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suicidewatch | waaaaaaaaaahhhhhh | 2019/01/25 | im ready I'm done being the ugliest, being the worst, having nothing to offer, everyone always being better. Nothing I ever did was impressive, everyone could always do it better. I can't look at anything anymore without getting suicidal, I'm such a burden, but also cannot change, since it's all facts how rubbish I am.... | 3.767845 | 6.146867 | 6.147802 | 70.355496 | 74.632184 | 7.568391 | 28.116379 | 8.472885 | 2.706748 | 365 | 15 | 54 | 7 | 8 | 129 | 61 | 87 | 0.111 | 0.683 | 0.206 | 0.8274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 22 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12553 | 0.261225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155673 | 0 | 0 | 0.129174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141989 | 0 | 0.449978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131816 | 0 | 0.171353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kneel_Legstrong | 2019/01/25 | My mom would be so upset Makes me nauseous. | 0.863333 | 3.124491 | 2.342222 | 94.3 | 84.555556 | 3.6 | 20.111111 | 3.1291 | -0.472422 | 34 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 9 | 0.296 | 0.704 | 0 | -0.5214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.768612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466193 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | timehascome13 | 2019/01/25 | Thanks for everything He's gone. I guess I should've take a hint when he didn't write anything for the last two nights while he's been up working like he always do. I don't want to go through a long break up process then die. I will single handedly take care of it all. Well it's time to do it. I am suprised I even last... | 1.161284 | 2.588041 | 2.326523 | 99.141686 | 79.147929 | 5.490471 | 19.939196 | 5.935793 | -0.363119 | 1,203 | 28 | 301 | 7 | 29 | 383 | 174 | 338 | 0.08 | 0.731 | 0.189 | 0.9911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 20 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 34 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 47 | 59 | 21 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 9 | 39 | 17 | 34 | 38 | 10 | 50 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 21 | 16 | 0 | 7 | 29 | 198 | 60 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07782 | 0.080971 | 0 | 0 | 0.066175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080079 | 0.086628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099216 | 0 | 0 | 0.083826 | 0.10203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08619 | 0.100549 | 0 | 0.128547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049204 | 0 | 0 | 0.106601 | 0 | 0.165547 | 0 | 0 | 0.075183 | 0 | 0 | 0.093351 | 0.055305 | 0.163241 | 0 | 0 | 0.2144 | 0.096354 | 0 | 0.10359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237967 | 0 | 0.103039 | 0 | 0 | 0.206203 | 0.142625 | 0 | 0 | 0.172236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064957 | 0.098659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103634 | 0.131882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067464 | 0 | 0.10167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093198 | 0.099001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097825 | 0 | 0.103503 | 0.097338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154773 | 0 | 0 | 0.232635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082452 | 0 | 0 | 0.108933 | 0 | 0 | 0.077713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091715 | 0 | 0.292666 | 0 | 0 | 0.179184 | 0 | 0 | 0.06465 | 0.249414 | 0 | 0.077255 | 0.226974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070844 | 0 | 0 | 0.138255 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | loneydear | 2019/01/25 | I wonder how many people who post here end up killing themselves. No way to know, but I admit I’m curious.
I also find it interesting that so many people (myself included) spend quite a bit of time on here talking people out of suicide, despite being suicidal ourselves. | 5.073 | 7.115573 | 6.277 | 72.3235 | 70 | 8.2 | 32.5 | 8.841846 | 3.1988 | 215 | 10 | 33 | 4 | 4 | 72 | 42 | 50 | 0.17 | 0.612 | 0.219 | 0.4651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230485 | 0 | 0.114492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lordofraftel | 2019/01/25 | Continued suffering I have never attempted suicide I don't currently plan to but the constant thoughts pure despair over the last 5 years have led me to think about suicide repeatedly currently about to be homeless in mid Manhattan with that the thoughts have creeped their way back in. Talking helps just venting | 6.647778 | 9.770027 | 5.447926 | 75.239667 | 68.62963 | 9.505185 | 42.281481 | 9.888513 | 5.160575 | 260 | 17 | 39 | 7 | 5 | 77 | 42 | 54 | 0.083 | 0.743 | 0.175 | 0.7636 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.609668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178569 | 0 | 0.442487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179463 |
suicidewatch | SinnerOG | 2019/01/25 | I'm done. All I do is hurt people I feel. My grandmother committed suicide and I'm convinced I have chronic, medicinally untreatable depression and anxiety. I'm done. It's hard talking with my parents as they get scared instead of listening to what I have to say. I feel numb. I'm done crying. I wouldn't even leave a no... | 0.772041 | 2.779538 | 3.28302 | 88.979837 | 82.877551 | 6.777143 | 25.106122 | 7.908726 | 1.494887 | 360 | 15 | 79 | 7 | 10 | 125 | 61 | 98 | 0.209 | 0.726 | 0.065 | -0.8762 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 26 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 2 | 8 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 50 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143267 | 0 | 0.185729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205715 | 0 | 0 | 0.161302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.574949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097845 | 0 | 0.106434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207949 | 0 | 0 | 0.259669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14893 | 0.187497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Trumpster15 | 2019/01/25 | Can't tell if I'm actually suicidal or not So for the vast two years or so I've been really I guess "down" about a lot of things. Over the last year alone I've had a lot of problems mounting up, luckily debt isn't one of them I guess. Anyway, since about August, I've been been kind of waiting to die. I haven't act... | 1.894515 | 3.925304 | 4.052982 | 84.805322 | 79.105263 | 7.380117 | 24.239766 | 8.3441 | 1.610784 | 728 | 26 | 150 | 15 | 18 | 250 | 106 | 190 | 0.173 | 0.752 | 0.075 | -0.9648 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 36 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 16 | 3 | 20 | 25 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 106 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112168 | 0.119514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089123 | 0 | 0.202495 | 0 | 0 | 0.083277 | 0 | 0.06602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102097 | 0 | 0.054761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11278 | 0.05952 | 0.176561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086446 | 0 | 0.159229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10363 | 0 | 0 | 0.121323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091764 | 0 | 0 | 0.121235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08143 | 0 | 0.094661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230804 | 0 | 0 | 0.139486 |
suicidewatch | angtanaka | 2019/01/25 | May be triggering to others I barely turn 18 not that long ago. My life been pretty chaotic and I don’t really know what I want to do anymore. In 2018 my only friend at the time stabbed me and tried to sexually assault me. She still trying to find my new address and harassing me online. I also got kicked out of my dad’... | 2.127599 | 3.60807 | 3.775963 | 89.550508 | 76.617675 | 6.955213 | 23.05566 | 7.697636 | 0.912125 | 3,869 | 114 | 853 | 55 | 86 | 1,292 | 378 | 1,041 | 0.138 | 0.706 | 0.156 | 0.9713 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 59 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 9 | 47 | 56 | 11 | 1 | 35 | 2 | 75 | 23 | 6 | 13 | 12 | 147 | 167 | 71 | 4 | 24 | 29 | 16 | 7 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 8 | 41 | 49 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 22 | 13 | 24 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 14 | 171 | 33 | 107 | 113 | 19 | 104 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 121 | 44 | 2 | 16 | 45 | 553 | 212 | 14 | 0 | 0.096044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044726 | 0.032412 | 0.033725 | 0 | 0 | 0.027562 | 0.084999 | 0 | 0 | 0.120586 | 0 | 0 | 0.033353 | 0 | 0.03789 | 0 | 0 | 0.031165 | 0.033841 | 0.32119 | 0 | 0.034488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124158 | 0 | 0.082647 | 0 | 0.042876 | 0 | 0 | 0.043799 | 0.045458 | 0.03236 | 0.044846 | 0 | 0.052277 | 0.041785 | 0 | 0 | 0.042064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047002 | 0 | 0.067716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13385 | 0.036662 | 0.102446 | 0.038729 | 0.036426 | 0 | 0.114625 | 0 | 0.081974 | 0.05791 | 0 | 0.044399 | 0.111132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125255 | 0 | 0.148228 | 0.116641 | 0.069103 | 0 | 0.097248 | 0.044685 | 0 | 0.040131 | 0.035841 | 0.043145 | 0.036307 | 0.080031 | 0 | 0 | 0.045681 | 0.144086 | 0.027167 | 0.085645 | 0.040655 | 0.161023 | 0 | 0.1403 | 0.086777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04022 | 0.144101 | 0.089682 | 0 | 0.066823 | 0.033038 | 0 | 0.042916 | 0.044036 | 0.124335 | 0.171767 | 0.099005 | 0.081244 | 0.035789 | 0.035868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146321 | 0.076702 | 0.027054 | 0 | 0 | 0.044149 | 0 | 0.12249 | 0.08169 | 0 | 0.040924 | 0.237343 | 0.064702 | 0 | 0.059589 | 0.060106 | 0.03126 | 0.039144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04253 | 0 | 0.054929 | 0.092476 | 0.129382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028099 | 0.03539 | 0 | 0 | 0.038314 | 0 | 0 | 0.082468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040744 | 0 | 0 | 0.040541 | 0 | 0.233683 | 0.041672 | 0 | 0.043514 | 0 | 0.034613 | 0 | 0.128926 | 0 | 0.123057 | 0 | 0.036897 | 0 | 0 | 0.041604 | 0.167636 | 0.045558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04537 | 0.028688 | 0.0432 | 0.097103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030474 | 0.09773 | 0.070851 | 0.037315 | 0 | 0 | 0.026927 | 0.02597 | 0 | 0 | 0.094534 | 0 | 0 | 0.038729 | 0.090061 | 0.192622 | 0.044085 | 0.039592 | 0.042194 | 0 | 0.105016 | 0.044638 | 0.033442 | 0.215153 | 0.032171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037572 | 0 | 0.045251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059013 | 0.041161 | 0 | 0.086375 | 0 | 0 | 0.078301 |
suicidewatch | Shinsei- | 2019/01/25 | Meaningless life I feel no significant desire nor purpose. No matter what could happen, I could be the luckiest person on Earth but I would still feel unhappy. I don't want to be an individual, I want to feel part of something greater. There's nothing worth experiencing for me, if not shared. But we are bound to be alo... | 4.047391 | 6.253591 | 4.628333 | 82.3625 | 73.202899 | 7.788406 | 23.818841 | 8.598638 | 1.628814 | 578 | 17 | 108 | 11 | 12 | 184 | 93 | 138 | 0.254 | 0.631 | 0.115 | -0.9709 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 25 | 9 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 18 | 2 | 15 | 15 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 81 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182043 | 0 | 0 | 0.185265 | 0 | 0.118607 | 0.149382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14776 | 0 | 0 | 0.302726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364595 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stillrobin | 2019/01/25 | I hope it ends soon, somewhat at peace, mostly scared, hopeless and disappointed I have been struggling with depression for quite almost 9 years now. I am 24 now. In May, I'll be 25. I have made a terrible choice today. First a brief about how I got into this position. It maybe a bit long but not longer:
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suicidewatch | ElusiveOne_ | 2019/01/25 | I have always had a deep desire to die The past 4 years have been somewhat of an experiment.
4 serious suicide attempts (prescription med overdose)
Before and after:
Moved 6000 miles away for a fresh start
I’ve gone from incorrect diagnosis (Biploar) to another diagnosis (BPD)
Completed 13 week Psych treatment
I’m no... | 2.436208 | 5.310098 | 3.68176 | 82.816144 | 84.524476 | 6.814141 | 27.524864 | 7.984001 | 2.282332 | 604 | 28 | 108 | 13 | 18 | 196 | 94 | 143 | 0.232 | 0.718 | 0.051 | -0.9826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 23 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 14 | 18 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 59 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102391 | 0 | 0 | 0.083681 | 0.129034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390527 | 0 | 0.129021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383134 | 0 | 0 | 0.125952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136686 | 0.123965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098221 | 0.130788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087099 | 0 | 0.196543 | 0.102879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101533 | 0 | 0 | 0.098707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079243 |
suicidewatch | coldman1 | 2019/01/25 | My dad called me an absolute failure and wants to disown me Please help.
I don't know if I'll. Make it through the night. I've tried the suicide helplines in my country but they are closed right now.
