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This quote has always stood out to me as one of the most eloquent and simplest depictions of depression I've ever encountered in literature. One of the few times I'm actually startled by my own reflection. Just thought I'd share.
I'd love to hear any poignant quotes or excerpts you guys may have too. | A little inspiring quote by Hemingway:
We're all broken; that's how the light gets in. |
I’m sorry if I sound mad and this is a rant, I’m fucking furious.
So after 3 months of waiting, many years of putting all of this off, I finally get to see a psychiatrist. I drove 2 hours to get here, spent 20 bucks on parking, and I was told to fuck off.
This guy could barely speak English, but all he talked about... | What a over inflated piece of crap mental health provider. People wonder why so many people loose all hope and kill themselves! I am sorry you went through that. |
I hate the saying suicide is selfish because no one ever congratulates you for staying alive for others despite how fucking exhausting it is to simply exist. I've been depressed for past several years but one thing I've always had is my family which I'm grateful for and also ashamed to be depressed because how fucking ... | NEVER SAY “I shouldn’t have depression.”
We can’t control the way our brain acts sometimes, only try to adapt to it. You are not selfish for thinking of suicide and there’s nothing wrong with being depressed.
Not reaching out to your family is killing you man, if they care about you enough that they’re one of the main ... |
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time.
It's the fear of failure but no urge or will to be productive.
It's wanting friends but hate socializing.
It's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely.
It's caring about everything just to abruptly care about nothing.
It's the feel... | And you cannot tell this to anyone because they'd think that you are making excuses. I want to do things but i can't. Why? I don't know. I cannot explain why. I have this weird feeling inside me that doesn't allow me to do things even if i want to. |
I know I’m not as mentally healthy when I’m tired. And I know that I’m going to be tired the next day if I don’t just f-ing go to sleep. And I know it will make everything feel worse. But it’s just a cycle I can’t seem to get out of.
EDIT: Thank you so much for the awards and all the time and care everyone has put int... | This is me not wanting to go to the office tomorrow. Pandemic in full bloom, hate my coworkers, hate everything I do at work, ridiculed for wanting to work from home during a health crisis while my office hosts pizza parties, miss my friends, tinnitus, stressed, anxiety, depressed, cry and breakdown when I finally get ... |
Like a tree in a hurricane, and my roots don't grow deep.
I grab hold to anything I can find, but I'm tired of searching for things to hold on to.
The hurricane is forever stalled overhead. Some days it's stronger than others. But I realize there's nothing that can be done about that.
And my roots never grow.
Why ... | I feel you even though for me it is more like being pulled under water by heavy weights. You see the bright spot of the sun far, far overhead but you are way too fatigued to fight your way back to the surface. You feel the Water pressure crushing your lungs. You wish for it to be over but again and again your body mana... |
Yeah, that's basically what it boils down to.
That and I believe I am a horrible person who is unworthy of those things and I wouldn't even know how to be a real friend or lover anyway because I am so monumentally screwed in the head.
So I tell myself "Oh, those people? They're not really friends. They don't really l... | I know you, it's me. I'm currently trying to crawl out of this right now, key for me to to keep telling my self I need to stop the self hate, and I'm also putting my faith and trust into a friend a little at a time but she has been so good to me. Shitty thing is I fucking fell in love with her but somehow am okay just ... |
I took three bottles of various pills in my cupboard, downed a fifth of tequila, and put a pipe to my car’s exhaust into the driver’s side window and cried tears of joy that it was finally going to be over.
I passed out and woke up in the ambulance strapped to a gurney, confused, sobbing, and hysterical. My housemate ... | What lead to the suicide attempt? I'm pretty desperate right now. My brain feels fried. I have to change my meds asap and I'm a bit worried about it. I don't want to gain weight. I know that's probably nothing compared the torment your going through. |
I pretty much spent the majority of my early 20's doing exactly that. Eating fast food, laying in bed, and just getting by in life. | This is quite common since a lack of energy often accompanies depression. |
Just hearing a voice from a youtube video or a series provides me with a little bit of comfort. It feels like I'm not entirely alone then. My friends can't really get through me and I'm constantly tired. In order for things to change I need to do something, but to do something I need energy... so yeah...
I want to sle... | It's uncanny how much I relate to this. If you have good YouTube channels, feel free to share. I can list some of the channels I watch for this too. |
No. Please don't ever say that. If you said that once and you mean it, I hate you. You don't live my life and people that say that don't know anything about depression. It's one of the worst things you can ever say to someone depressed. | This really sucks when it comes from parents too. |
There have been like, at least three suicides on the tracks this month and I so very much want to be one of them...but as much as I want to commit suicide I don't want to commit murder, and it would kill my mom if I did it, so here I am facing another lonely worthless year. I'm so tired of this, I'm just so, so tired. ... | December is an awful awful month, and if you complain about family then people shame you because at least you have one, right?
