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0 | 1000% my phone and doomscrolling Life doesn't feel great right now. People around me are progressing with their lives, moving into flats, having fun with friends and just generally growing as people. I (26m), on the other hand, am just stagnating. A dead-end job that I don't like, hobbies that I put down so frequently they're barely even hobbies and a social/love life that has barely changed for almost 7 years. I'm frankly embarrassed at myself. Doomscrolling on FB and dating apps only succeeds in making me feel worse about myself, thanks to the bigotry and constant comparison to others. I should delete the likes of FB and Tinder for the sake of my own mental health, but they just keep sucking me back in... | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | Not Mentioned | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
1 | Alcohol and nicotine addiction in teens. Haven’t been the nicotine route, but alcohol yes. Kids will find ways to get it if they want it, and it absolutely ruined my life when I was 16-17. If you try to speak up about it, people just give you the “you’re not an addict if you drink once a month” and think you’re exaggerating when you say you drink every day. I’ve ruined so many things from it and I’m recovered, I’m doing well, but if you mention it, people just give you the “you’re a teenager stop trying to act cool” thing. Yeah, my stomach, long term relationship, and me, have almost been killed from it but yeah I’m just trying to be cool and quirky. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Social Influence | Not Mentioned | 4 | 4 | 4 | train |
3 | Any kind of food addiction (sugar, carbs, chocolate, caffeine, or just food in general) tends not to be taken seriously. Mention that you're a chocolate addict, and a lot of people will laugh and say they are too, when all they mean is they enjoy chocolate. If they're not joking about it, then they think it's not actual addiction but just lack of self-control. I heard one especially unpleasant person say food and sweets addiction isn't real because "I never see (insert slur for people with a high BMI) having withdrawals because they can't get their bonbons." Wanna bet? I"ve had shakes, sweats, stomach cramps, and the whole bit just from not having chocolate for a week. My husband gets serious headaches if he stops drinking caffeine. These sound like real addictions to me. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 3 | 3 | train |
4 | Anything that operates like a blind loot box kind of thing. Japan has tons of these, like when you buy little boxes that could have one of five figurines that you really want. You end up buying like 20 of those boxes just so you can by chance complete the whole set, or even just get the *one* figurine you actually want. By extension, playable card games (looking at you Pokemon) that offer blind booster packs. It's all basically light-form gambling, and people will legit spend hundreds of dollars on hundreds of packs just to by chance get that *one* special card. There is definitely a dopamine chase in opening packs in search of that big payoff. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
5 | As an addict, everything. The addictions I'm currently trying to replace are coffee, cannabis, screen entertainment, alcohol, dairy, meat and sugary snacks. I'm not a normal person who's smoked a joint enjoying a cheese burger with a glass of wine followed by an espresso and dessert while watching a Netflix. I'm a jittery anxious likely lactose intolerant vegetarian valued nightmare who's overthinking from the joint why I'm even watching Netflix when I have work to do, unable to not finish to Bottle of wine, unable to sleep from the espresso and repeating the same mistakes I've made for the last 10 years. Yet, all the black outs, wasted time, stomach churning anxiety and abuse of these substances, I just want to feel good like everyone else. I'll continue trying to get addicted to my yoga, meditation, books, work, partner and wholesome novel activities Wish me luck | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | An emotionally traumatic event | 3 | 3 | 3 | train |
6 | At least in my country : alcohol. In my country, the wine lobby is probably the strongest there is and the most hardcore, which makes any sort of public policy against alcoholism extremely difficult to implement (such as Dry January). You will be seen as weird if you do not drink, rather than if you drink. People will wonder if you are pregnant or religious. Alcohol is cheap to get and easy to get - even if you are not 17 - so it is very easy to fall down the rabbit hole. Even our presidents and ministers glorify drinking - a few months ago, our president bingedrank beer with a rugby team and everyone was like "so cool" when it definitely isn't. At my former workplace, it was a common occurence for the boss to bring wine at the end of a workday. It took me leaving to realize that drinking everyday with colleagues in order to feel accepted was not normal. I learned, a few years later, that one of the girls who still worked there had finally realized that she was an alcoholic and told the company : the boss STILL brought those damn bottles at work and put the blame on HER if she relapsed, as if she was "ruining the company's spirit" for everyone. She left the company now, but it was honestly so sad... | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 3 | 3 | 2 | train |
7 | Between alcohol and caffeine, I'd say. Caffeine started when I changed from shift work to 9-5, I just couldn't adjust without it. I've cut down hugely though (at most, 1L of Diet Coke a day, down from 2 litres of Lucozade, plus 2 litres of tea/diet coke) Alcohol started around the same time, although it comes in peaks and troughs. I've gone for weeks without drinking before, I stopped thinking about it after the first couple of days. However, I know that I could easily go home tonight and polish of 4 litres of Cider without breaking sweat. Self control isn't my strong point, so I use laziness to combat it. "Hmm, I fancy a beer, but it's all the way over there...eh, I'll be fine without". EDIT: On a more serious note, I can't stop playing Skyrim. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Not Mentioned | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
9 | Calorie counting I measure or weigh every morsel of food and drink that goes into my body. I have measuring cups, spoons and I have to change the battery on my weighing scales every 3 weeks Every single thing I eat and drink is planned in advance and recorded down to the gram. I would say it is an addiction I don't go out to eat because I can never be sure of the calorie content of what I'm eating. I don't eat in other people's houses and only eat what I make. Except for Saturdays. All bets are off on Saturdays and I eat and drink what I want. Down 90 pounds in a year | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 3 | 1 | 1 | train |
10 | Codependency. Its a complicated and deep life long addiction to others. Usually a romantic partner. The person stays despite how dysfunctional or toxic the relationship may be. Or they are gold diggers or someone who simply cant be alone in life. Theres many types of codependency and they are all a type of addiction combined with mental health issues. I think the addiction of codependency has the same dysfunction as drug, alcohol, gambling, hoarding, and other serious life threatening addictions. With professional help one can improve and get away from the trauma cycle and lead a good healthy life and have a healthy relationship. But it takes a lot of work and therapy. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
11 | Coffee. I love love love coffee. My addiction is bad, that if I don't have a cup every day I'll get a headache. I drink decaf coffee too because I just love the taste of coffee. I drink it all day long every day usually stopping before 5? I hate energy drinks and think they are the cigarettes of today's culture. My caffeine intake of choice is coffee. I like espresso too. I prefer espressos black without sugar or cream in them. I usually make a triple shot. I don't understand why people think coffee immediately wakes you up as you sip it. That's false. It takes about 45 minutes to feel the effects of caffeine depending on what you've had to eat. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 1 | train |
12 | Cola, specifically Coke, but I'll drink Pepsi in a pinch. I would absolutely like to kick the habit as it would probably help me drop some extra pounds I've put on in the past few years. I've tried quitting before, but at this point it's become habit to sit down and eat a meal with a glass of Coke, to the point where even when I'm trying not to drink it I'll order one when I go out. I also get a strong urge for some cola after five days without it. I've had a two month stint where I abstained from drinking it, but I had one thinking I was clear of the addiction and fell back into the cycle. It's totally down to just needing the willpower to stop. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 1 | train |
13 | Cracking my goddamn back. Anyone said that yet? I've pulled muscles in my back a couple times now, to where it hurts to move certain ways for the rest of the day and once I had to lay in bed for the rest of the day because it hurt to move at all. I've sworn not to crack my back like that anymore (I was pushing my upper back over my washing machine, pretty stupid) but I still do it I can't stop it FEELS SOO GOOD Edit: I only use my hands and "natural" stretching to crack it now, not pushing my back against an edge using a wall for extra cracks in the spots I can't stretch naturally | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 3 | 2 | 2 | train |
16 | Drugs. I've been on some form of drugs since I was 13. I was eating about 5-10 lortabs a day to start, then moved up to oxycontin. Then after that got pretty bad, I stopped pills, and started drinking heavily, and doing lots of dissasociatives. When I turned 18 I slowed down on the drinking and got into cocaine and then eventually crack for about a year and a half. Then I got totally clean, no alcohol, pot, or anything until I turned 21, and had a few drinks. That turned into an 8 month alcohol and crack binge. I ended up on probation and again got totally clean, for about a year and a half. Probation ended in February, and now I've found myself drinking every day again. I've done about 35 grams of MDMA this year so far, and have probably spent 5 grand on drugs since I've got off probation. It's money I should have spent getting my license back, and doing a few repairs to my car, but I didn't. Drugs aren't fucking cool. Hopefully I won't live long enough to be an aging, homeless drug addict. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | A physically traumatic event | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
17 | E-books Procrastination I have an important test coming up that’ll honestly determine my future/career. This is my fifth retake and my failures stemmed from binge reading e-books and procrastination. My initial plan was to take it by the end of this month, but I know I’m not ready. I tend to say things to make myself believe it’ll happen, when I know I haven’t been putting all of my efforts into it. Now, I’m taking it at the end of next month and while I’m relieved by it, I’m sacrificing another month of studying, making less money (from working 6 days to 3), spending less time with my friends and boyfriend, and my peace of mind. I’m currently on a binge read and I want it to stop. I think my head is fried from reading (13 books this month), so this will be the last one for now. But I know I’ll binge again. Whenever I try to stop, I have the urge to read and give in. I know I have to delete my book apps, but I will go crazy just studying and working. I’m so sick of studying for this damn test, I’ve been doing it for three years. I know I’m procrastinating and my mind tells me that I work better under pressure. But I know the reality of it- I can’t procrastinate for this test. I even considered reading paper backs before bed because in my mind, I believe that it’ll slow me down or tire me out. But I’m scared. I love to read so much, I want to be able to do it without it affecting my life. I don’t know where to begin. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 2 | train |
