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acidic_milkmotel
First off I would like to say that I shower/bathe every day. For some context, I’ve had a rough couple of days (adjusting to meds=insomnia/family problems) and after not sleeping for 48 hours and feeling like I couldn’t get a break I took the day off of work. I didn’t want to shower. I kept putting it off ten more minutes since about 11am and it is now 3pm. I finally settled on a bath because I can sit in the tub and it’s just easier 🤷🏻‍♀️ even though I normally walk 10,000 steps a day. I really feel like a lazy POS. I want to understand why I don’t want to shower. As a kid with OCD I’d bathe multiple times a day and obsess about germs but today I considered not bathing. I’ve read others mention they dislike showering or put it off. Why do we do this? And does anyone else deal with chronic fatigue? I have no energy. All coffee does is make me feel like I need to run while I sit at my desk. It’s like anxiety in a cup but I can handle it if I’ve had a decent breakfast. I read about someone taking caffeine pills and got some because when I get home at 5pm (I’d take them earlier) from work I crash from exhaustion and can’t enjoy the few hours of evening I have before going to bed and doing it all over again. That and I can’t get things done at home, like cleaning or laundry because I’m so tired. I take a nap almost daily after work. Does anyone relate to the chronic fatigue? I’m tired all the time. I can stay alert at work because I’m occupied but I’m drained by the end of eight hours. I’m just wondering if this is an adhd thing or if it might be another medical issue.
2021-12-01T23:01:50.000Z
r6rxrm
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3
ADHD
Why don’t I want to shower?/chronic fatigue
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rxrm/why_dont_i_want_to_showerchronic_fatigue/
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2021-12-01T23:01:39.000Z
r6rxkw
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2
ADHD
My brain does this...thing?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rxkw/my_brain_does_thisthing/
chimerachad996
I have just started as a youth leader at my church and it's been fun to work with those kids but I get really self conscious when I have to stop and go take my booster medication (2 Ritalin 10mg tablets) when I come back the kids ask me why I had to leave and I explain to them that I have adhd and I have to keep taking medications to keep me on task and focused This one kid he come to me and asked what does adhd mean so explained to him that my head is like a balloon filled with angry bees and he seemed to get it but I feel like a did a bad job at explaining it Is there any other ways that people here explain there adhd to the younger generation Thanks in advance
2021-12-01T23:01:38.000Z
r6rxk9
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3
ADHD
Best way to explain to kids how my adhd works
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rxk9/best_way_to_explain_to_kids_how_my_adhd_works/
fairydommother
I have several going right now, trying to multitask because I want to do All The Things, but I feel like I’m not getting anything done! I write fan fiction as a creative outlet and I’m into locksport as my puzzle/fidget hobby, and I like to watch TV while doing the lock picking but not while writing fic (too easily distracted). I’ve been really into two TV shows so bouncing back and forth there. I’ve barely done any lock work today and zero fan fiction and my husband wants to watch show one instead of show two which pulls my focus more and even makes it hard to pick. I’m feeling pulled in so many directions. I want to sit down and focus on one thing all day, and my husband is always balancing his hobbies like this. It’s stressful! How do they do it??
2021-12-01T22:56:55.000Z
r6rtf6
6
5
ADHD
How do non-adhd people handle multiple hobbies??
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rtf6/how_do_nonadhd_people_handle_multiple_hobbies/
anupsidedownpotato
I stopped taking all my meds pretty out of the blue last year of May because they weren’t working for me how I wanted them to and I failed a bunch of classes I shouldn’t have. Today I finally got an appointment with this psychiatrist I’d only gone to a couple of times and I thought I’d give him another chance. Then I went today to hopefully rework my meds from the ground up and find something that works for me only for him to completely ignore what I wanted and just prescribe the same stuff but at a higher dose (Vyvanse and pristiq). And it all happens so fast I was just in and out I didn’t really have time to even think, “wait a minute that’s not what I want!” He doesn’t seem to really care what I take and I said I had trouble sleeping and a ridiculous amount of anxiety and just prescribed me a random sleeping pill but no anxiety saying “oh the antidepressant was actually made for anxiety” except I still had a lot of anxiety when I was taking previously, so much to the point I failed multiple tests in college bc I just panicked from the anxiety. Does anyone have any tips on finding a genuinely good psychiatrist? Sorry for the rant :) TLDR: tried to get on new meds psychiatrist ignored me and gave me the same meds
2021-12-01T22:56:53.000Z
r6rte3
4
1
ADHD
Psychiatrists suck sometimes
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rte3/psychiatrists_suck_sometimes/
chickenwithchlamydia
Today I took vyvanse (50mg) a lot later than normal. I tend to get up and take it around 8am-10am. Today I ended up taking it around 2pm. I have now used the wrong setting to wash my clothes, burned my dinner to a crisp, accidentally deleted a video I made, and left the sink running for an hour. Just in the last hour (it’s 5:30) I created a bunch of problems. I’m so exhausted and didn’t get anything done that I needed to (I’ll be working the rest of the week). But for some reason decided to make a large amount of cold brew tea??? So now I’m just frustrated and just hating the reminder that I have to have meds to live a normal day to day. I always think that I’ve created enough coping skills to efficiently and effectively reach the bare minimum without meds. But alas~ I’m wrong. I spent a lot of time making my dinner, and I didn’t have any alternatives. I’m just drained from the one hour I made myself move out of bed. So cookies it is for din din. Because going into a store to buy food would make me prolly just crumble. (Grocery stores hard for anyone else? )
2021-12-01T22:48:24.000Z
r6rmbh
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1
ADHD
How do you deal with taking your meds off schedule? My head is full of bees.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rmbh/how_do_you_deal_with_taking_your_meds_off/
Intrepid_Ad1723
Has anyone here had luck with this book? Are there ADHD friendly tips to try? I really want friends! I have read plenty of posts on here where people are saying they don't have friends and it's hard . Anyone out there who DOES have friends and willing to give advice? Or, anyone with ADHD loved ones willing to help us understand?
2021-12-01T22:47:13.000Z
r6rlc1
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2
ADHD
How to win friends and influence people
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rlc1/how_to_win_friends_and_influence_people/
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2021-12-01T22:43:52.000Z
r6rii7
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Needs opinions on if you think I got ocd or adhd please
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rii7/needs_opinions_on_if_you_think_i_got_ocd_or_adhd/
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2021-12-01T22:41:02.000Z
r6rg5d
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Think I got adhd or ocd? Need opinions please!
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rg5d/think_i_got_adhd_or_ocd_need_opinions_please/
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2021-12-01T22:37:44.000Z
r6rd7o
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(NOT TRYING TO DIAGNOSE) does this sound like maybe ADHD
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rd7o/not_trying_to_diagnose_does_this_sound_like_maybe/
Spyrakis
To defeat these toxic thoughts of "Am I faking it?" or "Do I even have ADHD?", I use logic to remind myself that, I do indeed have ADHD. 1. A fucking doctor told me I have ADHD. Much like the vaccine, if the doctors tell me to take the vaccine, I'm taking it. I don't know anything about this and I fully trust those who work and study it for a living. So if someone who is a professional in the area tells me I have ADHD, I'm pretty sure I have it. I can't argue with a doctor about this. 2. Dopamine deficiency is so extreme for me. When I am not on my meds it is very noticable to me when I get a surge of it because everything from my will to live to what I want to eat changes drastically just by me being giddy about shit like a new episode of a series that I like. 3. I have close friends with ADHD, and whenever someone has issues with something due to their disorder, 9 times out of 10 times we can all relate to it. Growing up with ADHD, the symptoms start to be seen as normal by you and perhaps others. It's at that moment, when the abnormal begins to be seen as normal when the questioning becomes easy. And it is difficult to try to pinpoint the disorder by yourself since it's hidden by this veil of normality for you. Nothing seems odd about constantly daydreaming or having consistent issues with doing everything last minute. And it sucks major fucking dick. These are just some examples of how I do it, hopefully this helps someone. Your feelings and issues are all valid, fuck all that other noise. ADHD is real and it is not always easy to live with. Peace.