I can’t wait for the fuckin holidays to be over OP, I hope you’re able to find some peace in january |
The best explanation I could come up with when a friend of mine asked.
EDIT: I'm glad so many of you could relate. Keep on fighting to find your home. | I like your explanation
Home is where the heart is.
Easy to feel homesick when you don't know where your heart went or if it's coming back.
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I missed out on every important learning experience of youth because I chose to give into my anxiety, isolate myself, and take the path of least resistance.
Even a life of constant mistakes would be better than this because at least one can learn from mistakes. Instead I've done nothing and learned nothing.
With eve... | Haha I'm 25 and feel the same. No job, no job prospects, can't drive, scared to leave the house most days, barely get out of bed someday, never come close to having a relationship. Also fat and fairly unattractive so pretty much a complete loser. Somedays I don't know why I bother to get out of bed. Trying to at least ... |
When you’re 18, you can make mistakes. You have the time to fix them. They don’t define the rest of your life. You have a decade + to build a life for yourself. There is always that hope that one day, things might turn out well for you. There is excitement. Life is full of colour, but off in the distance you see a stor... | That's me now and I'm 40. See things coming but do it anyway, have leaps of faith, put your trust in the wrong people, entrap yourself in poor decisions and spend the rest of your life looking in the rear view mirror. What if becomes constant company. Sucks. |
i think im going to be alone forever. a failed musician who works a shitty 9-5 job at some department store wishing i spent my younger years better. once highschool ends i'll lose contact with pretty much all of my friends, live at home for a few years and then move out. try to make it in the music industry, but fail. ... | Once high school ends? You're still there?
I'd say you're still got plenty of time and room to get to what you want! And you're young enough to fuck up a few times and still rebound. Also people are more forgiving to young people, even if it doesn't look it.
I say experiment. Fuck up. Laugh. Learn. Repeat. |
So my therapist that I've only seen two times thinks I'm not a good candidate for therapy. She thinks that I'm too depressed for it despite being on heavy medications that I'm going to see a doctor about and re-evaluate in a few weeks.
She didn't think that a combination of psychotherapy and medications combined would... | I don’t mean to discredit a therapist and I’m not a professional, but every professional is different. I would try a different therapist. Sometimes, like meds, you need to try different therapists to find the one you vibe with.
I personally read what your therapist said as, “You’re too far gone and I don’t want to be... |
Whenever I think back to when I was younger and happy, I realise that my life is worse now and itl never be how it once was.
Just found my old Pokémon pearl cartridge in a box and looking at it made me remember how much I enjoyed life when I was 7, now I feel like shit | Yeah I know what you mean. I think of nice memories from the past and see how it will never be like that again :( |
Maybe this has been talked about in other posts but i'm new to reddit and for once wanted to be transparent about my brain.
Does anyone else feel like your head is a fog? or like your living a video game (controlling all the moments and decisions but not emotionally attached) The feeling of un-motivation, detachment ... | I used to be a person who is NEVER late from anything, good at school and overall had good focus. Now I can't focus at school. Ive been late a lot and missed classes. In fact I quit my studies. I just don't really care, but it just gives me more anxiety when I actually realize I'm late when it's really not part of who ... |
Normies won’t ever fucking understand. They don’t care if you have no friends , no girlfriend, borderline insanity from loneliness, no money, no direction in life and no hope for the future. They love to virtue signal and pretend they care. |
I walk. I talk to myself (argue, sometimes). I hike and I write. These are all things that work for me. I think the operative idea is the action of some sort. Do something that relaxes or inspires.
BUT... that is for me. It works for me, but may not work for others. If you have a hobby, dive into it when y... |
I feel confused and slow nearly all the time. I get stuck on the most simple mathematics. I sometimes need to check things like what does 4+19 equal to. It takes me ages to get jokes. Sometimes I wonder if 1000 grams equal to 1kg and google it.
Ive been depressed for as long as I can remember. I used to think I was a ... | Yes, I experience it. I’m not as sharp as I used to be. I’m 32F. Even simple conversation, I have a delayed reaction trying to process what they are saying. |
I'm 14
my mom doesn't take my mental health seriously and ignores what I've tried to tell her. And the reason why I want to commit suicide? Because of my life, my family, school. My mom says everyday that I'm useless, dumb, why can't I be like my brother. She says I'm a disappointment, why didn't see listen to the drea... | You gotta get out of that environment asap |
I was quite shocked at their reactions. I sorta expected a very stigmatized reaction for some reason. The first professor blew up on me in immediate concern for my well-being. He too had actually been through similar circumstances when he was younger. And the second professor, he had a close friend who was suicidal and... | That's really good to hear that there are people in this world who know how to talk about it without freaking the eff out or invalidating people. Glad you have those people in your life. |
And felt like that is the most apt description I've ever heard of what it feels like do you agree? | Whenever I was younger and when I was at my lowest I always said “I want to go home.” And then as I got older, it’s continued… and I’ve realized, even if I’m home, this place is never home. |
I was bullied in elementary school, and I always used to tell myself that it's only temporary, that life will be good later, like in the movies. All I have to do is wait until I'm 16, I'm gonna have friends, have a girlfriend, go to the parties and gradually get into life as an adult.
