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okie dokie my tweoples it been a long day and i have to be in the city by 0 am boooooooooooo good night my lovely lt | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hi i am male i used to have a very emotional side but for the last year or so i am not able to feel sad especially for others sympathy i used to cry when my best friend cried to me about her break up but now i couldn t shed a single tear during my grandfather death i hated the feeling did i stop loving my grandfather even then why didn t i feel sad when i saw my mother cry she is the first person i don t want to see cry off late i feel it s affecting my friendship a well just to be clear it s not a overall numbness i still feel happiness anger and other emotion but this is really frustrating especially when i am getting into a relationship for the first time in my life i keep questioning my love for people i keep asking myself if i can t feel sad for them do i really love them | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
celestechong oh but mine is ceramic so it more ex abit le visible inside one are very ex double the price n double the duration | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i m glad i watched this during the worst depression of my life bc i don t remember a single thing other than that i loved it and i m saving it for a rainy day | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i wish i succeeded those few year ago i wa so close but pussied out and hurt my neck pretty badly i wish i just kept up there for a few more minute then i wouldn t have had to deal with the absolute failure of a person that i am i want to end it i m useless and a horrible piece of shit i ve done some pretty bad shit and no matter how hard i try to fix thing to try and get my life together it just doesn t work i m now physically sick all the time in pain homeless and stuck in a fucking town i wish would burn to the ground i get bullied and mocked by the entire shitty as street i m in for being under a homeless organization for whole year i ve been begging for a house begging and begging asking for this asking for that can i please try and get this house no u can t can i please try and get this house no it all taken i ll never leave this hellhole i ll never get better nothing will ever get better so what s the actual point i m even too lazy to fucking kill myself even though i have the perfect plan grab my rope grab all my pill and favourite alcohol walk to the wood with my favorite stuffie and end it all by the place i felt peace for the first time i ll watch the water of the lake and then i ll finally be at peace and no more pain no more sorrow no more bullshit just nothing but no i m too tired to walk it i m too tired to write a letter i m too fucking tired to do it the reason why i haven t done it i need to take care of my boyfriend i don t care for anyone else because all of them are lying fuck but him i need to stay strong so he get a home so he can live happily but i don t know maybe my death can boost his chance of getting a better life it may hurt now but maybe my death will grab attention to him and then he ll get all the help he need might a well just got ta pick a date | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
im seriously so stuck i developed a horrible case of health anxiety and constantly think something is wrong with my brain or heart i ve been to the er twice now with everything coming back normal i feel bed ridden most day if im up and moving around for too long i feel extremely dizzy due to my tension headache i have high blood pressure and am on medication but i constantly think it s hurting my heart im only year old and i shouldn t be this concerned about my health i m so over feeling this way and every day get worse and worse i feel like i can t do anything but lay down i get sharp pain along my chest due to costochondritis and im always thinking it s the end my breathing is always fine and my heart never beat super rapidly so that make me feel better but the dizziness is unbearable i tried antidepressant and all they did wa make my anxiety worse and my heart beat abnormally fast anytime i stood up my doctor took me off of them and is more focused on my blood pressure im so scared of dying and i m so sick of feeling like this | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
doing some architectural modeling for a change now going smooth so far intuos m is looking very tempting can t get one yet | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
no gym yesteday they have a all new gym so i need a new induction good news is it s booked for wednesday woot | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
so i m have been feeling down rather often the last few year but these last few month im feeling constantly down my life just feel stuck everyday when my alarm ring i just cant get out of bed even tho i usually sleep for hour or so i end up laying in bed for or hour thinking about how shitty my life is and how i dont make progress at all i also get suicidal thought alot even tho i dont have any intention to harm myself in any way i dont want to die but smh my brain doesnt get that so yesterday i decided to finally get help and call my doc for an appointment before making that call i sat there and stared at the number contemplating if i really wanted to do this i made a list and wrote down reason why i want to get help and reason why i dont everything just pointed to me making that call and after hour i finally pressed call so then i wa on the phone with a woman at my doctor office i told her with a kinda shaky voice that i would like an appointment she asked what it wa about and i told her that i felt rather bad lately had trouble sleeping and am feeling tired alot i didnt feel comfortable sharing that i feel depressed she said she doesnt have a free spot in the next few week and told me i should come in without an appointment on thursday or friday so now im here without an appointment contemplating if i should actually go there tomorrow it kinda suck that im in the situation before the phonecall again where i have to make that decision to get help im so nervous about getting help i dont know what i should even say i dont know how to talk about my feeling i dont even know if ill make it out of bed tonorrow before the doctor office close im so afraid about revealing this about me but i dont think i can pull myself out of this without help can someone maybe give me some kind word and share their experience with finally opening up so my anxiety about this come to an ease | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
