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suicidewatch | beepysheep | 2018/12/20 | At some point I’ve tried my best, I hope im not here next year. Isnt it sad that the only thing i have to live for is a fucking concert? Im useless and a pathetic excuse of a human being, i dont want to do this anymore and I cant do this anymore. The only thing thats stopping me is me fucking uo my family by killing my... | 1.833409 | 2.759936 | 4.75497 | 84.482455 | 76.348485 | 6.795152 | 25.321212 | 7.168622 | 1.159843 | 467 | 16 | 100 | 5 | 10 | 170 | 80 | 132 | 0.119 | 0.768 | 0.113 | 0.2997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 23 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 14 | 20 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 73 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417403 | 0.098097 | 0 | 0.2309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389099 | 0.073298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099094 | 0.068541 | 0 | 0.123882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108204 | 0 | 0.149205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121169 | 0 | 0 | 0.248248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090345 |
suicidewatch | throwaway32517121918 | 2018/12/20 | I don't know how much "stronger" I can be. I just wake up everyday trying for everyone but myself and it feels pointless.
I only wake up for my boyfriend and he isn't even talking to me right now, not even because we fought or I did something. I don't know if he just wants to be alone or something. I asked him and he ... | 0.153841 | 2.074775 | 1.897065 | 98.530525 | 84.652174 | 4.876812 | 18.278986 | 5.985473 | -0.455101 | 410 | 10 | 99 | 3 | 12 | 134 | 70 | 115 | 0.226 | 0.722 | 0.052 | -0.9739 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 21 | 11 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 19 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 67 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274074 | 0 | 0 | 0.198254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209814 | 0.148222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229543 | 0 | 0.228048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140592 | 0.157796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354369 | 0.197359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nanamao | 2018/12/20 | people want me here but they’re really supportive or loving they don’t understand me
im really depressed and tired of going through the process of making connections and failing
i got in a fight today with my parents. they just yelled at me again for “diagnosing myself” when im really trying to understand myself. no o... | 1.309971 | 3.630217 | 3.21819 | 88.366083 | 83.108761 | 6.940618 | 22.487496 | 8.076483 | 1.346843 | 1,275 | 44 | 265 | 27 | 36 | 427 | 167 | 331 | 0.258 | 0.57 | 0.171 | -0.9939 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 22 | 28 | 8 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 66 | 50 | 32 | 3 | 8 | 17 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 47 | 14 | 36 | 46 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 16 | 177 | 64 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079047 | 0 | 0.058304 | 0 | 0 | 0.068121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05665 | 0.066758 | 0.136524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057559 | 0 | 0.154171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17377 | 0 | 0 | 0.062849 | 0.059113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099771 | 0.046988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121613 | 0.068728 | 0 | 0.03738 | 0 | 0.052605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070017 | 0 | 0.064937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.639417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0964 | 0.065922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059363 | 0 | 0.175616 | 0 | 0 | 0.071646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0525 | 0 | 0 | 0.04877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069018 | 0 | 0.089139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073033 | 0 | 0 | 0.091198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074508 | 0 | 0 | 0.052305 | 0.131701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076368 | 0.043697 | 0.042145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151193 | 0.062345 | 0 | 0 | 0.044656 | 0 | 0 | 0.273889 | 0 | 0 | 0.07244 | 0 | 0.193974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071913 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stealthyhobbes | 2018/12/01 | I am not who I appear to be. I am nothing that I appear to be. If my family or friends knew.. | -3.205152 | -1.661348 | 1.751818 | 95.564394 | 99 | 4.751515 | 16.424242 | 6.427356 | -0.265685 | 68 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 15 | 22 | 0 | 0.846 | 0.154 | 0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.60772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.61856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bert_Macklin_F_B_I | 2018/12/01 | I'm so close to actually attempting, is posting here a sign that I don't actually want too? I've got a pile of paracetamol next to me and I'm so tempted, it would be painful yes but if I just stay drunk. After 8 hours the treatment wouldn't be effective and I'd be dead within 48 hours, I honestly don't know anymore, I ... | 0.769091 | 2.356188 | 3.305594 | 90.955315 | 80.818182 | 7.197203 | 24.286713 | 8.13951 | 1.227976 | 507 | 19 | 123 | 10 | 13 | 177 | 81 | 143 | 0.2 | 0.711 | 0.089 | -0.9388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 27 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 15 | 19 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 76 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.496341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192708 | 0 | 0.135597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174031 | 0 | 0.190571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108635 | 0.166573 | 0 | 0.197721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120437 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chokeholdchokehold | 2018/12/01 | Any important affairs I need to set in order? Just wondering if anyone can think of anything I need to sort out and put in place | 3.547692 | 4.990359 | 4.910769 | 83.009231 | 72.846154 | 8.276923 | 28.384615 | 8.841846 | 2.267062 | 102 | 4 | 20 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 22 | 26 | 0 | 0.927 | 0.073 | 0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255039 | 0 | 0.300155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.54091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rerversed | 2018/12/01 | I don't even know if i want to live or die. There are many things to live for, but also a billion other things that put you into deep depression.
I alternate between thoughts about how the future will go a lot in one fucking day | 4.441631 | 4.829225 | 5.081702 | 86.533333 | 69.851064 | 7.968794 | 28.432624 | 7.793538 | 1.579786 | 180 | 6 | 38 | 2 | 3 | 58 | 41 | 47 | 0.161 | 0.815 | 0.025 | -0.81 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 31 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173147 | 0 | 0.231241 | 0 | 0.278639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248205 | 0 | 0 | 0.152583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356731 | 0 | 0 | 0.213143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Valerianne_ | 2018/12/01 | I'm not going to make it till the end of this year. The where and how is already settled, I just need to wait on the when because my setup won't be ready before I get my paycheck.
"My odds are stacked."
I'm aware how mathematically miraculous a chance and blessing life is. I truly am. I wouldn't even flinch before ... | 2.882669 | 5.59378 | 3.770221 | 84.406706 | 79.77193 | 6.484437 | 26.737408 | 7.717688 | 1.75981 | 1,193 | 50 | 221 | 20 | 31 | 381 | 155 | 285 | 0.094 | 0.762 | 0.144 | 0.9287 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 78 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 45 | 47 | 23 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 18 | 11 | 32 | 33 | 4 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 143 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.066503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075204 | 0 | 0 | 0.443036 | 0.49685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041543 | 0 | 0.115979 | 0 | 0 | 0.120544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05693 | 0 | 0.06036 | 0 | 0 | 0.045012 | 0 | 0 | 0.065119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052652 | 0 | 0.178025 | 0.065375 | 0.116192 | 0.22864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240678 | 0.033294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064825 | 0.054195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077934 | 0 | 0 | 0.043667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06945 | 0 | 0.07451 | 0.49685 | 0.131657 |
suicidewatch | MichelleLupin | 2018/12/01 | It keeps coming back and is as strong as before. I’ve been having my suicidal thoughts for over a year now. I’ve been on a therapy for one year, and been taking multiple antidepressants for over six months. The thoughts, or the desire I’n having is changing, but it never really disappears. The focus used to be how life... | 0.636294 | 2.896542 | 2.620675 | 91.907834 | 85.64557 | 5.66301 | 18.587904 | 7.054809 | 0.256885 | 1,186 | 31 | 256 | 17 | 36 | 396 | 152 | 316 | 0.244 | 0.59 | 0.166 | -0.9916 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 63 | 53 | 25 | 5 | 13 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 31 | 7 | 21 | 38 | 4 | 33 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 25 | 166 | 50 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08247 | 0.13431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069049 | 0 | 0 | 0.051491 | 0 | 0.131368 | 0 | 0.070065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039419 | 0.055694 | 0 | 0 | 0.071253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044306 | 0 | 0.062351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166914 | 0 | 0.505256 | 0 | 0 | 0.138587 | 0.08625 | 0 | 0.128533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11013 | 0.114261 | 0 | 0.206518 | 0.137983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147534 | 0.052038 | 0 | 0.07832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120254 | 0.075293 | 0 | 0 | 0.076383 | 0.074804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052827 | 0.059291 | 0.165908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061996 | 0.078051 | 0 | 0.062123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0815 | 0 | 0.255824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089153 | 0 | 0.051793 | 0.099906 | 0 | 0.123782 | 0.181835 | 0.179205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067332 | 0.085861 | 0 | 0.137947 | 0.06188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100406 |
suicidewatch | twilldy | 2018/12/01 | Dealing with a person that triggers suicidal thoughts A little over a year ago, I was going through some really tough things. I won't go into them, but they involved someone I was once very close to for about half the time I had been alive. Someone I wholly trusted, and that was no easy feat for me to do, given what I'... | 6.723649 | 6.198745 | 6.534459 | 81.164257 | 65.081081 | 9.562162 | 33.364865 | 8.841846 | 2.562862 | 594 | 22 | 119 | 8 | 8 | 187 | 92 | 148 | 0.177 | 0.743 | 0.08 | -0.9517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 25 | 22 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 25 | 11 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 89 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305112 | 0.127451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160243 | 0 | 0 | 0.258412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098308 | 0.094817 | 0 | 0.234952 | 0.258857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095291 |
suicidewatch | princ3noct1s | 2018/12/01 | I wanna feel the ultimate pain I really wish I could commit suicide and come back and do it again. I wanna feel the ultimate pain I wanna be able to feel a bullet go through my head and a rope choke me to death and feel the burn on my neck. The harm I can do to myself and feel while still living isn't enough anymore | 4.316912 | 3.989399 | 5.442941 | 86.318235 | 70.029412 | 8.564706 | 24.352941 | 8.076483 | 1.081812 | 249 | 5 | 56 | 3 | 4 | 83 | 43 | 68 | 0.28 | 0.65 | 0.07 | -0.9555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 41 | 11 | 0 | 0.21484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.543149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lakrt | 2018/12/01 | Feel guilty over suicide thoughts I have suicidal thoughts because of my looks, but whenever I mention it to someone they mock me and say that it’s insulting for me to feel bad about my looks when people in other places in the world have it so much worse.
Idk what to think or feel. Im really drunk right now but is an... | 6.748418 | 5.550653 | 6.302373 | 85.054573 | 65.329114 | 9.925316 | 32.408228 | 8.841846 | 2.275428 | 307 | 10 | 67 | 4 | 4 | 95 | 59 | 79 | 0.373 | 0.61 | 0.017 | -0.9897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 41 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130071 | 0.190602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155321 | 0.113398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128965 | 0 | 0.194354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158862 | 0 | 0.147933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119196 | 0 | 0.295362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thisizathrowawayyy | 2018/12/01 | Attempted suicide once; didn’t pan out. Now, I wish I had access to fentanyl. My only attempt at suicide was when I took eight, instead of four, Trazedone. I got into the sixth pill and I figured “Fuck it.”
Every day I realize how much more of a loser I am than the last day and how hopeless my future is.
I’m 28, alm... | 2.028645 | 4.024438 | 3.72315 | 87.504958 | 78.522673 | 6.302209 | 23.870081 | 7.32111 | 1.049443 | 1,609 | 55 | 326 | 21 | 39 | 537 | 219 | 419 | 0.098 | 0.808 | 0.094 | -0.5577 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 52 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 18 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 33 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 55 | 61 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 6 | 39 | 7 | 51 | 42 | 10 | 57 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 28 | 2 | 5 | 26 | 210 | 56 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0.079328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076376 | 0.062508 | 0 | 0.297325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135816 | 0 | 0.072 | 0.083995 | 0 | 0.053692 | 0 | 0.136982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294892 | 0 | 0 | 0.075152 | 0.212356 | 0 | 0.0462 | 0 | 0.065016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089351 | 0.132526 | 0 | 0.086075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039715 | 0.081475 | 0.143563 | 0 | 0.068264 | 0 | 0.088739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082081 | 0 | 0 | 0.086399 | 0.179275 | 0 | 0.18809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078001 | 0 | 0 | 0.086572 | 0 | 0.123651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084932 | 0 | 0.076846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129292 | 0 | 0.164542 | 0.064778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052088 | 0 | 0 | 0.047401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090317 | 0 | 0 | 0.079409 | 0 | 0 | 0.070209 | 0 | 0 | 0.047948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07309 | 0 | 0.073352 | 0 | 0.186961 | 0.078362 | 0 | 0.059181 | 0 | 0 | 0.057747 | 0 | 0 | 0.104697 |
suicidewatch | ColorlessSkyCries | 2018/12/01 | I think I lost my friend. I don't know if this even belongs here, I'll delete if it doesn't. Sorry for being a drunk mess. I'm using a throwaway for this as well.
