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suicidewatch | zombiebombs25 | 2018/12/20 | Memes Only Motivate Me. Im a meme account on instagram and have been addicted to memes for years but now im just getting kinda bored and realised that memes and family makes me happy. But everything else is just shit, school sucks failing classes, only 4 friends, and just stupid life. So what should i do. I know this p... | 2.552857 | 4.842059 | 3.335317 | 89.47 | 78.166667 | 6.892063 | 24.174603 | 7.957252 | 1.355744 | 288 | 10 | 58 | 5 | 7 | 91 | 54 | 72 | 0.259 | 0.617 | 0.123 | -0.9203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212154 | 0 | 0.222535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182378 | 0 | 0.123331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200689 | 0 | 0 | 0.157571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152014 |
suicidewatch | mental-health-- | 2018/12/20 | I'm so tired. I'm turning 16 soon. I've honestly never felt emptier in my life, which is so fucking stupid because I've never been surrounded by more people that love me. I have genuine friends for the first time, but even they haven't been able to bring me up. My brain is wired on school. I have so much work, my grade... | 1.96684 | 3.391225 | 3.398263 | 92.326471 | 76.921569 | 5.955182 | 23.123249 | 6.427356 | 0.430501 | 938 | 28 | 209 | 7 | 21 | 308 | 142 | 255 | 0.222 | 0.654 | 0.124 | -0.9878 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 21 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 33 | 46 | 17 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 37 | 11 | 30 | 37 | 7 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 12 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 137 | 47 | 5 | 0.105101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087452 | 0 | 0 | 0.142944 | 0 | 0.080402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087755 | 0.064068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117327 | 0.10732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069418 | 0 | 0.177104 | 0.100428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053142 | 0.075084 | 0.100913 | 0.115133 | 0 | 0.089399 | 0 | 0 | 0.081201 | 0.48582 | 0 | 0 | 0.059731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104389 | 0 | 0.121272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093418 | 0 | 0 | 0.115521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074236 | 0.205388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189715 | 0 | 0.140311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123093 | 0 | 0 | 0.154522 | 0 | 0.16212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12257 | 0.120798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309956 | 0.083424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076515 | 0 | 0 | 0.074661 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SamanthaUwU | 2018/12/20 | who the fuck will care about me anyway im a bad son/daughter im ugly im a selfish person im ugly and easily replaceable i hate myself and i dont think i can live much longer i can barely sleepand when i can is only nightmares night terrors and sleep paralysis im not interested in living anyomre i hatem yself i feel li... | 0.010278 | 2.332674 | 2.366961 | 91.549935 | 91.205882 | 5.081046 | 20.055556 | 6.691623 | 0.432774 | 510 | 17 | 107 | 7 | 18 | 173 | 84 | 136 | 0.318 | 0.553 | 0.129 | -0.982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 20 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 5 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 63 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076364 | 0 | 0 | 0.097222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055221 | 0.078021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215648 | 0.112083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.707806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053355 | 0 | 0.192872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TeflonTrout | 2018/12/20 | Stuck in a feedback loop from hell Started a new job this Monday after graduating in April and being unemployed until now. This job sucks and I'm not the kind of person who deals with shit i dont like. Planning for April 29th. If i dont have a job i enjoy by then I'll say goodbye to the world. Ive been fucking cheated ... | 0.889324 | 3.089741 | 2.528311 | 93.411115 | 83.864865 | 4.781081 | 20.060811 | 5.985473 | -0.054616 | 278 | 8 | 60 | 2 | 8 | 91 | 57 | 74 | 0.273 | 0.727 | 0 | -0.964 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 38 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.567741 | 0 | 0 | 0.198592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134702 | 0.09317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | christianalt | 2018/12/20 | For the first time in my life, I've considered suicide. I never thought I could ever even think such a thought. I never understood it and now I wish that were still the case. I never understood how someone could want it all to go away, to commit a selfish act like suicide, when so many people love you... and people do ... | 3.286305 | 4.280998 | 4.519458 | 87.298986 | 72.895582 | 7.862651 | 25.881526 | 8.256447 | 1.42209 | 1,882 | 60 | 412 | 29 | 36 | 621 | 229 | 498 | 0.148 | 0.707 | 0.145 | -0.6551 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 59 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 34 | 25 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 46 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 75 | 90 | 31 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 18 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 7 | 74 | 14 | 60 | 63 | 10 | 64 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 291 | 95 | 6 | 0.069641 | 0 | 0.135919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061733 | 0 | 0 | 0.072127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065105 | 0.079227 | 0.13086 | 0.107099 | 0.058147 | 0.084905 | 0.076913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111205 | 0 | 0 | 0.089825 | 0 | 0.059982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123362 | 0 | 0 | 0.275983 | 0.062994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196954 | 0 | 0.105638 | 0.049752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059237 | 0 | 0.076358 | 0.161413 | 0 | 0.145538 | 0 | 0.118736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062385 | 0 | 0 | 0.074025 | 0 | 0 | 0.046679 | 0 | 0.069856 | 0.069169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072687 | 0.069108 | 0 | 0 | 0.07252 | 0.114819 | 0 | 0 | 0.07374 | 0.075665 | 0.213638 | 0.196758 | 0.068046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07791 | 0.076021 | 0 | 0.188561 | 0 | 0 | 0.070605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081563 | 0.055587 | 0.074017 | 0 | 0 | 0.161134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073076 | 0 | 0.047191 | 0 | 0 | 0.081709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144841 | 0.060808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074072 | 0.06966 | 0 | 0.044614 | 0 | 0.068762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11099 | 0.063399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07099 | 0.059007 | 0 | 0.068877 | 0 | 0.049292 | 0.074228 | 0.055615 | 0 | 0.079774 | 0 | 0 | 0.228528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080859 | 0.046266 | 0.178492 | 0.136844 | 0.331723 | 0.081216 | 0 | 0 | 0.066545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041076 | 0 | 0.055862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160167 | 0 | 0 | 0.101399 | 0 | 0 | 0.098942 | 0 | 0 | 0.044847 |
suicidewatch | lastdaybye | 2018/12/20 | Over. I can't handle the pain anymore Fuck it. I have been so depressed lately that I feel absolutely nothing, but the pain. I have a loving family, which I am proud of, but my health is failing every day. I have been in constant pain for the last 2 years. I am tired of seeing doctors, getting prescribed drugs that do ... | 2.975788 | 4.843122 | 3.876844 | 88.070896 | 75.267123 | 6.726795 | 25.036164 | 7.554174 | 1.183718 | 1,151 | 39 | 234 | 15 | 25 | 369 | 160 | 292 | 0.254 | 0.583 | 0.163 | -0.9887 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 40 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 24 | 4 | 3 | 20 | 2 | 39 | 30 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 32 | 65 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 35 | 4 | 19 | 54 | 8 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 14 | 160 | 54 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095041 | 0 | 0.066333 | 0 | 0.081808 | 0 | 0 | 0.08659 | 0 | 0 | 0.0796 | 0 | 0 | 0.160161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050274 | 0 | 0.067142 | 0 | 0.161809 | 0 | 0 | 0.07979 | 0 | 0.079774 | 0.091362 | 0 | 0.271207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069044 | 0 | 0 | 0.051488 | 0 | 0.06568 | 0 | 0.07006 | 0 | 0.146977 | 0 | 0.039416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085473 | 0 | 0.144135 | 0.20364 | 0 | 0.088607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077187 | 0.068935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248586 | 0 | 0 | 0.052251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081364 | 0 | 0.069289 | 0.086245 | 0 | 0.214209 | 0.063543 | 0.087936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085096 | 0 | 0.070357 | 0 | 0.052035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057305 | 0 | 0.060123 | 0.075289 | 0 | 0 | 0.076379 | 0.149599 | 0 | 0.0818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.580643 | 0 | 0 | 0.084417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04598 | 0.061877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079442 | 0.055377 | 0 | 0 | 0.1506 |
suicidewatch | esdedics | 2018/12/20 | How do I stop worrying about my problems? Ritalin worked, I stopped worrying, I felt confident and I wanted to do things and live. No therapist can help me if they even understand me. I do go to therapy once every few weeks, but I need medicine. I don't know my psychiatrist's number and he doesn't just take calls witho... | 3.322778 | 5.144107 | 4.714074 | 82.638333 | 74.185185 | 9.244444 | 30.518519 | 9.725611 | 3.079363 | 430 | 20 | 86 | 12 | 9 | 143 | 73 | 108 | 0.249 | 0.643 | 0.108 | -0.9545 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 24 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 10 | 23 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 58 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111591 | 0 | 0.142349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256282 | 0 | 0.162221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088271 | 0 | 0.096019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150172 | 0 | 0 | 0.092852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193211 | 0.196166 | 0.112244 | 0 | 0.165995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199305 | 0 | 0.135523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162864 | 0 | 0.245998 | 0.343158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rorimochi | 2018/12/20 | please help I need help, this girl is threatening to kill herself and i don't know where she lives so i cant send the police to her house. what do i do? I'm trying to keep her on the phone for as long as i can but i don't know what do to. I'm begging her not to do this and i dont know how to stop it please help | -1.868289 | -0.42467 | 0.846579 | 105.913553 | 89.131579 | 4.326316 | 13.447368 | 5.148861 | -1.574889 | 239 | 3 | 71 | 1 | 8 | 82 | 42 | 76 | 0.09 | 0.748 | 0.161 | 0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 17 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 46 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200907 | 0.250071 | 0 | 0.372663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19959 | 0.200031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NeptunoMalfoy | 2018/12/20 | How can I kill myself? Hi, I’m a 15 year old transguy. I absolutely can’t deal with my life anymore. My dysphoria is killing me, I feel lonely, my mom’s about to be in hospital for half a year and might not survive and my brother has hydrocephalus but one of his shunts stopped working. I can’t cope anymore but there’s ... | 0.555486 | 2.758466 | 2.524143 | 92.8685 | 85.4 | 5.491429 | 20.928571 | 6.86897 | 0.434737 | 465 | 15 | 102 | 6 | 14 | 155 | 85 | 125 | 0.287 | 0.656 | 0.057 | -0.9847 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 19 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 68 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177332 | 0 | 0 | 0.178517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089867 | 0 | 0 | 0.144272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170691 | 0 | 0.380602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242988 | 0 | 0 | 0.151886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182473 | 0 | 0.201453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165046 | 0 | 0.180493 | 0 | 0.116557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101455 | 0.136532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221535 |
suicidewatch | IAmNotAnonymous0 | 2018/12/20 | Fuck you Everytime I get closer to doing this, I'll just post another note about my mom. Venting helps.
I'm 16 and I think I'm going to kill myself. I don't think she would care.
When I was 15 I moved out to live with my grandparents, she reminds me every day that if I fuck up I'm coming to live with her.
