as neurotypical as it gets and she just doesn’t get me and my daydreamy whimsical personality (if I may say so). It’s not that I don’t like her, but I’ve noticed that the only time she has an interest in me is when she is drunk. She has resentment towards my boyfriend and I feel that it casts a shadow onto me. She can be set off really easily so I walk on eggshells whenever I talk to her. Add that in with RSD. I’ve had multiple panic attacks since the beginning of the school year because of all this.
I’m 23 and until recently, I haven’t been able to figure out what I want to do with my life. I haven’t gone to college yet and I’m not sure if I want to. I’d jump from hyperfixation to hyperfixation (drawing/painting/collage/embroidery/fashion/jewelry/beading/photography/singing) and say “I found the thing I want to do!” But of course I couldn’t stick with it. About a year ago, I decided I wanted to learn to sew and it took until Spring Break of last school year for me to get to it and start learning. I fell in love! I’ve always been interested in fashion design but I didn’t have the drive to really start learning. I spent the summer learning from my grandmother and I was dreading going back to work because I knew my energy would be depleted and I wouldn’t be able to pursue sewing like I had been.
I feel like my mental health is failing and I’m never in the moment. I’m dreading tomorrow and the next tomorrow and the next tomorrow and on and on, I’m dissociating whenever I’m at work, and I’m living (barely surviving) for the weekend.
So here’s what I want to do: I want to quit.
I’ve been collecting vintage clothes that I find in thrift stores to resell online, but I want to do photo shoots in beautiful landscapes in them to give it a more luxury appeal. And I’d like to embroider art onto certain pieces of clothing (not vintage). I’d be doing this as income while I’m teaching myself to sew.
I may have enough money to survive (maybe a couple months) until I get it off the ground, gain a following of my shop, but I’m afraid it won’t work, it’ll take too long or it JUST SIMPLY WON’T work. And then I’ll have to rely on my boyfriend or my mom financially, both who think I’m being foolish. I know I may be, but I feel like I’m going to lose my mind if I don’t quit.
Should I quit and follow the dopamine? | 2021-10-13T00:58:04.000Z | q6zzgd | 17 | 2 | ADHD | Following the Dopamine | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zzgd/following_the_dopamine/ |
northwestern_phoenix | [removed] | 2021-10-13T00:55:02.000Z | q6zxl1 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | how to fight hyperfixations | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zxl1/how_to_fight_hyperfixations/ |
madagony | I have been diagnosed with ADHD since I was 16 and have been really struggling this year bc of it. I decided to take action and get help for it my physiatrist prescribed me with Adderall the one that lasts 12 hours. I have taken one today and just don't feel well I don't feel high but I feel paranoid and super focused. I'm just wanting to know if this is normal or if I was prescribed to high of a dose and if anyone has been through this before as well. I plan on talking to my psychiatrist again before taking any more but I'm just wanting an idea of what's going on before I go in. | 2021-10-13T00:53:35.000Z | q6zwom | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Need advice with medication symptoms | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zwom/need_advice_with_medication_symptoms/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-13T00:49:35.000Z | q6zu91 | 4 | 1 | ADHD | Same dose for 17 years. Afternoon crash Worse. Supplements don’t help. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zu91/same_dose_for_17_years_afternoon_crash_worse/ |
Nabster56 | I don't know about you, but my adhd symptoms are worst year after year, that led to an adhd diagnosis some month ago, now under treatment.
I say worst because as we grew up, we Get more and more responsabilities. ADHD was annoying but nothing more, sometimes it was even fun to tell some story of how I forgot that or lost that, that I should have failed my Master degree and got lucky because I never worked, etc... But when I became à husband and a dad, those problems started to really impact my life, my wife's and my son's.
Got a second Child and my Adhd really started to impact our life, hence the diagnosis thanks to a friend Who suggested i have Adhd. It explained so much.
Ritalin helped a lot, better clarity, focus, good perspectives.
But today I forgot to take it, don't know why or how, Just forgot, had a lot of my mind but was getting my shit done so, still good.
But when I sat my 5 month Old baby in his chair on the table, I forgot to strap him on and kept on chatting with my wife.
Long story short, he fell on the hard floor from above 1 meter on the head. Currently at the hospital, waiting to be discharged, in an hour or so I hope.
I. GOT. LUCKY... Could have been a head trauma or worst. Seems like he is a tough little dude.
My wife was horrified at me that I could have forgot something so simple and yet so important. Couple hours in, baby is fine, ate and sleeping she was finally reassured and she Just told me "don't forget to take your ritalin"
I'm still in shock, waiting for them to come home...
Again, we got lucky.
Needed to vent, and that maybe my shared experience can prevent other to do stupid shit like that or some other to understand what is really at stake, not Just forgetting some Keys or wallet, but one Day it's so much more and the consequences ...
Anyway, let's stay positive,
Live long and prosper, it is a never ending fight but together, we will prevail !
Lok'tar ogar my dudes | 2021-10-13T00:40:28.000Z | q6zos5 | 4 | 4 | ADHD | Almost lost my baby because of adhd | 0.75 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zos5/almost_lost_my_baby_because_of_adhd/ |
Palm_Tree20 | Since age 11 I've always knew something was different about me. I tried to express my concerns to my parents but they told me it's in my head and to get over it. I'm now 21 years old and I still can't talk to my parents because they don't take me seriously. Neither of them know I started medication for adhd.. my own father who I live with didn't even know I switched jobs almost 2 months ago. I feel alone. My dad forced me to grow up at the age of 14 when I was old enough to get a job I had to start providing for myself I bought my own groceries toiletries anything I needed this caused me to never be able to have savings as I was spending all my student wage money I made at a part time job to support myself. Im now struggling financially. My father is a very well off man he has good money and even though I know he could help me I can't ask and i won't ask because I'm just not like that and I also don't believe he would help me to begin with. I pay him rent every month on time and would never take money and not pay it back. I'm in a really tough spot because I've been putting my wisdom teeth surgery off for years and I really need to get it done. I'm stuck on whether or not I should finally ask my dad for some help because I can't afford this on my own. I want to tackle this on my own as I usually do but don't think this is something I can tackle. Does anyone else have trouble speaking to there parents? | 2021-10-13T00:38:52.000Z | q6znqo | 1 | 2 | ADHD | I feel I can't communicate with my Parents. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6znqo/i_feel_i_cant_communicate_with_my_parents/ |
Scrimshaw13 | My son is a month old and for the most part things are great, but in the evening during the witching hour when he cries for no reason on and off for hours I get so angry, then bitter, then numb. Suddenly I feel defeated in everything I do and like there's no hope for this to ever get better. He just drains all the emotion and energy out of me and my wife is left to pick up the pieces while I mope.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this and if so, how the heck do you deal with this? I try to remember that he's a victim in this too and not intentionally doing any of this, but it's hard when you feel like nothing you do works and all your effort is useless. | 2021-10-13T00:28:57.000Z | q6zhfe | 8 | 2 | ADHD | New Dad with ADHD - so overstimulated | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zhfe/new_dad_with_adhd_so_overstimulated/ |
uselessaltaccccc | Jeez, I'm in a weird position in life right now. I do homework 7 days a week - at least 7 hours a day (often up to 14/day on Sunday) - on top of 7-hour school days. Do the math and that's 91-hour "work weeks" of being useless, getting lost in thoughts, and trying to keep myself half-satisfied with life.
