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So I have a reallllllly bad habit of picking and my last therapist noticed I do this when I’m anxious (our sessions ended since).
Anyway, getting to the point, my picking is WAY out of hand at the moment. I’m at the point where I will pick EVERY thing imaginable and continue to do so even when it bleeds (that won’t st... | 3 |
TW: Mention of death, ED behavior.
I'm a little scared to be talking about this because I'm paranoid that if I discuss how I'm feeling — such as the worst-case scenarios that keep crossing my mind — I might make it happen somehow, like some self-fulfilling prophecy or whatever. That's why I usually keep these anxious ... | 3 |
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety (generalized and social) about five years ago now, but I think BPD might better explain some of my symptoms. I was under 18 when I was diagnosed with those things, so I couldn't have been diagnosed with BPD even if the psychologist suspected it. Anyway. I've been doing a lot ... | 0 |
Taking Xanax time to time, usually drink them before panic attack.
Idk what’s going on lately with me, every situation makes me super anxious I’m super shaky every day.
I’m pushing everyone away. | 3 |
I know there's a subreddit but it's quite small. I just want to talk with people who understand and I want to hear their stories and I feel so extremely lonely right now and want to know more about people and blah | 0 |
Had an explosive fight with my parents tonight. I tried my best to be vocal and calm with my thoughts, but ended up just getting shouted at, gaslit and blamed.
I cut myself out of anger and now I'm watching myself bleed. Felt really happy for the first ten minutes, because I failed so many times. I fear i'm going to ... | 2 |
My bf of 4 years broke up with me in August because he felt as though I was holding him back and he was going to be something one day without me. He recently was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and he has been begging me to get back with him and blames breaking up on his new diagnosis. He says that he was having a mani... | 1 |
happy new year! i hope it turns out better than the last. | 2 |
Anyone wanna be my fp? I just want a fp who's fp I am as well, if that makes sense idk.
I feel completely lost and hopeless without a fp.
My previous fp just replaced me and overall turned really toxic. I just need someone who understands me and who I can trust. Especially someone who won't just replace me.
Also I ha... | 0 |
Wake up at 7am
Lay in bed for 30 mins
Get out and do morning shit while constantly worrying abt what's gonna happen that day and just feeling horrible and overthinking everything
Consider just killing myself and sometimes cut a bit bcz of the stress
Go to school
Be stressed and worried and sad all day at school
F... | 2 |
So usually I discuss grief in therapy, but I’ve been moving more toward talking about my anxiety that I’d kind of been ignoring by focusing on grief. I’ve been seeing this therapist for a couple years and have always felt safe with them and validated by them before this.
I brought up some trauma from high school and m... | 3 |
I’ve had an anxiety inducing day and I’m trying to sleep and have become so convinced that I’m going to die. Not like death anxiety or worried about getting sick or anything - I think that I am going to either die in my sleep tonight, or pass away at some point tomorrow. I feel it in my bones, I’m so sure if it, my hea... | 5 |
My older sister is on the psychosis spectrum ( I'm sorry if I am misusing the terminology, I mean no harm - still getting used to it), and after a year of what seemed a somewhat successful period (she finished her Master's/ got a job etc.), she quit her meds (Olanzapine), and the whole situation quickly escalated withi... | 4 |
I feel completely lost. I recently quit my job because of a toxic work environment but ever since then I feel lost. I don't know what to do with my life. No one understands how I feel. My work is my life its my coping mechanism. My work is very important to me I want my work to have meaning I want it to be fulfilling.... | 2 |
So I've been riding hypomania for a few months now which was likely triggered by an increase in an antidepressant mixed with Spring/Summer. I was happy and productive and loving life and just convinced myself I was stable, not hypo, even though I was recklessly spending and obsessively hyper-focusing on different tasks... | 1 |
So I had a physical in February and my Doctor asked me a few mental health related questions, “do you have trouble motivating, are you worried often etc…”. I answered honestly and told her I force myself to load up on caffeine because I’m worried I won’t preform at work, and I drink myself to sleep to make sure I get a... | 3 |
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just when it feels like life is getting better, i sink back down. it’s an agonizing perpetual cycle and i’m exhausted. i’m tired of life, tired of ppl, tired of myself, tired of living. i just need everything to stop.
