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"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"
John Andrew
to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his
front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the
you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they
her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat.
to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the
up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_.
did." "I'll give it to the club cat," said Babs. "She's a dear called Blackberry." They danced once or twice. Then Jock said, "D'you think we ought to ring up Brenda again?" "Perhaps we ought. She sounded annoyed with us." "Let's go now and ring her up on the way out." "Aren't you coming home with us?" said Babs. "Not to-night, I'm afraid." "Be a sport," said Milly. "No, we can't really." "All right. Well, how about a little present? We're professional dancing partners, you know," said Babs. "Oh yes, sorry, how much?" "Oh, we leave that to the gentlemen." Tony gave them a pound. "You might make it a bit more," said Babs. "We've sat with you two hours." Jock gave another pound. "Come and see us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel
past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age."<|quote|>"I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"</|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down
A Handful Of Dust
said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,
No speaker
go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John
at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station
let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony
you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that
for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the
low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly
cat," said Babs. "She's a dear called Blackberry." They danced once or twice. Then Jock said, "D'you think we ought to ring up Brenda again?" "Perhaps we ought. She sounded annoyed with us." "Let's go now and ring her up on the way out." "Aren't you coming home with us?" said Babs. "Not to-night, I'm afraid." "Be a sport," said Milly. "No, we can't really." "All right. Well, how about a little present? We're professional dancing partners, you know," said Babs. "Oh yes, sorry, how much?" "Oh, we leave that to the gentlemen." Tony gave them a pound. "You might make it a bit more," said Babs. "We've sat with you two hours." Jock gave another pound. "Come and see us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down
so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson,"<|quote|>said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,</|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18.
A Handful Of Dust
"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."
Tony Last
to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have
snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only
Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if
the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose,
you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of
"Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming,
"Be a sport," said Milly. "No, we can't really." "All right. Well, how about a little present? We're professional dancing partners, you know," said Babs. "Oh yes, sorry, how much?" "Oh, we leave that to the gentlemen." Tony gave them a pound. "You might make it a bit more," said Babs. "We've sat with you two hours." Jock gave another pound. "Come and see us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.
fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said,<|quote|>"Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."</|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one
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"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"
Nanny
I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone
future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library
the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse
cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable
her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of
But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next
you know," said Babs. "Oh yes, sorry, how much?" "Oh, we leave that to the gentlemen." Tony gave them a pound. "You might make it a bit more," said Babs. "We've sat with you two hours." Jock gave another pound. "Come and see us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with
I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can."<|quote|>"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"</|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad.
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Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.
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Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he
and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as
said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little;
tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the
here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet
see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her
said Babs. "We've sat with you two hours." Jock gave another pound. "Come and see us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda
in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?"<|quote|>Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.</|quote|>"Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I
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"Two men of thirty,"
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front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving
went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up
in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up
stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs.
to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("
night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In
pound. "Come and see us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at
meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire.<|quote|>"Two men of thirty,"</|quote|>he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ")
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he said to himself,
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fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were
in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from
ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner
not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library
her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone
been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I
us again one evening when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought
has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty,"<|quote|>he said to himself,</|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with
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"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."
Tony Last
thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then
library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change.
say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered
So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In
would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up
said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very
when you've got more time," said Milly. "I'm feeling rather ill," said Tony on the way upstairs. "Don't think I shall bother to ring up Brenda." "Send a message." "That's a good idea... Look here," he said to the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more
was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself,<|quote|>"behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."</|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized
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He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,
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was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I
all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have
of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and
come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind
began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning
_feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten
the seedy commissionaire. "Will you ring up this Sloane number and speak to her ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the
country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it."<|quote|>He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of
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"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."
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change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a
then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the
if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep.
can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to
you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one
himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him
ladyship and say Mr Grant-Menzies and Mr Last are very sorry but they cannot call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite,
himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said,<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."</|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John
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Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("
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have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I
I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long
and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was
so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in
at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In
to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it
call this evening? Got that?" He gave the man half a crown and they sauntered out into Sink Street. "Brenda can't expect us to do more than that," he said. "I tell you what I'll do. I go almost past her door, so I'll ring the bell a bit just in case she's awake and still waiting up for us." "Yes, you do that. What a good friend you are, Jock." "Oh, I'm fond of Brenda... a grand girl." "Grand girl... I wish I didn't feel ill." Tony was awake at eight next morning, miserably articulating in his mind the fragmentary memories of the preceding night. The more he remembered, the baser his conduct appeared to him. At nine he had his bath and some tea. At ten he was wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs
at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library."<|quote|>Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("</|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you
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"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."
