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+I find it really hard to sleep Sorry for the vague title, I just really don't know how to explain this but I'll try to. I 16F don't have a very good sleep schedule since I've been on holidays and it should be obvious that I'll have problems sleeping. However, even when I'm tired and my eyes are sore i don't want to sleep. I really hate and love to sleep, hating it in that it's just a big gap of time that I miss, I close my eyes for however long it takes to black out, and then I wake up. I dont dream while I sleep, or at least I don't seem to. I guess it does freak me out a bit that I'm not doing anything in that time, but it's not like I really do anything other than reading or drawing. I love for the obvious reason, it's sleep. At the moment, it's half past and I'm constantly in my head telling myself I need to sleep, as I'm lying on my bed reading a comic but I just can't make myself do it. Sometimes it will take me two hours of tossing and turning trying to sleep before I end up asleep. When I was younger I also used to have problems sleeping, and my parents tried different things like sprays, teas obviously not caffeinated they were supposed to make you tired before bed and once they tried a medicine I think that stayed under my tongue. All of these were safe and ok to use for children, my parents only tried using these on me because the lack of sleep was making it hard for me at school. It seemed to calm down for a couple of years but maybe it didn't actually, since I didn't really care about my sleep until now, since I'm starting senior in high school and want to do my best. It could be stress, since I had a very hurtful incident concerning my friend group towards the end of the year, and starting this year, I have to be around the people involved again. I told my mum about my troubles sleeping a couple days ago and she just nodded and told me "yeah it sucks doesn't it?" I was trying to ask her for help on what to do but she didn't help me at all and I have no idea what to do at all. The lack of sleep is also starting to affect my attitude at home since I'm much more snappy and rude to my parents, which I hate because as soon as I say something mean I instantly regret it since I don't mean it and then I'm too scared to apologise. At school during lunch I'm too tired to talk to my friends, and since I don't share any classes with them anymore I don't really get to talk to them much. if I wanted to just lay down and sleep right now I probably could but I can't and I'm really freaked out because I really want to I'm sorry if I sound really dumb posting this I'm just really tired and I don't know what to do. I'm so anxious about this I want to cry, is there something I should be doing? Am I missing something? I'm never really on reddit so I'm not too sure what to do, or if I'm doing this right so please tell me if I've done something wrong
+That's definitely my plan after reading all the advice from the comments given to me and I really appreciate it all, thank you
+thank you, after reading the comments I definitely realised I probably need to talk to her in some way, because her way of shutting down and pushing away what I had been talking about because it was just a hetero story definitely hurt me and shouldn't let it explode if bottle it up. I can definitely see others getting bored of the stuff I like easily because of how it is so thank you again
+I'll definitely think of trying that, I do have a hard time doing stuff like that but it's probably necessary also thanks for that point of view, I didn't really consider it because I always try and single out the stuff she enjoys most and thats different so I didn't see that she definitely didn't see what I was seeing
+I'm really hoping that's not the case because she seems to actually be really supportive of me and the others but thank you
+Oh ok I'm sorry I didn't use the word in any way to offend it was just the closest word I thought conveyed what seemed to be a hate towards heterosexuals for no particular reason
+How to feel and tell the difference between emotions and what is right and wrong