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suicidewatch | Notforlong1989 | 2019/05/08 | One More Day So I have been struggling with severe depression and anxiety for about 4-5 months. I have had multiple depressions, each one worse than the one preceding it. I am being treated for bipolar II which might make sense but Hypomania is hard to pinpoint. I have been in sales since I graduated with a marketing d... | 1.616155 | 3.754524 | 2.732151 | 93.362947 | 80.601732 | 6.095313 | 22.16469 | 7.255503 | 0.621196 | 884 | 28 | 195 | 12 | 23 | 282 | 131 | 231 | 0.166 | 0.669 | 0.165 | 0.7687 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 31 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 39 | 50 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 23 | 8 | 21 | 39 | 8 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 133 | 34 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102438 | 0.083838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087052 | 0 | 0 | 0.421894 | 0 | 0.187816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165387 | 0.077891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061965 | 0.09145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09767 | 0.107645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077011 | 0.053267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196809 | 0 | 0.218336 | 0 | 0.219072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115664 | 0 | 0 | 0.087027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443291 | 0 | 0.116016 | 0 | 0.121065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110345 | 0.086883 | 0 | 0 | 0.123173 | 0 | 0.090191 | 0 | 0 | 0.111143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087072 | 0 | 0 | 0.113982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14487 | 0 | 0.107122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089962 | 0.128618 | 0.086543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121729 | 0.12538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | friednoodles174 | 2019/05/08 | Looking for a friend Hi I was just looking for someone to talk to... | -0.435714 | 1.811888 | 1.468571 | 97.001429 | 94.714286 | 2.8 | 28.428571 | 3.1291 | 0.5054 | 52 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 0.775 | 0.225 | 0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.768058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jonaselder | 2019/05/08 | Me and a gun 4am My wife who is my best friend in whom I confided everything left me.
No counseling. No discussion. Just done.
I'm 36 and have a background of abuse. As such I'm estranged from my entire family. I don't have close friends.
I have my 45 though. Clean, cold, loaded.
Even if I have the strength to put ... | -0.191496 | 2.110282 | 1.624833 | 96.204948 | 93.303797 | 5.151208 | 17.941312 | 6.782985 | 0.05023 | 592 | 17 | 134 | 9 | 22 | 193 | 100 | 158 | 0.172 | 0.667 | 0.161 | 0.5426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 14 | 19 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 83 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0.189509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139969 | 0.16368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143749 | 0 | 0.150782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136049 | 0 | 0 | 0.37072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173781 | 0 | 0.112974 | 0.234424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110886 | 0 | 0.167109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145608 | 0.166858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157146 | 0 | 0.093265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113621 | 0.174875 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hollow123456789 | 2019/05/08 | Can weed or other drugs help with suicidal thoughts? I tried killing myself twice. I can't live like this, every day hurts. I have spasms during the day because of painful memories in my life and at night I have nightmares.
I don't want to go to doctors or therapists or take their meds because the main reason for my d... | 3.029159 | 4.924852 | 3.863598 | 88.099709 | 75.196319 | 6.620333 | 23.912796 | 7.44753 | 1.044937 | 645 | 20 | 128 | 8 | 14 | 206 | 104 | 163 | 0.223 | 0.716 | 0.061 | -0.9769 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 27 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 19 | 4 | 18 | 22 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 79 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0.284506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131882 | 0.154859 | 0 | 0.103409 | 0 | 0 | 0.125439 | 0 | 0.122888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117614 | 0.278466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079299 | 0 | 0.101157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127808 | 0 | 0.118536 | 0 | 0.255239 | 0 | 0 | 0.160949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084803 | 0.058656 | 0 | 0.106016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266722 | 0 | 0.362981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120094 | 0 | 0 | 0.123443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PM_ME_SOVIET_TANKS | 2019/05/08 | I'm not depressed. But sometimes I feel like something takes complete control over me, and really wants to kill me. So, hey, I guess, I'm a 16 year old dude who tried to kill himself about a month or two ago, and who thinks about trying again every single day.
Since like four years ago, I've been dealing with inc... | 6.007296 | 5.856102 | 6.399395 | 80.287891 | 66.464213 | 9.357902 | 31.574715 | 8.942965 | 2.44147 | 1,942 | 69 | 386 | 29 | 28 | 629 | 232 | 489 | 0.168 | 0.693 | 0.139 | -0.9747 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 65 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 23 | 30 | 9 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 94 | 81 | 38 | 6 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 22 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 15 | 63 | 13 | 65 | 63 | 13 | 58 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 36 | 18 | 1 | 9 | 32 | 261 | 86 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118936 | 0 | 0.067177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045621 | 0.070346 | 0 | 0.075788 | 0 | 0.046908 | 0 | 0.055206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12606 | 0 | 0.056014 | 0.040895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137005 | 0 | 0.068399 | 0 | 0 | 0.057789 | 0.070339 | 0 | 0.300972 | 0.053563 | 0 | 0 | 0.043265 | 0.069163 | 0.057781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056042 | 0.075463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08862 | 0 | 0.169569 | 0.064104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271367 | 0.095853 | 0.064413 | 0 | 0 | 0.114127 | 0 | 0 | 0.103661 | 0.06202 | 0.03505 | 0 | 0.076253 | 0.056269 | 0.10731 | 0 | 0.147806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066067 | 0 | 0 | 0.075732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371105 | 0 | 0.073738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057034 | 0 | 0 | 0.089561 | 0.068015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107095 | 0.071302 | 0.147949 | 0.099487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070396 | 0 | 0.045459 | 0.051022 | 0.071385 | 0 | 0.074491 | 0 | 0 | 0.046509 | 0.058577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067104 | 0 | 0.214886 | 0.068976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114583 | 0.063814 | 0.106699 | 0.13433 | 0 | 0 | 0.061073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051646 | 0.1327 | 0 | 0.094968 | 0 | 0.053575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100881 | 0.161764 | 0.058636 | 0.061764 | 0.076719 | 0 | 0.044569 | 0.042986 | 0 | 0.053259 | 0.117356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136642 | 0 | 0.131067 | 0 | 0 | 0.057941 | 0 | 0 | 0.197846 | 0 | 0.053813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086403 |
suicidewatch | Effurmumm | 2019/05/08 | Scared I wish I wasn't so scared to kill myself. It's all I can think about but when I start making a plan or trying,to write a letter I start crying and shaking. I just want peace. I'm so tired. So alone. I feel like my mind is so slow and cloudy lately. Like I can't think. I used to be a really good writer but now ev... | -0.398881 | 1.423103 | 1.93958 | 97.996329 | 86.115385 | 4.935664 | 11.377622 | 6.112484 | -1.284969 | 360 | 2 | 89 | 3 | 11 | 122 | 62 | 104 | 0.241 | 0.577 | 0.181 | -0.7869 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 20 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 3 | 7 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 48 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175002 | 0.123629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137619 | 0.346513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133225 | 0 | 0.193719 | 0.244976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332657 | 0 | 0 | 0.100909 | 0.198899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149463 | 0 | 0 | 0.102071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sir_SquishyMan | 2019/05/08 | I got a C My final grade came back for my Computer Science Data Structures class. I was on a good track for a B, but the final covered everything I wasn't expecting it too, I bombed it, and I now have a C. If I can't muster a B in this easy subject, how am I supposed to be in an acceptable position to enter any sort of... | 1.603917 | 2.412632 | 4.5075 | 86.494167 | 76.75 | 7.833333 | 25.833333 | 8.3441 | 1.568958 | 278 | 10 | 64 | 5 | 6 | 101 | 57 | 80 | 0 | 0.862 | 0.138 | 0.8578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 45 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.706565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270498 | 0.257933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Rewatching | 2019/05/08 | When I'm driving I think about ending it. I am 23yr(F) who has had no long term relationships with a SO. I have friends that I talk to once every few months but that's about it. My family life is pretty shit but that's neither here nor there.
I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive for like 15 years now? So I hav... | 4.518902 | 5.447247 | 4.696229 | 87.420122 | 69.949227 | 7.434565 | 25.42968 | 7.482217 | 1.062008 | 1,793 | 49 | 371 | 18 | 31 | 560 | 214 | 453 | 0.073 | 0.8 | 0.127 | 0.9777 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 43 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 39 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 38 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 76 | 75 | 33 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 61 | 10 | 58 | 62 | 14 | 47 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 21 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 264 | 89 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052907 | 0 | 0.062266 | 0.067358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058182 | 0 | 0.092249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048798 | 0 | 0.06517 | 0.076798 | 0.078528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067017 | 0.078182 | 0 | 0 | 0.068443 | 0.063751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14266 | 0 | 0.114775 | 0.10811 | 0 | 0 | 0.069156 | 0 | 0.091494 | 0 | 0.116917 | 0 | 0.039532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060516 | 0.083421 | 0 | 0 | 0.133821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067255 | 0 | 0 | 0.083167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053444 | 0.110898 | 0.075836 | 0 | 0.066961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050507 | 0.076712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088618 | 0.060395 | 0 | 0.111245 | 0.056105 | 0.058358 | 0 | 0 | 0.071006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080581 | 0.051273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262283 | 0.132136 | 0.079054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060172 | 0.075754 | 0.076577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121633 | 0.066135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050268 | 0.678763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072301 | 0 | 0 | 0.082302 | 0 | 0 | 0.091016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194903 |
suicidewatch | Cranb545 | 2019/05/08 | If you're a social pariah, can't form attachments and everyone hates you, why shouldn't you commit suicide? Just wondering what you guys think. It's been like this for a few years. I can't even travel without people avoiding me. I feel like the universe has been telling me to do this for a while and I'm only now starti... | 2.614758 | 4.414767 | 3.788911 | 88.603367 | 76.096774 | 6.37043 | 25.603495 | 7.168622 | 1.147195 | 360 | 13 | 73 | 4 | 8 | 117 | 62 | 93 | 0.114 | 0.762 | 0.123 | 0.4172 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 16 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 53 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237049 | 0.265842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144502 | 0 | 0 | 0.209054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110622 | 0.156297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23931 | 0 | 0.206198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145348 | 0.140186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197415 | 0 | 0 | 0.210897 | 0.237258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265842 | 0.140888 |
suicidewatch | jacksmith707 | 2019/05/08 | I’m sorry I wasn’t better to you My mind is consumed with how I fucked up my first relationship. I know I’m having a pathological reaction to it but I’ve been living in pain for 8 months now. What’s worse is I know it’s my fault.