Right now, in about four minutes, I will be expected to walk my laptop and notebook into the family office room - and stay there from 5:00 to around midnight. In that time, I will finish (if I'm lucky) 30% of my homework. Then, from 12:00 to 1:30, I'll fall into a rabbit hole of dumb thoughts like, "Ok ok ok ok ok ok -- THIS is what you've been working for! This is your free time! Can you believe it?! Ok, use it wisely! How will you make these 90 minutes meaningful?? Come on, come ON - if you go to sleep without doing something fun, it will all be for nothing!!" Then, inevitably, I end up spending 10 or 15 minutes doing something that genuinely makes me happy - and sleep for four and a half or five hours - only to wake up and go back to school. As a useless, miserable dumbass.
And then on Friday, I fall back into the "do something fun!!!!" rabbit hole - only to waste the entire evening half-happy, desperately trying to latch onto the free time I have and miserably failing to unwind.
There has to be a way out! I can't live like this - but I feel like I have to prove to my parents that I'm trying. I want them to feel proud of - at the very least - my desperate, futile effort to keep my grades half-okay. I have to keep fighting because I'll graduate in a year and a half - and then maybe I'll be happy. Will I get diagnosed before that - after that - in a year or in three years?? I just feel so much weight and baggage that I CONSTANTLY have to carry. I'm not constantly angry - but those feelings of worthlessness pop up dozens of times a day. And my parents interpret those feelings as "anxiety" instead of ADD - which annoys the hell out of me.
Well, it's 5:17 now. There goes my "unwinding". | 2021-10-13T00:23:28.000Z | q6zdxb | 2 | 3 | ADHD | Being uncontrollably useless is a form of torture. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6zdxb/being_uncontrollably_useless_is_a_form_of_torture/ |
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tanic79 | So this appointment didn't go exactly how I thought it would. I prepared for it all day instead of working. Wrote down things I could think of that I struggled with so that I would be able to source it for the appt when asked. LOST the damn notes I took (go figure!) and luckily found them again. Never used my notes.
She just asked me questions that seemed to be from a script. She asked me if I hurt myself or thought about it and I thought it was worth mentioning that I do pick at my cuticles and scabs and sometimes hair follicles. She never asked in what situations I do these things (mostly when trying to get out of working but also, of course, when I'm anxious) She then said I had excoriation disorder and then immediately made a switch over to an anxiety and depression focus (I assume depression because of family history). She asked about feeling sad and I've had some down days lately but my reasoning is because I can't get my shit together long enough to finish simple work tasks without playing with my phone and I can't force myself otherwise for a very long period of time.
Anyway, she prescribed me 50 mg Sertraline. We did a short ADHD assessment that she printed from the internet where I fell just below the mark of having ADHD according to it, but I don't feel like it asked very great questions and some of it was geared toward hyperactivity which I don't have outside of interrupting others and sometimes talking a lot. She said she recommended I go to a psychologist to test for ADHD (I thought I went to her for this so that was a waste of $200) that she would refer me to. But in the meantime I should see if this medication helps. She claimed that stimulants are abused so she didn't want to prescribe those. But aren't there such a thing as non-stimulants? I realize that I don't check every box for ADHD but I can nearly attribute almost all of my anxiety to my ADHD. (Being unprepared for meetings makes me an anxious wreck, for example). I really don't think I'm depressed though, I think the ADHD makes me feel down about myself, sure. What about anti-anxiety medication? Wouldn't that be a little more appropriate?
I'm worried that an anti-depressant will make me worse. I need to be better now, years ago even, and read that they take awhile to work which turns me off. Speaking of, my short research tells me that they decrease your sex drive and mine is already at 0 and it's horrible for my relationship. I don't to be even worse.
I'm also worried that if I go through with seeing the psychologist that they'll make me do something silly like some kind of video game, which I can absolutely hyperfocus on. And it'll just be another waste of time and money.
I think I just needed to rant but ugh I'm so disappointed! I don't want to seem like I'm fishing for a specific diagnoses even though I feel like I might be. I just want to feel better and be better.
I'm going to do some research on the Sertraline and the psychologist she would refer me to in the next day or so. I probably won't start the Sertraline until I know what to expect, so any tips or advice there is welcome.
Thanks for reading 🥺 | 2021-10-13T00:17:02.000Z | q6z9pi | 2 | 0 | ADHD | Finally had an appointment with a Psychiatrist, prescribed an anti-depressant? | 0.33 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6z9pi/finally_had_an_appointment_with_a_psychiatrist/ |
PuzzleheadedEbb91 | [removed] | 2021-10-13T00:10:47.000Z | q6z5lj | 1 | 22 | ADHD | Do you ever just... walk around aimlessly for hours? | 0.97 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6z5lj/do_you_ever_just_walk_around_aimlessly_for_hours/ |
ehwyvabamwqqjk | [removed] | 2021-10-13T00:08:23.000Z | q6z44f | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Got refered | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6z44f/got_refered/ |
Traditional-Age-9741 | I've noticed that for the last year I've slept around 6 hours every night. When I started Journaling I got to a healthy balance of 8 hours for around 15 days but uni started and now I'm back to square one. Even when I was in bed with my girlfriend I would still struggle a lot with it. At first I thought it was loneliness, not texting someone. Then I thought it was satisfaction, not playing enough or pleasuring myself before bed. Then it was too much light, then too little light. Then no music then too much music. Now I've noticed that it's actually all of the things I listed before and it honestly feels so crushing. I can't do all that stuff before sleeping...
So instead I started posting online. Typing to people who were 100% asleep. Leaving something in the background and not paying attention to it (somewhat). Leaving stuff still to be done makes me sleep faster and with much less trouble, but then again, I don't have a consistent way of doing this. For example, this post is me trying to leave a mark in the universe before coming back tomorrow to check it, and I also typed it like a rant just like I would type to a friend. I'm sorry for wasting your time, if you have any suggestions or lived experiences about trouble sleeping with too many thoughts let me know :) | 2021-10-13T00:07:42.000Z | q6z3pl | 2 | 3 | ADHD | I can't sleep at all if something is not going on | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6z3pl/i_cant_sleep_at_all_if_something_is_not_going_on/ |
Significant_Pea9619 | I don't know what's wrong with me (aside from having adhd lol), but I wish I could just stop worrying about dating. I've been like this for almost my entire adolescent and adult life. I've only been in one relationship, and it was pretty short lived. I hyperfixate/obsess over crushes like nothing else, and I've tried everything to stop it, but nothing works. I feel hopeless. I've taken the advice of "just focus on yourself," "it'll happen when it happens," "you need to pick up a few hobbies," "stay busy," "workout and stay fit," "get a therapist," "it's a numbers game, just keep trying," so on and so forth.
