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getting depressed -> cutting to feel better -> mom get disappointed/angry -> felling worst -> wanting to kms -> mom gets depressed by it -> gets depressed -> etc | 4 |
I’d like to reach out to people for help but I’ve never been able to do that; I feel like I have a mental barrier and just can’t get past it to better myself | 4 |
I kinda think about it a lot more than I should but would things be the same? Would people miss me? Would people just be like whatever he's gone how would they go about life knowing they'll never see hear or talk to me again ? | 4 |
My life has always been sitting behind a screen watching people enjoy life and thinking to myself that once I get a bit older the family problems would be gone and the coast would be clear but I was dead wrong | 4 |
So my school’s currently on “winter” break so everyone went back home and I’m sitting alone in my room, extremely lonely and scared | 4 |
i was crying front of her with anger I said that i wish i die she said ok die lol hahahaha i use to think that parents are everything nah nah may be these two could be a people who can destroy your life well may be one day that one person come and he’ll change your life | 4 |
I feel very alone around the holidays and try to make an effort to be with people because if I don't then I start a pattern of self-deprecation and self-hate and thoughts of suicide start to creep in | 4 |
I’m doomed to mediocrity and loneliness | 4 |
My sister died of an overdose when I was 13, then my father passed away when I was 16 | 4 |
My dad has ALS, my mom is stressed out to the max taking care of a husband who is a selfish unappreciative jack wagon | 4 |
I feel lonely and unloved, how do you guys feel loved in a time of need | 4 |
My girlfriend and I went though a rough break up, I got extremely drunk and my best friend is mad at me | 4 |
Last week I got a new phone (Pixel 4, is vewy noice), and as I was setting it up, I realized that outside of family, I had no contacts to add | 4 |
I want to socialize and build relationships to strengthen my life's meaning, but this is really, REALLY fucking hard | 4 |
It's a crippling loneliness | 4 |
That's how I got isolated | 4 |
I love fictional girls though, but not in a romantic fashion | 4 |
I guess I've just lost confidence after this girl I put so much into sort of rejected me without asking her to go out (friend zoned me and has really sloppy replies now when I can see she is replying to others) | 4 |
I'm a lonely person but right now I don't have any friends or at least anyone I hang out with or talk to on a regular basis | 4 |
Don't look here if you want to get better, it's just a place for loners to feel lonelier | 4 |
5 years now, I feel void | 4 |
Anywho, my birthday is tomorrow and my family usually doesn't make a big deal about it, but since i'm turning 41 my "dad" seems adamant about taking me to some bar to get me drunk which I'm not too thrilled about, but he'll probably throw a fit if I say no | 4 |
Which in return has caused me to lose a lot of relationships and trust for people | 4 |
My best friend hasn't talked to me since I moved out from where she lives | 4 |
I can't tell anyone about how I feel, my friends abandoned me and nobody gives a crap about my feelings | 4 |
I have supportive parents which I'm grateful for, and a few friends but I'm feeling an extremely strong urge to isolate myself completely | 4 |
Occasionally someone moe extroverted will make friends with me but it always ends with them taking advantage of my kindness so i have to drop them from my life | 4 |
I never want to leave my room, talk to anyone, or do anything because it all requires unreal pain and effort | 4 |
I really want a long hug, not just a quick one to say hello or goodbye | 4 |
Ive never felt so alone | 4 |
Hi everyone! So I realized my depression is better at home, when I can be with my dogs | 4 |
I rarely answer texts and if i'm invited to go out, i either don't respond or make up an excuse | 4 |
she didn’t tell me she was stressed or how she was feeling and she broke up with me while i had no idea what the fuck was going on | 4 |
I need someone to relate to | 4 |
I don’t think I’ll ever actually do anything to end my life for a few simple reasons — my brother hung himself 4 years ago and I know how hard it was on me, my dad would be lost without me, and honestly because I have stuff in my room I wouldn’t want my parents to have to see or find (stupid I k... | 4 |
I fucking hate that woman who calls herself my mother | 4 |
I have 3 friends | 4 |
The only things now that keeps me going is seeing my mum so determine to be happy or try to be happy | 4 |
My mom has a really rare type of cancer, my dad abandoned us when I was 1 year old, so I don't know anything about him | 4 |
My relationship was toxic as it felt as though I was the only one trying as I clinged onto the thoughts that she would be the one who help me to get out of depression | 4 |
I got biasd when I was 7 and I thought it could only get better now everyone either laughs at me and says I’m ugly and a disappointment even my parents say that | 5 |
I know there's no after life and even if there was I would be fine in hell I would actually prefer it there | 2 |
My psychologist also believes I have borderline personality disorder | 5 |
Before I just feel down for a week or two and it go away but now I'm having random crying attacks for fuck all I know everything feels muted and I just don't have the motivation to care about anything to much | 2 |
I was angry and anxious all the time and I put her through so much | 5 |
I fucking ruined one of the best things that happened to me | 5 |
I think I get misinterpreted a lot | 5 |
If I'm not smart I'm not worthy of living | 2 |
I've been absolutely miserable and unwanting to do anything in the past week | 2 |