A few months ago, I met a certain person here on r/SuicideWatch. We became good friends (at least over the Internet) despite all of our countless differenc... | 3.165406 | 4.59015 | 4.099318 | 88.519839 | 73.784946 | 6.851465 | 23.04264 | 7.372421 | 0.807407 | 1,436 | 38 | 298 | 16 | 29 | 463 | 190 | 372 | 0.151 | 0.713 | 0.137 | -0.8193 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 54 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 29 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 34 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 55 | 66 | 29 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 6 | 58 | 18 | 36 | 39 | 11 | 40 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 50 | 16 | 0 | 11 | 20 | 212 | 70 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081526 | 0 | 0 | 0.190508 | 0 | 0.073549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08598 | 0 | 0 | 0.14144 | 0 | 0.056064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097293 | 0.158449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079214 | 0 | 0 | 0.09609 | 0.105406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139509 | 0.131408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284225 | 0 | 0.048051 | 0 | 0 | 0.077141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097761 | 0 | 0 | 0.246584 | 0 | 0 | 0.091348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101089 | 0.149937 | 0 | 0.097384 | 0 | 0 | 0.064962 | 0.089864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077232 | 0 | 0.100397 | 0.07819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369588 | 0 | 0 | 0.092651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07341 | 0 | 0.067609 | 0 | 0.070933 | 0 | 0.097812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186965 | 0.069948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117838 | 0.094561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087485 | 0 | 0.092079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095946 | 0.103901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141607 | 0 | 0.102954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084674 | 0 | 0 | 0.122203 | 0.058931 | 0 | 0 | 0.053629 | 0 | 0 | 0.087882 | 0.102183 | 0.124884 | 0 | 0 | 0.095745 | 0 | 0.079433 | 0 | 0.075885 | 0.16274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105762 | 0 | 0 | 0.066956 | 0 | 0 | 0.065333 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DickBiggerThanRonnie | 2018/12/01 | Feeling completely hopeless because of this neurological condition that could be irreversible. My whole life is suffering(16M) Evey aspect of my life is collapsing around me because of this neurological condition I'm dealing with. I'm doing shitty at school, I'm fucking up all my relationships with everyone I care abou... | 8.002239 | 9.265364 | 8.187245 | 64.299419 | 62.288591 | 11.642812 | 38.838573 | 11.418023 | 5.032501 | 1,366 | 69 | 211 | 40 | 19 | 446 | 158 | 298 | 0.186 | 0.74 | 0.074 | -0.9885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 16 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 43 | 54 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 29 | 8 | 37 | 48 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 145 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073886 | 0.11393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08941 | 0.193444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12129 | 0 | 0 | 0.110777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227836 | 0 | 0 | 0.086749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143526 | 0 | 0 | 0.207641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200892 | 0 | 0 | 0.123497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23023 | 0.265406 | 0 | 0 | 0.096152 | 0 | 0 | 0.118605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083798 | 0 | 0 | 0.101961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09487 | 0 | 0 | 0.10271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069604 | 0 | 0 | 0.11665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122744 | 0 | 0 | 0.122128 | 0.108729 | 0 | 0.092059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102402 | 0.11293 | 0 | 0.087329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144365 | 0.348095 | 0 | 0 | 0.063355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09769 | 0 | 0 | 0.242609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _SteveStevenson | 2018/12/01 | Goodbye I can't go on anymore. Everyday is terrible and all I think about is wanting to be dead but I'm not sure how, or if I even can kill myself. I'm miserable all the time and I can't see a future where I'm actually happy. I'm not sure if I can do it to my family but I can't keep going the way it is now. I'm 17 but ... | 0.827543 | 1.387758 | 4.088354 | 89.715123 | 78.324324 | 7.814251 | 20.211302 | 8.296473 | 0.665816 | 488 | 10 | 125 | 9 | 11 | 181 | 76 | 148 | 0.174 | 0.697 | 0.129 | -0.6378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 34 | 36 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 6 | 12 | 32 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 92 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310312 | 0.193123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154139 | 0.154479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335551 | 0 | 0 | 0.101787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102959 | 0.138557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kazengen | 2018/12/01 | If you use a suicide note you're a bitch. You're just someone who hasn't said enough in life so you try to have a word in before you go out. It's rhe equivalent of slapping someone in the face and then running away. Say the shit while you're alive or don't do it at all. | 1.03918 | 2.208901 | 2.515541 | 98.756918 | 78.836066 | 5.535738 | 22.036066 | 5.683918 | -0.136963 | 212 | 6 | 54 | 1 | 5 | 69 | 45 | 61 | 0.132 | 0.763 | 0.105 | -0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282197 | 0.235921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 1di37c3ck954b6ss | 2018/12/01 | Nothing holding me back About 3 weeks ago I got broken up with and this guy that I was friends with(on and off) left me too a week ago. I have no family, no friends. I have... no one. Nothing is holding me back from finally getting peace/rest and nothing makes me happier. | 2.286667 | 4.32572 | 3.481259 | 89.339667 | 77.888889 | 6.542222 | 31.17037 | 7.554174 | 2.043908 | 210 | 11 | 43 | 3 | 5 | 68 | 37 | 54 | 0.213 | 0.682 | 0.106 | -0.6458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 30 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310141 | 0 | 0.104864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160528 | 0 | 0 | 0.198737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.577768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | needafriend35 | 2018/12/01 | Is there anyone out there I could talk to? Please. | -1.394333 | -1.745569 | -1.31 | 110.391667 | 140 | 1.333333 | 3.333333 | 3.1291 | -3.260667 | 39 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0.777 | 0.223 | 0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.636162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zebrawarrior | 2018/12/01 | will i die 160mg of valium @ 2:07pm
612.5 mg of promethazine 2:33pm
0.1 mg clonodine around same time
| 3.647368 | 6.460945 | 2.399211 | 94.781974 | 77.421053 | 5.905263 | 20.026316 | 7.168622 | 0.3434 | 82 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 16 | 19 | 0.196 | 0.804 | 0 | -0.5994 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.69819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | usetheforcedummy | 2018/12/01 | I'm out of hope I meant it when I said I do. I meant it when I became a dad. My life is a series of failures without reason to expect change. She is my world. I don't want to fail anymore. | -1.829545 | -0.187112 | 1.519273 | 99.843909 | 90.818182 | 3.52 | 15.618182 | 3.1291 | -1.269095 | 142 | 3 | 37 | 0 | 5 | 51 | 29 | 44 | 0.106 | 0.751 | 0.144 | 0.367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hortonhearsawhatt | 2018/12/01 | Too much I can’t get killing myself off my mind. No one knows. No one notices. I can’t tell my therapist or my parents or friends. I know that if i was presented with the chance to kill myself, I would do it. I want to just walk off a building. I never want to wake up again. I feel dumb and defeated. | -0.701346 | 1.363311 | 1.557212 | 98.369663 | 90.538462 | 5.096154 | 20.432692 | 6.627428 | 0.155654 | 230 | 8 | 56 | 3 | 8 | 77 | 46 | 65 | 0.278 | 0.615 | 0.108 | -0.9349 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 42 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183337 | 0 | 0.123979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525072 | 0 | 0.260827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174442 | 0 | 0.18302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270166 | 0 | 0 | 0.3216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20741 | 0 | 0 | 0.275522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16857 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | brokenerdgirl | 2018/12/01 | My future is empty I found out yesterday my dreams of going to grad school are dead because my severe mental health gave me awful marks in my BA. My transcript is terrible and looking for jobs next month has been nothing short of a nightmare. I’ve applied for so many and heard from now. I’ve lost hope.
My parents don... | 3.188744 | 5.241303 | 3.807425 | 87.980829 | 75.211454 | 6.478326 | 26.768502 | 7.365786 | 1.381619 | 913 | 35 | 179 | 11 | 20 | 288 | 149 | 227 | 0.193 | 0.672 | 0.135 | -0.9542 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 40 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 33 | 8 | 29 | 24 | 1 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 116 | 37 | 4 | 0 | 0.156154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149934 | 0.123824 | 0 | 0 | 0.08034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289009 | 0 | 0 | 0.137713 | 0 | 0.149802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14009 | 0 | 0 | 0.088338 | 0 | 0 | 0.130901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130785 | 0 | 0.14581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110673 | 0 | 0.143868 | 0 | 0.118949 | 0 | 0 | 0.133618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140164 | 0 | 0 | 0.379378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140237 | 0.154631 | 0.146341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128743 | 0 | 0 | 0.113827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093622 | 0 | 0 | 0.169741 |
suicidewatch | bastianelli | 2018/12/01 | I have lost everything and now my life too Growing up from age whatever to 14 my dad used to beat the living shit out of me. I still have those scars now. But even then the thought of ending my own life never crossed my mind. Not even once. Not until my sisters died. And that thought hasn’t escaped my mind since.
I f... | -0.014453 | 2.073821 | 1.433721 | 100.493807 | 86.906977 | 4.923554 | 17.250745 | 6.297961 | -0.540588 | 1,242 | 29 | 306 | 12 | 39 | 396 | 166 | 344 | 0.133 | 0.681 | 0.186 | 0.9819 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 28 | 29 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 57 | 62 | 22 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 69 | 15 | 28 | 40 | 10 | 48 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 37 | 12 | 1 | 8 | 28 | 213 | 85 | 0 | 0.078782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139672 | 0 | 0 | 0.081595 | 0 | 0 | 0.065553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048025 | 0 | 0 | 0.088761 | 0.082677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139556 | 0 | 0 | 0.10407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119504 | 0 | 0.151287 | 0.172605 | 0.072006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174322 | 0 | 0.086593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08056 | 0.166939 | 0 | 0 | 0.069566 | 0.06972 | 0 | 0 | 0.516002 | 0 | 0.142208 | 0 | 0 | 0.079873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251702 | 0.10677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054618 | 0.06879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188338 | 0 | 0.082187 | 0 | 0.080869 | 0.130339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08819 | 0 | 0 | 0.125831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068859 | 0.072532 | 0 | 0 | 0.157019 | 0 | 0.077403 | 0.125089 | 0.091877 | 0 | 0 | 0.07528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068043 | 0 | 0 | 0.046468 | 0.062534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1522 |
suicidewatch | mimi56 | 2018/12/01 | Thinking of ending my life over sexual assault and being treated like garbage by men. I am done and it's clear that I'm worth nothing more than trash I've been suicidal on and off, the only thing that stops me occasionally is the thought of making something of my life but the other side of me says: what's the point? Yo... | 3.562099 | 4.424972 | 4.676456 | 86.925871 | 72.115824 | 7.333647 | 24.859403 | 7.485028 | 1.011133 | 2,325 | 65 | 499 | 25 | 43 | 764 | 248 | 613 | 0.159 | 0.683 | 0.158 | -0.8522 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 34 | 45 | 9 | 1 | 29 | 1 | 55 | 23 | 8 | 4 | 12 | 80 | 89 | 42 | 1 | 8 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 33 | 29 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 13 | 71 | 28 | 65 | 53 | 15 | 63 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 49 | 19 | 3 | 4 | 49 | 336 | 104 | 1 | 0 | 0.147835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064613 | 0.137689 | 0 | 0.05191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06187 | 0.130866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05209 | 0.15212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055176 | 0 | 0.138594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04981 | 0 | 0.137057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127686 | 0 | 0.061115 | 0 | 0 | 0.052116 | 0 | 0.110511 | 0.064462 | 0 | 0.288439 | 0.28216 | 0 | 0.119225 | 0 | 0.061026 | 0 | 0 | 0.126177 | 0.133706 | 0.059901 | 0 | 0 | 0.106131 | 0 | 0 | 0.096399 | 0 | 0.065188 | 0.059847 | 0.070911 | 0 | 0.049896 | 0 | 0 | 0.123544 | 0 | 0 | 0.055886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067783 | 0 | 0.132196 | 0.365745 | 0 | 0.165265 | 0 | 0.052389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056306 | 0 | 0.083287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045861 | 0 | 0.096232 | 0.060253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18979 | 0.19915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059344 | 0.099224 | 0 | 0 | 0.049714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192116 | 0.103213 | 0 | 0.124863 | 0 | 0.05286 | 0.048028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066495 | 0.049822 | 0.052158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050144 | 0.054528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082893 | 0.119924 | 0 | 0.099055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053882 | 0 | 0.051475 | 0.183985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080349 |
suicidewatch | KokeElMaster | 2018/12/01 | My friend is thinking of committing suicide. I met my friend last year, who is 15 years old. He always tells me about his narcissistic sister and father and how he hates going home. As of right now, he told me he decided to commit suicide today. I told him how much he means to me and that He is loved by me even though... | 3.968 | 4.570144 | 5.294074 | 83.823333 | 71 | 8.37037 | 26.111111 | 8.515129 | 1.604778 | 513 | 15 | 108 | 8 | 9 | 172 | 84 | 135 | 0.081 | 0.785 | 0.134 | 0.6908 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 21 | 21 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 20 | 3 | 18 | 16 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 70 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165791 | 0 | 0 | 0.138866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149594 | 0 | 0.080236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212726 | 0 | 0.159173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116651 | 0.117662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135516 | 0.150945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131265 | 0.178368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203357 | 0.155907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150414 | 0.303259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204375 |
suicidewatch | -Black-_-Rose- | 2018/12/01 | I'm thinking about it again. Its December 1st, 2018 and I am thinking about suicide yet again. It passes my mind everyday but today it's alot louder and stronger due to high depression. My boyfriend makes sarcastic remarks about getting out of bed. Today he told me he was gonna go be a normal person amd got out of bed.... | -0.211568 | 1.980674 | 1.884556 | 95.962053 | 89.617978 | 4.584678 | 20.45046 | 6.112484 | 0.032575 | 649 | 22 | 147 | 6 | 22 | 216 | 107 | 178 | 0.282 | 0.612 | 0.106 | -0.9921 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 31 | 37 | 12 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 20 | 3 | 16 | 27 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 90 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174276 | 0 | 0 | 0.13665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160442 | 0.113344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082891 | 0 | 0.180335 | 0.133073 | 0.126891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106344 | 0.167628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169844 | 0 | 0.171375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175529 | 0 | 0.174386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077511 | 0.159015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177602 | 0 | 0.169106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173544 | 0.180041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300774 | 0.151602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112704 | 0 | 0 | 0.102169 |
suicidewatch | yuemyue | 2018/12/01 | Survived suicide attempt and now have even more thoughts of suicide. I tried to kill myself.
