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I’m so sick of people I’m close with pretending to care and pretend that they would be there because every single time I need someone to talk to they just ignore me but when they need shit from me then all of sudden I exist again I’m so tired of it and everyone wonders why I’m in so deep and bad with this wave of depre... | 2 |
Sometimes when I think about what happened too much ( I normally think about it at night because that’s often a time where I’m alone with my thoughts or might be trying to sleep in less clothing etc ) it’s almost like I can feel him touching me. Like his hand between me legs or something and I try to ignore it because ... | 3 |
I can’t shake off the anxiety...it’s constantly there and I get anxiety attacks more and more often. I can’t resist my compulsions anymore and I’m so tired of fighting something that’s stronger than I am...I’m seeing my psychiatrist today and I legit don’t know what to say as I’m not feeling any better | 1 |
**Not super related to depression, but I haven't been able to find any good answers elsewhere.**
I'm quite a self-loathing person. I can be very hard on myself and often my brain tells me I'm not good enough, kind of like a little voice on my head that tells me every now and then that I'm worthless and I'll never get ... | 2 |
I am currently 15 in high school, diagnosed (more inactive than active, but experience both sides) 3-4 years ago with a very high IQ, as that seems to be frequent, especially as I was a kid that knew way too much about everything. Recently I have been medicated (Adderall after Concerta did absolutely nothing) and the ... | 0 |
Last week I was told I have PTSD. Besides the ADD/ADHD, anxiety and depression, my psychiatrist said I have PTSD. It was almost an obvious statement to me. I knew I had something like that.
Then it hit me when she told me. The last year or 2, I realized I had the symptoms. Kinda expected it but it hit hard when I was... | 3 |
I ve been visiting a psychiatrist about 4,5 years because I diagnosed with depression, anxiety issues, bulimia but the last 8 months I diagnosed with ocd too and I’m very sad and anxious that I can’t deal with it… my doctor proposed to change doctor to get second opinion about the pills…
I had two meetings with the ne... | 2 |
I’m not even sure where to begin but I’m so terrified right now I don’t know what to do. For background, I was raped by my ex partner ten years ago. Following this, I was subject to not so much stalking as intimidation to stay silent and was called a liar and mocked. This has continued on and off since then. Recently h... | 3 |
I just realized I wouldn't have depression if it weren't for other people being so awful.
I don't mean my parents or family. I mean random strangers. Kids at school bullying me as a kid, teachers being racist. I internalized it as something wrong with me. In truth, they were just shitty.
Today I had planned out my ... | 2 |
this year has been rough, despite covid i’ve been through more downs than ups. i lost my job, gained it back and then got let go because of budget cuts, i had a falling out with one of my best friends since highschool realising he was never my friend, almost lost my brother to jail, got contacted and abandoned by my fa... | 2 |
I’m fairly recently diagnosed (just over 2 months ago) so I’m still figuring out meds and stuff. I’ve been on 70mg vyvanse for about 6 weeks now, and just started guanfacine 2 days ago as well.
I’m just coming out of a REALLY bad two weeks of depression, binge eating, smoking, not cleaning, haven’t changed my sheets o... | 0 |
i had a very mentally and sexually abusive ex boyfriend 5ish years ago. just this past year i’ve realized it was abuse and it’s caused a lot of feeling to come up. i’ve only recently told my closest friends. i’ve been in therapy before but just started again this month. i’ve never talked to a therapist about this traum... | 3 |
I have a follow up doctor appointment November 12th. The other day I overdosed on my adderall by one dose to increase the effectiveness of my medicine. The effects were helpful. My guilty conscience got the best of me and told my doctor what happened. He spoke to me on the phone and said to me at the end to bring my me... | 0 |
It’s making me loose my fucking mind because they act differently around others compared to me. | 3 |
I find it hard to tell whether life is to be created anew by anyone experiencing it or is it just an aspie thing.
Feel free to interpret as You wish. | 3 |
In fact, not only it's acceptable, it's the norm.
"Not being able to go up and down stairs in a wheelchair is just an excuse."
"If you really want to go up stairs you'd try harder. I'm sure you can do it."