18 | Food - snacking, overeating, binge eating, stress eating….. I work out every morning but never lose weight bc my body can’t keep up with how much I eat. Every day I try to start over and mentally prepare myself to be normal and not overeat and every single day I let myself down. When I’m not eating I’m thinking about eating and what snacks are around, what I’m going to eat when I get home, etc. I feel like I’m crazy. I’ve made myself physically sick from eating too much yet I still don’t stop. A few years ago I got myself under control and lost a lot of weight, I gained some back and trying to lose again but can’t get back into that healthy mindset at all. I’m definitely addicted to food and it’s so frustrating. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 3 | 2 | 3 | train |
20 | Food. And not just junk food or sugary foods. Food in general. There are a lot of people that compulsively eat, binge eat, or over eat. There are a lot of people that deal with their life issues by getting a dopamine hit off eating the same as some people use drugs, alcohol, gambling, etc. And it is a bitch to keep under control because unlike other addictions, you can’t go cold Turkey on eating and simply never do it again. So recovery is much more like telling a drug addict that every day they must do just enough drugs to not get sick, but never enough drugs to actually get high and enjoy them. No surprise, there is a massive failure rate on staying “food sober”. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
21 | Food. I don't mean like you need to eat to survive, I mean people who just eat for the sake of the flavor and having something in their mouth to chew on. I'm really bad about it but I've taken up fasting to break the mentality of eating all day. A friend of mine is really bad, she'll eat a big breakfast then immediately sit down with a bag of chips or beef jerky and eat that until her giant lunch, then immediately sit down with a bag of candy and eat that until her massive dinner. If you took a picture of her every ten minutes she'd be eating in all of them. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 2 | 3 | 2 | train |
23 | Food... In all seriousness though, food addiction fucking sucks because unlike drugs or alcohol, you actually need to eat to live, you can't just quit food. So anytime I eat I feel like I'm failing and giving into my addiction which makes it extremely easy to develop an eating disorder. I've been trying very hard lately to accept that I don't need to be so full I feel sick after every meal and to also accept that consuming calories is necessary and I'm not giving into my addiction. Every single meal is a struggle to either eat at all or not shovel everything in sight down my throat. Not trying to say drug or alcohol addiction doesn't suck too of course. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 4 | 1 | 2 | train |
24 | Gambling. I am too impulsive, compulsive and completely stupid about it. I just locked myself out of my online gaming site. Fuck it. 3 powerball tickets This Saturday and then I am done forever with gambling. I won $5000 twenty years ago and have been chasing the "next one" ever since. I don't even want to know how much money I have pissed away over the years. The more my job sucks the more I spend. It's just keeping me trapped there. I am rediscovering a couple of simple harmless hobbies reading and wood carving and will be saving every penny until I have X amount and can leave my job. Wish me good luck, I am wishing all of you good luck with quitting whatever is fucking your lives up. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 3 | 3 | 2 | train |
26 | Gaming. My dad has been on disability for most of my life (rightfully, so he is disabled), but he got so bored that he ended up gaming to pass the time. We'd go over every other weekend, and he would spend the whole time at his computer. One weekend, he had a raid in WOW to do, so he paid me $20 to deal with any questions or issues my siblings had and to make food for them. My partner also had a gaming addiction to the point that he would get stressed when he did other things and count down the hours until he could play again. He still plays way too much imo, but has improved enough that he can go to family events or go away and enjoy himself now, and he can pause to do chores, etc. but it is a tough addiction to break.. | Boredom | Boredom | Boredom | Boredom | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
27 | Heroin. I was on opioids, using them correctly, for years. I used marijuana with them and was doing really well and even could use less pain pills than prescribed. But, marijuana wasn’t allowed so when I tested positive for thc they dropped me as a patient. The pain was still present though and I didn’t know what to do. I was then introduced to a guy who told me he could get condensed pain medicine and it was much cheaper than looking for Percocet on the street so I did it. I didn’t know it was heroin. But that’s what it was and it ruined my life. I was a teacher, married with a home, baby, dog and everything was looking up. Then when I got dropped things fell real fast and now I am divorced, renting a room, no dog, and very limited time with my daughter. | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
28 | Heroin. When I was 18 my younger brother was arrested for a murder he had nothing at all to do with. We never had our father around and living in a bad area i felt sort of responsible in a way to look out for him,so when this happened it hit me pretty bad. About 2 months into him being in jail (he was 16 so he was sent to a maximum security prison with Australia's worst juvenile offenders) i tried Heroin for the first time,I never liked it the very first time but the second time i loved it.It completely wiped out every trouble i had and i felt content while it lasted.For about 7-8 more months i kept using on and off but hid it from my family (for obvious reasons). After 9 months in prison my brother was released after his first committal hearing where the judge pretty much berated the police from arresting him in the first place as the evidence against him was no where near substantial enough to arrest him let alone get a conviction.My addiction by that time was way too overpowering to just quit and ive dealt with the addiction for almost 10 years.Only recently have i had any luck in dealing with this devil and have now been clean for about 13 months give or take a few weeks.Its been a rough ride and im lucky to be alive Edit:Thanks for all kind words! They do mean a lot to know that you care. I have a beautiful girlfriend who means the world to me and has been a big part of me doing this, I also have 2 young nieces who mean the world to me and do not deserve their uncle to be an addict and a beautiful mother who never gave up on me. To the people who are going through it,It gets a lot easier with each passing day,just never forget why you are doing it and try to remember who you were and who you are now and if you really want to be that person anymore. Surround yourself with family and loved ones and actively keep away from all temptations e.g Drug areas,drug "friends",and even just being alone on pay day. Added some spaces and paragraphs,im new to this stuff lol | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
30 | Honestly? Food. I gave up alcohol, I’ve had one hell of a struggle with nicotine that I haven’t totally won yet, and I smoke weed every single day (med patient). But those I at least can be mindful and aware of. I was really overweight (I was still sexy af; I like thicc ppl) until I got diagnosed with adhd and started Adderall; it’s the only reason I’m down to a “normal” weight now (155 lbs.—I was 280 lbs at my heaviest). But I don’t think I’ll ever have just a casual relationship with food. The best way I can manage my binge eating tendencies is by loving and respecting food enough to not abuse it like a drug (plus Adderall). I work in food service and always seem to gravitate back (I have over 10 years barista experience and that has made finding barista work easier and easier as I’ve gotten older; I also bake), it’s what makes me happy, and it’s what I’m good at. But I won’t pretend that it’s not a very real addiction of mine. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
31 | I always need something in my mouth. Whether it's my ecig, a cigarette, smoking weed, drinks, food, even biting the skin inside of my mouth, my mouth constantly needs to be moving. I guess it started when I was little I can't remember I day in my life not biting in skin in my mouth. Then of course smoking didn't help the problem. Especially when I'm playing video games I cannot for the life of me just game, always need my mouth to be doing something. On a side note I can't chew gum. I chew for ten minutes then spit it out and crave a new piece five minutes later. Fuck gum | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 2 | 3 | 2 | train |
34 | I am the same way, I store my Grocery bags, Walmart bags, Birthday/Gift bags, shoe boxes, etc.... have clothes I've gotten from yard sales taking up space in closets, books I told myself I'd read on my bookshelf collecting dust. I can go into a store for a particular item and end up coming out with stuff I don't really need just got it cause it was cute, on sale or it simply just catches my eye and as you said that fear of needing it and really don't verses that ooohh I dont have this and now it's all stored away somewhere just in the way.. I also have an addiction with budgeting now that might not be all of an addiction problem but I will spend spend spend until I can't spend no more no matter how much it cost, be out of money get paid again and be right back at it... 🫣🤦🏽 | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Not Mentioned | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
39 | I used to have a crippling porn addiction as a child from 7 to 14, and on and off from 14 -16. Stemmed from childhood neglect, continued because of untreated (at the time undiagnosed) anxiety and adhd and strict parents(with boughts of neglect) that taught me to be sneaky. Luckily, when my dad and mom divorced and I went with my dad, he slowly helped me realize how dangerously I was acting (especially in online roleplay) I'm clean as of age 17, currently I'm 19, now I still enjoy porn but I don't even look at it more than twice a week besides commissions or drawings/studies. In less than a week I'm going to uni and I still can't believe less than 4 years ago I would skip weeks at a time with no intention to graduate just to fuel my addiction. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
40 | I'm addicted to addictions. I have to be addicted to something it seems, but I can easily break an addiction as long as I replace it with something else (which is good, because I can easily break an unhealthy addiction and replace it with a healthy one.) I've been addicted to: fatty / unhealthy food, video games (many many times,) smoking, electronic cigarettes, eating healthy, working out, exercising, sex, and reading random things on the internet (reddit.) That's just to name some of the things I've been addicted to. Needless to say my body shape has changed dramatically over the years, going from weighing 310 lbs at my worst to weighing 185 lbs and being completely ripped at my best. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 3 | 3 | 3 | train |
41 | I'm addicted to completing projects/collections. If I have a pending job at work, or project at home (eg. landscaping, painting, etc.), I literally cannot sleep until I finish it. I've made my family late, missed important moments, etc. because I cannot stop working on said project until it is completed in full. For instance: I put my car up on a jack stand a few weeks ago just to look under the car and see what it was going to take to install my new suspension. Then I decided to loosen a few bolts. Once that happened around 9:30pm, I stayed up until almost 3am (went to bed at 4am) and finished a complete coilover installation on my car. I just couldn't stop. I'm also a wedding photographer. I have delivered images to clients in less than 48 hours because I cannot sit still with pending items on my to-do list. I just can't stop myself. When I started photography, I also had to complete a whole slew of lenses - my lens collection - to feel okay about things. Took me almost 2 years, but I finally feel good about it. And with regards to my car? I can't stop daydreaming about all the stuff I'm going to do to it. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 1 | 2 | 2 | train |