I'm 27 now. No friends, no girlfr... | Yeah same. I'm 31 got bullied a lot in school, outside of school too. And after some light fb stalking, all the popular kids are still living the dream, great jobs, travelling, loads of friends. Agreed, not like the movies at all :(
Thank you for all your replies, really means a lot :) |
I can't go on. Im after finishing a 26oz bottle of vodka hoping to numb the pain even a little but it fucking ddidn't work. Im in a secluded parking lot in my car staring at my gun and ignoring all 100+ missed calls and shit I cant deal with it. Im going to kill myself within the hour.
Suppose I feel like I had to wr... | Hi guys. I want to update you. I would just like to say the support that this post has provided me is incredible and I want to thank you each and every one of you. I was only monitoring this post for 5 minutes in a drunken haze before I closed my laptop.
Last night I was going to kill myself, I wasn't scared, I wasn't... |
So, basically, my school is crap.
Teachers don't care about me being left out or bullied half of my time here. I didn't think the students did, until today.
There was an odd number of girls today since one was off, and we had to go into pairs. Of course, none wanted to go with me and neither did any one of the boys. ... | What an absolute legend, this man. He deserves orange arrows. Serious note though, you're one lucky duck to have people looking out for you like that. |
Do you ever try sharing your depression with friends or family and see their support but eventually you stop venting and start lying saying your okay when you’re still a mess . It’s kinda like yeah support from people is nice but you just feel like you should just keep distance.
I do start feeling guilty every time I ... | No matter how supportive others are, the way this bitch depression works is you get tired of your own shit and, as others point it out in their comments too, you feel like you're just wasting others' time. So you start keeping shit to yourself, maybe even lying that you're fine now. Which will, in turn, start eating at... |
Normal folks don't like being around mentally ill people because they don't know how to deal with them, not because they hate them or anything... people have told me I'm too serious or I give off "bad energy". I don't blame anyone for avoiding me, I'm not saying I'm a bad person but I just can't crack the code that is ... | Been my entire life honestly, but it gets exhausting on both sides so it's not suprising that people don't wanna deal with us. I guess this is why people go to a therapist which i would recommend, not like i know id rather be in hell than figure out my problems. What a world lad |
Growing up I had never really been depressed and always tried to look at the positives, but 2 days ago I watched my girlfriend die. She was my soul mate, we connected instantly when we met at work. I had currently been in a toxic relationship when we met so we didn't date until a year later. But we instantly became fr... | I'm really really sorry for your loss |
The feeling that you get when you know that there will be an end to end kills my sadness and makes me completely calm. It sadly gives me hope so it’s the only thing that’s keeping me going, knowing that I can end it completely. | I never used to think of it like this to be honest with you but it kinda is something to look forward to when your dead that’s it no more pain or suffering just blackness |
Even despite an official diagnosis, I constantly think, anytime I want to share my thoughts, that I’m just desperately seeking attention and being dramatic for the sake of getting attention and reassurance from my loved ones. It makes me feel guilty the moment I open my mouth to talk about how I’m feeling. Anyone else?... | Even though I have been put in a psych ward for a suicide attempt, I still feel this way. I never reach out for help because I don’t want people to think I’m using my depression to get attention or as an excuse for not performing well at work or school. |
I'm a sophomore in college right now and I am constantly surrounded by wise people... People who did things with their lives in high school and didn't waste it away crying, starving themselves, neglecting their work... They were able to partake in extracurriculars in spite of nervousness or not being nervous at all. Th... | I dunno if depression set me back or if I am just an aimless loser. I have had very little growth since high school, I didn't have a lot of growth before that. I'm basically emotionally stunted with the maturity and desires of a 10 year old. |
and then you try to get up to do something for once but as soon as you sit up on the bed you feel no energy whatsoever so you just lie back down and quietly wish for death lol | Feedback loop from hell.
But you don't have enough energy for death, so you just chill and pray to a god you kind of sort of don't really believe in and ask for deliverance? Definitely have days like that, lol. |
Do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and think about death? You think about the consequences of it and what people's views are on it. Maybe you have even considered suicide. You brush it off, most likely. That is what most people do. People are scared. I am scared. Who would actually want to die though, right? Th... | I feel this 100% it's like my depression wants me to die, but my anxiety holds me back. It's like the only thing keeping me alive is my anxiety. |
Can't go into details too much for privacy sake but I'm really falling apart. My relationship, my friendships, my happiness, all gone. All because I acted upon my own anxieties and panicked.
