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I am so frustrated all the time. I just cannot do anything. I feel incapable of the most basic of tasks, and also of my dreams. I am so sick of it. I feel an urge to die all the time. Literally always. And it feels inevitable to me that I will give in eventually. I am so scared of death, but life feels bad to me most o... | severe | 23,014 |
Well it is just a expression but it is so weird that in different times in life i feel depressed about different things. In the fast 4 years i am suffering due to the ongoing issues i still have due to some mistakes i did sometime ago. I just with it could go away and forgiven. But every time i think everything i going... | mild | 16,565 |
I fucked up. : I fucked up my life. And no, not because drugs or anything like that.
I never took chances on anything. I was too lazy. I always played it safe.
Now I’m trapped in an unhappy marriage with someone who it seems doesn’t even like me. Mediocre job. No significant hobbies outside of video games. I’m 24 a... | moderate | 5,824 |
When will i start feeling anything better? Wth? Anybody know how long? I was on citalopram for eight years at 40 mgs daily any feedback appreciated Almost 3 months without citalopram | mild | 16,441 |
I do not know what to do Again morning anxiety, and suicidal thoughts | severe | 27,460 |
He doesn’t know anything about that though. For some background, I recognize that I tend to overreact to normal things, I have panic attacks when people innocently flirt with me for example, and I’ve flown off the handle when too many men have even just looked at me in too short of a space of time. Anyway, so we were r... | moderate | 1,970 |
This is the anti job requirement - zero years of experience required - no college education required - beginners preferred | minimum | 39,287 |
That was nice. But now that we're close to the point of no return, with a flight booked so he can come see her(I agreed to travel out of our house for the week), and they seem to be bonding big time(I love you's abound), I'm not sure what to do with myself. On one hand I want to let loose and detach, let her have fun, ... | severe | 670 |
some people believe in themselves so much it be terrify | moderate | 35,673 |
This is how video game nerds dance to Madeon 😴😴😴 https://t.co/uIBqV4mcbg | minimum | 39,950 |
sometimes it be best to stay quiet the silence can speak volumes without ever say a word | moderate | 33,457 |
It was like an addiction that I cannot end the cycle ofIve finally decided to stop buying games. With a library with dozens of unplayed games, including big titles like Sekiro, Dark souls 3 and Mass effect LE, I do not want to ruin my steam library by adding more shitty games. I am not going to buy anything anymore !! ... | mild | 18,885 |
Mental an emotional abuses like him should be fucking shot! Mental and emotional abuse by: SHAWN CLIFTON KING | severe | 32,028 |
How do I figure out what is putting these guys off? Any advice is appreciated! TL;DR: Have been on 3 first dates over the last few months, and each I thought went well or above and beyond well, but each of them haven't wanted to go on a second date with me. What am I doing wrong? How do I figure out what I'm doing wron... | minimum | 1,275 |
I am trying to do strength training but its almost impossible to get myself to actually do more than a couple chin ups or something and I do not know how to get myself to do more How do get myself to workout when I have no energy? | mild | 21,049 |
I am thinking today is the day but if not today, sometime very soon.I am writing this because I have to get it off my chest and I do not have many friends. And I do not want to be talked down.I have attempted when I was younger (pills just caused my body to react oddly, hanging myself I chickened out and untied it 2 ho... | mild | 15,837 |
brain just stop think heart please stop feel | moderate | 33,796 |
I don’t want to be a victim anymore : Context: I wrote this as a letter to myself weeks ago when I realized how much self-victimizing was preventing me from being happy. As I’m hitting another episode of deep, spiraling depression right now, I find myself empowered by my own words. I hope some of you find this letter h... | minimum | 11,010 |
i do not know why but i am constantly having depressing episodes during summer and this year's episode is so scary, i am so depressed that i started hallucinating dark stuff, it too hot to bear life in my city, i seriously hate existing, and yes to that point i hate summer. Summer depression is eating me out Alive | mild | 16,976 |
Just took around 20 zanaflex and 20 seroquel pills. I am sorry everyone. I tried to make it. I have overdosed and scared. | severe | 25,801 |
I have not said a single word to another human in four days. In the last four weeks, my only interactions (all brief) were with co-workers about work. I work remotely so there is no way to have any more interactions. I am so fucking lonely that its starting to fuck with my head. I am moving soon from where I live so I ... | mild | 14,394 |
I lied about having a degree in which I dropped out in final year and this one lie which I stupidly made in a idiotic moment is killing me mentally. Its the fact I have gone along with it for so long and also the fact I am pretty sure people know its a lie although no one has confronted me. I have literally been having... | mild | 20,625 |