look at me and tell me why i shouldn t just end it all today and tonight my girlfriend think i m an ugly waste of oxygen who ha no value it s time for me to die | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
heromancer come back to orlando again sooon i couldn t make it to the show sadly | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
look like the first stage of depression for most people wa triggered by mishandling by parent | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
is no longer on google | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my mood change fast and i don t think i am bipolar a it s usually a reason why my mood change and it can all change in a day like i m in a good mood and then like couple hour past and i just get negative thought and i m down again like i already lost people this year my ex best friend who used to be my best friend like year ago and losing him a a friend this year didn t really hurt a it wa my decision to cut him out of my life he wa a real bad narcissist and probably a sociopath so cutting him out felt good the one thing that hurt is losing my sister a we used to be so close but recently she became a lot more social and ha a lot of friend and she doesn t even want to speak to me or spend time with me anymore even though i m the older sibling i m and she s 0 it s just scary how easy people can just leave your life and even though i have a best friend that is good to me and i am talking to a girl but i m just worried it will end a i m just bad with my emotion probably because of my anxiety i m really not sure how i can get better like sometimes i feel great it feel like euphoric even like i m more hyper talkative and confident but it never last long and then i m just back to my usual mood just being sad depressed and anxious i know somethings wrong with me probably i tried cbt therapy for anxiety and depression but it didn t really help me i m on an antidepressant a well which ha never worked on me i just take it a it make me sleep i hate living like this i just want to smoke weed and get drunk so that i can stop all the negative thought and i hate it it feel like my life is a mess it s so much effort to get out of my bed and i just hate my life like wtf sometimes i feel like going to thailand and becoming spiritual or something | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i m in a confused state whether to implement a tab interface in the application currently i m working in | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
working on my lab report that s due 9hr tonight | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i ve suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life i ve also occasionally had some episode that might be derealization but i m not sure once in high school i suddenly got an overwhelming feeling that my boyfriend someone i d known well for year wa unfamiliar to me my heart wa racing and i felt like my grip on reality wa slipping it wa traumatic and i haven t experienced an episode that bad since then i m 0 now but i worry that it could happen again someday for those familiar with derealization have you ever experienced this | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my father is very smart he ha so much achievement in his education and he always graduated top on his class his dream profession wa to become an engineer but because they were poor he wa not able to pursue it back then he would always persuade to become an engineer now i m at college studying engineering but i am struggling to keep up with college whenever i share to them my struggle they just expect me to easily overcome it i cry every night thinking that i am just a failure and a disappointment to my family this ha all started when i wa still in elementary and have been reaching a top in the class i wa introduced to the computer and got hooked by it i basically grew up in high school facing my computer most of the time i would no longer study and just play all night long not knowing the impact it that would cause me today my habit have completely changed i became malnourished my education ha deteriorated and i graduated high school not knowing how to add a simple fraction now i am at college i am struggling to keep up especially math and i have a failing grade we have a programming subject and what i have realized is that i actually feel happy when taking the lesson i have been thinking to change my career instead but i know my family would not agree i have so many thought right now about what ifs but the urge to just end my life is too strong because i know at this point of my life i have no chance to succeed i have been thinking about this for week i have completely lost my faith and motivation i am disappointed in myself knowing if i would continue it would only get worse i ve already prepared everything i m only waiting to actually be able to pull the trigger | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
chauncey hey did u talk to mom r they home yet i hope they r ok wish i wa coming home easter | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
if you ask yourself how am i still awake after only sleeping hour it s stressed about bio exam at 0 so im studying running on a black coffee and a bagel about to make another black coffee to stay warm and depression cry | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
mizzchievouz am sorry to say but it is still in the air | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
yay migraine to round of berlin | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
summer camp or summer school both are boarding lol | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