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diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some
He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left
farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how
He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids
he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing.
her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that
wondering whether he should ring Brenda up when the difficulty was solved by her ringing him. "Well, Tony, how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"
_said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. ("<|quote|>"Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."</|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great
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say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."<|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,</|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that
to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."<|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,</|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know
people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."<|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,</|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x
"Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."<|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,</|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard,
how do you feel?" "Awful. I _was_ tight." "You were." "I'm feeling pretty guilty too." "I'm not surprised." "I don't remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."<|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,</|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always
to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses."<|quote|>") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,</|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on
A Handful Of Dust
"When I wake up it will be the week-end."
Tony Last
to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram
for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from
the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from
in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not
so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time
again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."
remember everything very clearly but I have the impression that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said,
you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself,<|quote|>"When I wake up it will be the week-end."</|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite
A Handful Of Dust
But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,
No speaker
it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than
himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming
weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank
to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since
he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey
you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard
that Jock and I were rather bores." "You were." "Are you in a rage?" "Well, I was last night. What made you do it, Tony, grown up men like you two?" "We felt low." "I bet you feel lower this morning... A box of white roses has just arrived from Jock." "I wish I'd thought of that." "You're such infants, both of you." "You aren't really in a rage?" "Of course I'm not, darling. Now just you go straight back to the country. You'll feel all right again to-morrow." "Am I not going to see you?" "Not to-day, I'm afraid. I've got lectures all the morning and I'm lunching out. But I'll be coming down on Friday evening or anyway Saturday morning." "I see. You couldn't possibly chuck lunch or one of the lectures?" "Not possibly, darling." "I see. You are an angel to be so sweet about last night." "Nothing could have been more fortunate," Brenda said. "If I know Tony, he'll be tortured with guilt for weeks to come. It was maddening last night but it was worth it. He's put himself so much in the wrong now that he won't dare to _feel_ resentful, let alone say anything, whatever I do. And he hasn't really enjoyed himself at all, the poor sweet, so _that's_ a good thing too. He had to learn not to make surprise visits." "You are one for making people learn things," said Beaver. Tony emerged from the 3.18 feeling cold, tired, and heavy with guilt. John Andrew had come in the car to meet him. "Hullo, daddy, had a good time in London? You didn't mind me coming to the station, did you? I _made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and
all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end."<|quote|>But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,</|quote|>"She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we
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applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"
quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've
multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to
Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.
Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was
well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment
_made_ nanny let me." "Very pleased to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It
it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said,<|quote|>"She usually does better than this."</|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le
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usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've
a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to
small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."
x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's
for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on
of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_
to see you, John." "How was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing
luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this."<|quote|>Later, "When's mummy coming down?"</|quote|>"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."
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"Not till to-morrow."
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Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go
usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this
he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do
Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way
she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower.
the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if
was mummy?" "She sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and
tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?"<|quote|>"Not till to-morrow."</|quote|>"Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan
A Handful Of Dust
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John Andrew
coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over
than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon.
realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that
little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to
comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. *
the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you
sounded very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing
to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow."<|quote|>"Oh."</|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat
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"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"
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down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past
this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.
how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad
to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went
Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said
afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would
very well. I didn't see her." "But you _said_ you were going to see her." "Yes, I thought I was, but I turned out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying
[II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh."<|quote|>"I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"</|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by
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John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.
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we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said.
to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a
for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the
no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business
thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one
able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to
out to be wrong. I talked to her several times on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the
of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?"<|quote|>John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.</|quote|>"No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda
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been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to
John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."
John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."
seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with
By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.
Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow
on the telephone." "But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face
in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition.<|quote|>"No, thank you,"</|quote|>he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had
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this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a
weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can
usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with
now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink.
I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't
here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole
"But you can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining
diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you,"<|quote|>he said.</|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica.
A Handful Of Dust
"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."
John Andrew
"No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any
been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do
better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's
up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay
Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except
dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to
can telephone her from here, can't you, daddy? Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it;
was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said.<|quote|>"I want to finish a picture I'm painting."</|quote|>"You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now
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finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it
he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had
"Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of
he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his
It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"
library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * *
Why did you go all the way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted
alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting."<|quote|>"You can do that any time."</|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot
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"I want to do it this afternoon."
