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Hi everyone, I'm giving writing a go to try and cope with my PTSD. I was recommended to start a blog on an app called Vocal, you get paid per 1000 views, but that doesn't really matter to me, it'd be a cool bonus though. This blog is for people who need someone to relate to, so maybe they don't feel alone anymore or th... | minimum | 2,797 |
I lack a support system. My mom is dead. My father lives over a thousand miles away and does not care about me. My ex gf left months ago. I now have limited/no friends. Okay now my sad story is over. I do not know what to do. I thought making money and working hard would make me happy and make the people around me happ... | mild | 21,250 |
Like I am missing something When I have no will to live it feels like there is a hole in my heart | severe | 23,610 |
I used to be very passionate about helping people. I had so much optimism and good will in me, knowing that I am not an expert I still hoped that I could cheer people up. I remeber trying to put words together so they would not sound cheesy but also be understanding. Sometimes you do not know what to say. What could yo... | severe | 27,606 |
At first, I could still do some short work but by 2015, it was a no go. I applied for SSI and SSDI in Dec, 2015. Denial after denial. I had a lawyer. Final hearing in front of the ALJ was April 3rd, 2018. | moderate | 1,622 |
I always have disagreements with my mom. I hate that when we argue, she thinks she is always right. I feel like she is a big big bully. Last night, i raised my voice because she was raising her voice at me. Then i puked like 1 tablespoon of blood in front of her. Today, she brought me to the doctor to check if i have u... | mild | 13,808 |
Nearly a year into my gender transition: What I've learned. MtF : I thought I escaped the depression. From the first dose of my Spiro and Estrogen I felt a huge weight off of my shoulders. It was time to be myself and thrive. I enjoyed it. I no longer needed to hide. After a couple of months I thought I'd try dating. O... | moderate | 9,036 |
And I don't ask for the nightmares to drain me of all energy and make me feel worse throughout the day the harder I try to be normal. I was planning on seeking counselling without my parent's knowledge for this condition once I get to university and get settled, but now I'm wondering if I'm going to be told the same th... | severe | 59 |
I reject my diagnosis : My doctor diagnosed me with severe depression and I reject the diagnosis. I don’t think I’m depressed, I’m quite a happy person. I’m just alone and wish I had better environment. I can also be unproductive at times but I’m trying to work out how to solve that. She prescribed me with Citalopram, ... | severe | 12,394 |
i be fine 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗺 𝗶𝘀 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗽𝘂𝘁𝗲𝗱 | moderate | 35,691 |
I guess this is my suicide note.So my name is Yasir Hanif. I use the alias Daniel Steel because I have been using it since 2015 and think it is cool. I am Muslim. I am also homosexual. I am 17 years old - i was born in 13 September 2003 - and I have decided that death is only the last option for me.Life has been pretty... | severe | 31,917 |
i attempted suicide and I am wishing I was successful because now I am stuck in a rut they took every knife and medicine away from me and idk how to kill myself now The only thing keeping me from killing myself is that I do not have access to anything harmful | severe | 26,821 |
That is it I guess. Walk Into a silent river peacefully to never have to come out of it while violin plays in the background I just want to rest | mild | 21,779 |
We had 2 classes together, so we spent a few hours together most days working through problem sets. This next semester, I won't even have that. I'll probably be in more isolation this time around. Any tips are appreciated. Thanks! | minimum | 3,345 |
In my mid 20's and worked shitty jobs all my life in my locality. I do not have any prospects, and no pathway to something to drag me out. do not even have a general area to pursue, which makes it difficult to even get motivated or hopeful. The past year has been even more isolating and difficult, and I feel like a she... | mild | 19,342 |
Word of the day: Clairboyance, n. the ability to perceive the future as bright and fluffy | minimum | 40,985 |
Not sure wether to take it or not (Overdose) : I'm currently sitting on my bed with 6 pills of 5mg tranxene in my hand... the amount my doctor told me take was only 5mg based on not enough evidence.. but that didn't seem to help.. so i did my own research and found out that the maximum safe amount i should take in one... | severe | 12,381 |
I am 16 almost 17, and I do not really know if I have suicidal thoughts, but I have no friends probably because of my default mental state of negativity. I see logical fallacies on a daily basis, especially when arguing with people. Right now is just one of those times where I just do not want to live anymore, I feel l... | severe | 29,774 |
Why. Why is it always me. No matter who I find or who I fall in love with they always end up using me for my body. I am not just a pretty face and a nice body. I thought I found someone I was going to spend a long time with but no. All he wants to see is my body. We had nice times together but all I am to everyone is j... | severe | 27,612 |
