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Like I don't care if I wasn't the only one at fault here these were not problems until I forgot how to have a personality. Then all of a sudden it starts to show its cheeky little face like it deserves something. Smfh I swear its like my brain is out to get me | 1 |
The past six months have started my journey on experiencing the physical side of panic attacks. Last week was the worst one I’ve had to date. I’ve been getting anxiety of it happening again and it will make it difficult to sleep and possibly eat (especially because it happened at night and it made me nauseated). Do you... | 3 |
i have a very close friend that i’ve hung out with almost non-stop for about 3 years. we tend to clash a lot and it leaves me feeling hated and as if im a nuisance every time we hang out. considering other variables, i wouldn’t say it is a healthy friendship, only that my friend sees things more rationally so i feel li... | 0 |
I'm about to go for a dance fitness workout and i am a little overweight which makes me have body image issues from time to time. I don't go to the gym because it increases my dysphoria even more. So I usually do home workouts.
But lately my anxiety and depression has gotten bad so I have been getting out of the house... | 3 |
So I'm poor and because of that I get my meds from the county health department. It's always been like pulling teeth while jumping through flaming hoops to get them to cough up my pills and I'm sure that's by design. Anyway they're once again giving me hell. I have like a week left, 2 if I take half dose. If I can't ge... | 0 |
I feel so much fear in my body in nights... I'm so scared right now I don't know what to do | 2 |
i lost my bird that gave me happiness and light when times and dark :( | 2 |
I want to go to bed and not wake up. I just want to not exist. I feel like a 150-pound weight that everyone in my life is forced to drag around. I wish I never existed because I don't want my family to be sad. I just want to be done. I hate myself. I hate who I’ll become and I hate having to do ‘fun’ things. Little thi... | 2 |
I've taken pill birth control before and it made me completely fucking insane, but I got diagnosed with PCOS and the mirena hormonal IUD is supposed to be the absolute bomb for treating those symptoms. My doc says it's actually a lower hormone output bc the delivery is so direct, and should cause less mood nonsense tha... | 1 |
I feel like I have been chained by my past failure, especially regarding my career. This feeling started during college, when I tried to apply for internships or jobs or higher education, I feel I have done nothing remarkable to convince them I am a good candidate. As a result, I have never got a post that I really wan... | 2 |
i have BPD as well and im worrying that ill trigger him too much with symptoms that will remind him of his abuse. he was verbally/physically assaulted almost every day by his ex and went through a lot of trauma. how can i help him while maintaining myself ?
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i differ from her in that i am a "quiet" borde... | 0 |
I drive everyone away and now I have no friends or family left to reach out to. I feel like no one takes me seriously or sees how much I struggle. I guess I am just wondering how anyone else deals with loneliness? I have the hardest time with it and I will cling to or invite people into my life that are unhealthy to av... | 0 |
Hello, friends.
I'm diagnosed with **SZA (bipolar type)** for 10 years now, I am **30 years old** male.
I was off the meds for almost 10 months now and I thought I will be better, but in truth it's the opposite now, I'm experiencing *delusions, apathy, anhedonia, voices, insomnia, panic attacks, social anxiety, an... | 4 |
It’s hard for me to believe that I would have the strength to live for that long. I wonder if I’ll still be miserable at 60 and trying to fight against the urge to end it all. I may be too weak to even attempt at some point. I really don’t know if I would regret living that long. Maybe I would even be impressed at how ... | 2 |
It's so hard for me to fall asleep on most nights. I usually go to bed around midnight but my anxiety keeps me awake up until 3 or 4 in the morning, every day. Even now (4am) I'm having one and I'm trying not to break down. I'm getting so sick and tired of feeling suicidal and like the whole world is collapsing onto me... | 0 |
I’m completely exhausted and haven’t been sleeping well at all. I’m on my feet at work all day & always moving & lifting stuff. Well I also have bad anxiety too. I call into work at least 1-2 times a month I feel like. I have lost a job in the past due to the attendance. I started a job in November and have cal... | 3 |
Hello everyone - I’ve never used CBD before but I’m thinking about starting. I’m hoping to enjoy some of the potential stress relief it can offer, even if it’s just subconsciously. Does anyone have any CBD brand and method recommendations? | 3 |
There’s nothing I want anymore. When I’m hungry I eat, thirsty drink, tired sleep. I could only get myself out of bed for a couple of my class sessions this semester in college. Didn’t manage to even get out of bed to even withdraw from my classes and now I have 3 zeros unfortunately. I don’t even know why I’m in colle... | 2 |
Ever since I (21 F) graduated, without the constant pressures of school and too much “free time”, when I have too much coffee or alcohol I get really really anxious, as if there’s no outlet for the energy anymore. I’m working a job during my gap semester right now but I constantly get anxious and get stomach aches now ... | 3 |
The world we live in requires us to work work work. I've been working since I was 14 years old. I went to school for four years to be a engineer and I graduated 1 year ago. I've been applying to jobs ever since and I have not gotten one job. I've had a internship and still have not landed a job.
