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Suicide Note Thanks for everything, reddit. I just called a hotline this morning for LGBT youth, but I felt as if I didn’t want to answer the questions truthfully, I didn’t want police at my house, if they knew I called an LGBT hotline...I couldn’t let my family know I was gay. That would be an even better motive to suicide. I told them I wasn’t having suicidal thoughts, but just talked out my problems. They were very kind. I guess I had kinda built it up in my head all along that they could seriously change me, but due to my stutter I was too afraid to call. It was nice to actually be able to say what was on my mind. I just can’t comprehend my life anymore and what will happen in the coming time. I’m planning on taking my life tonight.
I feel like this is the best time to do it, when nobody will notice. I’ve already requested in my note that I’d like to be added to the Mormon Gay suicide list, one more number to open people’s eyes. Like 5 people have me left on read, I’m really hoping this can turn some of my few friends views on gays. Hopefully my entire family’s views.
-Adam
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Do pills hurt? I live in England so I have no method of quick suicide and I’m to heavy to hang myself. I’ve practiced cutting and it’s not how I want to go out, I just want to be here then not if that makes sense. My last option is pills, I can easily get my hands on enough stuff to do it but am wondering how painful and scary it is as I just want to pass peacefully.
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Drained, Sucked, Exhausted: Goodbye I hate my father.
I actually hate my father. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells when I'm around him. Y'know the close intimacy that can only be achieved after years of inhibition and openness? A closeness that you can only attain with the people who raised you?
Yeah, I have a more meaningful connection with the Chinese delivery guy who yells at me for tipping too little.
Being around my father is exhausting. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells or disarming a nuclear power plant.
Small, insignificant things get under his skin. For example, when I was using my phone at the beginning of a move, he screamed, "SHUT THE HELL UP!" (this coming from a man who used his laptop all throughout a movie that I begged him not to and had selected after skimming for 2+ hours to find something family oriented and free) And then he proceeded to berate me and call me "a nightmare."
For all my faults I'm the farthest thing from a nightmare. As a teenager, I stayed away from sex, drugs, and social media like the plague. I got into good school and managed to snag some scholarships. But of course, they're worthless, seeing as I was rejected from the top tier schools he made me apply to. I'm majoring in comp sci, and he insists on that I switch to "Computer and Electrical Engineering," because of prestige. I lost 70 lbs and he still points out my weight, like I sit on my ass and eat Cheetos 24/7.
In order to make him like me, I don this fake persona. I enjoy Star Wars, plan vacations in Europe, major in STEM. Meanwhile, in my hamster hole, I harbor vivid fantasies of beating the shit out of the man.
I feel so exhausted when I'm around him and it shows. I'm so tired of looking for reasons to stay alive when my dad can just shatter them in seconds. I want to stop living. I feel like a wind-up toy with a broken key. I feel trapped, I'm sorry
I can't
I can't
I'm sorry, I feel so trapped here. I'm trying to reach out and yet I feel so alienated, it's like someone else is typing on the keyboard and I'm just peering in. Please, I need someone to see this, please, anybody, I know I'm not trying to be an attention whore, but please, anybody, please.
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What is the meaning of life. I no longer have a reason to continue living this life It’s been almost 2 years since I started fighting my depression. Every day it’s getting worse and harder to take off the suicide Ideas out of my head. The only thing that makes me feel better is thinking how I’m going to end my life.
I'm just a failure, a loser. I'm 25 M how hasn’t achieved anything in his life. I'm a student how's going to be kicked out of University with a big study debt.
Even im my private life I'm a failure I was never in a relationship because the only one I truly admired and loved, disrespected and humiliated me in public. Since then I lost my self confidence and I grow fears of being rejected.
I even lost all of my friends because of this depression No one stayed by my side no one cares about me.
That’s make me questioning my life. What did I do wrong to end up like this but it doesn’t matter anymore now. I know I will never be happy in my life, I know I will always be alone and no one will ever care about me.
My entire existence is meaningless and I only have this solution left to end this and to find peace.
And the best part is no one will ever notice or cares about my death.
The last thing I want to say is: I'm sorry mum for letting you down. I'm sorry because I failed you. I'm sorry because I wasn’t able to make you proud. Please forgive me.
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Having really bad anxiety right now Seeing a doctor tomorrow, but feeling very suicidal right now. I think I need to go back to an inpatient program, but I'm alone tonight. Is anyone up to talk. I don't want to call a hotline, Id rather just get referred to another inpatient place tomorrow.
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Seems like there's not much I want to do I don't want to
Get a better job
Change for the better
Get close to God
Be more loving
Get a girlfriend
Have kids
Get married
Face my major psychological issues
Eat healthier
Go back to school
Go to a trade school
Repent for my son's
Learn new hobbies.
I don't even want to live out my fantasies because even if I were to then the rubber would still meet the road and no matter how much fun and momentarily bliss I'll have I'll always have to go through the bullshit thing called as human suffering . Philosopher T Newport was right we all live in hell.
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If this post gets 1000 upvotes, I'll live stream my suicide Looking for an audience. If this gets 1000 upvotes, I'll live stream my suicide.
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Here to help Hello, my brother took his life one year ago, heroin overdose. Just as things were getting brighter for him. He had been struggling for years with drugs, alcohol and addiction in general. His dream was to get into his favourite guitar scool, two days after he died he got in. He had a psychologist appointment 1 day aftet his death. As he was getting better, he gave up. He was the kindest person alive, everyone agrees. He used all of his energy to help others, and he didnt have enough energy to help himself. After a difficult peroid in his life after many struggles, he decided it would be best for him to end his eternal suffering on this earth. All of his friends and family saw a new light in him, and we thought it was going to work out for our favourite boy. 8th of march 2019 he took his life with an intentional heroin overdose, my family took it tough. Pressure, lack of communication, lonleyness and bad thoughts led him to his death. He said in his note that no one had done him any harm, he couldnt stand the world anymore. Everyone has struggles, please talk to someone, everything will be better, everyone around you cares about you and will do anything to help you. 500 people showed up to his funeral allthough he felt like the lonliest man in the world, my mom and dad are doing public speeches to help other people with kids who does drugs, and is fighting for people to open up about their problems. From his 17 year old little brother. Hit me up anytime to talk, im here for all of u❤️
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I just can’t anymore This is anonymous account for reasons
I struggled with this before, and I’ve dealt with it for a while. But I just can’t keep on living. My relationship with my parents is terrible, the only one in my family that I can stand is my brother. I’ve fucked up so many times there is too many to count. I’ve had hope for the past few month, because of this girl. We went on a few dates and have talked for the past two months. We’ve confessed feelings for each and they have been reciprocated. But out of the blue she said she doesn’t want to be in a relationship. I understand it and I respect it., but that was the last good thing in my life. Talking to her got me out of bed every morning and we’d stay up til 3 am talking sometimes. I’m reaching out here as a last ditch effort.
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lost after a whole year of opioid abuse and depression, and after 3 years of a relationship, i finally found someone. they are perfect. it fucking took 3 years to find someone, just to get rejected. im done, if i only had easy access to opioids i would relapse the hell out of them and just od. fucking hell, i think this world wasnt made for me
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It's not about wanting to die, it's about not wanting to live. I dunno. Things get better, then worse, then better. I know it comes in waves, but I can't find any motivation to change anything. I just feel so exhausted all the time. The logic part of me knows it'll pass if I wanted it to, but I simply dont. I just don't want to exist anymore, I find joy in almost nothing and looking forward just fatigues me. I swear if one more doctor asks if I have a plan I'm going to die out of sheer frustration.
I don't even know why I'm posting this. Whatever.
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Today, I made it to adulthood, despite attempting three times I don't really know what to even think. I don't know why I'm here.
I don't even know how much longer I'm going to last.
I'm supposed to have hit a milestone but all I feel is emptier and emptier.
When does it end?
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what do i do I'm so lost rn. Everything is shit and I can't think of a solution that works. I wrote notes to people for after, but when writing one for my best friend I broke down in tears and literally cried until I passed out. I don't want to type out my life story, but these are some important things:
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Through 6th grade I was fine. Going to my town's Junior High was harder. I tried a little too hard to fit in and made "friends", but most of them didn't really care about me. I think this is when my depression started, but I disregarded it. I was switched to a different high school in 8th grade, which I stayed at until I graduated. By 8th grade I was already questioning my sexuality. Throughout 9th to Senior year I went from being bi to gay, but being in a Christian high school, I would get kicked out for being anything but straight (like in the rulebook it states this. You can't even have gay parents.) So I made a habit of keeping things to myself. All I did was try to fit in, to be the "funny one". I graduated and by then my depression was most of my life. I hate myself, I avoid leaving my room, started burning myself with cigarettes, and purposefully messed up my sleeping schedule so I could be up all night to avoid even my family. Some time before I graduated, one of my actual friends I made in the public Junior High School and I started talking again and eventually he and I became best friends. We tell each other everything (including some really, really personal things. So we are hella close friends). We hang out, drink, smoke, play games, etc. pretty often. At some point he got me to get a therapist. Seeing my therapist got me a psychiatrist, which prescribed me Paxil. Everything was okay with the Paxil, but after a while he doubled the dose. This fucked me up. I threw up a few times and started have moments of disconnection from myself. But I kept on the dose. A few weeks later this state of disconnection was about 80% of my entire day. Nothing felt real anymore. I wanted it to stop, so I quit the medication slowly on my own accord (my psychiatrist didn't know what was happening at this point). Everything came back and hit me like a truck. I sleep for well over the amount of hours I'm supposed to, I went back to avoiding any inkling of another person, burning myself, and all around feeling like shit. At the same time, my best friend left to go to boot camp so I have no way to talk to him or know how he's doing until he's finished. I quit my job because at this point I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I tried and tried, but there was no way I could keep myself together.