And I get that everything won't just go back to normal. I get people won't act the same way around me. I just wish they would actually try to get some different help for my depression, since the help I'm getting clearly isn't ... | 3.798113 | 4.27837 | 4.985031 | 86.32629 | 71.319149 | 8.107069 | 27.076184 | 8.155647 | 1.53567 | 1,761 | 56 | 382 | 24 | 31 | 584 | 194 | 470 | 0.174 | 0.736 | 0.09 | -0.9931 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 49 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 26 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 45 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 87 | 92 | 29 | 9 | 15 | 20 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 27 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 8 | 51 | 7 | 45 | 59 | 12 | 34 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 248 | 78 | 4 | 0.130867 | 0 | 0.127707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067769 | 0 | 0 | 0.054446 | 0.070897 | 0.079509 | 0.044497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053846 | 0.05825 | 0 | 0 | 0.061477 | 0.050314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055679 | 0 | 0 | 0.05787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208973 | 0 | 0 | 0.084398 | 0.067459 | 0.112715 | 0 | 0.135819 | 0.068364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054661 | 0 | 0.115909 | 0 | 0 | 0.086436 | 0 | 0 | 0.062524 | 0.176422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099255 | 0.093491 | 0 | 0 | 0.11961 | 0 | 0 | 0.071744 | 0 | 0.060492 | 0.27349 | 0 | 0.148749 | 0 | 0.052333 | 0 | 0.144164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087717 | 0 | 0.13127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05816 | 0.144785 | 0 | 0.107881 | 0 | 0 | 0.069284 | 0 | 0 | 0.138653 | 0.12787 | 0.131163 | 0.115558 | 0.057906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061915 | 0.087355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064111 | 0.062785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044339 | 0.049765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070548 | 0 | 0 | 0.131557 | 0 | 0 | 0.065451 | 0 | 0.335346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050374 | 0 | 0.146495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068405 | 0 | 0.286294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086942 | 0 | 0 | 0.103894 | 0.038155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113027 | 0 | 0 | 0.154377 | 0.103876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075245 | 0 | 0 | 0.095272 | 0 | 0.066682 | 0.046482 | 0 | 0.079509 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Choco_Turkey | 2018/12/01 | Do you call the police or the suicide hotline for someone who is about to attempt suicide? Or is either fine? | 3.332857 | 5.740743 | 4.238333 | 83.3775 | 76.142857 | 4.2 | 34.309524 | 3.1291 | 1.788695 | 87 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 17 | 21 | 0.321 | 0.617 | 0.062 | -0.8611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.855024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | randomgirl713 | 2018/12/01 | My life is a mess I keep going through cycles where my life falls to pieces, then for a brief time, things will start to look up. Just for everything to fall to pieces again. I can't get out of this cycle and I am just so tired of living like this. | 4.465975 | 3.825037 | 4.435849 | 94.725975 | 69.754717 | 7.821384 | 21.440252 | 6.427356 | -0.028114 | 192 | 2 | 48 | 1 | 3 | 59 | 40 | 53 | 0.118 | 0.834 | 0.047 | -0.5777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 34 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17903 | 0 | 0.194747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484074 | 0.167411 | 0 | 0.302583 | 0 | 0.287756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199813 | 0.393847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ballsnapper3425 | 2018/12/01 | Why the fuck does nothing go right? My dad even jokes about how shitty my luck is. Growing up I was bullied a lot, grew up around shitty people in a shitty school. I was weird and wasn't really popular but made some friends. My parents have been alcoholics for a while. They were addicted to coke at one point. My brothe... | 4.737348 | 5.780278 | 5.705409 | 79.96301 | 69.529695 | 9.390854 | 29.897682 | 9.648456 | 2.687215 | 2,503 | 96 | 495 | 56 | 43 | 826 | 284 | 623 | 0.209 | 0.678 | 0.112 | -0.9969 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 63 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 29 | 37 | 17 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 47 | 24 | 5 | 21 | 5 | 104 | 95 | 55 | 1 | 9 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 41 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 5 | 98 | 15 | 84 | 44 | 9 | 71 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 59 | 34 | 10 | 12 | 23 | 339 | 109 | 4 | 0 | 0.068976 | 0 | 0.063463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14532 | 0 | 0 | 0.197942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048607 | 0.035488 | 0 | 0.049537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059354 | 0 | 0.061584 | 0.050147 | 0.061038 | 0.06291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060018 | 0.050141 | 0.059087 | 0 | 0.060823 | 0 | 0.059586 | 0.050945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202534 | 0 | 0.048631 | 0.196453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115352 | 0.052659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12766 | 0.179908 | 0.269096 | 0.121661 | 0.055845 | 0.099255 | 0 | 0.09312 | 0 | 0 | 0.057642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058395 | 0 | 0 | 0.067173 | 0 | 0 | 0.062883 | 0.121523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031994 | 0.047453 | 0 | 0.061642 | 0 | 0 | 0.123358 | 0.028441 | 0 | 0.051405 | 0 | 0.048886 | 0 | 0 | 0.049493 | 0.157625 | 0.11017 | 0.077718 | 0.118043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058667 | 0.061757 | 0.058781 | 0.136362 | 0 | 0.061874 | 0.128385 | 0 | 0.134698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193924 | 0 | 0 | 0.040359 | 0.050831 | 0.060823 | 0 | 0.055032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068051 | 0.058523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074589 | 0 | 0 | 0.062502 | 0 | 0.049716 | 0 | 0.185181 | 0 | 0.058917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065767 | 0.239029 | 0.048156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063678 | 0.066062 | 0 | 0 | 0.043771 | 0 | 0.050883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057196 | 0.046217 | 0.067892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064679 | 0.118573 | 0.126643 | 0 | 0.121209 | 0 | 0.050279 | 0 | 0.048034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05253 | 0 | 0.200834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082709 | 0 | 0 | 0.037489 |
suicidewatch | S-T-A-R | 2018/12/01 | I can't keep doing this anymore. I don't want to keep going anymore when I know that I will never be able to live how I want to or ever have any way out. I'm so tired of continuing to go on as if nothing is wrong or hoping that things will get better.
I just wish I had the courage to kill myself. I'm just so tired of ... | 0.5828 | 1.510115 | 3.130333 | 94.8835 | 79.533333 | 5.533333 | 19.166667 | 5.461319 | -0.452733 | 251 | 5 | 64 | 1 | 6 | 88 | 51 | 75 | 0.177 | 0.652 | 0.171 | -0.1211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 45 | 13 | 0 | 0.193186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100932 | 0 | 0.219584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343425 | 0.213732 | 0 | 0.10617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227892 | 0.153342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211218 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | budsaflowin | 2018/12/01 | Today I hung myself. Not in such a way that it killed me because I am here to write about it It was more like an act of self harm. I wanted to feel the tightness around my neck. Be on the edge, for when I'm on the edge I have no choice but to listen to my thoughts. I have to challenge my thoughts and question what I am... | 1.326129 | 2.961043 | 2.198047 | 99.314946 | 79.314136 | 4.912966 | 18.565137 | 5.088556 | -0.70227 | 695 | 14 | 167 | 2 | 17 | 217 | 101 | 191 | 0.188 | 0.776 | 0.035 | -0.9856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 38 | 41 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 40 | 4 | 27 | 23 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 128 | 50 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118989 | 0.124958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132758 | 0 | 0 | 0.28618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147879 | 0.13919 | 0.073458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203315 | 0.284456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106513 | 0 | 0.139441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094608 | 0 | 0.106744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171293 | 0 | 0.530571 | 0 | 0 | 0.126698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157677 | 0.106096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189902 | 0.14614 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MattK803 | 2018/12/01 | I don't know what to do anymore My girlfriend of 3+ years just broke up with me. I was planning on asking her to marry me on Christmas Day. I've had an extensive history with depression and suicidal issues. I've never wanted to kill myself more than right now. Any advice would help a lot. And please none of the "just d... | 1.894505 | 3.706443 | 4.035201 | 85.978846 | 78.230769 | 7.534066 | 23.96337 | 8.418075 | 1.58206 | 294 | 10 | 61 | 6 | 7 | 101 | 58 | 78 | 0.147 | 0.717 | 0.137 | -0.2173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 43 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151901 | 0 | 0.202867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245838 | 0 | 0 | 0.260586 | 0 | 0.129444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174647 | 0.18166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167318 | 0 | 0 | 0.151677 |
suicidewatch | rod392275 | 2018/12/01 | Getting worried I’ve had suicidal thoughts since I was 17 I’m 23 now. Every year the thoughts get worse. 2018 has been the most challenging year of my life with family my girl my friends I have lost everyone had people who I gave my trust to betray me and now I can’t trust anyone. I have no one who cares about me or ch... | 0.879679 | 2.562526 | 2.511444 | 96.325134 | 80.848739 | 5.671811 | 20.061879 | 6.574016 | -0.019729 | 427 | 11 | 102 | 4 | 11 | 140 | 81 | 119 | 0.18 | 0.714 | 0.106 | -0.8554 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 26 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 18 | 6 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 63 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149332 | 0.16936 | 0 | 0 | 0.167086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194334 | 0.136935 | 0 | 0.277802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169196 | 0.122876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193872 | 0 | 0.167047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170853 | 0 | 0 | 0.179996 | 0.180623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228273 |
suicidewatch | Your_Name_Must_be_Be | 2018/12/01 | A life of false hopes Hi so
I am 17 years old, I have been depressed for 8 years, and suicidal for 3. I have a good life, but my brain is just fucking retarded.
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My life has been a series of people trying to help me just to leave and abandon me at the last minute. I always am just about to finally get t... | 4.864939 | 5.162165 | 5.178723 | 86.525186 | 68.901639 | 7.994823 | 28.511648 | 7.66913 | 1.495197 | 1,183 | 38 | 251 | 12 | 19 | 375 | 144 | 305 | 0.288 | 0.616 | 0.096 | -0.9978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 50 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 18 | 4 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 31 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 45 | 50 | 16 | 8 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 41 | 6 | 40 | 35 | 8 | 35 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 16 | 3 | 4 | 17 | 178 | 50 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.057299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048857 | 0.318096 | 0.356735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060534 | 0.101145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029689 | 0.041947 | 0 | 0.064321 | 0.053666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090728 | 0.108565 | 0.092031 | 0 | 0 | 0.049249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157426 | 0.124074 | 0 | 0.058319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064961 | 0 | 0.096807 | 0.143585 | 0 | 0.062172 | 0 | 0 | 0.290312 | 0.028686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061613 | 0 | 0.039788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201779 | 0 | 0 | 0.385358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039009 | 0 | 0.057689 | 0 | 0.068476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356735 | 0.151246 |
suicidewatch | TheLazyScout | 2018/12/01 | I think I’ve lost my family...and I’m to blame.... So today was a really shitty day.
It all went normal until, my mother took forever in a store, talking to her friend. I couldn’t stand it at all so I told her to hurry up but in a mean way. We continued to argue and fight and she too fought with my father and the maid.... | -0.230909 | 1.758465 | 2.342222 | 94.3 | 86.878788 | 5.216162 | 15.060606 | 6.574016 | -0.477776 | 351 | 6 | 81 | 4 | 11 | 121 | 70 | 99 | 0.204 | 0.686 | 0.11 | -0.8749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 15 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 52 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173285 | 0.119857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232546 | 0.234425 | 0.272573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227425 | 0 | 0.273905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174277 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | totallyataco | 2018/12/01 | Small thoughts, slowly planning Nothing ever works out. seriously. Abusive home growing up, laughed at about going to college and i guess their right since I didn't get in. 8k in debt from depression (justify using it even tho i dont have a job for junk i didn't need) no money and debt keeps piling up. I just want it t... | 0.090304 | 2.241082 | 1.859231 | 97.169103 | 87.125 | 5.197436 | 17.320513 | 6.627428 | -0.280356 | 759 | 18 | 179 | 9 | 24 | 248 | 118 | 208 | 0.138 | 0.738 | 0.124 | -0.7061 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 45 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 20 | 5 | 28 | 24 | 1 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 112 | 29 | 5 | 0 | 0.144946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249455 | 0 | 0.129413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126121 | 0.105366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108352 | 0 | 0 | 0.0808 | 0.110658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127829 | 0 | 0.069525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264283 | 0 | 0.121398 | 0.108736 | 0 | 0 | 0.067232 | 0 | 0 | 0.259068 | 0.132916 | 0 | 0 | 0.059766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106817 | 0.255626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142039 | 0.081273 | 0 | 0 | 0.194239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105657 | 0 | 0 | 0.288623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089061 | 0 | 0 | 0.086903 | 0 | 0 | 0.078779 |
suicidewatch | leonthekennedy | 2018/12/01 | Don’t know what to do My stepdad has a gun for home defense and with some digging I found his clips and the gun itself. This is probably the answer I’ve always been looking for.