42 | Information. News, sports, blog posts, social media, scientific facts, etc. Simply reading the Sunday paper or visiting Reddit daily isn't an addiction, but it becomes one when it starts to interfere with other parts of your life, and it has for me. When I'm walking down the street, my phone is out. Work or class, laptop. At home, every screen in the house. It gets to the point where information from the internet starts to crowd out information in the physical world. Instead of listening to a friend, boss, or lecturer speak I prefer to read up on the latest scores. Whenever I should be paying attention to what is in front of me, I'm paying attention to the frontpage of Reddit. And what is an addiction without withdrawal symptoms? When I'm locked out of my constant stream of information, I get restless and agitated. Focusing all that attention on the physical world is impossible, everything moves too slow, and it feels like nothing is happening. My heart starts to race, and my attention jumps around constantly from object to object. Time seems to drag on forever. At night, it is hard to sleep, and I sometimes get audio hallucinations from trying to create stimulation out of blank nothingness. It isn't as devastating to a body or mind as a drug, but it can have a huge affect on your life because it is *always* present. An alcoholic can't drink at work without getting fired, a drug addict can't pop pills or shoot in class, but I'm just a few clicks away from my information almost anywhere on the planet. Also, coffee. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
43 | Knitting. I had what they think was a micro stroke when I was 38. I was dizzy and way off balance for months. My ability to dive heads first into any book and not come out until it was done, was lost. My ability to watch tv before was pretty low, now it is nonexistent. Movies I love, but Binging on trilogies/ series, the urge, gone. Working out, I lost that desire. I loved to write, words spilled from my brain onto paper like a verbal vomit. Gone. I also lost part of my hearing, so LOUD VENUES ARE A PITA. Imaging looking at your favorite thing to do and go, " meh". And the other half of your brain is going, " are you fucking nuts?!?!?You'd totally Owned That!" I was lost without something that wasn't portable, to keep me busy i went to youtube with some vintage knitting needles and yarn, an 9 Years later, my basement is full of yarn and I have made countless hats, scarves and other things to donate. I don't go anywhere without a project in my purse. Right now , I am working on knitted dish clothes, because everyone loves them. And, I am toiling thru a blanket that will never be finished, ever. I'm not stopping, I'm 15 balls deep into it and 1/3 done.it will weigh more than a volvo when it is complete. I the the history of knitting. The yarn. The knitting patterns ...dear god, patterns are porn. I love the huge charitable side of this craft. I can quit any time. | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
44 | Knitting. Only started a year ago but I literally carry a project with me wherever I go. Perhaps I'm not truly 'addicted' as I can willingly leave it at home, but I never want to. I'd rather knit than spend time with some of my friends sometimes, and I LOVE browsing for new yarn, patterns, etc. I love how now I can spot knits in TV shows and movies, and now I can recreate them! Drawback is that I'm 23, and I get made fun of by non-knitters for being a "granny"...as if I'm wasting my time. (While they play video games or watch TV, harumph.) | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
45 | Marijuana. I know how that sounds when a stoner reads it. My fiancé is in and out of the hospital with no diagnoses recently and I can’t knock the weed. I was smoking everyday, trying to cloud my mind with the smog. I’m trying to smoke every weekend now instead. I feel like the people at my job are against me, and it’s bothering me to no end. Smoking distracts me, and it helps me sleep when I overthink and wonder if my fiancé is going to come home again from the ER empty-handed. They recommend her to a doctor and then they cancel the appointment the day of because of her insurance. I’m tired of watching her lose weight and deteriorate in front me. I’m tired of possibly lying to her and saying I KNOW she’ll be okay. On top of my anxiety and my very violent thoughts I have of my own death (haven’t been suicidal in years) but I still think of myself dying. I have mild ADHD and I’m scared of going to the doctors and getting out on medication that might make my shit so I’ve gone undiagnosed. If I lose her, I’ll lose almost 100% the reason I’m living. We’ve been together for four years in August and I’m so tired of her having to go through this pain. It should be me in the hospital. She’s been through enough in her shitty fucking upbringing and life. Self medicating with the green flower has help me this past year, but I am addicted to MJ and there’s no other way to say it. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 3 | 3 | 4 | train |
46 | Marijuana. I know people say you can't get addicted, and I agree to a certain extent, but I am. It is not physically addictive. That I am positive of. What it is is habit forming and ultimately influences your lifestyle. I started smoking in college and from then on started hanging out with people who smoke regularly. Pretty soon, all my friends were heavy smokers. You fall into the routine and soon enough its as normal as drinking a glass of water in the morning. You no longer feel the 'high' and generally smoke just for the sake of smoking. Honestly I don't want it in my life anymore but I grow now and have a virtually limitless supply. I realize that I can just get rid of it all and my paraphernalia but it feels like chopping a huge chunk out of my life that, for the most part, has been positive. Now that I've graduated and entered the real world, many of my friends have moved on but I can't seem to. Its freaking hard. I tell myself almost daily that I am going to stop but the first think i do when I get home from work is smoke up. I also live in a state where its legal now which is just gona make it harder. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 3 | 3 | 3 | train |
48 | My computer, or my job, I love video games, actually just bought BattleBit Remastered today. I never let my gaming get in the way of the important things in my life. However, I’ll let my job get in the way of things, family dinner, my free time, and a lot of other things. I am a minor so I can’t work a ton but I’ve grown up being taught that I have to work to get money so I can save it for college, and a house, a pet, a car, and so I can financially support a partner/family. So I’ve been on a spree of work for almost a year now because I just need the money. I also enjoy my job. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
50 | Negative thought patterns and speech patterns... working really hard on that. Have even made great progress but when I get sucked back in, guilt consumes me and then I can't trust myself or others- especially because I don't pick up on social cues or hints well and I'm high masking in a lot of social situations... adhd/autistic/trauma/abandonment issues... Im always feeling guilty for something. Doing too much, not enough... i analyze and critique my every breathe. Even if I mean something well in a disagreement, it can come out really weird tone and sound so critical. I have become a bit distant these days because I'm so hyperaware that it's sometimes easier to stay away. I've come along way but but still have miles to go. Trying to be better at being compassionate to myself. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
51 | Nitrous Oxide. I have a family member with a crippling NOS addiction which has landed them in hospital with nerve damage and loss of feeling in their limbs. They suffer from severe ptsd and started using it recreationally with friends while drinking. As their addiction progressed they went from using nangs (multiple tiny canisters) to full tanks. The most fucked thing is that the evil people that sell these drugs are completely legal in their enterprise (at least in Australia). They have services that sell the NOS at all hours and almost anywhere. I pray that one day my family member can make their way through the painful process of trauma therapy to get a fighting chance to fight the addiction, and I hope the companies that sell these drugs will finally be seen for their evil. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | Social Influence | 5 | 4 | 5 | train |
53 | Not sure if overlooked, but masturbation and porn addiction aren't as treated nor are as visible as drugs and alcohol addiction. I've been a consumer of porn since 10, and while thanks to who knows what I haven't lost my critical thinking capabilities (unlike other individuals you read on porn sites or IG posts), I still struggle to stop consumption all together, it really is difficult, but it could be much worse. Watching porn alone doesn't really affect as much, but like any form of entertainment, one needs to approach it maturely and cautiously, for you see, porn movies are comprised not just of beautiful/attractive actors and actresses, but they're comprised of things such as context (teacher and student, doctor and patient, step-dad and step-daughter) and practices/positions that take place within those contexts (fellatio, breastfuck, DP, etc), that will indeed screw with the perception of the consumer. Not only are there these contexts and practices within porn films, but there are forms of (mis)perceiving and (mis)treating one another coming from the characters portrayed by porn actors and actresses as well, which will likely affect the consumer's perception of real life interactions. Some people would probably suggest find a girlfriend as a solution, but that shit ain't okay either cause you wouldn't actually be treating it but rather escape from it by creating another form of dependency. That's all the knowledge I can share for now, because there's more to this rabbit hole, and we would be here all day lol I just wish people didn't treat porn addicts as "creeps" but actually develop a bit of understanding and compassion to save them from losing themselves. When you treat them like shit, you aren't helping (but that's for any addiction). | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 2 | 1 | train |
54 | Oh boy... I've been addicted to a lot of things, because I've been prescribed a lot of things. Zopiclone and codeine were difficult ones, zopiclone gave me a weird bitter taste in my mouth and made everything feel like a dream, it reached a point where I just couldn't function properly in daily life, I always wanted to feel that euphoric "wrapped in a warm, comfy cloud" feeling it gave. Codeine was more destructive, I was only on it for a few months and ended up quitting cold turkey, which was rough, a week of feeling like utter shit and then I was fine, but codeine was a scary one because I was prescribed about 100 or so 50mg (I'm fairly certain it was 50mg) codeine pills for pain (long story), and I'd take two 3 times a day (I think? It was a long time ago), after the first few days, it just wasn't doing anything, and I'd read online that it would take a lot to overdose on them, so I upped it to 3 each time. After the first week, I was taking 4 at a time, and it made me feel so happy and safe, so unbelievably comfortable. After I eventually ran out, the withdrawal hit and it was bad, really bad, that kind of "I would kill everyone in a room with my bare hands just to get one more pill" bad. I started considering doing cold water extractions and just stopped for a moment and thought "what am I becoming?", decided to quit cold turkey. There's more but the absolute worst one that I'm still addicted to is nicotine. Started smoking really young, have never been able to stop. I use a vape now and have been gradually reducing the nicotine over many years, but god damn is nicotine addiction brutal. The withdrawal from nicotine, imo is far, far worse than every other drug I've ever been addicted to. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
58 | Phentermine off and on for a few years now. As a woman who has been a few pounds overweight her whole life, this drug is definitely too good to be true. But I'm not going to deny that I shouldn't take it anymore due to potential health issues. I usually go 3-6 months on then 3-6 months off the medication, but I can still tell it is affecting my health. I'm currently attempting to wean myself off of it slowly and starting an exercise routine and better eating habits, but damn it's hard when you can just take a pill that will make you not as hungry + give you more energy. | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | 3 | 4 | 3 | train |