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This is where I'm at now. Everything is shit. I feel more alone than I ever have. I just hate myself so much rn. Every second of my day I just sit and try to forget everything and every one. I don't want to be myself anymore. I have rope in the corner of my room that I try not to think about. Last night when I wrote the notes to everybody, I was completely done. I was ready to give up on literally everything. I'm honestly surprised it didn't happen. But now I don't know what to do. I don't know what my friend would think if I go through with it. I'm so scared of making him sad. But I'm also so tired. I'm tired of making myself feel like shit. I just can't stop doing it. What am I supposed to do? I just want all of it to stop. I want everything to disappear. But I love my best friend too much to do anything. A part of me keeps wanting to grab the rope out of the corner, and a part of me is scared of even thinking about it. I'm tired of having mental battles with myself. I need some kind of advice, or anything that'll help even a little.
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((Sorry for typing a lot. I'm slightly drunk and over-explain everything.))
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I can't accept any of my flaws and I don't believe anyone else will either DAE think people are really shallow/changeable? If they realize the extent of my depression, they'll leave. If I'm not interesting/funny, they'll leave. I have so many fucking flaws I can't have a conversation without hyperfocusing on my own words. Unconditional love is a joke.
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If I can't find someone who will love me without caring about my appearance/mental health, I just want to die.
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I think I'm beginning to find my suicidal thought pattern (if that's a thing) I've been working so hard on myself lately. This week alone I have 3 appointments for 3 different things. One of them is depression and anxiety.
My boyfriend and I fought again today. We've been fighting a lot lately. I voice my frustrations on something and he begins to scream and point fingers entirely at me. I mean I know I might word some things here and there a little harshly, and I know that I'm not perfect, but I don't put him down like what he does with me. He tells me that he hates me, he calls me stupid, and so many other horrible names. And I just stand there, crying and watching him go off on me. I try and calm him down, ask him to just talk to me and not scream. Tonight it just made it worse. He wouldn't stop. I got scared to even move.
It was weird though, the entire time he was screaming at me, all I could think about was how much I loved him and how badly I wanted him to love me back the way I love him. And how much easier it would be to just swallow a bunch of pills, rather than to try and pick up my entire life and start over again.
A little perspective on that... I'm sort of in business with his family, so that means I need a new career on top of a new home. I can't exactly go live with any family members since I'm the only one who hasn't moved from our home state. And the worst part is that he bought me 2 kittens 3 years ago as a Christmas gift. However when he registered the chips, he did it under his name. Now my [ex]boyfriend is denying that he bought the cats for me and is threatening legal action if I try and take them. There's nothing I can do. I've lost my home, my career and my fur babies all in one emotionally abusive night.
I'm trying to stay strong, but those dark thoughts are there. If anyone reads this tonight, I'm sorry if I don't reply right away, this is my throwaway account and I'm going to bed so I can work in the morning. I promise I'll be okay for the night. I luckily have therapy tomorrow. I just needed to get some of these feelings out now. Thanks for reading. Whoever you are.
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Anyone also getting suicidal thoughts when seeing happy stuff? Kind of a question rather than a suicide post but I just needed to get this off my mind.
So, whenever my friends send me cute stuff of their friends to them, or just happy/cute things, I immediately think about killing myself, and I'm honestly not sure why. Anyone else has them too?
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I’m scared I don’t have anyone to talk to so I’m posting this here. I’m sitting in the woods with a 9mm I just bought today. I’ve never shot a gun before in my life so I’m scared I’ll mess up and just end up living and being horribly disfigured and in a lot of pain. I did research on where to shoot myself in the head but I’m scared I’ll fail.
I’m just sick of being a burden on everyone and being so mentally ill that I ruin everything. I just ruined a relationship with the best, most kindest and loving person on the planet because my anxiety and depression are so bad. I have no friends and my father is already so disappointed in me and I always need his help for money and stuff and I don’t deserve it. I don’t want to negatively impact anyone else anymore. I just want to go away
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I will get a gun I cant wait. I booked a fire arm course because we need them to my country to buy a weapon and i will finally do it
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I just want it all to end Life is meaningless to me now, I just want to die, to end this suffering. I just want to see the darkness that is death, to know I will be free from this disease called life, I just don't wanna live anymore.
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I learned my favorite psychedelic "spiritual" artist(s) reportedly had sex with a mutilated Harvard corpse on film; now i first see his pics with Paris Hilton. take me [https://imgur.com/70sqwzP](https://imgur.com/70sqwzP)
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It's so hard to not give up. The thought of giving up, but not, means I just keep wasting away and digging myself even deeper, never getting anything done. So you know how imposter syndrome people think that they're huge frauds who haven't ever actually done anything well?
I *actually* haven't accomplished anything ever and have made it through life with bluffing and luck. I have no idea how to stop being a useless piece of shit and every passing day of extreme procrastination and excuses, the anxiety piles up exponentially. Not only have I dug a nice, deep, depression hole, once I get out of the hole I'm faced with K2 that I swear, once upon a time, was just a speed bump.
I don't deserve anything I have and am having a lot of trouble feeling like it's possible to crawl out of this hole. Life is hard. Death is easy. Guilt for keeping the people/animals around me happy/functioning holds me to the struggle, but every fiber of my being wants to give up on everything. Everything.
I nearly made this post on a tightknit forum community, but really, I haven't told anyone in my life how bad it is. How much of a fraud I am. How much I want to die every second so I don't have to live with the guilt any more. I'm so incredibly open about every aspect in my life that people think I have no secrets, but keeping this in has become such a huge one that I am beginning to feel like I live a double life. No one can know how often my wrists itch invisibly, or the real reason I go for smoke breaks.
Thanks for being a place I can let this out for the moment.
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Gonna drink me in a coma. The title says it all. Nothing more. Nothing less.
I hope I could maybe find a new friend in that bar. Let's hope.
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Merry Christmas, I need help I'm 48 years old, married with two kids and so full of regret and sadness that I've concluded that it may be best for everyone if I just killed myself.
My wife and I have had a rocky marriage for the past 19 years. I've never stood up to her and she basically runs my life. Fwiw, I am terrible at decision making and combined with her, we're possibly worse together.
Long story short, she was hating her teaching job and we decided to relocate over the summer. Sold our house, which was an extremely stressful 3 months. We finally moved and set the kids up in a new school where she'd be teaching. That ended up being a disaster with my daughter bearing the brunt of it. I won't go into details but we were close to calling lawyers and making police reports.
So we returned to our prior hometown, mid-school year. My wife is now hoping to get a job at her old school (the job she had escaped when we left). My kids are better but we also decided to buy a new house. Or rather she did. I hate the new house and I feel that we overpaid for it.
Also, I am terrified that the economy is going to collapse in 2019 now that Trump's become more unchained and unhinged. And I'm of course afraid that I'm going to lose my job. To top all of that, I took on a new position at work which is super stressful. Along the way, I had planned to move to a different team then at the last moment, requested a switch to my current team, thereby burning a few bridges. I feel that I've made a bit of a scene at work and now look like a flaky and unreliable asshole. There are more details, trust me, I have not been strong, mature or professional when speaking to various people. I have had a good reputation at my company and I feel like I've stained it quite a bit.
On top of that, I work 20+ hours per week on various side gigs and am generally burnt out, tired and depressed. My wife is not currently working, which is nice because she does need a break but I'm in a lose-lose situation. Either I'm not spending enough time with the kids or I'm not making enough money. If I had my way, I'd lock myself in a room and work 18 hours a day. Or I'd slow down on the extra work for a while. I'm also afraid that a major economic downturn will make it hard to earn money freelancing.
I really wanted to move back and rent a house for the next year or so, to see how the economy shakes out but now we're in a new mortgage (literally down the street from our old house) and I'm scared we'll lose the new house.
When I drive past my old house, I'm so filled with sadness and resentment. We've thrown away thousands of dollars between staging it for sale, moving cross country twice and the future work my wife wants to do on the new place - she wants to spend ~30k "fixing" it up. The new house was already 40-50k above what I'd consider our max.
Also, while my daughter is happier, she's preparing for the SATs after doing poorly on the PPSAT and now my wife is freaking out about that. I also want my daughter to be able to go to a good school fwiw.