Right now I'm working... | 2 |
I'm grateful I have a job again, but I cannot take having to be up in the middle of the night for some of my shifts, I have no reason to be stressed about my job, it's an easy job with a great team. But I'm sitting here with it pitch black outside and my anxiety is going absolutely haywire. I feel like I'm going to hav... | 3 |
TLDR; anxious boyfriend is cheating. I’m just myself sick with scenarios. I have no evidence or reason to believe he would. He is indicating non guilt from his words, body language, and actions. I can hardly eat I’m so anxious. How do I stop this anxiety?
I want to preface this by saying our relationship is wonderfu... | 3 |
I’ve been experiencing mania these past few days. I lashed out and lost it today and have spent the whole day exhausted coming down and up from it. Now all I’ve been doing is binge eating for comfort & familiarity. Anyone experience this? How do you handle it?
*talked it out and apologized and it’s all good now, b... | 1 |
I hate to ask this, but I’m a college student with bpd, and I’m trying to get a new laptop before school starts, and I’m a little short on money. Since my classes are online, I really need a working laptop, and my current one does not work well for video classes. The idea of online classes is already really stressing m... | 0 |
So my lower left gum and jaw are infected and throbbing with pain. I tried to manage the pain, but nothing is working. I called the dentist first thing this morning and they want me to come in to the office at 2pm. My anxiety over it all is pretty bad. Not only am I in pain, but I'm worried that there's something wrong... | 3 |
It's a weird thought, yet I've had it for as long as I can recall. I read a lot about history, especially conflicts etc. I have always thought that whilst those poor souls were sent to the slaughter en mass, they, at least had some purpose or had a cause for which they felt they were (wrongly or rightly) fighting.
Ye... | 2 |
I'm so tired of not being consistent.
My relationship is over and it was my choice.
I truly believed that I was better without him. Better being unhappy alone than miserable due to his emotional neglect (otherwise known as 'his being a normal human being').
I felt strong, powerful, in control, very sure of my decisi... | 0 |
First day I moved here to a new place a friend(a) was sleeping over he is from out of the city my other friend(b) he came to see him he decided that he would sleep here without even ask or telling me and I was tired and was up for 36 hours and was exhausted and unpacked he and the friend from out of the town (a) slept ... | 0 |
hi. my first post on here… i don’t really know what to do about the anxiety ive been feeling lately, mostly because i don’t usually feel this anxious. i’m just hyper focused on whether or not my girlfriend still loves me. she hasn’t done anything to show she doesn’t, but i get a weird feeling whenever she’s too quiet… ... | 3 |
K so a week ago there was an attempt made, overdose style, obviously failed. (Im not in active danger of re-attempt!)
Its summer, my mental health contacts are on summer break and I dont have a therapist/cant afford private one rn. _I have work this evening_, Im having an awfull migrane going almost 24 hours and for o... | 0 |
In my experience, the only other people I have met with borderline personality disorder are woman. It would be good to hear some guys experience with it. :) | 0 |
and which meds are you taking/ have you tried?
i’ll soon be on meds too, hopefully, and i’ve heard so many great things about anti depressants. gets my hope up and makes me excited tbh. idk if im expecting too much. | 2 |
Sometimes I go through periods where I feel like I’ve rid myself of this disorder and then I get a huge reality check. I just heard from my brother that he and my ex went to montreal 2 months ago and my entire mood changed. Like I can’t even be okay with the thought that he’s having fun in Montreal probably fucking a g... | 0 |
When I close my eyes, It’s basically birds chirping in forest. | 4 |
Every time I see something regarding sex or sexual things, I begin to cry and can't stop crying. I keep thinking of it and can't sleep, it makes me uncomfortable for hours and hours. I've had to stop watching movies, shows and anime in fear of anything romantic or sexually involved. I do have depression, is this some k... | 5 |
I have quiet BPD, my significant other has full-blown.