2021-12-01T22:37:20.000Z
r6rcvp
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ADHD
Self doubt sucks major dick
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6rcvp/self_doubt_sucks_major_dick/
Ok-Extension-6887
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2021-12-01T22:31:10.000Z
r6r7d4
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YouTube, and Listening @ 1.75x
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r7d4/youtube_and_listening_175x/
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2021-12-01T22:30:22.000Z
r6r6p0
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Anybody else find that meds efficacy changes if you take it at a different time than normal?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r6p0/anybody_else_find_that_meds_efficacy_changes_if/
Visuallybroken
I'm drowning...I'm drowing fast. I 21(F) got diagnosed with ADHD 8 months ago and I thought I could manage because I always have, I just thought I was crazy growing up but it has gotten worse. I can't focus, I want to cry all the time, my moods swing faster than a pirate boat ride, I feel like I'm on crack when I literally do nothing, I procrastinate to no end and I get so overstimulated at work (I work at a coffee shop) I literally have to leave before I start panicking like a 4yr old drunk on sugar and there are even times where I shut down completely and it's unbearable. Even at home i feel like a damn mess , I either sit down at my computer for hours keeping myself preoccupied with YouTube videos or ATTEMPTING to get some GODDAMN WORK DONE!! IT IS SO FRUSTRATING BECAUSE I CAN'T FOCUS ON 1 GODDAMN THING FOR MORE THAN 5 MINUTES OR I'M HEAVILY FOCUSED ON ONE THING FOR 30MIN TO 4 FUCKING HOURS!!!! AM I LOSING IT???? I'm gonna cry because i feel like trash!! I don't even know if is should get on adderall because i was told it would turn me into a zombie or fuck me up worse or some stupid shit like that and the process of getting is apparently a fucking nightmare and keeping it just as worse!!!??? Is there a way that i can fucking survive??? DO I EVEN NEED MEDICINE??? I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL I GUESS??? Then again i guess i was never fucking normal because of the shit my family told me i did as a kid. IDEK I JUST WANNA CURL UP INTO THE FETAL POSITON AND JUST STOP EXISTING. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.
2021-12-01T22:29:48.000Z
r6r66q
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6
ADHD
ADHD, Adulting, Aderall and the lack of...
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r66q/adhd_adulting_aderall_and_the_lack_of/
Fun-Mathematician816
For a lot of us it can be pretty tricky to get out of a bad mood depending on how big the thing you're upset about and overthinking is. One surefire way to get me in a good mood is to give me a good meal. I can be ready to flip tables and scream at the top of my lungs or break down crying, but if someone feeds me a good meal then I'm back to being a teddy bear almost immediately. In fact, whenever I get moody, one of my best friends always asks me if I've eaten anything. What works for you? Edit: I felt really defeated today and played The Witcher 3 for a few hours and apparently that on top of my meal really helped. All my worries just vanished. I didn't even think to check this post and you guys blew up my notifications. I really can't reply to everyone, but I'll try and take note of a few of your solutions!
2021-12-01T22:28:03.000Z
r6r4ol
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ADHD
What's your preferred way to get out of your mood?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r4ol/whats_your_preferred_way_to_get_out_of_your_mood/
SpecialistCook69
I know people who struggle with ADHD are more prone to addictions. I was wondering if anyone here has struggled with either Porn or Masturbation. I’m currently going through a bad stretch in my life, where I’m using more than I am accustomed to. It is effecting me physically, spiritually, mentally, personally and professionally. For reference I am 27 M, have been on Vyvanse 30 mg for a month. Also take Lexapro 20 mg. Was diagnosed with ADHD in early November this year. Any tips or advice in general and if you have struggled what has helped you most? Thank you and God Bless.
2021-12-01T22:26:39.000Z
r6r3ha
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9
ADHD
Porn/masturbation addiction and ADHD
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r3ha/pornmasturbation_addiction_and_adhd/
Successful-Hat7699
I have been prescribed adderall for years now, but I’ve very cautious about it. My doctor put me on 20mg twice a day. The first few years, I would only take 5mg-10mg. Here’s the thing that really confuses me, I’ve never abused it , I take way less than prescribed, I take huge breaks from it (months at a time), and when I do take it it’s usually only to study. Last semester I started taking it every day because my course load was heavy. Instead of my usually 5-10, I worked up to taking 20mg a day, then eventually 20mg twice a day as prescribed. This is the first time I’ve ever taken it as prescribed on a daily basis. After finals were over I took a 3 month break from it because of winter break. This semester, 20mg doesn’t affect me even though I hadn’t taken it in forever. Now I take 40mg at one time and it barely gives me the extra push I need. I asked my doctor about building a tolerance to it and he dismissed the idea that I built a high tolerance to it. He upped my anxiety meds (Effexor) thinking maybe it’s the increased anxiety and depression I’ve been going through that is effecting my focus. But the Effexor hasn’t helped. I asked if it was possible the Effexor lessens the effects of adderall and he said that’s not possible. I noticed the adderall wasn’t working when I started Effexor. Anyone else have this problem? I have tried adderall XR and vyvanse in the past and I don’t tolerate it well. Any stimulant that’s extended release will keep me up for days. I’m in nursing school so Im scared to start experimenting with new meds. What other medications have worked for y’all that isn’t vyvanse or adderall IR? Is it possible to up my current dose or is 20mg twice a day the max dose a person can have?
2021-12-01T22:23:39.000Z
r6r0us
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3
ADHD
Adderall IR not as effective anymore…should I try something new?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r0us/adderall_ir_not_as_effective_anymoreshould_i_try/
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2021-12-01T22:22:48.000Z
r6r01z
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ADHD
Specific unlikable traits?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6r01z/specific_unlikable_traits/
DejaBlonde
Personally, I am not a fan of working out just to work out. It's boring, and because it's boring, executive function to actually start it is at zero. I used to be on my feet a lot at work, but not as much now. I was maintaining my weight before, between the activity and my eating habits. I've been trying to keep my meals/snacking in proportion to my new activity level, but ADHD brain's always gonna go for the dopamine. So I've been trying to think of things I can do to keep me active that aren't just going to a regular gym, preferably cheap to free. My ideas so far have included rock climbing gym and maybe disc golf. Anyone have other suggestions?
2021-12-01T22:21:49.000Z
r6qz4o
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3
ADHD
What are some active hobbies/activities for those of us that hate ordinary exercise?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qz4o/what_are_some_active_hobbiesactivities_for_those/
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2021-12-01T22:20:18.000Z
r6qxs5
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ADHD
Scared to take ADHD med my doctor prescribed me (methylphenidate)
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qxs5/scared_to_take_adhd_med_my_doctor_prescribed_me/
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2021-12-01T22:18:05.000Z
r6qvv2
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ADHD
Scared to take ADHD med my doctor prescribed me (methylphenidate)
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qvv2/scared_to_take_adhd_med_my_doctor_prescribed_me/
memestrash
I've been trying different meds for a year now and nothing really works. I've seen so many posts where people take their first dose and start crying because they finally feel "normal" but I never experienced that, most of the time I just feel anxious. People here often say that they feel calmer when they take stimulants or when they drink coffee but for me, it's the complete opposite, sometimes I can't even drink black tea because it makes my heart go crazy. This whole experience made me doubt if I really have ADHD and I just feel so crushed. I thought that when I finally start taking meds I'll be better but now I have nothing. All the symptoms match but the treatment just doesn't work. I don't know what to do. Edit: Oops, sorry for not responding, everyone. I actually forgot lol
2021-12-01T22:18:01.000Z
r6qvt2
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2
ADHD
Do I really have ADHD if the medication doesn't seem to work?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qvt2/do_i_really_have_adhd_if_the_medication_doesnt/
CatastropheCat_97
I’m in grad school, training to become a therapist, and I got back on meds about a year ago. I take them every day when I wake up, and they’re long acting, so I’m pretty much medicated all day. I’d forgotten how big a difference it makes - and then I forgot to pick up my meds and ran out Monday. I spent the morning desperately trying to stay focused. It was almost like pulling teeth! I didn’t have an 11 o’clock client so I ran to the pharmacy to pick up my meds and take them. After that, it was like a fog had cleared. I’m not sure I could’ve made it through this first semester of internship without medication and I’m so glad I have it. I feel like I’ve been able to help my clients so much more because of it. TL;DR forgot to pick up my meds, picked them up and took them later in the day and it was like bumping the difficulty settings on a video game down two levels. Hurrah for Vyvanse!
2021-12-01T22:14:51.000Z
r6qt1n
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4
ADHD
I’d forgotten how much my meds help me
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qt1n/id_forgotten_how_much_my_meds_help_me/
SoftwareHair
Hi, I was diagnosed with ADHD inattentive type by a psychologist. My GP said I have to start on a non-stimulant before trying a stimulant because that’s what he likes to do. This runs completely counter to what I have heard most doctors say—I thought stimulants were first line of treatment for ADHD? Im in graduate school in a STEM subject and my ADHD is really setting me back. I did the neuropsychological testing, many interviews, waited months, and it all showed I have tremendous attention and concentration issues. Do most doctors try non-stimulants first? I’m honestly confused. I don’t know if this is standard or if my doctor injecting his own biases into treatment.