feeling really cynical about it my life is a fucking mess been two week i don t sleep getting crazier and crazier everyday but don t have any room for taking care of myself because of a 0h week study contest to come and even my weekend being splitted between people i need to see right now just thinking i ll kill myself after all these contest if i don t blow up before then taking rest is a no no i have diagnosed disability that my teacher don t care about dying seem like my only escape and comforting thought | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i m just tired of coming second to finding a partner and not being chosen over someone they say someone is out there for everyone but i don t think so they say don t go looking someone will come find you but i don t think so they say it will fall into your lap when you least expect it but i don t think so these situation have happened but they always fail i m just tired of not being enough | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
some hacked my account on aim now i have to make a new one | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
a hleyf i m spending time with my grandma early tomorrow and i can t leave skittle by herself | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
look like baby is going to be born in pi | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
medfitblondie brain altering mood depression anger no way god bless you | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
oliyoung but that requires assembly assembly is completely overrated tonight this is harder than i thought | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i am year old and i have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depressive problem since i wa i have no one i don t have anyone to talk to when i have a problem my family it s not even that they don t want to help me it s that they don t want to listen to me they have even blamed me for part of their problem my father tried to kill himself over 0 year ago when i wa little and i have always been afraid that he would do it again a few year ago i wa very bad and my father told me that when he saw me like that he wanted to crash the car into a wall how could i share my problem in such a situation i do not have friend i may have had at some point year ago but never particularly close and the one who wa closest to me when he found out about my problem he started to distance himself from me apart from telling many more people what i told him in private i have no one to vent to no family or friend i left my psychologist to whom i paid 0 euro per session because she came to call me selfish for being depressed and not being in the same situation a a beggar a cancer patient or a person from ukraine this last one seemed totally outrageous to me i do not know what to do i m sick all day no one to vent to or talk about anything just my medication that doesn t work for me lately and so with year i can t get any better just survive day to day | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
nobody like me all my friend are asshole and just make fun of me isk if they think it s cool or something but it s really annoying i m thinking of dropping them i m fat and annoying my grandfather in the hospital and my family is a complete mess i have no faith for anything and the only thing keeping me alive is a concert i m not gon na hurt myself just suck being this way yk so much more going on but i only wan na talk about the loneliness right now | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
chhavi working working working | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
seekin for a new job | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
mommy is school closed today | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i need some inspiration before i hit the kitchen tonight | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
sparkly devil hug i m trying really hard to concentrate on the nice dream instead i m sorry you had a bad one too hon | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
it s been a while since i ve had depression episode and i think it ha come back but worse i m the first daughter of immigrant parent therefore i have to be perfect and be an example for my little sister i m falling a class in college and can t seem to get my grade up i can t focus i can t concentrate i stay up until am doing homework and studying but even though i try my best i feel like i m not progressing i don t want my parent to think i m a failure i want to make them proud but i can t find the inspiration to keep going i feel like sh t anxiety haunt me everyday and i just want this to stop i want to talk about how i feel with my mom but i don t want her to have a bad image of me in her head she know i have depression and anxiety since i wa diagnosed but i told her month ago that i wa okay i m not now i know that if i tell her that i feel depressed again she s just going to tell me to keep going my mom is not a bad mom i love her she ha done everything for me but she doesn t show u affection it might been the way she wa raised but i need to her her say that she s here for me or that she love me i can t remember when wa the last time she hugged me or said i love you i don t feel appreciated in this house when i try to be friendly or make a conversation with her it always end up with her being mad i ve gone several time to her room just to hang out with her but it seems that bother her when i try and hug her she tell me to stop i know she ll be very disappointed in me if she discovers i m not doing well in my class she ha criticized me because of what show i watch if i m enjoying a video game too much she ll tell me that s all you know how to do why don t you do something else instead of playing your little game she hate the music i enjoy listening all i want is to have a mom daughter moment but it doesn t happen i ve talked to her about this several time she cried once saying it wa hard for her too and i understand hard i know it s hard having a touched starved mentally unstable daughter that s why