I just need someone to talk to | 0.42875 | 2.795221 | 1.050833 | 101.7775 | 88.583333 | 4.033333 | 22.583333 | 5.461319 | -0.104067 | 182 | 7 | 42 | 1 | 6 | 55 | 40 | 48 | 0.103 | 0.823 | 0.074 | -0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | icanthelpitihave2go | 2019/01/25 | What's the point Every single thing I do I mess up. I can't help it I'm a fuck up. I try to change and every time I take one step forward I take a million steps back. I just want to go home but Im such an idiot that I put myself in a position where I can't even do that. I remember a few years ago when I came to college... | 0.200413 | 2.023977 | 2.295603 | 96.2925 | 83.826389 | 4.527969 | 18.264368 | 5.250761 | -0.567239 | 1,019 | 24 | 238 | 4 | 29 | 342 | 140 | 288 | 0.174 | 0.679 | 0.147 | -0.7989 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 24 | 9 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 28 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 49 | 60 | 19 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 43 | 9 | 22 | 41 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 160 | 58 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141546 | 0 | 0 | 0.057841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130805 | 0 | 0.051849 | 0 | 0 | 0.095829 | 0 | 0.225675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097281 | 0 | 0 | 0.089978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056179 | 0 | 0.21499 | 0 | 0.076443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077739 | 0 | 0 | 0.093259 | 0 | 0.314531 | 0.088876 | 0 | 0.145017 | 0.071341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084219 | 0 | 0.181087 | 0 | 0.16795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057011 | 0 | 0.170636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088573 | 0.093489 | 0.069332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086975 | 0.24031 | 0 | 0 | 0.075106 | 0 | 0.071425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153532 | 0 | 0.056775 | 0 | 0.1709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063068 | 0 | 0.082147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058967 | 0.148535 | 0 | 0 | 0.080405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087452 | 0 | 0 | 0.096352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088732 | 0 | 0.087309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056507 | 0 | 0 | 0.202574 | 0.099193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109546 |
suicidewatch | ROCKYROADHOEHOEHOE | 2019/01/25 | Can’t find work. Behind on bills. Ready to end it I’m just not strong enough. I can’t take it anymore. I try and try applying to many many jobs, showing my face, and barely get interviews and nobody wants me. Am I that bad? I spent my last getting coaching on interviews and revamping my resume and I just can’t take it.... | -0.567 | 1.617684 | 2.150556 | 93.0025 | 92.666667 | 5.666667 | 19.722222 | 7.168622 | 0.565556 | 327 | 11 | 74 | 6 | 12 | 113 | 51 | 90 | 0.18 | 0.741 | 0.08 | -0.8807 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371535 | 0.216718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Usedbees | 2019/01/25 | My slow walk into death Lately I've been been having serious thoughts about suicide. Never had them before but been depressed as long as I remember. I'm scared. These thoughts aren't coming from a recent traumatic event or anything. That's what scares me the most. This is a rational thought. I want to die.
I've alway... | 1.648444 | 4.383392 | 2.893519 | 87.675833 | 87.962963 | 5.962963 | 23.055556 | 7.38713 | 1.310778 | 554 | 21 | 104 | 10 | 18 | 178 | 99 | 135 | 0.356 | 0.592 | 0.053 | -0.9948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 23 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 15 | 14 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 63 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13573 | 0.14683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284122 | 0 | 0.17118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182479 | 0 | 0.090646 | 0 | 0.186057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161604 | 0.158262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162856 | 0 | 0.186843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392827 | 0 | 0.189572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ecletico | 2019/01/25 | Serious health issues I'm currently waiting for some lab results. It's possible that I have a serious, chronic, progressive ilness. I feel like at the end of my life. Or at least the life worth living. Thinking about suicide if illness is certain. | 3.794 | 6.783065 | 4.964444 | 75.5 | 78.333333 | 8.044444 | 35.666667 | 8.841846 | 4.058467 | 198 | 12 | 30 | 5 | 5 | 65 | 39 | 45 | 0.199 | 0.669 | 0.132 | -0.5106 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162669 | 0.229834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454475 | 0.157174 | 0 | 0.284081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Parkerboys3 | 2019/01/25 | Anybody ever tried hanging themselves Idk that's the way I wanna go but I just wanna get some info from people who have don't it | 0.087222 | 2.46421 | 2.338796 | 90.317083 | 94.925926 | 2.7 | 17.861111 | 3.1291 | -0.6064 | 104 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 35 | 25 | 27 | 0.052 | 0.948 | 0 | -0.0516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302358 | 0 | 0.328901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidalteen78546 | 2019/01/25 | I'm about to attempt to take my own life for the 3rd time. I have been thinking about this for a while, and I've decided that today is gonna be the day that i finally do it. I've been suffering from severe depression since I was about 9, but I've never attempted suicide until I was 13. Over the years, there have been m... | 5.145062 | 5.538653 | 6.06375 | 80.08625 | 68.3125 | 9.65 | 31 | 9.642633 | 2.7632 | 631 | 24 | 125 | 13 | 10 | 209 | 97 | 160 | 0.213 | 0.639 | 0.148 | -0.9086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 34 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 18 | 6 | 20 | 19 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 83 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.145684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096279 | 0 | 0.257164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13504 | 0 | 0.142652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15097 | 0 | 0 | 0.163539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11534 | 0 | 0.077997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141261 | 0 | 0.151355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168654 | 0.153243 | 0.123493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095658 | 0 | 0.118519 | 0.261154 | 0.343171 | 0.141508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108684 | 0.15161 | 0.152138 | 0.318151 | 0 | 0 | 0.096137 |
suicidewatch | Vall71892 | 2019/01/25 | I have been thinking of death lately ... Hello suicidal people of reddit!
/Sorry if my English is off, it's not my native tongue and also I don't have much opportunity to practice!/
I've been really thinking of death intensively for the last 2 weeks. Also I feel as if my sanity is slipping away.
But let me tel... | 3.000448 | 5.433384 | 3.988959 | 84.614097 | 77.38785 | 6.36591 | 25.494215 | 7.492282 | 1.449794 | 3,514 | 131 | 647 | 49 | 84 | 1,132 | 348 | 856 | 0.168 | 0.684 | 0.148 | -0.975 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 137 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 45 | 40 | 5 | 2 | 49 | 0 | 73 | 21 | 14 | 11 | 7 | 122 | 135 | 64 | 3 | 15 | 20 | 2 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 32 | 0 | 3 | 35 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 56 | 25 | 79 | 23 | 106 | 63 | 35 | 101 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 25 | 44 | 1 | 19 | 49 | 473 | 122 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.041227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042304 | 0 | 0 | 0.202709 | 0.070306 | 0.045775 | 0.051335 | 0.028729 | 0 | 0.032319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079385 | 0.064971 | 0.070549 | 0.025753 | 0.186634 | 0.071898 | 0.047598 | 0 | 0 | 0.092245 | 0.046927 | 0 | 0.094323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088278 | 0 | 0.043242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234975 | 0 | 0.324509 | 0 | 0 | 0.035935 | 0 | 0.046322 | 0 | 0 | 0.088289 | 0.081054 | 0.07203 | 0.070869 | 0.033789 | 0.093155 | 0.04654 | 0.041831 | 0.037359 | 0.089945 | 0 | 0.04171 | 0.17343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023218 | 0.034437 | 0.047656 | 0 | 0.091803 | 0.086401 | 0.02984 | 0.165118 | 0.127028 | 0 | 0.037387 | 0 | 0 | 0.046118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042575 | 0.044817 | 0.042657 | 0.049479 | 0 | 0 | 0.248451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08986 | 0 | 0 | 0.040537 | 0 | 0.044331 | 0 | 0.11451 | 0 | 0.044954 | 0 | 0 | 0.182997 | 0 | 0.087866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040461 | 0.171921 | 0 | 0.080849 | 0 | 0 | 0.141979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054129 | 0.130311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072157 | 0 | 0.033596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044073 | 0 | 0 | 0.069894 | 0 | 0.084555 | 0 | 0 | 0.097571 | 0 | 0.047292 | 0.299026 | 0 | 0.067477 | 0.03532 | 0 | 0 | 0.145088 | 0.046211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063529 | 0 | 0.036926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168402 | 0.108281 | 0.041507 | 0 | 0.147807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093876 | 0.028683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036488 | 0 | 0.104574 | 0 | 0 | 0.101664 | 0 | 0.037985 | 0.156653 | 0.038121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090033 | 0 | 0.051335 | 0.027206 |
suicidewatch | ThingImustConfess | 2019/01/25 | When people tell to forward to something all I see is death. "Where do you see yourself in ten years?"
Dead
Fucking Dead.
I've tried so many times before. A few would have worked if it weren't for those meddling paramedics.
If you want a tattoo when you are a kid they say,"wait until yours ten years older". Well i... | 1.430621 | 3.645325 | 2.689201 | 92.987864 | 81.774327 | 5.02342 | 20.633085 | 6.152001 | 0.090628 | 1,849 | 53 | 389 | 14 | 50 | 594 | 228 | 483 | 0.192 | 0.705 | 0.103 | -0.9945 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 78 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 6 | 30 | 26 | 6 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 48 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 54 | 76 | 29 | 9 | 11 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 17 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 14 | 5 | 52 | 18 | 49 | 52 | 8 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 38 | 23 | 5 | 11 | 41 | 260 | 80 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077771 | 0 | 0 | 0.073554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069683 | 0 | 0 | 0.090424 | 0 | 0.126222 | 0 | 0 | 0.196786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226856 | 0 | 0 | 0.063889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048987 | 0.067089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114603 | 0.274267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186625 | 0 | 0 | 0.081704 | 0 | 0.065586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077412 | 0.0736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080583 | 0 | 0 | 0.036235 | 0.074335 | 0.065491 | 0 | 0.062282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070179 | 0 | 0.150389 | 0.074511 | 0 | 0.164767 | 0 | 0.22423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054994 | 0.057203 | 0 | 0.078878 | 0.069601 | 0 | 0.071166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150774 | 0.056408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070801 | 0.257092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07055 | 0.058981 | 0 | 0 | 0.177306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114196 | 0.073354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177691 | 0.124015 | 0.084959 | 0 | 0 | 0.081127 | 0 | 0.069902 | 0 | 0.055765 | 0 | 0.064826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047524 | 0.072869 | 0 | 0.345982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151065 | 0 | 0.072451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133371 | 0 | 0.066925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053995 | 0 | 0 | 0.052687 | 0 | 0 | 0.191046 |
suicidewatch | realitysocialcons | 2019/01/25 | Don't feel human. I'm just confused and need it to end. I've been strong for long enough. I can't bear existing anymore. | -0.970385 | 1.131378 | 1.014231 | 99.368269 | 98.615385 | 4.138462 | 18.038462 | 5.985473 | -0.314354 | 95 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 31 | 23 | 26 | 0.093 | 0.772 | 0.134 | 0.25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421082 | 0.491238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nadalyn16 | 2019/01/25 | Suicide Basically I’m having a lot of problems and I’ve been suicidal I’ve been admitted to a hospital twice already but my mom still thinks I’m “playing a game” which I’m not and the fact that she’s not supporting me through this is literally hurting me. Every time I try to explain she just gets mad and says stop with... | 1.301404 | 3.622978 | 3.062196 | 89.461989 | 83.158416 | 6.048965 | 25.023402 | 7.348243 | 1.241883 | 389 | 16 | 81 | 6 | 11 | 129 | 71 | 101 | 0.304 | 0.606 | 0.091 | -0.9805 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 19 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 8 | 16 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 53 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204797 | 0 | 0.119367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206422 | 0 | 0 | 0.155945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183834 | 0 | 0 | 0.198141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147812 | 0.154742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404913 | 0.420072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237194 | 0 | 0 | 0.107926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CraftyDraw9 | 2019/01/25 | Update from a few days ago.. my dog went to the rainbow bridge this morning. Feeling less suicidal though. I wrote this post a few days ago:
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/aj550x/im_only_alive_for_one_reason_and_im_about_to_lose/
Just thought I'd update if anyone cares.