The thing is that my dad would do anything to kill my stepdad (jealousy or some shit, guessing it’s a guy thing) and I feel like this would b... | 5.355176 | 4.451943 | 6.085165 | 84.512692 | 68 | 8.351648 | 30.879121 | 6.86897 | 1.656989 | 483 | 16 | 104 | 3 | 7 | 159 | 75 | 130 | 0.105 | 0.818 | 0.077 | -0.6753 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 28 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 3 | 9 | 18 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 74 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142671 | 0.148448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270621 | 0.254906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195612 | 0 | 0.164933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149638 | 0 | 0 | 0.196534 | 0.176649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197379 | 0 | 0.196094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380202 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | smallsnail89 | 2018/12/01 | maybe i'll try killing myself again tonight would be the fourth time, but my parents dont know. i have a little more than 2g of zoloft. im aware it would most likely not kill me, but maybe getting hospitalized would be finally enough for my parents to realize how dire my situation is. how badly i wanna commit suicide. ... | 3.45568 | 4.626676 | 4.581318 | 86.342739 | 72.691275 | 7.02892 | 28.981696 | 7.348243 | 1.581411 | 573 | 23 | 118 | 6 | 11 | 188 | 91 | 149 | 0.209 | 0.65 | 0.142 | -0.9354 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 26 | 10 | 5 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 4 | 15 | 16 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 83 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19693 | 0.071888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121851 | 0 | 0.15578 | 0 | 0.099359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059628 | 0 | 0 | 0.129184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218045 | 0.061612 | 0 | 0 | 0.098912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260939 | 0 | 0.19443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166592 | 0.057614 | 0.118195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236949 | 0.128458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10932 | 0.106412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33509 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Shramzoozle | 2018/12/01 | I feel like it would be so easy Just walk to the top floor of a parking garage and walk off. No more issues | 0.85875 | 2.068074 | 1.873333 | 103.005 | 79.416667 | 4.8 | 16.166667 | 3.1291 | -1.325683 | 83 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 23 | 24 | 0.078 | 0.637 | 0.285 | 0.7042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313655 | 0.44316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.647458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440661 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AntoTheGame | 2018/12/01 | I am ready 😊 I have made peace with the fact that nothing will get better, that I am done, whatever, divine reason is there for me to be here, I have either done it or wont ever do it. I am tired , cant take this anymore , wont take it, it is not worth it. So.. i am as good to go as I may ever will be. I do have a fe... | -0.410216 | 0.353509 | 2.26375 | 100.753942 | 81.8125 | 5.423077 | 16.057692 | 5.369823 | -1.052341 | 505 | 6 | 145 | 2 | 13 | 177 | 79 | 160 | 0.06 | 0.833 | 0.107 | 0.6969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 21 | 45 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 23 | 5 | 12 | 30 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 113 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123763 | 0 | 0 | 0.153082 | 0 | 0 | 0.268027 | 0 | 0 | 0.133151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154808 | 0 | 0.168398 | 0.124264 | 0 | 0 | 0.163208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102711 | 0 | 0.154789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086389 | 0.170281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | timecode2 | 2018/12/01 | The time draws near It’s been 7 years of depression and isolation, I’m distant from all my family, and have 2 friends, one who committed suicide last year.
The past 2 years I’ve stuck around mostly because I met my girlfriend but the past 6 months show we never talk she’s is always too busy, plus she is from Kuwait so ... | 1.93761 | 2.900702 | 3.087216 | 96.397489 | 76.142857 | 6.342017 | 21.658613 | 6.522977 | 0.070695 | 798 | 19 | 197 | 6 | 17 | 257 | 132 | 224 | 0.051 | 0.848 | 0.101 | 0.9268 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 38 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 27 | 2 | 30 | 26 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 127 | 37 | 2 | 0.133014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212742 | 0.110678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118411 | 0 | 0 | 0.124971 | 0 | 0 | 0.162168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125394 | 0 | 0.067256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145843 | 0.102766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073101 | 0.108424 | 0 | 0.281685 | 0 | 0.272031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155784 | 0.10617 | 0 | 0 | 0.098628 | 0.102589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141655 | 0.180267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147696 | 0 | 0.253954 | 0.092215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152269 | 0.145496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213823 | 0.23252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078455 | 0.10558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144248 | 0.096836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25697 |
suicidewatch | Niruchiii | 2018/12/01 | i don't know what to do long post i guess
i've had a "severe" depression for the past 8 years and i don't really know how to coop with it .. it's been 4 weeks since i started anti depressants but i still if not even more feel like shit.
i got about 5 "friends" that do pick on me relentlesly, they think it's in good ... | 2.543338 | 3.414177 | 4.073904 | 90.262497 | 74.540541 | 7.211211 | 23.433433 | 7.526774 | 0.775232 | 1,345 | 36 | 310 | 16 | 27 | 449 | 191 | 370 | 0.176 | 0.715 | 0.11 | -0.9796 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 22 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 54 | 56 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 6 | 42 | 11 | 45 | 37 | 6 | 52 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 21 | 2 | 10 | 24 | 188 | 62 | 6 | 0.087908 | 0 | 0.171571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077925 | 0 | 0 | 0.091046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089628 | 0.180612 | 0 | 0 | 0.09217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096563 | 0.056694 | 0 | 0.15143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155721 | 0 | 0 | 0.290313 | 0 | 0.148133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133347 | 0.125603 | 0 | 0 | 0.080346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135835 | 0 | 0.091857 | 0 | 0.09992 | 0.073733 | 0.281233 | 0 | 0.193682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094108 | 0.099238 | 0 | 0 | 0.087235 | 0.078137 | 0 | 0 | 0.096624 | 0.143314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128842 | 0 | 0.077625 | 0.077796 | 0.073821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083181 | 0.058679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097612 | 0 | 0.083918 | 0.121889 | 0 | 0.091845 | 0 | 0.083102 | 0 | 0.084192 | 0.089434 | 0 | 0.084116 | 0 | 0.088372 | 0 | 0 | 0.087932 | 0 | 0.112632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088011 | 0.177936 | 0 | 0 | 0.183415 | 0.099311 | 0.180473 | 0.072719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124444 | 0 | 0.070204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076836 | 0.080934 | 0 | 0 | 0.058402 | 0.056328 | 0 | 0.069789 | 0.05126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072533 | 0 | 0.069777 | 0.070515 | 0 | 0 | 0.081492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22644 |
suicidewatch | chima454 | 2018/12/01 | I want to kill myself but this girl says she will kill herself if i do it. I want to die badly but this reason and the fact that my parents will be upset and most likely see my body (jumping off building) stops me. I'm a pussy and I wish someone could murder me or crash a car into me. | 3.032903 | 3.154327 | 4.538871 | 90.128306 | 72.870968 | 6.2 | 23.564516 | 3.1291 | 0.125471 | 220 | 5 | 50 | 0 | 4 | 74 | 46 | 62 | 0.406 | 0.521 | 0.073 | -0.9863 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 10 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 36 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195961 | 0 | 0 | 0.196363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bunny613 | 2018/12/01 | Help? Hi is this the appropriate place to ask for advice on the cheapest/most efficient way to kill myself? I am new to reddit and still learning how to find things | 3.184896 | 5.496029 | 4.0575 | 84.970833 | 76.1875 | 6.766667 | 23.166667 | 7.793538 | 1.184404 | 131 | 4 | 25 | 2 | 3 | 42 | 28 | 32 | 0.125 | 0.719 | 0.156 | -0.1431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jimmy4SGF | 2018/12/01 | Being lonely or a virgin at any age is nothing to be sad about Theres so many people like us out there who feel the same. We will never be wanted or included, but we will never want to intrude on their lives. But we dont have too. When your in a suicidal state all you think is about how overwhelming your pain is. But t... | 1.281705 | 3.245935 | 2.66339 | 94.335085 | 80.818182 | 5.579545 | 17.585227 | 6.627428 | -0.23875 | 615 | 12 | 138 | 6 | 16 | 199 | 107 | 165 | 0.163 | 0.686 | 0.15 | -0.5681 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 37 | 31 | 20 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 6 | 18 | 24 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 100 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111546 | 0 | 0.298777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120163 | 0 | 0.06445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244553 | 0.072442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130342 | 0.090033 | 0.062273 | 0 | 0.225109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230085 | 0 | 0 | 0.12923 | 0 | 0.138847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086374 | 0 | 0.135632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225547 | 0.101176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | heyitsconnor1 | 2018/12/01 | Going to kill myself on the 1st of Jan I’m done. My life isn’t going anywhere and I hate everyone. I find no enjoyment in anything and no one wants to be around me. I can’t really blame them as I’ve been very hostile to almost everyone. I just want this to end, I don’t care what other people will think I don’t give a f... | 1.297984 | 2.770938 | 3.408266 | 91.332399 | 78.892473 | 6.800538 | 22.377688 | 7.645422 | 0.796227 | 334 | 10 | 77 | 5 | 8 | 114 | 62 | 93 | 0.308 | 0.613 | 0.079 | -0.9714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 11 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 50 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176278 | 0.190694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198035 | 0 | 0.205491 | 0.243483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145155 | 0 | 0.227936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176747 | 0.252695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lolledfrog | 2018/12/01 | I really want to kill myself I don't know what can I do anymore. My mind is so full of dark and suicidal thoughts. I only think that how much waste of time I am. There is honestly nothing to tell about myself. The only thing I know about myself is that I am worthless piece of crap. Suicide is the only answer for me. Li... | 0.660961 | 2.612524 | 2.685206 | 93.424182 | 82.932584 | 5.30387 | 20.282147 | 6.427356 | 0.124096 | 1,296 | 37 | 289 | 12 | 36 | 435 | 161 | 356 | 0.212 | 0.731 | 0.056 | -0.993 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 47 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 18 | 22 | 6 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 45 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 47 | 75 | 15 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 58 | 7 | 47 | 63 | 10 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 15 | 219 | 74 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083315 | 0.093435 | 0.104581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152516 | 0.107532 | 0 | 0.063277 | 0.068452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065431 | 0.086633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122787 | 0.085082 | 0 | 0.04959 | 0 | 0.132457 | 0 | 0.079804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13621 | 0 | 0 | 0.050788 | 0 | 0 | 0.073475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142175 | 0 | 0.073764 | 0.174802 | 0.064495 | 0 | 0 | 0.084707 | 0 | 0 | 0.16371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076305 | 0 | 0.170144 | 0 | 0.084518 | 0.062679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271562 | 0 | 0 | 0.339494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065373 | 0 | 0.072759 | 0.102655 | 0 | 0 | 0.16752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081572 | 0.077641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056526 | 0.057016 | 0.118611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156316 | 0.175444 | 0.245462 | 0 | 0.085382 | 0 | 0 | 0.106617 | 0.067141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073144 | 0.061149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061804 | 0.067209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051085 | 0.098541 | 0 | 0.061045 | 0.134513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052206 | 0 | 0 | 0.080049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22677 | 0.12207 | 0 | 0 | 0.069137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093435 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway66911466 | 2018/12/01 | I don't know why I should move on anylonger I don't know, I am currently quite well-off I guess. I got good paying job, having coming from decent academic background. But I hate waking up, I hate meeting people, I find 0 enjoyment from doing anything, even things I would consider hobbies in the past. I have 0 people I ... | 3.013727 | 4.963189 | 4.213012 | 85.34014 | 75.397516 | 7.581366 | 25.164596 | 8.418075 | 1.723514 | 639 | 22 | 125 | 12 | 14 | 209 | 101 | 161 | 0.194 | 0.722 | 0.085 | -0.9638 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 35 | 8 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 4 | 15 | 28 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 81 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108122 | 0.116964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199302 | 0.093864 | 0 | 0 | 0.120087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149342 | 0.110202 | 0.210167 | 0 | 0.144739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130383 | 0 | 0.145362 | 0 | 0.144415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27929 | 0 | 0.097423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25085 | 0.182176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131483 | 0 | 0 | 0.101149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087289 | 0.084188 | 0 | 0 | 0.076614 | 0.151012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118134 | 0 | 0.355673 | 0 | 0.302181 | 0 | 0 | 0.095652 | 0 | 0 | 0.093335 | 0 | 0 | 0.08461 |
suicidewatch | InTheBinIGo | 2018/12/01 | Forever have suicide as your “exit strategy” if things go wrong I always have suicide in the back of my mind if certain things go wrong.
I have been going to the psych regularly and things have been going well. But it will always BE there no matter what.
Today I started noticing my boyfriend treating me with less resp... | 2.965219 | 5.133737 | 4.275958 | 83.828675 | 76.292576 | 7.331337 | 25.315242 | 8.26906 | 1.697752 | 921 | 33 | 179 | 17 | 21 | 303 | 141 | 229 | 0.196 | 0.721 | 0.083 | -0.9829 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 40 | 16 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 29 | 6 | 26 | 28 | 8 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 133 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116172 | 0 | 0.089701 | 0.186666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11877 | 0.121871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113258 | 0 | 0 | 0.119217 | 0 | 0.083171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121467 | 0.107077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158786 | 0.119556 | 0 | 0 | 0.128488 | 0 | 0.128406 | 0.245387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298078 | 0.143745 | 0 | 0.178098 | 0 | 0 | 0.212644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096877 | 0 | 0 | 0.06616 | 0.089034 | 0 | 0 | 0.100853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113912 | 0 | 0 | 0.245276 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mediocreman23 | 2018/12/01 | Depression is the demon that lives inside me who knows when to strike to hurt me the most MDD. Major Depressive Disorder.