i don t want to bother her with my problem when i happen to have a problem with a member of my family aunt uncle or cousin she ll always be on their side it s like she want to please them i don t feel heard im 9 and on my th and 9th birthday i cried i wanted to spend my 9th birthday doing something i wanted and my parent said yes that wa until my step dad changed his mind and choose to visit his sister on my birthday hour away hour city i wa mad i feel like i had the right to my mom told me that i didn t have to come with them that i could stay in the house until they arrived sunday night my birthday wa on sunday i choose to go because i didn t want to spend the day without my family i didn t got to do anything i wanted i wa pretty bummed my mom and stepdad noticed this and yelled at me saying i didn t had to be here that i could ve stayed in the house my mom did bought me a cake and ate it when i arrived home and i wa grateful for that my aunt and uncle noticed how my mom and stepdad acted on the day of my birthday and felt bad for me they told me i should ve stayed with them and they would ve took me to the mall funny how my mom go all the way out for his birthday or my sister birthday i feel like i m a failure to them i m not the perfect daughter they wish they had it s like they just gave up on me at least is how i see it every time i talk to my mom she look at me with an annoyed face when i told her that i m kind of struggling with college she shrugged and told me that it s my fully because i choose this career it s true but i wa looking for some encouraging or caring word i feel what i need is a break im sorry for over sharing but i can t tell this to my friend or sister i don t want to bother or worry them | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hi y all i m currently struggling a lot to do my homework i ve been sitting at my desk for the last probably hour just staring at my laptop and my textbook and i ve barely gotten anything done and the more i think about everything i have to get done the more anxious and overwhelmed i get and the le i can do and it s getting really late and i m exhausted and just want to sleep but i can t go to sleep until i get everything done but i just don t feel able to do anything anymore doe anyone have advice help suggestion | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i m sick of hearing these are your best year and it only get worse i m year old i m in highschool and every adult in my life insists that it doesn t get any better than this i m told that a i get older get a job a house debt more responsibility i ll only get more stressed school alone coupled with my anxiety is enough to make getting through a single day a struggle i m fortunate enough to have a very good home life my greatest struggle ha been and continues to be with myself i m afraid that once i move on to life past highschool and i no longer have a strong support system i will collapse in on myself if you struggled with mental health in highschool when you were younger ha life a an adult improved for you doe it get any easier | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
cannibaleyes i a bowling and the shit ripped | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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we re here to help we are online therapy platform which essentially connects certified psychologist and people suffering from mental health issue such a depression stress and anxiety among dozen of other clinically defined disorder book your appointment now http t co pwwuvws j | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
every day feel so fucking long and school feel even longer somehow | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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so i recently moved to a state 000 mile away from my home with my parent even though there wa no point in it i m and this isn t just the right place for me and there s nothing i can do about it all my family member who lived here convinced my parent to move over here cause apparently it s better when i m here my anxiety ha gone up by a lot and so ha my depression i can t even sit still in peace after getting into a fight like my mind constantly telling me we need to go back home i never got along with others in public and got into fight at school already did drug and a lot of stuff like that my parent think this is the best environment and i m still acting like this and they never listen to me i m having a talk with my therapist in a few day do you think they could convince my parent that this isn t a good place for me and recommend u to move out of the state for better mental health for me mentally and emotionally because i just do not belong here i wa so much better a a person in my hometown now i can t even tell if this is me i even have done drug here for the first time and yet my parent family think i m the problem not the environment what can i do i can not wait much longer | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
theekween depression anxiety trauma thelmasherbs | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
just finished watching the movie prayer for bobby broke my heart | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