I reached the age of 26 without having a relationship. I guess I had a pretty good life ... | 2.603034 | 4.416983 | 3.741169 | 88.871442 | 76.170264 | 7.1753 | 23.094125 | 8.03046 | 1.075043 | 3,230 | 96 | 691 | 53 | 72 | 1,047 | 314 | 834 | 0.179 | 0.645 | 0.176 | -0.0907 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 85 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 33 | 61 | 8 | 7 | 23 | 0 | 75 | 23 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 146 | 157 | 56 | 4 | 16 | 22 | 2 | 12 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 44 | 57 | 1 | 6 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 18 | 27 | 2 | 4 | 65 | 28 | 134 | 34 | 95 | 69 | 24 | 115 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 7 | 89 | 47 | 3 | 11 | 56 | 470 | 178 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035742 | 0 | 0 | 0.029211 | 0 | 0.03286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040157 | 0 | 0.040357 | 0.099088 | 0 | 0.026185 | 0 | 0.109654 | 0.048395 | 0.135235 | 0.11397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043862 | 0.049129 | 0 | 0 | 0.136321 | 0 | 0 | 0.092837 | 0 | 0.068592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073994 | 0 | 0 | 0.089757 | 0 | 0.043966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043953 | 0.071766 | 0.048318 | 0.038045 | 0.133151 | 0.047906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108596 | 0.061374 | 0.12373 | 0 | 0 | 0.036537 | 0 | 0 | 0.132747 | 0.119133 | 0.022442 | 0.041206 | 0.024412 | 0.072057 | 0.137419 | 0.047358 | 0.047319 | 0 | 0 | 0.137178 | 0.115437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028792 | 0 | 0 | 0.042664 | 0 | 0 | 0.045984 | 0 | 0 | 0.044833 | 0 | 0 | 0.190092 | 0.044731 | 0.141641 | 0.035014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121361 | 0.125913 | 0 | 0.113789 | 0 | 0.036071 | 0 | 0.04689 | 0 | 0.155073 | 0.121934 | 0.086018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043372 | 0.050308 | 0.308574 | 0.091308 | 0.09473 | 0.063701 | 0.066259 | 0.082972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082432 | 0 | 0.045074 | 0.045745 | 0 | 0 | 0.091414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044165 | 0 | 0.322821 | 0 | 0.036683 | 0.245158 | 0.068319 | 0 | 0 | 0.136917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042986 | 0 | 0.145581 | 0 | 0 | 0.096168 | 0.030404 | 0 | 0.102911 | 0.107736 | 0 | 0.044906 | 0 | 0 | 0.048744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049122 | 0.049874 | 0.028537 | 0.137618 | 0.084405 | 0.102304 | 0.125236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047724 | 0.029163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047308 | 0 | 0.050672 | 0.034095 | 0.103367 | 0 | 0.077243 | 0.119458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041407 | 0.046582 | 0.156357 | 0.043623 | 0.043774 | 0.091541 | 0 | 0 | 0.027661 |
suicidewatch | dudecool22 | 2019/05/08 | Faces of suicide Hi guys,
Here is a link to a site showing pics (whilst alive) of ordinary people who have taken their own life. We can see that they are just regular people and it shows that mental illness can affect anyone
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suicidewatch | romanticmisery | 2019/05/08 | I fuck up everything good in my life I can’t handle it. I’ve fucked up. I don’t want to be here; I don’t think I actually can. If I survive an attempt it just means that ill have no rights to do anything on my own and everyone’s gonna just crowd me. I’ll see how today goes. I’ll try to see how today goes. If I can. One... | -0.463486 | 1.22248 | 2.2625 | 96.378654 | 85.40625 | 5.500962 | 18.439904 | 6.671995 | -0.168411 | 436 | 11 | 110 | 5 | 13 | 152 | 73 | 128 | 0.126 | 0.747 | 0.127 | -0.5994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 3 | 11 | 23 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 65 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160636 | 0 | 0 | 0.160856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314585 | 0.147941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174299 | 0 | 0 | 0.116269 | 0 | 0 | 0.145354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132308 | 0.143877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312063 | 0 | 0 | 0.11176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eu4fanboi | 2019/05/08 | I'm 15 and I want to die I might have just failed a test, and I just want to end it all, end this miserable thing I just want to go, hopefully to a better place. How do I stop thinking like this? At this rate I'm probably going to kill myself tonight. | 0.597818 | 2.142375 | 2.645455 | 95.688182 | 81.181818 | 6.581818 | 20.090909 | 7.554174 | 0.344927 | 193 | 5 | 48 | 3 | 5 | 65 | 35 | 55 | 0.275 | 0.54 | 0.185 | -0.8705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 29 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162087 | 0.156331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WatchHim | 2019/05/08 | Please help I'm so fucked :( | -1.945 | -0.152539 | -1.45 | 116.145 | 104 | 2.4 | 6 | 3.1291 | -3.1418 | 21 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 0.529 | 0.134 | 0.336 | -0.5956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.583658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.693015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChunkynFluffy | 2019/05/08 | No one can or wants to help Third day in a row I’m waiting hours to reach someone on the suicide hotline...doubt this will be the day someone finally is available.
I’ve texted the crisis line, but they only tell me to call 911 or got to BetterHelp.
BetterHelp’s questionnaire said they could not help me and directed... | 2.993112 | 3.914983 | 4.164036 | 89.847179 | 73.518072 | 7.461044 | 25.881526 | 7.793538 | 1.21468 | 617 | 20 | 138 | 8 | 12 | 202 | 104 | 166 | 0.195 | 0.691 | 0.114 | -0.9454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 25 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 17 | 17 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 79 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308592 | 0 | 0.154063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120646 | 0 | 0.165983 | 0.292353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156133 | 0 | 0.099804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116744 | 0 | 0.078947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164177 | 0 | 0.106731 | 0 | 0 | 0.133429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14298 | 0.100864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102393 | 0.229846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144248 | 0.104758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fatsuicidalhoe | 2019/05/08 | I still want to die it's been a week since I last thought about jumping in front of a train but this time it came back harder than ever. I literally don't think I've ever wanted to be dead more than I do now. there really is no hope for me in this dead end world | 2.310254 | 2.623269 | 3.9625 | 92.924767 | 74.59322 | 7.255932 | 19.834746 | 7.168622 | 0.02459 | 205 | 3 | 52 | 2 | 4 | 69 | 46 | 59 | 0.262 | 0.657 | 0.081 | -0.9346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 34 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17228 | 0 | 0.213452 | 0.156779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317171 | 0 | 0.21567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway2019throwaw | 2019/05/08 | Please someone help me I have nobody to talk to, since my parents died. I can't keep up anymore. Nobody gives me an interview when I apply for jobs, so I have been unemployed for a good few months and my savings is almost gone. I was told that I would not qualify for welfare even if my money runs out (Canada). I starte... | 1.96061 | 4.114981 | 3.229451 | 90.165396 | 79.487805 | 5.563415 | 22.445122 | 6.627428 | 0.576239 | 318 | 10 | 64 | 3 | 8 | 103 | 56 | 82 | 0.042 | 0.749 | 0.209 | 0.9062 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 44 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144987 | 0 | 0.153722 | 0 | 0 | 0.114635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166494 | 0 | 0.145574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172231 | 0.154268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.57155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123292 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BionicalAgainstThots | 2019/05/08 | Give me one reason, please Im falling apart right now, the reason doesn’t matter, please just give me one reason to live that isn’t because of my family or friends will be sad. Please. | 6.405405 | 5.801458 | 5.976351 | 85.165608 | 65.756757 | 8.481081 | 26.608108 | 7.168622 | 1.141443 | 146 | 3 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 45 | 29 | 37 | 0.11 | 0.631 | 0.259 | 0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140104 | 0 | 0 | 0.347918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.597175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.559347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ajj731 | 2019/05/08 | Free “Therapist”. I’m just a kid who’s easy to talk to. I understand pain and shit. I know a lot of you are gonna be mad at me for saying that tho. So if you want more info read this. Hey, my name is Austin, I’m a 14 year old boy and I’ve been told by anyone I talk to that I’m easy to talk to. I’m dealing with some ser... | -1.918131 | -0.041302 | 0.860937 | 100.795408 | 99.551181 | 4.248487 | 15.345628 | 6.059677 | -0.704487 | 436 | 11 | 110 | 5 | 19 | 149 | 78 | 127 | 0.154 | 0.71 | 0.135 | -0.6698 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 12 | 18 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 61 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168607 | 0.14086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139039 | 0 | 0 | 0.218334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156925 | 0 | 0.171612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174022 | 0 | 0.181596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105317 |
suicidewatch | Absolute_Unit_1 | 2019/05/08 | My own parents will be the reason im gonna kill myself My parents long story short are the reason I suffer from anxiety and a extremely low self esteem they make me feel like shit and even we they found my first suicide note they brushed it off making me feel like im worthless to them, I am a 16 year old male and I had... | 0.781188 | 2.693378 | 2.25197 | 96.906272 | 82.267327 | 4.832079 | 20.00099 | 5.683918 | -0.270933 | 368 | 10 | 85 | 2 | 10 | 119 | 70 | 101 | 0.132 | 0.646 | 0.222 | 0.9238 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 20 | 21 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 22 | 7 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 53 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165521 | 0.233863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139224 | 0 | 0.179465 | 0.126457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181086 | 0 | 0.179906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15993 | 0 | 0 | 0.14485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147726 | 0 | 0.218513 | 0.165944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170752 | 0 | 0.168013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116272 | 0 | 0 | 0.105403 |
suicidewatch | goodbyethisisit | 2019/05/08 | I’m killing myself today I’m tired.
I have problems I can’t overcome on my own.
My girlfriend doesn’t love me like she used to.
It’s not personal.
Please take care of my cat. | -1.282544 | 0.72593 | 0.853684 | 100.222456 | 100.315789 | 3.585965 | 19.491228 | 5.461319 | -0.353961 | 137 | 5 | 32 | 1 | 6 | 45 | 31 | 38 | 0.261 | 0.523 | 0.216 | -0.2644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279916 | 0 | 0.351898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368456 | 0.30387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Amax248 | 2019/05/08 | Help with motivation I'm not exactly sure where to start, or even if I should be making my post here. If you feel the need to tell me how dumb I am for feeling the way I do, then my all means, write your heart out in the reply.
I think I want to kill myself. But I'm really not sure if it's even fair. I feel weak, too w... | 2.562148 | 3.928388 | 3.936987 | 89.315164 | 75.229508 | 7.234068 | 24.369324 | 7.873278 | 1.073485 | 1,374 | 43 | 307 | 20 | 29 | 453 | 185 | 366 | 0.167 | 0.72 | 0.113 | -0.9729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 33 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 23 | 6 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 82 | 56 | 27 | 1 | 12 | 24 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 41 | 7 | 47 | 49 | 8 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 20 | 3 | 12 | 16 | 207 | 57 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.088759 | 0 | 0 | 0.08888 | 0 | 0 | 0.091078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185557 | 0.190748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079595 | 0.186157 | 0.106598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275937 | 0.064978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070272 | 0 | 0 | 0.174504 | 0.051692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081478 | 0 | 0.093346 | 0 | 0 | 0.107782 | 0.060965 | 0.096099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100628 | 0 | 0.199946 | 0 | 0 | 0.096308 | 0 | 0 | 0.064244 | 0.088872 | 0.091161 | 0.080315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077327 | 0 | 0 | 0.121426 | 0 | 0.091376 | 0.099077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096671 | 0.066862 | 0.134884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08711 | 0 | 0.294194 | 0.174063 | 0 | 0.091435 | 0 | 0 | 0.09098 | 0.103527 | 0.058268 | 0.187034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092051 | 0 | 0.082802 | 0 | 0 | 0.093364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092717 | 0.154132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128757 | 0 | 0.145273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171448 | 0 | 0 | 0.073106 | 0.079499 | 0.083739 | 0 | 0 | 0.060426 | 0.174841 | 0 | 0 | 0.15911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053648 | 0.144392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092691 | 0.064612 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EmbarrassedCupcake8 | 2019/05/08 | HELP PLEASE!! People always say it is my fault for everything. If I cry they say to ignore it. But it is hard to ignore it if every day someone shouts at you or hits you and makes you feel worthless. It is even worse if it is your family. Every day I tell myself the next day will be better. Yet it never is. Every day I... | -0.52727 | 1.627091 | 1.90117 | 95.384167 | 91.234043 | 3.984397 | 13.152482 | 5.461319 | -1.072713 | 339 | 5 | 75 | 2 | 12 | 115 | 54 | 94 | 0.217 | 0.645 | 0.138 | -0.8361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 52 | 22 | 0 | 0.148063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1232 | 0.160426 | 0.179912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16264 | 0.381952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097794 | 0 | 0.374247 | 0 | 0.133069 | 0 | 0.13958 | 0 | 0.14973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22839 | 0 | 0.157466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102648 | 0 | 0 | 0.325056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125453 | 0 | 0 | 0.165744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150888 | 0 | 0 | 0.179912 | 0 |
suicidewatch | littlepingus | 2019/05/08 | My depression (just texting trying to feel better) *SORRY FOR BAD ENGLISH*
After my grandma passed (2011) i started to feel sad, and i though that was normal. Weeks, months and years later i was not feeling better, my favorite things became boring, everything became boring, nothing made sense (in a existential way), i... | 3.619055 | 4.699093 | 4.633681 | 86.469825 | 72.19202 | 6.827793 | 23.802649 | 6.953978 | 0.797496 | 1,544 | 40 | 314 | 13 | 29 | 504 | 186 | 401 | 0.294 | 0.612 | 0.093 | -0.9985 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 60 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 19 | 41 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 27 | 16 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 71 | 58 | 32 | 3 | 7 | 15 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 32 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 13 | 50 | 18 | 40 | 37 | 5 | 41 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 22 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 211 | 82 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.055678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053606 | 0 | 0.333476 | 0.034781 | 0 | 0.048551 | 0 | 0 | 0.151384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045555 | 0 | 0 | 0.073593 | 0 | 0.049142 | 0 | 0.059215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063633 | 0 | 0.05161 | 0.048072 | 0 | 0.102557 | 0 | 0.161362 | 0 | 0.288493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048532 | 0 | 0 | 0.044081 | 0.052747 | 0.029809 | 0 | 0 | 0.047856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038243 | 0.060283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122159 | 0 | 0.493043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126248 | 0 | 0.031357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058344 | 0.080601 | 0.167248 | 0.057185 | 0.100763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048507 | 0.257477 | 0.107976 | 0.076171 | 0.057846 | 0.05732 | 0 | 0 | 0.057478 | 0.057499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111806 | 0.109494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038663 | 0.043394 | 0.060712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039555 | 0.099638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036552 | 0.117326 | 0 | 0 | 0.064633 | 0 | 0 | 0.045373 | 0 | 0 | 0.045466 | 0 | 0.119044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11286 | 0.127739 | 0.080769 | 0 | 0.09113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189528 | 0.036559 | 0.056057 | 0 | 0.03327 | 0.065578 | 0.108165 | 0 | 0 | 0.077475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068631 | 0.049278 | 0 | 0.047077 | 0 | 0.045288 | 0.045767 | 0 | 0 | 0.052892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165 | 0 | 0.041537 | 0 | 0 | 0.040531 | 0 | 0 | 0.036742 |
suicidewatch | aioufuck | 2019/05/08 | Are People NOT supposed to feel like irredeemable garbage all the time? Like The fact that People can go throughout their day suffering mentally and feeling good just blows my mind | 8.958387 | 10.551559 | 6.442097 | 76.483145 | 60.290323 | 10.070968 | 38.080645 | 10.125757 | 4.091761 | 149 | 7 | 23 | 3 | 2 | 42 | 28 | 31 | 0.081 | 0.675 | 0.244 | 0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35255 | 0.249058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198131 | 0.29241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351332 | 0 | 0.352012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | theyllkillme | 2019/05/08 | life is too much i’m 19. i attempted suicide when i was 14 and have had depression my whole life. i finally though things were getting better. i have a beautiful fiancée and we’re supposed to be getting married next year. we live in different countries and the whole process is driving me insane. she needs to leave my c... | 1.92288 | 4.52289 | 3.150442 | 87.95744 | 83.159292 | 6.308781 | 27.276378 | 7.610547 | 1.841009 | 456 | 21 | 87 | 8 | 13 | 147 | 80 | 113 | 0.183 | 0.741 | 0.077 | -0.9169 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 58 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151184 | 0 | 0 | 0.183391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352141 | 0 | 0 | 0.202538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185861 | 0 | 0 | 0.247964 | 0 | 0 | 0.154996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18656 | 0.129035 | 0.130153 | 0 | 0 | 0.186678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116614 | 0 | 0.172457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113035 |
suicidewatch | three-thirteen | 2019/05/08 | It won’t stop hurting and I’m really alone right now I was doing so good for such a long time. I’ve started going downhill, and the last few weeks have been hell.