I cannot see myself living any longer feeling this, I genuinely feel like the universe is pushing me in this direction. I have no desire to live. Tonight is the night. | severe | 30,440 |
I know I need help but I cannot voice it. And i do not even know how to say this. I just want to disappear. I am hopeless. I cannot anymore. I need help | severe | 31,475 |
Idk how I have not done it yet. The last few months until recently were not terrible though.I cannot find love, I have no friends, I am not close with family, I am just alone forever. Even my the last of my online friends are gone now.I am so fuckin close.I wish I could try therapy but it costs too much Well, I am stil... | severe | 28,813 |
if only i could of just had a nice painless death. or at least a quick one. nope, guess not. this is going to be a miserable way to die, is not it i am going to dehydrate myself to death | severe | 32,606 |
I just felt it was best to separate them for the time, at least until he hopefully calmed down. I had asked someone else in the group--without informing them of what had transpired--to direct the male back to the cars so we could leave. But the male had run off. So while everyone else went back to a mutual friend's hou... | minimum | 313 |
I do a style of emotional release bodywork called Amanae (or Emotional Release Therapy) and I feel compelled to help veterans. What are the ways I might be able to get in touch with an organization in my area to see if I can volunteer? It can be an intense process and I want to know if it could help people suffering fr... | minimum | 2,759 |
i get rid of my blades today and i really wish i do not | moderate | 34,408 |
I plans with my friend for the 4th of July and she canceled last minute. All my other friends and family have other plans so I am alone for the Holiday. All I want to do is go to the mall, get a big Cinnabon roll and eat it in the Barnes and noble while watching the people shop. I know this would not benefit me in the ... | mild | 22,742 |
I literally have never been sick so much. Normally if I get sick at all it’s when allergy season comes, so like once a year. My hair is definitely falling out way more than it normally does. Has this happened to anyone? I know it’s almost over. | minimum | 1,722 |
He blames me. He's wrong. [This is what my spine looks <url> I've got Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, which is a genetic connective tissue disorder that makes faulty collagen everywhere in my body, so my muscles are always in pain trying to keep my body in place (and have clearly failed in that regard). I've had symptoms all m... | minimum | 3,163 |
4 weeks ago I made the plunge and decided to take meds, started off on 75mg, lowest dose. I could not suffer anymore. It was everyday I was basically feeling empty af, no determination, no enjoyment in anything, it was either I started taking something or I was not going to keep putting up with the bullshit. I got to s... | mild | 20,055 |
This post was originally posted to letsnotmeet but was removed and i was told to post here so here it is. So about two years ago i did a photoshoot with a guy who used to work for my family. When he came to do the shoot he brought this dude with him that i didnt know, ill call him dave for this story. Dave seemed prett... | minimum | 1,598 |
same energy from the age of 7 to 25 :^) https://t.co/fGGgHkjIFE | minimum | 39,674 |
I am thinking I want to cut deeper. I wish for death. I am a horrible person and i deserve this | severe | 26,739 |
i just wish i be better | moderate | 34,307 |
I have made a list of the pros and cons of me ending my life and the cons heavily outweigh the pros. However, I am having an extremely difficult time today. I have been crying all day and I just feel so tired of everything. I know that I cannot give up now but the idea is so tempting. I am contemplating calling the sui... | severe | 23,916 |
I do not belong anywhere. I do not know why I was born. I wish I had not been. Everyone in my family hates me. Everybody in the community hates me. I am not going to go much into my deeper problems here. I have a disorder that nobody understands. I deal with emotionally paralyzing pain from trauma and psychological pro... | severe | 32,565 |
The world outside that self created one is easily livable but I seem to force myself to be tied to this one, as if to harm myself on purposeI wish I were gone sometimes, just dead I can have a good day then a couple days later I want to committ suicide because my self inflicted pain is mentally and physically tormentin... | severe | 30,588 |
I do not want to explain why but I cannot find peace in this world. I do not desire happiness, i just want my thoughts to stop and I want to stop my emotions from wanting more and more. No pain, no happyness. Nothing. that is what i want. But I am so scared... I want to find peace | severe | 23,114 |
Bosses want to pay for results, employees want recognition for effort. If a boss recognizes effort, they will get even better results. | minimum | 41,268 |
Hi, I am 43 old, bipolar. I never had any goal in life, never was financially independent. i still live with mom. My professional experience is 2 years long. I spent most of my time feeling sorry for myself. I stopped my medication quite a few time and ended up in hospital with a long depression that would linger for y... | mild | 18,421 |