I could get divorced but then my kids would live in a shitty house and give up a lot. Or I could kill myself and my wife would collect life insurance and not be set for life, but for at least the next 5-10 years. There's no love left in our crazy marriage.
Currently she's pushing for us to get a dog and we've been through a tumultuous year and blaming me for not being fun and keeping it light.
I am terrified of the future and see suicide as a quick way out. Of course, the one outstanding concern I have is that my death will have a huge impact on my kids. I have spent the past few weeks mulling over various painful and not-so-painful ways to kill myself.
For many reasons that would fill up a bunch more posts, I feel like a failure. I'm not a good person. I'm not the worst person but I am a piece of shit, a coward, a quitter and a failure.
I've been down this path many times before but this time feels different. . . I haven't spent this much time + energy planning it out in my head. I'm currently contemplating buying and overdosing on heroin as it seems the most peaceful - you just pass out and never wake up. I've never done heroin before, so it shouldn't be too hard to achieve (I've researched it a bit).
I don't know what to do. I need help. I'm scared to keep living. I am literally the biggest coward I've ever known.
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Just lost my only friend in a long, long time... I’m going to be alone forever, so why not just end it? In the last 4 years, this person was my only friend. Before that, I had only had one time where I had any close friends in my entire life and those people have all long since moved on from each other. This new person and I were only friends online, but they just abandoned me today after ‘taking a break’ 2 weeks ago...
I just want to die right now. My greatest desire in life is to have a few close friends and maybe find love some day. I would give up anything in the world that I didn’t need in order to secure that. There’s just no value or happiness in the material world or in career pursuits for me... I just want to have people around me to share my life with. Once you get a taste of what most people take for granted, you can’t go back. And I’ve already exhausted all my outlets (college and work)... I have no connections to make friends through, my college endeavors probably won’t last much longer due to my circumstances, etc.
I literally feel like my heart is a smoldering ember, like it’s being burned out of me and it fucking hurts. Nothing matters anymore, I’m just going to live day in and day out all alone doing nothing but working, watching videos, maybe playing video games every now and then. My life will be without purpose. I have no social skills to work with and I feel like all I do is pointless and without meaning because I am entirely solitary. It is not a good life, I don’t know how anyone can ever bare this burden. I wish my parents had never had me. I wish I could stop existing right this moment.
I already know how I’m going to do it since I’ve been suicidal before. I will have the means in just a few weeks and then it’ll all be over finally. I wish I could tell you this wasn’t what I knew was going to happen to me eventually.
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I wish I could just kill myself. I'm so tired. There's only one or two methods I can think of that I would be willing to try, and that's because they're reliable and they don't leave a disgusting mess for people to clean up.
I can't really test them until I'm living on my own, though. I'm living with a friend right now because I work a crappy hospital job that barely makes above minimum wage. I feel too stupid and incompetent to move to a higher paying job, despite having a bachelor's. I have been "branching out" and doing things I couldn't do at my parent's house like cutting and drinking (carefully). The cutting hurts like a bitch but I deserve to feel the pain. I want to cut my wrists, but that's too noticeable. I'm not going after it for attention. The drinking hits me hard some nights and doesn't seem to affect me on others. But it's nice to feel out of my body and feel numb. I don't want to go too crazy with these habits because I don't want my friend to worry. They just allow me to...recognize I'm actually suffering, I guess. I feel melodramatic a lot and worry that I'm faking this shit. I dunno.
I just really wish I lived alone. I would probably get drunk every other night and actually fucking cut myself like I want to. I could buy the shit I need to kill myself and see if I'm really bold enough to do it.
Right now I'm "getting help". I'm on yet another round of antidepressants. I was going to therapy for a bit, I went and got bloodwork done at my doctor's, I scheduled some tests with a psychologist. I'm doing all of this because I don't really have a choice, though. I really don't. Too many people in my life have too many expectations. But with the nature of my depression, it'll go back to a baseline of PDD, then worsen into MDD yet again. It won't ever stop. There's no hope, and I don't really have anything or anyone I want to live for.
I just want this pain to fucking end. I wish I could be brave enough to do something about it.
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I’ve reached the end. It’s a relief. As the title suggests I think I’ve reached the end of my course, and weirdly enough to me I’ve accepted it with little feeling.
To put my story into context, and help anyone who might be reading this to understand I would say my life has never been the most stable. I was constantly moved from country to country, accommodation to accommodation, school to school. This is something that I always knew was something that affected me, however it wasn’t until I finally got into a therapy programme that I realised how badly it had. Maladaptive coping mechanisms that follow me, anxiety, depression and emotional blunting are all things that I’ve now recognised. Despite this, and pretty severe adhd from childhood that no one ever considered a problem enough for me to be treated, I always achieved pretty highly. However the grades and other achievements were always a mask to the crippling stress, psychiatric crisis and sleeping 2 - 4 hours a night. As long as I achieved everyone considered me as having no issues and in fact being a model for others. Poor emotional communication and a very stoic family only perpetuated things as it led me to believe I had no place to voice my struggles. Fast forward and I am in my final year of well regarded medical school far away from where anyone I know/anyone I could consider a support. I have gone through hell and back these last 3 years. Stress, no sleep, physical injuries, constantly missing out on events and milestones and all because I wanted to be this idealistic doctor that would help the world in my own small way. I then come home for the holidays and spend time with my family and long term/long distance girlfriend. Since being back it’s been constant arguments with my parents for a lot of my life decisions and about my mental health. Most recently to add to all this my gf is wanting to break up with me because I haven’t changed out of my bad coping mechanisms quick enough. Even though I never did anything directly bad to her, I can see how some behaviours are hard to deal with. So to some degree I don’t blame her, I’m just upset that after I was always there as a support with her significant mental health problems I don’t get the same acceptance.
Anyway it’s reached the point I don’t think I’m going to go on dealing with all of this and being me much longer. I don’t know what will happen but I just know it can’t go on.
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A pen and red wine. Ignored the red flag about sharp weapon in a pencil case. Oh dear, ma’am, I just happened to grab it and god knew what happened. Loved the taste of red wine on a wrist. Dear, best friend, please never scream when you see me being covered with red wine and pen marks, it’s going to be okay.
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Can it please just be over This is the fourth time in as many months that I am at this door.
I am stuck in the darkest part of my soul.
I can’t get out.
These demons don’t leave me alone.
Can someone please turn out my light?
I have hurt enough. I can’t do more.
Just make it stop... make it all go away...
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What could a person with medical anxiety say?
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The OD didn’t work On sunday night i took 19 entrips then i went to sleep, when i woke up it was like the vertigo effect, every close but so far away at the same time . i am small so i didn’t die but my body didn’t take it well . It was a monday and i had to go to school. Normally i’m all happy and cheerful, my nickname was bubbles like the powerpuff girl. My friends asked if i was okay and all i had to say i was tired . i was so angry i wrote a note to each of my friends for when i would die so when it didn’t happen it was karma . in class i could barely stay awake and the person said “i miss my happy you” which made me smile . in period 4 i left to cry in the bathroom. why couldn’t i die . the pain is worst then ever . i was so happy to say goodbye . I haven’t told anyone or gone to the doctor. my family would disown me if they found out . WHAT SHOULD I DO ??????
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What is a typical sentence said by someone experiencing medical anxiety?
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Fatass Figures Final Front Frees Fully I am a 5’5 bald 320 lb man. With a penchant for writing and tech. I don’t have much else going for me. I just feel it’s time to let go. I’ve been hospitalized for mental health several times. I’ve tried lots of medication. I’ve tried making friends; no luck there either. I’ve tried weightloss before through exercise I’ve lost 20lbs only to gain it all back. No one wants to love a monster like me. I just feel I’ve failed on all fronts. I’m a non person. I just need to fucking end it. Only one person ever loved me....and they have a whole other life now. Fuck it all. Me and the razor blades have a date.
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that expresses medical anxiety?
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Not sure what to do anymore. Tired of life. I'm ambitious but can't find success. I'm 29, I'm single, I'm in a dead end job, I have tons of debt, and I can't seem to do anything right. I'm tired of trying to make things work. I have no friends and no prospects. I'm just tired as fuck.
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I've thought about suicide for years but haven't done it because I'm also a coward. If I knew my family would get my life insurance if I committed suicide I think that would be enough for me to finally do it. My Dad would be sad, but I think he would get over it. It wouldn't be the first death in our family..
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I'm not entirely sure why I am posting here. Part of me wants someone to convince me that things will get better, but I've been telling myself that for years. Something has to change and I don't know what. But I know I can't keep living this failure of a life much longer.
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Can you give a quote that represents medical anxiety?
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I don't know who i am I am so scared about my future. My family
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What is an example of verbalizing medical anxiety?
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I got replaced, now the love of my life is with someone else who is "better" than me. I've been seriously comtemplating killing myself. I feel no happiness in life, save for the rare occasion I may use some pot or some meth. The love of my life is 27 years old (I'm 33).