When I wa... | 0.44465 | 2.43136 | 2.098671 | 97.123083 | 83.987893 | 4.713531 | 18.80562 | 5.742657 | -0.417335 | 1,497 | 38 | 349 | 9 | 43 | 488 | 199 | 413 | 0.163 | 0.785 | 0.052 | -0.9936 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 44 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 40 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 42 | 77 | 29 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 9 | 83 | 8 | 45 | 32 | 5 | 54 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 59 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 29 | 237 | 102 | 1 | 0 | 0.190507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0843 | 0 | 0 | 0.079729 | 0 | 0 | 0.066157 | 0 | 0.150314 | 0 | 0 | 0.061818 | 0.067125 | 0.098014 | 0 | 0.068409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081967 | 0 | 0 | 0.069252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264926 | 0.051847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222968 | 0.042002 | 0 | 0.091379 | 0.06743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082507 | 0 | 0.090609 | 0 | 0.053886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079172 | 0 | 0.086063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071458 | 0.177887 | 0 | 0.044182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087348 | 0.082208 | 0 | 0.039276 | 0 | 0.141978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47078 | 0 | 0.085446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077645 | 0 | 0.075444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075998 | 0 | 0.076995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064202 | 0.067213 | 0 | 0.084045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05341 | 0.154539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460917 | 0.08932 | 0.054582 | 0 | 0 | 0.083693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081928 | 0.057109 | 0 | 0 | 0.103542 |
suicidewatch | Emeraldwolff | 2018/12/20 | I feel like shit and nothing's really working. I can't tell my friends because I'm already enough of a burden and they've dealt with my shit enough. Fuck this and fuck everyone | 3.279167 | 5.089664 | 3.84 | 88.905 | 74.277778 | 7.022222 | 28.666667 | 7.793538 | 1.7339 | 143 | 6 | 29 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 28 | 36 | 0.445 | 0.498 | 0.057 | -0.9528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.478741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117136 | 0.165501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178983 | 0.428339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UnwantedPersonInLife | 2018/12/20 | 14 (M) I've lost so much I've lost most of my friends when they were basically stolen by someone who hated me. I've lost about everyone I love. I can't take this anymore. Everyday I wake up trying to start my day like everyone else but it's hard. I miss when people used to ask about my day. I miss when people used to s... | -0.039231 | 2.211005 | 1.939615 | 95.405385 | 89.576923 | 5.123077 | 18.576923 | 6.671995 | -0.002208 | 384 | 11 | 88 | 5 | 13 | 127 | 68 | 104 | 0.202 | 0.687 | 0.11 | -0.7248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 13 | 15 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 51 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168668 | 0.141936 | 0.156432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111915 | 0.077408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518885 | 0 | 0.143003 | 0 | 0.105764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116476 | 0 | 0 | 0.153028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219692 | 0.138348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105264 | 0.101525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway73918 | 2018/12/20 | It's too late to change anything I try my hardest every day and it's still not good enough for anybody. My girlfriend argues with me when I'm suicidal, my one and only friend takes me as a joke 24/7, and my parents were never there for me emotionally. I fucked my life up too much, there is no coming back from it. I hav... | 3.193542 | 4.397082 | 4.36 | 87.551667 | 73.375 | 6.333333 | 24.583333 | 6.427356 | 0.722083 | 305 | 9 | 63 | 2 | 6 | 100 | 59 | 80 | 0.222 | 0.686 | 0.091 | -0.9159 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 47 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218209 | 0.177686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232029 | 0.182697 | 0.213135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159366 | 0.381392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232685 | 0 | 0.224116 | 0 | 0.145697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151634 | 0 | 0.15909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139776 | 0.15688 | 0 | 0 | 0.229042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ErrorGreat | 2018/12/20 | I’m already dead. Every day for me is a new stress and suffering. Every day. my FUCKING family will bring me to suicide if it does not stop. I feel that nobody cares about me, and I understand that people will live without me. | 1.596 | 4.039134 | 3.391111 | 86.78 | 83 | 6.266667 | 22.333333 | 7.554174 | 1.178467 | 177 | 6 | 34 | 3 | 5 | 59 | 35 | 45 | 0.269 | 0.641 | 0.09 | -0.8959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229052 | 0 | 0.122854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203135 | 0.278323 | 0 | 0 | 0.265771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Moonlight_Unicorn | 2018/12/20 | I'm going to kill myself in a few hours I'm going to get drunk and shoot myself. My husband wants a divorce and told me the morning of our Christmas party. | 1.625455 | 3.425252 | 3.718182 | 87.997273 | 79 | 4.4 | 23.121212 | 3.1291 | 0.158139 | 123 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 26 | 33 | 0.255 | 0.672 | 0.073 | -0.7783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233191 | 0 | 0.507324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Toodle00 | 2018/12/20 | Sick of trying to reach out. People say community is the best thing for mentally ill people, but lately I can't get help from the people I love. My friends who are also mentally ill tend to turn the subject into their own problems, and my friends who aren't don't know what to do and change the subject or ignore me unti... | 4.534937 | 4.878417 | 5.807443 | 81.56762 | 69.632911 | 8.345316 | 25.926582 | 8.238736 | 1.534988 | 303 | 8 | 61 | 4 | 5 | 102 | 56 | 79 | 0.204 | 0.547 | 0.248 | 0.7636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 9 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 43 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31784 | 0 | 0.107467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113045 | 0 | 0.232034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163577 | 0.205937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139654 | 0.223738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Willbrr94 | 2018/12/20 | I feel like I really have to leave Two years ago I climbed the railing on a suspension bridge, was grabbed and came back over the rail. Suffice to say I have social anxiety and depression, haven't worked for two years. I'm 24 and I know my illness has hijacked my life. Everything I could have been without the anxiety, ... | 2.795624 | 4.771669 | 4.329654 | 84.141063 | 76.114754 | 7.403764 | 28.017608 | 8.28583 | 2.037282 | 1,203 | 51 | 237 | 22 | 27 | 401 | 160 | 305 | 0.206 | 0.727 | 0.067 | -0.991 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 35 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 46 | 59 | 20 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 36 | 4 | 36 | 44 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 166 | 49 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175112 | 0.129299 | 0.227013 | 0 | 0 | 0.094185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088007 | 0 | 0 | 0.126404 | 0 | 0.128949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091381 | 0 | 0 | 0.073813 | 0 | 0.098578 | 0 | 0.118784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102863 | 0 | 0.107896 | 0 | 0.057871 | 0.081765 | 0 | 0 | 0.104608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088426 | 0.211619 | 0 | 0 | 0.065046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121837 | 0 | 0 | 0.117462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188701 | 0 | 0 | 0.121189 | 0 | 0 | 0.242524 | 0.055916 | 0 | 0.101064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077556 | 0.087046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108195 | 0.129028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129653 | 0 | 0 | 0.091017 | 0 | 0 | 0.091204 | 0.104194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11667 | 0.096975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130887 | 0 | 0 | 0.073337 | 0.112449 | 0 | 0.066738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155412 | 0 | 0.335411 | 0 | 0 | 0.09885 | 0 | 0 | 0.135014 | 0.090847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110328 | 0 | 0.083323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294815 |
suicidewatch | TheRealLimshady | 2018/12/20 | There's not many external hardships in my life, but I still feel like dying I read a lot of posts about being suicidal becayse they have no support in their life, their family sucks, they hate their job, they have financial hardships, they can't find love, they feel like they aren't of any value,etc.
But none of thos... | 5.111047 | 5.604842 | 5.676836 | 82.478563 | 68.411765 | 9.210213 | 29.360375 | 9.236283 | 2.277358 | 875 | 30 | 179 | 16 | 14 | 283 | 118 | 221 | 0.173 | 0.669 | 0.158 | -0.5778 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 9 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 24 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 34 | 42 | 15 | 3 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 42 | 8 | 26 | 38 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 129 | 48 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112861 | 0 | 0.094639 | 0 | 0.118725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128761 | 0 | 0 | 0.112419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310712 | 0 | 0.111102 | 0.156975 | 0 | 0 | 0.100414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108469 | 0.112753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232802 | 0.107349 | 0 | 0.097013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093403 | 0.297472 | 0 | 0 | 0.222771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10522 | 0.111772 | 0 | 0.315377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109895 | 0 | 0 | 0.112959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124116 | 0 | 0.090881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120174 | 0.249347 | 0 | 0 | 0.082605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072989 | 0.070397 | 0 | 0 | 0.064063 | 0 | 0 | 0.104981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099136 | 0 | 0 | 0.105906 | 0 | 0.079983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Katdroyd | 2018/12/20 | On watch right now My husband won't leave me alone and it's just easier to go... I'm just going to ruin everything | 1.776 | 2.999677 | 4.389 | 85.8595 | 77 | 8.2 | 20.5 | 8.841846 | 1.1846 | 90 | 2 | 20 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 23 | 25 | 0.138 | 0.655 | 0.207 | -0.0289 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ihaveaproblemrnguys | 2018/12/20 | All my friends are leaving me I am growing away from my friends. All of them, at once. They have suddenly after the summer lost all interest in me and hang out all the time with all of the others in my group, except me. I feel worthless and useless. I honestly don't know what to do. I've tried listening to them and try... | 3.878713 | 5.597418 | 4.396937 | 85.913913 | 72.482587 | 7.612065 | 26.990361 | 8.2785 | 1.76152 | 812 | 29 | 159 | 13 | 16 | 257 | 112 | 201 | 0.184 | 0.61 | 0.205 | 0.51 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 46 | 30 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 27 | 10 | 28 | 26 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 125 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1321 | 0 | 0 | 0.100594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113233 | 0 | 0.118774 | 0 | 0.318526 | 0.180017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292023 | 0.116477 | 0 | 0.120863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139391 | 0 | 0.069242 | 0 | 0 | 0.133407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241785 | 0 | 0 | 0.134177 | 0.170751 | 0.095822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138301 | 0.119103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229396 | 0 | 0 | 0.129329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089501 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | poo_in_loocel | 2018/12/20 | Question about short drop If you dont have a proper rope say is it still possible to succeed using a lanyard? Or would it have to be thicker and more durable | 1.115625 | 3.652699 | 2.28 | 92.965 | 87.125 | 4.45 | 26.75 | 5.985473 | 0.944475 | 126 | 6 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 40 | 28 | 32 | 0.065 | 0.836 | 0.099 | 0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280358 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zombiekillinbabe | 2018/12/20 | After the holidays, I’m yeeting out this bitch Thanks for being so cool guys. I appreciate it. But I have nothing left to keep going. I don’t even want to get better. | 0.828824 | 3.200123 | 3.342647 | 86.236912 | 86.058824 | 5.752941 | 20.264706 | 7.168622 | 0.709729 | 130 | 4 | 26 | 2 | 4 | 45 | 30 | 34 | 0.107 | 0.522 | 0.371 | 0.8464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199163 | 0 | 0.216647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | comoraunt_astronaut | 2018/12/20 | Just failed 3 of my classes, might not be able to keep going to college. Thinking about suicide Got back from college that was a long distance away. Went to a party with friends got blackout drunk in an hour which they had to deal with. Parents call me pathetic every time they see me. Learned that I had failed 3 classe... | 1.975962 | 4.082151 | 2.648692 | 94.596308 | 79.192308 | 4.929231 | 23.861538 | 5.683918 | 0.309361 | 402 | 14 | 85 | 2 | 10 | 125 | 72 | 104 | 0.162 | 0.788 | 0.05 | -0.8979 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 17 | 14 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 56 | 15 | 8 | 0.171049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160707 | 0.263053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189997 | 0 | 0 | 0.174661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14289 | 0 | 0.151499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144116 | 0.163445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291634 | 0 | 0.273608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152037 | 0 | 0 | 0.094004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173111 | 0.136304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219203 | 0 | 0 | 0.09974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158564 | 0 | 0.190971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | el_deprimente | 2018/12/20 | Two Suns in the Sunset Just wish this happend soon. | 2.881 | 5.347857 | 2.47 | 95.165 | 78 | 4 | 20 | 3.1291 | -0.522 | 41 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0.769 | 0.231 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.647416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.762137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lesoraku | 2018/12/20 | Finally a place that gets me 27m here, I am extremely depressed! The only thing that is keeping me from suicide is the fear of death. Knowing that everything is meaningless and my life has no purpose. When I am dead I won't remember any of this, it might as well have not have happened. Every memory of me, every mention... | 2.985224 | 4.106451 | 4.694209 | 85.274299 | 73.776119 | 7.74806 | 26.832836 | 8.238736 | 1.676226 | 504 | 18 | 106 | 8 | 10 | 171 | 84 | 134 | 0.29 | 0.651 | 0.059 | -0.9892 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 28 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 2 | 14 | 20 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 81 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435296 | 0 | 0.154776 | 0 | 0 | 0.19379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15921 | 0.089975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189714 | 0 | 0.152289 | 0.183326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153073 | 0 | 0 | 0.094645 | 0.140378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122337 | 0 | 0 | 0.110901 |
suicidewatch | Desperoot | 2018/12/20 | Another day, another attempt. Hi, so far in the past years I posted 2 topics here, and here comes the 3rd one.