I want nothing more than to just violently force that desire from me forever. I want to be happy alone, but because of my ADHD and my OCD that feels nearly impossible. I'm in grad school and I'm working on starting a business, I workout regularly, I'm a musician, an artist, I have a great friend circle, and I'm not antisocial, and I make an active effort to meet new people wherever I go. If none of that is working, then I don't know what can.
I think what feels the worst is the fact that ADHD is already a disability that feels fake. People around me don't really fully acknowledge it as real, and that's really tough to deal with. It's even harden to explain why I fixate on dating and why I take the constant failure so hard. The heightened, disproportionate emotional responses that I have to things makes me feel like a complete loser. When my friends get shot down, they feel bad, but they get over it. When it happens to me, I put on a brave face in public, but when I get home, I feel like complete, undesirable trash. RSD, emotional dysregulation, and hyperfixation all combine to make dating a horrible experience.
I know it's the emotional dysregulation talking, but I have *ideations* all the time and I'd never act on them, but the frustration and loneliness is so intense that it feels unbearable and that I'd rather just disappear than persevere. I feel completely pathetic writing this, and I'm sure I'll regret it later, but I feel like this community is the only one that might have people who can maybe relate and provide some unique insight.
TL;DR: I hyperfixate on dating and it results in a great deal of mental anguish and immense frustration that permeates my day-to-day life. | 2021-10-13T00:06:14.000Z | q6z2qq | 19 | 44 | ADHD | Dating is a pain in the neck with ADHD and I don't know what to do | 0.98 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6z2qq/dating_is_a_pain_in_the_neck_with_adhd_and_i_dont/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-13T00:03:41.000Z | q6z13j | 1 | 2 | ADHD | i need advice on how to stay motivated | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6z13j/i_need_advice_on_how_to_stay_motivated/ |
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Odd-Raccoon-577 | So im 27 and I've made the decision to talk to my doctor about ADHD and getting tested but I was just curious if I should know anything
* Does my doctor need to drug test me before and during refills?
* I smoked pot a week ago will that effect anything? should I wait until its out of my system?
* Do I need to let my job/future jobs know incase of drug test?
* Is it okay to not take the medication some day? (stories of addiction ive read kind of scared me)
* Do you get side effects for not taking it some days? (sleepy, nausea, lack of hunger/motivation)
* Do I need to let them know I've been depressed or can I lie? | 2021-10-12T23:52:39.000Z | q6yu2y | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Thinking of going to the doctor to talk about ADHD what should I know before hand? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yu2y/thinking_of_going_to_the_doctor_to_talk_about/ |
Only-Outlandishness | So I’ve been wanting to get back into therapy for sometime and so I decided to make an appointment with my old therapist. I recently moved across country, which also means across 3 time zones.
I missed my first appointment because I forgot it was scheduled on East Coast time. I showed up right on time to the wrong time slot.
Then, I rescheduled but moved it again because of a friend’s birthday celebration (it still would’ve been the wrong time).
The latest reschedule, which I even called to confirm earlier today, I also inadvertently missed because I’m apparently inept at calculating a 3 hour time difference.
At this point, I just want to find another therapist, preferably on my time. But I feel so bad. This therapist doesn’t know I have ADHD because I was diagnosed after I stopped treatment with her. And now I probably just look like an asshole and/or idiot. I feel really bad.
Not sure how to explain/apologize for wasting her time without coming off like I’m making excuses.
Anyway, just needed to vent. | 2021-10-12T23:47:22.000Z | q6yqwv | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Second time missing my therapy appt. 🙃 | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yqwv/second_time_missing_my_therapy_appt/ |
crunknb | About a year ago I read about ADHD and I found that I strongly identify with many of the symptoms. I have already been diagnosed with dyslexia with weaknesses in short-term and working memory which lines up well with many ADHD symptoms.
I want to get a diagnosis but I am at a lot of crossroads in my life right now. There are decisions I need to make regarding my career, finishing my degree and my personal life which are all heavily intertwined right now especially given my age (just turned 30).
My biggest worry right now is that if I go for a diagnosis I will most likely get it, whether I really have it or not. I have some major flaws and insecurities right now and this would help to explain many of them, but then I will be carrying this burden around with me for the rest of my life. Given my shortcomings, I could really do with the medication. This would not only help me finish my degree and get a proper job hopefully but more importantly actually get on with life. There are so many things in life I look back at now and it all clicks, however I am extremely worried that I because I am self-diagnosing I am now trying to convince myself that I have it. On the flip side, long-term medication use has many downfalls and there is also the chance that I could get diagnosed and they don't work for me.
Worst of all, ADHD is really trendy right now with everyone claiming they have it. Lockdown has only made it worse and I hear in the states it is pushed quite a but onto kids. For many of these people, they have been able to get through education and do decently at work but for me both of these have had major stumbles.
ADHD testing in the UK on the NHS can take a long time to get, likewise many of the independent testers can charge quite a lot. Some of the most popular ones such as Psychiatry UK have a less then stellar reputation.
I would really appreciate any responses because so much is resting on it. Thanks!
**tl;dr** \- I suspect that I may have ADHD, but I don't want to open a Pandora's box and carry the burden with me for the rest of my life. Should I go for the test? | 2021-10-12T23:44:45.000Z | q6ypd0 | 6 | 1 | ADHD | Terrified of going for a diagnosis | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6ypd0/terrified_of_going_for_a_diagnosis/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-12T23:42:39.000Z | q6yo15 | 3 | 1 | ADHD | I think I might have untreated adult ADD? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yo15/i_think_i_might_have_untreated_adult_add/ |
Parifari | I have been with my partner for 1 year now. I met him before he got a proper ADHD diagnosis. When we first started dating he would tell me about his lack of motivation and push away minor tasks or leave them an hour before the due date. He struggled sometimes with tasks like showering or eating. He would go through spurts of brain fog and these habits of not eating or losing motivation. I had recently finished my psychology degree and had mentioned that maybe he had ADHD. Turns out he did. He got proper medications and so far so good.
He starts off his fall semester at university and he’s doing great and then not even a full month he hits a brain fog wall. He’s constantly overthinking his work. Worrying about failing. Not being good enough. And he is avoiding doing all of his assignments. He looks so deprived of inspiration. Mind you he is in media designs. He also is 24 years old, and is a perfectionist in all his tasks. The past couple of weeks he just looks at the assignments but doesn’t attempt to do them.
I hate to see him down like this again and struggling. I want to help him but I do not know how. I worry about him and I know that he is an amazing artist and is incredibly intelligent. But I’m at a loss of what to do to help him besides remind him to take his meds, eat, and wake him up.