lt algonquin agreed i saw the failwhale allllll day today | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i don t like these late start night shift coupled with it being bloody light outside my window when i m meant to be going to sleep | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my whole life i ve dealt with the trifecta of depression anxiety and ocd i wa always functional with all disorder clocking in at maybe a 0 depression always felt like more of a chemical thing it wa never situationally based anxiety amp ocd were usually health related hypochondria i guess anyways i never knew episode existed i always just hovered at the same baseline then in 0 i had a severe panic attack after smoking some potent weed it really shook me and it sent me into what i guess would be my first episode it wa my first time experiencing dissociation and it terrified me i wa in a constant state of panic for month at the time i had been on lexapro for year my gp wa ill equipped to deal with this so she recommended a new doc for med big mistake new doc decided i should quit taking lexapro and switch to zoloft which perhaps would have worked if she had done it correctly instead of cross tapering or weaning off lexapro she decided to have me stop taking lexapro cold turkey wait a month until it wa out of my system and then start zoloft going cold turkey off lex wa a nightmare of biblical proportion and sent me further into the most intense depression and anxiety i d ever experienced after a hospital visit they suggested an outpatient program i agreed and there they got me back on the lexapro after a few more long month thing evened out i returned to a manageable baseline although the depression wa a tad higher because i could no longer self medicate with weed the experience ruined weed for me would immediately send me into panic mode but still thing were going well fast forward to january 0 and suddenly out of the blue i wake up one day super depressed no appetite couldn t sleep at night i wa so confused my first episode had a clear and obvious trigger panic attack ill advised cold turkey med change i d never had something like this happen with no trigger that s when i started to dig deeper and found out that episode exist this time i had a doc i trust added remeron which wa awesome at first felt better than i had in year wa sleeping and eating great for about 0 day then splat all that went away back to square one and i even developed tinnitus from the remeron so i nixed the remeron and we decided to switch from lexapro a well but the right way this time i did a seamless cross taper to effexor i m on my th week of it went from 0 my last day on the lexapro wa last friday which wa the day i did the increase to 0 thing have improved slightly def not where i wan na be tho i now know that episode can last anywhere from day to month or longer so i m trying to be patient it s tough tho eventually i may have to decide whether to increase effexor again or augment with something else an aa perhaps not sure what i meant to accomplish with this wall of text but if you read it kudos to you i guess i just wanted to document this strange journey maybe you ve been through something similar or know someone who ha maybe you can offer advice which i d welcome either way i hope whoever is reading this is doing well and i wish you all the best of luck in this thing called life | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
started his week training it s going tobbr tough with so many birthday currently at work http twitpic com y k | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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this suit me much better than working in a care home and hospital eg i ve had a lot of death and sickness in my life amp i found it fundamentally difficult to manage my depression when facing the end of life and loss of self and huge emotional pain so deeply | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
everyone tell me to go outside but for year i get nervous who will i run into what will i say if my neighbor stop to chat with me even putting all that aside even if none of those thing happen i am still anxious | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i feel so sad and lonely so i am a student at a university now i am an international student and i came to this country last year i am kind of shy and always chose to keep the feeling to myself than speak out there wa one girl in my class that i liked she wa smart and intelligent rather than anything romantic i thought we could be friend but i did not approach her till the end of the semester on one of the final day i wa like i can t always be scared to express so i went upto her and asked her contact detail we talked a bit and she asked if i wan na go for a movie we went the next week and it wa fun it wa a good to have a friend in a foreign country we went out a few time after that a well then she had covid and i tried to give her some advice and said that i wa stifling her even though i had just told her to take care of herself the next day she said that she ha issue that she need to sort out and want space being a friend i didn t understand what issue or what did i do but i did not message her a week later she message me back in a good mood and say that let s watch something and we watch a movie at her home i cook for her at her place and i think she enjoyed a well she doe some painting and showed me those so i asked are these just for you and then she said that she shared it on instagram by her pseudonym and feel good when her internet friend appreciate it i did not read too much into what internet friend meant day later i wa scrolling through instagram when it occurred to me to look her painting up so i searched her pseudonym and found that it wa a public profile and saw that she had posted a painting i like it so i messaged her on whatsapp where we usually chatted that hey i saw your painting and what i liked about it something flipped her off and she said that her internet persona is different than the real life persona and what i did wa a big mistake and she doe not want to talk anymore i wa like i did not about this internet persona thing and you had said you shared it with your friend but if it is that big an issue i am sorry and will not look at your painting and then she wa so rude she said that it wa the last chance she gave me but me explaining why i looked wa too much i did not respond anything a i wa so hurt i did not even do anything bad or something to intentionally hurt her i did not message her anything for week i did not look at her whatsapp i just tried to forget her around day ago in a moment of weakness i searched her name and see that she ha blocked me on whatsapp i didn t even do anything after she said all that i got very depressed and wrote her a long message on text this wa the message hello please read this that is my only request yesterday i had tried to message you on whatsapp asking how you were and saw that you have blocked me you can block me here and