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Do I come here for help? No. You don't know what I go through. What might best suits you, won't suit me, in fact that is the worst thing you could do to people like me.
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suicidewatch | AdamBigNutts | 2018/12/20 | Why does life kick me down every time i get up? every god damn time i have a nice day or im feeling generally good about myself something always comes and fucks it up, ive been planning for death for a long time and if i stop being a little bitch ill do it someday. | 0.507368 | 2.541044 | 2.606228 | 93.297763 | 84.087719 | 4.501754 | 18.27193 | 5.461319 | -0.448354 | 208 | 5 | 46 | 1 | 6 | 70 | 44 | 57 | 0.271 | 0.589 | 0.14 | -0.8634 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229961 | 0.129959 | 0 | 0 | 0.208636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175696 | 0 | 0.249308 | 0 | 0.220132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SCHMILIIIII | 2018/12/20 | After several months of a good mood my depression is coming back. Im 17, last time i wrote here was in september or october, started thinking again about my ex girlfriend, everytime i do this i feel the emptiness in my body/heart and just want to quit job and go straight to bed.
I hate social life, that‘s why i play c... | 2.696455 | 4.431526 | 3.484155 | 91.159378 | 75.690141 | 6.705164 | 26.622066 | 7.492282 | 1.281209 | 549 | 21 | 117 | 7 | 12 | 174 | 96 | 142 | 0.198 | 0.642 | 0.16 | -0.9001 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 24 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 20 | 6 | 18 | 19 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 72 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116302 | 0 | 0.0922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155375 | 0 | 0.130288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152953 | 0.108053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23371 | 0.139828 | 0.079022 | 0 | 0.085959 | 0.253722 | 0.120968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163375 | 0 | 0.150092 | 0 | 0.167335 | 0 | 0 | 0.123289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213664 | 0.073893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102491 | 0.115032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144725 | 0 | 0 | 0.169434 | 0.160872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170869 | 0.155255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200967 | 0.096915 | 0 | 0 | 0.088195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136479 | 0.168865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | figurinlifeout | 2018/12/20 | In one way or another I have been bullied my entire life I’m known as the guy in a group of people who is always smiling, I enjoy jokes and hanging out with good people. However, I have emptiness inside of me 24/7. No matter what i am doing I worry about my future and what I’m going to do with my life so that people do... | 4.230315 | 4.806277 | 5.172867 | 85.021444 | 70.395848 | 7.963677 | 27.997954 | 7.967736 | 1.625342 | 5,359 | 179 | 1,117 | 66 | 92 | 1,757 | 451 | 1,397 | 0.164 | 0.729 | 0.107 | -0.9988 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 126 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 52 | 56 | 9 | 5 | 80 | 1 | 118 | 47 | 23 | 13 | 23 | 204 | 205 | 87 | 10 | 29 | 45 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 16 | 16 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 58 | 60 | 11 | 4 | 31 | 11 | 1 | 30 | 30 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 76 | 27 | 203 | 34 | 170 | 100 | 25 | 203 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 68 | 81 | 1 | 9 | 98 | 791 | 261 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05346 | 0.055625 | 0 | 0 | 0.02273 | 0.035049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070115 | 0 | 0 | 0.029755 | 0.093744 | 0 | 0 | 0.051403 | 0 | 0.142629 | 0.073831 | 0.028442 | 0.037659 | 0.035077 | 0 | 0 | 0.074255 | 0 | 0 | 0.034131 | 0.038229 | 0 | 0 | 0.035359 | 0 | 0 | 0.072241 | 0 | 0.026687 | 0 | 0.036716 | 0.064669 | 0.03446 | 0 | 0 | 0.03469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102606 | 0 | 0 | 0.029605 | 0.069074 | 0 | 0.022077 | 0.06047 | 0.056324 | 0.063878 | 0 | 0 | 0.09453 | 0 | 0.016901 | 0.023879 | 0.09628 | 0 | 0.03055 | 0.056863 | 0 | 0 | 0.051648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151969 | 0.056071 | 0.106932 | 0.036851 | 0 | 0.033096 | 0.029558 | 0 | 0.029942 | 0.066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044808 | 0.176577 | 0.100584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113198 | 0 | 0 | 0.099507 | 0.02971 | 0.110939 | 0.034807 | 0.036739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181582 | 0.068359 | 0.2597 | 0.081649 | 0 | 0.118059 | 0.05916 | 0.140343 | 0 | 0.036487 | 0.028417 | 0.060335 | 0.031628 | 0.044623 | 0 | 0.03358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080038 | 0 | 0.098285 | 0 | 0.257794 | 0 | 0.035548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038055 | 0.035074 | 0 | 0.067949 | 0.050842 | 0 | 0 | 0.074229 | 0.036196 | 0 | 0.254899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031597 | 0.037682 | 0 | 0.034005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.021413 | 0.068733 | 0 | 0.035886 | 0 | 0 | 0.031795 | 0.026581 | 0 | 0.236795 | 0.026635 | 0 | 0.03487 | 0 | 0 | 0.138247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084963 | 0.051464 | 0.033058 | 0 | 0.14195 | 0 | 0.08008 | 0.027945 | 0.038288 | 0.034943 | 0 | 0.182808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.022206 | 0.042835 | 0 | 0.212286 | 0.155923 | 0.038417 | 0 | 0.063878 | 0.037136 | 0.022693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028868 | 0 | 0.055158 | 0.157719 | 0.053062 | 0 | 0.081405 | 0 | 0.123941 | 0.030161 | 0 | 0.038437 | 0 | 0 | 0.097335 | 0.067889 | 0 | 0.261186 | 0 | 0 | 0.172197 |
suicidewatch | Fuuuuuuck1 | 2018/12/20 | I got quite a substantial amount of prescription drugs on me. I just hope it's enough Most of em arnt gonna do shit to me. But fuck man. Time is essence and I'm not looking towards of next year
And if they bring me back. I'll just jump off a fucking building
I know this channel isnt for these situations. But I ... | -0.570286 | 1.643893 | 0.962857 | 100.627143 | 95 | 4.514286 | 19.857143 | 6.2581 | -0.104029 | 258 | 9 | 62 | 3 | 10 | 82 | 56 | 70 | 0.105 | 0.801 | 0.093 | -0.4228 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 35 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259432 | 0 | 0.284089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162755 |
suicidewatch | Albinosmurfs | 2018/12/20 | I Get Pretty Worried I had a big incident in my life that will cost me a manageable but noticeable amount right now. The problem I'm dealing with is minor compared to what it could have been but for the first time in a few months I contemplated suicide. Any big event that makes my life harder pushes me closer. And I'm ... | 3.347353 | 4.387263 | 4.15095 | 89.826829 | 72.798883 | 7.295402 | 26.059734 | 7.610547 | 1.164143 | 680 | 22 | 149 | 8 | 13 | 218 | 96 | 179 | 0.161 | 0.737 | 0.102 | -0.9253 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 27 | 34 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 16 | 20 | 4 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 98 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127361 | 0.106402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109417 | 0.127647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105081 | 0 | 0 | 0.095444 | 0 | 0.064543 | 0 | 0.070209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116894 | 0.082462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125682 | 0 | 0.236417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3165 | 0.117512 | 0.196483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | coolwhip55 | 2018/12/20 | I feel hopeless I’m ready to give up. All I have is pain and emptiness. I just want it to all be over. | -2.31875 | -0.634692 | 0.313333 | 107.065 | 94.416667 | 3.2 | 16.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.454067 | 77 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 19 | 24 | 0.329 | 0.536 | 0.136 | -0.7506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.588617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | enderparadise | 2018/12/20 | If you’re truly suicidal, have no family and no close friends, living paycheck to paycheck, should you tell your shrink? Wouldn’t the ramifications of being 51/50’d, losing your home, job, etc simply make you more suicidal? And for that matter when you’re in group therapy and they ask you why you’re suicidal, wouldn’t ... | 4.510357 | 7.210705 | 4.519286 | 81.363214 | 73.642857 | 7.533333 | 28.357143 | 8.472885 | 2.356671 | 369 | 15 | 63 | 7 | 8 | 114 | 61 | 84 | 0.27 | 0.637 | 0.093 | -0.9614 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 39 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081416 | 0 | 0.147153 | 0 | 0 | 0.186436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.729142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291315 | 0 | 0.190576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149836 | 0 | 0.150374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lifeismessedup- | 2018/12/20 | Im going to kill myself tomorrow This is a new account (for obvious reasons).All my life I've been fighting anxiety and I don't talk to people properly(socially awkward one would say).And because of this and other reasons I haven't been doing well academic wise either.Im also addicted to weed and cigarette and I'm asha... | 3.522843 | 6.551198 | 4.757056 | 76.195267 | 80.168831 | 7.578066 | 31.932179 | 8.515129 | 3.30458 | 338 | 18 | 54 | 8 | 9 | 111 | 59 | 77 | 0.193 | 0.701 | 0.106 | -0.7108 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111012 | 0.156848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310151 | 0.107262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311926 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | avantalice | 2018/12/20 | Feeling unwelcome in this world I broke up with my ex about 2 months ago, and everyday can more or less be a struggle of some kind. Due to circumstances I really can't control right now, I still live with him, much to his displeasure. He resents me a lot on some days. I feel like I can never do anything right anymore w... | 0.808906 | 2.737503 | 2.564807 | 94.6125 | 82.262411 | 6.298075 | 20.709726 | 7.44753 | 0.503624 | 515 | 15 | 120 | 8 | 14 | 170 | 85 | 141 | 0.149 | 0.722 | 0.129 | -0.2351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 22 | 6 | 19 | 19 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 85 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138813 | 0.097871 | 0 | 0.115184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353866 | 0.299985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205148 | 0 | 0.123597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111723 | 0 | 0.102894 | 0 | 0.107954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111781 | 0 | 0 | 0.292655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306072 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | greenmachinefiend | 2018/12/20 | My plan So I've decided that after work today I'm gonna pop in that local gun shop that I've been driving by for years and never set foot in and buy whatever handgun they have available. I'm not a gun person so it doesn't matter as long as it gets the job done. Not worried about a background check but if I cant get it ... | 2.462072 | 3.026867 | 3.883548 | 92.703015 | 74.430108 | 6.368238 | 23.447477 | 5.873415 | 0.272192 | 661 | 17 | 156 | 3 | 13 | 219 | 120 | 186 | 0.096 | 0.791 | 0.113 | 0.7266 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 25 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 20 | 13 | 4 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 90 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1347 | 0 | 0.106786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128775 | 0 | 0.135107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186557 | 0 | 0 | 0.1864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152957 | 0.366044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102147 | 0 | 0.332093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12753 | 0.1779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112808 |
suicidewatch | throwaway53015 | 2018/12/20 | It would be easy. All I’d have to do is lean a little too far over the railing. I’d fall headfirst and hopefully die, if not immediately then shortly afterwards. I can’t stop thinking about it. How easy it would be. How it’s such a simple task to finally end all of the pain and self destruction. I’m spiraling into my o... | 0.496353 | 2.785074 | 2.717941 | 90.715735 | 86.764706 | 6.694118 | 22.617647 | 7.908726 | 1.239376 | 319 | 12 | 71 | 7 | 10 | 108 | 58 | 85 | 0.206 | 0.646 | 0.149 | -0.8074 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 45 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342801 | 0 | 0 | 0.253983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163852 | 0 | 0.203009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363305 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WorstSingedUK | 2018/12/20 | Failed attempt on sunday Been a while since I've posted here. Yea so Sunday was my breaking point, through the stress of uni, money and seeing my deadbeat dad I had my feet on the edge of the platform. Could see the face of the driver dozing off as the train came closer.