2021-12-01T22:14:24.000Z
r6qsn4
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1
ADHD
Strattera as first line treatment
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qsn4/strattera_as_first_line_treatment/
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2021-12-01T22:11:46.000Z
r6qqcr
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ADHD
Scared to take ADHD med my doctor prescribed me (methylphenidate)
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qqcr/scared_to_take_adhd_med_my_doctor_prescribed_me/
monarch221b
So I’m about to be tested for ADHD for the first time (23F) and there are some things that seem to fit me and other things don’t. Sometimes I feel like my brain is bouncing from thing to thing to thing and feel really restless in my brain….BUT my body physically feels so calm and still. I don’t feel the need to physically be moving but my brain feels like it’s going a million miles a minute. Has anyone who’s been diagnosed with ADHD experienced something similar? I know *of* ADHD but not a lot about it and I’m trying to learn more and read articles about it. And of course I’ll be tested and I’m not saying I have it. Just trying to see if people who do have ADHD understand what I’m saying..
2021-12-01T22:11:07.000Z
r6qprl
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9
ADHD
Hyperactive brain but calm body?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qprl/hyperactive_brain_but_calm_body/
TpicalTyrant
(Title might be a little bad but I couldn’t think of anything better.) So recently in my life I found myself doing much worse academically then ever before, and so I started asking why. After a while I end up learning about ADHD and resonating with a lot of the symptoms of ADHD and with people’s experiences with it and Im working towards speaking to my doctor about it. Anyways, here’s where my problem comes in: much like with games I play or books I read, I feel like I’m obsessing over ADHD itself. I’m worried I’m gonna eventually going to get “burnt out” on the concept and then convince myself I don’t have it and therefore don’t need to waste money on a diagnosis. I also really don’t want to self diagnose so I feel like I’m walking on a tightrope between trying not to convince myself I have ADHD without a diagnosis and trying not to convince myself I don’t have any problems either. I’m mostly just asking if anyone with ADHD felt like this and if so, what did you do about it?
2021-12-01T22:10:25.000Z
r6qp59
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5
ADHD
Obsessed over ADHD?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qp59/obsessed_over_adhd/
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2021-12-01T22:10:15.000Z
r6qoz1
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ADHD
dealing with executive dysfunction - book recommendation needed
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qoz1/dealing_with_executive_dysfunction_book/
naskoto
I am 14 years old and I am experiencing adhd symptoms alot(atleast the times I notice). I am kinda ignoring all important tasks from school, I can't learn easily as others, I forget wayyy too many things(where I put a thing 2 secs ago, lessons that I have to attend and most importantly I forget what I got into the room for), at this point I am getting shouted at for having a jackhammer leg and not staying at one place overall. These things might be that I am just born dum like that but I think it may be adhd. How do I tell my parents about all of this?
2021-12-01T22:08:33.000Z
r6qng3
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3
ADHD
How to tell parents that I may have adhd?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qng3/how_to_tell_parents_that_i_may_have_adhd/
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2021-12-01T22:05:23.000Z
r6qkki
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ADHD
Anyone trying Neurofeedback?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qkki/anyone_trying_neurofeedback/
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2021-12-01T22:02:16.000Z
r6qhmp
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1
ADHD
SPECT CT Scan?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qhmp/spect_ct_scan/
Momoomommy
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2021-12-01T22:00:37.000Z
r6qg2t
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1
ADHD
Parenting adhd
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qg2t/parenting_adhd/
terriblepigeons
I think it was easier not knowing I had ADHD since I’d always thought one day I wouldn’t be like this and could be productive and on time and organized just like everyone else around me. Knowing that my brains just like this and I have to learn to work with it is really getting to me. I started medication and it did help to an extent but due to some side effects my doctor advised me to stop it and get an ECG to make sure everything was alright before continuing on with the medication. I’m still waiting to hear back about the ECG and thus am not taking medication currently. I have so much school work to get through in the next 3 weeks with exams coming up and I just can’t do anything. I feel so lazy and useless I swear I’m trying so hard but I can’t get anywhere with it. Nobody in my life really knows about my recent diagnosis and I don’t really want to tell them out of embarrassment and fear its going to be held against me. Sorry for the rant I didn’t really want to post this I just have nobody to talk to about and maybe some of you will be able to relate? idk
2021-12-01T22:00:32.000Z
r6qfzk
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ADHD
strugging,
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qfzk/strugging/
zaziaajazzy
my mum knows i have adhd and keeps shouting at me that i’m not trying hard enough and that i forget things by purpose and i’m lazy and if i really wanted to i could change my symptoms. she’s literally looking to get a diagnosis for me so i thought that she would understand why i forget things or get distracted etc but instead she makes me feel so bad about something i literally can’t control. she was like shouting at me saying it’s my choice to do these things and no medication or doctor would help. basically saying i’m not doing enough to stop? my symptoms. i literally cried at my job cos of the stuff she said to me. nobody understands how hard it is for me anyways and how i’ve been trying so hard to keep up with everyone around me my entire life when my brain literally functioned differently to them. i know there are tips and tricks and stuff to help ppl with adhd but i hate being told that it’s my choice to be this way and if i tried hard enough then i wouldn’t have these problems. like she’s literally shouting clear symptoms of my adhd and depression saying stuff like “your room is always messy, you sleep so much, you don’t shower, you’re so messy and forgettful, never spend time with friends or family” etc etc and i just felt like screaming at her cos she can tell i’m struggling but she’s just making me feel bad about not being enough. nobody knows how hard i’m trying just to keep myself alive everyday and my mum is telling me my adhd symptoms are basically cos i’m not trying hard enough.
2021-12-01T21:59:53.000Z
r6qf9l
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3
ADHD
haha i hate everything 😃
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qf9l/haha_i_hate_everything/
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2021-12-01T21:54:32.000Z
r6qavz
1
0
ADHD
Make it make sense
0.5
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qavz/make_it_make_sense/
Smokey347
I've noticed that when I try to describe why I want to start therapy, my brain goes silent. It's almost like I start reformulating the sentences from scratch, in a way. I can't seem to simplify things enough to actually ask for the help that I need. Yet I will find myself sometimes being able to perfectly articulate my needs and deficits when I'm just talking to my windshield. In other aspects of my life too I've realized, I don't always know what I need help doing so I end up figuratively just "dumping" all the info that I know of onto whomever is helping me. And they usually will cut me off at some point after they start analyzing what I'm telling them. I don't like this part of me though, I feel bad now looking back. Almost like I have this tendency to really ask too much of whoever it is that offered help, and they don't want to make it awkward by telling me so. I suppose I'm just hoping that I'm not the only one that has experienced this.
2021-12-01T21:54:22.000Z
r6qaqj
15
18
ADHD
How to cope/deal with the "memory wipe" that I get when trying to describe my symptoms so I can properly ask for help
0.95
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6qaqj/how_to_copedeal_with_the_memory_wipe_that_i_get/
intellectmoneyweed
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2021-12-01T21:52:55.000Z
r6q9hl
1
1
ADHD
Just started meds, how do I know when I am at the right dose?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6q9hl/just_started_meds_how_do_i_know_when_i_am_at_the/
AneedaP123
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2021-12-01T21:50:26.000Z
r6q7g2
1
2
ADHD
Does anyone's head ever feel full?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6q7g2/does_anyones_head_ever_feel_full/
Positive-Coyote9140
What is the difference between Ritalin vs Focalin? Is one better then the other for adults? How does it make you feel? I am on Ritalin LA 20mg along with other medications. I am the calmest I have ever felt in my entire life. The problem is Ritalin LA does not last as long as they advertise. Also, I am still struggling with motivation, organization, staying on task, ect. I was thinking about switching to Focalin, which is why I’m asking. Does Focalin last longer? Would it manage my symptoms better? I thought of maybe trying Adderall, but I’m afraid of Amphetamines. I have ADHD inattentive type with some hyperactivity. What would you do if you were in my shoes? Would a dose increase help at all? Let me know your experiences. Thank you
2021-12-01T21:41:29.000Z
r6q06f
4
2
ADHD
Ritalin VS Focalin ADHD
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6q06f/ritalin_vs_focalin_adhd/
Gently_55
I feel like nothing I do works. I am afraid that this stupid “imbalance” in my brain is going to cost me my career that isn’t even a year old yet. I feel like I have a damn disability with how hard it makes getting things done on time, managing appointments, managing relationships, etc. I take 40mg of vyvanse which I was told is the most effective. I’m tempted to tell them to bump it back up to 70 so it’ll either stop my heart or maybe help. Now i see why the statistic of people with ADHD trying cocaine or even meth because these meds don’t work anymore and no amount of therapy helps either. The physical pull towards my phone when I’m at work is impossibly strong and involuntary. I just want to be able to get things done like other people. Am I just a useless irresponsible loser? I’m so fucking tired and I just want to be successful…
2021-12-01T21:39:03.000Z
r6py5p
0
1
ADHD
Feeling hopeless
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6py5p/feeling_hopeless/
whatiswatermelon
Long story short, i am finally diagnosed with ADHD. I am also currently not having a good time with it, because surprisingly if you have ADHD you may experience symptoms of ADHD. Today i essentially had a breakdown about how I'm falling behind at uni and just everything. I've basically been feeling almost depressed about all this and my question is how do you stop yourself from going down a spiral caused by ADHD? (how to not be sad about the impact ADHD has on your life) Question two is how do I pull myself out of this? Theres two week left of term and i have no notes and just feel generally bad about myself.