60 | Porn, & masturbation. Easily 3 times a day most days, if not more. I used to think it was because I had a high sex drive, but even when I was sleeping with this girl, who is extremely hot, & also has a high sex drive, didn't cut it for me. There are times when we would have sex, & even though it would be absolutely amazing, hot steamy, sweaty sex, 30 minutes later I'm already thinking about the next kind of clip I'm going to pull up. And it's not like I don't know the difference between porn & actual human connection either, I know it's all fantasy, but it's just so easily accessible & it doesn't impact me in my day to day life. I just genuinely enjoy it, & what's worse is that I feel no guilt for it. That's when I new I was addicted. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 2 | 1 | train |
61 | Porn, most people don’t think they are addicted to it. But subtly they will discover new fetishes and kinks as a result of too much porn consumption up until the point they struggle to get an erection with their partners or fetishise a certain group to the point that they only want to date or be with that group. Masterbation addiction will come with it too, meaning they won’t be able to even fall asleep until they beat their meat. It’s a downward spiral where perceptions of beauty also get altered, as now that cute girl down the road isn’t good enough because she doesn’t have large breasts like their favourite pornstars. I think it mainly affects adolescents and 40 year old plus lonely men, but it’s sad to see nevertheless | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
62 | Porn. Or just plainly stimulating my mind. It used to be worse but I started limiting and then saying "No you don't" Still have some tabs open in chrome lmao but I don't watch them. It's like this little mental note for me in the background. It drops my energy so much after constant use and well I see the affect it has on other aspects of life yet I still want to see a little just a little until it consumes me. Initially I thought it was sexual frustration but given that it's been a pass time for the past 13 years then its tough. Not to mention having a girlfriend I very much have fond feelings for that I have fun with, a huge relief that I can still turn on for her. Fluctuated in intensity as to how much I saw it. Sometimes once a month. Other times the whole day. Some very weird times before sports Practice or immediately after getting home from school. Go on Instagram, see a girl with barely nothing on and immediately think of porn. I get that's how the algorithm goes and sex sells but jesus. Deleted everything that would be a "trigger". Still kinda have the issue of bumping into the occasional "Just a peek" thought. Lewd pictures, lewd YouTube thumbnails. Just wow. Taking steps, the right steps, to get this addiction out for sure. Gym everyday, help out the family, spend time doing my career, attending to my animals, working on mechanics, and heck even going on motorcycle rides. Just trying to get rid of that itty bitty tick to want to watch some again. Knocking out an addiction that formed while you were in middle school sure is hard. Life probably would have been easier if I didn't engage in it and instead acted my age and hit on girls. In terms of feedback to not spanking the monkey I feel a little more at ease and with more energy. I wouldn't say confident because I already am but just more happy, having a happy demeanor. But yeah, porn is crack to my brain. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 1 | 2 | 1 | train |
63 | Recently used meth again after a solid year away from it. Im using it more cautiously and not daily but it’s also making me feel extremely guilty & I don’t even allow myself to enjoy the experience. I used to be an iv opioid/speed user and i hit some very low rock bottoms before I got my life back on track. Im stressed at work & I have a lot more to lose now which terrifies me as well. Im hoping I can make some changes that will help me figure out why I’m reaching for that dopamine/serotonin boost the wrong way when I know how risky it is. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
64 | Roleplaying. Not the sex kind, not the foam swords in the woods kind, not even the tabletop kind -- MUDs, online text-based games. There's a genre called RPI (Roleplaying Intensive) which goes way beyond what most people think of when they hear "roleplaying game." It's the only thing I've ever found to come close to a true, immersive roleplaying experience, both because you're not sitting next to your mates and laughing at everything, and because the all-text medium makes it possible to describe and enact literally anything at all instead of being restricted to a set of emotes, animations or game mechanics. It's more akin to participating in an ongoing interactive book. I suppose the closest thing is LARPing, except in text and online. Death is permanent, you express yourself exclusively in writing, your character has to be reviewed and approved by an administrator before you're allowed to play, you may only have one character at a time, and breaking character is generally not allowed. You have to be in character at *all* times, there's no such thing as taking a break from the roleplay to talk about the football game or something. On top of this, it's backed up by robust code for things like combat, crafting and items instead of these having to be imagined and ephemeral like in more freeform types of roleplay, and thus become more real and meaningful. Unfortunately, the genre is in a bit of a slump. It was always extremely niche, having a handful of games most of which peaked at ~50 players online at night. There's only one game left with enough players to function at the moment, but I hate that particular game. Fortunately new ones are being developed, and there's a community working on a modular engine for easy creation of RPIs. I honestly don't know why the genre isn't more popular than it is, because there seems to be no shortage of peope roleplaying on forums and chat rooms even though this seems like such an inferior platform on which to do so. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
71 | Sex. I think a lot of people brush off how bad sex addiction is. It’s ruined every one of my relationships I’ve ever been in. Don’t get me wrong, I understand that there is a self control issue on my part. What I don’t think that anyone realizes is that it consumes you. It’s all I’m able to think about. I feel like everything I do in life revolves around having sex. I almost see it as the only thing that brings me gratification. Its almost ruining my engagement now. I have a history of men in my family that stayed very unfaithful and no matter how happy they were, they always were caught in a situation with other women. I am as happy as I can be with my fiancé but I feel like I’m always looking for the next thing, Not because I feel any negative way towards the woman that I’m with, but just because it’s the only way I understand connection. I could have sex 5x’s a day for the rest of my life but i still crave it more and more after each time. It’s destroying my life. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
72 | Sex. Like yeah it’s fun and a lot of people don’t think it’s that bad, or worse, just think you’re a slut. But it hurts your relationships because as badly as you want to be a good girlfriend, wife, whatever, no matter how much you love them, if they don’t give you enough of your drug, you go get it elsewhere. You don’t want anyone else but you can’t stop and then all you are is a whore. It’s easy to get, and almost everyone supplies it. Even people you’ve known forever, the second you tell them you want it, they give it to you. It won’t kill you, so why would you stop? | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 2 | 1 | train |
73 | Sexual gratification. Sex and masturbation is completely normal and even healthy, but not if it becomes excessive and starts to negatively affect your daily life. Speaking from personal experience, I have depression, anxiety and ADHD, and I used to masturbate and consume porn excessively - sometimes 3+ times a day. After getting diagnosed, medicated and started on cognitive behavioral therapy, I realized I had come to rely on self-pleasure as a dopamine quickfix whenever I was stressed, anxious, sad or bored. With medicine and therapy my libido has become more normal. While I still watch porn and masturbate, it happens like 1-2 times a week at most, rather than 3+ times a day. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 1 | 2 | 2 | train |
76 | Smoking. At the age of 14 I found a mostly full pack of Newports and smoked them with my friends. I thought it was cool. By 15 I was buying a pack a week because a few stores in my city sell them to kids. By 16 I was addicted, I would be lost without at least one cig per day. Same thing happened with drinking. Stores who would sell to me when I was 17 when the drinking age was 21. Before I turned 21 I would need at least a 6 pack at least every two days. I mean I can go for weeks without drinking but it isn't easy and it has gotten me into a lot of trouble a few times. I don't think I can blame the stores for allowing me to fulfill my addictions but I definitely think they are responsible for a lot of kids' addictions. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 3 | 3 | 3 | train |
78 | Snowboarding. It's a tough one to get into. Learning is a bitch. You're constantly falling on your ass. Until that one point where you start linking turns together. Then your skill increases exponentially. That's the first tier of addiction. The end game is your first powder day. It's what's hooked me for good. The feeling is indescribable. It's a bit like surfing, but just more... floaty. Every summer I'm thinking about getting back on the board and every day during the winter I'm looking at the snow forecast trying to project when the best days to go are. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
79 | Social media, it’s not social, it’s toxic. The world is a mess because of the manipulation that social media had opened the door to. When SM first started it was fun, and reasonably low risk (as low risk as the internet can get). Then companies and governments figured out how to exploit the vast swathes of user data, and hyper personal ad & post targeting. On top of this there’s the continual keeping up with the Jonses, the filters that IG applies automatically to all photos you take with it… it’s a huge list of what’s wrong with it, and it’s designed to keep us hooked. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
80 | Social media. It genuinely ruins my disposition and outlook on life, and I am fully aware of this as I sit here on reddit, but I’m also exhausted with a newborn and a toddler and sometimes, the only thing I can do for lack of energy and emotional bandwidth is just scroll, even when I have free time. Don’t get me wrong, I know folks will read too into this. I’m very hands-on with my kids, and my toddler gets zero screen time and is a very happy, sweet, playful child. He brings me books, and he LOVES to ask what things are and what words are what. He’ll come sit next to me and we’ll play with his toys, if he wants me to (sometimes he just wants me there, but not like in his business, lol). It’s the short periods where he’s happily playing by himself and i’ve got the baby that i just sit and turn off because my brain is just… tired. I COULD read. I don’t. I COULD do anything else. I don’t. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Not Mentioned | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
81 | Soda. I grew up with my parents never letting me have it much, if ever. One of the first jobs I had was as a server at a restaurant, and thus, soda was limitless, and I would drink it a LOT when on shift. I then got a job in a shop and would stop at amps to fill up my big gulp (the 100oz one...) in the morning for something like 75 cents and then again at lunch. Then, I would drink a few cans after work. I've cut back a ton after realizing it was a problem for my health, to say the least. Now I only have it when I get fast food. I attempt to drink only water and liquid ivs. atm I drink 32 Oz of water per packet and love it. If I dont drink one for a few days, I can really notice how dehydrated I am. The struggle is real as I've never been the type to be addicted to things but man. Soda has its claws in me badly, and it's so difficult to not drink it when it's so available every day. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 2 | 1 | 1 | train |