This morning I held his littl... | 4.949685 | 6.005151 | 4.785014 | 86.709706 | 69.04902 | 7.005042 | 23.394958 | 6.86897 | 0.517813 | 827 | 18 | 172 | 6 | 14 | 254 | 108 | 204 | 0.039 | 0.686 | 0.276 | 0.9953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 30 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 27 | 13 | 18 | 23 | 7 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 106 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129607 | 0.152189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417618 | 0.337171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226375 | 0.067057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08334 | 0.288222 | 0.236516 | 0 | 0 | 0.099083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106491 | 0 | 0.07876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091002 | 0.113956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079954 | 0.089737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258126 | 0 | 0.111205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156776 | 0 | 0.115925 | 0.093672 | 0.068801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | totallyworndown | 2019/01/25 | driving at high speed into something
I want to drive into a bridge abutment. I’ve been studying them and ideal locations. In northern climates, I’ve noticed that they surround them entirely with guard rails under the bridge. That is probably due to slippery roads, snow, etc. But in the southern climates, they don’t... | 2.363948 | 4.188265 | 3.433251 | 90.768717 | 76.888446 | 6.316624 | 24.158095 | 7.168622 | 0.863437 | 964 | 32 | 205 | 11 | 22 | 310 | 135 | 251 | 0.044 | 0.872 | 0.084 | 0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 41 | 45 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 21 | 2 | 39 | 37 | 6 | 42 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 133 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126824 | 0 | 0 | 0.131111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110282 | 0 | 0.142156 | 0 | 0 | 0.067738 | 0 | 0.36842 | 0.108746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086543 | 0 | 0.130252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121669 | 0 | 0 | 0.147609 | 0 | 0 | 0.087855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099812 | 0 | 0 | 0.091768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.535303 | 0.102911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092101 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | neckdeepshitcreek | 2019/01/25 | Going to do it, need courage. Throwaway account for reasons that will become obvious the more I type. My ex girlfriend had a tendency to just pack up and leave, not even for anything specific, and it would devastate me each time. This last time, I think she was planning it, and when we woke up that morning I asked her ... | 5.772424 | 4.839696 | 6.171313 | 84.334545 | 67.164251 | 9.073166 | 30.412385 | 8.000946 | 1.837487 | 782 | 24 | 170 | 8 | 11 | 253 | 124 | 207 | 0.098 | 0.802 | 0.1 | 0.5112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 36 | 37 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 27 | 4 | 22 | 19 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 118 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11449 | 0 | 0.130065 | 0 | 0 | 0.10698 | 0 | 0 | 0.153655 | 0.118387 | 0.156749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123226 | 0 | 0 | 0.183785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158139 | 0.116694 | 0.111273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113407 | 0 | 0.147316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103161 | 0.214607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142812 | 0.115088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09243 | 0.178294 | 0.136692 | 0 | 0.162253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360484 | 0 | 0 | 0.164122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098832 | 0.304228 | 0 | 0.089594 |
suicidewatch | jesuschristreddit169 | 2019/01/25 | I am gonna kill myself because of Porn Addiction.
I have been a severe porn addict for the past 3 years. Masturbated twice almost every single day. I skip college to masturbate. I watch and think about porn almost 70 percent of the day. I am failing college classes miserably because of it. Yeah, I am fucked. | 2.608547 | 5.465619 | 4.120739 | 80.276724 | 82.965517 | 6.072906 | 27.251232 | 7.44753 | 2.049509 | 245 | 11 | 40 | 4 | 7 | 81 | 42 | 58 | 0.286 | 0.679 | 0.035 | -0.9509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 25 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152996 |
suicidewatch | Robertredgreen | 2019/01/25 | Im ready but unwilling to suicide Im prepared to overdose on sleeping pills if i lose the nothots challenge(avoiding prostitution)
I have a healtht mighty sex drive and sometimes wanna sex a hoe but they deserve jail not cash.
Im willing to die with honor before giving such a person any money. | 3.051299 | 6.091074 | 3.565195 | 83.496364 | 83.545455 | 5.324675 | 29.675325 | 6.86897 | 2.00526 | 240 | 12 | 39 | 3 | 7 | 75 | 43 | 55 | 0.227 | 0.6 | 0.173 | -0.7684 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.745884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yngmorgan | 2019/01/25 | I can't fucking die, i'm gettin annoying Almost every day I mix depressants drugs, sometimes in large amount, and I can't find die. The last time my family found me outside my lips were blue and somewhat they belived my lie besides my history. Yesterday was the most fucked up, I mixed 3 depressants (benzo, alcohol, ket... | 4.026967 | 2.905512 | 5.357957 | 89.356305 | 70.782178 | 8.929613 | 25.789379 | 8.000946 | 1.075747 | 698 | 15 | 176 | 8 | 11 | 236 | 108 | 202 | 0.135 | 0.777 | 0.088 | -0.8146 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 25 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 33 | 42 | 14 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 34 | 1 | 23 | 20 | 7 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 117 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124228 | 0.1164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074967 | 0 | 0.200239 | 0 | 0.361924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136235 | 0 | 0.134804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109583 | 0 | 0.058776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106243 | 0 | 0 | 0.382361 | 0 | 0.214928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127767 | 0.094753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408425 | 0.092784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074483 | 0 | 0 | 0.135564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215516 | 0.104891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11805 | 0 | 0.247726 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Croat8753 | 2019/01/25 | PLEASE READ MY STORIES. MY GUILT AND SHAME ARE KILLING ME . IF YOU READ MY STORY YOUR LIFE WILL BE BETTER! [https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/ajqojo/how\_can\_i\_even\_go\_forward\_please\_read\_this\_isnt/](https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/ajqojo/how_can_i_even_go_forward_please_read_this_isnt/)
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suicidewatch | Lunchism | 2019/01/25 | Today was the closest I've ever come to doing it This morning I drove out to this mountain near my house to watch the sunrise and wait for my nearest gun shop to open at 9. My plan was to buy a handgun, hopefully something not too expensive, drive to the nearest police station, and shoot myself in the temple in the par... | 6.169769 | 5.527971 | 6.655 | 80.231538 | 66.25 | 8.884615 | 32.211538 | 7.882392 | 2.172894 | 936 | 33 | 187 | 9 | 13 | 306 | 143 | 240 | 0.162 | 0.776 | 0.061 | -0.9797 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 37 | 31 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 31 | 5 | 35 | 21 | 8 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 136 | 48 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.130368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113678 | 0 | 0 | 0.118153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12594 | 0.15033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103214 | 0 | 0.139594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089545 | 0 | 0 | 0.132688 | 0.131563 | 0.154149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147801 | 0 | 0.073419 | 0.108897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142273 | 0 | 0.101604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22102 | 0 | 0.26738 | 0 | 0.113193 | 0.102847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152933 | 0.14613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100446 | 0.107377 | 0.116767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120547 | 0 | 0 | 0.128779 | 0 | 0.097258 | 0.135671 | 0 | 0.189802 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | manual_dissection | 2019/01/25 | Am I anything less than a diagnosis? If the same events which happened to me as a child and then again as an adult led to my diagnosis are the same that built my character then how am i any different than a diagnosis.
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The first time I tried to die I was eight. I drove a bike into tra... | 1.528117 | 3.977589 | 3.176382 | 88.157579 | 83.387755 | 6.828942 | 22.174397 | 8.000946 | 1.245314 | 385 | 13 | 80 | 8 | 11 | 127 | 69 | 98 | 0.212 | 0.788 | 0 | -0.9623 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 56 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0.256087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234185 | 0.26263 | 0.146981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224316 | 0.225817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204514 | 0.288547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26263 | 0 |
suicidewatch | literallyaliter | 2019/01/25 | I keep wanting to comment on everyones post saying that I'm in the same boat as them. So, ill just do it here: I'm an awful person undeserving of the love that I have and I want to die. I, however have a kid that I think would be crushed if I died, regardless of the circumstance. So, I'm stuck in an endless spiral of d... | 3.636667 | 4.873633 | 5.080556 | 82.6825 | 72.333333 | 8.733333 | 29.240741 | 9.188382 | 2.462663 | 420 | 17 | 85 | 9 | 8 | 141 | 71 | 108 | 0.217 | 0.663 | 0.12 | -0.7805 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 10 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 54 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179574 | 0 | 0.432763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10542 | 0.148947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148107 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | modannaye | 2019/01/25 | I am a weak man My genetics are shit. I’m physically and mentally weak. I don’t like anything anymore. I don’t care about anything anymore. Everyday is a fucking grind. Every night I go to sleep and hope that I don’t wake up.
There is no joy in my life, only loneliness and pain. Why should I stay alive? | -0.211429 | 2.091881 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 94.238095 | 5.974603 | 22.873016 | 7.38713 | 1.242702 | 237 | 10 | 51 | 5 | 9 | 81 | 45 | 63 | 0.243 | 0.55 | 0.206 | -0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456163 | 0 | 0 | 0.378513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212616 | 0 | 0 | 0.130705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162444 | 0.112358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174913 | 0.244718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236074 | 0 | 0 | 0.230149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pancakes11111111 | 2019/01/25 | existing is a burden Brief moments of genuine joy or happiness, not wanting to die... give me a bit of hope that "maybe i can do this, maybe life is not so bad" but it never lasts. I always return to this state of complete despair. I think it just makes everything worse because I know its possible to feel this way 90% ... | 8.268857 | 6.757671 | 8.445714 | 71.914286 | 62.52381 | 11.828571 | 36.238095 | 10.793553 | 3.779724 | 428 | 16 | 80 | 9 | 5 | 141 | 76 | 105 | 0.13 | 0.699 | 0.171 | 0.4096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 10 | 15 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 55 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144152 | 0.210487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152691 | 0.188485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0902 | 0.165618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183785 | 0 | 0.170452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094882 | 0.140729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24389 | 0 | 0 | 0.15245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115243 | 0 | 0.346892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110625 | 0 | 0 | 0.100671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101831 | 0.137038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Megumin00 | 2019/01/25 | Threats My previous post explained how ym life was going, and i opened up to my crush about it. Big mistake. She said if i killed myself, she would too. I dont know what to do to make this stop. It hurts everywhere, and every day is getting worse and worse. Everyone and everything feels fake. I cant even end it because... | 0.708788 | 2.887301 | 2.466818 | 93.703561 | 84.454545 | 5.484848 | 22.80303 | 6.816662 | 0.630394 | 410 | 15 | 90 | 5 | 12 | 135 | 74 | 110 | 0.24 | 0.703 | 0.058 | -0.9407 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 19 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 16 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 55 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148559 | 0 | 0 | 0.110784 | 0 | 0.14132 | 0.160274 | 0.150745 | 0 | 0 | 0.188743 | 0.08481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155064 | 0.175264 | 0 | 0.095325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179559 | 0 | 0.543533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185569 | 0 | 0.09218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341863 | 0.119151 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fash53 | 2019/01/25 | Needle In The Hay I am having a rough week. Work has not been great and this leads to trouble at home with my wife. She got angry that I got depressed - she cornered me in the kitchen and assaulted me, saying that I was not supporting her when she got depressed, so I shouldn't be treating her like this. I didn't fight ... | 3.973262 | 6.51787 | 3.890322 | 85.983885 | 74.680473 | 5.881805 | 31.272559 | 6.907726 | 1.959985 | 722 | 35 | 125 | 7 | 16 | 220 | 109 | 169 | 0.196 | 0.736 | 0.069 | -0.9746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 24 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 24 | 7 | 23 | 11 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 91 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155903 | 0 | 0 | 0.16454 | 0.134664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192372 | 0 | 0 | 0.301678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.560269 | 0.193081 | 0 | 0 | 0.154867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256679 | 0 | 0 | 0.154984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191564 | 0.198735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139033 | 0.10212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | beehug | 2019/01/25 | ever since I oded in september, I've been severely suicidal. Hey, reddit. Here I am again, trying not to have a mental breakdown at 7:30 in the morning. Last night I did the dumbest thing, I told someone I missed them right after I told them I was drunk. I told myself I wouldn't get any feelings for this person, as I'm... | 0.820118 | 2.572305 | 2.896078 | 93.157941 | 81.333333 | 5.568627 | 20.03268 | 6.522977 | 0.076631 | 648 | 17 | 148 | 6 | 17 | 219 | 110 | 180 | 0.192 | 0.696 | 0.112 | -0.9132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 35 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 29 | 4 | 19 | 21 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 97 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140698 | 0 | 0.088306 | 0 | 0.099338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085768 | 0.117461 | 0 | 0 | 0.116705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067844 | 0 | 0.073799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138233 | 0 | 0.128205 | 0 | 0.138029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122872 | 0.086679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146699 | 0.133294 | 0.107417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08627 | 0.166411 | 0 | 0.10309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496327 | 0 | 0.176326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094536 | 0 | 0.132333 | 0.092245 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidalthrowawaysof | 2019/01/25 | Just some thoughts i’ve had about me being suicidal for 2 years. When you’re suicidal you stop caring about important matters. You believe them to be trivial and insignificant.
Issues arise when you remain suicidal for longer periods of time as that results in your life being destroyed, since at some point you’ve ... | 5.361327 | 7.583254 | 5.322194 | 78.723699 | 69.612245 | 8.709524 | 31.977891 | 9.299571 | 3.127826 | 645 | 29 | 110 | 14 | 12 | 201 | 97 | 147 | 0.284 | 0.609 | 0.106 | -0.9863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 15 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 22 | 8 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 66 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125442 | 0 | 0 | 0.093545 | 0 | 0 | 0.135333 | 0.127288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130934 | 0 | 0 | 0.080491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150831 | 0 | 0.107716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.61968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094093 | 0 | 0 | 0.112438 | 0.082585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103108 | 0 | 0 | 0.10061 | 0 | 0 | 0.091205 |
suicidewatch | whyamIh3r3huh | 2019/01/25 | How do I make it stop Who knew hanging around them would make this all happen? I was just looking for friends my own age. Well, I can’t blame them because they were just being themselves. Maybe it was me; maybe it was just me. But I was just being myself too.