I had what was supposed to be a really good night tonight spending time with my friends and boyfriend, and I did, but I just came back to my dorm and immedi... | 0.594396 | 2.26211 | 1.9925 | 99.775833 | 81.6875 | 5.016667 | 18.791667 | 5.683918 | -0.597471 | 567 | 13 | 143 | 3 | 15 | 182 | 87 | 160 | 0.255 | 0.687 | 0.058 | -0.9874 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 30 | 29 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 90 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107182 | 0.116384 | 0.08497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079218 | 0.233826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153209 | 0.227242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068099 | 0 | 0 | 0.24671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111259 | 0 | 0.102467 | 0.103355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133063 | 0.096635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09866 | 0 | 0 | 0.233071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110659 | 0.162558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | frantheandroid | 2019/05/08 | if i dont kill myself now ill kill myself when im 55 i cant imagine a life where im happy. ive struggled with depression/anxiety since i was a child. i know very well happiness is fleeting. i want to leave this world without a trace of being here.
tomorrow i will walk into the ocean with weights tied around my ankles ... | 2.464272 | 4.141674 | 3.982746 | 87.58473 | 76.183099 | 6.986854 | 24.50939 | 7.793538 | 1.258604 | 271 | 9 | 56 | 4 | 6 | 90 | 56 | 71 | 0.089 | 0.651 | 0.26 | 0.9238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 36 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439124 | 0 | 0.109066 | 0 | 0 | 0.210136 | 0 | 0 | 0.140175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163747 | 0.117054 | 0 | 0 | 0.241666 | 0.178436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lukestorm22 | 2019/05/08 | I tried yesterday? Im not going to go into too much detail. Basically im an alcoholic, when im drunk and small bad things happen I seem to overreact and try to die. I tried to overdose on cocaine 3 times now, yet i was still here.
I live in england, so at these times ive gone to A&E. The 2nd time I said if you let... | 0.612351 | 2.566296 | 2.671285 | 93.443594 | 83.126984 | 5.969246 | 21.272321 | 7.168622 | 0.505827 | 1,145 | 36 | 263 | 16 | 32 | 385 | 163 | 315 | 0.099 | 0.851 | 0.05 | -0.8905 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 24 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 45 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 10 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 44 | 2 | 28 | 29 | 5 | 54 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 163 | 56 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.070047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063629 | 0.153423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077774 | 0 | 0 | 0.075268 | 0 | 0 | 0.071187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059934 | 0.043757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046292 | 0 | 0.061824 | 0 | 0.148993 | 0 | 0 | 0.07347 | 0 | 0 | 0.168252 | 0.351587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075004 | 0 | 0.203972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071074 | 0.063475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.62028 | 0 | 0 | 0.063802 | 0 | 0 | 0.039449 | 0.05851 | 0.080971 | 0 | 0 | 0.0734 | 0 | 0.070136 | 0 | 0.063383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144955 | 0 | 0.057294 | 0 | 0.052767 | 0.053224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204838 | 0.114165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057324 | 0.180035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047688 | 0 | 0.070524 | 0 | 0.209278 | 0 | 0 | 0.137178 | 0 | 0.146202 | 0 | 0 | 0.074726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yagirlyaknow | 2019/05/08 | i found my old journals nothing has fucking changed.
i feel like i’ve been kidding myself into thinking that things have gotten better, they really haven’t. if anything i’ve just learnt to forget forget forget.
it’s just never ending | 4.866163 | 7.564369 | 5.067616 | 77.877238 | 72.488372 | 5.230233 | 27.02907 | 5.985473 | 1.43054 | 191 | 7 | 27 | 1 | 4 | 60 | 35 | 43 | 0.13 | 0.708 | 0.161 | 0.3321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157522 | 0.222561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341583 | 0 | 0.28801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298927 | 0 | 0.326904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20697 | 0.199619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mequieromorirya | 2019/05/08 | WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!?!?!?!?! I feel fucking horrible, what the fuck is going on? I really don't know why the fuck do I feel so terribly bad.
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All I've been wishing is my death, I keep hitting myself in the face. I stop eating and sleeping, and hitting myself just to see if I die. WHERE THE FUCK IS ... | 0.640064 | 3.076919 | 2.163049 | 93.597969 | 88.560976 | 4.324578 | 19.104128 | 5.873415 | -0.135229 | 789 | 23 | 163 | 6 | 26 | 255 | 91 | 205 | 0.385 | 0.488 | 0.127 | -0.9981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 24 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 23 | 20 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 31 | 56 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 24 | 7 | 17 | 50 | 4 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 103 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204851 | 0.229733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15786 | 0.038417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041625 | 0 | 0 | 0.06022 | 0 | 0 | 0.059411 | 0 | 0.223058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.699146 | 0 | 0 | 0.071633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056016 | 0 | 0 | 0.034635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178055 | 0 | 0 | 0.055649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056879 | 0 | 0.042067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043691 | 0 | 0 | 0.069178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063067 | 0 | 0.053398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206805 | 0.071516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041869 | 0.040382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042787 | 0 | 0.061563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037172 | 0.050023 | 0 | 0 | 0.113327 | 0 | 0.284335 | 0 | 0.072471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229733 | 0.040584 |
suicidewatch | 13AcceptablePapayas | 2019/05/08 | This is stupid but what ever it's how I feel I've been like this since 3rd gradeish but its only has gotten worse since then and my BF cheating and breaking up with me dosnt help. It's been like 4 ish months and I'm still not over him everyone wants me to be over him by now and I wish I was. He manipulated me emotional... | 0.137998 | 1.761703 | 2.725893 | 94.17406 | 82.969849 | 6.400529 | 18.011373 | 7.475848 | 0.080672 | 690 | 15 | 173 | 11 | 19 | 240 | 105 | 199 | 0.176 | 0.662 | 0.162 | -0.8022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 40 | 38 | 19 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 30 | 6 | 18 | 30 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 111 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076227 | 0.11754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101395 | 0 | 0.10711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056678 | 0.08008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119326 | 0.100414 | 0 | 0.11504 | 0 | 0 | 0.132831 | 0.075134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170504 | 0.119275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105965 | 0.126369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07181 | 0.115251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267972 | 0.510229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07934 | 0 | 0.089518 | 0.18743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076104 | 0.121926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092489 | 0.330578 | 0.088975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iama_or_something | 2019/05/08 | writing down some thoughts It's currently around 12 AM writing this. i've been having a lot of aggressive thoughts lately and i know that they're harmful to other people. it's making me insanely anxious because i'm afraid i'll actually do it soon. i want to end myself just to get all of my worrying to *stop*. i've been... | 5.063948 | 5.758009 | 5.972232 | 79.608956 | 68.585799 | 8.749005 | 30.156536 | 8.841846 | 2.39522 | 675 | 25 | 128 | 11 | 11 | 223 | 93 | 169 | 0.188 | 0.795 | 0.017 | -0.9763 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 34 | 25 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 25 | 19 | 7 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 90 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305403 | 0.150335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111111 | 0.162241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294453 | 0 | 0.073134 | 0 | 0.150113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226269 | 0 | 0 | 0.177655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088408 | 0 | 0 | 0.316937 | 0.077596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085695 |
suicidewatch | darkchap | 2019/05/08 | I can’t stop thinking about suicide I’m 24y/oM. I feel like my life is no longer worth living. I’m not sure when this feeling started, but I know it’s been with me for a while. I really never took these thoughts or feelings seriously until the last year, mostly the last 2 or 3 months.