She had blocked me initially after she moved away, then out of the blue, she decides to unblock me and contact me yesterday. Initially, I am over the moon. While she is 1500 miles away, I felt like she was sitting right beside me, and we were just talking away on anything and everything. Then, about an hour and a half into the call, she says "sorry I gotta go. Take care." Just like that, she's gone again. Old douchebag replacement of mine must have texted or called her, so he could probably tell her what great BS he's accomplishing at work rn. Well, I hope his dick is bigger than mine too, since he's so fucking smart, the fucking smug neckbeard fuckboi assclown.
It just really feels there's no point to my life anymore. Literally nothing but the occasional drug use brings me joy now. I'm a sad shell of my former self, and all I really want is some peace of mind. And to not be so fucking depressed anymore. I'm actually an intelligent guy, who doesn't look bad, and I have some extraordinary programming/database/IT Skills, but I just don't get any enjoyment from work anymore.....I just feel like I'm taking up space for someone who is more worthy than me. Hopefully I get the courage to end this shit so everyone can live a happy life knowing I'm fucking dead.
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What could a person say if they are suffering from medical anxiety?
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Stuck. I feel like the world is moving on without me. I'm just spinning my wheels and not making any progress. Everyone I know is making something of themselves, and I just feel stuck. It's really hard to keep trying; I just don't see the point.
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How might someone express their feelings of medical anxiety verbally?
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I am going to kill myself this weekend My life is spiraling out of control. I am making arrangements for my dog so that she won't be alone. It all just isn't worth it
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What could a person say if they are suffering from medical anxiety?
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Tottenham just lost fuck off trippier
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What would a person say to convey their medical anxiety?
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Will this plan work So I have 70 7.5mg pills of zopiclone and 70 50mg pills of trazidone. Is that going to be enough to end to do the job? I tried last December with 30 pills of each but just woke up the next day starving and ending up making baked potatoes stuffed with cheese. I don't remember much but I guess I talked to me mam and she thought I was drunk. Should save up for a few more months or do you think that will be enough.
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What might a person say to express their medical anxiety?
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I (18M) just beat my father (50M) I've rewritten this many times now to only post what's relevant, any missing information you want you can ask. My dad and I got into another fight today over something really stupid, basically he told me to kill myself a few times, He's done this before but this time, what he didn't know was that I had actually tried last night to end my life, I'd taken a hand full of sleepingpills and scotch at midnight, I thought for sure that would be enough, but all it did was make me sleepwalk and knock a bunch of things over, I recall none of it but when I woke up my room was a mess. As always my Mom was trying to mediate, after he some more stuff about how I'm mentally sick, how I'm going to fail, how I've accomplished nothing all that generic angry dad stuff, I started to walk downstairs when he made a threatening stance like he was going to hit me (He wasn't, he's only ever hit me once) I just dropped everything and just punched the right side of his face, my mom tried to hold me back crying for me to stop, but I got a few more good ones in while I saw tears in His eyes, he seemed shocked and that only made me want to hurt him more, all these years I was deathly afraid of him, but to see him cower, it gave me great confidence, I told him to fight back, but he didn't do shit, all the while I was doing this I was yelling things like "You made me this way" and "I'm going to kill you", he backed up into his office room and my mom dragged me back to my room, I felt so good and I'm not sure if I should be shamed to admit it, I fantasied about killing him, and I'd finally struck him.
This happen about an hour and a half ago, my knuckles are still sore, I'd love some input
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Can you give an example of a sentence spoken by someone with medical anxiety?
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It’s been years now and I don’t know what to do the low-level suicidal impulses are almost boring to me by this point, I’m so used to them. It’s been over a decade now, it’s just routine—but for those of you with partners how the hell do you explain it?? How do you articulate this without sounding absolutely melodramatic? I’m lost.
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Can you provide a sentence that depicts medical anxiety?
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I feel like I’m a burden to all. My negativity and low self worth have become my identity. I am no longer happy with my life. Everyone around me makes me feel like I don’t have a right to feel the way I do because I have a family who loves me and I have an internship that people would kill for. Sure my life seems like it’s on cruise control but I feel so empty.
I always found comfort venting about my loneliness to my dad and my girlfriend. But lately, I haven’t been able to do that. My dad lost his job and it seems as if nothing is going right for him as well. So I feel like I’d add onto his stress by talking about my frustrations and my life. I can feel my girlfriend slowly getting tired of my repetitive feelings and just recently she said she can’t do this everyday. I don’t want to make my problems her problems. I can feel my negativity and sadness affecting her life.
I feel the need to pretend like everything is okay when I’m broken inside. I just feel like a burden to all. It keeps echoing in my head that I’m making everyone around me suffer. At this point, I wouldn’t mind disappearing.
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What is an example of a phrase from a person with medical anxiety?
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Psych hospital couldn't admit me because I had COVID-19 I'm doing what I would consider very, very bad. I had COVID-19 and I'm still recovering, and my brain chose now to just give up. I have hereditary major depressive disorder and I am actually one of very few people who don't produce my own dopamine- I have to take lots of synthetic supplements and meds and sometimes it still just... Fails. I am suicidal, but the psych hospital said they couldn't admit me because of my exposure to the virus and the psych hospitals lack of proper medical equipment. The hospital psych liazon and my psych and everyone decided to just drug me through it until Monday when I can actually speak to my psychiatrist and get meds changed or a proper evaluation. I'm numb and we are sedating me until Monday. I don't even see the point of trying to change the meds because I know this will just come back. Small periods of okay-ness just to have the crushing depression and urge to hurt myself come back around. I know there's a pandemic going on and so we couldn't take ideal measures but if I'm just going to be drugged up for life, why have the life. I'm not even there.
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Can you give an example of what a person with medical anxiety might articulate?
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I said goodbye to a lot of friends yesterday. Ive been planning to kill myeself for nearly the entire week and i planned to do it yesterday. I essentially said bye to everyone by just talking to them and remembering what we had done together. I never told anynof them of my intentions, i just wanted to talk and act normal. It was a strange feeling to say the least, i tried to think about how they would all react with me gone. With the whole Covid-19 thing going on i havent seen any of them in well over a week, and im not sure if that will be the last time i see all of them. Im not sure. I decided not to do it yesterday, as i felt happy for a small sliver of time. But thats starting to fade again, and i dont think its gonna last. I dunno. Ill update again if i plan to again. Im not sure if i want to or not honestly, i just feel, indifferent.
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What is something a person with medical anxiety might say?
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Old timer wants out Hello,
I am coping with the loss of a relationship with a much younger woman whom I had the pleasure of seeing...about 20 years my junior. I know I know, too young. But she and I had something special. At least I thought it was. She made me want to be the best version of myself. I was the best version of myself with her. I chased her away like everything else good I’m my life. Now she won’t talk to me. She is terrified as a matter of fact because I threatened her, long story. I guess I’m just looking fir someone to tell me what to do. I can’t seem to find my happiness and trust me I’ve tried....in every way possible. It’s been over a year already but I think I’m lost. I haven’t been right in a long time and now I’m afraid I can’t be anymore.
I think I want to end it all.
I am not looking for someone to talk me out of it. I guess this is for anyone else in my situation to know that you’re not alone and I understand why people who push everyone away end up alone....or dead. I think it’s a genetic flaw. Maybe suicide is nature’s way of correcting them.
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Can you provide an example of how someone might voice their medical anxiety?
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i’m the flaw in the machine , sorry I don’t know how this became prose I feel like I’m a faulty cog in the machine,
that needs to be removed,
that shouldn’t have been there in the first place.
Survival of the fittest, and I’m not it.
It breaks down because it isn’t meant to work.
Some kind of vestigial organ,
Slipped through the cracks of life
And now falters
Flailing like a fish
On dry ground
That wasn’t meant to breathe—
but drown.
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that someone with medical anxiety might say?
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I don't want to live anymore I wish I had the balls to end myself. I am a pathetic dickless retard that can't do anything right in my life. I wish I could just do one good thing in my life and die, but I am too retarded even for that.
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How might someone verbalize their medical anxiety?
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I want to go hiking up Mt. Rainier right now and "go missing." It's winter. It's the way I always wanted to go.
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What is an example of a sentence that shows someone is experiencing medical anxiety?
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contemplating suicide im slowly getting more suicidal for the past two years due to stress from school which im then escaping reality with books and games and getting worse and school every chance i get i read or play games or look at memes i not sure what to do
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What is a typical expression of medical anxiety in words?
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Goodbye i don’t really know what to say. never thought i’d go through with this. i wish the best for all of you.
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that expresses medical anxiety?
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Overdriven emptiness I’m not one to make my feelings public. I realized after countless ignored social media posts that no one really cared about what I had to say. But this is something I can’t keep inside anymore.
The past two years have been very hard on me. My depression went into overdrive. Though I never really considered myself suicidal before, I’m sure I am now.
I don’t know much of anything so I won’t “self-diagnose.” But everyday is getting harder.
I know I have countless people who love me and who would be devastated is anything happened to me. That has been the one thing I have been able to hold on to.
But recently it just isn’t enough anymore. I don’t have a desire to continue on and live out my future.