The move wasn’t just hard because I was an outsider who cou... | 1.542553 | 3.589363 | 2.861739 | 92.821065 | 80.355932 | 5.714517 | 21.489683 | 6.800594 | 0.380935 | 1,788 | 53 | 389 | 19 | 46 | 578 | 190 | 472 | 0.153 | 0.748 | 0.1 | -0.9806 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 66 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 38 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 50 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 10 | 91 | 86 | 41 | 2 | 16 | 26 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 46 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 26 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 21 | 13 | 62 | 9 | 34 | 50 | 15 | 45 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 24 | 280 | 108 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.064407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105561 | 0.109836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05049 | 0 | 0.13091 | 0.046149 | 0 | 0 | 0.058755 | 0 | 0 | 0.12402 | 0 | 0.055108 | 0.080467 | 0 | 0.056162 | 0.07436 | 0 | 0.116744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06982 | 0 | 0.0692 | 0 | 0 | 0.105392 | 0 | 0.144997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068498 | 0.068957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033372 | 0 | 0 | 0.0723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072366 | 0.050992 | 0 | 0.13793 | 0 | 0.03751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058364 | 0 | 0.177371 | 0.065162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046618 | 0.032245 | 0 | 0.05828 | 0.058408 | 0.110848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176224 | 0 | 0.331533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070148 | 0.145554 | 0 | 0.101808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178895 | 0.050196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046716 | 0 | 0.105416 | 0.220718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062205 | 0 | 0.049624 | 0.053049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131544 | 0.169162 | 0 | 0.052397 | 0.230913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137418 | 0 | 0.057003 | 0 | 0.054457 | 0 | 0.209553 | 0 | 0 | 0.118685 | 0.061183 | 0.119111 | 0 | 0.075897 | 0.063622 | 0.071575 | 0 | 0.134054 | 0.201781 | 0.140655 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | subarashidoggo | 2019/01/25 | Suffocating I'm fucking dying. I've been depressed for more than a decade and I finally decided to seek help last week. But my psychiatrist appointment would be on 13th Feb and that's the earliest they could do and I can't fucking wait I just want them to give me some pills or shit and make things feel better. Meanwhil... | 2.871074 | 4.980253 | 3.52314 | 89.39562 | 76.355372 | 6.71405 | 23.396694 | 7.686295 | 1.016018 | 483 | 15 | 99 | 7 | 11 | 152 | 87 | 121 | 0.144 | 0.768 | 0.088 | -0.8463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 25 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 63 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179782 | 0 | 0.216632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105542 | 0 | 0 | 0.228657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.578911 | 0 | 0.200236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230932 | 0 | 0 | 0.170145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138673 | 0 | 0 | 0.165711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123116 | 0 | 0.167433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15196 | 0 | 0 | 0.148278 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Some_Famous_Pig | 2019/01/25 | I keep having bad intrusive thoughts about killing my sister then killing myself These thoughts come around a couple times a month and I'm scared I may act out on them one day. | 6.879706 | 7.188729 | 4.922353 | 90.050588 | 64.588235 | 7.976471 | 31.705882 | 7.168622 | 1.654753 | 143 | 5 | 29 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 29 | 34 | 0.378 | 0.622 | 0 | -0.9451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290399 | 0 | 0.16926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23328 | 0.580731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416717 | 0.153038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | youngdaggerdick4 | 2019/01/25 | My life is a living hell Mostly it's my fault but I am not doing great at school, my parents are just demotivating me even more, everyone makes fun of how ugly I am and I am too lazy to committ suicide. I dont know what to do with life anymore | 2.079906 | 3.044905 | 4.494481 | 86.43908 | 75.792453 | 6.809434 | 24.570755 | 7.168622 | 0.885872 | 190 | 6 | 43 | 2 | 4 | 67 | 43 | 53 | 0.344 | 0.583 | 0.072 | -0.9595 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 33 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191479 | 0 | 0 | 0.277015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409535 | 0 | 0 | 0.25599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheGreenPixel | 2019/01/25 | done goodbye | 5.475 | 1.744737 | 2.89 | 77.905 | 184 | 0.8 | 52 | 3.1291 | 4.3094 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | G0966 | 2019/01/25 | . I'm so sorry that I wasn't a reliable person. | -3.265455 | -1.937161 | 2.645909 | 85.888864 | 110.818182 | 5.836364 | 14.590909 | 7.168622 | 0.6046 | 36 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 10 | 11 | 0.21 | 0.79 | 0 | -0.1513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.788497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gooseislandfullers | 2019/01/25 | Experienced suicidal ideation before, but now I'm seriously considering it I just feel like my life is going nowhere. I don't have the motivation or support to change, and, quite frankly I don't care to better myself anymore. I know what ever burst of motivation I feel will be fleeting, so what's the use? Before I star... | 2.520333 | 4.142355 | 3.971111 | 87.965 | 75.888889 | 6.577778 | 25.888889 | 7.3011 | 1.140456 | 686 | 25 | 146 | 8 | 15 | 227 | 100 | 180 | 0.184 | 0.612 | 0.204 | 0.5185 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 31 | 38 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 10 | 17 | 24 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 93 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275626 | 0 | 0 | 0.143237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165376 | 0 | 0.165125 | 0 | 0.171328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167344 | 0 | 0 | 0.146499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16378 | 0.115702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084616 | 0 | 0.092044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179181 | 0 | 0.089007 | 0 | 0 | 0.171488 | 0 | 0 | 0.114395 | 0.079124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172261 | 0 | 0.184342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124682 | 0 | 0 | 0.229267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177154 | 0.183786 | 0.305284 | 0 | 0.121771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107597 | 0.20755 | 0 | 0.128575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | illkeepwalking | 2019/01/25 | Alone isolated What do you do when you are alone and isolated? How to you cope when you have no love one around you? How do you cope when the person you love most distance you and look at you with contempt and hate?
Is there still a meaning in life if you are going to be alone and isolated? | 3.968 | 4.570144 | 4.223333 | 91.5 | 71 | 8 | 25 | 8.076483 | 1.0635 | 228 | 6 | 52 | 3 | 4 | 71 | 35 | 60 | 0.295 | 0.6 | 0.105 | -0.9034 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 42 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.708126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MangoOcean | 2019/01/25 | Panadol overdose I took 4.5g paracetemol, and took another 4.5g paracetemol a few days later. Nothing happened and it has been a few weeks. So i assume nothing will happen to me? Thank you. | 2.825833 | 5.574429 | 3.325556 | 87.25 | 80.388889 | 4.711111 | 31.222222 | 5.985473 | 1.687856 | 151 | 8 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 47 | 27 | 36 | 0 | 0.921 | 0.079 | 0.3612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.578484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | siinnamon | 2019/01/25 | I just need a friend Title says it all. I'm just a burden to my s/o and don't want them to feel pressured to be here for me. | -1.981398 | -0.834864 | 1.381935 | 103.55957 | 87.709677 | 4.133333 | 13.55914 | 3.1291 | -1.682428 | 94 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 26 | 31 | 0.199 | 0.695 | 0.106 | -0.2076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.50052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Notapornaccountt635 | 2019/01/25 | I'm so alone I hate myself. I hate my body. I'm bi, and I hate it. I don't want to be my dad's gay son. I thought I could pretend to be normal, but I can't anymore.
And the worst part is I don't have anyone who cares. No one really ever has cared. I'm alone and I want to die. I think 2019 will be my last year. | -3.59756 | -2.134155 | 0.146651 | 106.31701 | 101.894737 | 3.289952 | 10.856459 | 4.851558 | -1.922037 | 232 | 3 | 69 | 1 | 11 | 84 | 47 | 76 | 0.353 | 0.55 | 0.097 | -0.9545 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 23 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184241 | 0.1299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.550251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119039 | 0 | 0.147487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119635 |
suicidewatch | guitargasm_ | 2019/01/25 | Shouldn't we be working towards suicide PREVENTION on this sub rather than giving advice???? Occasionally people will post their plans to ultimately end themselves, and I'm fucking tired of seeing people give them advice on how to follow through or what to get in order before they go. Isn't this supposed to be a subred... | 8.084758 | 9.460941 | 7.679194 | 67.61379 | 62.145161 | 9.748387 | 36.467742 | 9.827889 | 3.911116 | 573 | 26 | 85 | 11 | 8 | 181 | 82 | 124 | 0.163 | 0.792 | 0.045 | -0.9593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 26 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 17 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 64 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131725 | 0.074442 | 0.410052 | 0.080977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493904 | 0 | 0.148866 | 0 | 0 | 0.16063 | 0.272921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096738 | 0 | 0 | 0.148331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | drain_gang | 2019/01/25 | what is it like to have a friend? i daydream about it often. even just one friend. they don't have to like me, i wouldn't blame them. i hate myself too. | -1.573636 | 0.384842 | -0.143273 | 107.845091 | 99.30303 | 2.64 | 9.630303 | 3.1291 | -2.351177 | 116 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 36 | 25 | 33 | 0 | 0.561 | 0.439 | 0.9375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.676798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | F00dbAby | 2019/01/25 | The days keep getting harder and I don't even know what to do anymore Drinking isn't helping me anymore. Neither is smoking weed. I can't do psychedelics frequently enough
I have no idea how to cope. I just wanna feel anything else other than feeling unbearably sad.
I feel I only have three options left.
Start se... | 1.54291 | 4.206651 | 2.278 | 92.741859 | 86.711864 | 5.180565 | 23.968362 | 6.742158 | 0.90768 | 477 | 19 | 94 | 6 | 15 | 148 | 83 | 118 | 0.207 | 0.699 | 0.094 | -0.9342 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 22 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 66 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337496 | 0 | 0 | 0.140023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166687 | 0.197326 | 0 | 0.142143 | 0 | 0 | 0.351631 | 0 | 0.224771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302483 | 0.188251 | 0 | 0.093513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184874 | 0 | 0.120185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12941 | 0.181057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109574 |
suicidewatch | bakinreeder | 2019/01/25 | I give up the last straw. this is it. i’m so fucking done. i cant fucking wait until it’s over. | -3.810652 | -2.539928 | -0.00837 | 105.363967 | 109.869565 | 2.3 | 14.445652 | 3.1291 | -1.629252 | 72 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 19 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.751675 | 0 | 0.389988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | longforshort33 | 2019/01/25 | I will do it. I've been thinking about killing myself since last year but I always end up not doing it. In two weeks, I'll get some money from my scholarship and decided to use it with all my savings to travel. There's a beautiful place I really want to go to since I was a child and I decided that I will go there to cr... | 2.8122 | 4.293244 | 4.861 | 82.4755 | 74.8 | 9 | 25.5 | 9.516145 | 2.2855 | 382 | 13 | 78 | 10 | 8 | 132 | 68 | 100 | 0.133 | 0.734 | 0.133 | -0.4547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 16 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 14 | 12 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 56 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107757 | 0 | 0.234432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182386 | 0 | 0 | 0.203628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456368 | 0 | 0 | 0.168121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132129 | 0.212059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201476 | 0 | 0 | 0.178133 | 0 | 0 | 0.121651 | 0 | 0.165441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132818 |
suicidewatch | numb765745 | 2019/01/25 | I've never wanted to die so much The only person I want to see is not interested in me. I hope some truck hits me, its better than living my life overthinking everything and being a sensitive cunt that just can't move on over a fucking girl.
I look around me and everyone either has a girlfriend or is enjoying lives.... | 5.270385 | 5.897362 | 6.378615 | 77.116385 | 68.102564 | 9.316923 | 29.702564 | 9.3871 | 2.619346 | 313 | 11 | 58 | 6 | 5 | 105 | 61 | 78 | 0.157 | 0.666 | 0.177 | -0.0529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 42 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188018 | 0.17684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138981 | 0 | 0 | 0.347495 | 0 | 0.165233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209131 | 0.144645 | 0 | 0.151758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171808 | 0 | 0.215989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Aqualily08 | 2019/01/25 | Suicide thoughts on birthday night Tomorrow is my birthday. But here i am watching videos of suicide survivors.