i feel hopeless because every measure i’ve taken to be better, never lasts. im so weak.
i have no ... | 2 |
Adderall, weed, nic, caffeine, xans over and over and over again. I feel worse than I have in a long time. Constant suicidal thoughts, I can’t sleep, I basically only eat the stuff I mentioned and Cheerios lol. My room is a disaster and I cant stop skipping classes. Honestly adderall isn’t really helping me focus anymo... | 2 |
I’ve been in a stand up comedy group for a few months, we are all socially distanced and there’s only ~10 of us. There are a couple of teenagers, me (in my 20s), and then adults who are all probably 35+. initially i felt very weird in this group because i’m the only one at this point in my life, the teens are too young... | 0 |
Has anyone had luck with it? | 3 |
I recently got my shit together and got a good job that I genuinely enjoy, I’ve got hobbies that I can do, I finally feel like I’m ALMOST “normal”. The main thing I feel I’m missing are friends.
I’ve got mutual friends who I know from my family, but I don’t really have many friends who I can go hangout with. I’ve got... | 3 |
I have no issue with anxiety because my mind is strong and rational enough to not care, but for some reason my heart rate goes insane if I'm doing something important like a job interview or asking someone out on a date. It genuinely makes me feel like I'm gonna faint.
I'm not stressed or worried, but I still feel th... | 3 |
I was taking mirtazapine and it worked very very well for my sleep for a few months and now the sadness came back, my insomnia is much worse than before, I even have the feeling that it's even worse than before that I am taking the medicine, in your opinion is it caused by the medicine not working properly? | 2 |
What was the best compliment you ever received? | 0 |
does anyone else just completely lose their appetite during an anxiety attack? | 3 |
Looked kinda cool but I’m filled with regret. Wouldn’t have done it if I were sober. | 0 |
I’m finally back in therapy after a long while and after a very long situation with emotional episodes that resulted in me losing my FP. Everything is still hard but I am speaking my progress and positivity into existence. | 0 |
If I posed the question, “Why is your FP your FP,” or, “Why is your FP special” we would say similar things about their qualities and our relationship like, she really gets me. I can always talk to him. I can be myself. I’m wondering why my FP is my FP at all? Why did I have to chose him??
Of course I love him dearly... | 0 |
We have been talking a week. He says he can't see until next week so I'm currently waiting for our date.
He seemed like he wanted to get off the phone when I called him and has stopped sending me cute emojis or flirting. I tried asking if his still into me 3 times and all 3 times his avoided the question and talked a... | 0 |
I saw my therapist last Wednesday and he wants me to be hospitalised. I told my mother about it and I told her I was really struggling at the moment. She said she didn’t want me to go to the hospital because I’m a student and can’t take a break. She says I have to her my degree next year and she didn’t listen to my pai... | 2 |
I'm going to be completely and painfully honest. Even as an adult one of the things I hate doing is letting new people in my life. I hate hearing "you're not a burden," "why are you so stubborn," "why don't you talk to me," and "you know you can come to me when you're upset.."
I know that you will waste my time for a ... | 0 |
“If you are experiencing increase in sadness or anxiety along with an urge to dramatically change something about your life - some of the markers of this pandemic flux syndrome - BE ASSURED YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Many people are feeling tensions. Although human beings are more resilient than we generally appreciate, it wil... | 3 |
Hey all,
For context I’m 17F and doing my final year of high school. I’m fairly academic and I’m predicted to have a pretty high GPA (6.0) or as we say in Australia, a 98 atar. My main priority for this final 10 weeks before exams is to get the best grades I can to help me get into law school, and just put my all in ... | 3 |
My partner simply does not get jealous. Used to drive me up the wall (because why don’t you care about losing me?? Lol) but I’ve come to understand and accept that’s just how she works and she just has a secure attachment style (very unlike me).