John Andrew
can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them,
a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you
to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to
hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea,
her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What
diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to
way to London to telephone her?... _Why_, daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.
left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time."<|quote|>"I want to do it this afternoon."</|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I
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When Tony had left them, Ben said,
No speaker
to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to
that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for?
afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of
He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk
think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have
I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you
daddy?" "It would take too long to explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost
morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon."<|quote|>When Tony had left them, Ben said,</|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to
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"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."
Ben
had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John.
it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's
and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with
The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and
what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out
long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out
explain." "Well tell me some of it... _Why_, daddy?" "Look here, I'm tired. If you don't stop asking questions I shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff
at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said,<|quote|>"Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."</|quote|>"Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though
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seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little
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he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He
usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler
_sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question.
him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le
shan't let you ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I
All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas."<|quote|>"Not with _him_,"</|quote|>said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."
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said John.
No speaker
since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's
on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak
want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they
than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was
x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought
went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and
ever come and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well,
was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_,"<|quote|>said John.</|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_
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"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."
Ben
"Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to
seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in
finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were
Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *
x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't
bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said,
and meet the train again." John Andrew's face began to pucker. "I thought you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to
had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John.<|quote|>"You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."</|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't
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to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone
bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he
to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin
over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a
on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that
But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back
you'd _like_ me to come and meet you." "If you cry I shall put you in front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out
to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad."<|quote|>"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."</|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with
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So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *
No speaker
of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an
bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.
to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained,
see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't
but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean...
to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't
front with Dawson. It's absurd to cry at your age." "I'd _sooner_ go in front with Dawson," said John Andrew between his tears. Tony picked up the speaking-tube to tell the chauffeur to stop, but he could not make him hear. So he hitched the mouthpiece back on its hook and they drove on in silence, John Andrew leaning against the window and snivelling slightly. When they got to the house he said, "Nanny, I don't want John to come to the station in future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes,
out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not."<|quote|>So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *</|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room
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"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"
Mrs. Beaver
* * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not
flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great
themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought
"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my
over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white
Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you
future unless her ladyship or I specially say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her
In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * *<|quote|>"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would
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Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use
* * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony
drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I
or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_
you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and
Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with
say he can." "No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."
suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver.</|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle
A Handful Of Dust
"It's not one we use a great deal,"
Tony Last
appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I
"My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the
the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present
front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is
come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that
please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."
"No, sir, I wouldn't have let him go to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony
which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver.<|quote|>"It's not one we use a great deal,"</|quote|>said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they
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we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said
Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.
breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room
went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink
kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you
she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have
to-day, only he went on so. Come along now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch
Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal,"<|quote|>said Tony very coldly.</|quote|>"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't
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coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong
great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except
of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out
had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_
for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow
Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is
now, John, and take off your coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia
be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not,"<|quote|>said the one they called Veronica.</|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It
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the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a
"I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda
flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I
Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly
he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony
I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when
coat. Goodness, child, where's your handkerchief?" Tony went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for
than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica.<|quote|>"I can't see much wrong with it,"</|quote|>said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the
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they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not
the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was
him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda
picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them
tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."
went and sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies.
she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it,"<|quote|>said Polly,</|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always
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wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not
Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I
on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or
stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more
painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * *
Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put
sat alone in front of the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room
to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly,<|quote|>"except it's a bit mouldy."</|quote|>"You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together
A Handful Of Dust
"You see,"
Brenda
"except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at
wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was
* * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to
and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I
any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * *
expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your
the library fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they
before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy."<|quote|>"You see,"</|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out
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Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.
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a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that
it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable
* * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has
wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible.
"I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver
her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting
fire. "Two men of thirty," he said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst
the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see,"<|quote|>Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.</|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of
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"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"
Brenda
explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_
bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and
an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I
tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls
afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You
I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand;
said to himself, "behaving as if they were up for the night from Sandhurst--getting drunk and ringing people up and dancing with tarts at the Old Hundredth... And it makes it all the worse that Brenda was so nice about it." He dozed a little; then he went up to change. At dinner he said, "Ambrose, when I'm alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs
Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony.<|quote|>"What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?"</|quote|>"But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside
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angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it
it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and
_one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure
one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet...
me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He
down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables
alone I think in future I'll have dinner in the library." Afterwards he sat with a book in front of the fire but he was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings
speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong,"<|quote|>said Daisy,</|quote|>"and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for
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"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"
Mrs. Beaver
_Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.
plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will
thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_
wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to
they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By
very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's
was unable to read. At ten o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything
Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_."<|quote|>"I know exactly what Brenda wants,"</|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their
A Handful Of Dust
said Mrs Beaver more moderately.