I failed out of college. Multiple... | 2.775659 | 4.768569 | 4.30123 | 84.245481 | 76.22973 | 6.748455 | 24.979245 | 7.673917 | 1.397577 | 3,504 | 122 | 673 | 50 | 79 | 1,167 | 341 | 888 | 0.175 | 0.637 | 0.188 | 0.9637 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 115 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 36 | 63 | 7 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 62 | 22 | 4 | 7 | 26 | 156 | 137 | 43 | 5 | 18 | 17 | 4 | 19 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 31 | 35 | 0 | 5 | 35 | 5 | 4 | 14 | 30 | 24 | 0 | 6 | 42 | 22 | 128 | 39 | 124 | 82 | 19 | 133 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 9 | 61 | 50 | 2 | 19 | 69 | 483 | 159 | 15 | 0 | 0.045439 | 0.037425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038403 | 0.03972 | 0 | 0.030669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107263 | 0 | 0.157797 | 0 | 0 | 0.043629 | 0.036032 | 0.117957 | 0 | 0.023378 | 0 | 0 | 0.172832 | 0.080493 | 0.101754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041443 | 0 | 0.06124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099094 | 0 | 0.039802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02533 | 0.069381 | 0.032312 | 0.036646 | 0 | 0 | 0.108461 | 0 | 0.31026 | 0.054795 | 0.110468 | 0 | 0.105155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088889 | 0 | 0.020037 | 0 | 0.065387 | 0 | 0 | 0.042282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045446 | 0 | 0 | 0.115406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114171 | 0.034088 | 0.042429 | 0 | 0.042153 | 0.062522 | 0 | 0.121823 | 0 | 0 | 0.216706 | 0.056209 | 0 | 0.101593 | 0.067878 | 0.032205 | 0.042905 | 0.125593 | 0.065209 | 0.242291 | 0.036288 | 0.051199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044916 | 0.030611 | 0.122282 | 0 | 0 | 0.384519 | 0 | 0.040786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155924 | 0.087502 | 0 | 0 | 0.042584 | 0.08306 | 0.03661 | 0.053175 | 0.033486 | 0 | 0 | 0.072507 | 0 | 0 | 0.039016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038553 | 0 | 0.081581 | 0 | 0 | 0.073705 | 0 | 0 | 0.164697 | 0.043444 | 0 | 0.03648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039366 | 0 | 0.086215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088573 | 0.07586 | 0.04293 | 0.108579 | 0.040877 | 0.122507 | 0.064126 | 0 | 0 | 0.043902 | 0.041949 | 0.04352 | 0.108435 | 0 | 0 | 0.06165 | 0.03352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073721 | 0.037679 | 0.152231 | 0.156538 | 0 | 0 | 0.036646 | 0.042609 | 0.026038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158341 | 0.030441 | 0.061525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036969 | 0 | 0.223358 | 0 | 0.039083 | 0.136216 | 0 | 0 | 0.07409 |
suicidewatch | witch-bitch- | 2019/05/08 | It’s only getting worse My depression, mania, and ptsd flashbacks have ceased my memory and ruined my sleep. I want to kill my self, but I’m scared if I fail. If I fail I’ll lose my job, then I’ll be on the streets. There’s no way out of this numb prison. | 2.139107 | 2.770295 | 3.566429 | 94.428571 | 75.25 | 7.028571 | 21.142857 | 7.168622 | 0.22205 | 197 | 4 | 49 | 2 | 4 | 65 | 42 | 56 | 0.499 | 0.485 | 0.015 | -0.989 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292264 | 0 | 0.325841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173714 | 0.233775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Acidic7 | 2019/05/08 | I’m done Everything is to much the girl I liked and liked me I was to much of a pussy to ask her out now she’s going out with someone else (lame reason to die ya it is). No one has my back in this world people say they care but they don’t I can’t carry on things won’t changed. I see all these posts and I think why have... | 0.103398 | 1.776628 | 1.550896 | 102.302543 | 83.328358 | 4.720092 | 17.02411 | 5.369823 | -0.94439 | 466 | 9 | 121 | 2 | 13 | 149 | 87 | 134 | 0.123 | 0.678 | 0.199 | 0.9178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 29 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 17 | 8 | 14 | 20 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 77 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146172 | 0 | 0 | 0.120228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159415 | 0 | 0.165404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134669 | 0 | 0.162273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088861 | 0.131144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159885 | 0 | 0.152775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156398 | 0 | 0 | 0.16076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124341 | 0 | 0 | 0.124595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249732 | 0.130721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103876 | 0.200373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lykaeria | 2019/05/08 | How much access to help to you all have? I’m just asking this as a general survey. I talked to my friend earlier who told me that there was always a solution, always a treatment and always another step you could take. He said money was not an excuse because of insurance, and for low income people it was free. But is it... | 3.328346 | 5.020641 | 4.4025 | 85.420192 | 73.875 | 7.673077 | 23.557692 | 8.384062 | 1.376721 | 632 | 18 | 127 | 11 | 13 | 206 | 95 | 160 | 0.043 | 0.879 | 0.078 | 0.6756 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 31 | 28 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 14 | 17 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 94 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.278128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110099 | 0 | 0.074453 | 0 | 0.080989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41903 | 0 | 0.109909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219414 | 0 | 0.159523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214292 | 0.11454 | 0.124556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083096 | 0 | 0 | 0.13617 | 0 | 0.096751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BogomilSG | 2019/05/08 | My guilt towards my loved ones is driving me insane This has been bugging me for a long time: what do you do when everyone around you is supporting, loving and caring towards you and you want to reciprocate that by making them proud, but you are so incompetent that despite not wanting it, you always end up disappointi... | 12.944955 | 8.578113 | 11.818393 | 60.201607 | 56.455357 | 15.128571 | 45.857143 | 12.602618 | 5.585216 | 969 | 40 | 167 | 22 | 8 | 313 | 136 | 224 | 0.154 | 0.691 | 0.155 | -0.5741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 37 | 48 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 28 | 11 | 27 | 35 | 13 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 146 | 46 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083896 | 0 | 0 | 0.106811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108533 | 0 | 0.11465 | 0 | 0 | 0.11311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0927 | 0 | 0 | 0.1151 | 0.06819 | 0 | 0 | 0.132283 | 0.132176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135448 | 0 | 0.125232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13188 | 0 | 0.135347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058618 | 0 | 0 | 0.106182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216581 | 0 | 0.08009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129931 | 0 | 0.166364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095612 | 0.109229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131243 | 0.272313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159424 | 0 | 0 | 0.190508 | 0.069964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Birds-Are-Fake | 2019/05/08 | I think I lost a friend from this subreddit They haven’t messaged me in a month while they used to every day. There last post was on here saying that tonight was the night. I’m feeling sick to my stomach for the last few days and can’t get over the thought that I might’ve lost them and that I didn’t do a good enough jo... | 3.941923 | 4.238943 | 3.655538 | 96.639462 | 70.923077 | 6.752821 | 25.85641 | 5.683918 | 0.377038 | 291 | 8 | 70 | 1 | 5 | 87 | 56 | 78 | 0.171 | 0.676 | 0.152 | -0.3818 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 42 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160066 | 0 | 0.108242 | 0 | 0 | 0.173772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219784 | 0 | 0 | 0.165368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22742 | 0 | 0 | 0.19842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132752 | 0 | 0.164477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thowawayy1231515315 | 2019/05/08 | I cant keep on going on like this I'm 20 now and have been just wanting to end it since I was 10. Stuck in a shitty living situation with no way out in the foreseeable future, grew up poor as fuck so I'm still behind, the only thing i've felt like I was good at was sports when I was younger but stopped because I hated ... | 2.917254 | 4.079868 | 4.457597 | 86.744004 | 74 | 7.226899 | 24.231631 | 7.686295 | 1.050433 | 549 | 16 | 118 | 7 | 11 | 184 | 98 | 146 | 0.173 | 0.705 | 0.122 | -0.8451 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 30 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 18 | 19 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 73 | 15 | 1 | 0.169764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103487 | 0.187492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.470834 | 0 | 0 | 0.192962 | 0.14239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11991 | 0.165877 | 0 | 0.149905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171811 | 0.13528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140431 | 0.190822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135574 | 0.141931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140073 | 0.100131 | 0.134751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | burntaugust | 2019/05/08 | I wish I was able to show how much I’m struggling. I’ve got an amazing boyfriend and things are going well in my life at the moment. But I’m still fucking depressed and I’ve been struggling so much. I’ve been clean from self harm for almost a year. Every day it’s been increasingly hard to not pick up a blade. I don’t k... | 1.476176 | 2.515749 | 2.917794 | 96.852574 | 77.431373 | 5.492157 | 21.573529 | 5.148861 | -0.262318 | 358 | 9 | 89 | 1 | 8 | 117 | 64 | 102 | 0.173 | 0.681 | 0.146 | -0.5936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 12 | 0 | 0.19362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124869 | 0 | 0.166765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178999 | 0 | 0 | 0.110039 | 0 | 0.154856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173446 | 0.19116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154625 | 0 | 0 | 0.404827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124685 |
suicidewatch | Justathrowingitaway | 2019/05/08 | I’m a suck of life I just need some courage My wife cheated on me, I’m broke, I’m short and unattractive, I’m a loser I just need a little courage to take the leap and be free | -0.681585 | 0.816528 | 1.35872 | 103.577591 | 85.097561 | 4.1 | 20.006098 | 3.1291 | -0.84681 | 136 | 4 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 45 | 27 | 41 | 0.312 | 0.49 | 0.198 | -0.6808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341898 | 0 | 0.485145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.717833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AishiKanashi | 2019/05/08 | I almost hung myself and my friend found out. I am going through the most tough time in my life. I tied a noose today and almost fell off the stool. I have gone through multiple suicide attempts and this one was found out.
My friend asked how I was doing, and called me on video chat whilst I was... Putting away the r... | 2.083148 | 4.071653 | 3.117062 | 91.950778 | 78.320988 | 6.048395 | 22.528395 | 7.031649 | 0.603414 | 623 | 19 | 133 | 7 | 15 | 199 | 99 | 162 | 0.05 | 0.883 | 0.067 | 0.5473 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 34 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 30 | 4 | 16 | 17 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 92 | 34 | 1 | 0.140061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130938 | 0 | 0.131592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128014 | 0 | 0 | 0.30714 | 0.216422 | 0 | 0.073176 | 0.13436 | 0.1592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098929 | 0.068427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311043 | 0 | 0 | 0.097101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237347 | 0.215652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081671 | 0 | 0.132762 | 0.133835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ketsubun | 2019/05/08 | I wrote a suicide note at school I'm sorry to everyone if I go through with this. I feel like I'm getting worse and worse everyday. There isn't a day where I'm not sad, anxious, and lonely. Even good days feel like they're not as good should be. I know it's going to make everyone upset, but I feel like I can't do it an... | 0.071173 | 1.775925 | 2.188774 | 97.52377 | 83.603774 | 5.586357 | 18.871553 | 6.671995 | -0.153073 | 923 | 23 | 230 | 10 | 26 | 310 | 130 | 265 | 0.18 | 0.649 | 0.171 | -0.0689 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 54 | 65 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 35 | 11 | 21 | 51 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 141 | 55 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101877 | 0.178867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091944 | 0 | 0 | 0.077681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078916 | 0.092285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079872 | 0 | 0 | 0.059562 | 0 | 0 | 0.25851 | 0.081047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364778 | 0.257696 | 0.086586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09423 | 0 | 0.205004 | 0.151276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080155 | 0 | 0 | 0.297361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100887 | 0.098441 | 0.076667 | 0.08139 | 0 | 0.120391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122215 | 0 | 0.191914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057771 | 0.092719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071714 | 0.18057 | 0.091266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076409 | 0 | 0 | 0.302845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078821 | 0.083025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17335 | 0 | 0.071592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05319 | 0.07158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081373 | 0 | 0.103702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058072 |
suicidewatch | confusedaban | 2019/05/08 | I am very suicidal but dont plan to suicide at any time. Im just looking for a fellow muslim to talk about such related matters. anyone kind enough to lend me a shoulder and heart? im falling into darkness and id like someone to be with me | 2.492059 | 3.783952 | 4.653088 | 84.411397 | 75.27451 | 6.668627 | 30.397059 | 7.168622 | 1.867976 | 190 | 9 | 38 | 2 | 4 | 66 | 41 | 51 | 0.125 | 0.636 | 0.239 | 0.8219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.506401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | puglord27 | 2019/05/08 | Just here to help I’m here to support for anyone who needs it I mainly can support in suicidal, self harm, and eating disorders as that’s what I’ve experienced irl but I can try to help with other things though I may not be the best. If you need support you can comment or pm me although because reddit is being stupid f... | 3.291951 | 4.978504 | 4.940333 | 81.5505 | 73.95935 | 7.196423 | 29.373171 | 7.908726 | 2.024731 | 485 | 21 | 93 | 7 | 10 | 164 | 81 | 123 | 0.199 | 0.672 | 0.129 | -0.9119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 22 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 13 | 19 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 67 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135248 | 0 | 0 | 0.087752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105821 | 0.213477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16307 | 0.122934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161143 | 0 | 0 | 0.11496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15746 | 0.65342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095635 | 0 | 0.282864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pizzafacedfag | 2019/05/08 | Last call? I’m extremely suicidal. I’ve been for years now. I love my boyfriend more than anything, and it’s really scary that every call with him could always be the last one. | 0.91 | 3.491846 | 1.974286 | 93.375714 | 91.857143 | 6.228571 | 18.428571 | 7.554174 | 0.726829 | 140 | 4 | 29 | 3 | 5 | 44 | 31 | 35 | 0.205 | 0.692 | 0.104 | -0.6232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.569914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179709 |
suicidewatch | thankssw | 2019/05/08 | Legitimate thanks to those who reply here 7-6 years ago, I used to post here a lot under a bunch of different throwaways. I was a college dropout, unemployed living with my parents, and just been dumped by my first serious girlfriend. I didn't really have any friends and my parents gave me a lot of grief about not havi... | 3.303587 | 4.889933 | 4.212883 | 87.19067 | 73.723926 | 7.96017 | 26.035394 | 8.617729 | 1.728363 | 639 | 22 | 133 | 12 | 13 | 206 | 105 | 163 | 0.11 | 0.74 | 0.149 | 0.7524 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 25 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 16 | 15 | 6 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 91 | 24 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122301 | 0 | 0 | 0.111086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304673 | 0 | 0 | 0.126962 | 0.127243 | 0 | 0 | 0.156955 | 0.244477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115567 | 0 | 0.264751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102139 | 0 | 0 | 0.185182 |
