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[3766.42 --> 3767.74] the other side of this,
[3767.80 --> 3768.56] the other truth here
[3768.56 --> 3769.90] is that we don't actually
[3769.90 --> 3770.86] need these people
[3770.86 --> 3771.46] to do that.
[3772.84 --> 3773.10] Right?
[3773.14 --> 3774.64] We don't need people
[3774.64 --> 3777.28] or even Satan,
[3777.58 --> 3778.94] the tempter to do this,
[3779.02 --> 3780.00] the deceiver to do this,
[3780.00 --> 3781.22] because most of us
[3781.22 --> 3781.76] are pretty good
[3781.76 --> 3782.72] at doing this on our own.
[3782.72 --> 3784.90] And that's the other side.
[3784.96 --> 3785.76] We've got external
[3785.76 --> 3787.24] temptations and forces
[3787.24 --> 3788.28] and internal
[3788.28 --> 3789.84] temptations and forces.
[3790.24 --> 3791.62] We are quite capable
[3791.62 --> 3792.58] on our own
[3792.58 --> 3793.70] of being our own
[3793.70 --> 3795.14] challenge to remembering
[3795.14 --> 3796.20] meanwhile.
[3797.62 --> 3799.42] Even when everything
[3799.42 --> 3802.44] is going against us,
[3803.30 --> 3805.02] when it seems like life
[3805.02 --> 3806.24] can't get any harder,
[3807.20 --> 3808.92] when we read in Scripture
[3808.92 --> 3810.26] when weeping lasts
[3810.26 --> 3810.88] for the night
[3810.88 --> 3811.92] but then also
[3811.92 --> 3812.66] for the next night,
[3813.14 --> 3813.82] and then again
[3813.82 --> 3814.58] for the next night,
[3814.90 --> 3816.00] and for the next night,
[3816.48 --> 3818.02] when all we seem to know
[3818.02 --> 3818.96] are our tears
[3818.96 --> 3819.74] and our tears have been
[3819.74 --> 3820.98] our food day and night,
[3821.14 --> 3822.92] when joy never seems to come,
[3823.08 --> 3823.86] in those moments
[3823.86 --> 3825.14] it can be so easy
[3825.14 --> 3826.98] to forget the promises of God.
[3827.32 --> 3828.30] And in those moments
[3828.30 --> 3829.14] it can be so easy
[3829.14 --> 3830.20] to tell ourselves
[3830.20 --> 3831.92] that God is against us,
[3832.00 --> 3833.60] that the world is against us,
[3833.64 --> 3834.62] that the universe
[3834.62 --> 3835.68] has it in for us,
[3835.76 --> 3837.56] that nobody cares about me.
[3837.56 --> 3840.18] And in those moments,
[3840.30 --> 3840.48] right,
[3840.52 --> 3841.14] all of a sudden
[3841.14 --> 3844.60] every little slight
[3844.60 --> 3846.08] becomes huge.
[3846.98 --> 3848.74] Every misspoken word
[3848.74 --> 3850.96] becomes a personal attack.
[3851.52 --> 3853.14] Every forgotten moment
[3853.14 --> 3854.62] erases our identity.
[3855.18 --> 3856.48] Every missed opportunity
[3856.48 --> 3857.12] to say,
[3857.28 --> 3857.88] I love you,
[3857.94 --> 3858.98] becomes a reason
[3858.98 --> 3860.38] to think I'm not lovable.
[3860.38 --> 3861.42] Right,
[3861.42 --> 3863.30] this is how our hearts
[3863.30 --> 3864.14] and our minds work.
[3864.88 --> 3865.88] We're overwhelmed
[3865.88 --> 3867.08] by the present,
[3867.86 --> 3869.02] and it makes it impossible
[3869.02 --> 3871.00] to see beyond our pain
[3871.00 --> 3872.20] and our suffering.
[3872.20 --> 3876.62] This week I had a chance
[3876.62 --> 3878.66] to re-read
[3878.66 --> 3880.74] C.S. Lewis' book
[3880.74 --> 3882.06] A Grief Observed.
[3882.12 --> 3882.96] It's just a short little
[3882.96 --> 3884.12] memoir
[3884.12 --> 3885.86] after the death
[3885.86 --> 3886.72] of his wife.
[3887.92 --> 3889.02] I want to share with you
[3889.02 --> 3890.66] a portion of that.
[3891.28 --> 3892.26] It's a bit of a longer quote,
[3892.40 --> 3893.42] but it'll be on the screen
[3893.42 --> 3895.96] because I think it captures
[3895.96 --> 3897.58] exactly what we're
[3897.58 --> 3898.36] talking about here.
[3900.54 --> 3901.28] He says,
[3901.28 --> 3903.32] Meanwhile,
[3904.28 --> 3907.32] where is God?
[3909.08 --> 3910.74] This is one of the most
[3910.74 --> 3912.56] disquieting symptoms.
[3913.56 --> 3914.72] When you are happy,
[3914.92 --> 3916.08] so happy that you have
[3916.08 --> 3917.20] no sense of needing him,
[3917.42 --> 3918.48] so happy that you are
[3918.48 --> 3919.86] tempted to feel his claims
[3919.86 --> 3921.18] upon you as an interruption,
[3921.56 --> 3922.94] if you remember yourself