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act a part, but, on the contrary, that it was impossible to avoid joining |
in. Within thirty seconds any pretence was always unnecessary. A hideous |
ecstasy of fear and vindictiveness, a desire to kill, to torture, to smash |
faces in with a sledge-hammer, seemed to flow through the whole group of |
people like an electric current, turning one even against one's will into |
a grimacing, screaming lunatic. And yet the rage that one felt was an |
abstract, undirected emotion which could be switched from one object to |
another like the flame of a blowlamp. Thus, at one moment Winston's hatred |
was not turned against Goldstein at all, but, on the contrary, against |
Big Brother, the Party, and the Thought Police; and at such moments his |
heart went out to the lonely, derided heretic on the screen, sole guardian |
of truth and sanity in a world of lies. And yet the very next instant he |
was at one with the people about him, and all that was said of Goldstein |
seemed to him to be true. At those moments his secret loathing of Big |
Brother changed into adoration, and Big Brother seemed to tower up, an |
invincible, fearless protector, standing like a rock against the hordes |
of Asia, and Goldstein, in spite of his isolation, his helplessness, and |
the doubt that hung about his very existence, seemed like some sinister |
enchanter, capable by the mere power of his voice of wrecking the structure |
of civilization. |
It was even possible, at moments, to switch one's hatred this way or that |
by a voluntary act. Suddenly, by the sort of violent effort with which one |
wrenches one's head away from the pillow in a nightmare, Winston succeeded |
in transferring his hatred from the face on the screen to the dark-haired |
girl behind him. Vivid, beautiful hallucinations flashed through his mind. |
He would flog her to death with a rubber truncheon. He would tie her naked |
to a stake and shoot her full of arrows like Saint Sebastian. He would |
ravish her and cut her throat at the moment of climax. Better than before, |
moreover, he realized WHY it was that he hated her. He hated her because |
she was young and pretty and sexless, because he wanted to go to bed with |
her and would never do so, because round her sweet supple waist, which |
seemed to ask you to encircle it with your arm, there was only the odious |
scarlet sash, aggressive symbol of chastity. |
The Hate rose to its climax. The voice of Goldstein had become an actual |
sheep's bleat, and for an instant the face changed into that of a sheep. |
Then the sheep-face melted into the figure of a Eurasian soldier who seemed |
to be advancing, huge and terrible, his sub-machine gun roaring, and |
seeming to spring out of the surface of the screen, so that some of the |
people in the front row actually flinched backwards in their seats. But |
in the same moment, drawing a deep sigh of relief from everybody, the |
hostile figure melted into the face of Big Brother, black-haired, |
black-moustachio'd, full of power and mysterious calm, and so vast that |
it almost filled up the screen. Nobody heard what Big Brother was saying. |
It was merely a few words of encouragement, the sort of words that are |
uttered in the din of battle, not distinguishable individually but |
restoring confidence by the fact of being spoken. Then the face of Big |
Brother faded away again, and instead the three slogans of the Party stood |
out in bold capitals: |
WAR IS PEACE |
FREEDOM IS SLAVERY |
IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH |
But the face of Big Brother seemed to persist for several seconds on the |
screen, as though the impact that it had made on everyone's eyeballs was |
too vivid to wear off immediately. The little sandy-haired woman had flung |
herself forward over the back of the chair in front of her. With a |
tremulous murmur that sounded like 'My Saviour!' she extended her arms |
towards the screen. Then she buried her face in her hands. It was apparent |
that she was uttering a prayer. |
At this moment the entire group of people broke into a deep, slow, |
rhythmical chant of 'B-B!...B-B!'--over and over again, very slowly, with a |
long pause between the first 'B' and the second--a heavy, murmurous sound, |
somehow curiously savage, in the background of which one seemed to hear the |
stamp of naked feet and the throbbing of tom-toms. For perhaps as much as |
thirty seconds they kept it up. It was a refrain that was often heard in |
moments of overwhelming emotion. Partly it was a sort of hymn to the wisdom |
and majesty of Big Brother, but still more it was an act of self-hypnosis, |
a deliberate drowning of consciousness by means of rhythmic noise. |
Winston's entrails seemed to grow cold. In the Two Minutes Hate he could |
not help sharing in the general delirium, but this sub-human chanting of |
'B-B!...B-B!' always filled him with horror. Of course he chanted with the |
rest: it was impossible to do otherwise. To dissemble your feelings, to |
control your face, to do what everyone else was doing, was an instinctive |
reaction. But there was a space of a couple of seconds during which the |
expression of his eyes might conceivably have betrayed him. And it was |
exactly at this moment that the significant thing happened--if, indeed, |
it did happen. |
Momentarily he caught O'Brien's eye. O'Brien had stood up. He had taken |
off his spectacles and was in the act of resettling them on his nose with |
his characteristic gesture. But there was a fraction of a second when |
their eyes met, and for as long as it took to happen Winston knew--yes, he |
KNEW!--that O'Brien was thinking the same thing as himself. An unmistakable |
message had passed. It was as though their two minds had opened and the |
thoughts were flowing from one into the other through their eyes. 'I am |
with you,' O'Brien seemed to be saying to him. 'I know precisely what you |
are feeling. I know all about your contempt, your hatred, your disgust. |
But don't worry, I am on your side!' And then the flash of intelligence |
was gone, and O'Brien's face was as inscrutable as everybody else's. |
That was all, and he was already uncertain whether it had happened. Such |
incidents never had any sequel. All that they did was to keep alive in him |
the belief, or hope, that others besides himself were the enemies of the |
Party. Perhaps the rumours of vast underground conspiracies were true after |
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