suicidewatch | DUD4_ | 2019/05/08 | I've been sent here. I just wrote down some thoughts I guess. :) I'm not sober and that's fine. I need help but I'd never ask people close to me. Asking those guys would just be another thing on their shoulders. I can't speak to my father for this reason, if seen him fall when I opened the first time. I won't speak to ... | 0.439026 | 2.676417 | 2.131538 | 95.216795 | 86.384615 | 5.620513 | 18.666667 | 7.031649 | 0.13349 | 968 | 26 | 221 | 14 | 30 | 316 | 133 | 260 | 0.122 | 0.741 | 0.136 | -0.5334 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 30 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 49 | 61 | 9 | 3 | 13 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 33 | 6 | 31 | 40 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 16 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 135 | 43 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087888 | 0 | 0.199688 | 0 | 0.100342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090844 | 0 | 0 | 0.082514 | 0 | 0.111598 | 0 | 0.121394 | 0.268737 | 0.170836 | 0 | 0.352958 | 0.105749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116039 | 0.109211 | 0 | 0.104355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078511 | 0.079191 | 0.082371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068419 | 0.219617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085106 | 0.194454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10887 | 0.180983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070953 | 0.2053 | 0 | 0.084788 | 0.124552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251974 | 0.084773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075868 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | paxhominibus | 2019/05/08 | Trans and suicidal(?) Thus far, transitioning from being a guy to being a girl(ish) has been the most harmful and miserable decision of my life. I am over a year in (on-and-off hormones), and I still always see a guy in the mirror. I think it briefly improved a couple of weeks ago to an almost pleasant point, and then ... | 4.378008 | 5.907802 | 5.058425 | 82.419323 | 70.904762 | 8.003676 | 28.540936 | 8.532817 | 2.066687 | 2,052 | 77 | 395 | 34 | 38 | 661 | 253 | 504 | 0.148 | 0.735 | 0.117 | -0.9565 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 72 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 27 | 9 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 47 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 84 | 94 | 36 | 3 | 11 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 20 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 56 | 11 | 72 | 61 | 9 | 67 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 21 | 25 | 4 | 16 | 33 | 287 | 76 | 4 | 0.07713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07537 | 0.068371 | 0 | 0.154469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107862 | 0 | 0.063471 | 0.068662 | 0.144212 | 0 | 0 | 0.059308 | 0.0644 | 0.047018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132881 | 0.080869 | 0.1667 | 0 | 0.061582 | 0.170685 | 0 | 0.049742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064985 | 0.073701 | 0.069319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038999 | 0 | 0.074057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11918 | 0.213915 | 0.161188 | 0.07399 | 0.131504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305482 | 0 | 0.082106 | 0.069093 | 0.07615 | 0 | 0 | 0.086931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076607 | 0.075957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076539 | 0.068556 | 0.085333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087006 | 0.081669 | 0 | 0.07887 | 0.108958 | 0.150727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145964 | 0.205939 | 0 | 0.154974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163645 | 0 | 0.090333 | 0 | 0.081977 | 0 | 0.057191 | 0.059487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084665 | 0.072912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158604 | 0 | 0.082808 | 0 | 0.065868 | 0 | 0.061337 | 0.07722 | 0 | 0.122925 | 0.070216 | 0.080463 | 0 | 0 | 0.063802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118756 | 0 | 0 | 0.163778 | 0 | 0.123192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051242 | 0.098843 | 0 | 0 | 0.08995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052366 | 0.083895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090986 | 0.061222 | 0.123738 | 0 | 0 | 0.0715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056151 | 0 | 0.078602 | 0.219163 | 0 | 0 | 0.049669 |
suicidewatch | heple1 | 2019/05/08 | Why? Why do we need to keep living? There can only be more, and worse emotions later on in life, so why not just end it now so that I don't have to experience that? I'm really shallow and nobody really likes me anyway. So I'd be doing a service to myself and others if I'd just kill myself. | 0.641429 | 2.380828 | 3.86373 | 86.063214 | 81.857143 | 6.104762 | 16.849206 | 7.168622 | 0.134092 | 225 | 4 | 48 | 3 | 6 | 82 | 45 | 63 | 0.131 | 0.822 | 0.047 | -0.7597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 36 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267564 | 0.210676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211424 | 0.26316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16801 | 0.116208 | 0 | 0.210038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.643904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ImNotCreativeAtThis | 2019/05/08 | I'm giving up with everything I really am considering suicide, but I don't have the guts to do it, please what should I do? | 2.641923 | 3.859619 | 5.364615 | 79.755385 | 74.769231 | 9.815385 | 24.538462 | 10.125757 | 2.386677 | 97 | 3 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 35 | 21 | 26 | 0.113 | 0.705 | 0.182 | 0.1945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SwampMass | 2019/05/08 | Why do I immediately and genuinely want to die as soon as I enter a fucking Walmart That store is like the physical embodiment of inevitable, inescapable, everyday misery. I think that’s where dementors are made. Walmarts are dementor factories. When was the last time you entered a Walmart and saw anyone genuinely happ... | 6.215357 | 8.26426 | 6.498274 | 71.850268 | 67.095238 | 9.440476 | 34.077381 | 9.827889 | 3.790738 | 470 | 22 | 73 | 11 | 8 | 151 | 81 | 105 | 0.173 | 0.739 | 0.088 | -0.8844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 18 | 20 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 49 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147463 | 0 | 0 | 0.213337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201503 | 0.211256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164123 | 0 | 0.172194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286115 | 0 | 0 | 0.130186 | 0.256607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158599 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dragon_speaker | 2019/05/08 | I'm giving up I just found out I'm failing out of college. Before this happened, I took out a loan to pay rent through my university, that now needs to be paid back immediately. I also just got a job as an undergraduate researcher, which I'll also more than likely lose as well. My family didn't even know that I was on ... | 4.782137 | 4.792672 | 5.826305 | 82.806379 | 69.043103 | 9.042365 | 28.20936 | 8.841846 | 1.880743 | 883 | 27 | 191 | 14 | 14 | 294 | 128 | 232 | 0.233 | 0.67 | 0.097 | -0.989 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 21 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 42 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 25 | 8 | 27 | 22 | 7 | 24 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 132 | 38 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106239 | 0 | 0.131023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110581 | 0 | 0 | 0.082463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136893 | 0.09646 | 0 | 0.130459 | 0.119768 | 0.141911 | 0.104719 | 0.099855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247791 | 0 | 0.138129 | 0 | 0.205845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088186 | 0.060996 | 0 | 0.110246 | 0 | 0 | 0.139676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092575 | 0 | 0.120582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079999 | 0.122665 | 0 | 0.072802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138714 | 0.169531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336768 | 0 | 0 | 0.139392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177381 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TerribleHall | 2019/05/08 | I am no longer human shaped There was a viral picture of a woman who is an old UK size 14 (new 12) in H&M standing in front of a mirror. There were loads of comments calling her obese.
I am an old UK size 18-20 (new 16-18) in that shop. I don't even feel like my body is human shaped anymore. The fact that I am ... | 4.872708 | 4.155744 | 5.606389 | 86.9275 | 68.930556 | 8.311111 | 29.805556 | 7.168622 | 1.478281 | 529 | 17 | 120 | 4 | 8 | 173 | 90 | 144 | 0.041 | 0.89 | 0.069 | 0.6635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 70 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236023 | 0 | 0 | 0.216971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214877 | 0.151799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150084 | 0.103809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301886 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | i_hate_wine | 2019/05/08 | It's been too long I thought i would eventually get better, but it's not happening. All i got was seeing everyone move on from me. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I feel so fucking lonely. | -0.884286 | 1.251902 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 95.666667 | 5.657143 | 21.285714 | 7.168622 | 0.883257 | 152 | 6 | 34 | 3 | 6 | 54 | 33 | 42 | 0.114 | 0.832 | 0.054 | -0.4866 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305351 | 0.172565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234631 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CocaineIsMyGame | 2019/05/08 | I don’t know what to do anymore. So I’ve been suicidal since the beginning of high school. My mom and brother always put me down and I get into unsuccessful relationships and it’s honestly crushing my confidence. I either get cheated on or it never works. It’s taking a toll on me mentally and physically. I want to vent... | 2.050446 | 4.426341 | 3.975729 | 83.722015 | 80.509434 | 7.62813 | 24.730703 | 8.57599 | 1.958936 | 420 | 16 | 83 | 10 | 11 | 142 | 77 | 106 | 0.18 | 0.659 | 0.161 | -0.6465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 15 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 59 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211322 | 0 | 0.159341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14795 | 0 | 0.200099 | 0.183702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192984 | 0 | 0 | 0.224279 | 0 | 0 | 0.140773 | 0 | 0.147695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209467 | 0 | 0.180484 | 0 | 0.143982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139412 | 0.194475 | 0.195152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dessik190 | 2019/05/08 | New here, so how do you people do it? Every year I don’t do it, I want to do it more. The longer I don’t do it the harder is gets to think about attempting. My last attempt was a little over a year ago, and I’ve really been wanting to try again recently. It’s just a constantly larger feeling and tearing at my mental to... | 1.068818 | 2.73036 | 3.610909 | 88.766364 | 80.181818 | 6.945455 | 21 | 7.908726 | 0.817109 | 397 | 11 | 90 | 7 | 10 | 139 | 65 | 110 | 0 | 0.873 | 0.127 | 0.9011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 19 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 63 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223766 | 0 | 0.165326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208027 | 0 | 0 | 0.208598 | 0.208675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132652 | 0 | 0.204454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137566 | 0.13268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140585 | 0 | 0.202274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266689 |
suicidewatch | pdouble0p | 2019/05/08 | What do I do? My life is at a stop right now, I have friends that truly love me, I have a family that truly loves me, I have money, I have a chance at a good future, education, job, etc. But I also hate everything in life, I hate myself, the rules that I have to abide by, the society I have to fit in, the religion I ha... | 8.628346 | 4.418622 | 8.830973 | 77.866853 | 64.255172 | 11.90197 | 35.961823 | 8.841846 | 2.760741 | 2,634 | 73 | 609 | 28 | 28 | 880 | 262 | 725 | 0.137 | 0.73 | 0.134 | -0.4597 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 105 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 5 | 34 | 39 | 3 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 83 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 93 | 137 | 41 | 2 | 15 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 39 | 26 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 24 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 18 | 14 | 109 | 25 | 80 | 95 | 18 | 86 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 47 | 32 | 0 | 13 | 41 | 440 | 148 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.050033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106202 | 0 | 0.041001 | 0.085323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047931 | 0 | 0.048171 | 0.118272 | 0 | 0.250034 | 0 | 0.043628 | 0.057765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175921 | 0.104548 | 0 | 0.108476 | 0.088331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040936 | 0 | 0 | 0.033065 | 0 | 0.088319 | 0 | 0.053211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181643 | 0 | 0.057181 | 0.067728 | 0 | 0.043198 | 0 | 0.046079 | 0 | 0.048334 | 0 | 0.077772 | 0.073256 | 0 | 0 | 0.046861 | 0.087222 | 0 | 0 | 0.316894 | 0 | 0.053574 | 0 | 0 | 0.086007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050766 | 0 | 0 | 0.045929 | 0.101239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101757 | 0.045572 | 0 | 0 | 0.112709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181071 | 0.075145 | 0 | 0.090546 | 0.045373 | 0.215273 | 0 | 0.055968 | 0 | 0.138822 | 0.145541 | 0.034224 | 0.103961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05439 | 0 | 0 | 0.040924 | 0.054493 | 0.03769 | 0.038017 | 0.039543 | 0.049518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116745 | 0.0538 | 0.054602 | 0.104227 | 0 | 0.054556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213269 | 0.089536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049103 | 0 | 0.165836 | 0.049059 | 0 | 0 | 0.057435 | 0 | 0.10257 | 0.058358 | 0.032845 | 0.052715 | 0 | 0.165137 | 0.05808 | 0.08757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103778 | 0.081713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157883 | 0 | 0.114787 | 0.03629 | 0 | 0.08189 | 0.08573 | 0 | 0 | 0.058693 | 0.056082 | 0 | 0.048322 | 0 | 0 | 0.123629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090723 | 0.122089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047529 | 0.277584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033017 |
suicidewatch | nowhereman500 | 2019/05/08 | I am going to kill myself I am 15 and have decided to kill myself. I dont know when exactly but in the next few days i think. I am putting this out there just so someone notices me to be honest. I have made such bad mistakes and i cant keep living anymore. I am sitting in the bathroom at 3 am crying right now and i kn... | -0.731233 | 1.286999 | 2.292 | 93.472667 | 89.9 | 5.333333 | 20.333333 | 6.816662 | 0.328133 | 351 | 12 | 83 | 5 | 12 | 124 | 63 | 100 | 0.205 | 0.671 | 0.124 | -0.866 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 23 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 8 | 18 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 59 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207055 | 0.121565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203609 | 0 | 0 | 0.167545 | 0.417089 | 0 | 0.207186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139768 | 0 | 0 | 0.200469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133903 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lightandlong | 2019/05/08 | Alone but dont want friends I hate meeting people and trying to make friends. It just seems so wrong when I'm just waiting til my mother passes to kill myself. Which leaves me feeling empty and alone no matter the crowd | 3.332674 | 5.649998 | 3.146686 | 91.649331 | 75.744186 | 4.3 | 22.377907 | 3.1291 | -0.078995 | 177 | 5 | 33 | 0 | 4 | 53 | 37 | 43 | 0.454 | 0.438 | 0.108 | -0.9724 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.528069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27873 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gordosgoodies | 2019/05/08 | Time for my last walk on the trail. Looking out at a nice sunset with the sun on my face and a noose around my neck seems a good way to go for me. I've always loved nature but I can't stand the loneliness, exploitation, and abuse I've endured in my life. I know it's not the worst but my feelings are what they are. How ... | 0.625286 | 1.822934 | 2.390592 | 99.098619 | 80.028037 | 5.503219 | 18.430945 | 5.822114 | -0.580262 | 366 | 7 | 95 | 2 | 9 | 121 | 70 | 107 | 0.055 | 0.815 | 0.13 | 0.7131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 58 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0.317653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152367 | 0.224868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14734 | 0.218536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LemonyLimes03 | 2019/05/08 | I'm not sure what to do There's a lot on my mind. And too many reasons to count as to why I want to die for tonight. For starters, tonight I've lost the only girl who has ever loved me. And I accidentally turned in an English Project I was 3/4ths done with. That's just the beginning. I've had a knife hidden in my room ... | 1.554091 | 3.336163 | 2.645455 | 95.688182 | 79.151515 | 5.915152 | 22.363636 | 6.816662 | 0.272609 | 490 | 15 | 117 | 5 | 12 | 156 | 87 | 132 | 0.143 | 0.808 | 0.049 | -0.8971 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 16 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 19 | 12 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 74 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164667 | 0.192102 | 0 | 0 | 0.168173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202951 | 0.15806 | 0.167797 | 0 | 0.124101 | 0.188491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187723 | 0 | 0.148397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282797 | 0.197829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MaverickLeader | 2019/05/08 | Is this it? Holy shit guys, think this might be it
I can’t seem to pass this fucking class, it’s my 4th time taking it
I don’t think I can take it anymore
No matter what I do I can’t do it
I’m a complete failure
There’s no motivation
No happy endings
I don’t want to die but I guess I’m just going to have to | -2.790688 | -1.129126 | 0.74715 | 101.687899 | 101.162162 | 3.23145 | 14.835381 | 4.851558 | -1.2652 | 240 | 6 | 64 | 1 | 11 | 86 | 44 | 74 | 0.177 | 0.728 | 0.095 | -0.6652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 40 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230771 | 0 | 0 | 0.141866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274986 | 0.247165 | 0 | 0.265727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227246 | 0 | 0 | 0.256233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319895 | 0 | 0 | 0.145556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sighluss | 2019/05/08 | Everyday it passes my mind. Everyday the thought of suicide enters my mind and lingers multiple times a day as a way to escape my chronic pain and the further increasing damage done to my family because of my illnesses.