Any tips or advice? | 2021-10-12T23:42:16.000Z | q6ynth | 2 | 2 | ADHD | How can I help my partner | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6ynth/how_can_i_help_my_partner/ |
kaionbenzos | Hello all, so i was recently diagnosed with ADHD and my doctor prescribed me 10 mg Adderall to start. After that months worth it wasn’t very effective long-term so i got put on 15 mg XR Adderall. I was having the same issue started waring off around 1-2pm and I would crash extremely hard. So i talked to my doctor about that and she prescribed me 27 mg concerta. I went to go pick it up from the pharmacy and they gave me Methylphenidate CD 30/70 10 mg? Maybe those 2 meds are the same? Since taking this med though it’s having the opposite effect of Adderall, makes me extremely hungry and tired. Is this normal? | 2021-10-12T23:32:13.000Z | q6yhhe | 1 | 3 | ADHD | I’m confused | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yhhe/im_confused/ |
Separate_Tangelo7138 | First off I know that Reddit can’t give me a diagnoses. I’m thinking of going to try to get diagnosed for ADHD. I sometimes feel imposter syndrome like I’m making it up or I think doctors will assume I’m just trying to get drugs. Idk. So I guess I’m just asking if any of this sounds like your experience with ADHD.
Ever since I was young I couldn’t pay attention in class. Even swim class, I’d be under the water while the teacher was talking and get in trouble. I tried so hard in subjects like math, going to tutors, but stuff just didn’t click. I’d do my homework and study but fail most tests. I got bad grades and called lazy. Unless I’m super interested, like in art classes I’d get an A.
As an adult at work for example (I’m a waitress) I will read a table number on a food slip and instantly forget where to go. I have to read it like 5 times. When I’m reading, I’ll read a whole paragraph and have to reread it because my mind gets sidetracked. Sometimes when I’m talking to people I lose my train of thought and it’s hard to complete what I’m trying to say bc I start thinking about something else. Cleaning my house is a nightmare because I jump all over the place getting distracted by stuff that’s not a priority to clean. So nothing totally gets done.
My train of thought just seems to be off the rails. From what I’ve read it seems like it may be ADHD. Just let me know if any of you experience life this way because sometimes it just feels like I’m making excuses or something.
Thank you | 2021-10-12T23:30:25.000Z | q6yg8p | 3 | 4 | ADHD | Undiagnosed | 0.84 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yg8p/undiagnosed/ |
Aerosslutuk | More and more recently I have found myself with a deep desire to leave. I am a 20 year old male currently at university. I like my degree and I like my friends and for the most part I like my life but I still end up with a sometimes overwhelming urge to just leave, like I should take the next train to anywhere or pack my bag and get a flight to anywhere that isn’t remotely like the U.K. The last couple of weeks haven’t been amazing for me, my life has seemed to stagnate almost and I’ve felt this urge growing. I’ve become more restless as time goes on and I don’t know how to counteract it, luckily my friends sat with me and stopped me but I still don’t feel ‘normal’.
I just wanna know if anyone else feels the same way or has the same compulsion to just be anywhere except for where you are now or if anyone has any advice for how they deal/dealt with these emotions because I’m feeling very lost and adrift and I just need some advice.
Thanks everyone | 2021-10-12T23:27:56.000Z | q6yelv | 9 | 13 | ADHD | Do you ever just want to leave | 0.94 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yelv/do_you_ever_just_want_to_leave/ |
chezhalaina | I (22F) am struggling right now. I took an incomplete last semester because I had to have surgery on my broken arm. I am in grad school and have not finished my work from last semester yet even though I probably could have finished it this summer. It also took me to get down to three months' rent, to start working my ass off. It gets harder every day to complete my grad work (I also have this semester off).
The last 2 days, I spent napping. It feels awful because I need to do the work but I've been napping so much and obsessing over shows and random projects.
I did finally go back to therapy and talked to my psychiatrist who was previously prescribing me ADHD meds. Both felt that I was textbook depression, so now I'm on Wellbutrin, not ADHD meds.
I REALLY want to focus on the things that matter and feel good about my work. Even so, it seems like I have no ability to take care of myself and do the shit I need to do.
I don't recognize myself physically and mentally. I used to be confident with the person I am. Now I feel like a phony. I'm becoming like the boring people I don't like and am still sometimes sick about past events. My friend (20) from high school died in an accident the night I broke my arm. I thought he was making something of himself and I'm wasting my life. It should have been me. I know I'm young but that is what I feel.
This was to get things off my chest but would love experiences/advice :) | 2021-10-12T23:27:10.000Z | q6ye4t | 4 | 2 | ADHD | Things are Falling Apart and I Still Don't Care, ADHD + Depression | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6ye4t/things_are_falling_apart_and_i_still_dont_care/ |
SBunny11 | I am currently seeking medical documentation from a company called Done or Done First. I was diagnosed with with ADHD by the clinician they assigned to me back in late August of this year. I am taking a very important exam next month and I am seeking to apply with for an accommodation to said exam. This company has been giving me the run around on this documentation Ive been asking for since August 21 and most recently it appears they are flat out just ignoring my phone calls and emails. I do not know what to do with this or how to proceed. Should I consult with an attorney? Should I send another email stating I will seek legal advice if this matter is not resolved? Any advice would help. Thanks a bunch. | 2021-10-12T23:24:01.000Z | q6yc2k | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Advice on how to proceed? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6yc2k/advice_on_how_to_proceed/ |
222jjk | Any feedback would be appreciated at this point… I don’t even know what to do anymore.
I was put on a month trial for Ritalin (10mg) 2x/day, and it’s actually been helping me so much in the mornings, it lasts around 2-3 hours, and I crash like crazy. I get an awful headache, feel a little dizzy, sometimes really hungry, and just very disassociated in general. The second redose makes me feel better, but still a little disoriented but I’m to at least focus somewhat.
I only have a certain amount for a few weeks, and I’ve been doing 3 doses/day so I don’t crash for too long. I was thinking it had something to do with my body metabolizing it so quickly. I want to try an extended release stimulant, but I have a really close minded unstable family (lol) and I’m not sure how to approach them about it… They literally told me it’s either this or nothing because they don’t want to waste their time watching me “try out drugs” only to get addicted to them. They literally have the idea that if this stimulant doesn’t make me some child prodigy than I don’t have true ADHD. | 2021-10-12T23:16:23.000Z | q6y6y9 | 3 | 4 | ADHD | Horrible Ritalin Crash | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6y6y9/horrible_ritalin_crash/ |
bookbuttssnacks | Hellooooo!
This is a two parter! Im sure it will be long winded bc ya know: ADHD.
First part:
What do you do for a living? Do you like it? How does it support/impede your ADHD?