I just need tips on how to get out of this mental state of avoidance. I am tempted to get back into CBT for low self esteem because my therapist said if it got bad again, I could go back any time. (I had 6 sessions before) Is anyone else in the same situation or has anyone got any experience? I know I posted something ... | severe | 1,170 |
Anyone here work at a place where it is atcually ok to take mental health days off? I am curious because the stigma attached to mental health still feels so unaccepted in todays society. All in all I am looking for support as my current mental state is in the shitter. Its seriously fucked up that you can take sick days... | mild | 22,754 |
This is going to be a long (and not first) post on this subreddit.I am a 22 year old man, and even though I do not like it either when these posts start with a list of things people do not like about themselves (they suffer from eucharist syndrome I am going to), I believe these are in relation with my problems. I am g... | mild | 13,237 |
Sorry this is a rant. I need to take it off my chest. I work for the government in a important area and I just want to say, it does fucking matter where you work. Especially in the government. They are people who are leaching off others, no training (even though this is a very important area to help citizens) no staff,... | mild | 21,893 |
I am on summer break right now and this is probably the loneliest/lowest I have ever felt. My friends are not exactly the most sociable so I have spent most of the summer alone, and I am so tired of being alone. I start university in two months and I am trying to hold on until then with the hope of meeting new people b... | severe | 31,510 |
I need therapy but I'm too scared to ask for it. : I want to tell my parents I need therapy and how depressed I am, but they'd just say I have it better than so many people and that I'm lazy; that's the response I get any time I mention something about my mental health. Also, if I tell my school, they'd notify my paren... | moderate | 3,638 |
I have been falling deeper and deeper into depression recently and now the only person that was keeping me above the water all this time is about to start dating someone and even though they are not together yet, I already feel like he replaced me with her.. I never talked about my issues with him (even tho he knows I ... | mild | 18,460 |
Sorry in advance if some sentences do not make any sense as I am not a native speaker. Most of my english comes from memes and series. I am 25 years old male, big loser with no education and living in a shit hole. I have been depressed since I have been concious, and the pain has been gradually increasing to a point th... | severe | 23,161 |
I thought that sounded fun so I agreed. The whole way there I was so nervous and anxious. And during was kind of fine but I was fairly scared. it ended up with my friend also having sex with me and I agreed but I was so wasted. Afterwards I felt so sick and repulsed and freaked out by what had happened. | moderate | 1,666 |
This is quality shit posting. | minimum | 39,910 |
Apologies in advance if this post is long, Ill try to have all the detail in as few words as I can.Quick background: I am about to be a junior in college, good home life, a lot of friends, very intelligent, plenty of struggles with anxiety but never anything too extreme.In September of 2020, I suffered a head injury pl... | mild | 20,573 |
Have never been a talker. It is who I am since I was a kid.Surprisingly, this offends my mom, who is fully aware of my condition, to such extent. She would try non-stop to chit chat. My depression is making me tried enough to find something to eat yet the attempt continues. I usually reply with short sentence or just a... | mild | 16,955 |
it is pretty much set in stone that I am going to end my life myself and it seems like soon. I just have no idea when.And really that does not matter to me at all, I just wish that I could get out of it, but by whatever cosmic contract I signed to allow my soul entrance to this world through this body, I am GOING to en... | severe | 26,762 |
I have never been the type to keep things dirty. I like organizing and planning. But these past weeks, I cannot even bring myself to clean up my room. That usually end up with me being scolded by my parents and even tho they know I have depression, they do not think doing daily tasks should bother me this much, I am ju... | mild | 19,788 |
I cannot do this anymore. I am at my breaking point. I cannot talk about this to my family because I do not want them to worry. I cannot talk to my mother about this because I already tried. I recall my mom saying something like "we are all depressed here." Those are not the words I wanted to hear. Hearing those words ... | severe | 28,511 |
& see if anyone would feel bad about hurting me, yelling at me, abandoning me, neglecting me, & abusing me. & i hate to say it but i genuinely want people to feel like absolute shit about me being dead.. & finally see how much pain they put me through. I want them to know that THEIR words & THEIR ac... | mild | 12,703 |
I just want to know what its like, just fucking once. I have gone my whole fucking life without it. My dad hit me more times than he hugged me. My mum did not give two shits about me, tried to kill herself 3 times before I even turned 12 just to prove that point. And that is not to mention all the other shit they both ... | mild | 19,100 |