Wondering if anyone here can relate | 0 |
I have three extremely strong oxys and a few xans in my bag. Don’t want to take them and not die that’s embarrassing pls help | 2 |
I am not diagnosed bipolar however I had my first serious manic episode this summer and am being evaluated for ADHD and Bipolar next year.
I've found that I don't really experience emotions like other people and have a general inability to connect with other people. I am not a bad person by any means, I can figure... | 1 |
I love my wife to death, and we just had a crazy past couple of days. I highly suspect that she has untreated BPD. So, the other day she got upset at me over something very minor, and did what she usually does, which is physically leave and block all forms of communication. She spent two nights in a hotel and barely ta... | 0 |
I got an email today that my provider needs to hook me up with a new shrink. This is very good because I was going to fire the one I had next week. She was so very bad at her job. So I have a phone number for a person not a phone tree. I called, but had to leave a message. | 1 |
I think it's going to be really bad. I can feel it. I don't want to go through another bad depressive episode. just feel empty. and sad. I feel entirely alone. I know nobody cares about me. half the time I wonder why I bother fighting. nothing I do or says matters anyway | 2 |
My bf and I (39m and 31f) have been dating for almost a year. He moved me out to live with him last summer, states away, and I was awe struck by him. He said he had gone to therapy to deal with bpd because his ex of 3+years had it and it hurt him bad. My bpd manifests in my emotions, I'm not very external physically wi... | 0 |
I plan to kill myself when I'm around 18 or when I just rlly can't take anything anymore. Just a while ago, my mom came into my room and we talked about stuff and she asked if i felt depressed. I just smiled and said "no, why would I?". She said that she and my dad are worried about me because it seems I am unmotivated... | 2 |
I am really spiralling right now. I am letting down family, my girlfriend. I don’t know where to turn anymore, I don’t like talking to my family because I feel guilty for making them worry. My girlfriend just thinks I’m stuck in pity and I don’t blame her, I don’t expect her to put up with this. I just want to know if ... | 2 |
And that's really scary for me. When I dissociate I tend to be really destructive. The last time I had an episode, I drank a lot and broke up with probably the only person I ever cared about, before just completely blanking for about three days. I'm not really good at managing yet.
Anyways, does anyone have any copi... | 0 |
I was speaking figuratively in my title , obviously.. I just can’t escape my anxiety.
I wake up feeling anxious. Sometimes, I wake up sweating from a nightmare or just exhausted bc my mind was racing all night. Depending on how bad my anxiety is, I won’t sleep. I’ve lost 10 lbs & ran on 20 hours of sleep within a ... | 3 |
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying it's a bad thing. I'm just curious. I'm a BPD male, but whenever I look up a video on YouTube addressing BPD, they end up targeting females more than males. Is there a reason why? | 0 |
Im unmotivated I just wanna die not suicidal I just wanna die it’s confusing to say I already know im not gonna do anything in life i even stopped doing my online school work. | 5 |
I do on my ambitious and sensitive character mishappening with my mother's over protection and father's violent character and his "never good enough" attitude. | 3 |
I just had the most horrific nightmare. it’s been 2 weeks since my car accident, and I’ve had stress dreams about the accident but this was more. it was awful. I woke up in a full blown panic attack. I was only asleep for an hour | 3 |
When I message someone, mostly friends, I often worry about offending them or saying something weird, this is probably common.
But it's so much worse with online friends because the only connection you have can be stopped forever with a click, and I'm terrified of this, often when I send a message I have thoughts lik... | 3 |
Im not diagnosed but i heavily relate to people with BPD and have many traits of it too.