82 | Speeding. Cars handle better now than ever before, and aside from a general lack of education in young and urban drivers I see little reason why 90mph shouldn't be standard on certain roads designed for such a purpose Edit: misunderstanding on the part of anyone assuming I do this for a cheap thrill, rather I feel the infrastructure should be modified to allow for a current highway system capable of higher average speed. There are parts of the states that can allow this, but tacking on an additional 30 fatal mph to the same drivers that can't flow at normal speeds is asking for it. This is why I feel there should be a stress on drivers education and defensive driving courses prior to licensure; which, I feel will allow for greater driver awareness and can safely increase speeds to accommodate modern travel. It's no longer 1956, why are the infrastructure components (roads specifically, not to leave trains out) still rockin' it with the population growth as it's been? No socialist-style work program intended here just some of the things I think about when I get my opinion of the speed limit here [7] | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | 3 | 4 | 4 | train |
86 | Television. During summer vacation when I would be home all day, I could watch up to 12 hours of televisions a day, and those would just be reruns of things I've watched before. So that's not accounting for any new shows I watched or any shows I watched on my computer. So I would literally spend more than half the day watching TV. I've always watched TV since I was a child and watching shows like the Simpsons, Family Guy or other sitcom where the husband is a slob who's always watching TV sort of influenced me to do watch more. They watched TV and were funny so I wanted to be like that. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
87 | That actually may sound weird but I have a psychological addiction of planning. It’s not like smoking or drinking alcohol which are for most of the people are physical addictions (people that smoke most of their life aren’t only psychologically dependent on it but also physically they can’t feel good without nicotine). I tend to write instructions for everything I am going to do. I am pretty sure it’s some way of procrastination because by sitting and thinking of a “perfect plan” how to do some task even if it’s a very small one, I start the action later. I do understand it that sometimes it’s just a waste of time but I feel so uncomfortable if I start doing something without planning the steps beforehand. I am not sure if it’s an addiction in the classical definition of that word but if defining addiction as something a person depends on, planning is indeed an addiction of mine :( | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Achievement and perfectionism | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
88 | The fucking internet. The first thing I do in the morning is grabbing my smartphone and check mails/news/reddit. And it's the last thing I do in the evening. And a hundred times inbetween. It's insane. I don't even have that many friends to have the urge to stay online all the time. I'm just addicted to being up to date all the time. On an intellectual level I realize that I need to put that phone away more often. To be productive instead. But I just can't do it. :/ Obligatory ~~edit~~ Captain's Log, supplemental: My most upvoted comment is about my stupid addiction. Great. Well anyway, kids, try to stay away from your phones and tablets and computers for a while. Leave them in another room while you're sleeping so that they aren't in reach first thing in the morning. I'll try that too. Tomorrow I'll buy an alarm clock (I used my phone for that until now) and leave the phone in the living room. And hopefully won't fall asleep in the living room. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
89 | The internet. I use it as a way to disengage from the world, or if my responsibilities get too overwhelming. I put a lot of pressure on myself to work all of the time, and always be producing and so when it gets to the point that I can't even chose what I need to do next, I just disengage and surf the internet for hours on end. Then I'd feel guilty about it, so I use the internet to dull that pain. By then 6 hours would had passed and I would had achieved nothing that day, and I feel even worse. Although, before the internet that addiction was to television, so I think it's just that I'm addicted to passive entertainment. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 1 | 2 | 1 | train |
91 | The one I always go back to, especially with my generation (the young adults between older teen and mid 20s) is social media. The entire design is to keep you scrolling and engaged and to translate that engagement into information, which feeds what you see as well as the pockets of the owners of your app of choice. Want a documentary that will blow your mind? Watch the Social Dilemma on Netflix. They have a bunch of former Silicon Valley higher ups talking about how they built social media to be addictive as well as how much it scares them. I believe one of the guys who founded pinterest said, in the documentary, that he doesn't allow his kids to use social media because he was behind the scenes and knows the harm it does Edit: spelling | Pleasure | Pleasure | Social Influence | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 1 | train |
92 | This is a weird one. It's kind of an OCD thing apparently. But it's skin picking or dermotillomania. I pick my face til it's raw. I get infections. I want to stop. I am in therapy and on medication. My husband is a God damn Saint for still loving me as much as the day he met me. Anyway yeah OCD isn't a cute thing where you clean too much. It's a whole slew of compulsive behaviors which you need to do else you feel extreme anxiety or think something bad will happen. I really hope I can overcome this soon. I want to get a job, currently a SAHM. People just aren't very understanding when you constantly look like you have a massive infected face rash. That combined with me being the only one able to watch my young kids and it's a combination that'll probably have me unemployed for a while. It sucks. I really and truly don't want to be like this. I have things I'm supposed to redirect with and I straight up forget and before I know it I'm at the Dr again with another infection. It's painful. It's embarrassing. It's stupid I feel literally so stupid. Wish me luck fam. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 3 | 2 | 3 | train |
93 | Transexual porn. I had at least 3 real life occasions to have sex with trans women without anyone of my entourage knowing but I'm not even into it when the actual thought about performing it pass by, I wouldn't even do anal sex with a regular woman. On porn sites thought? I don't know what it is, but it turns my freaking brain on for at least a minute. Porn addicition is really a fuck'd up thing, since I've finally decided to stop watching any porn anymore, my confidence and actual sexual desires went through the roof and I'd suggest anyone who use porn at least weekly to try to stop it for a solid month or so to see the potential positive effects. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 2 | 1 | train |
94 | Usually virtual online games or communities. Stupid shit, most from YEARS ago, but nonetheless took up an unhealthy amount of my time. I don't want to name anything, but, what consistently has caused me to break the habit was, sadly enough, too much change in the games or the community... Too much stuff being added, too much stuff being taken away... This is why I generally avoid mass multiplayer games online or virtual chatting communities... Despite the fact that I've outgrown them both.. I've come to the sad realization that I miraculously was able to break habits due to things out of my control... | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 1 | 2 | 1 | train |
95 | Very few people know about my nasal spray addiction. But it’s so real. And up until I really researched more about it online, I didn’t think it was that big of a deal. Apparently, it’s quite common! I’d say I’ve been hooked since my early 20’s. I’m 38 now. It all started with a bad flu/sinus infection and I was almost delirious and losing my mind because I could not breathe at night to get one moment of sleep. I also battle allergies and have battled my entire life, I have always had nasal issues. When I get sick, like a simple cold for example - stuffy nose/sinus pressure plagues me to the point where I can’t function in my daily life. Long story short, here I am. Still addicted. It’s incredibly hard to wean off because the feeling of being able to breathe freely and sleep undisturbed… there’s nothing that can match it, there’s nothing that works on the same level. | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 3 | train |
96 | Video games. Always have been a huge games my entire life. I'm too young to have been around the classics like Atari and all those (have played a few Atari games) but I started when I was maybe 4 or 5. I'm 18 now. Whenever I get a new game I get visibly excited and it's all I can talk about. I completed the Mass Effect trilogy in less than a week because I'd play it for hours on end. I'll draw game character, write game quotes, watch mod videos. I realized it was bad when I was relieved that one of my boyfriends broke up with me, because that meant I could play more games without distractions. I plan to get a game-related tattoo. A dragon on my shoulder, with Spyro's colors. Because I grew up on Spyro, and also Tomb Raider. You won't meet a bigger Tomb Raider fan than me. I do nails too, and lots of my manicures are based off a game. I like video games. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 1 | train |
99 | Water. I tried to quit for a week and I almost died I had to go to the hospital and they explained this is the one thing nobody can quit and survive. But I tried the next week anyways and I had to go to the hospital again and at that point I started to suspect the doctors weren’t trying to trick me. But like y would they do that lol? Sounds like an obvious reverse psychology trick so now here in an on day 3 still going strong and I think this time I’m in really going to make it as long as the doctors don’t get to me and try to trick me again. I feel okay | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 1 | 3 | 1 | train |
100 | We have become so addicted to our phones. The thought of not having it gives people anxiety attacks, and I'm not talking about people who need their phones for work. I drove 15 minutes away from home, running late, I realized I didn't have my phone. I got off the highway and headed back home to get it. As long as I knew it was with me and charged, I was and am happy. Some of us have our whole lives on our phones. I love to talk, and I yell and talk for a living, and I'm a people person. I'm okay with talking on the phone. I hear a lot of people say, "When my phone I panic. It's funny. They were originally designed to talk on. Most people have phones, people have gotten hurt, taken off top of the earth, and put in it over phones. It seems normal. It's definitely not. It's fun. Funny. Educational. Scary. Harmful. A door to your children. A door to you. To Bully. To support. Make money. Or to ramble on. Kinda sounds like a second life. I hurt my brain. Ouch. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
101 | Weed and my phone. I can’t go to bed now without taking at least 10 hits, I’m trying so hard to quit. I had to stop for a little less than a week last year since I couldn’t take weed on a cruise, the second night was brutal. Had a horrible cold sweat, I couldn’t sleep, I was shaking, and I just had to lay there and wait for it to pass… it felt horrible. The cruise was 4 days and I didn’t smoke once. I felt like a fucking addict when I got home I was rummaging through my shit looking for my pen…. I hate it . I’ve talked to doctors who sadly have told me “weed isn’t something bad to get addicted to” yeah. Okay. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 3 | 2 | 3 | train |
103 | Weed. Feeling like I need to be perpetually stoned is bad. Been addicted for 7 years from wake n bake to bedtime joint since i was 16 not going more than 3 days without. I quit 2 days ago and have been drinking to avoid going and buying more weed. I smoked to eat ,sleep and subdue anxiety and now im really struggling to do any of those at all without it, but im done. I feel like im stuck halfway as the person I was when I first got addicted and I need to grow up so i can fix my life and stop being lonely. | Pleasure | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 3 | 3 | train |