No speaker
know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will
horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think
small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see
it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * *
on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what
he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her
o'clock he scattered the logs in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport
anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants,"<|quote|>said Mrs Beaver more moderately.</|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in
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"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"
Mrs. Beaver
said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing
know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left
to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in
see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again,
his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot
many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow;
in the fireplace before going upstairs. He fastened the library windows and turned out the lights. That night he went into Brenda's empty room to sleep. [II] That was Wednesday; on Thursday Tony felt well again. He had a meeting of the county council in the morning. In the afternoon he went down to the home farm and discussed a new kind of tractor with his agent. From then onwards he was able to say to himself, "This time to-morrow Brenda and Jock will be here." He dined in front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of
Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately.<|quote|>"I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?"</|quote|>"I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But
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said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *
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blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver
you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"
treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he
"I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you
wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat.
to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown,
front of the fire in the library. He had given up the diet some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been
thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high,"<|quote|>said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *</|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black
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"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"
Tony Last
* * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."
left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white
mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow
think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You
explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly
want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,
some weeks ago. (" "Ambrose, when I'm alone I don't really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do
drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * *<|quote|>"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"</|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played
A Handful Of Dust
"Not if you don't, sweet."
Brenda
to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white
"D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was
and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He
As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you
I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon.
them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very
really need a long dinner. In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for
Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?"<|quote|>"Not if you don't, sweet."</|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to
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"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"
Tony Last
"Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an
to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and
I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for
does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but
room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the
you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"
In future I'll just have two courses." ") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I
they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet."<|quote|>"But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"</|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one
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you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out
you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and
you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to
think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat
smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their
for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk
") He looked over some accounts his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_.
present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?"<|quote|>"Oh, that was just an idea."</|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her
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imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't
meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,
would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a
is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a
seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so
his agent had left for him and then went to bed, saying to himself, "When I wake up it will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said
John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea."<|quote|>Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.</|quote|>"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to
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and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away
* * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did
see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet?
less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of
speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He
will be the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was
John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing.<|quote|>"I say,"</|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you
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as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He
* "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it
I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how
myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not
your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed
the week-end." But there was a telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him
one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say,"<|quote|>he said, returning with his waistcoat.</|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."
A Handful Of Dust
"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"
Tony Last
said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to
were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his
to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to
walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course
possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which
to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes.
telegram for him next morning from Jock, saying, _Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could...
* * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat.<|quote|>"You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"</|quote|>"Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."
A Handful Of Dust
"Must."
Brenda
away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan
his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie
don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say
sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of
said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the
me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then
_Week end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who
no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?"<|quote|>"Must."</|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare
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He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.
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to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda,
waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about
sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for
carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."
Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in
nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very
end impossible have to go to constituency how about one after next_. He wired back, _Delighted any time always here_. "I suppose he's made it up with that girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone."
like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must."<|quote|>He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.</|quote|>"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies
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dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you
by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it
did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind
to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run
wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and
stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets
girl," Tony reflected. There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is
been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it.<|quote|>"By the way,"</|quote|>said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst
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fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about
at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather
were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a
* * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put
Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to
the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done
There was also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've
Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way,"<|quote|>said Brenda,</|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself;
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"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."
Brenda
"By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say
dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without
"I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going
* * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening
moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter
and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take
also a note from Brenda, written in pencil: Coming Sat. with Polly and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new
perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda,<|quote|>"what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."</|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself;
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"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."
Tony Last
Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living
you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so
to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But
morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together
it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric
back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well,
and a friend of Polly's called Veronica in P.'s car. Perhaps Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd
_dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste."<|quote|>"You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."</|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He
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"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."
Brenda
couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as
used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there
Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot
chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there
know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left,
over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall
Daisy Maids and luggage on 3.18. Will you tell Ambrose and Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem
said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her."<|quote|>"Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."</|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the
A Handful Of Dust
"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."
Tony Last
the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second,
but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."
sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."
and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit
disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing
grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But
Mrs Mossop. We had better open Lyonesse for Polly you know what she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to
one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple."<|quote|>"_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."</|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the
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"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."
Brenda
had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you
you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course
the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be
while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony
the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the
the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do
she is about comfort. Veronica can go anywhere--not Galahad. Polly says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a
"And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good."<|quote|>"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."</|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well,
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"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"
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sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But
"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"
on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon.
his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables
covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"
Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank
says she's v. amusing. Also Mrs Beaver coming, please don't mind it is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again.
Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly."<|quote|>"Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"</|quote|>"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to
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with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some
long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what
couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat
went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were
I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was
use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony
is only on business, she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse
angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?"<|quote|>"Me? I don't know."</|quote|>"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you
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on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn...
her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and
le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the
would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her
said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made
she thinks she can do something to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most
I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know."<|quote|>"But you must have some idea?"</|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of
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"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."
Brenda
you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put
"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all
at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the
bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in
more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning
think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies.
to morning-room. Polly bringing chauffeur. By the way I'm leaving Grimshawe at Hetton next week tell Mrs Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us
to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?"<|quote|>"Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."</|quote|>"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left
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"Brenda..."
Tony Last
so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on
is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be
good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit
"By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's
to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it;
"except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When
Mossop. It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to
Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..."<|quote|>"Brenda..."</|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner.
A Handful Of Dust
"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."
Brenda
backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs
to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and
"D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it
the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their
their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why,
it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter.
It's a bore and expense boarding her out in London. In fact I think I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of
or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..."<|quote|>"Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."</|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been
A Handful Of Dust
That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.
No speaker
be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She
on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais
you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost
a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes.
up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will
thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years."
I might do without her altogether, what do you think; except she's useful for sewing. Longing to see John again. All going back Sunday evening. Keep _sober_, darling. _Try._ x x x x x x B. Tony found very little to occupy his time on Friday. His letters were all finished by ten o'clock. He went down to the farm but they had no business for him there. The duties which before had seemed so multifarious, now took up a very small part of his day; he had not realized how many hours he used to waste with Brenda. He watched John riding in the paddock. The boy clearly bore him ill will for their quarrel on Wednesday; when he applauded a jump, John said, "She usually does better than this." Later, "When's mummy coming down?" "Not till to-morrow." "Oh." "I've got to go over to Little Bayton this afternoon. Would you like to come too and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be
Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us."<|quote|>That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner.
A Handful Of Dust
"Why, Tony,"
Brenda
little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying
doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her
They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very
the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he
of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank
sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor
and perhaps we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to
always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and
A Handful Of Dust
she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.
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by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I
turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"
boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her;
of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and
"Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of
I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much
we could see the kennels?" John had for weeks past been praying for this expedition. "No, thank you," he said. "I want to finish a picture I'm painting." "You can do that any time." "I want to do it this afternoon." When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as
imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.</|quote|>"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time
A Handful Of Dust
"Why, Tony,"
Brenda
there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost
on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want
on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay
their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to
us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He
do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but
When Tony had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as
economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch.<|quote|>"Why, Tony,"</|quote|>she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd
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she said,
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turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very
quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be
little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still,
laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday
evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on
the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do
had left them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless
don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony,"<|quote|>she said,</|quote|>"I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy
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"I was almost asleep."
Brenda
switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to
left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired...
by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then
the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are
and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.
"Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring
them, Ben said, "Whatever made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it
a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said,<|quote|>"I was almost asleep."</|quote|>"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new
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"Very tired?"
Tony Last
said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left
the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've
Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned
had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great
backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in,
sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him
made you speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up
if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep."<|quote|>"Very tired?"</|quote|>"Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want
A Handful Of Dust
"Mm."
Brenda
was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"
"Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just
said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out
water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies
and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling,
can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at
speak to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between
don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?"<|quote|>"Mm."</|quote|>"Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them
A Handful Of Dust
"Want to be left alone?"
Tony Last
almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just
Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that
She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back
in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather.
Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only
you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I
to your dad like that for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she
think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm."<|quote|>"Want to be left alone?"</|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."
A Handful Of Dust
"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."
Brenda
"Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night."
almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do
dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I
were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to
sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none
"Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink
for? You've been going on about seeing the kennels since Christmas." "Not with _him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends
with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?"<|quote|>"So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."</|quote|>"I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony,
A Handful Of Dust
"I see... well, good night."
Tony Last
of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do
I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed
with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank
Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our
conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still
le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make
_him_," said John. "You ungrateful little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been
to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's."<|quote|>"I see... well, good night."</|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black
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"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."