Second part (the long winded part about me):
I recently turned 40 (until very recently almost all of those 40 years I have coped with my VERY specific “personality” …unbeknownst to myself that I actually have ADHD). I have been fired from/walked out of all jobs that require me to work a typical 9-5/sit in one place for too long! I find most things incredibly boring and I just don’t take work seriously. I’ve always gotten “in trouble” / challenged authority/ rolled my eyes at people who care about pushing papers around a desk all day. I hate tedious, low reward work. I just… can’t. Zzzzzz…
Over the last 10 years I was organically drawn to the fast paced service industry life (constant dopamine hits ! Weeee!) . First as a barista/coffee shop manager and then in the last 5 years I have built my own business as a successful pet sitter and dog walker. (Another service based industry with constant movement and reward based dopamine hits alllll day long!). I do well at it and I love it.
Unfortunately dog walking -though I do make decent money!- is not something I can see myself being able to retire from or physically keep up with. It’s hard work. 7 days a week, 12 hour days. Miles and miles of walking every day no matter how hot or cold. Ouchie on the body.
As I stated above I am 40 and in decent shape now but I doubt I can walk for hours and hours a day when I am in my 60s or 70s. And god forbid I get in an accident and get injured- I have no job security. My body is my work.
So … I am mentally preparing to transition into a new career within the next 5 years or so. (Oh also , I have had people work for me and I have contemplated growing the business and getting myself out of the physical work and just transitioning to a manager position but I really hate managing people . I’m too much of a codependent people pleaser perfectionist lol 😂)
Running my own business is incredibly challenging but I’m good at it. As someone with ADHD it’s amazing I have succeeded at it and I am proud of myself . ( My book keeping is A MESS though! but I hired a book keeper and accountant to do that boring tedious work for me to prevent me from going to jail lol)
There are so many perks to my job! Mainly : I don’t have to work with humans!!!!!! I don’t have a boss! No one can see or judge my frazzled brain! I can listen to podcasts all day long and get to ponder the nature of existence and go down all the rabbit holes of the things I am interested in learning on any given day! I can cry in my car if I’m having a triggering day! No one can see or judge my frazzled brain! I get to hide to plain sight from society!! And it goes without saying : I love animals so spending all day long with my dog and cat friends is a dream come true!
BUT I’m in almost constant pain from walking so much. My shoulder and neck is jacked up from strong dogs pulling. And I never get a day off. It’s the troll toll I must pay to live this free wheeling amazing lifestyle 😆
I just …. can’t imagine what else I am possibly qualified to do that will not make me feel insane or like I’m a rat in a cage. I don’t have a college degree and all my work experience is based in the service industry .
Also major relevant side note:
My true interests/passions do not lie in the material world. I am a spiritual seeker who is obsessed with learning about the nature of consciousness. I am not money motivated and being around humans is very anxiety inducing for me.
Should I go to school for a theology or religious studies degree?? Is it even possible for me to sit through a class?? I don’t know !!
Am I screwed from being so spoiled?? My beloved job really is great but damn... I don’t think I can do this forever. 😭
I would love to hear any and all advice !! | 2021-10-12T23:15:28.000Z | q6y6cb | 7 | 4 | ADHD | What do you do for a living?? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6y6cb/what_do_you_do_for_a_living/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-12T23:10:25.000Z | q6y2wz | 2 | 2 | ADHD | I'm kinda between a rock and a hard place currently. | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6y2wz/im_kinda_between_a_rock_and_a_hard_place_currently/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-12T23:09:54.000Z | q6y2kl | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Coinciding with Depression | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6y2kl/coinciding_with_depression/ |
diymeh10 | [removed] | 2021-10-12T23:06:50.000Z | q6y0hf | 1 | 1 | ADHD | 5 mg Adderall XR | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6y0hf/5_mg_adderall_xr/ |
Odd-Raccoon-577 | [removed] | 2021-10-12T23:05:13.000Z | q6xzd2 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | How do I bring up ADHD to my doctor? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xzd2/how_do_i_bring_up_adhd_to_my_doctor/ |
Adhdmessofalife | [removed] | 2021-10-12T22:58:28.000Z | q6xuqi | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Does my ritalin need increasing? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xuqi/does_my_ritalin_need_increasing/ |
lokiVariant1130 | I am always stuck on what could of happened or what might and am always stuck on if I missed out on something and could of not miss out or I imagine something terrible happening and I feel as if it is real I don’t just say that not gonna happen or say I can avoid it I just live the worst possibilities in my mind over and over again. | 2021-10-12T22:54:48.000Z | q6xsg4 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | I’m always saying what could of who what might help! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xsg4/im_always_saying_what_could_of_who_what_might_help/ |
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[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-12T22:49:26.000Z | q6xp0w | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Coinciding with Depression | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xp0w/coinciding_with_depression/ |
[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-12T22:45:42.000Z | q6xmia | 2 | 5 | ADHD | Need Advice for College | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xmia/need_advice_for_college/ |
mireic | [removed] | 2021-10-12T22:43:53.000Z | q6xlap | 1 | 1 | ADHD | How big a deal really is ADHD? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xlap/how_big_a_deal_really_is_adhd/ |
Kit_and_kaPoodle | Have any of you ridden the Screamin’ Eagle at Six Flags STL? If you haven’t, it’s a super old wooden roller coaster. You sit in it, and you think to yourself “gosh, these seats are plush.” The rollercoaster starts up making a cranking, gear-crunching sound, tossing you left and right as it grinds its way up the hill. You start to think maybe you made a mistake. You come to the slow realization that the seats really aren’t as luxe as they seemed, and you’re probably going end up with bruises and a thrown out back. But when you get to the top of the first hill, it’s actually a pretty smooth ride. Not too bad. And then the car rounds the apex and the squealing and grinding and self-doubt starts again while the car rides down the hill.
This weekend my doc started me on 5 mg of Ritalin IR, 2x’s a day and it feels a lot like a wooden rollercoaster from a decade past. I take my meds, feel relaxed and a little sleepy, then a little bit buzzy, then focused for a bit and then my brain slowly turns into a broken pumpkin instead of the dazzling carriage it was. Is this going to go away over time? Does it mean I *don’t* have ADHD or that meds don’t work for me? Has anyone else experienced this? Please tell me this is normal and it gets better 🥺😣 | 2021-10-12T22:41:43.000Z | q6xjxb | 3 | 2 | ADHD | First week on Medication 💊 | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xjxb/first_week_on_medication/ |
lunabelle278 | [removed] | 2021-10-12T22:38:09.000Z | q6xhjz | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Just got two, 3 hour appointments for neuropsychological testing! | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xhjz/just_got_two_3_hour_appointments_for/ |
justfloating_ |
So I’m still waiting for my assessment and it will be a long journey if I do have ADHD as there is more wait time for medication where I’m based if your diagnosed. I do think I have ADHD, it was mentioned to me a lot and was in denial about it as I wasn’t aware of how it affected women differently. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and depression before too and also been diagnosed with a chronic physical illness in the past few years.
Anyways while I’m waiting for my assessment I’m struggling to keep it together. My whole life I’ve just made it though things, been able to do things last minute and somehow do okay or well. But I’ve reached breaking point and I can’t cope anymore. I’m doing really badly at work with concentration and really struggling with looking after myself and keep up with my to do lists.