2021-12-01T21:33:58.000Z
r6ptzd
1
1
ADHD
Dealing with Dealing with Symptoms
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ptzd/dealing_with_dealing_with_symptoms/
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2021-12-01T21:30:05.000Z
r6pqq0
1
2
ADHD
Ontario doctors with adhd experience?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pqq0/ontario_doctors_with_adhd_experience/
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2021-12-01T21:27:58.000Z
r6pot4
1
1
ADHD
Reminder to unpause your music.
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pot4/reminder_to_unpause_your_music/
Positive-Coyote9140
Hello! I am on Ritalin LA 20mg and I feel like I’m on a roller coaster. It doesn’t last long enough and it’s constantly up down up down. If I eat on it I’m constantly down. Are there anyways to make this more smooth? I have ADHD mainly initiative type with some hyperactivity. What medication helps you? Is there a way to extend the medication and make it not so much of a roller coaster? Also, some of my medication feels like a placebo and I have to shake the capsule before I take it or it doesn’t have the same effect? Had anyone else experienced this? Thank you for the advice.
2021-12-01T21:24:51.000Z
r6pmof
1
1
ADHD
Ritalin LA Questions
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pmof/ritalin_la_questions/
ZeldaIsALady
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2021-12-01T21:24:12.000Z
r6pm3w
1
1
ADHD
ADHD planners?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pm3w/adhd_planners/
drewbug21
So when I sit down to do homework, I have to put headphones on and listen to SPECIFICALLY low tempo instrumental classical music (Instrumental Study playlist on Spotify) because if I listen to anything else, God forbid something with lyrics, I will be physically unable to process anything I read. The reason I listen to the classical music though is because I feel like when I do homework, 80% of my brain is doing the homework, but the other 20% is doing whatever it wants and that's distracting. The music plugs up the other 20% so that it has to focus on the music so then 100% of my brain is in use and I can't have a distracting thought as easily. Does anyone else do something like this?
2021-12-01T21:23:37.000Z
r6plnj
3
2
ADHD
How I feel like I have to do homework
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6plnj/how_i_feel_like_i_have_to_do_homework/
Live-Toe-7008
As stated above, I’m on day 5 of adderall, I have inattentive adhd. I’ve also been diagnosed with depression and anxiety years ago. The first two days were a breeze, I felt energized and I cleaned my house and even my wife was impressed with my new found motivation. But come Monday when she had night training (she’s in the army) and I had been alone for hours, I started to feel anxiety. No big deal, I did what I could to make myself comfortable until she came home. The next day goes by as normal and around 5pm, like clockwork, my anxiety hits. This time it was brutal, I felt like my chest was on fire because and I didn’t know what to do about it other than try to distract myself. Today, to say the least, was tough. I woke up and threw off my whole schedule. I stayed in bed later than I should have, took my meds an hour later than I should have and the anxiety was brutal. When my wife came home from early morning training, I started crying. It was a little humiliating, but seeing her immediately made me feel safer. I’ve read plenty of forums that say it’ll take a little while for your body to get adjusted to the medication, and my wife does what she can, but im struggling a bit. Any advice?
2021-12-01T21:23:17.000Z
r6pld6
4
6
ADHD
I was diagnosed with adhd last week and am on day 5 of meds.
0.81
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pld6/i_was_diagnosed_with_adhd_last_week_and_am_on_day/
Ahmed_Reshah
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2021-12-01T21:22:53.000Z
r6pl0a
0
1
ADHD
I want to have a *nice* conversation with people who abuse ADHD meds
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pl0a/i_want_to_have_a_nice_conversation_with_people/
Ssylphie
I’m 19 and in college, and I’m dropping all of my classes because there’s no way I can get my grades up to what they need to be. (Doing prerequisites for nursing.) I’m sitting waiting to see if I can talk to a counsellor at my college just because I’m on the verge of having a full blown panic attack. My mother doesn’t understand ADHD at all. She thinks it’s just a matter of “laziness” and “not being able to focus” or “not applying myself”. I genuinely try to force myself to pay attention, do the work, be a good student but I end up getting stuck… my brain tells me I need to do something, and my body says “no.” She said if I do poorly in my classes, she will force me to give her access to my account so that she can talk to my new teachers for next semester and watch my grades, but when she’d do that when I was in high school she’d yell at me and harass me about everything. I understand why she’s mad since she’s paying for it. And I’m terrified if I say I’ll just pay for it, she’ll kick me out or say how ungrateful I am. I don’t know how to explain to her how I feel, especially when she thinks I’m just… bullshitting her right now.
2021-12-01T21:22:30.000Z
r6pkp4
2
2
ADHD
I’m terrified and ashamed of telling my mother about my classes
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pkp4/im_terrified_and_ashamed_of_telling_my_mother/
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2021-12-01T21:21:48.000Z
r6pk3o
1
4
ADHD
Decision paralysis is ruining my life
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pk3o/decision_paralysis_is_ruining_my_life/
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2021-12-01T21:21:37.000Z
r6pjy5
1
1
ADHD
In 1-3 words, name one thing that is NOT ADHD-friendly, and something that is
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pjy5/in_13_words_name_one_thing_that_is_not/
Ancient-Egg-3283
YOU GUYS! About a month ago I called my mom up crying because of the absolutely overwhelming day I had had. Felt like nothing I did was amounting to anything and couldn't even call the doctor to make an appointment because I had missed an appointment and then my life basically fell all around me like a brick wall. I felt like I would never make it. That I would never feel better or that maybe I am just a lazy worker/friend like others have said. So called my mom and she was able to get in touch with my counselor and then later my counselor called me. I told her that I had tried getting evaluated with the list of doctors that could do that kinda thing for me that she had given me but since I have state insurance rather than work insurance (like my brother does who got diagnosed already) I was either going to have to wait for a year to be evaluated or pay $3000. And let me tell you I was about to pay! I was so upset and ready to give up because I had tried and tried to get medicated and yet it still felt like a salmon swimming upstream to spawn. But without there being any way for me to swim. We made an appointment for the 30th of November and when I saw my doctor yesterday I told him that I had been crying and overwhelmed and I couldn't even focus on reading or writing much less taking showers or getting dressed in the mornings on my days off and such... He must have read my councelor's notes too. He said to me that "some people don't believe that ADHD is real. But you're lucky because I happen to see the effects of it everyday and I know it when I see it. After all the stories you've told me about you and your brother and saying that he has been able to function on VYVANCE, I am going to get this process going. I was happy but still had seen my brother go through Adderall and Ritalin and then a higher dose of Ritalin and then FINALLY the Vyvance. So when he said let's get the ball rolling I just assumed that he'd want me to stop smoking Cannabis and then get a clean drug test and then prescribe me Adderall and go through all the hoops that my brother did. He started writing and then he gave me the piece of paper that had the words: "SCRIPT FOR VYVANCE" I almost cried. I gave him a huge hug and then he said, "You thought you'd have to go through all the steps like your brother did didn't you?" I nodded yes. He then said "Your reaction was all I needed to see. You have made my day better knowing that your quality of life has now a chance to change. I got my Script filled this morning. I took my first about an hour ago and I wrote this in 10 minutes. I'm on top of the world. SO TO ANYONE STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW. To anyone feeling like life is hopeless, that getting out of bed might as well be an mountain the size of Everest. That your daily frustration with not being able to do tasks that normally anybody else can do might just ruin your life. if you feel like you're a lazy POS with no future please.... PLEASE. Please! DON'T GIVE UP. The feeling of hope and focus and even just being shocked that I'm still focused on writing this is enough to keep you from giving up. I know how it feels. This does get better. Don't give up. Don't beat yourself up. Be patient. Don't let the ball stop rolling. I am proud of you! You got this. (Yes I spaced this out so much so that it wouldn't be such an overwhelming post) TL;DR Been trying to try medication ever since brother got medicated. Doctor did it all in one fell swoop last night. JAZZ HANDS. CELEBRATE! DON'T give up!
2021-12-01T21:20:07.000Z
r6pioi
0
3
ADHD
MEDICATED FOR THE FIRST TIME!