The Samaritans got me home safe and I tried to... | 3.099121 | 5.228583 | 4.082207 | 85.557024 | 75.738197 | 6.498181 | 22.254036 | 7.44753 | 0.953944 | 939 | 26 | 176 | 12 | 21 | 303 | 147 | 233 | 0.071 | 0.78 | 0.149 | 0.955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 37 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 20 | 7 | 33 | 22 | 3 | 33 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 121 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133262 | 0 | 0 | 0.106425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093054 | 0.136357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106255 | 0 | 0 | 0.085826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125457 | 0 | 0.13458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246063 | 0.069529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089202 | 0 | 0.133491 | 0 | 0 | 0.153558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125805 | 0 | 0.127455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133117 | 0 | 0.085255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152444 | 0 | 0 | 0.145569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106966 | 0 | 0.122523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085273 | 0 | 0 | 0.077601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361414 | 0 | 0.130001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078495 | 0.105634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PyrrhicNicholas | 2018/12/20 | Waiting for a stranger There is no real me. I’m playing a game, pretending to be a person. I have no dreams, no desires, feeling or hope. Whatever innocence I once had died a long time, along with the rest of me.
I’m tired. Tired of dealing with a painful past. Tired of living for others. Fatigue defines my existence,... | -0.394099 | 1.843912 | 2.162917 | 92.708365 | 92.802083 | 4.412179 | 20.405449 | 6.093298 | 0.199291 | 707 | 25 | 150 | 7 | 26 | 242 | 113 | 192 | 0.114 | 0.758 | 0.128 | 0.6838 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 30 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 22 | 2 | 21 | 26 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 92 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088212 | 0.141015 | 0 | 0 | 0.141957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12078 | 0.121047 | 0.114862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129425 | 0 | 0 | 0.137415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145667 | 0 | 0 | 0.145545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130573 | 0 | 0.119432 | 0 | 0 | 0.129302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155687 | 0 | 0.140634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347682 | 0.105301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159516 | 0.471629 | 0.129652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MiraCrystsl | 2018/12/20 | How long does it take before you regret taking your life So my boyfriend might not like me anymore.. So I thought I just just remove myself from this planet. I thought of Tylenol OD but is there anyone that has regretted doing it bcz of something? | 4.186915 | 6.326463 | 3.805266 | 88.70875 | 72.617021 | 5.551064 | 26.643617 | 5.985473 | 0.928323 | 197 | 7 | 36 | 1 | 4 | 59 | 40 | 47 | 0.143 | 0.857 | 0 | -0.7055 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299244 | 0.210983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213127 | 0.147414 | 0 | 0 | 0.267029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lonlyastronaut | 2018/12/20 | Fuck, how do I escape feeling like I’m just another statistic waiting to happen I’ve had a noose hung in my flat for the last 6 months just waiting for that final straw to break me | 5.918421 | 4.923511 | 6.414737 | 82.913158 | 66.894737 | 8.652632 | 32.157895 | 7.168622 | 1.936011 | 144 | 5 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 47 | 32 | 38 | 0.092 | 0.759 | 0.149 | 0.0516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202374 | 0.285933 | 0 | 0.438445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Aries1992 | 2018/12/20 | The dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had I don't see the point in living anymore. I've gone through the scenario in my head millions of times and I think I have come to terms with the consequences of my own death. | 1.9644 | 3.234871 | 2.973 | 96.0115 | 76.6 | 5.8 | 22.5 | 5.985473 | 0.0868 | 182 | 5 | 43 | 1 | 4 | 58 | 36 | 50 | 0.077 | 0.787 | 0.136 | 0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215579 | 0 | 0 | 0.196182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaynoobxxx | 2018/12/20 | Finna kill myself today I hate my self man I hate myself more than anything. Everything is my fault. I couldve done so much better if I tried even a little bit hard. Now im jus a lil failure and got nothin to do but to kil myself. Peace out world. | -0.581644 | 1.592034 | 1.611914 | 96.991509 | 92.396226 | 3.783288 | 13.231806 | 5.288315 | -1.162831 | 192 | 3 | 43 | 1 | 7 | 64 | 43 | 53 | 0.223 | 0.655 | 0.121 | -0.416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216635 | 0.267418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219424 | 0.483667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23218 | 0 | 0 | 0.166302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Squidderf | 2018/12/20 | I don't care if I'd be called a hypocrite. I used to be the one guy during my teens that was quiet and shy, but the people that knew me well enough knew that I would go out of my way to help them. I've driven them to hospitals, helped them deal with abuse, talked them out of suicide. Hell I even snuck a female friend i... | 10.683955 | 6.257183 | 9.714662 | 73.757632 | 60.684211 | 12.120301 | 39.511278 | 8.418075 | 3.279733 | 1,496 | 47 | 302 | 12 | 14 | 474 | 205 | 380 | 0.148 | 0.736 | 0.116 | -0.9273 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 13 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 28 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 66 | 55 | 25 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 3 | 40 | 11 | 61 | 29 | 8 | 44 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 23 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 206 | 54 | 11 | 0 | 0.100409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183643 | 0.205949 | 0.05763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159242 | 0 | 0.070759 | 0.10332 | 0 | 0.072112 | 0 | 0 | 0.07495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086534 | 0 | 0.086403 | 0 | 0 | 0.073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135324 | 0 | 0 | 0.109307 | 0.087369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175129 | 0 | 0.16792 | 0.076657 | 0.071401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04285 | 0.060542 | 0 | 0 | 0.154911 | 0 | 0.102474 | 0 | 0.130948 | 0 | 0.088552 | 0 | 0.048163 | 0 | 0.135557 | 0 | 0 | 0.083911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227212 | 0 | 0.085006 | 0.168342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168193 | 0.075325 | 0 | 0 | 0.046574 | 0.138157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041402 | 0 | 0.224495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185019 | 0 | 0 | 0.080188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090071 | 0.062297 | 0 | 0.065361 | 0.081847 | 0 | 0.079528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172277 | 0.064453 | 0 | 0 | 0.188199 | 0 | 0 | 0.058752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143609 | 0.065241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112602 | 0 | 0.166523 | 0.067278 | 0.049416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057536 | 0.184357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073193 | 0 | 0 | 0.049985 | 0.067267 | 0.067977 | 0 | 0.076196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081691 | 0 | 0.123391 | 0 | 0 | 0.120401 | 0 | 0.205949 | 0.109146 |
suicidewatch | ZidaneTribal2113 | 2018/12/20 | Ive been suicidal for years It's pretty manageble but I've been reaching out to people all night and no one is responding. So I guess here I am. | -0.082419 | 2.193833 | 2.658306 | 89.80746 | 90.612903 | 6.970968 | 20.653226 | 8.076483 | 1.329832 | 115 | 4 | 25 | 3 | 4 | 40 | 27 | 31 | 0.174 | 0.691 | 0.135 | -0.3071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270198 |
suicidewatch | wherehrfemale | 2018/12/20 | I’m surprised I haven’t killed myself yet... I don’t want to be alive. But I haven’t done it (suicide.) I don’t know what to do. I keep thinking I will...but I don’t. I’m scared? Almost do it. I’m being so reckless. I’m trying to die...but I can’t take the pain. This is such torment. Help me die? | -3.758763 | -2.627868 | -0.18087 | 105.81291 | 113.637681 | 2.123077 | 12.554069 | 3.1291 | -1.891177 | 220 | 5 | 60 | 0 | 13 | 78 | 39 | 69 | 0.276 | 0.597 | 0.127 | -0.9178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 34 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.550063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235547 | 0.293187 | 0 | 0.145639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iiiii_just_wanna_die | 2018/12/20 | Let's try this again I just spent the last hour typing up a goddam novel and decided instead just to ask one simple question: how would suicide not solve all my problems? | 6.373636 | 6.816318 | 6.220758 | 79.851136 | 65.666667 | 7.812121 | 31.651515 | 7.168622 | 2.057133 | 137 | 5 | 24 | 1 | 2 | 43 | 32 | 33 | 0.31 | 0.631 | 0.058 | -0.8748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331223 | 0 | 0 | 0.387773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245899 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Leanrumble | 2018/12/20 | Idk anymore. It feels like it gets more difficult as the days go by. Even when I try and make friends and put myself out there people question my intentions. I swear my heartaches everyday. It shouldn't be this hard to find a genuine friend. I feel so defeated and my thoughts consume me. I feel like going to the bridg... | 4.231078 | 6.549098 | 3.984902 | 86.678725 | 73.019608 | 7.278431 | 28.980392 | 8.167269 | 2.039933 | 433 | 18 | 81 | 7 | 9 | 131 | 76 | 102 | 0.089 | 0.817 | 0.095 | 0.3805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 51 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27383 | 0.257928 | 0 | 0 | 0.164993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27894 | 0 | 0.094315 | 0 | 0.205188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161711 | 0 | 0.185266 | 0.191885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173214 | 0 | 0 | 0.192249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362946 | 0.202224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122562 | 0.196355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ClicheDepressedCunt | 2018/12/20 | Plan on killing myself 12:00am January 1st - Happy New Years all I literally live in a nightmare. I get no pleasure from anything. I have narcissistic parents (not an exaggeration) a terrible group of friends and no girlfriend.
I’ve gone through tons of mood swings these past few years. I can realise I’m in a down sw... | 2.303323 | 3.685092 | 4.203339 | 87.079279 | 75.934673 | 7.588065 | 26.507852 | 8.2785 | 1.615103 | 740 | 28 | 163 | 13 | 16 | 252 | 109 | 199 | 0.238 | 0.658 | 0.104 | -0.986 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 36 | 14 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 6 | 23 | 26 | 6 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 108 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144895 | 0.172955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118748 | 0 | 0.160604 | 0 | 0.087351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169318 | 0 | 0 | 0.163616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170046 | 0 | 0.168939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157169 | 0 | 0.07509 | 0 | 0.27144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170666 | 0 | 0.146724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173274 | 0.147202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131259 | 0.146204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296933 |
suicidewatch | BabiiGhoul | 2018/12/20 | Fantasying about my death makes me feel less anxious. Today while straightening my hair I was playing through scenarios of my suicide and if my attempts work and for some reason it was co getting and I was a lot less anxious than I was before | 6.305362 | 7.322869 | 6.294348 | 77.24558 | 65.956522 | 8.742029 | 37.072464 | 8.841846 | 3.353299 | 196 | 10 | 34 | 3 | 3 | 62 | 34 | 46 | 0.233 | 0.731 | 0.036 | -0.8754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.674888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253943 | 0 | 0 | 0.199383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AelitaShonen | 2018/12/20 | I recently stopped drinking and feel compelled to drive into oncoming traffic. im like 17 days sober, I finally hit a point in my life I dont want to be this problematic asshole anymore and a drag on my loved ones. Ive been a heavy drinker for a decade since i turned 21, so worry about my health was also an issue.
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suicidewatch | _plants_for_hire_ | 2018/12/20 | Christmas i actually really fuckin hate Christmas. Fuck God and fuck your religion. | 5.735897 | 8.579802 | 6.069231 | 59.267436 | 105.153846 | 10.964103 | 35.102564 | 8.841846 | 6.293379 | 69 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 22 | 11 | 13 | 0.521 | 0.38 | 0.1 | -0.8714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.770663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nelfsky | 2018/12/20 | I have a plan I’m going to take my life in the new year. Possibly in January or February. I need to make amends with some people and make a few more memories for them to hold onto.