I wish I had listened to what people told me to do, maybe my life wouldn't be all broken.
I want to cry everyday. I want to d... | Don't leave your daughter.. Be there for her.. She needs you. |
They replied with, “We’re all sad, but we’re alive, and that means something.” Fuck you. I’m not just fucking sad. You don’t want to fucking die when you’re just sad. I am fucking suffering. This isn’t fucking living. This is fucking prison. | Ugh, responses like that are why I don’t tell people anything. |
It feels like everyday is the same, the same battle with myself. Everything might be changing around me but for me I cannot tell the difference between yesterday, last week or even last month. | Honest to goodness it feels being stuck in hibernation/low-power mode. |
R.I.P Robin Williams | This is mostly true, up to a certain point were depression stops you from being nice. |
Because I ran away from abusive parents. Never thought I'd actually do it but here I am. I don't want to return. There it's pure hell. It's agonizing to live there. Now I am outside and I will live on the streets. My number one fear became alive. It's incredible how fears and the thing you don't want most to happen act... | What city are you in? I have an extra room if you need shelter. In Chicago ❤️ |
Anyone else feel the same way?
EDIT: Thanks for all the responses, guys, for once I don't feel alone :) | I always feel like I'm a sponge, I suck the life out of everyone and everything |
i wish i could die in my sleep peacefully im so sick of waking up. | Same. Or stay in my dreams where things are at least interesting. |
I am struggling so hard with being able to focus but when I sit to try and focus my brain rolls out all these horrible thoughts and I just want to evaporate | I need constant distraction to stop the thoughts, but I don't really care for most distractions anymore. So I'm just trapped in my head most of the day in absolute pain.
I can't even shower for few minutes without being mindfucked by awful thoughts. Because it's a low effort thing and there is nothing for my brain to ... |
Word? That's the magic elixir? Damn. I wonder why I never thought of that, mom! | "You need to go out more, it will help" you always get that kind of thing from someone who has never been through it. |
I also feel like I'm getting judged for it and excluded from family events. | Yeah I hate everyone and everything annoys the fuck out of me. I’m angry all the time. |
Don't know where to start. But currently I'm in airbnbs using what little savings I have, trying not to think about commiting suicide. I used my stimulus check to purchase a firearm just for the peace of mind of knowing I could do it whenever I was ready, and when I realized how calm that made me, I decided to post her... | I'm realizing now how absurdly long this post is compared to the others I've read. I apologize and thank you so very much for anyone taking the time to read it. I hope to whoever is reading this, that you have an absolutely amazing day and an even better year. Again thank you |
I used to distract myself by watching tv shows to escape from reality but my attention span has gotten so fucking bad I can’t even do that anymore. Why can’t I just die in my sleep and put an end to this miserable existence. I doubt anybody is gonna read this but it’s 3 am and I just needed to rant. | I feel this post. I feel like every move I make the ice is just crackin' underneath my feet. Like I feel like I'm driving myself insane trying to piece myself together. But what if my puzzle has missing parts? Maybe I don't have a point I'm just destined to be lost forever. A depressed wanderer with no home. |
Like washing, eating, staying on schedule, and so on.. It just doesn't matter. I think I could go on not washing for a month if my guilty conscience didn't tell me to at least act like a human being. | I know what you mean. Sometimes, I only bathe once a week. Polar opposite of how I used to be |
Just felt like venting. No one knows how I scored, including my friends and parents. Everyone thinks I’m effortlessly and naturally smart. I wish they could see how much I’m struggling. | I'm doing 2 fucking units this semester, and I have so much free time as a result, instead of being productive I just sleep all day and browse reddit all night, if I somehow manage to pass these 2 units it'll be just barely. Fuck this is supposed to be my last semester technically but with all the units i've failed alr... |
He gave me a big hug and told me he imagined my face being blue and my body cold when he got to the apartment.
I feel so bad... I know that I'm not doing well but I was convinced that I was hiding it well from everybody around me. I don't want to drag anyone else down with me. But that just makes me want to push peop... | Now that you know that your dad knows, maybe he can help and support you? I know you feel bad for making him worry so much, but this might be a good thing to have happened. Just my 2c. |
I hate being alive. I fucking hate it. I'm miserable all the fucking time and no matter how hard I try to make things better for myself it never fucking works. I'm just so tired of everything and I'm sick of trying my best when I know it's all going to amount to nothing. There's no point in anything, no point in findin... | Trust me i would have given my dad a condom if i could go back. |
Hey all. A couple of years back I had some very long and intense bouts of depression that seemed to cripple me completely. A significant part of my experience was apathy; I knew somehow that I was in a lot of pain, but I couldn't feel anything most days. When I could, it was anger. I isolated myself from everyone and l... | Wow, that's poignant and lovely. Totally captures the experience. Thanks for posting it. |
Most mornings I wake up feeling absolutely mentally content, then within about 5 minutes all the shit just hits me.