I don't wanna do it. But all the stress and how life is going, How time is ticking.. every bone in my body says i should leave this place. I have no space here. I don't deserve to be here or I don't belong he... | 0.554435 | 3.013777 | 2.039796 | 93.865094 | 90.122449 | 4.239874 | 20.803768 | 5.873415 | 0.129002 | 379 | 13 | 77 | 3 | 13 | 122 | 67 | 98 | 0.218 | 0.752 | 0.03 | -0.9499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 19 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 53 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112934 | 0 | 0.157644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096791 | 0 | 0.105288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39233 | 0 | 0 | 0.261711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196903 | 0 | 0 | 0.142885 | 0 | 0 | 0.173855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128437 | 0 | 0.387117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212216 | 0 | 0 | 0.405292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123079 | 0 | 0 | 0.147077 | 0.108027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IowaCorn18 | 2019/01/25 | I just learned how to tie a noose.. It made me kinda happy for some reason and I don't know why. | -2.134697 | -0.325018 | 0.679091 | 103.255303 | 96.727273 | 2.933333 | 11.878788 | 3.1291 | -1.883412 | 73 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 21 | 22 | 0 | 0.833 | 0.167 | 0.5279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.519313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.501579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | okay7720 | 2019/01/25 | I can’t even articulate how I feel anymore. Nothing seems right. I have gone from confused to heartbroken to apathetic. My heart hurts and I feel everything so strongly. I don’t feel like a human anymore I just feel like a void that is eating everything up to try to feel full and just end up with more reasons to feel ... | 0.931132 | 3.317985 | 2.429961 | 92.861364 | 85.702128 | 5.545841 | 21.311412 | 6.980633 | 0.525396 | 361 | 12 | 78 | 5 | 11 | 117 | 59 | 94 | 0.122 | 0.714 | 0.164 | 0.7148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 5 | 10 | 15 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 48 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151813 | 0 | 0 | 0.131406 | 0 | 0 | 0.097992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525118 | 0.317972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 213adafy | 2019/01/25 | Just pouring out some thoughts I am known by many names but none of them are or ever were important. I am just as much of a random nobody as the people I still care about. That's why im here. Because I care about them. They are not afraid to let me know that im in the center of every problem. My parents worked hard to ... | 2.154997 | 3.801237 | 2.906785 | 95.100925 | 76.962085 | 5.447183 | 22.148763 | 5.822114 | 0.061022 | 794 | 22 | 177 | 4 | 18 | 249 | 118 | 211 | 0.127 | 0.721 | 0.151 | 0.7765 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 43 | 38 | 13 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 34 | 8 | 26 | 30 | 7 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 127 | 41 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123868 | 0.138914 | 0.077743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113377 | 0 | 0 | 0.094078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103411 | 0.096322 | 0.10924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176651 | 0 | 0.179187 | 0 | 0 | 0.095888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116903 | 0.161499 | 0 | 0 | 0.100949 | 0.101172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152622 | 0.115905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168081 | 0.254306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126942 | 0 | 0 | 0.158514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328174 | 0 | 0.114926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182596 | 0.095579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075951 | 0 | 0 | 0.090759 | 0.066662 | 0 | 0 | 0.10924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103158 | 0 | 0.131465 | 0 | 0 | 0.166456 | 0 | 0 | 0.081211 | 0 | 0.138914 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 0xB3FF | 2019/01/25 | 7 or 8 days In 7 or 8 days I'll have been single for a year. Feb 2nds the date. Just idk whether or not January has 30 or 31 days. My life turned to shit Feb 2nd. 2 days before was the happiest day of my life. Then I found out I was being cheated on. Then I didn't get accepted to colleges. I got into a shitty job I hat... | -1.780735 | 0.124142 | 1.084103 | 100.153675 | 96.487179 | 4.119658 | 14.91453 | 5.822114 | -0.874829 | 664 | 15 | 167 | 6 | 27 | 229 | 118 | 195 | 0.193 | 0.719 | 0.088 | -0.9473 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 22 | 7 | 19 | 12 | 2 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 21 | 90 | 29 | 2 | 0.128453 | 0 | 0 | 0.140032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254781 | 0 | 0 | 0.105706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107253 | 0 | 0 | 0.109304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.497048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140842 | 0.099242 | 0 | 0.067111 | 0 | 0.073003 | 0 | 0.102735 | 0.141619 | 0.28301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104706 | 0 | 0 | 0.139564 | 0 | 0.18146 | 0.062755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136798 | 0 | 0.097694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109698 | 0.122188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165438 |
suicidewatch | bbhart1620 | 2019/01/25 | I’m really really really dumb high schooler Short rant kinda?
I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and half two months ago, it was along time coming and I emotionally prepared for it honestly since we hit a year. A month after the break up I started dating someone else, I’ve come to realize that I genuinely can’t fe... | 0.990363 | 3.295915 | 3.128433 | 88.574214 | 84.418994 | 6.485028 | 22.357821 | 7.734863 | 1.189932 | 682 | 24 | 141 | 13 | 20 | 231 | 116 | 179 | 0.13 | 0.713 | 0.156 | -0.5495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 17 | 21 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 78 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1066 | 0.430626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353915 | 0 | 0.122413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130488 | 0 | 0.124686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115171 | 0.120746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133123 | 0.144161 | 0 | 0.105559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086638 | 0 | 0.124655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246527 |
suicidewatch | itsnotcalledchads | 2019/01/25 | I want to die. I think about it a lot. A relationship that I have is in shambles. I don't want to exist. If there was a potion I could drink to kill myself I absolutely would. | -1.021053 | 1.040344 | 2.279263 | 92.257842 | 93.210526 | 5.145263 | 15.494737 | 6.742158 | -0.315596 | 134 | 3 | 32 | 2 | 5 | 48 | 28 | 38 | 0.244 | 0.682 | 0.074 | -0.8402 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2499 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jdpm1991 | 2019/01/25 | Do you ever wish your parents aborted you? With what you're going through now, do you hate that your mother didn't abort you? | 3.66 | 5.351618 | 3.445 | 92.6275 | 73 | 5 | 24.5 | 3.1291 | 0.1554 | 100 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 19 | 25 | 0.146 | 0.756 | 0.097 | -0.3313 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | riyaspaperclips | 2019/01/25 | I hate who I have become and I want to die for it here's some prior knowledge: I used to be happy and deeply satisfied just reading alone by myself, listening to my favorite music, watching gaming videos, and just enjoying comic books. I've changed drastically since then ever since someone has come into my life and it'... | 3.921283 | 4.964043 | 4.569933 | 87.35075 | 71.435897 | 6.978211 | 26.186786 | 7.068037 | 1.096053 | 3,337 | 104 | 684 | 29 | 61 | 1,067 | 338 | 858 | 0.132 | 0.73 | 0.138 | -0.3767 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 105 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 41 | 72 | 10 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 52 | 11 | 1 | 15 | 8 | 156 | 110 | 69 | 3 | 13 | 24 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 38 | 64 | 6 | 2 | 22 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 23 | 31 | 0 | 7 | 31 | 27 | 151 | 41 | 106 | 66 | 25 | 88 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 120 | 29 | 2 | 13 | 50 | 496 | 189 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046549 | 0 | 0.052584 | 0.108774 | 0 | 0 | 0.174778 | 0 | 0 | 0.03571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104156 | 0 | 0 | 0.086426 | 0.046747 | 0.049092 | 0 | 0.098674 | 0.040379 | 0.043846 | 0.128044 | 0.173987 | 0.044684 | 0 | 0.165326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053621 | 0.06006 | 0 | 0 | 0.166653 | 0.09047 | 0 | 0.056747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057682 | 0.033866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043867 | 0.059069 | 0 | 0.108519 | 0 | 0.069368 | 0.095001 | 0.088488 | 0.050178 | 0 | 0.051367 | 0.049504 | 0 | 0.159311 | 0 | 0.10084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044045 | 0.041999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279502 | 0 | 0.10369 | 0 | 0 | 0.059185 | 0 | 0.035198 | 0 | 0 | 0.104313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046675 | 0.116194 | 0 | 0.028859 | 0 | 0 | 0.055603 | 0 | 0.053697 | 0.037091 | 0.153929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044097 | 0 | 0 | 0.133933 | 0 | 0.049689 | 0.105157 | 0.159718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055812 | 0.038603 | 0 | 0.040501 | 0.050717 | 0.055848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110206 | 0.055924 | 0.106751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056866 | 0 | 0.036405 | 0.045852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052527 | 0 | 0 | 0.053991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044845 | 0.049951 | 0.08352 | 0 | 0.053145 | 0 | 0.047805 | 0.054782 | 0 | 0.053903 | 0.130316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133481 | 0 | 0 | 0.058783 | 0.185843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253245 | 0.045898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100943 | 0 | 0.041689 | 0.183722 | 0 | 0.149327 | 0.050178 | 0 | 0.106957 | 0 | 0.102594 | 0 | 0.063166 | 0.045354 | 0 | 0 | 0.061946 | 0.083364 | 0.042122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053515 | 0 | 0.057414 | 0 | 0.135265 |
suicidewatch | That_Introvert55 | 2019/01/25 | Hopeless, Lost, Confused I really screwed up my life. My stupidity and shyness has costed me so many opportunities. I failed college due to my epic stupidity. My mom called me a good for nothing loser and she's right. I crashed the family car. I flunked college. I gave my phone to a random stranger (don't ask me why). ... | -0.407024 | 1.813798 | 2.280682 | 92.133169 | 92.175355 | 5.099594 | 19.857989 | 6.709753 | 0.326346 | 773 | 26 | 172 | 11 | 28 | 267 | 116 | 211 | 0.196 | 0.675 | 0.13 | -0.9041 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 26 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 42 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 37 | 9 | 20 | 31 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 103 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08603 | 0 | 0 | 0.124461 | 0 | 0 | 0.245579 | 0 | 0.197577 | 0.093052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136102 | 0 | 0.074025 | 0.109249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115181 | 0 | 0.11668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184001 | 0.318172 | 0 | 0.115015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151232 | 0 | 0.16692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.470128 | 0 | 0 | 0.125558 | 0 | 0.094825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | apatheticpessimist | 2019/01/25 | I’m feeling this way again and I don’t know why. It’s like absolutely nothing has triggered my depression all over again. Help please I was doing so well but recently I’ve been having suicidal thoughts, not being able to go to sleep at night but feeling tired during the day, I’ve been binging and purging again, I’ve be... | 2.423286 | 5.29726 | 3.767961 | 82.160067 | 84.631068 | 6.664376 | 28.311426 | 7.882392 | 2.403816 | 870 | 42 | 150 | 18 | 26 | 284 | 116 | 206 | 0.206 | 0.677 | 0.117 | -0.9816 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 40 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 16 | 29 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 84 | 18 | 5 | 0.110949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150899 | 0 | 0.084876 | 0 | 0.110032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067634 | 0.122535 | 0.09441 | 0 | 0 | 0.098126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071553 | 0 | 0.382242 | 0 | 0 | 0.231837 | 0 | 0.113561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156734 | 0.108409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107156 | 0 | 0.208237 | 0 | 0.106459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193754 | 0 | 0.121789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112287 | 0 | 0 | 0.115744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11103 | 0.113099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176163 | 0 | 0.12752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088067 | 0 | 0 | 0.099757 | 0 | 0.100115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | llightningmcqueen | 2019/01/25 | life has come to an end i’m not myself anymore. i’m either angry, sad, or tired. i’ll have a happy period for a couple of hours once or twice a month. this has been going on for years. today i left my practice and just sat looking at traffic for half an hour and crying, calling my ex boyfriend to help me but hanging up... | 0.098219 | 2.344743 | 2.349174 | 92.856253 | 88.52381 | 4.133517 | 19.328502 | 5.51148 | -0.193751 | 699 | 21 | 147 | 4 | 23 | 236 | 114 | 189 | 0.208 | 0.675 | 0.117 | -0.9653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 44 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 20 | 4 | 20 | 37 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 97 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120468 | 0.084937 | 0 | 0.099962 | 0 | 0.227122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124037 | 0 | 0.12385 | 0 | 0 | 0.104638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134407 | 0.133432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107589 | 0 | 0 | 0.080232 | 0 | 0.102346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063465 | 0 | 0.276143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107418 | 0.12931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268784 | 0 | 0.133517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131981 | 0 | 0.0858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116557 | 0 | 0 | 0.129365 | 0 | 0.092386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558461 | 0.115142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10961 | 0 | 0 | 0.117096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078225 |
suicidewatch | ingomyfriend | 2019/01/25 | I’m gonna kill myself tomorrow I studied classical music, and I’m fairly good. Finished my B. Mus at a very demanding school and was on my way to apply at one of the best conservatories in the world for a master degree.