104 | Weeed. Ouid. Ganja. Reefer. Devils lettuce. I stopped smoking for three / four years. Man. I. Was. Sober. Not anymore I just can’t help it. Love the way it makes me feel. I love that high feeling. But I HATE that I’m not my usual self high. I’m not lazy like how they portrait stoners. I’m the get up and go get shit done type. But when I smoke all I can think about is smoking. I just hate that I rather smoke herb at 5am and play Zelda than hitting the gym. Tbh I only go to the gym maybe once or twice a week now. But I think I’m in a time of rest. I think we need to listen to our bodies and hey if it’s a time to smoke weed, rest and play video games I’m not gonna deny myself that pleasure. I’ll be back in the gym doing my classic 5am gym selfies. I’ll be back making my breakfast smoothie and taking my dog for a walk and being done by 9am again. But for now I’ll happily light my joint and enjoy the high. (Ps I lazily take my dog out for walkies after work now and enjoy a couple hits right before). | Pleasure | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 3 | 3 | train |
105 | While many addictions are well-known and recognized, there are some that can be easily overlooked. One addiction that is often overlooked is "work addiction" or "workaholism." Work addiction is characterized by an excessive preoccupation with work, an inability to detach from work-related activities, and an intense drive to constantly work and achieve. Work addiction can have negative effects on an individual's physical and mental health, relationships, and overall well-being. It can lead to chronic stress, burnout, neglect of personal and social life, and a diminished sense of self-worth tied solely to work performance. Due to societal expectations and a culture that often values productivity and achievement, work addiction can go unnoticed or even be glorified. It may be seen as a positive trait, but in reality, it can have detrimental consequences. It's important to recognize the signs of work addiction and prioritize a healthy work-life balance. Seeking support from professionals, such as therapists or counselors, can be beneficial in addressing and managing work addiction if it is affecting one's life negatively. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 2 | 1 | 2 | train |
106 | Work - I am a paramedic and I become addicted to my profession.. this is both a good and bad thing. I need to have all of the other things in my life running well to be able to do my job as it is physically, mentally, and emotionally tiring.. I'm in a role out in a rural and remote location which is what I specialise in...I am working alone for two weeks out at this location and I am on call at night... It's a lot to be responsible for when I think about it.. Assuming the responsibility of someone's life... Tbh I'm not sure how I do this, but I just do, and have been for the last 13 years. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
108 | Working out. It's positive in that I can keep a great-looking and healthy body. The negative aspect is that if I don't workout for anymore than 1 day in a row (meaning I skip more than one day for work outs) I feel like some sort of giant fucking failure. I feel like my body is worthless and I've lost so much muscle mass. These are irrational assumptions, I know, but I can't help but want to fucking yell at myself for being some sort of giant loser that can't keep a consistent workout routine. I'm pretty sure it's some kind of insecurity or some self-esteem issues. But hey, muscles! :D | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 2 | 1 | 2 | train |
109 | a lot of people seem to know about porn addictions, but from what i’ve encountered during my time on the internet, a lot of people don’t quite comprehend the gravity of it. just like a high from a drug, you’re going to keep chasing and chasing that same high and (provided the addiction goes untreated/unnoticed) in some cases seek out extreme or even illegal content. it’s also been observed that people (men specifically were observed in most cases but anyone can develop a porn addiction) with porn addictions pull away from their partner emotionally and develop secretive or even depressive tendencies. it also drastically alters the satisfaction you receive from sex because of just how unrealistic and overproduced the majority of porn is. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
111 | gum. my boyfriend used to try to tell me I was addicted and I was always like "Oh ha ha, I am not." then one day at work, I had just eaten lunch and had no gum, and was freaking out about it. I was like, "okay, I have to get gum, ohmygod I have to get some, where can I get some? oh god..." that's when I realized I was actually addicted. I feel like since it's cheap, sugar free, and helps me not crave desserts after meals, it's not a bad addiction. Also someone in dental school once told me chewing sugar free gum after eating is one of the best things you can do for your teeth. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 1 | train |
116 | Self harm Cw: vent ab sh :p I think about it every day. Along with every thought that goes through my head i think about hurting myself in some way. Some times I'll go weeks where every day I will hurt myself usually I cut myself. atp my forearms and the top of my thighs are completely covered in scars and I also have a lot of scars on my stomach and upper arms. Its a crutch that I have been leaning on so much that I honestly don't think I'll be able to stop anytime soon. I never thought when I started that it could get this addictive. Pro tip: if you want to start self harming... Don't 😍 | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
117 | "Let it Go" from the movie *Frozen*. I only heard this song three days ago, because basically all I listen to is sports talk radio and maybe some NWA. I slapped it on youTube because I was like "lemme see why people are going crazy over this song." Fast forward three days later. I heard the song in 20+ languages (the FULL songs, not that multi-language version), I been playing it several times a day, and I can't wait til the 18th so I can order it on Comcast, maybe even buy the DVD. I don't see myself stopping anytime soon. I love the song, but a part of me wishes I NEVER started | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
118 | 31 years old and I'll be turning 32 next month. I'm not sure if you'd call it an addiction, as it's more of a dependence, but I've been on benzodiazepines for depression and anxiety for most of my life now (around the age of 11). Ideally, I'd like to be able to experience life without having to worry about getting my medication before going into excruciating withdrawal but I know this will be very difficult. I'm a little concerned I may actually be on these medications for the rest of my life. I've tried tapering off my Klonopin over a period of time under the supervision of a psychiatrist, but it didn't last long. The panic attacks and the sedative feeling of it made it easy to come back to in the end. I'm also on Prozac as well but haven't tried decreasing my dose under guidance of my physician (I've been on both medications for about 13 years now). I've thought about it but the intense suicidal ideation, paranoia and agitation I feel during withdrawal is enough to give me pause. I'm not quite sure where to go from here but I don't plan on giving up. I know it will be a hell of a fight to eventually live free of these medications but I think it will be worthwhile in the end. I'm working on allowing myself to experience stress more often than fighting against it. So, I have this to say to anyone considering benzodiazepines or any form of SSRIs or MAOIs: be extremely careful and use the utmost discretion. They can and may very well provide relief for those suffering from anxiety disorders and depression, but they also cause a person to develop a sort of muted affect as well as ongoing fatigue in some cases. Everything comes at a price. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 3 | 4 | 4 | train |
119 | A lot of things tbh. One I can list off the top of my head is hurting myself. Not in a physical damaging way like cutting or burning myself and scarring my skin. I ruin my sleep schedule and give myself very little sleep. I make myself hungry and feel the hunger pains in my stomach. When I do eat, I eat junkfood and add more to my weight problem that I try so hard to bring down. I set myself up for failure and take the easy paths, no doubt that I would feel the burn of my actions later on when it counts. I push people away that care about me, and make others hate me because I’m scared of rejection. I hate being lonely, but when people try to get me to open up, I shut myself away from others even more. I’m so young and full of opportunity, yet I indulge in these self destructive behaviors because of my internal hate for myself that no amount of pep talks or therapy or drugs will coax out, because that is just the way I am. I try to be better, but being consistently good all the time is so hard, especially since I am mostly alone in my own head. I don’t tell many other people about my thoughts and “demons” because I don’t want to be called ”overreacting“ or that my struggle and self hate is just a teenager thing, or that it gets better eventually. Things don’t just “get better” by themselves. The universe doesn’t fall into place for you. You have to be the charge to fix things, not what’s around you. And it’s so difficult to do that when you are scared to try new things and fail at it. I think of it as drowning. You can choose to struggle to swim to the surface that feels so far away and risk failure, or you can peacefully sink farther to the bottom and not make a scene as the surface fades away. That’s what addiction is to me, and what I feel about my own addiction of self-sabotage and self destructive behaviors. Did not expect to write that much, whoops. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 4 | 4 | 4 | train |
120 | A sedentary lifestyle. To be clear, I am not fat shaming here, healthy bodies come in all shapes and sizes, but I’ve seen more than a few people that are most certainly addicted to laying around all day and putting pure crap into their bodies. They experience withdrawal just like an addict, and the long term outcome is often the same as well: premature death. I’ve seen people come into the ICU for all sorts of reasons and there are indeed some striking similarities between the people there for substance abuse and the people there because they neglected to put any effort into a healthy lifestyle. It’s alarming how common it is to witness people as young as 40 simply stop getting up to use the bathroom because it’s just too much work in their eyes, and *request* we place a Foley catheter. They don’t need a catheter for any medical reason, but if we don’t place one they’ll just urinate in the bed and call for us to change them each time. Those people don’t leave the hospital alive. If that’s not an addiction idk what is. | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 3 | 3 | 4 | train |
121 | Afrin nasal spray. It used to be rx only. You’re not supposed to use it more than 3 days. I’ve been addicted almost 20 years… since I was teen. My parents are also addicted but not as bad as me. It’s funny but also I need to stop. I had gallbladder surgery the other day and was wheezing when they extubated me (so they say, I wasn’t aware yet) and I woke up with a nebulizer mask on. They questioned if I have undiagnosed asthma or *airway irritation* I don’t have asthma. It’s the nasal spray addiction. This does make me laugh every time though becuase the accuracy https://youtu.be/rD3wWE4F-vA | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | 3 | 3 | 4 | train |
123 | Auctions on Facebook. My mom was addicted for a few years when covid was full blown to replace her gambling addiction. She would spend every cent she had on crap she didn’t need. I snapped when we were out to dinner for my 35th birthday, she refused to turn her phone off for a half hour and proceeded to tell me it’s the only thing that makes her happy. She would bring so much stuff that she “won” to my house, I would just donate it. Now she’s back to gambling and going to food banks (even though she lives alone and doesn’t pay rent) it’s absolutely disgusting | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 1 | 2 | train |