I guess I can’t explain it very well. I think waking up and getting ready for the day is the worst part. I just don’t want to do it anymore.
If you decided to sit through my entire pity party then I thank you. I know all of us are struggling and I am completely aware that others have it worse than me, so I’m sorry for being so self-centered.
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Can you provide an example of how someone might voice their medical anxiety?
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what's stopping me if i just do it.
it's quick
it's not easy
but it's simple
there's nothing to lose and nothing to gain. it's a neutral route to take. SO WHAT THE FUCK MAKES IT SO HARD!
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How might a person describe their medical anxiety in a sentence?
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25th birthday coming up and nothing but regret to look back at Considering ending it very soon. Stuck in the house of my birth while my friends are all moving away and making it in life.
Hate my low paying job and lack of future. Did everything conventional wisdom told me to. Worked hard, got a masters degree, employed but can’t afford anything.
Never contacted or checked up on by the few acquaintances I have left. Nothing but memories of how awkward and uninteresting I was.
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How might someone with medical anxiety express their fears?
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My life is hell Ok so 1. I'm on mobile 2 l have autism. If my formatting sucks so be it.
I'm tired of living. I'm done. I have had nothing good in my life. I literally lost everything exept 1 suitcase. I posted my battle with my mom in entitledparents. My birthday is next week and l tried to buy a laptop to find my ebay was suspended. I never did anything that's the straw that broke the cameks back.
Now my mom is a narcissist. She gas abandoned me so many times l cant count. I am now on the verge of being homeless because she's scared the landlord is going to kick her out. I'm on the lease too. So my brother and her are kicking me out instead. My brother is her favorite.
I am just tired of the abuse and her claiming l am. I'm done. So goodbye life.
Oh and l wrote my own obituary.
I'm through and l have had enough.
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What might someone with medical anxiety say in a moment of distress?
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I don't know what to do This is a throwaway. I never thought I'd be writing on something like this. I'm a very closed off person and I find it hard to open up to even my closest friends. At the end up summer last year I started my final semester at college. I had an amazing fiance that had to move somewhere 2 hours away for work. While I was working on finishing my semester I started to feel more and more depressed and I don't know why. Maybe it was the distance. Maybe it was because I felt like everything that could go wrong was. The only thing I had going for me was her and a job I was lucky enough to nap before graduation. Turns out the day before I graduated she cheated on me with a friend of hers from high school. I wanted to try and work things out, but she said she need time to think. I agreed and tried to keep an open mind. Thanks to Covid my job keep getting pushed back and all I could do is sit at home and think about what happened. Drove me absolutely insane and it still is. Turns out not even a month after we broke up she started dating the guy she cheated on me with. I found out last Monday. She claims she was trying to protect me by not telling me, but I don't know about that. I have never felt so helpless and alone. My job starts Monday and I am so scared that I will mess up and get fired or I'll hate it. It's the only thing I have to live for at this point. I move away from everyone I knew for this job and I'm just so scared. I want to die almost every day and they only reason I'm writing this is because I almost did it. I have my note written and I don't know what snapped me out of it before the trigger was pulled, but I just had to tell someone
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How might someone with medical anxiety express their fears?
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Living in Baltimore gonna end my life in the next couple days I have had a very bad last couple years my ex left in March we were together 17 years now I've relapsed and can't stay clean don't even have food to eat anymore I just think maybe it's time and I kinda believe that once I kill myself I will go to another life I really need help bad
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What is an example of verbalizing medical anxiety?
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Too anxious for suicide? I hate my life as much as the next guy on the thread. I’m 25 and have already been through so much horrible shit that I’m pretty much just completely hopeless that I will ever be happy or successful.
I really do believe that the only solution to my problems is death. Once I die all of my problems will be gone and it seems like the best option for myself.
The problem is that once I start thinking about different plans to end my life my mind just jumps to the worst possible scenario...that I’ll survive and when I survive I’ll have more problems than I have now.
For example, my anxiety makes me think that if I jump off a building I’ll break every bone in my body and end up in a wheelchair for the rest of my life and a HUGE medical bill. Not only that but my family and coworkers and pretty much everyone I’ve ever known will know that I attempted suicide and I’ll be so embarrassed.
Or that if shoot myself in the head I’ll survive the attempt but I’ll end up mentally retarded and deformed. And then I’ll really be fucked.
Does anyone else have these thoughts?
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Can you provide an example of a medical anxiety statement?
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Going to kill myself, best method? I need to stop burdening people. I can't do any job on the planet or make money in any way so there is zero reason not to kill myself. All I need is something efficient, ideally not bloody, and with as little pain as possible, as I'm a pussy.
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What is an example of a statement from a person with medical anxiety?
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I need some advice I feel like lately everything has just been sort of falling apart, but I’ve also been making steps towards a healthier life as well.
I have an issue with school because I never feel like I’m doing good enough to impress my family or friends, same with a lot of the other stuff I do. I just never feel like what I’ve done is enough if that makes any sense.
I’ve had problems with relationships as well, I’ve had some bad breakups that I just can’t seem to forget about. I just feel like I haven’t had the best of luck, maybe the time isn’t right yet.
I’m not really sure that I want to kill myself or anything but I don’t know where else to post this. Sorry if I broke the rules here or something like that.
I just need some advice on whether or not I should continue trying to just give up
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Can you give an example of a sentence said by a person expressing medical anxiety?
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This ends now. I’m really gonna kill myself. Im alone in my dorm and I have the means. I’m realizing that I don’t act like people my age. I cant relate to the stuff I see on social media and I feel so alone. I realize I have no friends, and that that’s not normal. I don’t have a great relationship with my family. I’m humiliated by things I’ve done in my past, and my on and off relationship with social media probably sends red flags to others that I’m unstable and crazy. I know that no one will care or notice if I’m gone. I have no direction in my life and I’m overwhelmed. I’m afraid of so many things lately. I’m in such an extremely dark place right now. I cant live with the way I look. I cant. I cant do it. I feel so disgusting when I see myself in photos that I haven’t carefully angled and edited. I hate how I look and I cant stand it a minute longer. That alone, even without the other things, is enough. I feel like I’ve lost any progress I made tonight. I feel like I’m going backwards. I tried so hard and now I’m slipping and I cant stop it. And for that I’m also ashamed. I’m sad and disappointed because I realize I’ll never actually get better.
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What might a person say if they are experiencing medical anxiety?
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Life has gone from bad to worse...don't know where to go from here. Just want pain to end I don't want to go into detail why my life is bad, but recent events have me feeling a bit suicidal for the first time. This is the lowest point of my life.
A university I wanted to go to rejected me, I have money issues, and just today a guy I'm in love with dumped me after we had sex for the first time.
I feel heartbroken, rejected, a failure in life. No one to talk to.
I wish I was never born!!! I can't eat or sleep, no one loves me...i'm crying as i type this. I just want to sleep forever and never wake up. I have insomnia so i need to buy sleeping pills.
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Can you give an example of a medical anxiety expression?
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Stupid kid I still miss that stupid little kid in me that loved to learn new things and have big dreams. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go away from here by my own hands at some point but that little kid keeps pulling me by the hair. Nohing makes me more happier when I'm crying, because it shows that I'm not yet numb inside. The kid in me that I left long ago is keeping me away from the vodka and rope, for now atleast
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Can you give an example of dialogue showing medical anxiety?
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its over its been 3 and a half years. my movements are slow, and i cant think anymore. there is no salvation. at this point my only recourse is to rope
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What might a person say to express their medical anxiety?
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What is the easiest and least painful way? I don't want to introduce myself or talk about why I want to do it. I already made up my mind and actually tried ending it once.
So I have 2 options:
1: Hanging myself with a rope.
I have tried hanging myself with a belt but as you can guess I have failed because my feet were touching the ground. I think this is the least painful way because when I tried it the pressure made to my arteries almost made me faint before this stupid brain of mine decided to command my feet to touch the ground. My question with this one is if i tied the rope to a gas pipe would it be strong enough to support my weight?
2: Taking all the pills in the fridge. I'm not sure about this one. From what I've read there is a high chance of brain damage if failure and very painful if done poorly.
Which one do you guys/girls/rest think?
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that someone with medical anxiety might say?
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I wanna do it but... I'm afraid of failing. I put some research into cyanide pills but they are $200 from shady websites and who know if they'll show up and/or work. I'm thinking of parking on the side of the highway and then jumping in front of a truck but I don't want to ruin someone else's career and give them PTSD. So, what do I do?
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What is a sentence that could be said by a person suffering from medical anxiety?
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it’s time i had an extended family member die of suicide at the beginning of this month and it put a few things in perspective for me.
her parents will never know why she did it, and they will constantly think they did something wrong. same with her husband. which is very sad and unfair.
but i also was extremely jealous.
she doesn’t have to feel suffering or pain anymore.
i know what i need to do, which is end my life. it’ll make up for every bad thing i have done. but i need to make sure those in my life know it’s not about them. they didn’t do anything wrong. i did.
i miss my parents. i need to see them again.
and i also can’t live with the guilt anymore of how i hurt people emotionally.
if anyone in my life ever reads this. i’m sorry but i need this. i need the pain to end. it’s no ones fault but my bad decisions. i could have had a good life but i chose a life of lying and deceit. all the money and freedom in the world isn’t changing my pain.
until we meet again
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that someone with medical anxiety might say?