So anyway, about a month ago one of my friends (we'll call her X) said her and my other friend (Y) were talking over the weekend and came to the conclusion that I have bpd. Since then X has been treating me almost the opposite of... | 0 |
Idk why I'm even here, I don't feel like anything will help right now. I've been diagnosed with bpd for years and I def agree it's accurate. My bf/fp of 14 years just broke up with me and started moving out because he couldn't take my shit anymore (I admit it's been a lot and idk how he hung in this long) and now I jus... | 0 |
Hi to all redditor,my psychiatrist just prescribed me fluvoxamine 50mg to take at night time,yesterday it’s my first dose at 1am,woke up at 5am and having panic attack,chill,afterwards can’t sleep soundly and very uncomfortable,it’s worst for me after starting to take the medication,can I stop taking it ? | 3 |
and I’m super in my head about it now and I’m panicking. I’ve been wanting the vaccine for months but wasn’t eligible in my state. I’m volunteering at a vaccine site in my state, so they’ll give it to me there after the shift according to the website.
Now I’m scared because I have a blood clotting disorder and I’m at ... | 3 |
i've been in recovery for the past four years and i know i always feel better when i try harder to kick my depressive habits (make myself eat better, sleep/wake up earlier, do schoolwork on time, etc) but god its so exhausting to try hard when it takes up so much energy to even attempt to try in the first place. i hate... | 2 |
Life is not the best for me,but I wish atleast to have someone who love me and I really want affection,I just can’t explain my pain | 2 |
I don’t blame him at all. I am trying so hard to control my outbursts and I thought I was doing a good job but I freaked out and then tried to pull back and control it and he said I was scaring him. I’m gonna call my psychiatrist on Monday and up my dose of my mood stabilizers, when I see him tomorrow to exchange stuff... | 0 |
Hi everyone! I've been using Efexor for about a year now. I always have a hard time swallowing pills, but I've managed Efexor so far without a miss. However, last night (I take Efexor at like 11.30 pm every night) no matter what I did I couldn't swallow it and I was on the verge of throwing up, so I had to take it out.... | 3 |
I'm so pity that I'm currently thinking of ways to retaliate because for some reason I take this to be an attack against me.
I won't let this slide | 0 |
I made the mistake of going off my meds for a month and I feel severely depressed. The helplessness and despair is just absolutely overwhelming and I am feeling like I can’t hold on. I went back on my meds so hopefully they help. Any techniques to trick myself out of this depressive mood in the short-term? | 1 |
Doctor prescribed any good or bad experiences? | 3 |
I think dorm is the right word.
I moved in to this dorm area about a year ago and I've started to feel an urge to socialize and interact with people, I just don't know how.
I often see large-ish groups of people hanging out by the bar or the campfire but I don't know how to say hello and ask if I can hang out with them... | 3 |
I couldn’t really find any useful information online but my father recently told me that he had been seeing shadow people since his assault (nearly killed by another man) and that they are not to harm him and he is not scared of them. This was quite profound to me because I too see shadow people sometimes and as scared... | 5 |
I don't understand why people are so annoying when they want to help you.
Telling you arguments on arguments of why life is great and that suicude isn't worth it and that evrything will be better one day! You know what? Fucl you. This dosen't help at all this just show that we have two diferent opinions.
You think lif... | 2 |
I just want to ask someone honestly what's the point of living each day and feeling worse and dying inside with each second you live.I just hate to wake up every morning and my life has been like this since school.I thought college will change it but it made it worse.I do feel suicide is the best option and it should b... | 2 |
I wear my AirPods almost constantly listening to music throughout my day. Most of the time I only wear one so I can hear when people talk to me and I keep the music quiet. When I take them out completely I get anxious (while in public I’m fine in private). This only happens when they’re out though I can have them in wh... | 3 |
My worst impulse is probably buying things I don't really need/can't afford. I buy more things for myself than anyone else I know but shopping just gives me that little bit of joy I need, when I don't have money to spend it makes me panic but what else can I do to fill that void?
It's honestly like an addiction.