I lost my brother to suicide 5 years ago this November. The thought of his death actually comforts me in a strange way. I know that sounds... | 2.700651 | 4.732804 | 3.804635 | 87.539367 | 76.590164 | 7.32161 | 26.500745 | 8.238736 | 1.714908 | 2,407 | 94 | 496 | 44 | 55 | 779 | 282 | 610 | 0.259 | 0.664 | 0.077 | -0.9992 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 16 | 30 | 2 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 45 | 21 | 7 | 8 | 5 | 85 | 98 | 41 | 7 | 10 | 15 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 30 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 7 | 70 | 11 | 83 | 58 | 15 | 87 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 35 | 2 | 9 | 35 | 310 | 86 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.058177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052846 | 0.063711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22803 | 0 | 0.118246 | 0 | 0 | 0.147176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072683 | 0 | 0 | 0.067167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133102 | 0 | 0 | 0.060782 | 0 | 0.063066 | 0.051354 | 0 | 0 | 0.066864 | 0 | 0 | 0.261941 | 0.038447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123744 | 0 | 0 | 0.061019 | 0 | 0.061008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052802 | 0 | 0 | 0.039376 | 0.053926 | 0.050229 | 0 | 0.053579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092118 | 0 | 0.031147 | 0.057189 | 0.271049 | 0 | 0.04768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063462 | 0 | 0 | 0.061183 | 0.063369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0598 | 0.059212 | 0.117419 | 0 | 0 | 0.067299 | 0 | 0 | 0.118319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064773 | 0.060961 | 0.126325 | 0.029125 | 0.059751 | 0 | 0.052758 | 0 | 0 | 0.390467 | 0 | 0.053806 | 0 | 0.159176 | 0.060441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060057 | 0.060079 | 0.063243 | 0.060195 | 0 | 0.09517 | 0 | 0.043825 | 0.044204 | 0 | 0.115155 | 0.063402 | 0.055946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080795 | 0 | 0.063436 | 0.069946 | 0.066196 | 0.064558 | 0 | 0.04133 | 0 | 0.186858 | 0 | 0 | 0.067208 | 0 | 0 | 0.064276 | 0 | 0 | 0.05993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12239 | 0.049315 | 0 | 0.119318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047609 | 0 | 0 | 0.062324 | 0 | 0.19563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134471 | 0 | 0 | 0.054886 | 0 | 0 | 0.039606 | 0 | 0 | 0.094657 | 0.104288 | 0.06852 | 0 | 0.056966 | 0 | 0.121426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051489 | 0 | 0.049189 | 0.070326 | 0.04732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130203 | 0 | 0.060754 | 0.169398 | 0 | 0 | 0.230344 |
suicidewatch | Finguin | 2018/12/20 | Do people even want to say goodbye? There is only 1 person on earth that I love or even like, should I say good bye to her or would that hurt even more?
I don't know what to do, I kind of want to not let her in the dark, but at the same time I am not sure if doing that will make it worse, or could even possibly endin... | 2.471792 | 3.126289 | 3.493971 | 95.170691 | 74.486726 | 6.357965 | 21.204646 | 5.985473 | -0.088521 | 404 | 8 | 98 | 2 | 8 | 130 | 80 | 113 | 0.173 | 0.725 | 0.102 | -0.9171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 16 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 66 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144292 | 0 | 0 | 0.430408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161809 | 0 | 0 | 0.174401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169648 | 0.089532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166589 | 0.11507 | 0.079591 | 0.163281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147035 | 0 | 0.108745 | 0.165168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112943 | 0.142249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284987 | 0.187244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19218 | 0.129312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166022 | 0.115728 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | buttermyegggroll | 2018/12/20 | Wearing out I'm getting worn out, worn down. As Bilbo said it, feeling like too little butter stretched over too much bread. No real reason either, family isn't bad other than that my parents decided that having more children and less financial stability was a good choice. (So just ending it and lightning their load wo... | 7.539719 | 6.597201 | 7.517987 | 76.148409 | 63.618182 | 10.32987 | 33.097403 | 9.42424 | 2.853431 | 1,118 | 37 | 210 | 17 | 14 | 360 | 158 | 275 | 0.106 | 0.772 | 0.122 | 0.6059 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 44 | 33 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 15 | 6 | 36 | 23 | 11 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 144 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114825 | 0 | 0.11128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088418 | 0.095648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179423 | 0 | 0.237328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120861 | 0.095164 | 0.111019 | 0 | 0.070966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101289 | 0 | 0.108654 | 0.076758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166023 | 0 | 0.112271 | 0 | 0.183189 | 0.090119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109869 | 0 | 0.052492 | 0.215375 | 0 | 0 | 0.090226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218421 | 0.081716 | 0 | 0 | 0.119304 | 0.116352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122295 | 0.206495 | 0.110471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091757 | 0.102204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088879 | 0 | 0.107522 | 0 | 0 | 0.082716 | 0.106265 | 0 | 0 | 0.114521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21823 | 0 | 0.076325 | 0.117474 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | palmouse | 2018/12/20 | What if I’m never happy? Things feel very bleak. Every day I think about how hard it is for me to do basic human tasks, like wash dishes or do laundry or even just shower. My boyfriend picks up all the slack and insists he’s okay with it, but I know he could do so much better than me and I’m scared he’ll realize it and... | 2.724576 | 4.480374 | 3.878667 | 88.271559 | 75.666667 | 6.301921 | 23.664407 | 7.031649 | 0.815587 | 686 | 21 | 140 | 7 | 15 | 223 | 115 | 177 | 0.107 | 0.748 | 0.146 | 0.8905 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 32 | 28 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 9 | 21 | 22 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 97 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140846 | 0 | 0 | 0.113767 | 0 | 0.151938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116515 | 0 | 0.14863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089196 | 0 | 0 | 0.193244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187788 | 0.158025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096948 | 0 | 0 | 0.186789 | 0 | 0 | 0.124601 | 0.086183 | 0 | 0.15577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159213 | 0 | 0.117752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129679 | 0 | 0.136055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176613 | 0.178532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468786 | 0.113034 | 0 | 0 | 0.102864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152358 | 0 | 0.145554 | 0 | 0.140023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | masososochist | 2018/12/20 | It seems like every friendship I have always fizzles out I don’t really know why that is. Am I just a subpar human that people don’t feel the urge to maintain a friendship with? Or is it my fault? Am I just bad at maintaining friendships? Is it because I always wait for the other person to reach out and rarely do so my... | 2.389654 | 4.202274 | 4.236003 | 85.094351 | 76.777778 | 6.16912 | 21.772006 | 6.980633 | 0.654803 | 484 | 13 | 96 | 5 | 11 | 164 | 71 | 126 | 0.088 | 0.753 | 0.158 | 0.7941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 15 | 23 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 74 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17061 | 0 | 0.15162 | 0.221391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183635 | 0.129728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12305 | 0.138108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251784 | 0.475673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19854 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | omomars | 2018/12/20 | On the brink Never had such strong feelings to end it all until recently. I’m 23 years old and just recently graduated from university. I don’t find any joy in living. I don’t like people. I have no family support as my father died when I was a child and my mother has wasted her entire life away. My sister hates me. I ... | 1.208085 | 3.445088 | 3.516426 | 86.594 | 82.829787 | 5.88766 | 20.038298 | 7.168622 | 0.601042 | 358 | 10 | 72 | 5 | 10 | 123 | 71 | 94 | 0.231 | 0.668 | 0.101 | -0.9217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 48 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192142 | 0 | 0.206113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287926 | 0.099575 | 0 | 0.35995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151129 | 0.157197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120217 | 0.161781 | 0 | 0.248196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131252 |
suicidewatch | SukoKingler | 2018/12/20 | New Year’s Day. Hey guys. I’m going to overdose in my room on New Years. I just wanted to put this out at least somewhere. That is all. | -2.259 | -0.544529 | 0.123333 | 104.865 | 104.666667 | 2.4 | 12.666667 | 3.1291 | -1.841133 | 103 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 5 | 34 | 27 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.6638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4426 |
suicidewatch | DownWithRosary | 2018/12/20 | Dunno what to do anymore Really just at a point where I’ve given up. No matter what I do I can’t make myself happy. I hate how I am and I’m ruining my relationship cause, just to not get into details, cause of my trust issues and anxiety and attachment issues. She’s the only thing that makes me happy and hopeful but id... | 0.854731 | 2.705692 | 2.936237 | 92.416022 | 81.688172 | 5.96129 | 20.548387 | 7.054809 | 0.363271 | 1,352 | 38 | 307 | 17 | 36 | 457 | 179 | 372 | 0.171 | 0.703 | 0.126 | -0.9679 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 30 | 8 | 5 | 10 | 4 | 74 | 61 | 29 | 3 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 42 | 12 | 41 | 43 | 10 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 21 | 4 | 11 | 12 | 203 | 64 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.081407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05673 | 0 | 0.063817 | 0 | 0.165464 | 0 | 0 | 0.068649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255548 | 0 | 0 | 0.342788 | 0.088249 | 0.07186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0538 | 0.086004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073887 | 0.086197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193354 | 0.077122 | 0.130753 | 0 | 0.04741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177608 | 0 | 0.082362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055916 | 0.176279 | 0 | 0.165713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174141 | 0.082783 | 0 | 0.184587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058923 | 0.040756 | 0 | 0.073663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141844 | 0 | 0 | 0.222738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056529 | 0.063446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213768 | 0 | 0 | 0.089564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087027 | 0 | 0.256893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070683 | 0.064222 | 0 | 0.186767 | 0 | 0 | 0.066621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09125 | 0 | 0.078624 | 0 | 0.062723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110843 | 0.053453 | 0 | 0.066227 | 0.048644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056638 | 0 | 0.081491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091877 | 0 | 0.049204 | 0.132432 | 0 | 0 | 0.075006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085014 | 0.05926 | 0 | 0 | 0.053721 |
suicidewatch | character-name | 2018/12/20 | An Observation I have suffered from Depression amd Anxiety for the past 29 years. And I used to think I felt the way I did was because I was weak, or a screw up, or whatever.
But I realized somethings tonight:
The First is that Depression Mutes Happiness. So when other people are Happy and are around a 7, 8, or 9 in... | 2.407868 | 4.47239 | 4.382944 | 82.897307 | 77.612717 | 8.48685 | 27.575506 | 9.188382 | 2.587474 | 677 | 29 | 134 | 18 | 16 | 231 | 112 | 173 | 0.137 | 0.751 | 0.112 | -0.5357 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 30 | 22 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 14 | 16 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 89 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113911 | 0 | 0 | 0.104117 | 0 | 0 | 0.397667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142971 | 0 | 0 | 0.126657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099807 | 0 | 0 | 0.147895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099394 | 0.150965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142145 | 0.103231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095411 | 0 | 0 | 0.086827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128605 | 0.163996 | 0 | 0 | 0.118193 | 0 | 0 | 0.133882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095889 |
suicidewatch | hugebobrossfan | 2018/12/20 | What’s the most painless way to kill myself. I’ve been contemplating killing myself since I was 14 and now that I’m 22 I really just want to end it all. I don’t want my parents to find me in a bad state. Is there a way to do it so it’s less disturbing. | -0.680115 | 1.008284 | 2.217931 | 96.378506 | 86.241379 | 5.935632 | 18.287356 | 7.168622 | -0.015113 | 196 | 5 | 51 | 3 | 6 | 69 | 43 | 58 | 0.254 | 0.656 | 0.09 | -0.922 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 33 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.603286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321628 | 0.432828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 762orbuckshot | 2018/12/20 | Went to sleep wanting to pull the trigger, woke up wanting to pull the trigger. All my friends have abandoned me, the only girl I ever liked has ghosted me, the job I got after 6 months of applying and interviewing only lasted a week and a half after they fired me because they randomly wanted to drug test me(My fault b... | 7.311127 | 6.594287 | 7.274306 | 76.973125 | 63.96732 | 10.068301 | 35.464869 | 9.271963 | 3.095216 | 2,492 | 100 | 471 | 37 | 32 | 799 | 292 | 612 | 0.162 | 0.733 | 0.105 | -0.9927 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 65 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 41 | 32 | 7 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 49 | 11 | 5 | 8 | 7 | 94 | 92 | 43 | 5 | 12 | 21 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 21 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 16 | 1 | 5 | 24 | 10 | 80 | 16 | 76 | 64 | 14 | 87 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 28 | 3 | 15 | 53 | 344 | 100 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051529 | 0 | 0 | 0.120411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05765 | 0.040646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109231 | 0.044699 | 0 | 0.035436 | 0.064201 | 0.049465 | 0 | 0.061004 | 0.051412 | 0.063463 | 0 | 0 | 0.064893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037489 | 0 | 0.150203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118975 | 0.068129 | 0.056946 | 0.134826 | 0 | 0 | 0.065389 | 0.051486 | 0 | 0 | 0.153579 | 0.052582 | 0.048977 | 0.055546 | 0 | 0 | 0.0548 | 0 | 0.176355 | 0.124585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049446 | 0 | 0 | 0.179646 | 0.053741 | 0 | 0 | 0.099111 | 0 | 0.092985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052074 | 0.057392 | 0.059659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115371 | 0.155007 | 0.064313 | 0.060534 | 0.063894 | 0.047384 | 0 | 0.061552 | 0.126318 | 0 | 0 | 0.170398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048815 | 0 | 0 | 0.04942 | 0.052465 | 0 | 0.038803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068082 | 0.185597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111556 | 0 | 0.060998 | 0 | 0.078781 | 0.309476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110984 | 0.120901 | 0.050757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188024 | 0.111246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116292 | 0 | 0.03724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058172 | 0.118513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08229 | 0 | 0.185692 | 0.097199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087414 | 0.046723 | 0.101617 | 0.053519 | 0 | 0 | 0.077239 | 0.111743 | 0.285565 | 0.138447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064585 | 0.157867 | 0 | 0.056785 | 0 | 0 | 0.100412 | 0 | 0.047964 | 0.171434 | 0 | 0.046629 | 0 | 0.052266 | 0.053888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041294 | 0 | 0 | 0.187171 |
suicidewatch | CageThePipes | 2018/12/20 | Do it now. Before it's worse. Here I am. Mid 20's. A wife and two daughters I can barely provide for and I feel lost for it.
