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You're welcome. |
Cut out the girls. |
I'm not sure. |
Yeah, I know that. |
Is it- does it really work? |
Prostate cancer, that didn't do it. |
-and I don't like lectures about it. |
Yeah, I'd like to. |
Yeah, it's-it's a bit of an inconvenience I'd say, but I'm here though. |
No, I don't think it's a problem at all. It's something I do to help me relax. In fact, I think it's something that is good for me, but— |
Yeah, yeah. Food on the run, you know? |
Okay, so I would do that. And then do you know, can I get all the 24 hours in in like a weekend or how does that work? |
-in my life, considering I have big plans for my future. So. |
Yeah, let's give it some thought. |
For me, that's happened to me once. It was the first time I ever drunk and it was- it was a lot, I didn't know what I was doing. I was mixing all kinds of weird things and just kind of taking anything everyone- anyone gave me |
Um, knowing that my schedule isn’t gonna be too crazy that day where I could spare an hour or so, and-and just go do it. |
I canceled my subscription to the spice channel. |
It's really frustrating because- |
Yeah, no, I-I always do that even if it's really hot or I wear just loads of layers and just 'cause otherwise I- I'll just be really sweaty and like, people would definitely be able to see, so. |
- and you've just finished your medical training. I wondered whether, you know, with new eyes and a new way of looking at-at the problem- |
Yeah. Well, I just, I don't feel comfortable talking to guys normally. [chuckles] |
Well, find the childcare resources- |
Um, I'm sick of feeling the way I do. I feel kinda sluggish. Especially with the winter coming, I think I want to have more energy. |
Um, definitely, I'll have like all my senses there and I'll be aware of everything that's going on. |
Yeah, just stupid little shit, yeah. |
Yeah, it just feels like everything's all over the place but I guess we got to start somewhere. |
Uh, yeah, I talked to her about it. We talked a little bit. Um, and she's not completely convinced. |
Maybe they were. |
Yeah, I know that she said I have to get so many hours in, but I don't- I don't know. I kind of was half-listening. |
You know? Even after a decent night's sleep, you know? |
Yeah, I mean, I guess it has. Probably just with being so stressed out every day, you know. I mean, I'm in my second semester of school right now, and so, adding that to everything, uh, it's a lot. And, you know, I'm trying to figure out child carry. Um, normally, my mom will watch my son, but, lately, she can't always. And so, I'm always kind of worrying like, will she be able to, you know. So, i-it's just stressful. |
Yes. And school learning in the classroom and outside of the classroom. Where I've been in different Native American communities, reservations, place I spent two months in the summertime really, uh, learning about the cultures is a beautiful place to be, there's a lot of wisdom. And, uh, fun, pleasure, fun, satisfaction- |
Oh and emphysema the beginning stages of emphysema. |
So, I'm like normal. |
Yeah. Hmm. |
Yeah, yeah, yeah. |
Yeah, I guess so. |
I just wanna get whatever I need to get done, done. |
Yeah, yeah. I definitely wanted to get away from something. I didn't know what too, but then I arrived here and found this thing that was like actually, this was obviously, fate or whatever was pulling me to this thing- |
Uh, just can't sit around home all day. I'd wanna go out and do something exciting. |
-I did burn for a time. |
I don't know. I got a short attention span or something. |
The drinking, the smoking and the dust that I got, the, um, the scratch test for. |
I'll have a word with him because I'm due down the club tonight. |
I know it's not good for him. I mean, I've read those things about ear infections and asthma and stuff and-and, uh, but other kids have ear infections and their parents don't smoke. |
Well, you understand that. |
Right. So, I know that I am a new guy, but, uh, they don't, you know, so I think society's a lot less forgiving. |
Okay, thanks. Sorry, I went off a bit. |
Uh, probably about three, four months ago. Um, yeah, just my clothes started fitting tighter, which wasn't as comfortable, and, um, yeah, just not really super happy with my appearance, which has never really been an issue, um, in my life up until now. I've usually been pretty okay with that, and then in the last three months, I just feel, um, like I've had a lot more of a negative outlook on it. |
And it has, but I don't do it as often, it's just sometimes. |
Well, and she- she's not going to throw me back into the hospital? |
Um, yeah, I mean, who doesn't? I mean, I'm aware that I'm over my, uh, uh, b-b-b-balance weight, but I now know that it's causing problems. I mean, obviously, I get out of breath if I have to do something a bit howering, and I realize that I'm on this blood pressure- |
-but now I'm starting to think about. |
Well, some of these kids are just so much more sophisticated than me so I guess when I party with them, I feel like I'm fitting in. I don't know how else to explain it. |