A mixture of anxiety and depression.
I feel that cozy feeling mentally when I wake up but it dissapears. I used to feel like that inside all day long. | Honestly, not even that. Most days, the moment I wake up, the first thought is wishing I didn't. |
One day i just know i will do it. I don’t quite know when because i still hold on to the tiniest bit of hope that things will get better. But i feel so worn down and broken, after giving my all to others and emotional trauma from my childhood I don’t have much energy or will to go on. The dark thoughts creep up on me e... | i literally just said the same thing in another post. i want to say something that will help but i literally have nothing because i feel the exact same way. but it helps knowing i’m not the only person who feels this way. the only thing that keeps me going is my dream of having the life i want to have. i have the tinie... |
I hate that I am this way. I push people away, but then complain about being lonely.
edit: Just want to say thanks for all the comments. It makes me feel a lot better that others feel the same way as me and that we can all help each other out | Same, I don't mind being lonely. But I wish if I could be lonely with just one single person. All I ever needed is, for a single person to care, to be in love with and be loved by that person, be wanted. I asked for too much, so I got nothing. |
Anybody else get like this?
I dread spring/summer months. I hate sunny days, I feel drained, anxious and depressed when the weather is ‘nice’.
I love night time, and rainy dark weather. I feel so settled when it’s dark.
If rain is forecast I get so excited. I love sitting outside in the rain just doing nothing. | I agree, I love nighttime and rainy weather! It makes people want to stay indoors which I get, but I also like driving when it’s raining. There’s this tunnel downtown that all the highways merge together and then split off, and it’s always lit up. Driving through there at night on its own is really cool. Driving throug... |
For normal people with healthy brains (honestly do those even exist anymore?), whenever things in their life are going wrong, they do what they can to fix it and get better. For those of us who are depressed and do not have that luxury, we've lost interest in caring for ourselves.
There's no clear path on how to fix o... | I really can relate to this as well, especially the other people talking about their futures part because it doesn’t matter and you can’t care when you feel this way. Sorry you’re going through it too |
99% of the time when I don’t mention suicide? It’s just a phase and I need a “reality check”. Thanks mom.
Edit: I see some of the comments thinking I’m a teenager going through a “phase” and I’d like to clarify that I’m 24 and I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD, depression and anxiety. I have a therapist, am on antidepress... | My mom does the same thing. Do you have any other adults in your life (don’t have to be relatives) that you can go to? |
I actually felt suicidal today. Really and truly.
I haven’t told anyone I know and don’t think I will.
I’ve found that being vulnerable with some of the people who I’m supposed to be closest with only gives them more ammunition to hurt me.
And the ones I do trust, well I don’t want to feel like a burden on them.
Bu... | I had an opposite experience. When I tried to call the hotline, I genuinely hoped they would help as I was in a horrible state and was not thinking clearly outside of sadness and the desire to end it.
I called the hotline and the way they asked me questions made me feel like they were trying to invalidate why I calle... |
i feel so stupid for this. i absolutely HATE people looking through my things and belongings, and i know that when i die it will be done. so i haven’t killed myself. my mom has already gone through my shit a few times so i don’t know why it even matters now. i just want to disappear and that be it.
i hope this makes ... | I totally get that. Kinda weird some of the small things that keep us going. |
I am depression. The person I used to be is gone, there is no going back from this.
I'm just sat In the hospital while my mum speaks to cahms, trying to hide my neck from all the other patients. I'm desperate to leave the hospital and get home but I know I'm gonna try again eventually.
I've been on fluoxetine (prozac)... | Definitely tell the doctor that you want to try new meds. There are SO MANY different types out there. I've been through three and am trying to change after years of success - I'm on a downward slide and need help. It's okay to admit you need help. I have MDD, diagnosed at 20, but lifelong sufferer. I will get better, ... |
At one time, I feel all right.