everywhere else a well after this i just want you to read what wa in my mind when we were talking from the day we had started talking i do not know what all bad thing you think about me but atleast from my side i had always wanted to be a good friend and never had any bad thought i had fun on each of our meeting i have been continuously thinking for the last month what did i do wrong a you never told me and just shut me off maybe these were the reason i don t even know i can t even think properly i thought that we were very alike i honestly thought we could be good friend two introvert who want to be better at their craft and helping each other out through tough school again i do not know what all notion you had about my intention but i did not want to be more than friend if you ever felt that way i am a new guy in this country there are many thing i have not even understood here having a relationship or a girlfriend is the last thing on my mind i don t even have friend here to share stuff so i never wanted anything more than just being friend who could help each other whenever they needed or share thing about life course maybe take some advice on what to do in certain aspect of life thing that normal friend do and maybe i wa selfish to have looked for that friend in you you had said that i did not deserve to be a friend the last time we talked there ha not been a day when i did not think what did i do wrong that i am not even worth a friendship i think that i had probably messaged you more than what you wanted a a friend i don t know you never told me that i thought everything wa normal whenever something came to my mind or i watched some video that i liked on youtube i used to send it to you i think i should not have done that and maybe you didn t like that i just did that because i wanted to share thing with you that i admired so that those thing may bring happiness to you a well the other reason wa that i looked at your painting on instagram i am sorry that i looked at your instagram profile to appreciate your painting i did not have any wrong intention i wa just curious and had thought you would like it a you had said that you like it when your friend appreciate your art i wa not aware of internet persona being different from real life persona i am not a bad person i just wanted to be a friend and someone you could trust i am not writing this to you for any response or for being friend because i don t think i have any respect in your eye and i have lost much of my self respect in my own eye after how many time i have tried to apologize honestly for last week i didn t even look for you on whatsapp a it wa soul crushing to read how you had said that i blew the chance of being a friend and i think it is best that you do not respond to me a i can not feel more pathetic and worse about myself trying to mend the bridge which never even existed i just want to say that i am sorry if i ever hurt you or made you feel bad i always wanted to be good and make you happy a a friend i never had any malice or any bad intention i never wanted to be someone who you despise this much i am just sorry and i will be really grateful if you could just let me know what i did i texted her this and and then she texted back don t say if own up to your mistake and now she will block me in text a well i am not even sure what i did and i feel depressed lonely and sad i have never felt like this | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? 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wake up force yourself to eat breakfast go to school that s filled to the brim with people who don t like me and think i m weird overthink everything suffer through class get home sleep or do homework then go to sleep again repeat for the next few fucking year is there really any point if class were at least enjoyable i d manage to get through it and honestly most of them aren t horrible just one rd language class that i can t fucking get out of or get better at because how the fuck am i gon na find the strength to learn a whole new language i always get yelled at always stressed at that class because i know i won t answer correctly and i will get yelled at then go home and cut yourself because of it fun right | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
jesssicrap not sure why a report of pain elicits such a high level of disbelief doe this also occur when patient report shortness of breath nausea depression fatigue anxiety vertigo and many other symptom that are difficult to quantify why is pain so different | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
my alt acc look like it s made by someone with major depression and schizophrenia while being high on ketamine | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
still up sad i lost follower | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
getting changed in the hope that that mean we can go to the store now poor cat is out of food oops | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i have somatization disorder which essentially is whenever i try to do something that may cause me anxiety i end up making myself physically ill i cause myself physical symptom unconsciously doe anyone else deal with this i am not able to leave my house most of the time which ha caused a strain on friendship and school | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
mizzzidc la fisto how about you just move out wtf are you doing living with your parent anyway especially since you re claiming that it s causing your depression | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
oh no kutner s dead watching house | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
moulin rouge mad me cry once again | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