My parents let me take a gap year and stay at their house so I could study and practice for the exa... | 5.009654 | 5.242015 | 6.314423 | 78.734327 | 68.576923 | 9.115385 | 29.326923 | 9.017664 | 2.262731 | 1,011 | 34 | 202 | 17 | 16 | 343 | 141 | 260 | 0.133 | 0.763 | 0.104 | -0.8713 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 35 | 42 | 19 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 25 | 5 | 34 | 22 | 7 | 36 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 144 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268831 | 0 | 0.123285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127571 | 0.188274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129504 | 0.12015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248342 | 0 | 0 | 0.091486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095418 | 0 | 0.106199 | 0.074918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249247 | 0 | 0 | 0.077809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089254 | 0 | 0.113588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239255 | 0 | 0 | 0.128565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168773 | 0.09021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074564 | 0.071916 | 0 | 0.089102 | 0 | 0 | 0.106385 | 0 | 0.124697 | 0.0762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092605 | 0.198597 | 0.089087 | 0 | 0 | 0.100913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11398 | 0 | 0.079728 | 0 | 0 | 0.361378 |
suicidewatch | LoserJit | 2019/01/25 | For the ones that care about me. They're the only reason I live. I fucking hate being in this world. I'm sitting in my dorm room, barely high off Vicodin thanks to this 5 day binge I've been on. I've got practice in the morning and that shit's the only thing I care about but I'm in so much pain but no one can trust the... | -0.514122 | 1.48653 | 1.684675 | 98.420582 | 88.408284 | 4.176726 | 16.358974 | 5.369823 | -0.832324 | 1,190 | 26 | 284 | 6 | 39 | 398 | 160 | 338 | 0.256 | 0.63 | 0.114 | -0.9959 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 22 | 25 | 6 | 6 | 7 | 43 | 61 | 29 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 29 | 11 | 28 | 47 | 10 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 16 | 9 | 4 | 15 | 168 | 45 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069432 | 0 | 0 | 0.045049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059004 | 0 | 0 | 0.14298 | 0 | 0.063651 | 0 | 0.076697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085701 | 0 | 0.061735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048811 | 0.066847 | 0.062265 | 0 | 0.066417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20496 | 0.07722 | 0 | 0.042 | 0 | 0.295526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157337 | 0 | 0.145923 | 0 | 0.078553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052198 | 0 | 0 | 0.130511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098659 | 0 | 0.074243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074475 | 0 | 0.074619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054326 | 0 | 0.056997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07091 | 0 | 0.077546 | 0 | 0.250385 | 0.281024 | 0.157271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058889 | 0 | 0.077095 | 0 | 0.303432 | 0.061131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062616 | 0 | 0 | 0.082726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068038 | 0 | 0 | 0.098193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063827 | 0 | 0 | 0.043589 | 0 | 0 | 0.089991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04759 |
suicidewatch | ddjsdfkfsdkjf84728 | 2019/01/25 | i think i'm ready to die i've been suicidal on and off for seven years now and i'm just so tired. every time anything got better, i still knew deep down that i would come back here and i'd inevitably die by suicide someday. and what do you know, here i am! i thought things were getting better because that's what i kept... | -0.4459 | 1.387504 | 1.675583 | 99.747375 | 86.4 | 4.283333 | 19.375 | 5.148861 | -0.5865 | 519 | 15 | 130 | 2 | 16 | 173 | 83 | 150 | 0.198 | 0.73 | 0.072 | -0.9691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 29 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 16 | 17 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 83 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125877 | 0 | 0.099792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148078 | 0.137927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15134 | 0.171056 | 0 | 0.093036 | 0 | 0.130928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108757 | 0.104894 | 0 | 0.129962 | 0.095456 | 0.376304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193112 | 0.12994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11629 | 0 | 0 | 0.105419 |
suicidewatch | swisoncheese | 2019/01/25 | Would it be easier to take myself out of the equation? I only have one reason to live on this planet right now and that's to take care of my mom. In the past few years I've realized that I took everything that she offered for me in my life for granted and I don't know what I'm going to do when she leaves me. I was a pi... | 3.303777 | 4.224241 | 4.641429 | 86.721368 | 72.77724 | 7.585472 | 24.774818 | 7.891335 | 1.143633 | 3,110 | 89 | 677 | 41 | 59 | 1,034 | 282 | 826 | 0.113 | 0.788 | 0.099 | -0.731 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 36 | 40 | 10 | 3 | 35 | 1 | 70 | 11 | 6 | 14 | 8 | 134 | 154 | 45 | 0 | 26 | 26 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 41 | 35 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 26 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 18 | 113 | 20 | 104 | 115 | 7 | 92 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 65 | 41 | 7 | 8 | 38 | 455 | 154 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04728 | 0 | 0 | 0.044716 | 0.063054 | 0.046199 | 0.111313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042362 | 0 | 0.037647 | 0.137429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046041 | 0 | 0.137913 | 0.046319 | 0.047698 | 0 | 0.047275 | 0 | 0 | 0.107999 | 0 | 0 | 0.029079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039458 | 0.046141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037666 | 0 | 0.039935 | 0 | 0 | 0.238246 | 0.040785 | 0 | 0 | 0.040523 | 0 | 0.085011 | 0.050737 | 0.113991 | 0.032211 | 0.043292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049438 | 0.104506 | 0.083368 | 0.047114 | 0.12976 | 0.179375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040391 | 0.044516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044744 | 0 | 0 | 0.046953 | 0.123898 | 0 | 0 | 0.143228 | 0.048989 | 0.046106 | 0.063695 | 0.088112 | 0 | 0.199071 | 0.119706 | 0.227179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085328 | 0.270874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047832 | 0 | 0.21123 | 0 | 0 | 0.033145 | 0.033433 | 0.139101 | 0 | 0.047952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047313 | 0 | 0.122213 | 0.068584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043042 | 0.187553 | 0.07874 | 0 | 0 | 0.042623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045101 | 0 | 0.086655 | 0.092718 | 0 | 0.048408 | 0 | 0.154022 | 0.04289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07186 | 0 | 0.047037 | 0.050937 | 0.185132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045962 | 0.076407 | 0.034712 | 0.044594 | 0.050473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135605 | 0.108722 | 0.118229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086673 | 0 | 0 | 0.15775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050095 | 0.153062 | 0 | 0.044045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037203 | 0.265945 | 0 | 0.036168 | 0 | 0 | 0.041798 | 0.122057 | 0 | 0.05185 | 0.043464 | 0 | 0.098476 | 0 | 0 | 0.128119 | 0.147893 | 0 | 0.029036 |
suicidewatch | satanzkid | 2019/01/25 | . i feel so empty right now. not necessarily like a sad empty but just no emotion. i dont necessarily want to die and thats a first. im really mellow rn. i just dont care about anything. i have no feelings toward anything. im bored with everything. existing. everybody. im just breathing right now. im nothing else
this... | 0.487967 | 2.736526 | 2.946878 | 83.671699 | 103.146341 | 5.601301 | 23.75935 | 7.031649 | 1.630856 | 334 | 15 | 61 | 7 | 15 | 114 | 58 | 82 | 0.278 | 0.7 | 0.021 | -0.9598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 36 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126189 | 0.169919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | neverlandishome1 | 2019/01/25 | Need help This is more as a rant since I can't even think straight at the moment so enjoy my scatter thoughts.
I want to end it all. My boyfriend who lives with me knows that I'm depress and suicidal and knows of all my diagnoses and I'm honestly surprised he's even lasted this long so is my therapist and family. Typi... | 1.487979 | 3.510639 | 2.803507 | 93.293412 | 80.417004 | 6.383873 | 21.627699 | 7.492282 | 0.645888 | 932 | 28 | 209 | 14 | 24 | 301 | 136 | 247 | 0.153 | 0.765 | 0.082 | -0.9554 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 37 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 29 | 7 | 26 | 28 | 9 | 38 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 137 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227271 | 0.267823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116855 | 0 | 0 | 0.261426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124377 | 0 | 0.06671 | 0.094254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275723 | 0 | 0.149963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088433 | 0 | 0.264683 | 0 | 0 | 0.152235 | 0.141239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145016 | 0.107545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09319 | 0.064457 | 0.132234 | 0.116501 | 0.233517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099199 | 0 | 0.115317 | 0 | 0 | 0.153187 | 0.087652 | 0.084539 | 0.129626 | 0.104742 | 0.076932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway46178395 | 2019/01/25 | I just need to make it through until I can get counseling. It’s getting hard. I hate myself and I know a lot of the stuff that’s wrong with me but I don’t know how to fix it. I asked for an appointment at a counseling center but haven’t heard back yet. I’m just getting really uncomfortable being inside my own head and ... | 0.67549 | 2.110387 | 3.059412 | 93.31402 | 80.568627 | 6.494118 | 19.176471 | 7.38713 | 0.1966 | 356 | 8 | 87 | 5 | 9 | 123 | 62 | 102 | 0.104 | 0.838 | 0.058 | -0.4835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 25 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 11 | 21 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 66 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229883 | 0 | 0 | 0.189082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220278 | 0.242775 | 0.252364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209055 | 0 | 0 | 0.16414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180765 | 0.182332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268853 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LoLTAJ | 2019/01/25 | Can I talk to someone? Long story short, had an extremely tough year. Just need someone to talk to. Doesn't really matter what. I'll listen to you rant, just.. need someone to talk to. | 0.748333 | 3.282597 | 2.295778 | 91.427 | 91.222222 | 5.102222 | 18.311111 | 6.742158 | 0.301618 | 142 | 4 | 28 | 2 | 5 | 46 | 24 | 36 | 0.155 | 0.845 | 0 | -0.5398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.601264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160576 |
suicidewatch | Madandworthless | 2019/01/25 | That’s it! I’m done! Goodbye! I’m a lazy fucking shit, I have the capability to make things better, but...Jesus what’s the point of this? These are only words on a screen, you don’t care. goodbye cruel world.
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suicidewatch | sn2606 | 2019/01/25 | NUMB I literally don't feel anything. I have an exam in 2 hours and I have not studied at all for it. And I feel *nothing*. | -2.956667 | -2.122935 | 1.024259 | 95.734167 | 121.222222 | 3.281481 | 19.314815 | 5.461319 | -0.148896 | 93 | 4 | 22 | 1 | 6 | 34 | 21 | 27 | 0.135 | 0.865 | 0 | -0.4824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.519731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.506394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mrbigglsworth1 | 2019/01/25 | I almost did it I've been so depressed its ruined every aspect of my life, my job, my marriage, my relationship with my kids. I alsmt did it dota. The taste of the barrel in my mouth. I dont know what I'm more angry with. That I I couldnt do it or that I'd leave my children like that. Please someone tell me I mean som... | -0.768372 | 1.318026 | 1.613427 | 97.546088 | 91.535211 | 3.718936 | 16.339593 | 5.033349 | -0.90471 | 252 | 6 | 59 | 1 | 9 | 85 | 47 | 71 | 0.174 | 0.758 | 0.067 | -0.8224 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154873 | 0 | 0 | 0.298391 | 0 | 0 | 0.199047 | 0.137676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238772 | 0.216947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ProudJellyfish | 2019/01/25 | Mid-30s, I live in the Grand Canyon, it should be so easy... Living here for nearly a year (stable job, not affected by the govt shutdown). This has been the happiest, yet most lonely I've ever felt. I really can't put it into words.