Wow I have the most talented community. Give this a ❤️ or be cursed for 7 years. https://t.co/xcpzYF2PgF | minimum | 41,740 |
3 years without my cousins and there be nothing i want more in life than to be with her | moderate | 34,755 |
I wish I would die or someone else would take my place. I should be happy I have a son on the way. But I am not I am trying to be better for him but I am a bad person. Ill lose him in the end and will be alone. This is dumb I am a terrible person. He deserves better but what if I cannot do it. I cannot keep my emotions... | mild | 19,176 |
Despite that, all the following is true: * We have both called each other BF/GF and referred to there being a relationship * We have had (oral, but not PIV yet) sex a few times, slept together naked, and have had many intimate conversations, including the last time we saw each other * We both mentioned early on that we... | minimum | 2,292 |
I feel like I have been losing support recently, and I take that as a sign that I should stop resisting suicide.I talk a lot on a mental health support forum. It seems whenever I talk about my "break-up" (almost relationship), I do not get a very good response.I self-harmed the other day, after being unusually upset ab... | severe | 32,451 |
People here have much bigger struggles than me in life as to why they want to till themselves, mine is that I am going bald.I am 17, my dad, uncles, grandparents, and even great-grandparents all have the same hair they had in their 20s. I am fat and ugly already and my hair was the only source of confidence I had, now ... | severe | 29,102 |
I am sick and tired of people just leaving me in the dust. I try so hard to be the best person I can but it is never good enough for anyone I have no point in being here because I am not good enough for anyone or anytbing. I need to kill myself so badly but I cannot work up the courage to go thru with it. I am going to... | severe | 23,944 |
They just never say how much. You win some, you lose some. | mild | 20,122 |
slowly push everyone away | moderate | 33,912 |
The only reason I do not is because i feel so bad about how my brother will be all alone and my father will be depressed.. I wish i could explain to them that i really want some peace of mind and death is the only way i will ever get that. I have wanted to end it for months | severe | 24,165 |
They should make euthanasia legal because not everyone is cut out to live in a capitalistic society. The reason why it is not legal is because the rich would lose like half of their labour slaves. Unpopular opinion | mild | 22,768 |
Do people just fake being excited? : Recently there was Christmas and yesterday there was New Year’s Eve. I don’t know about other people but me personally, there wasn’t a moment when I felt exited about my presents (even though I got actually good ones) or when we entered 2020. I just felt numb, people seemed to be ha... | moderate | 6,949 |
There is not anything interesting about it, it is so boring and meaningless, most humans suck. Life is not worth living | mild | 21,669 |
I do not know if it this is apropriate for this subreddit, but i do not really fell suicidal anymore - just been doing a lot more self harm, lately. I like to have a beer or something, but lately I just do it to hurt myself. I have not been caring bout my health either. I feel bad and do not take any medicine, and if I... | severe | 29,086 |
You want someone to feel emotional pain?? Why?? I think that sounds wonderful if no one could cry at my funeral, I would not want to bring emotional pain like that to someone, especially if its someone I care about. I think that is the thing driving me from ever kicking the chair. I hate to offend but I think that is s... | mild | 13,322 |
Do you remember that pure happiness and joy when we were kids, where did it go ? We feel some joy but not like that when we were younger that warm happiness ,Is it chemicals ?Things we saw and knew about the world that fucked our brains ? Why most of us feel stuck and suicidal ? I am not native sorry about the mistakes... | severe | 24,013 |
the best reason to love a person be to love a person for no reason at all | moderate | 33,161 |
can already tell that my fate be go to be annoy | moderate | 35,299 |
Got into a car accident in march and it was my fault and I am dealing with a lot of repercussions from that currently and I have like 0 money to take care of it. My car got totalled in the process and the other person ended up with a dent, and I feel like that is lightweight my entire life. My dad died in 2017 from lun... | mild | 20,211 |
Heart won't stop aching : This is the first time I've been truly open about my depression. Usually I'm able to manage it, but I think I've hit a new plateau and now my heart won't stop aching. It's been 3 days and the aching is unbearable. I might actually die from a broken heart, which is something I welcome. I've had... | severe | 12,216 |
I am just done. Years thinking I was in the wrong. I am tired of being the scapegoat for people.I am too tired to enjoy life. Or care.A bullet to the brain is my plan. I am good, I am exhausted | severe | 32,506 |
Hey @GothamChess.... hey man long time no talk huh. I don’t know if you saw the chess games today but I did alright. I don’t know if I really need it. But a chess lesson might be fun sometime. Lol. Maybe. I don’t know. Lol. | minimum | 41,654 |
I just can't get out of bed : I'm sick. I can't get out of bed. I am stuck. Can barely read. I wish I was dead. IDK how I managed to get so far.