A moment later, I feel like I'm the worst (fill in the brackets) again. | I feel this too. I feel perfectly alright and the smallest of things could go wrong and it sets off a trigger somewhere and suddenly I'm once again thinking of everything that went wrong and could go wrong and drowning in a downward spiral already... |
I don't have a lot to add. I'm depressed, I guess? This has been going on for decades. I don't know anymore. Am I really depressed anymore, or has it turned into something else? I hate being awake. I wake up every day in a state of shock, overcome with dread. I sleep as much as possible, but I have always had insomnia,... | I believe that people are comforted by the thought that they could commit suicide if they wanted because it gives them control over an aspect of their life that they believe is filled with many things they can't control. And it can be comforting knowing you control something in life even if that something is a terrible... |
Ive stopped talking to a lot of people last year and i really dont feel ok. Today i just havent moved or showered and my mood is just so low today. Usually im ok but today i keep thinking of how many ppl arent alone and have lots of relationships and date a lot. And for like 6 years ive done so little interacting and i... | Same to you. Valentines day sucks... everything sucks when it has some bullshit emotion you're supposed to feel attached to it. Valentines day is worse cause it's like, oh also, you're supposed to have this magical person in your life. There's a Lenny Bruce quote that I won't even come close to getting right, but it's ... |
and then you just stay in bed and browse Reddit and pointless crap the whole day and then feel guilty for procrastinating. But then you promise yourself to do it tomorrow or some other day and it happens again and the cycle just keeps repeating and you just keep feeling guilty again and again | Every day of my life. |
I have very little energy for the day by default, but I found that talking with someone quickly drains me and depletes whatever energy i do have. After just a little while i feel like I can barely talk anymore, i feel literally like I'm losing air and then i basically have to force myself to speak. Oh well. | Most people yes. Once in a long while I'll meet someone where talking to them has the opposite effect on me. It seems like they're people who are wired similar to the way I am. But most people always feel like they have minds that are like a big heavy blunt instrument and talking to them is like getting beaten over the... |
I'll pick up my bass guitar. Play a few notes. Put it down.
I'll think about what video game I want to play. Play a few minutes. Lose interest.
I'll watch Youtube videos for game development. Get overwhelmed. Quit.
I'll listen to music and get inspired to do something and then in a few minutes lose that inspiration.... | man, I did not except to come across something so relatable on accident. I really understand where you're coming from, depression makes it really hard to have any motivation let alone actual want or gratification from hobbies. You're not alone in this dude, sorry you gotta deal with it non the less :( |
I've never hugged anyone before...
I just want to know what the warmth of another person feels like...I'm so tired of being alone.
I'm so pathetic, I'm laying here trying to sleep and i just can't stop crying like a dumbass, hugging a blanket. | It's not pathetic at all - you're not a dumba$$ for wanting a hug and feeling lonely. Human touch, physical contact, is so vital that it can derail someone's life quite easily. I know it's nowhere near the same thing, but here are some virtual hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗. I'm so sorry that you've never hugged anyone before. 😰 |
Ever since leaving school and entering “the real world”, I have realised I’m just not cut out for it and honestly I wish I was never born.
I’m in my mid 20s now and the thought of possibly living another 50+ years until I die of old age, terrifies me. 50+ years of anxiety, dread and self-hatred...what kind of life is ... | Yeah, I've felt that way since I was 10 or 11. It was first the nagging feeling that I was too sensitive and I'd never be anything. Now it is just the dull, empty reality. |
Does anybody feel like they have to kill themselves to prove to people that they ACTUALLY have depression and they aren’t crying out for attention ? | When people don't take me seriously I always wonder this. What would it take? Me actually going through with it? |
It’s no ones fault but my own. I pushed people away and now I have no friends, I don’t even know how to socialize anymore. I’m too anxious to even try and make friends. But at the same time I don’t want any friends. I like being a loner. But I know that I’m never gonna be happy because there’s no one to love me and I c... | I feel you man, I don't want to be depressed, yet at the same time, depression is addicting. |
Honestly I am so damn boring. Like.. its a main reason why I don't date anyone and never will. Its a reason why I have no friends and never will. Nothing really interests me so I don't have much to talk about. I suck at all conversations and once again I'm so boring. When i was a kid I had a personality I was funny and... | You legit just described my entire personality. |
There was more blood than toothpaste in my mouth by the end but hopefully I can keep doing it. The pain felt good.
edit: whoah that blew up... | I used to have pretty severe depression (though admittedly it felt more like grief after losing a loved one) and I've found that, even though I'll occasionally dip back into a funk every once in while, *self care has been one of the biggest ways to prevent any funk from stretching for too long.*
Shower everyday. Shave... |
It’s so weird that feeling nothing is the new normal for many , I used to think people were being super dramatic but that is really what it feels like . I think when I feel “ better “ , it’s not really like happiness , it’s more so that empty feeling that could pass for happiness / normality . I keep trying to force te... | To be honest, I always felt like that until awful things happened and the sadness and rage was so deep reality felt painful. And after feeling things, the pain would just harden me up more, trapping all of the problems under a thicker wall of numbness. Neither are fun options to me, it’s just like a sea of negativity t... |
I'm sad most of the time, and when I'm not, I'm empty. I've put into motion plans that I think will make me happy again, but they'll take years, and I'm tired of waiting. How do I withstand my life until it's all better? | Live moment to moment. I struggle with depression. And the only way I've found to feel happy is to live in the happy moments while they are happening. It's hard but I live for the sweet moments. Try to find one good thing that happened every day. You found a good parking space,found a seat on the bus, a penny on the st... |
I feel like nothing makes me happy; even when I'm laughing and enjoying something like a movie or some shit I still just feel incredibly upset and depressed. Sometimes I actually feel worse. | I feel that too. It's kind of like a brief glimmer of joy and laughter, only for your brain to remind you that you are worthless. It's like it's telling me that I don't deserve happiness.