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That's literally our reality. It's just the wheelchair in our cases are our brains and people can't se... | 0 |
I use it pretty often or when I have to. it just makes things so much easier. if I ever anciently say something cringey, weird or awkward I'll just clarify that I have autism.
if you're putting in the effort you shouldn't feel bad about using it if you mess up socially a couple of times. it's better than people just... | 3 |
I’ve had this problem since I was like 14. Staying over at friends’ places was really hard and sometimes I wouldn’t even be able to sleep. Right now I’m staying in a guest house in a small town somewhere super far from where I live. Everything just feels so unfamiliar and I feel so unsafe. It sucks especially because I... | 3 |
Hi, I'm 21 years old. I'm suffering OCD since I was a kid, but year after year it gets worse. Since I finished high school, OCD and fear started to be important in my life. First, fear of sleeping or not sleeping, then my worse enemy, BREATHING OCD. Begun in May 2019, it's a long story. After 1 year of struggles, in Ju... | 1 |
Is anyone else want to end themselves, and only thing stoping them, is the fact that they only child. I wish I have siblings. | 2 |
Felt sort of melancholy tonight, so I decide to go and get a snail from outside and give it some lettuce (I absolutely adore snails) and watch it enjoy a snack. I had an intrusive thought about catching something from the snail. I know that I probably shouldn’t of, and I battled with the urge for awhile, I eventually g... | 1 |
I'm assuming that's not normal? :)
For real though, hoping for a judgement-free zone here, but I met a woman in real life about 11 years ago. I'm just being honest, she was the best looking person I've actually met. We exchanged numbers and she ended up flaking on ever going out.
She's an actor so she's got a pretty ... | 1 |
Heya all,
So I just started finally seeing a therapist and learning I have Asperger's. But I had the most bizarre experience in the therapist's office, it's hard to explain and I've never felt that way in decades, back when I was a child or young teen. I couldn't "mask". It just didn't happen, I couldn't figure out ho... | 3 |
At 35 years old I now know for sure that my marriage and life struggles are largely due to being on the spectrum. It's a good feeling to have some closure and be able to move forward in life with this context. I have enjoyed this community for awhile and now I feel able to confidently discuss ASD life as a diagnosed me... | 3 |
So for some reason I really struggle with coincidences. For example, I used to work with someone who moved quite far away and then I saw them in a store near me after quite some time, then the next day, I’m pretty sure I saw the same person again.
Or another example was that I saw someone on Instagram that is connecte... | 1 |
I have aspergers and when I told my a girl I am now seeing about it she accepted it well. She went home and did a little bit of research and from the 3 articles she read she figured out we mask and sometimes mimic who we are around. She is worried she is just liking herself not actually me.
She asked me if I do any of... | 3 |
Hey guys. I’m currently on 37.5mg clomipramine and 300mg wellbutrin (pure o) My ocd has gotten out of hand so my psychiatrist recommended I increase to 50mg. Just wondering if anyone has experience increasing this amount. I’m a pretty small and petite person so when I increase a dosage my body feels it and the side eff... | 1 |
Recently I’ve been trying harder than normal to put myself out there and try to find a relationship. I have NT friends that I see all the time either getting married or with a girlfriend all the time. It makes me a little insecure obviously to be the one in the group who struggles (well duh). Do any of you use dating a... | 3 |
Hi guys, I'm a self diagnosed teen and I have done loads of research and took the aspie quiz (I got 41/50) and I felt a bit lost as my parents do not know. I was a premature (45 days early) and teachers always call me "gifted" or "intellectual" what should I do? | 3 |
Where does ocd end and I begin? This is eating me up inside and there’s nothing I can do about it. It’s a special feeling and I’m sure someone else has gone through it. I really can’t do anything about it.
You don’t have to tell me the details but I feel so alone right now. I was on top of the mountain and in an inst... | 1 |
I was even afraid typing this out might cause it to come true 😭. This was like my 5th attempt typing this that I didn’t close the window. | 1 |
Hey everyone. I'm looking to get out of the part-time restaurant work as a busser and am looking to see what types of jobs that may interest me. I'm having a difficult time finding motivation to search but decided to take action to the internet to see what others could suggest.