I was diagnosed a year and a half ago after what was at the time, one of the worst depressive episodes I’ve ever gone through. I remember reaching a point where every room I entered, my mind would... | 2.464212 | 4.746427 | 3.660733 | 87.058963 | 78.433071 | 6.616459 | 23.470282 | 7.717688 | 1.197263 | 2,531 | 84 | 500 | 40 | 62 | 821 | 291 | 635 | 0.104 | 0.716 | 0.18 | 0.9952 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 78 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 38 | 3 | 2 | 46 | 1 | 48 | 19 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 95 | 97 | 42 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 32 | 32 | 7 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 25 | 11 | 76 | 21 | 71 | 56 | 16 | 87 | 8 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 37 | 36 | 0 | 13 | 43 | 350 | 108 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057339 | 0.069128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049738 | 0.054008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072877 | 0 | 0 | 0.070618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06595 | 0 | 0 | 0.111439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071052 | 0.041716 | 0.066686 | 0.167137 | 0.065653 | 0 | 0.135162 | 0.074134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072761 | 0 | 0.200508 | 0 | 0.042723 | 0.05851 | 0.054499 | 0.061808 | 0 | 0.063273 | 0.121957 | 0 | 0.098119 | 0.04621 | 0.124214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099949 | 0 | 0.033795 | 0.124102 | 0 | 0.054254 | 0 | 0 | 0.071257 | 0.064047 | 0 | 0.344287 | 0 | 0.063862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086713 | 0 | 0 | 0.064246 | 0 | 0.074637 | 0.138491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064189 | 0 | 0.143127 | 0 | 0.106646 | 0 | 0.072966 | 0 | 0 | 0.066144 | 0.137065 | 0.094804 | 0 | 0.057117 | 0 | 0.108637 | 0 | 0 | 0.054992 | 0.11676 | 0 | 0.215886 | 0 | 0.064984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195937 | 0 | 0.05163 | 0.137498 | 0.04755 | 0.095925 | 0.049888 | 0.187417 | 0 | 0.060702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061147 | 0 | 0 | 0.065807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069446 | 0.219823 | 0.05524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154634 | 0.058886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065937 | 0.109613 | 0 | 0.063974 | 0 | 0.045784 | 0 | 0 | 0.054079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097269 | 0 | 0.056537 | 0 | 0.073972 | 0 | 0.12892 | 0.082894 | 0 | 0 | 0.188589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137849 | 0 | 0 | 0.124963 |
suicidewatch | youllneverknowmeee | 2018/12/01 | The waiting game. I just swallowed 26 lexapro, crushed up 3 Imrest sleeping tablets along with 2 metoprolol and 2 aspirin. I’ve also had a drink only consisting of 4.6%alc. I’m a 5’2 female. Am I going to be okay? Have I made a mistake that I should probably alert someone about? I’m just laying in the dark right now. W... | 1.67836 | 4.112688 | 2.641382 | 92.353076 | 82.536585 | 5.595664 | 26.184282 | 6.937598 | 1.174719 | 323 | 14 | 66 | 4 | 9 | 102 | 64 | 82 | 0.116 | 0.79 | 0.094 | -0.3939 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 36 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263508 | 0 | 0.245379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308783 | 0 | 0.261442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KreckHeart | 2018/12/01 | I don't know where to start or end I've been in the same situation 6 years ago, feeling I can't be myself and hopeless about future due the pressure to get out of there.
I've always been a depressed person, though never talked about it till 16y.o. That was the time I came out to my parents, who are Jehova's Witness an... | 3.977734 | 4.239611 | 4.678723 | 89.459598 | 70.832669 | 7.231175 | 28.038098 | 6.627428 | 1.102572 | 936 | 31 | 208 | 6 | 16 | 301 | 133 | 251 | 0.141 | 0.807 | 0.052 | -0.9609 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 41 | 40 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 29 | 3 | 35 | 30 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 131 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113626 | 0 | 0 | 0.132758 | 0 | 0 | 0.213316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234416 | 0 | 0.109074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13215 | 0.110403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340594 | 0 | 0.142957 | 0.084663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140891 | 0 | 0.144595 | 0.135727 | 0 | 0 | 0.181078 | 0.062623 | 0 | 0.113187 | 0 | 0.107641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144082 | 0 | 0 | 0.108608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090728 | 0 | 0.102367 | 0 | 0.146832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12081 | 0 | 0 | 0.206056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082134 | 0.125938 | 0.101762 | 0.074744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105764 | 0.075605 | 0.20349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130629 | 0.091057 | 0 | 0 | 0.16509 |
suicidewatch | Faceless1323 | 2018/12/01 | Maybe my final thoughts I think some people are just meant to leave this earth by their own hand. They recognize that they’re not supposed to be loved or missed. Of course everyone will miss them once their gone because the convenience of scolding them hurting them and forgetting them is now gone. | 6.515 | 8.466875 | 4.534259 | 86.599167 | 66.222222 | 8.362963 | 30.166667 | 8.841846 | 2.312756 | 243 | 9 | 44 | 4 | 4 | 68 | 46 | 54 | 0.127 | 0.757 | 0.117 | 0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210893 | 0 | 0.261292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | janej0nes | 2018/12/01 | i don't know anymore i used to be depressed. i tried to kill myself. i failed and went to rehab. i pride myself on being "recovered" and being optimistic. but i don't want to be alive. usually it's passively like "i hope this car hits me" but right now it's all i can do to stop myself from trying. i reached out t... | 1.676952 | 4.06665 | 3.181266 | 88.770241 | 82.137255 | 6.454189 | 23.97861 | 7.686295 | 1.313929 | 400 | 15 | 81 | 7 | 11 | 131 | 63 | 102 | 0.227 | 0.551 | 0.221 | 0.0731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 12 | 14 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 56 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225174 | 0 | 0.111854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510476 | 0 | 0 | 0.232991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175783 | 0.224157 | 0 | 0.240092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | reddit00195 | 2018/12/01 | i can't fucking talk Since I was little I was always *very* quiet and scared of making friends. I never learned how to talk.
People have been so nice to me, they didn't want me to feel left out but I just don't know what to say. I'm not funny in the slightest, people don't enjoy my presence and I wouldn't too.
I ca... | -0.754457 | 1.372353 | 1.89134 | 95.051778 | 92.615023 | 4.357411 | 16.057847 | 5.985473 | -0.527029 | 763 | 18 | 173 | 7 | 28 | 262 | 104 | 213 | 0.219 | 0.656 | 0.125 | -0.9574 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 40 | 45 | 13 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 30 | 9 | 22 | 34 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 122 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116226 | 0 | 0 | 0.093376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189101 | 0 | 0 | 0.109773 | 0 | 0 | 0.113484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173402 | 0.207492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119461 | 0 | 0.110794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121928 | 0 | 0.158529 | 0 | 0.112474 | 0.099093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16499 | 0 | 0.346205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233398 | 0.097986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120483 | 0 | 0.095835 | 0 | 0.089242 | 0.112352 | 0 | 0.089425 | 0.102161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092593 | 0.463333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | skagosii | 2018/12/01 | it's not worth it anymore i've been obsessing over suicide for the past couple of years. i entered therapy at the age of 12. it's always been one step forward, two steps back. i'm 22 now, and i understand im still young, but i feel there's no point anymore. i'm just constantly in pain, whether there's a "reason" or not... | 1.372807 | 3.28014 | 3.765255 | 86.837732 | 80.240876 | 7.427063 | 26.596856 | 8.384062 | 1.897907 | 510 | 22 | 110 | 11 | 13 | 177 | 90 | 137 | 0.226 | 0.751 | 0.023 | -0.9815 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 14 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 64 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174578 | 0 | 0 | 0.178752 | 0 | 0.208373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180171 | 0 | 0 | 0.136113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152295 | 0 | 0.081685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349004 | 0 | 0.160314 | 0 | 0.178731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109471 | 0 | 0.171901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157811 | 0.168179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104033 |
suicidewatch | iPwnYa | 2018/12/01 | Fake Suicide does anyone tried to fake a suicide ? I told everyone that Im depressed and Im thinking about killing my self, but they think im overwhelming, I want to fake a suicide to get some attention ... i know i sound Desperate but i really need that. | 0.981429 | 3.576381 | 2.771714 | 87.913 | 91 | 6.857143 | 27.142857 | 7.957252 | 2.297686 | 200 | 10 | 39 | 5 | 7 | 66 | 32 | 50 | 0.461 | 0.515 | 0.024 | -0.9784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.578381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197466 | 0 | 0.09809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.585699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170549 | 0 | 0.121179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tomaiit | 2018/12/01 | I hope that I can finally work up the courage to kill myself Its been several months without a break, I'm so tired. I'm thinking about hanging myself again, I hope I do it. I can't take any more. | 0.865714 | 2.660821 | 2.833571 | 93.448929 | 81.380952 | 6.104762 | 24.785714 | 7.168622 | 0.929886 | 152 | 6 | 35 | 2 | 4 | 51 | 33 | 42 | 0.186 | 0.616 | 0.198 | -0.1132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272629 | 0 | 0.205897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Notmymainaccount17 | 2018/12/01 | S.O.S I'm am gonna be honest and blunt. I've been struggling with anxiety and depression since about freshman year of college and now I am a Senior. There are a lot of issues I have been dealing with. The past few years with the dances I have always wanted to go. But my best friend never wanted to and I've always felt ... | 0.008715 | 1.931936 | 1.996311 | 97.589598 | 85.25 | 4.743357 | 16.185315 | 5.852545 | -0.722998 | 738 | 14 | 176 | 5 | 22 | 245 | 111 | 208 | 0.157 | 0.733 | 0.109 | -0.8974 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 45 | 46 | 22 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 25 | 6 | 22 | 25 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 111 | 30 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112075 | 0.094452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170534 | 0 | 0 | 0.068874 | 0.110101 | 0.183965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107998 | 0 | 0.20508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165019 | 0 | 0.055796 | 0 | 0.30347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114326 | 0 | 0 | 0.111466 | 0 | 0 | 0.118153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116033 | 0 | 0 | 0.052175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078507 | 0 | 0.164734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30476 | 0.084928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111411 | 0 | 0 | 0.176684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075864 | 0 | 0 | 0.206318 |
suicidewatch | Stashclap | 2018/12/01 | I don't know what to do sorry for being cryptic but I can't put my thoughts into words | -0.1805 | 1.525954 | 2.47 | 95.165 | 84.5 | 4 | 20 | 3.1291 | -0.522 | 69 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 17 | 20 | 0.071 | 0.929 | 0 | -0.0387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.562321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.626168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nilesandstuff | 2018/12/01 | You're welcome To my ex, my best friend, my siblings, and my parents.
Every day I'm not dead is for you. I hardly improve your lives by being alive, but being dead would hurt you... In the short term.
So yeah, you're welcome. For now.
P.s. Sorry in advance. | -0.608077 | 1.583674 | 1.241154 | 97.741346 | 97.846154 | 2.6 | 18.038462 | 3.1291 | -0.869931 | 194 | 6 | 41 | 0 | 8 | 63 | 39 | 52 | 0.09 | 0.548 | 0.362 | 0.9467 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243043 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MalotheBagel | 2018/12/01 | I feel like I’m living life with my head down I suffer from depression, anxiety, and PTSD from a car accident. I fractured my sternum and messed up my back. I thought I was doing well a year ago. I was handling my depression well and I was healthy. The car I was in got totaled on a telephone pole. It was my 20th birthd... | 0.139795 | 2.133972 | 2.467579 | 93.97375 | 85.283525 | 6.027422 | 20.049398 | 7.310402 | 0.443236 | 937 | 28 | 219 | 15 | 28 | 319 | 132 | 261 | 0.09 | 0.761 | 0.148 | 0.8821 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 46 | 50 | 18 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 35 | 11 | 26 | 40 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 144 | 45 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152907 | 0.083017 | 0.06061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107445 | 0 | 0.079384 | 0 | 0 | 0.064122 | 0 | 0.171273 | 0 | 0.10319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088063 | 0.102735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402187 | 0.426184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103893 | 0 | 0 | 0.083395 | 0.079521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089067 | 0 | 0.102041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176751 | 0 | 0.103538 | 0.163928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140457 | 0.29145 | 0 | 0.087796 | 0.08799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089737 | 0 | 0 | 0.100803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105675 | 0.07309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066055 | 0.063709 | 0 | 0.078934 | 0.057977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117289 | 0.157841 | 0 | 0 | 0.178794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128056 |
suicidewatch | coldstirfry | 2018/12/01 | Bad Memory My memory has always been bad. Its gotten progressively worse over the last 2 years.
I dont think my insurance would cover an mri or therapy. I dropped out of college because i couldnt remember writing the notes i wrote only weeks before. Im scared of being a liability at my job.