You're not alone. |
Seeing my colleagues at work everyday makes me wonder, just.. how do they have so much drive and purpose in life? what does it feel like to be so motivated? Its been such a struggle trying to find a reason to live
Edit: I'm referring to having a normal and healthy coping mechanism, which is not easily achieved for peo... | Lots of people say there's no objective normal... I agree, but there is at least a subjective normal. A "smooth" point where you can say "I'm okay". I imagine OP is referring to that. And yeah I do think about that. Just today I had a void day where I so desperately wanted to snap out of the fogginess, put some thought... |
I see this here and other subs a lot. People vent about how shitty their lives are going or how they’re feeling (honestly; is anyone having a good time right now?). And the answers are usually: go to therapy. On the one hand, yea therapy is good for mental health shit. But it’s not that easy to actually get in. Especia... | Therapy doesn’t help much for me but I still do it. I don’t know but being asked “ so how does that make you feel?” 20 times in an hour doesn’t provide me with any great insights. I’m mostly depressed due to external factors which I have little control over. |
Anyone else feel like this? You don’t want to end your own life, you don’t have the urge to do it. You just hate life. You wish you didn’t have it. You wish you didn’t exist. It’s a strange thing. Numb. | I’m at that point quite often. It’s like, I don’t want to kill myself, but I’d welcome death so long as I don’t suffer. Just that feeling where you’re kind of numb to the bullshit life brings. |
Anybody else have this? Suicide just feels completely pointless. Infact, everything does. People try to cheer you up and all they do is tell you to "be practical" and to "stop being dramatic" when you're not even showing any emotion the first place and all you're doing is lying there like a dead fish. Killing yourself ... | You need to find your own reason why.
Life is completely pointless and it always will be. Nothing you or anyone else in this world does matters. Everything will keep going forward.
The only thing you can do is find your own reason to be here and keep going forward. It’s not easy... it’s really hard actually. By som... |
My dad died when I was 11 and mom died two weeks ago from an incident with a neighbor. We buried her yesterday. Its easter weekend. My girlfriend wants to go to a party but I just want to chill. I don't know if its a good idea to go or not. Shes understanding and will stay home with me. I just think its too soon to be ... | It might be too soon. Just take it easy for awhile. Be careful you don’t isolate yourself too much.
My condolences. I hope that you’re able to find some peace of mind soon. If you ever need to talk, I’m willing to listen. Stay strong, my friend. |
When I wake up after 8 hours of decent sleep I’m still exhausted. All day, everyday. Not just “tired”. Exhausted.
“Exercise helps!” yeah I’m sure it does but I can’t even get out of bed.
“Drink water and eat healthy!” again, I can’t even get out of bed.
I’m guessing the next thing would be “you just have to use sel... | Yeah same. I sleep for 12 hours and after 4 hours of being awake I can hardly keep my eyes open. |
I want life to BE better not to GET better, I want it "better" NOW, I don't want to wait for fate. I'm done waiting.
besides the future is uncertain, it could very well get better or it could get even worse, and most of the times it may be out of your reach. | It’s fucking tough living through depression. I hate it. It’s been like this for too long and yet I deny all the help that’s offered to me... or all the opportunities I get to say that I’m depressed. My mind is conditioned to feeling depressed. |
it's such a selfish selfish thought and Im trash for even thinking it.
obviously I do not want my mum to suffer through it OR for her life to be taken, but right now she's the only reason I'm still alive and I feel so trapped, im just wishing for any way out now
............................................................ | No. When I was really suicidal I would hope for a gas leak or car accident to kill my family so then I could kill myself. Or I would hope I would have a fatal accident so they wouldn't become suicide survivors. This kind of fantasy just goes under suicidal ideation. It's fucked up and I hope you are able to combat thes... |
It's my 17th birthday today and first of all none of my friends except 3 wished me. At home my stupid dad was to drunk to acknowledge me and I am sitting here on my birthday in tears, feeling alone.
\*Edit: Thanks a lot for all the nice comments, it is crazy how people on the interent can be so kind and it has meant a... | Happy Birthday |
i dont think about much anymore. the things i do think about are unimportant.
because of this, i dont have anything intelligent to say. im not funny or clever or smart. i probably seem very stupid and shallow and boring and i dont like this.
i wish i had the motivation to find things interesting and not be so one-dim... | Yeah, I used to be thinking about stuff I like all the time, wrestling, movies or video games, whatever it was.