And the friends that I have like I know are my true friends, They're like ones that don't really 'cause drama or like— |
-as far as people going back- |
Um, you know, probably my biggest problem is just childcare. You know, my mom normally watches my son, but she's been kind of backing out lately. And so, I'm worrying, am I going to have to call into work today, am-am I going to have to miss class? You know, so, you know, worrying about that really stresses me out, you know. |
Things do not stay the same. Um, you know, like, you may be here, you're gonna go there, you're gonna go over there, not necessarily saying you're gonna fall down, but your view on life changes the more experience, the more life, every day- |
What, in about a month's time? |
You'd have to be a real fool not to do it- |
Well, I like to watch movies, read a book, and take a bath but sometimes I drink when I take a bath. |
And then there's the sophomores also that you have like another 1,000, so it's like— |
Yes, it is. |
-I think that I might try that. I think I might try, you know, from now on you know, uh, finding like a tactful way of asking, you know, I don't wanna be blunt about it and go you know, "Do you hire criminals?" or anything. |
Yeah. You don't really think about that. Well, just in the moment. |
-but I do mean it's a big ask. |
-what I can sense. I can't really make that a final say because he may feel something different. |
Snort it, always snort it. |
But that's- that's just like a- a social thing. That's something that my friends and I do. We-- We-- It's not habit or something that I have to have and, you know, talking about one or two when we go out for an evening. Not packs of them. |
Hard to tell 'cause I already had open-heart surgery. That didn't do it. |
Um, I don’t know. I think- I think the time has just been the biggest thing, you know, and-and I-I guess the motivation really hasn’t been there. I mean, you know, it’s not like- I don’t really have a goal. I don’t really have a, you know I don't, other than maybe reducing my waistline, you know, I don't really have a-a set number like I'm gonna run a marathon and you know. |
I just-- I'd love to be able to see them whenever I can, whenever I wanted to. |
Well, I mean that's something that's not difficult to do. |
I am probably a two. I-I haven't even thought about quitting and until this great announcement at work today, I- I'm totally not gonna quit smoking. |
That's the same as always. Same as always. |
I don't know. I-I'd like some help. I just don't know what kind of help I need. |
And maybe I don't know if-if that's like something that you'd be, you know, willing to do with me is to- help me set a date. |
-"I'm gonna prepare a meal." |
I've been getting blamed ever since like fifth or sixth grade about with every single thing that's going on. |
Yes. Yeah. Um, then, and but also service, that's third because I really do enjoy helping other people. Being there for other people, you know, and-and if it puts myself out. Like I have my brother, his-his daughter, and his granddaughter they come over and, uh, I slept on-on the air mattress and, uh, me with my mother and my dad and my sis-- my-- his daughter in the other spare room that I have. |
Yeah, yeah. Um, at least, that's what I think. I mean I don't know if you're telling me that I should be more active or my GP is saying I should be more active. |
That's the thing, isn't it? I am-- I don't know if it's the best place for me to be if I'm gonna make those changes. |
-and like called down to the principal's office. |
The baby was up all night and I'm exhausted. |
-I suppose I'm here for a reason. [chuckles] |
Friendship, um, I've-I've grown close to many people that I care about. So, I would like them to be accepting of me as well. |
Because of what-- Yeah, I guess, I think that's what I mean, yeah, yeah. Because you know, I mean- I mean I could have stayed, I could have got, I could have got absolutely hammered and I could have done it every night for the rest of the week. |
Yeah, yeah. Passed around and everything. |
So you just wanna know my business? |
Well, she's concerned about my health and she cuts out all these articles from the paper about second-hand smoke and— |
Okay, good. |
Oh no, just stupid stuff. Just when she like-- she has to go to work and stuff, so I have to keep myself busy. |
Uh, I suppose when you've got no money in the pocket at the end of the night. |
Yeah. Some people have a glass of wine. I have a cigarette. |
Yeah, God, I don't think I could. |
Well, I feel fine, but the-the doc said it could save my life. |
Um, six or seven. |
Um, well, it surprises me that that's based on research from out of 2011, um, and I must have missed that. I guess, you know, if it is, um, you know, I do wanna do what's best for my baby and for myself. And if I have to quit drinking, um, I guess ultimately I have to-I make that decision, um, but, um, that's a lot of, uh, information to take in today. |
Definitely. |
Um, I don't really want to go there. I just-- that sort of stuff just weirds me out. Yeah, I take something fun and just makes it really medical. |
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