Last... | 0 |
i was finally happy and convinced my depression had gone away a few days ago, until i had moved homes. It felt like a big piece of my life was ripped away from me. i miss my old room. my depression has gotten worse since then. All that time i spent, working on improving, building a new me, trying to be happier, gone. J... | 2 |
To everyone who doesn’t have this we are a big fucking joke to them. I was talking to this girl I was hitting things off with good and I decided to be open and tell her I have issues like a fucking idiot and she blocked me as soon as I did. Not the first to do that either. Are we not allowed to interact with “normal pe... | 0 |
If you repeatedly have suicidal thoughts violent thoughts or just straight up weird thoughts and then afterwards feel guilty because these thoughts are totally not in line with your personality you might have OCD.
Yesterday I finally decided to address this for myself and spent hours researching drugs. On drugs.com th... | 1 |
Hi.....,its kind of important
,😰
Well,the time as come,so i guess,I’ll tell my lil story!here ,i am a 15 years old non binary amd bisexual human,my biological parent abandoned me,whenni was 3 month,i got out in a new family after that.and my teenager years got just worse,i got in two toxic relationship,where all of ... | 5 |
Me and the guy I am dating both have BPD.
Mine only recently diagnosed. So previously it caused a strain because I 1. Didn’t k ow how to cope and 2. He didn’t know how to cope with me.
A week ago he broke it off.
Now he has asked us to try again once the UK covid lockdown has lifted some more because it was having a... | 0 |
Burnt out. Irritable. Annoyed. Frustrated. I almost can't stand whoever I'm with in that moment. I've lost friendships due to being "such a flake" and breaking promises (I do feel awful about that).
I ghost people any time I feel we're getting close.
I take days, weeks and sometimes months to respond...the longer I wa... | 0 |
OK I’ve been kind of dealing with severe social anxiety all my life. Barely & not very well a lot of times. Borderline agoraphobic but I have to leave my house to go to work (I can’t find a work-from-home job). I don’t leave the house aside from work - it’s literally the only place on Earth I feel comfortable.
Any... | 3 |
Pleased tell your story of treatment depression, Which method worked for you? Ancient india , new age chemical method(anti-depressants) Workout, clanging your environment.
I'm struggling with depression and have no idea what should i do,I,m alone and hopeless | 2 |
I’m going to buy rope and jump off of the overpass this week.
That’s all. | 2 |
Edit: Many years ago, I was forced to be in a relationship with a guy that I didn’t love. It was peer pressure from friends and just thinking that I couldn’t get better as he really did truly love me. After we started dating, I quickly realized that I was turned off by him. I didn’t know how to get out as I was a perso... | 3 |
>be me
>meet cute guy on Grindr
>3 days in and he already knows about 3 mental illnesses, 4 separate traumas and my weirdest kinks.
I swear the minute I feel I ‘click’ with someone and become somewhat attached to them, I can’t help but tell them EVERYTHING about my personal life. Even stuff you should reall... | 0 |
I’m unmedicated, still have my manic and depressive episodes but I go from being aggressively suicidal to feeling absolutely euphoric and amazing within a span of a just a few hours. This mainly happens during depressive episodes. Am I the only one? | 1 |
Right now I’m pretty happy. My life is going well, and my friends and rehearsal (for my school’s play) is going really well, however- I still am super close to cutting. I haven’t since FEBRUARY, and trust me, it’s been a struggle, however, even though these past few days I’ve been very happy and even content- I’m still... | 0 |
I was sure we were in love and that my friend of a lifetime understood the parts of me that nobody else could, and made the mistake of telling him this. He didn't feel the same way. Heartbroken, I started to shut him out whilst silently embodying my delusion of idealized, requited love. To make things worse, we're stil... | 0 |
I have hated myself so much for so long that it has left me burnt out and hopeless. There's no reason to get better when you hate yourself so much. There's no inspiration to work for a future when you don't care what happens to you anymore. The hatred I feel for myself is inescapable and constant, and I can't see anyth... | 0 |
I suffer from depression, anxiety and bpd recently I’ve been having a lot of suicidal thoughts lately and the only person that makes me feel better in any way no matter what is my best friend, i had been staying with her for a few days and then she told me I couldn’t stay there as it was too much for her to handle whic... | 0 |
Hello, just statyed Caplyta for my bipolar 2 depression. Is anyone else using this med? Curious to know of any side effects experienced and also efficacy if any? | 1 |
I just can’t, I’m so tired of being negative and even my friends are pointing it out, but I feel like people are idiots and idiots are everywhere.People don’t seem to think at all.