Brenda
"I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed
of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay
for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up
darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John
had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the
he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that
little bastard, that's a lousy way to speak of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * *
their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night."<|quote|>"Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."</|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's
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He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *
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mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I
good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank
quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We
square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the
of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it,
say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de
of your dad." "And you ought not to say bastard or lousy in front of me, nanny says not." So Tony went over alone to Little Bayton, where he had some business to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London
must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired."<|quote|>He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *</|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in
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"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"
The Vicar
* * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you
went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather
of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her
pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some
That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds
again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with
to discuss with Colonel Brink. He hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her
"But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * *<|quote|>"Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"</|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of
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"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."
Tony Last
Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great
* * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I
see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."
the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the
the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about
the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought
hoped they would ask him to stay on, but the Colonel and his wife were themselves going out to tea, so he drove back in the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she
"Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?"<|quote|>"No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."</|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x
A Handful Of Dust
"And how are the great studies progressing?"
The Vicar
likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She
know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."
closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."
was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it
dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth
always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite
the dusk to Hetton. A thin mist lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her
covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly."<|quote|>"And how are the great studies progressing?"</|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm
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"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."
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are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be
take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to
light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way
to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what
an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems
without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They
lay breast-high over the park; the turrets and battlements of the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff
Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?"<|quote|>"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."</|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also
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"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"
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seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well,
"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest
* * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were
a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he
laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what
everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've
the abbey stood grey and flat; the boiler man was hauling down the flag on the main tower. * * * * * "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the
and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still."<|quote|>"Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"</|quote|>"Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her
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you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my
economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed.
you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a
to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all
light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you
can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy
* "My poor Brenda, it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was
her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?"<|quote|>"Yes, we do rather."</|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a
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her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you
daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the
week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the
kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time
she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all
how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down
it's an appalling room," said Mrs Beaver. "It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy
you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather."<|quote|>"Well, please give her my kindest regards."</|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these
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"I will indeed. Thank you so much."
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give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch
we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way
"And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it
closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do
the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica,
this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming
"It's not one we use a great deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men
said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards."<|quote|>"I will indeed. Thank you so much."</|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly.
A Handful Of Dust
Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.
No speaker
indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't
my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had
"Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying
light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to
was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring
know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not
deal," said Tony very coldly. "I should think not," said the one they called Veronica. "I can't see much wrong with it," said Polly, "except it's a bit mouldy." "You see," Brenda explained, not looking at Tony. "What I thought was that I must have _one_ habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid
and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much."<|quote|>Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.</|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh,
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"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."
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on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little
burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the
Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather
the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach
"Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It
backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep
habitable room downstairs. At present there's only the smoking-room and the library. The drawing-room is vast and quite out of the question. I thought what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid it's been restored a great deal," said Tony. "Ah, but its _atmosphere_. I always think that's what counts in a house. Such dignity, and
sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered.<|quote|>"Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."</|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her
A Handful Of Dust
They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,
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and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying
coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get
carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head
solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been
good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl."
women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with
what I needed was a small sitting-room more or less to myself. Don't you think it has possibilities?" "But, my angel, the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid it's been restored a great deal," said Tony. "Ah, but its _atmosphere_. I always think that's what counts in a house. Such dignity, and repose. But of course you're used to it. When you've been very unhappy as I have, you appreciate these things." Tony
of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won."<|quote|>They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,</|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * *
A Handful Of Dust
"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."
Mrs. Beaver
except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my
he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well,
on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now
kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked
still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he
thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny
the _shape's_ all wrong," said Daisy, "and that chimney-piece--what is it made of, pink granite, and all the plaster work and the dado. _Everything's_ horrible. It's so _dark_." "I know exactly what Brenda wants," said Mrs Beaver more moderately. "I don't think it will be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid it's been restored a great deal," said Tony. "Ah, but its _atmosphere_. I always think that's what counts in a house. Such dignity, and repose. But of course you're used to it. When you've been very unhappy as I have, you appreciate these things." Tony said, "I'm afraid Brenda hasn't arrived yet. She's coming by car with Lady Cockpurse." "Brenda's been _such_ a friend to me." The Princess took off her furs and sat down on the stool before the fire, looking up at Tony. "D'you mind if I
Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said,<|quote|>"Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."</|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already
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"You must talk to my head man about it."
Tony Last
and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the
like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while
all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these
a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's
the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she
Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain,"
be impossible. I must think about it. As Veronica says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid it's been restored a great deal," said Tony. "Ah, but its _atmosphere_. I always think that's what counts in a house. Such dignity, and repose. But of course you're used to it. When you've been very unhappy as I have, you appreciate these things." Tony said, "I'm afraid Brenda hasn't arrived yet. She's coming by car with Lady Cockpurse." "Brenda's been _such_ a friend to me." The Princess took off her furs and sat down on the stool before the fire, looking up at Tony. "D'you mind if I take off my hat?" "No, no... of course." She
laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people."<|quote|>"You must talk to my head man about it."</|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand." They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but
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"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."