I've never really had any luck with men. One 3 year relationship. Up here, I'm so hap... | 3.313432 | 4.449097 | 4.462526 | 87.194417 | 72.993289 | 7.163148 | 21.599146 | 7.520523 | 0.622988 | 1,137 | 24 | 242 | 13 | 22 | 373 | 158 | 298 | 0.067 | 0.834 | 0.099 | 0.8145 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 54 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 26 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 60 | 43 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 22 | 9 | 35 | 26 | 7 | 41 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 169 | 34 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132069 | 0.180871 | 0.084236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09425 | 0 | 0.050552 | 0 | 0.095994 | 0 | 0.091378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098994 | 0.08841 | 0.212857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105632 | 0 | 0.099301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112863 | 0 | 0 | 0.099213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054945 | 0.081495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.529694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079801 | 0.106261 | 0 | 0 | 0.231327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128097 | 0 | 0 | 0.107339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2001 | 0 | 0.169422 | 0.076968 | 0 | 0 | 0.070765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079371 | 0.058298 | 0 | 0 | 0.095533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29114 | 0 | 0.101886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128765 |
suicidewatch | Oneexpresspurpose | 2019/01/25 | I dont even know why I'm here. In my head this weekend is the last stop. Since this past November I've just been becoming more and more emotionally drained I didnt even think I'd make it past new years but somehow I did And somehow it's only been getting worse. I feel guilty for the few people I know it would really hu... | 2.24549 | 4.070337 | 3.290784 | 91.655196 | 77.235294 | 6.101961 | 23.098039 | 6.937598 | 0.611698 | 390 | 12 | 84 | 4 | 9 | 125 | 72 | 102 | 0.172 | 0.732 | 0.096 | -0.8463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 19 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 51 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180335 | 0 | 0 | 0.149637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200826 | 0.154731 | 0 | 0.190828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199867 | 0.148222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133672 | 0 | 0 | 0.175621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34717 | 0.126064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17138 | 0 | 0 | 0.146155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164081 | 0 | 0.209105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184666 | 0.185309 | 0.129173 | 0 | 0 | 0.117098 |
suicidewatch | NaomiIsBroken | 2019/01/25 | I'm done. I am so tired of fighting. What am I even fighting for? For another day of being a useless crap person. For another day of being a terrible wife to a husband who deserves so much better. For another day of being a terrible mother. For another day of lying in bed, eating my depression, while my family tries to... | 3.619877 | 4.349379 | 4.978645 | 85.305565 | 71.875536 | 8.228433 | 27.438036 | 8.472885 | 1.782082 | 879 | 30 | 186 | 14 | 16 | 294 | 119 | 233 | 0.248 | 0.64 | 0.112 | -0.9891 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 36 | 28 | 25 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 26 | 6 | 30 | 18 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 136 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096732 | 0 | 0.07469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063513 | 0.489676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098015 | 0.165205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361401 | 0 | 0.080443 | 0 | 0.096932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095578 | 0 | 0 | 0.108311 | 0.095569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096504 | 0 | 0.061688 | 0 | 0 | 0.089245 | 0 | 0 | 0.176093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18737 | 0 | 0.091978 | 0 | 0.099984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205973 | 0.069253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099549 | 0 | 0.156169 | 0 | 0.097639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102864 | 0 | 0.055088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270095 | 0 | 0.067994 | 0 | 0.09518 | 0.132694 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mfdanger33 | 2019/01/25 | I want to die ugh fuck everything life sucks | -0.34 | 1.143649 | 0.587222 | 98.8675 | 115.666667 | 6.244444 | 15.611111 | 7.168622 | 0.561844 | 36 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 9 | 0.747 | 0.176 | 0.076 | -0.9081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.548034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | marvinthedeafmartian | 2019/01/25 | I finally found the perfect method. I figured it out. I bought it, I’ve picked my date, I’m ready. I’m coming for you, Death. I hope you have something fun planned for when I get there. | -1.030769 | 1.055995 | 0.560385 | 102.622115 | 98.74359 | 3.625641 | 19.320513 | 5.461319 | -0.479995 | 142 | 5 | 34 | 1 | 6 | 45 | 28 | 39 | 0.092 | 0.615 | 0.293 | 0.8176 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490525 | 0 | 0 | 0.233736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TimDjoker | 2019/01/25 | Suicidal every other night I still keep a noose in a stack of tires in my backyard behind the fense. I've essentially been repeating the same uneventful day for almost two years of my life. Every attempt to change this has just blown up in my face. After a bunch of stupid arguments with my parents (im a 19yo jobless lo... | 3.479711 | 5.392088 | 4.401952 | 84.653454 | 73.982456 | 7.837719 | 24.857456 | 8.598638 | 1.694956 | 1,148 | 37 | 226 | 22 | 24 | 371 | 184 | 285 | 0.099 | 0.825 | 0.076 | -0.8642 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 20 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 34 | 40 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 23 | 8 | 41 | 24 | 7 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 145 | 30 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095217 | 0.098483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064663 | 0.099709 | 0 | 0 | 0.094302 | 0.132976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089339 | 0 | 0 | 0.057965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097308 | 0.222886 | 0 | 0.110272 | 0 | 0.079434 | 0 | 0 | 0.196504 | 0 | 0.188415 | 0 | 0.160232 | 0.090861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104165 | 0 | 0.080882 | 0 | 0 | 0.073465 | 0 | 0.149039 | 0 | 0.054041 | 0.239267 | 0.152102 | 0 | 0.104751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205424 | 0 | 0.094361 | 0.253557 | 0 | 0 | 0.052258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134328 | 0.046455 | 0 | 0.251894 | 0.08415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101064 | 0 | 0.070507 | 0.220014 | 0.091837 | 0 | 0.089234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101266 | 0 | 0.072319 | 0 | 0 | 0.105584 | 0.102971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075773 | 0 | 0.099198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055447 | 0.21858 | 0 | 0 | 0.105647 | 0.129118 | 0 | 0.092888 | 0 | 0 | 0.082126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075477 | 0 | 0 | 0.085496 | 0 | 0.171605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122468 |
suicidewatch | LiterallyAHouse | 2019/01/25 | I can’t do this I can’t deal with it anymore. It’s too much stress. There’s no point to go on if this is what my life is like, but maybe I’ll post here to see.
To preface, I tried to commit suicide about a year ago, but chickened out. The only reason I don’t is because of my Mom. She is the most amazing person and I ... | 0.64327 | 2.354499 | 2.455293 | 96.303483 | 81.722117 | 5.744287 | 20.220832 | 6.742158 | 0.032483 | 1,885 | 51 | 460 | 20 | 50 | 624 | 221 | 529 | 0.143 | 0.745 | 0.112 | -0.9658 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 52 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 23 | 6 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 43 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 76 | 79 | 40 | 2 | 15 | 24 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 36 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 63 | 13 | 61 | 54 | 9 | 63 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 63 | 24 | 3 | 11 | 31 | 305 | 99 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.136382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138601 | 0 | 0 | 0.057504 | 0 | 0.19598 | 0 | 0 | 0.107464 | 0 | 0.127791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071353 | 0 | 0.142491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046154 | 0.126418 | 0.058875 | 0 | 0.062802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064601 | 0.109525 | 0 | 0.158854 | 0 | 0.055888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061793 | 0 | 0.062597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062111 | 0 | 0 | 0.076806 | 0.11392 | 0 | 0.147982 | 0.075923 | 0.071455 | 0.148071 | 0.170695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059408 | 0.063068 | 0 | 0.046644 | 0 | 0.070202 | 0.076118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409203 | 0 | 0 | 0.102737 | 0.103628 | 0.107789 | 0 | 0 | 0.065576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074418 | 0.094703 | 0.053146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075671 | 0 | 0 | 0.12203 | 0 | 0 | 0.066058 | 0.078777 | 0.066924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070247 | 0.07828 | 0 | 0.139794 | 0 | 0 | 0.143693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06647 | 0.27785 | 0 | 0 | 0.055684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053796 | 0 | 0 | 0.04946 | 0.074481 | 0.11161 | 0 | 0.080045 | 0 | 0 | 0.152871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05254 | 0.280827 | 0 | 0.064334 | 0 | 0 | 0.139272 | 0 | 0.068655 | 0 | 0.040747 | 0 | 0.066236 | 0 | 0 | 0.189771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057657 | 0.041216 | 0.055466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099279 | 0 | 0 | 0.089999 |
suicidewatch | Really_JustALaugh | 2019/01/25 | Just a bit lost, I hope. What a strange feeling, to say any of this openly.
I've read writing helps, I hope it does.
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I'm actually not even sure when it started. At least a year or two now.
I remember reading somewhere that almost everyone will briefly think about suicide, in passing. So I didn't think... | 0.906996 | 3.237312 | 2.349597 | 93.830272 | 85.104369 | 5.351043 | 21.751394 | 6.761326 | 0.464721 | 3,141 | 107 | 681 | 38 | 94 | 1,014 | 310 | 824 | 0.093 | 0.792 | 0.115 | 0.9266 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 233 | 5 | 4 | 18 | 9 | 49 | 46 | 7 | 1 | 50 | 0 | 79 | 15 | 5 | 11 | 10 | 140 | 157 | 38 | 5 | 17 | 19 | 5 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 40 | 24 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 18 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 15 | 102 | 29 | 89 | 115 | 30 | 91 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 68 | 38 | 0 | 20 | 35 | 457 | 142 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.047063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042751 | 0 | 0.096586 | 0.049949 | 0.05322 | 0 | 0 | 0.052254 | 0 | 0.098389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151835 | 0.042653 | 0.052652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098491 | 0 | 0.049171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038506 | 0 | 0 | 0.031103 | 0.04972 | 0.041538 | 0 | 0.050053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095561 | 0.043625 | 0.040634 | 0.046083 | 0.043344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195082 | 0.068907 | 0 | 0.052831 | 0.044079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191862 | 0.040451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154017 | 0 | 0 | 0.049495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096978 | 0 | 0 | 0.095802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095717 | 0.1286 | 0.053357 | 0 | 0.106018 | 0 | 0.054403 | 0.051066 | 0.052399 | 0.049316 | 0.272516 | 0.070685 | 0 | 0.042586 | 0.04268 | 0 | 0 | 0.052646 | 0.123004 | 0.043527 | 0.045634 | 0.032192 | 0 | 0.096902 | 0.105068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106358 | 0.07152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050607 | 0 | 0.098041 | 0.036679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156677 | 0 | 0.06687 | 0 | 0.100775 | 0 | 0 | 0.054369 | 0.046189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145446 | 0 | 0 | 0.144722 | 0.054893 | 0.030896 | 0.099172 | 0 | 0.051778 | 0.109265 | 0 | 0 | 0.076705 | 0.048284 | 0.048809 | 0.076862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079789 | 0.05421 | 0 | 0 | 0.163452 | 0.074256 | 0 | 0 | 0.068271 | 0 | 0.077029 | 0.080641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158259 | 0.109456 | 0.045454 | 0 | 0 | 0.077527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401729 | 0 | 0.076574 | 0.056244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052458 | 0.047111 | 0.050207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052301 | 0 | 0 | 0.049148 | 0.102778 | 0.052729 | 0 | 0.093171 |
suicidewatch | 26LT | 2019/01/25 | Goodbye to those memories. Goodbye to the good times I had. You are all great memories that make me happy, but at the same time I can't stand the nostalgia...knowing that I will never be able to relive you. And if I can't, there's simply no point in living anymore. If I've already reached my happiest, even if I have mo... | 1.245957 | 2.7292 | 3.037239 | 93.890181 | 79.070093 | 5.655064 | 20.913362 | 6.243974 | 0.056294 | 1,535 | 40 | 355 | 11 | 37 | 512 | 184 | 428 | 0.11 | 0.723 | 0.167 | 0.9782 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 57 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 23 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 37 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 77 | 76 | 36 | 1 | 8 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 54 | 17 | 43 | 54 | 12 | 49 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 18 | 0 | 7 | 27 | 236 | 79 | 3 | 0.074778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370798 | 0 | 0 | 0.061536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078475 | 0.066135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085526 | 0.076241 | 0 | 0 | 0.128829 | 0 | 0.080808 | 0.08387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066231 | 0 | 0 | 0.04939 | 0 | 0.126007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18905 | 0.106843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090422 | 0 | 0.057773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042498 | 0.188161 | 0 | 0.082443 | 0 | 0 | 0.066126 | 0.238808 | 0 | 0.073828 | 0.153488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082731 | 0 | 0.246576 | 0 | 0 | 0.158358 | 0.081246 | 0 | 0.105636 | 0.109598 | 0 | 0.132061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081629 | 0.127147 | 0.06749 | 0 | 0.149745 | 0 | 0.075125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05497 | 0.055447 | 0.17302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050671 | 0.113744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155525 | 0.130586 | 0 | 0 | 0.212068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064584 | 0 | 0 | 0.044106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269902 | 0 | 0.085991 | 0.072083 | 0 | 0.054439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096309 |
suicidewatch | bloodtotheliver | 2019/01/25 | The end. People call me strong.
At the age of 18 I've been dealing with 13 years of trauma, illness (chronic and mental), abuse, suicidal ideation, ect.. after my 3rd attempt I feared the idea of living after.
The wards when your not an adult.. very scary. I didn't want to live. I didn't want to survive to see the re... | 1.557168 | 3.805705 | 3.057231 | 90.335341 | 81.522523 | 6.203212 | 22.715237 | 7.423996 | 0.929609 | 856 | 29 | 179 | 13 | 23 | 280 | 134 | 222 | 0.213 | 0.622 | 0.164 | -0.7743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 30 | 32 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 24 | 8 | 36 | 24 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 102 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 0.138336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131382 | 0.177105 | 0.08341 | 0 | 0 | 0.106712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124989 | 0.131802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123627 | 0 | 0 | 0.329871 | 0.057041 | 0 | 0.412388 | 0 | 0 | 0.261238 | 0 | 0 | 0.210752 | 0 | 0.15587 | 0 | 0.234593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079116 | 0 | 0.248472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080943 | 0 | 0 | 0.128162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087785 | 0.093843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121546 | 0 | 0.100839 | 0 | 0.096335 | 0.206596 | 0.092675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075187 |
suicidewatch | killmeplzzzzzzzzzzzz | 2019/01/25 | I lay in bed all day I have no money and lay in bed all day, in my sisters house. She brings me food and is sweet to me. My life is pointless and I’m getting too old to be dealing with this. I wish I would have died the last time I was in my boyfriends arms. | -0.866554 | 0.723384 | 1.045 | 105.084675 | 86.288136 | 3.933333 | 18.30791 | 3.1291 | -1.124595 | 196 | 5 | 54 | 0 | 6 | 64 | 39 | 59 | 0.095 | 0.804 | 0.101 | 0.0836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 34 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383674 | 0.306668 | 0 | 0 | 0.308717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211307 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LeftDragonfly | 2019/01/25 | Bought $90k of PG&E stock at $17, sold at $7. Now it's back up and I just want to die I bought $90k shares worth of PG&E almost 2 weeks ago @ $17.7 per share. Then it tumbled, and last week I sold my 5000 shares of PG&E stock last week for $7. I was crying at that point and thought that would be the end of ... | 0.588631 | 2.560271 | 2.064094 | 97.664113 | 83.330709 | 4.852574 | 21.580254 | 5.873415 | -0.059144 | 462 | 15 | 109 | 3 | 13 | 149 | 73 | 127 | 0.162 | 0.738 | 0.1 | -0.92 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 17 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 56 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125919 | 0 | 0.142243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157157 | 0 | 0 | 0.23158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094372 | 0 | 0 | 0.112772 | 0 | 0 | 0.269294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16757 | 0 | 0.341832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144761 | 0.201817 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | postapocalypticrat | 2019/01/25 | I'm really really worried and I don't know what to do? Ok so a friend messaged me while I was asleep ( just a "heyy" but I still feel incredibly guilty for not being awake ) and posted a couple posts about suicide on amino and I'm really scared shes dead?? It could just be she's busy but after that I'm scared. I havent... | 1.658261 | 3.271058 | 3.858768 | 87.879891 | 78.275362 | 7.788406 | 21.644928 | 8.598638 | 1.180988 | 508 | 14 | 115 | 11 | 12 | 175 | 83 | 138 | 0.298 | 0.585 | 0.117 | -0.9899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 29 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 10 | 23 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 75 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143135 | 0.198362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138506 | 0 | 0.093663 | 0 | 0.101885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343388 | 0 | 0.193287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12689 | 0 | 0.143168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147919 | 0 | 0 | 0.143802 | 0 | 0.161188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KariChrist | 2019/01/25 | Before I kill myself.. I've decided to kill myself... But first, I have to complete my list. I'm calling it my Either/Or List, this is not a bucket list, this is a checklist of things I need to do to help out the people I leave behind.