I thought about making an alt for this, but no, this deserves to be here. My daughters are 2 years and 1 month old respectively and I think that if I end it... maybe it won't hurt them since the... | -1.101706 | 0.981002 | 1.083176 | 99.408294 | 97.176471 | 3.425882 | 16.211765 | 5.108053 | -0.926511 | 611 | 16 | 143 | 3 | 25 | 202 | 95 | 170 | 0.111 | 0.731 | 0.158 | 0.8848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 9 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 34 | 17 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 26 | 5 | 12 | 24 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 104 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12613 | 0 | 0 | 0.393283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263501 | 0 | 0 | 0.162923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098942 | 0 | 0.148913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118313 | 0 | 0.108964 | 0 | 0.114321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284933 | 0.145632 | 0.117675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302111 | 0.105296 | 0 | 0 | 0.095453 |
suicidewatch | throwaway1948388583 | 2018/12/20 | I want to try again A few years back i tried to overdose. Only two people in the world know. I remember it so clearly. I didnt shed a single tear. I took the pills all at once and crawled into bed with a slight smile on my face thinking i wouldnt have to wake up ever again. I didnt even say goodbye to my mom or my gran... | 0.074141 | 1.936591 | 1.99611 | 98.045458 | 84.548173 | 4.946994 | 18.679777 | 6.031178 | -0.409283 | 1,064 | 27 | 261 | 8 | 31 | 352 | 156 | 301 | 0.092 | 0.771 | 0.137 | 0.7986 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 45 | 47 | 20 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 44 | 6 | 34 | 31 | 11 | 47 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 21 | 1 | 6 | 19 | 167 | 56 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132812 | 0 | 0.105289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089234 | 0 | 0.05704 | 0.078118 | 0.072763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09718 | 0.043667 | 0 | 0.16584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079839 | 0.04512 | 0 | 0.098162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18249 | 0.086627 | 0.085776 | 0 | 0 | 0.092451 | 0 | 0.279853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303434 | 0 | 0 | 0.190455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162087 | 0 | 0.082865 | 0 | 0 | 0.091971 | 0 | 0.065681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119743 | 0 | 0.090229 | 0 | 0.081639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09783 | 0.073752 | 0 | 0.068678 | 0 | 0.087402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276147 | 0.068968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110673 | 0 | 0 | 0.151073 | 0 | 0 | 0.082521 | 0.1919 | 0.1759 | 0 | 0.084362 | 0 | 0 | 0.074588 | 0 | 0 | 0.254689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099311 | 0 | 0 | 0.125743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111227 |
suicidewatch | nearthemirroredge | 2018/12/20 | Sorry I'm a nuisance! I listen to everyone else's problems but when mine come up I get told to buck up or nobody cares. If I do talk anyways they all just ignore me or tell me I'm a nuisance. Well dont worry I won't be a nuisance for much longer! | 1.718571 | 2.245308 | 4.198571 | 89.896429 | 76.142857 | 6.314286 | 24.714286 | 5.985473 | 0.5733 | 192 | 6 | 45 | 1 | 4 | 68 | 41 | 56 | 0.114 | 0.696 | 0.189 | 0.7264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 30 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295423 | 0 | 0 | 0.249597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232893 | 0.253257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | greenbeanz17 | 2018/12/20 | Will things ever change? It’s exhausting just writing this. I just ended a two year abusive relationship with my ex. I’ve hardly had any friends ever since high school ended and I feel like it’s never going to change. I reach out and still nothing. I feel alone and empty.
I’m depressed, I’m bipolar and my family deval... | 1.482467 | 4.050529 | 3.236 | 86.704667 | 85.2 | 5.333333 | 23.333333 | 6.816662 | 0.978833 | 398 | 15 | 75 | 5 | 12 | 132 | 68 | 100 | 0.208 | 0.688 | 0.103 | -0.9205 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 24 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 49 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0.189721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283645 | 0 | 0 | 0.10576 | 0.434524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150951 | 0 | 0.323854 | 0.114393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127337 | 0 | 0.162054 | 0.127598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103115 |
suicidewatch | hermitcait | 2018/12/20 | . i have nothing to live for. nothing. nobody. he took everything. | 1.079091 | -2.522972 | 2.431636 | 81.547455 | 179.909091 | 4.516364 | 29.472727 | 5.683918 | 2.708295 | 50 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 16 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.752448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | somnician | 2018/12/20 | Chatted with this chick briefly due to her hilarious and amazing sense of humor. It was a brief convo but I remember I followed her then really thought nothing of it. I was checking what subs I follow then realized I still followed her. Rather she went on a hiatus off Reddit or she commited 13 or so days ago. Her histo... | 6.178 | 9.463753 | 5.354444 | 74.485 | 71 | 8 | 28.888889 | 8.841846 | 2.711222 | 432 | 17 | 68 | 9 | 9 | 130 | 66 | 90 | 0.081 | 0.812 | 0.108 | 0.1149 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 50 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Psweens | 2018/12/20 | I’ve been depressed for a while now. There isn’t even a reason for it, I just feel like nothing matters anymore. I just feel that my life overall is experiencing more sadness than happiness. I feel like the “net 0” of death, in terms of emotions, would be an improvement for me. The only reason I haven’t done it is beca... | 3.857367 | 4.023358 | 5.227367 | 85.758856 | 71.068966 | 8.166353 | 26.737722 | 8.000946 | 1.388306 | 642 | 19 | 143 | 8 | 11 | 216 | 102 | 174 | 0.126 | 0.724 | 0.15 | 0.7429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 30 | 38 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 17 | 7 | 17 | 27 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 93 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118088 | 0 | 0 | 0.097987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157293 | 0 | 0 | 0.113779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481653 | 0.255196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25351 | 0 | 0.117559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105837 | 0 | 0 | 0.065439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084104 | 0.174518 | 0 | 0.105143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112669 | 0.158964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095706 | 0 | 0 | 0.13617 | 0 | 0 | 0.076297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121345 | 0.169171 | 0 | 0 | 0.076679 |
suicidewatch | throwaway246969 | 2018/12/20 | My trainer, coach, and father figure died today and I don’t know what to do... My first professional MMA fight in a promotion is a week from Saturday and this morning I went to the gym like I do everyday, only my trainer, a man who taught me everything I know in BJJ but was also like a dad to me because I grew up not k... | 5.337486 | 3.468149 | 6.751475 | 82.873716 | 68.508197 | 10.100546 | 31.808743 | 8.841846 | 2.230799 | 430 | 14 | 102 | 6 | 6 | 149 | 71 | 122 | 0.158 | 0.776 | 0.066 | -0.9253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 18 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 71 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232131 | 0 | 0.461239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155577 | 0.161824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166571 | 0 | 0 | 0.198882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166543 | 0.168302 | 0 | 0 | 0.194502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | daprodije | 2018/12/20 | Tell me it's a dream Someone please tell me that this is all just a dream, and that I will wake up tomorrow and not have two little girls to worry about. No reason to put it off anymore. Tell me it is still 2005, when I had nothing keeping me here. When I should have let go. I'm trying my best, but this wasn't supp... | 1.56664 | 2.718521 | 2.898379 | 96.627451 | 77.405797 | 5.887747 | 21.241107 | 6.112484 | -0.0724 | 490 | 12 | 120 | 3 | 11 | 159 | 81 | 138 | 0.105 | 0.773 | 0.122 | 0.0854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 20 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 88 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163215 | 0 | 0 | 0.135432 | 0 | 0.153856 | 0 | 0 | 0.126549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371297 | 0 | 0 | 0.16829 | 0 | 0 | 0.164948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12374 | 0 | 0.431539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111736 | 0 | 0.160767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | alexnk | 2018/12/20 | I need to destroy something instead of myself I was contemplating cutting my throat for a few minutes today, has anyone tried something to relieve the craving to bleed or something like that? I did not cut myself but I tend to start hitting my head on surfaces out of anger, maybe stabbing fruit? I dunno, has anyone dea... | 5.00308 | 6.479921 | 5.000238 | 83.64 | 69.3125 | 6.319048 | 30.380952 | 6.182691 | 1.564383 | 399 | 16 | 71 | 2 | 7 | 124 | 66 | 96 | 0.161 | 0.618 | 0.222 | 0.599 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 5 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 47 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299019 | 0.281654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455273 | 0 | 0 | 0.139527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186853 | 0 | 0 | 0.133836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11627 | 0.15647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pumpkin0verlord | 2018/12/20 | What is life even worth? Why is life so "priceless"? It's awful! If I payed for this, I'd be pissed! Except I do have to pay for it against my will and I am pissed. Yes I understand that I have *some* things that others don't, and that I should be thankful for that, but it's not much compared to how awful life is anywa... | 1.880851 | 3.636077 | 3.203526 | 92.1858 | 78.078014 | 5.788596 | 23.336738 | 6.556748 | 0.502115 | 1,058 | 34 | 232 | 9 | 25 | 344 | 139 | 282 | 0.152 | 0.69 | 0.159 | 0.4803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 47 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 24 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 40 | 42 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 13 | 32 | 35 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 11 | 149 | 51 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081943 | 0.11965 | 0 | 0 | 0.11057 | 0 | 0.26039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347691 | 0 | 0 | 0.06482 | 0 | 0 | 0.093777 | 0 | 0 | 0.092518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118671 | 0 | 0.075823 | 0 | 0.153822 | 0.188289 | 0.055775 | 0.082315 | 0 | 0.216399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221222 | 0 | 0.065781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103916 | 0 | 0 | 0.346596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078334 | 0 | 0.144288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090354 | 0 | 0 | 0.0652 | 0 | 0 | 0.077912 | 0.057226 | 0.225595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08824 | 0 | 0.088556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063199 |
suicidewatch | Elizabetheva42 | 2018/12/20 | My hardest finals are tomorrow and I can’t do it I have new daily persistent headaches, which means I have a chronic headache 365 24/7. I’m a freshman in high school and it is horrible. The medication I’m on makes me extremely confused and basically makes it so I have no short term memory. The head headache specialist ... | 1.403516 | 3.178419 | 3.494441 | 89.458892 | 79.586081 | 6.419282 | 25.938315 | 7.404128 | 1.26782 | 1,007 | 41 | 219 | 14 | 25 | 343 | 129 | 273 | 0.152 | 0.768 | 0.08 | -0.96 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 34 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 27 | 51 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 39 | 6 | 26 | 45 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 147 | 48 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316503 | 0 | 0.110451 | 0 | 0.136219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103636 | 0 | 0 | 0.083711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065631 | 0 | 0 | 0.426573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135632 | 0 | 0.147538 | 0.217743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173287 | 0 | 0 | 0.141392 | 0.14418 | 0.130761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087957 | 0 | 0.138118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OpiCyde | 2018/12/20 | Relief I’ve booked the hotel I’ll do it at. I’ve written the note. I’ve bought the pills. And while there is a little sadness that it’s over for me, it’s mostly relief I feel washing over me now that it’s mapped out.
