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i get my large c-cups from my mom also , but i 've always kept them covered up .
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i see how men get distracted by them , like they 're some tractor beam pulling them in .
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one more quick glance to check my mascara application , and i nod at myself , satisfied .
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it 's been a long time coming , but i think i 'm finally ready to party .
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chapter two the spring night air is warm on my face as i walk across campus to meet cara and her friends .
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i pass other students heading out for the night and feel happy to count myself among them .
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i go over my rules for myself as i near the crew house , which is just across the street from campus .
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no more than three drinks .
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no talking about classes .
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no weirdness around nate thornhill .
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`` brynn ! ''
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cara yells from the opposite sidewalk .
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i wave as i head over .
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`` i ca n't believe you got a lawn room !
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that 's amazing ! ''
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i lean over to give her a hug .
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she 's an effortlessly cool , petite brunette-the kind of girl that everyone considers to be their friend .
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`` thanks ! ''
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`` holy shit !
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you got a lawn room ?
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are you , like , a genius or something ? ''
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her friend rachel asks , her jaw dropping .
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`` i wish !
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then all those papers would have taken me way less time to write , '' i reply with a laugh .
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`` cara says you 've never been to a crew party ? ''
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marie , the knockout of the group , asks .
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`` nope ... just never made my way over here i guess , '' i reply , downplaying the situation .
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`` well , they have the best parties , '' she assures me .
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`` and the hottest guys . ''
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`` lacrosse guys are hotter , '' rachel argues .
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`` of course , if you can always do both ... '' marie murmurs , and they burst into laughter .
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`` hey , you look great , by the way , '' cara says to me as we walk up the front steps of the house .
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`` love that top . ''
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`` thanks , '' i say , trying not to glow .
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a couple guys chilling on the front porch greet the other girls by name , and i blush as i feel their eyes glance over me .
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i tug my hair self-consciously as one of them grins at me .
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two girls hurry past us in the opposite direction .
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one leans over the railing as her friend barely manages to pull her hair back before she retches into the bushes .
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lovely .
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sweat and the scent of beer greets us as we walk inside .
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the lights are dim , barely illuminating the mass of people crowded into the main room , and i feel my heels sticking to the sticky floor .
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`` cara , the love of my life ! ''
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a tall , brawny guy says , sweeping her up into a hug .
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i recognize him from the crew team .
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not that i 've studied their roster photos or anything ... `` oh , ha , ha , '' cara says , rolling her eyes , though something about the gleam in her eyes tells me she likes the guy .
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`` can i get you ladies a beer ? ''
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he asks , nodding to the keg behind him .
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`` yes , please , '' cara says .
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`` hey , foster , this is my good friend brynn .
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this is her first crew party so treat her nice . ''
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`` i 'm always nice ! ''
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foster says indignantly , then bows in front of me and offers his hand .
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`` m'lady , '' he says , as i place my hand in his and raises it to his lips .
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marie and rachel giggle and then head over to another group as foster hands them their beers .
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cara and i follow foster over to an old , mysteriously stained , couch in the corner .
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we weave around other scantily clad co-eds , and for the first time in my life , i feel like one of the cool kids .
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i perch nervously on the far left cushion as cara sits next to me , with foster on her other side .
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i slowly sip my beer as he whispers in her ear .
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i 've had beer before , even gotten tipsy a few times with allison and miriam when we first turned twenty-one and tried out some wine bars .
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i just want to make sure i do n't overdo it tonight and end up like that girl we passed on the way inside .
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`` where 's nate tonight ? ''
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my head whips around as i hear cara ask foster the question .
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my heart stops for a second .
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i have to admit i 'll feel crushed if he 's not even here .
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`` he 's somewhere around , probably getting crushed under a pile of chicks , '' foster rolls his eyes , and cara laughs .
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i down half my beer .
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i ca n't believe how jealous it makes me feel , i 've never even met the guy .
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cara and foster keep chatting , and though cara makes an effort to include me , i 'm feeling too nervous to contribute much to the conversation .
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by the time i finish my beer , i really have to pee .
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`` be right back , '' i murmur to cara , and go looking for the bathroom .
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i weave through the sweaty throng to a hallway along the stairs .
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i see a line of five girls outside of what i assume is the bathroom , and with a sigh , i step behind the last one .
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the door opens and a guy darts in front of the front girl .
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`` hey ! ''
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she protests .
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`` sorry !
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emergency ! ''
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he cries , and shuts the door behind him .
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i lean back a little and glance up the stairs .
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there are several people hanging out on the landing , but it 's definitely quieter up there , and i 'm sure there 's more than one bathroom in this place .
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holding my legs close together , i turn around and hurry up the stairs .
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i bypass the first couple rooms with open doors and come to a couple closed ones .
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i can see a room at the end of the hall that looks like a lounge , with a pool table in the middle of the room .
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one of these two rooms must be the bathroom .
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i lean toward the nearest one and press my ear against it .
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i ca n't hear anything .
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i knock softly and wait for a reply , and when i do n't hear one , i slowly turn the knob and open the door .
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i gasp as it 's pulled open and out of my grasp .
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my eyes fly up and immediately i realize that nate is standing before me .
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`` i ... i ... ''
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i stammer .
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his pupils dilate as he stares at me in amusement .
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i let my gaze fall down his body .
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he 's naked but for a pair of pale blue boxers .
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good lord , his body is ridiculous .
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the line down between his six-pack looks like it was etched in stone .
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it 's suddenly very difficult to breathe .
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`` see anything you like ? ''
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he asks drily .
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i snap my gaze back up .
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