I have a new born son and it hurts to hold him in my arms and in a few months I won't be able to p... | 4.208797 | 4.578014 | 5.406393 | 84.065771 | 70.358491 | 9.103219 | 28.041065 | 9.168548 | 2.068485 | 1,004 | 33 | 216 | 19 | 17 | 335 | 139 | 265 | 0.18 | 0.717 | 0.103 | -0.9735 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 24 | 16 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 40 | 38 | 17 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 28 | 6 | 39 | 21 | 8 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 137 | 32 | 3 | 0.273692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06204 | 0.095663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093378 | 0 | 0.09336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077601 | 0 | 0.10003 | 0 | 0 | 0.095328 | 0.087517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128878 | 0 | 0 | 0.241675 | 0.080736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082339 | 0 | 0.121794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184234 | 0 | 0.072819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070363 | 0.088111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.67953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058457 | 0 | 0.072427 | 0.106394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10762 | 0.217244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176248 |
suicidewatch | Nana_knows | 2019/05/08 | Gas? So I found out that best buy sells nitrogen gas which is better for you if you're trying to opt out than carbon monoxide. I don't know if anyone would know but do I just release it in my car with the windows up like I would with carbon monoxide or...? | 2.677222 | 3.675885 | 3.878704 | 91.299167 | 74.37037 | 6.140741 | 22.759259 | 5.985473 | 0.277015 | 199 | 5 | 44 | 1 | 4 | 65 | 41 | 54 | 0 | 0.847 | 0.153 | 0.7998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 31 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383178 | 0.322925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518751 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hanhanc11 | 2019/05/08 | I saw my mentor for the last time today My teacher has been my biggest mentor throughout high school. I went to her last year about my suicidal thoughts and she was so kind. I visited her today during her free period for the final time. I thanked her once again. Little did she know the reason I came to her today is bec... | 2.21761 | 4.019087 | 4.017679 | 86.517946 | 77.241758 | 6.747802 | 21.26511 | 7.645422 | 0.857449 | 347 | 9 | 70 | 5 | 8 | 117 | 60 | 91 | 0.152 | 0.775 | 0.072 | -0.8209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 19 | 5 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 49 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283857 | 0.10362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085948 | 0 | 0 | 0.186208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177011 | 0.093418 | 0.277117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108895 | 0.174771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134947 | 0.198237 | 0 | 0.483372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109463 |
suicidewatch | SuplexPrincess | 2019/05/08 | I would have killed myself already if my mom wasn’t in the picture I can’t hurt her like that. My life is garbage, Among other problems, I’m going to die slowly and painfully from health issues and negligent doctors. I’ve wanted to die for so fucking long, I just want to get it over with. I don’t want to hurt my mom, s... | 1.588889 | 3.454631 | 2.716444 | 94.823 | 79.37037 | 4.69037 | 22.837037 | 4.935629 | 0.006686 | 404 | 13 | 88 | 1 | 10 | 129 | 72 | 108 | 0.231 | 0.647 | 0.122 | -0.9271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 20 | 7 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 11 | 18 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 55 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291714 | 0 | 0 | 0.143847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259851 | 0.073426 | 0 | 0.079871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139587 | 0 | 0 | 0.300899 | 0 | 0 | 0.146686 | 0 | 0 | 0.31097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152696 | 0 | 0.099267 | 0.13732 | 0 | 0.124098 | 0.124372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099835 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | trainwreck7891 | 2019/05/08 | Sick of living this life I am anxious and depressed all the time. I don’t know how to continue on like this. I have no friends and almost no family. The only way I can see out of this pain is to end it. | 0.418333 | 1.822036 | 2.9575 | 93.89625 | 81.222222 | 6.277778 | 20.138889 | 7.168622 | 0.257556 | 155 | 4 | 38 | 2 | 4 | 54 | 35 | 45 | 0.31 | 0.587 | 0.103 | -0.8827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218751 | 0.151304 | 0 | 0.273471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235541 | 0.329543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | emptyshelI | 2019/05/08 | Nowhere for me to go but out I feel trapped. Stuck in a body and a life that is too off the rails. I failed multiple semesters of university. Every time because some crisis put me down and I could not find it in myself to get up. First was a cancer scare, medications complication, C-dificile infection. I’ve received no... | 3.068684 | 5.071647 | 4.382316 | 83.948211 | 75.403509 | 7.191579 | 27.189474 | 8.076483 | 1.770422 | 910 | 36 | 180 | 15 | 20 | 300 | 140 | 228 | 0.228 | 0.676 | 0.097 | -0.987 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 28 | 2 | 38 | 20 | 4 | 35 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 126 | 37 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135141 | 0 | 0.169729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244001 | 0.169073 | 0 | 0.098545 | 0 | 0.131609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100925 | 0 | 0.128743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139659 | 0.129974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079833 | 0.146582 | 0.173682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162422 | 0 | 0 | 0.10242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303266 | 0.135818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161796 | 0 | 0 | 0.107929 | 0 | 0 | 0.134927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153932 | 0.153989 | 0 | 0 | 0.17896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103543 | 0.116213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152982 | 0.154644 | 0.243528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175715 | 0.147296 | 0 | 0.111242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SmalsyBigg | 2019/05/08 | Can somebody please kill me I’m not asking for much. Someone just shoot me in the back of the head. I’m too much of a coward to do it myself. I need this shit to end. Turning 21 didn’t do shit I want to fucking die. I’m pretending I’m better so my family is happy and off my ass. I cannot fucking keep this act on much l... | -0.631872 | 1.18437 | 1.677344 | 99.552594 | 87.039216 | 4.885561 | 16.135472 | 6.112484 | -0.71862 | 350 | 7 | 89 | 3 | 11 | 118 | 61 | 102 | 0.308 | 0.556 | 0.135 | -0.9787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 22 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 13 | 21 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 51 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141989 | 0 | 0 | 0.116788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126878 | 0 | 0.134522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14513 | 0 | 0 | 0.143181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161681 | 0 | 0 | 0.155875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135 | 0.168035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334952 | 0.112619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unknownUsernameftw | 2019/05/08 | My mother will not give me privacy and it makes me want to die My mother will not stop coming in my room and it REALLY pisses me off, I know this might seem like a small problem or an overreaction but she has been doing it for so many years and I have had it, she just won’t get the fucking point. It is so bad that she ... | 1.915081 | 2.415639 | 3.881021 | 92.454328 | 75.654275 | 7.447545 | 21.964586 | 7.66913 | 0.52339 | 929 | 21 | 234 | 12 | 19 | 318 | 123 | 269 | 0.116 | 0.75 | 0.134 | -0.3292 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 35 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 60 | 60 | 26 | 2 | 10 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 42 | 7 | 25 | 46 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 15 | 2 | 12 | 11 | 170 | 62 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094488 | 0.068985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123547 | 0.125701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05722 | 0.080845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104619 | 0.295621 | 0.217117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124765 | 0 | 0.224103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075539 | 0.229464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320933 | 0 | 0.108381 | 0 | 0 | 0.108284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120365 | 0 | 0.128807 | 0.072497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111184 | 0.089841 | 0.131975 | 0.130067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080389 | 0 | 0 | 0.072875 |
suicidewatch | iDrinkOxygen | 2019/05/08 | bye 5k gone and my dignity I'm leaving this Earth for good. It was fun while it lasted | -2.198158 | -0.986028 | 0.546711 | 99.603224 | 116.368421 | 4.005263 | 15.276316 | 5.985473 | -0.4508 | 68 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 18 | 19 | 0 | 0.628 | 0.372 | 0.836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516661 | 0 | 0.671141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | D_A_N2 | 2019/05/08 | I want to go out with a bang but fear it will make me feel happy enough to not do it... The last time I was happy, like truly happy was when I was 11 and went to universal studios in Orlando. Since then life has been a series of ups and downs. Most recent down being my parasitic wife who takes all the money I earn, ga... | 2.809035 | 3.215387 | 4.27717 | 90.780059 | 73.514768 | 7.78154 | 23.251319 | 7.865859 | 0.807177 | 847 | 20 | 202 | 11 | 16 | 283 | 127 | 237 | 0.088 | 0.73 | 0.182 | 0.9788 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 31 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 44 | 51 | 20 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 26 | 8 | 34 | 33 | 7 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 153 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096818 | 0.225896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369018 | 0.110543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114222 | 0.104862 | 0.062124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.581822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15442 | 0.053404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098658 | 0 | 0.072966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080357 | 0.081053 | 0.084308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107932 | 0 | 0.123829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077371 | 0 | 0.087296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072622 | 0 | 0 | 0.086781 | 0.191222 | 0 | 0 | 0.104452 | 0 | 0.074215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09441 | 0 | 0 | 0.193425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07958 | 0.111011 | 0 | 0.077652 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ReallyLonelyAndBored | 2019/05/08 | Feels like I have nothing to live for anymore. I feel dead already. The only thing that's stopping me is the fact that it's going to hurt and that I may have potential to survive this all until the end and live a good life with somebody who loves/cares for me.
I highly doubt that though.