Do I smile :D :Do I exist :Does it hurt :Do I keep going ;Do anything :d on't I just die | 2 |
Tonight is the night my ego will die | 2 |
I feel so fucking useless I feel so awful fuck new years fuck it fuck it fuck it | 2 |
I also just want someone to hug the entire night platonically, but have no one to do so with, and I feel numb when it comes to sadness, like I can't cry or anything or if I do, its just a few tears and I have no clue why | 5 |
Cruelty can be administered through rejecting someone, but by ignoring them you take away their worth | 5 |
And i got home and the voices returned and kept telling me i was piece of shit | 5 |
I get stressed anxious and sad at the same time | 5 |
I’ve been feeling pretty lost lately, lack of motivation, all my work gets put off until the very last minute then I cram it in | 2 |
I'm so fucking tired of being treated like shit | 5 |
At my worst, I feel like I want to fight or insult others, which is obviously not the way to go | 2 |
It feels like I’m in a different realm/world now because of mental illness which is primarily depression and dissociation | 2 |
Why should I ever leave my house? Work is not a suitable answer because I dont have to and will rather throw myself off a high building before I have to do that again | 2 |
I don't know why but I swell with anxiety everytime I think of the future, I feel cold and alone, I really just want it to end and I just can't see any alternative | 5 |
I have so much thoughts built up Inside me but there’s no one I can trust who won’t judge or complain about what I have to say and every time I hold this stuff in I end up having a big breakdown but if I tell someone I usually regret it | 5 |
I don't have any patience to sit on a chair for 8 hours every day just listening to an annoying teacher and maybe some times going to the board to get made fun of when I can't do an exercise, I get really angry, anxious, and frustrated | 5 |
I don't remember being scared or sad or numb or even considering something stupid like this | 5 |
I have no one, Fucked up my future, disappointed my parents and family (many times), I'm useless and all I do is, is to waste space | 2 |
I honestly am happy for them but when I stew over it for a while and just feel bad about my own situation | 5 |
Yes, be considerate of your boyfriend, who cares about ugly useless me | 2 |
I can't tell them that I'm broken inside | 2 |
i’m a coward | 5 |
Sometimes I just feel I am losing my mind, too poor for medical help or anykind of help talking with others doesnt work | 5 |
I'm a 15 year old kid, I've been putting up with lots of verbal and emotional abuse from my parents, just got screamed at again | 5 |
There was no hope, I was just delusional | 2 |
So like many of us, I've suffered from anxiety and depression for my entire adult life | 5 |
Thoughts of suicide and all of my past failures and embarrassing moments no matter how small, are all huge and I feel as if everyone Either hates me, takes advantage of me for what little intelligence is left, or is just friends with me out of pity or to bully me and belittle me | 5 |
Just makes me feel stupid | 2 |
Worst of all, I fell like I seriously disrespected the people I avoided and missed a once in a lifetime chance to know them better | 5 |
New Year's Eve drank myself unconscious and now I'm back to my depressed self and self harming again | 2 |
Those who have been unfortunately mentally wired wrong and those who have experienced some awful trauma or emotional pain | 5 |
Ive been struggling with depression for the last 4 years and i dont want to keep living but i dont want to die i feel very alone and sad every day and it feels like theres only one way out | 2 |
It hurts and it ruins your head it's either suicide or find salvation in that person | 2 |
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I feel like my brother and sister would be too emotionally damaged or traumatised if I did it, and I don't want to cause any more pain to anyone anymore | 5 |
I've been sleeping more and waking up later than I have been for the last few months | 5 |
I just feel empty | 2 |
I’ve been trying to be a happy medium for weeks and it’s all turned to shit | 2 |
I feel so stupid for feeling like this, I’m lucky enough to (it appears so far) gotten past the darkness that defined my teens and early adulthood, and I have this sick lust to feel it again? It also come with this constant creeping fear that this ‘ok’ness I’m feeling now is a facade, that soon ... | 5 |
Guys n girls, I think it's time for me to pass on to the next life/afterlife/darkness/otherside, or whatever you wanna call it | 2 |
The first few times hurt my ego but I recovered | 2 |
It makes eating out really unpleasant too | 5 |
I feel cold when I look at people, and I feel nothing towards the things that used to bring me such joy | 5 |
And it's just a feeling of utter hopelessness | 2 |
I feel like I'll just constantly have bad luck in life | 2 |
I can't get motivated to do what I need to do at work, and when I do, I have terrible anxiety that I'm going to fuck something up and get fired | 2 |
Has some of you ever sometimes or all the times tell yourself that "I hate myself" like it just comes out out of nowhere? Or "I want to die" | 2 |
I don't want to feel anxious anymore | 5 |
Whenever I start dreaming up serious ways of killing myself I get tingly all over | 5 |
Even if I should be feeling proud of myself and all it just feels weird to feel happy | 5 |
Which makes me feel worse and more worthless, and I'd rather be gone than do another year of this, I don't see my life getting much better | 2 |
Any sense of community or responsibility is gone I can read a book, play video games or something but eventually I realize it's just mindless escapism and I feel bad about spending so much time on it | 5 |
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