ha someone ever found their anxiety and depression to be directly related to some vitamin deficiency i wa thinking about what i could actually fix from my side without having to go see a psychologist etc and i realized that i m missing iron folic acid magnesium d and b it s been year but i can not take some of them because they severely hurt my stomach i wa think about having injection done by a naturopathic doctor ha anyone ever tried it if yes did it help | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i feel trapped and like there s no way out everything feel like shit i went through ton of family and mental health issue but i soldiered on and i got my college diploma in social science and my bachelor degree in sociology i wa on the dean s list i worked my as off through mental illness and exhaustion and i m in thousand of dollar debt i did everything people told me to do keep going get a degree take out loan and now i can t find a fucking job that doesn t pay total shit public transit is beyond atrocious i just have 0k debt staring at me in the face every time i open my bank app i ve applied to hundred of job hundred of job my brother want me to go back to school and get more debt more fucking debt he want me to leave my boyfriend and move to another province i can t talk to him about my issue because every time that s all he suggests same with my best friend my dad life in a tiny town in newfoundland and make shit wage my mom life somewhere in ontario and ha made no effort to help me out despite not getting to see me grow up due to a nasty divorce i have no will left i m afraid i m gon na snap and go crazy i try really really hard to be positive but it s really hard to keep it up i feel like i m in one of those trap where the wall are slowing squishing you until you die please doe anyone have any advice anyone i m dying my hope is fading so fast | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i m always pointed at when something bad happens to me and i never know if i m to blame or not | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
is upset that she couldn t find quot church of the flying spaghetti monster quot on twitter to follow | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hi everyone in the past few year that i have been living alone a a student i noticed myself falling into period of time where i would not leave the house alone it s not a if i don t enjoy going outside i live in vancouver and there are some truly beautiful day here where the sunlight make this city breathtaking my issue isn t a fear of going outside it s more of a fear of the people i ll encounter and how they may judge me i ve always struggled with depression and low self esteem i ve always felt nervous about other people looking at me i avoid leaving the house alone unless it s necessary and when i do it s usually at night i ve even had point in the past where i ve drunk alcohol to make myself feel le nervous about leaving the apartment for grocery i usually don t make eye contact when i m alone outside and keep my eye focused ahead or on the ground why do other people scare me so much when i m on my own i can leave if i m with friend but on my own i always get nervous and procrastinate until nighttime when fewer people are out i think i just feel safer inside because other people aren t there to see me or place judgment i m fortunate enough that my current bos allows me to work from home so unless i need to leave the house i usually won t i even try to get most of my grocery via amazon so i can minimize the chance of going outside i feel like i want to hide in here and not think about anything i don t even want to look at myself i wa wondering if there are other people who feel this way too is there a name for what i m experiencing am i just lazy i just want to know how to feel better | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i want to end it so badly now everything in my life is pain if it is not my own mind tearing me to piece it is how people treat me and people like me i can t take this life i have no real friend i am a stranger to my family i work so hard to eek out some sort of life but all i have is a dinky apartment that i don t leave very often because i can t afford to do anything i fucking hate my existence every day stupid shit happens that have greater consequence example i wa getting in bed and my knee bumped my nightstand which launched oz of water on my router and soaked the bottom of the computer i have thrown a lot of money and effort into i don t even know if it will turn on anything i put effort into always get destroyed everyone i love always leaf life is a pointless never ending nightmare tomb with only one way out i want the fuck out of this hell | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
content by eugene cacao graphic by kath limfueco source holland k 0 september how to fight depression 0 thing to try healthline http t co o udqteja what is depression n d american psychiatric association http t co quoyn0j b | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
andygaming une seule issue changer il n y aura probablement aucune volution de carri re de plus tu risque de tomber en d pression | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i am and think i m depressed idk what is but happiness just is not the same anymore it feel bland from what it used to be it all started when my mom separated from my verbally abusive dad when i wa 0 after that is spiraled down and down my aunt uncle grandma and grandpa dying left and right and my aunt turning out to be racist even tho i m her nefew i went to therapy for year but it did not help i dated my best friend who i have known since i wa a kid and it did not work out the relationship is ruined and now we barely talk i have plenty other friend but it doe not feel the same i hate school but my mom say i cant drop out and i have to have the best grade posible i know she is doing what she is supposed to and i wan na try but it so hard to even find the will to stay alive i m very self conscious and do not like the way i look i have a girlfriend but it doe not feel like what i thought it would be and doe not help me mentally at all overall i want to off my self because of the thing that s i ve done and thing i ve been through i don t know what is stopping me i don t think it selfish if i off myself and i don t really see any benefit if i stay alive i don t believe in true love and i m not happy at all really my mom want me to graduate so i can be happy but school make me even more unhappy but i think that s just cause i m a kid i don t even know if i ll make it past let alone go to college i just wan na know why can t i be happy | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