I'm always tired. | moderate | 9,016 |
So I am a 24 year old virgin guy and I am just too shy to talk to girls and its become even more awkward now that I am so old yet still a virgin. I have decided to give online dating a go but I have had absolutely no luck because almost everyone is a bot or does not reply to me (I am an ugly mf and I am boring so I do ... | severe | 28,787 |
never lead someone on do not play with people feel because you be unsure of your own | moderate | 33,490 |
Dehydrating and starving myself till slow damage, in jail if i do jail time. that is the timer.if i do not it wants another timer.Red Blue Green. White lightOne dark and one white an image. Isolated myself to the point of no return, everyone in society has changed, my mom has weirdly change because I have isolated. who... | severe | 31,820 |
I did not want to hurt you ever, so I am glad you hurt and left me first.Celebrate the pain, turn it into champagne.Id say I hope you choke on it but, I do not really mean that. I want to hate you so badly, maybe enough time will give me that. Or maybe you will just be forgotten, that would be even better. I am so glad... | severe | 27,634 |
Not sure what to write, but I am going to treat the comments like a mini journal because I have low-key had one of the worst weeks or two of my life and it has all been self inflicted in the worst way possible. Even worse than that, I am in a hole that idk how the fuck to get out of (I have tried, I promise) Dissociati... | mild | 12,735 |
I know people love me. My great grandparents, my dad, my little brothers, my mom, my cousins and aunts. My boyfriend. But I feel like no one loves me. And its so hard to explain to them because they do not understand. I feel suicidal sometimes and I wish I could do it, but then I think about my great grandparents and m... | mild | 16,741 |
I am not strong enough to kms but tonight when everyone in my house is asleep I am going to get a knife and cut. I should not do it but I just want to see blood. I want to bleed. It will make me feel better after everything. I should not do this to myself but the urge to bleed after what has happened to me is too stron... | severe | 24,634 |
I have been depressed for a long time now, it starting to feel like everything is not real. My motivation for doing stuff is completly gone now.it is starting to feel like everything I have done in life has been worthless. I do not knownif I am happy where I am going in life.How do you guy's handle this feeling of bein... | mild | 20,548 |
be sad for no reason be worse than be sad for a reason because there be absolutely nothing you can do to make yourself feel better | moderate | 32,848 |
To my single father who raised me for the past decade, I am sorry. I hope in the next life, you get a stronger daughter. You deserve better. I am sorry. Apology. | severe | 23,391 |
I have felt like this for a long time. I am mediocre at everything I do. I do not excel at anything. I am not social, and I am afraid of meeting new people.I just feel empty. Like I am not going to do anything in life and I am sick. I am sick of feeling like this. I just do not feel like I am enough | severe | 28,016 |
I might as well kill myself sooner I cannot fucking take it living another stupid worthless fucking day. I hate being being alive every second that passes by i just meant to claw away at my damn skin until I reach bone. Every single day is just a waste of time and I do not enjoy any second of it. I cannot take it what ... | severe | 28,151 |
I cannot even crank out a melody these days I just wanted to be good at one thing | severe | 31,577 |
I feel like I shouldn't be depressed : I have a good life. I've never had anything traumatic happen to me. I have a wonderful family and I'm really close with my mom, my grandma, and a couple of my cousins.
I have an amazing boyfriend. He takes good care of me and he's my best friend.