We live 2 hours apart, it's tough, and now she's caring for her dad who just had triple-bypass.
I believe in my heart she loves me, but whenever she gets stressed, she breaks off our engagement - 4 times now.
I don't want anyone else.
She doesn't believe she de... | 0 |
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It seems like I get this feeling almost every day at some point where I’m bored with myself and feel like I haven’t done enough. I get sad about it and kinda mope-y. I’ve gotten way better about my mood swings and not taking them out on my bf, thankfully, but they’ve turned, I guess, into more internal battles. Right n... | 0 |
I wish people like me could have the option to end it all without pain and judgment. Just go to a quiet place, take a pill and die peacefully and without pain. That we can live in a world where the choice of life and death is respected equally. Where we shouldn't wait to grow old to die or to live a long and sad life j... | 2 |
For me it's my job I always feel like my two bosses treat me differently then my other co worker. My bosses great guys but sometimes they do or say something to me that they don't say or do to my other co worker. Something we were talking about today really made me feel shitty, my main boss was talking about leaving be... | 2 |
I (22M) got a (20F) friend. She has BPD. I thought that I could help her, but lately she is having some hardcore episodes. I really want to help and support her to make her happy, or at least, less unhappy. So, I joined this community looking for some advices that help me to help her to make her feel less useless and a... | 0 |
I'm 36, and I just got diagnosed with bpd, like and hour ago. And I'm slightly freaking out. By slightly, Ive been in the tub for an hour now having a good cry. I'm kind of scared to tell my parents and husband. When you google it, it's scary. The psychiatrist didn't give me any resources on dealing with this diagnosis... | 0 |
I’m writing this as I try to finish a single portion of pho that I’ve been reheating and eating for 3 different meals, please help me out. I’ve been battling anxiety, depression and ADHD since my early teens and only in recent years I’ve developed terrible eating habits, worsened by my gastro problems (I’ve always been... | 2 |
As the title says, I’m just looking for advice. I told my friend I liked this guy a little bit, and one of his friends overheard and told him, and now he moved his seat in our shared class, so instead of next to me he’s a few seats down and I am incredibly embarrassed he knows, and genuinely have dreaded and thought ab... | 3 |
Anyone else get really bad anxiety around mistakes or messing up? I'm always on edge because I'm scared someone is gonna ask me to do something or expect me to get something done and I'm gonna mess it up and feel terrible.
It can be anything. In fact more often than not it's menial tasks. Washing dishes. Doing laundr... | 3 |
Has anybody pushed themselves to do things or go places *alone* in hopes of working out your anxiety with that?
In the beginning I couldn’t even go to doctors appointments or food shopping alone, so I’ve been working on going places alone, to try and appreciate solitary outings. Today’s goal- get dropped off at the b... | 3 |
Hi everyone
Does anyone else suffer from ptsd-like symptoms years after helping a loved one through an extremely severe period of mental ill health?
I live in fear that it will happen again and I don’t think it’s normal.
My partner is well.
Is it possible I have ptsd or something similar? | 2 |
If I don’t drive people away with my intense insanity, there are always conditions. For example, “I love you” + “if/and/or/but.” It doesn’t matter if it’s friends or family or even potential romantic partner. I’ll never be ideal or worthy. I guess I just need to lower my expectations. | 0 |
I was wondering if anyone has any advice or tactics for coping with irrational jealousy, as this is something I really struggle with and I just can’t seem to make progress on. It seems to just come out of nowhere sometimes and I get triggered by small things that are clearly irrational, and even though I know they’re i... | 0 |
You want to get out of this mess but It’s like you’re slipping and sliding everywhere when you try to get back on your own two feet. You looked around you, and people are walking on normal ground so perfectly fine with grace. You are already losing momentum and motivation. It’s so tiring and you’re running out of energ... | 3 |
I get so much anxiety the whole day before going to work. Every day I think about how I wish I was just dead or that I could just disappear so that I don't have to go. It ruins my whole day (and I work 4/7 days of the week lol) I just really hate this and I don't want it to be like this forever. How do I stop wanting t... | 3 |
I like to have a few drinks with my wife but I always get really bad anxiety when I wake up at about 1am, even though everything has been fine and I only had one or two. I start to feel like an awful person and my life is meaningless. (I don’t feel like this at all throughout a normal day so it’s not serious depression... | 3 |
I was in a really abusive relationship 14 years ago for six months. I have a lot of holes in my memory, and can't even remember the city my ex lived in or his last name. I was 21 at the time, so old enough to remember the things I just can't recall. It's literally like I only remember bits of pieces from those six mont... | 0 |
Since my very first job, I have always been a job hopper. I dropped out of college on three occasions, my résumé is 3 pages long and I STILL don’t know what I want to do with my life.