124 | Back when I was 19 to around 22 I was hooked on vicodin and rumplemintz. I was drinking a fifth about every 2 days while I still worked at McDonald's. In that time frame there was barely a time I wasn't sober. I worked at nights and I was a manager so it was pretty easy. I would freshen up my buzz during breaks and my parents were sleeping by the time i got home. Didn't care about shit Something significant happened that really altered my life. I was about to go down the road where vicodins weren't enough anymore. It took me some time to drink again, and definitely don't drink rumplemintz anymore. I developed a fine taste for good tequila and whiskey. I definitely don't get drunk anymore,even somethings when I go out, which isn't often. So yeah. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Pleasure | 3 | 3 | 2 | train |
125 | Being miserable. When I was in school I was picked on a lot and I would withdraw into myself, and I'd actually put effort into being as miserable as I possibly could. Maybe it was a way of screaming for help, but if it was then it went unheard, because nobody ever did come to my aid. It's been about 7 years since I left school, but I still feel as miserable as I did back then. Whenever I feel things are getting good, I start to look for a way out, and then I end up forcing all of that misery back into my life by scraping every piece of opportunity away and leaving myself back at square one. No matter how good things get, I end up choosing to feel miserable. The feeling is pretty addictive. It's safe, because I won't let myself do anything unfamiliar when I feel that way, and I know the scariest thing is my thoughts which I've learnt to cope with. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 4 | 4 | train |
127 | Benzodiazepines. Klonopin and ativan specifically. I've managed to get my daily dosages somewhat stable. Occasionally I'll take a somewhat larger than usual amount. Luckily I'm not constantly ramping up my dosage. And while my tolerance is quite strong (and growing stronger) my present doses are enough to take the edge off, so to speak. My habit started when a psychiatrist prescribed ativan to help me sleep. Soon they were my crutch for coping with a demanding career and gradually every other conceivable source of anxiety. That was a few years ago. Withdrawal is unthinkably awful. There's absolutely no chance i could quit cold turkey (or even taper) and maintain all my professional responsibilities and personal relationships. I would be a wreck. My plan is to save enough money and develop enough streams of passive income to support myself, quit my job, and enroll in inpatient treatment for as long as it takes. Hopefully this will happen sooner rather than later, as I live in constant fear that one day my minimum dosing requirements will outpace my ability to acquire more benzos regularly. Luckily I'll be able to afford a rehab facility somewhere nice and sunny. Who knows, i might even meet someone famous! Until then the very idea of not having my benzos is chilling. | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
128 | Boating. I live for it. It started about 3-4 years ago. I was living in Alabama and decided I wanted a boat. I obsessed over it. I didn't have a lot of money for a boat at the time and didn't want to take a loan out on anything. I found a beat up bow rider with a rotten transom, rotten deck, rotten interior, but with a good trailer/motor. I bought the boat for $1500 and then proceeded to put about another $3k into fixing it up. Coosa(composite) transom so it would never rot again, new fiberglass deck, new upholstery. I bought some of the upholstery and made most of it and took it to a upholstery shop to cover the seats I made. I have since moved to Kansas from Alabama. I now live about 8 miles from the boat ramp for a huge lake. The boat is still nothing to behold, but I can't even explain how excited I get when I get off work early, hook the boat up, and hit the water. There is just something about being on the water on a regular weekday afternoon. Many times I go by myself and just float around or fish. I sit there thinking, people go on vacations to do this and here I am on a Tuesday. I love taking friends fishing. I love taking families out to go tubing, skiing, anything. I am always happy on the water. I can't really explain it, but I am so damn happy on a boat. [Before and after](http://i.imgur.com/2q8Gf81.jpg) | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
129 | Caffeine. It’s so incredibly normalized that nobody ever talks about it. All this hitting snooze 20 times, don’t talk to me before I have coffee, drinking coffee on your day off, jokes about how hard it is to get out of bed isn’t normal. People literally forget what it’s like to be able to just wake and start your day because they’ll start drinking 3 cups of coffee every day from 15 year old. It really is just a net positive to not drink coffee or drink it occasionally like in a situation where you have to push yourself beyond what’s normal. I’m not including people that get like 5 hrs of sleep a night or that work long hrs on manual labor jobs I’m taking about just average people that go into work at 9 every day. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
131 | Comfort of the day to day. What? That can't be an addiction? I'm an incredibly driven person who is happy when I'm learning new stuff, meeting new people, getting stuff done. But the last 1 to 2 years, I'm at a place where little is expected out of me at work so I'm not motivated to do more. I don't have anyone expecting physical greatness out of me, so my diet and gym-going have gone to shit. At the end of the day, the bills are paid, I get just enough social interaction/validation, and maintain the day to day drudgery but it's driving me ***absolutely insane*** because I'm not making any progress towards any real goals and the inability to move beyond a mundane lifestyle that doesn't foster that continuous growth feels like an addiction that I'm struggling mightily to beat. | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | Achievement and perfectionism | 1 | 1 | 1 | train |
132 | Couldn’t wait to say this. Smartphones/Tablets on little kids, ages 5> The amount of dopamine they are exposed to, its absolutely scary how dependent they get to electronics and can’t seem to focus or spend time without it. I’ve seen too many videos of 4 year olds on their ipads in front of their parents EVERYWHERE they go. Definitely going to be one of the leading causes of increase in ADHD amongst new generations. What’s even worse is the parents allowing their kids to become exposed to these types of addictions without knowing the exact consequences. I guarantee their range of focus will come out to be around 5-20 seconds. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Not Mentioned | 2 | 2 | 1 | train |
133 | Drinks. Not alcohol drink (im a muslim, and if it wasnt prohibited i know i would be an alcoholic) but just about everything else. I have substituted food with drinks. I am a college student, (early highschool graduate) and im just about always studying in the library(food is not allowed) if not on reddit or in class. This is how my days are spent with drinking: 1)Coffee before my 8am class. 2) Drink Vitamin Water XXX after class and another two throughout the day (32oz, big bottles) 3) Drink coffee again after 'lunch' which i spend drinking Vitamin Water 4) drink another cup of coffee before my night classes Throughout my day, i drink about 3 large cups of DD Coffee (Light and Sweet) 3 XXX vitamin water (32oz) and many many cups of water. I eat a meal once every two days and i use the bathroom (Numbre Uno) almost every two hours I am very fit if anyone was picturing me as a fat slob. im 5'5 (short, i know) i weigh 150 with an 8% body fat. I run daily and in all aspects i am healthy and fit. I just really *really* prefer drinking rather than eating. Edit: anyone know if this is bad or harmful to the body? | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | Pleasure | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
134 | During the pandemic, when the quarantine started, I was grieving the loss of my father and my sister in law. My partner left and moved out of state to be with someone else. My job offer was canceled because of COVID hiring freeze, but fortunately I was able to get a work from home job contract as I work in IT. So for 15 months I was living in total isolation under heavy stress and loneliness. I got addicted to youtube and specifically reaction channels. The more inane the better. I wanted to not even think about anything and I needed that familiar human face on my screen every day. I just started to detox. I am taking my first trip out of town and spending nearly all my time outdoors, and absolutely no youtube. Trying re wire my brain | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 4 | 4 | 1 | train |
137 | Exercise. Started 3 years ago whilst overweight and depressed. It's helped me quit smoking and a daily pot habit. The endorphin hit is the only "drug" that I've come across so far that makes me genuinely feel fantastic, instead of just blocking things out. If I don't go for a run or do 20 mins or so on the rowing machine I just feel like shit. Just like I look back on the day I managed to finally quit weed, I look back on the first day I went for a run and wonder what the hell made me get off my ass that day and actually start sorting my life out. Fuck am I thankful for it though | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 1 | 2 | 2 | train |
138 | Fanfiction. You might not understand, but I have spent upwards of 10 hours some days just binge reading fanfiction of my favorite shows or video games. My AO3 account is maxed out with followed tags, and my reading list is probably at least 100 items long. Not even kidding, I once binge read a 100k words Bnha story just because I got hooked on the first chapter. What really hit me about this though was when I starting binging on angsty stories because they all reminded me of my own struggle with depression and anxiety. I'm addicted to the idea of having other people that can understand how I used to feel. I don't do the harmful things I used to when I was deep into my depression, but I still struggle with emotional equilibrium and achieving a state of euthymia with my moods. I also recently discovered the Character. Ai website, which is fueling my addiction even more as now I can create my own stories using some of the conventions I've learned through reading so much fanfiction. In fact, I've recently started writing my own stories just to try and use this obsession in a healthy way. But I fear I'm still feeding the, beast, just giving him a new kind of treat now. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 3 | train |
139 | Fentanyl and crack. But fentanyl would make the top of the list. **161 days clean and sober today though.** My sobriety date is **09/15/2023**. I’m 31 years old (turning 32 this year), and this is the longest I’ve been clean since 2013, when I made it 1 year. Since I’ve been 15 years old, when I started drinking and doing powder cocaine— this 5 month sobriety stint and the 1 year I had in 2013 is the only complete abstinence I’ve had from drugs/alcohol. Besides this and that, I never had more than 1 day sober. I truly am blessed to be here completely clean and serene today. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
140 | Food addiction. Being addicted to food and in clear denial about it is a problem. Many people treat food as their therapy. It’s a crutch to help them get a kick of dopamine when they’re stressed and a way of emotional support. Being this dependent on food and feeling like your life will end because you haven’t eaten in over 4 hours and getting panicked over it is not healthy. Stuffing your face to feel less sad is not healthy. Not adressing your trauma and mental issues but instead eating to drown them out is not healthy. And many people call it just being a foodie and enjoying intuitive eating… it’s a real addiction. It’s not fun when food is a fix that you need in order to feel less stressed in life. It’s not fun because it’s an ED, it’s closely linked to depression and the unhealthy effects of it make it even worse for you. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 3 | train |