- In traffic when they’re constantly switching lanes and we’ll still end up next to one another waiting for the traffic light to turn gre... | 2 |
Title is pretty self-explanatory. If you have questions about the sub, the rules, making a post, bans, etc. do NOT message/chat us individually/privately. ONLY use mod mail to communicate these things.
Why?
1) Mod mail ensures everyone on the mod team is on the same page regarding any and every inquiry.
2) We are ... | 0 |
Hi! I want to make new friends, who can really understand what im going through. Rn i have 0 friends, no one to talk, and I think that could sink me to the hole I was. I have my gf and I love her so much! But everyone needs friends, secrets, company. Be free to talk, I can help too 😊 | 0 |
(tw: suicide)
I wish there was some way to make suicide easier. I wish I could die peacefully surrounded by my loved ones. I’m too scared to die alone. If I weren’t I’d have probably done it by now.
I’m losing my mind. I’m so lonely, anxious, depressed I feel crushed everyday by my own worthlessness, despair. Every d... | 2 |
I feel so detached and hopeless. I have no sense of self and I hate every version of myself I’ve tried to be. I am so withdrawn. I don’t even talk to my siblings. I’m a junior in college and I’ve only made one friend and I just have to watch everyone around me have fun and be social. I know everybody has their own prob... | 2 |
Everything makes me sad. The person who is the reason why I should not kill myself is the reason why I'm already dying inside. I will never be the favorite of someone. I didn’t acheive anything in life, that's why I'm not important to anyone in my life. I'm already quitting. I am so tired please. | 2 |
I am lost and confused about how to react to this situation. My Bpd girlfriend and i who have been together for 4 years (2 years dating, 2 years close friends) finds it nearly impossible to put an end to a friendship she developed and had sexual relationships with, during a 2 month end of relationship we had. To put in... | 0 |
I have a question. I havent had the insurance to go back to the psychiatrist but do know that I had to option to take klonopin, celexa and lamotrigine together or Wellbutrin and lamotrigine together. Could I take Wellbutrin, celexa and lamictal all at the same time? The Wellbutrin gives me energy that’s why I say the c... | 5 |
I always feel as if though people close to me have ulterior motives in whatever they do. For example yesterday my boyfriend threw my razor out because it was rusty and for some reason I thought he only did it to annoy me. I said some really really nasty things to him (nothing like I’ve ever said before). I felt really ... | 0 |
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I started cutting my legs and fingers just to fell anything othet than anger and sadness. | 2 |
Does anyone here struggle with Antisocial Personality Disorder? And if so, does anyone have any cooping mechanisms to help with anger, anxiety, etc,.? | 5 |
I am a loner. And this is really because I chose to be...for the most part. Growing up I barely had friends and changed "best friends" every couple of years. And constantly told people "they weren't my friend" to watch them cry and then take it back with "just kidding" to see them smile again. Except the last year of m... | 0 |
I gained 60 lbs since covid and my depression is making it harder for me to even find the will to lose weight. I turn to drinking but it just makes me feel worse the next day. My face is pretty but as a girl it’s so hard, I used to be so athletic and I’m not used to seeing myself this way.
Me and my boyfriend barely h... | 2 |
Around a month ago a relationship with a girl I cared about a lot ended abruptly which left me feeling extremely empty and I ended using MDMA and psilocybin mushrooms back to back nights. I had an extremely horrible comedown that lasted a few days and it put me in a very dark and suicidal mindset. I managed to turn tha... | 0 |
I don’t know how to word this and it’s probably just me shouting into the void. Right now, I am struggling a lot. I have schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type but depressive. I also struggle with PTSD, OCD, and Anorexia-P type nervosa. I am also a 22 year old woman, so having all of these issues is isolating.
Needles... | 5 |
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