In spring 2016 i woke up,... | 2.768428 | 4.399465 | 5.014008 | 80.710599 | 75.237113 | 8.56134 | 26.55799 | 9.188382 | 2.257558 | 747 | 28 | 152 | 18 | 16 | 261 | 121 | 194 | 0.096 | 0.787 | 0.117 | 0.8765 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 32 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 30 | 4 | 20 | 17 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 105 | 37 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188546 | 0.068827 | 0 | 0.096076 | 0.127208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145632 | 0 | 0.097247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115566 | 0 | 0 | 0.529307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243919 | 0 | 0.112043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119777 | 0 | 0 | 0.090122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085871 | 0 | 0 | 0.125371 | 0 | 0 | 0.078276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383707 | 0 | 0.107401 | 0 | 0.11304 | 0 | 0.089973 | 0.205574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12912 | 0.131094 | 0 | 0.289387 | 0 | 0 | 0.065837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090568 | 0 | 0 | 0.104666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115062 | 0.080206 | 0 | 0 | 0.072709 |
suicidewatch | ABQRX | 2018/12/01 | Held off for too long but it's all coming at once All the self harm and suicidal thoughts and depression and everything. I don't know what I was doing to keep it at bay but I need "it" back | 0.696951 | 2.53746 | 2.509939 | 95.323933 | 82.170732 | 7.026829 | 20.006098 | 8.076483 | 0.6488 | 148 | 4 | 36 | 3 | 4 | 49 | 32 | 41 | 0.327 | 0.673 | 0 | -0.9587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290573 | 0 | 0 | 0.179662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | depresso_excesso | 2018/12/01 | 39 Was what he was to me, a new chapter as well.
He, like the other 38, pretended to like me, to care about me.
Before we met, we talked daily, he texted me and I texted him, he didn’t mind talking to me all day.
Now he does. But I guess that what I deserve.
We met and I felt so happy, he held me, he was nice, he kiss... | 0.02765 | 1.574753 | 2.325297 | 97.2909 | 82.979058 | 4.872717 | 17.417394 | 5.461319 | -0.704749 | 655 | 13 | 163 | 3 | 18 | 223 | 95 | 191 | 0.086 | 0.687 | 0.226 | 0.9809 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 33 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 26 | 14 | 16 | 18 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 102 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101641 | 0 | 0.241733 | 0 | 0.112478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105719 | 0 | 0.145615 | 0 | 0 | 0.422134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09717 | 0 | 0 | 0.127663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211123 | 0.110511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114164 | 0 | 0 | 0.15593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118849 | 0 | 0.119275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093899 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Khristopherxon | 2018/12/01 | Is there anyone here to chat? I really want to chat to someone, is anyone there? | 0.82125 | 3.285209 | 3.0175 | 87.6775 | 87.75 | 5.7 | 14.25 | 7.168622 | 0.0301 | 62 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 0.878 | 0.122 | 0.2389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.754885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | largenosesnail | 2018/12/01 | I am disappointed. My girlfriend was joking about an old idea I had from about a year ago that was about painting the world and then ending it all to avoid the consequences of parents and everything. I went deep into the idea just a minute ago and now she’s upset about “not wanting the same things”. She’s talking about... | 5.107137 | 5.175681 | 5.749259 | 83.437051 | 68.351852 | 8.498006 | 29.578348 | 8.13951 | 1.861194 | 836 | 28 | 173 | 10 | 13 | 272 | 108 | 216 | 0.223 | 0.731 | 0.046 | -0.9928 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 15 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 45 | 29 | 19 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 24 | 2 | 34 | 20 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 133 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197961 | 0.072264 | 0 | 0.201747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246063 | 0.123855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106541 | 0 | 0.111754 | 0 | 0.11988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219187 | 0 | 0 | 0.134744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083732 | 0 | 0 | 0.209356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279685 | 0.094096 | 0.09509 | 0 | 0 | 0.109893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084211 | 0 | 0 | 0.076339 |
suicidewatch | testbotV1 | 2018/12/01 | I can't stand the fact that I'm trans. I've transitioned for over 4 years now and I can't take it. I can't take the fact that I'll never be that person I want to be. I'll never be as attractive as some random stranger. I'll never be good enough.
I've tried for so long to find a relationship. I really have. But honestl... | -0.281294 | 1.795772 | 1.926459 | 96.54097 | 88.157706 | 5.082592 | 18.262035 | 6.527325 | -0.182233 | 1,997 | 54 | 477 | 23 | 65 | 670 | 204 | 558 | 0.202 | 0.711 | 0.087 | -0.9971 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 70 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 31 | 36 | 10 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 46 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 117 | 97 | 47 | 4 | 18 | 26 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 30 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 64 | 17 | 41 | 77 | 16 | 45 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 13 | 4 | 9 | 21 | 295 | 94 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085577 | 0.093718 | 0.056598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052249 | 0 | 0.054212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122748 | 0 | 0 | 0.066099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120121 | 0 | 0.059429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045389 | 0.105902 | 0 | 0.067695 | 0.046355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04916 | 0.058249 | 0.128949 | 0 | 0.056499 | 0 | 0.101484 | 0 | 0.109105 | 0.045907 | 0.151785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050854 | 0.13665 | 0.170089 | 0 | 0.225309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181406 | 0.043034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046252 | 0 | 0.034207 | 0 | 0.051484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037672 | 0 | 0.237146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055495 | 0 | 0.142111 | 0.089493 | 0.053542 | 0 | 0.048444 | 0.057773 | 0 | 0 | 0.055252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05126 | 0 | 0.098489 | 0 | 0 | 0.055019 | 0 | 0.087528 | 0 | 0 | 0.15392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053461 | 0 | 0.052604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054622 | 0.040925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096598 | 0 | 0.154124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059501 | 0 | 0.032837 | 0.050349 | 0.040684 | 0.029882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272038 | 0.162708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046242 | 0.057215 | 0.058931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033001 |
suicidewatch | lnieminen | 2018/12/01 | I don't know what to do Today a girl sent me screenshot of my boyfriend of three years asking her to hook up. When I confronted him he said there have been dozens of girls that he's flirted with and tried to hook up with the whole time we've been dating but he hasn't had sex with any of them is because he would have fe... | 3.924994 | 3.992415 | 4.573676 | 90.85028 | 70.898017 | 7.551326 | 25.677183 | 6.980633 | 0.816893 | 1,299 | 34 | 301 | 10 | 22 | 416 | 165 | 353 | 0.136 | 0.795 | 0.069 | -0.9747 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 38 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 57 | 66 | 21 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 5 | 51 | 5 | 47 | 40 | 8 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 208 | 65 | 2 | 0.089882 | 0.106496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168055 | 0 | 0 | 0.069114 | 0 | 0.164374 | 0 | 0.076483 | 0.202533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091641 | 0 | 0.095083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071764 | 0.099453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079609 | 0.092872 | 0 | 0 | 0.081303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172602 | 0 | 0.246452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079891 | 0 | 0 | 0.098794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292971 | 0 | 0.063486 | 0 | 0.180171 | 0.31747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076415 | 0.081122 | 0 | 0.059997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090755 | 0 | 0.143486 | 0.09553 | 0.198221 | 0 | 0.069323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095641 | 0 | 0.099803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075145 | 0 | 0.093964 | 0 | 0.098316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06758 | 0 | 0.078561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172778 | 0 | 0.071356 | 0.052411 | 0 | 0.085198 | 0.085886 | 0 | 0.183072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10603 | 0 | 0.144196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081105 | 0.10035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065435 | 0 | 0 | 0.191549 | 0 | 0 | 0.115762 |
suicidewatch | jeffstokes72 | 2018/12/01 | I feel like i don't fit the world anymore Since I've had my head concussion 3 years or so ago, I struggle a lot with this feeling. It permeates everything. My career, peers, family, past times.
Everything I used to enjoy quickly becomes boring and tedious when I try to enjoy myself or take a break. I feel like I can't... | 4.339118 | 6.089776 | 5.289363 | 79.849632 | 71.352941 | 8.041176 | 31.377451 | 8.660443 | 2.707192 | 840 | 38 | 149 | 15 | 16 | 275 | 121 | 204 | 0.134 | 0.69 | 0.176 | 0.7956 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 31 | 32 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 21 | 9 | 23 | 21 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 96 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0.129715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07445 | 0.114799 | 0 | 0 | 0.434297 | 0.076551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094294 | 0 | 0 | 0.228765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196786 | 0 | 0.103207 | 0 | 0.387493 | 0.312848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11195 | 0.077329 | 0.267431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228903 | 0.125328 | 0.119753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063838 | 0 | 0.103774 | 0 | 0 | 0.148659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094555 | 0 | 0.090332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070501 |
suicidewatch | dragonuity | 2018/12/01 | Anybody hate themselves so much that they've literally lost the concept of the word "I" I only exist to help other people. And even so it is not a job, nor a calling, but a distraction that I expect no return from. When I am not needed anymore, I will go, but some people can't seem to forget about me even when I want t... | 5.111047 | 5.604842 | 5.516655 | 83.62698 | 68.411765 | 7.943245 | 26.645443 | 7.709487 | 1.401114 | 875 | 24 | 173 | 9 | 14 | 280 | 136 | 221 | 0.19 | 0.633 | 0.177 | -0.8157 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 31 | 37 | 15 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 30 | 4 | 28 | 27 | 6 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 130 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117119 | 0 | 0 | 0.194364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110954 | 0 | 0 | 0.07199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312003 | 0.106824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059712 | 0 | 0.11339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109177 | 0 | 0.113288 | 0.067116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166828 | 0.115391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086813 | 0.087566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113315 | 0 | 0 | 0.125767 | 0.080024 | 0.089817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111638 | 0.133134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094106 | 0.107509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139311 | 0.093738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083891 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kingofkingsofwires | 2018/12/01 | My family is the only reason I'm still here. For a while now I've wanted nothing more than to end it all. About a year ago I realized that life is truly pointless, and that fact has been driving me crazy ever since. Some people say that it doesn't matter whether there's a purpose or not, but I disagree. Compared to ple... | 4.026739 | 4.411699 | 5.039414 | 86.480299 | 70.767241 | 7.565977 | 27.535632 | 7.3011 | 1.293785 | 873 | 28 | 188 | 8 | 15 | 287 | 136 | 232 | 0.172 | 0.702 | 0.126 | -0.9203 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 41 | 36 | 17 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 19 | 5 | 21 | 24 | 6 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 126 | 37 | 0 | 0.132292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117172 | 0 | 0 | 0.087378 | 0.119666 | 0.111462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124714 | 0.148866 | 0.066891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069117 | 0 | 0.075185 | 0.110961 | 0 | 0.145853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117588 | 0 | 0 | 0.072704 | 0.107836 | 0.149232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280326 | 0 | 0 | 0.116817 | 0 | 0.111092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126938 | 0 | 0.138819 | 0 | 0.089645 | 0.201229 | 0 | 0 | 0.146895 | 0 | 0.252576 | 0.18343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105649 | 0.110602 | 0.151541 | 0 | 0 | 0.289413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175778 | 0 | 0 | 0.105025 | 0.077141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07803 | 0.210015 | 0 | 0 | 0.118947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093977 | 0 | 0 | 0.170384 |
suicidewatch | sacroscant | 2018/12/01 | It has now been over four years, amd I still just feel dead inside. Met a girl when I was 17. We were together for almost three years when we had a kid. I loved the little guy and momma too. Two years later she left me for a guy she had met two weeks prior at her new job with Walmart. I was left homeless, and reduced t... | 2.741693 | 4.091166 | 4.034676 | 88.86291 | 74.736677 | 6.984878 | 23.418307 | 7.554174 | 0.875275 | 1,205 | 34 | 261 | 15 | 25 | 396 | 188 | 319 | 0.181 | 0.71 | 0.11 | -0.9863 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 23 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 31 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 46 | 57 | 17 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 17 | 4 | 40 | 9 | 29 | 31 | 3 | 50 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 13 | 3 | 5 | 34 | 178 | 48 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091292 | 0 | 0 | 0.075089 | 0 | 0 | 0.107849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101348 | 0 | 0 | 0.099951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095523 | 0.184116 | 0 | 0.049376 | 0 | 0 | 0.106973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180556 | 0.102039 | 0 | 0.055498 | 0.081906 | 0.156203 | 0 | 0 | 0.193382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1038 | 0.110061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096905 | 0.086798 | 0 | 0 | 0.107334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212199 | 0 | 0.137949 | 0.047708 | 0.097873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109248 | 0 | 0 | 0.088135 | 0.092401 | 0 | 0 | 0.19621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103594 | 0.098601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071786 | 0 | 0.150631 | 0.188626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10247 | 0 | 0.132343 | 0 | 0.103909 | 0 | 0.108431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207356 | 0 | 0.077985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080573 | 0.115196 | 0 | 0.078331 | 0 | 0.087801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069369 | 0 | 0 | 0.377309 |
suicidewatch | Roqlev | 2018/12/01 | Alone and a failure I tried calling the suicide hotline the other day, it felt just like calling comcast. The dude sounded bored and mumbled his name no bad i can't even recall it after asking for it twice. Im trying to finish some brewery management program at my uni and i feel cheated. I'm supposed to just find an in... | 1.332141 | 3.266193 | 3.524565 | 88.378696 | 80.5 | 6.173913 | 24.184783 | 7.255503 | 1.045446 | 894 | 33 | 189 | 12 | 23 | 306 | 133 | 240 | 0.167 | 0.81 | 0.023 | -0.9839 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 36 | 36 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 27 | 3 | 20 | 24 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 127 | 41 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146456 | 0.10326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276117 | 0 | 0 | 0.113555 | 0.123305 | 0.090023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117908 | 0 | 0 | 0.19048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130798 | 0 | 0 | 0.09754 | 0 | 0.124425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139217 | 0 | 0.14934 | 0.105501 | 0.141794 | 0 | 0.134975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104309 | 0.144296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14877 | 0 | 0 | 0.149112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109501 | 0 | 0.142628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234878 | 0 | 0 | 0.11768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117239 | 0.086112 | 0 | 0 | 0.141112 | 0 | 0.200527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | infinitematrix | 2018/12/01 | To the positive people out there After reading pages and pages of people struggling or people with demonstrably shitty lives or awful luck how can you continue to say that life will get better and life is worth living? What if the truth is that everything is awful and it doesn't get better?