I don’t think I can wait much longer it’s really having an impact on my mental health and I don’t know how to cope. I might not even have ADHD then I have to figure out what’s wrong, maybe I do and medication can’t help me. The thoughts I’m having are scaring me. I’m also waiting for therapy. How do I manage to live in the meantime? | 2021-10-12T22:35:41.000Z | q6xfv3 | 3 | 5 | ADHD | Coping while undiagnosed | 0.86 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xfv3/coping_while_undiagnosed/ |
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Subject_Clue_9234 | I Took ritalin in the morning as usual, studied for 4 and half hours and was normally tired. Did my lunch, cleaned the house, finished a YouTube video I've been working on for weeks now. Started and finished project for university.
I've been on medication for 3 or 4 months now, works fine. But I never felt so normal as today. Like "hm, I have to do this thing." And then do it with zero friction.
It's really uncanny to compare how much mental effort things usually cost to how easy today has been.
This is how it is to be normal? I really liked it. Could play one hour of Sniper Elite without getting bored. I'm going to the gym now, when I'm back probably will start reading a book I bought a few days back. | 2021-10-12T22:28:16.000Z | q6xakf | 10 | 58 | ADHD | Today I'm feeling normal. That's weird. | 0.98 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6xakf/today_im_feeling_normal_thats_weird/ |
aphelions_ghost | [removed] | 2021-10-12T22:25:01.000Z | q6x8ca | 0 | 1 | ADHD | How to write a follow-up email for a volunteer position? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6x8ca/how_to_write_a_followup_email_for_a_volunteer/ |
gRod805 | I recently started taking Adderall this month and its had a really bad effect on my sleep. Before I started taking Adderall, I would take a melatonin pill at 8:30PM, go to bed around 9:30PM, and fall asleep by 10PM. This would give me enough sleep to wake up around 5AM and go to the gym.
However, now with Adderall I just can't seem to easily fall asleep. I will just lay in my bed, not even having weird thoughts or anything but just awake. The other night I was awake past midnight. I really need to sleep early because I like going to the gym in the morning. Otherwise I will have to go after work and there's too many people at that time. Usually I take Adderall at 7AM.
Any tips on being able to fall asleep quicker? Should I just change my pill taking to 5AM instead of 7AM? | 2021-10-12T22:24:48.000Z | q6x85s | 8 | 2 | ADHD | Any tips on falling asleep at night after Adderall? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6x85s/any_tips_on_falling_asleep_at_night_after_adderall/ |
Matrixblackhole | Whenever I put it down I forget the place I put it, its doing my head in. Then when I can’t find it cue a mad panic in order to find it upturning every clean place. Its why I prefer messy over clean, to other ppl it looks messy but to me its an organised mess. This is the same for every other goddamn important/small thing I need to keep safe. I’ve lost everything from bike lock keys, to medical forms, and almost losing my stuff in a library. A ‘safe place’ or a ‘home’ for things has never ever worked. Now I’ve lost it again and I can’t remember where the heck I put it in my room, and its a PITA having to order a new one bc of changing all the online stuff. Disclaimer that I’m not diagnosed with ADHD but I do relate to quite alot of ADD/ASD traits.
Oh and if I ever do have my bank card remembering the stupid pin is another story if I’m not using contactless. One time my contactless wasn’t working so I had to rush home from the shop (after the cashier had scanned the items) to get cash because I couldn’t remember my pin, lol. | 2021-10-12T22:16:54.000Z | q6x2zk | 3 | 3 | ADHD | I keep losing my stupid debit/ATM card | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6x2zk/i_keep_losing_my_stupid_debitatm_card/ |
Pleasant_Ad7009 | Honestly just the title. I have troubles reaching consistency. I haven’t been consistent with anything in my life so far. Constantly battling *something*. Unknown thing. I’m not depressed; I’m not sad. It just feels like my brain won’t comply.
I slept for 14 hours today. Didn’t go into work. And I’ve noticed that the less structure I have at work (I work my own timings etc.) the more I slack off. Like I need someone to tell me “you’re fired if you don’t make it in at 8”. Most people would love the sort of job I have and the way I am living. But for me it’s honestly detrimental. I feel like I’m unable to provide myself with structure.
I’m not medicated. I’ve always had issues paying attention to things, even television. I literally can’t watch stuff without pausing it a million times to take breaks. But I’ve always worked it out. But now that I’m an adult and I have major responsibilities, it’s like I’m shutting down battling my own brain.
I need structure. How do I do this for myself?
Can you relate? | 2021-10-12T22:16:00.000Z | q6x2f9 | 25 | 64 | ADHD | Do you guys have trouble being consistent? | 0.99 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6x2f9/do_you_guys_have_trouble_being_consistent/ |
NattKnasen | I recently got diagnosed with BPD and ADHD although I don’t relate at all to BPD. It’s frustrating to not know if my mood swings is because of BPD or ADHD and they can swing a lot. In one moment I want to sell my apartment that I bought with my partner and in the next I want to marry him. One moment I want to break up and I’m the next I want sum babies??? One moment I’m really affectionate and in the next I’m convincing myself I should break up. I love him and I know I do I just can’t seem to “land” and accept the fact that it won’t be more exciting than this. I’m constantly looking for excitement and constantly craving dopamine or adrenaline and I’m just so afraid he won’t be able to keep up. It’s so nice to finally get this off my chest.
The mood swings are really killing me. Why can’t I just be.. content?? Ever??
I love him so much and deep down I know it. Idk if this is even relatable but if you have really bad mood swings how do you cope? How do you care for your relationship?
ALSO; how did medication help you? What changed? Can medication help with the mood swings?
AND; How the frickedido do you sleep? I can’t calm down. | 2021-10-12T22:14:04.000Z | q6x12e | 2 | 1 | ADHD | Hating and then loving my partner | 0.67 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6x12e/hating_and_then_loving_my_partner/ |
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[deleted] | [deleted] | 2021-10-12T21:58:27.000Z | q6wpze | 2 | 8 | ADHD | Frustrated about work and at a loss | 0.91 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6wpze/frustrated_about_work_and_at_a_loss/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-12T21:56:07.000Z | q6woh8 | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Going to see a therapist for the first time ever tomorrow, I’m terrified ;-; | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6woh8/going_to_see_a_therapist_for_the_first_time_ever/ |
-ToPimpAButterfree- | Took my doctor's office 4 days to confirm/submit my refill after submitting it Friday morning (if I submit my request even a day early they don't approve). Tried calling the office to clear it but they needed a doctors approval and my primary care physician wasn't in so they had to wait.
Re-submitted my request on Monday morning and it FINALLY got approved and filled today. During those 3 unmedicated days, I managed to break any good routines I'd been in and it feels like starting from scratch again.