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pioi/medicated_for_the_first_time/
shawlly
Start thinking of every word you can that starts with the letter A. Once you repeat a word, move on to words that start with B and so on. I've struggled with insomnia for years now and tried so many different things With little or no result, thanks to [behavioral sleep skills](https://nocat.ch/guide-to-behavioral-sleep-skills) and needmoremango's trick, doctors hate him for this one, natural trick! I started doing this 2 months ago and it just knocks me out by basically boring myself to sleep. Before, my thoughts would keep me awake and I could lay in bed for hours with my eyes closed, but still never actually falling asleep. This doesn't force me into frustration by trying to "turn my brain off", it just gives me enough structure on what I can think about rather than thinking of things that keep me awake. Give it a try tonight!
2021-12-01T21:18:05.000Z
r6ph19
3
3
ADHD
If you can't sleep or struggle with insomnia, try this trick
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ph19/if_you_cant_sleep_or_struggle_with_insomnia_try/
AlexGrace21
I just lost a 6 year friendship with my best friend. We shared everything together, we’ve seen each other naked, we’ve slept in the same bed, she’s come to the police with me, we shared anythjng and everything together. Over the past year or so everything has been a lot different. She got an abusive boyfriend and honestly, she’s too traimatized by her past to see how bad he is for her, but even then, I always supported her. At least, I feel like I did. She never talked to me about him because she told me ‘I make faces’ (whatever the heck that means), and she hasn’t celt like she could talk to me for a long time. I felt really bad, and told her I never wanted her to feel that way. That I was sorry and that I hoped she could forgive me. I went through a breakup last week, and though I’m okay now, I had a bad mental breakdown. She (my ex best friend) told me she would be there for me and sleep over, but when I asked her what time she’d be there, she suddenly had all these excused of why she couldn’t come (she was tired, on her period, in pain, etc etc, while *she* had pushed to come two hours earlier, while she would have been tired and in pain too). I asked her the next day to please not do that to me again. The sudden change of plans (thinking she was gonna be there for me and then her ditching me) was bad. I don’t take changing of plans very well and had a panic attack. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad she took care of herself, all I asked was to not tell me she would come if she knew she was tired and in pain, or to tell me sooner and not only tell me when I text her, right. That’s acceptable, right? Well she went off on me telling me the fact thag I needed her ‘wasn’t her problem’ and that I should figure it out on my own, that I’m not the only person to ever have gone through breakup and that I was too big if a problem to her, never listening to her, always busy in my head, etc The latter being my adhd. I explained it to her but she said it was too big of a problem. That I shouldn’t be her problem. So zi told her to kindly eff off and have a great life. Goodbye. She said ‘if that’s what you want’. I might have been too impulsive calling it off like that; but on the other hand, she did say I was a problem to her and she didn’t want me to be her problem. I spent my birthday with my ex partner (whom I broke up with last week) as well as my grandma, but I was gonna spend it with her originally too. I had a great birthday, I haven’t felt like celebrating for years but I did and had fun, but now that I’m alone again, I really miss everything we used to have… I have lost so many friendships over my adhd. This is not my first and I’m pretty sure it won’t be my last either… Sorry for this mini rant, thanks for reading!
2021-12-01T21:15:17.000Z
r6petf
26
3
ADHD
Have you ever lost a friendship over your adhd? Was it your adhd that was the problem, or could they just not handle it?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6petf/have_you_ever_lost_a_friendship_over_your_adhd/
Shewearsfunnyhat
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2021-12-01T21:14:54.000Z
r6pehs
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1
ADHD
Looking for a timer with a 1 minute warning.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pehs/looking_for_a_timer_with_a_1_minute_warning/
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2021-12-01T21:10:31.000Z
r6pay3
1
1
ADHD
Does anyone use a smartwatch to help with their ADHD?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pay3/does_anyone_use_a_smartwatch_to_help_with_their/
ihaboholic
So basically 2 years ago I stopped taking meds without doctor or anything just suddenly. It was fine my marks went up and and I was less stressed then 5 months ago symptoms started showing up like mild stuttering 2 months later it gets to the point where I will stutter like crazy for no reason. Even people I talk to normally I stuttered. And my brain would hang up I would talk for for a few seconds my brain stops and I stop talking for like 3 seconds the continue can't see doctor since busy and insurance dropped current doctor so need to go find another one.
2021-12-01T21:10:09.000Z
r6palx
1
1
ADHD
Is it possible for my adhd to have gotten worse
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6palx/is_it_possible_for_my_adhd_to_have_gotten_worse/
Bonjowiee
I was okay for a bit, but now they are louder than ever. I am about to start a new job so this is probably why. I keep running every conversation through my head that is longer than 30 seconds wondering if I said something stupid or wrong. It’s keeping me awake and I know it’s daft but it won’t shut up! I listen to podcasts but even that isn’t helping at the moment and my own brain is drowning it out! Is there anything that you find helps? I have good screen habits and healthy bedtime routines but after 3 hours of mindlessly laying in bed I gave into some screen binge. I don’t really know how much more I can write about this particular topic..!!
2021-12-01T21:10:03.000Z
r6pain
3
1
ADHD
Do the intrusive thoughts ever stop?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6pain/do_the_intrusive_thoughts_ever_stop/
A_Sneaky_Gamer
So let me start off with, I'm getting a new tattoo Saturday. That's fine as it's in the morning but then I have no clue how long it'll really take and I'm meeting up with a friend the same day. I don't think I had anything planned for Sunday but then I have work for 2 days before having 2 days off for hobby days. Ontop of that on my first day off I have a phone meeting about my meds and progress. However, this is where I get torn. I have waited for YEARS for this part of my interests. Obviously I'm able to prioritize what im interested in as i can do that before my meeting. I know that I am somehow going to zig zag my way through the next week and a bit and get the main things done but I'm feeling overwhelmed and the pharmacy in charge of my medication seem to not be doing anything. The only thing I would overly like some help from is things I can have that will help my focus and ability to think once my tablets run out if I don't have my next prescription.
2021-12-01T21:09:00.000Z
r6p9om
1
1
ADHD
I'm having an ADHD overload and I just want to rant.
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p9om/im_having_an_adhd_overload_and_i_just_want_to_rant/
Amandalahlah
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2021-12-01T21:08:42.000Z
r6p9fn
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1
ADHD
How to get more deep/REM sleep?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p9fn/how_to_get_more_deeprem_sleep/
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2021-12-01T21:05:21.000Z
r6p6lm
20
14
ADHD
I can’t do this anymore
0.9
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p6lm/i_cant_do_this_anymore/
kiwitoja
So yeah like 1,5 years ago I finally understood what do I want to do with my life. I started a new master's degree with the idea to pursue a Ph.D. in the same field. Everything went very well, I had super good marks, found an advisor. Now it looks like I have almost no chance for a scholarship since I was counting on since I did not realize the importance of the undergraduate degree is in the overall scoring. And you know... I have ADHD, my marks were not awesome back then. It is very unlikely I will get a government scholarship in my country with these marks.. I need some positive stories about how things ended up going your way even though it all looked shitty.
2021-12-01T21:03:44.000Z
r6p56w
1
1
ADHD
Please tell me a story where you felt like a total loser because of the influence of your ADHD on your life but things ended up your way anyway!
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p56w/please_tell_me_a_story_where_you_felt_like_a/
_Axelotl_
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2021-12-01T21:01:50.000Z
r6p3kn
1
1
ADHD
About to give up everything
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p3kn/about_to_give_up_everything/
Organic-Turnip-4476
I recently got diagnosed with ADD I’m on 10mg of adderal just to see how my body would react to it. I can’t remember details from yesterday and I lose my phone a lot and other things. My memory is horrible. And I’m gonna be honest I did abuse drugs for like a year mainly pain killers but I’m pretty sure my memory has always been bad and I’m sober now. And my memory is still horrible. Is bad memory a symptom of ADD?
2021-12-01T21:00:47.000Z
r6p2ny
1
2
ADHD
Could my memory be my ADD?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p2ny/could_my_memory_be_my_add/
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2021-12-01T20:58:59.000Z
r6p0zr
1
1
ADHD
Do the intrusive thoughts ever stop?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p0zr/do_the_intrusive_thoughts_ever_stop/
tonykchoi
I'm in my 30s, and I was diagnosed with ADHD earlier this year, and it's been an up and down cycle managing it and breaking from the mechanisms that don't serve me. But with the holidays, pandemic stress, shorter days, and everything else going on in my life, it has been infernal trying to get things done. For a long time, people (mostly neurotypical) have been suggesting that I break tasks up into tiny manageable chunks. My therapist also suggested that I do that as well. But the process of doing that has just stresses me out and I shut down. Listing out the things makes them seem so insurmountable and I lose all motivation to do the damn thing. I'm now about a month behind on a work project, and my boss sent me a text saying that she's been trying to reach me for days now on it, and I don't know what to do. Any advice?