Suicide had been a pretty p... | 1.768182 | 3.603429 | 3.718182 | 87.997273 | 78.69697 | 6.997403 | 22.688312 | 7.957252 | 1.117836 | 868 | 27 | 185 | 15 | 21 | 294 | 127 | 231 | 0.149 | 0.651 | 0.2 | 0.7895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 49 | 42 | 23 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 20 | 15 | 22 | 33 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 119 | 34 | 1 | 0.106475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07445 | 0 | 0 | 0.18957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239921 | 0 | 0.282505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118861 | 0 | 0 | 0.108558 | 0 | 0 | 0.091719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110504 | 0 | 0.122029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095693 | 0 | 0.20075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164524 | 0 | 0.166886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085158 | 0.117389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058516 | 0 | 0.120108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225619 | 0 | 0 | 0.188038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181042 | 0.096098 | 0 | 0.071073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07215 | 0.161958 | 0 | 0.124925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119276 | 0 | 0.106504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089018 | 0 | 0.111311 | 0 | 0.232932 | 0.120826 | 0 | 0 | 0.080056 | 0 | 0.093064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070737 | 0 | 0 | 0.169058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075637 | 0.116413 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Piggintins | 2018/12/01 | I don’t want to live I’m a failure in the eyes of my parents. They want me to go to MIT or Stanford and work in an office for the rest and of my life. But that’s not why I wanna die. I have 3 Bs out of 6 classes and every day my mom and dad torment me to the point I just want to die. In math class today I just closed m... | 1.603804 | 2.154483 | 3.137067 | 97.308978 | 76.44 | 5.875556 | 21.088889 | 5.033349 | -0.341738 | 427 | 9 | 110 | 1 | 9 | 141 | 79 | 125 | 0.119 | 0.689 | 0.192 | 0.8019 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 15 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 21 | 5 | 15 | 10 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 70 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182 | 0 | 0 | 0.138593 | 0 | 0 | 0.111948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122608 | 0 | 0 | 0.153278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137807 | 0 | 0 | 0.164538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189787 | 0 | 0.111783 |
suicidewatch | sadboylofi | 2018/12/01 | Help So about 2 months ago I had decided I’m going to attempt to kill myself. Last week I stopped going to my job (which was the best paying job I’ve ever had) this felt strange...btw I live with 2 coworkers who ASKED ME if I wanted to live with them because I was going to be homeless and I was giving up. I’ve been her... | 1.504829 | 3.478364 | 2.793972 | 93.633889 | 80.117021 | 4.60331 | 21.082742 | 5.033349 | -0.152093 | 707 | 20 | 150 | 2 | 18 | 228 | 104 | 188 | 0.12 | 0.719 | 0.161 | 0.7295 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 46 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 26 | 6 | 24 | 31 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 99 | 35 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111491 | 0.117083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126651 | 0.089472 | 0.120251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065433 | 0.120142 | 0.427062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141155 | 0 | 0.083946 | 0 | 0 | 0.124392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248564 | 0.222639 | 0.41568 | 0 | 0 | 0.102088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122372 | 0.125524 | 0.221179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1036 | 0 | 0.125331 | 0 | 0 | 0.192833 | 0 | 0.140197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22161 | 0 | 0.10046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GroundbreakingSort6 | 2018/12/01 | Not meeting SAP standards for financial aid AGAIN. I'm too broke to get into debt. I'm never going to make it and I will end it soon. I was suffering from ADHD and I finally got diagnosed with it last year. My financial aid was taken away around the time of my diagnosis so I appealed and my appeal was accepted. I fucke... | 2.265918 | 4.260746 | 3.863731 | 86.784134 | 77.777293 | 6.80732 | 25.751923 | 7.793538 | 1.515176 | 887 | 34 | 178 | 14 | 21 | 295 | 123 | 229 | 0.216 | 0.757 | 0.026 | -0.9927 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 36 | 41 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 30 | 5 | 26 | 26 | 8 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 18 | 129 | 40 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100301 | 0.146978 | 0 | 0.127698 | 0 | 0 | 0.269545 | 0 | 0.119772 | 0.174887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119831 | 0 | 0.254102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397842 | 0.14989 | 0 | 0.163048 | 0 | 0.114727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078834 | 0.116928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110635 | 0 | 0.305114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15928 | 0.155339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0953 | 0.091915 | 0 | 0 | 0.083645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104431 | 0 | 0 | 0.1019 | 0 | 0 | 0.092375 |
suicidewatch | madisonwm | 2018/12/01 | Wishing I were dead. Xanax withdrawal feels like hell. Tonight after 6 months of Xanax use at 1mg per day I go without any. I saw a therapist today and all they gave me was Zoloft and seroquel. To top it off I have an abcess that won’t completely heal literally next to my ass making everyday at work on my feet a bit p... | 4.211479 | 5.262322 | 5.071944 | 83.991014 | 70.760563 | 8.496901 | 30.397183 | 8.841846 | 2.360508 | 559 | 23 | 113 | 10 | 10 | 182 | 97 | 142 | 0.182 | 0.724 | 0.095 | -0.9153 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 23 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 18 | 2 | 20 | 16 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 73 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105621 | 0.162863 | 0.237633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171855 | 0 | 0.100166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174774 | 0.078533 | 0.110958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07588 | 0 | 0.137147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247944 | 0.330154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105247 | 0 | 0.165268 | 0 | 0.172461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180335 | 0.103185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134144 | 0 | 0 | 0.09161 | 0.123283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357213 | 0.14972 | 0 | 0.113072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spazmcgee1 | 2018/12/01 | Scared I'm Going to Commit Suicide Hey so I've had anxiety and depression for about 6 years now. Recently it's gotten very bad. I also come from a pretty toxic and verbally abusive family which doesn't help. Recently my depression has gotten to the point where I have no motivation, I'm failing at school and all I do al... | 3.672139 | 4.09778 | 5.471113 | 82.925117 | 71.575342 | 9.371005 | 28.359018 | 9.516145 | 2.32997 | 1,356 | 48 | 294 | 30 | 24 | 468 | 161 | 365 | 0.187 | 0.776 | 0.038 | -0.994 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 29 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 34 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 51 | 72 | 35 | 5 | 8 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 44 | 3 | 37 | 56 | 6 | 39 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 18 | 196 | 58 | 6 | 0 | 0.167486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077996 | 0.226088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118028 | 0.086171 | 0 | 0.060143 | 0 | 0 | 0.06251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045582 | 0 | 0.243503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221562 | 0 | 0.28118 | 0 | 0.056529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047375 | 0 | 0.070897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210414 | 0 | 0.078196 | 0 | 0.038843 | 0.057613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074979 | 0 | 0.248336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156962 | 0 | 0.067471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066815 | 0 | 0 | 0.071906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226394 | 0 | 0.139574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067232 | 0 | 0.212286 | 0.071531 | 0.112644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116933 | 0 | 0.212191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075335 | 0 | 0.059091 | 0 | 0 | 0.080911 | 0.309246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113618 | 0 | 0 | 0.080828 | 0.246192 | 0 | 0.045288 | 0.138884 | 0.056111 | 0 | 0 | 0.066996 | 0.067537 | 0 | 0.14396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058318 | 0.125065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045515 |
suicidewatch | DogeDude42 | 2018/12/01 | killing myself for real buh bye
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suicidewatch | affinity_u | 2018/12/01 | I have finally decided to end it. Does anyone know how I can wipe all my data from the Internet ? All text messages, Instagram stories, google searches, I need to wipe all of it. People dont leave you alone even after you're dead. I know people are going to talk about my death, I just dont want them to bring up anythin... | 2.647036 | 4.247923 | 4.223286 | 86.379671 | 75.494845 | 7.324227 | 24.496134 | 8.076483 | 1.324259 | 371 | 12 | 78 | 6 | 8 | 124 | 69 | 97 | 0.127 | 0.747 | 0.126 | -0.4826 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 21 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 12 | 17 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 49 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123473 | 0 | 0.145315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154531 | 0.180708 | 0.62087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156402 | 0 | 0 | 0.116633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16325 | 0 | 0 | 0.200715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194093 | 0 | 0 | 0.186978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168571 | 0.244844 | 0 | 0 | 0.193838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167973 | 0.140428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | urfavsurface | 2018/12/01 | Anyone else digging the wine/niquil mixers? So, not gonna kill myself tonight. I know I cant and shouldnt. But wine and niquil work wonders for making me feel like I'm dead for awhile.
My mind races. My boyfriends a cheat, but I love him. My life is a mess, but I have a kid. My family just tolerates me. I want to be ... | -1.493452 | 0.414908 | 0.779663 | 103.499018 | 93.126984 | 3.784921 | 12.636905 | 5.148861 | -1.540205 | 428 | 6 | 112 | 2 | 16 | 142 | 80 | 126 | 0.188 | 0.589 | 0.223 | 0.6298 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 24 | 9 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 65 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114182 | 0.167318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153943 | 0 | 0.082568 | 0.11666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541995 | 0 | 0.089744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230684 | 0.159558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147383 | 0 | 0.109003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164884 | 0 | 0.130343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17709 | 0.118883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | small_stream | 2018/12/01 | Is it selfish to tell someone you cant handle their suicide. My boyfriend has had a long struggle with depressions. I try my best to be there for him. I am very proud of him and he works very hard to keep his mental health together. Recently he purchased a gun. He saw his therapist shortly after and that helped him to ... | 2.525564 | 4.058386 | 3.31977 | 93.016447 | 75.666667 | 6.757059 | 24.494987 | 7.44753 | 0.873369 | 648 | 21 | 146 | 8 | 14 | 205 | 92 | 171 | 0.161 | 0.698 | 0.141 | -0.4245 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 32 | 8 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 29 | 5 | 18 | 19 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 33 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 103 | 45 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.126248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110086 | 0 | 0.135768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067592 | 0.248211 | 0 | 0.108511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115892 | 0 | 0 | 0.137516 | 0 | 0 | 0.086715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114992 | 0.286262 | 0 | 0.071099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130377 | 0 | 0 | 0.151519 | 0 | 0 | 0.095103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109617 | 0.099597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108161 | 0 | 0.135248 | 0 | 0.141512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339231 | 0 | 0 | 0.150211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213491 | 0.076307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094184 | 0 | 0 | 0.367609 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LabyrinthOfsufering | 2018/12/01 | At peace with dying I’ve been considering suicide for quite sometime. I have my reasons just like anyone else, and I’m not going to get into all that. But anyways I had a beautiful shroom trip lastnight and it really enlightened me. I’m not scared to die anymore. I feel like my soul has finally found the peace that it ... | 3.281824 | 5.152446 | 4.815009 | 81.660241 | 74.421687 | 8.116351 | 28.724613 | 8.841846 | 2.445105 | 331 | 14 | 63 | 7 | 7 | 111 | 63 | 83 | 0.047 | 0.691 | 0.261 | 0.9609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 13 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21352 | 0.150543 | 0.220601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108862 | 0.153811 | 0 | 0.235851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236066 | 0 | 0 | 0.112486 | 0 | 0.244721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21037 | 0 | 0 | 0.190534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228999 | 0 | 0 | 0.137927 | 0.221365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215554 | 0 | 0.171567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwingsadly | 2018/12/01 | I made this throwaway account 7 months ago and NOTHING got better. My one year is up and I have to kill myself. How can I wrap things up before I go? I'm gonna kill myself in December. I have legitimately planned for it all year because of unemployment. I have been looking for work but seriously can't find it, I said i... | 2.292527 | 3.878187 | 3.928619 | 88.183465 | 76.422402 | 6.939889 | 24.637173 | 7.717688 | 1.156562 | 2,792 | 94 | 602 | 40 | 62 | 933 | 301 | 741 | 0.233 | 0.648 | 0.119 | -0.9987 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 90 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 12 | 27 | 41 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 64 | 27 | 8 | 10 | 12 | 111 | 121 | 50 | 12 | 17 | 22 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 30 | 35 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 24 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 9 | 125 | 24 | 78 | 87 | 17 | 51 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 52 | 20 | 6 | 9 | 25 | 406 | 155 | 14 | 0 | 0.061728 | 0.101681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057492 | 0 | 0 | 0.112897 | 0 | 0.035429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103335 | 0.036428 | 0.053381 | 0.042872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0435 | 0.190551 | 0 | 0.088663 | 0.117394 | 0 | 0.13823 | 0 | 0.057869 | 0 | 0 | 0.106396 | 0 | 0.159353 | 0.053519 | 0 | 0.044878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044872 | 0 | 0.216279 | 0 | 0.059709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053309 | 0.043521 | 0 | 0 | 0.053831 | 0 | 0.137641 | 0.047126 | 0 | 0 | 0.046823 | 0 | 0.147341 | 0 | 0.052685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190467 | 0 | 0.062997 | 0 | 0.161004 | 0.144492 | 0.081657 | 0.099955 | 0.059217 | 0 | 0.125003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04667 | 0 | 0.053468 | 0 | 0 | 0.061737 | 0 | 0 | 0.104517 | 0 | 0 | 0.060114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155098 | 0.092615 | 0.230556 | 0.054252 | 0.057264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056605 | 0 | 0.073597 | 0.050905 | 0 | 0.046004 | 0 | 0.087499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14789 | 0.069552 | 0 | 0.05234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080363 | 0.050317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105909 | 0.039623 | 0 | 0 | 0.115698 | 0 | 0 | 0.072237 | 0.04549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052112 | 0 | 0.033375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049557 | 0.082861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040108 | 0 | 0 | 0.036875 | 0 | 0.041606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227948 | 0.05912 | 0.049102 | 0 | 0.117514 | 0 | 0.091072 | 0 | 0.059579 | 0.06049 | 0.103835 | 0 | 0 | 0.04136 | 0.030379 | 0.299396 | 0 | 0.099564 | 0 | 0.176856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062668 | 0.044996 | 0 | 0 | 0.153644 | 0.082706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189641 | 0 | 0.053093 | 0.111027 | 0 | 0 | 0.201297 |