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my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as
people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time
are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of
rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing
how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem
door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy
says, the structure does rather limit one... you know, I think the only thing to do would be to disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid it's been restored a great deal," said Tony. "Ah, but its _atmosphere_. I always think that's what counts in a house. Such dignity, and repose. But of course you're used to it. When you've been very unhappy as I have, you appreciate these things." Tony said, "I'm afraid Brenda hasn't arrived yet. She's coming by car with Lady Cockpurse." "Brenda's been _such_ a friend to me." The Princess took off her furs and sat down on the stool before the fire, looking up at Tony. "D'you mind if I take off my hat?" "No, no... of course." She threw it on to the sofa and shook out her hair, which was dead black and curled. "D'you know,
quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it."<|quote|>"Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."</|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said, "Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't
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They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,
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He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now
while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've
you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old
be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that
all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up
and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is
disregard it altogether and find some treatment so definite that it _carried_ the room, if you see what I mean... supposing we covered the walls with white chromium plating and had natural sheepskin carpet... I wonder if that would be running you in for more than you meant to spend?" "I'd blow the whole thing sky-high," said Veronica. Tony left them to their discussion. * * * * * "D'you really want Mrs Beaver to do up the morning-room?" "Not if you don't, sweet." "But can you imagine it--white chromium plating?" "Oh, that was just an idea." Tony walked in and out between Morgan le Fay and Guinevere as he always did while they were dressing. "I say," he said, returning with his waistcoat. "You aren't going away to-morrow too, are you?" "Must." He went back to Morgan le Fay for his tie and bringing it to Brenda's room again, sat by her side at the dressing table to fasten it. "By the way," said Brenda, "what did you think about keeping on Grimshawe?--it seems rather a waste." "You used always to say you couldn't get on without her." "Yes, but now I'm living at the flat everything's so simple." "_Living?_ Darling, you talk as though you had settled there for good." "D'you mind moving a second, sweet? I can't see properly." "Brenda, how long are you going on with this course of economics?" "Me? I don't know." "But you must have some idea?" "Oh, it's surprising what a lot there is to learn... I was so backward when I started..." "Brenda..." "Now run and put on your coat. They'll all be downstairs waiting for us." That evening Polly and Mrs Beaver played backgammon. Brenda and Veronica sat together on the sofa sewing and talking about their needlework; occasionally there were bursts of general conversation between the women; they had the habit of lapsing into a jargon of their own which Tony did not understand; it was a thieves' slang, by which the syllables of each word were transposed. Tony sat just outside the circle reading under another lamp. That night when they went upstairs, the guests came to sit in Brenda's room and talk to her while she went to bed. Tony could hear their low laughter through the dressing-room door. They had boiled water in an electric kettle and were drinking Sedobrol together. Presently, still laughing, they left, and Tony went into Brenda's room. It was in darkness but hearing him come and seeing the square of light in the doorway she turned on the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin. No, Djin--how?--has rheumatism and Marjorie is v. put out about it. She thinks his pelvis is out of place and Cruttwell won't do him which is pretty mean considering all the people she has brought there. "Are you _certain_ Jenny will be Tony's tea?" "You can't ever be certain," said Polly. "She bores my pants off, but she's a good trier." * * * * * "Is mummy coming down to-day, daddy?" "Yes." "Who else?" "Someone called Jenny Abdul Akbar." "What a silly name. Is she foreign?" "I don't know." "Sounds foreign, doesn't she, daddy? D'you think she won't be able to talk any English? Is she black?" "Mummy says not." "Oh... who else?" "Lady Cockpurse." "The monkey-woman. You know she wasn't a bit like a monkey except perhaps her face and I don't think she had a tail because I looked as close as anything... unless perhaps she has it rolled up between her legs. D'you think she has, daddy?" "I shouldn't be surprised." "_Very_ uncomfortable." Tony and John were friends again; but it had been a leaden week. * * * * * It was part of