142 | Gaming. People tend to think of gaming as something that has to do with personality, like he spends most of his time gaming he just doesnt like to go out as much as other people. While this may be true. Gaming can be a Source of escapism and addiction highly damaging. It helps to soothe or hide the feelings of depression and social anxiety cause once you re at it, your life starts to feel like a dream It isolates people, prevents them to actually feel and think and do other things that would better your life. its just so good because while you re gaming the real world doesnt exist | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | Pleasure | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 1 | train |
143 | Heroin and alcohol. I have been clean now for the last 5 months from any substance other than nicotine. Every human seeks comfort through something whether it's the internet, a fuck ton of coffee, hard drugs, or sex. We all want to feel ok and it took me down a road I never could've imagined. I became hooked shortly after my first drink at age 13 and I've never had lengthy sobriety since then. Opiates entered my life when I was 16 or 17 and got a script of vicodin for surgery. Progressively I lost all choicein the matter and was shooting heroin regularly by 21. The last 5 years of my life have been spent floating around jobs, women, parents houses, rehabs etc. It took me losing everything and being totally broken to do something different. I'm living in a halfway house now and my life has really taken on a new meaning. A fuckin miracle has done something for me that I couldn't. Life's fulfilling today and I don't feel a need to overindulge in any one pleasure too much. If there are any struggling alcoholics or addicts out there..check out a 12 step group if you're done. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
144 | Heroin. It is ruining my relationship with my friends and my partner. My partner is quite toxic anyways so I really could care less but I lost a lot of people because of this. My girlfriend (whom is dead) was the person who had given me my first shot and then my grandfather died so I started using a lot often and turned to this I’ve tried countless ways of getting sober. I have ruined my life. I want to become a surgeon but that won’t happen like this. So I’ve decided I need to change. Just haven’t figured it out 100% yet. | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | Social Influence | 5 | 5 | 5 | train |
145 | Honestly opiates especially fentanyl these days when I was in high school i was using prescription opiates until junior year and senior year I was smoking fent pills and shooting heroin in the bathroom at school every day and not many people noticed until one of my teachers pointed out I was nodding off during a test because I had just done a shot maybe 10 minutes before, but until halfway through my senior year nobody suspected anything and I knew atleast 50-100 other kids at my school who were on blues too and I know that Was barely scratching the surface of how bad it really was. It’s much more common especially with kids like 15-25 and most people don’t even see it. | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | Not Mentioned | 5 | 5 | 4 | train |
147 | I am an alcholic. I recently got sober in September 2011. As of today I have been sober for 387 hours. Being is recovery is nuts!! I am 26 years old and I basically have the attitude/maturity of a 20 year old. I pretty much quit maturing at the age of 20 when my addiction sunk its teeth into my head and heart. Before beginning treatment( I did 30 days inpatient, 45 days outpatient rehab) I found out I am also addicted to phenobarbital(it was prescribed by my neurologist for epilepsy). Evidentally I was chemicaly dependant on both phenobarbital and alcohol, which both run off the same receptors of your brain. So, everytime I felt like I was going to have a seizure I could drink a beer and feel better. I knew I was an alcoholic but I had no idea it was because alcohol made me feel the same was as my seizure meds did. I am also addicted to | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 5 | 4 | 4 | train |
148 | I got game-addicted when i was majorly bullied in school for playing games casually a lot. Then i started playing this game called World of Warcraft and yeah... during my heights, i played up to 16-30 hours straight but still never failed a class in school so i had that going for me. It was my ultimate place to escape my wretched life and play and support my virtual friends since i didn't have any real ones. Also my parents whined a lot about not studying for school (i did fail tests and such but never classes in the end so i never understood why they bitched about it so much...) Anyway, when i started college at the age of 19 (i worked for a year in a factory to break my school-years) i started gaming less and starting being more social. Eventually now i have several great friends, do a lot more for school (i follow IT so i have to code a lot and learn new things) and i barely game anymore. TL:DR video game addiction (hours and hours of WoW) cuz of high school bullying, went to college, got more social, overcame video game addiction. | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | An emotionally traumatic event | 2 | 2 | 2 | train |
149 | I had a bad work accident (concussion, right wrist compound fracture and general soreness everywhere) and I got hooked on morphine pills for about about 2 months. When I finally got the metal out of my right wrist, I quit morphine cold turkey. I went through 3 days of hell. I couldn't sleep, had restless legs and continuous thoughts of suicide. Didn't help I was also on anti-depressants. Thank god I had a bunch of weed to calm me down and zone out while watching The Wire, which also helped me not become a drug addict. TL;DR The Wire and weed cured my morphine addiction | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | A physically traumatic event | 5 | 5 | 4 | train |
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Addiction Stories Dataset
Table of Content
Dataset Description
Dataset Summary
The dataset consists of 491 personal addiction stories, where individuals shared details about their addictions, including what they were addicted to, the circumstances that led them to start, and the effects on their lives.
- Curated by: Keren Haruvi, Omri Itzhaki, Ofir Ganor
- Language(s) (NLP): English
Professional Warning
The content in this dataset contains personal addiction stories that may evoke strong emotions. Readers should approach these narratives with sensitivity. If you or someone you know is affected by addiction, please seek support from a mental health professional.
Uses
The dataset was created to understand the factors that lead people to develop addictions and to explore the relationship between the circumstances that trigger addiction and the perceived danger of these addictions. It was motivated by the need to fill a gap in understanding personal addiction experiences from a first-hand perspective, providing insights that can enhance addiction prevention and support strategies.
Languages
The text in the dataset is in English, as spoken by Reddit users on the [r/AskReddit] subreddit, threads titled:
- What is your addiction and how did you get hooked?
- What is your worst addiction
- What is your worst addiction in life right now
- Whats an addiction that people often overlook
- We are all addicted to something. What is yours?
Dataset Structure
Data Fields
example_id: A unique identifier for each instance.text: The text field contains a personal story of an addiction experience.label: The majority vote objective label assigned to the addiction story.annotator1_t1_label: The objective label provided by the first annotator.annotator2_t1_label: The objective label provided by the second annotator.annotator3_t1_label: The objective label provided by the third annotator.annotator1_t2_label: A subjective label provided by the first annotator.annotator2_t2_label: A subjective label provided by the second annotator.annotator3_t2_label: A subjective label provided by the third annotator.split: The dataset split indicating whether the instance belongs to the "train," "eval," or "test" sets.
Data Splits
The data is split into a training, validation and test set:
| Train | Valid | Test | |
|---|---|---|---|
| number of comments | 291 | 50 | 150 |
| average comment length | 154.07 | 144.52 | 144.31 |
Data Collection and Processing
- Dataset gathered from Reddit, focusing on posts related to addiction, such as: “What is your addiction and how did you get hooked?”
- Reddit API utilized to extract 23,372 comments of individuals sharing their addiction stories.
- Comments that were either too long (more than 400 words) or too short (fewer than 105 words) were filtered out.
Annotation
Objective Task
Question: What motivated the writer to start their addiction?
The annotator was instructed to focus on the initial reasons for starting the addiction, rather than the ongoing reasons for continuing it. They were also advised to use common sense to infer motivations from the text while remaining objective and true to the writer's words.
The labels include 7 categories:
- Pleasure: Initiated for enjoyment or fun (e.g., starting video games for enjoyment).
- Achievement and Perfection: Driven by a desire to achieve goals or standards (e.g., weight lifting for a perfect body).
- A Physically Traumatic Event: Began due to managing a physical injury or condition (e.g., painkiller addiction after an accident).
- An Emotionally Traumatic Event: Started due to emotional trauma, whether positive or negative (e.g., alcoholism after a loved one's death).
- Social Influence: Motivated by social factors, such as peer pressure or societal norms (e.g., trying something due to friends' influence).
- Boredom: Started to alleviate boredom or fill free time (e.g., knitting to pass time).
- Not Mentioned: Used when the passage lacks clear motivations or context.
Subjective Task
Question: How dangerous is the addiction?
The annotator was instructed to assess how dangerous the addiction is, defined as posing risks to physical health, mental health, or risky behaviors. Danger can have both short-term and long-term effects, impacting the individual or others. The annotator was also instructed to focus on the addiction itself, regardless of recovery status, and basing the assessment on the user's reported effects, avoiding personal experiences as a basis for labeling.
The labels include 5 possible ordinal values, ranging from 1 (not dangerous at all, e.g., addiction to the smell of eucalyptus) to 5 (life-threatening danger, e.g., addiction to heroin or severe anorexia).
Annotation Process
Annotators were presented with passages in English where individuals share their personal addiction stories, detailing how their addiction began and its impact. Each annotator must answer two questions for each passage:
- What circumstances motivated the writer to start their addiction?
- How dangerous is the addiction?
Annotators were instucted to focus on one addiction mentioned in the passage:
- If a single addiction is discussed, base the answers on that addiction.
- If multiple addictions are mentioned, prioritize the one that the writer elaborates on the most. If no single addiction stands out, choose the most dangerous one based on the definition provided in Question 2.
Annotation Aggregation
Each comment in the dataset was annotated by three different annotators to ensure reliability and robustness in the labeling process.
For the objective task, the label assigned to each comment is determined by a majority vote among the three annotators. This approach allows us to capture the most representative label for each comment, mitigating the impact of individual biases.
For the subjective task, the annotation results in a vector representing the labels provided by all three annotators. This vector reflects the varying perceptions of the annotators regarding the level of danger associated with each addiction story, allowing for a more nuanced understanding of the subjective ratings.
Annotation Distribution
- The dataset exhibits an imbalance in label distribution for the objective task:
| Train | Valid | Test | |
|---|---|---|---|
| A physically traumatic event | 0.07 | 0.02 | 0.07 |
| An emotionally traumatic event | 0.2 | 0.16 | 0.17 |
| Social Influence | 0.1 | 0.1 | 0.11 |
| Achievement and perfectionism | 0.07 | 0.14 | 0.09 |
| Pleasure | 0.23 | 0.28 | 0.21 |
| Boredom | 0.03 | 0.04 | 0.03 |
| Not Mentioned | 0.3 | 0.26 | 0.34 |
- The dataset exhibits an imbalance in label distribution for the subjective task: ±36% of ratings fall into Category 1 (not dangerous), while Category 5 (very dangerous) is the least represented at ±9%.
| Train | Valid | Test | |
|---|---|---|---|
| average score ± SD | 2.5±1.34 | 2.39±1.34 | 2.3±1.24 |
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