suicidewatch | Garcymore | 2018/12/01 | I have the "happy accident syndrome" I'm too much of a coward to kill myself. I fear the pain, and I dread the possibility that I may not die from my attempt. So I hope that I will die in some freak accident every day. I feel like life is a grey plane, and that I don't belong on this earth. I am a colossus of a man (li... | 1.253077 | 2.125816 | 3.599658 | 92.409231 | 77.717949 | 6.225641 | 19.837607 | 6.427356 | -0.085332 | 402 | 8 | 99 | 3 | 9 | 140 | 79 | 117 | 0.262 | 0.56 | 0.179 | -0.9157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 14 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 66 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238643 | 0.107231 | 0.151506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23042 | 0 | 0.149795 | 0.310827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155899 | 0 | 0.163565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161292 | 0.225662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Eylix | 2018/12/01 | Is anyone else fearful of the “afterlife” or what happens after we die? Without ranting about my own personal stuff, the only thing keeping me here is because i’m so fearful of what comes after death. if it’s an afterlife then i’m okay with it, and i believe in God and whatnot, but i don’t really believe the “bible’s” ... | 2.496208 | 4.464478 | 3.995941 | 86.228518 | 76.977528 | 6.247753 | 27.978933 | 7.168622 | 1.579033 | 347 | 15 | 67 | 4 | 8 | 115 | 59 | 89 | 0.235 | 0.709 | 0.056 | -0.963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 49 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13429 | 0.196784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117075 | 0 | 0 | 0.432762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197294 | 0 | 0.330878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gissselle | 2018/12/01 | didn’t think choking myself with a belt would be so painful This is the only place I can post this because I’m too ashamed to tell my friends or family
On sept 13th I tried to kill myself by drinking a shitload of vodka & 20 something lexapro of course it didn’t work. Idk if it was because I threw up or it wasn’t ... | 6.247794 | 4.567698 | 6.421882 | 85.355471 | 66.598039 | 9.532549 | 34.12549 | 7.908726 | 2.222988 | 757 | 28 | 172 | 7 | 10 | 243 | 123 | 204 | 0.137 | 0.742 | 0.121 | -0.5396 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 24 | 6 | 21 | 16 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 104 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379624 | 0 | 0 | 0.122464 | 0 | 0 | 0.115824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114409 | 0 | 0 | 0.097563 | 0 | 0.206881 | 0.120675 | 0 | 0.077138 | 0 | 0.0984 | 0.111597 | 0 | 0 | 0.110099 | 0 | 0.118104 | 0.083434 | 0.112136 | 0 | 0.106743 | 0 | 0 | 0.128054 | 0.090231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248754 | 0.07914 | 0.088824 | 0.248544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119883 | 0.096609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149668 | 0 | 0.092718 | 0.068101 | 0 | 0 | 0.111597 | 0 | 0.396462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100869 | 0 | 0 | 0.068885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134302 | 0 | 0 | 0.085024 | 0 | 0 | 0.165928 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | elanarana | 2018/12/01 | Was getting better, or so I thought Crazy how fast these feelings can return, even when you’ve been doing your best to keep them at bay and to better yourself. Amazing how, no matter what you do and how much progress you make, you can always end up right back at square one. God, I wish I were dead. | 4.3605 | 5.060132 | 4.026667 | 92.91 | 70.166667 | 6 | 25 | 3.1291 | 0.205 | 233 | 6 | 50 | 0 | 4 | 70 | 48 | 60 | 0.12 | 0.587 | 0.293 | 0.9066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 36 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300697 | 0.506828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253782 | 0 | 0 | 0.189251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spacedrool | 2018/12/01 | dawn of the final day im gonna kill myself on sunday, or at least try. my parents are gone from the house out of the country, and i am alone. i put it out there to the universe that if i found something worth living for during this week, that i wouldn't do it. there were prospects, but im done hoping and wishing for th... | 2.081085 | 3.245895 | 3.760687 | 90.910003 | 76.103275 | 6.633916 | 21.874462 | 7.102934 | 0.414148 | 1,442 | 36 | 335 | 15 | 31 | 483 | 185 | 397 | 0.142 | 0.712 | 0.145 | 0.3498 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 21 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 36 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 59 | 60 | 25 | 4 | 7 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 39 | 8 | 48 | 38 | 9 | 44 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 22 | 225 | 65 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128192 | 0.132588 | 0 | 0 | 0.106521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044757 | 0 | 0.052674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065755 | 0.135426 | 0.110276 | 0.067112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065504 | 0.075018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060342 | 0 | 0.06473 | 0 | 0 | 0.070119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070183 | 0.049453 | 0 | 0.066884 | 0.061403 | 0 | 0.107376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063576 | 0 | 0.147716 | 0 | 0 | 0.691408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070817 | 0 | 0.035178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069546 | 0 | 0.045212 | 0.062543 | 0 | 0.113042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051091 | 0 | 0.141162 | 0 | 0.148103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043374 | 0.048682 | 0.06811 | 0 | 0.142149 | 0 | 0 | 0.044376 | 0.05589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069013 | 0 | 0 | 0.064347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08505 | 0 | 0.125777 | 0.050816 | 0.111973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130374 | 0.069624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052814 | 0.037754 | 0.050807 | 0.051344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04122 |
suicidewatch | loaf_of_dog | 2018/12/01 | I attempted suicide again (9 attempts fml) No these posts are for attention. I'm just saying what I think I have to before I go. I threw up the pills I took. I'm such a failure I can't even do this right, I'm so done with everything. Fuck this, and fuck throwing up. | 0.259474 | 2.231578 | 2.399211 | 94.781974 | 84.614035 | 5.905263 | 21.780702 | 7.168622 | 0.570944 | 205 | 7 | 48 | 3 | 6 | 69 | 43 | 57 | 0.298 | 0.702 | 0 | -0.9517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536499 | 0 | 0 | 0.164906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247796 | 0 | 0.230748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taway3342 | 2018/12/01 | I broke my phone again I accidentally threw my phone again and the screen won't turn on now.
I have Tourettes (or that is the prevailing diagnosis) and since high school I've been killing myself one piece at a time. I started off just needing to tense up body parts or making a funny face, but it's gotten so bad that n... | 4.519186 | 5.485432 | 4.880525 | 85.959853 | 69.976 | 7.733953 | 28.614884 | 7.90078 | 1.647121 | 2,479 | 88 | 509 | 30 | 43 | 784 | 272 | 625 | 0.201 | 0.71 | 0.089 | -0.9977 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 68 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 36 | 37 | 8 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 56 | 22 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 61 | 96 | 37 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 23 | 1 | 7 | 30 | 10 | 74 | 14 | 58 | 56 | 16 | 77 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 34 | 35 | 4 | 13 | 34 | 328 | 109 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056494 | 0 | 0.063818 | 0 | 0 | 0.101932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212852 | 0.19425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056365 | 0.069578 | 0.212374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07148 | 0 | 0 | 0.070006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066143 | 0 | 0 | 0.065232 | 0 | 0.065219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042094 | 0 | 0.053696 | 0 | 0.057278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098477 | 0.176756 | 0.099891 | 0 | 0.07244 | 0 | 0.050972 | 0 | 0.070207 | 0 | 0 | 0.067843 | 0.114182 | 0 | 0.130814 | 0.067743 | 0 | 0 | 0.042718 | 0.067336 | 0 | 0.0633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211528 | 0 | 0.07005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346222 | 0 | 0 | 0.031136 | 0 | 0.056276 | 0 | 0 | 0.071299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060304 | 0.042541 | 0 | 0.064027 | 0.069422 | 0.070791 | 0.064203 | 0 | 0.067609 | 0 | 0 | 0.05087 | 0 | 0.14055 | 0.094512 | 0 | 0.123104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072559 | 0 | 0 | 0.086372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283065 | 0.069015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120493 | 0 | 0 | 0.129675 | 0.068713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054426 | 0 | 0 | 0.063806 | 0.0645 | 0 | 0 | 0.066486 | 0 | 0 | 0.158158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071342 | 0.045109 | 0 | 0.050896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144643 | 0.120132 | 0 | 0.047918 | 0 | 0.334224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111487 | 0 | 0.06041 | 0.060898 | 0 | 0.086539 | 0.069321 | 0 | 0.066347 | 0 | 0.055043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092794 | 0 | 0 | 0.045273 | 0 | 0 | 0.123123 |
suicidewatch | iwishiwasnttrash | 2018/12/01 | Finally gonna do it next week My plug came through with an assortment of prescription medicine. Apparently mixing it all with alcohol is a deadly combo.
We'll see, hopefully not like my other two attempts, I've done my research this time.
Just wanted to say good bye and I'm so glad it's coming to an end. Anyone else ... | 1.749091 | 4.399529 | 3.539621 | 84.379432 | 84.909091 | 6.936364 | 23.401515 | 8.076483 | 1.75137 | 267 | 10 | 50 | 6 | 8 | 89 | 56 | 66 | 0.031 | 0.829 | 0.14 | 0.8104 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 28 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167981 | 0.246153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200689 | 0 | 0.21278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136533 | 0.201501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191048 | 0 | 0 | 0.191439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141699 | 0 | 0.38541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Breathlessraven | 2018/12/01 | I was raped and I'm not dealing well It's been over a month and I can't take it. It's all I think about all the time and I don't want to talk to my friends about it because I know how hard it is on them but I also am afraid to be alone I don't want to be left alone because if I'm not focusing for one second.... It's al... | -2.05022 | -0.553496 | 0.771597 | 105.834602 | 90.344538 | 3.997673 | 15.036199 | 4.713531 | -1.44162 | 374 | 7 | 110 | 1 | 13 | 129 | 63 | 119 | 0.148 | 0.665 | 0.187 | 0.915 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 24 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 12 | 17 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 76 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.554855 | 0 | 0.142808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134267 | 0.143533 | 0.156084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228849 | 0 | 0 | 0.10413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | itstoolatetosaveme | 2018/12/01 | I'm going to blow my brains out and stream it Please someone convince me not to do it. The pain is too much I just want this pain to disappear... | -0.538226 | 1.624815 | 1.135726 | 100.723589 | 91.580645 | 4.390323 | 17.427419 | 5.985473 | -0.54791 | 112 | 3 | 27 | 1 | 4 | 36 | 26 | 31 | 0.182 | 0.663 | 0.155 | -0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.712981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheSimonk | 2018/12/01 | Every time I think I'm out I get back in it. Have been suicidal on and off for some degree for the last 8 years of my life. Although this year when I finished therapy and graduated from around June till the start of November I have felt great, not suicidal at all looking forward to life and having hope for the future. ... | 4.209538 | 4.871675 | 4.964615 | 86.185385 | 70.487179 | 7.846154 | 26.794872 | 7.882392 | 1.423103 | 751 | 23 | 157 | 9 | 13 | 243 | 114 | 195 | 0.212 | 0.682 | 0.106 | -0.9832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 37 | 17 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 21 | 5 | 31 | 30 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 120 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118472 | 0 | 0 | 0.088348 | 0 | 0.112699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202901 | 0 | 0.128431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139769 | 0 | 0 | 0.112192 | 0 | 0.147472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295973 | 0 | 0 | 0.218066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224651 | 0 | 0.146016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128347 | 0.152288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139542 | 0 | 0.137304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094677 | 0 | 0 | 0.11183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152967 | 0 | 0 | 0.085709 | 0 | 0 | 0.077997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157791 | 0 | 0.107295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258413 |
suicidewatch | wthaidhv2 | 2018/12/01 | I'm mentally broken I think I understand, when I'm this intoxicated I gain the ability to see everything from a third person perspective.
I don't have friends, that's okay.
Don't try to befriend me as you'll never end up being my friend due to the same reason I have none in the first place.
Although it's said many a... | 3.771667 | 5.232444 | 4.995303 | 82.551595 | 72.312102 | 8.545435 | 29.643843 | 9.075115 | 2.479986 | 622 | 26 | 124 | 13 | 12 | 206 | 98 | 157 | 0.126 | 0.724 | 0.15 | 0.4272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 24 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 4 | 16 | 19 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 81 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115064 | 0 | 0 | 0.212663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17074 | 0 | 0.180364 | 0.169642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160556 | 0 | 0 | 0.291665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199865 | 0 | 0 | 0.133324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164814 | 0.394419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241894 | 0 | 0.149851 | 0.110065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128153 | 0 | 0 | 0.196501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111333 | 0.149826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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