2021-12-01T20:58:52.000Z
r6p0w6
1
1
ADHD
Breaking down things into pieces stress me out
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p0w6/breaking_down_things_into_pieces_stress_me_out/
Organic-Turnip-4476
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2021-12-01T20:57:57.000Z
r6p022
1
1
ADHD
Does anyone struggle with horrible memory with ADD?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6p022/does_anyone_struggle_with_horrible_memory_with_add/
CurnanBarbarian
So I'm moving this month. Last month I paid my admistrative fees and my deposits, which were well over 600 dollars. I though all I had left to pay was first months rent, about 1000 dollars. I figured my bonus would be on this check, I should have plenty of money to take care of it and get myself out of this fucking shithole house I've been in and into a nice new apartment. Well, then I called them to take care of it, and it turns out that instead of 1000 dollars, I owe them over 1600 still just to get my keys. On top of that, because of the way payday fell this month I dont get my bonus for another two weeks. I'm fucking crushed. I'm so tired of missing important shit like this. Now I have to pull over 600 bucks out of my ass, but to be honest with you I just want to curl up with my dogs and cry. I'm so drained and depressed idk what I'm going to do right now. Hopefully I can still get the place, but I won't be able to get them all paid till halfway through the month. This move is costing me almost 3 fucking grand, and the apartment I'm renting is cheap for the area. Fuck me running. I just want to give into apathy.
2021-12-01T20:57:42.000Z
r6ozv6
3
8
ADHD
I'm so done with everything right now
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ozv6/im_so_done_with_everything_right_now/
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2021-12-01T20:49:30.000Z
r6oszb
1
2
ADHD
I hate this
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6oszb/i_hate_this/
Puzzleheaded_End5835
I find it really hard to not be impulsive when I don’t even recognize it as impulsive behavior until I suffer the consequences of it. I’ve been medicated for a little over a year now and at first I felt like the meds did a great job of enabling me to recognize my own impulsiveness and curb it. But lately it’s almost as bad as it was before medication at least beforehand, I recognized the behavior as being impulsive but still went through with it anyway. But now I don’t recognize it at all until I drive across the state for a vacation and I’m hit with the “ oh you actually have finals this week” moment.
2021-12-01T20:47:22.000Z
r6or4h
1
3
ADHD
Tips on recognizing and curbing impulsiveness?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6or4h/tips_on_recognizing_and_curbing_impulsiveness/
Annual_Ad_5260
I'm just finishing my semester (uni) I'm gonna fail half the majors I just took. About a month ago I got diagnosed and after all this years I was at first relive, but then I kinda just did the same things, procastinate (a lot) I just feel really stupid and incompetent with must of the things, I don't even know what am I gonna do after all this. I feel like a big disappointment and ashame of myself, why is it so hard to just do things right? Woke up almost everyday thinking, well there goes my life and I'm not doing anything of it, just a deadbeat wandering around and wasting time.
2021-12-01T20:41:58.000Z
r6omfd
1
1
ADHD
Does it gets easier?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6omfd/does_it_gets_easier/
jannabanana28
Okay ya’ll, i thought i wanna work in Tech and now that i’m here I HATE IT. I used to be an English teacher then and HR Specialist then currently a Data Analyst/Power Platform Developer Im struggling so much and i basically lost all motivation to learn anything. It also doesnt help that my manager basically isn’t interested in helping me. He just scolds me when i dont adhere to deadline and passes of the project to someone else making me feel shitty. I openly expressed im struggling but thir solution? Give me projects that are even. More complex than the last. LOL I wanna quit and do something else but what if i get sick of it again and quit? Im so frustrated w myself. I just wanna be like normal people who holds down jobs for yearsss. Comment down your jobs and why you love it despite adhd to make me feeel better 🥰
2021-12-01T20:41:57.000Z
r6omf2
5
3
ADHD
Jumping from one job to another
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6omf2/jumping_from_one_job_to_another/
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2021-12-01T20:38:55.000Z
r6ojqw
1
1
ADHD
I have 19 overdue assignments left, no meds left, finals Friday and next week plus trying to do the 15 not overdue assignments...
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ojqw/i_have_19_overdue_assignments_left_no_meds_left/
DakillaBeast
I'm wondering if I'm alone in this. Every since I went back to school after the lockdown, I've been finding hard to be normal. I was diagnosed with adhd when I was 7, but since its a third world country diagnosis, it doesn't count in America. That's thw only diagnosis I have, so I can't get medicines. And my parents have turned into fundies, so they want me to pray it away. Anyway, I've always had a bit of trouble with my adhd in the past, but this year has been especially difficult. I can't seem to function properly. I thought I should give myself some time to adjust to the world again, but it's December and I'm getting worse. I am in college, and I'm an RA and a Financial Secretary for games design club in my school. I've been having mini anxiety attacks. A bit of depression out of no where. But today takes the cake. I was in a group for a criminal justice class for a mock trial project. I worked hard on this. I even did other people's work so I would pass the class. Today, the wifi in my room was bugging , so I couldn't join zoom in time. I wanted to leave my room and go to the library since the connection is better there, plus its only 3-4 minutes away from my building, but I had this sudden anxiety hit me on my face. My hands were shaking, and because of that I couldn't join class and my group probably failed the project because of me. It is almost 4 PM and I still can't leave my room. I haven't showered yet, I am feeling so lost, confused, and bad. I feel like I can't face people anymore. I don't want anyone to see me. I don't know what to do. What shall I do about this? Please help. I feel like my life is falling apart before my eyes.
2021-12-01T20:38:54.000Z
r6ojqq
1
3
ADHD
Who else if finding it extremely hard to function lately?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ojqq/who_else_if_finding_it_extremely_hard_to_function/
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2021-12-01T20:38:46.000Z
r6ojmr
1
1
ADHD
Organization in the physical (3D) world vs visual (2D) world?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ojmr/organization_in_the_physical_3d_world_vs_visual/
thick_mochi
I need to focus on studying for an exam but I can't seem to find the right playlist, so I've been listening to https://youtu.be/H550HRZ0HeM this on repeat, which gets tiring but I really like repetitive instrumental songs that are still a little fun like this. If y'all have any suggestions I'll add them to my playlist
2021-12-01T20:38:21.000Z
r6ojb4
1
1
ADHD
Do you have an interesting playlist to focus?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ojb4/do_you_have_an_interesting_playlist_to_focus/
Acanthaceae_Live
sorry for the formatting and typos, mobile reddit. im currently in high school, so i have some flexibility. due to adhd, my grades for science have dropped to a low C. this is mainly due to inability to do work and tests. while on tests my knowledge is a C grade, both me and my teacher agree that my actual knowledge is a high B or an A grade. if she were to ask me to name frog organs on a test, i would fail. but if i dissected a frog i could name all the organs as i did it. has anyone found an alternative to tests that helps with this issue? ive never been able to get a good one. edit: sorry, i got the flair wrong. means to do the tips/suggestions one
2021-12-01T20:37:40.000Z
r6oiqx
1
1
ADHD
alternatives to tests?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6oiqx/alternatives_to_tests/
babythotpop
I have inattentive adhd so I have a very hard time beginning and finishing tasks, but one of the only things that has held my attention obsessively for my entire life are jigsaw puzzles. Once I start I am always thinking about it and waiting to get back to work on it. Now I’m obsessed with this stupid puzzle sorting game and I hate how addicted I am to it. It is such a waste of time, it keeps me up all night sometimes. Does anyone else have a similar type of experience? I’m trying to figure out how to direct this type of hyper fixation in a more productive way
2021-12-01T20:37:26.000Z
r6oij8
6
1
ADHD
ADHD and puzzles
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6oij8/adhd_and_puzzles/
Miketartag44
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2021-12-01T20:34:47.000Z
r6ogag
1
1
ADHD
Is thinking out loud a symptom of ADHD and if so to what degree?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ogag/is_thinking_out_loud_a_symptom_of_adhd_and_if_so/
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2021-12-01T20:31:36.000Z
r6odnd
1
1
ADHD
Getting weird head “chills” when I increased my Adderall dose?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6odnd/getting_weird_head_chills_when_i_increased_my/
appleguy3271
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2021-12-01T20:29:42.000Z
r6oc25
6
3
ADHD
Anyone take a month or two off medication?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6oc25/anyone_take_a_month_or_two_off_medication/
poopturd1000
Hi everyone I am asking to see if anyone has good ideas for toys/devices that are great for crushing/twisting and can withstand a good amount do strength. I am trying to get a grasp on my anger/frustration and this would be really useful. Extra points if the item can feel like it’s actually crushing unlike a lot of the typical stress balls. Hoping someone has something!