At least I would be remembered for something. I would not have to worry about offing myself and i could die fighting for my country. It sounds selfish but I wish a world war would happen again. I want to die in a war | severe | 29,039 |
companies exist in 3 states during COVID a) dead b) thriving, but workers in warehouse/factory are revolting c) digital streaming service, silently thriving and trying to keep a straight face like a Don't Pass Line player celebrating under the table when the shooter 7s out. | minimum | 39,624 |
I have been working 70-80 hour weeks for the past 10 years. A few months ago I went off with depression and anxiety. I know I am completely burnt out. I get really good days when I am with certain people like my parents or my brother but when its just me and my 7 year old daughter, I feel so down and I am just exhauste... | mild | 12,857 |
Do any of you experience aches and pains when you are in a depressive state? I have had a bad 3-4 days of constant leg pain, breast tenderness and joint pain in my hands. The recovery is exhausting only to go through it again Depression & body pain | mild | 21,660 |
How to help a mother with depression and physical weakness : Hey folks, my mum had a stroke a few years ago, and while she's a lot better now, it's really affected her mind and body... You know those days where you're making decisions all day out in the cold and rain? That's what's it's like for her after maybe 40 mins... | minimum | 11,084 |
Got stupid crazy drunk at the New Years party and confessed to a lot of friends my suicidal thoughts (and cried) AMA : Safe to say I did not kiss anyone at New Years but the toilet as my esophagus left my body. Might need to delete social media after this one. I’m in my hometown so my parents picked me up and got to he... | moderate | 4,778 |
Obviously because you needed it but like did you make the choice or were you forced? How did the situation go down? Reason you went inpatient/ into a treatment program? | mild | 17,037 |
have you ever stand in the shower have a break down and then walk out like nothing happen | moderate | 33,732 |
I have not be able to draw seriously for a year now. I remember studying a lot and seeing my art evolve really fast back in march lockdown, but now it is the total contrary. I am getting worse, I rarelly get any ideas and everything I draw looks like pure trash. Looking at other people's drawings makes me both frustrat... | mild | 18,444 |
I just want to stop feeling like a failure at everything. I always fuck up at work, then I go home and always do or say something that upsets my fiance, and I do not have the energy to even cook or really be there for my kids. I am trying so hard to get it right, but nothing ever helps. I just want to be enough or for ... | mild | 20,219 |
So here is how I am going. I have been doing terrribly mentally, I do not have a job a currently, I am 26 years old. trying to find one. I play video games to try and escape, same with shows, playing with my pet and cooking. everything I used to enjoy has stopped being enjoyable. I play a game of smite and I feel like ... | mild | 20,008 |
that is all I feel anymore. I hate how I look. I hate my personality and social anxiety. 22 years old and do not know what it is like to be loved or give love to someone. I just want someone to hug. I hate my pathetic life and have not enjoyed it for several years now. I want to get gunned down by a machine gun so bad.... | mild | 14,757 |
Anyone else ready for winter? Just feels so bad laying in bed al day when sun comes up around 5 and does not go down till 10.30. Really wish it was always winter. Hate summer | mild | 16,163 |
so I will just feeling extremely sad again , and deleted some social medias where some friends would be able to talk to me so I can stop talking to then , we were going to watch a movie but since I could not get there in time, the only way would be if it was delayd by 2 hours, wich they did not want , what makes me fee... | severe | 24,249 |
This time I really really though I had beaten the intrusive thoughts. I have not had a suicidal wish, a thought about not existing, in 3 years. I thought I had beaten it.But now all I can see and think about, is myself hanging somewhere, and my feet dangling lifeless above the floor. I am alone, so painfully painfully ... | severe | 26,679 |
TW: SELF HARMI hate myself to the point of hurting myself. Every time I look at myself I want to hurt myself. All I do is work and go to school. I try so hard yet I still cannot be worth anything. No one likes me. I am paranoid that everyone hates me. I want die at this point Id rather die than go to work in the mornin... | severe | 23,800 |
The difference between nightmares and nigh terrors is diagnosed through sleep studies using tools that measure rapid eye movement. All of which tells me absolutely Sweet F*** All, let’s be honest. Sleep and our need for it is not entirely understood, many fantastic theories abound but what little we do states th... | minimum | 3,439 |
I do not even know why I am writing this. I just think that I cannot talk about this things without alarming o worry the people in my life. I do not want to feel like this anymore, everyday from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed I feel like absolute shitSometimes, when I am out with friends I feel a little... | mild | 21,538 |