These days I can barely muster enough energy to care or think about them. My mind is just either empty or drifts towards thoughts that make me feel like shit and I fucking hate it. |
16f ... cant manage to make friends and get overwhelmed with online friends :(.
Well i have this teddybear which is a lil bit taller than me and i pretend that he is my imaginary friend (called thao btw... i dunno why) so i watch YouTube videos with him, talk to him when i'm sad/suicidal and so on . Whenever i'm in s... | I talk to myself, like I talk an other side of me and I have conversations with myself when I feel sad or If I’m lonely |
I'm clinically depressed, and have been on Wellbutrin for about 4 months now. It certainly evened me out a bit as I'm not as mopey, but when I get home I don't want to do anything but either sleep, or play video games.
Now I'm not looking for any praise because this is something that every adult should do, but I've l... | Man you're wrong, this IS a big deal, congrats for this ! cleaning and tidying your house is an important part of fighting, and certainly not the easiest |
I was sorting out my documents on my laptop and found this file, I wrote it a couple of years ago and reading it now makes me realise how far I've come. Had counselling since then and so much exercise, socialising and growing. Made me feel a lot better about the current funk i've just worked through.
I haven't been ta... | Dude thank you I needed this so much today thank you. A friend took her life last night and I spent the whole day with her family. When I attempted one of the main things going threw my head was now everybody else will feel like me, since then I don't want that for anybody EVER and after today I don't know how that tho... |
I’ve been having this feeling for months now and it’s been making me feel even more depressed | All the time. Actually it's more like I want to stop existing but I don't want to die. |
I do. I know it's a lot easier than getting stuff done and I wouldn't be able to get half the stuff I want done done anyways. | Doing it rn. |
Seriously- I can’t tell even if I’ve known them forever. Do they like me? Or are they just too nice to tell me how much they don’t. Today is a bad day and I’m just obsessing over everything. | I believe the term is Distorted Thinking. It takes many forms, but one is making assumptions without evidence. In addition, depression makes you see things in a negative light. This can lead to mistrust of other people and yourself. You assume that others aren't sincere, and you don't see yourself as worthy of their fr... |
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This statement makes no sense to someone who doesn't suffer from depression. I wish I was never born. I wish that this would all end. But I can't bring my self to end it. I want to not exist, but for some reason dying scares me. Not death whatever lies beyond I will deal with when I get there, but it's the step between... | I think a lot of people with depression feel that way! |
First off, what a stupid fucking question to ask anyway. What do you want to hear as the interviewer when you ask that question? That I'm indifferent and stagnant enough to stay with your company that long assuming you hire me or that I'm ambitiously arrogant enough to in five years plan on being well passed this shi... | I hate being forced to come up some kind of long term plan, I don't even know what i'm going to be doing in 5 months |
I don’t enjoy anything anymore. I dread waking up and I can’t wait to go home to sleep just so I don’t have to think anymore. I use to have more friends and go out all the time but now all I do is work, see my boyfriend, study and maybe see my friends once a week. My life is so meaningless I feel as if it isint going a... | So, I have a theory. A person only has a finite amount of fucks when he or she is born. Over the course of one's life, he or she may choose to give a fuck.
I, as a child, gave way too many fucks. I was running on fuck fumes by the time I was 20. I'm totally out of fucks to give now that I'm in my 30s. I'd like to giv... |
I wish I still felt that full-body joy/euphoria like I did as a kid. Waking up on Christmas morning, making eye contact with a boy I had a crush on during class, playing video games with my dad and winning the level. Everything feels so dulled and flat now, it makes me wonder what the point is. I’m spending money to go... | Childhood is when we were happy and didn’t know that |
I had a conversation with my granddad yesterday and I basically told him how stressed and down I was feeling. He said I shouldn’t let anything take my joy away but I told him my joy was long gone. He then proceeded to tell me that life can’t be that bad. I felt so invalidated. It’s like as soon as you open up a little,... | I feel that our society emphasizes so much about living long, but society does not emphasizes living a good life enough. |
My depression never goes away even though I've cycled through different therapists and medication for 7+ years now. Everything is much worse than before. The slightest inconvience makes me think of ending it all. I've tried 3 times and obs failed :D. I'm only 20 and I feel like an old man who has seen it all. I have ha... | I think i understand you in most of the points. |
I feel trapped, I don’t know what to anymore.
Only thing I can think of lately is just killing myself, it’s all what’s on my mind nowadays.
I honestly try to get out and get a job, but it’s impossible to get a job when you don’t even wanna work lol and I get interviews but never get a call back.
I try to go out and... | I’m a senior in college. I haven’t completed any of my assignments, probably because everyday I tell myself “Eh it’s ok, you’re gonna kill yourself soon and you won’t have to worry about this stuff anymore”
I think about Suicide almost every day, every minute it feels like and I don’t know how to stop. It’s just so co... |
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