almost bedtime | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
tired i need a regular 9 | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
kal penn arrrggghhh and i hadn t seen last night s episode yet pity to lose you though | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
sunky being a grown up is horrid isn t it | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
just been given ma marching order got ta go do some work yay | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
dangerm0use i think maybe you should get a couple more hour of sleep hon how productive can you be right now if ur dog tired i worry | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
wanttss to go out | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
sitting outside doctor s surgery so it s my turn now bah what a holiday | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
fml so much for seniority bc of technological ineptness i now have to quot register quot for class again | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i recently accepted a new position a an hris analyst which i ve wanted for a long time but one thing i feared about the job wa all the meeting we have to lead with cross functional team presentation that we have to make i came up with a good solution to a problem a few week ago and have been configuring everything in our hr system but my manager informed me that before i can move anything into our staff facing system i ll have to present my idea to a team of decision maker i am freaking out i have practiced what i m gon na say wrote down a script anticipated a many question they might ask a i could to make myself feel comfortable but i just know when it s my turn to present i m gon na be shaky nervous heart racing and uncomfortable and i am dreading it any advice on how to get over this this is going to be a part of my job going forward we have to do this for every big project or implementation and i don t know if i have the ability to handle it i didn t realize it wa going to involve this much face to face time with people i just wanted to do configuration i d love to hear some success story or any advice you may have for getting through thing like this i m hoping with time and experience this get easier but i am worried it won t tl dr i have severe public speaking edit anxiety and have to present something to a team of people at work i am terrified and am looking for some good insight into how i can ease my anxiety | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
in a taxi on the way to get pizza bad traffic and headache worst | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
an idiot speaks anyhow to her biological mother and think that s not enough but must come online to rubbish the one that gave her suck your depression is still loading oshisko | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
achmadsirman yeah i am infact the spray paint is for the mutt i got real delayed with some problem so not finished either yet | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
zerohedge depression is spelled with a d not r | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
laertesgirl sorry to hear that anything specific x | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hello world i dont like to do physic | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
had a groupwork assignment from my university and my best co worker are my anxiety and depression | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
im so badly trying not to let this depression sink it teeth into me | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
watching the roadworks develop outside the office that ll make me late for the next 0 week fb | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hi twitter verse i know it been a while but stupid depression and nightmare can kick my as sometimes and i know a lot of my friend are here that i ve not gotten a chance to hang out with in a while i think about you guy quite often i miss you all no matter what | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
wanted to tweet that i wa in victoria but silly canadian service wouldn t work home now and sad vacation is over | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
hi all i m f i ve had very bad anxiety disorder since 0 0 when my uncle passed away the following year i started taking medication and while it help it s not a cure all both my parent passed under different circumstance in october and it s wrecked my emotion i try to do the best i can but sometimes it s just a mess i m out of town right now and i feel so outside of my comfort zone i know i m safe but my stomach is in knot and sorry tmi i haven t left the bathroom much doe anyone have any advice is there anything i can do to calm myself or center myself thank you in advance | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
matthewknight i don t know i can ping the site but it won t load at all for me i m trying to contact dreamhost | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
and after that yukito go through depression which his childhood friend failed to notice she think that he isn t interested in her and to gain his attention she make another guy her boyfriend to make yukito jealous but yukito misunderstands and break all his relationship w | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
i ve been getting worse and worse for over a decade every year ha been worse than the last the worse loss i could ever imagine my father happened just a couple week ago i have stopped working and given up on the few thing that kept me going my th is at the end of april and i don t see myself making it to then at this point | depressed | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
poor ando he just got shot | normal | Find whether the text belong to depression or not? Please choose an answer from {depressed/normal} |
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