Currently I am a repossession agent. I don’t know what got in my head 5 months ago that said I could do this job. I’m dealing with som... | 0 |
Today is Sunday. I had a few thoughts of things to do, but I had nothing I urgently needed to do.
It’s 6:30pm. What have I done today?
I walked my dog. I watched Stranger Things. I played some Candy Crush. I took a nap. I played around on Instagram and Reddit.
Normally I would be angry with myself for “wasting” t... | 3 |
please i just want help idk what’s wrong with me theres too much that i feel and no one to talk to about my mind feels like it’s gonna explode | 5 |
During last semester something happened where I just snapped and wasn’t myself. I guess do to stress of life, but I became so angry, mean, unmotivated, never wanted to do anything. I pushed my (ex) boyfriend away. I would snap at the drop of a hat. My anxiety got so bad where I would constantly be thinking of crazy shi... | 2 |
This is my first time posting so I’m nervous. I’ve never asked from help from a public forum like this but desperation has forced me. My therapist retired and I have yet to find another one so I have no one to talk to. My sister asked me years ago to not contact her with my drama. I’ve isolated for so long I have no fr... | 5 |
about 3 weeks ago, my fp blocked me. i'll spare some of the details in case since he's also on reddit and i'm really worried he'll find this post, but what happened was i was venting about my bf. the next day, he blocked me everywhere. he didn't even bother saying "goodbye" or leave me a note explaining why, i was just... | 0 |
I have a bad physics teacher. I have no motivation to study physics. Even when I study and then try to solve problems, I fail.
Physics makes me feel so stupid and it's making me hate myself. Everyday I wake up thinking about this burden and how much shit I have to finish and it makes me so anxious. I barely understan... | 3 |
So I (21F) haven't been to the doctor for a wellness checkup in 2 years now, so there is the feeling that I should go...but I just can't. I want to, but I can't bring myself to do it. I hate doctor's offices and hospitals, especially when I'M the patient, and I'm just super phobic. I was notified of some of the procedu... | 3 |
Like… no? We were born in an uninterested world (which already is a counterpoint to a reason to live), to an universe with no inherent value systems, and it’s just the human themselves that created value, meaning, and reason to do some things and not do others. I don’t care about they themselves playing by the rules an... | 2 |
I should be happy. I want to be happy. But I cant be. Im so lucky to have the life i have. Im so lucky to be the person I am. But Im never sure of what Im doing. It overwhelms me, and makes every decision feel monumental. I dont even want to do it anymore. The thought of wanting to let it all go constantly rings in my ... | 3 |
I had a job from wich i was fired for taking to much time off work and in my country you have an option to continue paid health leave from work even after getting fired but I decided to go to a new job and now I hate it, i hate every day and just found out the paid leave is off the table.
This news makes me devastated... | 3 |
I was diagnosed age 20, and it was nothing but a blessing to me. I suddenly figured out I'm not crazy - or rather, I might be, but it has a name and it has treatment and other people are alike me. I was ecstatic. My whole life I was sure something was wrong with me, something other than "just" depression, so my diagnos... | 0 |
I havent been eating or sleeping well. But i bought a pesticide thinking it would kill me and i felt this calm happy acceptance feeling and packing up all my things. Only to realize i didnt get the right pesticide. And now im feeling low. Not sure what to do | 2 |
Hello peeps,
I wanted to make this post because I'm wondering if im addicted to sleeping, enslaved by the side-effects of seroquel, or depressed.