I'm a 20 year old male and looking for a... | 3 |
Just to preface I'd like to say I respect everyone's opinion and I hope to offend no one with what I'm about to say, if you are going to try to change my opinion on monogamy and boundaries, please don't.
For the past 3.5 months, I've had a cuckold OCD episode and I feel like all my boundaries in terms of relationship ... | 1 |
Does anybody have an unpleasant/unwanted event stuck in their mind and you cannot remove it from your mind? | 1 |
Majority of the time when I start thinking about it too intensely, I get so frustrated to the point that I don't know what else to do other than hurt myself. I've tried like drawing my feelings out or just drawing in general but it always comes back to the same thing. I'm not really sure how to deal with it or if I rea... | 3 |
I know how much my OCD tears me apart so I get so paranoid that it’s going to happen again and i’m going to have to put my life on pause. This always happens during important parts in my life where I need to be happy. For example, on my birthday. Because I knew I wanted to be happy on my birthday the night before I tho... | 1 |
I write this after a very very long night. Yesterday I ate something that made me sick, I’m not sure what it was. The worst part is that somehow that excruciating pain brought back memories from when I was abuse at 8yo and again when I was 26yo, that last time was in a hospital, the nurse sedated me and took me to the ... | 3 |
I have a few questions:
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1. How do you experience the contact with people with ASS / autism / aspergers in real life? (If you have any)
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2. Do you feel like you immediatly get eachother our does it still feel awkward like with some NT people?
3. Do you feel like you can recognize autism / ASS in o... | 3 |
Hello friendly community. I was recently diagnosed with inattentive ADHD at the age of 28. Honestly, it makes a lot of sense and I do not disagree with the diagnosis. I'm very thankful for my wife encouraging me to go see a doctor.
My question for you people is this:
How do I not let my diagnosis define me? Sometime... | 0 |
So, I've been treating OCD with this doc for a while now and I never missed an appointment. I don't even arrive late for them because I feel like it'd be inconsiderate on my part. This month, I had an emergency at one of my jobs and had to cancel when they called me asking if they could confirm my appointment for the n... | 1 |
So there's embarrassing pictures of me on facebook on someone's facebook. I dont necessarily mean embarrassing i mean just bad pics i dont like. I do notice when i unfriend the account i can no longer see the photos, but when i friend the account i can see the photos once again. This should be enough evidence the photo... | 1 |
I know I am not the center of the universe, but the universe feels like it is suffocating me to the point where I cannot breathe. My depression is overwhelming me to the point where it is shooting my anxiety in all directions. I cannot concentrate. I woke up this morning crying erratically and had thoughts to end it... | 3 |
How many times do i have to explain, to uneducated people what aspergers or autism is, I feel that I need to carry a leaflet around to give them information, the only people that I don't need to explain to is other aspies and millennials.
Do any of you have the same problem? | 3 |
Hello, everyone working and studying from home! I just want to survey about the characteristics you would like to see in a desk and chair that will absolutely be helpful to people with ADHD.
I, myself, am exhibiting similar symptoms of AHDH. However, I still haven't gotten myself checked. So I want to hear the thought... | 0 |
Hi there -
I want to state right now, I do not suffer from PTSD. I do have depression, but as the child of a PTSD parent - there’s a distinct difference.
My husband has pretty significant PTSD along with TBI from both, his childhood, and his time as a combat veteran. And in sum, the resources he has tried to use ha... | 3 |
first thing and primarily thing, i don't think i have the capacity to be a good person. i've done some terrible shit. i'm unforgivable for it. i know that.
i obsess over anything i think might be different. i thought i felt cavities in all of my teeth, and obsessed over what i thought was a receding gum line. i though... | 1 |
nobody actually fucking cares. my closest friends don’t. my family hates me. my teachers think i hate their class. not a single person gives a fuck | 2 |
Every single night that I think to myself “damn i should really do something about this i’m absolutely miserable wow” and try to do something to better myself the moment i wake up for the new day (and succeed), the fucking day after that, i feel even worse as if i had used up all my energy just to make yesterday a good... | 2 |
I couldn't really think of anywhere else to talk about this.