Polly Cockpurse's plan to arrive late at Hetton. "Give the girl a chance to get down to it," she said. So she and Brenda did not leave London until Jenny was already on her way from the station. It was a day of bitter cold and occasional rain. The resolute little figure huddled herself in the rugs until she reached the gates. Then she opened her bag, tucked up her veil, shook out her powder puff and put her face to rights. She licked the rouge from her finger with a sharp red tongue. Tony was in the smoking-room when she was announced; the library was now too noisy during the daytime, for there were men at work on the walls of the morning-room next door, tearing down the plaster tracery. "Princess Abdul Akbar." He rose to greet her. She was preceded by a heavy odour of musk. "Oh, Mr Last," she said, "what a sweet old place this is." "I'm afraid it's been restored a great deal," said Tony. "Ah, but its _atmosphere_. I always think that's what counts in a house. Such dignity, and repose. But of course you're used to it. When you've been very unhappy as I have, you appreciate these things." Tony said, "I'm afraid Brenda hasn't arrived yet. She's coming by car with Lady Cockpurse." "Brenda's been _such_ a friend to me." The Princess took off her furs and sat down on the stool before the fire, looking up at Tony. "D'you mind if I take off my hat?" "No, no... of course." She threw it on to the sofa and shook out her hair, which was dead black and curled. "D'you know, Mr Last, I'm going to call you Teddy right away. You don't think that very fresh of
the little lamp by the bedside. "Why, Tony," she said. She was lying on the dais with her head deep back in the pillow; her face was shining with the grease she used for cleaning it; one bare arm on the quilted eiderdown, left there from turning the switch. "Why, Tony," she said, "I was almost asleep." "Very tired?" "Mm." "Want to be left alone?" "So tired... and I've just drunk a lot of that stuff of Polly's." "I see... well, good night." "Good night... don't mind, do you?... so tired." He crossed to the bed and kissed her; she lay quite still, with closed eyes. Then he turned out the light and went back to the dressing-room. * * * * * "Lady Brenda not ill, I hope?" "No, nothing serious, thank you very much. She gets rather done up in London, you know, during the week, and likes to take Sunday quietly." "And how are the great studies progressing?" "Very well, I gather. She seems keen on it still." "Splendid. We shall all be coming to her soon to solve our economic problems. But I daresay you and John miss her?" "Yes, we do rather." "Well, please give her my kindest regards." "I will indeed. Thank you so much." Tony left the church porch and made his accustomed way to the hothouses; a gardenia for himself; some almost black carnations for the ladies. When he reached the room where they were sitting there was a burst of laughter. He paused on the threshold, rather bewildered. "Come in, darling, it isn't anything. It's only we had a bet on what coloured buttonhole you'd be wearing and none of us won." They still giggled a little as they pinned on the flowers he had brought them; all except Mrs Beaver, who said, "Any time you are buying cuttings or seeds do get them through me. I've made quite a little business of it, perhaps you didn't know... all kinds of rather unusual flowers. I do everything like that for Sylvia Newport and all sorts of people." "You must talk to my head man about it." "Well, to tell you the truth I _have_--this morning while you were in church. He seems quite to understand."<|quote|>They left early, so as to reach London in time for dinner. In the car Daisy said,</|quote|>"Golly, what a house." "Now you can see what I've been through all these years." "My poor Brenda," said Veronica, unpinning her carnation and throwing it from the window into the side of the road. "You know," Brenda confided next day, "I'm not _absolutely_ happy about Tony." "What's the old boy been up to?" asked Polly. "Nothing much yet, but I do see it's pretty boring for him at Hetton all this time." "I shouldn't worry." "Oh, I'm not _worrying_. It's only, supposing he took to drink or something. It would make everything very difficult." "I shouldn't have said that was his thing... We must get him interested in a girl." "If only we could... Who is there?" "There's always old Sybil." "Darling, he's known her all his life." "Or Souki de Foucauld-Esterhazy." "He isn't his best with Americans." "Well, we'll find him someone." "The trouble is that I've become such a habit with him--he won't take easily to a new one... ought she to be like me, or quite different?" "I'd say different, but it's hard to tell." They discussed this problem in all its aspects. [III] Brenda wrote: Darling Tony, Sorry not to have written or rung up but I've had such a busy time with bimetallism. V. complicated. Coming down Saturday with Polly again. Good her coming twice--Lyonesse can't be as beastly as most of the rooms, can it. Also charming girl I have taken up with who I want us to be kind to. She's had a _terrible_ life and she lives in one of these flats, called Jenny Abdul Akbar. Not black but married one. Get her to tell you. She'll come by train 3.18 I expect. Must stop now and go to lecture. Keep away from the Demon Rum. x x x x x x Brenda. Saw Jock last night at Caf? de Paris with shameless blonde. Who? Gin.
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