Sleep addiction?
I say I'm addicted to sleeping because I gamble a lot in my life to just keep sleeping. When my alarm goes off, I would do anything to close my eyes and ... | 1 |
I’ve recently made plans for public Suicide because of not being able to return to my university. I don’t know what to do anymore. There’s no reason to continue living I’ve never been loved and I have nothing. | 2 |
Hello, I'm new here and I wanted to ask some questions.
To sum up, I never had a nice (not even a bit) relationship with my family and I live with my mother who is abusive. My older sister (who's 27) left the house when she was only 7. I'm 18, I have depression, severe anxiety and ADHD.
I'm on antidepressants since J... | 0 |
I literally haven't told anyone I have BPD. I really want to, it hurts feeling like all your loved ones just think you're fucking crazy for no reason. Every time I try to talk about it, I just clam up and suddenly there's walls surrounding me and whoever I'm trying to have this serious conversation and nothing can get ... | 0 |
Sooo, I’m writing this now right after I’ve had a bad discussion with my mom. She got really mad because I went to my brother about my suicidal thoughts, and not her. She really doesn’t understand that waking her up and telling her wow mom I’m feeling like shit again, it’s something I have to work on because I feel hor... | 0 |
After reading all about BDP and I’m pretty sure my husband has it. I need advice on finding a good affordable therapist that will see him over video chat only and make him feel comfortable bc with all the other therapy he’s had they have not been able to diagnosis him, because he doesn’t talk about his behavior with t... | 0 |
I really wanted to share this with people who will understand how meaningful this is. For about a month now I have taken a lot of control over my physical and mental health. I have been reading a book that has helped me more than DBT ever did. I’m writing, doing yoga every day, making routines and sticking to them, sle... | 0 |
She wrote this album after ending her year-long relationship, describing all the different feelings and phases one goes through after such a breakup, but it really resonates with me and a lot of the lyrics just perfectly describe what it's like living with BPD. I really recommend it to everyone who's into that kind of ... | 0 |
I (24f) have been going to therapy of all sorts since I was 12.
I was diagnosed with autism just before my 18th birthday.
I have always har severe anxiety, I've tried every possible trick in the book to help relieve my constant anxiety, nothing has worked.
I am on setreline and that no longer helps me, I'm at the end m... | 3 |
I feel like I’ve forgiven her for so much… I’ve forgiven her for things that don’t deserve to be forgiven… Whenever she’s in the wrong I have to forgive her immediately whether or not she apologizes or else I’m being a brat— but when I’m wrong and apologize/own up to it immediately, she’s “allowed” to be mad at me for ... | 0 |
i posted a selfie there just because i had to send a link to someone on reddit as a request to edit the background because it was the only way to do that. I got loads of weird hateful comments under it and downvotes. are selfies not allowed there or something? i am so confused because i didn’t think anyone would see it | 3 |
I start thinking about stuff, then I can't sleep and get shakey because I'm anxious. Like I can't stop thinking about what ifs, and even just bogus scenarios that play over and over in my head.
For instance, I go over all the times adults were, I guess, inappropriate to me and what if x or y were different. Why di... | 3 |
tw self harm
I told my dad my plan to commit and he then made jokes abt it and sort of belittled me about how ineffective it is etc. like damn, that’s pretty fuckin dope. Like now I want to do it out of fucking spite. It’s such a bad feeling and mentality but whenever people piss me off even when it is my fault, it mak... | 0 |
I have too much free time and I'm always forcing myself to improve and to do something productive.
I feel stuck. Always trying to change my life for better but that only increases anxiety and makes me go backwards, I need time to relax and to enjoy my hobbies but I can't.
How can I enjoy my free time without having ... | 3 |
Mine is Orange is the New Black. When I'm in a funk I just watch it on repeat, nothing else. | 2 |
I've been struggling with anxiety since I can remember. this year has been the worst time of my life and it's been getting hard to live day by day. yesterday I was tired of dealing with everything and thought I can just sleep for a while to not think.
so before I went to bed I took like 300 mg of benadryl. it was the... | 3 |
Hi all, I have had very bad anxiety to where it has made me want to kill myself most days, I am finally getting help after years of suffering but I’m not sure I’ll be able to do the therapy with how bad it is, I’m wondering if I should try and go straight to meds? | 3 |
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I feel so irrelevant, unseen and unimportant.