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Everything is just pointless. I'm used up and balding. I have no career. My friends have long moved on. There is no future for me but sitting in parking lots writing stories because my job is completely pointless. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live either. I'm just waiting for the day I can finally die.
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Can you provide a quote from someone dealing with medical anxiety?
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Does anyone else try to lift others in hopes that they won’t ever notice that you’re going to lose the battle against mental illness...?
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Can you give a sentence that exemplifies medical anxiety?
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If getting used to the selfishness of the world is how everyone does it, I dont wanna survive. People only care about themselves. I am always told to get used to it and thats how people are. But if I can't be nice and care about more than myself in this world. Then this is not the world for me. If being selfless gets you screwed over and just keeps you in Poverty then I dont want to live. My brother is dead, My dogs are dead, my aunt is dead. My parents were never there for me. it was just me and Cody holding each other through our tough lives and now hes gone. My mom has gone crazy with the death of my brother. I don't want to live any more. I have no place. My heart and brain ache from fighting these thoughts alll the time. And it makes me cry thinking that my mother will get the news and kill herself too. Fuck it
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What could a person with medical anxiety say?
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Permanent problems, permanent solutions I’m a bad person. I can’t make friends. I can’t hold down the rare romantic relationships that I do have. I feel angry and sad all the time. I don’t want to do anything that I used to. I don’t have any goals, hopes, ambitions left. I’m a shell of who I used to be and I’m not getting the missing piece back again.
Therapy? No. Meditation? Please. Meds? Give me a break. The only thing that will work for me is a gun to my head and a “bang”, except I’m too scared to go through with it, even though I have nothing left. I’m alone, and I’m stuck here.
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that indicates medical anxiety?
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Today my partner and I celebrate six years together... ...and all I can think about is suicide. My partner is amazing. She's beautiful, smart, loving, funny, encouraging, and caring. I'm so lucky to have her. She really is just a genuinely wonderful person. Yet, BPD is just too much to handle. I really, really want to die. I just know it would kill her though. The only way for me to stop suffering is to create suffering for her. It's just so unfair.
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How might someone express their feelings of medical anxiety verbally?
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I don't feel like I can stand to be alive much longer. I waste all of my fucking time. I'll start a day off with goals but I never do any of it I just waste my entire day. I don't think I deserve to exist. I'm just a pathetic waste of space and nothing is getting better and I'm making no process in life. Every day I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to killing myself :( I just really hate being alive. I don't feel like I can stand it much longer.
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What would a person with medical anxiety say?
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Here's me setting a date for the third time. You know what they say...third time's the charm. Maybe this time I will successfully off myself.
I have set dates earlier for killing myself...one failed because an important exam fell on that date and another because of the lockdown due to virus. And I am really adamant on not failing this time. I am failing at so many times for so long. But I don't want this to go wrong.
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Can you give an example of a sentence spoken by someone with medical anxiety?
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I'm glad I'm not the only one... I'm going to kill myself tomorrow at about 2pm. I'm glad I'm not the only one who recognizes that the pain can be too great to handle. I have no future. I have no friends. After the big bang my kids and my wife will move on and I'll be an afterthought. I don't care about the pain I'll put them through. Why should I? I won't be around to watch.
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What would a person say to convey their medical anxiety?
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I hate myself I don't really know why I'm like this. I want to live you know, but I'm seriously unmotivated and I just want to disappear for like a long time I'm just too stressful. I feel like I'm a piece of trash that it doesn't deserve to live. There were many times that I wanted to kill myself, but I'm too coward and pitiful to do it. I would like to have a gun and do it quickly so not to die without suffering. The worst of all is that I'm affortunate, I had a lot of things, but I feel that it didn't satisfied me, the only thing that I like is to play videogames, but even I know that the satisfaction isn't too long and I got depressed again. I have attention deficit and it is a torture for me I don't do anything. I feel like I'm inferior than the other people, I feel like everyone else do the things they want, but me no and later ther goes my thoughts. I'm trash, stupid, worthless, I shuld die, I hate myself. A little mistake for me is just something that demostrate that I'm a piece of trash.
Sorry for the english, is not my maternal lenguage
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Can you provide a quote from someone dealing with medical anxiety?
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What kind of easy- acces pill (in México) can I mix with alcohol and what quantity do I take to die? So I've decide to end this thing and I need to know whats effective so I actually die and not just put into a coma or something.
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Can you give an example of what a person with medical anxiety might articulate?
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NOT FOR ME Suicidal friend Hey, this isn't your normal post on this sub. I'm posting on behalf of my friend: u/mia_on_mars .
They said that they didn't want to post here but they wouldn't care if I did it on their behalf. So here I am.
I talk to them every night and I'm getting worried. They are an amazing person but I'm so worried about them. I want them to live, they deserve to live.
It scares me, the fact that one day I could wake up and they'll be gone.
I'm scared, they'll probably read this post so act if you were talking to them. Please, I'm scared for them.
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Can you give an example of a sentence that reveals medical anxiety?
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Feeling suicidal idk might delete later if still alive I recently quit my two casual jobs because of anxiety and depression. It got so bad I couldn't function at work and couldn't sleep after a shift. I stopped going to church as well. I failed two classes in my degree TWICE and now have to take them again. Tbh I don't feel confident about passing them. I think I'll fail them again and drop out. I stopped getting counselling. I've quit everything. I have to force myself to sleep otherwise I could stay awake until I die. I can't study, I can't work, I can't socialise, I can't sleep, I can't exercise because of a bad ankle, I can't do any vocational or blue collar type work as I simply can't survive that environment. I want to die right now. I really want to permanently stop existing.
The only hope for me right now seems to be going to a mental hospital which is something I will absolutely never do. I think I'm going to die.
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Can you give an example of what someone anxious about their health might say?
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I don’t know why I still exist sometimes The only reason I’m still here is because of my girlfriend, the day I met her I had planned to jump in front of a train or a bus or just a large vehicle, but I saw her at an even involving multiple schools, I saw her from across the room and despite the fact that she was a complete stranger, she gave me hope, we have been together nearly 7 months now but there are still times where I feel like I should just disappear into nothingness, cut off all communication with everyone and just run of and hope that nature takes me out, or a truck in a freeway, or an animal, or just falling and no one hearing my cries for help, she is my world but there are still times where it feels like every one hates me, everyone but her, sometimes it feels like even she is sick of me, she always says she isn’t but I’ve had past relationships that shouldn’t have ever existed because the person never cared, I was a charity case, I was used as a popularity booster, I feel like I’ve been used my entire life, until I met her, she has given my til now worthless existence purpose.
I still feel like burying myself sometimes, there are so many ways I could where I live, but every time I do, I think of her, I look at photos of her, I think about how losing someone you love to suicide effected me, but it does get tempting.
I feel like I need help but I’m too much of a stubborn prick to go get it.
I hope everyone that reads this has a good night and day and rest of your life, I can’t promise things will get better but they can’t really get any worse, if anyone wants to talk feel free to comment on this or dm me and I’ll try my best to help and please remember, you are loved and I’m sorry to everyone who has been affected by suicide in anyway.
I apologise if I can’t make it, I’m trying, for me, for her, for us.
I’m really sorry for dragging this out, I can’t help this sort of thing.
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What is an example of a sentence that shows someone is experiencing medical anxiety?
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Another person's suicide stopped me from doing it (at least for a little while) For the past few months I've been 100 percent willing to off myself. I've alienated enough close friends to ensure that nobody would mourn my passing.
At least that's what I thought until about a month or so ago
Because that's when another student at my school ended her own life.
You really don't realise what impact your death will have on others until you see people breaking down and sobbing in the halls where her locker was.
It kind of messed me up a bit to see so many people who didn't initially seem that close to her burst into tears.
Maybe it would be a bit selfish for me to end it all.
I just wish it didn't take somebody else's death for me to consider this.
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What is a typical sentence said by someone experiencing medical anxiety?
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A 4th Time Around? As the tittle suggests I've been heavily considering my 4th attempt. Not for attention, self loathing, for lack of friends, or love; nothing that profound.
The first couple times I had simply gotten to a point of empty. As some put it, I was numb. I felt no joy, saddness, excitement, pain..even physical pain had ceased to registar in me. I was an empty shell walking throught the steps of getting help, medication, counciling, talking...but nobody could grasp that I truly and simply fealt nothing.
After the third attempt I decided to give myself time. As some say, it will pass. The only thing that passed was four years. And in that time I still fealt nothing. I watched my family and friends try to involve me, help me, love me, but I have simply remained uninterested.
I decided to stop. Stop causing them pain and frustration. Stop lying to them that their attempts make it better. Stop pretending to feel love, compassion, understanding, etc. The truth is that I feel nothing but curiosity for why they keep trying to "save" me. Is it an attachment to this body, is it from selfish desire to have me continue to be 'present', could it be that they really just cannot comprehend how terribly alone my consciousness is?