I do not know what to do. 8 months ago, I was 147 pounds. Now I am 169. I am only 510, and I feel like I am about to lose it. I am going on a trip to see my family who is fairly toxic when it comes to weight and I am so fucking scared I already deal with body dysmorphia and I do not know what to do. I need to go from 1... | mild | 22,169 |
My new book, Leaders Eat Last, hits shelves Jan 7. To give one for Xmas, we have 250 copies available for pre-order. http://t.co/VDFJsZj8u9 | minimum | 41,044 |
I also posted this in the bipolar subreddit but I want to post it here too. :( So, I am on a mood stabilizer and wellbutrin and they are supposed to be helping my adhd and my mood and they are not. This sounds like I am just complaining but I am not trying to. I am just tired. I have tried so many antidepressants and e... | mild | 21,296 |
Literally. I feel like everything around me is higher than usual. The ceiling is further up, things that are usually at my eye level appear to be taller. Its very disorienting. Am I getting dragged deeper into rock bottom or...? I am sinking in | mild | 20,901 |
Everyday feels the same and I am distancing myself from my friends. Its not like I want to be alone, I actually hate being alone. But I just cannot use my little energy to contact them. they are all so happy and cheerful but I feel so isolated from them. Like they all hate me for me being myself. I guess I do not blame... | mild | 20,026 |
It seems that there are few quick fixes to this depression struggle... I am on the good side of this struggle now.. but I have realized it was a long road... but so worth it. Even though you can go and read other people's stories and read books of how to deal with this struggle... it seems that each person has to write... | mild | 20,659 |
I do not even know why I cannot just fucking do it already. Every time I get to this point I talk myself down only to go back to how things were that made me suicidal to begin with. I am done. I want out of this life. I am such a fucking coward... why cannot I just do it already? | severe | 26,013 |
This girl was my bestfriend years before we became a couple, in the end i was treated like shit, tossed to the dirt, emotionally manipulated and abused. I changed and tried my best for her, in the end she still left me, cut all ties with me, as if I am the one who hurt her. All this happened while I was taking care of ... | severe | 25,697 |
I do not want to die but i hate waking up everyday and feeling so empty and alone; i stop caring about things like why would I do that to my self??? ....i just want to scream, punch a wall .... Idk what I am feeling right now and why do i hate my self so much I do not understand why i feel like this ... | mild | 20,783 |
I don't want to invest in any company that is excited to have me as an investor. | minimum | 39,167 |
I was abused as a child. I hear voices, The devil is always near and I have not been well since the age of eight. I think its time. I think I am going to kill myself | mild | 17,176 |
I have been struggling for years. I am 22 and have been working 40 hours constantly for 5 years. I am over it. Get up, eat, work, chill, sleep, repeat. I do not want to do it anymore. All I can think of is getting a job in the animal field because at least then I would not mind working for 60+ more years. I understand ... | severe | 29,074 |
I have a lot to say and I understand not everyone has time I am just looking for some help I am tired of being lied to struggling to deal with society as someone who suffers from HFA | severe | 26,484 |
Men lying to me and manipulating me, people stealing from me, the people that are supposed to care about me disregarding my issues and using me. Random people on the street disrespecting me.I was feeling depressed about it first but its transitioned to rage. I am starting to feel insane. I feel like everyone is attacki... | mild | 12,591 |
do something weird and think this be why i be single | moderate | 33,152 |
I feel like an attention whore writing this, but oh well..my life is great, good parents who work hard to put me in a good place, and a high paying school. There is nothing they have not given to me, the problem is not them but me. kind of surprised and relieved they have not abandoned me. The problem is just me, I am ... | severe | 27,320 |
Eventually my vision started to fade and I started losing feeling in my hands and feet. My mind started to wander off to things other than my struggle for air, and one thought stuck with me "the sun is really bright and warm on my face." With that thought, I closed my eyes tight and felt the strength starting to leave ... | minimum | 3,359 |
I have typed and rewritten this 100 times. Its embarrassing but here goes. Why cannot I kill myself?My life is a long story filled with ups and downs. But since I was a child I had my best friend with me. In highschool he and I started dating and 2 years ago we got married. We had no one but each other. A lot of years ... | severe | 23,116 |
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what is the point of trying to survive? i do not feel anything.. | mild | 16,369 |