I wish I could say it’s been fun but it hasn’t. I welcome the embrace of the nothingness of eternit... | 0.020422 | 1.895576 | 2.262451 | 95.985106 | 84.844156 | 4.888961 | 18.715909 | 5.985473 | -0.301934 | 272 | 7 | 64 | 2 | 8 | 92 | 50 | 77 | 0.025 | 0.769 | 0.207 | 0.9051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 42 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375403 | 0 | 0 | 0.376173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | meandyourknife | 2018/12/20 | iamcertainlynotworthyourtime i wish i had someone to talk to about my suicidal thoughts and urges without making me feel awkward and shitty. i wish i could cut my arm up without my bf or coworkers noticing. i wish real people genuinely cared for me. i wish i was better. | 5.649694 | 7.943245 | 6.767092 | 68.364515 | 69 | 8.165306 | 32.658163 | 8.841846 | 3.064016 | 218 | 10 | 35 | 4 | 4 | 73 | 34 | 49 | 0.196 | 0.531 | 0.274 | 0.5719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.785419 | 0.329195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ABunchofMistakes | 2018/12/20 | Lowkey wishing suicide was easier to go through I'm 27 with no social life, a life-time of mental illness, horrible boundaries, no identity, and no one who I feel like I love or am connected to. I just don't care about people - they're all strangers. I don't want to let anyone close because I'll be so afraid to lose th... | 4.819008 | 5.419804 | 5.286402 | 84.641667 | 69.092593 | 8.02328 | 29.31746 | 7.957252 | 1.828268 | 425 | 15 | 85 | 5 | 7 | 136 | 78 | 108 | 0.244 | 0.597 | 0.159 | -0.8495 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 50 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163452 | 0 | 0 | 0.106052 | 0 | 0.148037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177376 | 0 | 0.184039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263896 | 0.248571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177898 | 0.245763 | 0.169988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19463 | 0 | 0 | 0.157016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127889 | 0 | 0.134178 | 0 | 0 | 0.163261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177342 | 0 | 0.133932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RubyLawyer | 2018/12/20 | Suicidal idealizations I don’t feel like I will ever not think about killing myself. I’m not even worried I will anymore, because the thoughts are so constant that I just laugh in my head at them. My brain thinks “swerve into that car/off the road/off that bridge” “grab that knife” when it’s just sitting on the counter... | 5.284728 | 7.325301 | 5.281275 | 79.684981 | 69.445545 | 8.416337 | 30.446782 | 9.017664 | 2.731445 | 875 | 36 | 151 | 17 | 16 | 273 | 122 | 202 | 0.07 | 0.748 | 0.182 | 0.9459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 38 | 25 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 22 | 12 | 17 | 17 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 110 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088996 | 0 | 0.248459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12576 | 0 | 0.473301 | 0 | 0.116564 | 0 | 0 | 0.188307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162821 | 0.289282 | 0.132059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073819 | 0.104298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155413 | 0 | 0 | 0.149831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16152 | 0 | 0.080234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103119 | 0.071325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107322 | 0 | 0.112599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098929 | 0.111034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101213 | 0.127476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120767 | 0 | 0.146099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187093 | 0 | 0.231805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148263 | 0 | 0.103709 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | skadeetin | 2018/12/20 | Plan in hand. Ready to sail, baby! So I have a great suicide plan. Not sharing. Here's the book - grew up in a bad place. Kind most see on tv. I survived then in 2010 got a brain disease. Neuro said I never see remission. Disabled. Lost everything. Have experienced pain most people will never experience. I'm on morphin... | 0.717219 | 3.176024 | 2.5019 | 91.134835 | 88.468691 | 5.575111 | 22.286924 | 7.077149 | 0.860842 | 2,038 | 76 | 423 | 32 | 67 | 671 | 269 | 527 | 0.2 | 0.693 | 0.107 | -0.9941 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 74 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 28 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 39 | 25 | 8 | 8 | 7 | 72 | 68 | 44 | 5 | 8 | 20 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 22 | 13 | 55 | 12 | 70 | 34 | 9 | 66 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 32 | 3 | 12 | 27 | 277 | 67 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.079928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090385 | 0.1965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076953 | 0 | 0.068388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090979 | 0 | 0.182868 | 0.083635 | 0.093678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091864 | 0.065395 | 0 | 0 | 0.052822 | 0.084441 | 0 | 0 | 0.255015 | 0.085574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156529 | 0.073611 | 0.080119 | 0 | 0 | 0.041414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078571 | 0 | 0 | 0.26203 | 0.090301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085292 | 0.045013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177981 | 0 | 0.173557 | 0.120045 | 0 | 0 | 0.217452 | 0 | 0 | 0.08941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085946 | 0.087227 | 0.166504 | 0 | 0.26146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113566 | 0 | 0.085574 | 0 | 0.077427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069947 | 0.155822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0873 | 0 | 0.068477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156529 | 0.091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07074 | 0 | 0 | 0.04831 | 0.065013 | 0.0657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058183 | 0 | 0 | 0.158234 |
suicidewatch | sarah_caughill | 2018/12/20 | People Simply Don't Care About Me. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember, and my family doesn't care enough to get me help. I was in my computer tech class and was cracking jokes like I always do, makes me feel better that I can make people I enjoy happy. I always joke about hanging myself, not actually jok... | 3.812911 | 3.389187 | 5.25571 | 87.561635 | 71.098361 | 8.089253 | 25.141166 | 7.38713 | 0.932439 | 1,086 | 25 | 254 | 10 | 18 | 368 | 147 | 305 | 0.097 | 0.652 | 0.251 | 0.9932 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 48 | 48 | 29 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 38 | 24 | 33 | 33 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 165 | 52 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.209541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1767 | 0 | 0.200739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285274 | 0.110934 | 0 | 0 | 0.097115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101212 | 0 | 0.108571 | 0.0767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165896 | 0.099255 | 0.168277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118272 | 0 | 0 | 0.114289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157356 | 0 | 0.094803 | 0.095012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101589 | 0.214996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159216 | 0.082805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436509 | 0.081654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101188 | 0 | 0.080723 | 0 | 0.09384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085219 | 0 | 0 | 0.096532 | 0 | 0.193756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076267 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | glutefolds | 2018/12/20 | my view i just wanted to get other opinions on this. i obviously dont feel comfortable talking about this with people i know.
i've had depression for a while and that probably influenced my view on suicide alot. i used to think that suicide was a terrible thing and ooo i'm gonna go to hell if i die blah blah blah but ... | 2.891286 | 4.428104 | 4.616258 | 84.081748 | 74.704698 | 8.188143 | 27.181767 | 8.841846 | 2.084825 | 573 | 22 | 118 | 12 | 12 | 194 | 92 | 149 | 0.234 | 0.687 | 0.079 | -0.9665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 26 | 13 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 3 | 18 | 23 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 80 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2729 | 0 | 0.164419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140316 | 0.163694 | 0 | 0.104637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165539 | 0 | 0.180071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140814 | 0 | 0 | 0.087065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335697 | 0.077398 | 0 | 0.139891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346579 | 0 | 0.149312 | 0 | 0 | 0.127335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105249 | 0.101511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136827 | 0 | 0 | 0.093442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | notnatnitnutnet | 2018/12/20 | My suicide buddy ghosted and made fun of me Met around 4/5 years ago from a sub. We shared depression stories, my suicide plans and other bits. 4 months ago he ghosted me, blaming technical issue for his missing. Found him on other platform making fun of me. Turns out he never was depressed. He talked and shared things... | 3.445877 | 6.171831 | 3.641672 | 86.096794 | 77.571429 | 5.408442 | 26.508117 | 6.627428 | 1.299755 | 328 | 13 | 56 | 3 | 8 | 101 | 58 | 77 | 0.198 | 0.584 | 0.218 | 0.0263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 36 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191634 | 0.135187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130419 |
suicidewatch | RodneyLA | 2018/12/20 | Took two Tests for Suicide - Very High and Disturbing Results - 114 on Suicide Probability Scale (out of 140) 14 on Suicide Intent Scale (out of 30)
## Took two tests for Suicide - 114 on Suicide Probability Scale, 14 on Suicide Intent Scale
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Deep depression drove me to research a couple of tools on the web tha... | 8.088824 | 10.385295 | 8.51302 | 58.251588 | 62.823529 | 12.106667 | 41.05098 | 11.729898 | 5.876077 | 984 | 56 | 144 | 34 | 15 | 325 | 106 | 204 | 0.377 | 0.595 | 0.028 | -0.9985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 27 | 11 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 74 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074154 | 0 | 0.066603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031675 | 0.064982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073092 | 0 | 0 | 0.419418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072877 | 0 | 0.066091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.780108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144068 | 0 | 0 | 0.126669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Blobo73 | 2018/12/20 | Failed all my classes this semester and I want to die So I am failing all of my classes and have been telling my parents that I have been doing fine the whole year, but I have not. I am a huge failure, got into two top honors program at my university, I already dropped one program because it was too hard and now I fear... | 6.00596 | 4.669455 | 6.68 | 82.198757 | 66.881356 | 9.222599 | 34.073446 | 7.793538 | 2.305131 | 441 | 17 | 95 | 4 | 6 | 146 | 80 | 118 | 0.162 | 0.692 | 0.146 | -0.473 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 22 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 21 | 4 | 13 | 15 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 81 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1146 | 0 | 0.161275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223092 | 0 | 0.11082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181304 | 0 | 0 | 0.225131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129854 |
suicidewatch | Spenround | 2018/12/20 | Everyone has given up I’m a 15 year old guy from the states and I used to have problems with drinking. That sounds extremely dumb considering my age but I had genuine problems. I haven’t had anything to drink in a while though and I’m proud of that. My parents have caught me drinking many times and won’t listen to me w... | 3.517977 | 4.534574 | 4.796637 | 85.446684 | 72.366013 | 7.916578 | 26.980986 | 8.296473 | 1.634064 | 1,169 | 40 | 248 | 18 | 22 | 388 | 159 | 306 | 0.179 | 0.72 | 0.101 | -0.9784 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 46 | 51 | 26 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 17 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 41 | 8 | 33 | 31 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 16 | 168 | 61 | 1 | 0.09802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150742 | 0 | 0.239008 | 0 | 0 | 0.110435 | 0 | 0.086691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48011 | 0.113672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093662 | 0 | 0.095882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097055 | 0 | 0 | 0.087806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261373 | 0 | 0 | 0.053869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069234 | 0.095775 | 0 | 0.086553 | 0 | 0.082312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092749 | 0.130858 | 0.198753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1148 | 0 | 0 | 0.072056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094053 | 0 | 0.102855 | 0 | 0.066421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112209 | 0 | 0 | 0.092382 | 0 | 0.147397 | 0 | 0.171347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096304 | 0.077817 | 0.114312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084658 | 0 | 0 | 0.057815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06963 | 0 | 0 | 0.063122 |
suicidewatch | lightning84 | 2018/12/20 | Any cheap or free mental health resources? I posted this in r/mentalhealth and was told to try here. I really need some help guys. I'm at the end of my rope and am highly considering suicide.