I haven't considered when or how. I know that some will say its because I am now pregnant and due to increased hormones, some will say I wanted attention, and some will simply be unable to justify it to themselves. The one thing I do know for certain, is that it would be unfair of me to have a child that I cannot love. I don't wish for it to wonder or feel ill toward it's self or me. It's father would love it but is himself a selfish child. I have had jobs, lovers, friendships, and have nothing to say about my life other then I -as has everyone else- tried my best.
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I am at my wits end I can’t take any of this anymore. I always feel so alone and isolated. No one would even care if I was gone. My life is falling apart. I just want it all to end. Everything gets worse and worse. I am done. I know how I’m going to do it and all. I am going tonight. This is my final good bye. If anyone can give me a good reason to stay I might but at this point it would have to be pretty fucking good. I have been abused my whole life and I will never be able to escape them without doing this
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I feel... Hollow I think the best way to describe what I'm going through right now is the word hollow. I'm not in pain, I'm not sad, I'm mad sometimes but only in short out bursts (mostly at myself). I'm barely excited about anything and the only thing that makes me really happy anymore (writing songs) which is the hardest thing for me too do because it means I need to dig up those emotions and use them.
I'm not really sure why I'm writing this now, I kinda just need to vent after two weeks of shit worthless exams that don't even matter because whatever grade I get it's meaningless if I'll never grow up
I've never being to a therapist so I'm not sure if I'm really depressed or just have the edge teen syndrome, I'm pretty sure I have something wrong with me since about 8 months ago I started having problems breathing and I almost passed out once because I couldn't get enough oxygen into my brain.
I guess I'm just looking for some answers:
What mental illness can cause a person lungs to not work correctly? (I've been to the doctor but he says my oxygen percentage in my blood is 98%, meaning I supposedly have nothing wrong with me)
Am I really just not "special" at all and we all go through this shit? Am I just an edgy teen or do I have something wrong with me and I need to get treatment
If my life goes nowhere and my only passion lies in the music industry which is almost impossible to break into than what's the point in living?
I'm sure this won't get much attention so if you took your time to read my shitty rant and have any answers for my questions than please reply. I've been struggling with those questions for a long time so I don't suppose y'all have the answers for them but it's still worth a try right?
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I dont know what to do anymore Im 28 years old and I feel my life is over.
I have no one to call.
No one that will care.
I just want to take all the pills I have at home and drink them down with alcohol or something.
Im messed up.
Im a failure.
I have a job, an appartment, two cats and a kinda broken family. No one else in my family works, so they can spend time together. I work fulltime and can never do that.
I used to have friends. And then I became such a burden to them that they all left me. The ones I kinda get closed to now I dont dare to become too close to them. They will just leave. I cant talk to them. They wouldnt care. And those I have now is on WoW exclusivly, so I havnt even met them. I wish I could. But it will not happen. Bullied at work as a nurse so dont have anyone from there either.
My life has been a mess. No contact with my dad since I was a kid. Raped when I was a teenager (havnt told anyone about it since after I told my ex and then he dumped me because of it). Been studying and working non-stop for years and nothing becomes better. I used to be positive, having dreams. I feel so freaking mental. I prob have a mental disorder or two. I wish I could see or notice if my friends cared.
Its feels like I´m drowing in lonliness. Im sitting here and got no one. I cant call anyone. I just wish I had one single person I could call or hang out with. Someone that could give me a hug.
I feel like I hit a wall. I tried to talk to my doctor about it. But she doesnt think I´m even depressed. So i dont know what to do. I´ve been trying to become happy for years. No.. For all my life. I have nothing else to give to this world.
I feel so unwanted. I wish my friends would notice me. I wish I had someone. I dont know why I even write here.
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How might someone articulate their medical anxiety?
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Goodbye world FUCK THIS SHIT IM FUCKING DONE SO FUCKING DONE IM KILLING MYSELF MY GODDAMN CAT THE ONLY REASON IM STILL ALIVE HATES ME NOW FUCK THIS LIFE IT ISNT FAIR IT ISNT FUCKING FAIR MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS WERE EXTREMELY ABUSIVE, THE MAJORITY OF MY ADOPTIVE FAMILY IS EXTREMELY ABUSIVE, I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO FRIENDS NO RELATIONSHIPS NOTHING THAT MAKES ME HAPPY I AM SEVERELY PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY BULLIED TO THE POINT WHERE I HAVE BECOME NUMB TO IT (BUT THE PHYSICAL BULLYING WAS ONLY IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL) I DONT WANT A FUNERAL BECAUSE MY EXISTENCE IS LITERALLY NOTHING I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE PLEASE JUST FUCKING KILL ME IF I GO INTO A COMA TAKE ME OFF LIFE SUPPORT OR STAB A FUCKING KNIFE THROUGH MY CHEST PLEASE LET ME DIE..
SAY GOODBYE TO ME AFTER THE SCHOOL YEAR IS DONE BITCH
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What might a person say to express their medical anxiety?
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Permenant damage? I tried to kill myself and crushed up 10x80mg
They were slow release tablets but I crushed them up and had 5 and another 5 a few hours later, didn’t pass out or anything spewed once or twice after about 10hours and 6 beers
I know I probably damaged my liver, but am I likely to have brain damage as well?
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Can you provide a quote from someone dealing with medical anxiety?
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Can't do this anymore I struggled with depression about 3-4 years ago. Since then, I'm less depressed, and I tend to be optimistic.
Recently I feel like I'm living a lie and forcing myself to be happy when I'm really not. I just can't do this anymore.
I have been disowned by over half my family. My mom, one of the few family members I know loves me, is sick and will die soon. I've been rejected by my top two dream colleges. My job sucks. My boyfriend of two years broke up with me. My only friend keeps telling me to smoke and drink.
I just can't do this anymore and I want to die. I've ruined all the important relationships in my life. So many people have removed me from their life. I feel like I can't be loved and I want to die.
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What might someone with medical anxiety say in a moment of distress?
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Why do people think that suicide is something for those who think they are a burden? For background: i continuously think about suicide.. ive half arse tried a fair few times.. and once woken up in hospital after a v serious attempt.
I’ve done inpatient time and always proactively spoke down with people and attempted to look myself
(note the health care system and bad doctors who have been flippant with meds haven’t helped)
What i don’t understand is this misconception that people who want to kill themselves feel like other will be better off without them?
I know I am destroying lives around me when I think about trying... are those who don’t understand just trying to justify it?
I honestly have a great life but I wake up every morning so exhausted I just want out.. the only thing that keeps me here (again) is the damage I would do
Can some help me reconcile this
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Can't tell if I'm actually suicidal or not So for the vast two years or so I've been really I guess "down" about a lot of things. Over the last year alone I've had a lot of problems mounting up, luckily debt isn't one of them I guess. Anyway, since about August, I've been been kind of waiting to die. I haven't actually attempted anything but it wouldn't take much. The last month I have been considering actually ending all. The thing is, I'm just too much of a pussy I guess. There are 3 main things that have saved me I guess.
1. I know that it would destroy my family.
2. The few friends I have would suffer
3. According to my beliefs, it would be a one-way ticket to hell.
Back to my original question, am I actually suicidal, or just an average person who is being a baby about things, feeling Sorry for myself? I'm not asking for counseling because I already have plenty. And I'm not asking for someone to call the hotline.
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How might someone articulate their medical anxiety?
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Fuck, honestly just fuck Decided to get better for the same dumb reason I didn't kill myself in July, because of a girl.
I started getting better and then my guidance counselor and then the social worker fucked me over.
I was starting to catch up on my missing work so I would no longer be failing my classes, although the pace has been a bit slow it's steady and picking up.
I've started feeling alright about myself after realising some things that I should've figured out sooner.
Now because of the social worker calling my mom she found out how I was failing and exaggerated what I said to her saying how I have a lot of trouble focusing I
in class, which I don't if I actually try.
I now have to deal with my mom yelling at me for literally everything, every single fucking thing. It is stressful as all hell, it really is. She practically threw a tantrum earlier and broke whatever was in her hand, yelling at me how there was something wrong with me and that I'm not just failing my classes. Yeah there are some things wrong but I cannot tell her a damn word, I'm fixing things on my own.
In short I don't fucking care about how hard everything is right now, I'm here to stay this time and not a damn person is changing that. Everything sucks but I'm going to make things better, I don't care how long it'll take and how hard it'll be.
Fuck it all to hell, I'm gonna keep going.