My mother has verbally abused... | 4.203168 | 5.368508 | 5.149993 | 82.994263 | 70.889251 | 7.666509 | 26.658129 | 8.000946 | 1.547321 | 1,216 | 39 | 241 | 16 | 22 | 398 | 161 | 307 | 0.227 | 0.67 | 0.103 | -0.992 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 41 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 23 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 20 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 49 | 47 | 20 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 49 | 11 | 26 | 37 | 6 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 21 | 158 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 0.099579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084158 | 0 | 0.185491 | 0 | 0 | 0.182124 | 0.204247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250049 | 0 | 0 | 0.069162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070174 | 0.153698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074439 | 0 | 0 | 0.055511 | 0.076023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158459 | 0 | 0.212477 | 0.240166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129865 | 0 | 0.04391 | 0 | 0.047764 | 0.140985 | 0 | 0 | 0.092585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089971 | 0 | 0 | 0.087721 | 0 | 0 | 0.092983 | 0 | 0.046189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237453 | 0.2053 | 0 | 0.148426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161286 | 0 | 0.088191 | 0 | 0.113902 | 0.06392 | 0 | 0 | 0.093322 | 0 | 0 | 0.174798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087677 | 0 | 0 | 0.139045 | 0 | 0.084105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167506 | 0.053852 | 0.082573 | 0.066722 | 0.098014 | 0 | 0 | 0.080308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096647 | 0 | 0.091143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204247 | 0.108244 |
suicidewatch | ughhhh-owo | 2019/05/08 | I know I shouldn’t but I feel like I need to It would be so easy but I know I shouldn’t | -3.876232 | -2.531753 | -0.8 | 114.453333 | 99 | 3.066667 | 7.666667 | 3.1291 | -2.863133 | 67 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 14 | 23 | 0 | 0.609 | 0.391 | 0.8542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279731 | 0.395229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.608084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393001 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sundropbelow | 2019/05/08 | The world is a joke Nobody cares about how I feel, not that the world owes me anything. I just really wish I could be happy some day without having such a deep hatred for myself. I have no real friends who actually care about me. I wish I did, but I just can’t seem to make any because my social skills are so shitty, it... | 2.862143 | 4.463333 | 4.358929 | 85.629821 | 74.918367 | 6.940816 | 22.454082 | 7.645422 | 0.947996 | 378 | 10 | 76 | 5 | 8 | 126 | 71 | 98 | 0.22 | 0.651 | 0.129 | -0.9421 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 59 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.178773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146267 | 0 | 0 | 0.236292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181794 | 0 | 0.202679 | 0 | 0 | 0.149329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208517 | 0.23472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421332 | 0.176594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SmallPleasures25 | 2019/10/06 | I know it's getting bad when I stop wanting to talk about it. Lately everything has been so confusing, and I feel like the more I try and make sense of it - the less sense it makes. I am tired of trying to figure it out. I am tired of trying to figure it out alone. Even when I come to conclusions that feel like truth "... | 2.202308 | 3.745339 | 3.234872 | 93.243462 | 76.564103 | 6.338462 | 21.615385 | 7.010147 | 0.376785 | 584 | 15 | 131 | 6 | 13 | 187 | 90 | 156 | 0.215 | 0.688 | 0.096 | -0.9554 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 29 | 31 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 8 | 20 | 27 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 90 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286148 | 0 | 0 | 0.118719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149066 | 0 | 0.095287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218837 | 0.206128 | 0 | 0 | 0.131857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143289 | 0 | 0 | 0.154441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079285 | 0 | 0.162739 | 0 | 0 | 0.147523 | 0 | 0.140963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260413 | 0 | 0.192598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153769 | 0 | 0.120613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293843 | 0 | 0 | 0.150187 | 0 | 0.1246 | 0 | 0 | 0.170185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sbteach | 2019/10/06 | Scared that I am falling into a really dark place And becoming suicidal. I’m starting down the path of thinking everyone would be better off without me. I’m paralyzed by my anxiety and depression. Instead of being better I am losing control the worse I get the lower I go the deeper the hole.
I’m scared I won’t be abl... | 2.128613 | 4.499914 | 4.857395 | 77.539706 | 80.176471 | 8.003361 | 27.361345 | 8.841846 | 2.769817 | 270 | 12 | 47 | 7 | 7 | 96 | 49 | 68 | 0.323 | 0.603 | 0.074 | -0.9545 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 8 | 0 | 0.215145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194611 | 0 | 0.20558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112404 | 0 | 0.122272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219251 | 0.152833 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bazzabee123 | 2019/10/06 | Living in constant fear and paranoia I contantly think that someones at the door or watching my house, with the intent to harm or kill me. Which resulted in me stashing weapons.
I have once had people waiting on my street for me openly carrying weapons pointing at my house which I caught on cctv. Police will not inter... | 3.973151 | 5.452082 | 4.893801 | 83.404899 | 71.836257 | 7.366802 | 29.528115 | 7.882392 | 1.980522 | 1,367 | 56 | 260 | 18 | 26 | 445 | 183 | 342 | 0.191 | 0.722 | 0.087 | -0.9903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 27 | 9 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 56 | 70 | 25 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 46 | 9 | 43 | 46 | 4 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 19 | 1 | 9 | 20 | 183 | 61 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062068 | 0 | 0.139645 | 0 | 0.090517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207669 | 0 | 0 | 0.076208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096553 | 0.078622 | 0 | 0.197264 | 0 | 0.145746 | 0 | 0 | 0.117725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09342 | 0.079872 | 0 | 0.10697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172085 | 0.308118 | 0.138449 | 0.130409 | 0.087635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070516 | 0.084379 | 0.143057 | 0 | 0.155615 | 0 | 0.145996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090653 | 0 | 0.315945 | 0 | 0 | 0.098589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201957 | 0 | 0.100321 | 0 | 0 | 0.096643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133772 | 0 | 0.080594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09198 | 0.193649 | 0 | 0 | 0.072852 | 0 | 0.067095 | 0.067677 | 0.070394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103913 | 0 | 0.097201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072583 | 0 | 0 | 0.072732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064602 | 0 | 0.07289 | 0 | 0.104551 | 0 | 0 | 0.099836 | 0.103574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060637 | 0.116966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174428 | 0 | 0.061967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053834 | 0.072447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066447 | 0 | 0.093014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058776 |
suicidewatch | wnlcpb | 2019/10/06 | I want out of this cycle I am so tired of constantly trying and getting no where. I am tired of everyone saying it’s going to be okay. It’s ever “okay” for 3 months then back to this. I wish people would just give me a moment to get my affairs in order at least so I can just end this nightmare called life. | 2.154545 | 3.160834 | 4.039818 | 89.609727 | 75.666667 | 6.492121 | 20.775758 | 6.742158 | 0.27507 | 238 | 5 | 53 | 2 | 5 | 81 | 49 | 66 | 0.143 | 0.736 | 0.121 | -0.5358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214271 | 0 | 0.226349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24752 | 0.227236 | 0.134624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168272 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anonanymonysoumys | 2019/10/06 | My friend put me on suicide watch Pretty late last night I was high and drunk (again) and my friends and I were fucking around on a roof. We were joking around and failing at parkour and at one point I was walking close to the edge of a roof. I tried to jump off this roof before so my friend grabs my arm and tells me t... | 3.553183 | 3.209232 | 4.185 | 94.743333 | 71.65 | 7.066667 | 22.166667 | 5.461319 | -0.091783 | 707 | 11 | 178 | 2 | 12 | 225 | 108 | 200 | 0.071 | 0.816 | 0.113 | 0.765 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 28 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 26 | 7 | 32 | 16 | 3 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 104 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196357 | 0 | 0 | 0.310854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337845 | 0.126139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340829 | 0.101958 | 0.11524 | 0 | 0.250714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116524 | 0.110627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098028 | 0.122016 | 0 | 0 | 0.089898 | 0.124408 | 0 | 0 | 0.112776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104257 | 0 | 0 | 0.112201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314724 | 0.087704 | 0 | 0.111616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120636 | 0 | 0.103944 | 0 | 0.082922 | 0 | 0.192791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064309 | 0 | 0.104539 | 0 | 0 | 0.224632 | 0 | 0.107734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06505 | 0.08754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | deeybel | 2019/10/06 | Things got better and then got worse again. I feel like no one cares about me, they care about what I can give them. Once my use expires, I get thrown out like garbage. If anyone takes the time to care about me, I end up just being a burden after a while and they end up leaving me too.
I have no friends. I’ve always ... | 1.152863 | 3.290947 | 2.701992 | 92.940299 | 82.310887 | 5.400288 | 19.898026 | 6.601986 | 0.135553 | 3,356 | 91 | 728 | 34 | 92 | 1,096 | 321 | 891 | 0.226 | 0.58 | 0.194 | -0.9906 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 122 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 25 | 47 | 90 | 7 | 10 | 39 | 1 | 73 | 19 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 149 | 148 | 78 | 5 | 32 | 29 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 7 | 15 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 36 | 52 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 23 | 39 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 16 | 106 | 54 | 99 | 85 | 16 | 96 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 42 | 44 | 1 | 19 | 49 | 491 | 142 | 20 | 0.037858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156839 | 0.041778 | 0.030275 | 0.126004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07509 | 0.026471 | 0 | 0.093462 | 0.033702 | 0.035392 | 0 | 0.035569 | 0.116443 | 0 | 0.046156 | 0.041811 | 0 | 0 | 0.03973 | 0.200895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039694 | 0 | 0 | 0.09068 | 0 | 0.041586 | 0.024415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03313 | 0.116226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042585 | 0.201187 | 0.039118 | 0 | 0.05001 | 0.034245 | 0 | 0 | 0.102074 | 0 | 0.035689 | 0.042601 | 0.133996 | 0.108184 | 0 | 0.082944 | 0.069204 | 0.064404 | 0 | 0.083019 | 0.175495 | 0 | 0.197794 | 0.072634 | 0.021516 | 0.095261 | 0.121115 | 0.041739 | 0 | 0 | 0.033478 | 0.201504 | 0.203481 | 0.074754 | 0 | 0.040242 | 0 | 0 | 0.050751 | 0 | 0 | 0.075204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042737 | 0 | 0.039514 | 0.075137 | 0 | 0.041885 | 0.039424 | 0 | 0.03086 | 0 | 0.040086 | 0 | 0.038713 | 0.133702 | 0.110974 | 0 | 0.03343 | 0.067007 | 0 | 0 | 0.12398 | 0.032186 | 0.205011 | 0 | 0.050541 | 0 | 0.152135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038152 | 0.040162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040237 | 0.05566 | 0 | 0.087596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072652 | 0 | 0 | 0.040318 | 0.076961 | 0.086379 | 0.120852 | 0 | 0.126111 | 0 | 0 | 0.104985 | 0.099169 | 0.039554 | 0 | 0.107365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040818 | 0.036225 | 0 | 0.038058 | 0 | 0.040267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038925 | 0 | 0.081291 | 0 | 0.096992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191573 | 0 | 0 | 0.039494 | 0 | 0 | 0.031317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026796 | 0 | 0.060467 | 0.031651 | 0.086733 | 0.079155 | 0.043339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028465 | 0.060858 | 0 | 0 | 0.086588 | 0 | 0.050303 | 0 | 0.074391 | 0.090166 | 0.022075 | 0.043513 | 0 | 0 | 0.042062 | 0.179923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098092 | 0 | 0 | 0.200968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043535 | 0 | 0 | 0.137806 | 0 | 0.115742 | 0.188254 | 0 | 0 | 0.073138 |
suicidewatch | Squeakymeeper13 | 2019/10/06 | I lost my family A year and a half ago, I had to watch my fiance succumb to brain cancer. It was quick, horrific and one of my darkest times.