I'm doing alright for myself. I ... | minimum | 11,192 |
i feel like a horrible person. I am on the brink of going insane i feel like. i have a fear of being a pedophile, i despise them but i keep convincing myself i am one? I am scared of this it hurts so much.it seems to get worse the worse mental state I am in, when i feel normal i feel like i do not even believe it, that... | severe | 28,452 |
My sister is a shift worker - works around the clock at ridiculous times. I asked her (before I moved in) if she could sometimes pick me up from work if I worked late and if she could help me with my driving - she said yes. I've now asked a her a few times if we could drive somewhere she has said: "no", "just because",... | minimum | 1,331 |
Hello guys, I am not even sure if this is the right subreddit for this (and sorry for my english in advance) but i wanted to tell you how unusual I have felt since 2 days ago. Basically since I woke up on Tuesday I have been feeling numb, like there is a fog in my brain and i lost interest for activities I normally do ... | mild | 15,302 |
Didn't want to make it to 2020 : | moderate | 3,745 |
i would do anything to have you back | moderate | 34,868 |
I am on the younger side for this. But last year I lost my cousin to suicide. I had been contemplating it myself but the pain it caused for me and my family, I knew I could do it. So I am stuck I feel great most days but some I just cannot do anything. Right after he died I used nicotine to cope, and I still do but I f... | mild | 12,949 |
My girlfriend of 2yrs is being idk.. idk anymore, i am going through a rough time with depression and anxiety and I am going to therapy but it is just the way she acts now, it makes it feel like my problems are the problem for our relationship and it does not help that i feel numb sometimes.its scary for me to experien... | severe | 27,609 |
Hey guys, I am not the kind of person who like to complain about myself, about my confortable and healthy life.. But I cannot anymore. First sorry because I speak french.I lost so many gf because I am always paranoid, sad, do not trust in myself even if all my friends says I am a cute and kind (too much) boy.I am worki... | severe | 26,109 |
I do not mean to say that I am purposely being suicidal of course, I just noticed how when things get hard I ultimately go to suicide as an option. Could this be a way for me to avoid responsibility and that is why? I just kept on thinking... what would be the point in living if its no longer enjoyable and just filled ... | severe | 28,293 |
“Retirement is when you stop sacrificing today for an imaginary tomorrow”. @naval When you spend your days how you want them, you’re retired. What a quote! | minimum | 39,320 |
to feel really weirdly almost always horny when I am really depressed? Is it normal | mild | 18,532 |
I have severe anxiety and OCD, and today I let them get the best of me. I looked through his phone. A huge breach of trust. I hate myself. I hate that I did it. I hate my mind. A lot of me thinks it would be better if I just killed my self so I will not make my emotional problems and baggage other peoples problems. I a... | severe | 25,156 |
I know god loves me but I want a fucking human to like me. I want to know that is is possible for someone to love me. I mean I do not have a reason to live and do not have anybody to live for either. I used to cut myself a lot and I stopped. but when I get depressed af that is all I want to do and do not know how long ... | mild | 20,627 |
my mother always tell me if you cannot say anything nice dont say anything at all and some people wonder why i be so quiet around them | moderate | 33,235 |
Can I take a moment just to rant? : So, my gf’s birthday is coming up. Unfortunately, she has extracurricular activities that will prevent her from having a party (she’s turning 16, so it’s kind of a big deal lol) her mom and I want her to have an absolutely amazing party. So, her mom scheduled the party to February 15... | moderate | 5,244 |
i be sorry that i let you down | moderate | 33,570 |
Like basically every night I think about whether or not I should do it and the main reason that I do not is that if I do not die I will probably go to the hospital and go to like a psych ward or something and I just do not want to go through that. But I also vaguely like the thought of trying and not actually dying. Wo... | severe | 27,817 |
if they cannot accept your past they will not support you now and sure will not encourage you in the future they will simply judge you | moderate | 33,345 |
Here's to another year of being miserable and alone. : It's a new year and things are only going to get worse. | moderate | 3,775 |
When mentioned that i want to study abroad she said that you will travel, try to kill yourself and end up in hell. Funny thing is that might end up being true lol My mom said you will kill yourself and go to hell | mild | 16,409 |
For those that have deleted their social media platforms (aside from Reddit or Youtube), how much has it helped improve your mental health? I am thinking about deleting Instagram and LinkedIn as well and just keeping Reddit and Youtube. I have already deleted facebook after having it for like a decade and feel much bet... | mild | 21,672 |
Otherwise, they will be fed the same fantasy like I was and then so that big brother and big sister can continue to keep a tab of you so we accept this form of slavery. School is nothing more than brainless brainwashing by the establishment that want to use your kids as a battery cell and the filthy rich can prosper wi... | mild | 17,126 |
22 year old unemployed virgin with nothing to do, nowhere to go, and nobody to hang out with lmao I suck | mild | 16,818 |
Everything was going so well.. : But now I just want to die again. It’s been months since I’ve felt like this..and at first I thought it’d just disappear or it was a one day thing. I was wrong as usual tho since it’s been weeks now and it’s only getting heavier.
I self harmed again for the first time since..late July?... | moderate | 5,274 |
I thought I would left suicidal thoughts behind but now my parents are forcing me to pursue a career I despise and all I can think about is the years of emptiness that await me, stuck in a job I hate. Suicide really seems like the only way out. And hey might as well spite my parents too. Maybe they will finally regret ... | severe | 30,369 |
I only did my best. Apparently my best is not worthy enough for me to live on. I am better off dead. I do not know what I did wrong to deserve this life. | mild | 18,899 |
Reverse holo charazard!! @GrantLaFontaine https://t.co/tIkjPMTo97 | minimum | 39,419 |
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