2021-12-01T20:28:16.000Z
r6oaui
1
1
ADHD
Frustration outlet toy ideas
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6oaui/frustration_outlet_toy_ideas/
SimtheSim2
I am a M(17) and I can feel any stress I am now dianoste for some time for ADHD and litte bit of autism (they over lap a bit but mostly ADHD) and 2 year of so I felt litte bit of stress when I was late for something but now I don't even have a feeling when I almost to late for something or other things in that spirit. I ask my therapist and he didn't really knew what could cause that. And I am ask you guys if more people have this or that It maybe has a other cause.
2021-12-01T20:24:39.000Z
r6o7um
7
1
ADHD
Can't feel any stress
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6o7um/cant_feel_any_stress/
ApprehensiveAd3427
We’ve been together two years and he has been so supportive of my cptsd and anxiety baggage. Unfortunately, I am sometimes triggered by his fidgeting and pacing. One day I asked him to sit down because he was making me nervous and he said “I’m sorry. I have adhd.” This was not news to me, but it clicked that i had been prioritizing my symptoms over his. He’s so good at working around his adhd that I don’t even notice it. I want to do better and comfort him the way he has so diligently comforted me. I think I do a pretty good job as he expresses gratitude for what I do to try and help him. I’d love any tips to show him that he is unconditionally accepted. Thanks ❤️
2021-12-01T20:19:25.000Z
r6o3gb
6
6
ADHD
My (23f) beautiful boyfriend (22m) has adhd. I do not. What can I do to make life easier for him?
0.81
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6o3gb/my_23f_beautiful_boyfriend_22m_has_adhd_i_do_not/
theLesserOf2Weedles
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2021-12-01T20:18:33.000Z
r6o2qv
1
1
ADHD
I just drove 2 and a half hours to the airport to realize my flight isn't until tomorrow.
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6o2qv/i_just_drove_2_and_a_half_hours_to_the_airport_to/
hovis__
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2021-12-01T20:18:27.000Z
r6o2o6
1
1
ADHD
Just diagnosed by Psychiatry UK but have been told I can’t have stimulant medication - is that final or are there other places I can try to get prescribed medication in the UK?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6o2o6/just_diagnosed_by_psychiatry_uk_but_have_been/
gh0stm0rtem
Hey everyone, looking for advice on brain fog and university along with anything else that y'all think could help. Basically, for quite some time now I haven’t felt like myself. Or rather, I feel like “myself” is no one. I’ve always had a hard time figuring out who I am, but I feel like I’m sleepwalking through life if that makes sense. I’ve been in my undergrad for almost 7 years, and I’ve been working the same entry level job the whole time and it’s not like I’m not aware that time exists, but every now and then I have like a flash of realization that I’m aging and school isn’t forever and what exactly am I doing? My goal is grad school but I’m in an incredibly competitive field, so I’ve been taking an extra-long undergrad to try to make myself a better candidate. Specifically, it’s essentially required to do an honours undergrad to get into grad school in my field, but I have really bad social anxiety due to ADHD and I’m completely incompetent when it comes to socializing with profs and whatnot. So even though I have the courses and grade requirements to get into honours, I’m not close enough with a prof that could approve me for the program. A big issue in my life in particular has been socializing tbh – I get so anxious about being judged and then when I do have some kind of social interaction I either can’t think of anything normal to say or my ADHD goes off the walls and I can’t shut up despite being very aware the entire time that I’m being annoying and wanting desperately to stop but not being able to. Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked. I got diagnosed well into university and since then I’ve tried numerous meds – I started on Biphentin which worked great but I had to take such a high dose of it so I wanted to change. Since then, I’ve been on Vyvanse, Concerta, Foquest, and Adderall. I’ve also had Ritalin supplements for later in the afternoon and whatnot. At a certain point I asked to go back on Biphentin but after switching back, it wasn’t effective anymore. I thought that maybe after taking amphetamines my brain just saw methylphenidate as a joke or something idk. Anyway, most recently I’ve been put on Dexedrine and it’s been an absolute nightmare but I feel like my brain fog is so thick that it took me too long to realize it. If I take enough for it to be effective it strains my eyes so badly that I can barely stand to have them open. I also get bad headaches and a few other side effects. My university’s clinic (which is how I see my only doctor, I don’t have a family doctor) is still remote-only and it’s been detrimental to me because when I would see my doctor in person, I would book another appointment for \_\_\_\_ weeks away on my way out. Now that I have phone appointments, I can’t book another appointment with the front desk unless I call back after my appointment which I never remember to do and would avoid doing anyway because of phone anxiety (re: social anxiety). The soonest appointment I could get is for December 14th. So anyway I haven’t been doing well on this medication and it’s truly derailed my life. I know that sounds dramatic, but that’s really how it feels. I’ve had probably the worst semester I have ever had, and this semester is also a crucial one. I had a prof who I’ve admired since my first year – he’s exactly who I want to be. We have similar research interests and overall I just think he’s really cool and supportive. But do you guys remember the song Human by The Killers? Because the line “sometimes I get nervous when I see an open door” describes me perfectly. The more important something is, the more I mess it up. It’s like I almost purposefully sabotage things to protect myself or something. If I fail at something due to a lack of effort then I don’t have to face the fact that I might not be good enough to succeed if that makes sense. Anyway, this prof’s class in particular has been my biggest fuck up. I couldn’t finish my paper in time because I just couldn’t think. It was like every sentence took all of my brain power to string together despite the topic being of my choosing and being of great interest to me. Considering I could barely figure out how to structure a sentence, I had no hope of the paper having a smooth structure overall. I submitted it anyway despite the fact that I had run out of time and emailed him and basically apologized and said that I hoped he doesn’t view this paper as a reflection of me. It took me a full day and a half to realize I could’ve just submitted it late and that the late penalty would likely not be as costly as straight up not completing it, so I resubmitted it complete (but not to my standard) and two days late. He replied the morning after I submitted the second one and was very polite, but then he accidentally marked the first paper. Asking him to mark the second one took all of my courage, and although I definitely did better on the second one despite the penalty, his comments on it were brutal. Of course it’s possible that I’m being oversensitive, but his comments almost seemed annoyed and there wasn’t a single positive comment. I have to do a presentation on this paper tomorrow and I feel like I’m gonna be sick every time I think about talking about my paper in front of the class, but especially in front of him. I’m humiliated. And this isn’t the only class I’ve messed up. In my other two classes, similar things have come up. In the first, the exam was very strange and didn’t test our knowledge on concepts but rather on specific fill-in-the-bank facts which was unexpected so I didn’t do well at all. In my other class, I didn’t complete the take-home midterm on time and I ran out of time on the final assignment and had to submit it over the wordcount. In my entire time at university, I have never handed something in late. I definitely procrastinate to a dangerous extent, but I’ve never actually not completed an assignment. I feel like the academic component of my life is the only one I’ve ever been proud of and identified with. My career goal is literally the only thing I can think of that I’m interested in doing professionally. But I feel so god damn foggy and now I feel like I ruined my chances at grad school because the one prof who I thought could really help me out is irritated by me at best. On top of all this, I’ve been dealing with the fallout of refusing to be manipulated by an incredibly toxic friend which is way too much to get into but has added a lot of stress. Despite how long this has become, I still feel like I haven’t been able to explain how I’m feeling… I guess I just feel empty and hopeless. I don’t know if I’ll ever find a med that’s right for me and I feel like I’m not who I thought I was. My room’s a mess (and I HATE messes), I’ve spent so much money that I have around $150 in my account, my rent of $865 is due today, and I owe over $4000 to my credit card. I also have taken out $77,000 in student loans. I always told myself that the student debt won’t be so bad in the end because if I make it into my field I’ll be making way more than enough to pay it back fast but without a way into grad school, my life is exactly the same as it was 7 years ago except that now I’m almost 27 and I have nearly $80,000 in debt. I think I can request accommodations, but the accessible learning centre at my university is notoriously terrible and also you have to request before the start of the semester so I can’t request anything now. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m never gonna grow the hell up and learn from my mistakes. I’m truly sorry for how long this has become. I just wish I could *think*. **TL;DR - Dexedrine sabotaged a very important semester, I feel like I can't think straight/reason/engage with information, I don't know who I am anymore, and grad school feels like a pipe dream.**
2021-12-01T20:17:12.000Z
r6o1o0
2
3
ADHD
lost lately [long]
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6o1o0/lost_lately_long/
Fijit4
I (19F) am scared that I will always end up being bored in everything I do. My entire life I have always had an issue of being really excited about something and wanting to do it before getting bored of the activity barely a month later. The only thing I ever stuck with long-term was karate, but we moved to another state soon after I got my black belt and I haven't found another dojo that fits me. Im really interested in education, it has always been my passion. I've wanted to start a K-12 STEM school since I was 12. I worked in the public middle/high schools in my town during my junior year (I was homeschooled so I could do whatever I wanted) and I loved it. I loved the kids and I loved helping them learn math and science, but after a few months I found myself dreading it. I still loved the kids, but I hated going to "work" every day. It probably didn't help that I was doing my own schooling after I got off at 3:30. I'm currently in university (Biomedical engineering degree) and I was really excited to go even with the covid situation, but I honestly just wanted to go home after the first quarter. Every time I go home I just don't want to go back to uni. When I finally get back, all I can think about is how much I want to go home. The things I like to do are all "housewife" activities: cooking, cleaning, taking care of kids, shopping, organizing, knitting, sewing, etc. I'm terrified that I will get bored of my dream of running my school and will want to stop. No one else in my family has these issues, even the ones with ADHD. I feel like I have a pedagogy that could really help people, but what if I get bored of my school and start hating my job?