https://www.reddit.com/r/mentalhealth/comments/a7sixl/any_cheap_or_free_mental_health_resources/?utm_source=reddit-android | 15.44 | 21.564912 | 7.723795 | 53.579538 | 57.461538 | 7.222564 | 20.620513 | 8.238736 | 1.561211 | 273 | 5 | 30 | 4 | 5 | 67 | 36 | 39 | 0.11 | 0.737 | 0.153 | 0.2132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329825 | 0 | 0 | 0.207982 | 0.32784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296497 | 0 | 0.210667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dyn3xe | 2018/12/20 | My life is slowly catching up mentally So about 3 years ago my best mates/only mates ditched my in a day it hurt at the time but I got over it I left school and got a job to forget about it since then I’ve spent 3 years Alone and now loneliness is catching up and it really gets me down I’m about to be 18 and spend my b... | 0.790846 | 2.096197 | 2.521621 | 97.871353 | 79.852713 | 6.241297 | 19.479211 | 6.980633 | -0.07389 | 448 | 10 | 115 | 5 | 11 | 148 | 81 | 129 | 0.183 | 0.757 | 0.06 | -0.9562 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 19 | 14 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 63 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159801 | 0 | 0 | 0.373415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153398 | 0 | 0.189185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139278 | 0 | 0.094185 | 0 | 0.102453 | 0 | 0.28836 | 0 | 0 | 0.178498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195866 | 0 | 0.127332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14336 | 0 | 0.182445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115511 | 0 | 0 | 0.105118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232179 |
suicidewatch | G1Miller | 2018/12/20 | Everything is grey What the hell is it like to feel something lol | 1.022308 | 3.619007 | 1.468077 | 96.114423 | 94.384615 | 5.676923 | 21.884615 | 7.168622 | 0.928723 | 53 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 13 | 0.229 | 0.448 | 0.323 | -0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.559282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Xirokami | 2018/12/20 | When your grandparents don’t know how close you were to death this year... I just realized... they don’t know how badly I’d cut myself.
I haven’t talked to them since the summer.
I don’t think her poor heart could take it.
The cut was an accident. It was just gonna be one more. One good one.
One cut.
One cen... | -0.716071 | 1.461897 | 0.485238 | 104.051429 | 95.309524 | 4.704762 | 11.761905 | 6.427356 | -1.163052 | 307 | 4 | 77 | 4 | 12 | 95 | 58 | 84 | 0.296 | 0.657 | 0.047 | -0.9733 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 49 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196388 | 0 | 0.174529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231258 | 0 | 0.229752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.708213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157163 | 0.168009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148487 | 0 | 0 | 0.134607 |
suicidewatch | Chagachi | 2018/12/20 | Long I dont think it will be much longer. | -1.358 | 0.055991 | 0.11 | 112.085 | 87 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -2.473 | 32 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.664822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Chanseychu | 2018/12/20 | I can feel.it creeping back in. The past 6 months have been horrendous, everything that made my life great is just crumbling apart.
Im in school, which is fine.
But in the past 6 months the man i have spent 5 years of my life with said he is unhappy in our relationship...which is heartbreaking but i cant make his fe... | 1.083037 | 2.713413 | 2.566602 | 96.415432 | 80.02459 | 6.075708 | 23.385991 | 6.980633 | 0.512556 | 879 | 30 | 213 | 10 | 22 | 286 | 132 | 244 | 0.197 | 0.758 | 0.045 | -0.9907 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 49 | 16 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 28 | 4 | 20 | 33 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 113 | 34 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079753 | 0 | 0.126451 | 0.114548 | 0.088256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209772 | 0.148192 | 0 | 0 | 0.094796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099496 | 0.058945 | 0 | 0 | 0.114349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06952 | 0 | 0.104038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448133 | 0 | 0.102924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293036 | 0.101343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116034 | 0.11322 | 0 | 0 | 0.09814 | 0.069233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070282 | 0.078882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111354 | 0 | 0 | 0.09866 | 0.082481 | 0.10384 | 0.209936 | 0.08265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099107 | 0 | 0.070418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075508 | 0 | 0 | 0.147357 | 0 | 0 | 0.133582 |
suicidewatch | Lukaamechi1 | 2018/12/20 | I don’t want to do this anymore Ive always felt like nobody really cares, I wake up, go to school, throw up a facade and act like who people want me to act like.
If i tried to be myself id be ostracised. My dad (who only spends a week every month home due to work) is emotionally abusive and tries to threaten, and guil... | 3.869819 | 4.830775 | 4.986179 | 84.624649 | 71.481481 | 7.461988 | 24.580897 | 7.66913 | 1.114259 | 1,043 | 28 | 214 | 12 | 19 | 344 | 157 | 270 | 0.194 | 0.72 | 0.087 | -0.9877 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 40 | 41 | 24 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 27 | 7 | 27 | 33 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 136 | 42 | 7 | 0 | 0.124368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08734 | 0 | 0 | 0.071381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098619 | 0 | 0 | 0.191959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069329 | 0.094948 | 0.088438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212296 | 0.074988 | 0.100784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081097 | 0 | 0.05484 | 0 | 0.059655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103933 | 0 | 0 | 0.094029 | 0.103632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112368 | 0 | 0.226763 | 0 | 0.104163 | 0 | 0.116129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107335 | 0 | 0.205124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122935 | 0.083783 | 0 | 0.077162 | 0 | 0.242869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100202 | 0.218311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104994 | 0 | 0.134488 | 0.107923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212462 | 0.083644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069735 | 0 | 0.103129 | 0 | 0.061207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14253 | 0.114173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123823 | 0 | 0.084197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152833 | 0 | 0.106969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067595 |
suicidewatch | avivako | 2018/12/20 | If anyone wants to vent You can message me, I'm so tired of being stuck in my own head right now. I feel so alone. | 0.830385 | 1.598137 | 2.641538 | 99.278462 | 78.615385 | 5.2 | 16.846154 | 3.1291 | -1.095246 | 87 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 24 | 26 | 0.285 | 0.715 | 0 | -0.8104 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MaxNick | 2018/12/20 | Ive done nothing in the past years Im only twenty but since high school ive accomplished nothing. I sit on my computer and browse the internet and play games. Everytime someone asks whats my plan I bullshit as much as I can but in reality my plan b is suicide. Once people stop supporting me I just want to end my life. ... | 1.217254 | 3.739221 | 3.500374 | 84.626564 | 86.102804 | 7.030625 | 26.922358 | 8.13951 | 2.227914 | 421 | 20 | 82 | 10 | 13 | 144 | 66 | 107 | 0.194 | 0.619 | 0.187 | -0.4585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 16 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 49 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.684013 | 0 | 0 | 0.151836 | 0 | 0.108433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136102 | 0.098842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155952 | 0.16179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091812 |
suicidewatch | Dragon---Fox | 2018/12/20 | Worst Week I have always liked Batman comics. The Joker states people are one bad day from their lives being ruined (something like that). I finally get it. I had a one night fling with a coworker at an office party last week. It was a mistake, we work closely together in a very small office. Things were pretty good be... | 2.865207 | 4.407542 | 4.16364 | 87.277318 | 74.784753 | 6.749278 | 22.70279 | 7.38713 | 0.835705 | 857 | 23 | 175 | 10 | 18 | 282 | 138 | 223 | 0.156 | 0.731 | 0.113 | -0.9231 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 30 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 29 | 6 | 28 | 17 | 3 | 44 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 121 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133881 | 0.120315 | 0 | 0 | 0.130332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12432 | 0 | 0.067617 | 0.099791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174376 | 0 | 0.105058 | 0.10529 | 0 | 0.133103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112578 | 0.079417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091761 | 0 | 0.126532 | 0.111651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079042 | 0.076235 | 0 | 0.094453 | 0.069376 | 0 | 0.22555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143113 | 0 | 0 | 0.490837 | 0.14035 | 0 | 0.286305 | 0 | 0.106973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114688 | 0 | 0.173231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sodone1 | 2018/12/20 | I'm done 25F life has not turned out the way I had remotely imagined, single, back living with parents, unemployed and about to start back at a job I fucking hate which will involve moving away from family and friends, feel hopeless and lost and have no idea what I'm doing with my life, I've spent the past 18 months tr... | 11.74383 | 6.961313 | 11.225021 | 64.812 | 59.141844 | 14.684255 | 42.384397 | 11.979248 | 4.798692 | 571 | 20 | 109 | 12 | 5 | 189 | 90 | 141 | 0.263 | 0.679 | 0.057 | -0.9866 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 29 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 10 | 4 | 15 | 21 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 71 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109276 | 0.178868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12071 | 0.121518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130832 | 0.20603 | 0 | 0 | 0.076821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113772 | 0.438582 | 0 | 0.235237 | 0.166182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08986 | 0.215051 | 0.060766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123813 | 0 | 0.114831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131298 | 0 | 0 | 0.115418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164305 | 0.113645 | 0 | 0.102703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126965 | 0 | 0 | 0.110054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092836 | 0.123618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088458 | 0 | 0 | 0.129147 | 0 | 0.11103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078966 | 0.12651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068602 | 0.09232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Calven_ | 2018/12/20 | Help I need a reason to live but everything I touch turns to shit help | 3.654 | 4.178154 | 4.42 | 90.09 | 71.666667 | 8.666667 | 21.666667 | 8.841846 | 0.953667 | 56 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 12 | 15 | 0.254 | 0.466 | 0.28 | -0.128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MainRadiance | 2018/12/20 | I'm a waste of space and I'm sorry I'm still alive. Usually, I'm a strong person. I don't give in to depression very much but lately it has been very hard to actually live. The past few years, I dealt with it and I was fine. I even joked about how suicidal and depressed I am however, this is no laughing matter anymore.... | 0.646894 | 2.74451 | 2.487064 | 93.974 | 84.021277 | 5.121702 | 20.038298 | 6.360717 | 0.049616 | 867 | 25 | 193 | 8 | 25 | 287 | 129 | 235 | 0.328 | 0.57 | 0.102 | -0.9973 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 40 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 22 | 24 | 3 | 36 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 21 | 118 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.082928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141909 | 0.051803 | 0 | 0.072311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.560076 | 0.219219 | 0.17522 | 0.146386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168385 | 0 | 0.214797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235687 | 0 | 0.08152 | 0.096592 | 0.071277 | 0.067966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05696 | 0 | 0 | 0.084404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060024 | 0.041517 | 0 | 0.225116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06247 | 0 | 0 | 0.082074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081123 | 0 | 0.074201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077362 | 0 | 0 | 0.08723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095128 | 0.060149 | 0 | 0.067865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097672 | 0.241652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093593 | 0.140234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092912 | 0 | 0.109448 |
suicidewatch | SwishBishhh | 2018/12/20 | I need help. The last place I’d expect to find an open ear is on the internet but I’ve got issues I can’t tell my friends because they’re too embarrassing, I need someone to speak to someone that won’t judge, I nearly ended my life yesterday and I swear I’m so close to ending it again some time this week, I’ve written ... | 0.919527 | 2.480103 | 3.030672 | 93.223221 | 80.268657 | 5.660697 | 20.868159 | 6.427356 | 0.119231 | 477 | 13 | 111 | 4 | 12 | 162 | 86 | 134 | 0.058 | 0.83 | 0.112 | 0.8442 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 60 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100995 | 0 | 0.140978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138401 | 0 | 0.44022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18149 | 0.151425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128001 | 0 | 0.086559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117022 | 0.080941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140852 | 0.149529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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