All because people who don't have our disease abuse our medication. | 2021-10-12T21:50:20.000Z | q6wkkb | 10 | 15 | ADHD | WHY IS GETTING MEDICATION REFILLS SO CHALLENGING | 0.94 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6wkkb/why_is_getting_medication_refills_so_challenging/ |
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messy--mind | It always felt like I would be able to put myself back together, but all these years of therapy and medication haven’t helped. The only thing that has kept me holding on is my wife telling me she loved me and that things will be okay.
Two weeks ago she told me that things will not be okay.
I don’t blame her. I hate myself - so why would she keep loving me?
My therapist is trying to get me to accept that things are not my fault, but I just can’t see things that way. I have had all the ingredients to have a happy life - I was the only thing that stood in between myself and happiness.
I’m in my early 30s, (physically) healthy, with a supportive family, a loving partner, no debt, addictions, traumas or anything to be sad about - but despite everything I have going for me I have spent the better part of the decade too depressed to even get out of bed consistently.
I don’t work, my wife supports us. I try to at least cook and clean, but she ends up having to do the bulk of the household chores as well. I’m just a burden, and the associated guilt form a very helpful depression spiral.
I have been depressed since early childhood, but until I was in my early 20s I still managed to be high-functioning and was mostly in denial to myself about my struggles.
I’m smart. During school, I was consistently top of the class with little effort. I studied physics at university did well enough to publish research as an undergraduate. I had research projects planned and offers from supervisors that would continue into my PhD.
But despite my attempts top ignore it - the soulcrushing feeling inside me continued to build. Finally, during my last year of undergrad I had some sort of panic attack during one of my last exams - and I could no longer understand things I knew well enough that I was teaching it to friends previous night.
It made me realise I needed professional help and that I couldn’t keep ignoring the pain inside.
I saw therapists, sought counselling, tried several antidepressants. I deferred a semester of classes- I thought that this would be temporary and that the brain fog would go away when I was less stressed. I took up a part time tutoring job at the university, and just tried to focus on enjoying myself for a while and reducing stress.
During this time, I met the woman that would become my wife, and we just clicked in a way that made every friendship or relationship I had before that seem shallow by comparison. I found she was struggling with depression as well, and trying to bottle it up like I had been.
I encouraged and helped arrange for her to get help like I was receiving. It helped her, and she was able to get to a much better place. But I’ve never really gotten better.
I just had 2 units left to graduate, they could be anything. It took years. Several units either failed or not completed. It was ridiculous, but I couldn’t seem to do things properly anymore, and I felt increasingly broken. I had always struggled with procrastination, but I became less and less able to deal with it. I eventually got fired from my tutoring job because I stopped marking the students work in a timely manner.
To finally finish those last 2 units, my wife all but did the assignments for me. I finally graduated, but I was not in a place to continue my intended path into academia. I wasn’t even in a place to do tutoring anymore.
The idea was that I would take some time without the stress of finishing my degree to focus on my mental health. I moved through several psychiatrists and psychologists over the years. Nothing has helped.
Over a year ago, I was diagnosed with ADHD. It explains so many of my problems, and had been overlooked until now because I had been smart enough to excel at school despite my struggles.
I had finally thought that we had found the problem and things would be better. But the new medication - stimulants that are life changing for so many people with ADHD - they don’t seem to do anything for me. I can take the max allowable dosage and not be able to tell if i’ve taken it at all. The doctors are puzzled, and I feel defeated.
Over the years, I have been trying to write fantasy books. It has been one of my only consistent passions, but I have barely written a word in over a year now. And this is for something I am interested in and want to do. I can’t see how I could possibly do a daily job like a normal person. I can’t even get myself to stick with any sort of hobby, even things I do for fun.
I can put on a happy face and be the life of the party for an evening, but then I am exhausted for a week afterward.
I can make myself be temporarily productive with effort, but it’s like I’m borrowing energy from the future that I pay back with being so miserable that I can’t get out of bed or shower or a week. It is not a sustainable way to live day to day. I often feel like I have to leave some energy in reserve to a could react to emergencies.
My mood varies with no apparent cause. Sometimes I spontaneously feel almost like a normal person - and doing household chores just feels natural and easy. I start writing again and enjoying it. I let myself believe that this time is different, that this time things will get better. But this feeling always slips through my fingers.
The communication between my wife and I has (or had) always been very strong. We love each other very much. She has been a saint, but this relationship has become increasingly unequal and it is not fair to her how dependant I have become on her.
About a month ago, I was pretty much at my best emotionally and we went on a holiday together. I did my best to enjoy things and to make the most of our trip and do things together. It was unfortunate that she was feeling more depressed than normal, but I was understanding, trying to keep things cheerful and active, but understanding when she didn’t have the energy. It’s what she would do for me.
I was there to hold her as she cried. But she wasn’t just randomly sad like I thought, like how things seem to happen for me. She was grieving for our relationship.
Two weeks ago, she finally admitted that mostly she is crying about me. That she hasn’t been telling me the full extent of resentful feelings she has built up for me over the years because she didn’t want to hurt me. That she feels she can’t focus on her own mental health because she has to be strong for us.
She doesn’t love me like she used to. She doesn’t feel the spark she used to.
I don’t blame her. I don’t like myself, but I had tried to accept that she must be able to see a side of me that I couldn’t see through the fog of my depression. How could she love the ghost of a man?
She is going to be house sitting for a friend for the next month. She moved out last week. I helped carry the suitcases (and our cat).
We are calling it a break. A time to self reflect. For her to decide what she wants. Like how on aeroplanes they tell you to put your own oxygen mask on before you help others. But given how she held back on telling me things for the sake of my feelings, part of me is left second guessing what things are like for her inside her head. I had always felt confident that I didn't need to second guess her until now.
She arranged a session with us together with my therapists to tell me this. They recommend that I spend some time at a (voluntary) inpatient facility. To be honest, the idea is terrifying, but nothing has worked so far. I am currently on a waiting list, and will probably be admitted in the next few months.
It bothers my wife that I have little interest in meeting up with people without her there. She finds it a burden that she is pretty much my only emotional support. I’m friendly with her friends, but I don’t really have any friends of my own, and to be honest I don’t(/didn’t) really feel the need to close companionship outside of my wife. She has close friends and I encourage her to do things with them, both with and without me. And even though I can enjoy when we do things with friends and have interesting conversations, I am generally more content by myself (when she and I are not together).
It’s like friends fill a different mental place in her mind than mine, but I don’t really connect with friends in that emotionally supportive way (not that I’m closed off, I am open to people about my struggles with depression and can talk about it, but I don’t find any catharsis in it). I don’t know how much of this difference is us being on different places on the introversion/extroversion scale, me being too depressed to care, or if there is something else wrong with me.
During our month apart we are going on 1 date a week, and only contacting each other if it's really necessary in the meantime. We had a date this weekend, and there were times it almost felt normal between us. In the end, we were cuddled up on the couch and she was falling asleep on my lap like always. I said I could go and let her sleep, unless she wanted me to stay. She cried and couldn’t give me an answer. I decided that if she didn’t actively want me to stay, it was best for me to go and give her space. We both cried as I left, and I spent the rest of the night just aimlessly wandering the streets alone. I hadn’t done that in over a decade.