So, in the summer I was suicidal to the point of making plans and abusing medication to the point of causing myself injuries when black out. I sought help, but the way things are structured here in the UK means it is nearly impossible without nearly a year's... | 2 |
I find I’m exhausted for hours after I do exposures. I set a time and date for doing them but find it does not get any easier and I’m left feeling like I was on a rollercoaster I didn’t want to be on for the rest of the day. What do you do to calm down and move on? | 1 |
I just got out of a situationship (like an hour ago) so I guess this is a bit of a rant/question. But I find my hyperfocus traits and impulse are at their worst when I'm really into someone.
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With most people I reply when I reply. I easily forget or start typing but pause to do something else. It could be hou... | 0 |
it’s scary to think i may not ever get better because im just wired this way . no hope | 2 |
Okay so I'll save you from reading my last post, basically I listed how I felt and that I have depressive episodes every few months.
Now one of my old friends got in contact with me and very promptly pointed out that he thinks I have depression becuase I have a constant need to socialize and not socializing makes me f... | 2 |
I was at the dentist office with my son, and a very angry man came in to complain to the management. A petite woman came out to talk to this tall guy, and he kept shutting her down - cutting her off, interrupting, raising his voice.
I got triggered hard. Started hyperventilating, heart started racing. I tried the a... | 3 |
Usually vyvance calms people right? Well for me I usually feel way too lazy to shake my leg. Vyvance makes me shake my leg and fidget like the adhd symptom is. Things feel more clear
But it has the opposite effect on my brain. It makes my brain feel like it needs less stimulation. Usually I’m grossly addicted to my p... | 0 |
Hi. Its has being a whiles since my last post. I came here today just to say that Im feeling bad, not just about me. Those sad thought made me think more often about suicide, Im going to do it now, but i kinda accepted that it will be a reallity soon or later. | 2 |
if im happy or something funny happens theres no problem naturally smiling/laughing..but for a photo or fake smile i just cant...i try rly hrd and it only makes it worse... | 3 |
I have trouble expressing myself verbally when the topic is something personal and complicated that affects me emotionally. Sometimes I go completely nonverbal.
I have figured out what helps me is to be asked specific questions. This ranges from being able to take rather vague questions as a take of point to only bei... | 3 |
I feel like I'm stuck in a hole I can't get out of. Does it get better? I feel apathetic and exhausted. I hate complaining and asking for help. I feel like it's my fault no matter how much they tell me it's not. | 3 |
I’m a new nurse and I find myself struggling to remember things I need to get done/doing things in a timely manner.
I’ve been orienting on the mother baby unit for five weeks and my preceptor is a lovely sweet person but also an experienced nurse and wants me to do things her way and sometimes stresses me out bc she’s... | 0 |
Hey everyone. Tough subject but I went through some rough patches because of my ptsd. I blacked out and started fights with one of the people I live with. I’ve already dealt with the court and everything that has to do with that.. so now I’m back living at home and things are fine between us.
However being here is ex... | 3 |
I used to drink 2-3 0.5l cans of regular energy drinks every day without having any problems with caffeine tolerance and I was wondering if that could mean that I would also have a need for a higher than average concerta dose? I didn't really feel any effect on 18mg, 36mg, and today I tried 54mg with barely any improve... | 0 |
Hello so basically im diagnosed with asd and also i have a pretty severe case of sensory processing disorder - i cant stand the feeling of paper and sometimes it can even cause me to have physical symptoms. I was wondering if anyone has the same experience and **most importantly does anyone have anyways of overcoming i... | 3 |
Hello,
I have been taking Sertraline (aka Zoloft) for couple of years. But one thing I've never gotten over was the fatigue and drowsiness it causes throughout the day (esp. dangerous when you're driving).