I was not scared. I felt relieved. My psychiatrist is considering putting me into a psychiatric ward because I am having suicidal thoughts frequently and also planning my death.I have been taking antidepressants for ten years plus. I am also seeing a therapist for years. Nothing seems to work anymore. I am lonely, I do... | severe | 23,857 |
Going on some day trips/tourist things in Washington state with my family, and I constantly find myself dreading the stuff that is suppose to be fun. I wish I was excited for doing things with my family but I cannot wait to go home. I constantly dread anything that is a little bit out of my comfort zone | mild | 15,998 |
Fuck this world I am only 17 yet people expect me to achieve things I cannot possibly do they keep putting pressure on me without caring about how I feel or how much I can take well guess what I cannot fucking take it anymore and after I am done with this national competition I am fucking hanging myself I do not want t... | severe | 26,681 |
if it be something stupid i have probably do it | moderate | 35,737 |
Hi all. I have both depression and anxiety. My mind is always at war with itself. I am constantly overthinking everything. I am an avid music lover. I love to listen to music constantly. I have to have the volume of whatever I am listening to super high, though. It drowns out all of the overthinking. You can overthink ... | mild | 17,029 |
ERROR: type should be string, got " https://t.co/Wz5c2abOvU" | minimum | 39,805 |
Hey guys. I have used this subreddit before to say how I really feel about myself and my life. Even if only one person reacts, I have found it very therapeutic. I am also a musician and try to convey some of the depression and hopelessness I have felt forever. Throughout my major depressive episodes, I have written and... | severe | 28,040 |
I am 19 and I have forgotten how to live. I am pretty sure I have a YouTube addiction. I have been depressed for 5 years. But it has gotten worse. the last two years I have been bedridden. I lay in bed all day and night, and I watch Netflix/YouTube all day. I have completly forgotten what I can do in a day that doesent... | mild | 14,375 |
Honestly my goal is to just end it all by the end of the month. that is the easiest and most painless, peaceful way to pass. I do not want to hear any of the just fight a little longer, do not go. Lifes been so hard for the last 13 years and I am exhausted and tired from fighting and having absolutely NOTHING workout. ... | severe | 25,066 |
Hi. This is the first time that I post something here. Also, English is not my first language so, sorry about the bad grammar:( I am writing here because I am in that point of my life where I do not know what to do anymore. I know that this may sound like a very common thought in this sub, but I think that my situation... | mild | 15,776 |
My moderate to severe depression has been unveiled to have been SAD this entire time, so I hope the recommended light therapy. I am dragging myself out of a spiral, but I am a bit glad that I have a better understanding of what is inflicting on me. After ordering my light, they said **HAPPY15** could reduce 15% off so ... | mild | 21,795 |
I am 14 and I have had multiple attempts. My last attempt was like a month ago so I am scared to do it again bc it was pretty bad and painful. But I still want to die so so bad, but I am scared and it fucking sucks. I cannot even kill myself properly. tbh I should just jump of a building rn. And I tried talking to a th... | severe | 28,067 |
I have stopped taking my anti-depressants. They made me completely numb and I never felt any emotion at all while I was on them. Since I stopped, all the emotions of the past started flooding back and now I do realise why I started taking them in the first place. I am feeling all these negative emotions again and I sta... | mild | 16,578 |
i feel like i have nobody to talk to i have my mom and my therapist but i cannot talk to them. I am 13 and i have attempted countless times and i just lost my best friend who meant everything to me and i just realized how shitty of a person i was a few years ago.. i have nobody and I am on the edge | severe | 23,746 |
I have been depressed for like , I do not know , 2-3 years and I think I am becoming more self centered and narcissistic. I really try not to , but when you are somewhat smart ( not anything special just not dumb ) and you feel like shit and a constant failure , how are you supposed to care about the problems of people... | mild | 21,335 |
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I do not want to die, I do not think I will commit suicide but I just cannot do it...It sucks, I might be failing one of my college course, I know, it is completely my fault and I have no excuses, but I wish I would just pass, all the marks were low, I know why this happened, I sacrificed everything, fought with OCD an... | severe | 27,731 |
She has had wounds on her face once, one doctor saw them, wrote them down, and offered to call the police. They replied that she'd have to come there by herself and sue her husband. Which of course did not happen. Turns out I get really numb as the only way to not get dragged into this emotional swamp, but is a hell fo... | minimum | 1,775 |
Welp time to slash my veins maybe but i want it badly Currently at veccation at my uncle (korcula) | severe | 24,636 |
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