I have cryptic posts but nobody seem to care.
Maybe it's my way to ask for help, for anyone to talk to me as I am not really fond of asking help from others directly.
I hope I won't get to the point where I'm going to put a desperate call for help and that it's gonna ... | 2 |
I believe I have tourettes. I've had this sniffing tic since I was young, I had to sniff air out of my nose(not up my nose) since I was young, it gets worse if I'm anxious. I also jump up and land evenly on my feet every once and a while. I do a lot of these things when people aren't around or try to hide them. I had f... | 5 |
So today, I had to lose another friend over my ex. It's absolutely the worst feeling to know that someone you thought had your back decides that they dont have it anymore. | 2 |
I recently posted, won't bore you with that. I want to open up and talk about anxiety with one of my friends who said she used to have anxiety that was so bad she would faint. I can't make myself do it and although it may sound mean or unhelpful just make me do it, I've always relied on pressure from others to make mys... | 3 |
I just got a job at a hospital working as a Patient Safety Attendant. It’s not my dream job, but I’m a mom to a 3 year old and I have to wait before I can finish nursing school so any job at a hospital is good for me now.
Anyways, today was my 3rd(ish) day. My second real day of working. I was sitting with a patient a... | 3 |
I’m a teenager and I got my first job fairly recently and I absolutely love it there. It was a little overwhelming at first and it’s a lot of physical labor but everyone there is so sweet and nice and it’s just a generally great environment. Only thing is that my shifts always start in the afternoon and end in the even... | 3 |
I feel so spaced out. Like half here half just not. Sometimes I get strong waves of derealization. But it just bugs me that I feel like I can barely comprehend anything. I do the bare minimum. I’m workin on getting my license but I’m so scared of just spacing out and causing an accident. When I’m behind the wheel I’m l... | 3 |
I like my beard. It's something I pride myself in taking care of. I have been growing it to various lengths for a number of years now and routinely get it trimmed. At the moment the longest hairs when straightened are at about 4-5 inches.
Throughout the day, not sure if it's specifically when I'm anxious but it proba... | 5 |
Hi I'm just wondering if anyone stopped anti psychotics and did your sex life return to normal? I've tried 3 different meds now and have had no improvement. Once my community treatment order is done I'm planning on stopping medication and hoping my sex life returns to normal. I care a lot about sex and plan on having a... | 4 |
I told my FP I needed to take a few mental health days and would not be texting her. Honestly, sometimes I do this because I want her to miss me while I'm gone, and give me extra love when I return. I know it's not good, but it's what happens.
I came back and texted hello and she didn't reply to me for hours even tho... | 0 |
Okay I feel fucking dumb for even asking this just FYI. For context I had seen this therapist for couples counseling prior. The therapist would mainly focus on me and we all agreed that it made more sense for me to see the therapist one on one. It wasn’t that this issues arising were all my fault, more that he wanted t... | 0 |
There were signs he was pulling away, our last..time he left, he said he just didnt care.
He didnt know outright he was my FP, I stupidly told him I had a crush, looking back, realised he was my FP.
Had a DX of 10 years, but he was my first ever FP.
Its..hard. and weird. I think I'm doing okay, the first time he l... | 0 |
Is shortness of breath a symptom of anxiety? It’s amplified when I’m in a full stomach, I feel like I’m not getting enough air and feel the need to continuously yawn in order to get a deep breath idk if that makes sense. It’s kinda stressing it makes me wake up at night too :( | 3 |
How do you change your thought's when you have already started to spiral into that black pit of doom? | 3 |
Yeah so that’s pretty much it. My parents are getting on my nerves, specially my dad. My dad was loving until I turned 6 and that’s it. He has been constantly making snarky remarks throughout my life.
I was severely bullied for YEARS and when I begged for their help they never did anything. They never tried to help me... | 0 |
Hi all,
I am currently enrolled on a DBT course here in the U.K. and find it very beneficial having a weekly meeting with my peers currently enrolled.
The thought sprung to mind that perhaps a lot more people could benefit from this, that being a weekly meeting or "catch-up".
Would anyone here be up for a weekly mee... | 0 |
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