2021-12-01T20:17:02.000Z
r6o1ip
1
1
ADHD
Terrified of being bored forever
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6o1ip/terrified_of_being_bored_forever/
AdComprehensive4154
Well the title says it all. I’m a 21 year old male, and I barely know how to cook anything. I can really only make basic things like ramen noodles, oven food, microwave food. I moved out of my parents house about a month ago and haven’t been eating healthy at all, and I want to change that. Any tips on easy meals that I can start making? Any advice would be appreciated a ton
2021-12-01T20:13:04.000Z
r6ny7k
15
1
ADHD
How do I cook?
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ny7k/how_do_i_cook/
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2021-12-01T20:12:21.000Z
r6nxmz
1
1
ADHD
ADHD meds and having a forced vacation
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6nxmz/adhd_meds_and_having_a_forced_vacation/
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2021-12-01T20:11:31.000Z
r6nwwj
12
2
ADHD
I think my doctor put a trick question in ADHD test to check if I'm just lazy
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6nwwj/i_think_my_doctor_put_a_trick_question_in_adhd/
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2021-12-01T20:07:27.000Z
r6ntg7
4
5
ADHD
Well i had my first breakdown in work today
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ntg7/well_i_had_my_first_breakdown_in_work_today/
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2021-12-01T20:05:48.000Z
r6ns0n
6
4
ADHD
I feel better about myself when I'm drunk
0.84
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ns0n/i_feel_better_about_myself_when_im_drunk/
Euphoric-Rule-2153
Hello. I am a freshman in undergrad and after talking with my parents about my struggles, they have mentioned I might need to see a psychiatrist cause I might have ADHD. I do not at all mean to self-diagnose, I am more curious if any one out there with ADHD has had similar symptoms. here are some of my symptoms: - whenever I am studying I tend to pick anything on my skin; my scalp, back, face, etc. I think it helps me concentrate more - I listen to all of my videos for school on 2 times speed. When people talk in videos I get so easily distracted, so I have to put it on double speed in order to keep my attention focused - I have to fall asleep to noise. And I don’t mean music, I mean like interviews and sounds of people talking. I do this because when I am trying to fall asleep, my mind wanders off so much that I get so distracted and cannot fall asleep. By playing noise if someone talking I am able to fall asleep cause I can concentrate on something besides my random thoughts - I am an aspiring physician assistant so I have to get good grades. I think my studying habits are actually very good compared to most people but it’s so hard cause I forget everything. For example I have an exam today, and yesterday I legit spent 12 hours going to my professor, TAs and staying up late studying. When I woke up this morning I remember nothing of what I studied yesterday. I can study for hours and hours and hours and literally feel like I know absolutely nothing. - I have like 100 unread texts. My family members and friends will text me and I just put it off until later, forget about it, and then it’s too late to respond. I’ve been this way for as long as I’ve had a phone and I’ve always hated it and felt so bad for not responding but I cant seem to fix it. - I have major brain fog. Sometimes I feel like I am not even controlling my own body. Like I am just a passenger and life is just continuing and I have no control. It’s very scary and I have felt like this for a few years now. (Side note I am extremely happy. I have an amazing friend group, family, boyfriend. Everything in my life is amazing but I just feel like im not in my own body) There are so many more things I cant even remember, but these are just a few. Please let me know your thoughts. Do you think I should maybe go see a doctor about this. It really affects my school, because I try so hard and literally cannot concentrate at all. Thank you so much.
2021-12-01T19:57:51.000Z
r6nl25
2
4
ADHD
Are my symptoms signs of ADHD
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6nl25/are_my_symptoms_signs_of_adhd/
BritFishUK
I would love to hear from people who have taken medication and how it improved their lives. I am new to this and have an adhd assessment in a few days. I see alot of depressing stories on here about meds not really working and I just wondered if anything actually works? I think in the UK they usually prescribe Vyvanse/Elvanse or something. Xo
2021-12-01T19:56:47.000Z
r6nk6o
5
3
ADHD
Any success stories?
0.81
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6nk6o/any_success_stories/
Livid-Avocado-408
Today is my second day on vyvanse, it's currently 9pm and the effects of the med wear off like 30min ago and Im super angry 🤩 The med just gave me secondary effects, it didn't help me focus or complete my tasks. Now Im just wondering if my ADHD is that bad that meds and therapy wont ever work. The older I get, the harder it is to deal with life and I really had high expections for vyvanse
2021-12-01T19:55:52.000Z
r6njfh
37
13
ADHD
Dealing with ADHD and medication (vyvanse)
0.9
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6njfh/dealing_with_adhd_and_medication_vyvanse/
zloganrox08
This is the second year in a row. Two different bands. I find a new band, i listen to nothing but them for months on end, and then i just occasionally listen to them from then on. If it is normal, share what band you're in the top percentages of. Last year it was Lucky Chops for me, this year it's the Dead South(warning, their lyrics are not exactly appropriate)
2021-12-01T19:52:46.000Z
r6ngsp
33
24
ADHD
Spotify wrapped - is it normal to be in the top 0.5% of a certain band's listeners?
0.87
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ngsp/spotify_wrapped_is_it_normal_to_be_in_the_top_05/
Sad-Confection1969
I’ve been taking vyvanse pretty consistently for the last 15 years, since I was diagnosed and prescribed around age 10. I’ve been on the drugs for pretty much my entire life and I’m not crazy about being on them until I die, but every time I try to stop I have absolutely wretched quality of life. Sleep, self care, and executive function pretty much go out the window which isn’t necessarily a surprise except that at this point I’ve been on the drugs for so long that I can’t tell if this is a withdrawal/chemical dependency problem or genuine I-have-ADHD problem (probly both). Anyway long story short, has anyone ever successfully tapered off ADHD medication after a longer (5+ years) period of taking them?
2021-12-01T19:51:28.000Z
r6nfod
2
2
ADHD
Life after adderall???
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6nfod/life_after_adderall/
CogadhTurtar
I have never disclosed my ADHD to an employer before and I'm really not sure that I should or not. ​ I'm a 24m with a wife and 2 kids. I struggle heavily with employment. I do great at first but then start to fall off performance wise and attendance wise. I have my CDL and I loved driving a truck but after a bad accident that should have killed me (wasn't my fault, so I retained my CDL) I find I am terrified to ever get back in a truck. ​ Since the accident I have been in and out of entry level jobs with no career in sight and no real goals to obtain one, maybe just because I myself don't believe I'm a good employee, or maybe I believe I'm just lazy and selfish... I don't know. I guess I am looking for advice, anyone find a career that really works for them? Do you disclose your ADHD? How do you keep motivated and retain the level of performance you need to?
2021-12-01T19:50:12.000Z
r6nek0
11
6
ADHD
Trouble with keeping jobs
0.87
https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6nek0/trouble_with_keeping_jobs/
Rocket-Tree
I told my family, mostly my mother, that I would at least get C's and B's for my first semester of college. I'm failing. Most likely gonna lose my scholarship, stressed out as hell cuz next week is finals week, and every day I feel like crying. And that doesn't even include the person in my family that I admired a lot died just a week before I moved out. I accidentally overworked myself, now I have done zero work in one of my classes and have to pay $70 for a stupid access code or fail and I'm positive that I am going to fail my math class. My family is gonna to be so upset with me... I'm so stressed I'm feeling sick and I've reverted back to my self harm habits of smacking my head against things (desk, brick wall, bed frame, etc). I just wanna cry and sleep. I was off my medication for over two weeks because I ran out and that was when I completely tanked. All my good habits just disappeared and now I'm this stupid, useless, lazy blob. I hate this and I hate myself for being unable to get my shit done I talked to the guys at my schools disability resources department but they can't do jack squat for me this semester because they take 4 weeks to do anything. I'm also on the tail end of what I'm pretty sure is bronchitis and it got so bad that I was coughing up bloody mucus wads...
2021-12-01T19:48:03.000Z
r6ncrs
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I wanna go hide and die in a dark hole of shame
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https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/r6ncrs/i_wanna_go_hide_and_die_in_a_dark_hole_of_shame/