I’m trying to keep going. I cried almost all the tears I had left in me last week, and I’m currently in that robotic unfeeling state. The house is clean because I don’t do enough to cause messes. I shower and brush my teeth most days. I have no appetite but I am making myself eat (but I seem to have lost ~5kg despite trying to make myself eat the same as before...) I’m trying to keep exercising (I wish I got endorphins from it like some people describe), but Ive only managed to go to the gym once. I’ve been trying to write my book, but it wasn’t flowing, so I decided to write this post instead...
The sad thing is that my daily life isn’t too different to the way it was before - Except for the crushing loneliness that I haven’t felt in over a decade. (Hello old friend)
I’m trying to take things day by day. I’m trying to hold on to hope that things might be fixable between us- because at the moment, that is all that is getting me through the day.
I know that I should want to fix myself for myself, but even though that very idea is self defeating - I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t trying to fix myself for her.
My therapists is trying to get me to see that this isn’t my fault. But if it’s not my fault - what agency do I have to do differently? | 2021-10-12T21:46:40.000Z | q6whyw | 318 | 1,109 | ADHD | I am broken. ADHD+Depression has destroyed my life and my marriage. | 0.98 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6whyw/i_am_broken_adhddepression_has_destroyed_my_life/ |
[deleted] | [removed] | 2021-10-12T21:46:22.000Z | q6whrg | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Starting Medication, Side Effects I Should know Of? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6whrg/starting_medication_side_effects_i_should_know_of/ |
energized_thoughts | Is Lack of insterest the cause for stress in many people with adhd.
I am diagnosed with adhd
The question I want to ask is, everything I do that doesn't interest me causes me to feel stressed. For example doing the dishes, doing home homework, getting ready for work, going to work, all these situations I'm in a heightened sense of stress until I can come home and do things that interest me where my level of stress disappears. Is this a root cause of adhd?
Did you find medication helped? Because so far it only allows me to focus more on things I'm interested in and become more annoyed when doing things I dont enjoy. However getting ready in the morning is a lot simpler now | 2021-10-12T21:45:31.000Z | q6wh56 | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Lack of interest since childhood | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6wh56/lack_of_interest_since_childhood/ |
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acsc085 | Hi everyone, I was wondering if anyone has gone down a private route for ADHD assessment in London, UK? If so, what clinic did you use (your experience, price, and the length of the process). I want to get a prescription ASAP but I also can't wait any longer than a month for it. I have been showing ADHD symptoms my entire life (and it actually explains so much for me), and have finally decided to do something about it. I am at my forth job just 2 years after graduation and I can't loose another one!!! xxx | 2021-10-12T21:40:15.000Z | q6wdjt | 3 | 2 | ADHD | Recommendation on getting private ADHD diagnosis instead of using NHS (London based) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6wdjt/recommendation_on_getting_private_adhd_diagnosis/ |
naura_ | My husband got a tentative job but we have to move for it. I am scared AF because i have a hard time keeping a clean house, making decisions about what to do with the stuff we already have, and the anxiety of thinking that there is always someone looking at you to make sure things are neat and clean.
Do you have any tips on organizing/cleaning when you have to move? | 2021-10-12T21:38:23.000Z | q6wc85 | 2 | 2 | ADHD | Moving/renting with ADHD | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6wc85/movingrenting_with_adhd/ |
Jaymundo_ | What are some of your guys favorite hobbies? I'm looking for something to do other than gaming with my medication it draws me in and I'd much rather develop other hobbies I'll enjoy and don't involve me feeling like I have to constantly be absorbed into something. Don't get me wrong I love video games but they can also be negative for me too.
I love to paint but can't draw for crap but I would love to develop other hobbies I just can't think of any other than fishing but I would love to hear what people in this community enjoy doing. | 2021-10-12T21:38:08.000Z | q6wc0z | 39 | 7 | ADHD | what are your favorite things to do? (Looking for new hobbies other than gaming) | 0.9 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6wc0z/what_are_your_favorite_things_to_do_looking_for/ |
UniversityEconomy645 | [removed] | 2021-10-12T21:35:02.000Z | q6w9tq | 1 | 1 | ADHD | Struggling to focus even with medication | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6w9tq/struggling_to_focus_even_with_medication/ |
Jaymundo_ | [removed] | 2021-10-12T21:34:59.000Z | q6w9su | 1 | 1 | ADHD | what are some of your favorite hobbies you enjoy? (Looking for something to do other than gaming) | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6w9su/what_are_some_of_your_favorite_hobbies_you_enjoy/ |
Cosmodocus | Hi all, so I've been checking out this subreddit for the past 8 months\~ or so since discovering I may have had ADHD. Ever since then, I discovered I had ADHD myself, seeked out medication, and did as much extensive research on the subject, and its been quite the wild rollercoaster full of ups and downs. In that time I also learnt that I really did love learning about adhd as I found how much it has really impacted my life, and I really do enjoy explaining the ins and outs of adhd to friends, families, and those who are interested. My biggest goal currently is finding some sort of long term career, and I'm curious if I could help others with adhd as I know how tough as struggling being a person with adhd is, and how disappointing the mental health industry can be. | 2021-10-12T21:31:03.000Z | q6w6za | 4 | 3 | ADHD | Can I help people with ADHD as a career? | 0.8 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6w6za/can_i_help_people_with_adhd_as_a_career/ |
Smizzlenizzle | I went to the doc one day and described some of my daily difficulties, he then wrote me an Adderall prescription saying I may have ADHD. The medicine works very well for the most part. Doc says he can't give me a strict diagnosis for ADHD.
My question: Do I need to pay some clinic $700 to give me an official diagnosis when i'm doing ok with the Adderall? I don't have much money. | 2021-10-12T21:29:11.000Z | q6w5kl | 1 | 2 | ADHD | Need expensive ADHD tests? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6w5kl/need_expensive_adhd_tests/ |
DoWhatWhen | Hello! I've been on my ADHD journey for awhile, and was diagnosed/received a prescription a few months back. It's helped a lot, and I've been using an app on my phone to write down all the tasks I need to do around the house. I can schedule it for specific dates/times and set reminders.
It's helped a lot, and I've been good at getting a lot done. However, I've found that a lot of times bigger, or lower-priority tasks start to fall through the cracks, and each time they come due I just push them back a week, repeatedly. Sometimes for months! I'm in a long-term relationship and my partner is thrilled with my project but still concerned that if something isn't immediately important and I volunteer to take it on, it will never get done without them managing me.
I've gotten to the point where I track and schedule tasks, anyone have advice on how to stop rescheduling constantly? Thanks! | 2021-10-12T21:26:47.000Z | q6w3x0 | 1 | 6 | ADHD | Tips to catch myself constantly rescheduling tasks? | 1 | https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q6w3x0/tips_to_catch_myself_constantly_rescheduling_tasks/ |
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