I fell in love again. Moved to a neighboring state to be with him and fell in love with the little life I had. Two amazing step kids, an amazing partner and then my mental i... | 0.896653 | 3.081345 | 2.534492 | 93.478115 | 83.697987 | 5.335738 | 20.721896 | 6.627428 | 0.28554 | 559 | 17 | 121 | 6 | 16 | 183 | 86 | 149 | 0.124 | 0.755 | 0.121 | 0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 26 | 7 | 21 | 10 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 85 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153793 | 0 | 0 | 0.280924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194617 | 0 | 0.414234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154125 | 0.300776 | 0 | 0.373018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14372 | 0 | 0.141415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14985 | 0.134578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19573 | 0 | 0 | 0.088717 |
suicidewatch | alternateaccount1223 | 2019/10/06 | I've been having bad thoughts for a few months. I have been having this shitty thoughts for a fucking while,i am 18, i just feel like everything i do is worthless, i am easily replaceable on everything i do, i don't even know if i can call the people i hangout with friends cause it feels just like if i was not there th... | 6.284536 | 5.162993 | 6.026515 | 86.408948 | 66.216495 | 8.790928 | 28.678351 | 7.168622 | 1.340175 | 742 | 18 | 162 | 5 | 10 | 231 | 109 | 194 | 0.213 | 0.697 | 0.089 | -0.9791 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 38 | 44 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 26 | 8 | 14 | 31 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 114 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099421 | 0.103446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126947 | 0 | 0 | 0.255427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110113 | 0.128459 | 0 | 0.082114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314306 | 0.266448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192103 | 0.114934 | 0.129907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110504 | 0.137545 | 0 | 0.068324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099233 | 0 | 0.091391 | 0 | 0.095885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258569 | 0.108554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106171 | 0 | 0.098866 | 0 | 0 | 0.099069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159322 | 0 | 0.296095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107375 | 0 | 0.102579 | 0 | 0.098682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088315 | 0.135927 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DabbedOnYourMom | 2019/10/06 | I need someone to disprove my logic about suicide I think about death a lot, and how life doesn’t matter. However I’m trying to convince myself to live. Thing is I keep having these same arguments in my head, it goes as follows
Everyone dies
Nothing matters to a dead person (including his previous life)
Thus nothing ... | 4.311136 | 6.218595 | 4.850391 | 82.32892 | 71.727273 | 7.374242 | 29.546717 | 8.076483 | 2.182787 | 411 | 17 | 73 | 6 | 8 | 131 | 68 | 99 | 0.194 | 0.71 | 0.095 | -0.9137 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 27 | 13 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 46 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302646 | 0.188353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481001 | 0 | 0 | 0.300662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113104 | 0.109087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186138 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Chrisgonz605 | 2019/10/06 | Sorry not sorry My talks shit in front of me purposely then when I try to defend myself my parents threaten me. Been used to this shit since I was 5 | 4.096452 | 4.482035 | 5.300161 | 84.670242 | 70.612903 | 7.490323 | 25.177419 | 7.168622 | 1.064342 | 117 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 2 | 39 | 25 | 31 | 0.314 | 0.651 | 0.035 | -0.8714 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.569452 | 0.229451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.621008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Try_Tell_The_Truth | 2019/10/06 | I just wanna die I am writing this because at this exact moment I'm trying to distract myself from taking a knife or the cutter on my desk and open my wrists. | 13.053636 | 5.752952 | 12.655758 | 63.103636 | 59.909091 | 13.2 | 42.090909 | 3.1291 | 3.5426 | 126 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 43 | 29 | 33 | 0.184 | 0.816 | 0 | -0.7269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.659698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BryHidalgo | 2019/10/06 | Want to kill myself today Today I feel just exhausted | 1.794 | 4.153084 | 4.06 | 74.86 | 105 | 6 | 15 | 7.168622 | 1.231 | 44 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 10 | 0.497 | 0.414 | 0.09 | -0.7845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.814189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sharkoncrack | 2019/10/06 | They say it gets better but it doesn’t, fuck this. I made my first post here when I was 17 years old a few years ago. I was literally ready to die, I wrote out my suicide letter and was moments away from ending it all before my fucking dog care clawing at my door. That little gesture saved my life.
Shortly after that ... | 1.964533 | 3.460125 | 3.288447 | 92.809877 | 77.097448 | 6.088193 | 22.645076 | 6.691623 | 0.415827 | 1,593 | 46 | 359 | 14 | 36 | 519 | 213 | 431 | 0.224 | 0.6 | 0.176 | -0.9896 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 54 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 22 | 43 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 24 | 26 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 50 | 77 | 20 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 25 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 10 | 46 | 14 | 46 | 46 | 9 | 59 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 9 | 20 | 16 | 10 | 2 | 37 | 205 | 71 | 2 | 0.065284 | 0 | 0 | 0.07117 | 0 | 0 | 0.057871 | 0.069769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049942 | 0 | 0.129489 | 0 | 0 | 0.107447 | 0.116234 | 0 | 0.07427 | 0.122674 | 0.100399 | 0 | 0.079593 | 0 | 0.055552 | 0 | 0 | 0.057739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066562 | 0 | 0 | 0.056237 | 0 | 0.070549 | 0 | 0.052124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056229 | 0 | 0.13551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059053 | 0 | 0 | 0.117347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099029 | 0.046639 | 0.062683 | 0 | 0 | 0.111062 | 0 | 0 | 0.050438 | 0.543189 | 0.068217 | 0 | 0.14841 | 0.054757 | 0.104428 | 0.071976 | 0 | 0 | 0.057731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070518 | 0 | 0.129569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035879 | 0 | 0 | 0.069127 | 0 | 0 | 0.276673 | 0.127578 | 0.065432 | 0.057647 | 0 | 0.054822 | 0.073036 | 0.285062 | 0.055502 | 0 | 0.061774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047991 | 0 | 0.050351 | 0.063052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062642 | 0 | 0.068505 | 0 | 0.044238 | 0 | 0.069467 | 0.076597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061715 | 0 | 0.062524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051917 | 0.130722 | 0 | 0.052023 | 0 | 0.068106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065331 | 0.066549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114203 | 0.075035 | 0 | 0 | 0.072533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053866 | 0.154026 | 0 | 0 | 0.158997 | 0 | 0.060519 | 0 | 0 | 0.075074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084082 |
suicidewatch | c1nnam0nr0lll | 2019/10/06 | i'm ready i think i have enough pills now, just gotta have enough confidence to finally do it 😎🤙 | -1.278333 | 0.744045 | 1.215455 | 99.409848 | 94.909091 | 6.569697 | 16.424242 | 7.793538 | 0.316588 | 77 | 2 | 20 | 2 | 3 | 26 | 18 | 22 | 0 | 0.721 | 0.279 | 0.7003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.852141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | khw777 | 2019/10/06 | Ready to die Talk to my wife tonight. We separated recently. I moved back to my home town. She began getting upset at me for not eating, not scheduling psych appt, getting my medicine and scheduling counselor appt. The she hangs up on me.
I immediately have suicidal thoughts. I'm so tired mentally and physically, goin... | 2.605639 | 5.431484 | 4.133218 | 80.457604 | 82.481481 | 7.819444 | 26.956019 | 8.660443 | 2.592713 | 568 | 25 | 103 | 15 | 16 | 188 | 89 | 135 | 0.293 | 0.652 | 0.055 | -0.9901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 23 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 19 | 20 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 65 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098323 | 0 | 0.110608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147947 | 0 | 0 | 0.12806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15108 | 0.1387 | 0.082171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096913 | 0 | 0.145031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145655 | 0.145709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153672 | 0.106287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092625 | 0 | 0.142761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217421 | 0.116213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18529 | 0 | 0.114785 | 0 | 0.664721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119298 | 0.170561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | user124i53 | 2019/10/06 | Anybody else sick of the "i feel the same" you get everytime you try to discuss your depression and suicidal thoughts with someone? Then that person tries to turn it 180° and talks about stuff that makes him sad
And when we take our lives people say "why did they never speak???" BECAUSE NO BODY IS EVER GOING TO LISTEN... | 5.652705 | 6.549578 | 5.252582 | 84.566086 | 67.360656 | 8.067213 | 28.364754 | 8.076483 | 1.754308 | 252 | 8 | 48 | 3 | 4 | 77 | 54 | 61 | 0.213 | 0.754 | 0.033 | -0.9341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125546 | 0 | 0.136567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166592 | 0.209818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275083 | 0.262846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180674 | 0.193142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326292 | 0.261375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LonelyAndSad475 | 2019/10/06 | Lost My 5 year relationship is coming to an end and that's ok. It just doesn't work anymore, I still love and care about him, but I no longer wish to be with him. It breaks my heart to think about it, but I now see that this is how it goes. I'm just completely lost. Where am I supposed to go from here?
The thing is, I... | 1.469909 | 2.718181 | 3.366826 | 92.772377 | 77.858696 | 6.428406 | 22.049275 | 7.031649 | 0.408541 | 655 | 18 | 156 | 7 | 15 | 221 | 112 | 184 | 0.183 | 0.688 | 0.129 | -0.9358 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 38 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 25 | 31 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 107 | 31 | 3 | 0.154498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472563 | 0 | 0 | 0.133086 | 0.161988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136839 | 0 | 0 | 0.102045 | 0 | 0 | 0.14763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142831 | 0.161438 | 0 | 0.263414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164224 | 0 | 0.183081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161256 | 0.153315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337306 | 0 | 0.139441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102642 | 0.098996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177665 | 0 | 0 | 0.112476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198983 |
suicidewatch | ilove-mycatluna | 2019/10/06 | i’m usually the one to respond to these posts but today i’m the one needing help i was actually in a good mood and listening to music while doing my makeup but something triggered me and now i’m sitting in bed contemplating life lol.
for the last week or so i’ve been stuck in this daze of dissociation, nothing feels ... | -0.759493 | 1.25172 | 2.1032 | 94.826267 | 89.96 | 5.253333 | 18.733333 | 6.742158 | -0.029267 | 438 | 13 | 108 | 6 | 15 | 153 | 78 | 125 | 0.104 | 0.732 | 0.165 | 0.8796 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 20 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 71 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186313 | 0 | 0 | 0.138938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212725 | 0.150278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109902 | 0 | 0 | 0.176437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297161 | 0.205539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231677 | 0 | 0 | 0.166971 | 0.168735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayhelp4488 | 2019/10/06 | it's getting pretty bad Hey, I'm just going to ramble for a bit here, hope that's alright.
I'm a 28 year old male from northern Europe, I've had panic-attacks about death since I was eight years old, I've seen a few shrinks about this death anxiety of mine along side with a severe case of health anxiety (hypochondria)... | 10.420699 | 6.722883 | 9.36592 | 73.82659 | 60.37931 | 12.897318 | 37.415709 | 10.504224 | 3.531639 | 934 | 27 | 189 | 15 | 9 | 293 | 139 | 232 | 0.196 | 0.694 | 0.11 | -0.9729 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 37 | 9 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 7 | 14 | 5 | 32 | 22 | 7 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 112 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07882 | 0 | 0.35467 | 0 | 0 | 0.081044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131859 | 0 | 0 | 0.096776 | 0 | 0 | 0.098627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130426 | 0.058605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121112 | 0 | 0.065872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123202 | 0 | 0 | 0.155378 | 0.122461 | 0 | 0.11512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097332 | 0 | 0 | 0.098539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109568 | 0 | 0 | 0.235835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115937 | 0 | 0.074252 | 0 | 0.114443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110253 | 0.092173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13094 | 0 | 0.095878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12117 | 0 | 0.126782 | 0 | 0.10924 | 0 | 0.087147 | 0 | 0 | 0.10671 | 0 | 0 | 0.154005 | 0 | 0 | 0.092016 | 0.202757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373197 |
suicidewatch | Anonderr | 2019/10/06 | I'm going to hang myself I can't feel okay anymore, Ive been feeling like this everyday for 5 weeks now. I had finally gotten to a good place and was happy before someone did something to make me this unwell. | 3.919457 | 4.833927 | 5.64186 | 80.142481 | 71.325581 | 7.593798 | 28.286822 | 7.793538 | 1.873859 | 166 | 6 | 31 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 37 | 43 | 0.039 | 0.716 | 0.245 | 0.8374 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314637 | 0.222274 | 0 | 0.340831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176824 | 0.260964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263622 | 0.239526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UnhelpfulYoda66 | 2019/10/06 | I Don't wanna live anymore My life from the outside looks good, im on the football team, on the math league team, i have a 3.75-4.0 gpa, i even have a bunch of friends. But i just wanna die inside. Everyday i come home feeling like a failure and that im not worth anything. I hate dissapointing people yet i always find ... | 0.773412 | 3.130948 | 2.717941 | 90.715735 | 86.176471 | 4.341176 | 21.441176 | 5.683918 | 0.140906 | 324 | 11 | 66 | 2 | 10 | 108 | 62 | 85 | 0.239 | 0.62 | 0.141 | -0.8388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 40 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177829 | 0 | 0 | 0.147558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090665 | 0.1281 | 0 | 0 | 0.163888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.581062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126653 | 0.087603 | 0 | 0.158335 | 0 | 0.150577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wallsarelooking | 2019/10/06 | Yo check me out I see you guys have been saying that it doesnt get better.You are right.I feel the same.But i also feel like its getting worse.Tho i can say only one thing:it doesnt get better,but i get better.I get throgh a lot everyday,its like a circle.Like that time i got bullied in elementery school,it didnt get b... | 0.580333 | 2.726941 | 2.037727 | 96.779924 | 84.727273 | 4.393939 | 19.166667 | 5.461319 | -0.398697 | 407 | 11 | 91 | 2 | 12 | 131 | 69 | 110 | 0.06 | 0.834 | 0.106 | 0.6468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 20 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 40 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147245 | 0.10402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13461 | 0.456437 | 0.139678 | 0 | 0 | 0.116454 | 0 | 0 | 0.288344 | 0 | 0 | 0.130434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123788 | 0.131415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098666 | 0.110739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124346 | 0 | 0.231582 | 0 | 0.294721 | 0.116029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sandwhichcatuwu | 2019/10/06 | I’m so trapped I just can’t I just wanna die | -4.6925 | -3.582452 | -0.466667 | 109.095 | 109.833333 | 2.4 | 14.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.788467 | 35 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 9 | 12 | 0.559 | 0.441 | 0 | -0.8221 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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