I've tried the below alternatives but stopped taking them because it wasn't useful. Has anything else helped yo... | 1 |
Today I went to my first therapy session and she said that she thinks I do have OCD. I've been so worried the past month that I've been lying about everything so I'm definitely relieved now. And the therapy session itself wasn't as bad as I thought it would be! | 1 |
I was diagnosed with PTSD as a child I have trouble emotionally connecting with anyone I have been to therapy and taken pills and nothing seems to help is there a different kind of therapy I can try? | 3 |
Last night I watched the end of the series Doctor Death and it’s triggered this belief-spiral that I’ve had as long as I can remember (first time I remember being like 4?) that in the future I’m going to commit some huge crime/evil against my will and be blamed for it and go to prison. That inherently I am not concret... | 1 |
My husband has just been diagnosed with ADHD. HELLO! Everyone my name is Mariah & I'm married to George. We've been together 12 years & married 11 years. About 4 months ago we started marriage counseling. Today was a televisit with our councilor and I have to say I am left annoyed and frustrated. I also have feelings o... | 0 |
I was wondering? Do you guys easily get triggered on a daily basis? From like revving engines to pretty much anything else? | 3 |
I would probably still have no idea that nonverbal cues are even a thing
Also why is it only overthinking when it’s things that we do? Normal people will judge someone by their posture while walking but we don’t think of that as overthinking | 3 |
Hi my fellow fighters. I need some advice from those of who you have slayed this beast OCD as best as you possibly can. Once you've done all your exposures, you've done all your CBT, you've tackled 1-20 of all your greatest fears and nothing has happened, you've reduced your anxiety from maxed-out 100% to like 20% **bu... | 1 |
Ive been super depressed like to the point where I only eat once a day and barely get out of bed for the past couple of days but I have work tomorrow. How do I cope with my depression before I can see my therapist? | 2 |
For me at the moment it s [Warduna - Lyfjaber](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEizKmZlUAw) | 3 |
I just wanna actually like me. GOD IT'S ALL I FUCKING WANT!
Why is it? Why do I get such an upclose view of all my flaws and failures? Why are they constantly blaring in my head?
What is it like, to fuck up and just be okay with that? To make a mistake, without assuming that it's proof that the world is better off wi... | 2 |
I have addiction issues with benzos and alcohol. I have no license or way to get into meetings Uber is out my near ASD specialist is a $180 round trip. I really prefer in person I never like virtual ones. I don't want to drink I don't want to take benzos I need help. My town is so small it's only for alcoholics. I tir... | 3 |
I've been having a hard time finding work, does anybody have a job hunting resource for people with ASD | 3 |
Hello, this is my first post here. I dont know if I'm looking for advice or just others' perspectives on a situation or what, but I need to discuss it in a space where others might understand.
I'm a college student. I also have PTSD from a situation that was very abusive and fucked six ways to sunday. One that effecti... | 3 |
How to explain**
I recently told everyone that I just got diagnosed with ADHD and they didn’t believe me. When I told my problems to them. They were like “yeah It happened to me too” or “that’s pretty normal”
I just need some empathy from them and need to hear something like “You will get better. I’m always here for... | 0 |
Most of the time I feel just neutral to me feeling any emotion is a relatively uncommon event that happens like a couple times a week. | 3 |
Send me a message ! And we can talk if you’re going through a harsh time. | 3 |
Hey y'all. I honestly just need to vent. I was diagnosed with ADHD last month and got prescribed 10mg adderall to take twice a day. I've only been taking it when I go to class or need to study because I have a really hard time focusing (in general). The few times I've taken it outside of class for a clearer head/ execu... | 0 |
I think my brain is going into blank mode because it’s overwhelmed rn.
Ok I’m back. Anyways I’ve been really worried lately and very depressed and sad. Feeling a lot of despair and terror. Mostly cuz so much death has been around me these past couple years.
But also just getting older. I’m 27. I look around my fami... | 1 |
TW: Sexual assault
I’m kind of just yelling into the void today, but I just feel so heavy and don’t know what to do with all of that.
I look at people who are so well adjusted and healthy, the ones that do art and have friends over and cook real dinners. I’m just so upset that none of that is easy for me. I can bare... | 3 |
Sorry for how long this is- just a lot of background info haha
When I was 16, I did an exchange abroad in South Korea. I met a man (26) online through Tinder ( I know, I know. I should've been more cautious regarding my safety in a foreign country, but all my cohort members were using it and I was curious about experi... | 3 |
One of the most common advice for real event ocd is to stop ruminating. But how do I do that?