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This will be ignored like most and that's okay. I've posted here on different accounts before, I've posted everywhere honestly under multiple aliases, talking about how I'm ready and have been ready to let go. Maybe the issue is how disconnected these conversations are with strangers through pixels on a screen rather than something in person with someone you actually know and have memories with. I never had the worst upbringing, of course the perception I had on it was something different but over-exaggerating my experience hasn't gotten me anything. Emotional abuse is essentially the extent of my struggle as far as an early story goes. Regardless of whatever reasoning or backstory I have what makes me so ready to let go is the current, what I live every day. I turn 20 March 30th, But I'm hoping that like I said when I was 11, I won't ever have to see that day. I had every chance to make the most of a life, but the older and more cynical I grow I start to realize how pointless staying here in the first place is. If life is precious, if life is such a blessing, then I am no where near living. If that's the case I'm not sure the last time I could even say I DID live. Living with the disorders I do and trying to find a place in a real world, my attention can't stray from the truth of me not being worth the effort. I self medicate to try and escape but nothing is permanent and I wake up in the exact same situation driving me to the decisions I have settled on. March 1st, 2020. I wrote it in every notebook, I've carved it into trees and houses, and now its coming. I have 31 days to prepare myself, take care of anything I feel I need to, etc. Of course having a date and plan probably doesn't validate anything, if life was that hard or so difficult or if I was actually ready I would have done it by now, trust me I've heard it from everyone countless times. There's not even any significance or meaning behind the day, I just want to go in the same month I entered, it eases my mental on the situation, can't really explain it. At this point I'm rambling because I can't sort my thoughts or even the purpose of this post. I hope anyone out there that may read this and feels similar can find hope or love in anything to hold onto, and regardless if not, know I love you. You all deserve better than you have gotten.
Goodbye.
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How might someone with medical anxiety phrase their feelings?
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Klinefelter 18 years old Male My Name is John, im from Germany and i have klinefelter and social anxiety which means that i have an eunuchoid skinnyfat Body with narrow Frame plus an extrem small thin penis with which i NEVER want to have sex, i not even want to come into the SLIGHTEST contact with females because i get Panic attacks near them.
My masculinity was robbed by the feministic household where ive grown up. i HATE feminism and i do loathe western women in General because of their feministic behaviour.
My only Problem is that i have relatively strong sexual urges but through my klinefelters and social anxiety my chances at women are None existent (actually i dont even want to be attracted to western women cuz their behaviour is disgusting) so my sexual urges are making me crazy and extremly depressive, so much that im really considering to castrate myself that i can live a peacefully life in Isolation.
I just cant live this pathetic live anymore and i do think that governments should give like me the choice to voluntary castrate themselves.
The Situation in Germany has gotten now surreal, white guys are getting feminised, they are getting subordinated to sexism while our Immigrants can behave so sexistic they want and even get the most female Attention and care.
The teenage Scene in Germany has become totally islamized, german Girls are identifying themselves with their thuggish behaviour, they even speak now the in same broken slang like them. I dont even have to mention german Boys anymore because they gotten already evict. You only sees muslim Boys and german in teenage centres, while we german Boys are getting feminised.
It is an unbelieveable sick and surreal Situation at this time in Germany, leftism has gone crazy!
As a Young guy i dont want to live in such a world anymore. I just want to kill my urges and Needs for socialization and live in Isolation till i die, otherwise i just gonna kill myself.
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What is a sentence that reflects the thoughts of someone with medical anxiety?
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They say that I'll get through this, but I know there's nothing waiting for me on the other end. Everyone keeps saying that at some point I'll stop being depressed, but I can't imagine a tolerable future anymore. I don't want anything. I don't want a nice job, I don't want to find love, I don't particularly want anything out of life. I don't want life. Even if I personally were okay, the entire world is so fucked that I just don't want to be in it. I'm tired of trying to fix anything. I try to think of all the things I would want to stay alive for, even the most outlandish possibilities, and there's nothing. I just feel that the world is empty, and I don't understand how others can want to continue on.
I'm so sick of capitalism, I'm so sick of everything, and yet I can't even imagine personal things I'd want to live for. Even if the world were great and I could achieve my dreams, even those aren't too appealing anymore. It all just seems so empty. I climbed up a bridge tonight, but a car went by and I was so scared of having the cops called on me that I went back down. I wish I'd just kept climbing and jumped. I don't know where to go from here, my whole life is out of order. I've just been walking around outside for hours and hours every day. I don't want anything out of life, I just want it to end.
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Can you give an example of what someone anxious about their health might say?
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Hello guys. Need some help with my younger brother, encouraged him to open up.. He's 20 living in London "It's not money nor girls.. I haven't feeling like myself lately. I'm always overthinking, stressed and tired and nothing has made me genuinely happy for some time now. I feel bad everytime I miss out a family gathering or any events. I'm also always sad and angry at myself for being me and I just wish for it all to stop.. I've been having unhealthy thoughts and habits and I can't seem to stop it.. it is driving me insane that I can't improve myself even though I want to. I feel lost and out of place with family, work and friends. I'm usually alone in my room when everyone else's gone to work or somewhere. I can't talk to mum or dad about this because I am afraid of what they'll think of me, what they'll say to me and what they'll do.. I think I'm depressed too. I've been having panic attacks at work where I would cough until I threw up, I'm constantly feeling sick and out of breath.. I find myself not caring about anything anymore and just look into the mirror with lifeless eyes and just wish I could end it.. I want to change this mindset and be positive once again but unfortunately I don't see myself being like that in the future.
Sorry I just dumped all of this on you bro. I appreciate your concern. It's just been hard for me lately 😪"
Ive messaged him and talked to him.. I want to make sure he wont let go and shit. I live in leeds and its hard to look after him :(
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Can you provide an example of what someone with medical anxiety might say?
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'sUicIDe iS tHe eAsY wAy OUt' Is that supposed to deter me?
Why would I want to take the hard way? I'm TIRED of taking the hard way, that's literally why I'm suicidal in the first place.
Trying to make us feel bad for wanting to die really isn't helpful.
It just makes me feel like a terrible person for being weak which makes me want to die even more.
I really don't get some of these arguments...
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Everyone has a life to share on fb I dont. Im always gonna be depressed and have to prooof myself
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I'm scared of what's to come I'm a closeted atheist raised in a Muslim family living in a country where the leaking of that knowledge could lead to a situation that I don't want to think about.
The only person I've ever properly bonded with seems have disappeared without another word.
Sometimes when I get really low, I carve the things I hate about myself into my skin cause I'm a fucking idiot.
I have agoraphobia as well as a fear of women I don't know because of a history of bullying
I'm an absolute ditch in my father's income since I never do shit but use up thr electricity, water and eat his food.
My nephew adores me even though I'm a horrible example for him.
And to top it all off, I'm diagnosed with unipolar depression, anxiety, social anxiety and ADD.
The only reason I think I'm going on is cause I'm scared to fail and to be even more of a burden to them
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What could a person say if they are suffering from medical anxiety?
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Here for anyone If anyone is on the edge and just needs to vent or ask for advice, please reach out to me. I’ve definitely been there and can relate and I can try cheering y’all up with some jokes or just be a friend to anyone that needs one ♥️ Stay strong
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I'm this close to offing myself on IG live. I hate this world. More so I hate my fucking self man. I hate that I'm like this. I've been sober for 3 years. I don't want to get high I just want to die.
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How might a person express their medical anxiety in a statement?
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I really can’t anymore Today and many years before I’ve been called fat,ugly,dumb and anything imaginable that’s an insult. The other day I was slammed on to the ground for saying my opinions on this. I’ve been trying to lose weight and get some people that care but it seems that no one does. My mom calls me a disgrace to this family my dad just doesn’t care and my siblings hate me except for my older brother. I really do have feelings and everyone else does too but, since I’m a man I need to suck it up. I’m here because I need to vent, I’m just a kid who has no guidance and a couple friends that I’m too scared to share my feelings with, someone please give me some positivity in my life.
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What might a person say to express their medical anxiety?
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I can't keep going I can't keep living. I can't do this. It hurts in the pit of my stomach. I need someone to talk to, please. I have psychosis and I'm hallucinating. Everyone thinks I am crazy. Don't tell me to go to a hospital please. It doesn't help. I feel nothing anymore. I am so numb. I feel nothing. I can't do anything. I can't function. I'm starting to fail in school. I don't know what to do. I am all alone. I have no one. I have absolutely no one. My best friend who is like a brother to me called me today and I felt nothing. It's all numb. I want it to end. Death has got to be better than this. It has to be. I'm ready to just end it all.
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Can you provide an example of a sentence that someone with medical anxiety might say?
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I wish I got cancer instead of my mom English isn’t my first language so sorry for any mistakes.
About two years ago my mom got diagnosed with cancer. It was right after her dad died and I actually planned on killing myself around that time. Of course I put it off because I didn’t want to devastate my mom any further than she already was at the moment.
I couldn’t help but wish that I was the one who got cancer instead of her. She’s the strongest, kindest person I know and it’s not fucking fair for someone like her who’s done nothing wrong in her life to get sick like that. I spent countless nights since then thinking why it couldn’t have been me instead. If anyone in my family should suffer it should be me.
She’s cancer free now, thank goodness. And I know it’s selfish of me but because of this new development I feel slightly more sure in my plans on killing myself. I know it would ruin her but it’s better than me being alive and burdening my family.
I just want to stop existing. I love my mom but godammit I wish I’d never been born.
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