My theory: Either I will complete my list and by that time I'll be happy/content a... | 4.163244 | 6.471317 | 4.62967 | 82.024823 | 73.186047 | 7.317013 | 28.990208 | 8.205008 | 2.256302 | 910 | 38 | 158 | 15 | 19 | 288 | 121 | 215 | 0.119 | 0.806 | 0.075 | -0.9146 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 27 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 4 | 24 | 19 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 106 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085264 | 0.124942 | 0.100347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106711 | 0.124787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41096 | 0 | 0.219184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111451 | 0.103722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404727 | 0 | 0.134031 | 0 | 0 | 0.129117 | 0 | 0 | 0.08613 | 0.119148 | 0 | 0.107676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162024 | 0.234403 | 0 | 0.096807 | 0.213313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Parzival_04 | 2019/01/25 | it’s not enough time i’ve been nothing but kind to her. i give and i give and i sacrifice so much and it doesn’t feel like she even notices me and when she does i feel like she just wants me away. i’m not obsessed, as much as is sounds like i am, i’m really not. idk if anyone else has ever felt so much love for a certa... | -0.314835 | 1.571257 | 2.209724 | 95.792022 | 86.28972 | 5.590898 | 16.313694 | 6.895973 | -0.302304 | 748 | 15 | 183 | 10 | 23 | 257 | 103 | 214 | 0.093 | 0.718 | 0.189 | 0.9723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 45 | 40 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 31 | 9 | 20 | 36 | 7 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 118 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07705 | 0.112907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103531 | 0 | 0 | 0.067173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092053 | 0 | 0 | 0.11386 | 0 | 0.072782 | 0.199354 | 0 | 0.105295 | 0.099035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167152 | 0.157445 | 0.211607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317124 | 0 | 0.092426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11475 | 0.302799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351356 | 0.324021 | 0 | 0.169977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105734 | 0.125457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093367 | 0 | 0 | 0.123353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129991 | 0.087467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12048 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatCrAzYSmileGirl | 2019/01/25 | I'm proud but I shouldn't be (F/13) Today I did something that I am very proud of myself for doing, but I shouldn't be. I got the razor blade out of a pencil and started cutting with that yesterday. I had never cut below the skin before. I kept trying to, but I couldn't do it. I eventually tried using the corner of i... | 1.495624 | 3.057474 | 3.453208 | 90.83442 | 78.589041 | 5.889065 | 19.745494 | 6.596605 | 0.108775 | 798 | 18 | 176 | 7 | 19 | 270 | 115 | 219 | 0.093 | 0.733 | 0.174 | 0.9704 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 33 | 45 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 29 | 6 | 20 | 23 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 128 | 43 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092243 | 0.13517 | 0 | 0.117439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080419 | 0 | 0.112257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13499 | 0.110204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112213 | 0 | 0 | 0.101923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149949 | 0 | 0.105511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117259 | 0 | 0 | 0.145003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112156 | 0 | 0.249657 | 0.088059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089394 | 0.300999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101561 | 0 | 0.147677 | 0.093376 | 0 | 0.210707 | 0.110293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259227 | 0 | 0.076925 | 0 | 0.125047 | 0.126058 | 0 | 0.179134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113939 | 0 | 0.10885 | 0.077811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122294 | 0.11904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | transmanofsteel | 2019/01/25 | Am I lucky or am I incredibly unlucky? I was unresponsive and blue when they found me hanging from my bathroom doorknob, the ambulance rushed me to the hospital....I had been raped two weeks before that. Everyone tells me how lucky I am that I survived...I'm not so sure sometimes. | 3.7875 | 6.343632 | 4.577538 | 80.767462 | 75.346154 | 8.006154 | 31.553846 | 8.841846 | 2.952726 | 221 | 11 | 40 | 5 | 5 | 71 | 40 | 52 | 0.132 | 0.764 | 0.104 | -0.3556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 29 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadallthetimes | 2019/01/25 | I can’t take it anymore I’m lying to everyone I’m the worse I have ever been im so lonely, I’m so sad the pain has never felt so bad the person I love doesn’t love me my family hate me and my sister emotional abuses my past my heart can’t take this anymore my body has honestly given up I can’t eat I can’t sleep my mind... | -2.215909 | -0.416956 | 1.555212 | 95.667818 | 100.666667 | 4.155152 | 13.418182 | 5.985473 | -0.829662 | 446 | 9 | 108 | 5 | 20 | 163 | 71 | 132 | 0.288 | 0.6 | 0.113 | -0.9823 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 32 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 20 | 3 | 10 | 28 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 67 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0.168317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563538 | 0.099331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145362 | 0 | 0.159797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093829 | 0.128501 | 0 | 0.135744 | 0 | 0 | 0.133921 | 0 | 0.071829 | 0 | 0.136399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256428 | 0 | 0.094826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10443 | 0 | 0.109565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135611 | 0 | 0.124041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hannatos | 2019/01/25 | Ive been so low for so long, tonight I decided to write my feelings. I quite like an analogy I thought of... So i was planning to post here about 2 hours ago, just to ramble about how i feel. Instead I decided to start writing what was on my mind. It just poured out after I started, and 12 pages later I thought of a go... | 2.375328 | 3.811478 | 3.78098 | 89.956765 | 75.857143 | 7.036415 | 25.686275 | 7.724431 | 1.255031 | 786 | 28 | 172 | 11 | 17 | 259 | 122 | 210 | 0.18 | 0.645 | 0.175 | -0.8047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 39 | 35 | 17 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 32 | 6 | 24 | 24 | 7 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 121 | 43 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099957 | 0 | 0.103712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064754 | 0 | 0.082602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051221 | 0 | 0 | 0.082231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131427 | 0 | 0 | 0.097375 | 0.096549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108466 | 0 | 0.05388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095794 | 0 | 0 | 0.086761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083349 | 0.088484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104004 | 0.098991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199301 | 0.149126 | 0.521602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098556 | 0 | 0.104277 | 0 | 0 | 0.062806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138785 | 0 | 0 | 0.081965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125639 | 0 | 0.233496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107976 | 0 | 0.115652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jerry_poppins | 2019/01/25 | Will I make it past 25? Who knows. I just read a similar post about having a feeling like you were destined to die. I can relate to that so much. I’m 21 years old (yeah, yeah. Best years of my life) but I have this odd feeling in the pit of my stomach. I feel like I’m not going to live a very long life. I always felt a... | -0.959494 | 1.123824 | 1.678571 | 96.45489 | 93.336735 | 4.443956 | 17.742543 | 6.093298 | -0.336151 | 695 | 20 | 164 | 7 | 26 | 238 | 114 | 196 | 0.204 | 0.554 | 0.242 | 0.3438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 39 | 8 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 27 | 13 | 17 | 29 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 95 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129431 | 0.109078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311806 | 0.352438 | 0.11842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190574 | 0 | 0.19331 | 0 | 0.140187 | 0.206893 | 0 | 0 | 0.135866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109624 | 0.13645 | 0 | 0.067781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261342 | 0.241018 | 0 | 0.108906 | 0.109146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129418 | 0 | 0 | 0.093801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118119 | 0 | 0 | 0.118014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123367 | 0 | 0.079011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11785 | 0 | 0 | 0.134151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203526 | 0.072745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087613 | 0 | 0 | 0.158845 |
suicidewatch | Bipolarbear2019 | 2019/01/25 | I lied to my psychiatrist Hi all,
This is my first Reddit post, I never really talk about anything to anyone but I need to get this off my chest, sorry to seem like a pain.
I have severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), anxiety and bipolar, having been diagnosed in 2017 (although I can’t remember a day I never wa... | 4.795 | 5.253565 | 6.034592 | 79.760965 | 69.095541 | 9.592102 | 29.871975 | 9.642633 | 2.581664 | 2,450 | 89 | 501 | 52 | 40 | 825 | 255 | 628 | 0.193 | 0.688 | 0.119 | -0.9942 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 71 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 28 | 36 | 0 | 6 | 24 | 2 | 58 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 91 | 107 | 51 | 3 | 8 | 18 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 22 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 33 | 5 | 87 | 21 | 72 | 66 | 12 | 59 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 35 | 348 | 107 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.067427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144905 | 0.052858 | 0 | 0 | 0.048313 | 0 | 0.113719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129835 | 0.15939 | 0.057692 | 0.04212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072511 | 0.122218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055167 | 0 | 0 | 0.089122 | 0 | 0.119023 | 0.07013 | 0 | 0 | 0.158378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071394 | 0 | 0.091274 | 0.062501 | 0.058216 | 0 | 0.124197 | 0 | 0.195411 | 0 | 0.10481 | 0.049362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180497 | 0 | 0.157074 | 0 | 0.165786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073445 | 0 | 0.081878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068045 | 0 | 0.073968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303784 | 0.056322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146412 | 0.168782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062361 | 0.06538 | 0 | 0.070052 | 0.069416 | 0 | 0.076749 | 0.208819 | 0.069632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073437 | 0.050793 | 0.051233 | 0.213162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065959 | 0.047902 | 0 | 0.07219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078272 | 0.059007 | 0 | 0 | 0.207529 | 0 | 0.05506 | 0.062902 | 0 | 0.078058 | 0 | 0.114313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068337 | 0.23204 | 0 | 0 | 0.110359 | 0.057767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155853 | 0.055536 | 0 | 0.063614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044273 | 0.135772 | 0 | 0.12087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075156 | 0.067496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057011 | 0.081508 | 0.054845 | 0.055424 | 0 | 0.062125 | 0 | 0.124696 | 0 | 0 | 0.066605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070414 | 0 | 0.075545 | 0 | 0.044495 |
suicidewatch | IAmThe11 | 2019/01/25 | I'm in a bad way I'm addition to being Autistic, I have a mental illness and I'm just done trying to fight an uphill battle. My thoughts are turning to suicide. The world sees me as nothing more than a burden. I have to take three medicines just to keep my mood stable and to sleep. They have severe sexual side effects ... | 1.849179 | 4.043267 | 2.888704 | 92.25216 | 80.094527 | 5.61204 | 20.497761 | 6.742158 | 0.278793 | 779 | 21 | 163 | 8 | 20 | 248 | 124 | 201 | 0.198 | 0.651 | 0.151 | -0.8666 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 36 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 19 | 10 | 25 | 30 | 4 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 101 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146675 | 0 | 0 | 0.10765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135302 | 0.114027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114192 | 0 | 0 | 0.085156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19557 | 0.184213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114597 | 0 | 0 | 0.070856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140081 | 0 | 0 | 0.125976 | 0 | 0 | 0.114097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198875 | 0 | 0 | 0.241981 | 0 | 0.12371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123077 | 0 | 0.112575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128963 | 0 | 0.082595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102739 | 0 | 0 | 0.145652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193876 | 0 | 0 | 0.1187 | 0 | 0 | 0.085654 | 0 | 0 | 0.102355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087534 | 0.140237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076045 | 0.102337 | 0 | 0 | 0.115922 | 0 | 0.116338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083026 |
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