I feel really confused, because if I quickly stop my thoughts when they come at me it's a compulsion for temporary relief. But if I just keep them going it's ruminating / it will lead to ruminating.
I don't really understa... | 1 |
Hey, I got a few questions because I got prescribed methylphenidate/Ritalin:
How are you folks doing on them long-term? How long have you been taking them? Did you develope tolerance to them? Did you find out that - without medication - your symptoms got worse after long-term use compared to never having been treated? | 0 |
Sometimes I'm scrolling through a comment section and there's so much to think about, process and mentally respond to that I need to exit the app, take a break and then continue reading. I suppose, at least that's something you can do when you're online, which might be why I prefer to use social media over phone calls ... | 3 |
Every time I talk about my damn problems on this website people just say I should stay offline and ignore all the haters. This is annoying. It's under the Impression that I actively searched through Reddit just to hear people who disagree with me. I honestly didn't really use Reddit until last year. That was after my l... | 2 |
i get these thoughts,, for example: i’m showering and suddenly i think that i’m actually in a public place naked, or in class. it also happens when i’m in my room all alone, and i can’t relax because i think i’m actually somewhere else, i can’t even lay on my bed without thinking that i’m ACTUALLY laying down outside w... | 1 |
This is an obsession of mine. I persistently try and figure out "did I have a good Christmas or not" or "did I have a good time at the family reunion or not". Often I am excited and want to have fun and so as a result my OCD acts up and the event ends 50-50.
Some of you may remember me from Yahoo Answers, I often ... | 1 |
I'm not diagnosed with ADHD, but GAD. I personally think the former is more appropriate than the latter. my psychiatrist doesn't agree, but I told him I was following methods for ADHD management and He's not opposed. Whatever floats your boat. I guess. Anyway, I have immense difficulty starting the day. I would take 2 ... | 0 |
All I want is friends and people to talk to, but the second I reach out/people reach out to me, I just get so worried that I'm boring or not fun to talk to that I completely clam up. I posted on a friend subreddit and got so overwhelmed with the messages I couldn't answer half of them. All the conversationns I have com... | 2 |
So I have diagnosed contamination OCD and have been in therapy for a bit and feel that I am finally ready to own a dog. I have picked out a dog to adopt and am getting nervous that maybe once I have a dog brand new obsessions and compulsions will pop up and make things difficult. Is there anyone that’s been in this sit... | 1 |
Not sure if i have ptsd but 4 years ago had my first panic attack when in bed from a movie. After 2 years i felt like i completely got over it but then one day, it was the best time ive had in my life. When i went to bed that night i suddenly felt all the innocent chlidish aura in me again but when i went to sleep i ha... | 3 |
I constantly battle between the feeling of thinking I'm completely sure that I solved a mind riddle produced by my main obsession. Sometimes, the feeling is so intense that I get the impression I'm finally cured. But, of course, this only lasts for some hours or a day. It's never more than that.
Then, I have to battl... | 1 |
Is there a guide or wiki for social interaction? If there isn’t then maybe we could make one. | 3 |
I just don't know what to do to be honest. I can't fucking focus, I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest, my mind just can't stop. I finally cracked, and now my university work is being negatively impacted. I feel so weak.
I did the first step of getting a diagnosis about 6 months ago and just couldn't... | 0 |
Im hiding out in my freaking toilet at home. Just locking myself in. I dont want to face my mom or anyone. I have no where else to go. I cant leave yet, itll cost me lots of money to get my own place. Im so tired and stressed out. My family triggered me so much, my head is banging it hurts. | 2 |
Asking because I have experienced this myself and talked to my psychiatrists nurse about it.
She said many of the other patients with combined ASD and ADHD have reported the same and it is a thing that can happen when you treat your ADHD symptoms.
Was wondering if anybody else has heard about this phenomenon. | 0 |
Okay read my first post to see what happened to me.
Now, my brain is in a state where I only use 1/3 of my brain and the 2/3 i cannot think because there is a thought stuck there. Omg do I make sense? It's actually driving me insane. Fluvoxamine doesn't work, lexapro doesn't work, ect doesn't work. I am considering h... | 1 |
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